#i think he goes i did not do that. seek help. why sm i talking in the tags tonight

[pricemarshfield]

AUGH. i cant find the text for the book im talking about online. posting so i remember in the morning to take a screenshot and go batshit about it here

[rafesproperty]

Im BEGGING so hard they make Rarry happend (rafe and Barry) BECAUSE LIKE EVEN THE CAST SHIPS ITTTT

IM THE BIGGEST RARRY SOLDIER ON EARTHHHHH I LOVE THEM SM LETS DISCUSS THEM.

The thing is that if one of them was a girl everyone in the fandom would go insane over them, but since they are boys it probably won’t even happen.

THESE ARE NOT‼️ PLATONIC LOOKS. The eyes, chico, they never lie

Topper is me asf

They would literally make so much sense. The thing is Barry is so special to Rafe in so many ways. Notice the way Rafe lets Barry talk to him (sassy, making fun of him, Barry literally going “let me lead and SHUT UP” and Rafe just going “ok🥰”, Barry going “I’ll knock that J-Crew lookin ass out” and Rafe just smirking and blushing). Rafe would NOT let people speak to him the way he lets Barry speak to him… like ever 😭 Also when Barry told him he’ll lead it was when they went after the Pogues and it’s something Rafe very much cared about. HE’S A PROACTIVE TYPE OF PERSON, he would not let someone he doesn’t 100% trust “lead,” he’s a control freak. Yet here he was, just going “okay,” trusting Barry with something so important to him.

Barrys presence is so important in Rafes life and I feel like neither of them really realises but it genuinely is. RAFE ALWAYS RUNS TO BARRY FIRST. He would NOT let anyone know he killed Peterkin (Topper and Kelce are his closest friends and he’d never tell them), yet here he was on Barrys floor, confessing to him, allowing him to see his breakdown AND —

BRO DON’T EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THIS SCENE OMFG —

He slept AT BARRYS when he had probably the worst day ever (Ward screaming “Rafe you fucked us!” at him, him drowning Sarah and Topper beating him up happened in the same day) and the next scene we get is Rafe waking up on Barrys couch. I imagine him going into absolute panic in the middle of the night and not wanting to go home to his dad, the only place he can think of being Barrys… so he goes to Barry. We were so, so robbed of a scene where Rafe shows up in the middle of the night saying “I didn’t know where else to go” with a beat up face and Barry going “Shit, country club.”

I’m just convinced Rafe felt safe enough with Barry so he always ran to him.

Their first meeting in S3 as well. I’m pretty sure that was the first time they saw each other since Barry betrayed him in S2 and Rafe was just okay and calm and ASKED BARRY FOR HELP AGAIN. Rafe holds grudges like crazy, yet he trusted him enough after his betrayal to seek him out again. Like nothing ever happened. And Barry helped him again. Because Barry always helps him (he claims it’s just for the money but the thing is he was willing to murder for Rafe and that is not something he was comfortable with the entire show, I’m genuinely convinced he would not accept that offer from anyone, murder being over the line for him… yet for Rafe? Yeah).

We could see Barry being uncomfortable by Rafes murderous temptations in a few scenes (especially the one where he tried to drown Kie), but the second Rafe asked him to kill Ward he was like ALRIGHT I’LL DO IT FOR YOU. Also Rafe was so hyperfixated on his dad, it was the most important person in the world to him, so him asking Barry to do it just shows the level of trust. He asked Barry to free him of this burden.

Also Barry DOES NOT do it only for the money. In Season 2 when Rafe comes over to pick up his drugs and asks Barry for “a piece” (a gun), Barry giggles and makes jokes UNTIL Rafe says “Do you realise it’s either me or him (John B) in this situation, right?” and in that very moment Barry switches and goes full angry protective mode and pulls out an entire bag full of guns 😭 And is fully ready to go with Rafe and to protect him and shoot a Pogue for him. But Rafe did not ask for help. He didn’t offer him money. He just asked for a gun. Barry did all of that on his own and he went with him on his own. I think that’s also why Rafe told him “You know I’ll take care of you,” he himself was surprised someone was willing to protect him and go with him out of their own free will.

At the end of S1 Barry went with Rafe after the Pogues because they owed him money, but he still handled Rafes mental breakdown pretty well (NO other character ever managed that, not even his family), he cracked some jokes and got Rafe out of the panic state by motivating him to go do something about it, and joining him.

Also the shit they say to each other…

“You know I’ll take care of you.”

“I own you now.”

“Tranquilo?”

“Tranquilo, baby.”

Barry casually saying “How does that feel, babyboy?” in S1

THE WAY THEY LOOK AT EACH OTHER?!

Nice try mf I know love eyes when I see them

Another thing is their dynamic is absolutely perfect. Rafe, a bit psychotic, always taking everything seriously, grumpy asf and Barry, sassy mf that takes nothing seriously and is quite literally the only person that knows how to handle Rafe and how to talk back to him.

PLUS the actors shipping them is so wholesome and funny tbh (at least we won’t have another Jiara accident uhm…)

They also ADMITTED VERY PROUDLY that they send Rarry edits to each other 😭 “You know, whenever I miss Drew we’ll run back the tiktoks” dnsjskks

Drew literally going “Nick Cirillo who plays Barry in the show, my right hand… also my lover”

That’s boyfriends right there

One more thing I’d like to add is Barry was so judgy of Ward when he came to see Rafe (in S2 right before Rafe tried to run away and Ward came to warn him from the police), now it might be because Ward beat him up in S1 orrrrrr because he simply saw Rafes state (Rafe probably told him that his dad yelled at him that day when he slept over) and didn’t like his dad a single bit. I choose to go with the protective bf option.

Again, if one of them was a girl it would be one of the most popular ships just bc of their dynamic and banter and chemistry (JJPope situation all over again).

I hope Drew and Nick manage to sneak in a little bro kiss in some of the upcoming seasons (like that scene from Deadly Class when Marcus is randomly bro kissed), feel like it’s something they would 100% do 😭… Imagine drunk Barry going “Country cluuubbb, mwah” and Rafe just 🧍🏻

And I’d love to continue with more pics and edits but Tumblr won’t let me add more so we’ll end it here.

But they genuinely mean the world to me. I think a lot of people are shipping them as a joke but I’m IN LOVE with their ship and dynamic and the bond between them.

That’s all ty for reading 💕

[class-1b-bull]

What I think class 1b were like as toddlers because I cant stop thinking about it <3

Awase - definitely got in trouble a lot for welding shit together, he would welding his toys together to make these big as sculptures to give to his dad and it would be so cute but such a pain in the ass at the same time. He tries to be helpful with his quirk though <3 one time he was holding the light for his dad (universal experience) and welded the light to his forehead only to blind his dad when they looked at eachother.

Sen - he was a good kid for the most part but I think he would test peoples patience and pick fights with litterally everyone. Like some kid down the street looked at him wrong so now hes chasing him down the street screaming with a handfull of water balloons. Has 100% threatened to drill people with his quirk <3 took pictures of anything and everything with his moms phone.

Kamakiri - spent 100% of his time outside catching bugs or frogs or something. His mom would constantly get onto him for bringing bugs and shit into the house so he would go outside with a little grass hopper in his hands and sulk on the porch </3

Kuroiro - he would mostly keep to himself and just draw or play alone simply because he preferred it that way but the one game he always loved playing with others was hide and seek, only because he was a GOD at that game. 100% made a babysitter almost cry before because they thought he ran away or something when he was just hiding in the shadows (quite litterally)

Kendo - pure angel. Nice to everyone and everything and helped with anything she could help with <3 she seems like the type of kid that would hold your hand or something if you were sad or do something for you that makes her happy and omg I love her sm <3

Kodai - quiet kid. She did 100% use her quirk oh her toys though. Like she would take a small dino figure and size it up to take up her entire room to be more accurate to the game shes playing. Mostly kept to herself and was akward around others but definitely liked helping <3

Komori - problem child. She grew mushrooms everywhere and would pretend to make mushroom soup with the mushrooms she grew <3 definitely had to go to the hospital before because 'pretty mushrooms cant be poisonous' (the pretty mushroom was in fact poisonous)

Ibara - had one of those pocket bibles that she carried with her all the time. Stereotypical christian kid <3 not much I can say tbh exsept I feel like her vine hair would get caught on stuff a lot

Shishida - such a big kid for his age but shy asf. Hid behind his moms leg when he met new people. People constantly thought he was a short teen for how hairy he is when hes like 5. Idk why but he gives me 'doesent like loud noises' vibes. Asked his mom for shades to look cool and they stayed with him ever since

Shoda - shy kid that hides behind his moms leg 2.0. Idk why but I feel like he was a leash kid. Not because he was a problem child but because he would just wander off and no one would notice. Almost got cps called on him mom like 12 times for child neglect because he just walks away lmao

Pony - she the kid that walks up to strangers at pools and stuff and says shit like "my mommy says that her sister is a narcissistic bitch that deserves to rot in hell, watch me do this, its really cool!" Then she just jumps in the pool while whoever shes talking too goes through the 5 stages of grief.

Tsubaraba - problem child. Definitely was one of those kids that made up jokes that dont make sense (He thinks theyre funny plz laugh) also a very talkative kid. Not in the pony way but he would walk up to you and tell you everything he knows about dinos <3 ran out of breath quickly when he was a kid (cuz his quirk) so he had a little inhaler on him all the time

Tetsutetsu - outgoing popular kid that everyone likes. Everyone wants him on their dodge ball team <3. Knew different cuss words but not what they ment so he would say shit like 'son of a fuck you bitchin butt fart' or shit like that. Almost bit his tongue off before because he was talking while eating. (I wanna say he learned his lesson but he did it again a week later.)

Tokage - really liked legos as a kid. Her entire bedroom was just legos and her pet lizard named after some character from a movie she liked or smthn. She would confidently shout the wrong awnser in class (thinking shes right) and get hella confused when the teacher says shes wrong. Pony type talkative <3

Manga - his parents fridge never had enough room for his drawings. The only trouble he would cause is drawing on the walls or his bed sheet and stuff like that. He was pretty good at controlling his quirk but he was still really careful to not say certain things that would lead to house fires or his family being crushed lmao

Honenuki - adorable kid. He would constantly go up to strangers and compliment them <3 he would steal his dads ties and stuff and walk around with them on to feel like an adult and it was always so cute. Definitely the type of kid thay would take his moms phone to take pictures of random flowers and shit.

Bondo - taller and bigger than the rest of the kids his age. He preferred playing with bugs and other small animals than the other kids. One day he came home from school and his mom saw that he had a rabbit? For some reason? Next thing ya know they have a pet rabbit called carrot stick and it was his best friend <3

Monoma - he was cannonly teased and made fun of a lot as a kid for his quirk so I think he had some hannah montana type double life. Like at school he was being bullied and kept to himself and just kinda sit there and take it but at home he would be talking about how he rulled the school and was treated like a king there because of how awesome he is </3

Reiko - watched a lot of horror movies as a kid. Like her babysitter would be like 'you cant watch that its too scary' but then the babysitter is the one that ends up scared while reiko is drawing a little doodle of whatever movie monster is in front of her <3

Rin - angel child. Definitely shy but will talk your ear off if you ask him about dragons <3 his mom has the entire 'how to train your dragon' movie franchise memorized because of how often rin would watch it. He would pick flowers (or weeds that look like flowers) on his way home from school and give them to his family.

They were all so sweet im gonna cry </3

[goldencuffs]

omg thank you sm for the update! I loved the latest chapter sm 😭❤️👌💯👏 the fact that Laurent and isander's incompatibility is SO blatantly visible now lol. I mean it was apparent from the start if one looked closely enough but now it's just like 😬 ykwim and on the other hand we have Damen who is not only attracted to Laurent but also wants to tc of him sm and Laurent wanting to be seen and kinda be there for Damen as well but since it's all from Damen's pov it's hard to show that ig not that Laurent has got many opportunities to get close and really spend time with Damen without isander hehe.

The slowly worsening condition of Damen is painful to watch.. him thinking it is his punishment and not seeking help from any other person in his life .. (I mean hello? Kashel? Nik?) he's being so deliberately neglectful towards himself.. and at the same time Laurent is suffering as well. So far from home with no friends and a shitty bf (can you tell I dislike isander?) who can't give two shits and is being a jerk and top of that he's attracted to his bf's father and it's hella confusing and complex 😩 at least Damen apologised (tho he needed a jealousy pill to finally get the guts to face laurent) and good on Laurent for not immediately forgiving Damen.. he was rather cruel tho I understand he was panicking as well hehe..

All this to say that I really love the fic and I honestly don't know where you'll take it ... maybe they'll get to talk and clear the air and maybe they'd bone to get it out of the system but idk if they'll end up together coz 👀 it kinda is a complicated situation (understatement of the year) and what are they gonna do if it did turn out to be more than just physical chemistry (which I know it'll be) ig I'll just have to wait to see but yeah I wanted to ramble all that.

If you made it this far then thank you for listening to me ramble sorry for the passage lol. Can't wait to read more and have a nice day!

ARE YOU KIDDING ME I LOVE YOUR RAMBLES!!!!!!!!!!!!! 😭💖

listen i love this entire breakdown and i love you!!! i completely agree, it's a complicated, messed up situation from ALL angles which is why damen is going through it!! 😋 also laurent definitely doesn't stay away for long - how can he?? the next chapter goes into all this more - the two of them constantly skirting boundaries and seeing what they can get away with hehe

[morkleemelon]

nct ideal types 2021 :: dream

127 version | this has been on my mind for a bit and I wanted to write it down- these will consist of confirmed facts and then my own thoughts. the latter part is, as it sounds, strictly from my opinion and observation and may well not be accurate. this is just for fun! proceed~

mark lee:

confirmed: likes someone with long black hair who is nice (on air nct show)

my thoughts:

he moved to korea to train when he was like 13 and has been busy as a bee ever since. I don’t know his life but I feel like he hasn’t really had the chance to date much if at all yet. this brings me to think he would prefer someone who can lead in the relationship

he grew up christian and seems to still hold those ideals. although if he really liked someone it wouldn’t be an issue, this makes me think he would be drawn to someone with similar ideals

he laughs a lot and gets along well with people who are funny (haechan, yuta, jungwoo). I think that he would like someone with a good sense of humor

he doesn’t spend money lavishly and prefers to use what he has (i.e. the jansport backpack, not having youtube premium, keeping all the gifts he receives in his bag). all of this points to him preferring someone modest and not wasteful

mark got jisung a bracelet that costs over $1000 for his birthday (what a good bro I’m cry). he likes songs like ‘I got you’ by Bazzi (mark superm quarantine playlist) which is about spoiling a girl. this all makes me think that although he is frugal for himself, he likes spoiling others and would like to spoil his significant other

From Japan official book vol 1, mark said he wasn’t sure what his ideal first date would be, but he answered that it would be to go to a restaurant and have a good meal because he likes eating. So someone who’s down for simple dates and perhaps also good at cooking (because our boy can’t even make an egg)

From the same magazine, he said he doesn’t care about fashion and would like his partner to “wear what she likes”. Doesn’t seem like he goes for style much!

huang renjun:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

I strongly feel like he would want to feel like the ‘man in the relationship’. he would want to feel protective over his partner and that’s why I think he would adore someone smaller than him

he’s full of chaotic rage energy (in the cutest way that would never actually hurt anybody). to balance out these vibes, renjun would match well with someone calm and sweet

looks-wise besides being a petite person, I can envision someone very cute, probably with shorter, un-dyed hair

renjun is into sci-fi movies and shows and confirmed he believes in aliens (weekly idol). I think he’d be drawn to someone with a big imagination who likes sci-fi as well

lee jeno:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

jeno is really really shy (when he met yeeun from clc to mc together, they said they couldn’t even talk at first because it was so awkward). I think jeno would like someone more outgoing but not overwhelming

I feel like his ideal type is literally like renjun- a little fiesty and literally, little. jeno has mentioned that he loves renjun’s voice too, so perhaps he would be interested in someone with a nice voice

he works out a lot and likes physical activities like biking and going to the gym. I think he’d like someone who values fitness and health too

he loves animals and has 3 cats of his own despite being allergic. because of this, I think he’d like a person who loves animals too

lee haechan:

confirmed: someone with a nice voice/ singing voice. someone with shorter hair

my thoughts:

he’s so extroverted and craves attention from whoever he’s around, and that wouldn’t be an exception for the person he likes. he’d want someone who looks up to him and gives him attention

he’s still really young and even enjoys movies like the kissing booth (I’m sorry I had to bring it up because I think it’s important). ignoring the actual bad parts of that movie, I think he’s interested in that young love, dancing together at the arcade, kissing in the rain, come over to his house in secret, type relationship

haechan seems to be especially close friends with foreign swaggers line (mark, johnny, jaehyun) so I’m thinking that perhaps he likes the western vibe

during oshiete Japan, he and Yuta were the only ones who chose to give three roses to a hypothetical ‘lover’ (they had to choose between 4 types of roses to give). the psychologist said that this means haechan is “flirty and attention-seeking” which makes a lot of sense. this adds to my point that he would like someone who gives him a lot of attention and good reactions

during a recent fansign (1/23?) OP asked “what are things girls do that makes you flattered?” to which he answered “when I did something wrong and get scolded, that scary look makes me flattered”. although it’s a bit awkwardly translated, this insinuates that he likes it when he gets scolded by a girl. *jaemin voice* sexayyy. thus, I’m adding that haechan likes a someone strong headed and not afraid to scold him

na jaemin:

confirmed: n/a

my thoughts:

he has a sort of 180 personality where he’s either really energetic or prefers to be in the background. jeno says that jaemin hardly talks at the dorms after schedules because his social battery is dead. this is classic introvert behavior so I think he would vibe well with someone patient and calm

he’s the sweetest boy and he volunteers often for unicef and was even cast to sm while he was volunteering. he’d appreciate someone who shares similar values and likes helping others

I think he often doesn’t think or worry about himself. he goes out of his way to please others and help others and often disregards what he actually wants because of it (i.e. taking his shirt off at the dream show even though he was uncomfortable I’m so sad poor baby). he needs someone who is thoughtful and who reminds him when it’s time to stop and think of himself

looks-wise, I’m gonna be completely honest when I say I think he doesn’t go for looks. personality and morals are key

his favorite member of snsd is tiffany. he never confirmed if she was his ideal type, but perhaps he’s attracted to her bubbly, girly personality

zhong chenle:

confirmed: he’s only into girls (vlive)

my thoughts:

this may be a stretch, but in a live he was doing, chenle was talking about which member of wayv princesses was the prettiest. he said something along the lines of ‘ew they all looked weird’ but later admitted that kun was probably the only one who ‘looked okay’. kun was snow white which brings me to my first prediction which is that lele likes the classic chinese beauty (black hair, pale skin, elegant, gentle)

chenle loves winning and he loves to be praised. although his mbti shows that he’s an introvert, he would crave the full attention of his s/o. someone who looks only at him

during the from home live, he was asked to act out a scenario where he accidentally ate his girlfriend’s food. haechan (who was acting as the girlfriend) went “buy me 10 more” and chenle just went “okay :)”. ngl, kinda fell in love with him then but this makes me think he’d want someone to spoil

park jisung:

confirmed: likes it when people call him 오빠 (oppa) - take this how you will

my thoughts:

debuting at 14, I’m quite sure he hasn’t had the opportunity to have a relationship yet. this being said, he also seems quite innocent and shy which is why I think he would prefer someone who knows what they’re doing and isn’t afraid to speak their opinion

just from vibes, I think he would wanna be with someone like a best friend to him. someone who’s down to just hang out and talk, play video games and watch movies etc.

he’s quite tall (the tallest in dream) so I think he’d actually be ok with a tall person maybe even around the same height as him

maybe not a definite need, but I feel like he’d be impressed by someone who can dance well since dancing is such a big part of his life

[bunnygotchi]

🖊

thank you sm for the ask!!! putting this under a read more bc oh my god i rambled so much. also tw for mentions of stalking and murder (my bad)

my favorite oc who i can't stop talking about rn is named adam. he is a transmasc mortician with agoraphobia! he is about 26 years old, 5'5", skinny (like 110 lbs), with light brown skin, curly short black hair, and brown eyes. if you're wondering why i'm being so detailed it's because i wrote a story about him for a screenwriting class and i have a 7 page character bio on him that goes into little details that i now want to utilize and share lol. adam is super introverted! part of this is due to social anxiety, tying into his agoraphobia, but another is just a lack of interest in socializing. he never had the desire to make friends, or to form relationships. i would say he's somewhat self centered, but in a weird way. he doesn't think he's like the greatest man ever, he just thinks that he's skilled and smart (which is true) and that he only really needs himself. he became a mortician not for the desire to help others grieve, but just because he found that he was certain he could pick up the craft easily. and he did! he's good at it. he's detail oriented and meticulous. but he's selfish enough to not care about helping families grieve, despite his profession adam keeps to himself and is incredibly awkward to talk to. he's overly blunt and doesn't emote very much, and he just generally has very little social skills, so attempting to even just do small talk with him is a whole thing lol. he also doesn't really care about nice things. he gets good money in his profession, but actively chooses to stay in a small, cheap apartment that's decorated very modestly. he likes to save money and essentially never spend it. sometimes he likes to paint, but it's mainly underwhelming abstracts. i know these are a lot of little details. i love him very much. now i'll talk about more in depth stuff lol. adam was created after my partner and i finished watching hannibal, and were interested in making ocs for serial killers. so in the typical canon, adam becomes a serial killer. that might seem cliche given the everything about him but well. his partner did it first, he's more just an aid to it all if anything. my partner and i don't actually go into the serial killer direction with him much anymore. he's just kind of weird LOL his partner. oh boy. his partner is my partner's oc, named avery. for a short version, avery (they/them) is a well known, well liked, and wealthy lawyer. they're known for never losing a case and seeking justice. this is not true though! they're a crook, and often take cases for murders they committed, then pin it on others successfully lolz. they are also an adrenaline junkie, and after they couldn't get that rush from sky diving or cliff jumping or whatever, they just decided murder was the place to go. very awesome. bringing them up bc they're a big part of adam's character - i promise i'll be done soon. avery is absolutely obsessed with adam. when the two met, they started stalking him, finding out every single little thing they could about him, while still just appearing very calm and smooth during their next few meetings. when this gets revealed, adam is like. flattered. ok freak. (also no i don't think this is a good thing to be irl this is purely for the cool fictious vibes). adam had a whole crisis meeting them bc he doesn't know what love is, and hardly knows how to make relationships of any kind happen in the first place, so it was like a whole mess. but in a codependant, dysfunctional, sexy way. they are in love and insane adam is only emotional with avery, as later in the relationship especially he can't help but emote heavily and get easily embarrassed at everything, since such intense emotions are a lot for him! still, avery becomes his whole life and in some instances, my partner and i have said sometimes that he quits his job and essentially just becomes a house husband for avery which is awesome bc he isn't good at cooking or cleaning. ok i'm done now. sorry for being autistic i love this guy and his partner so much

[disenchantedfaerie]

So many things to say and so many things not to say.

Fandom: This fandom is toxic. There is no other way to put it. It’s toxic from top to bottom, left to right, diagonally. My partners and I discussed this today because we were bored. We whole heartedly believe it starts at the top and by top I mean her majesty of the written word. Of course, now that’s she’s dropped the self diagnosis of “somewhat autistic,” you really can’t say anything because then you’re a horrible person. But she uses that as an excuse for her snark and condescending attitude. Hey. Whatever lady. I don’t follow you, I don’t read your books and aside from the few things I see, you’re no better than the leads. The difference is you’ve been milking the fandom for 30 years; people are waiting for you to finish and you can’t even complete the one that was supposed to be done last year. Yet you continue to yak about this side thing or that side thing and really, I don’t need a JF origin story. We’ve gotten that enough in the 9 other flipping books. You see the pattern here tho folks?

The female lead: She has done her share of being flippant and rude to people on her SM. She becomes sweet as pecan pie on Thanksgiving when she wants to want to launch something though. She was the one who wanted to end the shipper rumors and so IFH happened but sadly when you skirt around a subject and don’t say your partner’s name or take photos of them/with them and only take photos with your male lead in what could be construed as compromising positions - yeah. People will continue to buy what you sell to them. I’ve said it time and again, they are the biggest trolls in the fandom and do more to fuel the ship, even now that she is married to another man who is not the male lead, than anyone else. That’s all I have to say about her. She doesn’t owe anyone anything, none of them do actually, but sometimes being kind goes out the window with the lot of them.

His highness: Where to begin? His “fans” come all the way over here to our little corner of tumblr to hide behind Anon Asks to spew their hate and vitriol to those of us who seem to have opinions that differ from theirs. Namely, he is not a god. He is not someone we worship. We simply come together over coffee and tea and trade stories of current events and talk about the what if’s. My opinion of him is based on his own actions. Maybe all these “fans” want to blur the timeline of events and take it as gospel from his highness that he went on his luxury vacation before the travel ban while the rest of us cancelled ours and many lost jobs and incomes. Well that’s simply untrue. When he was called out, knowing he was wrong, instead of being the sweet, humble, normal guy that everyone says he is, he doubled down, became rude, flippant, went on a blocking spree, posting articles about COVID being no worse than the flu. Did his traveling companion get serious threats. I believe so. I believe he has as well from the same kind of people that come here to our little corner of tumblr, keyboard warriors that hide behind their anonymity and spew hate and vitriol. I also believe that people have gone to Glasgow and stalked his flat, which, come on people. That’s wrong on so many levels. I lived in LA for many years. It never occurred to me to drive to Malibu, Hollywood Hills, Laurel Canyon to actually stalk the celebs. Why? What’s the point? So I can see them in their grungy clothes looking like real people? No thanks. I don’t have that kind of time or energy. Thus the 4 page rant. Hey good for you dude. It’s about time you grew a pair actually but what did it accomplish? Nothing really except people stopped talking about his covidiocy. Why? Not because he wasn’t a covidiot and quite frankly still is (remember, he’s the king of “it’s not worse than the flu”) but because he pulled the mental health card. I think he does have mental health issues. I still have high hopes that some day he will realize this himself and seek the help he needs.

Now these Anons come to our little corner of tumblr and drop their comments saying things like “I hope you get COVID and die. It’s because of you he did his 4 page rant. The people you call mommies are his real fans.” Mmmkay. I used to blindly defend him. I used to buy into his shilling and his ever so sweet exterior, I even bought into the “best fans ever” bullshit. You want to blame us who never name him, her or the one who “writes” in any blog, never hashtag him, her, or the other one or the show, never interact with any of them on other platforms of SM for his 4 page rant, his mental illness, all of his flaws and accuse us of not being fans - fine. He who is without sin, cast the first stone. Perhaps you need to sit back and take a long look at yourself in the mirror as well. Wishing a deadly disease on people, making threats, spewing hatred - isn’t this the exact same thing that was done to his highness and you were all up in arms about it, yet you come here and do it to others and think that’s okay. What makes it okay? Because you’re defending your favorite star? If this is what it means to part of this fandom, part of his fandom specifically, no thank you. When y’all can walk on water, then you can judge me. Until then, judge not lest ye be judged.

I walked away long ago but I’m still human and still have an opinion, everyone does. If he’s your favorite celeb then perhaps you should follow his advice the next time you see something you don’t agree with - suggest you ignore. He’s the one that started the entire “be kind” campaign right? Or does that only apply when it’s comvenient? If you think this is the sort of behavior that will get you on his Christmas card list or the top of his potential list of never ending “girlfriends” - well, good luck. At some point this man (again, he’s a man, he’s flawed, he makes mistakes and he’s not perfect) will fall from the pedestal his fandom have put him on and then where will you all be? He has been unapologetic for all the things he’s done. He continues to shill his swill and all his other crap when a lot people can’t make ends meet. He continues to ask for donations to HIS causes instead of asking people to take care of themselves or their own communities. I love Scotland as much as anyone but my money right now is better served in my community. I ignore most of what they all do, following his own suggestion of ignoring, but things cross my dash and I do not condone or appreciate threats. I didn’t condone it when the threats were directed at him, his traveling companion, or anyone else nor have I ever made a threat against anyone.

I wish to be treated the way I treat others and if you can’t do the same, if you can’t engage with me in a calm, adult manner, I don’t have time for you. You can have a differing opinion than me. It’s okay. We don’t have to agree but we can respectfully disagree and discuss, not argue, about who’s right and who’s wrong. It isn’t cut and dry, black and white. We can agree to disagree and still be civil and still be friends.

My Scotsman added this: When will the games end, when will the games stop? I had high hopes for his highness to lead by example and be better but he’s a follower and he followers her majesty’s lead. He follows his business partner’s lead. He sees her milk the fandom, so why can’t he and he does an excellent job of it. His fandom vote for meaningless awards until their fingers bleed, buy all of his merchandise, buy anything he sells up to and including the ship. Is there an ounce of him being a genuine person left? Yes. He gives us a glimpse now and again but make no mistake, he will take you for what you’re worth. Maybe one day he’ll change and we’ll follow him again. Until then, I’ll be watching like my partner. I’ll be around.

I guess at the end of the day my point is this, the fandom made itself toxic and I highly doubt at this point it can or will turn around. Why would it? All we can do is choose to be part of the toxicity and contribute to it and pass it forward like these precious anons have been doing or we can choose to walk away, scroll on by, try to make the world or at least our little corner of it better.

I’m still disenchanted. I hope one day my wings turn white again with the promise of a better time and place. Until then, take care my friends. I’ll be watching and I’ll be blogging.

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Drabble prompt: Wuko goes on their first date and mako takes too long to realize that it is in fact a date and not just two bros hanging out lol

Oh... I got carried away with this one.... I really liked this one....... thank u sm 💖

Wu has been acting weird lately. It's true that Wu acted weird all the time, but this was a very different kind of weird. Mako didn't know what to make of it...

The night started just as any night did between the two of them. Mako was by himself as he tried to work on some paper work and Wu was... doing what ever he did in that bedroom of his. (Mako would be lying if he said he didn't have his own vanity routine, but he genuinely did not know what took him that long. And how can someone own so many shirts in so many colors?)

It was quiet and peaceful. That is until Wu barged into the room, loud and bigger than life. He did that a lot, taking charge of a room and becoming center stage. By now, Mako has gotten used to how much room he takes.

Suddenly, they were both off to a night on the town. However, when they entered the Sato Mobile, Wu turned toward Mako and asked where he would like to go. Some place that they hadn't been to. Someplace Mako specifically knew. Afterall, Wu always chose and he'd rather see something Mako would like. So, despite his better judgment, Mako gave the driver the address to Narook's.

Clue number one: attention.

Narook's was not the place to take a prince. It was in a worser part of the city (but not the worst) and there was a good chance they could have run into trouble. Not to mention the joint itself was nothing like the up scale restaurants Wu had taken them to before. The walls were old and not as well kept as they should be. Seating was close together, which on a busy night meant weaving your way through people and tables and definitely knocking into people. The decor was probably pretty far from on trend as well. Oh yeah and the kitchen was pretty much right there.

But when Mako thought good food, he thought of warm cheap noodles and broth. Surprisingly, Wu seemed enthralled with it all.

"I don't think I've ever been to a place like this before. So... worn and vibrant!" Wu was observing a rather loud party right next to them with a smile. "And pretty loud too, haha! I don't think I've ever had a noisy dinner."

Mako rolled his eyes as he leaned back in his seat.

"You should be here during a pro bending tournament. Much worse," Mako added on with a bit of a groan. Oh the many times he had spilled food during a busy night...

Wu laughed at that, turning his attention back to Mako and leaning across the table.

"I didn't say it was a bad thing, you know. I think I like this." Wu gestured vaguely around them. "You don't really feel alone. Kinda like you have a family."

There was something in his eyes that seemed to give away a lot more than he was telling. Mako almost wanted to ask but he found the words trapped somewhere. There was something else in the air and in their words. Feet pressed against his under the table, and he pressed back without much thought.

"Oh my-Mako is that the wolfbats? Wait a minute... Mako is that you in that picture?"

And then that something else was gone.

Clue number two: the air.

After they finished eating, Wu insisted they walked around. Something about fresh air helping digestion or... what ever. Mako tuned him out. (Definitely did not get distracted by watching Wu covering his ears or anything. No, he intentionally missed what he said.)

Fall was starting to come to an end, and with winter came a chill. It wasn't too bad yet, just enough to bite at your nose and ears. Mako dealt with the cold rather well, years of living off of the streets developed a bit of a resistance to it. Also, he had his fire bending to warm him up if he truly got chilly.

It seemed Wu did not fair the same. He brought a scarf to cover his neck, but as they kept walking he pressed closer and closer to Mako to seek warmth. It got to the point where their hands constantly bumped into the other. Not wanting him to freeze, Mako simply pulled him into his side with a hand on his waist. Again, he thought nothing of it.

"I told you to wear something heavier," Mako chided.

"Mako, I can't predict it to drop so quickly. What do you want me to do? Hire a 24/7 weather man or something?"

Wu seemed to press into him just a little bit more than necessary. Mako didn't find it in him to mind. They spent the rest of their walk quietly talking to each other. Mostly, Mako listened. He didn't mind that each either.

Clue three: touch.

The rest of the night passed like this: Wu and Mako walked down the streets with the light of the lamps and shops guiding them. Every once in a while they were stopped either by people recognizing Mako or by some window catching Wu's eye. They stayed close together and nothing else eventful seemed to happen. It was overall just... pleasant. Much more enjoyable than bars or mixers or what ever else Wu drags him to, that's for sure.

They make it back to the hotel suite, and Mako goes back to his paper work. At this point, Wu goes to the bathroom and then to his room for the night. Instead, he lingers in the shared room. It's odd. Very odd.

Just as Mako gets puts his pen to paper Wu speaks up.

"Hey Mako, I had a fun night tonight," He says quietly.

He's leaning against the entrance to the hallway, his arm across his body as his hand props him up. Wu looks small. He's a small man in general, but he always seemed to take up a room. Now he seems to be just a tiny flame in the corner of a dark room.

"I did too," Mako says back.

Somehow that doesn't feel like the right answer. There's this quietness between them, and similar to the moment in Narook's but a little... worse? Mako cannot figure out why. They hold each others gaze.

Then Wu pulls away. The moment is lost as a smile stretches across his face. His usual bright smile, yet he somehow looks small still.

"Well! You tired me out, big guy. I'm going to head to bed. Make sure you don't fall asleep at that table again. You'll get a neck injury, and then what would i do without you?" Wu pulls away and heads towards his bedroom door. He waves as he heads inside. "Night buddy! See you in the morning!"

And as quick as he came in hours ago, he's gone. It's quiet. Mako is alone.

At first he picks up his pen and tries to write again. He tries to call back the thought that he had before Wu spoke yet the only thing that he can think about is Wu and just how odd tonight has been.

Why had Wu wanted to go somewhere Mako enjoyed? He didn't share a taste for high end cuisine like Wu did. He suggested a noodle joint of all things, yet Wu agreed. Actually, he seemed to really enjoy it. The only other person he's seen eat like that was Bolin. Mako knows this because he couldn't stop watching him eat. He tried to hide it, but it certainly made him smile.

And they walked along the streets, why did Mako indulge him in that? Wu looked and walked like money, he was aware of what could have happened on that street if they weren't careful. But Wu was pressed against him, excitedly telling him about some story or another. When people recognized Mako they gave them a *look* and he found some sort of amusement out of it. Mostly, Mako couldn't stop watching the way the lights of the city shaped and changed Wu's face. How much his eyes seemed to shine and reflect them. There was a certain loud beat in his chest as his heart-

...

Oh.

Clue number four: his heart.

The chair crashed against the floor as Mako stood. Before he could entirely understand what he was doing, he was making his way to Wu's bedroom door. He caught himself before he burst in and instead opted to knock on the door pretty loudly.

The door cracked open, Wu hiding behind it.

"Yes, Mako?" He asked tiredly.

Mako felt his mouth dry out and his tongue turn to sandpaper. He forced the words out of his mouth.

"I was just-you know tonight it was uh great! I uh-I realize I didn't quite-uh... you and I, we went as pals-I mean not pals. We-"

Mako silently cursed to himself and squeezed his eyes shut. Stop stumbling over your words, Mako! Stop fucking this up! Why did he have to be so bad at this, huh?

Breathe in. Breatheout.

He opened his eyes to find Wu starring up at him with a blank expression. He carefully tried again.

"Wu... did you take me on a date?" Mako finally asked.

Wu covered his mouth as he started to laugh. Embarrassed, Mako joined him.

"Yes! Of course it was a date." Wu answered him after his laughter seemed to calm down some. There were tears in his eyes threatening to spill and stains where they had before. He reached over to crowd into Mako's space. "Took you long enough. I thought you were letting me down easy..."

"No, I really didn't know." Mako pulled him closer, just like he had tonight. Both hands on his waist. "I should have known, it seems pretty obvious now. But... well I haven't been on that many dates you know."

Wu hummed and slowly slid his hands up Mako's chest to steady himself.

"Did you like it? The date?" Wu asked softly. Mako could see in his eyes he was worried. "Do you... do you like me?"

"Yeah. Yeah I did." Carefully, Mako leaned down to place a kiss on Wu's lips. He pulled away with a whisper. "Yeah, I do."

He didn't have to see Wu's smile to know it was digging into his cheeks enough to show his dimple. He could feel it as Wu pulled him down for another kiss. And then another. And then another.

They spent that night exchanging soft kisses and sharing secrets in the dark. No one but the moon that covered them in light was there to witness them. It was odd, but Mako could get used to this new normal between them.

[jokertrap-ran]

(未定事件簿) 莫弈 [剧情: 第2章] [Tears of Themis] Mo Yi Private Story Translations (Chapter 2-7)

*Tears of Themis Masterlist / Mo Yi’s Masterlist / Mobile Masterlist *Spoiler free: Translations will remain under cut *Mo Yi’s Private Story tag is #Tears of a Personal Psychiatrist. *Chapter 1 can be viewed here!

Location: Mo's Mental Health Research Center

After confirming Li Yu's identity, Mo Yi rejected my request to continue taking part in the investigation.

MC: Why!?

MC: It wasn't easy for us to get this far, Dr. Mo! There's no way I can just give up on this so easily!

Mo Yi: …...

But Mo Yi only continued staring at me in silence, a thoughtful look on his face.

Mo Yi: ...Before we put this discussion on the table, please answer me this honestly: Have the PUAs come to you for revenge?

MC: Oh...No… They haven't; why do you ask…?

His sudden question caught me by surprise. I hurriedly avoided his eyes, pretending not to understand his question.

Mo Yi: I'm supposing that the "spam message" you received the other day was actually an SMS they'd sent as harassment.

Mo Yi: And recently, the actions that these people have been taking have been getting more and more aggressive; essentially having even affected your daily life to a certain extent.

Mo Yi: That's why you said they were "arrogant"; am I right?

MC: !!!

MC: ...Nothing gets past you after all.

I couldn’t help but to sigh, deciding to come clean about everything that I’d been hiding from him recently.

MC: Yeah. Some PUAs have been verbally harassing me with threats lately.

Mo Yi: When did this start?

MC: Probably not long after the “Anti-PUA” Club turned into a mutual aid group. Someone had suddenly added me as a friend one day.

MC: They asked if I was the Lawyer who’d helped Lin Yunyun, and I thought that they were also a fellow victim, so I replied in the affirmative; but in the end...

I couldn’t stop all the many different sorts of harassment messages that I’d received recently from popping back up in my mind at the thought of it.

Those messages, not fit to be shown to anyone at all, were always sent to my phone at fixed timings. There were countless, so many that I could never delete them all even if I tried. It gradually became a personal living hell of nightmares.

MC: There were only a few people who did it sporadically at first, so blacklisting and blocking them worked like a charm; but then the number of people doing it increased...

MC: Why do they always choose to bombard people during sleeping hours!? Don’t these people need sleep too!?

However, I’d failed to notice how Mo Yi’s face was twisting itself into an increasingly unsightly look at this moment in time.

Mo Yi: ...Why didn’t you tell me? How were you planning to put up with this alone, if I hadn’t asked today?

MC: Well… It wasn’t anything big at all. They only sent me a couple of unpleasant texts, and it didn’t really cause a big impact on me or anything like that.

MC: Anyway, let’s not talk about this anymore and get back on the topic of how to continue our investigation. I—

Mo Yi: I apologize, but my stand is still the same; it’ll be for the best if you don’t take part in the upcoming course of action.

MC: ……

Mo Yi: ……

That was how Mo Yi and I faced each other in a stand-off; neither of us saying anything, neither of us willing to back down.

The air came to a stand-still, the damning silence that would make anyone hold their breaths accompanied by the faint scent of “gunpowder”, as figurative sparks filled the air.

MC: Then, could you tell me a reason why I should not? I can’t give up on this just because you tell me to, Dr. Mo.

Mo Yi: ……

Mo Yi: I have three reasons for this.

Mo Yi: Firstly, although Li Yu’s story was created from one big patchwork, Wang Chen is still an experienced PUA, from what we can glimpse from the credible parts of her story.

Mo Yi: I cannot allow you to interact with him alone, considering how you’ve not received the relevant training.

Mo Yi: Secondly, although our actions have not been fully exposed yet, the fact that the other party retaliated against you means that they’ve already got their eye on you.

Mo Yi: If this goes any further, it will only escalate; and when the time comes, it won’t just be merely verbal words of threat.

Mo Yi: They will attempt to break through your psychological defenses from all angles, thus, endangering your very life itself.

Mo Yi: And lastly…

He placed the teacup in his hands down, his gaze dropping to my face, an inexplicable emotion within his golden orbs.

Mo Yi: Just what’s in your mind, as you do these things?

Mo Yi: Is it to uphold justice? To deter the other members of the PUA Group? Or is it to save all of the girls who’ve been harmed by it?

Mo Yi: Can you really do all of this?

Mo Yi: Even if we did settle this matter with Li Yu along with all the other people backing her, there’ll still be other PUA Groups in this world who lurk in the dark.

Mo Yi: They’ll continue hunting girls, and even go so far as to treat you as a right thorn in their side, using various methods to retaliate against you to no ends.

Mo Yi: And at the very end of it all, not only will you fail to protect others; You might also very well be unable to protect yourself.

Mo Yi: This fairness and justice you seek might not be able to see the light at all.

Mo Yi: Now, with all that considered; are you still willing to continue on?

He waited quietly for my answer after finishing.

He had a look of utter seriousness on his face, so focused he was. However, the corners of his eyes and his eyebrows still presented the same calm he’d always displayed. Hence, I couldn’t tell just what exactly was going through his head.

But none of these mattered anymore. I don’t even need to think to answer this question of his.

MC: Of course. Even so, I still wish to continue as usual.

Mo Yi: Why?

MC: You just asked me what’s in my mind as I do this, right? I’m actually not thinking of anything at all; no thoughts, head empty.

MC: I’ve never held onto any pipedreams, nor have I ever thought of using this PUA Group to go fight against the other PUAs.

MC: Granted, trying to rescue all the girls who’ve been victimized is an even bigger delusion.

MC: I’m only trying to do what I can as one, ordinary, Lawyer.

MC: That being said, there’s one thing that I know for certain. And that is that I cannot ignore the crimes that appear before me.

MC: I cannot allow the group that’s backing Li Yu to go scot-free, let alone allow them to challenge law and threaten justice as they so wish to.

Mo Yi: You...

MC: Secondly, you said that I “cannot protect others”; but there isn’t only just one fixed way of protection.

MC: Don't all the girls in Lin Yunyun's mutual aid group learn a lot about all sorts of things pertaining to PUA?

MC: All that's requires is for one of those girls to understand these through what I've done; so that they'll keep their guards up and watch out for these things.

MC: If so, then everything I've done up till today have already served some sort of purpose in protecting them.

MC: And lastly, about their cars if revenge…

I couldn't stop myself from rolling my eyes at the mere thought of those less than savory messages I'd received.

MC: I've already been prepared to face all sorts of people, who come up with all sorts of retaliation methods, since day one of being a Lawyer.

MC: But if really does come down to the point where it gets as serious as you've described, then that's when I'll wield the Law as my weapon and protect my own rights.

MC: The road to justice will always be a rocky one, but no one can stop me so long as I refuse to give up.

Mo Yi: ……

I blurted out everything that I had in my mind, even forgetting to check just what sort of expression Mo Yi currently wore.

It was only until I had regained my bearings that I looked back up at him. He was still looking at me with a serious look on his face, yet his eyes were like that of stormy seas.

Mo Yi: You… You’re really different from everyone else.

He suddenly laughed.

MC: What are you laughing about, Dr. Mo?

Mo Yi: Nothing. I’m just feeling slightly fortunate, and a little happy.

MC: Fortunate? Happy?

Mo Yi: Yes. Fortunate, that I chose to stay back then; and happy, because… I met you.

Mo Yi: You always never fail to surprise me.

MC: ……

He spoke slowly, but that didn't fail to impede the strength and impact that each word brought.

It was almost as if he had just conveyed some sort of inexplicable feeling to me through mere words. It was hot, yet full of possessiveness, almost engulfing me whole.

MC: Does this mean that… I can take part in the continuing investigations?

I hurriedly changed the subject upon seeing how the air around us was starting to turn increasingly warmer.

Mo Yi: Do I have any other reason to be denying you?

MC: Great! Then let’s hurry and get started!

MC: Do you need me to contact Wang Chen? Are we still going to be using our previous tactic?

Mo Yi: Don’t rush, for starters. I’ve got even better ideas.

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about that gaiden content :   @logicusage asked, so here we go  ~ 

disclaimer: this info was accumulated from HERE, and the OP’s source is a korean version of gaiden, so some details may have been lost / changed in translation. also, gaiden is apparently REAL COMPLICATED and big chunks / details were left out by the OP in these summaries, so i’m not entirely sure on some events and their timeline. the OP did include page numbers tho, so i’m using those to put together things chronologically. 

PS. GAIDEN SPOILERS AHEAD !!

TIMELINE THINGS

gaiden takes place 1 - 2 years prior to the main storyline.

tsu has been putting up with ayatsuji’s shit for about 2 years when gaiden takes place. 

The case of Reigo Island happened about 5 years prior to canon  ( i’m assuming that means gaiden canon, not bsd main canon ). this case is why ayatsuji fell under gov surveillance and it’s also the case involving tsu’s mother’s death. ( more on this DRAMA LAMA below ).

THE CASE OF REIGO ISLAND

The case of Reigo Island is a serial murder case, where the residents of the island apparently killed tourists for their money and somehow disguised it as the victim’s staying on the island for prolonged amounts of time. 

The case involved 17 culprits, all were said to be killed by ayatsuji’s ability -- including tsu’s mother. 

In actuality, there was an 18th culprit, who actually orchestrated the whole thing. they are called the ‘engineer’. 

Not entire sure on this point, but apparently Aya failed to deduced the Engineer’s crimes because he had already left the island by the time Aya arrived, so the Engineer remains the only living survivor of that case and tsu is out to get him. Well, mostly just to ask him a question.

and that question is :    “ If my mother was an evil murderer, I will throw her out of my heart. If she was nothing more than your puppet, I ahve to seek revenge against Ayatsuji-sensei for having murdered my poor mother under your control. Did my mother dirty her own hands? Or did she only help in your plans? “  ( my little tsuji-squared heart go brrrr )

GAIDEN STORY BITS   (  listed chronologically, i think  )

at some point  --  definitely AFTER the reaper manifests for the first time, but i think a whole ton of other stuff occurred in between  ( likely still involving tsu and her ability tho )  --  stuff happened which lead to Aya escaping the gov and go rogue. 

aya calls tsu after he goes rogue and he  LIES  tells her that he can’t stand left because he can’t stand being chained down by petty underlings of the gov and that he can’t stand being associated with such incompetent people. tsu, of course, gets all kinds of emotional about it calls him irresponsible and blames his irresponsibility for her mother’s death.

after aya went rogue, ango straight up asked tsu if she would be able to shoot + kill aya and she said  “ of course ”

meanwhile, tsu is trying to process things / put things together on why aya left and she realizes that SHE was the one with murderous intent when she apparently RAN OVER someone  ( i’m thinking technically it was her ability and not her, but i’m not entirely sure. )  and aya left to prevent tsu from being killed by his ability. 

in the end, tsu realizes that she can’t shoot aya.  cause she love him too much.

aya apparently goes to challenge kyogoku again on that same mountain + waterfall area from the very beginning of gaiden, but aya’s being chased by the gov this time, which tsu believes puts him at a disadvantage. 

tsu runs and runs and RUNS up that moutain in order to get to aya and save him. --  and to tell him something.   probably, that she loves him.

but tsu doesn’t make it in time. when she gets there, ango is already pointing a gun at aya’s head, thanking aya for his service to the gov before shooting him in the head THREE TIMES. 

tsu breaks down over aya’s death.

at some point after aya’s death, tsu gets into a life-threatening situation of her own. there’s a gun pointed at her head  ( i think ? )  and she’s bleeding out and calling out to her mom AND AYA and guess who answers her call ?? 

that’s right it’s aya. he’s not dead. he just enjoys torturing tsu. 

tsu actually confronts aya, asking him why he left the gov’s surveillance for her / to save her and of course aya is a brat about it saying that he wouldn’t go that far for her. but in the end he confesses that he knew it was tsu’s ability that was the murderer and not tsu.  ( i’m not sure if this is referencing the police force that tsu accidently killed or someone else ?? and if it’s someone else, I’M SO INTRIGUED !!  )  and he only pretended to leave the gov in order to catch the real culprit off guard. 

aya mentions something about  ‘ retraining ‘  tsu and tsu threatens to push him off the cliff again.  ( this is v important plot point, i swear. ) 

apparently aya and ango collaborated on how to fake aya’s death and they purposely left tsu out of the plan cause  ( like chuu )  her expressions are far too readable sometimes. all the time.  i love her sm.  

TSUJI-SQUARED EVIDENCE

these two idiots are in love and in this essay i will -- 

aya lost his cool when tsu was being barraged by bullets  ( and was having a momentary freak out that caused her to freeze up ) . he called her an idiot  ( which is a universal bsd symbol for love )  and pulled her to safety.  PS. She also called him a jerk, specifically saying “i started running with a jerk”  and honestly do you care them ?

aya cooked lamb and teased tsu about not having a serving for her to the point tsu.exe crashed and she ACTUALLY FAINTED. tsu is a pure cinnamon roll who apparently really loves her lamb.

when aya went rogue, he called tsu and lied to her about a whole bunch of stuff in order to get her to give up on saving his life  ( and by extension, to save her life ) .  please read more HERE cause it’s gold and i’m soft about it. 

when tsu is injured during that near-death experience and tries to move, aya catches her so she doesn’t fall on her face. T ^ T

aya apparently teases tsu about ‘training’ a few times and the specific word used in the original japanese has some s/m undertones, so excuse me while i formulate on that. :3c  specifically on how tsu is a switch and while aya talks a big game, tsu can still TOP.

i’m sure there’s a bunch more that i have yet to uncover and honestly, i’m excite 

FUN FACTS ON TSU’S MOM

tsu and her mom didn’t have a great relationship. it’s implied that they were sorta estranged several years prior to her mom’s death. 

also, SURPRISE !   tsu’s mother isn’t actually dead. she faked her death and was in hiding. 

apparently, tsu’s mom and ayatsuji have a long chat. i’m assuming it happens towards the end of gaiden, but i can’t be totally sure. 

i’m also not entirely sure if tsu KNOWS her mom is still alive and is just in hiding ??

tsu’s mom is apparently a BIG TIME agent and has been for some time. specifically, she’s the director general’s aide. 

it’s implied that ango may have met tsu’s mother. 

it’s also implied that tsu’s mom is the one who arranged tsu’s assignment with aya and specifically arranged it that tsu’s first day would be aya’s bday. 

[migleefulmoments]

The truth about Power of Attorney and Fiduciary Obligations:

How Ricky ISN’T destroying Darren’s life or the law behind using a POA. 

One of the main tropes that fuels the cc conspiracy is that Ricky, as Darren’s manager, has Darren’s power of attorney (POA) and that allows him to do all sorts of nefarious acts that Darren is powerless to stop him simply because of the POA. 

Today Chrisdarebashfulsmiles wrote this piece:

chrisdarebashfulsmiles

every time that i see references to s/tar t/reck in M’ stans nickname i think about two different things

1) they decided to ignore the blatant truth about D because… S/tar W/ars folks!!

2) RR sometimes is a genius but always against D. You know what was the biggest problem about the en/gagement post of January 2018? D (and C with him) didn’t think about calling a lawyer and ask him to write a document o whatever it took to avoid that kind of post. If you know even a little about pr and manager, you know that they have a power of attorney that they can use for a lot of things: in all of them there’s also the use of their client SM.

Since last year, i have to be honest, i think the ST mistake was done on purpose. Because of course RR knows about how much D loves SW. But putting this aside, a post like that can’t be erased with a “Oh sorry we were kidding, we are not engaged she’s my beard”. And all of that opened a door to what RR and Bears are still seeking: money (him) and fame (her).

It was easy for every lawyer on the Earth to find whatever occasion D allegedly did not what they requested and it was easy, with the help of SS, to find occasions to give them every thing they wanted. I still feel is a miracle that D won the awards he deserved, because everything was about her.

Something is for sure changed around E/mmys, when we expected her to go out of his life and instead, my opinion of course but i know that it’s shared by some of my closest friends here, they started to build the sham wedding. Because you can say the contrary every minute of your life but that s** is fake af.

And thinking about the past, D’ speech when he won GG, Sag etc, they pointed all to the fact that in the future we would have seen less stuff awards worthy. And he was right, we are only see Ads of all sort… to the point that we went literally crazy for his M/et appearance.

I’m not joking now writing that i hope that the expiration day is near because this man not only deserve to do his job and not 56484595050 pay off to every people that enabled and that are enabling her, but because he needs to be free to be who he is. Because i don’t want (despite liking seeing him and listen to him) to see C doing again something RR related (i still have to accept the fact that J and K are produced by LG and so RR).

And i wanna go crazy for D’s jobs like before.

Her point-I think- is that Ricky wants money and Mia wants fame so Ricky used  Darren’s POA to post the engagement post on Darren’s Instagram which started the ball rolling until he found himself walking down the aisle him. The core underlying premise is that Darren was unable to reverse it once it started nor was he capable of stopping it from escalating.  She claims that Ricky wrote the “fake” Star Trek engagement post using the wrong space-travel franchise and “a post like that can’t be erased with a “Oh sorry we were kidding, we are not engaged she’s my beard”. Really? Why couldn’t Darren set the record straight and fire his manager? That would be the logical thing to do. It isn’t normal to just go along with whatever your team writes until you find yourself married to someone you hate. God- it’s so dumb.  Going along with an unhinged plan simply because his manager posted it on social media is the definition of stupid and poor decision making.  

But let’s back up a little.  Chrisdarebash... starts out by claiming that “If you know even a little about pr and manager, you know that they have a power of attorney that they can use for a lot of things: in all of them there’s also the use of their client SM”. One of the long held ccBeliefs is that Ricky holds Darren’s POA and that POA gives Ricky the power to do whatever he wants and Darren is forced to do whatever it is that Ricky signs his name to- regardless of how detrimental it is to Darren’s person or career. In legalese- Darren is the principal and Ricky is the agent. So is that cctrue? Does the principal forgo all rights by giving the agent his POA? NO, of course it isn’t true. There are laws regulating the use of a POA and the law says the agent must act in the best interest of the principal at all times. Anyone who knows anything about the law knows this is called FIDUCIARY OBLIGATION.  

“The power of attorney creates a strict fiduciary duty to manage the principal's funds appropriately, including engaging in careful bookkeeping to document all expenditures.” (X)

The entire trope that Ricky is controlling Darren’s life because he holds his POA is utter rubbish. It simply isn’t true. Abby, the Ivy League lawyer- either knows this and simply lies about it or doesn’t understand one of the most basic concepts of the law. This is something that every America should understand because ALL Americans should sign a medical power of attorney to make medical decisions if they are unable to.

The entire cc fandom should have the skills to Google this concept on their own but clearly they have no desire to know the truth. This one lie allows them to  dismiss a lot what they don’t like about Darren. It just allowed Chrisdarebash...to claim that Darren was forced to get married simply because Ricky wrote a post on Darren’s Instagram about a Star Trek engagement. It allows them to claim that Ricky forces Darren to do #ads and gigs they can’t stand. It is a powerful ccExcuse except it is based on a complete lie...and that is how the ccers role. They don’t care about facts and truth. Whatever rationalizes their foregone conclusion- Chris and Darren are in lurve- is fine. Me? I prefer to base all of my theories and excuses on true, real concepts. I like to use Google to ensure that I understand what I’m talking about-ESPECIALLY when I attack other people for being stupid cause ain’t nothing more embarrassing to me than raging about something and being stone cold wrong. As evidence I present the entire statement by 

chrisdarebashfulsmiles

every time that i see references to s/tar t/reck in M’ stans nickname i think about two different things

1) they decided to ignore the blatant truth about D because… S/tar W/ars folks!!

2) RR sometimes is a genius but always against D. You know what was the biggest problem about the en/gagement post of January 2018? D (and C with him) didn’t think about calling a lawyer and ask him to write a document o whatever it took to avoid that kind of post. If you know even a little about pr and manager, you know that they have a power of attorney that they can use for a lot of things: in all of them there’s also the use of their client SM.

Since last year, i have to be honest, i think the ST mistake was done on purpose. Because of course RR knows about how much D loves SW. But putting this aside, a post like that can’t be erased with a “Oh sorry we were kidding, we are not engaged she’s my beard”. And all of that opened a door to what RR and Bears are still seeking: money (him) and fame (her). 

me: “bears”? 

It was easy for every lawyer on the Earth to find whatever occasion D allegedly did not what they requested and it was easy, with the help of SS, to find occasions to give them every thing they wanted. I still feel is a miracle that D won the awards he deserved, because everything was about her. 

me: No idea what this is supposed to mean.

Something is for sure changed around E/mmys, when we expected her to go out of his life and instead, my opinion of course but i know that it’s shared by some of my closest friends here, they started to build the sham wedding. Because you can say the contrary every minute of your life but that s** is fake af.

me: this cracks me up.  ”When WE expected her to go” was exactly like this weekend when you all fabricated the fantasy that “Mia campaigned to go to the Met”  and then obsessed about it for days. You all mislead yourselves. 

And thinking about the past, D’ speech when he won GG, Sag etc, they pointed all to the fact that in the future we would have seen less stuff awards worthy. And he was right, we are only see Ads of all sort… to the point that we went literally crazy for his M/et appearance.

I’m not joking now writing that i hope that the expiration day is near because this man not only deserve to do his job and not 56484595050 pay off to every people that enabled and that are enabling her, but because he needs to be free to be who he is. Because i don’t want (despite liking seeing him and listen to him) to see C doing again something RR related (i still have to accept the fact that J and K are produced by LG and so RR).

me: there is nothing to suggest the expiration date is near. If you start listening to Darren, actually hear what he is saying, you will see that he is quite happy. If you continue to misconstrue the truth, you will end up being shocked and disappointed time and time again. It’s all on you.  

And i wanna go crazy for D’s jobs like before.

me: well as fans we don’t actually get to dictate how or where Darren’s career goes. We can only wait for projects, support them, or move on to another celebrity. 

leka-1998

With all the ignoring of the truth the stans are doing, there’s probably not much time left to do anything else. Well, aside from sending hate our way. It’s a sad thing, needing lies to be true because you couldn’t even imagine living with anything else. I could feel the desperation through my screen when they went crazy because of one simple tweet. I’d pity them if they weren’t directly contributing to the hell D’s living.

me: hahahahahahhahahahahaa. omg, I’m wheezing. No self awareness and copying my words.  

Monday night was fabulous. That was the best thing to happen in a long time. I think we all - including D of course - needed it. It’s definitely sad that good things are so rare at this point and he’s going to pay for getting so much love while the PBB was left to survive without attention. It’s sick.

me: let’s be real, she got more coverage over the last several days on cc blogs than she would have had she gone. Oh look, another phrase I use a lot.

It’s time to realize that there is no reason for her to be in the spotlight because she’s not interesting or talented or anything else that would justify her being where he is most of the time. I can’t wait for her to be left with nothing. And most importantly, I can’t wait for D to finally live his best life. That day can’t come soon enough.

me: the only spotlight she’s in is the one that the cc fandom shines.  

ajw720

@chrisdarebashfulsmilesI agree 100%, i think something went horribly wrong right around the emmys and somehow RR/PBB/SS found the power to force the wedding. I am confident in stating D did not plan to go this far and they clearly threatened something big to get him to agree.  (I would go so far to say that PBB and family von beard were planning well before D agreed).  And any person watching can see that he has gained nothing as a result, if has been one giant loss.  And the only value would be IF he finds his way to freedom soon.  Because as I repeatedly state, this cannot be sustained long-term and no question, he foretold it in his January speeches.  I also agree it is amazing he won despite the circus around him and I think that is a testament to how well love and respected he is in the industry.  And no question, he had a strong behind the scenes campaign likely led by RM, who still needs to now step up and help him win his life back, far more important than any award.

me: well...he gained a spouse and that IS the point of getting married so I would say he nailed it. As for you repeatedly stating he can’t sustain this long term...it’s been 9 years. Exactly how do you define “long term” cuz I gotta say, I would say he has sustained it long term. 

The level of ignorance is astounding and continues to get worse by the day. You may be right the ST reference may have been intentional, after all RR and PBB LOVE LOVE LOVE to play games with the stans and see how much and what they can get away with.  And stans let everything go. B/en, ST, rings, handshake, I’m gay, timelines, the fact that the entire wedding was SOLD. They continue to kiss her ass and directly contribute to this hell.  At this point, they are partially responsible because they are choosing to pretend like everything is normal.

me: That is RICH coming from the women who believes FetusMiarren is Mia and lets her jerk your chain in ways that continue to entertain and astound me. As for you “list” of “proof” that stans ignore-I have written posts proving almost all of them are complete and utter bullshit.  You cannot expect stans to believe complete rubbish, even if you repeat it incessantly. Bullshit is bullshit and it will always be bullshit. Your junior high obsession with Mia is really, really scary and super immature...especially for a professional.     

[hskswife]

identity +FINAL

Mafia!BTS AU

Summary: Your boyfriend Taehyung goes undercover as Irene’s boyfriend to learn secrets about her brother’s identity who’s the leader of an infamous Mafia called SM

prologue || chapter 1 || chapter 2 || chapter 3 || chapter 4 || chapter 5 || chapter 6 || chapter 7 || final

WARNING: THERE IS LOTS OF VIOLENCE AND BLOOD THIS CHAPTER

A/N:Okay this ending is better more well written than the last one.Hope you guys enjoy it better now.

You woke up to the sound of gunshots echoing through the halls. With a smirk on your face, you got out of bed to put on a white dress that flowed effortlessly down your frame. The facade of an innocent young girl reflecting in the mirror but if you had looked closely you will see the evil grin forming on your lips. You were excited. You had been expecting Bangtan to attack all week. And now they were here and you were ready for the revenge. The revenge you had been seeking so much. Revenge against those who had tortured you so effortlessly.

Wiping the grin off your face you opened the door to a room. In the middle of the room was Irene dressed in black with a look of fear in her eyes. "Wh-Who are you?"

"Don't worry about it sweety...you'll be dead soon anyway. I'm just waiting for the rest of Bangtan to find there way here. That is if my brother and the boys haven't found them already." Irene's facade continued as tears streamed down her face, "I'm sorry, for whatever I did please let me go..." Scoffing you stepped closer to the fragile girl caressing her face. "Step away from the girl." You turned your head slightly to see a tall frame with a strong build pointing a gun towards you. "Kim Namjoon. Who would've thought."

"Irene!" A deeper voice had yelled softly. You tilted your head to the side to get a good view as the boy came up from behind Namjoon. "Kim Taehyung..." Namjoon bites his lip glancing at you making you throw your hands in the air as you stepped away from Irene. Your heart aches as Taehyung grabbed Irene pulling her into a tight embrace. "Now two against one that's kind of unfair." You said mockingly with your hands still in the air. "But you see finding your way around this mansion would be hard. Unless you been here countless times before. And I don't exactly remember the boys taking anyone in as hostage." You said turning your head towards Irene. "Now either you came here in the room on your own free will...or you've been here before."

"What are you hinting at?" Namjoon asked. "Now Kim Namjoon...Why did Taehyung put his gun down as soon as he entered the room but you still have it pointing towards me?" Namjoon looked at you in confusion, "For a genius, you're actually pretty fucking stupid. Joon."

Eyes widening as his nickname slipped from your lips, "H-How you're supposed to be--"

"Supposed to be what? Brainwashed or whatever. Come on it takes more than that to fuck my little brain up Joon. I mean it's like you don't know me...I've been through worse. But you see I saw through your little ploy." You said as you put your hands down circling the table before seating down. "Irene here is no victim to our plan...she knew of our plan. Heck she fucking planned the whole thing. Getting Tae to fall for her, getting me captured, and ruining the team. Were all part of it right?”

You then turned your head to Irene. "And all this planned by the leader?" You laughed, "That part is true but you see he isn't the leader Irene. This type of plan is too good to have come out of that trigger-happy idiot...the real leader has got to be you."

"I-I don't know what she's talking about Tae..." Taehyung scoffed as he got up from his position, "Now when did you figure all this out?" You shrugged, "It took me a little less than 4 months from when the mission started. When I looked into their father a little more. There is no way in hell he would've left this business to a psycho." Taehyung then kept walking closer to you licking his lips. "You are seriously so fucking hot you know that." You shrugged, "And since when have you known?"

"How do you know I know?"

"Oh come on Tae. If you really loved Irene you would've walked in here with your gun pointing at me. Ready to kill anything or anyone that will are hurt your love. I'm just glad you weren't stupid enough to fall for her."

With a sly grin, Taehyung grabbed you by the waist turning you around as he placed a long passionate kiss on your plump lips. The two of you not realizing as Namjoon got around the two of you helping Irene up from the floor. And with a swift movement, Irene grabs the gun from Namjoon. Taehyung opens his eyes to find Irene seconds away from pulling the trigger and another few seconds later a thundering gunshot was heard in the room.

Still not sure what had just happened you looked at Taehyung who was now somewhat in between Irene and yourself. "Tae..." Taehyung smiled placing his hands on your cheek softly before coughing. You watched as blood dripped from his lips. "Tae!" You yelled as the two of you fell to the ground Taehyung in your arms. Your hands now red with his blood. "Tae...please no."

Taehyung shushed you with a smile, "No baby come on don't cry...I..." He grunted as he pulled something out of his pocket. "...I got you a gift baby. Try it on for me?" You nodded as you grabbed the ring from his hands crying as you put it on, "Now you're all mine...Just mine." You cried placing your forehead on his. Taehyung's smile disappearing as the view of you crying and the feeling of your tears on his cheeks hurt his heart. But with a smile, he grabbed your face shushing you once more before placing a kiss on your lips. "Don't cry, baby...I want to see your smile..." He whispered. Looking down as you wiped your tears you looked back up at him with a smile, "That's my baby. Suach a beautiful smile." He whispered smiling, "Now I'm getting sleepy...I'll see you tomorrow okay." You continued to smile until he closed his eyes. Everything around you went blank. You were no longer able to hear Taehyung's heart. You cried in his chest before feeling a gun being pointed to your head. "Don't worry Y/N you'll follow him soon." You laughed catching the couple off guard. "You think I'll give you the satisfaction of walking away..."

And when they hadn't been paying attention Taehyung had slipped the gun in your hands. With one swift movement, you pulled the trigger on Namjoon. Shooting straight to his legs causing him to fall to the floor.

"Joonie!" Irene yelled running next to Namjoon still holding the gun. "You see I like to see my prey suffer." Irene screamed as she held the gun up but before she can pull the trigger you shot the gun. She yelped in pain letting go of the gun as she held her bleeding hand. You walked up to them grabbing the gun at your foot. "Now I'll torture you just like your boys did to me." You said with a smile so psychotic it had sent chills down Namjoon's and Irene's spine. You scoffed as you watched them shiver with fear. "I have that effect on people."

You then grabbed Irene by the hair sitting her down on the chair taping her down as you faced her towards Namjoon. "So I learned just now that you happen to love Namjoon right?"

"I--I don't know what you're talking about."

You then reached under the table pulling out a knife you planted there a couple days before, knowing this had been Irene's room. Pacing your way to Namjoon as you stabbed his leg. Namjoon yelped in pain. "You see deny it all you want but I know everything. You see this knife was for just incase I couldn't get my hands on a gun but...I don't think you two should die that easily after killing my Tae..."

"You can kill me but don't touch her." You laughed, "You see Namjoon I really don't give two shits what you want me to do. You're not my leader." You then shrugged as you stabbed Irene on her thighs a delicious sound of her screams filled your ears. You pulled the knife out hearing a grunt from her as she groaned, "Fuck you."

"Mmm. But you see I'm here to torture you not Namjoon so." Grabbing the gun from the table you pointed it towards Namjoon. "One...two..." You dragged out as he closed his eyes. You waited until he opened them.

"God just shoot already if you---"

With a deranged smiled plastered across your face you pulled the trigger shooting him right dead in the center. Inbetween his eyes. Earning another scream from Irene. " Three. But please scream some more for me I love that voice Irene I want to hear more of it." But then you heard footsteps. "But this torture is cut short. Unfortunately. But I'll make sure you have a slow painful death." Losing it after Taehyung's death you dug the knife into her chest. Blood spurting out staining your once white dress red with blood, as she started to make inaudible sounds as you drove the knife in deeper staring into her eyes that soon turned lifeless. Leaving the knife embedded in her chest you turned back to Taehyung. Grabbing his hand as you placed it on your cheek, "I did good?" You asked as you started to cry. The rest of Bangtan barging in expecting to save the day. In shock, as they see you sitting down crying in front of Taehyung's body. Covering his mouth to guard his nose from the strong smell of blood, Jimin helped you up as Jungkook grabbed Taehyung's body putting him on his back as he carried him piggyback style.

"Don't." You said turning your head towards Jin who had been walking up to Namjoon's body, "He's a traitor...Irene's lover. Leave him here to rot." Jin gulped as he saw your tired eyes and walked away from Namjoon's body walking up to you before he knelt down offering you a piggyback. Exhausted you mounted on his back placing your cheeks on his broad shoulders looking at Taehyung's sleeping body on Jungkook's back.

"And Irene's boys?"

"It was tough but we killed them." You scoffed. "Good..."

"Y/N are you okay?" Jimin asked as you closed your eyes ready to get some sleep. "Goodnight Tae...see you tomorrow."

Jimin looked at you. Smiling at the sight of you sleeping with a peaceful smile on your face.

Jungkook saw Jimin standing in front of their best friends' graves. Grabbing his hand he smiles as Jimin gives him a melancholic smile. "It's been 3 years Jungkook..."  

Jungkook nodded and with a smile, "At least they're both together. Even in death Taehyung and Y/N will be Taehyung and Y/N."

"I'm just glad that Taehyung truly loved her till the end." Jungkook nodded, "Who knew they had injected her with poison those assholes." He said clenching his fists, "They deserved better."

"But they are happy, they are still together after all."

[jianyitopia]

수고했어 종현아

In South Korea, the suicide rate is one of the highest in the world. Because of their "you will get over it" behavior, people just refrain their feelings deep inside and let them devour their inside. Many of you may not be aware of what K-pop industry is like. Even fans don't know, which is the saddest. You want to be good looking in South Korea to be able to make it. South Korea is an ugly country, and its people have always been the same, for a long time. Whenever someone is depressed, or mentally ill, they can't properly seek for help because mental illness and mental therapy is a tabou. Your friends would say "Do you think you're the only one suffering?". How do you expect people to live in these conditions ? I have loved this country lots, blinded by my favorite singers' beauty and talents without seeing its true side. It is heartbreaking for me to criticize it, but it is the only thing I can do for now. I am disillusioned on this mourning day.

Everyone have always known the hardship of being famous. Your private life is nowhere to be seen, paparazzi everywhere, crazy schedules. Let me tell you, it is even worse in South Korea. They will reach for you when you're a kid, ripping you away from your family so you can come train. Every day that passes is the same. You train, learn to sing, learn to dance, learn to please fans, have a great body, to be funny, be pleasant and polite, know how to behave on and off camera. Because behaviour and looks are all that matter in South Korea. Then, after more than ten years of hard training, you don't make it. Why ? Because there were better kids, who trained less than you but were blessed by God. And you're here, away from your family, from your friends, struggling alone, ten years wasted when you could have become a doctor, a lawyer, a teacher. Notoriety will never bring anything good. You want to be famous ? Go on, the path may lead you to money, but you will find despair and horror.

To the people wondering why comitting suicide is thinkable, I would like you to close your mouth if you don't know what you are talking about. Depression is a mental illness, it is serious and you can not joke about it. Oh, you like being praised, wealthy, talented and loved. Jonghyun was loved, adored, praised, yet he felt alone in this darkness, he was hurting himself and his wounds were so deep he couldn't wipe them off with that bright smile of his. He was reaching for help, he was screaming in a silent whimper, yet we were all closing our eyes, his company was closing its eyes, we were oblivious to his pain because Jonghyun was one of the brightest people on earth. Yet, if a smile is faked, the happiness behind it is non-existant.

As I write this, I can not contain my tears that are flowing down my cheeks. I can not believe it. I do not want to believe it. Tell me this is a joke, tell me Koreaboo made a mistake in its report. Just tell me you are not gone Jonghyun. This is so selfish to say this. My heart aches, I wish you had endured it longer, but at the same time, you're gone for a better place, a place where there is no pain.

When I first read the news, I collapsed on the floor, sobbing uncontrollably, telling myself like a mantra "This is impossible, not you, this is not possible..." But yes, celebrities are not immortal because they are famous. Fame can not bring anything good, you said it yourself Jonghyun, you were suffering from it. You told us you were not meant to be an idol, and I just don't have anything to respond. Because you are the best person to know what is good for you and what is not.

A long time ago, as my soul was wandering without any goal, you took my hand Jonghyun. You held it and led me to a world I thought was beautiful. Maybe K-pop is just a style of music, but it meant so much more to me. It was something I could dive in, a burning passion that made my life turns 180°. Oh, how I loved korean music, how I wished to be korean. You were one of the first who opened the path to this world, and never have I been so thankful. I remember, oh yes I do, watching your music video frowning, asking myself "What the heck am I watching?". I remember whistling your songs, humming them anywhere I would go because it was stuck in my head. I remember the old videos, in SM entertainment's training room. I laugh a little bit as I remember the background of this training room : a blue sky with cloud, which symbolized freedom.

I feel so sorry. You were not free. And I wish we could have lightened your heart, lessened your pain. I feel like the world stopped, and is not going to keep going. But life goes on, doesn't it ? I guess I will just need time.

Jonghyun, one last word. You worked hard, you did well. You were a fallen angel, and now we're giving your wings back. So please fly, fly away from this cruel world, fly away from the pain, the wounds, the tears.

It must be cold Jonghyun. I hope you can rest in peace. You deserve peace, you deserve freedom, you deserve happiness.

I love you.

I will forever.

수고했어 종현아.

[dailykoreanpop]

Jonghyun’s Dear Friend Nine9 Reveals His Final Letter

December 19, the day following the tragic death of SHINee’s Jonghyun, Dear Cloud’s Nine9, a close friend of the singer, released his final letter, which he had left in her care and asked her to reveal to the public should he ever leave the world.

See Also: Events Canceled Following Passing Of SHINee’s Jonghyun

Nine9 says that though she had reservations about posting the letter, she discussed it with Jonghyun’s family, and she believes that Jonghyun had already had her concerns in mind when he entrusted her with his final words. She says, “This is the last thing I can do for him.”

The full post by Nine9, including Jonghyun’s message, is linked below in page 2.

Earlier today, police officially concluded their investigation into the singer’s death, and confirmed that the death was by suicide. In accordance with the wishes of Jonghyun’s family, they will not be performing an autopsy.

Jonghyun’s funeral will be held quietly, and SM will be arranging a separate location where fans can pay their final respects.

Warning: The post linked below contains extensive discussion of mental health issues that may be triggering.

If you would like to talk to someone, please don’t hesitate to seek help and reach out. Click here for a list of international hotlines that you can call, and if you can’t find your country listed, please call your local emergency number.

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Nine9’s full message and Jonghyun’s letter:

I just came back from saying a final goodbye to Jonghyun.

Even as I look at him smiling in his funeral portrait, I still feel like Jonghyun is going to come back and smile, as if all of this was just a dream.

Recently, Jonghyun did talk to me about some dark and deep thoughts. It seemed like everyday must have been really difficult.

I started to get an uneasy feeling, so I told his family and tried my best to hold on to his mind, but in the end, I only delayed the timing, I could not stop it.

It’s still so hard for me to believe that he isn’t here in the world, and it’s so painful. Even now, it makes me scared because I’m not sure if posting this is right, but Jonghyun personally requested that if he ever disappeared from this world that I would personally post this no matter what.

I had hoped that this day would never come…after discussing it with his family and according to his last wish, I’m posting his final message.

I think there’s definitely a reason why he entrusted it to me. I’m also worried that it will start a controversy. However, I decided this because I think that even still, Jonghyun anticipated that and asked me. And this is the last thing I can do for him.

At least now I hope that people will know that Jonghyun was not the only one.

And that he did well…that he did really well…please tell him that you’re thankful that he endured it well.

Beautiful Jonghyun, I really love you. I will continue to love you a lot as time goes on. I hope and pray that in that place, you won’t be in pain and that you’ll be in peace…

This is Jonghyun’s final letter.

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I’m broken on the inside.

The depression that slowly gnawed away at me eventually devoured me.

I couldn’t overcome it.

I hated myself. I resolved to hold on to memories and shouted at myself to come to my senses, but there was no answer.

If there is no way to relieve stifling breath, it’s better to just stop.

I asked who can be responsible for me.

It’s only you.

I was utterly alone.

It’s easy to say you’re going to end things.

It’s hard to actually end things.

I lived with that difficulty this whole time.

You told me that I wanted to escape.

That’s right. I wanted to escape.

From me.

From you.

You asked who is over there. I said it was me. I said it was me again. And I said it was me again.

I asked why I keep forgetting my memories. You told me it was because of my personality. I see. I see that everything is my fault in the end.

I hoped that people would notice but nobody knew. You never met me so of course you would not know I was there.

You asked why I live. Just because. Just because. Everyone just lives just because.

If you ask why people die, they would probably say it’s because they’re exhausted.

I suffered and agonized about it. I never learned how to turn this pain into happiness.

Pain is just pain.

I tried to push myself past it.

Why? Why am I keeping myself from putting an end to it all?

I was told to search for the reason why it hurts.

I know all too well. I’m hurting because of me. It’s all my fault, because I was born this way.

Doctor, is this what you wanted to hear?

No. I didn’t do anything wrong.

When you told me in that calm voice that it’s because of my personality, I thought how easy it must be to be a doctor.

It’s almost fascinating, that it hurts this much. People that have it harder than me seem to get along just fine. People weaker than me get along just fine. But that must not be true. Among the people in this world, no one has it harder than me, and no one is weaker than me.

But I still tried to live.

I asked myself why I had to do so hundreds of times, and it was never for me. It was for you.

I wanted to do something for me.

Please stop telling me things you don’t understand.

You tell me to figure out why I’m having a hard time. I told you several times why. Am I not allowed to be this sad just for those reasons? Does it have to be more specific and dramatic? Do I need to have better reasons?

I already told you. Were you even listening? Things you can overcome don’t remain as scars.

I guess I was not meant to confront the world.

I guess I was not meant to lead a life in the public eye.

That’s why it was hard. Confronting the world, and being in the public eye. Why did I make those decisions. It’s ridiculous.

It’s great that I even made it this far.

What more can I say. Just tell me I did well.

Tell me I did well enough and that I went through a lot.

Even if you can’t smile while sending me off, don’t say it’s my fault.

You did well.

You really went through a lot.

Goodbye.

© Soompi

[evilpixiea]

Imagine a soulmate AU where your partners name is written on you. Bruce researched Clark Kent extensively when his name appears . Doesn't understand why his soulmate is supposed to be some shy country bumpkin. Disregards it and focuses on the mission. Clark is immensely disappointed that his sm is supposed to be a high society airhead.Still, he has a childlike faith in sm and tries to get assigned to galas where he can meet him. Maybe he worries about the strange injuries and scars on Bruce.

As a rule, I don’t like soulmate AUs. I don’t like destiny, I don’t like insta-love, I don’t like any of those tropes because they (for me) take away all the best parts out of a romantic story. There is no tension, no risk, and no sacrifice if everyone is made to match.

However, I kinda like this idea.

Perhaps it’s because Bruce said “sorry soulmate, I have bigger fish to fry” and decided not to seek Clark out in favour of becoming Batman. That suggests a level of agency and independence that is normally not present in destiny driven stories. It also suggests there is a chance soulmates might not end up together which gives us the all important ingredient; risk.

Without risk there is no reward. Or, more actuality when it comes to storytelling, the reward becomes a given which means there is no tension. Eg, if the there is nothing stopping the hero from getting what they want, and no danger of them losing what they want, then there is no story.

But there is a story here.

And if I was telling it, I would tell it like this…

Bruce’s signature appears on Clark’s forearm when he’s fourteen years old. At the time there was no internet, especially not in a small town in rural Kansas. He doesn’t know who Bruce Wayne was… he just knows he was the man he was destined to marry.

Around the same time Clark’s signature appears on Bruce, under his left arm, over his rib-cage. Unlike Clark Bruce has resources and uses them… and finds several Clark J. Kents scattered across the globe. It takes him longer than he would like to admit but he does eventually conclude that the man who’s name was on his body is the red faced farmboy who had won a ‘strangest looking pumpkin contest’ in the Kansas City Fair Day… news which had made headlines in his hometown, Smallville.

Bruce isn’t particularly pleased by this information but ultimately decides destiny marks aren’t important. After all, Alfred had never found his mate and being destined to be together hadn’t stopped his parents from being gunned down three days before their tenth anniversary. Whoever this Clark J. Kent was, Bruce was perfectly content never to know him.

Ten years later, Bruce is Batman and has recently reemerged after an extended absence from public life. He is also very quickly making a name for himself as a fairly vapid playboy. Clark is working to the Daily Planet and is both thrilled and horrified when he hears the news.

He’s spent the last five years contacting every Bruce Wayne on the planet but so far hadn’t found any who knew who he was when he told them his name. He couldn’t believe this Bruce was really the one made for him… but he can’t not know either.

He manages to convince Perry to let him cover a Wayne Foundation Gala and goes to Gotham, both wishing this was his Bruce he was about to meet… and wishing it wasn’t.

When he sees Bruce laughing and drunkenly flirting with the bartender he takes the opportunity to use his xray vision to scan his body through his clothes. Sure enough, there is his name, written down Bruce’s side.

But all around his name there are big black bruises and at one place it looked like he’d been stitched back together.

How would a rich socialite get so badly hurt? Had he been in an accident. No. There were scars as well. Some years old by the look of them.

Horrified, Clark approaches.

“Mr Wayne?”

“Yes?” Bruce’s eyes fall to the badge and then roll back into his head. “Oh God. No more reporters. Please, have mercy. I have answered so many questions today already.”

Clark thrusts his hand towards him. “My name’s Clark Kent.”

Bruce’s smile vanishes… as does his drunken demeanour. He looks at the ID badge again and this time takes a moment to read the name. “Ah. I see…”

“I think you know why I came.”

Bruce’s eyes move back up to look at him and then, all at once, becomes the drunken grinning playboy again. “To ask me where I bought my tie?”

“No. You’re my soulmate.”

Bruce’s concurrent looks of confusion, shock, and then pity were so convincing that if Clark hadn’t already seen his signature on the man’s side he would have been convinced.

“I am sorry Mr… eh… Kent. Bruce Wayne is a very common…”

“No! I know it’s you!” At first Clark is angry that this man - his soulmate - would lie to him… then he remembers the bruises. Perhaps Bruce is being abused by someone and is scared to talk to him? Why else would he lie to him like that?

He grabs him by the hand and pulls him through the party to a quiet corner away from the crowds. Bruce seems uncomfortable but doesn’t resist him.

“Look. I know it’s you. I know you’re mine…”

Bruce makes an unhappy sound but doesn’t otherwise protest.

“…I also know someone is hurting you. That’s okay. You don’t need to be afraid. I can help you.”

He’d expected Bruce to look confused or maybe relived. He hadn’t expected the look of anger and contempt that flashed across the man’s face. “And how do you know this?”

“I… well I saw my mark… and the bruises…”

The anger was brighter now, as was his contempt. “Where? Where did you see this?”

“Here. Just…” This was his soulmate, right? He could be honest with his soulmate. “I looked through your clothes.”

“You looked through…?” Bruce trails off as Clark opens the first two buttons of his shirt and shows him the Superman shield. The man’s eyes flash and the anger leaves to be replaced by a new look… calculating. Without saying a word Bruce looks back at his face and studies him.

Clark can see the moment when he recognised Superman.

“I can keep you safe,” he promises. “Whoever is hurting you…”

“That is my business.”

He’s stunned. “But… Bruce, we’re soulmates.”

“I am not interested in a soulmate, least of all one who looks at me naked before we’ve even met.”

“I’m sorry. It wasn’t about… that. I just wanted to make sure you were my Bruce.”

“I’m not.”

“Yes you…”

“No. I’m not your anything. Now get the hell out of my party, Superman.”

Clark’s hurt. More than hurt, he’s angry. He feels like he’s been betrayed by the person he’s been dreaming about and looking for for almost a decade. He leaves Gotham and writes a scathing article about the gala.

After a week he calms down, realises how intrusive he was, and writes Bruce a long apology letter. He is, after all, his soulmate. They have to figure this out somehow.

But Bruce never responds to him.

He manages to convince Perry to send him to another Wayne Foundation event only to find his name scratched off the door list.

He flies to the rooftops and decides to wait until Bruce leaves but is interrupted by Batman - holy shit that guy is real - who tells Clark to get out of his city.

Clark flies to the manor the next day but Bruce’s butler told him to leave even after Clark showed the man the name written across his forearm.

That’s when Clark gives up. Clearly Bruce wants nothing to do with him. Just because they had their names written on each other didn’t mean they would get a happy ending. Heck, lots of people never even found their soulmate.

In the following months he starts having a relationship with Lois only to have that fall apart when her soulmate shows up out of the blue having read her name in the newspaper. Clark had never felt so pettily jealous before than when he watched them kiss with wild excited passion in the middle of the office moments after showing each other their mate marks.

He starts spending more time as Superman and even starts doing missions with other heroes. Flash, Wonder Woman, Green Lantern and even Batman. In fact, as the months went on especially Batman. He wasn’t sure what it was but Batman was both incredibly secretive and incredibly… interested in him. It was nice to have someone who was interested in him even if it was probably just his powers (and weaknesses) Batman was interested in.

Truth be told, he was interested in Batman too. He was smart, incredibly skilled, and had a brutally dry sense of humour. He also had a laugh, a low rumbley sort of laugh, that might just be the most beautiful sound Clark had ever heard.

They become friends, in their own weird way. Then they became close friends. Then one day…

“Superman?”

“Hm? What’s up?”

“Do you know who I am?”

“As in your secret identity? No. But, wait, no. You don’t need to tell me. You don’t know my secret identity so it’s only fair…”

“You’re Clark J. Kent.”

Clark stares at him. “I… how did you…?”

“You told me.”

“I told you? When did I tell you? I don’t even introduce myself with my middle initial.”

“No, but you sign your name that way.”

“My signature. Where the hell did you see my sign…” he trails off… and realises who he’s speaking to. “Bruce?”

Batman pushes back his cowl. Doesn’t say a word.

“Oh… I… I didn’t… the bruises… it all…”

“You really didn’t know it was me?”

“No.”

“Then why were you spending so much time with me?”

“I don’t know. I suppose I… I just like… you.”

[theexcogitativelibrarium]

A lot of people keep talking about the big three and I know we posted something about the big three being a bit of an advantage and being from a smaller company being a possible disadvantage but at the same time they (EXO) still had to prove themselves. EXO could've flopped the moment they came out like y'all don't understand the cultural dynamics of what SM has/is still trying to do. Look at current politics right now. Look at the current relationships between South Korea and China right now. Back then and I'd have to do some reading to be sure (1, 2, 3) but they may have been about the same, improving, or worse. And though EXO is a wholesome and noble concept (Always reread/rewatch MAMAs opening declaration) EXO still could've faced a lot of backlash and rejection....(y’all EXO is touring throughout Asia at a time where relationships between their governments are not at its best....that’s.....that doesn’t blow your mind?)

The big three and the name is helpful though. Coming from a big three company...you have the recognition, you have the reputation already. It's like someone is vouching for you but at the same time you know how it goes with SM. While they do have activities going on for more than one group at a time they do tend to throw more of their resources at groups that are very very very successful (plus they like to stick with one theme concept and drive that concept until everyone is tired of it.) So yes EXO is part of the big three but still. Let's not forget that episode of EXO showtime when Chanyeol, Suho, and Luhan were at the market and they asked if anyone knew who they were. People will always remember Growl but EXO had come out before Growl with What is Love and MAMA the year before. 

Remember the conversation Suho and Chanyeol had with the butcher and the butcher said “oh yeah SM Entertainment? Lee Sooman’s company?”  So again they were vouched for because of who they were associated with. As many opinions as we all have about Mr. Sooman, he has quite the reputation and connections which EXO benefits from by default. But then again look at the pictures that have come to light recently of EXO after they debuted and giving concerts with fans sitting on the street in front of them. Look at the way EXO was out there trying to get home base recognition. You all keep looking at them at their present chapter 5 and forget that they also started at page 0 in the past. You forget that they (their concept team) also had to put a table of contents together and figure out what their objectives were going to be and how they (again their concept team) were going to take over just like everyone else. And then it was up to EXO being given the tools to succeed to really sell it. With their personalities featured at their debut stage, TV interviews (which only happened after a little while,) etc and so on. They wouldn’t have been offered interviews or anything else unless there was genuine public interest in learning more about them. People knew about them before they debuted and the rumors were spreading but still you need to garner some interest. 

So yeah sure they came from the big three but had everyone not been down for what they were selling they would be like some of these other groups who are still out here doing their thing but aren't getting as much recognition (which is horrible. You have these people out here busting their asses but they ain’t being seen because well someone else is in the spotlight for a multitude of reasons. Remember the brand post for this past Marketing Monday?)

Trust and believe that SM would've pushed EXO to the side if they weren't making the money that they were making regardless of how much money has been invested into them so let's not get it twisted and think that they haven't worked hard. Not only them but their concept and design teams. Their producers and lyricists. Their managers and prep teams. Their security. All of these people would have been tanked if EXO tanked. So that denies everyone and especially EXO of all the years many of them spent as trainees trying to move onto the next level to just be selected to be part of a group. 

Y'all are really forgetting that Johnny just debuted? That could've been EXO if they hadn’t been placed in the group that they were. (What the logic is behind how the groups are put together, I still really want to know.) Like we ALL have to start SOMEWHERE.

When we talk about the legends that EXO are that's not to discredit anyone else or to say that they're not working hard. We are only giving props where they are due. 

I mean think about it.....we are so caught up in this abstract concept that they (their concept team....I think we forget that EXO didn’t come up with this concept on their own very often. It was created for them and they suit it quite well. Though had they had more say in their group concept I wonder how differently things would have turned out....) randomly came up with of being extra-terrestrial beings from another planet whose sole mission of existing in this plane is to bring us to a new level of quality entertainment that will save our souls and our planet sounds like some next level shit don't you think? 

There are so many artists across the world that will never be recognized on the national stage much less the international stage. There were/still are so many people who audition for companies that were never chosen and will never be chosen to be part of the candidate pool of prospective trainees for whatever reason. 

It is a game of chance and luck and skill and determination and hard work to be be chosen (which is why I always feel that this alignment was divine and purposeful) and sometimes it can be a dirty game to stay in there. 

EXO did what they were prepared for then and they continue to do what they've been prepared for (much of the hate seems misguided. EXO isn’t even one bit nasty towards the other groups either...not on their social media or in person....so where does the venom come from? Direct it towards the source and handle the issues you have with the fans but it doesn’t have anything to do with the guys....). They continue to sell the concept they were given that everyone who stans them bought into wholeheartedly (fame is a cruel ride.) To echo many of the positive and forward thinking posts out here written by fellow EXO-Ls, it’s truly no worry if one day they suddenly stop making the ground breaking sales records and chart records and award records that they've made all these years (which will be reblogged this coming Woke Wednesday.) They will continue to be legends regardless. The ink has already dried on their first page. And we've turned another page.

Everyone is free to continue on to create new records but what's been done is done. 

Your goal shouldn’t be to hold your group up to EXO as if by mocking their record and purposefully baiting/seeking posts of EXO-Ls bemoaning EXO’s “sliding influence” which began since their debut somehow validates what the group you stan has done. Why are we comparing chapters when we’re in different sections in our reading right now? It’s alright y’all. No matter the group they are doing the damn thing right alongside EXO while EXO is doing their own damn thing. They are existing within this new era together. That isn’t meant as a slight at all. It’s just what’s happening. Right now is EXO’s time to shine. And at the same time it’s time for your group to shine. We can’t all shine simultaneously....? Like the stars in the galaxy? No one is (not at EXO Rhyme and Reason anyway...) seeking the demise of another group just for EXO to rise. That’s trash and we will N E V E R support that. Instead let’s celebrate our groups. Celebrate every single one of your members. Celebrate every triumph they have. It’s ok to be sad too because we sure as hell are when we feel that EXO hasn’t gotten what we feel they deserve. But let’s not get carried away in the passion of these moments and blame it on things like “well the Big 3 is the problem...” No! We all vote. We all buy albums. We all pay to see them in concert. We all buy merch. That is about all we can do. It requires the efforts of fans and their companies. (I know there are some people trying to clown y’all and make y’all feel bad about stanning your group but that’s not the nastiness I’m trying perpetrate right here at all.) There are groups and individuals out here doing THE FUCKING THING and they aren’t from Big 3 companies. Let’s not do that. Unrelated to K-Pop but I’m thinking Chance the Rapper right now who is independent or even taking it back to K-Pop, there’s Jay Park (ex member of 2PM) who has his own company.....like people are out here fucking it ALL THE WAY UP in all the genres of Korean Popular Music! Celebrate them!!!!! (And let’s still tell the stories of the veteran groups who were once part of/still part of the Big 3 but have suffered because of it. And Big 3′s are also home to slave contracts and a lot of other horrid abuses (see this post for a look back through history - Having a concept of music history is important. Nothing is existing on its own or separate from what was before. Though there is a new wave of K-Pop fans, this whole thing is old.)) 

And this isn’t to shove EXO down your throat or to try to convert you to be an EXO-L. It really is ok if you don’t like them because of their music or their personalities or things they have done that you don’t agree with, etc. They’re humans. They ain’t perfect. Let’s call it what it is. (You know we don’t play about that here at EXO Rhyme and Reason.) And we all aren’t everyone’s cup of tea either. It’s cool. Really it is. Like nah, let’s just be real. Do you and love the group that you love or even continue to be multifandom. Make your own choices. Enjoy the music. Enjoy the concerts. Enjoy every concept. Enjoy getting to know your group members and supporting their dreams. Enjoy the throwbacks and seeing how everyone is continuing to grow and become their best selves. That’s what we’re all out here doing. 

As for our boys in this new year of 2017......

May they continue to succeed.

May they continue to be blessed.

May opportunities for them continue to manifest.

May we all continue to walk hand-in-hand towards the future together.

We Are One 엑소

-Admin Pisces-