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I dunno if this is asking too much of your time/being obnoxious but, what sort of study/practice would you recommend for someone who wants to do comics professionally but can't go to college for it/is financially strapped?? Thank you for reading this!
well, considering I’m not going to school to do comics and have never done comics professionally, I definitely think it’s something you can teach yourself! I’ve thought about doing graphic novels, but haven’t done much research. I can share what general information I know.
The skills you’d use to make storyboards stronger are VERY transferrable to the ones that make comics stronger. It’s best to have a good sense of perspective, storytelling/pacing, visual clarity, action, etc.
Comics have a fun little quirk where you can really play with time in a way that storyboards can’t. In a storyboard, if two characters have their mouths open at the same time, the animator will assume they’re speaking at the same time. But in comics, you can have multiple moments in a singular panel, and time will “pass” as the reader’s eye moves across it.
There’s lots of different ways to arrange comics. The webtoons-style scroll comics are very popular right now, and they’re nice in the sense that you spend less time worrying about how an entire page is arranged, BUT it makes it harder if you ever decide to sell a physical version. Spending the extra time at the beginning to set up your formatting will save you trouble in the long run.
Also consider time. Making a comic can be a long term commitment. Figure out how frequently you can produce finished pages without burning out— daily? Three times a week? Once a week?— and calculate how long it’d take you to fill up a volume. Would it be your full time job, or would you be working on top of that? A lot of serialized comics can be a 10+ year commitment!!
There’s also publishing independently, or working for a studio. Indie comics will give you more freedom for what your story/art direction/deadlines will be, but comics are very oversaturated and hard to get readers looking at your work. A studio will help with that kind of thing, but depending where you go, you may be illustrating based on a concept someone else has written (which— that can be preferable for some people!).
But regardless, the best way to study comics is by reading comics! Pay attention to art styles you like (and if it has an entire team of assistants helping it look that way), pay attention to speech bubble arrangements, how value is used, how panels are shaped. And pay attention to when you’re confused too! You can learn from other artists’ mistakes.
and draw a lot. I started doing “comics” ~2016 by drawing all the panels on a page in my sketchbook, and then taking pictures of each part zoomed in with my phone, and then posting the panels as individual images. At some point that translated to me doing digital comics where I draw on one canvas, and make a new layer for each panel. I do this a lot still! And more recently I’ve been putting an effort into doing paneled comics. It’s not as hard as it used to be for me, but now I have almost 10 years of comic experience under my belt!! So keep drawing!!! Just do it a lot and you’ll get better
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A buncha invader zim stamps I found (with credits!! Awesome cool!!)
Other characters:
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cupcake - tak is awesome - insane fandom - purple - red
Dib centric:
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big head - squee - happy - paranormal head
Zim centric:
never lie to zim - cute - head pigeons - the bucket - mine - taco human
zadr centric:
support - space - con 1 - con 2 - zadr - hmm... - not a stamp but im obsessed with it
Other...
everything - stare... - "i love irken letters" - drop
#i think these are all the ones i saved i dunno#ughh this took so long because i saved them all on my phone right but then you can only put 10 photos on mobile...#so i had to send all of them to myself then find the links#but whatever! its all nice and neat and good and i like it a lot#invader zim#nickelodeon#trinkets#stamps#web graphics#ugh i gotta tag everyone#gir iz#invader tak#professor membrane#almighty tallest purple#almighty tallest red#dib membrane#zim iz#zadr#zim and dib romance#okay there#BYE im so tired
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still ruminating over Lost In the Book With Spooky Skeletons Part 1, so here's a selection of some of my favorite little bits! (...some more loosely paraphrased than others) (I just feel like Idia has no room to criticize in general, okay)
anyway, I'm sure we're just going to have a fun time celebrating Halloween and nothing bad is going to happen whatsoever! :)
#art#twisted wonderland#twisted wonderland spoilers#lost in the book with nightmare before christmas#hajimari no halloween#calling dibs on skeleton kisses as the name of my band#man scully is just a delightful little weirdo and i'm enjoying him immensely#(i'm going with scully until we get something official just because it makes me think of x-files)#(スカリー is also how the agent's name is transliterated and i don't know if it was intentional but i love it as a bonus reference)#(i want to believe™)#gosh though#'no one at school likes me because i won't shut up about halloween and jack skellington' i'm feeling VERY attacked right now twst#look scully your people are out there#just get on the forums and -- oh wait you're probably from like the 1800s or something#(my theory is that he's from the past and there's just some Book Magic going on to bring us together)#(LOOK they made a point of saying that the book fair has been held annually for a super long time)#a hot topic goth born before hot topic was invented...so sad 😔#i dunno i could be wrong but that feels like a good working theory for now#if it wasn't for mal sensing twsty ~magic~ on him i would think he's like. a christmas elf who's going to kidnap jack in a reverse-nmbc#(not ruling that out though because it would be amazing)#god all the sprites in this event look AMAZING. loving the desaturated colors and the extra drawn-on lines 😍#i'm genuinely kinda sad that we aren't gonna get to see every character like this#who knows...maybe halloweentown will be imperiled again next year...#come back and destroy my keys again please#(that said i'm doing weirdly well so far?)#(i promised i'd save for sebek and just do cursory pulls to get the SRs and not hope for the SSRs)#(...but then leona jumpscared me four coffins in anyway. halloween magic is REAL)
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and in that dying summer heat, you took my hand and smiled
separate and blur/textless version!
#pokemon#kieran#trainer florian#sghr#trainer kieran#rival kieran#candyappleshipping#pokemon sv#hrsg#teal mask#art#pokemon scarlet and violet#tealmaskshipping#スグハル#ハルスグ#smiffling#THEY MAKE ME ILLLLLLLLLLLL UEUEUEUUEUEUEUEUAWAWAWAWAWAWAWAWWAWAWAWAWA#lyrics from… aun no beats… the song is them guys trust me…#if I wasn’t laze we could be having a banger sghr aun no beats animatic rn but unfortunately I’m me so this is all we get :(((#AAARRGHGHGHGHHGHHGH THEY MAKE ME NEED TO DRINK CEMENT#to me-!!! one of my fav parts of sghr is!!! the entire teal mask portion up until where we meet ogerpon for the 1st time and shit goes DOWN#it’s kind of beautiful-! the naivety and innocence of youth- meeting and falling in love as summer ends-#the pure happiness-thinking youve gotten everything in the world-thinking youll be just fine like this forever-as long as youre by his side#thinking you’re the happiest you’ve ever been-making precious memories with someone you’ll surely (yes?surely.) love forever#only for everything to suddenly crash-the illusion of being saved shattering in an instant-a straight dive from the top#im delusional and insane.sorry#I dunno with the values and colours on this one my overlay layers have betrayed me. who gaf anymore
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jawfizz doodles… actually maybe ill work on that ship name idk if i like the name i said.. anyway i mentioned before that my plan was to ship fizz with jawbone and so thats what i did!! never drawn anything like this before but im really liking how it turned out :^DDD
liked this? maybe u want to see more?? i dunno. but anyway if you liked it feel free to reblog!!
tracked time + kinda crappy bonus doodle under the cut
tracked time:
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(do keep in mind this is elapsed. it really took me the past 3 days, on and off)
bonus doodle:
(i used up all my good art juices coloring the doodle sheet so unfortunately this one is noticeably not as good of quality. i at least got the idea down tho!!)
#monkey wrench#monkey wrench oc#monkey wrench jawbone#oc x canon#(HOWEVER i think i also mentioned fizz is kind of a self insert?? so i guess also selfshipping. so ill tag that too)#selfshipping#i do a lot of worrying about misinterpretations so for the record. in that bottom left drawing all theyre doing is kissing#also speaking of that drawing. when i say ONLY i mean the only way which i could DRAW and make it WORK#without it getting repetitive. yknow?#i could easily think of maybe 3 other ways they could kiss off the top of my head#but did i have the energy to draw them well? not really#also im saving one of them for the fic im writing…..#yknow if theres one nuance ive been adding on jawbone’s design its that i keep giving him less shirt cleavage#thats not intentional btw i just always draw him from memory so i forget how much bone hes really showing#gotta actually use a reference more often gfdi#my art.#my ocs#got an influx of new followers recently so in case youre new: i put my directors commentary in the tags of my art#sprinkled amongst the categorization tags… for anyone willing to read my yapping..#dunno if anyone reads these actually. wont change the fact that im gonna keep doing it regardless tho.#tags added in edit:#jawfizz/gaydiation
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The biggest problem with Dominion is the dichotomy of Maisie's plotline with regards to motherhood, and the way both plots revolve around it from wholly opposite perspectives while never actually clashing.
Her plot starts off simply enough: she's angsting about not being a real person, Claire's trying to protect her, and Maisie spits at her with the "You're not my mother!" line right before she's kidnapped.
This is a classic Finding Nemo setup, which Claire takes to with gusto: she calls on favors, slips into seedy markets, fights a crime boss, eludes raptors, jumps out of a plane, and crawls through a forest to get the girl she calls her daughter back. Most stories would show this as a trial: ye olde "GASP! My parents love me!" story.
But the fact that Claire has no obligation to bring Maisie back is never challenged. Soyona doesn't bother with asking or playing the role of the tempting serpent instilling doubt; the closest the movie comes to that is Franklin giving her the "I told you this would happen" speech. It's all taken for granted, which is...okay, because we have already established who Claire is, but that's not the problem.
The problem comes with the other half of the story: Maisie mopes to Wu about how she's just a close, and Wu immediately points out how no, she was conceived and carried in a human womb just like everyone else! And he calls Charlotte "your mother".
And Maisie goes "Is that my mother?"
And when she meets Ellie, Dr. Sattler is somehow fully aware of who Maisie's REAL MOTHER, the one who created her and who she looks like, is, and gushes about how great of a eugen--person she was. Every single time Maisie talks about "her mother" with the people around her, the word is referring to Charlotte Lockwood, the woman who birthed her.
Meanwhile, that Claire woman is crawling into a slimy pond to get away from a twenty-foot-tall Kreugersaurus because she wants to get Maisie away from kidnappers.
Of course, Maisie runs back to her and yells "Those are my parents!", but there's still something missing there. Claire's side of the story is all about her powering through, risking her life time and time again to track down her daughter...but there's never really a moment between them later. Maisie even posits the "So I was just an experiment to her..." plotline that has been seen before, but even that's immediately refuted.
The movie's not wrong for avoiding the cliches and the oft-used tropes of foster motherhood, but it doesn't really break any new ground, either. Obviously, people can have more than one mom, but there's something of an imbalanced focus on Charlotte as Maisie's mother in the Maisie and Jurassic Park plotline, while Claire in the Jurassic World plotline is doing all the expected Mom Stuff.
I can't wholly express what's bothering me about it, maybe I'm overthinking it, but it...doesn't quite sit right with me.
#claire dearing#maisie lockwood#jurassic world: dominion#charlotte lockwood#I feel like there was a draft where Maisie was just Charlotte's experiment#but they decided that they didn't want that#too cliche or too mean#but it would have had a “your mom's not the one who made you she's the one who will fight a hundred dinosaurs to save you” moral#but then we also can loop back to claire not really wanting to be a mother in the first movie#and then sort of having that role shoved on her in the next two#it's kinda good that they dodged some cliches but also they exist for reasons and it's often because they rule#there's even the admittedly funny bit where Maisie asks if Ellie and Alan has kids and she says yes and Maisie goes “but not with him...?”#which is a fine joke out of the context but when taken with the whole biomom thing and Real People Are Born thing#it's...questionable#I dunno#I hate everything about the Maisie and Charlotte retcon I think#I'm okay with Maisie's blood having this genetic disease cure thing#but it could have just been that Charlotte died of that and Lockwood's scientists fixed that with the clone on a whim#and now that she's outlived her template Maisie is proof that the adjustment worked#but really it could have just been “we need to study a human clone”#locust stuff can just be wu doing wu fixes#they all go back and just take claire's motherly responsibilities for granted#TEMPT HER DANGIT
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#jirachi#as i'm queuing this up. i'm sorta. realizing that deoxys has four forms. and i'm wondering what to do about that#like. do i just choose normal form and go with that?? or do i do every single form?? or do all the forms in one post?? or what#this isn't about jirachi. i like jirachi and i think those theories about how bidoof actually caused all of pmd sky are pretty funny#and like. also weirdly reasonable. but i dunno if jirachi is the type to be like a genie. where when you make a wish he's like#o0o0o0o but there's a caAaAaAaAtch………#i don't think. that's something jirachi does? so it's even funnier then bc it's like jirachi did that on TOTAL accident. but i find that#hard to believe. folks say it's like… he did that so that he could get bidoof some friends Naturally or whatever but i just don't feel like#he'd be the type. but maybe that's why he ends up in the expedition society later on. he felt so bad about ending the world just to help out#a rookie who wanted some friends that he dedicated himself to saving the world instead. which. is kinda sweet. and the whole reason i've#been he/him-ing him this whole time. bc that's what they do in psmd. where his boss battle theme is just a whole banger for no reason#anyway those are some fun theories. i have to figure out what to do for jirachi and also put some chicken in the slow cooker
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sorry sorry last time I'm talking about huskerdust tonight but does it fuck anyone else up knowing that Husk and Angel basically lived at the same time but were on opposite sides of the country. But also Husk went traveling. Like these two could have met while they were alive and wouldn't even know it. They didn't even know the other existed until they met at the hotel
Like I have. so many thoughts about this.
#hazbin hotel#Husk#Angel Dust#gods imagine how different things would have turned out for both of them if they'd met while alive#well I say that but they were deeper in their vices then than they are now so...... maybe they'd have made each other worse#or maybe they could have saved each other who knows#also just thinking about the idea of Husk and Angel meeting at a bar in New York back when they were alive#like not even knowing it was each other but having met and spent a night drinking in a bar together talking#maybe Angel was going around flirting for free drinks and Husk was waiting to board a ship to who knows where#and they're both neck deep in their own vices but Husk tries to give Angel some advice anyway (we dk if Husk's morals developed in Hell#when he lost his status or are remnants of his human life but I like to imagine he was a decent man who made a string of bad choices#we also don't know what kind of Overlord he was. for all we know the worst thing he did was bet souls so we dunno if he was cruel/immoral)#but Angel not heeding his advice bc who's gonna listen to an alcoholic amirite but he was fun to talk to and bought him drinks so#and them parting ways without even so much as learning the other's name. and all this happening just days before Angel dies#Husk doesn't even think about him again cuz he was just some dude at a bar and barely remembering bc it was ~20 years before he died#but Angel vividly remembering it bc it was one of the last memorable days leading up to his death#anyway thanks for listening to me ramble orz
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#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#web weaving#GOYUU YESSSSSSSS!!!!! i love goyuu theyre what got me into the entire fandom in the first place#hmm what to say about how yuuji actually treats gojo like a person and sees him as a fun and friendly guy and doesnt find him annoying#or hate his sense of humor. i think yuuji does in fact know that surface level isnt all there is to gojo#but he still likes his 'bad' personality and enjoys spending time with him#and gojo ohh gojo#hmm... blue spring of youth methinks. yuuji reminds him of the days when he was truly happy. he wants to preserve that innocence in yuuji#ofc he fails utterly. but even so yuuji manages to surprise him i think. he goes through hardship and loses his innocence but somehow#he still keeps his hope and his light and he keeps moving forward with them clutched in his fists. and i think for someone like gojo#who gave up on himself and his happiness he can recognize the differences. yuuji keeps hoping. keeps trying.#what to say about the way their light syncs up just right and manages to warm them both#what to say about someone else FINALLY trying to take care of you despite every protestation that you dont need it#what to say about someone who cares about you who recognizes all the little agonies you go through every day and offers you a soft smile#what to say about someone who becomes your best friend and you dont know how it happened just that your pieces slid together so seamlessly#that now you cant imagine being without them. when did that happen?#what to say about people willing to burn the world down for each other with the power to do it.#what to say about kindness. about trust that doesnt need to be painstakingly earned. what to say about admiration. about being preferred#about being chosen about being saved about being spared about being snatched from the jaws of death by a thread of compassion#and weaving it into a tapestry cause all you ever had were loose threads and at least this one- this one- was offered willingly. on purpose#what to say about someone who doesnt get annoyed with you? who loves you fully? who laughs at your mishaps and embraces your awkwardness?#what to say about finding someone who loves you like it isnt a hardship#i dunno man just... something something they saw the humanity in each other when nobody else did something something#isnt that enough?
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#2359#femtanyl#I’m not sure if it’s cool that I like this#I think for my aging dad ears#this is an easier point of entry#to her music#fun fact:#we’re selling our younger offspring’s car#while he’s on tour in europe#so I needed to ask him#did he want the stuff in the trunk?#an impressive array of stuff#old band merch#wii controllers#I dunno#lots of random stuff#and he was like no#you can toss it all#which I appreciated#but one thing#pls he said#keep the cds from the cd player#it’s a six-disk player#so I ejected them all#and saved them in a ziploc for him#and here’s the cool thing#two of them#were discs I’d burned back in the day#when it was my car#so it was some old stuff I’d loved
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Hear me out (or don't... it's fine I'm just venting and mean) yeah um I don't believe Chakotay was saved in Prod*gy s2.
#the 'time travel' makes no sense when you think on it. What happened to Prime Chakotay? He got killed they showed that.#At the end s1 Janeway finds an 'alternate chakotay in an alternate timeline' and that's the one they go and get#we saw the original get merc'd in the message. That ACTUALLY happened. Lmao.....#They didn't prevent THAT death because they didn't go to THAT Solum with the Infinity and stop it from happening#instead it was 'ALTERNATE#' implying other.#OG Chakotay wasn't taken over by the alternative one either nothing suggests that was the direction for him in s2#they didn't do anything like 'well you see chakotay because at the end of s2 when we converged timestreams you have merged with your other'#if they did want to recover the original from s1 then keep that clear instead of being convoluted dont use an alternate timeline wtf#instead the plot was focused on gywns stupid fucking paradox plot and her being fixed#chakotay was the one in a paradox too did that not matter nah dw about it he had to die for this outcome or someshit lmao why#In the extended message given to admiral janeway it shows him clearly getting left behind and surrounded. Sadly no one intervened.#I dont understand why they couldnt have just made s2 about his rescue alone IF they took their time it wouldnt be so difficult#to follow#above that the one they rescued was ruined by the 10 year gap so he wasn't 'saved' at all. God i hate s2 when you break it apart#I dunno the more i look at s2 Janeway and Chakotay the more upsetting it is. Janeway would NOT have settled for an imposter.#everyone going goo-goo gaa gaa over s2 but it's sloppy af imo and undermines a huge portion voyagers struggles#id really like them to flatly lay out their ideas because literally nothing ive heard explains the story or choices of s2 with conviction#instead it's oh clap for wesley or the new vulcan and other references yay#describe to me your timetravel clearly and i'll happily take a seat on it (there is still other crap stuff mind you)#this is the most repressed shit i my head i swear#im angry because s1 is so clearly mapped out to a brilliant degree and for whatever reason it's not in s2#i can see through it#insultingly people are eating it up and claiming it's better than ever nah dawg embarrassing#there are nice ideas inside s2 but they arent adequately rewarded#it doesnt compare to the timetravel in other trek because they kept it clear#i mean it could have been an interesting parallel to endgame but in the end janeway didnt even rescue him lmao they dropped her#why bother building up this mission only for her to give up and go 'i'll hand it over because im told to'. Janeway had fuck all this season#let alone settle for not fixing her own timeline and her own friends deadly circumstance dw just grab another one from the shelf i guess#the emotional fallout was absolutely missed because they didnt elaborate on anything. Plenty of show but no substance from the characters
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vvvery well then ill come off anon, feel free to block me as you see fit
i said it because even if we dont interact anymore, i hate seeing people get kicked when theyre down. i cant stand bullying and i cant stand condescending bullshit directed at people who dont deserve it. it wasnt a waste of time because any time a person is getting hurt and they dont deserve it, i step in. i dont care if it was my business or not. it wasnt a waste of time because you still deserve to be treated with respect.
ill say it as many times as i have to but you really dont deserve the hatred you receive. everyone in that server kept telling you that we never hated you but you kept believing we did to the point where it felt like you were making us out to be the bad guys. it was incredibly unhealthy on both sides. we hoped that if we just stayed moots with you on tumblr that itd be okay and that you could distance yourself as much as you needed to so that it wouldnt be so overwhelming.
i see that that probably wasnt really issue but possibly several other things. if you want to stop posting content related to alnst then so be it. thats your decision. we will dwell on you because youre an amazing person and there are many fond memories with you and your characters. if you dont want to participate in any of the fan seasons, including sona season, then we will make adjustments for you. whatever you want to do with your characters is completely up to you.
thank you for being a beautiful and wonderful being, and i hope that whatever you choose to do, you do it in good conscience. we dont want to push or annoy you any further than we might be doing (sorry, genuinely. i really do care about you tbf.) but we also just want you to be happy.
/gen, /lh, and /withlove.
- zen (papa, if youre still willing to call me that /nf)
It was you -!!! (Geno sans, CPAU comic dub voice) ((I knew itt.. you do stand up for others and are more vocal about being ..indunno but I guess yk inna way, just the way you typed it (sorry if that's ..weird/creepy), the way that you confront others and such .much braver ig, since you take action a lot))
Sorry for making it seem like I was making y'all the bad guys. Didn't mean to, and honestly shouldn't have done that- that was wrong of me from the start. Though, now I don't think I can remember- well. Given how it was like. Two months ago now? And I do forget a lot so- ...sorry for unfollowing as well (tho I know that no matter the amount of me saying sorry will ever fix things up since I avoid what happened/etc..)
I don't really think I can stop posting alnst/alnst oc content. I'm in too deep, in three gc (AREPH, Setup and Takedown, and then Toxic ysosu)— I have an Au (you probably know or maybe not; Sonic.exe like au, I'm mainly focusing on the hypothetical 3d game in the universe that happens in 2035, called Mor. I remember asking you for permission, but then again.. gah. Fucking sorry for putting onna invisible time limit to the question, as said- for almost everything I've done since I was in the series(what I call servers now) and out of it.... Though you did say we don't talk anymore, and so like. Yeah- haven't answered my question- tho ITS TOTALLY NORMAL! FINE! Just slightly weird?? That like. Just recently you came here to like. Ig cheer me up? When I was "kicked down even more". Tho it is .you. You did say that you can't stand what they have said to me and what/who they were referring to, which is interesting but I won't bother you with anything i have to say) — I still have a lot more to show (so many hidden characters and hidden lore) and post,, and I've been going back to writing like. Flor's lore, and getting some basic ideas down. Besides, I still can't stop thinking of the ocs and such.. as ..said..... I'm in too deep (was basically here from the start.. before s39 was even s39.....ah..kills the wall). And it's not leaving me anytime soon, since I always have thoughts- ideas and such. <- this is what 50+ OCS does to a person
I still have OCS, in the seasons. I still have OCS I want to work on and expand on.
Besides, Eddy and Sebastian have a very close bond. Flor, Oli, Dian, Faisal, and their other siblings are well. Siblings. Four of them don't belong to me. I have OCS in romantic relationships with others, and all of that. I can't just .. abandon it all honestly.
For the Sona Season, I think I'm like. Basically disqualified though? Before I did whatever I did, I kinda did ask to be in round1 so things can end faster for my sona. But then again. <- is a whiny person. <- impatience, which is wrong. <- generally a ""ugly"" one. So I just decided to do what I did in the server basically— and just leave the Garden & Stage thing. ..tbh I did do a song-comic, but I doubt you want to see anything I do now (NOT trying to make you see what I do. Waste of time. And again in the previous ask you sent you used past tance and so that practically means that we are thru, huh? Along with us not talking to each other besides those two asks you sent to this blog..along with the Seb song. But I don't think that you and the others don't want to touch anything made by me or are related to me! Which I totally get)
You all have NEVER annoyed me or pushed me, at all (only ever asked me for some small things, or actually nothing at all). IM the one who's annoyed and pushed you all (too many ideas, too many posts I've tagged as ocs- I've tagged y'all in, etc etc. basically at those times and still now, it's just me talking to a wall). It's.. stupid to apologize for what I've been doing the most.
Also don't .. apologize for caring actually. I don't know what to say, or have anything to say besides that.. still can't fucking believe that you are still. That you still allow me the chance to call you papa...stupid of me to have mentally clocked the community as a family(ish?only a few) to me. since it ended up with me being .not continuing that sentence. but yeah, really stupid of me to have you all as family when we ended up like this.which is unhealthy as you said! What type of friendship is like person A: your my friend! / Person B: (you are like a sibling to me. You are family.) ???? Certainly not a working healthy one. Because I became so very impulsive when .not finishing that either.
#ask#zerostyrant#tbh i think i needed to cry after these two asks you sent. tho reminded me on how i would actually#. before all of the alnst stuff. i would mainly cry because my ex .one time wasnt responding to me for like#...i knew i counted. (seconds to months for sure) but its been like. months now since we broke up. ah#but. uh. yeah. uhm. when he wasnt responding to me i was scared he mightve died in some way (thank god he didn't.....)#and then there was a second time where i cried more as well. smth smth. had to deal with Kayo Sudou and a song#smth about a crane and feathers snd such. and kayo i believe just. working until her lover can finally heal up and live even if she dies#working to save up money to help heal him..though maybe thats wrong in actual Evillious Chronicles lore#.the song did appear in a Obey Me! x Evillious Chronicles texting story so. i dunno but yeha#// also.tbh this is like .i think the hardest ive ever cried before#but hey. they say crying is good for the body right? so. uhm. thanks ...#((oh yeah..the counting happened when we were still together. the song happened like .after a couple of months#when we broke up and stuff))
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I always feel like his kindness towards children does reflect his true character well. Both notable incidents are intense moments but his reactions well. With sonya sister feels super kind and sweet hes so sweet to her and the burning building will sound silly but he was also altruistic enough to save them himself which is still crazy to me. What more must be written to show you his altruistic core. What else
#floyd.txt#he can be so kind. but we see hes always been a bit aloof loner#so him and his isolation yeah it can make you cranky abd mean esp when its rooted in a Get away from me leave me to rot mindset#but hes never remotely ruse to children he is so sweet and i think it says a lot..#in these moments most would probably be kind but he does have extents. i like him. my goo#the epilogue reveal is like someone had to save them sure but rodya takes it upon himself? good lord. and the thing with his classmate. h#hes a sweetheart! he is deeply altruistic!#in a twisted way his plan theory could be rooted in a sort of altruism. does it sound crazy. one life to help others#again not a great plan of his. its all complicated. but i think it still shows it. but he couldnt handle it either. eueuh#altruism gone wrong...damn#he is so fascinsting to me i love picking apart his vrain#i want to do something formal. its so late. idk..i dunno
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#im at such a weird point in my life. trying to choose between a phd and a doomed life as an academic and like just not doing that.#its crazy how not terrible i feel when im not in school. just give me tasks to do and i will do them. dont let me think.#but then im just avoiding my responsibilities. i dunno. i just feel like i would be happier with a structured job that ends when the day#is over. which is y my dad thinks i should get a government job. one of my former lab mates got a government job and he's settling into#spending the rest of his life out in Colorado. which is so weird. i dont kno how long ill be in the place im in now. will it b 4 more years?#or will it be only a few months? will i go back to school in the fall? its looking like yes bc i dont have a job lined up. but maybe ill#keep applying and dip out. let my dreams die in favor of balance and sanity. maybe some things arent meant to be.#its just so gutting. i was talking to my coworker this week. saying that im interested in so many things. i could have studied anything else#and traveled a completely different path. and a guy across the room was like: its never too late. but it feels like its too late. too late#to spend another impossible amount of money on getting a different degree. restarting on a second masters project. im almost 30.#im supposed to b saving money so that i can not work forever. but i cant do that if im just a student forever. so maybe i should just get a#job. god. but theres so much i still want to learn. and im in the perfect program for everything i thought i wanted. im in the perfect place#but everything's falling to pieces. whatever. i. just tired bc im on day 5 of work and have to go in for a day 6.#doing something i havent done before all day. but after than im going home for a week. so ill have lots to contemplate in the airport.#this is not how i thought things would turn out. but im glad im spending the summer working where i am. im learning lots on a human to human#level. and no one bleieves im 27 bc i apparently have a bby face lol. nope im 11 yrs older than u my 16yo coworker#unrelated
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I dunno, and I haven't read the Ascendency novels to be clear, so I can’t speak of who he was before his exile - but maybe Thrawn accepting Grand Admiral for that shitshow on Batonn sealed his fate. Maybe he wasn't the one to pull the trigger, maybe he was appalled by the needless death - he still took the promotion, even if he didn't want it. The moment he took the rank plate was the moment the blood on his hands became insignificant in the grand scheme of things. The moment where all his intentions begin to be buried by his actions.
Everyone is all about how Thrawn isn't that bad of a guy - and honestly I do agree that his character is misunderstood more often than not - but he still did terrible things with the Empire. Turned a blind eye and condoned much more with silence.
Because the fall of Nightswan and Batonn may not have been his fault - but he accepted the stain when he took his promotion.
For all you try to keep things fair, it doesn't matter if you're working in a system that is instituted to be cruel. And while Thrawn had never claimed to be a good man, and had only joined ultimately for the protection of his own people, there's something to be said of this deterioration of morality. How he doesn't understand politics, but is still shaped by the dangerous and vindictive workings of Imperial political scene, forgoing honesty for station.
Pirates and smugglers turn to insurgents and rebels. Capture turns to execute. He kills to prove a point.
He develops for the worse. For all he shapes the Imperial Navy, it shapes him all the same. I dunno. Complex character and all o that. He’s no scum of the earth true evil, but he’s no shining star either.
#I have not watched rebels I have not read the ascendency novels yet I am in the middle of alliances right now#so bear with me. baby’s first analysis#*flips off sky* for Arihnda Pryce and her hand in all of this (who’s truly to blame for Batonn)#like listen. he’s a bad guy! but he’s not a bad guy#like yeah. my man is almost court martialed for when he saves innocents over imperial resources#but also he climbs the rank by doing good for the empire. like that’s a net negative#true he may hold loyalty to his people and not the empire. but it’s not about loyalty it’s about morality#you can commit treason to the empire and still not have been a good guy. yknow#i dunno. Thrawn is better than he could be but worse than apologists say I guess is the point.#and maybe there’s something to be said about how this happens once Eli Vanto leaves. his one true friend. i think that’s significant#I’m just thinking ok#like. a good imperial is still an imperial!!!! that’s all#ahsoka better do this motherfucker justice I swear to god#Thrawn#thrawn trilogy#grand admiral thrawn#Star Wars rebels#sw#Star Wars#z speaks
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Clocking out of my shift at society mandated suffering and clocking in for my shift at suffering I chose for myself
#need to come up with a quippy tag for my own text post but all the good ones r taken#i like sexting god but dunno might wanna save it for a band name#ok ive got it#wdytat#short for what do u think abt that
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