#i thrive on messy toxic relationships actually

[runawaymun]

Excuse me, miss

Would you please elaborate?

oh don't worry about it I'm just clinically insane actually

I know silvergifting is huge (and it has very much grown on me) but I think about the whole "Annatar went to Gil-Galad first and Gil-Galad and Elrond said hi your vibes are RANCID. Leave." basically daily. Like Tolkien says that and then never elaborates. How long was he there for? Was it like an instant thing (I have that in Tinuvion), or was he there for a while trying to wheedle his way into court? There is just so much potential for some interesting interactions here, which I am planning on exploring quite soon.

In any case what makes me insane about them is:

If we apply the transitive property to Arwen = Luthien and Arwen = Elrond then Elrond = Luthien in terms of looks. He is also Luthien born again. Which would freak Sauron the fuck out.

Okay but is he freaked out or turned on or fascinated? Part of me wonders if he would know whether or not he wants to fuck Elrond or kill him. There's a score to be settled here, he's just figuring out how he wants to go about it.

Something something Elrond could be king if he wanted to but he is intentionally subordinate to Gil Galad. Something something Mairon-Aule something something the temptation of Mairon. Something something "but you could be so much MORE. So much BETTER than him. Don't you want that? I could teach you so many things." something something mairon-morgoth parallels. (a theme which I very much like to continue with Silvergifting)

Does Elrond know this is a maia he's talking to or does he just know that he feels familiar? That something about him doesn't quite fit into this world in the same way that Elrond doesn't quite fit? Does he recognize part of himself in Annatar and wonder why? Is it something he hasn't felt since Elros left the world?

Does Annatar not realize at first who Elrond is, or not realize that the line of Melian and Luthien has diluted so little over the years? Is he taken aback by that spark of divinity and does some part of him want to refine it like gold in a furnace? To make something out of him? To turn Elrond into one of his greatest creations? To, perhaps, wake him up the way Morgoth woke him?

To perhaps feel less alone in this post-Morgoth world where he is cut off from all the others of his own species and can NEVER go back? To feel that connection to his own kind again? Does some part of him wish for Elrond to somehow be his redemption?

Ah, but the score to be settled with Luthien. No, no, what on earth is he saying? Let's come back to focus. He wants to break him.

There is just soooooo much potential. I am rubbing my evil little writer hands together about them. I want to put them in a centrifuge and watch it go brrrr

[fictionalmenmakemecry]

Never getting over you

Characters: Carmy Berzatto x Reader

Summary: After a toxic split, you and Carmy had both moved on but a night of endless scrolling on social media brought back all the fever feelings you had for one Carmen Berzatto. You just want to check in on him.. That's all.

Warnings: None

Your eyes continuously moved as you mindlessly scrolled through your feed. People that you haven't spoken to in years, popping up, showing their recent adventures to another country or pregnancy announcements.

You could feel your inner envy growing seeing everyone hitting different milestones in their life. The struggle of trying to keep yourself level as you continued to scroll grew harder and harder.

Your eyes landed on one image. Everything stopped. Your twitching finger, fatigue eyes and even your breathing.

Your eyes never left his face. His soft smile that never conveyed how truly happy he was. Your started taking in other details of the photo. You finally realize what he was standing in front of.

The Bear

You finally let out you shake breath and started reading the words above the photo.

"Congratulation to my baby brother finally biting the bullet and going for it! Mikey would be so proud"

Even though it been a year since the split, you still had remained friends with Sugar. So, seeing this on your feed shouldn't shock you. But it did.

Memories flooded your mind of him talking about it. You would watch him as his mind tick along with so many ideas he had about The Bear.

You noticed that they went with the signage that you first proposed and you felt your heartache.

Sitting forward on the couch, leaning over his shoulder as he sat on the floor below you. His eyes scrutinized the font designs on your phone.

"Not bad.. I could see it" He murmured continuing to look at it.

A small smile crept up on your face. This was first of many things that you had showed him and that he actually liked.

Carmy was hard to impress, especially when he knew exactly what he wanted. Nothing could stray from his vision and The Bear was very much apart of that.

After all this, he had stuck with your idea. Even after the toxic and messy split you both went through. You didn't know where his head was today. With the The Bear up and running, probably full and unhealthily obsessed with it. The very point that broke you up.

You locked your phone and tried to convinced yourself that you didn't need to see it. You didn't need to visit it. You didn't want to accidently run into him. Or realize the past 9 month he has had a vice grip on your heart, making any date or protentional romantic interest pointless when nothing filled the hole he left.

The idea of him thriving without you, made you nauseous and left you in the dust of your own life. Which what scared you when you were with him and now you were feeling it anyway without him.

Before you knew it, you were across the street from it.

You stood still, taking in the warm hue of lights getting cast onto the street from the bustling inside. The narrow window gave you a hint of what was going on inside the kitchen.

But you couldn't see him.

You envisioned yourself going in and taking the empty table next to the window. Maybe even talking to Richie and congratulating him and then Carmy would....

You broke away from that train of thought when you realize how ridiculous it sounded. Carmy wouldn't do anything. He wouldn't give a shit. The way you were both wounded from the relationship probably have him running for the hills.

Your eyes caught someone coming out of the dark alley. A silhouette of a person with a head of hair that you knew too well. As they walked out further, the street light gradually bringing detailed to their figure.

You saw the end of their cigarette burn bright.

Both just stood there, looking at each other.

"Carmy?" You called out gently

Silence enveloped the street. His stare never leaving you.

"Yeah?" He replied flicking the end of his cigarette.

Apart of you wanted to just run across the street and see how he was doing. Ask him a million questions but your feet stood still and mouth stayed closed

"Cousin!" Another figure came out of the alley, Richie your presumed

"What?" Carmy tore his eyes from you.

Richie pulled him back inside, not noticing you on the other side of the street.

You felt your face turn red feeling like an idiot.

What were you doing?

You got caught. But that's what you wanted to happen. You wanted him to know that he was still on your mind. That nothing could shake the memories you had of him.

Every decision you made around Carmy was always the wrong one. it was a road that you knew too well and now it was starting again. After months and months of convincing yourself you don't need him. Your willpower unraveled just being around him.

You walked home feeling more lost than you have in months.

[josukegappyhigashikata]

Not every character is meant to be likeable: Jake Disventure Camp.

So, as of late I've been seeing people dislike and be annoyed at Jake and like... yeah! He is meant to be exasperating but I don't think that's bad writing at all.

Meanwhile I would absolutely never call Disventure Camp a perfectly written show I will say that it has had very good character writing with having delivered some high notes on both of the previous seasons so now I wanna talk about Jake's writing in All-Stars.

First of all, Jake's writing? Very consistent. Jake's title was the naive one and yeah he is naive. He is paranoid as hell, he is gullible as sin, he is easily tricked by others, he is so easily manipulable to the point of characters pointing that out and all of those traits have been consistent with Jake through his seasons. The newest trait found was Jake's jealousy over Aiden but that jealousy was born over his paranoia and naivety which are both part of his established traits.

Also, something to be mentioned is that just like Ellie, James and Riya he has a context and background for those tough edges. We know that Jake's family life is not the best both from the show and from extra material, we also know that he was in a toxic relationship that he later got cheated on which was the breaking point of the relationship. Living with a family that you feel that you're always waiting for a mess to happen, which is implied his parents don't accept his homosexuality, would have easily made someone paranoid which now with a toxic relationship and one of the actual worst things happened to him? Jake is always waiting for something bad to happen and when that bad thing happens he thrives in his own victimization. Meanwhile this was seen in his season this has been more focused on the latest season and not only that but it has been less sympathetic towards him how easily he falls into those spirals of negativity.

Jake has had a lot of focus on All-Stars but also he is one of the characters that has his arc not be resolved at all, just like how Alec, Aiden and Gabby didn't have their arcs finished on their seasons by having other characters take priority over them. Now it seems they're taking their time to finish almost all the arcs they didn't give a proper conclusion to.

Now, I will say that I don't adore how he is a grown ass man being coddled by women which now Ashley was used for his development even though I know a character like Ashley wasn't made like Grett or Jake where they really thought of making them deep characters. It's still no excuse to have a female character that had already not had a lot of time to shine just be a stepping stone for a male character but it has a reason for it even if I dislike it.

Is Jake a dislikeable character? For some people? Yeah, he is very much dislikeable but also the traits he is disliked for are things that are written to be traits you see as negative. You're not meant to say: "Oh, yeah. It's fine that Jake is a stupid dumbass that gets clouded by his feelings at any moment." because it's obvious that his arc is overcoming those flaws in his character.

You might find Jake dislikeable and that's alright but I don't think that's bad writing, it's also not wrong if you like him since not only is he an entertaining character in his own messiness (which is that messiness why I find him an entertaining character) but he is a sympathetic character with what we know of him.

You're not meant to like every character, sometimes characters start dislikeable and you're meant to see them grow out of their flaws which after the tenth episode of All-Stars it seems that's where Jake is going.

Ever so often you have to take a step back and ask yourself: "What are the creators trying to convey with this story? Is it me not liking certain traits of a character an intended outcome?"

[flicklikesstuff]

-The Vees-

They give me the vibe of ‘friends with benefits.’

3 people who are so equally toxic that they can’t out-toxic the other 2 and the result is just a completely messy relationship in a toxic work environment that all 3 are somehow thriving and just living/sharing the dream with.

Like, they canonically would do sht on each other all the time but also…they do actually care a lot but would rather die twice than openly/directly admit it. Something like:

“Look, if you died and got killed by some fcker, I definitely won’t really give a sht. But before you die, leave a notification or clue on whoever did it just so I could pay them a visit.”

Yeah, Idk what I’m rambling about- 🤷

[crispy-art-on-fire]

My autism is thriving I shall now talk about my blorbo ship with almost nothing to even be the groundwork. I may have projected my love of guilty lovestruck men at William but it is my interpretation and so I can make it as indulgent as I want.

So basically toxic yaoi. Sean Hampton would rather die than talk about his feelings and his savior complex is not helping things despite being the groundwork this relationship is based on. William similarly is Not Talking About It but mostly for self loathing reasons. Being gay and Christian in 1918 he's just dealing with it by pining and hating that he's pining.

Hypothetically they could enter a relationship as humans but it would be such a situationship were they do not talk about it and only Will opens up while Sean acts like a caretaker. It's mostly built on bad and impulsive decisions to just act on their desires and then regret it but now with pandora's box open they don't know how to stop doing it.

I actually can imagine Skal!William/Human!Sean where William resists temptation to take what he wants long enough for Sean to get away but all in all this is Sean's savior complex at its most self damaging. Also does not help his crush (that he will refuse to acknowledge as a crush) is being very physical and touchy. I also propose that with how William like tries to resist alcohol he's been subconsciously trying to replace his addiction to alcohol with Sean. Which makes his wires super crossed as an out of control Skal.

I did not include Feral Skal!William/Skal!Sean because basically it's just William from prev part + Sean from this part indulging in their Skal desires which is Wanting to drink blood/Being God's chosen one. Aka them being their worst selves together in mutual destruction.

Given enough time in any of these stages they could probably learn how to Be In A Relationship but at the start they're going to be MESSY.

[9800sblog]

hello !! could you do soul from p1harmony ideal type? thank you :)

soul tarot reading

ideal type characteristics

in general

8 of wands, the devil reversed, 4 of wands

people see them more innocently than they actually are, this is someone with lots going on in their life, but you may only see what they post, for example, and think "that's all, sweet". they have a stable home life, in general, a loving family, many friends of all walks of life. they don't have a lot of prejudice, but theyre still very judgemental, it's like they're equally bitchy to everyone lmao they move fast and steady, they're very easily recognizable but equally confusing.

personality

10 of cups, judgement reversed, the world, 5 of wands reversed

unbothered, on their lane, thriving, happy whatever. they're curious and like to live their life to what they deem is the fullest, the type of person to wake up and go on a road trip to another country unplanned. they don't listen to criticism, as they genuinely don't care, no matter where they go, they're ready to create something good out of it, no matter who it is, they're ready to create a nice relationship out of it. often misunderstood, often not seen to the fullest, people stop at the first sign of controversy, missing everything else. they have a lot of patience to wait for what's meant for them. their entire life looks like a mess, if you want to, it's very organized and clean, actually, this is someone who is very easily liked.

appearance/style

10 of swords reversed, king of pentacles

they look like they work out a lot. their appearance tells a lot of history, their genetics may be very strong, and they may have prominent scars, maybe stretch marks, etc. they may have a body type similar to a soldier, I'm not getting much else, they may change their appearance a lot depending on the situation they're inserted in.

the devil reversed, 3 of cups reversed

messy girl aesthetic!! serena van der woodsen, ke$ha, etc. party people, devious looking, may not be acceptable everywhere, probably why they have to change their appearance often. they do dress and behave in a specific way to get a reaction out of people, may be often misconstrued as "I dress for myself only", but they're aware they live in a society and people will have opinions, and they know how to navigate it. does not mean they dress for people to like them, necessarily, it's like a test. they may really like the cheerleader aesthetic. movies like bring it on, the clique, wild child.

[delistravaganza]

I swear I relate to everything you have written about the enemies to lovers trope and lesbians.

it’s not even about lesbian representation, at least in fandom, of course that’s important but it’s not the point here, it’s about having wlw stories that are as...complex? Messed up? Intricated? as straight or even (in more recent years) mlm romantic storylines are allowed to be. I feel like I am constantly hungry of complicate stories with lesbian or bisexuals female characters involved in messy relationship. But almost every popolar ship that I meet on fandom or tv shows either is watered down, made all soft and sweet and not threatening and so not complicate enough to be appealing. (or in the fews that are not like that in the original media they get made in this way by the fandom- it’s so unnerving). it seems to me that’s it is either “tragic dead lesbian” or “soft sapphic story all is sweet uwu”. As someone who love stories with romance only when the romance is very complicated and not necessarily healthy and full of ambivalent feelings (don’t judge me as you said it’s just a matter of preference ashahaha) I sometimes read slash (mlm) fanfiction on ao3 that feature very complicate and not necessarily healthy dynamics and I go damn I wish that there was a fanfiction exactly like this but with two women instead of two men.

I get this 1000%. To be fair, I don't think it's just the wlw couples being UwUified in recent films and shows, this happens to all queer representation because of the pressure to create "good rep". To some extent, it's even happening with straight pairings because people are more aware now of sexism and what it really means to consent, though everyone still seems to be willing to let this knowledge fly off if teh guy iz HOT.

But there seems to be a particular issue with writing f/f interactions that are manipulative, dark or somehow more adult, not necessarily meaning sex but rather a more nuanced portrayal of the relationship. Whereas all the straight toxic romances went to specific (and thriving) genres such as "dark romance" (which at least seems to be more self-conscious as the Reylo fic I mentioned before), and we get glorious epics of m/m fanfiction stories (and books that feel like fanfiction), it sometimes seems like the women characters are treated as little girls.

Even in a dark, creepy, cannibalistic, adult-oriented show such as Yellowjackets, I found myself more interested in the hypothetical Jackie/Shauna pairing because oh boy that was complex! than in the actual lesbian pairings involving Tai, who is a great and somewhat nuanced character except when it comes to her (sanitized) relationships. Is it really just me favoring problematic and unhealthy dynamics or is there some truth to this? (It may be me.) Is Tai a bit tamed down because she's gay AND black?

Also, to be completely fair, I think that I have more expectations when it comes to wlw plots, maybe because I subconsciously think of them as more "me" than the others. I've read a lot about how women use slash to slip away from the narrative and write more freely, and the fact is - I've read a lot of trash when it comes to m/m. And I definitely don't remember it with the resentment I save for f/f media like First Kill ("you fucking set out to be everything I wanted and turned out to be a pile of dog shit!").

I have also read extremely interesting books featuring f/f dynamics on the latest years, which I could post here instead of whining à la Louis de Pointe du Lac, but the fact is that these books already set out to be a work of literary merit and weren't written to dwell on the romance or possible romance itself. I'm not even counting MBF here as I read it a while back for the first time, but it could be an example - I don't know, but it definitely wasn't written with UwUification in mind. I'm still thrilled at how much the marketing DID and DOES UwUify our girls and their relationship. Sometimes the marketing is like: Wouldn't you just love to have such a special friendship like these two? Uhhh what? No, thank you, I had my share of that shit?!?

Oh, and also - I'm not even sure it comes down to self-identification either. I said I identify with Catradora, but the fact is I don't necessarily identify with either Catra or Adora. I just identified with their feelings, and I felt empathy for them, and I worried and I suffered and I felt frustrated and I so, so, so hungered and feared for their fights and God, you should really check this one out because it's really on the edge between UwU and dark, and I think it's this mixture what made it work in today's world. It seemed to appeal to both parts of me - the one who lowkey wants the positive, young-and-healthy-oriented rep she didn't have as a teen, and the more prevalent one who prefers angst and twisted things. And yes, it's a cartoon. A cartoon did what many real, adult-oriented shows and books couldn't do with me.

But Catradora probably also worked because we, the audience, were purposefully kept in the dark about them, so we got to experience their story as it developed and without any clear expectation as what the end would be (compared to: here's your wlw romance of the day! Ship them! Hope they don't die!), something I'm sure you wouldn't be able to achieve now that all the info is out there.

Anyway, I'm rambling now and already taking too much time off work. But I find this topic fascinating. If anyone else wants to join in the conversation or point me somewhere that isn't Buffy/Faith or Catradora or Villanelle or Nicky/Lorna (YES I STILL SHIP THEM AND WILL ALWAYS DO) or our Neapolitan toxic friends, please do. And as always, nice talking to you. <3

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P.D.: Here's a long video analysis that I really liked that tackles why "good" LGBT representation is boring (not wlw representation exclusively).

[jemmo]

wow im like… actually surprised by this first episode of dangerous romance. the trailer left me with the impression that this was gonna be some overdramatic, exaggerated rich boy and poor boy love story that’s just cliche and over the top and like… it might turn out to be like that… but even if it does, i wont be mad bc they’re like actually pulling it off. the vibe of it all, the quieter, more somber atmosphere, the cool tone to the colouring, the performances man the PERFORMAMCES!!! (i shouldn’t be shocked, it’s perth and chimon), but it all comes together to make a show that should feel so excessively dramatic in that trope-ey way actually feel grounded. i love that kang is actually a piece of shit!!! and that i can see it’s clearly bc he wants attention from his dad and wants to find purpose outside of this materialistic, rich boy lifestyle, but that doesn’t change the fact he’s actually a piece of shit!! and that sailom is not a poor boy trope, he has a lot of strength and courage and won’t take shit but also won’t rise to anything, that he’s smart and he uses it against people, and im crossing my fingers that his character remains strong and he isn’t just reduced to the poor boy with a golden heart equivalent to a manic pixie dream girl that just serves to awaken the good guy within kang, but with the way they’ve pulled off this first ep, i remain kinda hopeful that they’re doing something more interesting than that. i mean, just the fact that kang’s father isn’t pushing him to be smart and do everything and become important and rich like all the other rich boy stereotypes makes me think this show might look at things from a different angle. and as for the romance… i just hope it is messy. I mean, between this and only friends, something tells me this bl season is gonna be all about toxic, messed up relationships that thrive in the grey area and that’s so my shit, and im excited by it. let’s just hope gmm have wisened up enough to handle these things.

[buttacake80]

adding in my 2 sense with the samantha situation bc i feel like everyone here talking about it has never been in a toxic codependant relationship. she's that typical white spoiled mean girl who has her public famous bf and her secret hookups. he's stupid and easily manipulated. how long do you see them lasting? and can we get your opinion? like i feel like you know how adult relationships work.

It's hard to say.

First, the divorce rate for first-time marriages in the US is 43%. That number changes based upon race & age. There's a higher divorce rate for 2nd and 3rd marriages.

Amongst athletes, that number jumps to 60% to 80%.

I suspect infidelity is one of the main reasons. I think some couples thrive when the husband is gone 6-8 months of the year, but once they are home on a permanent basis, they realize they aren't compatible. In other cases, I think there are pure financial reasons at play. I am even positive there are some spouses who left athletes in order to pursue their own career aspirations.

Regardless, that number is a lot higher than the average American household.

I don't know what the specific divorce rate is within the NHL. But, the league seems to be a lot more conservative when compared to the NFL, WNBA, NWSL, and NBA. I'd say MLB is only more conservative than the NHL. I am unsure about MLS.

Owners don't like messy players with messy personal lives. That's true across every pro league, but the NHL seems irrationally intolerant to individuality. And, it's likely to be a younger player who tests the boundaries of individuality.

I reckon a young immature millionaire whose frontal lobe hasn't fully formed (i.e. Matthews & the Scottsdale incident) is a threat to league conformity. Not simply a liability.

So, I bet there are folks in management advising these young players to seek stability in the form of a relationship. "Everything about your life is chaotic, so why don't you find a sweet girl to come home to?"

[Hell. Specifically within hockey, I suspect that there is a wee superstitious few who view getting married (or remaining unmarried) as necessary to winning the Cup.]

I don't think it's a requirement. Just a general expectation that they have a main girl who is suitable enough to attend team functions. Who won't air their business out when things go left. And who won't make a fuss if her beau sees another girl or two on the road. It's about maintaining appearances.

The average age for first-time marriage is between 28-30. So, there are young athletess who are legitimately in love and who think they have found their life partner (it's just unlikely that it is the case).

Furthermore, there are probably some players who really, really want children, so they settle for a woman who understands what she is getting into. It's a marriage of convenience. He gets kids. She gets his money. It works until it doesn't.

📣It only becomes an issue for me when innocent folks get tangled up in these understandings.📣

From the outside, it may seem like their relationship doesn't work. To us. But we aren't privy to the inner concessions they have made to exist in such a public relationship. As long as both parties have agreed that their relationship is open or has some other fluid aspect to it, then it's not my concern.

And, because folks do cheat, it's hard to know if one is in an actual open relationship or if they are operating on their own agenda.

Which is why I advised that other anon not to shit where she eats. It would suck to get caught up with the athlete in your building, only to find out you misunderstood the status of your relationship. Then you're stuck in your lease, trying to avoid the asshole who might pop up with another girl.

[danpuff-ao3]

jegulus

Hello there Anon! Thanks this is a fun one! I do ship it!

1.) What made you ship it?

A fic, I'm sure. Or maybe other people raving about it on Discord. Actually, it was probably people raving about Jegulus, me checking out a fic and being like "wait wow yeah I dig this." I just never thought about it before and then when I did I was "meh" about it but...Well. Here we are!

I'm pretty sure it was The Heart of a Lion that sold me.

2.) What are your favorite things about the ship?

THE ANGST AND DRAMA.

Between the "best friend's brother" issue on top of "Black family issues" and y'know...the war. I love it. I thrive on it.

Like first I gotta think of Sirius and Regulus' relationship, and how troubled it is. Sirius broke away from his family. So his own judgment and disdain for his own family. Regulus feeling betrayed and hurt, because his big brother abandoned him. And his own disdain since their values are now unaligned. And whatever bitterness he might have felt for Sirius being "the heir" and now "the rebel." And his own sense of family loyalty. It's just complicated and messy, y'know?

So I love the idea of Regulus being a bit jealous of the Marauders, since Sirius chose them. They're also in opposing houses, with that good ole Gryffindor-Slytherin rivalry. They were also Quidditch players, so an added layer of competition there. Then the fact that James went on to join the Order, and Regulus became a Death Eater. And Regulus being from a blood purist family, and James being a blood traitor.

So they're sort of starcrossed lovers. Probably starts off with at least mild rivalry, or even just annoyance/dislike. For James, Regulus isn't just Sirius' brother, he's Sirius' brother that Sirius doesn't like, or at least has a complicated relationship with. Whatever issues there are with hooking up with your best friend's brother, this makes it even worse, doesn't it?

Then for Regulus, there's jealousy, both for James "stealing" Sirius, but also James' longtime obsession with Lily. Even if that obsession fades, or even dies, when James and Regulus hookup. And the inevitable downfall of their romance during the war.

Though I like to imagine a world where they both survive...Lily and James divorce, James and Regulus reunite, and a cute little coparenting situation with Harry. 🥰

3.) Is there an unpopular opinion you have on your ship?

Like with Snarry, probably my specific preferences are unpopular. All the "wrongness" and drama of it all. Really leaning into all the angst and dysfunction. My preference for showcasing character flaws, and my love of unhealthy/toxic dynamics.

ship asks

answered: Dramione, Snarry, Jegulus

[zehecatl]

2024 media thread PART SEPTEMBER

13th September: Transformers Earthspark s1

god damn, this really is just an overall banger- both as a Transformers show, and as a show on its own merits. surprisingly well-written, really well animated and choreographed (dude, some of these fight scenes, holy shit), with engaging characters and a really solid plot. like, this is a good show

it's not without any flaws, but out of the 26 episodes, there's only two episodes where i had annoyances- and even then, i wouldn't call a single episode bad. the way they kind of compare Transformers to immigrants is, like. a choice. but it's pretty easy to overlook, especially since it barely shows up, and i don't think the ground idea is inherently bad. also, as a Transformers fan, i would like to see more of the pre-existing 'bots! i do love the Terrans, like genuinely so, but also. my babies. show them to me

i really love the theme of family, and also how the show handles the Cybertronian war, and the after-effects of said war- it pretty much feels like every pre-existing 'bot has trauma, and it doesn't feel accidental. hell, it's even outright addressed at times, and while it's still very much coming from a children's show, it's pretty well-written, and i really hope s2 gets around to touching on it even more

also, also, the way this show handles the Autobot-Decepticon relationship is so interesting, and a lot of fun. there's the obvious case of Megatron himself going 'good', and the fallout he has with numerous of the Decepticons (his divorce energy with Soundwave and Shockwave is off the charts), but there's also smaller moments, like Bumblebee knowing Brawl by name, or even just the few moments where the Decepticons are shown in a kinder light, where we get a little glimpse into why they started their cause... i really want s2 to touch on this one more, since it's probably one of the most interesting things Earthspark is doing

like, overall, i'm just a really big fan of this show? it's genuinely really fucking good, and i'm looking forward to checking s2 out at some point, especially since the fandom seems to be throwing a hissy fit about it

also it made me ship Megatron/Shockwave, and i cannot complain about that. Megatron has two loyal husbands, and he does not deserve them at all 💖

16th September: ZERO (Toume Kei)

being so honest, this is a deeply mid ass manga. like, i wouldn't exactly call it bad, and i think it could make a really fun movie, but. it's not exactly good either, lol

mainly, i read this because the main girl antagonist has such a good design. like, the art is on point for the girls, i really like the slight edge they have to it- but anyway, i really like Mao's character. she has such a seme vibe, and i kind of really fucking love with it. would kidnap her as a character and make her have a messy sapphic relationship with another girl. wish it had been about her. she could have seme'd that twink ass protag so hard, and i would have loved that

16th September: Dark Forest, White Road

the atmosphere of this one is so excellent, actually. it's very melancholic, which really matches with its winter setting, and i think this would really have thrived with a longer run time

there isn't a lot of meat here, really, but it feels like there is. the story is brimming with potential and interesting set ups, from the honestly toxic relationship between the main character and her sister, to the fleeting connection between her and the love interest; also, the way the love interest is written is interesting, because again, it feels like there's so much left unsaid, so much you could explore further

also, the art here is really gorgeous? like, it matches the atmosphere so well, and i just really like how it's drawn.. i would have consumed the shit out of multiples volumes, is all i'm saying

16th September: The Miko's Words and the Witch's Incantations

primarily read this for the art, which is absolutely gorgeous, and really up my alley- though i did end up rather liking the whole thing, even if it was a bit confusing at the start

this one has a really interesting set up, with a witch saving a miko from a shrine she's been trapped in her whole life, and the consequences that causes- i actually think this one would make a really good OVA, and that as a stand-alone volume, it actually works rather well

it's nothing super deep, but it was a pretty cute read, and i think some of the stuff that went down in the climax could make for some really interesting story beats

16th September: Dungeons & Dragons: Honour Among Thieves

i'm not actually a DnD'er, and most of the information i do know about it comes second-hand, so while i did recognize some stuff (the owlbear!! the underdark!!) this really was just a rather fun fantasy movie for me

i do think they put a lot of effort into bringing the setting to life, and it was a really good movie, like i had a great time, but it's definitely more of a popcorn flick than anything else- though i would definitely love a sequel!

i do kind of wish we had gotten some actual bard action... like, i don't know how exactly it's supposed to work in-game, but i feel like the lead was... super useless lol. like, he truly did shit

19th 26th September: Love Bullet v1

since this is only a single volume right now, i don't think there's a lot you can really say about Love Bullet, but- that's not really gonna stop me, lol

it definitely, like absolutely for real, deserves the hype it's getting. like, it's such a solid first volume, and i'm straight up gonna be heartbroken if it gets cancelled, because there is so much potential here

first of, the art is so so gorgeous, and the manga really utilizes the medium, with lots of parallel shots and framing, and just- i'm not an art person, okay, but this is some good fucking shit

secondly, while we obviously haven't known the characters for very long, and we haven't seen much of Ena especially, just from what little we've seen, and the designs themselves, it's obvious these are well thought out, and well-written, characters. like, i'm genuinely so excited to see more of all of them, because they're already so dynamic and fun, and i really like seeing them interact with each other

also, also! there seems to be some really good layers, here. there's mysteries already being sown, not just with the relationship between characters (Kanna and Chiyo? 👀) but also for the actual cupid system in general. like, the whole 'losing' the hiragani and kanji in the names is interesting, and i think there's for sure some stuff going on in the background that we don't know about yet, and it makes me so excited to learn more about this world

also! i just! really like the action!!! it's so well done, and i love how much detail the mangaka has given to everything (they use different martial arts!!!! the guns!!! it's so fun!!) and i'm just- i'm so very charmed by this manga, and i really really really want it to get super huge and big, so we can get an anime and maybe an english release, and just.. this has so much potential

as a yuri, there's not a lot going on so far, but what we have is, so far, really good. i definitely think we're going to get more, and i definitely think said more will be really fucking tasty, because it feels like this mangaka knows what she's doing, and i think she is going to feed us so fucking good

basically, i just. really like Lovet Bullet so far. and i really hope we get more... please... more cute girls

26th September: Reverie in a Deserted Bus

it's a cute little tragedy with some nice art, and a fun set up. i've actually been meaning to read this one for yeaars, all primarily because i really like the set up of an abandoned bus...

26th September: Damdam!!

THE FACT THAT THIS ONE IS ONLY A ONESHOT SADDENS ME SO MUCH, BECAUSE THE POTENTIAL HERE IS UNREAL...

it's basically a dark action yuri, wherein our two protagonists is part of a super special secret force that specializes in killing monsters. also they're both high school children. because of course

i really really love the set up here, like i'm just a huge fan of monster killing and yuri action, and this one nails it so good. the monster design is excellent, and the art really works for the type of story this is, and also the yuri, while not the focus, is so toxic and fucked, i fucking adore it. and while we obviously don't get a lot of the characters, i did really like them... one of them is super rude and brusque, and calls her partner bitch, and the other is just absolutely in love with her, and is delighted by her very presence, and i just. i wanted more. so bad

26th September: Efude to Kuro Kinu

this one has a pretty good build up, and while i don't think the lack of actual yuri is a failure, i did kind of want more actual yuri...

but! the toxicity is pretty tasty, and the art really works for the story, and i actually really liked the ending. also we just love to see older women in yuri <3

29th September: Wavetale

a genuinely really excellent little gem of a game, that's also a throwback to the 3D platformers of the PS2 era. which i am a huge fan of, like really huge, so of course i was going to love this game

which i do! especially because it's greatest strength isn't actually the platforming (which, being honest, isn't super deep or complex) but the story! which is really good!!!

it's a very ghibli-esque story, set in a post-war/post-apocalyptic world, wherein the whole world is more or less covered in water- which the game lets you surf around on, by the way, and it's great fun- and also the dark mysterious ~gloom~ that fucks you up, and all has basically more or less ruined most of the world. like. the protagonist doesn't even know what apples are. it's banging

it's one of those stories about grief and war and a bit o' environmentalism messaging, which, again- very ghibli! and, like ghibli, it keeps a more light tone, even when it properly addressed said themes, which is obviously helped along by the (very nice) more cartoony visuals

like, i could see this as a ghibli movie. i really good

anyway! as a game, it's definitely not super complex or deep- the combat is very easy, the platforming is easy (but nice. i liked doing it :3), there's no real puzzle elements, etc etc. i do think the surfing mechanic is very fun, but, again- not very deep. but! i think that's okay!! sometimes a game is a vehicle to tell a story, and the gameplay is there to help the narrative flow, or even just underline it- as much as i think the combat is a bit superfluous, it helps with the narrative flow, and so i can't really fault its existence

it's a good game. not very long, but i really liked it, and its story, and its characters. it feels like a work of love and passion, and i always love to see that :]

29th September: Transformers One

so every Transformers fans have already say that this movie is really good, so i'm not coming with any new take, here, when i say, oh my god. this movie was really frickin' good

like. it is SO GOOD. and just- seeing Transformers, animated, on the big screen- it feels so huge. monumental. for so long we have eaten the live action scraps, and now it's animated and it's good, and it's about THEM, and we see CYBERTRON, AND JUST. AAAAAAAAAAAA. IT'S SO GOOD. IT'S SO FRICKIN' GOOD I COULD COMBUST ABOUT IT

(also i will now engage in spoiler talk. if you have not seen the movie, go see it. right now. seriously)

putting aside the sheer fucking hype of this movie even existing, i also think it's the perfect 'starting point' for a possible new 'generation' of Transformers. going into the backstory of Optimus and Megatron is not just fun, but also a really good way to set the stage for (possible) future movies. also, man, it's just. it's so good. i loved seeing the divorce happen on-screen, the way they did Megatron's turn to evil was so good, and while it's obviously a bit- not really rushed, but this is a movie, and we got a time constraint here, it just feels good. the scene with him and the High Guard where he nearly kills Starscream, ough, it's so fucking good. Starscream goading him on and then eventually cowering, like yessss, start off your future toxic gayship properly, i love you <3

ALSO SHOCKWAVE. SHOCKWAVE. I LOVE YOU. I ADORE YOU. LITERALLY NEARLY GIGGLED OUT LOUD WHEN HE SHOWED UP, HE'S MY FUNNY LITTLE MAN <3 <3

also, can i just say- i love Elita? i love Elita so much??? she should, by all account, fall into the 'strong female character' archtype, but, at least to me, she doesn't. she has the trappings of it, but she just- she doesn't feel forced, she doesn't feel badly written, she feels as at home as everyone else, and i love her SO much. her relationship with Optimus is really fun, and also i think she should kiss Shockwave (what. who said that)

also i was rather hesitant about Bee at first, because i haaaaate when they flanderize an existing character into the comedy role, but- they make it work. guy who has been alone for literal years and cannot stop talking now due to trauma and FRIENDSHIP EXCITEMENT. he's fun. i forgive him for his crimes <3

i am, being very honest, not much of a fan of MegaOp. both as characters, and as the ship, but man. this movie did them so good. literally the MegaOp divorce movie of all time. i see what y'all are seeing, and i have to stan. friends to enemies go hard every time, and it goes hard here. like, when Megatron lets go? holy fucking shit? that was SO SICK, and just. the whole climax itself. was so frickin' good

also i love how surprisingly brutal this movie is?? and i hope if we get a sequel they turn that shit up, because it was tasty. Megatron tearing Sentinel in two, like yes baby get his ass

ough, i just. i love this movie. i need a million more. i need more focus on the Quintessons (I LOVE HOW THEY DID THEM IN THIS MOVIE. I LOVE HOW THEY'RE NOT THE FOCUS. I LOVE HOW THEY'RE A LITERAL LOOMING THREAT, AND THEY DON'T EVEN SPEAK!!) and i need the Autobot-Decepticon war, and i need to see everyone. all of them. especially more Jazz, i am so charmed by his little cameo role, like that's my baby boy!!! he is so cute!!!

(ALSO AIRACHNID WAS SO COOL??? HELLO??? HER AND SENTINEL WAS TRULY JUST ICONIC AS FUCK)

ANYWAY THE MOVIE WAS SO GOOD. I NEED THE DVD IMMEDIATELY SO I CAN REWATCH IT ON LOOP. A THOUSAND MILLION OUT OF TEN, BEST MOVIE ALL YEAR, GIVE IT ALL THE AWARDS

[kazuwhora]

hello hello, i see your requests are open now and can i request izana, wakasa, chifuyu and kazutora with an akutagawa!s/o? hope you have a great day/noon/night! ✨🤗

hi anon! sure! I will try my best with izana and wakasa since there's not tons to work with personality wise so forgive me if theirs are a little shorter heh. im gonna include a little blurb from the bsd fandom wiki for anyone not familiar with his character! I like these kinds of headcanon requests so if anyone wants to see more please feel free to request!

"Akutagawa has a black and white "survival of the fittest" view of the world, claiming that weak people should die and give way to the stronger ones. He is not afraid of pain and defeat His ruthless, vicious nature makes him one of the Port Mafia's most dangerous members, feared by both ally and foe. As violent as he is, Akutagawa maintains a generally composed and detached approach. Towards subordinates and superiors alike, he acts aloof, distancing himself from social interactions however possible. Nonetheless, his composure is fragile. Akutagawa is quick to lash out, ridiculing him for risking the bounty by acting recklessly. This quick temper often gets in his way, fuelling his actions to the core of his very being."

SUMMARY: izana, wakasa, chifuyu, && kazutora with an akutagawa!so

CW: hints of toxicity and violence, mentions of sex but not really all that nsfw-ish so otherwise not much else!

IZANA

- this is an interesting one because from what we know about izana, he is very similar in personality to akutagawa in terms of ruthlessness that stems from childhood trauma and isolation.

- in the case of a s/o with this personality, I think it would be a troubling relationship. lots of bitter fights fuelled by nothing but an inability to express vulnerability, while leaving both of you torn up inside and begging for someone to nurture the trauma and allow space for emotions.

- that being said, with toxicity and trauma also comes intense passion and desire. this relationship brings a lot of fire both in the bedroom and outside of the bedroom, with simple arguments often spawning into intense desperate (and lengthy might I add) sex. like, intense. it's almost like sex is the only safe outlet of these pent up emotions, providing a sort of comfort and also distraction for both parties.

- however as I said in general, this is definitely a toxic relationship. one where neither can help the other when it comes to growth and improvement on a personal level. it's unhealthy and enabling, but for a short lived fling it is hot as fuck im not even gonna lie. lots of hate sex too.

WAKASA

- so wakasa is another interesting one alongside izana given the lack of information and content we have about his character so please excuse the slight kc fanon version I have in my head of wakasa lol

- wakasa has a "don't fuck with me because I do not fucking care" type of vibe to him. I definitely think he's the type to completely disengage from the type of behaviours an akutagawa-type s/o might display. this leads to sort of a sense of competitiveness in trying to get some kind of reaction from him, and it has the potential (much like izana) to become toxic in nature

- any attempts to get under his skin are failed attempts, and the way he looks at you with that half bored expression is something that only triggers more of a somewhat emotional response from you.

- with that being said, my fanon version of wakasa is someone who while cold and aloof, is also quite a rational person. he's been typed by the fandom as INTJ which is quite a quick thinker, and I think he probably (despite not showing it very well) has a soft spot for you. but your passion and intensity (as well as your easily triggered dynamic) keeps him from completely being able to express this care in any way other than not engaging with your antics

- as much as there are some similarities with the type of toxicity in this relationship with both wakasa and izana, the intense passion isn't quite the same as it is with izana. instead, feelings of passion are more to the point and driven by pure instinct and desire rather than toxic passion. wakasa seeming like a very literal person, is actually quite mysterious deep down and has a lot (I mean a lot) of hidden desires and kinks that begin to emerge with time. it's rarely a conversation, and more often just something that happens that surprises you. you just have to go with the flow here, and let him take the reigns for once. it might actually be a good opportunity to allow for vulnerability to take the spotlight for once, which is something wakasa is surprisingly in tune with and quite to the point about.

CHIFUYU

- this is something much healthier than the last two. chifuyu, being an enfp is someone that's able to handle this level of intensity in a person while still being able to understand what's really going on.

- call him the trauma counsellor king. he values each and every response to a trigger that you might have. he notices patterns, he makes mental notes of things, and he does this all without making it seem like he's analyzing.

- to be honest he actually loves the spunk you bring on a day to day level. even though most of the time it's driven by bitterness or hate (not always towards him just in general) he is still able to see beyond that and appreciate you for what you are.

- with that being said, chifuyu will not stand for any toxic behaviour towards him. no sir he will not. threats and pushes for fights wont be tolerated, and he will either disengage or try to expose your vulnerabilities in an attempt at forced submission. this can be hard to get used to, especially with having a personality characterized by the inability to accept being vulnerable. but with time chifuyu is one to create a safe space for you to allow yourself to feel emotions beyond anger and resentment, and he encourages this.

- because of this very feelings based approach, intimacy with chifuyu is just that: intimate. he's extremely loving and doting, hoping that his sweetness can rub off on you a little bit. however he's also very accepting of your need for power over him (especially during sex) and will absolutely submit to your needs in order to please you.

- he really likes to put you in a place of pleasure though, so however that may come to you chifuyu is the one to deliver it.

KAZUTORA

- oh boy. this one is a doozy. listen. if we're talking about timeskip kazutora (as is the case with all characters i write about but I feel it especially important to remind ppl of here given his history), we're talking about someone who is quite literally walking on eggshells in terms of his trauma and emotional vulnerability.

- he's pretty good at being emotionally aware of his needs and struggles as well as the needs and struggles of those around him, but that doesn't mean that he's entirely healed or capable of managing toxicity or his triggers. he still slips up from time to time especially when things get hard, and sometimes finds himself falling into his old patterns. after all, he's only human. but this is where things could get messy in a relationship.

- for the most part, like I said, he's pretty good. so let's focus on that part first since I want to give him credit where it's due. he is very desperate for love and dedicated to providing something to his partner. in this case, he will seek to tap into his emotional vulnerability to provide some sort of comfort for you. he wants to see you happy, and calm, because he sees so much of his old self in you that it gets to him sometimes. but at the same time, he struggles with your relentlessness and can become emotionally drained when things get tough. he'll beat himself up for not being good enough to help you, and this is when he'll isolate and fall into old patterns.

- however, akutagawa's personality type isn't all bad. with a s/o like akutagawa, comes an immense amount of protection and loyalty for their loved ones no matter how tough things might be. in this case it might be hard to communicate this, but there will be times when it's needed in order for kazutora to restrain from old habits and ways of dealing with hardships. but he wants to share his healing with you, he wants you to be happy, and more than anything he understands the struggle of wanting to be happy and healthy but being afraid of losing the one thing that makes you you: your attitude and relentlessness. nobody understands this better than kazutora, which is why things between you can get frustrating and very personal for him.

- much like chifuyu, sex is driven towards pleasing you and only you. chifuyu leans more into switch territory however, while kazutora is 100% submissive. in this case it works out well, however he has a lot of boundaries and limitations when it comes to the way in which you function. he doesn't like degradation. instead, he thrives from praise and any sign of love and care. this might be tough for you to execute 100% of the time, but when it comes down to it the way his eyes twinkle for you is enough to make the ice around your heart melt just a little more each time.

[bisluthq]

I always find this a weird angle because idk it kinda reduces her to what she is to *us* as fans not what she is to them. Like who gives a fuck if your DIL/SIL is breaking charting records? What matters is she’s funny and sweet and makes your son/brother super happy. ////

Ok so this ask and answer actually reminds me of my brother in law where he’s taylor in this example, but like for normal people and not rich or famous people.

So when my sister met her now husband he had been going through a lot of personal stuff (he had been working for a small business that had some legal issues, not criminal, I can’t remember the details now, but he was in a risky spot, and then his parents started to separate but his dad died. like the poor guy was going through it but they’d only gone on a few dates before all this happened. and my family and I were concerned that my sister was wanting to take care of him more then they were being on equal ground in the relationship and it even being fun. even he said he wasn’t sure if their timing was right because he was going through a lot and didn’t want to drag her into his mess, but he wanted to be with her. And she basically pulled a Joe and just said no we’re not breaking up lol. He impressed us pretty quickly though because he did a lot to look after his mom and showed how much empathy he had, but he put his emotions on hold and started drinking… luckily he stopped before he needed intervention, but dude was a mess and my sister had gone through a lot of therapy to get over a toxic relationship and we were worried his stress would disrupt her mental state.

Anyway the legal stuff resolved without him even having to take the stand and he started showing the side of him that she saw on their first few dates before his life went messy and now both our families love them together and we’re like ok I get why you like him and stuck around now lol.

He went back to school and finished his degree and has had professional success in recent years and my family have been happy for him and proud of how far he’s come in the time we know him, but honestly we’re more relieved than anything. I know his situation is very different to Tay/ Joe, but I feel like if I were his family I’d just be relieved that she didn’t pull him down and picked herself up so that they could have a seemingly healthy and equal relationship.. because omg apparently my BIL/ sister lived in a bubble when they spent time together, but outside their bubble his life was nuts and she had just gotten herself into a healthy mental space. They make me believe in soul mates because it was a perfect storm to derail her life but they thrived instead.

I didn’t mean to type so much but I just had a relatable story lmaooo

Ya I think this was sorta them! Cute story tbh!

[imomomi]

         The doodles first started when he was 16. Little stars on his wrists when he woke up, a flower curling on his palm before class, an inky sketch of some mountains on his thigh. Rationally, he knew what they were, why they were there, but it didn’t stop the initial stab of disgust at seeing the ink on his body. He washed it off frequently and often right away. By the end of the week, the drawings became less frequent. The loss of them did not hurt, but a stab of anxiety followed when he woke inkless and alone like always. Kiyoomi had never written back. The idea of writing—what if the ink was toxic and made him sick, what if they were allergic to something and it somehow leake---he took a breath, shaking the thoughts from his head.

          He didn’t hate the idea of having a soulmate. It made life easier knowing that he didn’t need to waste his time looking for a partner. He preferred it when things were clear cut, easy to understand, and with a visible end in sight.

          Not where people can see, he wrote on his thigh, just high enough that it wouldn’t show when he was playing. His handwriting was chicken scrawl and despite his attempts to make it neater, he never managed it.

          He waited minuets, checking with such frequency that not even cleaning his room had taken his mind off it. Words didn’t always make it through. No one knew why or how the process worked. Scientists debated that the reason words didn’t appear were because communication as a human method, poets wrote about the mysteries of soulmate marks and fate, but Kiyoomi thought it was simpler than all of that. Soulmate marks lead you to your soulmate when you were ready. Relationships were messy and complicated and despite how alone he was at times, he didn’t want one right now.

          A single word followed, written so neatly it could have been its own font.

          Ok.  

          The eighty-eighth floor of MSBY’s headquarters was not a place that Kiyoomi ever dared enter. He was content in receiving his paycheck on the day he was meant to and waiting for contract negations to raise any issues. Atsumu had managed to sneak his way into the Management and Finance department the first week he’d joined the team. Apparently, the gossip among their teammates wasn’t enough to quell his nosy behavior. How he’d managed to convince him to join in on his lunch-time venture, Kiyoomi wasn’t too sure. All he knew was that he regretted his decision already.

          Couches were scattered in the main room surrounding large flat-screen T.Vs that played the news in a constant cycle. A large-open kitchen faced the back wall where a couple of people hung around, holding steaming mugs. Two people sat at one of the couches, intensely focused on a video-game they were playing. All around the floor, leading up the offices down the hall, were flowers. Some hung from the ceiling, spilling over the pots with vines drifting downwards. Large bouquets in crystal vases littered the tables. Kiyoomi could feel his nose twitching.

          “Come on,” Atsumu said, leading him down the hall where several offices were tucked against the floor to ceiling windows. They came to a stop in front of a corner office where a small shoe rack lined with slippers, some still in the plastic casing, rested outside the door. A pair of pale pink slippers were on the top shelf, bunny ears plastered obnoxiously at the front.

          “Take off your shoes. Y/N-chan hates dust. I’m pretty sure she ripped out the carpet with her bare hands when she got here.”

          “I’m surprised you’re actually doing it,” said Kiyoomi. Too often had he watched in disgust as the man went home wearing the same sweaty clothes he’d practiced in.

          “Y/N almost had a heart attack the first time I came in here, kinda made me feel bad not to listen after that,” Atsumu admitted. Kiyoomi struggled to rearrange his features to hide his doubt at the words and failed.  

          “Yet, when I tell you to stop stealing my face masks and towels, you never listen,” he said, dryly.

          “That’s different. She’s a girl. You’re Omi-Omi.”

          “So, if I miraculously gain a vagin-” Kiyoomi started.

          “Do ya ever shut up? I’m not arguin’ with ya in the middle of the hall,” Atsumu hissed, his accent coming out stronger in his annoyance. Kiyoomi rolled his eyes. If anything, it was Atsumu who started every one of their arguments, but his own boredom didn’t help.

          “No need to be so sensitive,” said Kiyoomi.

          “Put the damn slippers on,” Atsumu said, shoving the unopened packet into his gut. Sakusa smirked beneath his mask, gingerly opening up the slippers.

          They were in the office for a full ten minutes before anyone arrived. Atsumu took the time to make himself comfortable in the leather chair behind the desk, making the various figurines of the team fight. Prototypes for the upcoming season, thought Kiyoomi, glancing at the little chibi version of himself in curiosity. The door snaps open and a woman walked in harried and tapping on her phone. She wasn’t dressed in office clothes, rather in an oversized hoodie with the name of a foreign university splashed across the front and leggings. The pink slippers that sat outside were on her feet.

          “I thought I banned you from here last week,” she said with a groan, tossing a bag down onto the couch. She nodded to him in greeting, but otherwise ignored his existence.

          “I bought a friend as a peace offering,” Atsumu said, throwing a hand in his direction. Y/N’s gaze fell to him briefly, brow furrowing.

          “I don’t accept,” she said, turning to glare at Atsumu. “Human trafficking is bad. You would have learned that if you actually made it to college.”

          “Sorry for joining the team,” said Atsumu. He stood from her desk, letting her settle in. Kiyoomi watched the two interact, wondering how long they had known one another.

          “Please, I can replace you any day,” she muttered.

          “We all know you love me too much to do that.”

          “When I finally jump from the roof, I want everyone to know it’s your fault.”

          “Take me with you,” Kiyoomi muttered, shooting Atsumu a look of disgust. Her lips twitched and she offered him a smile. Kiyoomi averted his gaze immediately, not liking that her attention finally focused on him. There was something unnerving in her gaze.  

          “What do you want?” she asked.

          “Business as usual. Sakusa needs you this time, not me,” Atsumu said.

          “I’m sure you had nothing to do with that,” she drawled.

          “I was brought against my will,” Sakusa acknowledged. She picked up a pen and notepad from her desk, clicking it rapidly as she started to scribble.

          “We can file a report,” she joked, “I’m sure the papers would love to hear how Miya Atsumu was involved in a scandal with his teammate.”

          “Suddenly, I’m regretting all my life choices leading up to this moment,” Atsumu said.

          “You didn’t before?” Sakusa asked. Y/N laughed and Kiyoomi hated how the sound filled the air, bouncing with a levity that he’d never experienced on his own. People like Atsumu---and it seemed like Y/N---had a way of taking up space and never letting it go. They were loud because they thrived on the attention and Kiyoomi who had been surrounded by people but, alone all his life flinched away from it.

          He pushed the thoughts away, explaining quickly and concisely that Atsumu had brought him here to specify how he wanted the locker room set up before games. Kiyoomi anticipated resistance to his requests but was shown a brutal efficiency that he can’t help but admire. Y/N listened attentively, taking notes, and asking questions, before promising that they would implement a new cleaning schedule before their next practice. They leave as quickly as they arrived, but part of him expected more and is left empty with the thought that there was something incomplete about their meeting.

           That night’s drawing was a little cat curled up in a box. It looked like any other stray that he might see in Tokyo, but there was something endearing about the way its eyes were closed in two tiny smiles. Kiyoomi traced it idly. It must have taken a long time, he thought. The urge to draw something back filled him, but he has neither the talent nor willpower to sit and draw on himself for any length of time. Unlike when he was younger, the drawings came less frequently and always at night.

          He watched; brow furrowed in confusion as words appeared beneath the drawing. The rare sight had his heart hammering loudly in his chest.

          Azabu, Tokyo.

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[oneboxofmatches]

Hi!!! May I request a HP romantic and friendship matchup on both eras? (Preferably male), thanks in advance! 💞

𝗕𝗔𝗦𝗜𝗖𝗦 + 𝗔𝗣𝗣𝗘𝗔𝗥𝗔𝗡𝗖𝗘

19, Libra, Neutral Good, enneagram is 4w5, Ravenclaw, and my patronus spirit is swan. Bi Pan Genderfluid girl using pronouns of She/Her or He/Him. A friend of mine told me that I (kinda) look like Marinette from 𝗠𝗶𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘂𝗹𝗼𝘂𝘀 𝗟𝗮𝗱𝘆𝗯𝘂𝗴, Musa from 𝗪𝗶𝗻𝘅 𝗖𝗹𝘂𝗯, and Alexandra Trese from 𝗧𝗿𝗲𝘀𝗲 (a Netflix animated series), but the exception is I'm short (5'1.2") plus sized Southeast Asian woman with Spanish descent that has messy/wavy brunette medium hair, chocolate brown eyes, oriental skin and a small beauty mark on the forehead. My sense of fashion is in between emo and boyish plus korean glam.

𝗣𝗘𝗥𝗦𝗢𝗡𝗔𝗟𝗜𝗧𝗬

Distant and shy at first cause' I dunno how to initiate a conversation, but a total opposite if I open up---friendly, ambivert, witty, laughing loudly on a daily basis, talkative, awkward, daydreamer (I got embarrassed from knocking at the door even I'm inside the classroom 😂), EXTREMELY clumsy, secretly likes affection, easily overwhelmed, prone to melt over any wholesomeness, flusters on compliments, lightly blushes on cheesy banters, sarcastic person with a lowkey crackhead energy citing meme references, and talented girl who can be your no. 1 supporter and unashamed to be true to myself. In terms of leadership, I only educate and guide than being a prefect (I might take the role seriously), and will lift my group when there's lacking/incompleteness. About doing projects in school, I become too extra and prepared for efforts, but I'll forget the process in the end.

People thought I'm a demure self-effacing woman that looks "idealistic" or "one of a kind," (due to my protective parents, a reason why I've never been in a relationship) but the truth is, I'm eloquent, warm-hearted, willig to help, kind, intelligent, supportive, nice, creative, enthusiastic, determined, tough, competitive, and feisty outside, but a real softie that can be childish and dramatic crybaby filled with doubts, frustrations, and insecurities with fear of failure that pushes off the limits to to please everyone, yet I still managed to be stronger than ever, even it's a slow burn process. I can be intimidating, sassy, and a douchebag if I receive ends. Immature, headstrong, perfectionist, demanding, hesitant, jumpy, very indecisive, overthinker, quick-tempered, sensitive, and anxious (no joke, my nervousness makes me think worse scenario will arrive or I might break a belonging due to my carelessness). Though can be procrastinator and arrogant, I raised as a religious 𝖺𝗇𝖽 diplomatic person, willing to fight what I believe (including my dreams) 𝖺𝗇𝖽 what is right. In addition, I have a habit of staying up late and doing sign of the cross to ease nervousness.

Blunt but the loudest idiotic feeling-brokenhearted and bitter friend in the group who fangirl a lot, swears like sailor, will act like a silent backstabber on people that we loathe, will crack up over your stupid antics before helping, and bring gossips, but a hopeless romantic who tends to banter with sarcasms or pick up lines as an endearment (but gets grumpy if I received sappy or offensive one), still generous and concerned in a subtle way.

𝗛𝗢𝗕𝗕𝗜𝗘𝗦

My hobbies are singing, drawing, roleplaying, listening to music, chatting/browsing on social media, conceptualizing, writing, and reading some stuffs. 𝖨'𝗅𝗅 𝗂𝗇𝖼𝗅𝗎𝖽𝖾 making corniest jokes/puns, 𝗌𝗅𝖾𝖾𝗉𝗂𝗇𝗀, and dancing when nobody's around or walking like a model if I feel so bold (even I'm terrible at both xD).

𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦

Loves kittens, eating a lot, cartoons, watching YouTube videos (mostly pageants, ASMR, edit audios, and mukbangs), also enjoys playing games on my sister's PSP. Sucker for arts, choir, night sky, makeup, fun/deep/dumb conversations, Christianity, documentaries (about saints, real crime stories, and inspirational people), reading interesting stuffs, talking about social issues, and writings, chilling both indoors and outdoors. Beside that, my music taste are like late 90s-2000s songs (mostly rock, pop, and country) sometimes kpop and ppop, chocoholic, and a sweetooth as well.

𝗗𝗜𝗦𝗟𝗜𝗞𝗘𝗦

Things that I hate are stereotyping, HUGE creepy crawlies (spiders, toads, snakes, and cockroaches), firecracker sounds, being left out, loneliness, heart break, blackout, and judgemental people. One random fact about me is, I 𝗐𝗂𝗅𝗅 vent out EVERYTHING I despise in my entire existence---from bad soap operas to toxicity and worse scenarios in real life, because it's a big deal for me, and I consider forcing me to do what I'm not into and manipulating me as my major pet peeves.

𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗚𝗚𝗘𝗥𝗦

In terms of triggers...I only have two which are ta𝖨king about divorce/annullment/separation because I came from a generational broken family and religion/beliefs discrimination, cause' there are reasonings that doesn't makes sense because some are too hypocritical.

𝗧𝗥𝗜𝗩𝗜𝗔

My best assets are smile, eyes, personality, singing voice, artistic skills, writings, intelligence, and oratorical skills...so I can consider myself as a singer, artist, orator, and a top student who's a former active campus ministry member with three roles (choir leader, psalm singer, and reader). Currently an incoming college freshman, learning how to cook and have so many interests, to the point I don't know what I'm into because of my dreams to become a popular Filipino YouTuber, a novelist, and being part of a successful chorale competing internationally...I also consider joining pageants at school too once the pandemic ends, but maybe.

Thank you so, so much for requesting! I had a lot of fun with this one (as you can tell by some of the really long answers lol) and I hope you enjoy!!

In the Golden Trio era, I romantically pair you with…

CEDRIC DIGGORY

One of the most beautiful things about Cedric is that although he may show some introverted tendencies, he still manages to have a natural gift for connecting to others and allowing them to feel comfortable enough to open up. Really, your initial distance and shyness don't last nearly as long towards Cedric as they would with most other people.

Hearing your laughter brings the widest, cheesiest grin to Cedric’s face. Not only does he adore seeing you happy, but he also recognizes that your anxiety, insecurities, and strong emotions can sometimes cloud up your demeanor. Therefore, it brings him comfort knowing that (for the moment) you’re finding joy. He thrives when you thrive!

However, as much as he loves seeing your more energetic and happier self, it goes without saying that he’s the best comfort for when you’re not having the best day.

Cedric is an excellent listener, so he’ll most likely let you talk without interruption for as long as you need before even saying a word. He wants to make sure he truly understands your current state before acting. He may take a few seconds to process everything after you finish speaking, but then he’ll help you tackle whatever problems you’re facing. He’s especially talented at giving words of affirmation.

Cedric’s listening also comes in handy whenever you talk about your interests! He genuinely loves hearing about the things you’re interested in solely for the fact that you’re interested in them. Side note: you can count on him to be at any music performances, pageants, etc. you may have -- this guy is truly your #1 supporter.

Cedric’s a very good student (though I suspect he’s somewhat of a procrastinator himself), so I can also see you two supporting each other through schoolwork and celebrating each other’s successes.

Like you, Cedric has a strong urge to do the right thing. Talking to him about social issues stirs up a need to help, and I could see you two doing volunteer work together in your spare time.

I like to believe one of Cedric’s biggest love languages is quality time. Don’t get me wrong, this guy loves staying involved and busy. But taking a couple hours to be with you in small ways (even if that means just being in the same room while you scroll through social media) gives him a nice balance.

Overall, this kind boy will be there unwaveringly through the bad times and will laugh just as loud as you through the good!

As a friend, I think you’d best be matched with…

LUNA LOVEGOOD

You wanna talk about the best conversations, relentless support, and overall the most wholesome friendship you could ask for? Luna’s your girl.

Being unashamed to be true to yourself is one of the biggest reasons why Luna is so drawn to you. While she’s very friendly and insightful towards everyone she meets, it can get a bit repetitive for her to constantly interact with people who try to shelter their unique characteristics from the world. In her mind, these unique characteristics are what make people so fascinating! Why should anyone hide who they are?

Luna’s creativity is endless, and I can see it blending well with yours. Collaborating on a personal project outside of school (ex: novel, blog, etc.) together is definitely something I could see you two doing.

Speaking of creativity, finding creative solutions to everyday problems (both in school and in life) is your specialty as friends.

Admittedly, Luna isn’t usually drawn to louder individuals. However, the complexity behind your personality makes it easier for her to know you are much more than what meets the eye.

Speaking of, Luna has a difficult time standing up for herself -- whether it’s because she doesn’t feel a need to or she just doesn’t recognize the meaning behind certain phrases. She NEEDS a friend like you to stand up for her sometimes, and I know you wouldn’t hesitate!

Ranting to Luna is therapeutic to say the least. While her aloofness at times may make it seem as if she isn’t fully paying attention, that couldn’t be further from the truth. She’s actually catching every word, and once you’re done she’ll leave you with a philosophical solution that may seem borderline insane/irrelevant when you first hear it, but it strangely makes sense.

Overall, the lack of judgment from either of you is what draws you together. As a result, you build a unique bond that couldn’t be broken even if either of you wanted it to.

In the Marauders era, I romantically pair you with…

REMUS LUPIN

Let’s be honest, it would take you two so long to ask each other out. You were probably already really close friends, but the insecurities and “what if?” questions from both of you delayed an actual relationship.

When you finally started dating, you were both so relieved. You still share a laugh at how almost nothing changed in the way you interacted with each other.

While with mutual friends, Remus sometimes likes to sit back and just watch you, especially when you get really talkative because this is when you become the most expressive. He has the softest smile when you’re actively cracking jokes, discussing something you’re passionate about, or even calling someone out. Sometimes you may be too distracted to notice, but other times you’ll catch him.

“What?”

“Oh, nothing.” (While that same soft smile never leaves his face.)

You both hold really high standards for yourself in terms of school, so expect late-night study/work sessions to be your best bet for quality time.

Though the occasional instance of walking through/lying on the grounds becomes a favorite for both of you.

Remus listens when you’re particularly struggling through anxiety or strong emotions, but he has to consciously stop himself from interrupting because he can’t stand how he feels knowing you’re going through a tough time.

All he wants to do is soothe you during these moments. If you’re comfortable, he’ll hold you while speaking to you in a soft voice. Remus, the intellectual that he is, is also your best chance at finding a reasonable solution. So if you're not in the mood for calming words, he's also a great person to turn to for answers.

As for your ambitions, no matter what you choose to pursue, you already know Remus is going to be your biggest source of support every step of the way. He’s more than happy to help in any way he can!

Overall, Remus appreciates you, and he’s always going to make sure you know it.

As a friend, I think you’d best be matched with…

LILY EVANS

Lily especially connects to you because you manage to be determined, competitive, and intelligent without sacrificing your kindness, which is something she can relate to.

You and Lily are the C.E.O.s of doing the right thing. Neither of you hesitates to back the other up when it comes to confronting someone because you know it’s justified.

As perceptive as Lily is, you never need to tell her when something is bothering you. All it takes is a quick glance before she puts whatever she’s doing on hold to check in with you.

The reverse works as well. Typically, Lily really doesn’t internally struggle too much, and when she does she tries to hide it. You’re one of the only people who can see right through whatever she tries to pull.

The constant banter between you two is unmatched, but you both know it's because you really care about each other.

Overall, you and Lily have each other’s backs through anything, even when the other isn’t actively asking for help.

[mulletcal]

greased lightnin’ - a cashton!mechanic blurb.

a/n: my second blurb for the fic event! did i finish it up 12 hours before it was supposed to be posted? maybe, but she’s here and she’s thriving.  thank you once again to all the other fic writers involved in this event, you’re such a supportive group and ilu sm.

word count: 2.7k

warnings: mentions of a toxic relationship, oral (male receiving), smut, public sex

Event Masterlist

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When Calum was little, his two favourite things to watch were Grease and Happy days; so it came as no surprise to anyone when he wanted to be a mechanic.  Calum also may have cited a time or two that The Fonz and Danny Zuko are who opened his eyes to the fact that he was attracted to men.

The slicked back, leather jacket look was something Calum was into; and while he was well aware that no proper mechanic actually dressed like that, it didn’t stop him from wearing such a getup to his interview at Irwin’s Auto- his curly hair perfectly messy, white t-shirt fitted against his torso with his worn-in leather jacket over it. 

Calum had hoped the man who did his pre-interview over the phone would be the one interviewing him, because based on voices alone Calum thought he sounded extremely attractive, and he was only rewarded when a young man who looked roughly his age came walking through the door.

The man wasn’t dressed like he would have expected, which only served to make him even more attractive.  He was dressed in a torn-up black Led Zeppelin t-shirt, dark ripped jeans that hugged his thighs, and his black hair pushed off of his forehead - Calum had to give his head a small shake to get himself out of the headspace of checking out his potential boss.

“Don’t mind my outfit, I didn’t get much sleep and this is the first thing I found.  I’m Ashton, I own this shop,” Ashton spoke, reaching out his hand for Calum to shake.  

Standing to shake the man - Ashton’s - hand, Calum couldn’t help but to admire the blood moon tattoos on his forearms, “Not to worry, happens to all of us.  M’Calum, I’m… interviewing to work here.”

Oh, so he was in the business of telling people things they already knew now, that’s good.  The grin Calum received in response made him grin as well.

“My ex is an ass.  I went to go get the last of my stuff and he wanted to start another fight… I don’t honestly know why I blurted that out, I’m sorry.  That was unprof--”

“He?” Calum blurted out before he had the chance to rethink it.  Maybe he did have a chance after all, if he didn’t get the job maybe he could follow up another time and ask him on a date.

Ashton’s frown made Calum’s breath seize in his throat though, immediately rethinking his choices, “Mate if you have an issue with gay people, you can get the fuck out.”

“No!” Calum sputtered, burying his face in his hands, “I was just surprised because I’m gay too.  Well… Half gay, bisexual really.  Fuck m’sorry, that was a horrible way to say that.  I’m bi.  I don’t have an issue with gay people.”

The grin returned to Ashton’s lips in an instant, leaning back into the chair opposite from him and crossing one leg over the other, “I think we’re going to get along just great.”

Calum was hired by the end of the interview, despite only being an apprentice at one other shop for three months before it went belly-up.  He liked to think that maybe the fact that him and Ashton seemed to get along great had something to do with it, or maybe he just saw potential in Calum.

His first day hadn’t gone as well as he expected; he knocked over a tray of tools, and somehow managed to drop numerous items onto Ashton’s foot.  

“You’re so lucky you’re pretty,” Ashton muttered under his breath, and it made Calum pause for a minute - had he just said he was pretty? No one had referred to him as pretty before.

It was all Calum could think of the rest of the day, doing his best to avoid dropping more things onto Ashton in hopes of not getting fired. After his first day of stumbling about, the rest of the week seemed to go smoothly; that was until he slipped on a small patch of oil on the ground, landing on his ass. Thankfully, it wasn’t a painful fall, but it was enough to have Ashton rushing to his aid, barking out a laugh when he realize Calum was okay.

“You’ve had a tough start and end to the week, wanna go for drinks after work?” Ashton asked, patting Calum on the forehead.

Calum agreed a little too quickly, a blush creeping up on his cheeks when Ashton held his hand out to help him up.  They had brushed past each other before, but Calum had forgotten how warm Ashton’s hands were, and how nice the man’s calloused fingers felt against his own. Realizing he was holding on for a little too long, he quickly pulled his hand away to run his fingers through his hair, messing up his curls a little more and tugging on the ends in his embarrassment.

Ashton’s eyes lingered for longer than he’d care to admit on Calum’s fingers in his hair, silently wishing they were his own. The more he got to know Calum, the more attracted he was to him; he struggled of course, because he was supposed to be his boss, and it would be completely out of line. Ashton had thought more than once about how Calum’s lips would feel against his own, or how many more tattoos the man had. 

“You okay?” Calum asked, “I was the one who slipped, mate. You look like you’re going to be ill.”

Ashton shook his head, laughing softly, “Just thinkin’ bout the damages you woulda cost me if you cracked that thick skull of yours on the concrete.”

With that, the two returned to work- Calum placing the tires back onto a car, Ashton trying not to watch the way his muscles moved underneath his jumpsuit. And Ashton replacing someone’s rear brakes, Calum definitely not watching the way his stomach muscles would tense on a particularly hard tug. The day seemed to pass slowly, the anticipation creeping up making Calum sweat for more reasons than just the heat.

“Ready to go?” Ashton grinned, wiping the sweat off his brow with the rag that had been hanging out of his pocket.

“Uh, yeah. Just gotta get outta my grease monkey clothes, y’know,” Calum chuckled before he turned to head for the bathroom to get changed.

By the time he had cleaned up the sweat from his face, and changed into mostly decent clothes, Ashton was already ready, leaning against his car waiting for him.  As if Calum couldn’t be any more attracted to the man, seeing him sitting against the hood of a black 1969 Ford Mustang made him practically salivate at the sight.

Ashton simply grinned when he saw him, pulling the sunglasses onto his face and pushing himself off the car, “Ever been in a car like this? S’a beaut.”

Calum hummed, shaking his head, “I’ve only ever seen cars like this, oldest car I think I’ve been in was a 1995 impala ss, I think?”

Ashton nodded, allowing the engine to roar to life, “Well then you’re in for a treat, mate.  Maybe we’ll go for a drive and I’ll let you take the wheel.  You’ve driven stick before, yeah?”

“I’ve handled a few sticks in my time,” Calum smirked, watching a look of realization cross over Ashton’s features that his meaning may not be entirely innocent, sporting a matching smirk all the way to their destination.  

Walking into the bar, Calum relaxed at the familiar warmth of the bar enveloping him; the smells invading his nostrils, and the music had him humming along quietly as he followed Ashton to a table in the back corner.

Once they settled in and had their drinks, conversation flowed easily between the two men.  Talking about where one another grew up, favourite hobbies, foods, and the like.  It wasn’t until the subject of relationships came up that Calum grew more quiet and withdrawn, which Ashton took notice of as he spoke of his ex boyfriend.

“What about you, any horrible first date or relationship stories to share?”

Calum shrugged, taking a long sip of his beer before he spoke, “I’ve only had one boyfriend, and it wasn’t the best experience.  He wasn’t out to his family yet, so he had to keep me hidden.  I didn’t so much mind that he wasn’t ready to come out, of course, what I minded was that his shame lead me to being treated pretty shitty by him.  Needless to say that relationship didn’t last very long, and I’ve been single ever since.”

Ashton listened intently, leaning his elbows onto the table so he could listen to Calum better, “I’m so sorry you experienced that.  It’s like you said it would be fine if he wasn’t prepared to come out, but the way he treated you is inexcusable.”

Calum nodded, draining the rest of his beer and setting the glass down, “It’s fine, m’doing better now.  Trying to go on some dates, but each one has been pretty shitty.”

“Hm, well the goal I’d say is to be a little less shitty every time no?”

Chuckling, Calum nodded, “Yeah, well, I don’t know if you can tell but I have no idea what I’m doing.  I almost never do.”

Ashton quirked a brow, smiling around the rim of his glass before draining his as well, “My big toe would have to agree,” he paused, looking towards the window to see if it was dark.  Seemingly pleased that the sun was beginning to set, he looked back to Calum, “Wanna go for that drive? I got the tab while you were in the bathroom.”

Calum frowned, agreeing to heading out, but not before promising Ashton that he’d pick up the tab the next time.  

When they walked out to the car, Ashton spun to face him, walking backwards while he spoke, “I was gonna let you drive, but there was somewhere I wanted to show you first.”

The question didn’t leave Calum’s lips of if he was about to get murdered, simply letting Ashton drive.  Classic rock played in the background softly, Calum enjoying the feeling of the wind through his hair as he realized Ashton was driving towards the beaches.

“Why would you want to go to the beach at night?” 

“Not technically night yet, Cal, we’re going to watch the sunset on the beach.  Well not on, but on the hood of my car!” Ashton smiled brightly over at Calum when he pulled into the parking lot.  Ashton seemed like he was driving to the furthest spot away from the entrance, and all the other cars, and it made Calum pause for a moment - maybe he really was being murdered.  “Stop looking so worried, I just like to play music and I don’t wanna disturb people around us.”

Once he had parked, Ashton encouraged Calum to get out so they could sit on the hood, leaning back against the windshield to watch the sunset.  Calum thought of how crazy that within a week his life had drastically changed; he got his dream career, made a new friend, and started to feel more like himself than he ever had.

“You okay?” Ashton asked, tilting his head in Calum’s direction, “What’s goin’ on in that head of yours?”

“Just thinkin’...” He trailed off, feeling Ashton bump his shoulder so he would continue.  “My life has improved so much just in the last week, and I have you to thank for that.  I went from this dorky dude who was stuck in the past, still hurt over his ex, to a passably cool mechanic who’s only looking forward to the future.”

Ashton smiled, shifting to move closer to Calum, their thighs touching, “Good.  I meant what I said before, the way he treated you was inexcusable.  You’re such a smart, funny, and talented man, it’s part of the reason I hired you, and you didn’t deserve to be treated like that.”

Calum’s breath caught in his throat when he turned his head to find Ashton inches away from his face.  Swallowing thickly, his eyes searched the man’s hazel ones, watching as they cast down to his lips, “What was the other part that you hired me for?”

The man licked his lips, slowly dragging his eyes back up to meet Calum’s, “Say the word and I won’t.  But I hired you because I didn’t want anyone else to have you.”

His words were true, that ever since he met Calum he knew he had to have him; on his staff, and just in his life in general.  Ashtons’ words were all it took for Calum to close the gap, his soft lips meeting Ashtons’ own.  Calum’s fingers tangled in the white shirt the man was wearing, pulling him closer.

Their kiss was heated, needy, and it didn’t take long to realize where these kisses were going to lead.  Ashton’s lips trailed along Calum’s jaw, his fingers gently coming to rest on Calum’s crotch and toying with the zipper.

“Ash, we’re in public--” “And?” “And? What if someone sees us and calls the cops?” Calum nervously glanced over his head to see if anyone was looking at them, only to be relieved that a majority of the pairings had dissipated, few cars left in the parking lot.

“Fuck ‘em, want you,” Ashton hummed, pressing kisses along Calum’s neck.  “Do you want this? Because we can stop.”

Calum knew it shouldn’t be sexy, but Ashton reassuring that it was okay seemed to only turn him on more, nodding feverishly, “Yes.  I want you, please.”

Ashton didn’t need to be told twice, his fingers working at the button of his jeans, sliding the zipper down soon after.  Reconnecting their lips, Calum moaned as Ashton palmed his clothed cock.  The friction of Ashton’s hand combined with the fabric of his boxers could have been enough for Calum, not having been touched in such a way in a while, but he wanted to hold off as long as he could to see what Ashton had in mind.

Leaving hot, open-mouthed kisses along his chest, Calum gasped when Ashton finally reached the waistband of his boxers, tugging them down with ease.  He could see the man lick his lips once more, which made him let out a quiet moan. 

Ashton leaned forward and began to tease the head with his tongue, hand wrapping around Calum’s length to keep it in place. A few more teasing licks, and Ashton dipped his head, taking as much of Calum in his mouth that he could all at once.  Gasping at the feeling, Calum’s eyes quickly darted around to see if anyone was watching before he tangled his fingers in Ashton’s hair.  The older man expertly bobbed his head, hollowing out his cheeks and flattening his tongue against the underside of Calum’s cock.

“Fuck.  Your mouth feels so good,” Calum whined, biting his lip to keep from being too loud, though he so wanted to.

Ashton picked up his speed, using his hand to make up the rest that he couldn’t take into his mouth.  Calum nearly came then and there when the tip hit the back of Ashton’s throat, causing him to gag slightly.  Though he wanted to, Calum knew he wouldn’t be able to hold on much longer, especially with the way Ashton was moving his tongue against him.

“Ash, m’gonna cum,” Calum whispered, just loud enough for Ashton to hear.  The final push for Calum was when Ashton took him into his mouth again, allowing the tip to hit the back of his throat despite the gagging it caused him, the sensation sending Calum over the edge.  With a whimper of Ashton’s name, and a final tug on the older man’s hair as he came, Ashton working him through it.

Once Calum had come down, he pulled Ashton in for a kiss, smirking against his lips, “Definitely wasn’t the way I was expecting my first week to go.”

Ashton chuckled, helping Calum get redressed, “Well, welcome to the team Fonzi.”

“Fonzi?” “Dunno, when you came in you kinda reminded me of Fonzi from Happy Days,” Ashton said with a small giggle, pressing his lips to Calum’s once again.

“Please, you’re more like Fonzi.  I’m like… the b-list Fonzi, a Bonzi if you will.”

“Bonzi and Fonzi? I could get used to that.”

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