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okay just coming back here to sadpost because iâm needing to rant about feelings
#i feel like iâm annoying literally everyone i talk to about my feelings#including my own therapist#but i genuinely have a feeling im going to die from my surgery#i know itâs likely just a trauma response because the first experience i had with surgery was when i was like 4 and my great grandpa died#he died on the table too so like. what if that happens to me#i also feel like my best friend is sick of hearing about my anxiety and sick of dealing with it all which fucking hurts#theyâve been incredibly distant and when i talked about it this morning they started responding with a word or two only#like i get it. these feelings are a lot. i know that all too well#i might just be projecting but itâs hard to not notice the difference in responses#yesterday and today they havenât responded as often or as quick as they usually do#and these past few days iâve been an absolute mess#i wish theyâd just. express how theyâre feeling about this all#if theyâre overwhelmed i wanna know!!!! i can vent to someone else about it!!!!!#i think i may just. stop#which i know is Not Healthy#but im doing the best i can right now and sometimes itâs not a healthy coping mechanism#anyway i just. hope things get better soon. i hope i feel better and less alone and isolated#with my other best friend being out of the country itâs just. too much#this is when i need support the most and with my best friend seeming annoyed and all of my other friends pulling back i just feel so alone#anyway im crying on the toilet and thatâs embarrassing#im sorry if you read all this#(phoebe if youâre reading this youâre not making me feel unsupported)#(if anything youâre my biggest support)
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I Canât Help But Wonder
Odysseus, who just violently and mercilessly murdered 108 or so men, who claims in the next song that heâs no longer a kind or gentle man, actively listens to Telemachus and kindly and gently responds to everything his sonâs expressed.
Telemachus asks, âAm I like you? Am I strong like you? Will you embrace me? Will you love and accept me as yours?â He says, âIâve felt so alone.â
And Odysseus claims him in a heartbeat, answering, âMy son. My boy. My sweetest joy Iâve ever known. I embraced you twenty years ago. Iâd do the impossible for you. Iâd die for you.â He says, âSeeing the men here today, I can only wonder what youâve been through for twenty years. My son, youâre already strong. Youâre my own. Youâre not alone. Iâm home.â
And then they fucking embrace.
#donât mind me Iâm just over here sobbing#something something Odysseus being an attentive loving father drenched in blood#the way he literally responds to everything#he says âyou are MY SON Iâve never stopped embracing youâ#âI may be deranged and unhinged after years of torment but Iâll be damned before I let you think youâve ever been unloved by meâ#the instrumentals reflect it too#Teleâs piano is hesitant and very faint during his part overwhelmed by Odyâs guitar#the moment ody starts singing the piano blends immediately#Odyâs got open arms for his son#epic the musical#epic#odysseus#epic odysseus#epic telemachus#telemachus#epic the Ithaca saga#the ithaca saga#ithaca saga
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they are Cancelling me for dealing with my grief as best i can . also for the vicious war Crimes
#book 24#the conversation between the gods at the beginning there is just this#greatest hits#all i say is vicious war crimes in a vague way#and you all start frothing at the mouth like rabid dogs#a lot of yall get the memo with the blorbo tags but also. seeing quite a few strange pulls#not exactly war crimes but Ok#sometimes normal vicious crimes can just be normal vicious crimes ok guys#can yall stop tagging this as israel u guys r fucking weirdâŚ.#if u see this and think it is a joke about actual fucking horrific war crimes and ethnic cleansing. u may be fucked up in the head#please be normal#will people stop commenting on this please. none of yall r funny#legendary warrior
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Michael learns of Jeffâs pizza from FNAF Into the pit
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#michael afton#oswald fnaf#Jeff fnaf#Jeffâs pizza#into the pit#fnaf itp#Jeff from Jeffâs pizza my belovedâŚ#I did finish into the pit btw#(which I might replay soon to get the best ending)#CAN I JUST SAY I love Jeff#Heâs just so chill#I like how he doesnât really stop Oswald at all#heâs actually really nice to the lil guy despite how exhausted he is#so needed any excuse I could have to draw him out#Michael curious what happened to Freddyâs after it shut down etc#SHOCKED that the Jeff in Jeffâs pizza is a real dude named Jeff#Jeff is once again unphased by Michael just think heâs sick#itâs funny cause Jeff is called âzombie pizza guyâ ny Oswald in the books#so truly Jeff and Michael might just match in vibes pff#also may draw Jeff again.. I think heâs neat#might update his design too here and there but I think I more or less got him down
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A whole new meaning to Gay Chicken.
(For: Anonymous raffle winner!)
#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#This prompt was super cute! Thank you for donating to the raffle!#And thank you to everyone who also donated!#Okay full disclosure I am on very little sleep right now so these next thoughts may be incomprehensible.#(That hasn't stopped me before. Sometimes the voices of the hat man give me good ideas.)#I have been vibrating with excitement for when we finally get to the chicken scene.#Because I really want to draw chickens! I love chickens! They are so optimally shaped for maximal cuteness.#That's a creature that was designed to be fluffy and sit on things. What is there to *not* love!#I know there is more significance to the whole exchange but really...I think Lan Wangji deep down just wants to hold cute creatures.#His hands are big and gentle and not meant for swords! They are made to be filling rabbit hutches with fresh hay and petting chickens.#This is to say; Lan Wangji's problems could all have been avoided if he was a farmboy.#He can still be a farmer. The two of them could run off into the country and start something new.#"True love is possible only - in the next world - for new peopleâ Is a disco elysium quote I think about for wangxian all the time.#Ah but that's a different tangent. Look forwards to more art tomorrow!
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greta gerwig really said. when this girl gets a little sad and confused by the weird and complicated and uncomfortable parts of being human and growing up, she meets god and sits at her kitchen table, drinks her tea, holds her hands. and she asks god if sheâs allowed to be happy. and god tells her she doesnât need her permission. she tells her sheâs going to be okay.
#barbie#barbie 2023#barbie spoilers#movies#greta gerwig#i just.#greta.................. may i study you#sorry i think i'm having a delayed reaction asdlhjfk#like i got a little misty in the theater but today i'm crying in my bed alshdjhf#too real!! too real.#no i cannot stop thinking about this
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Doomed by the Narrative.
Bug Fact: Each species of Firefly have their own pattern of light flashing.
First || Prev // Next
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#I think I may change the update schedule to 1 page a day. It's much easier to do.#I don't like clogging up my scrolling. but it's a small price to pay for my brain to stop screaming I need to hurry up.#That's not a promise though as some days I wont have time to draw. Or some days I may have 2 pages. This is just a rough estimate.#bread#art#my art#hollow knight#hollow knight knight#hollow knight hornet#hollow knight quirrel#hollow knight au#hollow knight humans#dewi#Dewi's Adventures in Hollow Knight
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âĄâ ď¸âŁď¸
#i think something possessed me when i drew solaria's arm#i cant stop lookign at it ....#she may be evil but her design fucking rules#this is applicable for all three of them btw#heinouss ouuughh my wife#i just think it would be very funny to see them interact#they would hate each other soo badđ¤đ¤#heinous is absolutely the type of person who'd have beef w her grandma#solaria butterfly#eclipsa butterfly#miss heinous#svtfoe#svtfoe fanart#star vs the forces of evil#kappart#my art
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etho said actually you _don't_ understand the intricacies of how tango is my boyfriend and bdubs is my ex
(and how tango and bdubs kiss too)
Scar: We went on that little adventure, you know! Etho: Yeah, yeah, we had our adventure, that's true, that's true. Scar: You disparaged your teammates. That's it, all right, no more spoilers. Etho: (laughs) Our team has -- our team has some weird dynamics this -- this season. Cleo: (overlapping) Really, Etho? Is there trouble in paradise? (pause) Who's third-wheeling with you, again? I can't remember. Etho: (laughs) Uhh. The -- Cleo: Genuinely can't remember. I know it's you and Bdubs. And...Tango? Tango. Tango. Etho: (loudly) Why -- Why is Tango the third wheel? Why -- why isn't Bdubs the third wheel? Cleo: Because it's you and Bdubs. I'm sorry. I understand how that relationship goes. Etho: (dissatisfied) Hmm.
#why is this what makes me post again#tangtho#etho#ethoslab#tango#tangotek#tango tek#bdubs#bdoubleo100#bangtho#< saw that in etho's comments. and. yeah#also consider that tango and bdubs were together first this series and etho is the third wheel#to the fucked up love hate thing they have going on#there's never been something more appreciating and adoring BUT biting each other as tangdubs#goodtimeswithscar#hermitcraft s10#wild life smp#wild life smp spoilers#(Sorry but some people have ethubs blinders on but that's so much less interesting to me than the whole.#Yes bdubs is pathetic and will always be at etho's feet. and Yes etho will pity bdubs and want him protected.#but tangtho (!!!) has SO much more to play with...to Me.)#and Why is etho being a tango girl so under-noticed??? lmao. it's there to be noticed All the time#hot mic! hot mic!#but also lowkey dreading ep2 lmao#anyway I'll regret posting this lol#(also I see you asks in my inbox. sorry I haven't replied yet <3 re: s7 oh do I have thoughts! it's where it truly kinda began... I started#forming a reply to you back in May I think but I've been kinda averse to posting/participating in the fandom side for a while. sorry I#stopped being a good place for your tangtho snippets </3 I've still been watching and enjoying the streams and the tango etho joy continues#just haven't really felt like posting)
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#fushiguro megumi#yuji itadori#itafushi#ryoumen sukuna#megumi fushiguro#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#gomen its hina posts self indulgent art hours#this is fr me first and foremost. any1 else liking it is just a bonus in my eyes#i may not be able to animate but i am so happy with these regardless i think they turned out great :') treat fr Me#rolling girl megumi u mean so much 2 me suddenly#fun fact ! actually the first vocaloid song i ever listened to. stumbled across an audio post on this very tumblr dot com#and it forever changed the course of my taste in music#so it alr has a soft spot in my heart fr tht reason but Also the lyrics Also th whole deal w wowaka and Now w megumi.....#rolling girl u have become too powerful#anyway in th context of canon n megumi choosing to live i am choosing to interpret the song the less depressing way#where the boy represents a saving grace rather than being a personification of miku's char's demons convincing her to end it#n the ending being her deciding to stop fighting on her own n instead accept help from those around her#but i did also want to pay homage 2 the interpretation of him representing her inner demons#so i have redraws of both yuuji And sukuna as the boy#choose ur own adventure if u will#clutches heart why does it fit so WELL what cosmic force decided tht miku and jjk should overlap at all i just wanna talk#clearly something has it out fr me
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the fact that charles was so gentle and sincere with his answer to edwin's confession is something I could never forget... because that's what love is about, right?
love is in the way charles could never hurt edwin on purpose, is in the way he protects him, in the way he knows when edwin needs to be seen; love is in the choice of every one of his words, in the way he knows that being honest is the only right answer.
there's still forever waiting for them, there's still forever waiting for charles to figure it out, to discover if he loves edwin in a romantic way too, and it doesn't matter if is not romantic in the end, because that it's just a side of the love they share.
i think is so important not to overlook something like that, not to let that pending romance overshadow the fact that they already love each other in every other way.
because in the end, we are talking about two boys that have experienced excruciating pain, that have seen horrifying things during all their existences, and in spite of it, or maybe because of it, are capable of loving each other in a way that's so pure and strong and relentless...
reducing the importance of it to a reciprocated romantic love seems so simplistic and inconsiderate to me.
#I swear they are making me cry if i stop to think about their bond for two long#so i may stop for my own sake#believe me i want for them to be a couple too. i just don't think it is gonna make their love more important that it alresdy is#you cannot compare any other relationship with the way they love each other#i'm just saying#dead boy detectives#payneland#paineland#paynland#edwin payne#charles rowland#dbd#liv rambles#painland#edwin paine#dead boy detective agency#edwin x charles
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Thatâs Not PaulâŚ
a âPaul is Deadâ short comic by meee
some notes under the cut
i wanna preface by saying i donât believe in the whole theory⌠i just like to indulge in it in an alternate universe sort of way ( not taking it seriously lol )
i realized drawing halfway in that i drew them in the sgt. pepperâs release day outfits ( which you can see here ) so it might not be accurate in terms of âreplacingâ Paul â ď¸
the boysâ speech bubbles are the color of their sgt. pepperâs uniforms ( hopefully itâs easy to read ! )
as for how i see the whole theory: i think george is suspicious of âPaulâ ( Billy ) and obvious doesnât want to call him that or accept him. Johnâs just happy he has âPaulâ back with him but does have his moments where he gets paranoid about the situation. And Ringoâs just happy to be there HELP
i might make more stuff regarding the theory in the future just cause itâs fun but weâll seeee thank you for listening
#the beatles#beatles#paul mccartney#john lennon#george harrison#ringo starr#mclennon#??? implied mclennon i guess!#billy shears#my art#paul is dead#paul is dead theory#thatâs not paul#sgt peppers lonely hearts club band#also happy mclennon Monday wooooo#you can see the progression of how i drew them bruh this is embarrassing PLEASE BE NICE i literally had this idea since like late May so#itâs been quite awhile but i think im getting better#if i was there id be like STOP FIGHTINGGGGGGG#maybe thatâs ringo#also im sorry if its in shitty quality just click on it i promise it looks better bro goddamnit
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the place me and my roommate were supposed to move into today was so disgusting and uninhabitable we just took our stuff and left and now we're gonna be staying at airbnbs and hotels until further notice/until we can find a new place hopefully quickly...........im in my homeless drifter era y'all!!!đđso if im not as active then thats why LMFAO
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#bro was literally trying to rent us a silent hill apartment#we already paid first and last too which was 2700k and he said hes not gonna refund us EVEN THO WE DIDNT EVEN MOVE IN!!#like first month i get BUT NOT EVEN THE SECOND MONTH?? all landlords go to hell#looking back at the og listing like.....yeah i can see why he never took pics of the outside......literally looks like a landfillđ#we're SO LUCKY that uhaul allowed us to keep our things stored with them bc if they insisted on our shit still being dropped off#we woulda been so screwed/forced to move in and then would have had to hire ANOTHER uhaul to move back OUT lol#AND I HATE MOVING the idea of unloading all of our stuff just to pack it again literally makes me wanna perish#but even tho i may be a homeless drifter rn that wont stop me from also working on my oneshot between searching for placesđ#the oneshot has a smut scene at the beginning LMAO and smut takes me forever to write so id been putting it off#but now that im over that hump (pun intended) i think ill be faster now brrrrrrrrrrr 9k words so far#its probs gonna be like 40k LMFAO maybe longer... idek#but also ill be hella busy trying to find a home so LMFAO who knows...chat im so fucking TIREDDDDDđ§ââď¸đ§ââď¸#my moms trying to see if she can fight him and get our money back but it aint lookin good bros#if i randomly open commissions then youll also know why LMAO
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ranting for a bit because the entire scene where elphaba tells glinda her secret makes me go rabid and actually makes me want to chew concrete because not only is it actually absolutely heartbreaking to see just how deeply elphaba believes all the horrible things her father reinforces; how she thinks she's responsible for her mother's death and is the reason for nessarose's disability even when it's literally not her fault in any way and is actually DIRECTLY her father's fault.
and just the fact that elphaba tells glinda all this and tells glinda her father hates her and that everything's her fault and glinda looks at her and she's absolutely heartbroken to hear elphaba saying all these things and she becomes the first person in elphaba's life to look her in the eyes and tell her that none of that is true and that it is NOT her fault, it was NEVER her fault despite whatever anyone said.
ik a lot of ppl see glinda's "it was the milkflower's fault" line as a very sort of shallow take by glinda (I'm explaining it poorly but ik some ppl wonder why she didn't just call out governor thropp directly) but I've got to disagree with that take because personally I think glinda heard elphaba talking, heard her describe her secret and heard how her father forced her mother to chew milkflowers constantly during her pregnancy all because he was afraid the baby would come out green like elphaba and she heard all this and she hears how elphaba thinks this is all her fault.
and yk they're roommates. glinda sees the way elphaba talks about her father and how even though she says that he hates her in an almost casual manner despite how she says he's justified for hating her, elphaba still loves her father and she still wants to do right by him and she still wants him to love her.
so glinda knows that elphaba will not listen to her if she straight up tells her that her father's fucking mental and completely wrong and that it was all his fault and that she's probably going to bludgeon him to death. she knows that elphaba will never accept this and she knows that right now it won't do any good for anyone.
so instead she tells elphaba it was the milkflower's fault. and she looks her in the eyes and she tells her this was never your fault you shouldn't think this was ever your fault and anyone who ever told you that it was your fault was completely and totally wrong and I need you to know this.
because the primary concern isn't about telling elphaba she's got a shitty dad the primary concern is telling elphaba that it is not her fault for simply existing. and to let her know that there is nothing wrong with her and that there is someone here, right now, who loves and cares for her so so much and wants her to know that. that there is someone who will hold her hand and who will tell her that they are there for her and that she is fine the way she is. that she is loved.
#wicked 2024#wicked#CHOWDAH THINKING ABOUT GLINDA AND ELPHABA FOR TOO LONG GOT ME FEELIN UNWISE#honestly without kidding#major props to ariana grande and cynthia erivo's acting#the tiny details make everything honestly#like the changes in facial expression and the way their voices change and all#10/10 we love to see it#makes me go feral#i will actually never stop thinking about it#and will just go analyze this shit for the rest of my life#but it's fine it's fine#dw about it ill be fine#i have to go to bed#but what about my 40000 page essay on them yk#glinda upland#elphaba thropp#gelphie#i despise the thought that glinda's vapid and stupid honestly#because we are consistently shown that that is not the case#she may be airheaded at times and she is extremely privileged which leads to her being shallow at times#but she is NOT stupid or unaware#we are clearly shown how she notices things and picks up on things#and IK she very clearly sees the complicated relationship elphaba has with her father#and she sees how vulnerable elphaba is being with her#and she decides to reassure her#because that's what she NEEDS rn#but she is going to sneak out later and kill governor thropp#that is a side quest for later yk
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ive seen a couple pokemon character color wheels around so i tried one with some of my favorites!
#not ALL my favorites I had to do a bit of switching around with some to fit the right colors hehe#halfway through drawing this i stopped and filled out an entire tier list of all the pokemon characters#brawly is just a silly guy what can i say#i dunno why ive always liked him! even though hes just a random gym leader#i wanted to include iris but leon's the king of purple so i had to put him there#oooh know what ill do another one w the girls!#weve got leaf may iris roxie... ill have to think of who else i like too#pokemon#pokemon art#color wheel challenge#aqua leader archie#magma leader maxie#blue oak#green oak#pokemon red#trainer red#rival blue#champion leon#pokemon leon#pokemon allister#gym leader allister#gym leader brawly#pokemon brawly#pokemon n#natural harmonia gropius#i will never be over the fact that thatâs his name#reguri#originalshipping#hardenshipping#my art
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Assorted Apollos from sketches I did today because he gives me intense brainrot and I also just want to post something
#my art#art#just some school doodles#greek mythology art#greek mythology#greek pantheon#greek gods#apollo#apollo art#artemis#yeah I just slightly changed her design from Hades game 2018#came up with apolloâs design on my own though#you may notice I yassified him from when I last posted my art of him#unable to stop thinking about greek mythology for 10 seconds
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