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Golden Scars
#banesberry art#Myr.exe#Its been a hot minute since Ive drawn myself/Miriam#Anyways uhhh slightly updated design#Gonna be revamping the details around how Miriams 963 works and basing more off my own source mems#(Im a splitroject of like 3 people ???? Myriad Shaw and like one other dude that I havent figured out)#Anyways liquid gold in the bloodstream goes crazyyy#Dr Miriam Anatolios#Dr Anatolios#scp 963#963 rewrite#bright rewrite#myriad fictive#dr myriad#<I AM ALLOWED TO PUT IT IN THISE TWO TAGS cause Myriad is still like my primary source for whatever reason#I remember two distinct timelines (a version of Absolution and also another timeline thats like very different)#Whatever Im gonna stop rambling in the tags now lmao#Oh and one last thing bc I know someones gonna end up asking- no I cannot see out of my right eye#(Youll see excatly why in later art [evil grin])
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Oh i hate being hit with new ideas when i havent even finished what im already working on.....adhd brain cannot focus on both at once 😭😭
#god. its the worst.#its why i havent updated 'i never want to miss you again' despite saying i would 🙈 my interest just ran elsewhere with cyfts#i WILL finish cyfts tho. i will. its going to take a hot minute tho#august is unfortunately a very busy month for me 😔🔫#anyway. have ideas for a modern au legato x knives thing but thankfully its just a bundle of ideas rn#and i still wanna write for their ship week too!!! ugh i have so much to do and not enough time to do it
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──── ୨ৎ RED WAS THE CARPET — GRAYSON HAWTHORNE + READER ‧₊˚
a/n: and everyone rejoiced. welcome back to the grayson series that is keeping you all alive bc it is shhh. lets all collectively ignore how i havent update this in a month but we move on and enjoy part threeeee !!! and pls forgive me idk anything abt events or red carpets so if i get anything wrong js pretend. also idk why but i love the title and the fact that is somehow makes zero sense and yet is still understandable i need to shut up ive rambled too much ENJOY (love you lots <33)
[part one] i'm a fan [part two] the book club
red was the carpet that you walked on earlier.
it matched your dress.
alya, your very annoying plus one for tonight was wearing black.
there was a lot of things that happened tonight. a lot of things you were never going to forget. everybody you met and talked with... especially one of them...
"oh my god, pheebs and ki are going to be so jealous," alya squeals - quietly of course, you're still surrounded by people, and although sometimes you think alya could actually fight god and win, in public, she's behaving surprisingly calm.
well calm adjacent.
its not exactly seen as calm and collected when you're jumping up and down every three seconds when you see another celebrity walk past preparing for the carpet.
to her credit though she has somehow managed to get the numbers of four actors and singers in the thirty minutes you've been here.
you were lined up at the end of the carpet along with a few other select interviewers, waiting for the start of the event. alya was a bundle of nerves when margot robbie and zendaya stopped for their interview barely getting a few words out and opting to just hold the camera instead.
when xander and jameson arrived though, that was a different story. you'd think they were life long friends. you chatted with max of course, promising to invite her to your next book sleepover, jameson was suspiciously quiet and smirk-y and xander kept looking over his shoulder a shit eating grin on his face.
you knew what was about to happen.
pictures don't do him justice.
that was to be expected, of course. you don't have millions of people following you, or watching your every move for no reason.
the screams on the red carpet, increased when he stepped foot on it, pleas to look at the camera, answer questions, how to pose, everything. he seemed to follow along well, looking hauntingly beautiful in his suit, his face practically carved but when he scanned the large crowd twice over before his eyes settled on you, it went quiet.
he smiled - and by the way it was really hot gorgeous - and you smiled back, a private moment between the two of you in the middle of chaos.
which was totally ruined when alya latched onto your arm and freaked out that she could see grayson.
"oh my god, he's like ten feet away. ohmygodohmygod!" she squealed.
"yeah i know, i can see him," you mutter back, attempting - and failing - to stop her jumping up and down.
"but he's like right there and he's looking at you!"
"i know."
"oh, oh, oh he's coming over to us now, oh my god i think i'm going to faint, hold me."
when the grayson hawthorne stopped in front of you a soft and rare smile on his face you faltered slightly - not because of alya standing there with her mouth agape, because... wow - before raising the microphone and starting.
"hi grayson, its lovely to meet you, i'm y/n."
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yn.books im am honoured to have been invited to this event!! it was so lovely meeting everyone and asking you questions 🤍 (also kinda freaking out because i met anne hathaway omggg)
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user1 i see no mention of grayson......
user2 avoiding talking about a certain someone are we?
user3 if they didn't meet im actually going to riot, i'm shipping them so hard.
user4 we have confirmation from jameson that he was there... why didnt you talk to him....
user5 maybe she just didn't want to show that?? its not always about grayson
alya.green best night of my life.
maxine.lui.loo it was so good seeing you again babes <333
yn.books we should catch up while im still in texass
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graysonhawthorne met some nice people tonight.
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user1 MET WHO GRAYSON??? MET WHO??
user2 ugh he's so delicious i love it
user3 everyone wake up grayson posted
user4 he better have met her or im going to quit
alya.green oh... i see how it is then.... i will do what i must...
user5 ALYA WHAT ARE YOU GOING TO DO??? OH MY GOD???
user6 ALYA ????
user7 in the likes she's in the likes againnnnn
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[camera: on]
you should've know alya would have a shit eating grin the entire interview. it was tempting to punch her, very tempting.
"i honestly think divine rivals is my favorite book i've read this year," grayson's deep voice answers your question. his eyes stay on your face and he has a soft smile.
alya is elbowing you now. and you nudge her back as you ask your next question, smiling because now there are even more cameras on you.
"okay," you smile laughing nervously. "now i've asked everyone this tonight, i have a youtube channel."
"oh right yes, i follow you," grayson's voice is calm and his eyes are still on your face.
"you do?" with all of the things that are happening you weren't actually expecting him to be following you.
"yes, you're videos have become a guilty pleasure almost."
if anyone was wondering alya is losing her shit next to you. she has the biggest grin on her face, she's whipped out her camera and is taking an excessive amount of pictures.
"thats really sweet of you," a smile is present on your face now and you raise the microphone to ask your question, ignore the now fully smile grayson has on his face at your flustered-ness. "anyway my question was, do you have anything you want to say, a quote or just anything you like to tell the people watching?"
you turn the mic over to him and he looks down at you with a fond expression on his face - your insides are butterflies now - before looking at the camera.
"i'm going to say, you've made a good decision following this girl. she's a lovely person and keep supporting her," he pauses for a second, "and read divine rivals."
you laugh and nod at the camera, "i agree 100%." turning back to him you start. "well thank you for your time tonight, grayson, it was lovely to getting to know you," you look over to the over excited alya who's just standing back and nodding as if she's a proud mother. "and maybe we'll see you inside."
"hopefully we will," grayson smiles and waves slightly before moving on to the next interviewer.
[camera: off]
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alya.green two things: 1, my dress tonight and 2, if they won't do it... i will.
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user1 OH SHE IS SO MESSY
user2 THIS IS THE QUEEN BEHAVIOUR I SUPPORT
user3 and when i tell you cackled BC LOOK AT THEIR SMILES. LOOK AT THE WAY SHES LOOKING AT HIM.
pheobethereader and you're officially invited back to the next book sleep over.
alya.green i don't need ur validation i dont have to come to the sleepovers
pheobethereader ok then :)
alya.green no wait i'll do anything i have like zero self respect when it comes to the sleepovers
user4 OH HELL YEAH THEY METTTT
ticking.time.bomb and then after the premier... the restaurant....?
alya.green all in due time my friend
user5 EXCUSE ME??? THE RESTAURANT WHAT HAPPENED???
user6 im going to need you to spill the tea RIGHT NOW
user7 the fact that they both liked this but didn't comment 😭😭
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the restaurant was another story though, for another time.
a/n II: guys i lowkey hate it but i was determined to finish this so :)))
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It's been a hot minute,, I was busy with sponsors (WHICH IS REALLY GOOD TO ME AND A FIRST!! check my insta if u havent seen it! :D), commissions (which they're still open btw!!), and others. I haven't drawing my wife in a while and I miss him bad <\3
But!! I took some silly vacation pics with the!! silly!!!



And some other things!! (More stardew board games lol)



Updated Itabag!! :D

I got a sponsor collab with Wooacry too!! it was a huge honor wagh!!
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Genos x hero!reader / little smut headcanons
Fem reader
Minors DNI
an: Sorry i havent updated in long, but i promise for more content, school is killing me man :/ but i hope u enjoy this lil hq that i got randomly at 12pm, but also Genos is hot soooo...
Thinkin’ bout’ totally whipped Genos who met you at a hero meeting. You are an A-rated hero with shape-shift-like powers, also allowing you to copy powers. He fell for you because you saved his life once, and if he respected Saitama that much for saving him. He would straight up ask you to be with him the next day, and while you were severely flustered and thinking this was too soon for a relationship, you couldn’t resist those puppy eyes and little tears that he gave you.
Him wanting to impress you while having no idea how to properly please you, asking Dr. to make him a realistic dick for him to use for pleasing you. After having a small mental crisis for having such a request from a guy he thought was innocent. And he gave him just what he asked for, a giant 13’’ monstrous, smooth metal and a mushroom lie tip. Making special nerves to make him feel pleasure from it. And while he can not get you pregnant, because he doesn’t have anything in there. He will still teach him the basic beards and bees, cause he doesn’t know how to use it.
After your 5th date, where you went to get some boba and mochi, you invited him to stay over at your apartment so he doesn't have to go home so late. Getting saucy as you lead him into your room and make him feel comfortable by giving him one of your oversized shirts, telling him ur just gonna go to the bathroom to wash your face. And while that was true for some part, you were also doing some mods to your body, making your breasts bigger and your body curvier. Cause you for sure know that it will be a fun night, and that you have to look and feel your best.
Laying down with him and just cuddling and talking for 10 minutes. Until his hand brushes against your breast, making your nipple hard against his touch. Your breath hitches, making your lips get closer and closer until they finally touch until you start slipping tongs in and making out. And while you wanted him to fuck you senseless until dawn, with it being your first night you wanted it to be very gentle and sweet. Telling him to just cock warm him until morning. To your surprise, you had to explain to him what cock warming is but it didn’t bother you. More of a concern was his size since you never took anything that long before, eventually you managed to get it in almost to the brim. But it felt so good that you couldn’t help but moan, hearing him grunting next to you. Asking him if he was comfortable with it, he nods immediately, saying that you can also relax. And while you fall soundly asleep, he is dreaming of waking you up in the morning to ask if he can pound into you, he can hold back now, but he is not sure how long it will last.
And when you woke up to another sight of those puppy eyes, you cant really say no to him now.
Hope u enjoyed...
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so i havent updated ANY of my rwby fics in a hot minute like i said i would. THAT BEING SAID. they are still being written. i just have like, three jobs and a full time class schedule.
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rambling/update below cut for whoever still keep up with my blog (laying on my knees and kicking my stomach if u do <3)
its been a hot minute, ive been dealing with a lot yaknow, quarter life crisis, lots of reflecting, forcing myself to change for the better, and generally still learning how to care about my own wellbeing seriously
i miss drawing but this hiatus has been really good for me mentally and emotionally. i still want to draw !!! its just going to take longer than usual (im aware abt the commissions i havent finished yet and i promise it kills me every day but i really hate making art when in a bad mood and i really like all my art to have positive memories attached to it instead)
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Homie are you alive
Hiii
I amm.....😅😅 i know its been a hot minute but a lot has been going on in my life, and i left on a writer's block that's not going away.....🥲🥲
So sorry for yall who are waiting for an update on my last fic 😭😭😭 i wanna let yall know i havent forgotten about it, and am trying my best 😞😞
I still love and appreciate everyone whos supported and have been reading so far, yall real ones for sure 😭😭🥹🥹💜💜💜
I hope the next time I post, it will be a chapter update 🥹🥹
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havent been on here in a hot minute but HAAAII im still doing quads, still being dog, just quietly in my room instead of around town :3
soon i shall have updates as my friend and i are gonna go build a fort in the woods and then ill have a den of sorts :D
but yea. thank you for all the notes on my art ! thats pretty cool! um. yeah! im not dead <3
#therian#therianthropy#alterhuman#otherkin#therian safespace#therians#theriotype#canine theriotype#dog therian#canine therian
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Dee!!! Sorry It’s been so longggg but it was nice to unplug and step away for tumblr and socials during the hols
How have you been?!? Did you have a good break?? I’m still catching up on all the updates but congrats on the new upcoming fic!! I’m so excited to read it but I do want to talk about the latest nb chapter NDKSNDKSSK I don’t know if it’s because it’s been a hot minute since I read your work but I feel like your writing got even better than it was?!? Like how?!? I was literally at the edge of my seat holding my breath trying to read through the oc apartment scenes
I’ll happily wait for updates of writing at this good, you’re so ridiculously talented!!!
🦦 anon
OH WOWWWW I TOTALLY REMEMBER YOU 🦦 ANON!! congrats on ur social media break!! i feel like i ought to do that too bcs i havent been feeling really well lately bcs of just ehhhh and blah blah. anyway the holidays was more than great for me!! i miss it actually (or i actually just miss the break from uni ijbol)
but omg the latest nb update! im so glad u mentioned my writing in there!! tbh the reason why nb 12 took so long is bcs i kind of forgot how to write nb during my break from it 🥲 i had like a set tone for nb when i started writing it, and then i feel like i kind of forgot how to do it as the months passed by 🥲🥲 nb 14 esp felt kind of ... almost weird?? i already mentioned it but that chapter took a lot of rewriting 😭 i like how it turned out dont get me wrong but i was nervous to post it bcs i felt like i was kind of straying away from the tone and it read waayyy tooooo descriptive which is not very like nb 😭 eh idk. glad u like it tho!!!! this means a lot and totally shut down my tiny doubts about the recent updates!!
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Accidentally clicked on your Playlist and you just wanted to say you have excellent taste!
thank you!! im glad you like it :) i havent updated it in a long time i havent been keeping my ear to the ground for a hot minute. but im glad the bands in there are still getting some ears from it!
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work on the mod is existent right now but I'm currently doing a playthrough just to refresh myself and havent had my hyperfixation land on cogdis for a hot minute (until now) So uh. Things might be a bit slow. Apologies for the long wait sjkdhfgjksdf
On the bright side, I haven't caught much in terms of issues from the upgrade to the engine that I'm using that I've already seen, meaning it should all be working fine without too much hassle. Maniacs patch seems to have a few glaring issues with cogdis (Dollar sign handling sucks and it screws up some in-battle text ordering meaning I have to screw with the phrasing and grammar in a few spots) but outside of those problems, it looks like it should handle everything fine and allow for stuff like running and some musical enhancements (.ogg files are supported as well as a way to make them loop in a way to give them intros)
Don't have an ETA for 0.8, it's still big and I have a lot to do before I can release it, but I wanted to give a status update.
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End of Year Fic Recs!
I got tagged by @camille-lachenille for this, and boy I havent had time to read fic in a hot minute but this was literally the perfect opportunity to go through my ao3 and tumblr bookmarks again! Also I feel really bad that I couldnt get 5 for the first 3 categories, so pls dont take it personal if I forgot. My tagging system is a mess and idk if it works but if you want more tumblr writing recs go into the "writing that has me foaming out the mouth like a rabid dog" tag I have at the top of my account.! There's so many good drabbles and ficlets i couldnt possibly name them all! Also i likely could have tagged other author's tumblr accs but i didn't feel like looking bc I'm exhausted. I love these all sm
Also I cheated with the self rec bc one is from 2022 but I didnt want to rec only my OC lol
Recommend up to 5 series or multi-chapter fics from 2023 that everyone should read (multi-year WIPs count, if the last update was in 2023).
Beneath a Boundless Sky by @runawaymun — ongoing — Rating (M)
Summary: Elrond’s two new wards both struggle to feel at home in Rivendell. The wounds from their slavery in King Frumgar’s court are still fresh, and the scars are deep -- and they’re not the only ones. Maglor is home at last, but each day he lives he is haunted by guilt and grief. Elrond is nothing if not patient, and he is certain that given enough time in Rivendell, all three will heal.
I am always frothing at the mouth at OCs and world building and this work *and the prev work/part 1 of the series* is SO good
dare you see a soul at the white heat? by millyfaraway — ongoing — Rating (M)
Summary: Lómion is reembodied, but struggles to cope. His uncles try to help.
BABY BOY GETS FAMILY THERAPY ABBY BOY SLOWLY GETS CONFIDENCE AND PUPPY LOVE SOBBIG ITS WHAT HE DESERVES anyway go read
The Last Heir of Fëanor - Part Two by Astrance — 87k — Rating (T)
Summary: This is the second part of the tale of the surviving child of Celebrimbor of Eregion and how she fared through the Ages of the world. From the Fall of Ost-in-Edhil to Imladris and the vastness of Second Age Eriador, the fight against Sauron seems never ending. Plans have been set in motion across the Misty Mountains, but, in Lindon, many tasks await.
Have I mentioned how much I love OCs? This is literally one of the best OCs I've read, flaws and all, and the way the whole thing is written is chefs kiss. Cant decide if I'm sweating from the amount of sobbing I've done with this work *and the previous/first part* or because of the delicious angst.
and rain will make the flowers grow by @swanmaids — 800 — Rating (G)
Summary: Glorfindel and Idril; on the Helcaraxë, in Nevrast, in Gondolin.
THEM. THEM. THEM. That's all I have to say. bUT THEM!
Recommend up to 5 single chapter fics/one-shots (long or short) from 2023 that everyone should read.
your veins are empty of dust by @echo-bleu — 1.7k — Rating (G)
Summary: Anairë finds her late one day in her workshop, surrounded by slabs of stone larger than her. Nerdanel is hammering forcefully at one of them, the barest hints of an elven shape already taking form in the marble. Bitter, stinging tears run down her cheeks and into her collar, and her arms ache with exhaustion.
The body is only barely sketched, but the face is already chiselled, smooth curves and angular cheekbones.
Fëanáro emerges out of the marble, looking like he’s about to take life.
(Across the sea, her sons lead a funeral.)
Frothing. Gnawing. I love the writing. The angst. Fucking mourning. Gimme all and then hurt me some more.
Babysitting #01 by @lordgrimwing — more chaps likely, atm oneshot
Excerpt: "She brought her children."
"Who did?”
"That Elwing woman, the pro bono case Celegorm talked me into."
Modern!scenario fix with Exhausted!lawyer!maedhros. He's tired and that's very sexy of him. Maglor is secy. They all are. Idiots. But very sexy. Elrond and Elros best boys. No argument.
Dreams of Doom by @camille-lachenille — 3.8k — Rating (M)
Summary: “She runs in the dark, alone. Where her feet carry her, she knows not, and her heart is heavy with dread. Someone - something - is watching her.”
Niënor from the moment she arrives in Brethil to her death.
THE ANGST THE LOVE THE TENDERNES THE FORESHADOWING I AM BITING THIS BC I CANT FIND GLASS TO CHEW.
Recommend up to 5 fics NOT from 2023 that everyone should read (oldies but goodies.)
Those Peaceful Hours by SpaceWall — 3.9k — Rating (T)
Summary: At the end of the Third Age, faced with her impending return to the home she left before the sun, Galadriel seeks out the one person who will understand her fears and grief.
It's so well written and the premise as a whole is so great!. Compelling and Galadriel characterisation is just so very sexy to me.
Their oath will drive them, and yet betray them by musing_and_writing — 2.2k — Rating (G)
Summary: Elrond had hours to spare, and if Maglor wished to spend the short time they had together reminiscing, he would not blame him for it. As Maglor began singing, Elrond settled himself across the clearing in his own bed of autumn flowers. Maglor’s voice resounded in the clearing, clear and powerful, just as it had upon his fortress’s ramparts as he pushed back Morgoth’s forces with a Song, just as Elrond assumed it must have echoed before the poisoning of the Trees in his family’s halls as Feanor crafted his cursed jewels.
Hehehehehe cryptid mf with a heart I love it the angst the tenderness it's just so *holds gently* while also *bodychecks maglor*
Double The Baggins, Twice The Took by fogisbeautiful — 138.5k — Rating (T)
Summary: The Baggins twins, Briallen and Bilbo, have spent their whole lives taking care of each other. So when the world outside makes an (uninvited) appearance, only one thing is certain. Not for wizard or king or mountain or dragon will the two of them part. Not if they have one word to say about it.
And besides, as Gandalf points out: It never hurts to have a spare burglar on hand.
I'm a sucker for Thorin x hobbit, and you give me a fic with bilbo's sister who's so lovely characterized? I'll kiss you sloppy style
The One With All The Birds by clothonono — 46.5k — Rating (G)
Summary: Would it never end? Would there always be one more mother standing on the shore, looking out to sea, full of a grief made more terrible by hope?
Elwing and Nerdanel in Valinor in the Fourth Age; a story about children coming home.
I think swanmaids recc'd this to me once upon the time when it hadn't been finished and I want to kiss their forehead for it. It's so good! Go read bc I lick my screen every time I re-read it.
Recommend up to 5 of your own fics (completed or WIP) from 2023 that everyone should read.
Bitter end — 6.4k — Rating (T)
Summary: Maglor has one brother left.
Both have one more fight in them.
The ghost you dress up as (knows how to haunt) — ongoing — Rating (M)
Summary: Maedhros was not the first Finwëan to be captured and taken to Angband, nor did he remain there the longest. Ranyatinwë, twin of Caranthir, was the first.
She escapes.
(Series) Old Maggie Took — 7 works — 402k — all Rating (G)
Summary: The headcanon about Maglor, second son of Fëanor, lives hidden in the Shire? Yes.
#tag game#here's the tag for even more tumblr fic recs#writing that has me foaming out the mouth like a rabid dog in a positive way#i hope it works somewhat bc its been a fucking pain to find it with how broke the system is#thank you for the tag besties!
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Towards the end of day 4 of top surgery recovery and figured I'd share how it's going. Idk if this can help anyone else but its at least going to help me. Prepare for out of order chaos
The pain isn't too bad! Like yea it hurts but I got used to it and I can take pain meds to help
Getting out of bed is a pain in the ass though. Going from laying down to sitting up is HARD (it's definitely not because I have no abs)
Speaking of pain: the drains. They don't hurt by themselves but when I shift wrong and they tug? Not fun. Not sure how to explain it but pinching isn't inaccurate
Drain fluid. Does not smell good. It's not a very strong smell and you get used to it pretty fast but it's still not fun
I also. Do not smell good. God I can't wait to shower
My mom spilled the drain fluid on me. Twice. Ew.
It's fuckn ITCHY. Always just below where I can reach through the bandages. I am going to kill someone.
Other itches are annoying too. They may not be covered by bandages but with such limited mobility it's annoying. I got a back scratcher but those don't help much when you can barely move your arms
I've probably been moving more than I'm supposed to
Love it when I move wrong and suddenly there's pain and a very suspicious warm feeling and I can't check to see what's wrong because of the bandages
Bendy straw my beloved <333 the $20 ninjago cup I got from legoland is finally making itself worth it
The first day I was incredibly nauseous. I could barely sit up for a few minutes, much less stand. Made eating dinner... not easy.
Day 2 I was feeling great! Even touched some grass!
Day 3 morning: nearly threw up when changing my shirt. I didn't but oh god it was not fun. I've never been nauseous like that before, I was hot inside but my skin was cold and my mom said the color very literally drained from my face. Made me stuck in a chair for like 20 minutes until I could stomach going back to bed.
I'm fine now (probably)
I've been enjoying being taken care of. I'm lucky enough to have a very good support system and I appreciate it. I also appreciate always getting my pic of food >:D
God I want a hug. I'm gonna get so squished once I'm healed and I fully accept my fate
Mentioning again my hatred for the drains. I was very scared of them going into this, I didn't like the idea of having tubes both in and out of my body. I don't really care about that now, I don't see it and I've gotten used to it, but god they are so annoying
I'm not nearly as tired as I was expecting! Sure I'm a bit sleeper than normal but it's really not that bad.
I'm bored
I wanna draw ;-; I havent had motivation or ideas for weeks but the moment it becomes inconvenient? Release the floodgates!
I haven't actually noticed the lack of boobs much yet. Maybe it's because they're still bandaged and I can't see or maybe it's because I live in my mastectomy pillow but I haven't really had a rush of emotions yet
It's kinda weird. I was expecting to feel so much but everything so far just feels so... normal? It's not normal but I've gotten used to it. Its like I'm waiting for my emotions to catch up
That being said there is one thing I've noticed and definitely felt things about. I had a pretty big chest and there used to be quite a dip between them and now there's just... nothing. It's flat. I'm sure this is just a fraction of what I'll feel when I get the bandages off for the first time but this tiny bit that I can see and feel right now is... wow. It's weird. God I can't wait for the rest of it
That's all I can think of for now, I'll keep yall updated on how things go from here and hopefully this can help someone! I know most of this has been complaining but I am not trying to discourage anyone from this, I've just only experienced the bad parts so far. I'm sure I'll make a similar post listing all the positives once I get there but for now things aren't very fun
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HI
HELLO, SORRY FOR BEING DEAD (AGAIN)
I HAVENT BEEN IN THE BEST MENTAL SPACE TO POST MUCH ONLINE RECENTLY BUT IM TRYING MY BEST TO GET BETTER AND POST MORE WITH TIME
I MIGHT STLL BE PRETTY SLOW BUT I'LL TRY TO BE MORE ACTIVE
AND TO MY FOLLOWERS, THANK YALL FOR STICKING WITH ME AND BEING PATIENT WITH ME, I LOVE YALL BUNCHES 💗
(Also, I've been mostly posting art on accounts I made for those specific fandoms, so I may be more active on those than this one, so I'll link some of those accounts here when I get the time so yall can give me a follow on those! I'll still be following back through here and I'll try my best to start posting here again. I aplogize for how jumbled this is, I haven't made an update post in a hot minute, I cant even remember if I have before-)
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user bbina!! <3 i think tumblr deleted my ask while i was looking at my notifications so i’ll try to remember everything i typed out 😭😭😭 but omg congrats on graduating!! 🥳💘 & i hope you’ve been doing well friend <3 i haven’t been able to send anything lately bc uni has been owning my ass 😔 i read the recent update tho and imagine ghosting wonbin like omfg… could never be me i’d be replying to him like it’s my job 🫡 sooo excited about this smau tho & i love the seunghans girls gc!! i wanna be one of his girls fr 😔🙏
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hello shell anon its been a while!! literally took years to answer my inbox lmfao but were here 😭 ive been doing well thank u for asking!!! and i hope u are too!!! also the reason why i went ghost cus the last weeks of uni are always HELL and but glad thats over lol
i havent thought about the new smau in a hot minute 😭 but i swear yall its still there!! the author is just busy atm LMFAO will get back to that shit prompto (no promises) and who tf would have the guts to ghost wb </3 maybe me cus im back together with a little certain fella that we all know.. (wonbin never stood a chance) HOPE UR LIKING THE NEW SQUAD WITH AUDIZ AND HANI !!
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