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Catching Up: Let Free the Curse of Taekwondo (Ep 3)
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So fun facts....I haven't found a place to buy garlic ice cream locally, but there are A LOT of recipes for garlic ice cream on the internet. I do own an ice cream machine. We make homemade ice cream a lot in the summer. I sense an experiment coming up soon.
Anyways, onto episode 3. I am not doing a live reaction for this one. I had to wait over two hours for an oil change and decided to go ahead and watch episode 3. Controlling my facial expressions has never been harder. Although maybe I didn't need to try. Half of the people I know think that I'm a robot anyways. LOL. Anyways, I FELT like I was making a lot of facial expressions because...well just look at them!
There are no more qualms about sharing saliva. I love it btw that Dohoe keeps showing up with his chapstick. These kinds of small details are what make characters seem like real people. I'm known as the person who always have sunglasses (safety glasses really) on my head. No, I don't need them for work. It's just a habit. I'm also LOVING the color-coding. I haven't dove into the posts about this show, but I guarantee there was talk about them being color-coded.
THIS is what I want from a date sequence in a show people. THIS RIGHT HERE. GIVE ME MORE. I said in one of the BL Challenge posts that I frequently fast forward through the dating montages. Because typically they DON'T add any narrative or even show your characters really deepening their feelings. I want dates that FEEL like dates. This was it, and there was ice cream too! I should've just stopped the episode right here.
But alas, I didn't. And somehow, I'll still have to get work done today.
We got confirmation that Sunshine got expelled for fighting.
We got confirmation that Dohoe REALLY hates violence.
On the surface, this line SEEMS sweet. It IS sweet. But it's a bittersweet. Because what Dohoe is admitting is that he loves Sunshine enough to compromise his morals. And just like he didn't want to care to begin with, he will be conflicted about it. It WILL be a problem for him down the line. Because even if you're willing to overlook something, it doesn't necessarily make you feel good about doing it.
And we know that promise will be broken. I knew he would get in trouble for violence before this episode ever started. The foreshadowing has been strong.
Just like the foreshadowing on this line is strong. As soon as they said it, I was like crap. We're not going to be together. Either one or both of them is going to get their plan screwed up royally. My biggest fear was that Dohoe would be the one left behind. Because Sunshine? As much as he SAYS he doesn't have options, he really does. His family may have "abandoned" him, but they are still financially supporting him and calling him every day. Dohoe? Nada.
The watermelon is great here. I LOVE how much food is depicted in this show. This was a cute scene and reminded me that I need to finish my deep dive into soccer/football positions/rules before the next episode of FC Soldout. It also immediately made me think about the World Cup scene in Wild Chives and Soybean Soup.
It's a het drama that I don't recommend. Them as teenagers was great, but the rest was not. I guarantee it has aged poorly. However, I enjoyed that flash from the past. I looked it up. Apparently that drama was 10 years ago. Eesh. The feelings in both of these scenes were similar in that they are very young love and people just not sure how to handle it.
I love that they're training together and having secret meetings in the van. Everything about this feels SO much like what two teenagers in love would do. I squeed internally way too many times.
I'm beginning to sound like a broken record, but the amount of food in this series makes me SO happy. Real people eat. Real people making connections eat together. It's probably personal, but eating a meal with someone is a BIG deal to me. Many of my best memories with both friends and my children are over shared meals. Oddly enough - that doesn't include my husband. We don't enjoy the same foods and he eats super quickly. Fine, I'll revise. MOST people build connections by eating together, and these two DEFINITELY do.
Whoever chose RED for the phone understood the color assignment.
This guy has a problem. I'm assuming we'll learn more later about why this friendship went so badly south. Still...choices HAVE been made. Do-hoe is being a lot more civil than I feel he should; however, that seems in character for him.
It was at this point that I knew we were headed for trouble soon. Anytime the word "always" gets used, that's a red flag for me. Plus, look at HOW happy Do-hoe is at this moment. It shocked Sunshine, and you KNOW he was wanting to pursue that kiss further.
I'll be honest. I haven't figured out why we're seeing Sunshine in a school uniform just yet. The bike was when Do-hoe said he could succeed here. The other was in the scene where Sunshine was being beat, and it LOOKED like he was actually holding the Dad back. Was Daddy Dearest going to try to stop Do-hoe from taking the exam? Or am I reading too much into it. Either way, you can tell that Sunshine snapped.
Which led to our frenemies in the snow. Snow has definitely been a running parallel throughout the show. Typically, it's been hope, connection and even innocence. But it feels like the hope has been tainted through this scene. It also feels like this means we're getting a new beginning for these two frenemies. I can't be sure of that though.
My only question here was "WHO THE FUCK TOLD HIM?!?" Let the boy FINISH the exam before telling him anything. Whoever told him - you are on my hitlist.
We got new information that Sunshine was adopted. That's interesting. It could explain some things about why he so desperately wants his parents to be proud, but I don't have enough evidence. It's not uncommon for kids to want to please their parents after all.
This camerawork is SO good. Do-hoe has scared himself. He's seeing his reflection while his dad leaves the shot. It's him and his rage left behind. Plus, he doesn't like this reflection. This is NOT going to go well. Because THIS? This will scare him. He'll begin to think he could become his dad, and that's going to get all kinds of entangled with his feelings about Sunshine. It's real world feelings depicted well.
And now we have HISTORIC cold. And yes, it snowed. But everything is messed up.
And while I generally dislike time skips...
This one feels appropriate. This is when a time skip SHOULD be used. Based on where they were in life, the technology in that time period, and the situation that has occurred, this time skip makes sense. It'll be interesting to find out where they are now in life.
We know Sunshine is smiling. But sunshine characters often smile even when in pain (he's already done that frequently). We don't see Do-hoe. That feels purposeful. In some ways we knew sunshine would be okay. (I'm not saying emotionally okay.) It's Do-hoe, who didn't finish his exam, who had no other options, who is stuck. He's the unknown. Hopefully, he found a way out. But he's going to be scarred either way. I'm hoping now that we've had the time-skip that the rest is them overcoming the past and growing together as mature adults. We'll see.
AHHH. Why do we have to adult? Can't I just take a day off and binge-watch? This is infinitely more interesting than what I need to write this afternoon. Oh well. Bills must be paid.
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*.:。♦ ⋅ ⋆ — ANTONIA GENTRY GIF ICON UPDATE
by clicking here, you’ll be redirected to an additional 055 gifs of antonia gentry added to her gif icon pack , now totaling 338 medium gifs.
#i started this ages ago and never finished it#so posting what i have <3#antonia gentry gif icons#antonia gentry gif hunt
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Just a regular Thursday night
#my art#dragon age#veilguard#datv#dragon age the veilguard#viago de riva#lucanis dellamorte#rook de riva#calien de riva#yes. another silly meme redraw with the crows#and there WILL be more (threat)#i dont even know what i wanted to add. i started this almost a month ago. then stayed up too late finishing it#antivan crows#am i happy with this? not really but it was very funny to work on so shdhdjsj#viago being the most tortured man ever#edit. i remembered. just like MAN POOR VIAGO. the way i imagine he spent YEARS making sure calien never meets any other talons and the like#he put soo much work into keeping him far far FAAR away from the dellamortes specifically too bc he COULD NOT have his house embarrassed#like that. and himself bc calien can and WILL share stupid stories of viago#then datv rolls around. he returns from being KICKED OUT (for his own good) and its all downhill from there
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Almost
#zutara#atla#zuko#avatar the last airbender#katara#zutara fanart#Wip#First page of three is done!!!#Won't be sharing until I have the whole thing but I'm. So. Close!!!!!!!#It's been ages since I started this project omg#But it's worth it#Hopefully I'll get the chance to finish it tomorrow... Won't be making any promises tho#I've missed you guys and I can't wait to share this with you#Anyways I know it's ZK month (and all the content has been WONDERFUL so far) but I won't be participating. Sorry about that.#Working with prompts is such an amazing creative exercise but I know myself good enough to be certain that I'll never get past the first...#... prompt without coming up with seven different AUs and I can't deal with more of those right now lol#Like I've got this Blue Spirit! Katara and Painted Lady! Zuko AU on the works since last week or so. And more lore for the og BS/PL spirits#And also this S3 canon divergence AU... And another one... And another one...#And I need to work on them at my own rhythm otherwise I'll go nuts#So uh#Yeah#Love u all and I hope I'll get to share this one soon (if only to start on yet another comic. I've got ideas for two of them. Yay)#Dema out#(Sorry for the rambling I'm just anxious)#(Don't know why but I stopped caring a long time ago)
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happy birthday akihiko sanada i hope you enjoy being a husband and father
#because my world is post portable and nothing else#based on his trinity soul design and not his p4au design >>>#doodle#persona 3#akihiko sanada#shinjiro aragaki#akishinji#shinjiaki#this is forever a wip i started this forever ago and will never finish it#peep the wedding ring and shinji’s beautiful signs of aging and growing and living and#anyway
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Snapetober 2024 | Flame
#pro snape#snape#professor snape#snape fandom#snape fanart#pro severus snape#severus snape#snapetober#snapetober 2024#young snape#snapedom#pro severus#conveniently i started this ages ago and never finished but it fit the prompt so now i've finished#snaps-art
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november ko-fi fic!
hiya!! i am still working on the november ko-fi fic (to be published hopefully sometime this weekend)
(KUWSK family meal aka american thanksgiving themed with ✨chaos✨ to make it wholesome after the last two mob-themed ones lmao)
BUT i'm announcing here that i will be stopping the ko-fi fics after november!! with my grad program picking up, i've found that it's been really hard to balance how much i want to write, study, and just be here in this space online with y'all - and the ko-fi fics have been a ton of fun and honestly so good for my writing abilities, but they've also become a stressor the later in the month it gets without posting when i wanted to commit to having them out at the beginning of each month :(
so to make sure that no one gets charged in december, i'm just gonna delete my ko-fi the last day of november! all the fics i've posted on there will make their way to ao3 (probably in the first month of 2025) so no one will actually lose access to anything - i would just feel really bad if people were charged because they didn't see this or cause they didn't cancel in time or anything!
in all, this has been really fun for me and i'm really really so incredibly thankful for everyone who has become a supporter of my ko-fi (either for a few months or a day or the entire year it's been running). thank you thank you so much!! and i hope you enjoyed these little fics as well <3
#kit's kofi fics#ive been missing the amount of time i used to have for fandom space#especially on tumblr#and i've been so focused on writing my bb fic (still ebcause the mods are angels and im late to having it finished)#that all my writing time has gone there#and then my next priority is my kofi#and i want my next priority to be something different entirely#like whatever i want at the moment you know?#i remembered way late at night the other night that i never finished the hanahaki fic#and i was like!!!! the hanahaki fic!!#but finals are starting (they're essays i should have started them ages ago)#and i have my bb fic to finish (thank you mods for letting me have extra time)#and i have the kofi fic etc etc#so one has to go#and this is what i picked and i am honestly so grateful and ahppy for everything#and i hope the last one (KUWSK) shows that#because its been a pleasure to write
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#my art#sam winchester#happy birthday sam!#i started this sketch ages ago for a favourite character art meme & never got round to finishing it :/
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Two is Better than one
I went wild with this one :D
Chapter six
Sasha entered her apartment with the quiet click of the front door. She tossed her backpack onto the chair in the kitchen and started a cup of tea. A clatter from the adjacent room caught her attention. She frowned slightly before peeking her head into the other room.
It took her a moment to process the scene before her eyes.
Micheal was sitting on her living room floor, long fingers carefully curling through the fur of a content cat purring below him. She noted a secondary feline to the left, pawing at a strand of long spindly blonde hair. He glanced at her lazily, tipping his head to the side and humming.
There was only one thing wrong with this picture. Sasha didn't own pets.
"Micheal-what?"
His smile widened. "Hello my dear."
She gestured to the cat now rolling onto its back as Micheal petted its belly. "Where did these come from?"
He looked over at the one still playing with his hair. "They followed someone into my corridors. They followed me here."
Right. Sasha shook her head and sat down, the one on its back stretched out before moving towards her curiously, it had orange hair like a tabby. She pet it and it purred in response.
"Micheal."
"Sasha."
"I don't have the stuff for these guys. I barely have the room, you don't really expect me too-" Her words were cut short as she watched the grey one tangled in Micheal's hair sound out a small mewl as Micheal tenderly picked it up in its hands with too much bone and fingers that stretched too far across. The cat didn't seem to mind.
Micheal hummed as he watched the cat in his arms twist and curl, purring contently as if Micheal wasn't a terrifying monster. Sasha dared to smile.
"I believe, if I remember correctly, these creatures need food, water." He chimed lightly. Sasha rolled her eyes.
"Fine. There's a store down the way from here. They have pet supplies." Sasha sighed as she stood to her feet. "And they are cats, Micheal."
He didn't so much as stand to his feet, rather a blur of motion and colors that stretched out and scattered like sand before he was standing in front of her. "Cats. Yes."
She grabbed her bag and walked towards the door, stopping when she realized Micheal was following her.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm coming with you of course." He giggled, "silly question."
"Right." Sasha smiled, "This won't end badly at all."
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The actual trip wasn't horrible.
Besides the fact that every single dog started barking at Micheal which earned them a few curious glances from the staff, they made it out with a sack of cat food, cat litter, and a box. Even more than she had expected, Micheal paid. Handing the cash to the women as Sasha looked at him with such a confused expression she partially believed he did it just to see her reaction. Laughing as they left the store with the supplies. She simply shook her head.
"I think- he had one."
Sasha looked over at him, he looked, well, human. The way his coat sat on his shoulders and down past his boots, his hands wrapped around a bag of cat food. His eyes trained on nothing before looking over at her with a sharp smile.
Sasha frowned. "Who?"
"Micheal. Before-" His words echoed and trailed off.
Sasha understood. "I'm sorry." The words felt stupid in her mouth.
"Do not be, its-" he paused. "It's a nice memory, I am not sorry to have it, amongst the fractals of everything and nothing and the not-in between, it is nice."
Sasha thought about her question a moment before asking. "What's it like?"
"What?"
"The...what you said about the fractals and the nothingness, delusion...what's it like?"
"It Is Not What It Is and it is a part of me" he said it like a broken tune from some forgotten nursery rhyme. "It is madness- throaty, hollow, the depths of doubt- madness that stirs in the mind. It is not a physicality, but, within it, there is a certain…” He paused. “Ah! Beauty. Like a fine piece of decoration in a mundane hallway." Micheal laughed long and hard as they approached her building.
"You say it's beautiful?"
He giggled and shook his head. "You tell me, my dear, what with your It Knows You, all that knowledge will never satisfy, never relief, you see all and yet-" They entered her house to the two cats scratching up her couch and seemingly content with life. “Madness floods the senses and dilutes the mind, leaving it clear. It changes perception, blinds reality. It's a song sung with all the wrong notes and the wrong tune but it is beautiful nonetheless.” He sat the bag on the kitchen table and she prepared two bowls.
“A broken melody is still broken.”
“Ah, but only you would know if it's broken.”
Sasha paused and stared at him. He was crouched down, pouring the food into the bowl she had provided. It got everywhere and he giggled. Letting out a hummed “oops.” Before moving a long finger to scatter the dropped food even further. His hair cascaded around his shoulders and swept across the floor, the grey cat already taking interest in his dubbed playtoy.
She understood what he meant. And maybe there was a relieving beauty to it. Someone’s only lost if they themselves don’t know how to get to their destination. But if someone is simply wandering, well. There could be a comfort to that. Ignorance is bliss after all. A buzz of muddled headspace that someone looks for within drugs or alcohol. A weight lifted from the mind as it's consumed by something that isn’t tangible.
“Do you understand?” He looked back at her, the pieces of food that had missed the bowl now nowhere to be seen. The two cats had taken an interest in the food and water and were quick to indulge themselves. She looked into Micheal’s eyes, the swirling spirals that seemed to impossibly dilate as he looked at her. He seemed softer, somehow. All folded up and crouched on her floor seemingly as protection to the felines happily eating away. His sweater changed and morphed in color and she half wondered where his coat went. His scarf was wound around his neck and seemed to move like a snake, continually curling over his shoulders. Twisting and bending and pulling in every direction. He was an enigma to look at. Madness. An ever shifting idea that barely took shape before it was changing again. Beautiful. She decided.
He was beautiful.
She almost forgot he was waiting for a response. “I understand.” The words didn’t feel nearly enough. Some part of her reminded herself that she was supposed to be scared of this thing that had casually dropped two cats at her feet like it was nothing. This thing that bought the supplies with money she wasn’t sure he was even supposed to have. This thing that had given her a distorted flower that she still had in the living room. This thing that followed her around with a curiosity she couldn’t explain. This thing that had kissed her cheek instead of killing her when she had been in its corridors. She ignored that voice and instead moved to fix the litter box in the washroom.
Not even an hour later she was curled up on the couch petting the tabby as Micheal played with the gray one on the floor not even a foot away.
“What are their names?” She asked him, breaking the silence that seemed to muffle Micheal’s laughter as he let the cat swipe at his long fingers, pulling them away just in time.
“Names are redundant.”
She rolled her eyes. “I think I’ll call this one Pumpkin.”
He didn’t look away from the cat, letting it catch his fingers and pull them down to bite playfully. Micheal hardly seemed bothered. “Daisies.”
“The cat? That’s a pretty name.”
“No-” He giggled. “I remembered. I was picking them up.” He drew his hand away and pointed at the mess of lines and colors that had once been a flower, sitting in a jar on the coffee table.
Sasha smiled back. “Daisy it is. Pumpkin and Daisy.”
Chapters:
1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9
#kitsunesakii#not dead yet#can i mention that this is the first series ive ever done that is solely fanfiction?#im genuinely serious#the last time i wrote fanfiction was in a journal and it was for undertale and it was split pov's and id never written anything decent-#-before so it was a huge stretch and id never done anything like it before#then i got carried with hero x villain snippets and they are beautiful bc i love all the possibilities but i still had never actually put-#-down fanfiction on paper and shown it to people#i did a drawn hermione x draco fanfic AGES ago but that doesnt count because it was drawn#but ive never shared with others like this before#my main story is a chapter away from being finished and i have plans for my writing joirney but this has been so therapeutic and amazing to#-write// letting loose and writing the crap ive wished to read (fanfiction wise) has been so relieving for myself// its been so long since#-ive written something just for the absolute delight of getting to read it back#ok done with the sob stories#tma#the magnus archives#micheal the distortion#sasha james#these two#they gonna break the standards i promise#if youve read this far then damn u awesome also if you have a prompt youd like me to try out go on and pop it into my inbox#lord knows id like something other than spam lol#it starts with circles#drink water#chronicles of semi full sketchbooks#love all your art#chronicles of the now#WRITING CHRONICLES
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a fanfic i'll never write, part 1:
is a mirror just a reflection (or is it the door to a parallel universe)
Dreams are a weird thing.
The lapse between unconsciousness and consciousness. The moment fleeting images show up in your mind and sometimes, they quickly leave. You’re not supossed to remember them, books say. It’s repressed memories, repressed ideas, some that are kept that way for a reason. Most people don’t want to know what they mean. They don’t want to dive into the depths of their minds.
Not her, thought.
The dreams, the weird and inconsistent dreams she has every night, are the only thing she has any autonomy over. Her mind is hers. Even if sometimes it feels like her body isn’t.
They train her. Guide her. Mold her into turning into what they want, into what Alex wants. But not her mind. They can’t take away her mind, her thoughts, her dreams.
And even though part of her knows these aren’t her dreams. She still holds them close, thinks about them. Tries to analyze them, for a lack of something better to do.
She dreams of darkness. And solitude.
She sees punch after punch land against her face, seconds from each other, even though the person above her always has a different face.
She dreams of bodies falling on top of each other, unmoving and pale as they fall to the floor. Althought she never recognizes any of the faces.
She feels pain, always, in one way or another, across her entire body. Nails cursing through her blood and she’s unable to make it stop. Except it does stop, when she wakes up. Even if her beating heart and the residual pain she can almost-feel are still there.
She doesn’t know what they mean and the classic literature books that are mailed to her bring little answers. Just more questions. Just more ideas and thoughts they want to carve into her mind. She doesn’t let it. She tries to argue back with the books that offer no feedback and when Alex arrives, she tells them she agrees with the books- lets him smirk satified as she puts on her clueless face.
She wasn’t always like this. She did fall for his games. She did let him mold her mind. At first. It wasn’t until her tenth reread of The Great Gatsby that she realized it was the only act of defiance she had done against Alex- reading a book. She realized how much he hated her thoughts on it, even though her outlook was a nice one.
Why wouldn’t Alex want me to see beauty?
But she wanted to see beauty. Beauty outside of the compound she’s been confined in. But beauty seems like such a foreing concept to her. What is beauty? The dresses women describe in her books? The money and lavish jewels she’d never seen? The music she’d never heard? The beautiful people her guards describe during their breaks?
She’s not sure she has ever seen beauty. But she wants to. She desperatly wants to.
But she can’t get out.
Her life is just the couple hundred of miles that belong to this section of the Kaznian army. Her sleeping cuarters are not more than four old and empty walls. The training grounds are not more than snowy ground and thick cold air.
And she spends, day and nights, training and reading and studying. For what? She’s never told.
She learns to control her powers to the fullest. Reach their limit and know when to stop right before they leave her body completely.
She learns every language on this planet, Alex quizzing her on all of them until she’s better than him. She learns to mimic every accent and dialect under the sun- for what? She’s never told.
And months pass. Months after months after months. Alex comes and goes, like always.
He comes and goes, but the dreams are always there.
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The ground is shaking. A lot. She faintly hears objects falling to the floor. Glass breaking. People screaming. She hears pain- like when she heard Mikhail call it out. But she cannot move now. She cannot fly away into the sun and offer her help.
She hears pain. Her feet are stuck on the ground unable to move. And she hears pain, a lot of it.
Someone tugs her arm, forces her legs to move and follow after them. She looks up- and it’s the first time she realizes how close to the ground she is- and finds the back of someone’s head. A man, looks like.
He screams words over his shoulder in a languaje she can’t understand because all she hears is pain. And she notices, when the tall man kneels in front of her, that she’s the one screaming in pain. Fear. Sadness. Confusion.
The man, eyes that she’d seen in her own reflection before, soothes her with his words. And even though she cannot know what he’s saying, she understands the meaning. “Stay calm, inah. It’ll be over soon.”
He picks her in his arms, and she hides her face in the crook of his neck. Hides away the screaming and breaking of estructures she knows they shouldn’t be falling, and takes comfort in the man’s colony and his soft clothes.
But the small comfort is ripped away when suddenly she’s not in his arms anymore. She’s alone. And it’s cold. Everything is so cold. The chair she’s sitting in is cold. Her clothes, which are supposed to bring her warmth, are cold. Her hands are cold. And when her fingers slowly trace the glass in front of her, it’s cold too.
Although the cold isn’t the worst part. It’s the darkness. There’s nothing to see. Nothing to feel. Just her. Alone. Looking forward and never backward to empty darkness.
And then there’s a light. It’s big and blinding. And fear spikes throughout her body even though she’s not sure why. She does not know what the flames are for.
The flames get closer and closer and closer. The surrond the small crystal box she’s in. And so, she screams.
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Red daughter, they call her.
Or snowbird, for a lack of a better name.
But after a year of her solitude- or, at least, solitude surrounded by people that only spoke to her for a couple of second- Alex tells her her name is Kara.
That her life was taken by an impostor, and that he’ll help her get it back.
And if there’s a shadow behind Alex’s eyes that makes her schomach turn, she doesn’t mention it.
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She’s flying, faster than she’s ever flown. She’s flying with a clear direction, closer and closer to her target.
She doesn’t really know what her target is until she sees the plane in front of her eyes. She quickly realizes something is wrong. The couple of planes she’d seen in the sky always flew flawlessly and at a constant speed but this one, this one moves through the air carelessly and speedily. There’s no direction, the plane only falls and falls, closer and closer to the city buildings.
She knows she has to save it. There’s people there. She knows it. But most importantly, her heart is telling someone even more important than all of them is there too.
She keeps on flying. Her limbs feel heavy. She feels disorientated. But she keeps on flying.
When her hands touch the base of the plane, there’s a small jump of exciment on her heart but then-
It’s like her hands run out of strength and the grip she had on the plane gives out and she watches as it goes down and down and down.
The plane hits a skycrapper in an explosion and she cannot move. She watches as the fires burn, the building falls, the few people still alive scream. And she doesn’t move.
Her heart is screaming for something, someone. She doesn’t know who.
The tears cover her face in and out of the dream.
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Alex starts to show her the world.
“Again,” he says, “because Kara Danvers stole your life and memories from you.”
He shows her one city a day. She sees the children dying of hunger while rich men drown in their riches. She sees little towns burn because of big factories.
“So,” she starts, uncertain, “I am Kara Danvers?”
“Not yet. Once you kill her, you will be.”
She sees so many awful things in this world, she begins to understand why Alex is so full of hate. But the only thing keeping her from following him blindly is not his hatred, but his refusal to see the beauty, the love, the hope.
His face at the mention of the last word leaves a heavy weight on her heart.
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She hears Christmas music.
She hates this one.
She’s standing in the middle of an empty street. She looks around, wondering which one will show up first this time.
The man in the black suit shows up first. He’s always wearing the same thing- a black piece of clothing that covers his entire body, with a symbol on his chest. She always gets a sense of deja-vu when she looks at it, but she never remembers what it means.
“I win,” he says. And even though she cannot see his face, all she sees is a blurry silluete where his face should be, she can tell there’s a smirk in his face anyway.
He punches her, making her lip burst out with blood. She falls to her knees.
When she opens her eyes again, a woman that looks like her is above her. Dirty blonde hair but blueish skin. Her voice always sounds distorted but she also says “I win.” before punching her too.
A red robot is next. He sends a wush of wind her way, making her fall to her knees. She sees someone’s shadow on the broken floor below her before she feels them kick her in her back- it makes her fly again, it’s another woman this time, one with a dark clothes and a mask covering her face.
Her punches hurt the most, they leave her gasping for air and wishing she’d finally wake up. And she does wake up, once they reach the top of a bulding and the other woman lets her drop.
She falls and falls and falls until she’s consious again and screaming in fear, waking up her guards.
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Alex leaves her alone in a cute little apartment- her apartment. The one that was stolen from her by the impostor that looks just like her.
The apartment is nice. Homey. Just one big space divided into kitchen, dining room, living room and bedroom by the setup of the furniture and one big curtain. And it feels weird and painful that, when she walks around and touches what it’s supposed to be hers, she finds no familiarity in them.
She finds that sense of deja vu only twice; when she sees that picture in the fridge, the one of two women together- herself or the impostor, she’s not sure, and someone else. Brunette, short hair, kind smile. Alex.
Why does the impostor have an Alex? Was there always two Alexs? Which one is the real Alex? Which one is the real Kara? The real her? Is she the impostor?
There’s a thightness in her chest- it takes her a while to realize it’s just emptiness. Empty like her memories. Empty like the walls in her room. Empty like her heart. And there’s nothing to fill the hollowness in her except maybe wish, hope, pray that she is actually real and this impostor has stolen everything from her.
Except it doesn’t look like it. Except she’s only got Alex’s words to believe and she’s not sure how much of them believes anymore.
She feels nothing, absolutely nothing, as she walks around her own things. She guesses she should feel recognition, maybe a sense of deja vu or of belogning. But all she feels is nothing, only curiosity and anger at best. She could be anywhere, an apartment that isn’t hers, and feel the same. She doesn’t know if that’s good or bad.
But then. She sees it.
The portrait sits on the right bedside table. It’s modern, white background and small red hearts all over it. But it’s not that that catches her attention, it’s the picture in it.
The smile on her face- her impostor’s face- is so big, so happy, so excited. She didn’t even know she could smile that big. The blonde’s got her arms wrapped around someone else, a woman, who’s sutting comfortably atop her lap. She’s all dark hair and pale skin, she’s got one arm around her shoulders, pulling each other as close as possible.
Her smile is as big as her double’s and she’s the most beautiful woman she’s ever seen.
And that’s when she feels it. The pang. The ache.
Right in the middle of her heart. As if seeing this woman had suddenly pulled a thread, making her walk closer and closer and closer to the picture until she’s picking it up. Her fingers slowly tracing her face. The sharp line of her jawline, moving to her cheekbones and stopping as soon as her own eyes land on green ones.
It’s like they’re magnetic. Hypnotic, perhaps. And she wants more. More of those eyes and that face. She needs to see in more than a picture, she needs to find the woman because, if only a mere picture could cause such a reaction on her, then what will the real thing do?
She needs to find the woman. She needs to see her. She needs to find her name.
She does so in the pages of Kara Danver’s dairy. She finds it rather quickly. Pages and pages written about Lena. Over and over again. Only interrupted from time to time but other names like Cat, Brainy, Nia, Kelly, Alex. But Lena is the one that catches her attention the most, because every time she reads it, her heart jumps in a way it doesn’t do with anyone else.
And she knows, deep down part of her knows, this woman help her. Will fix her. Give her back her memories.
In the last pages of the diary, she finds a quote written by her (but which her? The impostor? Or herself, before she lost her memories?) on a ripped out magazine page that supports her own hunch.
Lena doesn't realize how much potential she has. I hope now at least the world will.
“Lena Luthor,” she whispers, wonder runs through her veins at the name.
And it’s enough. It’s all she needs. The name and a location.
It’s not long before she’s walking down the streets of National City, stolen glasses on her face and borrowed clothes on her body, moving through the sea of people as she heads to L-corp.
The people at the front door and desk do nothing to stop her nor ask her any questions. They just wave at her, all smiles and excited hellos. She knows they think she’s the other Kara, the one that knows what her place is here. But she is Kara, right? Or at least she was.
A part of her is thankful they do nothing to stop her, her journey to Lena easier than she thought it’d be as anyone that crossed her pointed her in the direction of the woman. While part of her is annoyed that her security is so lacking. What if she was an enemy? What if she was here to hurt Lena?
The rush of protectiveness is sudden, it creeped on her like Alex’s name had. It hadn’t been there and, suddenly, it was. And she couldn’t make it disappear. It only defeates once she sees Lena, safe and sound as she finishes talking to someone and walking into the elevator.
#supergirl#supercorp#kara danvers#lena luthor#kara zor el#russian kara#rara#my fic#possible series? of my unfinished fics lol#if you catched the name being like the book “a book I'll never write” know that i love you#im open to any questions you have on it except “will you finish it?” because the answer is 99.9% no#this is basically the rara and lena and kara and supercorp fic i started ages ago and never finished#cleaning up my docs too basically#a fanfic i'll never write
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now i'm thinking about baby boy zagreus, and i'm VERY emotional about it!!!
#i actually started writing a fic ages ago about the three Kiddos but i never finished it#i get so caught up in big six shenanigans i've neglected my boy!!!!!#let it be known that every second hades is not with his siblings. he's at home with his Son#but anyway
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scrapbook style layout of a few different uzi outfits (+ lighting practice i guess??)
#murder drones#murder drones uzi#md uzi#uzi doorman#glasswingdraws#i started this piece ages ago and never finished it#you can probably see why it was a lot of effort#but i like how it turned out#uzi didn't get a unique camp outfit (no her solver form doesn't count)#so i gave her a new one to keep the page symmetry
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heyy how are you :]
hii robin!!
was before my body decided to give me cortisol overdose. or something like that. feeling really bad rn but can't be helped ig
and how are you?
#i've finished the first dragon age game btw. haven't finished all DLCs yet but! the game itself is amazing. really liked it#almost 100 hours but it felt like i started it only a week ago or so#my elven guy unexpectedly grew on me. never gonna leave himmmmm#also it's my first second weekend in two months. ^_^#usually i have only one. yay
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The ✨squad ✨
#tanu art#smurfs#smurf#the smurfs#les schtroumpfs#It took me ages I swear#tuffy smurf#tailor smurf#jokey smurf#poet smurf#tracker smurf#vanity smurf#They are the main chars of a fanfiction projet I started years ago but never finished
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*.:。♦ ⋅ ⋆ — FELIX MALLARD GIF ICON UPDATE
by clicking here, you’ll be redirected to an additional 058 gifs of felix mallard added to her gif icon pack , now totaling 286 medium gifs.
#i started this ages ago and never finished#so posting what i have done <3#felix mallard gif icons#felix mallard gif hunt
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im giving u a challenge, stick
draw ghost from cod 👹👹👹👹
or if not, martin blackwood because i love him :3
You get both bc ily! ^ v ^
#finnally felt like finishing these#the ghost sketch i started ages ago but i was just. i was stuck on his OVERCOMPLICATED CLOTHES#LIKE WTF HE GOT ON???#didn't help that i couldn't find any good references (especially for that damn tattoo lol I gave up)#then my phone broke and i lost the file#but against all odds. i finished it!#(Martin i just doodled in the last 10 minutes tho lol)#he's laughing bc Jon just told the funniest joke (lie. it was awful)#OH . also Ghost uhm#I've never drawn a gun before i think so you have to be nice to me about its lumpiness xoxo#my art#digital art#drawing requests#asks#sergeant102105#call of duty#cod#ghost cod#the magnus archives#tma#martin blackwood
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