#and you acknowledge it. but leave it there. and continue your inaction
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navramanan · 1 year ago
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yeom mijeong put it into words so well for me. i'm a good person i won't ask to be loved. asking for love implies you're difficult to love because you're a bad person, so you ask for it. being a good person makes you lovable enough to be loved by someone, so a good person doesn't ask to be loved. a good person is just loved, without having to ask or beg for it. i'm a good person, so why should i ask to be loved? i'm a good person, why am i not loved.
#thinking thoughts are being thunk idk#is this something?#i had difficulties interpreting that mantra so i can understand it#and this is how i understand it#i think yeom mijeong might not agree with this but to me this also applies to people who claim to love you but dont make you feel loved#by putting their words into action. by showing they love you by showing they care for you#so the way i see ''i'm a good person i wont ask to be loved''#is i wont ask for your affection i wont ask you to show you care wont ask you to show up for me#am i not good enough of a person for you to do that without me asking for it?#i understand it's a thin line between communicating your needs and not asking to be loved and simplying wanting to be loved#i also believe there's some bare minimum things you should do. especially after i've communicated with you that theyre important to me#as a baseline to see you do care for me. you do think about me. you do want to see me to talk to me to spend time with me#and you acknowledge it. but leave it there. and continue your inaction#and i'm left in a horrible fucking position bc ur important enough for me to not want to cut you off for this reason#i'm left to sit in that position bc i only have very few people i cherish in my life and most of them act this way#if i were to cut them off i'd be left rotting away by my own#which is better. that or to live with a couple people you know love you but dont show you they do so you have this gaping hole inside you#idk this is just me doing a whole lot of yapping#nesi rants#my liberation notes
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atomicami · 5 months ago
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contractor!abby anderson x joel’s daughter!reader
- summary: you spend the night out at a bar and decide to challenge yourself on the mechanical bull to impress abby. when abby sees you from the crowd, she ends up giving you something else to take a ride on. (part 4)
- content: smut MDNI, porn with plot, no outbreak/modern au, contractor/engineer!abby, texas living, no sarah, joel and jerry are both alive, jerry is not a doctor, reader has a business degree, family & work drama, bar setting, some alcohol consumption, truck sex (bit of a quickie), fingering (a!receiving), strap usage (r!receiving), strap sucking, abby referring to the strap as her cock, basically save a horse ride a cowgirl tbh 🤠
- author’s note: hi everyone… i know i’ve been very inactive this year but this part has actually been sitting in my drafts since march so i figured i’d at least post it for the few people who’ve been waiting this long to read it, i hope y’all enjoy it
previous parts: quick fix, surprise visit, charity work
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It’s been a week since the bake sale, meaning that it’s also been a week since Abby last had her hands on you.
You’d be lying if you said that this week was flying slow for you right now, because to your surprise, seven days flew by like seven minutes, and before you knew it, it was officially Saturday.
You’re sitting in your room by your dresser, fully dressed from head to toe in the finest Western apparel that you own, finishing the touches on your makeup in the mirror. You then look down at your phone for a moment, still eyeing the last text that Abby had sent you.
She invited you to go to Wild Randy’s tonight, and while you were excited to see her again, you were dreading it at the same time.
It was mainly because Wild Randy’s was the go-to place for you and Joel, and as bad as you want to sneak off with Abby again, you knew that you’d also have to make sure you wouldn’t get caught by your dad either.
You take a few deep breaths before standing up and adjusting your belt, then grabbing your phone and bag before exiting your bedroom.
“Dad! I’m ready to go!” you call out as you strut down the stairs. Given that you always take longer than him to get ready, you figured he’d be sitting on the couch waiting for you, but to your surprise, he wasn’t there.
“Dad? Where are you?” you call out for him again, entering the kitchen to find it empty as well. You roam around the house for a bit before entering the garage, seeing him still in his work clothes working on blueprints. “Dad…are you not coming?”
Joel looks up at you, frowning once he sees you ready to leave. “Oh, shit…it’s Saturday isn’t it?” he says, taking a deep breath before continuing. “I’m sorry kid, I know we go to Randy’s every Saturday but…work’s just been tyin’ me down lately.”
You nod to your dad in acknowledgment. “Well, we can skip tonight if—“
“No, no, no, s’alright,” he says, quickly cutting off your words. “You go. There’s always next weekend right?” he looks down for a moment at his workspace before looking back up at you. “Are you gonna drive yourself there or…?”
“Oh, um it’s okay Dad, I can text Dina for a ride.” you take a few steps closer to him before continuing. “Are you sure you’ll be okay?” you ask him, receiving a nod from him in response.
“Okay, well…don’t stay up too late, we have to go to the hardware store next week to start getting supplies for the Mitchell home.” you remind him as you walk your way to the door.
Joel clicks his tongue at you in response. “Thanks for remindin’ me, kid. Don’t have too much fun out there, alright?”
You smile and nod back at him before leaving the garage. Even though you felt bad that your dad couldn’t come, you can’t help but feel relieved about it either. With your dad out of the way, you’d be able to get some time with Abby without the risk of getting caught by him.
You pull out your phone to send a text to Dina telling her to pick you up, and in less than ten minutes she was already honking at your door. While checking to make sure you have everything, you exit your house before locking it, walking down the porch to see Dina inside her car with the windows rolled down.
“Hey, you!” she shouts out, leaning forward over her steering wheel. “Ready for Randy’s?”
“You bet I am!” you shout back to her as you hurriedly get into the passenger side of her car and sit down.
The ride to Wild Randy’s was pretty quick, given that there’s never a rush hour on Saturdays. Aside from the twenty minutes it took Dina to find an available parking spot, the two of you were now quickly settled at the bar.
“So tell me, how’s it going with you and Abby?” Dina asks you as you both sit yourselves down on the bar stools.
Before you can respond to her, Jesse ends up cutting in from behind the bar with two beers in his hand. “Wait a second, you’ve been having a thing with Anderson?” he asks you, popping open the two bottles before handing them to you and Dina. “Didn’t you say that your dad doesn’t want you around her?”
You nod to him in response. “Yeah, and I mean I’ve been doing that for what, four, five years now? But I needed her to come over a few weeks ago to fix an outlet in my living room and it just like…happened, you know?” you explained, taking a sip from your beer.
Dina quickly gulped and set her bottle back down on the bar. “Wait a minute…is that why you were acting so weird during movie night?”
“Yeah…” you tell her with a nod, taking another sip out of your beer. “Anyways, she told me she was going to be here today so…” your words drift off as you turn your head around in search of her, and you are quick to catch her entering the bar with her group of friends. Not only that, but her father was also nowhere to be seen.
It was the first time you saw Abby like this, outside of work and not in her work clothes for once. She was wearing a pair of jeans instead of her usual cargo pants, a pair of western boots instead of her usual work ones, and her tool belt was ditched for a leather belt with a metal buckle on the center. She also had on a tight button-up that showed off her muscles, and to top it all off, a cowboy’s hat that rested over her braided blond hair.
You hate to admit it, but she was looking pretty damn good right now.
Dina suddenly snaps her fingers at you to get your attention, causing you to swivel your chair back around. “She’s there right now isn’t she?” she asks you, receiving a nod from you in response.
“Yeah, I want to go talk to her but…” your words drift off again as you turn back to see her. As you check her out, you notice from the corner of your eye some movement going on towards your left. You fully swivel your chair around this time to get a better look. It appeared to be a group of employees carrying out a large mechanical bull inside an inflatable ring, while another employee stood next to them, giving them orders on where to position the machine.
“Jesse,” you call out to him, swiveling your stool back to face him. “They’re bringing back the bull?”
Jesse looks up briefly to see the mechanical bull being set up before looking back down and pouring some contents into a cocktail shaker. “Yeah, we’ve been getting so many requests to bring it back up after our last bull broke down last year,” he explains as he continues preparing the cocktail for the customer in front of him.
You briefly look back at the bull for a moment, then look over to where Abby was. At that moment, an idea instantly sparked in your mind. What better way could there be to catch Abby’s attention than impressing her by taking a ride on the mechanical bull?
The sound of a loud microphone tap shakes you out of your thoughts, and you look over to see the bar’s owner standing in front of the bull with the microphone in his hand. “Ladies and gentlemen!” he calls out, quickly grabbing the attention of all the patrons inside the dimly lit bar. “I’m pleased to announce that we now have our brand new and improved mechanical bull back into our bar!” he announces, quickly receiving cheers and applause from the customers. “Now who in here…” he says, pointing a finger around the bar. “Is gonna be the first one to be brave enough and take her for a ride?”
You look around the bar to see several amounts of people already preparing themselves for the challenge. Part of you wanted to not do it, but a bigger part of you wanted to ride that damn bull like there was no tomorrow. You were willing to do it, just for the sake of impressing Abby. Neither of your dads were here right now, so who knows when you could get another opportunity like this? It was either now or never.
“I’ll do it!” you shout out, quickly raising your hand to get the owner’s attention.
Dina quickly grabs your hand and pulls it down to your lap. “What are you doing? Are you seriously gonna ride that thing?” she asks with concern.
You open your mouth to respond, but you’re cut off by the owner shouting at you. “You right there! Come on up here!”
You look over at the man before back at Dina. “I guess I am now,” you tell her with a shrug, hopping off of the bar stool and approaching your way towards the ring.
As you walk away from the bar, Jesse comes to Dina from behind, leaning into her side. “I’ll bet you $20 that she won’t last the full five minutes.”
You watch the owner squint to try to get a better look at you as you get closer to the inflatable ring. “Well well well, what do we have here!” he says as you make it to the ring, now standing next to him. “If it isn’t Joel Miller’s daughter herself. You think you’ll be able to handle the bull, Miss Miller?” he asks, pointing the microphone towards you.
You grab the mic from the owner and hold it closer to yourself. “Well, I guess we’ll have to see but…I think I could handle her,” you tell him with confidence before handing the mic back to him.
Numerous amounts of patrons clap and cheer you on in response. As the owner continues to speak to the audience, you step into the inflatable ring, watching as your boots sink inside. You look at your surroundings for a moment, seeing all of the customers placing their bidding money into a hat and passing it around the bar. The hat goes around past Abby as well, and you could’ve sworn she had slipped a hundred-dollar bill in there for you. Her eyes then meet with yours for a moment, and so does that stupid smirk of hers.
“Alright Miss Miller, you have five minutes up on the clock now, if you can make it to the end, you win the bidding money, got it?” the owner explains to you.
You nod at him in acknowledgment. “Sounds like a plan to me.”
You then turn back around so you’re facing the bull. You take a few steps backward as a head start, then quickly run forward and hop on top of the bull. Your hands quickly grab onto the handles, and you keep your legs wrapped around the sides of the bull. Lastly, you position your hips on the bull by pushing them forward, keeping yourself as close as possible to the saddle.
The bull was quickly activated as soon as you sat down, and so was the timer. The machine began to rock back and forth, slowly to start. Once you felt like you were getting the hang of it, that’s when the speed began to go faster. Your grip on the bull progressively gets tighter and tighter the more that the speed increases. It eventually escalated to the fullest speed, the bull now moving and spinning around like crazy. Time has never flown by slower for you than at this moment. On the inside, you were getting so dizzy to where you were going to be sick. But you couldn’t express that. Not in front of the audience. Not in front of Abby.
Regardless of it, you refused to let go. You held onto the bull like your life depended on it, waiting for the timer to count down to zero. Five minutes felt more like an eternity to you right now, but you soon start to feel relief once you hear the audience begin to count down.
Ten, nine, eight…
You lock down your grip on the bull’s handles.
Seven, six, five…
Your legs remain secure on each side of the saddle, and your hips push forward against it. As much as you were trying to hold onto the bull, you couldn’t help but imagine your hips pushing forward on Abby’s str—
Four, three, two, one!
The timer goes off, and the bull begins to slow itself down. As the machine comes to a stop, you instantly loosen your grip on it. You let out a breath of relief as you look up, watching all of the patrons cheer and applaud you. One of the employees approaches to help you, and you carefully hop off the bull before exiting the ring.
“I have to say you did phenomenal on that bull there, Miss Miller.” the owner tells you through the mic, handing you the bidding money. “Anything you wanna say to the audience?”
You take the money from his hands before taking the microphone. “Well, first of all, thank you all for bidding on me, and second…” you pause for a moment before continuing. “And I don’t mean to self-promote but…if anyone here needs any construction help…be sure to contact my dad’s company, Miller Contracting. We’re the best in all of Austin.” your eyes scan around the audience before your gaze fixes on Abby. You keep your eyes on her for a little bit, smirking at her before looking back at the audience and walking off, a last set of applause happening as you do so.
You make your way back to the spot where Jesse and Dina remain. “See? Told y’all I’d beat that thing,” you say, flaunting your bidding money in front of them. Jesse leans forward on the bar to get closer to you. “Mind if I get a cut of that?” he asks, trying to grab the money from your hand.
You move your hand away from him and shake your head. “Hell no, I won this fair and square,” you tell him, clutching the money close to your chest. “Besides, didn’t you bid against me anyway?”
Jesse scoffs, still leaning forward on the bar. “Yeah, but I still have rent to pay,” he replies before taking his weight off the bar to assist another customer.
You simply roll your eyes at him and chuckle in response as you count your money. “Don’t be so dramatic, it’s not even that much—“ your words quickly cut off once you notice something unusual on the hundred-dollar bill. You pull it out of the thin stack, seeing a note attached to it that reads:
“Meet me at the parking lot in five. —A”
You smirk to yourself upon reading the message, not even realizing that you were doing so until Dina points it out. “She wants you to go see her, doesn’t she?” she asks, crossing her arms at you.
You simply nod at her in acknowledgment. “Yeah, she does…” you reply, reaching to the bar to grab the rest of your things before saying goodbye to Jesse and Dina. Upon leaving, you look over to see Abby on the other side of the bar. You watch as she pays for her beer and leaves from the other exit. The thrill and excitement starts to consume you already in seeing her again.
The cool air hits you once you exit the bar. You roam around the parking lot in search of her until you hear a faint whistling sound from behind. You turn around to see Abby’s prominent figure from a distance leaning on the side of her truck. You don’t approach her quickly though. Instead, you take your time walking your way towards her.
“Well, well, well…if it isn’t the bull tamer herself…” Abby says, taking her weight off the truck. “You looked good up there, you know…riding that thing.”
You smirk and take a step closer to her. “I’m glad. Wanted to put on a show for you there,” you tell her quietly, and she leans in to give you a kiss, the rim of her cowboy hat slightly brushing over the top of your head as your lips briefly connect.
“You know…” she tells you quietly, slightly separating her lips from yours. “I’ve got something else that you can take a ride on for me…”
“Oh yeah?” you whisper back to her. “And what might that be?”
“Why don’t you hop in my truck and find out?”
And with that you take a step back, letting Abby unlock her truck before opening the passenger door and entering inside. Upon opening the door, you couldn’t help but notice that the windows in Abby’s truck were slightly darker than the last time you saw it…did she seriously get her windows tinted?
Abby holds the door open for you, and you quickly climb inside and hop onto her lap before she closes the door and locks it, now confining the both of you inside. Your thighs wrap themselves around Abby’s lab and you push your hips forward over her crotch, just like how you did on the bull. You could practically feel the bulge of her strap under all that denim.
Abby lets out a soft groan at the sudden friction. “How about you get it wet for me first, yeah?” she says, reaching down to the lever on the bottom part of the seat and pushing it back to give you some space on the ground.
You don’t even think twice about it, instantly dropping down to your knees and unzipping her jeans before pulling the thick black strap out of her boxers. After seeing the sight of it, you were pretty shocked. You didn’t get a good look when she fucked you last time, but now that it’s in your hands, you’re amazed that you were able to take the immense length of Abby’s strap.
Your fingers wrap around the large piece of silicone before you lean into it, lips instantly wrapping around the tip. You gently suck onto the tip for a moment, then slowly work your way down to the base of the strap. However, your mouth couldn’t last being down so deep, so you briefly pull it back up to the tip before going back down, repeatedly continuing your movements thereafter.
Abby lets out a quiet groan as she feels the base of her strap rubbing against her clit. Replacing your mouth with your hand, you look up for a moment to see her head slightly tilted back, her cowboy hat obstructing her view as well.
You keep stroking her strap with one hand, spreading your saliva all over from base to tip to distract her. As you do that, you use your other hand to gently shift the harness to the side and sneak your fingers into the crotch of her boxers, instantly finding access to her wet pussy before sliding two of them inside.
Abby notices the sudden shift of movement and looks down at you. “What the hell are you—oh fuck—“ her words get cut off with a quiet groan as you begin to curl her fingers inside of her. “Oh fuck yeah, k-keep doing that…”
You smirk back at her as you continue to pump your fingers inside her, now fully diverting your attention away from the strap for a moment. Your other hand moves to keep the harness of the strap pushed to the side while you finger Abby’s pussy, and you look up to keep an eye on her every movement—the way her hands grip the seat of the truck, the moans and whines escaping from her mouth, and how her eyes were tightly shut and the head was thrown back in pleasure. You’d be lying if you said that the way she looked right now wasn’t turning you on because you can just easily feel your arousal pooling in between your thighs as you do this to her.
“God, fucking hell—go…go faster…” Abby whines out to you, tightening her grip on the seat as she manspreads herself farther on it to give you more space. You simply nod in acknowledgment, speeding up your pace inside her in a desperate effort to get her to cum.
You can visibly see her breaths getting deeper, and you can practically feel the way her cunt began to contract around your two fingers, knowing that she was getting close. Within moments, your fingers get instantly coated with her release as she cums around them with a loud groan. Her breathing soon slows down as she recovers from her orgasm and she looks back down at you. Your gaze stays fixed on hers while you slide your fingers out of her pussy and place them into your mouth, sucking them clean while you get a taste of her release.
“My god…” Abby pants out, still trying to catch her breath. “No one’s ever made me cum that fast before…you’re good at this too, you know.”
You smirk back at her as you sit back for a moment, briefly resting your weight on the back of your boots. “Looks like you’re not the only one who’s good at making a quick fix, Anderson.” the blonde simply shakes her head at you in response before patting her hand on her lap. “Your turn now, angel. Get on up here.”
Without hesitation, you slowly lift yourself from the floor of the truck and climb onto Abby’s lap in the passenger seat, her large hands quickly roaming up and down your hips as you do so. You watch as she scrunches up your skirt around your hips and brings one of her hands down to the crotch of your underwear, smirking once she senses the wetness underneath it. “Looks like she’s pretty eager to take a ride, don’t you think?”
You nod quickly in response, and you lift yourself to hover over the strap. Abby helps you out by shifting your underwear to the side and spreading your puffy folds open. You grab the strap with one hand to align it with your entrance while you grab onto Abby’s shoulder with the other to support yourself as you go down.
The tip meets with your entrance, and you whimper at the sudden stretch. Your grip on Abby’s shoulder tightens as you try to maintain your balance over her lap. And then, little by little…you begin to sink down her strap, all the way until your folds were pressing over the base of it.
Once the entire length was inside you, you used your other hand to grab Abby’s other shoulder for balance. The feeling this time was a little more difficult to handle in comparison to how Abby had fucked you at the bake sale. You weren’t bent over, nor did you have the support of the counter either. You were completely sat upright, in the confined passenger seat of Abby’s truck, with her strap so far inside you that she could visibly see the tip poking out of your lower stomach. It sure felt overwhelming, to say the least.
“Fuck…you look good for me like this…” she mutters out quietly as she runs her thumbs down your stomach, gently pressing onto the bulge that was being formed from her strap. She watches as you continue to stay upright, now squirming in her grasp as a response to the pressure she was giving to your stomach. “You know…it’s not gonna feel any better if you don’t move.” she continues, now bringing one hand further down to rub your clit. “Take a ride on it, princess…It’ll feel good once you start moving.”
Your eyes flicker down to the watch that was wrapped around Abby’s left wrist. You glance at the time.
10:39…10:40.
You take a deep breath and tighten your grip on Abby’s broad shoulders. As her hands remain planted on your body, you begin to lift yourself up before going straight back down. You repeat the process, now developing a slow pace on her strap.
Abby smirks as she looks up at you, watching every moan and whimper escape from your lips as you fuck yourself on her cock. “There we go, that’s it…atta girl…” her praises and coos continue, now leading you to move at a faster pace. As you begin to ride her faster, Abby notices how close your head is getting to the ceiling of her truck every time you go up. While keeping one hand planted on you, she quickly takes off her cowboy hat and places it on your head, fixing up the rim so she can still see you. “Prettiest cowgirl I’ve ever seen,” she mutters out quietly, placing her hand back onto your hip as you keep riding her.
As you keep riding Abby’s strap, you take a glance out the window, making you slow down to get a better look. You see some people leaving the bar and walking their way back to their vehicles, and your heart begins fucking racing when they pass by Abby’s truck, completely oblivious of the events that are happening inside it.
“Hey,” Abby squeezes your hip, causing you to direct your attention back to her. “They’re not seeing any of this, you know…” she pauses for a moment before continuing. “But I bet you want them to, don’t you? It’s obvious you enjoyed throwing on that little show back there at the bar earlier, so would this be any different?” she asks, leaning in to kiss you. “Would it be any different if those same people saw a pretty cowgirl like you slutting herself out for me like this? Riding my cock and making a mess all over my lap? Hm?”
You whine back at her, shaking your head. “Yeah, I knew you’d like that, my filthy little cowgirl…” she responds with a smirk. “But you see, that’s why I have all of my windows tinted now…because I don’t want anyone to see what’s really mine.”
Your pussy practically throbs at her words. You were so distracted by what Abby was saying to you that didn’t even realize that you had stopped riding her. Your arousal was now just soaking up her cock and jeans. Abby looks down at her lap and smirks before looking back up at you. “I didn’t tell you to stop now, did I?” she asks, giving you a smack on your ass. “C’mon, cowgirl…keep fucking riding me.”
Your pace now begins to quicken this time, and you move your left hand to the armrest that was above your head, gripping it as you keep your other hand on her shoulder. “F-fuck, Abby…f-feels so good….” you moan out to her, your eyes fluttering shut for a moment as the tip of her strap presses onto your cervix while you ride.
“Oh yeah? Does it feel good, princess?” she asks, admiring how you were starting to go dumb on her cock. “That’s it, keep riding me, just like that…Ride me just like how you were riding that damn bull.”
Abby’s words had your stomach doing fucking flips. You tried your best to maintain your fast pace as you rode her strap, but your legs were quickly starting to give out. “A-Abby, help me…please…”
“Aw, you poor thing, getting tired already now aren’t you?” Without any warning, Abby tightens her grip on your hips and begins to slam her cock right into you. You yelp in surprise as your left hand flies from the armrest back onto Abby’s shoulder, and you continue to push your hips down as Abby keeps thrusting inside you. “C’mon cowgirl, be a good girl and cum for me now…”
Your cunt begins to clench around her strap, indicating that you were about to cum. Abby looks down at your pussy, watching in awe as a white ring began to quickly form on her strap. Her thumb meets with your clit, quickly rubbing it as you continue to cum all over her cock, whimpering and moaning out her name as you do so.
As you finish riding out your orgasm, your pace begins to slow down and you rest yourself on Abby’s chest, panting deeply as you try to catch your breath. Before Abby pulls herself out, you grab her left wrist again and glance back down at her watch.
10:43…10:44.
“Four minutes,” Abby says, looking down at her watch. “Looks like you made a new record.”
You playfully push her arm back as she brings her hand back onto your hip and slowly pulls her strap out of your fucked out pussy, causing you to whine at the loss of it. Keeping you in her arms, Abby trades places with you and carefully rests your limp body onto the seat while briefly she gets onto the ground. She peeks through the fogged up windows, making sure that the coast was clear so she could get out of the truck.
As you watch Abby hop off her truck, your eyes start to feel heavy from the exhaustion before quickly fluttering shut for a moment. As your eyes were closed, you could feel Abby’s large hands move your body around before the sudden warmth of her tongue makes contact with your sore cunt, causing you to involuntarily jerk away.
“Hey, relax…I’m just cleaning you up a bit,” she mutters out to you. You simply nod in response, eyes remaining shut as your body eases in and relaxes into her touch again. The gentle movements of Abby’s tongue and lips on your pussy easily removes the tension in your thighs, making you feel as if you were now sinking into the leather of the seat. You then start to feel some shifting of your clothes along with the sounds of the truck doors opening and closing right before you briefly fall into a state of slumber.
The sudden rumbling movements of the truck cause your eyes to slowly flicker back open. You wake up to find yourself lying on your left side in the passenger seat, but now with the seatbelt secured over you. The dim lights of the truck are no longer present, only the faint brightness of the music player on the dashboard is the only thing illuminating your vision right now. The sounds of the few cars on the road surround you, along with the country music quietly playing inside as well. You look up to see Abby with her gaze fixed on the road, with one hand planted firmly on the steering wheel while the other simply rested over on the center console.
You rest your hand on top of hers, and Abby quickly notices that gentle touch of yours, briefly glancing down to look at you. “Hey there…” she says with a smile before looking back up at the road. “You were out for most of the ride, feeling any better?” she asks, gently enclosing your hand into her large palm.
You shift around in your seat, no longer feeling as sore as you were before. “Yeah, a little…” you tell her, resting your head back on the seat as you watch her drive. “I had a really good time tonight, you know…” you tell her, to which she smiles in response.
“I did too,” she replies, quickly looking over to you again. “Felt nice to finally escape from our dads for once.”
The speed of the truck soon starts to slow down before coming to a halt. Your heart instantly sinks to the pit of your stomach, and your smile begins to fade. You knew what this meant.
It meant that you were back home. Your time with Abby was now up.
You unbuckle your seatbelt and sit up completely to look over at the sight of your house. All of the lights were shut off, except for the faint blue light of the living room TV, and you could easily see your dad’s head tilted to the side, indicating that he was now asleep.
You let out a sigh. “I…I don’t want to go back in there,” you say, turning your head back to look at Abby. She simply sighs and gently rubs your shoulder. “I know you don’t, angel…but we can’t risk it. As much as I can’t stand your dad, I don’t want him to get worried about you either.”
Your head hangs low now, nodding in acknowledgment. Abby’s hand gently holds your chin to lift your face. “You know this won’t be the last time, right?” she asks you, to which you nod again.
“I know, I just…I’ll miss you, Abs…who knows when we’ll see each other again?” you ask back, looking up into her soft blue eyes. She nods back at you in response. “It’ll happen again soon, okay? Just know that I’m always gonna have you on my mind, alright?” she says before quickly leaning in to kiss you, the rim of her hat on your head brushing over her hair this time as she does so.
You instantly kiss her back before pulling away to grab your things from the ground. You take a deep breath and open the door, exiting the truck and closing it. Your boots now meet with the concrete of the sidewalk, and you walk your way to the front door of your house. Before you go in, you look back to see Abby watching you from her truck, and you two give each other a final wave before she drives off to park into the driveway of her house.
As the lights of Abby’s truck shut off now, you turn back to the door to unlock it. You slowly open the door just enough to squeeze yourself inside before closing it and locking it again. You turn around to see Joel fast asleep on his recliner while the TV screen illuminates the whole room. Without making a sound, you tiptoe on over to pick up the remote from the coffee table and shut off the TV. You set the remote back down and turn over to pick up a throw blanket from the couch to tuck your dad in before heading upstairs to your bedroom.
The door creaks slightly as you enter inside. You slowly close the door before letting out a sigh as you set your bag down on the ground before kicking off your boots. You take off Abby’s hat and set it on top of your dresser before the rest of your clothes come off of you and to the ground until you’re down to your underwear. You pick up a random oversized shirt from your dad’s company and throw it on. As you’re taking off your makeup, your phone buzzes on your bed, and you reach over to pick it up.
“Abby: I’ll be thinking of you.”
You look up from the screen to your right, seeing her broad silhouette in the bedroom window across from yours. The two of you stare at each other for a bit, until you wave her off and get into bed, to which she does the same right after.
Not only was this the first night the two of you had officially spent alone together, but it was also the first night where you both just couldn’t take each other off of your minds now.
And all you could do was just wait until your path meets with hers again.
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⇥ pairing: ot8 ateez x fem! reader
⇥ warnings: self deprication but thats it I think :O, mentions of suggestive content
⇥ word count: 9.1k
⇥ a/n: hello guys, it has been a while. sorry for my inactivity and all the people waiting for new chapters, i havent been very well the past few months. i am okay though!! i hope you enjoy this chapter even though it is somewhat of a filler
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Finishing typing the last sentence of your assignment, a sense of accomplishment washes over you. But even in that moment of triumph, the proposition from your roommates continues to occupy your thoughts. It had been a distraction throughout the day, and it had affected your ability to concentrate on your work.
The internal struggle you are experiencing is rooted in a mix of emotions. You yearned for the affection and love your roommates offered, wanting to be part of a relationship that felt incredibly meaningful. But doubts lingered in the back of your mind, like shadows in the corners of your thoughts.
‘Am I good enough?’ The question had haunted you throughout the day. You wondered if you were deserving of their affections, if you could truly measure up to their standards. Insecurity gnaws at you, and you can’t help but compare yourself to the admirers and fans your roommates had.
The cryptic message you had received added another layer of uncertainty. You were aware of the intense scrutiny and potential backlash that came with being in a relationship with the ‘famous’ campus group. The fear of facing hate and criticism from others weighs heavily on your mind, making you wonder if you have the strength to endure it.
Your curtains are open, allowing the dim, amber light from the streetlights outside to filter into your room. It's nighttime, and the glow of the streetlights casts soft, gentle patterns on your walls. The air in your room is crisp, and the faint aroma of dinner cooking wafts through the air, creating a cosy and inviting atmosphere. Your laptop sits on your desk, its screen illuminating your face as you sit in quiet contemplation, lost in your thoughts and the gentle ambiance of the night.
Closing your laptop, your roommates' proposition still loomed large, a complex and challenging choice that required careful consideration. You knew that the path ahead wouldn't be easy, but you also knew that your feelings for them were genuine and deep. 
Suddenly, a knock resounds on your door.
"____, dinner is ready," San's voice reaches you through the wooden door.
You close your laptop and push back your chair, acknowledging his call. "Coming," you respond, but the weakness in your voice doesn't escape San's notice.
Stepping out of your room, you find San waiting for you in the hallway, his brow furrowed and concern evident in his eyes.
"Are you okay?" he asks, his voice gentle, as he takes in the change in your usual behaviour.
You pause for a moment, meeting San's gaze with a mixture of gratitude and apprehension. It is clear that he sensed something was amiss, and you appreciated his concern. You manage a faint smile, but it doesn't quite reach your eyes as you offer a reassuring nod. 
"I'm fine," you say, a small white lie slipping past your lips. You didn't want to burden San with your worries or concerns, not when they were already so caring and supportive.
“You aren't good at lying, sweetheart.” San's expression remains filled with concern, the nickname making your heart skip a beat. 
"It's nothing, San," you say with a forced smile, though it doesn't quite reach your eyes. You walk past him into the dining room without making much eye contact, leaving him with a gnawing feeling of concern in the pit of his stomach.
San watches you go, his brows furrowing deeper with worry. He knows you well enough to sense when something is wrong, and tonight, something definitely doesn't seem right. Your usual enthusiasm and energy have been replaced by a quiet reserve that's completely out of character.
As he makes his way to the kitchen, he can't help but feel a growing unease. San has come to know that you have a tendency to keep your worries to yourself, often trying to spare others from your burdens. But tonight, it feels different, and he can't shake the feeling that you might be going through something you're not sharing.
In the kitchen, he finds Hongjoong, who's busy with some last-minute preparations for dinner. San doesn't waste any time and approaches him, his voice low and filled with concern. 
"Hey, Joong, have you noticed anything strange about ____? She's been acting really off tonight."
Hongjoong, focused on his task, pauses and looks at San, his brows furrowing in response to the worried tone in San's voice. 
"Off? What do you mean?"
San briefly explains how you've been unusually quiet and distant, and how your smile seems forced. Hongjoong's expression shifts from curiosity to deep concern as he listens.
"Thanks for letting me know, San," Hongjoong says, his own worry now evident. He sets down the utensils he was holding and sighs, his thoughts consumed by concern for you. "We should keep an eye on her. Maybe after dinner, we can talk to her and see if there's anything she wants to share, just in case there’s something bothering her.."
Just as they're discussing their concerns, Mingi, who had been in the hallway and overhears their conversation, joins them with a troubled expression. He hadn't meant to eavesdrop, but the gravity of the situation had drawn him in.
"What's going on, guys?" Mingi asks, his voice laced with worry. "Is something wrong with ____?"
San and Hongjoong exchange a glance, realising that their concerns had been overheard. Hongjoong explains the situation to Mingi, filling him in on your unusual behaviour and the sense of unease that had settled over the house.
Mingi's expression darkens with worry, as Hongjoong and San scurry to continue preparing for dinner, Mingi takes a deep breath, feeling the weight of his words pressing on him. He clears his throat, his voice steady but filled with concern.
"I've noticed it too," Mingi begins, his eyes darting between San and Hongjoong. “She was really quiet when we walked home today, usually she talks about her day in detail…”
Mingi’s voice trails off and Hongjoong notices he has more to say.
“What is it, Mingi?” He asks, concerned.
"I can’t help thinking about what she told us the other day, about her depression and the night up on the rooftop.”
San leans against the counter, his brow furrowed in sadness as he remembers your heart piercing words. 
“I'm worried that whatever's bothering her tonight might be related to that. I hope it's nothing too serious, but... I can't help but worry if it's making her have those thoughts again.” Mingi lowers his voice and walks towards the two, “her anxiety has been really bad recently, she had an extreme anxiety attack a while ago, I thought her mind had slipped completely."
San and Hongjoong exchange glances, their worry deepening as they absorb Mingi's revelation.
Hongjoong nods, his expression determined. "We need to talk to her, then. Make sure she knows we're here for her, no matter what."
Mingi and San both agree, and their shared worry for you becomes the driving force behind their preparations for dinner. They want tonight to be an opportunity for you to open up, to share whatever is weighing on your mind, and to remind you that you're not alone in this journey. Mental health is something they take seriously, and they're ready to offer their support in any way they can.
Seonghwa, who is seated beside you, shoots you a concerned glance as he notices your quietness as you enter the room, along with your distant expression. 
"Hey," he says softly, reaching out to gently touch your hand. "Is everything okay?"
You blink, snapping out of your thoughts and offer Seonghwa a faint smile. "Yeah, I'm just... thinking," you reply, your voice trailing off as you continue to wrestle with your internal turmoil.
Across from you, Wooyoung, Yeosang, and Jongho exchange worried glances, their usual lively banter subdued by the palpable tension that seems to emanate from you. They had all picked up on your unease the second you entered the room and were extremely concerned about your well-being.
Yeosang, who is sitting at the head of the table, clears his throat and speaks up, his voice gentle yet filled with genuine concern. "You've been really quiet today. Is there something on your mind?"
You glanced around the table at the faces of your roommates, each one displaying a mix of worry and care. They have been so patient and understanding, and you can’t help but feel a deep sense of gratitude for the bonds you had formed with them over time. You appreciate their concern, yet it feels almost overwhelming for them to be questioning you.
Taking a deep breath, you realise that they will likely not drop the situation until they have an answer. 
"Just a busy day," you reply, attempting to brush off their concern with a forced smile. However, you know that your roommates can see right through your facade. 
"You can't lie very well," Jongho's soft voice speaks up from in front of you, his eyes holding a gentle concern that's difficult to ignore. You can feel the weight of his worry pressing down on you, and it only intensifies your own anxieties. 
Before you can respond, the atmosphere in the room shifts noticeably. San, Mingi, and Hongjoong enter the dining area, their faces reflecting the tension in the room. They exchange quick glances, and it's clear that the others have noticed your change in demeanour.
Wooyoung, Yeosang, Seonghwa, and Jongho keep their eyes on you, their worry palpable. They know you well enough to recognize when something is bothering you, and it's evident that your previous statement didn't satisfy their concerns. They exchange subtle glances with each other, a silent form of communication that you're all too familiar with.
You continue to insist that you're okay, not wanting your concerns to burden them. You don't want them to know about the malicious messages you've been receiving, along with the fear of not being good enough. You were on the verge of saying yes to their proposition until those messages arrived, and they've left you feeling frightened and uncertain.
Despite your attempts to reassure everyone, they keep pressing you, their genuine concern for your well-being on full display. 
San leans in slightly closer, his eyes searching yours as he says, "love, we're just worried about you. You don't seem like yourself tonight."
Mingi adds, "Yeah, you're usually the one who brings the energy to the group. We hate to see you like this."
Hongjoong chimes in, "If something's bothering you, you can always talk to us. We're here for you."
Seonghwa nods in agreement, his expression soft and caring. "You don't have to carry your burdens alone, ____."
As their questions and probing looks continue, you can feel your patience wearing thin. You're caught in a whirlwind of emotions, torn between wanting to open up and fearing their reaction to your struggles. The thought of burdening them with your problems only adds to your anxiety.
Finally, you stand up, your irritation bubbling to the surface. "I said I'm fine, okay?" 
Your voice is sharper than you intended, and you can see the hurt in their eyes. You immediately regret your outburst, but the pressure of the situation has become too much to bear. “I’m sorry, I didn't mean to…”
Without another word, you turn and walk out of the room, the sounds of their worried whispers following you like a haunting melody.
Leaving the dining room, the tense atmosphere you've left behind still lingers in your mind. You're not sure where you're going or what you plan to do; you just need to escape the overwhelming concern of your roommates for a moment.
However, as you turn the corner towards your room, you unexpectedly bump into Yunho, who seems to be on his way out of his bedroom. His eyes immediately catch the distress on your face, and he can sense that something is wrong.
"Tiny, wait," Yunho calls out, his voice laced with worry as he takes a step towards you, trying to scan what is happening.
But you're already moving, your steps quick and determined. You can't handle the concern of another person right now, not when you're struggling to hold yourself together. With a mumbled apology, you hurriedly walk past Yunho, your heart racing with a mixture of emotions. 
Yunho watches you for a moment, concern etched across his face, before realising that you're not going to stop. He knows he can't force you to talk if you're not ready, but he can't shake the feeling that something is seriously bothering you. Yunho makes his way to the dining room, his heart heavy.
Back in your room, you shut the door behind you, your heart heavy with a mixture of emotions. You're not hungry anymore, and the thoughts of the messages and your own insecurities continue to haunt you. The room feels suffocating as you wrestle with your fears, wishing you could find a way to escape them and open up to your roommates about what's truly been bothering you.
Meanwhile, in the dining room, your roommates are clearly unsettled by your abrupt departure and your obvious distress. They exchange concerned glances, their worry for you evident in their expressions. 
Mingi is the first to break the silence, his voice filled with unease. "I'm assuming you all notice something is very wrong?" he asks, his brow furrowing.
Seonghwa and Wooyoung nod in agreement, both clearly affected by your behaviour. 
Seonghwa speaks up, his voice soft but laced with concern. "She's been distant all day. I thought it was just stress or something, but this is different."
San clenches his fists, his frustration and guilt bubbling to the surface. "We should've noticed something was wrong. She's been dealing with something, and we didn't even realise it."
Wooyoung places a comforting hand on San's shoulder, trying to calm him down. "San, don't blame yourself. We all missed it. What's important now is figuring out what's going on and how we can help her."
Yunho chimes in, "You're right, Wooyoung. We need to support her. She's one of us, and we can't let her go through this alone."
Yeosang adds, "I agree. We think we should give her some space for now, but we can't just leave her like this."
Jongho, ever the caring and empathetic one, speaks softly, "Maybe we should send someone to talk to her. Make sure she's okay."
Hongjoong nods, considering the options. "I'll go."
Yeosang offers, "And bring her some food. She didn't eat anything, and skipping meals won't help."
With a unanimous decision to have Hongjoong talk to you, your roommates feel a mix of concern and hope. They know that Hongjoong's leadership and caring nature make him the right choice to approach you in this delicate situation. 
As they continue their meal, their thoughts are with you, hoping that you'll open up to Hongjoong and that whatever is troubling you can be resolved. They also feel a sense of unity and support among themselves, knowing that they'll be there for you no matter what. Hongjoong finishes his meal quickly, determined to check on you and make sure you're okay.
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In the confines of your room, tears stream down your cheeks as you huddle beneath your sheets. The weight of your emotions presses heavily on your chest, making it hard to breathe. Negative thoughts swirl in your head, each one more self-doubting and destructive than the last.
“Why did I snap like that?” You question yourself, your voice barely a whisper amidst the tears. "They're going to think I'm a burden, that I can't handle this."
You bury your face in your pillow, muffling your sobs as you contemplate the possibility that your roommates might stop liking you because of your outburst. It's a fear that gnaws at your heart, leaving you feeling vulnerable and alone.
Thoughts of inadequacy and worthlessness swirl relentlessly in your mind. You replay the dinner table scene over and over, each time emphasising how you snapped and how you failed to explain what's been troubling you. The fear of being a burden gnaws at your soul, and you're convinced that your roommates must be tired of dealing with your issues.
"Why can't I just be normal?" you whisper to yourself, your voice trembling with self-recrimination. "Why can't I handle this like everyone else?"
The tears continue to flow, unabated, as you feel like you're drowning in a sea of self-criticism. You wish you could push these thoughts away, but they cling to you like a relentless storm, obscuring any glimmer of hope or positivity.
In this moment, you long for someone to rescue you from the darkness, to pull you out of this suffocating abyss of negativity. You crave understanding and acceptance, but the fear that you'll never find it keeps you locked in a cycle of despair, feeling more alone than ever.
Just as you feel like you're being swallowed whole by your negative thoughts, a faint but unmistakable knock on your door breaks through the darkness. It's a sound that pierces through the gloom like a ray of light, a glimmer of hope that someone cares enough to check on you.
With a shaky breath, you sit up in your bed, wiping away your tears as you call out, "Come in."
The door opens slowly, and Hongjoong steps into the room, his expression a mix of concern and understanding. His presence alone feels like a lifeline, something to cling to in the midst of your emotional turmoil. The moment his eyes land on your tear stained face, his heart tugs in his chest, feeling as if it dropped to his stomach.
"Hey," he says softly, his voice filled with compassion.
You swallow hard, your throat still constricted from crying, but you manage to find your voice. "I... I'm sorry for how I acted earlier. It's just... I've been feeling overwhelmed, and I didn't know how to explain it."
Hongjoong takes a step closer, his eyes filled with empathy. "Shh, you don't have to apologise. We all have our moments, and we care about you. You're not a burden, ____."
"I'm sorry, Hongjoong," you murmur, your voice heavy with emotions.
Hongjoong moves closer, his heart racing with the need to provide you with comfort. He stands before you at your bedside, hesitating for a moment before finally taking a seat beside you.
"Can I touch you?" he asks gently, his eyes filled with concern.
Looking at him, you see the glaze in his eyes. He looks nervous. You nod in response, granting him permission to offer his support. 
Hongjoong takes your hand in his, his touch warm and reassuring. His heart pounds in his chest, a silent declaration that he cares deeply about your well-being.
"You don't have to apologise, ____," he says softly, his voice filled with understanding. "We're here for each other, through the good times and the bad."
Your eyes meet his, and you can see the sincerity and compassion reflected in his gaze. It's a comfort to know that you have someone who genuinely cares about your struggles.
The contrast between the authoritative and sometimes stern Hongjoong you've seen before and the gentle, comforting side he's showing now is striking. It makes your heart flutter and leaves you feeling surprisingly vulnerable. 
You've always respected Hongjoong's leadership within your group of roommates. He exudes confidence and commands attention effortlessly. But seeing this softer, caring side of him makes you realise there's so much more to him than meets the eye. 
As he sits beside you, offering his support and understanding, you can't help but be drawn to him more than you have felt before. His caring demeanour is like a soothing remedy for your troubled soul, and you find yourself appreciating him even more.
"I appreciate you being here," you admit, your voice quivering with emotion.
Hongjoong responds with a warm, reassuring smile, his thumb gently caressing the back of your hand. 
"Anytime," he reassures you.
Hongjoong continues to offer you his comforting presence, yet he notices the lingering sadness in your eyes. He can tell that there's something more troubling you, something beyond what you've shared so far.
“I would appreciate knowing what is going on. We want to help you.”
You hesitate for a moment, struggling with whether or not to open up about the malicious messages. But his sincerity and the trust you've built in this vulnerable moment encourage you to share.
"It's…” you begin to talk, yet you feel the familiar pit of anxiety forming in your chest.
Hongjoong turns towards you, his worry evident as he scans your slightly shaking body.
“It’s okay ____.” 
“I want to say yes.” you say, “to be yours.”
The weight of your words settles in the air, and for a moment, time seems to stand still. Hongjoong's heart races, and the room feels charged with a new energy. Hearing you express your feelings for him so openly and sincerely is something he never expected, yet it's the most beautiful surprise he could have imagined.
His eyes lock onto yours, filled with a mixture of surprise, joy, and a deep, profound affection. He searches your gaze as if trying to read every emotion, every thought that lies beneath the surface. Yet when he sees the hurt expression on your face, he wonders what else you have to say.
“I don't know if I can.” 
The moment your words leave your lips, a heavy silence settles between you and Hongjoong. His expression shifts from one of hopeful anticipation to a mixture of surprise, disappointment, and hurt. It's as if the air has been sucked out of the room, leaving behind a palpable tension.
Hongjoong tries to find his words, but his voice catches in his throat, and for a brief moment, he can't meet your gaze. He looks away, his jaw clenched as he processes your rejection.
“I… I see.” he finally manages to say, “why… is that?”
“The messages," you finally admit, your voice shaky. 
Immediately Hongjoong is confused about your statement. He doesn't understand what the messages have to do with you rejecting him.
“What messages?”
You take a deep breath, your eyes welling up with tears as you try to explain. "I've been receiving some weird messages… about all of you.”
“What do you mean? What do they say?” 
“Well, I only got one, but it was strange.” 
You show Hongjoong the message, "have fun with my boys…" and you witness as Hongjoong's eyes narrow in recognition, and his fists clench even tighter. 
It feels as if his world is crashing down on him as he pieces together the puzzle. Hongjoong's expression morphs into one of anger, his jaw tensing as he absorbs your words. The protective instinct within him flares, and he clenches his fists, visibly seething. He knows exactly who sent the messages. Despite his rising anger, he remains composed in front of you, not wanting to further burden you with his own emotions.
"It's okay, just ignore that message," Hongjoong says, and though he attempts to conceal his anger, you can sense the underlying frustration in his tone.
Your curiosity gets the better of you, and you press, "Hongjoong?"
He takes a deep breath before continuing, "Don't let other people's opinions define our relationship. It's about us and no one else."
“Hongjoong, I’m scared of starting a relationship with you guys.”
Hongjoong's expression softens as he senses your vulnerability. He places a gentle hand on your shoulder, offering a reassuring squeeze.
"I understand," he replies softly. "Starting a relationship with us might seem daunting, but remember that we care about you deeply. We'll be here every step of the way, and you don't have to face anything alone. Please don't worry about what others think. It is just us in this, no one else."
His words provide you with a sense of security, and you begin to realise that you have a strong support system with the boys.
You let out a sigh, your worries spilling out. "It's just... I'm afraid I'm not good enough for you guys. You're all so amazing, and I don't want to hold you back or bring any problems into your lives." voicing your worries, a wave of self-doubt begins to wash over you. 
Before you can delve further into your anxieties, Hongjoong moves with a surprising swiftness. He places a gentle hand under your chin, lifting your head to meet his eyes, effectively silencing your anxious thoughts. His touch is feather-light yet firm, a reassuring gesture that instantly grabs your attention.
A split second later, your breath catches as he leans down, his warm lips tenderly pressing against your forehead. The kiss feels like a soft promise, an unspoken reassurance that sends shivers down your spine. You're momentarily stunned by this unexpected display of affection, your heart racing in your chest.
Without any hesitation, he wraps his arms around you, pulling you close. The embrace is warm, secure, and filled with an undeniable tenderness that envelopes you entirely. It's as if his arms are a sanctuary, a place where your worries and doubts can find refuge.
"My treasure," he murmurs, his voice a gentle whisper against your ear. "You are more than good enough. You're unique and special in your own way. We care about you for who you are, not for any other reason. Please don't doubt yourself. We're here because we want to be, and we'll support you through everything. We love you."
In his embrace, you find refuge and a sense of belonging that you've been longing for. The weight of your worries slowly dissipates, replaced by the comforting warmth of Hongjoong's presence and the knowledge that you are cherished just as you are.
In his embrace, you begin to feel the weight of your worries slowly dissipate, replaced by a warm sense of belonging and acceptance.
"You love me?" You pose the question, the words hanging in the air, your heart racing with a mix of hope and trepidation. Hongjoong looks at you, his expression a blend of surprise and realisation, as if he's just spoken without fully thinking through his words.
Chuckling softly, he pulls away from you, a confident and sincere look on his face. 
"Yes, I do," he affirms, his voice steady and filled with genuine emotion, yet you can see he is nervous for your response.
“Hongjoong, I think I love you too.” you admit, your face flushing hot. 
“Fuck ____.” Hongjoong swears through his teeth, then looks away from you. You look at him confused, your eyes wide.
“What?” You ask, confused at his reaction, scared of what he will say.
Hongjoong turns to glance back at you, his eyes meeting yours, and in that moment, he feels as if he's teetering on the edge of losing his mind and sanity. 
Your wide, doe-like eyes, filled with a mix of curiosity and a hint of mischief, hold an inexplicable power over him. It's as though they can peer into the depths of his soul, unravelling the layers he's tried to keep hidden. He cannot seem to get over how adorable and innocent you look. The way your words have such an impact on him leaves his mind swirling with many thoughts.
“If you keep looking at me like that, I won't be able to hold back.”
His unexpected words leave you utterly shocked, the abruptness of the confession catching you off guard. Yet, the way they make you feel is nothing short of indescribable.
A rush of heat surges through you, starting from the tips of your fingers and toes, and spreading like wildfire throughout your body. Your cheeks flush as a wave of flustered embarrassment washes over you.
But beneath the shock and embarrassment, a more primal, intoxicating sensation takes hold. You feel an undeniable surge of desire, a raw, visceral attraction that courses through your veins. Your heart races in response to the unexpected intensity of the moment. Hongjoong's words have an electrifying effect on you, leaving you in a state of arousal that you can't quite ignore. It's as if the room has suddenly grown hotter, and every inch of your skin tingles with a newfound awareness of his presence.
In this moment of vulnerability and desire, you find yourself torn between your instincts and your rationality. His confession has unleashed a torrent of emotions that you never expected to confront, and the magnetic pull between you and Hongjoong is impossible to deny.
“Hongjoong,” you whisper, your fingertips on fire as you play with your clothes.
“We should discuss the relationship with the boys when you are ready with your answer.” Hongjoong says, quickly, trying to ignore the way his heart is pounding in his chest.
Suddenly, a profound realisation washes over you: there is seemingly nothing in this world capable of undermining the unbreakable bond you share with the boys. After years of yearning for one another's company, you are now reunited, and it feels as though no external influence could ever drive a wedge between you. While you are fully aware that maintaining relationships can be challenging, with the boys, it all seems effortless. There's a natural understanding between you, a deep knowledge of each other that makes everything feel remarkably smooth and naturally occurring.
Amidst your personal struggles with mental health, a lingering concern lingers in your mind; the worry that these challenges might adversely affect your relationship. However, the boys have consistently demonstrated their unwavering support, proving time and again that they not only embrace your struggles but are also somewhat professional at navigating such turbulent waters. Their understanding and expertise in handling these issues have become a reassuring pillar of strength, reinforcing the belief that your bond can withstand any storm that life may throw your way.
“I want to say yes.” 
Hongjoong's eyes, once covered with nervousness, now lit up with an intensity you had never seen before. It was as if a constellation of stars had suddenly burst into existence within his gaze, filling the room with their luminous glow.
“Come, we need to talk to the boys.” 
Hongjoong's touch was gentle as he clasped your hand, coaxing you off the bed. You yielded to his pull, your feet finding the floor. But there was something lingering, something unsaid that held you back. You tugged him slightly, your grip on his hand urging him to pause. Confusion knit his brows, and his concern was palpable in his searching gaze.
“You don't have to hold back.” you whisper, with some fear as to his reaction, yet you start to feel confident upon seeing Hongjoong’s flustered state.
"Doll," Hongjoong whispers, his voice a seductive murmur as he closed the distance between you. His desire was evident in the way his eyes smouldered with an intensity that sent shivers down your spine. His words hung in the air, thick with promise, and they caught you off guard.
"Let's talk to the boys," he continued, his tone laced with anticipation, "and when the time is right, I’ll show you everything I have been waiting to do for years.”
The boldness of his statement sends a rush of arousal coursing through your body. It is as if a dormant fire had been ignited, and your heart races at the thought of what awaits. The anticipation of sharing your desires and fantasies with him, of finally giving in to the passion that had simmered between you for so long, leaves you breathless with longing.
“Let’s go.”
Hongjoong walks behind you as you step back into the kitchen where your roommates' eyes immediately turn toward you. There's a mix of relief and concern in their expressions, like they've been holding their breath until your return.
Wooyoung, who's drying dishes with Yeosang, flashes a warm smile your way, but his eyes are filled with concern. Seonghwa and Yunho, chatting at the counter, both turn towards you with wide smiles on their faces, but their gazes are searching, trying to read your mood. Mingi, Jongho, and San, who are seated at the island, exchange subtle glances, and it's clear they've been discussing something among themselves.
It's like a silent symphony of emotions playing out in their eyes, and you can sense their collective concern hanging in the air. You take a deep breath, realising that it's time to address the situation, to clear the air and let them in on your feelings, just as you've allowed Hongjoong to do. Before you can speak, they collectively pause what they're doing, waiting for you to make the first move, to share your thoughts and feelings.
“I’m sorry guys, for rushing out like that…” You begin to say, yet before you can continue, a chorus of ‘It’s okay’ and ‘don't worry’s sound out, filling you with an intense feeling of gratitude.
"I, uh, wanted to say something," you begin, your voice carrying a mix of nervousness and anticipation. The room falls into a hushed silence, all eyes fixed on you, their expressions a blend of curiosity and affection.
Taking a deep breath, you look towards Hongjoong, who gives you a reassuring nod, making you feel more confident as you continue, "I've thought about this a lot, and I want you all to know how special you are to me. I think we should give it a try."
Around you, the boys freeze in their tracks, their expressions shifting from disbelief to sheer elation. Your words land in their hearts like a gentle caress, and the impact was profound. It was as if a wave of pure joy had washed over them, leaving them floating in a sea of happiness. Their faces light up with radiant smiles, their eyes sparkling with unshed tears of joy. The room seemed to shimmer with an aura of warmth and contentment that only your words could bring.
Seonghwa, the embodiment of tenderness, takes a step closer, his voice filled with emotion. "You have no idea how much those words mean to us," he admits, his eyes glistening.
San, who had dreamt of this moment for years, is overwhelmed with gratitude. "I can’t believe this is happening," he said, his voice trembling with sincerity.
Yunho, the eternal optimist, can’t stop grinning. "This feels way better than I imagined!" he exclaimed under his breath, yet you manage to catch it, causing your heart to race even more than it already was.
Jongho, the pillar of strength, looks at you with profound appreciation. "Thank you for choosing us," he says, his voice steady with emotion.
Yeosang, usually reserved, couldn't help but express his delight. "I've been waiting for this for so long," he admitted, his eyes shining.
Mingi and Wooyoung, the jokers of the group, let out joyful laughs, not being able to speak any words, their happiness immeasurable.
Hongjoong, whose emotions were always close to the surface, openly shares his feelings. "I can't express how happy I am right now," he confesses, his voice quivering with emotion.
They surround you, their words and expressions convey the depth of their joy. It feels like a moment of pure happiness, a shared understanding that something beautiful is beginning. With hearts full of love and excitement, you know that your journey with these incredible individuals was just starting, and it was going to be an extraordinary adventure filled with love, passion, and unforgettable moments.
“Boys, back up a little,” Hongjoong speaks out, his usual tone of authority present once more as he realises all eight of them huddled around you, making you feel slightly vulnerable. 
The seven boys gathered around you pick up on your tenseness. It wasn't that you minded their presence in your personal space; in fact, their company was something you cherished. It was the attention focused solely on you that made you feel a bit small, like the centre of the universe in that moment. 
San, always attuned to your feelings, senses your unease. He takes a step back with the others and speaks gently, "Hey, we're here because we care about you, but we don't want you to feel overwhelmed. We can take things at your pace."
Thankfully, nobody seemed to mind your tenseness, realising the reasoning for it.
“So how is this going to work?” You manage to ask, not quite sure as to how a relationship with nine people is going to work out. 
Sitting down at your usual place at the table, you notice the boys rush to their own seats also.
“It's just like a normal relationship really.” Hongjoong answers your question as he takes a seat down in front of you.
“Just there’s a lot of love going around, I suppose.” Jongho adds, “it’s not too different to a monogamous relationship.”
“You probably will go on a lot of dates,” Seonghwa jokes, chuckling gently.
“And receive lots of affection,” Yeosang says quietly from his seat, and you can’t help but notice the blush covering his face. 
“But like every relationship, you are allowed to say no to us, in any way. If you aren't comfortable with something, don't be scared to let us know. We would hate to ever make you uncomfortable or upset.” Yunho says, a reassuring smile on his face, yet you can tell his words are important to him and the others around him, as they nod and agree to Yunho.
“If you have any questions don't feel scared to ask, but remember, this isn't a contract, it's a relationship, just go with the flow. You can do whatever you would like, and… leave whenever you want.”  Hongjoong says, his words slightly sorrow, which you are quick to reassure him.
“We don't need to think of that now, I’m not planning on leaving any time soon.” You quickly say, not wanting to see the hurt expression on Hongjoong’s face any longer.
Little did you know, your short but heartfelt statement brought joy not only to Hongjoong but to all eight men surrounding you. Their smiles grew wider, and their eyes shimmered with happiness as they soaked in your words.
“Like most relationships though,” Hongjoong begins, catching everyone’s attention, “although there are eight of us, not that I think you would ever even think of it, you can't be with anyone outside of this group. I want you to fully understand that.”
“Of course, I’m in a relationship with you eight, not anyone else and I think cheating is for sore losers who aren't happy with their partners but can't find the guts to break up with them because they are scared of losing the only person who cares about them in their lives.” You quickly cut off your rant, upon seeing the confused, yet agreeing expressions on the men around you.
"Damn girl, did someone hurt you?" Wooyoung playfully says, his tone light and teasing. But as soon as the words leave his mouth, a sense of realisation strikes him like a bolt of lightning as he sees your slightly hurt expression and his heart twangs with guilt. It wasn't just a casual remark; someone had, indeed, broken your trust, and the implications of that hit all the men around you like a ton of bricks.
Wooyoung’s playful expression shifts to one of concern and protectiveness in an instant. His eyes darken with a mix of anger and empathy as he realises that you have experienced pain and betrayal.
The other members, too, sense your change in behaviour . They exchange glances, silently communicating their readiness to support you.
San, who is observing you very intently, caught on to the change in your demeanour. He leans closer, his face reflecting his own concern. "Hey, are you okay?" he asks gently, his voice filled with genuine worry.
“It was a while ago, I'm rather glad it was a short lived relationship, he turned out to be such a dick.” 
“Does he go to our school?” Yunho asks, his eyes narrowed in some form of mixture of jealousy and anger.
“I am not going to answer that question.” You chuckle, “but don't worry about anything, I only have eyes for you guys now. It was one of my first relationships anyways, so I’m still quite new to the whole affection thing.” 
"Just how experienced are you?" Wooyoung can't resist teasing, a mischievous glint in his eye and a playful smirk on his face as he witnesses your flustered state.
San, standing beside Wooyoung, couldn't help but chuckle at the teasing. He playfully slaps Wooyoung on the back of the head, a gentle reprimand for his impulsive curiosity. However, it was evident that San, too, was curious about your past relationships.
The other members exchange knowing glances, their expressions a mix of amusement and interest. They were already accustomed to each other's past experiences, and your life is now intricately entwined with theirs, they can’t help but wonder how far you have gone into a relationship with someone. Naturally, they are curious about your past and the experiences that have shaped you.
It takes you a second to regain your composure, and you realise you could make some fun out of it while you're here. 
"Well, let's just say, I know what I like and what I want to try," you reply with a clearly suggestive undertone, a playful glint in your eye. Your words hang in the air, and it does not go unnoticed by the men surrounding you. Their eyes darken with desire as they absorb the implications of your statement. You hear a few sharp intakes of breath from around you, and you can't quite believe how much your words impacted the males around you.
In this moment, a tangible tension fills the room, the air crackling with unspoken desires and fantasies. Each of them felt a surge of longing, their own desires awakening in response to your sudden openness.
Hongjoong's usually composed demeanour wavers for a brief moment, his restraint tested by the allure of your words. Along with your words in the bedroom earlier, it seems like a potent mix that you are almost teasing him with.
San's eyes gleam with a playful challenge, as if he is ready to explore those desires with you. Desperately wanting to find the time with you to show you everything he’s been dreaming of for years.
Yunho feels a rush of heat, his thoughts consumed by the possibilities your words hold. The kiss you two shared reaches the front of his mind and he has a hard time hiding his excitement as he imagines what would happen if, next time, you don't stop.
Yeosang's usual calm exterior betrays a hint of excitement, a silent acknowledgment of the passionate connection that has been ignited.
Mingi's playful grin hints at his willingness to partake in such adventures. Wooyoung's creative mind is already racing with ideas of how to indulge in your fantasies. 
Jongho, although rather inexperienced himself, finds himself wanting to explore his own desires alongside you.
Seonghwa's dark gaze locks onto yours, his expression a mix of intensity and anticipation, his sultry gaze causing butterflies to rush through your stomach, his lustful look making your heart beat rise. 
In that charged moment, you were the epicentre of their desires, your words kindling a fire within each of them. It was a shared understanding that there were unexplored realms of passion waiting to be discovered, and they were eager to embark on that journey with you.
The room seemed to shrink as their longing gazes remained fixed on you, a silent invitation to explore the depths of desire and pleasure together. It was a promise of intimate moments yet to come, a tantalising glimpse into a future filled with passion and connection.
It is Yeosang’s voice who breaks the silence, although it is shaky, he holds some sort of power as he speaks, his brow raising slightly, “and what would those be?” 
Feeling awfully in control of the situation makes you feel somewhat powerful. With a cheeky grin, you raised your eyebrows in response to Yeosang's curiosity. 
"I guess you'll have to find out," you teased, your tone laced with playful mystery.
Your words hung in the air like a tantalising promise, and they didn't go unnoticed by the men around you. Arousal simmered beneath the surface, and each of them found their thoughts running wild, their desires ignited by the prospect of discovering the depths of your desires.
“Holy shit,” you hear San groan under his breath, avoiding your gaze.
With a mischievous giggle, you gracefully rise from your seat, a sense of satisfaction in the air. Playfully, you send a wink in their direction, a silent promise of more exciting moments to come. 
“I’m going to get ready for bed,” you say. With a playful skip in your step, you make your way to the confines of your bedroom, leaving the men behind, their thoughts still simmering with desire.
Disappearing into your room, you can’t help but feel a rush of excitement and anticipation. The playful banter had ignited a passionate spark among you all, and the possibilities for the future seemed endless. You knew that the intimate adventures awaiting you would be filled with desire, pleasure, and a deep connection that bound you together.
Wooyoung and Mingi quickly rush to stand, wanting to follow you into the confines of your room, to see exactly what you meant by your suggestive words. Seonghwa and Yunho shuffle in their seats, restless, also wishing to follow you to your bedroom. Yeosang, and San share a knowing glance, their faces both a deep shade of red. San chuckles to himself, clearly affected by your words, yet he finds the humour in your playful teasing, bringing a smile to his face. 
Just as Wooyoung is about to make a dash for the exit, Hongjoong's voice cuts through the air, stern and authoritative. Without even sparing a glance at the two behind him, he asks them to sit down. His commanding tone brings both Mingi and Wooyoung to an abrupt halt, and they immediately sense the underlying seriousness in Hongjoong's demand.
Once again, Hongjoong's leadership qualities are not to be underestimated, and the weight of his words hung in the air, stopping any hasty actions in their tracks. His stern demeanour makes it clear that there was something important he wishes to address, and it has the full attention of those present. Mingi and Wooyoung exchange a quick glance, silently acknowledging the gravity of the situation.
“What is it, Joong?” Seonghwa asks, his concern showing as he sees the furrowed expression on Hongjoong’s expression.
"I didn't want to bring the mood down, we should be happy right now," Hongjoong began, his voice filled with a hint of frustration. He runs a hand through his hair, a sign of his unease, before continuing, "I think Ryu knows about ___."
Mingi's reaction was immediate, and he couldn't contain his shock and anger. "What the fuck?" he exclaims, his eyebrows furrowing deeply.
The collective mood among all the men took a nosedive, plunging from happiness into a pit of uncertainty and concern.
San, always ready to protect and defend, stands up from his seat, his initial confusion giving way to anger. "What? What makes you think that?" he demands, his voice laced with frustration.
Hongjoong's revelation had thrown a dark shadow over the previously joyful atmosphere, and now, questions and fears raced through their minds. Gently Yeosang grabs San’s hand, momentarily calming his anger, although Yeosang himself feels as if he is seeing red.
“When I went to check on her, among other things, she told me the reason she was upset was because she received a message from someone.”
“What, from who?” Yeosang questions, his voice slightly sharper than usual, it does not go unnoticed by the seven around him.
“You can make a guess…” Hongjoong replies, looking down at his fingers which are picking a piece of dead skin on his nail. 
“Are you sure it is from her?” Seonghwa begins, his hand resting on Hongjoong’s hand, stopping him from the bad habit of picking skin. 
“In the message was the heart, with the eight, I’ve only ever seen her use that.”
“That’s her then.” Yunho says, his teeth gritted, looking forward to nothing in particular.
The tension in the room escalates as the seven men around Yunho struggle to process this unexpected revelation. The mere mention of Ryu's involvement casts a dark cloud over the previously uplifted atmosphere.
The unknown intentions of Ryu gnaw at their minds, leaving them feeling uneasy and apprehensive. While they had been able to protect you from Ryu's potential interference within the confines of their home, this new development has thrown a wrench into their plans. Things had suddenly become far more complicated than they had ever imagined.
Each of them wore expressions of concern, their thoughts racing as they contemplated the potential implications of Ryu's knowledge. The unspoken question hung heavily in the air: What was Ryu planning, and how would it affect you?
“Should we have waited until we knew Ryu was gone before we started our advances on ____?” Mingi questions, more to himself than to anyone else.
“It’s our relationship, another person shouldn't have a say in what we can and can't do with our girlfriend.” Jongho exclaims, his fists tightening in his lap.
"I get what you're saying, Jongho," Wooyoung exclaimed in response to Jongho's statement. He can empathise with Jongho's concerns, but he couldn't entirely agree with his viewpoint.
The situation was undeniably complex, and their protective instincts were at odds with the desire to see you happy and free from any past entanglements. It was a delicate balance they had to strike, and finding a resolution that would ensure your well-being while allowing you to pursue happiness was a challenge.
Wooyoung's voice holds a note of understanding as he continues, "But we can't just ignore this, can we? If Ryu does something, it means our guard might not be enough. We need to figure out what's going on and how it might affect ___." His concern for your safety was evident in his words, and he is determined to address the issue head-on.
Hongjoong's voice is contemplative as he speaks, his eyes reflecting his own internal analysis. "You're right," he admits, addressing the group. "We were excited when she forgave us, so we let our guard down."
The admission hung in the air, a collective acknowledgment that their happiness had, in a way, overshadowed the need for continued vigilance. It was a humbling realisation that their happiness with you had momentarily clouded their judgement.
Hongjoong continues, his tone firm and determined, "But that doesn't mean we can't rectify it. We need to be cautious, not just for our sake but for hers too. We won't let Ryu's presence threaten ___ or our relationship."
His words carry a sense of resolve, and it is clear that Hongjoong is committed to protecting you and ensuring that nothing would jeopardise the bond you had all worked so hard to rebuild.
The weight of Hongjoong's determination and leadership settles in the room, and the tension among the boys seems to ease slightly. There was a shared understanding among them that when Hongjoong took charge of a situation, there was little need to worry.
Hongjoong's ability to provide guidance and assert control over challenging circumstances is a source of comfort and reassurance for the group. His leadership has always played a crucial role in navigating the complexities of their relationships and disagreements in the past and the trust that he will ensure your safety and happiness.
In that moment, their trust in their captain’s abilities becomes a source of strength, a reminder that they are a unified front ready to face any challenges that come their way. The collective determination to protect you and preserve the chemistry you have found together was unwavering, and they knew that, under Hongjoong's guidance, they can face whatever lies ahead.
“Do you have any idea what she might want?” Yeosang asks gently after a few moments of reflective silence.
The seven men turned their collective gaze to Hongjoong, who had a deep furrow in his brow as he spoke. "She said that we are 'her boys,' not ___'s," he explains, his voice tinged with concern. He raises a hand to gently massage his temples, a sign of the weight of the situation.
Mingi's reaction is immediate and passionate. "That's insane! She was the one who hurt us. How could she possibly think that we belong to her?" His voice rises with anger and frustration.
San tries to diffuse the situation. "Calm down, Mingi. We don't want ___ to know what's happening." He emphasises the importance of keeping you in the dark for the time being.
Wooyoung, however, is torn. "That's stupid? ___ should know what's going on," he exclaims, his concern for your well-being outweighing his desire to keep you unaware of the situation.
The room is filled with conflicting emotions and opinions as they grapple with the complex web of feelings and loyalties surrounding Ryu's unexpected return and her claim over them. 
Hongjoong's voice remains steady as he reasons with the boys, his calm demeanour a contrast to the escalating tension in the room. "If the situation escalates, we will tell her," he asserts firmly, emphasising the need for caution and measured responses.
While his decision received some negative reactions from the others, Hongjoong stood his ground, resolute in his determination to prioritise your safety and well-being. He understood the gravity of the situation and believed that, for the time being, it was best to shield you from unnecessary worries. It was a difficult decision, but he believed it was the right one to make.
"Try to focus on the positives right now, boys," Hongjoong encourages, his voice carrying a note of reassurance, "___ is finally ours. Let's lighten up a little."
Hongjoong's attempt to lighten the mood doesn’t go unnoticed. He speaks with a gentle tone and tries to muster a warm smile, which some of the boys returned more easily than others. Despite the lingering concerns and unease, there is a shared understanding among them.
His words are a reminder of the joy and happiness that have come with your forgiveness and acceptance. While the challenges they face are significant, the boys share a deep sense of happiness knowing that you were officially a part of their lives.
Amidst the uncertainties, their bond with you remained a source of strength, and they are determined to cherish the positive moments and continue building a future together.
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Thunderstorms - Bruce Wayne
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Summary: There was a period of silence, your feet making soft splashes in the puddles below you, his steps were silent next to you. Your grip on the cape around you tightened when the loud rumbling on thunder sounded above you, you felt Bruce’s hand over your back, it grounded you.
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a/n: I'm like. not super happy with how this turned out. but i hope someone likes it. i saw a picture bruce and he looked absolutely scrumptious and I was inspired to write some fluff for him. ALSO SO SORRY FOR THE INACTIVITY IVE BEEN BUSY. and also. writers block is a bitch. so yeah, i am trying to get better with updates though!!
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You sighed, standing under a ledge just outside your work building, wrapping your arms around yourself to conserve the little warmth you had. The rain pelted down onto the concrete mercilessly, the cold, harsh winds hindering the ledge you were under from really doing much to help. The fresh scent of rain washing away the grime on the concrete filled your nostrils, the cool air nipping at your skin. Of course, Gotham’s usually unbelievably bad weather just had to be at its worst when you get off work, after the building closes, during the one point in time you don’t have a car. Wonderful. 
You weren't sure what you were waiting for honestly, you had considered calling him. But thought better of it. He was busy on patrol, he always was. Besides, it had been about two weeks since you’d seen your boyfriend, and although it did hurt you, you understood. Or you at the very least tried your best to. You’d decided long ago to not lie to yourself, you understood Bruce’s endeavor, but you also understood that you have every right to feel upset over it. To feel hurt. It wasn’t an easy endeavor, you knew that,  you’d only wished he’d reach out and let you in. 
You winced as the loud rumbling of thunder sounded through the sky. You had always hated thunderstorms, the thugs and criminals of Gotham didn’t scare you, Batman didn’t scare you, neither did the vigilantes who worked with him; but thunderstorms just… terrified you. 
As you contemplated your options, you decided you’d just wait it out, you’d much rather sit still in a thunderstorm than have to navigate your way through it. 
You dug your hands into the pockets of your jacket trying to keep warm, as you shuffled back against the wall. Your head shot up at the familiar swoosh sound of someone landing silently not far from you. You turned towards the sound, where you saw Batman looking at you. 
“What are you doing here?” You asked, you were surprised, Bruce didn’t usually patrol this area until the later hours of the night. You had learned not long after your relationship started which patrol routes he would usually take, you figured he would be somewhere on the east side of Gotham. 
His lips pressed into a line before he spoke, “You’re afraid of thunderstorms. Your car is getting repaired tonight.” 
You nodded, your eyes never leaving the white lenses of his cowl. 
He cleared his throat before approaching you, removing his cape and draping it over you gently, it was heavy. It smelled like cedar wood and mint, the scent of the body wash you bought for him not long ago, and the faint smell of gunpowder, you lifted it over your head to form a makeshift hood, the thick fabric of the large cape still swallowed you. When you seemed ready he walked alongside you as you made the route towards your apartment. 
He spoke again, his voice quiet, “You could have called me. I would have come sooner.”  
You shook your head, “I thought you were on patrol. I’m surprised you’re here, honestly. It’s been awhile.”
He seemed to tense a bit, only for a split second, but you noticed. You chose not to acknowledge it. 
“Hm.” He gave a nod, as you continued along the sidewalk towards your apartment building, walking in silence. You looked at him on more than one occasion. He seemed to be contemplating what to say before speaking again, “I…I’m sorry.” 
“For what?” 
He paused for a moment, rather awkwardly, like he really wasn’t sure how to go about what he wanted to say. If you didn’t know any better, you’d say he was nervous. Leave it to you to make Batman nervous. 
He cleared his throat again, before speaking, “I haven’t been giving you a relationship that you deserve, I’ve been prioritizing this,” he gestured to his suit, “over us. For that I’m sorry.” 
You nodded, indicating you were acknowledging his words. There was a period of silence, your feet making soft splashes in the puddles below you, his steps were silent next to you. Your grip on the cape around you tightened when the loud rumbling on thunder sounded above you, you felt Bruce’s hand over your back, it grounded you. You looked at him, the corners of his mouth tilted downwards in concern. 
You took a moment before responding, “I understand. I know it’s… a lot. Just, maybe a call every few days couldn't hurt? Instead of, you know, disappearing on me.” 
His gaze was still fixed on you as he nodded, clearing his throat, he spoke again, “I should have been doing that to begin with.” 
You nodded, “You should have, but I could’ve done more to reach out. I should’ve established those boundaries.” 
He looked at you, for a moment, the slightest hint of surprise adorned his visible features, “You aren’t in the wrong here.” 
You shrugged, “Maybe not as much as you, but relationships are a two-way street, we both have to try, and I wasn’t doing my part. Not as much as I should have been.” 
He nodded, you noted the way his shoulders relaxed. 
“I would like to mention however, now that these boundaries are set, you can’t pull that on me again. You need to talk to me, Bruce. You can't just disappear on me and expect me to just be okay with it.” 
He nodded again, his eyes not leaving yours, you could feel his stare through the cowl, “I’ll do that, I’ll do better,” he promised. 
You smiled, opening the door to your apartment building, it was late in the evening, no one in the building tended to wander about at this time of night. You looked over at him, tilting your head to invite him into the building, before continuing towards the elevator, pressing the upwards arrow. You turned and he was right next to you. His mouth was pressed into a line, the corner of his lip moving in a way that told you he was in thought. 
The elevator right up to your floor was quiet. There was a comfortable silence between the two of you. That was one thing you’d liked about being with him, you didn’t have to talk constantly to maintain a comfortable space. 
When you reached the door you unlocked it, stepping through and folding the heavy cape in your arms. You turned around and took in the sight of Bruce, right outside your door, there in his bat suit, without a cape he looked kind of…naked. It was kind of funny, if you were being honest. He stood there, awkward in a way that only you could make him, he wasn’t one to fidget, but you could see the way his gloved hand twitched ever so slightly, as if he wanted to.  
Initially, when you first started dating Bruce, you were reluctant, his reputation was known to most in Gotham, and his sincerity, in your eyes, was just a facade. 
So imagine your surprise when you not only agree to a date, but during said date, he takes you to a quiet little cafe, and is oddly… timid? You were undoubtedly perplexed, as gone was his playboy persona; and it drew you to him, his reserved personality captivated you, because you knew it was genuine. That was the day you really met Bruce Wayne. 
You eyed him standing awkwardly at your door, before asking, “Well, would you like to come in?” 
He nodded, clearing his throat before entering your small apartment, shutting your door quietly behind him. 
“You weren’t planning on going back on patrol after this?” 
He shook his head, removing his cowl as he spoke, “It’s a slow night, Gordon can handle it,” he met your eyes, revealing the icy blue color that you love so much, offering you a small grin, “I want to spend time with you.” 
You raised an eyebrow, “What about Alfred?” 
His lip quirked up into a small smile, “He told me I should ‘get over myself and go see you before I lose what is quite possibly the best thing to ever happen to me’, he also said he was getting sick of me locking myself in the cave.” 
You stepped closer, wrapping your arms around his neck, feeling his arms wrap themselves securely around your waist, leaning into the familiar closeness, “Alfred is a smart man.” 
“He is, I suppose even he needs a break sometimes.” 
“I can imagine, I’ll have to write him a thank you card for keeping you in check,” you laughed softly. 
“He’d love that, I'm sure,” he huffed a small laugh. 
You giggled, planting a kiss on the corner of his mouth, pulling away to meet his eyes again, “So you’re staying the night, but take a shower, you smell like sweat.” 
He nodded. He went over to your bedroom, probably to grab some of his spare clothes kept there, when he wasn't so hyper-focused on his mission, he spent a lot of time there in between patrols. It wasn’t long before you heard the water running. You moved from your place in the living room, deciding to change into your sweats. 
You plopped yourself onto your bed, your shut windows thankfully covered the storm that was outside, you buried yourself under the blankets. You flicked on your lamp, encasing the room with a warm glow, pulling out and reading a book you were halfway through, not closing it until you heard the shower turn off, the bathroom door opened not long after. 
You looked over to see Bruce, his hair fell over his forehead in damp clumps, his towel strung over his shoulder over the old band t-shirt he had on, his sweatpants hung loosely on his frame. He set the towel down to dry before climbing into the other side of the bed. 
You shut the book in your hand, setting it aside before opening your arms, allowing him to shuffle himself closer, he leaned over you and shut off the light. You felt his weight on top of you, his arms wrapping around you, his head comfortably on your chest. You ran your fingers through his damp hair, enjoying the quiet moment. 
He lifted his head, his blue eyes meeting yours, “Move into the manor with me.” 
You stopped, “What?” 
He shifted, propping himself on his elbows, “Move in with me.” 
“Are you sure? For someone who has contingencies for his contingencies, you can be incredibly impulsive.” 
He nodded, “I’ve been thinking about it for the past month at least. I already know I want to spend the rest of my life with you. So, move into the manor with me.” 
There was a moment of silence while you processed, though he seemed to interpret your silence as a form of rejection, “Of course, if you don’t feel ready that’s okay, we can take this at your pace, we can always—” 
“Bruce.” 
He stopped, his full attention on you. 
“I would love to move into the manor with you.” 
He smiled, genuine and bright, you felt as if you were looking into the warmth of the sun, the best part— this was the smile he saved only for you. 
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doodles-bi-tea · 2 years ago
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how you met the love of your life, benny miller
pairing: benny miller x bartender reader [second person, no y/n]
warnings: mentions + consumption of alcohol. that’s really it. flirting?? idk
word count: 2,116
a/n: heyyy I’ve been really inactive (at least in terms of posting) but I’ve opened up requests recently! this isn’t a request but thought I’d write something just for fun and to get back into writing. here’s the post where I talked abt the requests, feel free to send something in!! also sorry I kind of weirdly switched time perspectives closer to the end so uhhh hope you don’t mind it just felt weird trying to fix it so I didn’t. but yeah I’ve been hella obsessed with benny miller from triple frontier so figured I’d write smth for him 🤗 honestly not entirely sure I like this oneshot that much but yeah whatever if you enjoy feel free to lmk <3
The bar was quiet, to say the least. It was a Saturday night, which typically meant that many of your usuals would be there, as well as other strangers looking to unwind after the work week. But, fortunately for you, it was mostly empty, save for most of the aforementioned usuals. This was an empty shift no one else wanted to take, and you didn’t have plans so you just decided to take it on a whim. You wiped off a glass and set it on the counter next to a few others, hearing the bell on the door ring again.
Glancing up, you saw a group of four [hot] men come in, talking and smiling with each other. You watched them as they made their way over to a booth closer to the back. They got settled in as you continued to dry different beer and cocktail glasses behind the counter.
Since it wasn’t busy, you spent most of your time just doing mundane tasks to clean and fix different things around the bar and in the back. Eventually, one of the men came from the booth and up to the bar to grab drinks. He wore a dark red t-shirt and beige pants, with a navy baseball cap atop his head and aviators covering his eyes.
He asked for four beers, which you then handed to him. He nodded in acknowledgment, and was turning to leave with the bottles, but paused.
“Hey, by the way-“ he turned again to face you. “-my friend over there thinks you’re cute.”
You were admittedly a little stunned to hear that, but you let your eyes drift over to the booth where his friends sat. Also to your surprise, two of the other three were looking back at you. The one wearing a blue button up over a white tee and a backwards green baseball cap put his hand up with a grin and winked.
“What’s his name?” You waved back, albeit more hesitant.
“Benny. I would’ve sent him over but didn’t know if you’d like that.” He put the beers down on the counter as he leaned against it.
“Tell him he can come over if he wants, I don’t mind. Oh, but what’s your name?”
“Just call me Frankie.” He stuck his hand out and you shook it. “Let me know if he starts harassing you or something, I’ll beat ‘im up.”
You smiled and chuckled quietly. “I don’t think that’ll be necessary, but thank you.”
He nodded before grabbing the beers and heading back to the booth. You saw him put the bottles down on the table before sitting down and saying something to the rest of the group. It probably had something to do with what you said about Benny, seeing as he stood up suddenly and began [nearly] bounding over, beer in hand, like a golden retriever with a stick in its mouth.
“Hey.” You greeted him as he sat on one of the barstools and leaned against the counter.
“Hey,” He smiled at you, the corners of his eyes crinkling upwards like his lips. “I’m Ben, or you can call me Benny.”
You didn’t know what you were expecting but it certainly wasn’t his voice when he first spoke. It was deep and smooth, with a hint of a southern drawl, like music to your ears or honey for your tea.
“Yeah, Frankie over there told me.” You nodded over in the direction of the booth he had just come from. ���Said you thought I was cute?”
Benny chuckled, letting his head tilt downwards as if to look at his shirt or shoes bashfully. It was a wonderful sound. “Yeah, yeah, I still do.”
You suddenly became aware of the fact that you were feeling warm all over, and a little nervous. You’d have your fair share of people hitting on you, but Benny seemed different for once. He seemed very genuine.
You weren’t sure what it was. Maybe the way his dark dirty blonde hair peeked out from the edges of his backwards baseball cap. Maybe the way his eyelashes were so thick and dark that you could practically see them from a mile away. Maybe the way his voice had your stomach doing somersaults any time he spoke. Anyway, you weren’t sure what it was.
“Well thank you then, hon.” You smiled back at him. “I think you’re pretty cute too.”
“Thanks.” He chuckled again, before taking a sip of his beer.
That noise. You would never get enough of it. It was deep, slightly raspy, and had a bit of a stutter to it. Your knees nearly buckled underneath you when he looked back up at you with those pretty blue eyes.
“So,” Benny started, setting his bottle down on the counter and crossing his arms. “Could I get to know you a little better?”
The once-boring evening turns into something much more enjoyable from that point on. You continue serving the customers that are already there and the ones that come in later. Benny sits at the counter, talking to you about each of your likes and dislikes, daily life, stuff like that. He asks you about the bar, you ask him about his fights and training. It’s nice and calm, and he’s very easy to talk to. He makes a joke about every other sentence, but you can tell he’s not trying too hard, it’s just something that comes naturally to him.
You ask him a couple times if he needs to get back to his friends, who are still nursing their beers and talking amongst themselves, but he smiles and waves the notion away.
“I’d much rather talk to you, honey.”
This man was going to be the death of you, with his stupid pretty blue eyes and fluffy hair and soft jaw defined by that barely-there stubble.
The night continues on. You and Benny end up talking until closing, long after his first and only beer is gone, when you realize that it’s only you two and his friends left in the building.
“Oh, I’m sorry, I talked your ear off all night. I should start closing up.” You apologize, wiping the counter with a rag one last time for the night.
Benny smiles at you gently. “You’re fine, don’t worry about it. I had fun, even if all we were doing was talkin’.”
“Me too.”
There’s a bit of silence as you finish cleaning and putting some things away, before you decide to speak again.
“Hey, I hope it isn’t too forward of me, but could I get your number?” You’re not sure where the sudden confidence comes from, but it appears and you welcome it.
“Honey,” Benny grins a little wider this time. “You can never be too forward with me. Here, hand me your phone real quick.”
You feel your cheeks warm up again as you hand it to him, waiting as he creates a contact for himself. He hands you the phone back a moment later. “Benny Miller,” the contact reads.
“Thanks, Miller.”
“No problem. Make sure to text me later. I’ll be waitin’ for it.” He winks.
You can only chuckle in response, feeling almost giddy as you notice his friends make their way over to the bar behind Benny.
One of them, not Frankie, though, came up next to Benny. He was slightly shorter than Benny if he were standing, but looked somewhat like him, instead with shorter hair of a similar dark blonde hue, and more grown out facial hair. He shared Benny’s striking blue eyes.
“Hey, we’re heading out now.” He told Benny, clapping a hand on his shoulder. “You wanna leave with me or do you need the keys to the truck? I can leave with Frankie and Santi if you need to stay longer.”
Ah, so that’s the name of the other man next to Frankie. All four of them were very attractive, now that you get a nice up-close look at them. You give a little wave to Frankie as he talks with “Santi.” He smiles and waves back, not breaking their discussion.
“Oh, uh…” Benny trailed off, before looking back at you. “Did you need a ride?”
As much as you would have liked that, you had your own car to take home. Damn, the one time you choose not to get an Uber.
“No, I have my own car, it’s fine. And I need to just close up anyways, I’ve cleaned up most of the stuff already.”
“Okay,” He grinned at you before turning back to the other man. “I’ll take the keys, thanks.”
The man nodded and fished them out of his pocket, along with his wallet. He placed a $20 and a $5 bill on the counter and slid it over to you.
“I’m Will,” Like Frankie, he holds his hand out for you to shake, which you take. “Thanks for the beers. Let me know if you need anything.” He says that last part to Benny, before nodding again at you in acknowledgment and then turning to leave with Frankie and Santi—who you didn’t get to talk to, unfortunately.
He seemed fun, though, as he yelled out to Benny as they began opening the door. “See you later, tonto!” [“See you later, silly!”]
You giggle a little as the door swings closed and Benny scoffs under his breath. “They sound like a fun group.”
“Yeah, they can be. A bit of a handful, though.”
“Present company excluded?” You tilt your head slightly and raise an eyebrow.
“You’ll just have to find that out when we go on a real date, honey.” He flashes you a smile, the corners of his eyes crinkling as he does so. “Could I walk you out when you’re done here?”
For nearly the tenth time tonight butterflies arise in your stomach at his antics. “Yeah, that’d be nice. Let me go in the back real quick and then we can go.”
He nods and checks his phone as you head behind the doors to the storage rooms and kitchen area, just doing a check-up to make sure everything’s locked and secured. You finish that up quickly and turn off all the lights in the rooms before coming back out behind the bar counter to face Benny.
He looks up from his phone and gives you a sweet smile as he turns it off and slides it back into his back pocket. “Everything good?”
“Yep,” You reach into a cabinet behind you to grab your bag and coat. “Ready to go.”
You finish putting on your coat as you come out from behind the bar to stand next to Benny, who gets up from his seat before pushing in the stool.
“Shall we?” He holds his bent arm out to you as if you two were about to go out on a walk in a fancy flower garden.
You chuckle quietly at the motion, before going to hook your arm with his. “We shall.”
And so the two of you walk out—you locking up before you leave, of course—and he leads you to your car.
“Thanks for walking me out.” You smile at him under the mixture of the glow of the moon and the shine of the streetlights. “You’re real sweet, you know that?”
“It’s no problem. Just been raised that way,” Benny grins back. “Gotta make sure you get home safe.”
You hum in agreement, tracing his features with your eyes for the last time that night. Your ears almost don’t hear what he says because you’re so enthralled with just studying his face. “Real pretty too, Benny.”
His smile drops for a moment, out of shock, you think, before he just looks down again at the ground, cheeks flushed. He almost looks embarrassed, and for a moment you’re afraid you’ve said something wrong. You open your mouth to speak but he says something first.
“I think that’s the best compliment a man like me could get, honey.” He brings his gaze back up to make eye contact with you, his voice smooth and deep. “Thank you. You’re real pretty too.”
Even as you head home alone, driving along the dark and near-empty streets, you can’t stop thinking about him. About how pretty he looked under the moonlight in the latest hours of night, the early hours of the morning, in that barren parking lot. About how easy it was to talk to him and how interested he was in the things you had to say. The dark was unsettling, but his presence made everything a bit brighter.
You would definitely have to find a way to thank Frankie for introducing you later.
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sebluvsmetal · 6 months ago
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hello everyone. i apologize for my sudden inactivity. i've been busy lately, and i can finally have some rest... ^^' rest assured, i will be responding to asks today. for the meantime, here is a recent work i have made, requested by my friend for her birthday. i hope it will be enough to make up for my temporary hiatus.
CONTENT WARNING: sex, orgasm denial, overstimulation, hair pulling, implications of rut/heat, degradation, dacryphilia, spanking, vulgar language, blood, vampires, bloodsucking, use of collars, use of handcuffs, reader has female anatomy, ruki might be a little ooc, desperate ruki, i suck at smut, DL stuff...
SWEET INDULGENCE
Pairing: Ruki Mukami x Reader Oneshot
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A knock rasps at the door, and Ruki looks up from his desk to the sturdy oak.
“Enter,” he responds bluntly, dropping his pen with a sigh as he rubs his temples.
Footsteps clack on hardwood floorboards then skid to a halt in front of him.
“Ruki,” you acknowledged, putting your hands in front of yourself. “Did you call for me?”
His steely gaze shifts from the ground to your form as soon as the words leave your lips. His expression flashes to a surprised one at first, before he returns to his usual stoic face.
“Come, sit.” Ruki commands under the guise of an offer, moving his chair back as he spreads his legs and pats his thigh.
“Don’t keep me waiting, livestock,” he warns, beckoning you to reduce the distance between you both as you hesitantly walk toward him.
“I said sit.” He spat, glaring at you as he grabs your wrist and tugs you into his lap without warning. A small yelp escapes your mouth as he smirks, pulling you closer into his abnormally warm body. A bead of sweat falls from his forehead, you notice, before wiping it off with the sleeve of your sweater as he subconsciously leans into your touch.
“Ruki… Are you sick?” You ask, concerned. His hand travels down to your thigh, dangerously close to your nether region.
“What makes you think so, pet? I’m doing… just fine,” he reassures you, caressing the flesh with his thumb, although his tone seemed as if he even questioned himself.
“You’re… Too warm for a vampire.” You observe, pushing his hair out the way to reveal even more sweat glistening on his pale skin. “And you’re sweating,” you add, shifting in your position on his lap as Ruki groans at the movement. You feel something poke at your inner thigh, realization dawning upon you as you put a hand on his shoulder empathetically.
“I’m so sorry, I’ll go–”
“No. Stay.” Ruki interrupts, his tone firm and yet somewhat pleading. His eyes glimmer in desperation for a split second, before he returns to his cold gaze. “How dare you even attempt to leave without my permission,” he tuts, narrowing his eyes. “You deserve a punishment.” He bares his fangs, the pearly whites gleaming in the moonlight intimidatingly.
Before you could even mutter a response, Ruki teleports you both onto his bed, pinning you down onto the soft mattress. He outstretches his arm to retrieve something from his bedside table, as a soft click reverberates around the room. You felt thick leather wrapped around your neck, as your hand flew up to touch it. He smacks your hand away with the irritated click of his tongue.
Ruki leans forward, placing his lips next to your ear. “You’ve been bad,” he whispers breathily, as you gulp in anxiety. “First, you tempt me with such revealing clothing… while I’m in my rut.” He whispers the final sentence, which barely registers in your head, before continuing. “Then you touch me so seductively… and try to leave. You know I don’t tolerate disobedience.”
“Ruki–!” You whimper, tugging at the collar with both hands. You feel him grab your wrists with his left hand, and suddenly you feel restraints at your hands. He had put a collar and handcuffs on you.
“That’ll teach you to be a good pet,” he smirks, moving back to admire your form. “These clothes don’t leave much to the imagination… And they only serve as a hindrance for your punishment, no?” He says condescendingly, his eyes glimmering in delight. In a flash, your clothing was ripped apart as he rakes his eyes over your body.
Cold air nips at your skin, as you whine at the sudden exposure. You feel his hips twitch forward as his temperature increases with every second he takes to ogle at your frame, lying on the sheets so openly for him.
“Please…” You begged, but you didn’t know for what. He raises a brow, a smug grin playing at his lips.
“Please what? Do you want more? Greedy slut.” He chuckles, degrading you as he only ducks his head to your level, taking in your scent and licking your collarbone before biting down harshly.
You hiss at the pain, suddenly hyper aware of your life source getting drained from you. A surge of heat ran down to your core as you shut your eyes at the sensation. 
The bite of a vampire had always been odd to you; first would be the pain, when you’d feel the sting of his fangs sink into you. Then, it sent a rush of pleasure spreading throughout your body, overwhelming you until all you could feel was the mind-numbing feeling of your blood getting sucked.
Ruki then pulls away, the crimson liquid trickling down his chin as he runs his tongue over his bloodstained fangs.
“Your blood is so sweet and warm… Are you getting excited?” He asks, not exactly waiting for your answer, before carefully stripping his clothes, tossing them to the side. It ironically opposed the rough manner he had displayed when ripping yours off.
His hands roam you, traveling up and down your sides as your warmth spreads to his body. 
“Having you splayed out underneath me like this… This punishment shall also serve as a reminder that this body is mine, and mine alone. Nobody else can see you like this, got it?” His hands settle on your hips, gripping them tightly. Your face flush a shade of pink at his words, staring into his gray eyes lovingly.
“Yes, Ruki,” you reply obediently, before he raises a brow, expecting a different response.
“It’s master Ruki to you, livestock,” he scolds, tugging at the attached leash as you mewl at the sensation of the leather tightening around your neck.
“Yes, Master Ruki!” Your eyes widen at the pain as you exclaimed, tugging at the cuffs as tears well up in your eyes.
“Don’t tell me you’re already getting desperate. Are you that easy to please?” He scoffs before gripping your thighs, spreading them open. Without warning, he plunges two fingers into your warmth and scissors you open, making quick work to prepare you.
“You’re dripping for me… And I’ve barely done anything,” he laughs at the mess he’s already made of you, the wet sounds of your hole being stretched open by his slim fingers and your quiet moans resounding through the room.
It silently drones on for a while, you nearly reaching your climax as you feel a knot tighten in your core.
“A-Ah, Master Ruki–” You stutter, before he suddenly ceases his movements and pulls his fingers out in a swift motion.
“You’ve been bad... Tell me, do you think you deserve to cum for that?” He whispers, grunting as he ruts his hips forward to incite a reaction from you.
“N-No, I’m sorry,” You whimper, as he only chuckles and gropes your thighs, kneading them with an amused look in his eyes.
“What was that, livestock?” He asked, grinning with a predatory look as he emphasized the nickname.
“I’m sorry, Master Ruki,” you repeat, shutting your eyes and biting your lips to contain your noises as he slowly inserted his tip into your hole.
“Fuck,” he curses, which was quite unlikely for him to do. “You make me want to destroy you.” Ruki growls, ramming his member into you with a loud, breathy moan. Your walls pulse against his length and the sweating intensifies, his expression morphing into pure bliss as you tighten around him.
“Ah!” You shriek at the sudden movement as he only leans forward, his chest heaving at every breath he took. He furrows his brows, attempting to let you adjust as a hand reaches down to play with your clit.
Ruki bites into your flesh, sucking your blood with an unexpected, high-pitched whimper as he pants desperately, sweat trickling down his feverish skin as he fully bottoms out.
“A-Ah… My pet… You’re so tight,” he whines, eyelids unveiling his glossy gray eyes cloaked with desperation. Ruki impatiently begins thrusting into you at an inhuman pace, biting his lip to hold in his noises.
His tip kisses your cervix and you moan so loud you’re sure even your ancestors could hear you shamefully receiving pleasure from the punishment of a demonic vampire.
“Master Ruki… So full,” you slur out, tears welling up in your eyes when he hits that certain spot deep inside you, ramming his cock into it ruthlessly. His warmth increases with yours as he orgasms quicker than he typically did, his hands frantically rushing to leave a bruising grip on your hips.
“Hnngh–!” He moans as his seed fills your womb, although he doesn’t cease his thrusts and continues to ram into you. He bit his lip hard enough to draw blood, fingernails leaving crescents on your skin as he felt you tighten around him.
You feel a knot tighten in your core, drool trickling down your chin. “M-Master Ruki, I’m c-cumming!” You squeal, as his thrusts cease and you whine in confusion. He lies there, panting and leaning forward until his cheek rests on your breast.
“Master Ruki… Why’d you stop?” You whine, as he only grunts in response. “It’s… A punishment for a reason, livestock,” he reasons, his tone betraying his true intentions as his cock pulses in your desperate heat. You subtly push him deeper into your hole with a suppressed moan, squeezing your eyes shut.
“So desperate already? Fine.” He narrows his gray eyes at you. “Since you’re so impatient, I’ll just give you what you want,” Ruki groans as he emphasizes the last sentence with his own thrusts, coming in quicker than before.
“Oh, fuck,” you moan, eyes rolling to the back of your head. 
“What a d-dirty mouth,” he taunts you in between grunts. His hand reaches for your strands, harshly tugging at it as you moan in response. “Heh. You like that, whore?” Ruki tilts his head with amusement playing in his eyes. The only things you could utter are praises for how good he’s doing despite his own degrading words, and he visibly melts.
“M-Master Ruki, you’re… Ngh, so good to me,” you say in between heavy pants, as his gray eyes soften and he whimpers quietly.
“You… Feel so good,” he unexpectedly responds with a lick of his lips, sinking his fangs into your flesh with a moan.
Words escape his brain after his own confession as he completely focuses on fucking you into the mattress, his noises raising in pitch until he reaches his peak and you do too. Despite this, his speed never falters and he feels your juices spill onto his cock. The wet noises intensify and reverberate around the room as he continues his movement, even as you squirm in retaliation.
“Those tears…” He whispered, kissing the wetness you never noticed off your cheeks. “So beautiful.” Ruki praises, and at that moment you could recognize this as the true, raw, human side of the man you loved. Not the heartless, cold vampire that barked orders at you every passing second, but the one that willingly melted his icy walls for you and experienced a love with you he never did before.
“M-Master Ruki…” You call out, and the hand that once tugged at your hair runs through your soft locks with skinny fingers. He hums, lapping at the blood that dripped from the bite. His thrusts remain harsh as he grips at your hip.
The room is filled with the smell of sex and the metallic stench of blood as you both whimper in unison. Ruki nuzzles his head into the crook of your collared neck, taking in your scent with a longing, subtle smile.
“Are you… In your heat?” You question in between moans, as his soft side fades away and he glares at you in response. He sits up and suddenly pulls out right before you cum, slapping your hip lightly.
“All fours. Now.” Ruki demands, watching you with a blank stare as you obey. He grins at your compliance, impatiently grabbing at your hips as he inserts his cock into you with a groan. “Oh, you’re even tighter in this position,” he grunts into your ear, bare chest brushing against your back as his hand goes back up to pull your hair.
He pounds into your hole vigorously as the sound of skin against skin echoed, his noises now coming at full volume as he loses his shame and pride, whimpering and whining at such a high-pitch you were convinced he was even more pleased than you were. He spanks your ass, leaning forward as his lips touch your ear.
“I-I’ll fill you up with my seed and f-fuck you until you can’t walk,” he breaks the wordless silence, grinning sadistically. You could feel his sweat mixing with yours on your bare back, and you could do nothing about it but moan his name.
“A-Ah, Master Ruki! I’m going to–” You were cut off by a particularly hard thrust as you feel your overstimulated walls tighten around his member. You cum so hard at the sensation of his hard cock spurting out ropes of white into you.
His grip on your hair loosens as he collapses onto the bed, pulling you down with him as you whine in exhaustion. 
“Ruki… I’m so tired,” you pout, and he closes his eyes and hums. Ruki brings you closer and basks in your warmth, relaxing in your presence.
After a few moments of your post-sex bliss, he abruptly leaves and enters the bathroom as you hear the sound of water running. He calls you over, and you stumble over your feet as he giggles at your struggle. Ruki helps you walk to the bubble bath prepared in the tub, and you smile softly.
“Thank you,” you put a hand on his shoulder, and Ruki being the typically stoic man he is, simply nods in response and assists you into the ceramic fixture. He goes in with you too, washing your hair and pulling you into his chest afterward.
“...Just relax,” he speaks against your skin as your muscles fall limp and you shut your eyes, snuggling comfortably against his body. 
The next moment you open your eyes, you’re greeted with the sight of Ruki’s ceiling and you look around in confusion. He’s next to you in pajamas, reading his book as his gray eyes flicker to you.
“Ah. You’re awake,” he acknowledges, patting your head. “Go back to sleep. You need more rest for the next round.” he teases with a grin, as you cross your arms and lightly nudge his thigh.
“Goodnight, Ruki.” You say as he gingerly sets the book down and lies next to you.
“Goodnight, pet. Happy birthday.” He runs his hand through your hair with a soft smile, kissing your forehead.
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MASTERLIST i'm so sorry guys... i'm not good at smut💀
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gorogues · 3 months ago
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Fictober 2024
Prompt number #1 Fanfiction Fandom: Flash Rogues Rating: G – General audiences Warnings: None Notes: A continuation of last year's fic.
Day One: “That was good work”
Axel squinted and concentrated, focusing intently on the ticking mechanism in front of him.  He guided his tweezers toward one of the small red wires.
“The blue wire,” Roscoe said calmly from behind him, and the kid turned around to give him a suspicious look.
“How do I know you aren’t saying that to get me to explode?”
“Because I would be caught in the explosion too, you benighted little hellion.  Concentrate!”
Axel returned his attention to the device, carefully manipulating the single blue wire until it lightly touched the connector on the green one.  The bomb in front of him immediately powered down, now completely inactive.
“I did it!” Axel enthused, jumping to his feet in proud celebration.  “Built, armed, and defused!  Take that, James Jesse!  Won’t teach me bomb-making, will you?!”
“Good work,” Roscoe nodded approvingly, and suddenly Axel looked shocked and even more pleased.
“Did you -- Roscoe Dillon, AKA the terrible Top -- just say I did good??”
“Do not get too full of yourself.  Sloppy craftsmanship and technique deserve to be excoriated, while genuine skill should be acknowledged to guide the student in the right direction.  You’re still learning, you are not a master bomb-maker yet.”
“I heard a ‘yet’ in there, so I’m gonna take that as proof I’m doing great!  Hey, do you think I could build a huge fart bomb and totally ruin the Flash’s day?”
Roscoe frowned thoughtfully.  “Maybe leave that for a time when you have more experience…you don’t want to advertise your new skillset or be thrown in prison while still perfecting your craft, after all.  How about practicing closer to home?  For example, perhaps first try it on Cold.”
“Great plan!  He’s never gonna know what hit him!” Axel grinned, running off to his room for project supplies, including his high-grade custom-mixed stink spray.
“Yes, that was the idea,” Roscoe said to himself with a slight smile after the kid left the room.  Time to return to his book, drink some coffee, and await the inevitable stench of pure chaos.
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orcboxer · 8 months ago
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Been following your journey around the trolley problem and I agree with your position: the trolley problem should not solely be framed in a way where a mythical third and better solution exists. Engaging with hard questions/hypothetical situations where all the outcomes suck is a valuable exercise for developing your own stance and morality, and it recognises that in real life, sometimes things just Do Suck.
I would add though, that as far as my understanding goes, both sides of this argument (aka "Leave the problem untouched" and "Add a secret variable") are valid philosophical perspectives to engage with through the trolley problem. Philosophy at its core is speculating about how people come to certain conclusions and examining what other conclusions there might be (and why those exist).
The trolley problem in this instance becomes a vehicle to discuss different problems and solutions. It is as valuable to discuss a situation where all outcomes are shit in different ways and how this might be solved and why, as it is valuable to consider adding a new variable to the situation. The trolley problem can be expanded to make different arguments and explore different belief sets, and I believe it should be. But equally, its basic premise shouldn't be disregarded.
It's an illustrative device through which you can frame your argument. Through which you explain it. And because of its inherent simplicity, it's capable of portraying a great amount of different problems through slight variations to the premise. And saying things like "What if there was a secret third solution" is as much a thought experiment that can be imposed on it as "What if there wasn't". Both serve different functions and neither is less valuable or correct than the other. Framings that deride either as worse are only simplifying a complex discussion (the complex nature of human morality) into having a one sided "correct take", and aren't what philosophy is about.
I think I would agree with that, yeah, in that the TP can be altered to present a new type of scenario, provided it's acknowledged that the new version is a completely different subject and not like, the secret trolley hack that solves it once and for all lmao. And there's certainly something to be said for scenarios that do have better options.
Like from a big picture perspective, capitalism fans tend to set up scenarios as TPs completely unnecessarily, like "aw well it's too bad we have to sacrifice disabled people for the economy but if we don't everything will collapse" like no, you .. you don't have to do that actually. We should be talking about how to feed everyone rather than who deserves to starve, for instance.
But then on more specific situations, it's like, do I vote in favor of a city policy that would cap rent prices, even tho it's just a temporary fix, or do I refuse to vote for it due to the ballot not including a "abolish rent" option? I would certainly choose to abolish rent if that were an option, but in this moment, is abolishing rent an actual outcome that's on the table? Or will inaction simply result in rent continuing to go up?
Big picture: we should have installed a failsafe on this trolley. Small picture: you can't fix that right now, you can only mitigate the damage the trolley does. You have to make a tough choice in this moment, there's no making it easier, but afterward, you should get together with people and try to build up something strong enough to stop runaway trolleys so that your options aren't so dire next time.
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FEBRUARY 2024 GETAWAY TO NEW ORLEANS
Pack your bags, we're hitting the road! All Merrockites are invited on a fun trip to New Orleans to celebrate Mardi Gras, and also just to get away for a little while, in an exciting, fun location rich in culture and history -- not to mention really, really good food. The Benefactor will be taking care of travel expenses for the trip, which covers your flight and stay, all you will have to pay for is any fun that you get into, and of course your food, drinks and souvenirs. The plane will leave early in the morning on February 11th, and be departing for Merrock late in the evening on the 17th. Hope you'll come with us!
ic date: February 11 - 17
ooc date: February 9 - 19
invited: everyone (kids welcome; please leave pets at home).
notes: this event will not be mandatory, but is highly encouraged! event is largely "freeform"; more details under cut.
ADMIN NOTES:
This getaway is a little scaled back compared to our previous events in Finland and Costa Rica. The reason for this is simply that we want to give you guys the freedom to have fun in a new location, while acknowledging that trips have been a lot of work for us, as admins, so this cuts us some slack! Where your characters stay, what they do, who they stay with -- will be entirely up to you. You're welcome to start plotting now, but we do ask one thing: everything must 100% take place in New Orleans!
There will be several mini-events happening on this trip, including: the Super Bowl, Mardi Gras, Valentine's Day, a singles party, and random act of kindness day. None of these events will be mandatory, but they will be fun ways to get your characters involved or throw out some open starters. All events can be written during the entire duration of the trip, to give you time to enjoy.
OOC, interactions will happen between February 9th and 19th, with the usual rules applying: all threads must be started during this time period, but can be continued after! IC, the characters will be in New Orleans from February 11th through 17th. The Benefactor is handling the cost of travel and lodging, and should your character need financial help to cover taking off work, etc., that will be taken care of.
While participation and attendance are not mandatory, it is highly encouraged! Children are welcome (there's still plenty of family friendly things to do in New Orleans!), but we ask that pets stay behind, unless they're emotional support or therapy animals. Should you choose not to send a character on the trip, activity will still be required during that time! It's not a free pass to sit inactive; you will either have to interact with those who stayed behind, continue other threads (as a reminder, we never ask people to drop/pause threads for a shift in events, it's up to the players), or choose to start things dated for another time! Childcare is available -- either in the form of personal babysitters or a daycare center, again, provided by the Benefactor, so you can enjoy your trip.
If you have any OOC-related questions, please feel free to reach out to us, or send an ask to main. However, if you have any IC-related questions, remember that you can always talk to the Benefactor! xx
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There's a ton of strange things going on with this show, including using parodies (namely the Terminator for "Stand By Your Pac-Man" and The Wizard of Oz for "The Wizard of Odd".
All it does is aid to the already large filler that no one (or close to it) particularly needed. Not to mention the crass jokes that started showing up as early as episode 2.
Episode. Two.
So here's my question: What made you stay in the Fandom after the shows untimely cancelation? Was it for the memes and shitposts that people made off It? Or was it for the idea that, in a way, it had more potential to it?
Personally it's both the former and latter, but I've always wanted to know what made someone stay in this weird phase of Pac-Man history
That's a loaded question XD
First, I must acknowledge that my answer is only one perspective out of many. Other fans may have varying reasons for why they stayed in the fandom.
So, as for me?
I'm a simple person. I'm easily entertained :)
It's the little things that I am drawn to. Not the crass/toilet humour, of course, but I like the little design details and how the main trio looks out for each other, and some of the funny shenanigans that the ghosts end up in. I can block out/ignore the poorly done bits and genuinely enjoy the rest of it that was fun to watch.
I really don't mind the amount of parodies, I think each of them at least had something that was still relevant to the story - Stand By Your Pac-Man set the stage for Apex's reveal (in that the Pacinator revealed it was someone else who completely wiped out the yellows, however brief the reveal may be), and while Wizard of Odd was more filler than anything else, I still found enjoyment in it and we got a bit of lore on other parallel dimensions being a thing in the universe. The one parody episode I can think of that was 100% filler and probs unnecessary was Rip van Packle.
I'll admit, PMATGA is not the best show nor can I pretend that it's as great as other stories I'm interested in, like The Chronicles of Narnia or HTTYD. Whenever new people ask me what shows I'm interested in, I make a big effort not to mention PMATGA lmao. It's a guilty pleasure, simple as that.
To be honest, it was neither the memes nor the wasted potential that I stayed for (trust me, 15-year-old me was actually quite miffed about people dissing my favourite show at the time XD).
I stayed because I had sort of build up my own sets of fanons and theories of the show that I could latch onto, and build up upon for years to come, because the characters of this show are surprisingly good to use as a foundation for bigger and more epic stories, sort of like that one meme where the world you created in your head about the show is better than the show itself lol. I guess that did stem out of the show's wasted potential.
And, well, hyperfixation is a thing, innit? That definitely played a small role in why I stayed.
Over the years my interest in the show did wean a little, and up until the beginning of the year, I had been entirely inactive in the fandom. Perhaps I did lose interest in the show then. But I didn't lose interest in the fan stories I've come up with in the meantime. I guess that's the biggest reason why I stayed - I started something with my fanfics, and I've spent a lot of time building up their plots, so much so that to just leave it all now would feel wrong. Especially since I still get enjoyment out of them.
It ends up being a domino effect in and of itself tbh, because as I write more for the fanfics that I refuse to abandon, the more stories and fan content I come up with, and so the drive continues for as long as it's capable of doing so.
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welcome-to-green-hills · 2 years ago
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Slow Activity…
Hello Everyone,
I do apologize for the inactivity here. I’ve been… reflecting. Please expect some relatively slow activity. I have rewritten this post quite a few times in attempt to articulate the exact words of how I feel. No matter how many times I’ve rewritten this post, I find that it’s become harder and harder to tame the explanation. The original intent of this post was meant to be an explanation how I wanted to leave Tumblr. That’s not the answer. Leaving isn’t an answer. In order to fix a problem, the problem has to be acknowledged.
A while ago, I used to be an AU/Ask blog that centered around Sonic and his family. It was a fun and happy little place that I could call my second home. Months after the blog was made and the first film came out, I’ve started receiving asks that proclaimed love and suggestive material. This made me uncomfortable. I had to block. When I added Knuckles to the AU, the asks (though always in the form of anon) became… violent. I had to stop RPing as my AU Sonic for the sake of my mental health and turn off anon.
I’ve shared in the past that I’ve been experiencing some concerns my end. These concerns and problems have been ongoing since 2020. Some have to do in the form of call-out posts, engagements with my friends, and violent asks sent my inbox. I feel that, perhaps, I’ve gained these asks, call-out posts, and harassment due to blocking an account years ago. I also feel that the harassments made to other SCU fans were made because of the block being taken personally.
A block is a block.
I should not have to owe anyone an explanation on why I’ve blocked someone. However, I can see that an explanation has been the demand for years. I can see that if I don’t supply an explanation now on why I’ve blocked you, then you will continue to harass my friends and others in the SCU Fandom. The only explanation that I can supply is this: the asks that we’re sent to me years ago made me uncomfortable. I’ve expressed that plenty of times in the past. I’ve shared this in posts since 2021. I do not owe you an explanation other than that. That continues to be my answer to this day.
A belief was fabricated that I’ve, somehow (?), “influenced” a movement of fans liking Movie!Knuckles and hating Sonic Wachowski. The belief was taken and made into a movement. I’ve seen it here and spread onto other social media platforms. Where this belief came from will forever be a mystery to me. I’m not sure of where these began. These posts on saving Sonic in the second (and upcoming) third film, the artwork, the harassments of other fans, the movie’s actors and writers… these are made out of anger of being blocked.
I understand that a block can hurt. I do. I can completely understand why you’re angry at me to this day still. And I’m sorry that it hurt. The block was made… and they were made to the other accounts that were made in attempt to follow me again. I can understand that the anger still exists to this day. You have every right to be angry at me. All that I ask is that the anger and frustration that lies within your heart is not directed at members of the SCU fandom anymore.
I hate creating drama. I do. But this post needs to be made public. I can see that blocking, reporting, an turning off DMs/anon is not enough anymore. I do believe that as soon as I publish this post, I will be selectively active here.
This needs to stop. This is not okay.
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thecoolerliauditore · 10 months ago
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ok ok i think the doc is actually genuinely for real done (79 pages btw ✌️) im just sitting on it right now waiting for the moment im brave enough to hit publish so in the meantime im gonna speak some unasked for thoughts:
the scott smajor twitter hell vortex isn't shocking due to scott's own actions, but his inaction.
In both the cases with Kari and Ecto, it was his detachment from the situation and culture that his own fanbase was in that earnt him his now controversial reputation. I genuinely don't believe the tumblr side of the fandom, for example, cares that much he let sapnap continue participating in mcc.
Kari's situation is very hard to talk about due to the sheer shock factor of the premise and the fact that we have very little context to work on. Him straight up refusing to acknowledge her at all, I think, put more unease into his own fans than the original thread itself because I do believe most people would be sympathetic to their favourite white man if he explained he didn't mean to harm anyone. Instead, him remaining quiet leaves people to speculate and assume the worst.
Ecto's situation is similar, it's easy to look at drama that doesn't involve you and say you don't want anything to do with it, but things become difficult when it's your fanbase initiating in harrassment and doxxing. While CCs are not entirely responsible for their fans' actions the nature of that relationship means CCs do hold an inherent level of power and influence.
I don't believe Scott knew about the doxxing but his statement certainly gave some the impression he had given a "go ahead" on that.
TL;DR: guy does not know how to handle his own platform. he's not evil he just is not the type of person who should be given this level of power.
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lgcmanager · 1 year ago
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TEAM UNKNOWN 002
SCHEDULE TYPE: TRIMESTER ( PART 1 OUT OF 2 ) SCHEDULE RESTRICTIONS: cannot be paired with another trimester schedule, unless stated otherwise. for reference as to whether your muse is eligible for this event, please click over HERE.
early morning on JULY 3, KIM HYUNCHEOL is already waiting for the girls in the meeting room as they come in. unlike last time, the man seems a little tense as the girls take place. "good morning. first and foremost, let me formally introduce the newest and FIRST confirmed member of this iteration of LGC GIRLS JAPAN; PARK TAEHA." he waits for them all to greet the girl before continuing on.
"due to recent development in our debuted groups, TEAM UNKNOWN and LGC GIRLS JAPAN have been impacted and some changes have been made; as such, KIM YUJIN and  LIU YUXI, you have both been selected to join CRYSTALLIS. congratulations to you both on your continued hard worK. you may join SEO YEWON who is waiting outside." once again, he pauses as the two girls leave, wishing them good luck as they leave.
he turns towards YANG AERA: "AERA, your own debut has unfortunately been pushed back. do not see this as a defeat, but a chance to get experience and exposure before your upcoming debut. you will be replacing KIM YUJIN as the main vocalist in LGC GIRLS JAPAN, thus making you the SECOND confirmed member." the man waits for the trainee to acknowledge that she has understood before continuing on.
"lastly, SORI, AREUM and JAEKYUNG, you will also be part of LGC GIRLS JAPAN. the five of you should make up the final lineup, but who knows what the future holds."
LESSONS
"if you thought you were done with japanese lessons, unfortunately for you, you are not out of the woods just yet. during the months of JULY and AUGUST, on days without other schedules, in the MORNING, MONDAY to FRIDAY, you will ALL be receiving japanese lessons.
on SATURDAYS, you will all be receiving lessons solo or in groups of two. TAEHA, you will be given RAP lessons; JAEKYUNG and AERA, DANCE lessons; SORI and AREUM, SINGING lessons.
next, SORI, AREUM, JAEKYUNG and AERA,in the AFTERNOON, from MONDAY to FRIDAY, on days without other schedules, you'll be joining the other trainees in their lesson (see the regular trainee mission for more information on what they will be doing).
finally, TAEHA, during these afternoons, you will be receiving further private lessons to learn choreographies from legacy's japanese songs repertoire. since the others have already learned these, you may ask for their assistance."
WEEK 1 [ JULY 3 ]: GIRLS GOTTA LIVE (lgc girls japan)
WEEK 2 [ JULY 10 ]: CRIMSON DRESS (lgc girls japan)
WEEK 3 [ JULY 17 ]: CANDY (blazing)
WEEK 4 [ JULY 24 ]: WILDSIDE (blazing)
WEEK 5 [ JULY 31 ]: BREAKTHROUGH (lgc girls japan)
WEEK 6 [ AUGUST 7 ]: DANCE WITH ME NOW (blazing)
LGC CHARMS JAPAN
"back when the first lineup of LGC GIRLS JAPAN was active, they had an 8 episode variety show called ‘LGC GIRLS CHARMS JAPAN’ on tv. this is quite the norm for japanese idol groups to have a permanent show on tv. we've managed to secure a new season of the show. but, there's a twist; since the show has been inactive for a while, the company has decided to capitalize on this. the show has been renamed LGC CHARMS JAPAN, and this season will have AGITO challenging to become the PERMANENT group on the show. the five of you will have to compete against your seniors to keep the show in the hands of LGC GIRLS JAPAN!"
each episode will be 20 minutes long and the comedian duo, NON STYLE, will act as hosts of the show, being in charge of deciding the winning team for most games. while the filming date are specified, airing dates are to be announced:
EPISODES 1 & 2 [ JULY 17 ]: show introduction, competition explained to the participants. mini-profile of all 9 participants and personal talent display contest  (winning team: lgc girls)
EPISODES 3 & 4 [ JULY 24 ]: iconic japanese idol songs battle. the contestants hear short snippets of each song and must guess the title and artist of the song and then sing it. song examples; love machine by morning musume, heavy rotation by akb48, ponponpon by kyari pamyu pamyu, mayonaka no door by miki mutsubura, sakura by ikimonogakari, choo choo train by exile, love rainbow by arashi (winning team: lgc girls)
EPISODES 5-6 [ JULY 31 ]: spicy eating competition. each group is presented with SUKIYAKI; enough for four for agito, and five for lgc girls japan. however, the broth has been spiced up to level 7. one by one, each member will have to eat as much as they can from the hot pot to be the team with the least food left after they've all eaten once. each person is only allowed one glass of milk. (winning team: agito)
EPISODES 6-7 [ AUGUST 7 ]: team spirit battle. on a real life game board, the teams throw giant dice to be the first to reach the end. however, on each square is a team challenge to accomplish. Challenge examples; eat lemons, do a positon challenge (like a pyramid), say corny phrases at the camera (winning team: agito)
EPISODE 8 [ AUGUST 14 ]: best moments recap and last chance to sway the vote of the hosts one way or another by shamelessly and brazenly appealing to them and explaining why their group deserves the show the most. season winner is announced to be LGC GIRLS JAPAN.
REQUIREMENTS
CHARMS JAPAN: write a 4 replies (minimum 8 lines) with another participant about anything happening while the cameras are rolling or behind the scenes on the set. completing this will earn you +2 FREE SKILL POINTS, +2 VARIETY, +2 JAPANESE and +5 NOTORIETY TO DISTRIBUTE ANYWHERE ! ** can be done twice **
SATURDAY LESSONS: write a 300+ word solo or a 4 replies (minimum 8 lines) with the other person taking lessons with you, about these lessons and the skill worked on. completing this will earn you +10 POINTS IN THE SKILL WORKED ON !
make sure to use the hashtag lgc:tumission for all of the tasks. you have until AUGUST 12, 2023 at 11:59PM EDT to complete the requirements and validate your points. please submit the following form ONCE on the points blog:
MUSE NAME ∙ TEAM UNKNOWN MISSION 002 - TRAINING SESSIONS: +2 ( skill points distribution ), +2 variety, +2 japanese, +5 notoriety  [ LINK ] ** can be done twice ** - SATURDAY LESSONS: +10 ( skill worked on ) [ LINK ]
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threelittlepigspro · 4 months ago
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Google’s Sandbox: What Is It and Get Unstuck + Case Study
Finding it difficult or rank a new or in active site despite your best SEO efforts? Google’s Sandbox is a term that’s been floating around the SEO community since 2004. The Google Sandbox is an unofficial concept suggesting that new websites go through a "probation period" during which their ability to rank in Google’s search results is temporarily suppressed regardless of your SEO efforts. The Google Sandbox can be applied to both new and in-active websites.
Google’s Official Statement on the Sandbox
Google’s search relations team lead, John Mueller has denied the existence of a specific sandbox filter 25:38 in the recording during a Google webmaster hangout. However he acknowledges that their algorithms may need time to understand where new websites fit in relation to the rest of the web.  John Mueller also explained that new websites may find it challenging to rank initially because they have fewer signals, such as backlinks.
Our Own Website’s Data in "Google’s Sandbox"
Now, let’s use our own online marketing agency’s website Threelittlepigs.pro as a case study. Our agency is trying to rank for competitive keywords in Singapore’s digital marketing space such as: “SEO agency Singapore” “SEO services Singapore” “SEO consultant Singapore” “SEO expert Singapore” “Digital marketing agency Singapore” “Lead generation Singapore” Let's see how I fared since registering the domain. Our Domain Age Our check was on 29th August 2024. Threelittlepigs.pro was registered on: Monday 5th of July 2021. It's 3 years, 1 months and 24 days or 1151 days old. Our Site's Inactivity The site was registered on 5th July 2021 and was generally inactive until September 2021. I started to build some backlinks using the Skyscraper method and did some guest posts during towards the end of 2021. However life got in the way and I left it inactive till June 2024. Yes I know, I ain't a perfect SEO... neither is anyone. Our Link Building and Content Efforts I started building links, around 5-10 backlinks a month from June 2024, and started posting content targeted some long tailed local SEO keywords. Here's a screen shot of our posting frequency: Our blog's content is mostly humanly edited from A.I. outlines. Yes, it is my opinion that A.I. can't completely replace human writers just yet. However, A.I. is great at brainstorming outlines, and expanding on sections of content that you may run out of creative juice for. Here's our backlinks growth and organic positions data: Our site started being "noticed" by Google, and we got into many of the top 100 rankings on local search engine results. Social Signals Our site isn't really big on social media engagement, and SEO is still a pretty nerdy and niche topic in Singapore Hence forth, there's not much likes or follows on our social media. It is arguable that social signals may be one of the factors that can help you "escape the sandbox". To help with that that, you can run a paid social media engagement campaign on Meta ads. Or you can choose to leave it. I didn't run any engagement ads. The Results Our agency got our first SEO generated lead within two months of starting to publish content and link building. (Read: No, I'm not going to start shouting on social media that you can rank page one in two months) One of our targeted pages is also ranked on the 4th to 5th page of local SERPs. However, despite continuing to build high quality links and publish content onwards in August 2024 (the 3rd month), there has been no movement on the search results. That may... be alluded to the Google's Sandbox.
Tips to Get Out of the Sandbox
- Content Quality High-quality and unique content is the bare minimum these days for ranking in the SERPs. This is in light of Google’s helpful content updates in recent years. They’ve taken a tougher stance on people’s first, high quality content. - High Quality Backlinks Yes, getting high quality backlinks. This signals to Google that your site is trustworthy. Google’s API leak confirms it, alongside other technical SEO and UX factors. Rand Fishkin from Moz even suggested that relying solely on acquiring lower-quality links, such as those from SEO-specific directories, article submission sites, reciprocal links, dofollow blog comments, and forum signature links, could potentially extend your time in the "sandbox."  - Technical SEO and UX Make sure your site is technically optimized for speed, mobile-friendliness and has a clear URL structure. The implement on-page SEO practices like using headings tags, alt texts, and internal links. Ensure that your site is easy to navigate and provides a great user experience, menus, contact us pages, etc. You can also use Google Search Console to identify potential indexing issues.
Time for SEO to Work
The SEO community generally agrees on average that it takes 4 to 6 months for noticeable improvements in a website's ranking and traffic.  This may correlate to the notion of a “Google sandbox”. To second this, Ahrefs conducted a study on over 2 million keywords. They found that only 5.7% of newly published pages make it to the top 10 results on Google in one year.
Conclusion
My view is that whilst Google Sandbox remains an unofficial concept, the hypothesis can be viewed as informally valid as many new/ inactive sites experience a delay in ranking.  Whether it is due to Google’s caution with new content or simply a lack of authority signals, the best approach is to focus on people's first content, quality backlinks and good user experience. You increase your chances of breaking free from any "sandbox effect" and achieving higher visibility in search results. Read the full article
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“I… can’t believe this. How could a bug do this to his fellow citizens? These were his neighbors!”
“Not exactly. The scholars figured out if they targeted the lower classes it was much easier to get away with. The only ‘neighbors’ of his that were killed were the scholars who died trying to inflate their power.”
“This is… disgusting.”
“Yeah it’s wild. But heyyyy~ look at us~ we’re both such heroes for tackling such a horrible member of society~ the people will look upon us better now, especially once the news cycles catch on that this was going on during your father’s rule and nothing was done.”
“…. Why are you so happy? This is.. what happened here was terrible!”
“Yeah but it’s done now. At least there’s that.”
“….. I don’t like your tone.”
“Oh well forgive me for not weeping at the sight YoUr MaJeStY. I’m well versed in mass deaths yknow, both receiving and dealing. It’s not something that phases me so as your fresh lil noggin.”
“…….”
“Chin up, there’s a gold lining here at least. We look good and at least… their families will know what happened to them, and it won’t be forgotten. Knowing you you’ll make a somber lil garden memorial or whatever. Again, we’ll come out on top. I’ll leave you to wallowing.”
I’m getting the sense she’s more calloused and cold about these things. While Hollow is still fresh and young enough to not be numb to The Horrors. But she makes valid points. And she knows that unlike with her moths, the local reign will acknowledge the wrongs. I’m sure hollow’s official statement has an apology for the previous reign’s inaction as well as one of their own for this continuing to go on.
Okay but re: Radi assisting hollow with the soul tyrant.
“What’s gotten you so pissy?”
“I’m trying to deal with the Soul Master because I know there’s a lot of fucked up shit happening in there. And I was just going to Direct Action through it but I realized my current standing is shaky as is so I kinda need to make sure my reasoning is iron tight because “this man is committing crimes” alone doesn’t hold up very well.”
“Yeah well. You’re right there. Say, what’s his face again? On top of a fancy sanctum right?”
“Yeah why?”
“-remembering some of her projects when infecting powerful people, including a scholar with that was easy to make delusional with power- hm. I think I know him. Give me a day and I’ll see what I can remember and drag out for you.”
“….. ooookkkaayyy??”
And once he is done and dealt with, The Body Pit is discovered. So any fuss about Hollow doing what they did is quickly overshadowed by that. Hell, Hollow themselves might go and see the site of tragedy. Radi too, if she did provide assistance and heard they were going to investigate an awful report of the scene. And they can just
“Wow what the ACTUAL fuck” 🤝 “this is SO much worse than I initially thought”
OH YUMMY YUM, I LOVE UR ASKS AND THE WAY YOU WRITE DIALOGUE, WHAT A TREAT
Yes, this, 100%
Hollow's "Wow what the actual fuck (derogatory)" and Radiance's "Wow what the actual fuck (complimentary)"
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sushi0989 · 4 years ago
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Pick Me If You Want To (part 2)
Summary: Set in the early 1950s, you are an aspiring photographer that is currently working at a toy store until you make your big break. During a surge of Christmas shopping, you are first met by Wanda Maximoff, a mother of twin boys and married. She leaves her gloves, which gives you the opportunity to meet her again. She takes fond of you, and you of her, but her messy divorce with her husband, Vision, risks the custody of her twins. Does she continue your blossoming relationship or fight for her kids? Based on the movie Carol
Pairing: Wanda Maximoff x Reader
Warnings: Panic Attack 
Word Count: 2563
A/N: This chapter was a bit shorter, sorry about that. Next one should be longer and posted in a day or two. Hope you enjoy and please leave comments they really make my day :)
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You hadn't talked to Wanda since that, which was now a few days ago. You didn't want to impede on her familial issues, if she wanted to talk to you then she would call you. But she hadn't.
Steve finally ended things with you, which you were relieved about at first. You felt suffocated by his romantic gestures that were usually meaningless and dumb, you couldn't put up with them anymore. As he was walking out with the last box of his things in his arms, he looked back at you. The look of desperation he gave you, he hoped you would come to your senses and realize that you did love him with all of your heart as he loved you. You would run into his arms, throw down the box, and kiss him with passion like you once did. But you didn’t.
You remained standing still, your arms crossed over your chest as you stood in the middle of the living room. He squeezed his eyes shut and turned away, letting out a sigh as he walked out of the apartment you both shared for a year.
When he was out of sight, you went to shut the door. As you turned back around, you felt your stomach drop. As if everything that had just happened finally hit you. Your legs were shaking at the overwhelming rush of emotions that quaked your body.
Guilt.
The walls of your apartment felt like they were closing in on you, you felt the suffocating feeling again. Your vision was blurred from tears welling in your eyes and your legs shook as you attempted to get to the kitchen to drink a glass of water, but your knees gave in and you were now on the ground of the kitchen floor breathing heavily. The tears streamed down your face with choked sobs escaping your lips. The guilt was overwhelming, the self-deprecating thoughts loomed over you like a rain cloud, the rain produced the river of tears down your cheeks, drenching your clothes. 
He was a good man, a patient, loving, kind, and caring man who adored you with all of his being. You are a monster, a monster incapable of loving someone who loved you. You don't deserve anyone after hurting Steve the way you just did. 
Your mind chided you for hurting someone who loved you so dearly. Your mind was spinning, unable to get up off of the floor let alone wipe the river of tears streaming down your cheeks. The telephone, which was perched above your head, began to ring. The cord was hanging over your shoulder, so you managed to grasp it and pull the phone out of the receiver with a tug. It fell to the ground and you let it lie there.
"Hello? Y/n?" Wanda's voice reverberated out of the phone, her voice was now tainted with worry. Your ragged breaths and muffled sobs were apparent through Wanda's end, her mind flooded with concern for you. "What's wrong, dear?" You couldn't answer, you attempted to but you blubbered incoherent words that Wanda could not make out for the life of her. "I'm not too far away, I'll be there as fast as I can," Wanda assured and hung up the phone.
You lost all perception of time soon after that. You continued to spiral whilst sitting on the kitchen floor rocking back and forth. Your mind continues to shame you for your actions, or rather, your inaction.
You didn't really acknowledge all that was said, the voices in your head were too loud and distracting even though Wanda's voice was something you found to be as soothing as the ocean. Even with time, you didn't feel any better. You remembered all of your happy memories with Steve, all of the times he would make you dinner even though he was just as tired as you, him taking you to the county fair, him caring for you when you were sick, but you were too much of a spoiled brat to even realize that he was all you had. He put up with you, and now you broke his heart and let him go. 
You don’t deserve anything. You are unlovable. You will die alone, unhappy. You’re worthless.
You heard a faint noise, it sounded like a knock but you weren't sure. Wanda knocked on the door impatiently when she heard your choked sobs and heavy breaths from all the way down the hall. The door was locked, but Wanda knew you weren't in the state of mind to unlock it, so she did some quick thinking and pulled up the doormat to find a spare key. 
As soon as she walked in, she threw down her bag and rushed to kneel in front of you. "Hey, hey, I need you to breathe. Do you see me breathing? Just follow me," Wanda took in a deep breath and you attempted to follow, dragging in a ragged breath. You were confused as to how she got here, the previous phone call not registering into your mind, but you went ahead and listened to her because her voice seemed to be overpowering the voices in your head. Wanda’s soothing voice was like a light at the end of the tunnel you were lost inside of. Your vision was blurred by the tears welled in your eyes, but you could see Wanda’s auburn blob of hair sitting in front of you tilting her head.
After what seemed like hours to you, but in reality, was only 15 minutes, you calmed down. Wanda emphasized her breathing so you would match yours to it. She was holding your hand the entire time, and she gave it a tight squeeze when you let out your last sigh and looked up at her. Your cheeks were dried from your tears, but your eyes were red from crying. You brought your knees down from your chest and you regained control. Wanda cupped your face in her hands and wiped your face with her thumbs and leaned forward placing a kiss on your forehead.
“You don’t have to tell me what happened if you don’t want to,” Wanda cooed as she caressed your cheek and you leaned on her touch. You gave her a weak smile as thanks and she smiled back.
"I should've called you sooner, but I needed to go see my lawyer. The custody hearing over Tommy and Billy had some... hiccups," Wanda hesitated and you gave her a confused look. "Vision wants full custody of the two of them. I just— I needed to be alone for a little bit to gather my thoughts. My friend, Monica, was there for me," Wanda continued, but all you could think about was how broken she must be feeling right now. A mother to lose not one, but two kids, the children she grew in her womb and birthed to a man who had fun one night and ended up with twin boys. 
You now squeezed her hand and gave her a weak smile which warmed Wanda's heart just a little bit. "It's okay, Wanda, it's not your fault. And what Vision is doing is completely uncalled for, those are your sons and he shouldn't be taking them away from you," you defended her, your voice was hoarse from the crying. Wanda sniffled and gave a wry grin.
“Monica, she’s been helping me, so I wasn’t alone. We’ve been friends for a very long time, Vision never really liked her. He thought she and I were ‘too close’,” Wanda rolled her eyes remembering the time she and Monica were drunk and laughing in the living room until Vision came home and was fuming that she didn’t return any of his calls. Monica was so drunk that night that when she was leaving, she kissed Wanda on the lips as a goodbye which left the two of them flustered but Vision with skepticism.
“That’s good to know that you weren’t alone,” you replied with an encouraging tone. Monica seemed like a good friend from what Wanda rambled about. It almost felt like they were together at some point from what Wanda insinuated, but now Monica was engaged to a woman named Carol, so now Wanda and Monica are just good friends.
“We should go on a road trip. I’m in dire need of an escape and I don’t want to go it alone,” Wanda cut in abruptly, beaming with delight at her sudden idea. You laughed at her child-like excitement, you found it adorable the way her eyes lit up.
Wait, no. You can’t think like this. You’re going to end up hurting her, too. Friends. That’s all you can be.
“So, what do you say?” Wanda raised an eyebrow and waited for your answer. “I would love to,” you responded smiling and Wanda cheered, squeezing your hands.
“Oh goodness, I almost forgot! I’ll be right back,” Wanda got up and smoothed out her dress before leaving the apartment and entering with a large suitcase, placing it on the coffee table in your living room. “This is for you,” Wanda beckoned you to come and open it.
You gawked at what you were seeing. A brand new Canon Leica M3 camera, one of the best in the world. “Oh my god. I couldn’t possibly accept this,” you gasped in disbelief. The camera is probably worth nearly $100. “Oh, sweetie, please I insist. Besides, I can’t photograph for the life of me, it would be a waste,” Wanda joked.
Your body gravitated towards her, giving her a warm embrace. “Thank you,” you murmured into her shoulder. Her arms were wrapped around you, connecting at your shoulder blades. “Of course, you better take some amazing pictures of me,” she teased, making you laugh.
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Wanda parked her car outside of your apartment building, she stood leaning against it. A puff of smoke seeped from her lips, a cigarette balanced in between her fingers as she stared at the door of the apartment building waiting for you to emerge.
You clumsily stepped out, you lugged your luggage through the door, but it got caught. You muttered some vulgar language as it fell over and Wanda laughed in amusement seeing your irritation. A wave of calm washed over you when you heard Wanda’s laugh, her eyes were hiding behind a pair of sunglasses, once again she wore her coat that draped over a dark green dress. Red lipstick glistening from the sunlight, she took one last puff of her cigarette before dropping it to the ground and putting it out.
“This damn suitcase has a busted wheel,” you groaned, lifting it up to get down the steps. Wanda snickered as you struggled to put it into the trunk and slammed it shut with a grunt. “Ready to go?” she asked and you nodded, opening the passenger side door of the car.
Wanda decided to drive towards Chicago and you went with it. You didn’t care what the destination was, the journey is what counts. The two of you talked about whatever came to mind, it varied from debating what the best sitcom on television was to what pets you had growing up.
“I had a pet chicken that I named Mrs. Feathers,” you admitted and Wanda burst out laughing. “Mrs. Feathers?! What kind of name is that?” she exclaimed, still looking at the road. “Leave me alone, I was five years old,” you feigned hurt, but you couldn’t hold back your smile from listening to Wanda’s laugh.
“At least I didn’t kill my pet hamster,” you teased and Wanda gasped. “Wow, don’t use Gary against me. It wasn’t my fault he escaped and got trapped behind the radiator,” she whined, but she was joking as well.
You eventually fell into a comfortable silence two hours in. Now you were in Pennsylvania, you were basking in the beautiful countryside. You had once grown up on a farm, that’s where Mrs. Feathers obviously came from.
It was always your dream to leave your small hometown and live the city life, but you left so much behind. Your family, your older brother, sister, and younger sister, your friends, and most importantly your horse, Elvis. You would ride him every single day, he was your freedom from the conservative nature of your town. Right after school you would throw down your backpack next to the stable door and ride for hours and take pictures of the lush countryside. Leaving him was probably the hardest, you could see the sadness in his eyes as you brushed him one last time.
Your contact with your family ceased, only calling once or twice a year. You had only gone home once for your brother’s marriage, and that’s when you found out that Elvis had passed a few months earlier. No one supported your moving out to New York City, your mother had plans of arranging your marriage like your older sister, but you didn’t want that. Leaving was the best thing to happen to you, your photography motivated you. Elvis would want you to keep exploring without him.
“Whatcha thinking about?” Wanda broke the looming silence with a question that broke you from your thoughts. ”Just my horse,” you sighed. “You had a horse? And you instead talked about your chicken, but not your horse? How rude of you,” Wanda ridiculed with a teasing voice.
You gave a quiet laugh, but your smile quickly faded. Wanda glanced at you and noticed your solemn expression staring out the window. She took one hand off of the steering wheel and placed her hand on top of yours which was resting on your lap. You flinched at the touch, but she gave you an endearing look with her eyes helping you to relax again.
“He wasn’t just a pet, he was my best friend. He was there for me every day when no one else was. We would go on rides for hours so that I could escape my family's judgment. They hated how I was obsessed with taking pictures instead of being a proper girl and sewing or some other shit. I would mindlessly go with Elvis wherever that I still had yet to venture out, taking pictures along the way. There was one time my mom yelled at me for not waking up early to milk the cows, so I took Elvis as far as I could on an empty stomach. I bet I crossed state lines into Virginia. My mom took my camera for a week, but it was probably one of my favorite days with him, I would do anything to live that again,” you sighed as you reminisced, Wanda lightly squeezing your hand for you to continue.
And continue you did, and Wanda listened intently. She loved how passionate you were when you spoke about Elvis, riding all around the state. It was the same way when you would talk about photography or “I Love Lucy” which was your favorite show, or just about anything you had favoritism towards. Your eyes would crinkle at the sides as you would beam about whatever it was you were rambling about leaving Wanda with fluttering in her stomach; the same flutter she had when she first saw you in the toy store and intentionally went up to inquire about a toy.
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