#i think the actual jokes in miracle day are really funny. i know people think its really american

[sp3akfromtheart]

that poll i posted about coe vs miracle day is really interesting i knew coe would be more popular but damn the votes for miracle day are so low! ...which to be fair. as a miracle day enjoyer. understandable.

miracle day spoilers under the cut!

these are just my thoughts about some stuff md does that i personally didn't like!! take it all with a pinch of salt + i dont usually write stuff like this so i will love a discussion but pls be nice...lol

i think its weakest point is its conclusion, because, if they reiterated like 30,000 times that jack is NOT immortal bc of his blood, has nothing to do with it, why on earth is that the entire basis of the miracle? like yes, it eats the blood, so it thinks its the blueprint for humanity, but surely jack's blood is just normal? i think they kinda get away with it bc of how weird everything is, but MAN i wanted that miracle to be aliens so damn bad! i suppose in the case of This One Time, earth is the alien planet.

and please do not even get me started about rex becoming immortal. if there had been a 5th season, i would have let it slide, but the fact that is the conclusion for the television show is just absolutely insane to me??? LIKE WHAT! insanity. but this is an insane show. i also kind of think they shouldn't have killed esther, but i also think they should have not killed any torchwood member anyway because i get attached to them all, so the fact that she was inexperienced it made loads of sense that she died, but like, damn...right before they saved the day? misery.

i guess this is because it's implied the story of miracle day was to continue, but i felt like there was so many things going on in comparison to coe. there were a few episodes that really could have spent more time on one thing than the other. is this also because i think we could have gotten more about angelo? maybe...

to be honest, i genuinely think the best part of miracle day is jilly kitzinger. like yeah, that is the EXACT response a big company would have to this situation, and to really make you remember this is a BAD THING this charming character is doing, you have to watch her big up a horrible person! (and the second best thing is gwen and jack, but thats like, duh)

i really wanted to add all this stuff in the tags of that post but i was actually going to write an ESSAY in tag form so decided to spare you all. i'd love to hear you guys' thoughts cos reading the tags on that post has been really cool! as most of you said, i agree with how heart wrenching coe is. its so good at showing how each character would act and genuinely ianto's death, as traumatising as it was, just shows you how he would follow jack to the ends of the earth by the end of his time in torchwood...which is such a stark contrast to the beginning of his time there and how he literally states how much he hates him in broken.

anway!!! if you read all that yap well done i love you. im feeling insane about torchwood currently. send me asks or whatever if you wanna gimme ur opinions!

[pinkestpurple]

Show so sad i want to eat a horse

1;2;3

I finish season 4 of 911 and this is my reaction!

I try to say eat a horse instead of kms because is better for my mental health (aparently) but, cue word, try, the last episode almost kill me.

I tweet my reactions in spanish and when i finish i compile and translate it here.

Since i started this show and realise that start airing in 2018 didn't want to get to the pandemic season, i was scare is was going to be bad, or too angsty, i was right about one thing, and not the bad part.

So, without furthder ado, season 4 of 911

4x01 The New Abnormal

I already hate the stupid name

As a person how have read Percy Jackson i laughed

This is the opposite of last season, show so bad i want to kms (I haven't implement my eat a horse thing yet)

When are you retiring Athena

Bobby, what a man

"I'm promise i will alright" Athena is going to loose her mind so quickly

"I didn't trow you under the bus" and a bus just crash to the window. Is me being a hater or is this show going to jump the shark?

Oh now i know why people include May in all the Au's

Is so cool that she is working already, better than me. And having all 30 something coworkers is like going to university in Argentina

I haven't see such a empy bus even in 2020, usamericans really don't use public transport

Of course the dam broke, what's not happeing in LA

Wait, i didn't notice, Josh you got promoted! Congratulations!!

Headcannon: every day Josh tweets "I became import in my job and is running my life"

Oh no, i just found a continuation error, pls tell me not all the season is like that

? THE FUCK

FUCK, DON'T SCARE ME WITH BOBBY LIKE THAT

Please, Bobby is an old man, he can't be seriously injuried

"She'd want you doing the same. Actually that's a lie. She still wants you to quit." JSJJSJ Bobby since when you are so funny

Well, now I'M a little worried about Athena

This have nothing to do with the cap, why is Buck in ozempic?

4x02 Alone Together

"No bad jokes, dad jokes" Chim I love you, and you are going to be best dad in the world

HEN STARE when the girl said i love you too to the guy that is sinking jsjsjssj. Why is 911 a drama and no the sitcom that the writers want to write?

Maddie is such a calm person, if i was her i could slap May, so disrespectful

"Thanks for coming to get me" "Always"

Carla putting to sleep Chris and Eddie 😭

Buck in teraphy? By his own decisition? A miracle

God this season is going to be so sad

4x03 Future Tense

I don't have reactions to this ep bc I was trying to reroot a doll hair while i was watching (unsucessfully, the doll still bald). But i also watch the crossover with lone star and i can say, Buck was 100% flirting with TK

4x04 9-1-1 What's Your Grivance?

I got into the "Love me anyway" part and i had to stop, this seasons IS so sad

This episode is not about May but she is becoming such a good character

Oh yes, I already knew about Buck's brother, still terrible that no one told him

4x05 Buck's Begins

AAAH Maddie not telling Buck no when he says that he was born so Daniel could live!

????? I have to kill Buckley's parents

no, no, please no, don't show me a montage of Buck getting hurt so his parents pay attention to him, is terrible, i wan't to eat a horse

I'm not surviving this episode

Baby buck begging Maddie to go to her house 😭😭😭

Maddie giving him the freedoms she desperately wants and Buck without thinking twice telling her to go together, i love them

"He's working his way through the village people" jsjsjss

Buck going to Peru with a guy he knew from the ranch? I know what you are

I can't, I can't do this, Buck almost giving up then Eddie and the other firefigther arriving

I need Buck to finally understandthat the 118 are not leaving him alone, please!

God i really like Athena when she is not copraganda

Buck almost losing Chris in the Tsuami is 100% making him undestand what his parents go through

Buck correcting his name to his parents, he is non binary in my heart

Of course Maddie is like a mother to Buck, that's a lot of older sisters, I'm crying so hard, fuck this show

I love the Buckley sibilings, and that baby girl is going to be so love and wanted

4x06 Jinx

Okay, we are starting with the police persuing the truck. I feel if this is Buck is way too much

Eddie little smile for clipboard Buck is so cute, the mf is smitten

WAIT WAIT, IS THAT RAVI?? WHAT, I'M FINALLY METTING HIM??

okay, bye ravi...

Please Eddie call your Abuela's curandera so she can cure the ojeo all of you have

"I'm 82 i have a history with everything" jsjsjsj

When i started to watch this series i didn't see it but god, Eddie is so gay, what to do mean you start to panic when a girl is filtring with you

"You ever replay a conversation in your head and worry that you sounded like an idiot?" "Have you met me?" I love them

Eddie i undestand the phase "my mom is stupid and everything she belives in is too" but you are a grown adult, acepta que estas ojeado hijo

"Is like the universe is screaming at you and you refuse to listen" I finally have context for that one

Guys, Bobby is catholic, of course he belives that is some one controling the things he can

The other firefigthers laughing at them jsjsjs

More fireworks than new year damn

Bobby being a parent to Eddie 💞💞

This is like gta V

If Eddie and Ana where from Latinoamerica instead of jinx they could have said suerte para mi

4x07 There Goes the Neighborhood

I wanted to see Buck and Eddie helping the neighbords instead of his super fail date, why is 911 not a comedy?

Buck why are you still in this date? go!

Michael, why are showing Athena your new and probably ilegal hobby?

Buck is not exagereting about trying to ignore Verocina, i could do the same

Bobby getting into Michael's new hobby instantly jjjsjsj, i love them

911 IS a comedy!!!

"Michael did help me to break into a bank vault once" ksjsjkjd

Please, Michael be careful, if something happens to you i will stop watching

Oh Hen and her mother *inserte emoji llorando* The way that Hen is a masculine lesbian and al lot of her arcs are about motherhood is important to me

4x08 Breaking Point

People how go to hotels and use plains but never work in any of those areas are literally the devil

This is the episode where Eddie quits??

When Eddie gets home Buck already put Chris to sleep? jsjsjsjs LITERALLY MARRIED

Why Taylor are you still here?? I should have guesses when they put a shitter version of you

I didn't remember Buck and Taylor being in good terms, sure

Taylor is rigth tho, you only have meaninful relationships

Buck being all sad, someone get him out of that department

I knew the double date was going to be cringe so i got 4 days to prepare

Please, Buck only sees Taylor as a friend, please made them only friends

I'm pointing a gun to my computer, nothing can happen to Christopher

The kid uses crutches Eddie how you didn't hear him leave!!

"I don't want to miss anyone else" noooo

"Cause i'm not going anywhere" i love Buck giving Christopher an adult he can count on, something he never had

Chim being in panic and screm and Maddie not even flintching, i love you Maddie, how far you come

I have sympathy for Tayor tho, reporting the horrible non stop things that are happeing most be hard, in pandemic i mostly watch gossip girl and pretty little liars with my sister

Okay, i hope taylor and buck stay friends 🔫

Maddie saying i love you to Chim!! Like it was nothing? I love them

"Ana, popcorn!" Chris is so cute!!!

4x09 Blindsided

Good God, Maddie like my mother, is going to wait until the last second and make de taxi driver to go 90 km an hour in a residential distric bc the baby is spiling out

Poor Hen, obviosly she going to be wairy of Nia biological mother, when Eva was such a pain

Who was Layla Creedy? One of the girls that bother May? Don't remember, it happen, like, 3 months ago

Josh snatching the phone from May's hand? The dispatchs are besties or i need to call human resources

Chimney you are actually choosing a name from a internet list? You do that with your Oc's not with your DAUGTHER

"I think she just called me a psycho" Pls Chim never stop being funny

noo, that is just a insane crash, this stress can't be good for Maddie

God Bobby is feeling like shit

Good god how much i hate Athena abusing her power and then turning around a being such a sympathetic and carring person, she should be a social worker and 911 needs to stop being copraganda

noooo albert, my funny side character nooo

You know when the baldie name is in the credits the birth secuence is going to be epic, nothing is going to outdo Quinn giving birth while Vocal Adrenaline song Bohemian Rhapsody tho

If Alberts die I'm going to be sad

"I`m holding on, don't make me do it alone" 😭😭😭

Chimney you are going to make me cry!

Good god why you like to make me suffer 911??

"I'm exactly like that woman" he is, but that dosen't make Bobby less deserving of everything he was and dosen't make the woman less deserving of getting better

"Bye mamas, see you later" SHE IS SO CUTE WITH HER LITTLE LEATHER JACKET, THIS IS SO SAD, I'M GOING TO EAT A WHOLE HORSE

Jee-Yun!! Yes!! I'm not crying at all

4x10 Parenthood (I love this sims 4 expantion)

God i hate mommy bloggers

Buck entreteing kids! 😭😭 Eddie get this man in your will rn!

Poor Denny!! Please protect this baby!

Nop i'm not crying again, piece of shit show

I hope Nia's mother dosen't fuck this up

The little baby that plays Nia is such a good actress

Why is Albert the only one that has counsecuenques of his accident, since he is not a firefigther he dosen't have those powers?

Chim trying not to talk so much about Jee-Yunn so Hen dosen't feel bad, I dont know how people can hate Chim

And Hen buying him a cake and telling the guys why they didn't do ballons, they are such best besties!!!!

What a piece of shit is that old man, how are you making your son to pay rent, why you want his life to be hard like yours was

"It takes a village, so use your village" Maddie you are so loved and so is Jee-Yunn

Mrs. lee!!! God Chim has such a good family, long live found family trope

Is so nice for Hen have her mother around!! 😭😭😭

Good grieve Athena, thank god Michael is the father of this kids tho

Crying again, this time about the old lady killing herself because she has cancer

Athena not acepting May is an adult, is this fucking show about us?

Please talk to Denny first!! You can be okay with another little kid going again, but Denny is just a little kid!!

I love the concept of Buck and Mrs. Lee figthing over how babystits Jee-Yunn

They are talking to Denny! Hen and Karen are such good fucking moms

Noo, poor Chris when Ana breakup with Eddie he is going to be so sad!

"I have a full floor of them" Again i don't know if this is the most adorable thing in the world or i need to call human resources

I want to stop crying for this show, but i also want to keep watching

4x11 First Responders

Sue noo, please be okay

All of them being surprise that Athena agree to May living alone

Oh i love Sue being a good leader, when you are a leader instead of a boss, when you are not there, nothing falls aparts, because a good leader is always teaching other to take care of the taks, and you never want to disapoint a good leader, so everybody tries their best because the leader always tries their best

Josh begings, yipee!!

I like Taylor as a friend, leave her there

Athena criticizing the police?? A miracle

Buck and Taylor being partherns in crimes is pretty fun

Excuse me, why Josh became Sherlock?? That was weird

Why i am watching a show about people that love their important and essential jobs (except Athena) when I'm unemployment and very depress about not having a job

4x12 Treasure Hunt

Buck hates no to be the youngest that does all the dangerous things

This is a tale more than a poem or a riddle jsjjss

"Your girlfriend new story" Why are sounding so jealous Eddie, you have a grilfriend!

Taylor and Buck partners in crime!!

Taylor and Buck partners in crime!!

Taylor and Buck partners in crime!!

My sitcom is back!!

Dispatch beating for the treasure is so funny!

Of course Eddie wants to be in the team, jealous guy

Of course Bobby is also trying to solve the riddle, I'm surprise he didn't call Michael

Bobbie making Buck to go in the shit, jsjsjsj

HEN FACES WHEN THE GUY TELLS HIS GIRLFRIEND HE IS MARRIED sjsjsjsjs Why 911 is a drama and not a sitcom!!

no, not, you need to be friends! i don't like taylor/buck

But one drink Buck is a kisser 👀

hi ravi!

"I not doing any more math" so me

"you are new" "I'm not with them" jsjsjs

"Maybe enjoying the moment a litlle" jssjsj my favorite sitcom

Is that not a crime tho? person abandonment? leave a guy to die when you could have done something?

god, Taylor eating with the rest of them, buck is down bad

yes fiends, Buck leave it at that!!

4x13 Suspicion

The cables like that is a fire hazard

Is the mother

"You send us to the nutritionist" sjsjsjs

Buck watches make up tutorials, you know he likes Nikki Tutorials

"Sorry 😊" "Good luck with the wedding 👍🏻"

"Wheres Bobby? I need my partner" Michael i could give you my life

Eddie are you only with Ana because is easy and when Carla tell you to follow YOUR heart you imediatly doubt, son you are a fag

I don't think Bobby is drinking again bc that already happen

That boy is not sick. Is gyspy rose case, bc is always gyspy rose case

Maddie don't leave talk to Chimmey. This people that prefer leaving instead of talking!!

Please, Bobby and Athena figther is worse than my parents figthing. Don't

"Who says this marriage is working" 😟

THE FUCK?

SOMEONE NEEDS TO PUSH BUCK TO THE SIDE BECAUSE HE IS IN SHOCK!?

no, no,no this fucking show can't do this to me

the last scene being Eddie diying and reaching his hand towards Buck??? insane

I was going to sleep, beacuse is four in the morging but 911 decide to shot Eddie so now i need to watch the other episode

If the snipper has going for Buck he is going to feel so guilty

4x14 Survivors

Buck saving Eddie while mumbleing... the healthy "eating a horse" replacement it's not working, i will kill myself

"Are you hurt" INSANE ACTUALLY INSANE

I'm not surviving this episode

"are you okay Buckley?" "*whispers* no" AAAAAAAAAAH

Buck trying to everything while still in shock and trembling

I can't do this

Chris and Buck scene just begand and Buck is already crying so I'm going to star crying

BUCK BAWLING AND CHRIS TELLING HIM THAT IS GOING TO BE OKAY

I CAN'T

I CAN'T DO THIS

Maddie watching Chim having to put his bulletproof vest, my heart

The sequence of the cartidges hitting the floor with the firefigther putting their bulletproof vest, cinema 🚬

Athena please, retire, do me the favor

Poor Maddie, she is going insane with Jee, the most important people in her life, Chim and Buck, are being target, not knowing if they are coming back. Is also diffenrent that covid, because with Covid is a lottery, they are being TARGETED

"Can you blame him?" "Yes" Bobby Nash you are so funny

Of course Buck is going to a suicide mision after Eddie was shoot, i hate him

Bobby cutting vegetables violently, he is a latina grandmother

"Someone could shot your big stupid head" "I'm annoyed with you" "You're not invincible" "You could've gotten hurt" I can't be mad at Taylor

How I NOT see that kiss comming

Retreat everything good that I said about Taylor

and she runs, sure 👍🏻

"I think it migth have been better for him if i was the one who got shot" EVAN BUCK BUCKLET RETREAT WHAT YOU JUST SAID

Eddie dosen't have the energi to slap you for the bullshit you just said

Theres no ONE character that i like that dosen't feel CONSTANT GUILT, what it does said about me??

What the fuck I said about Bobby?? you can't injury him!! He is old! Don't do this to me!

"I'm here i got you" I'm not okay

"Thanks for coming to get me" "Always" I hate that i can't hate Athena

Taylor/Buck is just a bad decision

Nia!! My litte baby!!

I can't. Eddie telling Buck about his will is the most romantic scene ever, i can't do this

WAIT BOBBY TOLD CHIMMEY THAT A KID IS THE HEART OF THE FATHER (something that i have been saying) AND NOW EDDIE IS LEAVING CHRIS TO BUCK? AND YOU ARE TELLING ME THAT THEY AREN'T CANNON

How Eddie said "Evan" and "You act like you're expendable, but are wrong"

Buck faces!! And they aren't kissing?? this is the worst queerbait of my life, and I am a supernatural fan, i am killing myself

Figthter Han!? Albert i love you!

i am not crying, this fucking show

.............

Okay, I really liked this season, is so sad like i though was going to be. I like everyones arc. I love Bobby and Michael moments.

I really like how they are writting May this season, wait to see what more they do with her.

The silly emergiencies are getting sillier.

I could love to see Albert telling Chim that he was going to be a firefigther, like Albert knows about kevin and more being with mrs and mr.lee, i really wanted to see that.

I hate Buck and Taylor being more than friends, i give them a month.

Is complely insane to me that Eddie and Buck didn't kiss in the hospital. Bucks arc, revolves about not being wanted, and could have been Bobby, or taylor being the one that solves his arc but no, is deliberately Eddie that one that makes Buck realize his worth in the most romantic scene, more romantic scene that any scene that they have with their respective romantic interest, it dosen't makes sense that they aren't together.

Also Buck says the true in the hospital chair, it was going to be better for Chris if it was Buck, because Buck is not the father, but Eddie finally tells Buck what he did and Eddie basically tells Buck you are also the father. Idk Eddie Diaz baby trapping Buck with his own kid once again.

I regret starting this show for this two fucking fa*gunshot*

Anyway this is my reaction, opinion and meltdown for 911 season 4, here is season 1, season 2 and season 3. I am staring season 5 rigth now, see you when i finish it.

[chimerapartyhouse]

Got to experiance the Pen's Marriage mod quest and HOLY WHAT THEY DID AN AMAZING JOB. It has inspired so much brainrot in me now that I can have my true pairing together again. The two together simultaneously make each other feral and calmer. So I'm dumping the shitposts I wrote here.

Ruber-Roseus says:

"Was told yer were beating up inmates constantly. Why they'd think letting yer near anyone was a good idea I don't know... (quietly) Good lad." 

"Oh look, I get to return the favour finally. We're now a couple who wears matching clothes. Congrats." 

"Gunna need two copies of yer book. One for yer to sign, the other ta bash yer nogging with." 

"Hate to break it to yer Honey, but the big not-bandit has the hots for me. Take from that info what yer want." 

"...Yes, I would love to sit on yer back as you do push ups. Missed you." 

"People in town refuse to talk to me cause of this mess. Thanks by the way."

(Pen trying to bite him in public) "Bad dog!" 

"I should 'ave asked Avery for a paycheck for this." 

"I'D THROW YA TO THE PERIPHERIES BUT THEN I'D FEEL BAD FOR EVERY LIVING THING THERE!" 

"That's it, hold my hand. I'm not letting go till yeh behave." 

"Grace is going to kill me if Logan doesn't first." 

"Get OFF ME. SomEONE here actually has a job that pays BILLS."

"Yes, you're hot. Yes, I love your muscles, looks, hair, jawline, voice. All your stuff. But please behave in public, you've traumatised Burgess more than enough already." 

"I would threaten to tie you up but I know that's not a threat to you." 

"Fine, instead I'll tie you up, have my fun, and leave you there." (Threat works.) 

"Been wanting to introduce you to my Ma but what would I even tell her now?!" 

"Let me sit on your lap and cuddle me, Kitten. Work was exhausting." 

"If you get us banned from the Blue Saloon one day I will never forgive you." 

"Honey, please get yer hand off me ass." 

Pen forgoing his usual tracksuit for more revealing clothing cause he's cover in certain kinds of bruises. 

(Pull out a stool, places it in front of Pen, stands on it.) "Now listen here ya little-" 

"You're lucky I love you so much, and that others hold me back, or else I'd be the one in prison." 

Finding Ruber passing out at stupid times from exhaustion turns from funny to sad real fast. Worse so when Pen learns why it keeps happening. 

"I can't even torture you in normal ways. I could threaten suffocation and you'd just go 'mh, yes please'."

"It is an actual miracle that no one has seriously tried to separate us. Maybe we mellow each other out enough that it's not worth it." 

"I wonder if it's possible to teach Rosy how to cook cause I'm scared of what you'll do to my precious kitchen if you use it." 

(Pen and Rosy getting envious of each other.) "Ladies, I love you both dearly."

Punishes Pen by slipping in really hot chilli pepper into his food. Not Duvos Pepper levels, but it does the job when he's done something seriously bad. 

"Something may have slipped out during a talk with Pablo. So sorry if the town acts weirder than usual soon." 

"For the last time, stop reading that damn book my Ma gave ya! I thought you didn't want kids anyway?!" 

"You can big-talk all you want, you've still never beaten me at whack-a-mole." 

"Sorry, being pretty is exhausting." (Collapses into Pen's arms.) 

"There are days where I wonder, 'what if?'. And then see your ass and immediately dismiss the idea." Pen: Do you mean me or my- (muffled squeak) "I mean your glorious globes." (Slapped his ass.) 

Ruber laying his head on Pen's chest. "You can say your heart is unbeating all you want. I can hear it calling for me." 

"If you make one more 'rabbit in heat' joke I'm sending you back to prison." 

"My Crystal, I promise I'm no longer interested in Justice. If it helps, I would have kicked your ass to the curb long ago if it were the case. You can also talk to Pablo too, that man will never stop interfering with my love life." 

"Snow Leopard, Pablo and Vivi agreed to help me make a new custom wardrobe for yer. It's your turn to be the dress up doll."

[criminal-mids]

#23 - The Magician

Prompt: Under a Spell

Sickie: Prentiss

Caretaker: Reid

Word Count: 2,373

(A/N: Disclaimer: I have no knowledge of planes, farming, or magic.)

The previous day’s incursion had been successful, but not everyone had come out unscathed. Emily's wrist and fingers ache, numb from the painkillers, but somehow stinging all the same. The unsub, Roger Morrow’s, chosen weapons were chains. The monster of a man grew up in a travelling circus, one of those outdated freak shows, and he worked the long metal links like extensions of his body, and he’d pulled them tight around her. If she hadn't thrown her arms out, the metal would’ve found a place around her neck. Thankfully she was only the diversion, the soft entry. Hotch, Morgan and the local policemen had quickly subdued Morrow. He may have been huge, but with so many, she and the victims were safe again.

Now all that’s left is the huge bruise, beginning to bloom purple across her forearm. She tugs her sleeve down groaning, but it won’t go completely over the thick brace. Not a break, just a sprain. A miracle, the paramedic had told her. She had to agree as she watched forensics lift the heavy accoutrements of torture into what had to be the biggest evidence bad she’d ever seen in her few years at the B.A.U. But sprains take longer to heal than breaks.

She sighs. With her shooting hand out of commission, she was assigned to stay at the station and work the geographical profile with Reid. It isn’t that she dislikes him, the opposite actually. His sense of humour may be what some consider odd, but after doing this job long enough one’s humour gets warped enough to where some of his jokes are actually rather funny. 

But he’s a genius. Geographical profiles are his thing. And sitting here, watching him flip between case files, sketching red and blue lines on the provided map, muttering so quickly to himself that Emily can barely catch a word, she feels useless. 

What is she doing here? She isn’t helping? Couldn’t she at least be doing something out in the field? Staking out the crime scene in case the unsub returns?

But, she laments, that wouldn’t be much help either. With her hand, she could hardly arrest him. Hotch would never let her out into the field alone with an impairment like this, temporary as it may be.

“ -to Emily”

“Huh?” She looks up, startled.

“I said: Earth to Emily.” Reid waves a sweater-pawed hand gently in front of her face, but she’s still too distracted to smile.

“Oh, uh, yes.”

“You spaced out. And you keep looking at your arm. Is it hurting? You mentioned you took medication right before we left and it’s been almost nine hours. I can grab your medication from your bag if you need it.” Spencer starts to reach across the desk to where Emily’s small cross body sits, but she puts her uninjured hand out to stop him.

“Ah, sorry. I’m fine. Let’s just finish this.”

She shakes her head as she says “Let’s.” 

‘Why’d I say that? It isn’t like I’m doing much or anything.’

Spencer cocks his head, eyes like a curious animal. He looks a little hurt. “Emily, what’s- did I do something to you that I’m unaware of? I can be quiet if you want. But according to several scientific studies and my personal observations, talking things over helps people to arrive at conclusions faster.”

“What?” Now Emily is confused. “Of course, you can talk. I don’t mind at all. Why would I?”

“Oh. You were staring at me, kind of glaring actually.” He looks back down at the map in front of him, embarrassed at the thought that he’s made something out of nothing. He knows he should be used to the glares by now. He knows he’s different. Negative reactions are only natural.

But Emily understands now. “No, I wasn’t mad, not at you anyway. I-” She hesitates. 

‘Should I really be talking about this? We have a case to solve. It’s no big deal . . . but I don’t want Spencer to think I’m mad at him.’ Is how she justifies it, even though she doesn’t need to justify it at all.

“I- I just feel . . . useless. I’m not doing anything. And I heard you tell Morgan that you focus better alone, anyway.”

Spencer doesn’t say anything, but his expression speaks volumes. His brows pull together in confusion, head tilted again as if even with B.A.s in Psychology and Sociology, he can’t comprehend how she could feel that way. The looks make Emily feel warm, and forgiven for a non-existent wrong.

“I mean, I know I’m not useless, but that's my point. I feel like I’m being wasted, by not being in the field. I know why Hotch did it, of course, but I can't help feeling like I should be doing more. I know I could be. I owe it to the Taylors who are probably sitting at home right now, feeling just like me, only they can’t do anything and I can. I signed up for this and it’s frustrating to not be able to do it.”

Reid’s face shifts into understanding. He nods thoughtfully, and says, after a moment, “You’re not useless. I only told Morgan that so he’d stop pacing. It’s like he can never stop moving, not completely anyway, like a giant atom, kind of funny. And most of the time, I function better with some background stimuli, uh, but what I mean is you are doing something. In fact I was just about to ask you what you thought about the unsub being an agricultural pilot.”

“Like a crop duster?”

“Yeah. All the dump sites are fields, which does make sense since there’s nothing much else around, but the sites are so far apart almost any other vehicle would be impractical, so far apart, and with so little vehicle traffic he’s bound to be noticed. Forensics found no tyre tracks at any of the scenes. Think about it, a crop duster could land and take off without too much suspicion.”

“But aren’t most one-seaters?” Emily asks, having to grit her teeth by the end of the sentence. 

‘I think Spencer was right about the medication wearing off.’

“Yes, but not all of them. But I don’t think our unsub is using the seats anyway. He wouldn’t have to. Though the term “crop duster” would suggest, well, dust, many fertilisers today are liquids. Planes designed for aerial fertiliser application have hoppers with a capacity of up to 800 gallons to 4,000 pounds. That’s more than enough for a body, several in fact if the hopper is empty. He simply loads his victims into it, flies to the dump site, lands dumps the body and takes off again.”

“Reid, you are a genius. I’ll have Garcia check registrations and licences in the area, and hangers too.” In her excitement, she forgets her pain, until she fumbles for her phone.

“I’ll do it.” Reid offers, pulling out his own mobile.

“Yeah.” Emily tries to remember his earlier encouragement, but it doesn’t help much. So she just watches Reid instead.

“ . . . If he’s been transporting bodies, he won’t have been able to carry a full load of fertiliser, so look for agricultural pilots who’ve been missing quotas. There will most likely be a history of complaints for other things as well. . . . Yeah, thanks, Garcia.”

—

The team is assembled, giving the refined profile and setting up the bust . . . while Emily sits in the corner.

She watches them gear up to leave when suddenly Reid pulls Hotch aside.

“Hey, um, Hotch. You have more than enough men, and I don’t think I’d be of too much help for this, could I stay behind and get a head start on paperwork? I’ll be right by the phone if you need me, of course, but, you know. Trying to fix my sleep schedule a little. Mom always nags me about the coffee.” His laugh is a little forced.

Hotch glances over at Emily, pressing her eyes closed in discomfort. He’s a prosecutor turned profiler, Reid’s lies are transparent, but it's true. They don’t exactly need him.

“Alright. Set a good example for Morgan, will you.”

“Yes, sir.”

Reid watches rhythm go then gets to work.

It wasn’t entirely a lie. He does want a jump start on paperwork, but first: Emily.

“Does anyone have a deck of cards?”

—

It’s easy to procure what he needs, a standard deck, a sharpie and sticky notes. It’s not much, but he can work a few simple tricks. Last he grabs crips from the vending machine, a paper cut of water, and the bottle of pills from Emily’s bag.

Making his voice as soft as possible he rouses her, “Hey, Emily.”

She isn’t asleep (how could she be with her arm stinging?), but she’s pretty dazed, so she wakes with surprise.

“Oh, Spencer. Hey.”

“I brought you your pills.” He gestures to the extra chair he dragged over.

She sits up at the thought of relief and smiles when she sees what sits on the chair. Her stomach grumbles.

“Here, so you don’t have to take them on an empty stomach.” He hands her the packet of jalapeño crisps.

“Mmm, my favourite. You’re an angel, Spencer.”

He blushes, “Hardly. I’m just observant.”

Emily gives an exhausted eyebrow wiggle. “I’ve noticed.”

They laugh. It’s way too funny for some reason. Maybe it’s the shoddy flickering fluorescent lights of this tiny police station in the middle of East Bumble-fuck that must have been passed over for every budget increase in the last decade. Or maybe it’s the night air coming in through the cracked windows. (The aircon broke months ago, they were told). Or maybe they’re both just loopy from lack of sleep.

When they stop laughing, Emily starts in on her snack or tries to. 

“Argh, stupid wrist.”

“Ah, sorry, Allow me, ma’am,” Spencer says with a sort of half bow because he’s sitting, all dramatically debonair. 

Emily lets him, mostly because she’s tired and hungry and in pain, but also because his charm isn’t false at all. He might not always be put together, but there’s something adorably nerdy about him impossible to ignore.

“Why thank you, sir.”

“Of course.” He bows again, handing it back.

They fall once again into laughter, better this time because Emily is starving and her mouth waters at the smell of the crisps.

-

Emily eats quickly. Securing the packet between her lap and her brace and stuffing crisps in her mouth faster than she would have thought possible with her non-dominant hand.

She swallows the pill easily. Now all she has to do is wait for it to kick in. She lays her head back against the cool wall, closing her eyes. 

‘Ugh, now I’m just in pain and can’t see.’ Sighing, she reopens them. When she does, Spencer is closer than before.

“Wanna see a magic trick?” He offers.

She nods.

“But first, I need this.” 

With a flourish, he unties Emily’s silk scarf from her neck.

Her skin tingles with the sudden absence, feeling the breeze from the open window (or maybe the feeling is just from where his hand had brushed her collar).

The vanishing trick is simple, but no less magical. She giggles. 

‘Oh, that must be the pills kicking in. I haven’t had coffee in a while, they must be making me drowsy.’

For his next trick, he shuffles the deck and fans ten cards face down. “Pick a card, any card!”

She obliges, choosing the one right in the middle. Wondering if she’s playing right into the trick but not caring all that much.

Even though she knew what was coming, she’s no less surprised when the exact card she picked and hadn’t shown him appeared in Spencer’s hand.

—

Several tricks later, Emily is about ready to pass out. 

Spencer glances at the clock. He hadn’t meant to lie to Hotch. He did intend on starting his paperwork, but more time had passed than he realised.

He smiles at Emily’s near-sleeping form. He hates to wake her but . . .

“Hey, Em, I’ve got to at least do a little paperwork and you shouldn’t sleep here, you’ll hurt your neck.”

Emily mumbles something that sounds like “Let me be useless in peace.”

“No, come one. I can’t carry you.”

“Fine.”

Without opening her eyes, she stands, trusting Spencer to guide her. They walk to the bench in the miserable precinct’s waiting area. She’s out nearly as soon as she lays down, barely feeling Spencer place his cardigan under her head.

“‘Night, Emily.”

But he waits until he’s sure she’s comfortable before putting away the cards and sitting down at the small table with his files.

—

Reid is just finishing the write-up of his geographical profile.

“Oh, you’re back. How did it go?” He asks Morgan. 

“We got him without too much resistance.”

“Good.”

“Where’s Emily?”

“Sleeping.” 

Morgan nods, staring in Emily’s direction, but Reid stops him, “Don’t wake her, please.”

Morgan raises an eyebrow but decides not to question it. “We leave as soon as we’re packed.” He informs Reid.

“Yeah.”

-

“Reid, get over here.”

Reid hurries over to Morgan.

“What do you need?”

“Can you wake the bear?” Morgan asks, tone mostly teasing but also slightly wary.

Reid frowns. “She’s not going to attack you, you know. She’s in no condition.”

Morgan shrugs, already walking off. “I gotta help Rossi.”

Reid shakes his head. He walks off as well. But only to gather Emily’s bag.

He kneels to Emily’s level, tucking a stray strand of hair back into place. The motion sends Emily’s eyes fluttering open. She shifts quickly but clumsily up, trying to grab his hand.

 “Hey, easy. It’s just me.” He reassures her, placing her scarf back around her neck.

She rubs it between her fingers, blinking as she calms down, “Oh, Spencer.”

“We’re about to leave. Hotch and JJ are finishing things here and Morgan and Rossi are picking up our stuff. I got your bag.”

“Thanks. I am so ready to be home.”

“Me too.”

“Hey, you two, come on,” Morgan calls.

“Coming,” Spencer shouts back, then turns to Emily, helping her up and hooking an arm around her waist. “Come on, let’s go home.”

(A/N: This turned out way less platonic than I intended, but hey, why not? Also, what is Emily and Spencer’s ship name? I’ve searched but can’t find it. So far I’ve thought of Remily, or Prencer. Lol Also, for anyone wondering, the switches from surname to given name were intentional.)

---

Based on some of the meanings of the Magician tarot card

Manifesting: The ability to make dreams come true 

Healing: The ability to fix or improve something that's broken or not going well 

Tapping into potential: Using one's talents, capabilities, and resources to succeed, especially when there's a need to transform something 

[harrystiddess]

DRUMMER GIRL

PART II

A/N: If my scenarios before bed were a fanfic haha

WORD COUNT: I’m bad at math

SUMMARY: She's a drummer and a cop and he's in need of a drummer. Will she "stick" with his offer?

DRUMMER GIRL SERIES

Content Warning: None as of yet!

Read Part I here

HARRY’S POV

H: I think I just found us a drummer

Jeff: While taking a walk on the streets?

H: …Yes..

Jeff: When can they audition?

H: Actually tonight 7pm at Bardo’s

Jeff: They have a gig or something?

H: Sort of…

Jeff: Alright, I’ll meet you at your place then?

H: Uhm Actually I’ll be going early…

Jeff: To the venue? Why are they a friend?

H: No she’s not a friend and I’m juts going to get her flowers that’s all

Jeff: 👀

H: Here we go again

Jeff: Hahaha I’m joking chill man

H: you’re annoying

Jeff: I know 💁🏻‍♀️

6:30 PM Same Day

I’ve been pacing back and forth, I even drank chamomile Tea which I hate- but nothing seems to calm me down. Only this sentence playing through my head. “Harry Styles is going to fucking watch you play tonight”

It’s almost show time but i can’t see him anywhere. I would be lying if I said I haven’t been peeking through the curtain to find him. Even though he seemed a little full of himself I couldn’t bury the pure excitement I was feeling. As I take a good last peek for the last time, I spot Jeff. Great. Even though I knew he’d be there, it was just enough to tip off my anxiety.

I go back and quickly fix my make up and wear the last bit of my outfit.

The only good thing about tonight was that I was wearing All leather and thigh high boots. Tonight’s outfit- was my dream come true.

I’m the first one to walk out to the crowd screaming. It wasn’t a huge crowd, just about 100 people.

I walk in, bow down and I take a seat on my throne. (A/N: The seat of a drum kit is called a Throne)

As the others make their entry on stage I take my time to find Harry. He looks curious as if he were genuinely interested in my talent.

It was time for us to start, which we did with a classic “Viva La Vida” by Coldplay followed by imagine dragons and songs the bad wrote.

At the end of the hug, the crowd was left in awe. Tonight’s gig was a big hit.

After all of us take the last bow and take the crowds leave, we all go backstage getting our gear back in, to go to the bar and celebrate.

I come back out with Elle laughing about me tripping when I realise that Harry and Jeff are walking towards be. Harry has a bouquet in his hands. Bouquets of white daises. It was quite funny because Whute Daisies are my favourite flowers and there was no way he knew that unless..

“Hi” he says breathing out

“Hi”

“You were fucking amazing”

“Was I really? Or you’re just desperate for a drummer”

“I wouldn’t say I’m desperate, but you were phenomenal”

“Thankyou” I say chuckling

“Oh and I got these for you”

“White daisies” I say looking at them fondly smelling them and inhaling some pollen causing me to sneeze

I can hear them chuckle but I pretend I don’t.

“Uh Ava, this is Jeff my Manager, and Jeff this is Ava, the drummer girl” he introduced us.

“Nice to meet you” I say shaking his hand.

Jeff… he seems different than I thought. He’s.. welcoming. And has got a warm radiance in general.

“Let’s get a table?”

Everyone nods in agreement as we get seated on the table.

Oh and try is is Elena, my bestfriend and the guitarist of this band.

We all get seated and order a round of drinks.

“So Ava, what do you do? You a drummer of this band?”

“No actually.. Korid, their drummer is sick so I’m just covering for him. I’m actually a cop”

“A cop” Harry raises his eyebrows

“Well not exactly. But low key yes”

“That sounds very important”

“I mean it has its ups and downs” I say laughing

“So we definitely would love and I mean this in a way that if we have you as an employee, we’d go places we couldn’t reach before” said Jeff stepping in.

“Having you in the Love Band, would be like a miracle”

By looking at my unsure face he begins again “And we’re ready to negotiate. If you’re willing to still be a cop and do both at the same time, we’re ready to adjust”

The minute he said that it was like every problem in my world had been resolved. Not literally but the main pressing issue had been.

“I’m listening” you say with a wide smirk looking at Harry knowing that he knows that the deal is established and closed.

“We would love for you to come to the studio, we can talk terms, legalities, your pay and everything else”

I look at Elena for confirmation as if I was hesitating. Which I was. This was a huge step. Good for me but regardless a huge step. She nodded at me holding my hand making sure I knew that she supported me an thought that this was good for me.

“Alright. I’m in”

The minute I said that I could see Harry’s face light up like a damn glowstick. He had an expression I couldn’t quite decode but he was definitely happy and satisfied. And so was I. I’ve dreamed of this moment, infact even written fanfics about this moment for years. And this mine couldn’t compare to either of them.

We talked for a bit, decided that I’d come over to the studio tomorrow to close the deal and meet the rest of the bandmates. I exchanged numbers with Jeff as we bid our goodbyes. What surprised me was that Harry asked me for a picture. With him. He was the star! It sounded absolutely ridiculous. He knew I was thinking that but we clicked a picture anyways. As it turns out, it was his plan all along.

“Could you send me that picture?”

“I don’t have your contact”

“That’s alright you can give me yours, I’ll text you” he said with subtle smirk and smug look on his face.

“Uhm yeah” I say as he hands his phone to me.

We bid our goodbyes, and I head home. The second I enter my flat, my phone rings, notifying me of a text.

I just couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that he gave me White Daises. It was a little too good to be a coincidence. But there’s no way he have known, right?

The minute I enter my flat I get a text from an unknown number.

Unknown: “Drummer Girl 😉” I like it

I can’t help but smile at it. He’d think I wouldn’t notice him referring to me as the drummer girl. But putting that as my contact name in his phone probably just proved it

[beaft]

Hi and sorry in advance for using this as an excuse to rant a bit about Good omens 2! I feel the same, I binged it with my girlfriend and at the end we just sat in silence for a minute and then went "...what the fuck was that." It was so incredibly poorly written and plotted in many aspects, though I understand that if one doesn't love dissecting stories piece by piece to analyse it from all possible angles it could be hard to understand why some people are saying it's bad. I feel like it's comparable to a house that looks pretty but is build on really shitty foundations and has a lot of structural issues. Most people can't see anything wrong with it and find it good, but the people who know how those things are built can immediately see all the glaring issues under the surface.

In short, in my opinion a lot of this season's short comings hinge on it's complete lack of thematic coherence and structure, completely ignoring or even discarding what was at the heart of the original story. This season was a disjointed jumble of scenes and concepts that only superficially lead to other scenes that within the bigger picture had no weight at all, plot or thematic-wise. Once you start thinking back to some of the plot threads the show established to move the story forward it's almost ridiculous how little they actually meant for the conclusion. And I don't mean stuff that 'might be resolved in the third season'! Creating a miracle to keep Gabriel hidden from everyone? He could've hid in a closet and it would've had the same effect for the plot. Muriel being set to keep an eye on Aziraphale and Crowley? Nothing, no consequences, in fact Aziraphale fucks off on his investigation right after, which, by the way, served no purpose than to give us some exposition that in the end got re-iterated to us during Gabriel's flashbacks. He doesn't actually figure anything out in a way that impacts the story lol. Even the whole "we have to make these two women fall in love so that Heaven believes us!" is kind of just forgotten by the end of the story, and nobody holds them accountable to their claim. The character of Jim is completely non-existent for half of the season and has no emotional arc or impact as a character on Aziraphale and Crowley - he could've been a magical cardboard cutout that spouts funny lines every now and then. There were so many set-ups within this season itself that had completely lackluster or non-existing pay-offs it's actually kind of ridiculous.

So many of the things people list or write about when talking about this season are there in concept, but they're not acted upon in the writing. A prime example of this is the Aziraphale/Crowley and Nina/Maggie parallels that people are pointing out - but within the season's current day scenes there isn't any romantic or emotional development between Aziraphale and Crowley, and the story doesn't center itself around that parallel or development. The only scene I could think of that even remotely does something with that is the Jane Austen dancing scene - except where Nina and Maggie have a conversation about what is going on right in that moment and how they're feeling, Aziraphale and Crowley are as good as emotionally dead and then the scene already ends.

If you start breaking down the plot elements it could've been made so, so SO much more tight-knit and coherent by focusing on what was important - ergo the character's relationships now and the bigger plot beats. As much as I loved the flashbacks in season 1, in this season they merely serve to tell us what we already know about Aziraphale's and Crowley's relationship and to add some superficial and pointless context to the different locations Aziraphale visits. Another thing I think is a big difference between this season and the original story is that every character, every concept had a Point to it, usually a joke or some sort of funny commentary (whether it was good/actually funny is another thing entirely). That's what made it feel interesting and sharp, whereas the new characters in this season just kind of... are. If you break down the concepts to their bare essence, coffeeshop owner in a toxic relationship and record shop owner who has anxiety are pretty bland as character concepts go. Shax as a character is also just so... pointless lmfao. It's almost badly caricaturing the concept of Gomens demons, which are already caricatures, so the effect is somewhat reminicent of beating a dead horse long after it has died. Anyway, so sorry to clutter your inbox like this but I just needed to get this off my chest. It's so weird seeing the dissonance between what is textually there in the show and how people are reacting to it!

hi! i hope you don't mind but i'm posting this publicly because tbh you really hit the nail on the head with every single one of these points. the whole season felt like this:

over and over again a potentially interesting plotline would get introduced, and then the writers would kind of just. forget why it was there? best example is, as you say, the nina/maggie thing - originally it began as a cover story to explain away the Forbidden Miracle, but that quickly ceased to be relevant, and the "we need to make them fall in love to get heaven off our backs" became a half-hearted running gag that was returned to every now and again with increasing half-heartedness. no sense of forward planning, no callbacks or consequences, just the constant sense of frantic improvisation without an end in sight.

[zukkacore]

🌤️ & ☔ !!

🌤️Share your favorite piece of dialogue from your WIP.

okkk so this is cheating b/c this is actually. From an old draft of If You Want Divinity that was way darker. But I might reconstitute it for a new thing b/c I do.... like it, it just didn't fit with the tone:

“Or is this all a… What do you call it? A leap of faith?” He grabs Porter by the hair, pulling his head back so that he’s forced to look him in the eye. “Was there ever a moment you doubted my devotion?” His other hand wraps nicely around Porter’s throat, resting pretty. “Or did you always know I would choose you?” A Message. I can feel everything. All your rage, your shame, your desire, your lovely desperation. Your envy… Does that frighten you? To know you can never hide from me again? It must be some sort of miracle for him to actually intimidate Porter, but rage emboldens him. He’s kept two people under his skin so long that the company is comforting. You don’t have the guts. “You sure?” says Jace. A beat. Do it. His grip slackens.

I am gonna count Message as dialogue :')

☔Is there a fic concept you have that you'd like to just explain and share because you're not sure you'll ever write it? If so, what is it?

I have a couple that I'm not sure if I'm gonna finish or go for. A lot of these are kinda ambitious which i used to take on with gusto but i do have a problem with abandoning shit (and delayed gratification) so the idea of committing myself to a big piece is like. Maybe.... maybe.... At the same time, i am that kind of ambitious person, short things are not normally what i do. I have a few ideas that are not the most fleshed out:

I do genuinely really like the idea of doing a You've Got Mail rival academies AU but i also know that would probably take a tone of work and i'm like..... ughhhh. But i think they could do the hate to love thing. Its the Nora Ephron n Meg Ryan collab i think is the most fitting for the two of them (although if there was a when harry met sally (evil version) Take..... maybe)

Vaguely a timeloop au sounds fun. I LOOOOVE a timeloop. and have been wanting to write one for forever but i don't have a strong Vision on it right now. Don't know if its a timeloop to change what happened kind of timeloop or a timeloop to realize you can never go back kind of timeloop. There's also the Timeloop as Redemption angle that i think is fun, that's the groundhog day thing that's the happy death day thing and i think there's precedent of it being like. a Chronomancy thing. Aguefort subject these bitches to a timeloop so you can put them back on your payroll im begging you

Althought time loop purgatory also goes hand in hand with my joke that Porter and Jace should be subjected to a Bad Place Elmville as hell punishment. A vaguely inspired Good Place AU would be really funny i think. Again, it's too formless for me to know what to do with it. I don't actually think it should be that they think they're in The Good Place, i think the trick should be they're convinced ankarna gave them a second shot at life so now they life in elmville only everything is shifted slightly to the left bc its a pocket hell dimension meant to torture them. Like Chidi and Eleanor, oops they fell in love. Again. This is formless.

ALSO kinda goes hand in hand with my joke abt Ankarnatown i made a while back like Jace fetching Porter from hell??? no notes. But like. damn i gotta make it myself?? That sucks

I honestly sincerely might write some zara/clones or lucilla/clones stuff. That ones purely and indulgence. Purely just for me. I wanted to include a small zara/jace throughline or a lucilla/j2 implication in Almost but it just like. Did not have the air for that i just felt like it didn't fit for the tone it just kinda was detracting (as much as zarajace making porter jealouse wouldve been fun) and just in there for me b/c i like Persephades Orphydice

Again this is formless. All i'm gonna say is i drew a gamechanger au. and now i think the idea of Aguefort subjecting his staff to gameshows for personal enrichment is so funny. Aguefort heaven is porter hell its a very efficient system

[drlavenderpepper]

Hi! I saw that ship poll and I know nothing about waterparks but it's always very funny to find your fandom being acknowledged in unexpected places (ie other fandoms), so feel free to tell me more about your guys, I'm curious

HELLO OMG yes okay so!! there's some insane relationship drama going on here so get ready lol

it all started back in 2009 when after some local show, awsten was handing out fliers for his own band (not waterparks yet) because he was looking for a drummer. and the famously technology-aversed otto (seriously he still doesn't use any social media at all ever) made a myspace account just to contact awsten. long story short he joined the band, but things fell apart after a terrible recording experience soon after that, and the two of them parted on such bad terms that they didn't talk for an entire year. awsten was notably very upset about this, even recalling a memory of when he saw otto at warped tour 2011 was too nervous to approach him (and still remembering the exact outfit otto was wearing that day)

then after waterparks was formed, awsten sent a copy of their first ep for otto to check out, and then after he found himself without a drummer once again, he met up with otto and long story short, otto joined the band and they fully reconciled.

now this is where the insane shit begins because awsten had this girlfriend called grace, who he started dating in 2011. the two of them broke up in 2015, and like. literally a month later she started sleeping with otto (tho notably she almost always says they only started dating january 2016, unclear if that's just to make things seem less messy or if that's when their relationship actually got serious. she very much was tweeting very graphically about her and otto's sex life in 2015 though. also somehow they're still together, but the situation's still messy enough that she's not even allowed backstage at shows). understandably, awsten was very upset by this, especially because by that point he'd started regarding otto as his best friend (referring back to the incident as his ex fucking his best friend in his book). tbh it's truly a miracle the band stayed together after that lol but they had just gotten signed so. plus awsten has never put the blame on otto or been upset with him for this, only grace. like, not even a little, it's basically like it didn't even happen when it comes to their friendship. which is very interesting because by all accounts, awsten isn't quick to forgive, and otto is an incrdibly notable exception to that. though otto being an exception is very much a pattern when it comes to things awsten does or doesn't like.

the whole time they've been friends, awsten has regularly made "jokes" about how hot he thinks otto is. both on twitter and also in real life. i actually got to fucking witness this in real life during a show because the venue was called 'meetfactory' and the previous show's venue was called 'the hole', and awsten made a joke like "i told my mom about the names of these venues and she was like 'what kind of places are you going to??' and i said don't worry, otto always brings condoms :)" and i instantly took fifty points of psychic damage. but truly he talks wayyy to much about how hot otto's abs are and just about how hot otto is in general. and also they've always been very affectionate, holding hands and sitting really close to each other and stuff like that. awsten has said multiple times that he hates it when other people touch his face but he happily lets specifically otto do that all the time. then there's the play-fighting, where awsten will climb into otto's bunk and drag him out and they'll wrestle for (i quote) "i dunno, 45 minutes". insane shit. awsten brought this up when he was asked the question "what's the most romantic thing you've done for someone" btw

there's also the song pink, which has been heavily theorized to be about otto for a multitude of reasons, not least of all that 1) otto sings backing vocals on it 2) one of the lines is it's just that it's not fun when i find out / you're playing for the other team which. y'know. gay. and also the whole song is about pining after someone from afar and 3) awsten has always been verrrry cagey about just what exactly pink is about. he absolutely refuses to say. and also they have barely ever played it live

there's a more detailed explanation of everything here, complete with citations and photos and all that lol

and actually we as awtto nation have a fun little underdog backstory ourselves! awsten/geoff used to be by far the more popular ship for most of the band's history. when i first started reading awtto fics in 2019, there were around 60 fics with awtto at most, and 200 or so gawsten ones. and a lot of them (for every ship) were intentionally bad shock-fics (there's a story there that i won't get into). then in 2020 one person started a movement to turn awtto into the more popular ship (because it's better <33), and people started joining in really quickly! we had a lot of fests and stuff and it was an awesome little community, and then only a year and a half later, in january 2022, we actually succeeded! with the person who started it all being the one to post the fic that broke the tie. and we're still in the lead to this day, despite the fact that the fandom has kind of fizzled out by now compared to what it was like back then, for various reasons. but it was some of the most fun i've ever had in a fandom ever <33

[pansexualkiba]

@panda-monium64 okay work sucked so let's go onto our next part! cause i like talking about my touhou ocs yknow

THIS IS PART 5 OF A SERIES.

TOUHOU NINGYOUSEI ~ FALLING OBJECT WAR

I think the fun part of every "war" plot I have (which is an astonishing two! this is the first one) is just. Attacking the final boss before the war can ever begin. It's EXTREMELY funny to me. Anyways, between CE and FOW, HSiFS got its full release, and the CE characters were actually based on a prediction on the use of the jade character in Tenkuushou - which is why its basis is crystals and why Eternity is a main character. Basically, my prediction was the final boss of that game was going to be a Fairy, because that would've been dope.

Okina's cool, tho.

I bring all this up because you're going to see a bit of influence in this. But just know that I decided "I don't have enough unrelated randos" and I went and put in THREE whole unrelated gorls.

Anyways, Plot: A giant Thing has crashed somewhere in Gensokyo! This happened in the middle of the night, so it's already the next day. Basically, just go and see what's going on! ...But, there's a weird feeling in the air. It's almost similar to the Miracle Mallet's energy...

Yeah somehow I ended up cribbing DDC's plot. The final boss should meet Seija...

ANIMIA Youkai of Aura Species: Youkai (Formerly human) Ability: Capable of reading auras A youkai born from a human. Because she's been around this long, it's near impossible to get rid of her. She runs a business as a humble fortuneteller. Because she doesn't eat her human clients, she's rather weak. Using her ability to read aura, she can view the emotions and general energies from people and locations. Any correct fortunes she tells are from sheer luck. Recently, she's seen an indescribable aura emanating from the hills, so she rushed to tell someone.

Hey youma fortuneteller from FS: git gud. Animia's kind of an inside brick joke NO ONE is going to get: a long while back, I decided to try and give the PC-98 characters their abilities. Animia's aura reading is based on what I dubbed as Orange's ability: aura manipulation. Basically, Animia and Orange are similar in that they're just complete random girls who happened to be in the way. The protag doesn't even listen to Animia's report... Well, such is the life of a first-stage boss.

KAZUSA IRIGUCHI Double-Speaking, Double-Tongued Villager Species: Futakuchi-onna Ability: Capable of having a long tongue A futakuchi-onna that lives among humans. Her lies are amazingly believable, and this is how she has evaded detection for so long. She constantly gets hungry, but she can't always eat. Thus, her second mouth has developed an extremely long tongue. Despite her condition, she enjoys caring for her twin sons, and runs an inn near the edge of town. Being a youkai, she was instantly disturbed by the crash, and went out to do some investigating of her own.

A completely unrelated girl! Also a canonical mother. We support milfs going out and shooting down baddies. I really have nothing to say about her, good OR bad, she's just here to be around- OH! So, what that last sentence means is, I think I meant to say that, since she's not really a strong youkai to begin with, the weird energy emanating from the crash site empowered her to second-stage level. Then again, I don't think I actually was thinking that far ahead when I made her. Ah well.

AKAME UNMARU Gazing Doll of Best Wishes Species: Doll (Daruma) Ability: Capable of creating eyes A daruma doll that was given life. Created for surveillance and reconnaissance for her somewhat lazy master, she was sent to survey the Human Village. However, due to being extremely easy to distract, she was instead attracted to the Myouren Temple, where she took up residence as an apostle and guard. To help with her duties, she can create eyes. These eyes are linked directly to her, and there's no limit to how many she can create. The overload may be a problem, though. Due to her young age and inexperience, she was handily defeated, and gave out information on her creator almost instantly.

I think she has the best stage and boss theme names yet (Walking the Step to Khembalung; Looking Upon Works of Despair ~ Daru-magic Eyes). Akame is so fucking fun and I kinda wanna do more with her. Plus, I don't think I've seen like, a daruma-based Touhou OC yet? If there is one, I wanna compare notes. Anyways, she's actually directly related to the plot, and can be considered a war deserter. Pog! I like her a lot. She returns later as a midboss, but by that point, it's too late for her creator.

RYUUSHI TEIKIATSU Sickle-Minded Bandit Species: Kamaitachi Ability: Capable of creating tornadoes A kamaitachi who ambushes various travelers for valuables. She herself has no use for valuables, but she adores things that sparkle, so she enthusiastically attacks travelers who carry anything remotely shiny. By first using her tornado creation to confound and injure her prey, she then robs them blind and slinks back into the night. This time, though, she's bitten off more than she can chew. Overall, she has no relation to the crash. She simply happened to be in the wrong place at the wrong time.

UNRELATED GIRL! At least we're on the right path, but what is this girl doing...? Well, she's a kamaitachi. I don't really think there's much else to talk about with her. Frankly, I'm surprised we don't have a kamaitachi in the series proper already. That's it! <<Zun... Zun... I'm speaking to you via telepathy... Put a kamaitachi girl in an official manga...>>

NENDO AYATSURI Silk-Weaving Doll of Patterns Species: Doll (Bisque) Ability: Capable of manipulating patterns MOKUSAI AYATSURI Wool-Weaving Doll of Disguise Species: Doll (Ball-Joint) Ability: Capable of copying faces A pair of dolls created for tactics and espionage, respectively. Nendo is a Bisque type, and Mokusai is a Ball-Jointed type. Though they can be considered sisters, neither one thinks of the other as a sister. Nendo, despite her stronger ability, is physically weaker than Mokusai. Mokusai, likewise, is worse at danmaku but physically stronger than Nendo. Thus, the two work together to cover each others' weakness. They dote on Akame, despite her having gone rogue. The three were once regular dolls before being given life by their master for various purposes. Both are also apparently extremely good at textile work.

This is where Akame makes her return, but more importantly! The Ayatsuri girls (they aren't sisters)! Nendo and Mokusai might seem like Satono and Mai lite, but really it'd be more reasonable to call them analogous to the Tsukumos. They're even animated objects! Nendo being physically weaker than Mokusai is a reference to how bisque dolls are like, STUPID fragile. However, the ability to manipulate patterns is CRAZY broken in a bullet hell. So it cancels out, perhaps? Mokusai's ability is gonna get cribbed later by another character, but I've had like thirty precipication-based characters, it's fine.

KLARA GIDAYUU Mage of the Mystery Falling Object Species: Magician Ability: Capable of animating objects A magician who inhabits the Doll Citadel. Having built the Doll Citadel herself after hearing the plight of Medicine Melancholy, she animated Nendo, Mokusai, and Akame for various tasks. However, she felt as though their powers alone wouldn't be able to overthrow humankind. Thus, she attempted to animate her spellbook. This backfired tremendously, and it caused the crash, a fallen object that impacted the Doll Citadel, blowing it to pieces and releasing an incredible amount of energy across Gensokyo. As this was magic intended to overthrow the strong, it empowered the weaker of Gensokyo's inhabitants. Klara herself survived, but she has no idea what, exactly, she called down from the heavens. She was about to investigate, herself, when the heroine arrived...

I love how I call Klara the only survivor when. It was just her in the Citadel. Anyways, it turns out the plot is Medicine Melancholy's fault! Also, Klara was made before Sword and Shield was announced - I THINK USUM was the hot new thing at the time? - so she has no relation to the girl who tries to poison you (which does, in fact, make the Medicine and Klara friendship VERY funny). Anyways, I never actually settled on who would be playable in this, but I think Alice should be playable now if only because I think it'd be funny for her to immediately start hounding Klara after the game's over. "Your dolls are sentient. Teach Me This Shit." I have never played The Shattered Sky, btw. I don't even know if that's the plot. Speaking of!

METZTLI The Unknown Mystery Faller Species: Unknown (Alien) Ability: Capable of copying genes, creating metals An extraterrestrial life form that inhabits the Fallen Object. Their form is an illusion, created by copying the genetic formula of other beings and imitating their traits at will. Due to Earth's atmosphere and Gensokyo's magic, they have grown immensely powerful, but they themself are prone to illness. Through unknown means, they are capable of creating metals of unknown properties. The use of these metals is extremely flexible, which makes them valuable to Klara's war effort. Metztli is a quick learner, having learned the native language quite easily, but they do get stumped by idiomatic expressions and sometimes says things amazingly out-of-place.

ALIEN, ANATA WA ALIEN... So, a note on the name: it's a LONG, long running joke from my high school years to give my alien characters Maya names. I'm not sure WHY, but I think it's because I wanted my oc duo to have matching A-Z names, and I settle on Atl and Zyanya. Metztli is a reference to that. But one could also, like... Make an Ancient Aliens joke? And they'd be right, because this would make her a Hispanic alien, and as we all know, aliens don't like white people. Anyways, I call her indispensable to Klara's manufacturing, but the two have never fucking met, and if Metztli is gonna have her way, they never will meet. Metztli is so cool tbh, I just wish I thought the name through better.

This is such a nothing plot, really. Like, I call WBZ a nothing plot, but this one really is just nothing. It's essentially DDC2. The best thing to come out of it is Akame and Metztli, and Metztli is just sorta. Lounging around inside her rock. It's not even a spaceship, it's a rock. Girl is just outright a mutated space virus (who isn't immune to any Earth illnesses. Poor girl's about to get so many strains of the flu.). As for the other characters, once they manage to dispel the magic, Animia and Kazusa go back to their daily lives (with each other...? Old woman yuri let's go), Akame, Nendo, and Mokusai just sorta. Pal around with Medicine while Klara seethes in the background, Ryuushi starts slumming it in Marisa's house, and Metztli, like I said, is just in the rock. There's this kinda stupid little idea of her meeting Nue and Mamizou, but that's whenever that happens.

And all is calm... Until a strange-looking girl who feels vaguely familiar appears at the shrine.

[rockheadcd]

@electrivolt​ said:  There it is, a long, tired sigh. Again. Who knows what number this one is. He's just. Laying there in bed, using a certain egg as pillow, arms wrapped around it and doing nothing else under his nest of blankets, really. Guess it's a lazy day. / gudetama ruined us.

Roark's down days meant he would bust his ass somewhere around his house, somewhere in the acreage of the property, somewhere in the workshop he's done his best to make into a cooperative little home for people who liked to use their hands and forget for a little while. His love, on the other hand, would always have it worse—it wasn't as if such things were bad, per se, but it did depend on how he found him ( or what he heard ) to determine what kind of off day he should expect.

He can't help but chuckle softly when he hears Volkner sigh from the other room.

A lazy day, indeed. Maybe he should check on him.

Ah, there he is—his joy, flopped over and resting against a certain lazy egg, mirroring the plush's expression and buried under all of their shared blankets. Roark is certain that Volkner hadn't even rolled out of his pajamas at all, and that's perfectly okay, isn't it? Strolling over to one side, where Roark can actually take a look at him once he sits on his knees, he carefully rests his head on folded arms, using their bed as a pleasant chin rest. Eventually, he reaches out to carefully crawl his fingers along messy bangs, a soft smile offered in the wake of all that lack of energy for the day. He understood.

"Gonna rest for the day? I got a couple of things to do, but I won't be running off for once," he informs him kindly, sinking fingers into choppy blond and petting gently. "Then, when I'm done, we can be lazy together." A proposition difficult to resist. Roark even going as far as to commit to not going to the underground while he isn't immediately needed was a miracle in itself ( really, volkner had done the impossible and managed to get roark to stay home, even if it took all of his patience and then some ). It wouldn't be a lie to observe Roark was happy to stay around the house for the day, too, seeing how tired he would look at times. It was always in his eyes.

"Do you want me to make you some cocoa to set aside? I can put it in a thermos so it doesn't lose heat in case you take a nap," Roark offers, "I could probably use some, too—warm up a little bit before cleaning up the workshop. How's that sound?" He leans forward to press his head against Volkner’s, staying for a little while before pressing a kiss to his lips. "I'll be back, love. Don't go anywhere, okay?" A little grin at his own joke doesn't waver at all—he thinks he's funny, huh.

[millieisawriter]

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i need to clear something up 😭😭 my friends know i love to joke about how my parents keep mexico mindset in poland, but actually i feel way safer walking at night in mexico than poland. safety there is a matter of what you do, where you are, like no there isn't cartel activity everywhere. sketchy people are everywhere, in every country and every city. a few years ago in poland i got approached by a man in a car who said really creepy things about my legs (i was wearing baggy jeans lol). that day (day!! middle of the day!!) i learnt i can run really fast actually

but i get why my parents always worry, i am the kinda person that goes to strangers houses, drinks (and more™) with men i don't know, so of course if i'm being stupid in poland, i'll be stupid everywhere. not to mention mexico now is different from what it was in the early 2000s but my parents still seem to mentally live in those times

let's be honest, the media do portray mexico as dangerous, and i get why do many people believe that, but reality is if you're looking for trouble, you will find trouble (but i feel like that's a rule everywhere). it's a miracle i'm still alive but every dangerous situation i ended up in was cus i let trouble find me. my "oh i'm literally immortal" mindset (a witch told me i'll die when i'm old due to heart issues lmao) with my idk adrenaline addiction? are a funny mix especially when i know in the worst case i will talk my way out of trouble like i talk my way out of everything

wherever you are, wherever you go, don't be like me. i don't think i'll ever change, i had put myself in a few situations that should've been a "breaking point" but i never learn so take your older sister's advice and be smarter and safe

[yuga2000]

Well, what's there to say besides Word stopped working on my Mac because it's apparently outdated now and I can't afford a new computer, so until...something, a miracle, I guess I'm going to be posting my journal/diary/personal, whatever you wanna call them, entries here.

I feel like no one really understands me. I mean. my best friend understands me, but he's not always around and we can't always talk. I know that, but I feel like if I say anything to a large group of people I always get weird looks or they try explaining to me a joke I made. Like, when I say something like "Why don't people just eat bananas the peel?" and they start actually telling me why people don't that or how some people do. Like no that's not what I meant. It was a joke. Haha, funny, laugh. Joke. Not a serious question. I know not everyone is good at social cues, but I feel like it happens every time I try to make a joke or talk about, well, literally anything. It makes me so mad I just want to scream and pull my hair out. I'm a very emotional person and something like that is enough to ruin my entire day because it just makes me feel like everyone around me thinks I'm stupid, but I'm not stupid. I know I'm not stupid.

I say I have friends, but they're not really my friends, are they? They're just acquaintance, but I feel like in society we call people "friends" because if you introduced someone who's an acquaintance to someone else and you say acquaintance and not friend then it's awkward and I guess you don't really have to introduce them with a title at al, but I feel like it's kinda weird if you don't, or maybe it's just the way I was raised. My point is it would or their feelings...or maybe it wouldn't. Maybe I just think it would, or maybe it would hurt my feelings if the situation was reversed because I'm too sensative.

Okay, literally none of this is the point, the point is I have people who I call friends because I can recognize their face, I see them around campus, and I might remember their names and I call them my friends, but in reality we're just acquaintances and that makes me feel bad because I *wish* I had friends. I wish I had people that get my jokes, that don't make me feel stupid, that think I'm funny, that get *me*.

But I don't. As far as I can think back I don't think I ever have had anyone like that, or at least not a lot of them. Of course I'm thankful for my best friend, but I can't rely on him. That's not fair. Especially when I'm so depressed I feel like I'm just barely keeping my head above water.

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240722 — 23:19

i didn't even realize that i hadn't written any letter this year yet. i actually wanted to write one this morning but i was going to bed and i knew it'd take me a while to finish it, even though i think it would probably be better than this one. i did read all of the past letters from the very first one. i'm still in awe that you're mine.

i know i have told you this before, well... i'll say it again anyway. because of your past relationship, the length and the fact that i knew how much you loved this person, i had a lot of complex feelings about it. you said you didn't think it was a good thing that you two didn't argue, but i thought otherwise. since we argued, it must've meant that i was below her — that was my thought. i wanted so badly to be perfect like her. calm, collected, cool taste in music and films. there were also times that i wondered if you didn't find me as beautiful, hence the 'you belong with me' thing, but beyond the clothes, my face too. i wondered if you would've melted at the sight of her more than you would towards me, i would think when you reacted to photos of me.

i envied her patience too. looking back, of course it doesn't make sense to compare when the experiences we had are different. i've been let down by other people, which i think has made me more sensitive. i thought that i'd gotten better when i would try my best to be positive and wait for this person for close to two months, updating them on little things that went in my life, since people had said that the guilt only pushed them away. still, i was left behind. i noticed this about me too: when i'm having a hard time, i live my life like i won't be here tomorrow, so i'd get upset that i'm running out of time and my partner isn't here. that probably tied with what i said, how i didn't think i could compete with what you had and we probably won't be together for long, setting myself for an early heartbreak, yet here we are now, a year and a half in. somehow, time passes and you're still next to me.

we had that rough patch about two months ago where i was adamant on leaving you. i had gotten all in my head and thought you no longer cared about me the way most people did. once they had me, they ceased to put in efforts. then i saw you at my door and almost instantaneously, i had second thoughts. even during our talk, you may have noticed that i was battling with myself. i still loved you. wouldn't it be better to regret trying than regret not doing anything? that's what you once told me and i felt it.

nowadays, i don't really overthink about what you're doing or thinking when you're not with me. i'd like to think that's an improvement. i hope it remains that way. i'm aware that you're busy and you do tell me ahead, which i'm thankful for. you've been talking to me a lot, almost daily. there'll probably be days that you won't be able to be around, but it's okay. i do wonder if you've been doing some things different or if it's something that i'm just now realizing. i seem to pick up more and more of your love towards me in the little things that you do and say.

i've said it as a joke, "wow he really loves me that much, huh" but i don't think it's a joke anymore. it's both funny and overwhelming how i went from almost not believing you when you first said you thought you liked me to it dawning on me that you're in love with me. for me too, at times it feels like i'm falling in love with you all over again. instead of getting used to you, i find myself getting flustered when you get too close to me. it probably won't change and i kind of like it that way. i've only heard of this in the form of movies, books or other people's stories. it never crossed my mind that it could happen to me, but at the same time, this entire relationship in itself is a miracle, isn't it? falling in love with your best friend and soulmate.

you're texting me now and somehow we're talking (well, joking) about marriage. i called you husband when i came over recently and you played into it. you don't know how giddy it made me feel. i remember in the past, i was always hesitant about marriage that bomi even said that i'd probably be the last member to get married among us. however, at random times, i'd feel the urge to propose to you for real. is it because we've known each other forever? or because i love you that much? i know it's still pretty early, but i'd often have these thoughts about marrying you and starting a family with you. i guess that moving in together is the first step to it — we'll be doing that soon and i'm excited to go to sleep and wake up to your pretty face, excited to text you about how we need to go do groceries because we're running out of things in the fridge, excited to hear the faint sounds of music and your voice in the other room while i'm outside watching tv, excited to have all of your clothes folded and hung next to mine, excited to tell you 'i'm going home' and come home to hug you on the sofa, and many more other things. i'm excited to have a life with you.

thank you for falling in love with me and making my wishes come true, park chanyeol. i love you so much. i'll love you more tomorrow, and the days that come after that. i'll try my best to take care of you well.

[starlight-time-machine]

Week in Review

03/17/2024 – 03/23/2024

Sunday

Week 6 of missing Cipher Academy.

Finally got around to watching the new Drag Race episode, and it was fine. At least it was better than last week… Plane Jane trying so hard to read Dawn was funny, when I also thought that Plane’s dress was pretty basic and barely even fit the brief. The mini challenge was fun – it seems like they’re going to make this a regular thing going forward, and I think that’s a good idea. It really showcased how well Sapphira knew the other girls lol The maxi challenge was also okay…I did have to skip Mhi’ya and Dawn’s presentation because I can’t stand secondhand embarrassment, but the others did relatively well. I know a lot of people were up in arms about how Plane and especially Q should’ve won, but I found their set a little…overly rehearsed and over the top to the point of being alienating. And their jokes were just okay. Sapphira and Nymphia also had pretty okay jokes, but Sapphira’s charisma just draws people in, and I think that’s what gave her the edge. And, if I’m being really honest, it’s extremely funny to see Q so shocked at Sapphira winning, and it looks like there’ll be an entertaining fight about it next week. The Mhi’ya and Morphine lip sync was…interesting…the cape throw was certainly a move… It was a nice cap on the Mhi’ya and Morphine rivalry storyline, I suppose, but as a lip sync it just felt awkward to watch.

Watched Nijigasaki’s 4th Live, Love the Life we Live while I did some reading, and it was pretty cute. This batch of solos were all decent, and I loved seeing Shu Uchida performing – she looks like she’s having a lot of fun and is super in her element. Seeing Akina Homoto perform is also great, and Lanzhu hasn’t had a bad solo so far. The cat ears for Happy Nyan Days were cute, the Santa capes for Twinkle Town were cute, and the Osaka-ben for MIRACLE STAY TUNE was fun. A decent live overall.

Manga Sunday time! Undead Unluck continues to deliver on the lore and the stakes raising – it’s hard to imagine actually losing anyone in this loop after the failure of the last loop, so I’m glad to see Tozuka finding ways to still make each victory feel earned and against insurmountable odds, because otherwise the victory lap would go on for way too long. I’m excited to see what Language can do, and how Nico and Ichico will counteract her. This loop looks like it’ll be a battle of wits between the two Round Tables, and that’ll be a blast to watch play out.

RuriDragon is more of the same…once again the dialogue writing is really verging on cringe and alien for me, and for such a story light/character driven narrative, it’s making me want to drop the series entirely… Okay, one more week, and then I’ll decide.

LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OKAY I TAKE IT BACK…OR RATHER, OSHI NO KO SAVED ITS ENERGY PULLING ALL THOSE PUNCHES JUST SO THIS ONE WOULD LAND LIKE A TRUCK… I mean, I do appreciate Aqua and Ruby’s relationship on a level of like, it must be somewhat comforting to Aqua to see a patient he failed in his past life living out her dreams now…but man, I have no idea how they’ll move forward with this storyline or resolve the incest of it all… Are we to expect that Aqua and Ruby are actually…lovers now? And that they’re just going to go through their whole lives hiding this relationship from the world…? I imagine Aqua will put an end to it eventually, but Ruby doesn’t seem like she’ll ever give up, so…? And man, if this movie came out in the real world I feel like there’d be people pushing to stop its release due to the on-screen actual incest kiss LMAO Well…either way, I’m in it for the long haul just to see how the story ends, so. Also side note but the art was really cute this chapter. They were really building up to this, huh.

Magilumiere fine.

Chainsaw Man… The Guillotine Devil’s design is super cool.

Woah… One Piece… seeing the Five Elders in their true monstrous glory is amazing… I especially like Bakotsu, the skeletal horse. But wow, this truly feels like an all-out war at this point.

Godddddd that was the best SpyFam chapter in a long while…I actually laughed out loud at the comedy for once, and the climactic payoff was so moving… It’s enough for me to want to do a livetweet of the chapter: I love Loid practically breaking his arm to marionette Anya around, and her childish need to show off just added to the comedy. The obstacle course was also cute, complete with Anya’s secret talent of “moving weirdly.” And then there’s Loid panicking at the quiz, only for Anya to obviously excel – but I do appreciate that she would’ve gotten the last question even without her mind reading (in this moment, at least), because she’s genuinely gotten to know Damian better. This whole competition thing was pretty silly, but it was a nice way to find an excuse for Damian and Anya to dance because Damian’s pride would’ve never let him do that otherwise. AND THEN SUDDEN HENRY/MARTHA SHIP FODDER????? I guess I should’ve expected it since they’re both named characters who are single and of the same age bracket, but damn I didn’t expect to actually be fed…I love seeing weird side pairings, and Martha’s super cool, so this was a fun surprise. AND THEN THE DAMIANYA DANCE it’s so cute… Loid leaving Anya to handle the situation on her own because he trusts her… Damian and Anya actually having a private conversation without their usual hostility or tsunderism or friends butting in with their own assumptions… Damian letting some cracks in his armour show and Anya noticing this… ANYA DECIDING TO TELL HIM SHE CAN READ MINDS AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH THIS IS THE MAJOR STATUS QUO SHIFT I WAS DESPERATELY WAITING FOR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Of course Damian wouldn’t believe her right away, but I hope to god it doesn’t take another hundred chapters for him to be like “wait…this literally explains everything about why she’s so weird.” It’d be so cool if he and Anya could share this secret, and maybe they could even help each other out if they ever face something like the bus jacking again… Anya’s weakness has always been that she doesn’t have the skillset to effectively use the crucial information she can gather, so if Damian could help her strategize, I think that would make for some really fun developments. But for now, I’m just glad we seem to be moving forward.

Watched through the Karen Bee arc in Nisemonogatari, and it was…okay? I find it hard to follow some of Monogatari’s long winding conversations sometimes… Like, why does Araragi say that Karen’s conviction isn’t enough because she’s fighting for other people when he’s literally doing the same thing…? Why put down her self-sacrificing tendencies when Araragi was literally ready to give up his life to save a random vampire he just met…? And why was this enough to convince her to back down? I like Kaiki as a villain, and I like his jaunty little theme song and his tired sounding voice, but why did he agree to leave town so easily…? Maybe his motivations will be answered later on? Was he lying about leaving? But surely Araragi and Senjougahara would’ve realized that he was just saying he’d stop so that they’d leave him alone? It often feels like Monogatari is operating on a level of specificity and pedanticisim that leaves me feeling lost, because all this high-minded talk of being right or wrong or enacting the “right” kind of justice or enacting justice for the “right” reasons just feels sort of like…at a certain point, I’d rather see some actions being performed rather than long diatribes about how and why certain actions should be performed. I don’t know, I’ll go read some essays I guess, but I feel like I’m just not getting into the groove of Monogatari the way so many people seem to have done. I do like Araragi and Senjougahara’s insane little romance, though, and the way Senjougahara is so unrelenting but he accepts her anyway. Senjougahara and Hanekawa’s relationship is also interesting, and it seems like that branch of the love triangle will be explored further so I’m looking forward to it. And oh my god I’m so glad I watched things in novel order, because I would’ve been so much more confused if I hadn’t watched the Kizumonogatari films before this.

I do wonder, sometimes, if I’ll ever actually truly love Monogatari. I love Cipher Academy a lot, so I wanted to give Monogatari a shot as Nisioisin’s supposed magnum opus, but seeing people heap praise onto Bake and Kizu and not feeling particularly strongly about either of those series gives me pause… I guess it’s just like, none of the philosophical questions that Monogatari has posed so far actually interest me? I don’t really like altruistic to a fault protagonists who would do anything to help anyone no matter what, and that’s literally Araragi’s biggest character flaw. And the show supposedly explores this flaw of his, but so far it hasn’t really given him any lasting consequences. And while I can relate to Hanekawa in certain ways, (and honestly some parts of her emotional turmoil parallel mine a little too well) I still haven’t really gotten emotionally invested in her…perhaps because I tend to just compartmentalize and move on, while her compartmentalizing comes back to haunt her. And now Nise’s theme of real versus fake feels so boring…it seems obvious to me that after a certain point, if one’s tangible features and or actions are indistinguishable between real and fake, then it doesn’t matter if one had the intention of being a fake. In other words, intentions mean little in the face of tangible reality and how one’s actions actually affect others. This seems fairly basic, but it looks like we’re going to take 11 whole episodes to spell it out, so it feels a little frustrating. I don’t know…I really want to like Monogatari, but it’s just not hitting.

Did some reading of the second book in Pseudonymous Bosch’s Secret Series, If You’re Reading This It’s Too Late, and…I guess if I were to make comparisons to Mysterious Benedict Society again, it would be this: in Benedict it feels like the kids are rising to the challenge of the adults and the real stakes they pose, but in the Secret series it feels like the adults are lowering themselves to the kids’ levels in order to give them a fair shot. It’s satisfying to read Benedict to this day because the kids have to be genuinely resourceful and clever enough to not just solve puzzles but to social engineer their way out of harrowing situations with what resources they have. In the Secret series, the adults may threaten the kids’ lives, but as long as the kids conveniently know rope escape tricks or have some special gadget or can solve a basic riddle, they’ll succeed. It’s just not as compelling to read…but I’m a bit stuck because I actually own the third book in this series (childhood birthday gift) so I feel the need to read through the entire thing to see if I still like it. Granted I’m still in the first half of this book, but already the puzzles don’t feel that well thought out – first off, why give Max-Ernest a literal magic decoder that would either render all puzzles  moot or require a “oh it won’t work for This puzzle because of this or that,” rendering it useless?? Just don’t put it in the book… Secondly, you’re telling me that Cass has perfect pitch (so that she could sing the song accurately to Yo-Yoji) AND she takes oboe lessons, but didn’t even think to transcribe the notes to see what they said until the resident new kid mentions being in a band???? God, I had issues with Baccalario’s Century series and Andrew Clements’ Keepers of the School series, but at least they had some puzzles that felt like actual challenges instead of just being solved by happenstance or extremely basic lateral thinking. Also I wish Cass and Max-Ernest had some more personalized motivations as to why they’re doing all these things – just wanting to go on an adventure and become a part of a cool secret society isn’t enough…at least Century had one of their friends in mortal peril and Keepers had their whole school at stake. Also also I always liked how in Benedict, the kids being key agents in the plan to the save the world seemed to pain Mr. Benedict due to the danger it would put them in, but there was good reason as to why only children could’ve done it, and they went into the plan knowing the risks. Here, Pietro all but shoves the Magic Item du Livre at Cass and gives her some vague “only you can do it” platitude before seemingly throwing her into the deep end with the Midnight Sun, who already know where she and her friends and family live and could harm her at any time. (Speaking of which, what was the point of sneaking into her house and retying the floss she had set-up as a detection mechanism if you’re just going to leave her torn up sock puppet on her bed anyway…) I know it’s pathetic to complain so much about a children’s book, but hey other children’s books have done it better, so why can’t this one? Kids (and weird adults like me) deserve good literature too.

Monday

Work

Tuesday

Work

Wednesday

Work

Thursday

I’ve been grinding this work thing nonstop with little sleep and about one meal a day, but I didn’t want to miss DunMesh Thursday…plus, Senshi would be disappointed with the way I’ve been living lol so I decided to splurge and order some chicken tikka masala, and the local Indian place was nice and gave me some free naan to boot. Unfortunately the episode itself was a little underwhelming…? I didn’t like some of the directorial choices like the weird trajectory of that one digital zoom or the lack of impact for Marcille’s dark magic…the blood bubbling up to form Falin’s body was cool, but I was missing some of the darkness and solemnity that the scene had in the manga. Also I’m so sad that Laios’ hug was also pretty nerfed, his expression was so complex and layered in the manga but the anime only gave it about one single second of airtime… The bath scene was also missing some of its subtle ominousness from the manga… I don’t know, the vibes in this episode were just off to me, it felt like Falin’s return sunk in way too easily. But it’s nice seeing more of who Falin actually is and how she fits into this group, and Laios subtly bragging in that older brother kind of way was so cute and demonstrative of their bond.

Read the latest chapter of Asada Nemui’s Living Dead – I don’t have much to say about it but I’m nervous for Nogami getting too close to the truth.

A Second Goodbye to You finally ended…what a disappointing story this turned out to be. Whatever vague time travel rules the mangaka established just get thrown out the window completely as Hinata jumps around and teleports to key moments and locations in order to prevent disaster (which makes all of his earlier struggles with getting to certain places as a teen or as a kid feel so pointless). And on top of all that, he gets to relive his high school days and Sora gets away from his parents somehow (even though Hakuraku no longer being a part of their lives really shouldn’t have affected this much), and everything just magically and conveniently works out for everyone. I think the earlier part of this manga was intriguing because it could often shock the reader with sudden violent twists, but when it came to actually explaining what was happening and people’s motivations, it just completely fell flat. OooOOoOh he’s EVIL because he loves DEATH and DYING and wants to turn it into ART like this is some 12 year old’s conception of a “crazy” bad guy. For annoying me so much, I’ll give it a 2/10.

Friday

Drag Race was okay…I kind of don’t get how these room design challenges relate to the skillset that a drag queen needs other than like, improv comedy I guess? Q being heated continues to be very funny, especially as Sapphira and Plane Jane get a team win. It feels like Nymphia’s chances of winning are slipping further and further away, but I hope I can be proven wrong. But also, to echo the words of literally every single tweet in the Drag Race tag today, they really set Dawn up with that song.

Daraku Kazoku-ron caught my eye for being an interesting take on the “two guys raise a kid together” BL – I normally don’t really like them when they’re overly fluffy and moe-focused, but this one has been enjoyable so far. I like that Meguru isn’t just a cute kid but a little surly, and has her own opinions on the situation and how her mother treated her. The two guys already having a history gives their inevitable relationship a stronger base to stand on, and there are some actual themes of self-improvement and scenes of the two trading their differing philosophies that I appreciate. I also like that they didn’t cheap out on Touma’s shady occupation and he’s actually a yakuza, which should make for some interesting story developments in the future. I’m looking forward to the rest of this one.

Saturday

Work ahhhhhhhhhhhghhhhhhhhhhh

[mindrole]

lately im properly keeping off my wrist, ive never had an injury (at least not from strain, ive hurt it def though, i got launched off a treadmill once when i was a kid) but i fear it, so i'm being vigilant. i'm fine tho. but its really boring cuz i usually doodle to fall asleep...

but i was thinking like, cell series character designs are really great, i think there's a wonderful uniqueness to them in the design philosophy, but

isn't everyone so difficult to draw....?!?!!! usually i feel like... after the first few times i don't need to pull up a reference anymore, but with the characters in this series no matter how many times, i still look up refs, btw did you know shinano has two tone hair? it's not a shadow.

shinano in fact is up there in difficulty... i think balancing his facial proportions is difficult... he should be so cutes and so adorables but he's not like, karen or izu. the hair is also kind of a challenge, namely his hair after he got a haircut.

the character i think is easiest to draw is ryuu. definitely. i've seen people say hatsutori is deceptively difficult to draw. i agree... even though i feel like by some miracle i understood how to draw him much better than others, he's REALLY hard!!!

the funny thing is, recently the last ryuu i draw, i said "i looked at a ref for once"? well its cause i usually ref my own art. usually it's fine. for ryuu who is easy for me to parse it's usually fine, but i realized recently the bangs were wrong the entire time, so i wanted to try being on model at least once (whether or not i apply it correctly next time is a big "maybe"). also i always draw the bunny ears too short, but that's usually something i am very conscious of (because it is a moe point that i hate that i neglect. MOE IS KING)

of course you'd think... well you draw miwa almost every day... you must be proficient in that? the answer is NO. in fact, he's the only character i am pulling up a picture from the actual game to draw almost every time. CONSISTENTLY. dita's look is easy enough to understand i guess, but the usual look, what's with those bangs?!?!?!!! WHY? i draw his bangs too long, but honestly that's not something i'm interested in rectifying. if anything, i've literally never seen anyone draw him 1:1 to the one picture we have, i feel like everyone struggles. genuinely have not seen any two artists draw him the same. so i am not worried about trying to be "on model". it's his fault for having such a weird wig in the first place. i mean, look, im gonna put it under a readmore and i genuinely want to know if you guys think it's fucked or not. i think it is. usually i have like, the one canon picture we have right, and then 3 of my drawings to ref how i did it, it's a struggle every time. but he's too funny. a character who haunts the interlude and doesn't have a single line in it, only ever talked in the one com report. so i keep drawing him because there's so many jokes to make at his expense. it's very cursed. i think having this blog made me a little obsessed.

for the dita look like i said in another post there's a lot of inconsistencies so i just take what i like. though for the most part i follow the design in the interlude. there's not much to comment about, aside from how i'm wondering where his ahoge is actually placed on his head. i just decide on the fly because i can't tell. it's not consistent between appearances. i won't talk about the scarf i'll start foaming at the mouth im not kidding

not even going into the characters i find near impossible like theodore. i'll cry. i'll be here all day. haruki is hard to draw too...

anyway, here's your serving of miwa's fucked up wig that haunt my nightmares every day because i hate drawing this hair so much:

i hope he DIES in com for this, is he stupid?

i hope everyone finds out he's 60+ years old and he has to hold a press conference apologizing for lying about being a recent ex-teenager

[dhudjsnnans]

alright

in my experience, alot of mid songs that i skimmed through, but there are gems in here, ....most of which i've already listened to- anyways here we go.

[absolutely]

these are songs that made me bop my head, and a handful of these songs will be songs i will most likely listen to again.

-The villain i appear to be (connor spiotto, molly pease)

Ah fuck yeah this one, i love this song; as is with most people i knew of this one cause of a certain animation; it was a pleasant surprise suddenly hearing it here and yeah what else am i going to say? everyone knows it's a good song.

-Mixed Messages (Tom cardy)

The moment i heard the first beats of this song i immedientally smiled, i love this song and "red flags." if i were to tear out bits of my spontaneous abnoxious scorpio asshole side and convert it into a musical, i'd have the same vibe as this beaut.

-Hello, world (Louie Zong)

Really gives me the moods, i like it plenty, it's an echo of the past; the computers first words were a greetings to the world, and it's main goal that stands till this day is to simply serve and provide for us.

the cosmos bred nature, and nature bred man, and man bred computers; it's a new aspect of the world and it is no better or worse than it's forefathers and foremothers, just another instrument for the harmony of life.

and having that thought while this song of a machiene introducing itself to us really hits me in a soft spot, i like it.

-Talking 'bout bri (MegaGoneFree)

So i think this is a song about some trans person talking shit about their past self, or smth i think? idk; but it sure does rock, or well, jazz; the instrumentals that dance in the background and the nice vocals really come in unison with this one, it's a bop.

-Help let me go (Danny Gonzalez)

Alot of late 2000's vibes with this one yeah? love it, love that; i like songs that are just plain fun and aren't bound to anything, and tell some funny nonsense story; this is the most banger call for help if i've ever seen one.

[eh sure]

these are songs that were a pleasure to listen to, but i most likely wouldn't actually listen to again lol.

-Wine Red (The Hush Sound)

the singer who goes all GLORRRRIAAAAAAAAA was pretty good, but yeah all in all it's neat.

-Remember you (Adventure time trillian cover)

sweet sounding lullaby, it's pretty sweet.

well, i mean it is just a sweet sounding lullaby i don't really have any other word for it other than sweet.

-Saint Bernard (Lincoln)

i have an animatic planned out for this one, and it's the only reason why i listen to it over and over; standing on it's own as a song however? it's just fine; i'd rather just listen to your cover if i actually wanted to hear a better version of it.

-Introduction to the snow (Miracle Musical)

alastor is that you? anyways i'm pretty sure everyone's made that conclusion before; but i've seen this album before "miracle musical", still haven't gotten to give them a listen however, but this one's a nice little introduction to their album, or well show i think?

-Easy to breathe (Jack Stauber)

love jack stauber and i love opal, but this song about the grandpa is just fine; some metaphor about people who spend too much time on screens and also smoke alot.

-The consequence of imagination is fear (junie & thehutfriends)

i like the powerful industrial vibes, vocals are fine but too monotone for my liking; it felt like it was gonna build up to something better but no it stayed in the course of the waters, and it was fine i guess.

-We'll never have sex (Leith ross)

hey look mel, ace rep.

this is a pretty sweet song, cute lyrics, cute singer, all about simple love without expectations of getting dirty with it; it was simple, it was sweetness, makes me sit awhile.

-Community Gardens (The Scary Jokes)

i mean, yeah i suppose it sounds sweet.

-How i'd kill (Cowboy Malfoy)

sexy cowboy, that's all i'll say.

-Interlude IV (showtime) (Zack Callison, Grace Rolek)

alot of Hamilton vibes in this one; i am dead certain there has got to be a hundred thousand animatics about this one.

-Flight of the crows (Jhariah)

too bombastic for my taste, didn't click for me; sounds cool though.

-Bad End Theater - True End (NomnomNami)

idk, sounds neat i guess, it has portal vibes that's all i'm saying.

[i made a bed with apathy with these]

these are songs that i don't really care about, or are just subjectively bad.

-Nights like these (Pigeon Pit)

sounds like a shared panic attack; it has charm and it was going for a style i'll admit, but it's just, eh? *gestures*

-You're not welcome (Naethan Apollo)

"oh oh! don't ya know? that this song ain't very good!" mid, sounded weird, didn't like, it's most likely the worst song on the playlist; no offense to the author of course. it was a bit catchy i'll give it that.

-Digital Silence (Peter McPoland)

sounds like something i'd hear in a 2000's stick fighting animation; it does not sound good on it's own but i believe it'd go hard if it was accompanied by something that outweighs how bad it is.

didn't like, but i could like it.

-I Fucked yr Mom (Sorry Mom)

despite the humorous name it's just one massive shitpost made into a song, "it was funny the first time but 2 times is fucking annoying y'know?" alot of angsty energy, and not the good kind.

Spotify Discovery 10/2

Lot of ukulele tracks in this one, and it’s a mixed bag. I cannot explain for the life of me what makes a ukelele song sound not bad to me but when I crack that code you’ll know.

Generally good though! The bad tracks though I hated more than last time. Also sorry for the delay I had work and a litany of other things (other writing projects) that distracted me lmao.

Good:

Playing on Train Tracks: Very Mountain Goats in its execution, note that it does cover self-destructive behaviors so be wary but the honesty here is captured so well. I love the use of language and metaphor, cutting live wires, standing on the cliff but never jumping, standing on the train tracks, it hits. The simple instrumentals isn’t overly “stripped down” it fits the subject. Good stuff.

What We Have is You: A song from Kipo, a nice little lullaby. Don’t remember what the context of this bit was in the show but I really liked it. Sterling K Brown has a nice voice.

The Dragon of Climate Change: Not one I’ll listen to frequently but I did enjoy the jaunty folk feel combined with the “fuck the rich” vibes. Calling out carbon credits was a good bit. Very bard core.

Lover (take me to the moon): Gives me confused person in love and I think it works. I wish I could really say what makes these sorts of songs click with me vs brush them off as kinda overdone but I’m afraid it’s a mystery to me as well.

Ghost Choir Vocals: Gives the iconic Ghost Choir lyrics in the style of “Mr.Sandman” and the singer is absolutely lovely. Fun and short, always a treat to hear the ghost choir in general and Louie’s instrumentals lend to the singer’s voice.

Davy Jones: I’ve listened to this cover a shit ton on Youtube and still love the vocals. The Davy Jones/Calypso storyline is a fav and there’s just. Mwah. Chef’s kiss vibes. Not much to say here other than absolute banger. (For an improved experience look up the duet version).

Suffering: A dance to agony, it works in a way of celebrating despite it all. The singer is lovely, the guitar is jaunty, and the rhythm is fast and fun. I like it! Gives me Crane Wives vibes and that’s always a plus for me.

Medusa in a Stone Garden: There’s an interesting energy around this one kinda folk rock? I like the Medusa energy, the repetition can wear on at times but other than that? Excellent.

The Water is Fine: Gives me Mariza/Delta vibes, there’s nice overlap on the vocals, there’s energy here too that is fun. A bit Oh Hellos, a bit Amazing Devil.

Anywhere But Here: A lovely little music box style waltz, very romantic. Melancholic too, and just the sort of thing I like to wind down to.

Duet in Death: Another classical piece, I’m sure if I knew more about the webtoon Nevermore I’d have more of an affinity? But a duet between a piano and a violin is one I’m always a sucker for. I adore violins when they’re done well and this one is spectacular.

Devil’s Flesh & Bones: Another WTNV alumni! Eliza Rickman is neat, she’s got a very distinct voice, kinda Cabaret and kinda jazz. This one all works for me.

Neutral:

Rises the moon: The vocal performance of this cover is… a little shaky at times? But I like the song and I think that it’s alright.

Tough to be a Bug: A twee little ukulele ditty, it’s cute but not really one that I’ll listen to. A bit too soft for me ig.

Bird Song: Not the Florence and the Machine song, but a different one. I enjoyed the folk vibes but the chorus has this kinda tropical electronica and that’s just not my vibe? The song has a general montage feel which works for what it is but a meh experience overall.

A Shitty Gay Song About You: The guitar plus the twinkly xylophone and the monotone vocals aren’t… really my vibe. The lyrics are kinda neat, but it’s not for me. I could see someone making a cute animatic to it though.

I think I want to be alone: Relatable but the style is a little too TikTok for me with the playful vibes combined with the depressing lyrics? Doesn’t scratch an itch for me.

Nah

Katarina Josephina: I’m not really sure what to make of this one. It’s got the trappings of a folk story song but it’s got a strange energy to it. Not certain what to say doesn’t work for me, but the trap break definitely does not.

The Spider’s Face: I like the song Nothing from this musical but goddamn this one is too “playful sing song evil” for me. The plucking strings and the vocals… it does not do it for me. Very unpleasant to listen to.

Aisling Song: I do not enjoy listening to children sing. This is a child singing in a very ~dreamlike~ way. I’m sure this works in the movie “Secret of Kells” but without the visuals I would really rather not listen.

PATROCLUS MEETS HIS FATE: I love orchestral stuff, I love video game music, but the artificial strings really take away any of the grandiosity for me. It’s very canned and I’m not a fan.

Typical Me: DSMP song and not a good one. I don’t like the vocals or the lyrics. Very monotone and unpleasant.

Give a Little: The saxophone and vintage swing feel are neat but I reaaaaally don’t like the vocals. They ruin it for me. Sorry CG5 but really not doing it for me.

64 Little White Things: This is Scary Jokes with the vocal style and again. Not a fan of that. There’s something about the vocals that just sets my teeth on edge, the sing/talking style with the modulation and the carnival music… no. Can’t do it.