#i struggle soooo much with this though

[beomsl]

why do i constantly crave attention? why am i such a whore even though i’m a virgin? why can’t i get myself off?🤕👹

i will give you an answer but honestly same. anyways i think there's nothing wrong with wanting to be seen, wanted etc and dont want to have sex. like they're two different things and there may be a million reasons for you not to want to fuck? for me its okay you can kiss make out tease but dont trust anyone enough to take that step, it's valid 🤷🏻‍♀️

[luna-loveboop]

It's not quite dark yet but I can already see the moon :)

- hero-of-the-wolf

Dodkxjkdndjt lucky! I am exhausted, so I can't even walk outside right now. But I'm at my parents for the summer (out of the city) so I can actually see the stars and stuff :DD Light pollution is my mortal enemy.

The moon cycle's heading towards more full right now so I'll be looking out up? for it!

[disposal-blueeee]

silly thing i made last night XP

vargas by @zarla-s

[protect-namine]

I was thinking the other day that man, kokuto neji is such a character and I haven't liked a writer character like this since... shang qinghua?

which naturally led me to this thought: jj fic with svsss-style au where neji transmigrates/gets isekai'd into the world of havenna. as domina, of course.

it's extra fucked up imo because at least when sqh transmigrated in his book, he made up all of those characters and they mostly stayed in the realm of fantasy. like, sure, lbh was kinda based on himself in some ways and mbj was his ideal fantasy, but they still mostly stayed fictional, you know? sqq (sy) had to fix his plots because the characters sqh wrote strayed too far from their original plotlines

but theater makes a fictional world a bit too real and personal, especially when you use real people as inspirations for your writing. with neji, he'd be looking at rukiora and see three different people (mitsuki acting as rukiora; rukiora who was written based on a younger version of neji; rukiora who is her own person in this weirdly real world of havenna). neji would see fugio and to him that is both sou acting as fugio and the fugio who grew up with poison flowers. miguel is both fumi and the guy who ran away from his neshiromi fields. the only constant would probably be chicchi. she is too much like kisa in that... well. neji didn't really have a backstory for chicchi. chicchi is a blank canvas just like kisa is as an actor.

anyway. yeah, very sv-style character arc where neji, much like shen yuan in sv, is forced to humanize the villain. except this villain was his creation and is also tied to a bunch of personal issues for neji that he Doesn't Want To Think About and also he doesn't? really understand the character he wrote tbh?

isn't art supposed to process your emotions for you!! why must he process these himself!!

can you imagine neji, who always casts himself as a seer of some sort (fortune teller, ushinoko) or someone who generally has some control over his future or his "creation" (who is mary if not just another side of neji anyway; she's takihime redux, and takihime is also. neji). imagine this dude being transported inside the play he wrote but he doesn't understand it and he has no control over it and everyone's acting both in character and out of character. he both knows and doesn't know these people. they're fictional but also... real? does he treat them as real people? is domina real? he wanted his actors to imbue parts of themselves into his characters. are these people really just characters from a script? are they his quartz classmates? is he allowed to even hope that that's the case?

it's both THE improv exercise of his dreams and also. a nightmare

[itspileofgoodthings]

anyway went to my students’ musical and my friend had to run away right after and I was feeling that kind of sinking anxiety feeling I get in social situations of ‘I’m going to have to face the kids alone and talk to them and handle this graciously’ and then they all just swarmed me in the third row before I could look for them

[citrus-blade]

I hate being sick

All I wanna do it write my silly little dreamnoblade fanfiction while being wrapped in my silly little blanket and chatting with my silly little online friends but NAH

[moe-broey]

OKAY OKAY I'M GONNA POST SOME OF MY RAMBLINGS FROM THE GROUP CHAT BC. I'm SO EXCITED about what I fucking scored (these are just snippets I Talked. A Lot LMFAOO)

Okay. Context. Just one pic that doesn't do it full justice bc it has cool little details too (ESP: little straps near the waist that button/unbutton, EXTREMELY USEFUL AND IDEAL to carry my noise cancelors with) (will hit image limit so just saying Dude Trust Me)

Okay. GO

LIKE. LIKE. I went on a whole ass journey about this. The vest I'm talking about in that last screenshot is this really gorgeous handmade green/beige blocked w flower print (it's like. Femme Masc. To me) that I got at a craft fair, for reference! Something I Barely wear/honestly save for special occasions bc 1) the Collar I did not factor in The Collar BUT. I FIXED THIS. WITH SAFETY PINS. Honestly I don't know why I didn't think to do that sooner. And 2) It's... incredibly difficult to pair w my usual jacket. If not impossible.

THIS... CAN CHANGE.... like something I said that I cut out here is The Potential. Of customizing this jacket Intentionally. So that I can layer it in both directions -- worn on top of things ofc but FOCALLY. Easy to wear Underneath something.

IDK IDK I'M JUST SOOOOOO PICKY ABOUT MATERIAL AND HOW THINGS FIT so it's like INSANELY COOL. That I scored something Like This that fits Perfectly to my preferences AND is really good material ESP when I've been wanting to start a new punk jacket For Forever...... again, with more intention this time! I don't have any clear plans or ideas. But I am thinking about The Purpose of it, what I Want from it, and exactly How I want it. And going from there!

[vaugarde]

listened to cabinet man again for holiday joy and i also listened to touch tone telephone again and man the urge to add it to the quinn and atlas playlist…

[irisbaggins]

...oh no. Neverafter is, genuinely, a perfect angle for a Master thesis, especially with the two ideas I currently have in mind. I have a deep love for fairy tales, and this campaign is very intriguing to me (just started it, no I'm not procrastinating an exam what-). I'm still going to angle my first idea around Burrow's End (it's quite literally the best thing ever), I'm looking at Neverafter, believe you me.

Anyway. Off I go watching more Neverafter instead of doing my Middle English exam. Oh well.

[naldthal-thetraders]

personal scribbles

[cruelsister-moved2]

she kind of spilled i HATE that this is true but since ive been like #healed and normal I’ve literally been less creative and connected to art less and I don’t want that to be true but it so is 😭 the thing is it’s a balance because if you’re completely rock bottom and in despair then it’s impossible to create things but at the same time there’s a level of emotional evocativeness that you need a certain level of darkness in your soul to be able to access YOU KNOW?

[arsenicflame]

little wrap up of day one of the ofmd bird skirt!

i went into this one with a clear plan for once, even having a cutting plan and an order of operations written in my journal (wow look so prepared. expect to never see this again)

i have faith that this one will actually be a quick project, ive basically achieved all i can do for the moment- which isn't a lot, but its all the prep work at least! ive got to hang my skirt panels for several days now so they can stretch (which is more important than ever because its the /seams/ that are on the bias, rather than the center of the panel)

all my cutting out is done (a MINOR deviation from the cutting plan was made- i wanted to use my mega pocket pattern and i couldnt fit it in the top piece of waste fabric, i needed the extra smidge from the curve of the skirt) ive overlocked my pocket pieces, and stay stitched my waist line on the skirt (though i didn't cut it out as im not sure the pattern fits me absolutely perfectly, and i thought itd stabilise it more!)

i also started on the waistband! i had to re-teach myself how i like to do a petersham waistband, but its still my favourite way to do one! the petersham essentially acts as an interfacing, but itll never fold over on itself!) ive basically followed that as far through as i can too- given that the fabric is velvet i cant press it down so ive topstitched the inside edge but im not sure i want it visible on the outside, so im leaving that one for now

see you all next week when the bias has (hopefully) finished stretching for pockets, invisible zip and the rest of the waistband!

[arolesbianism]

It is my new life purpose to add the most questionable song choices to the Jackie section of my oni playlist. Hey at least one of them is a rabbit universe Jackie song so I have sort of an excuse, but spoilers it's not keep your head up so uhhhhh lol

[perfectlyhappypumpkin]

Life is just crazy lately. I have so much to say about so many things but most of them either aren’t worth saying or I just don’t have the time to discuss.

I really really hope that things get better again soon, because life is just real fucked up currently.

But I hope that once things have settled again a bit that I can focus on me and work on me and meeting the goals I have for myself and setting new ones.

And I’ve decided I’m DEFINITELY gunna go on a cruise as soon as I’m financially able to. It’s something I’ve always wanted to do ever since I was promised it by my ex’s mother and it fell through because she decided to do drugs and murder someone instead 🫠 (true story, she’s on an episode of snapped)

So I’m gunna get my shit together (hopefully once everything else in my life settles) and get myself a nice cruise.

[chaosintheavenue]

Wasteland 3

never played | want to play | terrible | boring | okay | good | great | a favorite

[dropitpunk]

i’m begging you to elaborate on anal with logan it is a NEED

sure can!

cw: smut, logan (wolverine) x fem!reader, talking about anal sex and all that stuff.

logan will ease you into it day by day, he needs you relaxed and comfortable before he tries anything with your other hole.

it starts like it usually does with logan, a playful slap on your ass cheek soon escalates to him groping you, grinding his crotch against your butt and kissing your neck.

he will though start to give undivided attention to your ass, biting, grabbing, licking and worshipping it under his greedy fingers.

you don't seem to notice any difference in his behavior, your boyfriend gave love to every part in your body.

"what are you doing, baby?" your eyes widened slightly, a gasp leaving your bitten lips as logan's tongue circled your rim playfully.

"just tasting you, just like i always do, sugar." he smirked at you, unaffected.

you felt your lower belly burn, your thighs were shaking around his head, inner parts all scratched up from his beard.

logan knew he had you when he put the tip of his tongue inside your asshole and you came, face all embarrassed and confused. your pussy was dripping on the bed, begging for his dick inside.

you don't talk about it for a while, always more reserved than logan when it came to sex matters.

but he did notice your interest.

your pussy was wrapped up around his cock, sucking him inside like he should never leave, his crotch all messy from your juices, your face embedded in pleasure.

he knew it was the perfect time.

one of his fingers went to his tongue, taking his time to get it wet before he rubbed it on your clit, your wetness soaking his hand.

"lo..." you moaned spent, grabbing your own tits as you watched him. he smiled down at you, tilting his head.

his finger trailed down until it found your twitching hole, tracing it slowly so he could give you time to complain. when you didn't, one of his fingers slipped in as he watched your reaction.

once again, it didn't take much for you to cum when he was playing with your ass.

he experimented with you, adding more fingers, using his tongue to ass fuck you, making you sit your ass on his face. for his final treat to be sweet he needed to prepare you.

logan needed you to beg him to put his dick inside. and you did so.

"lo, are we not doing... stuff today?" you were on his lap, skirt bunched around your hips and shirt off. he looked at his crotch, zipper open, and then at your lips, all pouty and red from your make out session.

"we are doing stuff." he even faked being confused, logan needed to hear you say exactly what he wanted.

"no, i mean, you know. the other stuff." you played with his beard, feeling his lips kiss the inside of your wrist. "sex."

"i thought i was the impatient one." logan teased. "it was leading up to it, bub, half of my pants are off."

"logan." you whined, hitting his shoulder. your face was red, but you still had the courage to say, "wan' you to fuck my ass."

he was NOT normal after that.

literally nothing could have prepared him for how tight you would be, he needed a few seconds to breathe or he would bust before he could even get his whole dick inside you.

logan was big and thick, so it was a struggle even with him fingering your ass for half an hour and significant amounts of lube and spit. but you know, of course he made it fit.

keeps cursing under his breath and stopping every full minute to get himself together and kiss your face a little bit, you felt too good, too perfect.

logans just soooo addicted to every part of you.

im always so out of ideas to answer asks omg but i love getting them pls ask me