#i think that there are a lot of people who think that the displays of male emotion in lotr are. how do i put this?
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Is there stigma about mental illness in Hell?
Personal bit: I've had chronic depression and anxiety for my entire adult life, and I used to guard it as this big secret, but now I have friends and coworkers who are understanding and have their own issues. And I work in a helping profession where I see that dealing with this stuff is just really fucking common. But recently I've had a bit of culture shock hanging out with my family, and realizing that... oh wait, we still treat our mental health issues like deep dark secrets and refuse to talk about them and/or seek help. And that's the only acceptable way to act. Okay. Thanks guys.
Personal ramble aside, yes, mental health stigma is still an issue in America, 2024 (obviously). And thanks to Sinsmas, I'm convinced that it's an issue in Vivzie's Hell too, in a way that's pretty reflective of how real contemporary society treats it.
Stolas chooses not to tell Blitz about his happy pills. We find out as the episode progresses that he never told Via either.
And plenty of arguments could be made about Stolas just not wanting to burden the people he cares most for. Not wanting Via to worry about him. Not wanting Blitz to be put out financially by tracking down the pills. But I think there's a level of embarrassment here too, and here's why.
Stolas has spent his life being told to bottle up his emotions, and we have evidence of this. We've also seen him struggling to hide his emotions from Blitz before, turning his back in The Full Moon, and straining when forcing himself to stop crying in Apology Tour.
Is the cultural aversion to displays of emotion just an upper class thing in Hell? I think the answer is "sort of." There are ways in which a Goetia is expected to behave, and lower-class demons have more freedom.
BUT
It's not really that simple. We saw toxic masculinity coming from Millie's parents and from Crimson, and that kind of attitude sort of goes hand in hand with mental health stigma. We also saw Verosika say this-
Which shows a certain attitude toward seeking treatment . . .
And Blitz ALSO has a preoccupation with acting like he's fine and can handle things without help that seems very grounded in sort of a working class, "pull yourself up by your bootstraps" attitude. (Bye to all that by Ghostfuckers..)
This has all been a very long way of saying that yes, mental health stigma in Hell is significant and affects our characters.
So what role does discovering Stolas's pills play for Via?
She takes them as confirmation of her fear (one she already had a lot of evidence for, to be fair...) that Stolas stayed in a miserable marriage for 17 years just for her. And more- that she was "never enough" to make him happy.
And she's right but. She's oversimplifying it. She did make her dad happy. When someone's suffering, from abuse, from mental illness, from . . . literal society . . . one wonderful relationship is still not going to make their life a happy one.
Beyond Stolas's specific situation, people with great lives sometimes need happy pills. People's lives are multifaceted, and that's a lot for a young person to understand sometimes.
So if Octavia had grown up in a situation where people . . . idk, talked about mental health and didn't stigmatize emotions . . .?
Yeah, I think she'd react differently to the happy pills. But more importantly, the level of secrecy wouldn't be the same. Stolas would have been more open about his range of emotions and about needing pills, and in countless other ways this situation would have played out differently.
And now I'm tying myself in knots trying to imagine Goetia culture WITHOUT mental health stigma. I don't think it would exist in the same way at all. Quick, someone get an army of excellent mental health professionals and assign them to every single member of Hell's aristocracy.
#my helluva meta#sinsmas#helluva boss sinsmas#sinsmas spoilers#stolas goetia#stolas#octavia#octavia goetia#mental health in hell#I don't think this is my best work but here we are#helluva boss
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Creepypasta mental health hcs
Like always, I am completely disregarding the cannon(and my earlier hcs) ^_^
Also tw: mental illness (duh), self harm, psychosis, depersonalization. Idk tw everything.
Also I hope everyone knows that none of these disorders create these kinds of people. This is all fiction and 99% of people with these disorders don't even get close to this. Ik it sounds obvious but I still want to remind you. I have ptsd, asd, and persistent depression. I also have friends with some of these and they are all amazing people. I mean this for personality disorders/disorders with stigma like npd or bpd as well.
Toby
❤️ schizophrenia
He has an even mix negative and positive symptoms. He doesn't experience them all at the same time. The negative symptoms are more common throughout the day, but the positive ones are more severe. (negative or positive does not mean good or bad. They are terms used to describe whether or not a symptom adds or takes away something to someone's behavior/functioning. A positive symptom can be hallucinations, while a negative symptom may me impaired attention)
His negative symptoms include not taking care of himself, self isolation, alogia (made worse when people bullied him for his speech patterns/tourettes), and anhedonia.
Positive symptoms include scrambled speech (word salad), delusions of persecution, auditory and visual hallucinations. Auditory:voices, name calling, other proxies voices, crying and screaming. Visual: bugs, shadow people, Lyra, hands, visual distortion. He also feels paranoid and nihilistic thinking.
During episodes he is known to hide, lash out, extreme emotional outbursts of fear, paranoia, anger or sadness. He also displays agitation, poor hygiene, and a lack of social awareness.
❤️Pica
Idk but I've always head cannoned him to have this. He is kinda sneaky about it so other proxies watch him closely around objects he's been known to try. Things like paper, paint chips, parchment, or anything with a ceramic/clay pottery/glass like consistency.
❤️tourettes
It's not as severe in my hc as it is in cannon. Still noticeable though. If he could feel it, his neck would be in so much pain.
❤️cipa
This is self explanatory. He has to check himself over with a mirror so he doesn't accidentally leave an injury untended. He finds random bruises he didn't know about all the time. He has to take great care to make sure he doesn't forget about injuries, letting them get infected. He has many scars. Also a couple chunks bitten out of his cheek and tongue.
❤️ He needs more help than the other proxies but has learned to live with his disorders and hold a routine. Toby is willing accept help, but only from certain people that he trusts and cares for. He tries his best every day to be better than the next.
Nina
❤️ manic depression
She has horrible episodes of depression, with intense mood swings. She was originally diagnosed with bipolar. She'll either be in bed all day, flirting/obsessing over Jeff(who is not reciprocating) or getting into arguments and impulsively spending her money. She also struggles with self harm. She hides it behind sleeves or heavy bracelets. Jane worries and checks on her often to make sure she's okay. Bringing her food and trying to get her to take a walk when Nina is depressed. When Nina is manic, Jane tries to ground her and keep her on a routine. She feels very guilty afterwards. Her friends understand. They all have issues.
❤️ hypersexuality
She doesn't have a lot of sex but she has intense intrusive thoughts about it. Especially involving jeff. She doesn't like to open up about it because of the stigma. She doesn't want people to see her as a slut or something. Most of them would never think that of her or anyone with hypersexuality. They wouldn't care if she was a whore to begin with.
❤️ Erotomania
She is convinced that Jeff and her are meant to be. She finds random signs that Jeff is reciprocating in things that don't exist. Jeff doesn't like her very much. Other proxies feel uncomfortable about it and try to keep them separate. (Nina would never cross the line into predatory behavior. None of the proxies are like that.) It's gotten much better but she falls back into old thought patterns during episodes. Nina has learned to respect boundaries and respect Jeff's.
❤️ drug abuse
She's been known to abuse party drugs. They are hard to get as a proxy(and also banned in the house) so it's much less severe than before.
❤️ histrionic personality disorder
She feels much more intensely in every way. She believes that her friendships are closer than they are, her emotions have no middle ground, and she has strong opinions on everything. She has some attention seeking tendencies and feels bad when she doesn't receive the desired response. She isn't a liar but often exaggerates when she tells stories.
❤️Nina is pretty receptive to help as long as she isn't in an episode. Sometimes she feels hopeless and gives up but not for long. She watches a lot of online therapy videos since they can't get a therapist.
Jeff
❤️ Antisocial personality disorder
He struggles to have much care for other people or their feelings. He's incredibly impulsive and thrill seeking. This has made him both the best and worst proxy in the mansion. He doesn't see the moral issue with lying. Luckily he's pretty bad at it and can never keep his story straight. His mood throughout the day is either agitated or bored. Becoming a proxy has made his antisocial behavior worse because he is able to justify it in his mind. If you asked him, he would say that he doesn't love anyone. Though he doesn't care for anyone, he likes being around Liu. His brother is one of the only people he chooses to talk to outside of joking or missions.
❤️ trichotillomania
Skin picking was always something he did but it got much worse after the fire. He tends to pick at the area between burned, and normal skin. He does the same with his scars. Putting bandages on his arms can help prevent picking. He tries not to look in mirrors often. Not because he hates how he looks, but it makes him want to pick more.
❤️psychosis
It's how he became "Jeff the killer" in the first place. In the early stages, he becomes more paranoid, disorganized, and stops taking care of himself. During the episode, he becomes mistrustful, agitated, comes to random conclusions/assumptions, doesn't sleep for days, and becomes more hostile. The full episode can last from a week to a month.
❤️ insomnia
He stays up until he drops. He doesn't try to help his insomnia until someone else intervenes. It majorly exacerbates his other problems.
❤️ He's generally not open to change. he could have gotten better if his parents had caught/cared it sooner. Liu isn't going to give up on him though. He doesn't care how much Jeff complains or lashes out. Liu and Slenderman are the only ones able to get Jeff to cooperate or calm down.
Liu
❤️ptsd
He isn't upset at his brother. But he still survived a horrific ordeal because of him. Sometimes when helping Jeff through an episode, he'll accidentally trigger Liu. Liu is determined to help Jeff, even if his PTSD makes it hard. He has bad nightmares about waking up to see Jeff. He tries to isolate when it gets bad. Jeff doesn't notice when Liu is struggling but when he finds out, he tries to help in his own way. Usually giving him space since he knows Liu's PTSD is mostly from him. Liu feels guilty about it.
❤️ codependence
Liu doesn't feel that he has anything left after everything that's happened. Even if Jeff was the one to kill their parents, and almost him, he is all Liu has left. He doesn't like living here but he'll go anywhere his brother goes. He feels responsible. Jeff would never admit this but Liu knows Jeff still needs him.
❤️major depressive disorder
He's had it since he was a kid. He feels empty and his motivation to do anything goes down the drain. His appetite is one of the first things to go. Not because he isn't hungry, but he doesn't feel like leaving his room. He'll sit at his desk staring at the work he needs to do or lay in bed.
Helen
❤️ autism spectrum disorder
He's always felt different. Never really known how to interact with others. He mostly keeps to himself. You don't need to learn to talk to people if you never talk to them. He has a system for everything that makes it easier for him. He keeps most things about himself private because he can be sensitive. Before he became a proxy, he tried to mask but he doesn't care anymore.
❤️Social phobia
All the bullying wrecked his self esteem. He feels that everyone is judging him. The other proxies don't see him much. He would rather sit in his room doing art. He even got a mini fridge so he wouldn't have to leave as much. He has heart palpitations and feels nauseous when he has to interact with the more abrasive proxies(Jeff).
❤️ generalized anxiety
Even before the bullying, he's always been an anxious person. He fidgets and double checks everything around him to make sure nothing will go wrong.
❤️ paranoid personality disorder
He generally does not trust others. It's not completely inaccurate half the time. He feels that others are out to get him. Relationships are really hard because he doesn't believe anyone actually likes him.
❤️ He's neutral about recovery but he needs to let someone in. He won't get better unless he learns to rely on someone else but he's scared.
Jane
❤️ptsd
Like Liu, she also has ptsd after what Jeff put her through. Unlike Liu, she hates Jeff for what he did. She feels angry about it because she didn't deserve what happened to her. She has a hard time letting herself fall asleep and has had panic attacks. She doesn't remember most of what happened and that might be for the best.
❤️body dysmorphia
She had this since middle school but it got worse when she was burned. The fire and left her body burned and scarred. She tries not to think about it but she misses how she looked before. She covers up a lot because she doesn't like her burns being stared at. Also because the burns are sensitive.
❤️she is actually trying her best to get better. She reads books and does meditation.
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#creepypasta#ticci toby#creepypasta fandom#toby rogers#nina the killer#nina hopkins#jeff the killer#homicidal liu#helen otis#bloody painter#jane the killer#hcs#head canon#fanfiction
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I can dig out more sources at a later point, can probably find some primary literature, but for starters: BPI, which certifies compostability of products, is fairly open about this (as long as you know to question the disclaimer on the products and know where to look after that…. I hate that this is considered “open” compared to similar things.) Directly from their webpage (I added holding for emphasis):
BPI’s Certification program is strictly limited to commercial compostability, and does not verify items for home or backyard compostability. This is because the ASTM standards that BPI certifies to are specific to commercial environments. This is also why BPI requires that qualifying language such as “Commercially compostable only. Facilities may not exist in your area.” is used on all products and packaging displaying the BPI Certification Mark.
While a small number of BPI Certified items have been certified for backyard compostability by the European program TUV Austria, most require temperatures that can only be achieved in professionally managed commercial environments.
Different countries, states, etc have varying access to facilities, technology, and composting techniques. And of course, differing laws and standards on what words can be marketed without verification.
as far as I remember, “biodegradable” is sometimes, but not always, illegal to use without verification, and “compostable” tends to be even more lax. The BPI website seems to still back this up by saying:
Washington State requires third-party certification of products as proof that they meet the relevant ASTM standards for compostability and requires products to meet industry standards for being distinguishable upon quick inspection by consumers and solid waste processing facilities. Other states are starting to work towards similar labeling guidelines.
I’m still glad for the BPI certification existing, but this is without a doubt, misleading for common consumers. And the corporations that produce these products rely on keeping as misleading as they can. Very few people pick up a “compostable plates” pack, or goes to a restaurant and get takeout in compostable containers, with a plan in mind of getting the material to an industrial composting facility. Large events and venues sometimes do, and they produce a lot of waste, but I think a lot more Hell would be raised across the board if the general public realized how much of their compostable products aren’t confirmed to be able to degrade in even a well-kept home compost. (And I know many people get compostable products feeling like it’d at least be better for the landfill it ends up in.)
my academic career didn’t swing much into composting— I have an ecology/environmental bio degree, but I focused more organismal— but in my ethnobotany class, for an outing, we ended up near the commercial composting my university runs. My professor explained some of this and encouraged us to learn more, and I dug deeper because it explained why the compostable materials (like these plates!) my father relied on when he was living in a camper weren’t reliably composting, like, at all.
It’s one of the rock-and-hard-place subjects in environmental studies, where relatively few otherwise-environmentally-oriented people know about it (in my experience), and there’s endless similar and more blatant things happening, so often it gets wrapped into other initiatives and overshadowed if mentioned.
To those who read all of this: consider investigating the compostability of products you buy that market themselves as such. See if they’re commercially certified, and if they have any indication of home compostability beyond that. It’s a hard enough drive to get stores to even carry any compostable products local to me, especially post-Helene, but I realize that other areas are ahead in that. I think it’d be feasible to raise awareness of compostability certifications, what they mean, and local composting facilities + their collection sites/recepticals (my university had some, but didn’t go much further than saying what can and can’t go in those bins.)
not a sign necessarily but my paper plate said this on it
Official ominous plate
#its one of the topics I’ve wanted to make a zine on for a while now#unfortunately. life is hard with many barriers#I appreciate you prev for giving me the chance to share more on this!#beaztboxing
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I am trying desperately to figure out why parts of this fandom WANT a Stolas/Blitz/Vassago love triangle.
First of all, I thought we as a society have agreed that the love triangle trope is one of the worst romance tropes out there and that we’re all ready to retire it.
Second of all, it would be such a fundamental betrayal of both Stolas’s and Blitz’s character journeys for that to happen. Stolas would roll back his progress in making choices for himself and owning up to his mistakes, and Blitz would have every dooming fear he had about love validated and he’d shut down again.
Even if it’s just coming from the perspective of loving Stolas and thinking he can do better than Blitz, making Stolas even CONSIDER something romantic with Vassago, after everything he and Blitz went through, would be such an audacious display of character assassination.
And even if you don’t care about the characters, with all the other conflict going on, throwing a love triangle in there would just make the story bloated and irritating.
No matter how you look at it, adding a love triangle would be a dooming decision for the show.
I could understand the sentiment of Stolas and Vassago being a possible thing if we're referring to Apology Tour Blitz.
Back in Apology Tour, Blitz in no way was ready for a relationship and no matter how hard he tried to put that mask down, he wasn't able to open up completely without looking pained.
However, Sinsmas Blitz is genuinely the very best version of Blitz there is (so far).
Attentive
Caring
Fun-loving
Caretaker
Protective
Patient
Happy Cuddly Lizard 🦎
Suave and Romantic
And this version of Blitz is only able to exist because of the intensive character growth he went through in Apology Tour, Ghostfuckers, and Mastermind.
But the main reason why this Blitz is able to exist right now is because he has completely opened up his heart and soul to Stolas, and knows that without a doubt that he is genuinely loved by him (Stolas), Millie, Moxxie, and Loona.
Of course, Blitz has some more character growth to do, but right now, he's at much more healthier mindset than he ever was, and that's a miracle.
Stolas, right now, needs help and assistance and has some growing to do. And Blitz sees that and knows that. There is no better person to care for Stolas right now than Sinsmas Blitz.
I know Stolas is confused, lost, depressed, and is in desperate need of his antidepressants; but he is going to be fine as long as he is able to grow and adjust to his new way of life.
Right now, the man is now dealing with the fallout of every wrong thing he has ever done in the course of the series in genuinely the most fucked up way possible. Actions have consequences, and Stolas is now learning the gravity of that.
But I'm going to be blunt, the man made his bed, and now he only has Blitz. They don't owe each other a relationship, but if Blitz is giving 110% of his love and devotion to Stolas, and Stolas repays him by literally going, "I am now magically in love with Vassago who I have never had a fucking conversation with once in the entirety of two seasons."
That is going to ruin Stolas' character for a lot of people, and that is going to break Blitz in a way I fear he won't ever be able to recover.
Also, these guys are endgame. You can't get anymore endgame than the gayest- cheesiest Disney duet in the universe.
#helluva boss#blitzo#blitzø#helluva boss blitz#ro rambles#stolitz#helluva blitz#stolas#blitzo x stolas#stolas goetia
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Hello!
Sorry if this has already been asked before, but do you have any tips for writing Ford?
Thank you and I'm sending you a virtual hug <3 🫂
Hey!
Thank you so much <3
I'll put some of the stuff I find helps me below here. I find it really hard to describe sometimes so if it doesn't make sense or if you want clarification then let me know :)
Be familiar with the source material. This might sound silly but I've seen fics where the a/n is like 'yeah I haven't read Journal 3 or finished the show but I wanted to write-' .....Please. Just. Finish the show and the Journal. The Journal gives you TONS of useful insight into Ford's actual personality and I think you see a lot more of his mannerisms in it. Rewatch his episodes. Use what you've got of canon stuff.
Watch other stuff with JK Simmons in. It'll be helpful for you to pick up how he sounds and then make it easier replay his tone in your head and make your dialogue more accurate. I don't actually know how helpful this tip is bc I brought this up to my partner (RE: Hearing the character's exact voice in your head as you write) and they said this isn't really something people do, so I'm not sure if I'm alone in that technique or not....? (also sorry Mr Simmons but a lot of your movies are d o g s h i t! So, suffer through them as much as you can for the sake of research. Whiplash isn't in the bad pile though btw, it's one of the greatest movies ever made. Just watch that 14 times in a row until you can quote the entire thing by heart. Or use Portal/Cave Johnson audio. Much more fun.)
Know the Ford you're writing. Is he younger, likely at college? Is he research-era? Is he post-portal? Ford presents (at least to me) as multiple different versions of himself over the course of his journey. He has fundamental traits but the degree to which he displays/shows/acknowledges/applies them varies dramatically depending on where he is in life and who he's around.
Balance him. He's strict and sharp and sometimes rude, but not so much that he's devoid of all other emotion. He's funny and he likes to get silly sometimes. We're literally told that exact thing (quite a lot actually) in the canon material. This is especially relevant if you're writing post portal Ford or pre-Bill/pre-obsession-with-work Ford. Again, he isn't all the time but he definitely is more than people give him credit for. If you're writing Ford during his Bill obsession stage then he's going to be erratic and harmful, more than anything to himself. He's going to be acting poorly because he isn't in his right mind, so extend some sympathy to the guy. You don't have to make it okay that he might be lashing out and hurting others, obviously, but there's a reason behind why he's acting like that. He isn't just 'a bad guy'.
However, he is also an asshole sometimes. Everyone can be. He's very diverse. This diva HAS the range! (He experiences the world in a very different way to most other people, I think, so his behaviour can be perceived as difficult to 'normal' people).
Ford is never one emotion at a time. No character is. If he's angry, there's going to be a reason behind that anger and then several emotions behind that reason. Is he telling someone off because he's intrinsically and irrevocably an asshole? No! He might have been afraid of them getting hurt and snapped at them, and the fear shows as anger. Maybe he's frustrated with them and doesn't know how to appropriately address that frustration. There's always a reason.
If he is just being a bit of jerk, because that's plausible, it's not going to be the case that every time he does something that can be perceived as being jerky, that he is being so.
He is very full of love. For his family, for his work, for his friends, for his object of affection (these tips apply to him in general, if you're writing ship stuff or reader stuff or gen). He is full to the brim with it, he just struggles to identify it, to know how to show it and how to express it.
I think that for Ford, acknowledging his feelings is a bit like touching a hot stove: He recoils from them immediately because feelings are painful and intense, and they're hard to handle. They hurt and he's going to be loathe to keep touching the thing that reliably burns him every time he goes near it. Ford isn't very good at being bad at things and he IS bad at emotions. Really bad. They're not finite or logical or able to be proven like science is. They're artistic and available for interpretation, and they're often nonsensical. That's hard to get your head around for someone who likes to view everything from a black and white perspective.
If you think he has a disorder (autism, BPD, NPD, HPD, whatever) and you yourself don't have that thing, then RESEARCH THE FUCKING THING! Ask people who do have it for advice. Treat it with respect. People that have 'negative traits' from these types of disorders (and believe me, people do think you're awful if you have a personality disorder or autism) are not inherently bad people and them enacting their symptoms doesn't make them evil, provided they know how to acknowledge their wrongdoing post behaviour and try to do better in the future. If I split on someone and act out by starting a fight, it is my responsibility to return to that person and apologise for inappropriately starting a fight once I've cooled down. It can be hard, it can be done through gritted teeth, it will be uncomfortable, but it must still be done because I'm an adult. Obviously, when it comes to things like this, we're always working on a sliding scale because people with complex mental health issues don't always know they've made a mistake so they may not feel like they need to apologise/may not even know that they've done something wrong if they're in a really bad episode. That's difficult to get right however, and I would not recommend writing intensely detailed stuff like that unless you're very used to/accustomed to the disorder.
HE KNOWS HOW TO SAY SORRY and he knows when he's fucked up. This is a skill he's learnt better over time. I think it would be most relevant to use if you're writing him post-portal, though. I don't think this was a skill he had when he was younger/pre-portal and if he did apologise, it was something that had to be really dragged out of him.
Show that he's tender and capable of empathy. I think it was only really during his obsessional years that he locked off that part of his brain, and even then it was more out of pure delusion and trauma/self-protection than it was an inherent drive to be evil. He's never been evil, just misguided, betrayed and a bit of an ass at times.
He does more through action than through talk. In comparison to Stan, who is all mouth and uses verbal communication frequently, Ford is more physically inclined. He tries to be very esoteric but he gives away a lot in his behaviour instead of talking. I don't actually think he knows he does this and that's why he thinks he's super mysterious.
If you're stuck on a scene, play it out as him. Not yourself. It's not so much how am I going to do this, but how is Ford going to do this? What do you think Ford would do in that moment, according to what you've seen him do in the show?
Don't be afraid to make your own Ford, to a certain extent. I'm not writing about a strictly canon!Ford. He's informed by canon for the most part, but he's also my little barbie to dress up and be silly with. I don't necessarily have to solely make him do what I think his canon counterpart would do. I think canon!Ford is aroace/just not interested in romantic or sexual relationships. I don't think he has interest in much of the stuff that my fanon!Ford does, but this is fantasy land and Ford isn't real so we can do whatever we want. He'll feel more real if you give him his canon traits and then add some of your own spices to the recipe on top.
Be nice to him. This isn't advice, I'm just begging you LMAO. When you're writing him talk about his science stuff or whatever, have your other character (reader, I presume?) be engaged and happy to listen to him. I wouldn't be interested in someone who annoyed me with their passions, so don't write it as though he pisses you off because the audience can tell if you don't actually like him that much. They will pick up on how you really feel about a character as the author unless you're an excellent liar and it's really hard to actually lie like that and retain a sense of genuine love in your story. Just treat him with love and care. Treat any character with it.
Okay anyway WHEW that's a lot! Sorry. These are just things that I do and they're not my view of how to write Ford 'correctly' or anything, they're just what I find helps me characterise him for my fics. I'm sure plenty of people would disagree with my interpretation and that's fine, we're all receptive to art in different ways so there's not really a 'right' way to be for the most part. Just listen to what he tells you/shows you about himself and the way in which other characters speak about him truthfully.
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"Good" Acting
i have a theory that a lot of people say acting is "good" when they're emotionally moved by it, and a lot of cishet white people have a lifelong habit of not listening or empathising when minoritised people speak, so minority actors get called "bad" even when they display some pretty fucking amazing technical skill
#also a lot of female actors don't get recognised despite being fucking GOOD#that's not to say minority actors can't always be bad#of course we can#I'm just saying#sometimes#for SOME shows in particular#ahem ahem#some actors might get very heavily criticised for reasons that have very little to do with their actual technical skill#and more to do with the politics of those criticising them#also I'm not talking about me here#before anyone says that#I'm talking about some actors I know who have recently been criticised in my opinion quite unfairly#despite doing something very difficult#like oooohhh i dunno#playing two roles in the same show?#and doing it very well#displaying some amazing technical mastery of body and voice technique#but hey what do I know#oh wait I went to drama school and I'm a professional actor lol I DO know#I'm just a woman so I have to couch my expertise in cutesy self-deprecation lest people think I'm a bitch
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in remembrance of all deceased transgender individuals who have been misgendered through paleontology
trans liberation does not stop with death insp by @sweatermuppet
#i work at a museum and im just. thinking a lot about how plaques around the world say “skeleton of a young girl”#or “bones of a [blank] year old man”#the idea that there are probably so many trans people on display with incorrect gender is just. haunting. i feel for them.#even those who have been misgendered on their gravestones. immortalized incorrectly.#if someone found my bones in the woods science would call me a girl and tag me as such and that just does Not sit right with me#i understand it can be a necessity for certain research but language really really matters. my sex and my gender are not the same#my bones do not determine my identity#trans art
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The idea that GRRM is anti Tolkien is particularly funny because ASOIAF is sprinkled with rather intricate (and even passionate) homages to LOTR. And I can’t help but think of how Tolkien’s Fellowship, more specifically the Hobbits, may have inspired GRRM’s Night’s Watch. Jon Snow, for starters, is in many ways a combination of LOTR’s Frodo and Aragorn. And in the same way that Frodo, Sam, Merry, and Pippin are unexpected heroes in LOTR (because who looks to a hobbit as the face of an epic adventure?), Jon the bastard becomes the leader of a ragtag of socially disenfranchised men (in the form of the NW) who are anything but heroic. Sure there’s the odd knight or noble in there, but the NW is quite full of criminals and the very worst of the social order. The hobbits aren’t the strongest or the sharpest but they become the face of the fight against Sauron. And the NW, while being severely undermanned and under-equipped, has become the main force that stands against winter. GRRM even adds a love letter to Tolkien’s Sam Gamgee by adding his on Sam - Sam Tarly - who acts as a moral compass and counselor to Jon, in the same ways that Sam Gamgee is key to Frodo’s journey. And just like Frodo, Jon gets his very own pair of jokester friends, one of whine is even named Pyp. So it’s all very beautiful and nice, and we should talk about it more because it’s super evident that GRRM is a massive Tolkien fanboy. But I do have to say tho, GRRM’s take on Gandalf is exceedingly hilarious just because Melisandre is famously very bad at her job.
#asoiaf#lord of the rings#lotr#Gandalf - old and scary and very competent at his job#Mel - very old very scary and displays varying levels of competence#jokes aside another cool parallel between Jon and Frodo is that both#choose to embark on this dangerous journey because who else will do it?#Lots of arguing about who will destroy the ring who should have it etc and Frodo is just like#I’m ready to do what needs to be done even if it takes me to Mordor#Which is very similar to Jon who watches the rest of Westeros bicker about some stupid chair#And he’s willing to sacrifice his life and win no glory to save humanity in the face of an existential threat#And don’t think I need to get too much into Jon’s similarities with Aragorn because they’re plain as day#Also the iron throne and the ring of power having cool parallels?#Anyway asoiaf is so heavily inspired by LoTR and grrm is a such a huge fanboy#It’s insane that people think he hates Tolkien or whatever#jon snow#sam tarly#pyp#grenn#the night’s watch#frodo baggins#sam gamgee#merry brandybuck#pippin took#melisandre of asshai#gandalf#valyrianscrolls
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thinking about Jevin and xB and how they both bully Hypno, and, in the context of ships, interpreting it kinda as… Jevin is mean to Hypno because he has romantic feelings for him, kinda like the stereotype of “he’s bullying you because he likes you and has a crush on you” in school children. Meanwhile, xB is mean to Hypno because it’s funny, and any romantic feelings he has are purely coincidental. Is this making sense
#posts inspired by in jevin’s episode: etho suggesting something smart and jevin accidentally going “wow hypno’s so smart” LOL#technically because hypno was in his chat at the same time. BUT. i think its funnier if c!jevin just assumes anything cool is hypno’s doing#a subconscious bias that goes into everything. saying “ugh hypno smells” but secretly believing hypno is handsome smart funny etc#also: don’t get me wrong i think hypno and xb bullying each other is a way of displaying affection for them. but it isn’t xb#trying to respond to his own internal feelings. hypno is just bulliable#on a serious note the “he bullies you because he likes you” concept annoys me a lot irl as an autistic person who was bullied#i think people just bullied me because I was the nearest “weird” kid and they were unhappy with their lives so wanted some control#BUT in fiction + where its more of a mutual teasing where nobody is too upset. love that trope#hermitshipping#hermitshipblr#hypnotizd#xbcrafted#ijevin#jevno#hypxb#hhf#these aren’t the only hypno ships i have but they’re the two most common for him and the ones that fit the point i was trying to make
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Percy: You know, Carter said I might have BPD the other day. And then Jaz kind of backed him up on it. But I don't know, I think I just-
Grover: You do.
Percy:
Grover: I mean. What. Why would they possibly think that. You're so mentally healthy and you've never based your entire humanity on the tiny cluster of relationships you cultivate.
#bpd!percy#grover underwood#percy jackson#happy talks pjo#carter: hey Grover i think percy displays a lot of BPD symptoms. what do you think#grover thinking of his feral seal best friend percy who people feared would end the world to save his friends: sounds about right
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My other favorite flavor of riteru is Teruki trying his best, his absolute damnedest to woo Ritsu, flirting, flowers, not-so-subtle date offers, chocolates, compliments, until he just gets so fed up with Ritsu's obliviousness that he just comes out and SAYS it, full confession style, flowers and everything—
and Ritsu immediately locks up and goes, "Oh, I see how it is. Now that you know you can't have nii-san, you'll just go for the next best thing, right? The better Kageyama rejects you so you go for the second-place one instead!"
And Hanazawa, meanwhile, just: "...Otouto-kun, what the fuck are you even talking about"
#riteru#terurit#mob psycho 100#RITSU SEEING HIMSELF AS INHERENTLY UNDESERVING OF LOVE MY BELOVED#RITSU THINKING THAT ANYONE WHO HAS THE TRUE MEASURE OF HIS BROTHER WOULD NEVER CHOOSE HIM MY ADORED#RITSU BELIEVING THAT ALL THE PRAISE AND ADULATION HE RECIEVES IS UNDESERVED MY MOONLIGHT#hanazawa teruki#kageyama ritsu#teru is SO exasperated you guys#hes like no ive been trying to court YOU i want to kiss YOU#EVERYONE WANTS TO KISS YOU WHY ARE BLIND#and ritsu is just- *hackles raised like a cat* SUS!!#especially bc hanging out with ritsu tends to automatically mean spending a lot of time w mob as well#unless youre shou who just. comes in through the fuckin window like a stray cat to avoid family interactions#or actively seeks to ambush ritsu alone#bUT TERU IS ALSO FRIENDS WITH MOB#so ritsu sees hanazawa hanging around his brother & appreciating him & doing obvious romantic shit w both of them in the room so he ASSUMES#also bc ritsu has at this point trained himself to gloss right over flurting & obvious romantic displays bc otherwise people dont#leave him alone and he has to deal with rumors and everything else#better for everyone if he just. Doesn't See It™.
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thinking about the possibility of jesse's power boost during the final fight sequence coming at least partially from her status as a living legend among random bureau staff
#much like the service weapon following the director there is literally no evidence in game directly pointing to this that i can think of#it would just be neat#like i mean imagine being in that situation some horrible thing is turning all your coworkers into monsters youre pinned down#getting your ass handed to you and suddenly this random woman youve never seen before in civilian clothes literally *swoops* in#and fucking obliterates the lot of them in minutes displaying parautilitarian abilities orders of magnitude greater than any before recorded#shrugging off any injuries#and then she goes to the control point and apparently forces the building back to normal through sheer force of will#and then just fucks off to the next place?? maybe stopping to grab some sensitive documents on the way bc whos gonna stop her#obvs knowing shes the director would explain at least some of it but the automatic acknowledgement doesnt happen until she tells people#her name -- we see that several times#and shes certainly not stopping to chat with every ranger or security guard#anyways to my original point theres ample evidence that something making an impression on many peoples pysches will create/enhance#altered items/oops and if that wouldnt create a strong impression idk what would#there would definitely be a lot of hearsay floating around about her whether people are aware shes director or no#i just love thinking about the alternate perspective its so buckwild#would love to hear anyone elses take on it as well#control#control remedy#control 2019#original
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everybody claims to be a kashiwagi enjoyer but the only time anyone ever talks about him is to say he's the hottest piece of meat in the series
#this goes for a lot of characters but he's the one i pay the most attention to#this probably isn't even remotely profound to most people who follow me but it really feels like a massive proportion of fandom nowadays#only cares about fanwriting if it's within 1500 words and rated E#there are some notable exceptions of course but fuck there just doesn't seem to be any real feedback on anything anymore#unless it comes from people i share small discord servers with and chat to every day#the number of times i've linked my textual analysis pieces to people who say they're fans of the character it's about#only to get brushed off in favour of the next off-model drawing of him with his balls swanging#it's demoralising#i don't want to be the elitist ''nobody likes him the way i do'' jerk but this is a lot of the reason i haven't been as active on tumblr#on top of me (mostly) running out of games to play then going on holiday and coming back to my steam deck's display not working#(it's still in for repairs)#maybe when i get it back i'll liveblog yakuza 4 but i'm starting to wonder if there's a point in using tumblr#when the only people who engage are people i speak to directly on discord anyway#like why not just cut out the middleman at this point yknow?#well. guess i'll get back to my sawamura ikki rabbit hole#expect arai posting when i get my steam deck back#me#text#kashiwagi osamu#idk lol i don't want to put negative fandom commentary into the character tag but i DO want this to be in the tag on my blog itself#i don't think there's a way to do that anymore
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i am so tired of female characters being inherently written as ‘terrifying’ or ‘scary’ w no respect to their characterisation.
for one, it feels so fake. i know so many women irl (i am one!!!) and there are very few, of any, that i would categorise as ‘scary as is’. heck, even if we go by tempers—the numbers just don’t match.
but somehow in fics, every single woman is a terrifying force of nature bc that’s…somehow…the only way we can think of women? idk?
and also just, it’s such a two dimensional characterisation that i only see w the female characters. all men aren’t angry and hex-happy and scary all the time. they’re affable, chill, respond to situations thoughtfully instead of always resorting to violence.
i think it also bothers me bc the anger thing flows neatly into the v gendered carefree man child/stuck up fun sponge stereotypes that so many relationships are forced into. it’s just an icky dynamic all around.
and lastly,,,i don’t think it’s even normal for a character to be latently terrifying everyone all the time??? unless it’s a specific quirk of theirs??? like women aren’t dementors bro chill tf out
#i just get. so frustrated by how women are written#and ofc this isn’t just limited to fics#all books have these gendered tropes#and i get so annoyed#the whole thing anger also#is it just feels so disingenuous#bc womanhood & anger (and performing/displaying it) is so complicated bc of socialisation n patriarchy#women are simultaneously not allowed to be angry and portrayed as screechy harpies#and so when characters are written like that it just seems to reinforce these ideas#clearly it bothers me a lot haha#u just can’t escape it ykno? that’s my issue#it makes it’s way into writing on such a subconscious level#and people think they’re writing a strong female character#when really they’ve just introduced someone with anger issues#like. it’s NOT normal to always be scared of someone and their reactions ok?#and it’s not okay for women to always be parenting the people (men) around them#constantly checking to see if something is dangerous or if they’re fucking up or do all the responsible things like#how can u not see ur reproducing gendered notions of personality 😭😭#like plssss#and it’s fiction!!!#we are writing about magic and fantasy#but it’s hard for us to conceive of an alternative perception of womanhood? be so fr bruh#like. i guess what i’m getting at. is that women are also just. People. ykno? we can write them normally#just look at the woman around u for one and you’ll get so many ideas 😭#even if we just take anger#9 times out of 10 a fem character will be screaming and hexing and throwing her weight around#but you can be angry in so so many ways#and u can even be someone who doesn’t GET angry. not in such a way. who can’t hold a grudge.#just. i really wish we diversified the way we wrote women. s’all.#pen’s yapping
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Not even being dramatic when I say this is the 2nd worst gymnastics scandal after Sydney 2000. The FIG should be ASHAMED of themselves for their handling of this Olympics
#olympics#now everyone has to deal with the fallout that will happen once the ioc officially requests for jordan to give her medal back#i have had a lot of changing opinions about this floor final and this is what i now think#the judges did make a mistake about accepting Jordan's inquiry. but they haven't answered when the 1 minute starts#do they start a timer as soon as the scores are displayed#does the coach have to go to the judging area within the one minute? or does a form have to be filled out and a fee have to be paid?#transparency would be GREAT#they bumped ana's score from 13.7 to 13.766 and nobody has explained where the .066 came from#also sabrina got a 0.1 oob deduction but people have reviewed her routine and she never stepped oob#because her coach didn't inquire about this she doesn't have a chance at the bronze even though it should have gone to her to begin with#just a disaster all around#and also multiple gymnasts have gotten screwed by the judging + the judges haven't been consistently applying deductions#suni went out of bounds on vault at aa finals and didn't get a penalty#heard people talk about gymnasts going overtime at the bb finals without a penalty but simone got a .3 deduction for not saluting#but she actually did salute#one gymnast got a .3 deduction when it should have been a .1 deduction and that took her out of aa finals even though she should be there#no accountability from the FIG who caused this but the athletes are having to suffer from their mistakes#and i doubt anyone is gonna lose their job or be punished by this#and don't get me started on the amount of racism that is also at play with all of this#I'm sooooooo upset and the more developments that come out the more i think FIG should be dismantled#it's nof right to play with people's mental health like this
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Just a little follow up on that last post but just in general I think one of the reasons I've really stopped caring for railing on the Playtime devs... Is just because it feels like so much of it is just speculative nonsense trying to make every single thing they do secretly evil or lazy or bad. Why isn't it enough to discuss the Actual bad things they did [the fact they used to run a shady content farm before doing game work, the fact they tried to sell lore to their fans via NFTs, etc] it's hard for me to engage with content that rightfully critiques that bc oftentimes they then spiral into speculative 'so now we have to tell you why this moment where an employee blinks in the game is code for the devs secretly stole all their code from Bendy and kill babies as a hobby'.
Which makes me turn off my brain and not want to take any other points they make seriously, bc like I said if you lie to me to try and convince me of your point, I'm not gonna take anything else you say seriously bc I won't know if it's true or just something you made up anymore.
It honestly feels like everyone just keeps making shit up bc Poppy Playtime used to be the internet punching bag but now that the NFTs thing isn't the hottest topic to discuss about it anymore we all just need a reason to make fun of it and the people who like it. Which just kinda feels like unfair cringe culture, because if our real problem is the devs being greedy and shady why isn't the same effort put into roasting similar devs like the Bendy team? We can't suddenly say 'well actually being a bit greedy isn't That bad' when it's a team we like instead of one we all decided is 'cringe n bad'.
#ramblez#I hope all this makes sense Im not saying u cant dislike the devs of any of these games#just that the double standards on display really drive me nuts#sure playtime co tried to sell nfts but kindly beast laid off almost all of its employees and tried to sell its fans at full price a game#made by two people in three weeks last minute#if being greedy and lazy is really as bad as the internet says it is why arent the bendy devs the internets punching bag too#you cant have that sort of obvious double standard and then still expect me to think you take that topic seriously#bc when you only bring it up in relation to devs you clearly have a bias against and dont bring it up against devs ur bias towards#its clear that the greediness isnt actually the problem you care abt at least thats how it reads to me#anyways both of these devs suck but I dont think that means everyone at playtime co is secretly evil and in on it#a lot of effort is clearly on display in the writing animation coding etc and we shouldnt pretend its all awful just bc the ceos suck#same way I only level a lot of my problems with bendy towards mike n mood and not every single person who works on the games#bc clearly someone at JDS and playtime co cares a lot about what theyre making and thats really nice to see#its just that the ceos keep fucking up the product esp when it comes to Bendy-
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