#i think u youll be getting even more soon

[onejellyfishplease]

I just finished reading the new chapter for Open Your Shell and AUGH it hurts so bad. One part really stood out to me: "Donnie's hands curled into fists, slamming down onto his desk, just narrowly missing his keyboard. He started at it. The 'D' key was coming loose." I didn't really think much of it at first, but then I realized the significance of the loose key being the 'D' one. It symbolizes that Donnie is drifting apart from his family. The key is breaking and coming loose and so is he. The key hasn't fallen off quite yet, but it will soon if nothing is done about it. Donnie hasn't left yet, but he plans to once Leo is back home. I may just be looking into it too deeply, but I really loved that line and it got me thinking, so I just had to gush about it for a minute.

oh im so glad you noticed!! i was really proud of that little nugget of symbolism.

and another little tidbit is- Donnie isn't bothered to fix it, he knows its almost broken and he isnt going to do anything to stop it. like he's accepted it as inevitable.

love it when people look into my writing like that!!

[ssparksflyy]

jason grace dating hcs ִֶָ ࣪ ִֶָ♱་༘࿐

pairing jason grace x child of mors hcs warning slight mentions of death i guess but thats kind of a given an based off this request !! hope u enjoy

nothing has ever quite been able to top the wave emotions that hit jason when he saw you for the first time

some call it love at first sight i call it love at first sight

like just imagine little jason stopping mid tracks eyes wide and jaw open

you thought it was weird

cause it’s your first day at this random camp, you just found out(and are still processing) that your dad is a roman god ???

as if that wasnt weird enough now theres this tiny white boy staring right at you

so of course you hit em with that "whatcha lookin at punk 🤬🤬🤬" cause your so #hardcore #punk #rock #rebel

no im kidding you just give him a nasty ass look and hes runs away

very short interaction but its one he wont forget

i wanna say youre like eight when you get to camp just for lore reasons

it actually takes a hot second for you to get claimed, im talking like two maybe three years

yeah your dads not the best

but as soon as you do, all your friends DITCH YOU ??

except for

youll never guess who

jason !!

in the time where you were unclaimed, you and jason slowly got close but with him now being one of the only people you hung out with, you got even closer

somewhere along the way, reyna joined your little group and you instantly got close with her as well

(shes out here collecting her creepy kids)

you didnt really have a movie-like friendship with her, but you had a lot of respect for each other and trusted each other deeply

leading to the sharing of private stories and secrets, aka making her the first person to know about *drum roll please* your crush on jason !!! yayyyyy

turns out you didnt even have to tell her that cause she literally just said "oh yea i already knew that"

and you were like ?? okay

just cause you were aware of your feelings (and jason was aware of his) does not mean that you did anything about itttt

reyna spent YEARS watching you two awkwardly interact, both way too afraid to even insinuate any romantic feelings

aka : you thought he wouldnt like you cause ur weird + he thought you only saw him as a friend and didnt share the feelings

only when this boy gets snatched outta nowhere do your feeling really hit you like a double decker bus

waves of really anxious feelings begin coming in more often as time goes on and less people begin to care about his disappearance

butcha never give up and thats what matters !!

reyna's there by your side the entire time, comforting when u need it ♡

then like this one guy shows up i dont remember his name i think hes like the son of neptune or something like that

anyway he goes on a quest or something ?? dont really remember why he's relevant

you do become friends though so theres that

but like best part about him is that the search party that came to find him had jason with them !!!

your heart must've stopped when you saw him cause you were frozen in shock until reyna gave you a shove and suddenly you were racing towards this boy, and he was also coming at you

you collided somewhere in the middle, embracing each other tightly

and you ALMOST

key word almost

kissed him

but not yet !!

lets be honest, nobody wants lore and ive got homework due in a bit so to put it short: after you awkwardly peel yourself off of jason, you end up joining the seven and their quest to stop motha nature! the first few days are a little awkward with the others (mainly cause you've never been much of a people person) but spend so much time with jason !

you swap stories about his time away from camp and gets you a little closer to the friends he met on the way- particularly leo and piper

they soon connect with you, eager to learn more about you after the stories theyve heard from jason and you end that day walking into your room super giddy

just as you were getting into bed however, GUESS WHO WALKS IN

JASON.

"veronica what are you doing in my room??"

he plops down on your bed and makes a little small talk, watching you through the mirror atop the desk you were sitting at

the room gets quiet once you finish and walk over to the bed, the white noise of the ship's engine running being the only thing you hear

as you sit down next to him on your bed, you turn to face him with a soft smile

he returns the smile and starts fidgeting with his hands as he tries to find the words for what hes about to say

omg is he about to say what i think he is ?!?11/1

yea

he starts off his ramble talking about the first time he saw you, how much fun he had growing up with you, then went onto how lost he felt without you and eventually tied it up with a lovey dovey gush about how youve changed his life forever

youd think the guy is proposing

but he’s actually just confessing his feelings for you!!! how cute

you're left a little shocked cause what!! what do you mean jason grace likes you!!!

pretty sure you know what happens next and soon enough your walking around with your finger interlocked and receiving pecks on your nose like its nobody's business

once you actually start dating, the shift from friends to lovers isnt too drastic

cause you already spend so much time together and know everything about each other, it's just now you dont have to hold back the urge to kiss and hug him at every breathing moment

the honeymoon phase is crazyyyyyy

like yall cant get off each other

once you ease out of it, you're still super affectionate with each other, just now its not super shocking that you're dating your best friend and have instead adapted to it

as semi mentioned before, jason looves holding your hand whenever you're together and adores pecking the tip of your nose, forehead, and cheeks

jason is so excited to show you camp half blood and show you his favorite spots when you agree to visiting

you end up really enjoying the camp and have an amazing time swimming in the lake, taking nature walks in the forest, and ending the night cuddled up in cabin one together

but nothing can beat your sleepovers, coffee shop dates, university lecture sit-ins, and afternoon strolls that you have at camp jupiter

its truly your home and you wouldn't choose to live your life with jason anywhere else in the world

things don't really change friends wise

though you do get closer with some people in your classes

pretty soon you're living the dream; a small(ish) circle of friends you know you can trust, two homes, a supportive best friend, and your dream guy right by your side everyday

his favorite way to spend weekends with you is by watching popular movies and ranking them based on the toll the have on his life

#1 on his list? dead poets society

(guys i have not recovered. its been a WEEK AND I HAVENT MOVED ON I DONT THINK I EVER WILL)

he literally has 'carpe diem' scribbled on a lined piece of paper right next to his bed

you are yet to miss a movie night together

you always end up having them, one way or another

honestly, your parents don't have much effect on your life

other than the fact you're into darker things and have been your whole life, your dad and his image haven't had much of an effect on your life

he doesn't acknowledge you and truth be told, you're glad he doesnt

not to forget romans view it as bad luck, so having brunch with death every sunday isn't too appealing to you

you really dont mind it, and jason doesn't mind jupiter too much either

he simply kind of lives his life without really thinking about him, he's happy without him having a role in his life anyway

yknow why?

cause he has you!!! duhhhh

you end up living your life all happy together and its great ‹𝟹

[internetscenarios]

PLEASE LCSCHLATT ANYTHING

yes anon!😛

schlatt x reader headcanons ·˚

• hand difference!!

• purposely holds your hand to actually see the difference

• i think someone did this with ted i cant remember but

petnames when ur alone, jay in front of people, and jonothan when your angry😛

• feel like he calls you petnames more than your actual name

• toots, doll, anything that sounds like a new york business man

• always buys u random stuff, like i feel like stuff just shows up at ur door

• jambo and burnt soup love u sm!!

is burnt soup even the cats name

• youll come to his house and the people answering the door are the cats

• lets say hypothetically you have a cat and that cat has a kitten. ur cat brings their kitten to schlatt all the time because its a sign of trust <3

sorry ive been watching so many cat videos

• as much as ur relationship might be private theres constantly hints like if ur a cc then ur constantly interacting

• i feel like u would have a minx and schlatt era.. miss them…

hi everyone.. i havent posted in so long or not a proper post.. i doubt ill be super active but i do enjoy writing so feel free to send requests and i can get to them as soon as possible :D

[spencerismyfav]

When i asked her "its been years, ive been doing this for years but it hasn't come", she replied to me "so are you having that desire or are you saying you are not". I was confused at first but then i came to the realisation.

You cannot change the mirror but yourself, if you keep saying it just to get it in the mirror ur missing the point. The whole point is to change yourself and the rest is unnecessary even if you didnt see it in the present moment.

You basically change your reality all the time and youll always be in the present moment. In this present moment, is ur parent in the same room as you? No. But do u assume that they sre here? Ofc. Its like that, even if you cant see your desires in 3d, does that mean it doesnt exist? No. But its just like ur parents, youll meet them soon or whenever they wabt but that doesnt mean they dont exist.

In this present moment they dont but once i go their room, they do exist. Just like your desire, for example, you want a magical powers right? If you assume that you can use your magic however you want and in this present moment you cant, does that mean you never be able to use it? No! It means that you have acknowledge that you have it, its just that in this present moment i dont use my powers.

Same goes for shifting, you assume that you can shift realities on command and however you want, in this present moment you are in a current reality, does that mean you never can shift? No! You are just acknowledging what you can do. Its not false or anything. Just like you acknowledge that theres going to be new day or tomorrow or next week and such. In this present moment it doesnt show you can shift but you assume that you can shift and this is why ladies and gentlemen 4d is the real and true reality.

Because how do u know that the sky is blue when u close ur eyes? How do u know u have a laptop when ur not holding it? How do u know that you have ur parents? How do u know u were in college last year? How do u even know that 2022 even exist? Exactly assumption!! Its not that hard lol 😭😭. So this is a reminder because ive been trying to manifest a car (idk why cuz i literally have money), you have a fucking car, you don't have to believe that its here but know that you have a car.

Because if i say its here, youll be like "where?" Lol no. You have a car but in a present moment you just cant see it, you are filthy rich but in this present moment you cant see it, the sky is blue and beautiful but in this present momebt you cant see, you can shift realities on command and however you want but in this present moment you cant see. Literally so much more but does that mean it doesnt exist? No. But in 3d yeah because you exist one at the time but thats why 3d is rubbish lmfao. 4d is a reality because thats where u shift realities, dobt believe me? Whats this then. Exactly, i assumed that ill type that and it came. I dont even need to assume it.

So when she said that, i think she meant, are you actually going identify that you dont have it rn? Because theres no proof in 3d, no proof in 4d, no proof whatsoever and it all lies with your assumption so are u actually going to say you dont have it?

Literally it made me think and shes right, even if i dont see it in 3d, does that mean i dont have it? No!! But u just cant see it thats why 4d exists and how do u know it exists (before you graciously overcomplicate yourself)? Assumption, intention, visualisation, affirmations, and just where subconscious mind lives lol.

Again, you are not your thoughts, nor your feelings, circumstances, body, mind or even soul, you are not your name, you are not the eyes that you can see, or ears that you can hear or hand that you can feel, nothing but an awareness so whatever is unfavorable to you whether is everything that i mentioned or more, instead of identifying it and claim it that its who you are, let it pass, acknowledge and let it go, dont identify it, dont participate in it, just let it pass, feel those feelings, think those thoughts, see those circumstances but dont identify it, dont say its yours.

Example: if you see that you want mcdonalds and you cant see it in this present moment, instead of identifying it and say you dont have it, assume that its going to come, it has already come just cant see it in this present moment or it came, ate and finished. So simple, no feelings involved, no thoughts involved, just assumptions.

Feelings doesnt matter if its not yours, dont identify because you thought that when u feel that, that means you are doing something wrong because you are not, you are not your feelings you are an awareness, a god, pure consciousness and limitless, so all of that does that mean you are your feelings? No. You are nothing but just an observant of your experience so dont worry about your thoughts, if you dont identify them, just let them pass.

Forgot to mention. I swear to god, to me and to everyone, there is no right or wrong, it doesnt exist, if you decide that you would go on strictly robotic affirm and the next day will be visualisation, no wrong with that. Even if you feel disbelief while saying affirm, as long as you decide to identify who u are, you are done!! Finito!! Basta lol. You are not doing anything wrong, like i said as long as you identify who you are like you say in your head "oh i shift realities all the time" for example and you remain loyal to that identification, its done, you are done, finished. Dw abt the rest, dw abt feeling wish fulfilled because you dont need it, u are done!!

[galactiquest]

heya, do u think youll be posting the results of the trigun self ship survey anytime soon? i was genuinely curious what the results were like so id love to see what u got 0v0

I'm glad to see someone remembered--i sort of forgot my "one month" cutoff, so then I was like "well, maybe everyone forgot about it"--guess not!

But, you know what? Since you asked, I'll post the results here.

I got a total of 39 responses (which is a lot smaller than I'd hoped, but that's OK).

First off, Demographics!

Most people taking the survey are 21-26, with 17-20 coming in second, 27-33 coming in third, and a small part of people in the 13-16 range.

Gender identity was both surprising and unsurprising. I had to use the genderfluid/genderqueer/nonbinary option as a "catchall" because there would have been too many identities to list off overall. But that and "cisgender female" were both tied at 38.5%.

Sexuality had a big variety of responses! Most people voted bisexual, but a lot of people also filled in their own answers (to varying degrees of ace/aro spectrum).

In terms of terms, most people liked self-insert and self-shipper.

Media consumption wasn't surprising, with most people watching both the original Trigun and the newest Trigun Stampede.

Most people self insert or self ship with Vash the Stampede and Nicholas D. Wolfwood, with the third place dropping severely with Millions Knives. It drops even more severely to Milly Thompson and Livio the Double-Fang, tied at 15 votes. I respect whoever filled in a response just to say "if Vash breathes the wrong way I will rearrange his guts."

And the most important character ends up pretty similarly, I'd say--Vash is the king crown at 46.2%. He's pretty important to us.

Since there's a lot of dynamics questions, I'll put them below the cut.

Most people find themselves liking all parts of a character.

Most people noted their relationship being in the 2-6 month range. Though four responders said theirs was longer than 8 years! That's dedication!

This question was honestly hard for me to parse, but this is just about how people craft the relationship in an imagine/fantasy/art/writing/etc.

Most people felt towards a more long-term relationship style. (I should have included an "it's complicated" answer, because I feel like it would have made sense for some.)

Now, for the true/false portion! Less people responded to this.

...And that's it! The images might get compressed, so click them for better quality.

Overall, I think I got the answers I was expecting--there's a lot of skew towards a cisgender female reader insert, which can be kind of sad or almost feel unfair to those who don't fall into that category. I think if more people were encouraged to write about a different scope, or if we really hammered home that gender neutral doesn't just mean lady-lite, maybe there could be some more content for all of us.

[onlyjaeyun]

zadie love!!!! 💗💫 i know u said to not apologize for sending in late asks but i can’t help it im sorry🥲 i’ve been so busy on my girls trip this past weekend, and i got home super late last night so i’ve been exhausted trying to fix my sleep schedule yet again while also unpacking from my recent trips BUT while i was in new york i still made sure i got to read ur updates before bed!! i thought it would be better to send in a longer ask once i got home and had more time to type it out🫶🏻🫶🏻

ONTO THE RECENT CHAPS: i looooveeedd taro & yn’s convo like they really are just two besties with absolutely no filter and i enjoyed that chap sm😭 also taro basically calling out yn saying she can’t finish bc sunghoon isn’t the one fucking her is so real like our girl needs to accept and realize it soon😓 AND HOON BEING SO OPEN ABOUT WANTING TO FUCK HER AGAIN WAS NOTTT ON MY 2024 BINGO CARD BC I WOULD THINK HE HAS TOO MUCH PRIDE TO OPENLY ADMIT SOMETHING LIKE THAT. then again he’s still a dick for saying that he wants to fuck her but still doesn’t care about her…you’re writing CH!sunghoon so well like he genuinely makes my blood boil at times. i’m glad yn is getting laid tho but she needs to be fucked good soon and i’m sensing a smut chap w/ hoon in the near future??👀👀

i saw the recent asks some anon sent in saying CH is getting boring and i truly want to know where their thought process is at bc it’s literally getting better with each chapter!!!! some people are so rude, like i get constructive criticism, but that just wasn’t it. the way you’re writing this smau is everything and more zadie, don’t let those weirdos get to you!!!! i know it’s easier said than done but remember there’s more people who love your works (me being one of them), than people who are just bored and have nothing else better to do with their days. IM AN ONLYJAEYUN DEFENDER TILL THE END‼️‼️ you’re doing amazing baby, keep your head up💓💓

wanted to share w/ you a little bit about my girls trip to nyc too!! it was my friend’s 23rd birthday so our whole friend group surprised her w/ a weekend trip to new york as a bday present!! OMG a funny story that happened on our first night there, we all went to this club to celebrate and these group of guys kept being so pushy and gross towards me and my friends. one of them insisted on buying me a drink but he just made me so uncomfy that i didn’t want to even be near him. i tried to decline nicely but he was so persistent. what was funny was that he saw my lockscreen and it was a pic of jongseong in the gym and he immediately backed off bc he thought it was my bf so thank you jay bc he was able to get me out of that situation😭😭

i got carried away with writing this ask so i hope you enjoy this novel i wrote you LOL🤭🤞🏻💞 i hope you’re doing well my baby!! i missed chatting w/ you🥹🫶🏻 ilysm 🤍🧸🎀 !!

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MY ANGEL BABY IS BACK YALL WAKE UP!!!!🤭🤭🤭💗

bless your sweet soul, the fact you made time to read CH during your busy ass girls' trip means so much to me baby, i love and appreciate you with my whole heart 🥺💗

STOP YOULL ACTUALLY MAKE ME CRY NOT THE DEFENDER PART 🥺🥺🥺 thank you so much baby, ngl the comment did hurt a little but i know most of you guys are loving it as much as i do and with amazing feedback from amazing people like you snd many more i would never let those get to me to that certain point again 🥺 i love you sm

OMG NOT THE JONGIE BOYFIE PIC SAVING YOU!!!!! he really is THAT boyfriend im afraid 🤭 im sorry you had to deal with m*n like that baby and am glad you're ssfe and having fun, you deserve it so much!🥺

sending you the biggest kiss and i really hope you can get a little rest soon bc nestie you've been booked and busy but we love to see it!!!!!💗

[meyhew]

its good that youre focusing on something else, i wish i was as strong as you :') if you dont mind sharing, how are you learning to gif? also for what its worth im truly very sorry for the loss of your stuff, i understand how devastating it is bc the same thing (save for a couple of minor details) happened to me and my way of dealing with it is to push it all away and try not to Think about it. even though its been months. anyway i hope you feel at least a little better soon, maybe try to take this as an opportunity to start over and write better. your stories are all within you, whether you physically record them or not, and absolutely no one can take that away from you. sending you love, youll be okay. 🥰❤️

yeah i'm give it one more attempt tomorrow and see if anyone at google.com gives a shit. if not... oh well. i've had worse things happen to me. but thank u i really appreciate this and so sorry it happened to u as well. it sucks.

and i'm using this tutorial as a guide but my beloved @delicatepointofview has been helping me learn! she taught me the basics first and pointed me in the direction of a lot of other helpful things. she's just a text away and i've been harassing her every time i get stuck on something silly that i cant figure out bc im not looking at the bigger picture. could not and would not do this without her <3

[natsmagi]

godd i just got into enstars recently and all the characters’ lore and development is so so interesting to me… it’s a bit overwhelming for sure but i hope i can make progress on reading some stories soon

in past fandoms/media i’ve been in, i was definitely one of those ppl who reduced characters to a singular trait or a ship (and i didn’t even look at how the characters within the ships helped each other develop either). i think a lot of that came from not reading the stories from the source material. i used to get most of my information about characters from the wiki or ppl’s posts abt them which were mainly lovemail or meme posts, not that people should never make them but god i should not have been basing my perception of a character off them.

i haven’t gotten into the enstars fandom that much (i think) and i think that’s been good for me. i’m in like. shallow waters ig. and random stuff just washes up on my feed. i’m at the point where i’m interested in charas that i originally hated/disliked, not to say they’re my faves now but i am certainly intrigued by them and i hope to learn more about them soon

also i’m sorry this ask/rambling/confession of sins is so long and probably somewhat incoherent i didn’t realize ajdjfhfhdmsnjdk that one post activated my few braincells

ITS ALL GOOD! and yea i totally get that! even with ensemble stars i feel like thats a common beginning for people to have in this fandom. bc like. there are SOOOO many stories and SOOOO many characters, how the hell are u even supposed to know where to start?? or even know which characters youll end up loving most???? so it makes sense to just check out the wikis and see what ppl are posting online! i know i did that when i first got into the fandom (i also took a uquiz to see what character i was most like) (got wataru for those curious)

i dont think theres anything wrong with starting off ur fandom journeys like this! its just important to actually engage with the source material if its something thats interested u so u dont start accidentally spreading misinfo and mischaracterization and whatnot! we all start somewhere and we cant be expected to know every single thing about everything, so its okay!

[dnf-fic-recs]

hii, do u know some good mermaid fics? thank u :)

A Merman's Tear by bellsabee - Not Rated

Pirate captain Dream is captured by the king, in order to be pardoned, he and his crew must set sail on an almost impossible mission, to secure a mermaids tear to cure the deathly illness the king has contracted. But when this mermaid, or better put, merman starts to worm his way into Dream's heart, things start to change.

when the sea meets the sky by Not4typicalwriter

It started with a lighthouse.

It took a while for the lighthouse to get built. It was a particularly small and rocky island, and there'd been some crashes (none were fatal, thankfully) but there was enough trouble that the people decided the lighthouse was much needed.

It started really slow. Boats would come to the small island with materials and supplies, dozens of workers came along with it and they went on to work, slowly building the lighthouse piece by piece.

Dream didn't even notice it was there until it got high enough that he could see it during his regular flight over, choosing mostly to ignore the humans that are working day and night only to crowd into his airspace. It was rude, to be fair.

George noticed it way before that, however. Humans with their boats, crossing his swimming path, dumping shit into the water surrounding them, getting it a bit muddy and disgusting. Again, humans were kind of rude for that.

Sapnap is a lighthouse keeper (human, of course), and during one stormy night, he finds himself in a bit of a problem when a bird-man crashed into his lighthouse. He doesn't know anything about these people. His solution? Find the fish-guy and ask him for help.

where the sun sleeps by meridies

Three months, four boarded and conquered ships, and one full season later, their search has come to nothing. George, Dream knows, is fairly certain that if they don't give up the search soon, the crew will be at each other’s teeth. Any sane captain would direct his crew to the nearest harbor or civilized town and let them run amok to dissolve the tensions.

Dream, however, is no sane captain.

or, the crew are pirates with no mercy, George is a selkie, and there is more to Dream than meets the eye.

selkie!gnf but i think youll like the vibe :)

sand people by sootified

George is a boy with bright eyes and stupid jokes and an even stupider laugh that makes Dream feel like he's drowning, but in the good way.

Ironic, considering how he's fallen in love with a mermaid.

the shore between your skin and the sea by fensandmarshes and lieyuu (circees)

George might very well be stranded in the middle of his bedroom, with his best friend slash crush due to arrive in less than ten minutes and a fucking fish tail attached to him, but everything was definitely fine if you looked at it from the right perspective. George, having fallen onto the ground the moment his legs decided nope, we’ve had enough and sold him to Fish God for one corn chip or some shit, was not currently able to get any perspective other than ‘lying on the floor’, but he would find one somehow!

The H2O: Just Add Water AU that precisely nobody asked for.

Love Me Like I'm Human by Harper44 - Ongoing [1/?]

There on the other side of the glass is the merman, who remains completely still other than the occasional flick of his beautiful blue tail to stay upright. The creature floating there in the water is eerie in the vastness of the blue surrounding him. He understands now what Sapnap meant about his eyes. They look human. They look intelligent. Those dark brown eyes watch every move Dream makes as he eases off the ladder.

The merman's top half definitely looks human other than a few patches of blue scales scattered over his skin and the gills in his neck. Brown hair floats around his head, loose and soft-looking in the water. The tail is absolutely beautiful, shimmering in the light with each slight movement. It's sky blue and brilliant against the murky blue of the water.

Or, Dream makes friends with the merman who lives at the aquarium where he works.

[pinkseas]

[parasocial bestie] GOOD MORNING ALY BESTIE I HOPE YOULL HAVE A GOOD DAY SOON i actually had to rewrite this ask bc i accidentally lost it when typing on phone cus of my dumbassery like 😭😭😭 i read ur lil notice and i assure u its definitely okay 2 me please take your time in responding at all cus we both havy busy lives its valid asf eurhgwhxhd i never know the Employed experience but i can only imagine its harder than my current study year rn )): so i hope and pray youll get thru it IM CHEERING YOU ON ILYSM OKAYYY also i have. sumn else in mind but uhh youll see beep boop it may or may not affect our future interactions yes boop <333

GOOD MORNING I HOPE U HAD AN AMAZING DAY AND THAT U HAVE AN EVEN BETTER NIGHT!!!!!! i can Promise U like. if i was full time then sure maybe itd be busier/harder/more stressful but im part time in retail it is NAWT difficult i just am very mentally ill with mad anxiety or else itd be fine 😭😭😭😭😭 genuinely cannot imagine how much more difficult the university experience is but God i wanna find out <- needs to get her shit together and decide on a college or study program bc she was only supposed to take 1 gap year and covid turned it into like 4 going on 5 💀💀💀💀💀💀💀 THANK U 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 and oh shit????? i cant say Fear even tho i kinda want to thats not the right word [gothic font] i could never be afraid of you bestie <- now tell me why that made me think abt xiaolumi again i hate it here. ANYWAYS. anticipation thats the right word i am feeling Anticipation™️

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A letter to a bitter person,

Not gonna lie--- you probably wont ever read this. If you end up actually finding it congratulations i guess you did it.

 I didn’t really plan on saying anything but considering the multiverse is falling apart and its the end of the world, i didn’t want to leave any feelings unsaid. 

To anyone in my life past or present. Y’know just in case.

  I just wanted to take the time to say i see the shit u talk. I see everything you say about me/ towards me.

       You seem to have this idea that I somehow never cared about you? Or secretly hated you or something when we were friends. I just want to say for the record: I mourned our friendship for months. I was genuinely hurt and confused when i lost what I thought was my best friend. 

 && maybe I shouldn’t say that because it will send you into an ego trip where you think you’re the hottest shit to walk the earth; 

  cus ‘ ohhh i got c.c. I hurt them! They care about me after all i win! ’. 

     I never said I didn’t but hold that thought homie, let me finish.

The person i was mourning wasn’t you. It was the person I built you up in my mind to be. The friend i wanted to believe you were.  && The fact is you weren’t a good friend to me the last year i knew you.

 A good friend doesn’t ghost spending time with you constantly. 

They don’t make jokes when you’re having a ptsd induced panic attack. 

A good friend doesn’t take every opportunity to talk shit and name call after the fact either. 

 Not to mention good friends dont try to steal their best friend’s girlfriend and destroy a relationship of 4 years.

Remember when you said you respected our friendship more than to take bee from me that you’d back off because you valued my happiness?

           No? Weird. Cus I sure as hell do.

----( You didn’t by the way. Me and Bee are happy together && doing just fine. Putting a wig on ur gf and having her cosplay crapplebee isnt going to change that or suddenly make me believe i lost my girlfriend lmao. )

              But hey. 

 Keep trying to convince me that I somehow lost the love of my life. Its funny. Embarrassing for you, but funny.

(Side note maybe u should treat your amity like a person instead of your side piece. Just a suggestion. Making her cosplay another girl youd prefer to date. Really bro? Cmon. )

(Blushy if ur reading this i hope u wake up soon.)

Anyways.

All of this to say.---- Losing you? wasn’t a loss at all.

 Not by the time it happened at least.

Maybe it would be have been when our friendship was younger and you had some respect for yourself and anyone else. 

The person that was my friend is gone though and all thats left is this bitter, selfish and small person who feels like she has to tear others down to prove something.  But maybe you’ve always been that small person and you just played us to try and get my girl.

 Who knows. I probably never will know the truth. 

--Cause even if you ever find this-you might read it but you wont take the time to comprehend it.  Or understand it. Youll take it as me being a ‘ bad or fake’  friend, and you’ll shout from the rooftops how you’re so superior.

Because at the end of the day, our friendship wasn’t what mattered. My words fell on deaf ears cause lets be real, what you cared about was what you could get out of it. You weren’t there to grow with me, you stifled me. 

& Frankly— I outgrew you.

&& I’m better without you. Im better for it. I met more luzes because of it. I have closer bonds with everyone now. I see Eda and King more. I see willow and Gus more.

I have a true friend group now.

  Lynx, Asra, Sunny, Hunter, Lucky, Bee. I wouldn’t trade them for the world. They picked me up at my darkest and showed me what friendship without stipulation and toxicity looked like. I have more people behind me now than I ever have 

I no longer feel like I have to work my life around your expectations. && my life feels like its finally moving forward even with all the turmoil in the multiverse i know the people behind me really got me. 

So in a way. I guess I should thank you. 

So, Thank you;

Thank you for showing me the kind of person you really are- because at the end of the day, It let me start living again.

Tener la vida que te mereces amiga

[lqfiles]

BRO STFU STFU CAN WE ALL JUST ARREST LQFILES AND HOLD HER HOSTAGE BC WTF YN BEING HURT WASNT MUCH BUT IK THE ANGST IS GONNA HURT SO BAD IF I FELT BAD DURING THAT UPDATE omgggg

also I see that little “2 months” MY MAN HAECHAN IS BEING SO LOYAL WITHOUT REALIZING IT OMG yk he goes crazy with the “i love my gf so back tf up before i personally fight you for disrespecting her” if anyone flirts with him like he would be more offended than mc 😭

“i also got tired of ppl liking me for being haechan instead of really me” goes crazy bc that’s why he loves bothering mc since she gives him back the same energy without trying to suck up to him since she can’t stand him (she’s starting to and i love the progress 🥺)

BUT PUT your hands up PUT EM UP

but awwwww thank you for the update!! you bless us so much ☹️🫶🏼 GIVING YOU A BIG SMOOCH ON THE CHEEK

and for comic con, it was going to be my second timeeee it finished yesterday but the traffic was crazyyyy. it’s like 15-20 minutes away from my house and it was hellll, i didn’t get to go but one of my friends did go and she was dressed up as an anime character i think and another friend saw an actress from marvel (lupita nyong’o) and im so bummeddd i could’ve seen so many actors

ALSO LA IS NOT FAR FROM HERE AND TO BE IN KCON OMGGG I COULDVE SEEN NCT GUYS PLSSSS

hehe bro mark went crazyyy omg but you guys KNOWWWW i just have something for yuta, i go crazy 🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

“do you hate me?” is the number one question i ask my bf 24/7 😭😭 it gets annoying so i change it up like “would you love me if i was a worm?” or “so you don’t love me? i guess you want me to dieee” or “would you kiss another girl if it meant saving me from dying?” heh thankfully he doesn’t get annoyed 😭🙏🏼

BUT YESS LISTEN TO THOSE SPANISH SONGS AND GIVE ME YOUR REVIEWS AND I’LL TELL YOU WHAT IT MEANS IN DEPTH 🫶🏼 IM HAPPY TO TEACH YOU SPANISH YOU AMAZING HUMAN BEING

- 🫧

(lemme know what you want to learn btw!!)

GIRL DONT ARREST ME… arrest haechan if anything 🤦🏽‍♀️ but yasss if you think these stuff lowk hurt her now just wait till haechan is gonna be conflicted and unintentionally hurt her..

ALSO YES HE’S BASICALLY BEEN SHOWING HIS LOYALTY FR always mentioning how she’s the only girl he likes talking to or still keeps in contact with.. he would DEFINITELY be the type to do that once he gets in a relationship with her like before he liked all the attention but his eyes will be only for her so he wouldn’t even entertain the other girls fr

SHE LIKES HIM FOR WHO HE IS FR like he can be shamelessly annoying because that’s how they started but now he finds it endearing and it’s also the reason he likes talking to her like she really does make him like his true self 🥺

its unfortunate that you didn’t get to go but i’m happy your friends got to go!!!! YOULL HO NEXT TIME and you’re lucky as hell to live near LA, u genuinely was going through it because i wasn’t able to experience fact check 2 baddies and walk live like FUCKKK i should’ve been there

I WANNA KNOW WHAT HE WOULD SAY TO THE KISSING OTHER FIRLS ONE OMGGG we will use that for bonus chapters and haechan will indeed be the one asking that 😄 that’s such a fun relationship tho i hope you two last forever <3

I LOVE TOU AND YASS ILL TELL YOU SOON WHAT I THOUGHT OF THE SONGS you’re amazing and i’m glad you liked the update, and umm please let me know how to say “i’m hungry” 👀👀

[slytherinshua]

I went on a random train of thought and I'd like you to join me ahaha. I read a fic there and thought "hmm a person to cuddle when I'm cold does sound nice" because I am literally always cold. Then (I have some strange trains of thought please bear with me lol) I was thinking about how I've just started to steal my best friend's fleece when we are out (if the 2 jumpers and raincoat that I'm already wearing aren't enough lol) and I then started to think about how I should get my own because it's a nice fleece lol, which THEN made me start to think about the fleece that Sangyeop was always wearing during the NA tour.

All that to say I can't stop thinking about how he would be so sweet and give the fleece if I was cold ahaha. He's too good for this world lol. I could see Yechan putting up a fight, but I WOULD win. He would either take pity on me eventually or I would annoy him so much that he'd give me his jumper to shut me up. I wouldn't ask Wonsang for his jumper, he deserves the world and I couldn't live with myself knowing that I made him cold. (Although he is definitely a sweetheart and would give it to me anyway, so I'd have to try and bargain with him lol). Gwangil would react in the same way my brother would I think? He'd tell me that I should have prepared to be cold, but would then still give me his jumper. (Although I could see him being a lot nicer than my brother lol)

I hope you enjoyed this random journey with me lol (and that you stay warm!! Unless you want to be cold? I won't judge ahaha)

OMG UR SO REAL I LITERALLY HAVE BAD CIRCULATION BCUZ OF MULTIPLE HEALTH REASONS AND I GET SO COLD 😭😭😭 my fingers and toes will turn blue and purple even indoors 🧍‍♀️ OMG UR A GENIUS THAT ONE FLEECE WAS SO SKDJKSJDJSKSJS

no he def would he would be super attentive too and realize when u start shivering so u don’t even have to ask he’s already draping it around your shoulders OR EVEN pulling u close to him and putting it on u as if u need help putting ur arms through the arm holes but like he just wants to do it for u :((

I could see yechan running away the second you ask but only jokingly and you’ll have to chase him. and by the time you’ve caught him the blood is flowing and you’re not even cold anymore so he’ll be like “well now you don’t need it”. BUT IN THE END HE WILL STILL GIVE IT TO YOU CAUSE HE KNOWS YOULL GET COLD AGAIN :(

YK WONSANGS ONE RLY RLY FLUFFY HOODIE LIKE OMG I COULD NEVER ASK TO STEAL THAT FROM HIM EVEN JUST CAUSE ITS SO ICONIC (and I’d feel bad). Like he’s made so many songs in that hoodie he lounges in it like lucy don’t have a ton of clothes that they wear on the day to day so if they’re not being dressed by stylists you can slowly pick up on their favourites to wear AND WONSANG AND THAT HOODIE OH MY GOD NOOOOO :(((( I feel like he would offer it to you but in the end he’d get cold as well so maybe you would do a little sheeta pazu situation 🥹🥹🥹

yeah gwangil would probably (being the realist he is) go on a little tangent abt how you never prepare for being cold despite always knows ur gonna be lmao. he’d act like he hates giving away his sweater but he rly doesn’t mind in actuality. he likes seeing you warm that’s all that matters to him 🥹🥹 but he would be proud of you if you started to dress warm enough you don’t need to borrow. I also feel like he’d hold your hands in his to warm them up for you to try to warm up your body if you were rly rly cold :((

I DID THIS WAS SO FUN HEHE I love lucy :( ALSO I TOTALLY DIDNT EXPECT THE CB ANNOUNCEMENT TO BE SO SOON I WAS EXPECTING MAYBE SEPT COMEBACK BUT ITS LITERALLY IN 2 WEEKS SO OKAY DKDJSKSK IM SO EXCITED THO IT LOOKS ETHEREAL LIKE HAZE DID I JUST KNOW IM GONNA LIKE IT :( when the haze trailer came out and i saw the clouds that yechan painted i just knew it was gonna be my fav ever AND I WAS RIGHT HAZE IS LITERALLY MY FAV TITLE TRACK 🥹🥹🥹 but i hope you stay warm too being cold is literally no fun at all </3 although i do hate summer more than winter i love sitting next to a fire under some blankets with warm fuzzy socks and a hot drink 🥹🥹 and watching kpop or a kdrama or writing while i do it its just the best ever ☹️☹️

[maurenislife]

Andrew tate is insightful for the wrong reasons.

Sinful p

Life and scars

Shid the list go on, kevin Samuels…

Its a lens into how men think and operate

They at odds w/ what system they have built against us women they continue to uphold the hypocrisy.

They want the madonna and the mary all at once cause they cannot sort through how that even works.

I am at my rope actually cause this didnt work n i prayed n i tried being as bare bones as possible it hurt me but now its like a bruise ik he aint coming back n i kinda dont care for the reason is ^^^

Those men are insightful leading me into a mans brain where all the thoughts are on a playground corresponding with eachother

Each archetype playing together in harmony or leavin the others on the bench to watch play….

Its semi easy to decipher where a man head at cause youll always know your destination and place as a woman

“Eventually the trash or a memory”

Then women who get married are now

Property, or if u have a nigga baby you are property too.

If you are his significant other you will eventually become a memory or replaced

Cycle continues,

Nobody better than anybody,

Upgrade or downgrade

Pretty or ugly sex good or bad it honestly doesnt matter who gets my spot when i leave, cause most women lie to keep men around, if it was the truth what more is their 2 uncover and soon what rlly is there to like or love about you?

You are on the way out as soon as u fully step in, so enjoy ur time hold him tight cause it will all be over!

Idk how i made it almost 3 years with a man

He rlly did love my guts, i was just so hateful inside. I thought a boyfriend is what i wanted cause i never had one

I loved him too i just wanted to go be free, i hated the questions about my life n why im like this why i gotta change, i was suppressing myself cause i wanted something normal like to spend holidays w

Start a family w, until we would fight n im like why tf i wanna go thru all this just to say i got a nigga ?

Im crying in our closet watching sermons at the time i was still mildly religious

Im like god plz come save me plzzz

And he never did i had to save myself put my cats life at risk put my life and his at risk all to call it quits nobody says how traumatic it is when somebody suicidal u gotta break up w dem u look so evil n im not evil

At 25 i can truly say WHAT IN THE FUCK 🤣

[harryhandstan]

HIIII happy (late) 4th of july!!

you are literally the sweet person to ever exist i can’t believe its been like 2 years since we last spoke. its crazy how time flies

oh noooo im sorry that happened to you :(( im glad ur doing better and taking good care of yourself 💓💓 wishing u a speedy recovery!

alsoooo good luck with house hunting! that must be so exciting!!looking for a new place to call home and making new memories in it! i just know youll find the most beautiful homey and perfect place!! im manifesting for u

im doing well!! not much happened except for school stuff but i just went to my first ever pit concert a few months ago! i saw the driver era (only because i thought ross lynch was hot lol) i didnt know what to expect for pit but i didn’t expect to stand for 8 hours straight 😭😭 AHHHH ALSO im seeing taylor swift in a few weeks and i literally cannot wait!!!!

im always thinking about u! talk to u soon!! good luck 🍀 love youuuuuuu!!! 💗💓💓💞💕

-🧸

happy late 4th of july to you too bestie!! I hope you had a great day!!

I'm sorry for the delay in answering this btw it's been storming here so my wi-fi has been in and out all day!

omg stop you're so kind to me I genuinely love talking to everyone and I consider you and many others here my friends so y'all make it easy to just repay the love I've been given!!

it's actually only been a year bub! I only know because I looked it up to refresh my memory about what we talked about before cause like I said a lot had happened and I couldn't remember if we'd talked since my accident. it was last year after my birthday and after harry's house came out. but really it's alright I don't want you to feel bad!

thank you so much for the well wishes ❤ I realized after that I left some detail out of what happened to me and didn't explain it very well, but if I ramble on too much just feel free to skip over it! basically not only was I kicked but I went flying about 8 feet across my yard too, which caused me to have a compression fracture on T11 of my spine. I also had a contusion on my right hip (which is just a really, really deep and bad bruise), which is where the point of impact was. I will (hopefully) continue to improve, but having arthritis still causes me to have a ton of pain if I do too much physical activity. that part of my spine is also partly collapsed and always will be, but my neurosurgeon said that as long as my arms and legs are still okay that I should just slowly start to get back to "normal" life and listen to my body as I go along! I asked if I needed to keep up with x-rays or anything over the years but he said my symptoms would get much, much worse if the collapse got any worse and I would know I need to come back to see him. he also said IF I would've had to have surgery that it would take like 12 pins and a huge rod to correct things so I'm so SO lucky that things weren't any worse!

thank you so much for helping us manifest!!! it means more than you'll ever know because it hasn't been easy so far trying to find a place 😔 we live in such a rural area in GA and we originally wanted to stay in the same town because I was supposed to start a new job in january and we wanted to be close to my work. I probably won't get to take that job now (which is a whole other long story), and since there are very limited options we're probably gonna have to broaden our search to surrounding towns that are slightly bigger! we ultimately want a house together, but I think we're gonna have to settle for an apartment for now until we can find the perfect place for us. anything would be better than here rn though!!!

idk if I've ever talked much about my dad to you but we have as no contact of a relationship as possible even though we live in the same house. he's the reason for my accident and so the day it happened and we were waiting for the ambulance to come my mom told him that we wouldn't be coming back to this house. but then we had no choice we didn't have the money or resources needed to go elsewhere. I was worried as I got better she would forget about that and slip out of that mindset, but thankfully she hasn't! she just told me tonight we'd probably go look at apartments next week and that she can't wait to get out of here. I could truly cry at the thought of having a safe, clean, and comfortable space away from him. it's what my mom, my siblings, and our dogs all deserve!

how is school going? how much longer do you have to go? and oohh I'm so happy you got to experience a concert in pit!! it's amazing but it is soooo exhausting I hope you got lots of rest afterward 😊 when I saw harry I wore my ankle support thing to my pit concert to because I knew my feet would be swollen the next day probably. and taylor swift that's so cool!! I'm very excited for you!! I hope you have the best time!!! where are your seats for that show?

I'm always thinking about you too!! seriously sometimes I'll just think about you or how you're doing so just know you're always getting any spare good vibes I have sent your way ✨ thank you thank you for the good luck!!! love you moreeeee 🤍

I was gonna tell you about getting to see stevie nicks and my road trip to see my little brother but I talked so much this time we'll save those stories for next time if you wanna hear about them!!

[you-can-face-this]

its anon friend!!!! i am so so so sorry for taking so long to reply to you! i havent forgotten about you, things have just been absolutely insane! how are you?! im proud of you for trying to invest more in your friendships, im at the same point. im actively trying to see my friends more which is huge for me. ive seen people 2 days in a row which doesnt really happen for me anymore! how is college going for you?

i am SO heartbroken to hear you didnt get tickets 💔 im praying that youve either manage to get them since then or that you do eventually manage to!!! youll get them because im manifesting it for you 🩷

ahhh thats so sweet that your friend invited you over for thanksgiving - did you have a nice time? i know it probably seems like forever ago now (im so sorry 😭)

i hope everything is going well for you and that youre taking extra care of yourself, i know this time of year is stressful with school sometimes and i hope that youre doing okay 🩷🩷🩷 sending lots of love 💌

omg anon friend i missed u! also no worries - senior yr rlly is so chaotic & overwhelming ahh

i'm actually doing pretty well! I started seeing a psychiatrist and got started on antidepressants! it's still too soon for the positive effects to kick in but i think it's already at least helping with my anxiety. otherwise, i'm graduating in a few months so i'm just getting everything sorted out for that. i'm planning on moving to nyc, which was always a dream of mine, but also it's expensive af so i'm having to do a lot of planning to make it happen.

also!! my friend got a code to buy tickets after the sales got canceled so now we're going to opening night!! which is so crazy??? i still can't believe that i'll finally be able to see taylor after 10+ years of stanning online lol have you seen her in concert before? i hope u got tickets too!

thanksgiving went well with my friend and she & her family actually invited me back for christmas & we traveled out of state to visit her extended family! they had a lot of pets & good food so it was super fun. my friend & her family even surprised me with christmas presents?! my own family could never LMAO now that i've experienced traveling with friends (i've never done it before), i found that it's actually not as scary as my anxiety had made it seem so i've been planning little day trips here & there and also a group trip to yosemite before i graduate!

a bunch of friends & i got caught some illness recently (not covid thankfully) lol probs a cold or sth so we've all been taking it easy & asking for a lot of extensions for assignments hehe i hope you're taking care of your self too! <3