#i think? its for ep 15

[ethantheannus]

"i want you to picture... zac efron." literally gave me the most vivid mental image of what this guy looks like thank you grizzly

[jessiesjaded]

Little Mulder and Scully moments, 1x03.

[captaincrazycreative]

Litteraly everyone in this podcast knows WAY more than they're letting on and it's driving me insane

[koetjingwarrd]

You're my baby, say it to me...

[jorrated]

My inability to stop reading/ watching something whenever I really get into may be a blessing in studies. But it absolutely will ruin my life in anything else

[connecting-the-stars]

Okay…

I’m like this close to trying cook up a story with Omega’s journey to bring her family back together.

S1 and S2 showing us this bright, optimistic young girl who loves her family, wanting to help others in the galaxy.

For S3 we have slightly older and a bit more practical girl who would do anything to protect her family.

What if when Omega breaks herself and Crosshair out, its years after their capture.

She’s still Omega, loves her family and wants to help those that are victims of the empire… but her grip on the things she loves leaves claw marks.

Taking some inspiration from The Last of Us as they bring Ellie down a darker path, a character that is critical to the shaping the world they live in. Omega lost tech, she lost her freedom, she is light years away from any resemblance of home, and even initially believing that hunter and wrecker are also at the mercy of Hemlock. (Asks Emerie where her brothers are).

Having this arc of struggling to find the light that used to sit warm in her chest, that is almost entirely drowned out by the absence of all she’s lost. Having her capacity for forgiveness tested by crosshair’s aura of guilt and self deprivation, his belief that her journey will lead them to answers they are better not knowing.

Would she be able to find her way back to the person she used to be?

[poobletoods]

i like them :)

[zimszim]

the scene where the doctor tells kate that he doesn't have kids yet is such a crazy ass thing to say just randomly but i love how when kate tells him that she never knew he had a granddaughter based off of the stories her father told her as a child, he tells her "I was a different Doctor back then, Kate. Great enigma. Still can't shake it off. I'm trying." which is so heartbreaking and it crushes me because it's already so apparent how badly he wants to change from this closed off, holds everything in his heart and then one day he'll die type of person. he wants to be better than that. for himself, for his friends. and he fails sometimes too, he gets closed off, like in rogue, he just tries to move on but ruby doesn't let him. but even that, he doesn't hug her fully, with all of his grief and fear. he's still holding back, but he's trying. and it hurts him. he's trying to be open and truthful and with that openness i feel like he's realizing just how painful life is without all those fortified walls up, how deeply grief can seep into him, but inversely, how fierce he can love and hate and fear and hope!!! everything is brighter and burns hotter when those barricades are down and its for the best and worst

[skrunksthatwunk]

just finished s2 of kaiji and it was good i really liked it but i hope i never see that fuckass pachinko machine again!!!

[comradecowplant]

look, as a big ole homo who just started babylon 5 and is fixated on shipping ivanawinters despite there being nothing at all canon to support it & who is also a big personal fan of the wicked stage musical/books..... those girls are not as gay together as so many of you seem to think they are.

[sacredglitch]

Shaw: He's like you...if you were evil

Harold: I'm not overly fond of that comparison

Also Harold:

[leafened]

pretty sure all the auto immune symptoms I have are being triggered by UTIs. which is a lupus thing but could also just be some weird cytokine shit because turns out we really do not understand anything. anyway I just have to eat 5 cloves of raw garlic every day forever

[just-spacetrash]

😦

[dennisboobs]

absolute hottest lukewarm take

[thesoundofchains]

Clayface in this show reminds me of Natsuki Subaru which makes me want to rewatch Re: Zero.

[tirorah]

Oh, Ami... If only I could give you a big hug. "I'm not kind," she says. "I didn't know that I was such a horrible human being." And honestly, good on her for finally trusting Rei with these feelings, while also acknowledging that Usagi has other friends and Ami doesn't have the right to monopolise Usagi's time and attention.

She knows she's wrong for feeling this way, but she can't control it. She's never had to face this challenge before. Who's to say these dark feelings didn't leak into her actions? That single moment she spent staring when Naru fell into the hole...was that delayed response truly due to shock, or did part of her WANT it to happen?

What she says at the end, that she's been 'deceiving' Usagi and that that makes her awful, really sticks out to me this time around. Because remember what Usagi said once:

If Usagi thinks Ami is a kind person, but Ami actually isn't, then Ami is tricking Usagi. And if she's tricking Usagi, then she's not a true friend.

Now, Ami's been see-sawing heavily on the emotional spectrum for...well, basically the entire show, but especially since the 'Usagi is turning in a Youma' incident. She went from the lowest lows (being out of her depth with no support from Rei or Makoto, Usagi being taken, etc.) to the highest highs (keeping Usagi stable all by herself, successfully lying to Ikuko, etc.). And every time that happens, Ami's emotional state just gets a tad more volatile.

But I think there's something else at play here too. It's a pitfall I'm sadly familiar with: perfectionism.

Ami DOES think her jealousy resulted in Naru being captured. She thinks that because her inability to control these feelings is, to her, a failure on her part. That failure reflects badly on her character, ergo, she's a terrible person. And Ami is taking that really hard, because she's a perfectionist.

There's an unused scene later on where everyone turns in their knitted scarf project to one of their teachers (oh boy, we haven't even gotten to the scarfs yet). Naru receives a grade of 88% and is overjoyed. Ami receives a grade of 93% and is GUTTED.

I see myself in that. To give you an anecdote: The only time I ever cheated on a test was when it was a subject I was exceedingly good at: English, which is a foreign language for me. It was a matter of pride--nay, principle!--that I get no less than a 9 (out of 10) on every single English test. I only cheated on a single answer, but in that moment, my overly rigid moral fibre was nowhere to be found. That's how much I couldn't stand to fail the arbitrarily high standard I set for myself.

Ami is like that for everything. Every subject, every challenge she faces, no matter how unfair, has to be aced. If it's not, she's a failure and a disappointment. Even now, when she has more to live for than studying, she still grades herself on every little thing and considers her high grades the only worthwhile aspect of herself.

Fortunately, Rei and her wonderful stomping leg are about to tell her what's what.