#i thought i'd leave it on that note

[heartorbit]

find another role, carry on the show

[theinfinitedivides]

wi papa look a thing there for me. awa.

prefacing this with a PSA that i'm going to try and keep short but basically regardless of anything i say here let me make it known that i do believe he should apologize. whether or not he's still actively saying that word in 2024 it is something he's used in the past even if he isn't performing said play anymore/saying things like that so flippantly. granted if he does apologize there's always going to be a section of fandom that's like 'he only apologized bc he got caught' yes?????????? that's what always happens????????? lbr you're not going to get on IG and announce you killed your ex two decades ago and you'll be turning yourself in when there's an entire true crime community in the depths of the internet who will dig up the cold case + the suspiciously convenient alibi anyway without you lifting a finger. politicians who get called out for blackface in college do not go around telling people they did blackface in college. celebrities who were homophobic on this hellsite in high school back in the early 10s before they realized they were gay are not going to let you know what their handle was. this is how the world works.

that being said i must confess i caught wind of the stirrings of this a bit early bc during the clusterfuck that was the Jam vs Zamasian RPF poll (i did not go in the notes. rancid ass shit) someone had taken a screenshot of a reblog made as a 'gotcha' to Zamasian voters by implying that they were anti-Black for voting for a ship featuring an actor that said the n-word in a play he hasn't performed for several decades since, with a short taped example that the general public was not going to know how to find unless they were on a mission. i poked around, saw a couple hints here and there that implied that the clip actually existed, marked that down for future ref and went about my business. disappointing? sure. run of the mill especially among people his age in the industry from that time period who are perceived to benefit from white privilege? absolutely. the former bird identified app dragging all of this back into the light (including the interview with Chris Rock. which i have not seen though there's no way it was within the last few years for AMC to still hire Eric if they had seen it. correct me if i'm wrong pls) is unexpected but tracks for the fandom on there.

generally i don't believe in cancelling someone for things they said or did more than ten years ago if they are no longer the same person they were back then. i don't believe Jacob or Assad or any one of the staff of color who may have been working behind the scenes would have agreed to continue interacting with Eric if he had the same attitude as he did when he first wrote and performed the play. i don't believe his Black comedian niece would continue to talk about him and share photos with him if he was calling her or the Black side of her family the n-word. i am willing to give the 'Eric Bogosian n-word' reply tweet he reportedly made before deleting it shortly after the brief benefit of the doubt bc it was 1. supposedly under someone else's tweet talking about the play incident and 2. i cannot count how many times i have accidently commented/almost posted something on here or YouTube or Reddit or ao3 bc i was on mobile and once the keyboard's open the app/browser flips the fuck out and puts the search bar and the comment box too close together. now if his ass shows up and shows out and stands ten toes down while he's currently on time-out or doesn't address any of this we're dealing with a different story. if more examples of him acting like this come out i'll drop him faster than you can call the election it will be that serious.

anyway for now i'm choosing to keep an eye on this while acknowledging that us Black folks do have the right to be upset and pissed as fuck. we deal with enough racism/microaggressions in fandom spaces as it is we definitely don't need new ones, and we don't need them from the past career choice of the main cast of a show a lot of us enjoy. amen

[simgerale]

CHAPTER NINETEEN ; 3/3

TRANSCRIPT:

olette: Sheri… Is it true? Has Prince Luca awoken?

sheridan: Yes, he has.

o: But was he not deemed… lost?

s: He was.

o: [purses her lips nervously]

s: Rosebud, if you have any more questions, you’re free to ask them.

o: Well, apologies for being cautious. I was locked in my room all night, so I was not sure what I was allowed to know.

s: Touché.

o: Still… I overheard a handmaid say that the Prince was poisoned by the substance used in the war. No one—well, I thought that no one ever recovered from it.

s: That is correct. But something belonged to his highness that no one else had.

o: What was it, Sheri?

s: The empress.

[devilbrakers]

i'm like. halfway through a walkthrough for the sh2 remake and i don't hate it so far. it's def lost some of its original charm but i think that was inevitable

[navramanan]

yeom mijeong put it into words so well for me. i'm a good person i won't ask to be loved. asking for love implies you're difficult to love because you're a bad person, so you ask for it. being a good person makes you lovable enough to be loved by someone, so a good person doesn't ask to be loved. a good person is just loved, without having to ask or beg for it. i'm a good person, so why should i ask to be loved? i'm a good person, why am i not loved.

[wolpatinga]

[darkdragon768]

Went to the library with my kindergarten group today.

I was reading a book titled "useless facts for gamers" and while I was going through the "in the mushroom kingdom" chapter one fact made me happy.

"Mario Tennis 64 had a scrapped character, Warupichi"

And I went "WAPEACH SPOTTED" so hard in my mind. Common W for the W-Family.

Anyway, most of the facts I was able to read did I of course already know, ha ha.

[bugsbenefit]

i made a post entertaining the Alice-Karen theory before and i still don't know where i stand on believing it. i thought it was a complete crack theory that's just straight up disprovable by canon going into it but the insane number of odd things somehow supporting it, which i apparently never payed attention to before rewatching s4, weird me out (you can also extend it back to further seasons if you genuinely want to buy into it)

i really don't like the "and they're Related!" twist usually so i don't have a particular bias towards the theory being true. but i wanted to check it out for fairness sake to give it a chance (personal preference aside) and now i don't know what i think anymore. it's like. there's some very good arguments you can make against it. but there's also a weird amount of things that DO imply something is going for which we don't have an explanation for yet

but no matter if Karen is actually Alice

i do genuinely believe something was incomplete about Both the flashbacks to the Creel murders we saw. Victors AND Henry's version. because the story we're ultimately shown by Henry makes sense on a surface level but it also directly contradicts the timeline of events it's trying to lay out to us. Henry is either specifically leaving something out when talking to Nancy that would explain the hole in the timeline he subtly leaves OR Henry is Also an unreliable narrator because he genuinely thinks he's telling the true story like Victor did as well

i'm quite ambivalent to the Wheeler-Creel theories but i DO have thoughts on it after looking into it (i'm going to actually make posts about that at some point. arguing for and against it probably). but regardless of whether Karen is actually Alice. Something is sure going on with Alice Creel. even if she ends up being a random girl, s4 was definitely not the last we heard about her with the story we were left

[shikai-the-storyteller]

Nothing like pulling up your notes for an unfinished fic and going "This slaps actually. This is award-winning actually."

[duodusk]

lol

[risingsunresistance]

what.

[bumpscosity]

anywho i'm going back to my diamond painting and watching adventure time if you guys wanna send asks feel free to an ill get to them later :)

[sepiasys]

I am... irritated.

[Went to supermarket with B, rant below]

[know that we did however get some honeybuns and 7up and that was pleasant. I don't think I personally would have gotten the same things though; in hindsight it feels even stranger to be the one carrying everything.]

I believe it were that 🌼 was out initially, especially as we were craving something sweet. I do vaguely remember hearing our voice was slightly different there while B took us out (he needed to move/walk for relief, went to the supermarket as it was easier).

We ran into a homeless man and ended up helping him out with getting some fruit (he eventually came in after a while and got what he wanted specifically, which I am glad for as we were uncertain what specifically ('fruit cup by the cakes' was not specific enough and he got something else in the end--similar to how I had wanted to get something fruot adjacent for him anyhow)).

The reason I am irritated however, is not the homeless man. It is that at some point B had started to text someone important (this is something causing him great mental and emotional and quite possibly physical anguish), and he requested we walk ahead. We were fine initially, but any moment we stopped was met with "what are you doing?" And pleads to continue. Once he even requested that we move faster. I resolved that we simply needed to wander around.

This was greatly bothersome, if you didn't know. There were a couple moments when stopping was indeed necessary--fixing our outfit so that it did not cause issues later, for example. It is highly displeasurable to have someone insist that you keep doing something, even despite the understanding we have that he is going through a great deal of turmoil.

Even now that we are home things have not resolved. He is speaking verbally to whomever is of great importance, and gets irrationally agitated whenever we are visible at all. He requested for us to stay in our room for this. Yes, I understand why, but when I am simply walking and paying you no mind, YOU DO NOT DEMAND THAT I HURRY UP AND LEAVE REPEATEDLY. I do not owe it to you that I scurry away like a frightened little animal for your own comfort, even if you are having a tough time. Do not treat me as such.

[cinammonelles]

The brushbug post sure blew up huh

[empresskylo]

ghost knows he’s too rough and impatient with sex. knows he won’t know how to please you properly. knows he can’t possibly do things right with you, knowing you’ve never done this before. but god, he wants to. he wants to treat you how you deserve. never thought he’d be so desperate to fuck someone good and slow like he does with you.

so he goes to price. the one man who will know all the right ways to please a lady properly. asks him to show him how to take care of you. tells him he doesn't know how to care for someone else's needs, at least with someone inexperienced like you. tells him he needs to be instructed. to see just how he should work you.

you’re nervous at first, thinking it’s an absolutely insane idea, but you can’t hide the wetness along your panties as you sit on ghost’s lap, back pressed against his chest, legs spread, his knuckle dragging down your warmth. price sits back in his chair, telling ghost exactly how to move his fingers, paying close attention to your body's minuscule movements, the way your brows furrow when ghost moves a certain way, or your eyelashes fluttering.

and this was supposed to be a strictly hands-off approach… but god, watching ghost fumble, unable to maintain the slow speed you need, keeping you from reaching your orgasm, has price on edge. he leans forward, rolling his chair with him, and tells ghost to stop. tells him to watch and to pay close attention. price tears your panties off and your eyes go wide at the contact. you swallow, expecting ghost to be furious, but his hands only settle around you and he takes notes as he watches his captain work.

price runs his thumb up your slit, circling your nub, and tells ghost to hold your thighs apart when you unconsciously try to clench them. then his finger is sinking into you and your head falls back against ghost's chest, eyes shut. you moan and you feel ghost harden beneath you. “how’s that feel, sweetheart?” price asks you. you babble out incoherently, price adding a second finger, and chuckling darkly at your response.

it becomes too much, his fingers thrusting in and out of you, his other hand rubbing your clit, ghost's fingers digging into the softness of your thighs as he forces them apart. “ohmygod,” you slur, “m’gonna—“ price smirks, his eyes darkening as he watches you orgasm, your body clenching around his fingers shoved deep in your heat. "talk her through it," price tells ghost. so ghost does. you're shaking still and ghost rubs his hands over your exposed skin. "that's it, baby. you're doin' s'good," he praises.

"whata fuckin' sight," price mumbles to himself, his fingers leaving you empty. you steady your breathing, coming down from your high, completely limp in ghost's arms. price can see the way ghost's eyes have gone dark, his pupils swallowing his irises whole. knows ghost doesn't know how to be soft. sees the feral need to ram himself into you overtaking his features. "gonna take it slow with her, yeah?" price asks.

ghost breathes rapidly out, his hips begging to buck up against you. he knows he wouldn't be able to control himself if you let him fuck you. so he answers honestly. "not sure I'd be able to."

price tsks, sitting back in thought, his eyes roving over your spent body. you suddenly feel shy, wanting to close your legs, but ghost's arms tighten on you. "need me t'break her in?" price finally asks after several long beats of silence.

ghost grinds up against you, his hand sliding into your hair and pulling your head to the side so he can kiss your neck. your eyes flutter at his attempts to be so delicate with you. "want the captain here to be your first time, love?" ghost asks against your skin. you stutter when you answer. "don't you want to be?" "course I do. but I won't go easy on ya. I'd hate to ruin you, sweet girl. price will take it nice n' slow. just like you need." and after, you'll be ready to take ghost. ready to adjust to his size.

you swallow hard, ghost's hands escaping and clawing at your clothed chest. you nod. "o-okay."

price stands from his chair and begins to undo his belt. "come sit on my desk, sweetheart."

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[sals-soup]

Forgive me people on ao3... forgive me... people on ao3... forgive me