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hacash · 10 hours ago
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'I don’t know enough LOTR to know if he’s a villain or just an asshole, but the important thing here is HE THINKS OF HIMSELF AS NEITHER'
the big thing here is YES. this comes across particularly in the books: where it's made clear that Denethor is fundamentally not a Villain (he's not a great dad to Faramir but that's not the same as being allied with Sauron), he's a man who has been doing a very difficult job and has flawed ways of thinking and has been mislead by false information to think their situation is hopeless - and, because of this has, tragically, fallen victim to absolute despair
(there's a post somewhere that points out his arc is very similar to Theoden, who when we first meet him in the books isn't actually magically enchanted by Saruman, he's merely fallen under the emotional influence of Saruman/Wormtongue and succumbed to grief over his dead son, which similarly makes him a leader crippled by despair and pain. the difference is that Theoden actively chooses hope, while Denethor sees hope as a fool's choice and rejects it, and is a poorer leader for it)
(lot of stuff about despair and hope as weapons in Tolkien's work, if you can tell)
anyway the point is that you're quite right - even though by his despair-fuelled actions Denethor ends up hurting people more than helping them, he isn't actually a villain. he's not the most pleasant person in the world, but that comes from a particular cultural and emotional stand-point. and he very sees himself as the protagonist here - the Last Sane Man, if you will - dealing with crap choices.
I don’t think any movie will make me feel the same ethereal sense of otherworldly sorrow and disembodied awe as that scene in Lord of the Rings where the loyal son is sent off into a doomed battle to please his vindictive father while Pippin sings a mourning song of his people
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I was like 12 and high off this shit
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lostinlovingrevery · 1 day ago
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"You know how animals have displays to attract mates? Logan is no different. When hes in the mood, hell puff himself out to you, do things he thinks youll like. I mean, i suppose avg males do this too but logan gets repetitive over it until you notice. "
This is too cute 🥹 Could I maybe request a drabble based off this? (Sorry if you already got a message similar to this, my wifi is being weird and I can't tell if it actually sent lol)
A/N: Thank you for this ask!! Aren't drabbles supposed to be 100 words? IDK, but this is more of cute fanfic with 1400+ word count! I hope this is what you wanted!
I imagined a F!Reader but I didn't use any pronouns or describe readers body so it could be GN!
I pictured trilogy! Logan too bc I felt like he was the one most likely to act like this honestly LOL. I tried to use the 4 things you'd see when it comes to mating displays - Looks, Strength, Food, and Gifts. (I just kept picturing him like those birds from birds of paradise video)
Courtship Rituals
Warnings: Just Logan being needy ;), Suggestive ending ;) ;)
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It’s been an extremely busy day. 
Aside from the meetings, the classes, chores, and various other activities that had taken up the schedule, it left little time for you to be with Logan. 
Which he was totally fine with by the way. He knew you were busy. 
Still, he’d stop by your study. “You done yet bub?” he’d ask, as he put his palms on your desk, seemingly puffing out his chest, the muscles of his arms bulging out as if he were flexing them. It was hard for you to not get distracted by him, especially since he was wearing a white t-shirt that fit very tightly around his torso; You swore you could make out his pecs through them. He actually looked really good since you’ve seen him early this morning- still asleep in bed. His hair looked especially good today, and he trimmed his beard to look a little neater. Not to mention he had on those jeans that fit his ass snuggly - the ones that you can never stop staring at. 
God he’s so hot
You couldn’t allow yourself to be distracted though- Charles absolutely needed you to finish some research by tonight, so you couldn’t stop. 
“Sorry baby,” You said sympathetically, “It’s gonna be a bit. I’m busy today y’know?” 
You felt so guilty the way he visibly deflated, you reached out to grab his hand. “Later, ok?” You kissed the space between his knuckles, and he forced a smile, before leaving you alone to do your work. 
Later you were in your classroom, getting things set up and preparing for your next class as you write your lesson plan on the chalkboard, you happened to turn your head to the window- where Logan was conveniently outside your classroom window in the yard, working out with nothing but his sweatpants on and his shirt off. You could see the sweat glistening off his skin, once again- you felt an incredible urge to go be with him, but you couldn’t- since your next class is in 20 minutes. 
You went to the window and watched him, where he spotted you eventually after he finished doing a set of pushups- you lost count at 50. He greeted you with a small wave of his hand, a smirk plastered on his face. You gave him a polite wave back, and blew a kiss to him. He waved for you to come out, but you shook your head- tapping your wrists and pointing to the classroom with your thumb. He shrugged, and nodded understandingly- but deflated once again. 
During lunch, you stopped into the kitchen to grab something to eat, finding Logan in there already. He looked up at the sound of you entering, and smiled. 
“Was just about to get you. Made you lunch.” He says, turning around and presenting the plate- one of your favorite lunches. Grilled cheese (Extra cheesy of course with 3 different types of cheeses) Homemade fries with sea salt, and a small cup of tomato soup. Your stomach growled loudly.
“Lo!” You smiled taking the plate, “That’s so sweet, thank you-” You reached down to take a bite of a fry, your eyes rolled back and groaned dramatically. “Oh that’s SO good.” You reached up to peck him on the lips, as he smiled proudly down at you. He figured, if his impressive muscles and body weren’t enough to sway you away from your work - then this would.
The way to anyone's heart - food. 
“You done for the day? Maybe we could spend some time-”
“Professor!” 
The sound of Rogues voice came into the room, distracting you and Logan. “Hi, sorry- you said you would help me out with my science project?” She asks you, you swallowed your fry and nodded. 
“I did, just give me a moment-” You inform her, turning back to Logan who’s deadpan expression made you want to laugh. “Sorry sweetheart, later?” You ask, pecking his lips again with a loud smooch.
“Yeah, sure.” He nods, his very best to not show his disappointment, watching you walk away with Rogue- and the plate of food in your hands. 
You were talking to Jean in the hall, complaining about all the work you had to do. Some of it your fault- stuff you had been procrastinating, but some of it just piled on suddenly. Not to mention it was your turn on the roster to cook everyone dinner, and you had tons of laundry to do- another thing you put off. 
Logan came around the corner, his arm sliding across your waist as he kissed your cheek. “Hey sweetheart.” He says lowly to you in that deep timber voice that drives you crazy- and he knows it too. He gave a courteous nod to Jean. 
“What you got there Logan?” Jean asks, noticing he was holding something behind his back. He pulled his arm from his back, revealing to you a bouquet of wildflowers. You gasped.
“Lo, these are beautiful!” You smiled taking them. Jean chuckled, 
“I’ll leave you lovebirds alone.” She teased, turning and walking away, leaving you and Logan alone. He braced an elbow against the wall looking down at you as you admired and sniffed the wildflowers. 
“Thought you’d like them.” He says. You beamed up at him, leaning up on your tiptoes to kiss his cheek. “I was thinking…” His other hand went to your hip, as he straightened his back out- practically towering over you. “If you got some free time now we should-”
“Hey! You busy?” Scott interrupted, pointing at you, then noticing the flowers, and Logans demeanor over you. Not to mention the absolute scowl Logan was giving him. “Uh, nevermind-”
You laughed, playfully hitting Logans arm. “What do you need Scott?” 
Logan let out an exasperated sigh. He loved you, but boy do you always jump at the chance to help someone out… Guess that’s why he loved you. You were always great at lending a hand. You, however, have been terrible at picking up signals. He dropped his arm from the wall, stepping back to give you space. Tuning Scotts annoying voice out and looking down at you with adoration. It wasn’t just the sex that he was wanting- he was just feeling needy for you today, but you were too busy and had a lot on your plate.
He took the bouquet from you, telling you he’ll put them in a vase while Scott stole you away from him. Rejected twice, and stolen away from him twice. It did not boost his ego. 
Finally, the evening came, and you were in bed, relaxing with a book. You had changed out of your clothes and into Logan's shirt, while Logan was in the shower, the steam and scent of soap wafting through the bathroom door of your shared bedroom. You heard the tap turn off, and you closed your book, setting it on your bedside table- next to the vase of flowers he got you- as you waited for him. 
He came out, towel wrapped low on his hips, droplets of water dripping down his hairy chest and torso, and he looked surprised to see you in bed. “Oh, hey.” He greets. “Didn’t know you when you’d be back.” He mutters under his breath.
“Came in just as you got in the shower.” You smiled, tilting your head and crossing your arms, noticing his slight attitude. He nodded, turning to pull out some clothes. “Logan.” You called out, and he turned his head. You brought your hand up and beckoned him with your finger. 
His grumpy face disappeared and he smiled, turning back to you and walking to the bed, dropping the towel to the floor as he kneeled onto the bed and climbed between your legs, his arms wrapping around your waist and upper back. 
You brought your hands up into his hair, intertwining your fingers through the wet locks and you giggled. “You were missing me today weren’t you?” You smiled. His expression went soft, the corners of his eyes crinkling as his lips upturned to a small smile. 
“Yeah. I was.” He says softly. 
“You were like a peacock. You were totally strutting your stuff around me.” You teased. He rolled his eyes. 
“Didn’t work clearly.” He mutters. 
“So you admit it!” You laughed. “Cause since when did you work out outside my classroom window?”
A deep blush came across his face as he became embarrassed, looking away, before looking up at you with big pleading eyes. You hummed, leaning forward and giving him a soft kiss that he quickly deepened, pressing himself deeper against your body.
Parting with a gasp, you ran your thumb across his cheek. “For the record, I missed you too.”
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mimiiiiiiiiisstuff · 2 days ago
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hey is 🚚 again sorry about the whole flu thing, I think everyone in my house is starting to catch it too.
there’s this story I’m fond of, and i will go one for way to long if I add details ( I already rewrote this ask twice lol) but it’s called I just want to freeload on your luck.
And near the end of the story, the antagonist(who is the adopted child) basically mocks the mc’s family because they actively neglected mc and they barely had to do any manipulation for them to treat her that way.
I feel like Tiffany would be similar, as of now, we don’t know much about her other than that 1-she’s a spy and 2- she’s been bullying reader for years now.
but when the batfam starts to hate her she probably won’t give a damn, maybe she’ll even throw everything they’ve done ( or rather didn’t do) back in their face.
they already caused 11 years worth of damage, so where do they get off acting like she’s the monster?
at least she knew what she was doing.
I’m still trying to speculate what her goal is if she couldn’t keep up the facade for long without stealing reader’s achievements - did she think that reader would put up with her nonsense forever?
Is she trying to be reader because she (mistakenly) thinks that the nice treatment she’s getting now is what reader was getting all this time?
Or is she that much of a sadist and wanted to make her even more unhappy?
I guess we’re going to have to wait to see
( while it’s probably a bit different there are these nasal sprays that you can use to prevent a cold before it gets worse, I felt one coming down yesterday and I used some so that might help if you get sick again! :) )
(also also reader doing their nails or wearing nail rings/guards (like Aki from street fighter) to administer venom would be neat!)
The thing is the batfam won't just hate her, some of them will actively be trying to hurt Tiffany. Tiffany is a very malicious character but part of the reason she tries so hard to mirror reader is because of her own insecurities. Before reader got bitten by the snake, Tiffany might've been able to keep stealing her things and bullying her because reader was so insecure that she could never really stand up to Tiffany. Tiffany is a spy so her goal is to infiltrate the batfamily and basically steal their secrets for as long as possible. She really does get off on making the reader suffer as a little side quest though. I was thinking more along the lines of reader having acrylic nails that somehow release venom tbh.
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lustlovehart · 17 hours ago
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Ok so i just read a ask with a similar idea of my last one.
The difference would be like… more like a sudden swap, rather than a ‘they were always there’ like the one i just saw.
In case it wasn’t understood what i meant, i meant it like this:
MH!reader is in their world with monster!twst boys. M!reader is in their world with MH!twst boys. For some reason, the two are swapped from their respective places.
Cw: Monster Reader eats people while getting interviewed
I think in this case, MH!Reader is sightly relieved. This is great! The monsters you have to kill are gone and replaced with humans! Humans who you can reason with, and have a conversation with common sense. Though, you’re a little curious as to where they’ve went…
You… can’t help but feel a little unnerved the more time you spend with them… You think.., You’re starting to miss the monsters…
The biggest difference I think this would cause however, is your relationships with Jack and Rollo. Those two are humans you’ve lived and worked with for a long time… So why are they confused seeing you? This is what leads to the inner conflict if they were to suddenly swap; You would start to piece together your Rollo and Jack, aren’t the kind of people they told you they were.
Overall though, it starts great until it divulges into scary territory when they start asking you where your ‘monster features’. You leave their questions in silence, but once you finally get fed up with the, admitting it’s them who were the monsters and not you strikes a sudden interest…
You might change your occupation to be a baker instead at this point… There’s virtually no difference between their affection for you, only that they murder monsters now and aren’t crazy powerful. Though… murdering humans too seems like something they would do also… So you’re practically just seeing the same guys but as humans.
On the other end though, the sight of you not as a monster, is certainly an interesting one.
M!Reader’s struggle isn’t nearly as grave. Now it’s just, “Aww man, now I have no food AND freakier men😞😞” (their craziness is still the same, they just got the ability to do monster stuff now).
You’re definitely just trying to eat a random guy you caught in the forest before one of them are interrupting you meal, gushing about how similar you look to their [Name]. They’ll go on and on about them, interests, favorites, they’re all the same as yours, except they don’t eat human you guess, or do ghastly beast stuff.
The unnerving monster stare doesn’t work on them, just like your guys… It’s disappointing. They’ll lean even closer into you watching each bite of the poor guy you take.
“You’re just like those humans…” it has them all quirk a brow but before they realize it, you’ve faded into shadows. They piece together what you meant when they enter NRF and find pictures of their human counterparts and their spoils, news articles talking about their feats, heads of different monsters, photos of their mortal selves actively hunting beasts like them, but, The most important one of all…
Is your monster variation printed as the top bounty rather than themselves.
Overall, whether it’s humans with monsters, monsters with monsters, or humans with humans, the fact is, you somehow never fail to attract their attention, unfortunately for you.
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fanged-fanfics · 18 hours ago
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Can I request headcanons of TFP Optimus Prime and Ratchet with a human teen who is like Luz Noceda from TOH?
And how would they react to reader coming to the base one day with a box, reader tells them it is their school proyect for tomorrow and wanted their opinion, only to then open the box and take out alive snakes!!
I can also see them becoming friends with Miko quick.
☆ Eccentrically Unique — TFP Optimus/Ratchet & Reader HCs ☆
Genre: Fluff, Platonic || they/them pronouns for reader || No warnings needed
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──────.𖥔 ݁ ˖˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗.𖥔 ݁ ˖ ──────
ᯓᡣ𐭩 Optimus takes your oddball nature in stride. He's seen his fair share of rowdy bots all across his career, and though he'll still play parent for you by guiding you in the right directions, he's keen on letting you have your fun as long as it doesn't interfere with work
ᯓᡣ𐭩 Ratchet is a bit more snippy about it, but the medic isn't exactly known for his cheerful disposition. He'll talk to you about alien facts for however long you want, no matter how annoyed he pretends to be
ᯓᡣ𐭩 When it comes to school, the two are typically a little more out of the loop because of their lack of understanding to the earth education system. That's where Miko comes in, the two of you bonding over the advice she gives and your similar interests
ᯓᡣ𐭩 When you mentioned a project, the two bots wished you luck without thinking much about it. Ratchet did note the differences between human and Cybertronian sciences, but largely they just gave you encouragement and thought that would be all
ᯓᡣ𐭩 Oh how wrong they were. When you came back the next day excited about your idea, Optimus was admittedly curious to see what humans considered interesting sciences. That is until you opened the lid and they saw the snakes within
ᯓᡣ𐭩 The bots were curious, but Ratchet drew a line when one of the serpents kept gnawing at his fingers. Sure the poison didn't affect him, but some nerve to latch on like parasites! Especially when they get loose and start slithering along the base floors
ᯓᡣ𐭩 It took many dizzying moments of scrambling large mechs and some panicked humans to get the snakes picked up. Optimus let you know pretty soon after that wild animals were suddenly prohibited from base
ᯓᡣ𐭩 They both come together to reassure you in the end. They do like seeing your creativity and knack for the unfamiliar, but they'd also both seen quite a bit what impulsive workers can cause. Though Ratchet is more blunt than Optimus, they both assure you that you're still welcome to have your adventures with them anytime... just with less snakes
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kazoolol · 1 day ago
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SONIC N SHADOW INFORMAL CHARACTER ANALYSIS/DISCUSSION
WARNING this analysis, opinion thing jumps from scene to scene as it's made with the idea you've seen the games and I'm also writing this sort of on the spot so apologies for any typos etc. Also please be nice I'm just some guy.
Honestly, I'm not a huge fan of Sonic and Shadow being so hostile towards each other. Now I'm not referring to their rivalry, because I love it. They're the only people who match each other in almost every aspect, so competition and a little rivalry is welcome and expected. But what I dislike is how nowadays they're not even capable of complimenting one another. Or even getting along in a more casual setting?
Like, in their Tailstube or the line change in SxSG ("You got this, Sonic." -> "On your feet, Sonic.") It feels sort of unnecsesary and disingenuine rewriting genuine hostility between the characters when there wasn't any to begin with.
Sonic and Shadow have always had a competitive push and pull that leaned towards playful from the get go despite the danger both parties presented.
When they meet, Shadow doesn't even seem inherently aggressive like he's depicted to be nowadays. He simply just warps away from Sonic when he comes at him.
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Shadow at this point just sees himself in higher regard to Sonic and deems him unworthy of his time. This represented by the fact that Shadow is not only positioned to be looming over Sonic, the cinematography having him look down at him and exclaiming once he teleports onto the roof of the building that, "Theres no time for games, farewell."
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We know that Shadow however quickly changes his tune the more he gets to know Sonoc throughout SA2.
He expresses disappointment in what he assumes to be Sonics death.
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This line is so cool and extremely telling of their relationship at this point because it implies that Shadow saw him as MORE than just some hedgehog that resembled him.
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Note the "You never cease to suprise me" "So, there's more to you than just looking like me."
(Small note thats kind of off topic) It's interesting to me in a lot of these encounters Sonic is actually the one to START the fight (other than when they battle each other on the ark). This is within reason though since hes being blamed for crimes he did not commit.
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I wish Shadows hostility was toned down some. As he seems pretty amicable all things considering even hes working against Sonic. For example trading quips with Sonic in Adventure 2, doing numerous callbacks to such quips. In the hero story when you fight Shadow on the island as Sonic, he even admits Sonic is an impressive fighter. ( I would take SS but I'll just link a video to the scene)
In fact he gives Sonic credit where credit is due and vice versa numerous times throughout the story, and even the little talk they have before the fight on the Ark Shadow is genuinely curious about Sonic and who he is as a person.
Shadows curiousity surrounding Sonic is something I've always found incredibly interesting about their dynamic. I don't think Shadow would be so no nonsense and dismissive of Sonic, because Sonic intrigues him. Not only due to their similarity in appearance, but how Sonic carries himself as a person.
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Not only is this an amazing character moment for Sonic, emphasizing he is not a hero but just a guy who loves adventure. Shadow after this revelation is not aggressive, mean or dismissive. He only fights Sonic because he's in the way, not due to some hatred on Shadows end, just because Sonic was in the way. He treats Rouge similarly.
I also liked the inherent connection the two of them had, like how in Sonic Heroes where Shadow lacks memory of any of SA2, he shows immediate interest in Sonic of all characters.
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He's confused about why they look similar, yes, but he still shows immense interest in Sonic and ONLY Sonic even though Tails and Knuckles are also extremely suprised by his return.
I also think it's important to note that, even when Shadow remembers very little of Sonic, they still maintain that playful push and pull dynamic. Shadow never brushes him off, engaging with Sonic and vice versa.
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Notice how Shadow isn't insulting, degrading nor putting down Sonic. He isn't so no nonsense as he is protrayed to be nowadays. He plays off of him, going "Is that so...well then, it will be a date to DIE for." Before smirking and running at Sonic.
Maybe I'm simply misunderstanding something, maybe I'm just being oblivious or misinterpreting their scenes, but I feel the removal of Shadows friendliness admist the rivalry and competition makes it feel less compelling because where their dynamic was established to be both parties pushing and pulling each others limits, yet also holding an air of respect and liking to one another feels lost with how most just deem Shadow and Sonic just hating each others guts. What reason does Shadow have for wanting to "finally defeat" Sonic?
Even in games where Shadow a bit more "aggressive" or has a less than friendly dynamic with Sonic (Think Sonic Battle and Shadow 05) theres still an air of respect between them. Sonic actually is the one who continues to push Shadow to take the path thats best for him. Sonic pushes him to be honest about his feelings, that it's okay for him to simply live and feel in the moment. And even when Shadow disagrees with this notion, claiming he has no heart, or Sonic is misunderstanding him, Sonic remains by his side.
That's what I've always loved about Sonic and Shadows relationship. That respect and care for one another I feel is completely lost nowadays to their dynamic. Big moments like Shadow directly stating that the ultimate lifeform is Sonic (I stole this off someone on Twitter I believe. Thank you to that person!) Sonic inspiring Shadow to live just doesn't really exist anymore.
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And even in Sonic 06, the respect and trust the two have remains and is even stronger than before. When explaining where they find themselves to Team Hero, Sonic immediately picks up what Shadow is trying to communicate, that they need to work. Neither parties are apprehensive to one another, Sonic giving a thumbs up and Shadow nodding in approval.
And later when the teams are off on their own, theres the small but to me very memorable interaction where Sonic points right at Shadow and says, "Don't be late." And where I feel in recent titles where Shadow would either ignore him or just brush him off, he gets extremely close to Sonic and goes "Same to you."
And of course the iconic "chaos control" they do together not ONLY being noticably closer than it was with Silver, but they exchange NO WORDS throughout it all and just...know what to do. That is so special to me. That they just know what the other is thinking with no words said. Another moment that supports this is when Shadow comes in to help Sonic and no words are said besides a nod and smile. Would the two really do something like that if they hated one another and had no interest in each other?
I never see their close bond anymore between the two in both canon and fanon content and it's really sad disappointing in my opinion.
It makes Sonic and Shadows dynamic as a whole way less compelling.
The point of this character analysis is to point out how much of what made Shadow and Sonics dynamic actually engaging and have an incredible amount of depth is just...gone nowadays. With them leaning into making Shadow and Sonic rivals, they lost what made that dynamic so special in the first place.
Now I'm not saying I want Sonic and Shadow to be openly really friendly and lose their banter but I wish more moments of care and trust between them was also more common place.
What do you think? Do you think I missed the mark in some of this? Do you prefer their older dynamic or the newer one?
Just to be clear this is not a hate post directed to any of the Sonic Team, this isn't an Ian Flynn hate post this is just me pointing out how I feel about the more modern take on the characters. I really like how Shadow generations handles them but I also feel some line changes in Sonic Generations don't sit well with me personally.
I'm not a big fan of much of the Sonic and Shadow material outside of the games other than the Sonic movies and stories from Sonic channel so I tried to stick to the games primarily when discussing their dynamic.
Please be nice in the replies!!!!!
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razzellyn · 2 days ago
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For some reason the requester asked me in my messages, and i can't tag them
So uhhh, whoever you are, enjoy!!!!
Crash Landed
MCB
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Cybertronian!Reader
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• Let's say you're a wanderer. Not an Autobot or a Decepticon. Travelling through space in your ship, exploring the universe trying to find some friends, or whatever you come across first.
• A signal caught your optics, so you headed there. It leads to a planet, filled with fleshy creatures called "humans". Great.
• Even more great, your ship is now broken. The gravitational pull was apparently too strong for your ship. Now you're stranded here, clueless!
• At least you've managed to gather some spare energon from your ship, now you just have to go undercover. You scanned a vehicle without much problem, and tried to comm if anyone else was here.
• It was a futile effort. BUT! You did get some strange, static-y answer from the other side of the comm. So, you did what any sane bot would do. Follow the frequency!
• Which unfortunately ended up where you currently are.
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"... You're not Cybertronian."
You say as you scanned the non-cybertronian bot in front of you.
"And you're not a Metal Cardbot..."
Says the strange blue bot with the police cap on? You didn't know cosmetics that are similar to a human's outfits even existed.
"Yes well, it's obvious what our differences are. Uhm... where is your mouth?"
"Pardon?"
"Your mouth. Do you, whatever you guys call yourselves, not have a mouth?"
The blue bot nodded firmly.
"Yes, us Metal Cardbots do not have the need for a mouth."
"So you don't consume energy?"
"We... Still consume a form of energy."
This confused you. A lot. But instead of asking further, you shook your helm and instead asked another question.
"Right. Well, what's your name? I can't just call you Blue now can i?"
The blue bot gave you an unreadable expression, but it's nothing negative.
"My name is Blue Cop."
"... I guess i can call you Blue!"
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• And so the two of you introduced yourselves. He tells you his name, and vice versa. And it goes onnnnnnn from there.
• He's a curious fella, whether he shows it or not. Asking about your origins, where you come from, your name, and even about your occupation.
• He showed you around the place too. Meeting his team, and his fellow human friends! Though one of the Metal Cardbots reminded you of a certain Prime for some reason...
• But then, he asked about how you came here on earth, and when you told him the full story...
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"I am... sorry, you had to go through all that."
He says, gently grabbing a hold of your shoulder in an attempt to comfort you.
"Don't worry too much about it. It's not your fault."
"... If it helps, Machina suffered a similar fate."
You vaguely remembered about Machina. The planet where the Metal Cardbots originated from. You never knew about it, only bits and pieces. So this surprised you a little.
"Really..? I guess mechanical lifeforms are destined to wander the universe, eh?"
You humored a bit, not wanting to pry further into what happened in their past.
Blue Cop only nodded in response, and while he may have lacked the necessary equipment to show it, you could easily tell he was smiling. So you did too, and the two of you stared out into the view nature has given you.
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Yeah i think I'll end it there.
See you guys in another month or more <3
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voidspiraling · 2 days ago
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Time to talk abt everyone’s fav toxic yaoi LukaTill!!! Wait whattttt??
Hello friends have you ever noticed the weird similarities the number one rookie and the ruler of the stage have? Cuz they’ve been rattling around in my pea sized brain for a while now. (They were also my first Alnst ship but that’s not relevant rn) I think their “relationship” with one another is interesting based on the crumbs we have so far. I wanted to look a little deeper at how they relate to each other. Bc out of everyone in the cast Luka and Till are the most mysterious. This isn’t really an analysis just me rambling abt these two.
Anywho let’s start from the beginning and to do that we have to rewatch the sweet dream MV!
This is the first “interaction” between LukaTill and what sparked my love for the ship in the first place (Sorry Ivan! I love u too tho!)
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In this scene a young Till is confined in a room and is forced to watch videos of a young Luka. However the way these shots are framed it looks like Luka is watching Till. I say this bc when you watch the full video it ends with Luka burying his face into his knees to escape from the bright lights of the camera flash (it could be triggering a migraine since I think I read somewhere he gets chronic migraines) But when you switch scenes it ends on Luka looking at Till but Till’s eyes are covered.
Thematically I think this is meant to show how Luka is like a final boss that looms over Till looking down on him. Even though they’ve never met Luka has had some influence over Till’s upbringing. In fact Urak calls Till “the ultimate weapon” probably bc Till is meant to be Luka’s foil. Where Luka is fragile and elegant Till is resilient and rough. In fact Luka’s popularity actually increased the rate of pet human ownership. I took this shot to mean that what Luka represents and symbolizes had played a part in shaping Till. Remember Urak was trying to make Till obedient through violence, likely what Heperu did to Luka. We don’t know exactly how bad Luka was treated by his guardian but we can assume from the crumbs that we have that it was bad bad. Like Till levels of bad. I’m pretty sure Heperu stopped Luka’s heart when he rebelled and is overtly like “Luka is only perfect because I made him that way.” It’s such an awful thing to say and somehow as malicious as Urak saying “His talent is what kept him alive.”
So while we know that Till is aware of Luka, we aren’t given any insight on how he actually feels about Luka. But we can assume due to the pressure put on by his guardian he probably doesn’t like Luka and maybe even fears him.
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We also know that Luka has had his eye on Till as well. This is the ending scene in R3 after Ivan sang abt his yearning for Till. Here Luka has completed a Rubik’s cube and is staring at the teal and red sides, these are Till’s colors. Teal for his eyes and red from his brand, Till is mostly seen wearing some type of red. I think that even from the beginning rounds Luka knew that he would face off against Till in the final round. I say this bc out of all the contestants in Alnst stage Till is the most musically gifted. (I’m talking abt in canon the actual singers are amazing) We see Till start to sing and write music sheets when he was a literal baby. He sang more than he spoke. And in most shots of Till in the garden he’s playing an instrument or writing in music sheet paper while the other kids played with each other.
Ivan mentions it in his R3 interview but Till is literally an artistic genius. I think his profile said he struggles in everything else, but in stuff like art and music he excels way beyond his peers. That’s why even though his vocals are rated criminally low (like c’mon akugetsu vocals are heavenly what are you aliens on) he has the fastest selling album and consistently tops the charts when he releases a song.
There was also a chart showing the market value of each contestant over a period of time as well as the strengths and weaknesses of each contestant. At the end of the graph Mizi and Sua we’re both around 60/100. Hyuna and Ivan were at 80/100. And Luka and Till were at 100/100 (Important to mention that Lukas graph was a straight line at 100 meanwhile Till’s graph went up and down like crazy before settling at 100). Basically Luka and Till were like the best of the best. The only flaw on their profile was that Luka was fragile due to his health and that Till was aggressive. Musically they were perfect. And Luka likely knew this. I interpreted this as even though Till hasn’t met Luka yet he is still being watched by him. Like a hunter vs prey situation. It also sets up the power dynamic between LukaTill early on.
Now let’s talk abt the artwork of Luka and Till.
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Another similarity they have is in this art from the school AU. All the characters have a cute drawing like this with hearts in their pupils looking at the other half of their pair. IvanTill are looking at each other and Hyuluka are looking at each other. But the thing that jumped out to me was that Luka and Till are the only two without hearts in their eyes. If it was just one character I would just think it was a mistake, but the fact that it’s these two makes me think it’s intentional.
Also in this series IvanTill and Hyuluka are heavily focused on, it’s through these relationships that we the humanity of the characters. Yet in the artbook Luka rates his affection with Hyuna at 70% and Till rates his affection with Ivan at 70%. As we the series progresses we see how important Hyuna is to Luka and Ivan to Till. So why the lack of hearts and the 70% rating? Do Luka and Till love in the same way? Are they incapable of romantically loving someone? Do they distance themselves from their loved ones for fear of vulnerability? And why don’t we have their pov of the pivotal moments in their relationship? Like Till’s pov of the meteor shower scene and Luka’s pov abt hyunwoo’s death. There’s so much mystery surrounding them and how the love their most important person.
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Let’s also talk abt this merch from Alnst stage. Sorry for the poor quality but I’ll try my best to explain my delusions. So something I wanted to point out is that here LukaTill are the only two seen with flowers and with gore. Luka is standing on a stage made from the corpse of the alien that looks like the moon and has purple roses. Meanwhile Till he is standing in the blood of Freddie the alien in his guitar that he killed, and it looks like green grass. Till has a red clematis flower crown. I thought it was interesting how here LukaTill have this contrasting them in their merch. Life vs death, Till is surrounded by blood while Luka is surround by bone. I think this is meant to show how they both cope with their situation. They both live in a dystopian society and to cope they have to revel in the bloodshed of it all. For Till it’s violently rebelling against the aliens, seen by the freshly spilled blood of an alien, and for Luka it’s about having a reputation of being more powerful than his opponent, so overpowering that they have no chance of surviving if they’re up against him, evident by the long decayed corpse of an alien.
However the flowers represent their softer side. I think at their natures they are actually very gentle people. For Till it’s more obvious that he’s a sweetheart you just need to read his birthday comic to know how cute and lovable he is. For Luka you have to reach a bit bc we rarely see any sides of him besides his ruler of the stage persona. But I think in his interview when they ask what his favorite part of Anakt garden was he said it was playing hide and seek with the other kids. I thought that was uncharacteristically sweet to say. I was expecting him to say the classes were good or the music theory was really interesting. But no. His favorite part of being in the garden was getting to play with the other kids. (I hate that Till died but my heart also feels bad for Luka ;-;)
Another thing I wanted to mention is that Till has a flower crown in his art while Luka has a rose with thorns in his merch art. I honestly thought they would be reversed since Luka is “crowned” ruler of the stage and Till is pretty spiky, pretty sure there was merch where he’s just a spike ball lol. They almost seem to be referencing each in some weird way. This is most likely a coincidence tho since the flower crown is suppose to represent Till’s attachment to the innocent fantasy of the past and I’m like 99% sure Luka is a reference to the little prince. (A book abt a blond haired kid and a rose you should read it you def won’t get depression from it) Still I thought it would be interesting to point out.
LukaTill also share a lot more similarities than even I realized when i was looking back at all the content we have so far. For example, they’re the only two characters we’ve seen play an instrument. Guitar and violin. In their early rounds they both overwhelmed their opponent and won by a landslide. The only reason they’re alive is because of their musical talent. They both got messed up hands Luka and his purple fingertips compared to Till with his bandaged ones. Their alien owners are literal trash who have no regard for their life in anyway (i feel like the other guardians weren’t as bad bc to my knowledge Ivan, Sua and Mizi didn’t have their life put in immediate danger. Meanwhile Luka’s owner stopped Luka’s heart as a punishment. And Till’s guardian just assaults him without any regard for his safety or blood loss.) There’s so many little details these two share despite the fact that they’re just suppose to be two characters that clash with each other. Like imagine if LukaTill was the ship that had more focus in the series. This stuff would’ve driven me nuts!
The point I’m trying to make is that while LukaTill are like polar opposites they are also really really similar. I wonder if Luka is what Till would’ve turned into if he lived long enough. And I wonder if Till is similar to a younger Luka.
Super excited for the next video Vivimeng puts out! I’m going back to grieving for Till cya.
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magical-regical · 3 days ago
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I got the reunion ending. It's the most canon ending. Change my mind. You can't.
A part of me is sad because this is like an almost perfect ending you know? The only way it could get any better is if Mr Scarletella learns to play nice with the other ghosts.
If I can let my imagination run wild and speculate I'd say the content in this update is some of the last things Yatsunagi-sensei worked on before deciding to stop and that's why it wraps everything up in this seemingly nice little bow (esp since the placement of the reunion ending is smack in the middle of the last row). So tbh I wouldn't be surprised if we don't get any more new endings and chapters from here on out (though again, this is all just speculation and I would not mind new endings and more expansion on each LIs route). But even regardless if I'm right or wrong I really do think this is the best ending we're gonna get. Again, for the people in the back, this paragraph is just speculation I have no evidence to back up my claims.
Something I do (kind of) have evidence for is about how I actually think MC dies in this ending. Let me explain.
Spoilers under the moss on how to get the reunion ending.
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It bothered me that to get the reunion ending you have to ignore Mr Chopped and leave Mr Crawling. MC wakes up back in the human world and 'dreams' about Mr Crawling waiting for her.
It's clear her heart misses that other world even if her mind doesn't remember. If you, the player, let her follow that nagging feeling, she wanders back into the ghost apartments and the floor collapses beneath her. She hits her head, gets up, and finds the elevator.
Now here's where it gets interesting because if you choose to not go in the elevator, you game over. If you choose to go in, you reunite with Mr Crawling and the other ghosts. The two scenarios have two things in common, MC will mention having a 'slight headache' and you'll hear a long beep. The only other time you hear a similar beep outside of those two scenarios is when you break Mr Scarletella's umbrella. It's the sound of a flatline.
A lot of things in the reunion ending seem to support my theory. After taking the elevator we see Mr Crawling, Mr Silvair, Mr Chopped, and The Bride.
In chapter 5 The Bride and Mr Chopped are scared of each other so why would they be in the same place at the same time? An argument can be made that because 'a long time has passed' maybe this isn't their first encounter and they've gotten over each other's differences.
The second thing is The Bride says she's going to look for new clothes for MC while their other encounters seem to imply the bride can produce clothes seemingly out of thin air because what are the chances she has two copies of the same dress and a raincoat that is tailored exactly to your measurements? Well because in this timeline, MC has only met The Bride once. She doesn't know that Ms Bride can just make clothes appear.
Third, the last scene before we fade to black is a floor that looks similar to the one MC fell through but we can see a pool of blood that seems to come from MCs direction. There's nobody around. The screen fades, MC says 'I'm home' and the credits roll. The credits this time shows scenes from chapters 1-3 instead of the names of the dev team. Feels a bit like all the memories MC forgot when she came back to the human world coming back to her eh?
So yea, conclusion? MC's dead. She probably died when the floor collapsed. She hit her head and that was it. Does that mean the reunion scene was a lie? Perhaps. But that's no fun, now is it? Instead I'd like to think of it as MC literally becoming a 'ghost' her soul was the one that found that elevator. That's why you game over if you choose not to go in, the soul simply returns to the body and goes to wherever you go after you die. The scene at the end was MC bidding one last farewell to her human body because she decided her home is with the residents of the ghost apartments, even if now she technically is a 'lost soul'. I think MC chooses to be happy here. She let's go of whatever resentment and hatred she was holding on to and that's why the voice of the 'raincoat' doesn't pop up once in the entire exchange.
It's fantastic writing to me because this entire ending is described almost perfectly in the part of the song that plays on the title screen. The first thing you'll hear when you open the game is this ending. It's the second verse of 'Gray Rain'.
It's happy, it's sad, it's such a perfect way to end the game and that's why I think this might be the last thing Yatsunagi-sensei left us.
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ganondoodle · 2 days ago
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Those latest Beast!Ganon concepts are really, REALLY Cool! One of my favorite aspects is that they diverge a bit more from the usual "big boar monster" design tropes that we see in canon and incorporate other elements. The wide, flat tail that almost looks amphibic or aquatic is a personal fave, together with the feet being rather wide, and the whole profile being long and low (relatively^^) to the ground makes almost look like some aquatic monster or dragon that rises out of some cursed swamp or something.
Great vibes all around, kudos!
(kept this ask around bc i wanted to add some more concepts for the fight but then id have nothing truly new to put into the big ganondorf post so uuh this is an answer in text now)
Thank you! admittedly, other than taking calamity ganons .. or just its cloud like form really, as inspiration (somewhat beast ganon from twilight princess too, which is my favorite of his canon forms), i think alot of its design is really just ... a "me" thing, i love auqatic animals and the shapes are typical for my monster designs xD (i did want it to be both familiar and different though)
while i cant possibly make an entire attack pattern for him my idea does involve motions like 'swimming' through the ground (turning the ground into malice and swimming through it? straight up burrowing but hes so strong solid stone and earth is like water to him? move this phase to a sandy area so its also a mimic of moldoras? (closest to the forgotten plateau, which is where the end fight is, would be the taobab grassland, which isnt fully sand but more similar, might do soemthign else with that place though, maybe a big horse research site))
(i also dont want all his magical moves, both in beast form and all his other ones, to depend on malice, malice is what fuels his life now, the rage and unbreakable spirit to live, to resist, to not succumb to the schemes of the queen of hyrule of his time, to not fall against this one last descendant of her, he is much more than just hatred but it is what keeps him alive even when he should not be- so as he is skilled in wielding magic, perhaps skills that have since gotten rare (like your friends being the few ones to learn some) he will AT LEAST make use of lightning, if not perhaps even more, perhaps even mirroring what your friends can do directly, just like he will mimic links shiekah tech arm once he 'reforms' his missing arm via malice/taking it from the beast form- ......... and here i go rambling about stuff that will go into the big post ...)
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mirellapryce · 7 hours ago
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@majorlb after reading @diangelodork's take on the colours in DBDA and their application to colours I am once again on my "Charles and Edwin accidentally on purpose become Crystal's parents" bullshit.
First off to justify looping diangelodork into my messy thoughts, we must acknowledge the obvious Charles=Red, Edwin=Blue, and Crystal=Purple colour themes of the show. Red+Blue=Purple. As diangelodork put it this can relate to how she has similar qualities to both of them including Charles' loyalty and Edwin's wit. Following on that though, we saw at the end of the show that Crystal's parents are rubbish and therefore what I think would really help her grow as a person/character would be loving parental figures. More than messy relationship drama between these three, I would love for the adult ghosts to come to the conclusion that Crystal is a child and needs adults to love and cherish her.
All this to say, I think it would be hilarious (either in canon, or in your version where Charles was dad right away) if Charles heard Crystal yelling on the phone, "I don't need the world! I just need you to act like my dad!" and hanging up. Charles can't pretend he didn't hear it when he walks in, but he can ask, "How do you count cows? With a cowculator." It's terrible but it makes her laugh. It's the beginning of the end for Crystal's actual dad. Charles is going to tell her all the worst jokes from now on, and after that they're going to play catch, and get ice cream.
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flamingwell · 1 day ago
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My most beloved mutual, I have a question about Podfics.
Years ago, I tried one, and didnt really vibe with it. No fault of the reader, it just was a combination of "the fic itself was boring" plus "it was so conplicated to actually get to start to listen to it, because it was like 500 steps". So it just remained in my brain as a sunk cost activity, bc after all the steps to start reading, the fic was bad. Like, when I read a fic, its one click, and if the fic isnt for me, i just close the tab.
But I've been itching to try it again. Do you know of a good, idk, beginners guide to podfics? Or some good stories you can recommend?
Love! Snow
My friend, I would be thrilled to help you learn how to access and find podfics you'll love!! So the great thing about podfics is, just like fanfic, there's really something for everyone!
How you access podfics: many podficcers will offer multiple ways to listen to their podfics, both streaming and download options. It sounds like you might have gotten frustrated by getting a downloaded podfic to somewhere where you can listen to it. If you want to download in the future, it should be the same process you use to download and listen to music. But for many podficcers, that's not your only option! A lot of podficcers offer streaming as well, so you can listen right in your browser. You can try filtering on the tag "audio format: streaming" (though that will limit your options somewhat as not everyone tags for that). Otherwise you can just open a podfic and see if there's an embedded audio player on the page. Even if there's not an embedded audio player, if there's a link you can try just clicking on it. Often it'll be a link to where you can stream the audio. If I assumed wrong and you prefer to download, you should be able to right-click/long press on the streaming audio player or link to download, and then you just play your downloaded file in the app of your choice, same as any other audio file you download.
How to find a good story: this is just the same as finding a fanfic you think you might like, except that there's already a layer of quality filtering done because someone decided they liked this fic enough to spend many hours podficcing it. Simply add the tag "podfic" to the filters you would use to search for fanfic. Then listen to it for a bit. If you don't like it, hit the back button, just as you would for fanfic.
Style of podfic: there's a number of different styles of podfic, and while many of them aren't often tagged, you can often get an idea of what style a podfic is from the summary, author's notes, etc. You'll have to decide what you like by trying them out! Some podfics will have music and sound effects and fun stuff like that. Some (often called "cold reads" in MDZS fandom) will be unedited with mistakes left in and maybe even have the podficcer's thoughts shared as they're reading. I think of this as the kind of experience you'd get if a friend read you a fanfic around the kitchen table. And some will be edited (so you don't hear mistakes or commentary or whatever) but without music or sound effects. That's the most common version, similar in style to most audiobooks. Everyone will have a different preference, so you'll have to figure out yours. I'll say @kisahawklin was the person to popularize cold reads in this fandom, so she would be a great place to start to see if that's a style you like, and @jellyfishfire is one of my all time favorites for podfic with music (and sometimes sound effects, like with Let the Streetlights Guide You Home).
Reading Style: just like with writing style, every podficcer has a different reading style, a voice that's all their own. It's nothing you can tag or search for or even really describe, just when you listen, you'll probably vibe more with certain podficcers than others. And that's fine. It's great even! Just like you have favorite authors, you might end up with favorite podficcers if you listen enough, and then you can go through all their works and enjoy them thoroughly! And the ones who's reading style doesn't vibe with you? That's okay. Hit the back button and find a different podficcer. They vibe with someone else, and you'll find a different podficcer who's reading style you love.
I hope all that helped, but if you have any more questions, let me know! And enjoy your podfics!!!
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mushygreybrainmatter · 1 day ago
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It's true that the current traditional English spelling of "vocal cords" is, as indicated, spelled C-O-R-D-S. However, historically, this hasn't always been the case! Looking at the etymology listed under "vocal cord," "cord," and "chord" on the Oxford English Dictionary's website, you can see that both "vocal cord" and "vocal chord" have been used contemporaneously at various points over the past 250ish years. I'll even admit to believing the correct spelling was with a "ch" until recently. Granted, that does not negate the fact that "vocal cord" is the technically correct spelling, so I'll digress on this point.
With that in mind, however, I would like to put on my English Major hat for a moment and do some analysis.
The writers of Ace Attorney's North American localization (I will not speak on the original Japanese because I don't have the knowledge to do so) are very aware of the fact that Ace Attorney's primary communicative method is through text, and they use that to their advantage on numerous occasions! The playfulness and orality of the text in Ace Attorney is explored more thoroughly in an essay by Robyn Hope ("Texts and Turnabouts: Analyzing the Words of Ace Attorney") in the book What Is a Game?: Essays on the Nature of Video Games, but I'm just going to pull a couple of Hope's examples.
This dialogue from Phoenix Wright: Ace Attorney during Turnabout Samurai: Phoenix: So, um ... is that it? Dee Vasquez: ? Phoenix: Don't "?" me!
And in Apollo Justice: Ace Attorney, during Turnabout Corner, we get this dialogue: Apollo: Alita Tialita is Wocky's fiancée! Trucy: That's one "ita" too many, Apololo! Apollo: (And she had access to Wocki Kitacky's medical chart!) Trucy: You got the "I" and "Y" wrong, Appolo!
There is similar playfulness and double entendre in character names. Both Phoenix Wright and Apollo Justice are prime examples, with additional consideration going to Detective Dick Gumshoe, Frank Sawhit, and Deid Mann among others.
From this, we can see just how much thought goes into (at least some of) the textual elements in Ace Attorney. With this in mind, it's not out of the realm of possibility to assume that the localization team for AJ:AA decided to use "chords" instead of "cords" specifically for its allusion to music. At the end of AJ:AA, the player learns that Apollo's mother is none other than musical legend Lamiroir. Additionally, the prosecutor Apollo faces in three of four cases during the game is Klavier Gavin, who is a rockstar and does air guitar during court (and is also named "piano" in German). Moreover, Apollo uses "Chords of Steel" to refer both to a voice workout and to his ability to be really, really loud. The phrase is used in both senses multiple times during the first case of AJ:AA, Turnabout Trump, alone. With the context of a voice workout, or voice training, the use of "chords" makes even more sense, as voice training is also closely associated with singing (though it can certainly be used in other contexts).
In essence, while I completely understand where OP is coming from, I think it's worth noting that there could be more behind the spelling of "Chords of Steel" than just an association with vocal cords.
I will never recover from Chords of Steel being spelled like that. It's referring to Apollo's vocal cords, it should be spelled Cords of Steel. No H
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dragons-and-ages · 4 months ago
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The Solas hair reveal has me cracking up…
And it’s not that I think it looks weird or funny or particularly attractive.
It’s because that specific hair color and style and the fact that he is a light-skinned elf man reminds me of a fellow player-character in my D&D campaign. Specifically, he’s a character that my own character is in love with.
And
Ohmygod
I just realized as I was writing this that the D&D character I’m talking about has a form of lycanthropy. And Solas is the Dreadwolf.
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eric-the-bmo · 2 years ago
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fun fact. i realized leo is a little bit inspired by michael distortion. do with that information what you wish
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cent-scratchnsniff · 14 days ago
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Please don't hurt yourself
#lobotomy corporation#lobcorp#library of ruina#hod#hod lobcorp#hod lobotomy corporation#hod library of ruina#erm... michelle. hii michelle. going to have to spoiler tag for you though baby#lobotomy corp spoilers#lobcorp spoilers#okay i think thats it#no shading because this made me want to KILL YMSELF#it looks fone w out it anyways. yay. thank you filter after effects for saving my ass this . hurt me so muchh to try to finish#nothing specific that had me make this. at least from lobcorp lor. its more of having more empathy towards my past self or when i was young#than me. right now. it feels as if the past is so devoid of my current self yet i know that its Me. its just so distant. to the point where#at times it feels as if the me of the past is devoid of the current me. im told im very empathetic? hard to tell. that im patient and kind#or more of understanding to everyone but Myself. so when i try to be kind to myself it feels impossible. but im able to do it to my past se#which makes a disconnect. please dont hurt youself. please dont hate youself. you dont need to do that. i know you want to live it hurts#i know. its alright to want to live. you dont need to apologize and feel Guilty. but never towards Myself. to console and wish to soothe bu#not to the current self. to pardon and accept but not to this Me. so i wanted to put it down kinda. felt most similar to hod ish.#its guilt for living. apologizing for existing. wanting to be accepted and pardoned. but also forgiving and accepting the self of before#not so much forgiving. forgive is a weird word. the hurt never leaves. and the guilt is there regardless. but. yknow. accept#sorry some random shit. yappin. who gaf abt that guy. who was that guy. anyways. hod <3 HODD!!!#just like to ramble abt what i think abt when i go to make pieces. since i uhh dont really have anyone to tell who would care. so. awkward.#god thats embarrassing actuallt migjt delete if im not lazy asf later. loser oversharing on the internet AHH 💥💥#uhmm back to the actual piece. the proportions and fhe coloring were having me feel like i was dging trying to get it right. almost#considered just gettinf rid of it and scrapping the whole piece. didnt though. wanted to have it done and finished. hod <3#the feeligns described arent what i would relate w hod? but closest chatacter towards the general thougut. so wanfed to draw her#i wanted to do more w ligjting and such as well. but it never ended up getting in. maybe later
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