#i simply cannot suffer pacing that I'm not feeling

[bleaksqueak]

The madness finally took me. a three page spread. May as well be a webtoon scroll at that point sdfjkfj.

[d6volution]

Corporeal

Caine/Fem!Reader

caine wants to learn more about humans, so why not become one himself? surely, these new waves of emotions and new desires won't become an issue.

tags: human!caine unresolved feelings, sexual tension, lingerie, making out, pining until the end, explicit sexual content, caine is pussy drunk.

minors dni.

Chapter Three.

previous chapter.

Well, he kept his word. You two did meet the next day, and the day after that. You told him whatever bits and pieces of your time as a human that you could remember. He seemed to listen.. but also seemed a little out of touch... like his mind was elsewhere. Whenever you brought it up, he simply put on his usual act.

"Oh, not to worry dear! I am beginning to understand a bit more about how.. caring humans can be, so if you're worried don't be! I am perfectly fine! In fact, better than ever. I have certainly learned a lot from you." He said, almost sounding impressed.

"I'm glad I could help, Caine." You couldn't help but smile at the praise he was giving you.

Your smile caused him to look away, those funny feelings returning.

"My, my look at the time!" He was glancing at his wrist, which was adorned by the wacky watch.

"Oh, already..?" You didn't realize just how fast time passed when you two were together, "Same time tomorrow then?" You said, hopeful.

"It would seem so," He studied your expression. "Hmm, I can't help but notice that you seem a little ..disappointed." He hope he correctly evaluated your emotions.

"No, I mean— a ... little." You wanted to deny this observation but he could see through you, so it would be no use.

"Worry not my dear! I'll always be around of course, though I've come to realize it is normal to miss people you spend a lot of time aro— mmf?!" Your hands yanked at his collar before he could try and put anymore distance between you, your lips meeting. He talked too much.

Couldn't he feel the tension that was growing between you two? It was palpable in the air. Maybe he just needed a little push.. your tongue even brushed against his closed lips.

You were nervous, but maybe, after getting closer to him.. it was easier, or maybe you were just desperate and simply losing your mind in this digital world.

Your lips were soft and inviting, the heat from your mouth was diving him crazy. He couldn't think.

Caine went stiff, he wanted badly to kiss you back. Squeeze your hips and pull your closer but .. he couldn't. Surely these feelings of yours were simply because you took a familiar form of a human.

They couldn't really be for him right?

His hands slowly lowering onto your shoulders and gripped them gently, pushing you away. "W.. Well, y/n what a very.. bold act of affection!" He was beet red now, almost like he was short circuiting. "U‐Unfortunately you're aware I cannot return these... feelings, yes? It would be.. dangerous."

You were at a lost of words, you acted without thinking and now he was looking at you with pity in his eyes, "I.. sorry, I don't know what I was thinking— .." You took a few steps back. But your lips were still tingling.

"N-No, need to apologize!" He tugged at his collar to let off some steam and without another word he wrapped an arm around your waist and within a blink of an eye you were both in front of your room door.

"There we are! Now go and rest your pretty little head, I.. will be back at a later hour to check on you, how's that sound?" It was an excuse. He wanted to see you again after this. Just.. to confirm a few things after you've settled down from these heightened emotions.

You nodded, still suffering from embarrassment of your feelings and advancements in general being denied. Yet you weren't completely unaware.. you could see it in his eye too, the stuttering and fidgeting it was as if he were holding himself back.

Maybe.. he just needed another little push.

"This.. this certainly isn't right, far from family friendly.. far from appropriate." He was pacing back and fourth inside of his "room." "I could risk abstracting if this gets too far! .. Well, maybe not. Iam the showrunner here.."

Bubble emerged from his hat unannounced, "This all apart of the human experience Caine! Why not give her all the love you're legally allowed to give..?"

POP.

That mischievous bubble certainly was not helping. The thought, even coming from bubbles silly mouth made his cheeks dust with a light pink. Everytime he thought about you in such a way he could feel a piece of his resolve breaking off.

He needed to end this, this experiment had provided him with plenty of knowledge but, if continued to play human it would only lead him into heaps of trouble that he was certain of. Before he changed back... he did promise to check in on you.

He arrived at your door, and hesitated to knock. Attempting to groom himself a little beforehand. He inhaled, then knocked.

"Caine..?" You called out from the other side of the door.

"Yes, that's me!"

"C.. Come in." Your voice was muffled by the door, but he heard you clearly and opened it up, stepping inside his eyes immediately got wide. He slammed the door behind him so no one else could see what he was seeing.

You lying in bed with silky fabric hardly covering your body, your skin on display. Your expression vulnerable, yet desperate. Caine felt like he was going to glitch out of existence.

"Y/N! You.. someone else could have seen you like this and it's hardly appropriate! You are aware this show is supposed to be for all ages." He said but his fists clenched and he could feel his pants getting tight.

Not good.

"Can't we forget about all that for one night Caine..? I've.. seen how you look at me.. even earlier, you wanted to kiss me back right?" Your voice was sultry as it was desperate, you crawled towards the end of the bed and the silky fabric was sliding off of your body.

He swallowed and rushed over, attempting to fix it. "W-Woah there!" You took this chance to cup his growing erection.

"Is this family friendly... Caine..?"

The feeling of your small hand caressing his straining dick was enough. It throbbed in his pants and he pushed you onto the bed. Straddling you, his breathing had grew heavy.

"It seems I've been caught red handed, I am supposed to be gentleman like my dear, " His eyes roamed along your half naked body.

"But, you are making it quite difficult. I suppose, as my human test bunny your are willing to take responsibility?" He sounded as desperate as you looked now.

"O.. Of course, Caine.." Your squirmed under his gaze, and he slowly pushed aside the silk lingerie that was comcealing your nipples. His erection was pressed against your thigh and he was unknowingly grinding against your soft skin.

"Just.. for today, I'll indulge in your i.. inappropriate behavior, dear y/n." He swallowed.

"Take them off Caine.." You mutteted and tugged at his the waistline of his pants.

"Oh, no no my dear. After all this trouble you caused I think you deserve a little punishment!" He said with a grin, his resolve was gone. Completely, whatever code was inside of him urging him to obey the rules was temporarily disabled.

"Now, as lovely as that silk looks on you would you mind taking it off?" His voice fell at the end of his sentence. He planned on having you completely in the nude while he stayed fully dressed.

You sat up and he scoots back on the bed, allowing you to stripped in front of him.

He couldn't help it, his dick was straining violently against his pants.. he removed himself from his pants, and started to stroke himself. "Do forgive me dear, I've always said you make my body act so strangely and this is no exception."

You stared at the heavy cock in between his thighs, you could feel the slick between your legs.

"Caine.." Your eyes finally met his, "Please touch me.."

"Well, if you ask so nicely how can I say no?" He grins and climbs atop you again, this time quickly closing the distance between you both and pressing his lips against yours. It was to make up for earlier.

Your body instinctively arched towards his, your hips shifting to feel his cock brush against your bare cunt. You were practically humping at his shaft like a dog in heat. He groaned into your mouth and returned the movement. Both of your sexes rubbed against each other as you made out, breathlessly moaning in between the kiss.

"Feels good.. more Caine.." You whined, your arms locked around his neck and holding him close to you. He smelled like the most expensive cologne mixed with his natrual musk. It was simply intoxicating.

He didn't say anything, his eyes swirling with lust as he lined up his tip with your slick entrance. After slipping a few times he finally plunged inside.

His mind went blank with pleasure and he hardly gave you time to adjust to his size, his hips began to move. "C.. Caine..! hh.. fuck..!" You cursed, and made a not that it wasn't censored.. maybe you really had broken the ringmaster. In one sense.

Your nails dug into his back and as he slammed into your tight cunt, balls slapping against your ass as he fucked you like his very life depended on it.

Your moans didn't go unoticed, your whimpers and whines only fueled his need to fuck you harder. Faster, the bed was rocking beneath you as he seemed to loose all sense of himself while buried inside of you.

He nudged at that spongey spot in your cunt and you saw stars, your back arched and toes curled. Caine was silently taking note of how tight you got all of the sudden.

"H.. How interesting.. it seems like I have much more to learn about you my dear, like how much you tighten around me when I.." He slammed against that spot again, and again. Over and over, til you were in tears.

"C.. Caine..please.. gonna c-cum.. !" You managed to sputter out, but he was way ahead of you. He planned on having you cum together.

"Nngh .. that's .. the plan darling.." He grunts and your body suddenly began to spasm, cunt convulsing and gripping his shaft vicely. His own hips sputtered to a stop as he spilled into you without thinking. The relief washing over his body as numbness washed over your own.

You stared at the ceiling coming down from your high. Caine thrusted a few more times, before pulling out.

"My, my.. what a cruel creator I must have to hide such pleasures from me.. are you alright, y/n? I didn't seem to be completely myself there." He pushed some hair from your face and you nodded grabbing his hand and nuzzling it.

His face was hot again, just as this little display of affection.

"I suppose being human for a little while longer couldn't hurt."

[twiceasfrustrating]

Welcome to the Hoard

Rating: Teen and Up

Archive Warning: No Archive Warnings Apply

Category: GN/M

Fandom: Shall We Date?: Obey Me!

Characters: Diavolo, Main Character, Barbatos 

Additional Tags: GN!MC (you/your), omegaverse, greater demon forms,

Summary: Diavolo hasn't been feeling well, but Lucifer needs something from him. You help out by running an errand, but it seems Diavolo wasn't quite suffering from an illness.

A/N: For those who haven't read up on my OM Omegaverse content yet you need to know two things. 1) Only demons have second genders and therefore follow Omegaverse rules. 2) Diavolo is an omega

Word Count: 742

"I didn't know a demon as powerful as Diavolo could get so sick," you said as Barbatos welcomed you into the palace and shut the door behind you. You reached into the bag you were carrying and pulled out a stack of papers that you extended in his direction. "Here's the document. Lucifer already signed it." Now it just needed Diavolo's signature to be official.

"Thank you very much," he said but didn't reach for the papers. "Lord Diavolo is currently in his private chambers. Would you mind bringing him the documents?"

You raised a brow in confusion. "Me?"

Normally, Barbatos would be the one to bring Diavolo everything he needed, especially when it came to entering his room.

"Unfortunately," Barbatos started, "the Young Master is currently in a state where I cannot see him. It's… a particular issue for demons that would leave me unable to assist him properly. However, a human like you should be immune. If you wouldn't mind?"

You looked up toward where his room was located then at the papers on your hand.

It wasn't a large ask, all things considered. It was a quick jaunt up the stairs and the handoff would only take a few seconds. You could be done in only a few minutes; maybe a few more if Diavolo signed it on the spot for you, but you'd feel bad asking so much of him when he wasn't feeling well.

"Well?" Barbatos asked. "There is no obligation, of course. It would simply be more efficient for you to go yourself and get it signed than waiting for his… ailment to pass."

"Are you sure? I don't want to bother him when he's sick."

"It will be fine. He's well enough to receive guests."

"I guess I should then…" The sooner the documents were signed, after all, the better. Lucifer clarified how soon the deadline was for this particular project was.

"Thank you." Barbatos gave a shallow bow as you began to tread up the stairs. "Oh! And in the unlikely case you should need assistance, please feel free to scream."

That was strangely ominous, but as you glanced back down at his smile you couldn't read any malicious intent. That didn't stop your nerves from tensing for a brief moment before relaxing so you could continue up the stairs.

Diavolo's door seemed the same as always as you approached, but from just beyond the wooden barrier you could hear the muffled sound of pacing and shuffling. Also, there was a strange scent wafting through the air; like apple wood smoke and heavy spices with a hint of sweetness. It wasn't an unpleasant scent, but it also wasn't something you were used to. It almost smelled like Barbatos should be cooking but you hadn't smelled it downstairs at all.

You knocked your fingers against the door. "Hello? Diavolo?"

The sound beyond the door stopped suddenly before those same steps aggressively began to rush toward where you stood. They stopped just on the other side before a low growl took their place.

"Diavolo?" Your voice was more concerned this time. "Are you alright?"

"I'm… fine." The voice was labored, but it was clearly Diavolo's. Why are… you here?

"I brought something that Lucifer needs you to sign," you answered. "I can come back later if you still aren't feeling well."

"Pl…ease…" he stammered out.

"Alright," you said with slight worry. "I hope you feel better soon. Also, whatever medicine you're taking has a very strong scent. I hope it's as effective as it smells."

You turned away to go back downstairs, but just as you did you heard the door slowly creek open from behind you. The smell in the hallway got stronger, so strong you had to hold your hand up to your nose to block out some of the stench. It was like your were being constricted by the smell.

"Medi…cine? You can smell… it?"

"Sorry," you squeaked as you looked back at the door only to see darkness flooding out of his room. "Was it rude to mention it? I only meant that I'm happy you're taking care of yourself."

"No… No… Why don't you… come in?" The door opened wider, just enough for you to see a large hulking figure with glowing golden eyes through the open slit; something both familiar and entirely foreign. "I'm so glad… you're here. It felt… like my nest was missing… something. Now it'll be… complete."

[variousqueerthings]

I'm watching the craft: legacy and I think it's much more watchable than its reputation. it's messy as hell, and I am not convinced teenagers speak like this at all, but I think it's got some interesting bones. it's main problems I think are the pacing and lack of purpose for most of the characters -- the more interesting stuff doesn't really begin until around the one hour mark, when there's not much movie left, and it sort of races towards the finish line from that point, rather than letting things build slowly

it's especially the three other witches that suffer from this, they're simply not particularly well drawn. that being said the idea that these four girls reach into this boy (an awful person, definitely) and completely fuck with his brain in order to make him "better" is very interesting, although those consequences aren't really dealt with, because he's murdered, kind of letting them off the hook

there are all these interesting little ideas floating about that unfortunately get lost in the more simplistic evil david duchovny plot (which, to be clear, totally fair to have evil david duchovny who hates women plot also)

I have now seen a few modern takes on different kinds of horror and soft!horror and I wonder if the wall that keeps getting banged against is the fear of having main characters be "problematic." the idea that we're trying to create a different kind of world, centering narratives that have queer intersectional ethos, and so we can't let the characters be messy, or else that underlying messaging might get lost/people might judge

this to say, that especially in horror, people need to let their inner freak out more. not police what's "morally good" behaviour. not let limitations be dictated by narratives that have demonised marginalised bodies in the past. idk, just write a short with some mass-murdering witches to get it out of your system and see how you feel after that, maybe you'd like more murderous witches

also, spoiler I guess for the final scene which doesn't have any bearing really on the main plot + mild discussion of SA

but perhaps my bias around nancy downs... there is something incredibly bleak about her specifically having a kid that she's forced to give up under very unclear circumstances. if it were sarah (robin tunney) I'd have maybe read some of that differently, but I cannot not read this as somehow related to sexual assault or at least highly dubious consent, because nancy ends the original craft institutionalised and we see her here... still institutionalised. there is a line that suggests that in between that she's been released and came to lily's adopted mother for help (which is also... skirted over....) but nancy's relationship with men isn't canonically great for her, so to see her here... many questions....

I think maybe also because I read nancy as a lesbian, so it's all very mixed up in personal feelings about the character, but of course none of that is explored because it's the last scene sooo

I think a sequel might actually do this a lot of good, because it sets up way more than it explores, but I don't think it will due to ahem... very bad ratings

[darkpoisonouslove]

Not to have a Serious-Narration-Analysis moment in the middle of this shitpost storm but I accidentally fixed the narration for them and now I have to talk about it.

The pacing issues are literally the biggest problem of this narrative and those could have been helped if every day didn't last for 237 hours but there was a way to fix some things even in that situation. What I really dislike about the whole situation with the stolen child and learning the truth about it is that they never gave her time to process any of it. Yesterday she was just trying to deal with her grief over her dead baby and the fact that she can't reconcile with it and is even blaming God for taking the child away and today she's not only learned that the child was stolen from her but also who stole it and why. She's in the middle of questioning her whole life and they're playing romantic music and creating UST moments.

And even so, that was still savable. Just let her emotions continue into the future. Which they kind of did to a certain extent but it's only expressed in her wanting the woman responsible for stealing her baby to go to jail. That's fair (and wow, I'm surprised that they actually let her rage so vehemently about all of this) but where did the rest go? Where did the blaming God for taking away the child go? That could have been a way to put how Christian all of this show is to use AND show her internal struggle through the spiritual tension this would create for her.

Let her have her romance but be conflicted about it. If she's blaming God for the suffering he gave her, can she accept the happiness that she now gets? I'm not saying imbue the romantic subplot with drama with (do not touch the romance!) but it feels like we sped through this intense and traumatic reveal only for the romance to remain the focal point of her character for several episodes. We could have had a balance instead where the two subplots are intertwined and her feelings on either interact with those on the other one.

Then when she learns her daughter is still alive, this internal conflict will go away but it wouldn't be solved. She didn't make peace with her feelings; they simply changed because the circumstances did. But the truth is that she missed so much of her daughter's life still and her granddaughter doesn't even know her and thinks of the woman that ruined her life as her grandmother. This is also painful (and they do mostly deal with it, fortunately) and something that cannot be erased regardless of the present. And that would have been the perfect moment for her to truly reconcile with all of her feelings and this time put the conflict to rest.

[missmentelle]

How do I know if I'm burnt out and what are signs of being burnt out? In relation to both university and work?

Unfortunately, burnout is a very common problem among both university students and people in high-stress jobs. For those of you who are unfamiliar with the term, “burnout” is effectively where people reach a breaking point after being in a high-stress occupation (like a demanding academic program or a high-pressure career) for too long. Being “burnt out” is not an official diagnosis, and you won’t find it in the ICD-11 or the DSM-V. But it’s something that an increasing number of people are experiencing every year.

Not everyone is at equal risk of experiencing burnout - many students and workers never really deal with this. Factors that put you at high risk of burnout include:

Having poor work-life balance. If you spend huge portions of your time working - working through weekends, doing tons of overtime, working late, not taking vacation, working through lunch - you are at high risk of burnout. Humans need rest, relaxation, hobbies and time with friends, and when you sacrifice those things for work, it will eventually take a toll.

Having very little control over your day-to-day tasks. No one has perfect control over their daily work tasks - not even the self-employed - but having some element of control is important. If you have a say in things like when to schedule meetings, when to book client appointments and which task you are going to work on when, you have a lower risk of burnout than someone whose tasks tend to just be dictated to them. 

Having perfectionist traits or holding yourself to very high standards. People who experience burnout tend to be overachievers. They constantly try to go above and beyond because they put immense pressure on themselves to do their best work at all times. If you’re the kind of person who beats yourself up over getting an A- instead of an A and makes a point to be the last one out of the office every day, you are at risk of burnout. 

Having a dysfunctional work or school environment. Is your workplace plagued with bullies and office gossip? Do your lab members take pleasure in ripping each other’s research and writing to shreds, without really being constructive about it? Does your boss take their bad moods out on the rest of the office, even when you haven’t done anything wrong? A dysfunctional workplace creates burned-out employees.

Having unclear instructions or directions. It is extremely difficult to be in a work environment where you are expected to do be productive, but you aren’t given clear expectations, a clear list of tasks or instructions for how those tasks should actually be performed. It leaves you constantly feeling like your work isn’t good enough and isn’t done properly, without actually giving you a route to improve; you often end up working twice as hard to get half as much done, which is a recipe for burnout. 

Working in a helping profession. Nurses, social workers, therapists, paramedics, psychologists, caregivers and caseworkers have some of the highest burnout rates of any profession. These jobs often combine long hours and low pay with incredibly stressful work environments, and burnout is a huge problem. 

Burnout is more than just feeling tired or bored of what you do. It’s a state of complete and total exhaustion. Putting more energy into your job isn’t possible when you reach that point - you have nothing left to give. “Burnout” isn’t an official diagnosis, but it is a fitting description - trying to push through burnout is like trying to re-light a candle that has already burned all the way down to the bottom. It’s just not going to happen. 

Some signs that you’ve reached the point of burnout include:

Your performance is suffering. You can’t keep going full steam ahead when you’re running on fumes. When you’re burnt out, your work performance will one of the first things that starts to slip - you may find that you are missing deadlines, forgetting things, half-assing tasks and making careless mistakes.  

You constantly feel drained. Burnout is a perpetual state of exhaustion. You’ll start to feel like you just don’t have the energy to do everything that you’re supposed to do. You’ll find that you feel tired all the time, regardless of your sleeping habits, and that just forcing yourself to do the bare minimum leaves you feeling totally depleted and unable to do much else. 

You feel disconnected and cynical toward your work. Even if you once enjoyed your work or felt passionate about it, when you’re burnt out, you become disillusioned with what you do. You may find that you’re cynical about your work, or just so apathetic that you can’t bring yourself to care about it anymore, even when you accomplish things that once mattered to you. 

You can’t concentrate. Burnout can make it difficult - if not impossible - for even the most dedicated person to focus on their tasks. You might find that you spend a lot of time just sitting in front of your computer, unable to even start tasks because you can’t focus well enough to begin something. 

You have become irritable and short-tempered. People who are burnt out have a tendency to become impatient with the people around them. When you’re running on empty, you have no energy left for social interactions. You might find that you’re snapping at coworkers or getting visibly frustrated with clients if you work in a helping profession. 

You feel anxious. Burnout is often accompanied by feelings of indistinct dread that you just can’t seem to shake. The fear and anxiety is often tied to work, and can be completely overwhelming. 

You can’t sleep. Ironically, people with burnout often have a hard time sleeping. Their minds race all night, and they find that they cannot settle down or get comfortable enough to drift off. If you can sleep, you may find that you are only able to sleep in short bursts and cannot sleep through a full night. 

Your eating habits have changed. Some people experiencing burnout find that they lose their appetites. Others find that they begin to comfort themselves with food. Significant changes in appetite and food intake can signal a serious problem. 

You feel physically ill. Being under high amounts of stress for long periods of time can destroy your health - you might find that you have a lot of symptoms with no direct physical cause, like headaches, stomach pain, nausea and body aches. You might also find that you get sick more often and get more infections as the stress wears down your immune system. 

You feel like you have to drag yourself through the day. Even if you once enjoyed your job or your school, you might start to feel like even showing up is a huge chore, and dread having to go in. You might find that it takes all of your energy to even make it through the front door each day. 

The good news is that burnout is not a permanent state; there are things you can do to recover. However, recovering from burnout is not necessarily easy - this is not something you can quick-fix with a self-help book, and you may need to make significant lifestyle changes. Some things you can do to fix or prevent burnout include:

Set firm boundaries. If possible, stop taking work home. Stop signing up for extra shifts and overtime every time it’s available. Don’t volunteer to organize every single office party and baby shower. Stop answering work emails after 5pm. Don’t check your email on the weekends. Don’t respond to emails on vacation. Set firm boundaries between “work time” and “me time” - especially if you work from home, where it’s easier for work and life to bleed together. 

Use every minute of your paid time off. A lot of people just don’t use up all their PTO every year because they’re worried they’re letting the company down by taking vacation. Stop that. If you have vacation days, use them. Use your sick time too - if you don’t get sick that often, use them as mental health days. If you’re a student, ask professors for extensions when you’re sick - more and more professors are getting on board with cutting students some slack for life events. 

Unplug from productivity culture. Our culture has a pathological obsession with productivity, and it’s killing us. We consume books and blogs and podcasts about how to squeeze as much productivity out of ourselves as possible. It has to stop. Unsubscribe from this kind of content. You don’t need to put more pressure on yourself to optimize and monetize every second of your day - it’s not healthy. 

Seek support. Talk to a therapist, a doctor or a friend. Get professional help or just find people you can vent to. Try to form friendships with some of your coworkers or fellow students, especially if you work in the helping professions - they know better than anyone what you are going through. 

Prioritize your physical health. When you neglect your physical health, you are more likely to burn out - you run out of fuel faster when you have less in the tank to begin with. Prioritize eating healthy meals and getting all the nutrients you need. Make a habit of exercising. Practice good sleep hygiene and try to improve your sleep. 

Talk to your supervisor, advisor or boss. Are there things about your specific work or school environment that could be improved for you? Could you be transferred to a new team? Do your roles and responsibilities need to be clarified so you know exactly what is expected of you? Do you need additional training to do your job well? Are you dealing with harassment that could be reported to HR? See what can be fixed. 

Consider a change. Sometimes you just need a change of pace after a while. Many social workers, for instance, eventually leave the profession - a lot of people simply have a lifetime limit on how long they can do that kind of work before they need to switch to something that doesn’t involve human horror every day. If burnout is a consistent problem, it might be time to think about taking a leave of absence, changing to a different role, or switching careers altogether. 

Hope this answers your question! MM

[marshmallowprotection]

Can I get a hug with Saeran?

I'm just, so fucking tired lmao

On the edge of a breakdown uwu

Saeran could tell that you were on edge. It wasn't often that he found you pacing in the garden like it was the only way to sustain your thoughts. He had been there before... being trapped in Mint Eye could do that to you. He felt bad that there were things in that place that you still couldn't talk about. There were things that he couldn't talk about either. That was what therapy was for, but he felt like he needed to be there for you more. After all, one day you had simply fallen on the ground in front of Ray with the world in your hands. Back then, Ray might have done anything if it meant that he would have been able to get his revenge. That was why he was so willing to agree with Rika she realized what you knew and how they could use it to rush to victory. It was only in the midst of actually doing that that he was able to start to realize that it was wrong. Well, hindsight is always 20/20, isn't that what they say?

It's different now. There's no more living in fear of something going wrong. However, he knows that you have seen and heard things that nobody your age should have never been experienced. He can't take away what you've suffered. But after everything that's happened oh, he can be a better brother to you than he was in the past. He can learn from what Ray and Saeran did... and apply that to his life now, as their experiences coexist within him and he understands where he went wrong. He had a hundred chances to do the right thing and you always gave him a chance. When he felt like he was at the end of his rope, you were always there. Now, he wants to do that for you. He wants to be a big brother that you deserve, now more than ever as he sees you rocking from side to side with salty tears burning at the corners of your eyes.

Whatever is eating away at you, he wants to help. He wants to help however he can. He knows that even if you're all in a new little cottage where the past cannot touch you, you're still going to feel like you're trapped. Even if you can get away from those places, it never leaves your memory. He hesitates in the doorway for a moment before he approaches you cautiously. He quietly opens his arms and allows you to decide if you want the comfort.

When you to accept it, he holds you tightly, hand smoothing out your messy hair as best he can. "I know it hurts. I know that you may not want to talk about it either. But I want you to know that I'm here. I'm here and I'm not going anywhere. You can count on me. That's what you always said to me. So that means I'm going to do the same. Whatever upset you, it can't get to you here. This is your home... our home. It can't hurt you anymore."

[tessiete]

Hiii! I'm in love with your Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan fics, you have such a deep understanding of the characters and their relationship in Legends (old EU) canon and Disney canon,too. It's an absolute joy to read your stories about them,I love the angst,I love the hurt/comfort, I love the sweet moments!!! That's why I've decided to participate in the prompt "game" you posted about on Friday. If you're still taking prompts,I really like #18 or #21 with Qui-Gon and Obi-Wan, ofc. Have a lovely day ahead!

Oh, thank you so much!! It truly does mean so much to here. Writing is never easy, and so often you rely on instinct, and second guess, but I am so sO SO happy that you enjoy my fics. That’s what it’s about after all - they’re meant for YOU! To love, and to enjoy!

And thank you for contributing to that. I hope you enjoy this prompt fill for #18 (”I am alive. I can tell because of the pain.”) and #21 (”No heart is made of stone.”) Much love!

JUDGEMENT

“Do you think they were...kind?” he asks. “In the end?” 

And though it pains him to speak, Qui-Gon answers honestly.

“No,” he says. “I do not think they were.”

At this, Obi-Wan nods. The judiciary benches have long since emptied, the crowds roused by a hard judgement, and a swiftly executed sentence. There had been jeering, mockery, and cruel laughter, and Obi-Wan had sat silently by Qui-Gon’s side, wrapped utterly in his dark travelling cloak. There had been no gaze to catch, the somber pools of his eyes concealed by the drape of his hood. Neither had there been a hand to hold, their delicate articulations twisted so deep within the folds of coarse fabric as to be invisible to Qui-Gon’s searching grasp. 

Instead, he’d remained stoic, hardly breathing as the magistrate had condemned a young woman to death. 

And it had been Obi-Wan’s word which brought her there.

“I do not think that I should be a Jedi.”

The phrase is whispered, whistled through the clenched teeth, and cracked lips of Qui-Gon’s charge. It is quiet, as though he cannot bear the thought of his pronouncement, but it is also clear, and earnestly meant.

On this, Qui-Gon is not so certain as his padawan, but it is not his place to refute him. Only Obi-Wan can do that. Qui-Gon Jinn is a Master, and it is his job to teach.

So he swallows, shifts his weight, and allows the contours of his body to fall into something more relaxed, hoping to coax Obi-Wan along with him. But Obi-Wan does not relent. So Qui-Gon seeks to educate him.

“And why do you think that?”

The boy turns to him abruptly, offended by the possibility that Qui-Gon cannot see how clearly he has transgressed, and how unworthy it must make him.

“Is it not obvious, Master?” he demands, some fire warming his benumbed lips. “I have murdered her.”

“It is not you who has shaved her head, or torn her limb from limb. It is not you who cried for blood. You did not sentence her. You did not bring her here. You did not sanction or commit her crimes.”

“But I told you who she was.”

“Ah,” says Qui-Gon, comprehension beating a percussive note from his lips. He leans forward, elbows braced upon his thighs, his hair trailing over his knees as he sits in deep thought, puzzling out the stars with Obi-Wan. “Then do you suggest it is my fault for alerting the authorities? Or for failing to negotiate a plea, or mitigate her sentence?”

“No!” cries Obi-Wan. The edge of his hood is too slow to keep pace with the padawan’s thoughts, and slips over his ear to catch and expose his pale face to Qui-Gon’s contemplation. “You tried,” he insists. “Even when it made them angry, even when they threatened to arrest you with her - you still tried...I only tattled.”

“Oh, Obi-Wan,” the master sighs. “Can you not see how cruelly you accuse yourself?”

“She came to me for help,” Obi-Wan protests. “And I killed her for it.”

“No,” says Qui-Gon, firm in this where moments before he has been lax. But then, it had been an exercise, and he had meant for Obi-Wan to reason his way into illumination. Instead, he sinks deeper into self-recrimination, and despair, both of which are far less becoming of a Jedi than an optimistic spirit and faith in his elders. This cannot continue. “You are a child, Obi-Wan,” he says.

“I’m thirteen!”

“And I have lived more than three of your lifetimes, my padawan. Grant me the benefit of the doubt when it comes to accumulated wisdom, both as your teacher, and your elder.”

Obi-Wan’s jaw snaps shut, his eyes falling low. A narrow hand has emerged to pick at a loose thread, worrying the small flaw into a larger fraying edge.

“Yes, Master Qui-Gon,” he mumbles. 

“You are a child, and this woman came to you because she knew you would act as such. She wanted sympathy. She wanted malleability. She wanted a defender who could neither judge nor question her.”

“She used me.”

“We are Jedi, Master Kenobi,” he says. “We come to be used. We arrive with every intent to serve. We are here to help in any way we can, as best we can. You helped her.”

Obi-Wan says nothing, unconvinced, but a drop of water, illumined by the sun slipping slowly beyond the horizon, falls hot and shining upon the sea of cloth pooled in Obi-Wan’s lap. It disappears in almost the same instant, only to be chased by another, and another.

“None of that,” sighs Qui-Gon. He is a proud man, he knows, and gruff besides, but he is no stoic, not like the stubborn boy beside him. And he is proud of him. So he does what Obi-Wan so vehemently chastises himself for now: he shows him kindness. He reaches out and pulls his padawan close, until Obi-Wan’s head is tucked beneath his chin, until his cold hands slide beneath the folds of Qui-Gon’s own cloak to feel the heat of him beneath, until his upset is soothed and muffled by the low susurrations of Qui-Gon’s voice, vibrating like tectonics shifting in his chest. “It will be alright.”

“It still feels wrong,” cries Obi-Wan, his anguish drowning in his throat. “It still feels unfair. It still hurts.”

“It will always hurt, young one,” Qui-Gon says.

At this, Obi-Wan’s upset turns briefly to rage, flickering impotently against the sea before being drowned again by sorrow. “Well, I wish it didn’t,” he says. 

“Don’t say that,” Qui-Gon chides. “It must hurt. It is right that it hurts. You must know it hurts me too, but that is how I know I am alive - I can tell because of the pain. I would never wish something as awful as apathy on you.”

“Well, I do wish it,” Obi-Wan says, tearful and insistent. “I wish I didn’t care. I wish I was numb. I wish I was ice.”

“Do you think that would help?”

“I don’t know.”

“Then I shall tell you, dear Obi-Wan,” says Qui-Gon, his mouth close to his padawan’s ear. “It would not. Ice melts, after all. It does no good to turn away, and leave others to their strife.”

“And yet, everyone here did!” the boy cries. He pulls away to stare Qui-Gon square in the face, his little visage torn and scarred with salt-stained grief. “They didn’t care that she was to be killed.”

“They’ve been hurt, as well,” he replies. “They are also mourning.”

Obi-Wan shakes his head. “No,” he says, a flat denial. “They liked it. They were happy.” 

“And can those things not grow from anger, grief, or fear? Can not the Dark rejoice in the sufferings of any heart?”

Obi-Wan frowns. His tears abate, and he takes a deep, gasping breath before laying his head down on Qui-Gon’s broad shoulder.

“Then perhaps one must not simply be cold,” the child suggests. “Perhaps it would be better to be made entirely of stone, so that nothing at all can touch you.”

“Oh, my padawan,” Qui-Gon sighs. He holds his burden close, and runs his fingers through the copper strands of tangled hair pressed against his breast. “No heart is made of stone. They are fragile, heavy things, and that is why we must be so careful with them.”

[imasimpforstevengrant]

Why do we like this clown so much?

Change the "we" for "I" and you get an usual tag I use whenever I post my content in Tumblr. And it sounds funny at first but whenever you start diving into that phrase, the deeper it becomes. So, I finally have decided to share my thoughts about this strange but wholesome attraction to this deeply flawed character. It's not something I usually do since I don't know how to write down my feelings properly and also in english so please forgive any typos (I'm from Chile so don't be surprised lol).

So...Why do we like this clown so much?

Why was it that a character precisely designed to scare and to disgust the fuck out of us ended up unchaining a series of feelings that shouldn't have taken place in a beginning?

Let's take a look at the background: Joaquin Phoenix was cast as Arthur Fleck/Joker in 2018. The first image of him as the aforementioned character revealed a deeply disturbed man. We knew the plot. A man driven to insanity after a brutal history of abuse, creating concern in people if the upcoming film would inspire real life violence. Incel violence and mass shootings, more specifically.

(the image in question)

As 2019 arrives, the two trailers generated so much hype that media needed to fuel its concern about it. Since it wasn't your typical comic book film, media basically bombed our minds making us believe this film was going to be a total disaster, an excuse to cause harm to others among other nonsense, as if the film would justify everything Arthur would do in the film, eventually. As the release date is closer, the film receives thunderous applause and unanimous praise from critics. At this, fans rejoiced and expressed impatience to watch the film.

October 5th.

People left the theaters amazed, shocked and genuinely moved by the inhuman treatment Arthur received in the film. The fear media tried so desperately to infuse in us with all the incel bullshit and such turned out to awake one of the most positive, best feelings in humans:

E M P A T H Y

The word that so gloriously cleared away any dark thoughts or actions not only proves media was wrong but it turned out to ridicule it in way nobody will forget: Hundreds of people advocating for mental illness, calling out to the kindness that could change a person's bad day and questioning how politicians and rich people are indifferent to social problems proved how much as a society we have changed in comparison with the one shown in the film.

However, since we are on Tumblr, I'll get straight to the point and try to explain why the fuck does this clown has us dying out of love and compassion (and lust).

I. Background.

As nurturing as we women are for a biological matter, we see a man deprived of a good job, is on seven different medications, working like a slave to sustain his ill mother, putting aside his own health and well-being to look for her, struggling to make his dream of being a comedian despite everyone stepping on him, underpaid and treated like a freak for a disorder he did not ask to suffer, which makes it impossible to be indifferent to all the horrible ordeal that eventually will reach the limit of what he can tolerate without going insane. It is impossible to not say or think, at least, that someone (even if it's just one person) should stand for him just as it is impossible not to feel the need to throw ourselves at him to shield him from people who hurt him or simply offer him our shoulder whenever he has had a bad day, specially when he learns he was sexually assaulted by his step father.

This horrid behaviour terrifies newer generations because they get a taste of what being a social outcast was like more than thirty years ago in comparison with today, where there's more acceptance and treatment for mentally ill people like Arthur. We see in him someone who could have been saved with a proper education and emotional support instead of descending into madness as a criminal. Others simply saw themselves being treated like him at some point in their lives and couldn't help but put themselves in his shoes.

II. Personality.

TRUTH BE TOLD:

There's something called "attraction by proximity". It is the explanation to the eventual love you feel whenever someone doesn't catch your eye at first terms of physical attraction but his/her personality does attract you. This happens to be the base of this situation. His shyness, introverted nature, tenderness and innocent desire to make people laugh and put on a happy face awake some kind of tenderness we cannot resist. This combined with the gloomy background increases our understanding (but not justifying) of the bad decisions he'll eventually take during the course of the film. This traces a line of harsh, almost hurtful contrast of the violence he shows later on the film. Once again, it is not justified in any way but it is certainly understandable.

III. Appearance.

Arthur Fleck is unconventionally attractive.

This happens to be a plus for most women. He is out of the male beauty standards (no abs, not too muscly or particularly tall), which makes him even more unique. It is precisely the fact that he's not a model one of the reasons women love him. He could easily be your man next door or your colleague or the guy you always see but never dare to talk for fear to bother him Because it's about proximity. Arthur looks like your common neighbour. He's not meant to be your typical desirable male protagonist at all.

... And yet.

Jesus Christ, he's so fucking hot I can't even---

It's not about how beautiful his green eyes are, his long slender fingers, his hair or his smile only. It's the charm behind it.

Another "magnet point" is the way he dresses. I know he's impoverished and his wardrobe tend to be repetitive but it is so unpretentious, so simple that is hard to not fall for. The modesty of the shirts, ironed trousers reminds us of a mature man deeply withdrawn into himself, love starved and longing to be seen and loved by others, like a war veteran who still fights the most important war: with himself. Is someone who needs to be listened and understood.

AND OF COURSE WHAT'S NOT TO LIKE ABOUT IT?

He's also brought back the old gentleman outfit, white shirts, red/yellow vest, red suit and elegant dancing moves and the retro style of the film boosts this attractiveness.

People keep comparing him with the previous interpretation of Joker (Leto's) whose costume appealed to young women with a tattooed, gangster, mumble rapper crazy-guy wannabe which didn't connect with the audiences (young people in general). This supposedly was to match or even have a sexy, tormented and desirable villain like Marvel's Loki. We all know how that story ended but it's the link for the next point below.

IV. Transformation

This is a particularly strong point considering how much we loved to watch the process of this weak, powerless, forgotten caterpillar into a beautiful and visible butterfly that will gracefully stir its wings for everyone to see its colours.

When Arthur transitions to the Joker, it's so cathartic to see taking revenge on those who wronged him (even when we're not supposed to root for him) like seeing his shyness fading away into a vivid confidence when dancing half naked in the bathroom, or witnessing him making way to make his name known to people in Murray Franklin's Show:

Adding to this newly gained confidence, there's another turn on: the way he walks.

At the beginning, his pace is hunched and limping, displaying his submission to violence, which makes the viewer more satisfied to see his broken yet beautiful soul turning the past pain of his existence into art: he lets music guide his moves as a way to tell the world he's a new man by cutting most of the sick, evil roots that harmed him, that he's invincible, that no one can stop him. Watching this cathartic display of euphoria was the most iconic scene in the film, following his speech at the TV and the inevitable meltdown that caused Murray's death.

Going to further appreciation, even his clown make up is beautiful. Why? Simple. The combination of colours, shapes and the intimidating glare just embellishes even more the character.

The dark blue triangles in his expressive eyes makes the light green colour to highlight, specially in dark backgrounds, giving the impression he's piercing your soul whenever he stares directly at the camera. Same can be said about the red smile and emerald green hair. They boost an already intimidating look.

The cold and warm colours paint a picture of a man full of intense emotions, mirroring it in a simple yet masterful artistic way.

Another interesting point is the way Joker dresses. Usually we had almost every single live adaption of this character in purple coat, hat, etc. But this particular version is not following any comic, which gives more freedom to creativity and once again, out of the standards of what we could have expected.

Red is a colour related to passion, action, love, strength, motivation and excitement. As for yellow, it indicates freshness, happiness and enlightenment and finally, green. Green is renewal, growth and regeneration. Colours that represent a new stage in his life, a mirthful chapter at last. We finally get to see our battered, always humiliated protagonist (or hero) descending into madness, but finally free from his repressed man who held his soul captive like a bird to fly away, to never come back. An insanity that despite being his downfall, turned out to be his ticket to freedom as he walks to the light in Arkham Asylum dancing at the end.

Ladies and gentlemen: behold the film nobody asked... But the film we fucking deserved.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk

❤️💚💛

[trickster-archangel]

I realized, as a thunderstorm, that I had always wanted to write something to promote a specific !verse of the Good Omens fandom....But I simply was sure I had done it, while it was just a false memory.

My bad, I'm mending it now.

Someone probably already read my previous post about the not-so-short-fanfics,but short if compared to what I'm about to rec, by @improbabledreams900 ....

Now I'd like to talk about her masterpiece, the Quest which took almost 3 years of her life, and changed forever the life of those who read it all. I wrote Quest because of the mighty force of it, the length, the strength, the depth of this series.

I'm talking about her Eden!Verse series...

I read "The Angel of Alexandria" and "The curse of Horemheb" and "Don't play with Holy Water" and "Mirror, Mirror" before this universe, and I suspect I almost immediately grasped the power of her narrative ability.

I dedicated myself to Eden!Verse during the past winter holidays, because I knew that I had to read it all steadfastly, and trying to keep a tight but soft pace, so as not to underestimate anything.

And so it was....obviously this reading is not enough to understand everything .... but I can already tell you something.

A universe of this kind, created with so much obsessive care, with a lot of study and a lot of research, cannot but be accosted to works such as those of Tolkien or Lewis.

It is not just about the length of the universe itself, but about depth and height, expansion, weight.

You'll hurt, and you'll cry. But it will all be worthy. You'll discover in yourself some emotions you didn't even know you had the ability to feel. Just, please...read the tags beforehand.

Also, fans of smut, beware....this is a totally ace relationship, but even if the author had maintained it as a very strong bromance relationship, in which they are practically friends and brothers, without any feeling of romantic love, the power of the story would not have changed in the least.

She started where the novel stopped, to create something autonomous and wonderful, where each piece of the puzzle finds its place and ends up reassembling a greater image. This is Literature to me!

Reading this series, I immediately thought of a genre that I know well and that I still love madly after 2000 years ... of Greek tragedies. The comparison with the dialogues and monologues of the Greek choirs is immediate, where ethics and cosmology and religion are not exposed through long and boring messages in which the author speaks to the public, but they are exposed, experienced, represented, directly and unfiltered, directly from the characters who are experiencing those situations, who are suffering from it in their flesh, in their blood, and in their soul, and who interact with the public, screaming all that is their pain and their confusion and their love and their hope. But the screaming itself would be nothing without the acting, the experience, the dramatic bit, the incarnation of the emotions and of fate.

We become Aziraphale and Crowley, but also Ishtyr and Venus and Bert and Harahel and Adam and Golgoth and Kazariel. We live with them and with them we find ourselves drowned in the mud before we can rise through catharsis.

Really. I know it's as lenghty as over 500k....but you'll find yourself projected into their world, their lives, their souls, and you won't be able to come out.

You'll read it again, and again, and again.

[nakedecon]

diet that actually works

alright everyone. i'm about to share with you a diet that is super easy to stick to and actually yields results.

now, just a disclaimer, this may not be as fast/extreme as some of you would like, but i can guarantee you all that this pace allows you to be consistent and prevents you from constantly falling into a binge cycle.

within a month of starting this meal plan, i have lost 13lbs. that is an average of 3.5lbs a week.

average daily intake: 800 calories

BREAKFAST

EVERY morning, i drink a profast chocolate shake. they're sold at a local metabolic weight loss center, and they are admittedly pricey, but they are definitely worth it. if you can find a similar/cheaper substitute, even better.

i also ALWAYS drink coffee with a packet of splenda and .25-.5 cup of cashew milk. the foods you eat on this diet are pretty limited so i need my caffeine in the morning, as well as some fat to keep me satiated.

profast shake: 100 calories, 7g carbs, 1.5g fat, 15g protein

1-2 cups of coffee: 20 calories, 3g carbs, 1g fat, .5g protein

LUNCH

for school, i only pack one thing: a very, very basic salad. it encourages me to stick to smaller portion sizes and it also relieves my growling stomach at just the right time of day. if i ever am feeling weak/faint, i will pick up leftover scraps/snacks from my friends and classmates.

chopped romaine (2 cups): 16 calories, 3.2g carbs, .2g fat, 0g protein *2g dietary fiber*

grilled chicken breast (1 oz): 53 calories, 0g carbs, 2.1g fat, 8g protein

sliced cucumber (.5 cup): 8 calories, 1.9g carbs, 0g fat, .3g protein

lite ken's balsamic vinegrette (2 tbsp): 60 calories, 3g carbs, 4.5g fat, 0g protein

it really is essential to have some source of protein—i have struggled for years to implement a plant-based diet in my household. given that i'm an 18 year old living with my parents, i really did not get much of a say in dinner selection. a meat protein, however, has the ideal macronutrients ratio for this diet, and also will keep you the most full throughout the day while also repairing your muscles after heavy workouts.

while you also may assume that you can go without the salad dressing, please know that the dressing often times contains your highest amount of fat for the day. as i'm sure you know, you will be very constipated during this diet and i suggest sticking to natural means of achieving bowel movements—so stick to coffee and keep this portion of fat in your diet.

DINNER

i am very privileged to have a mother willing to work with me on this diet, and i am very grateful for the work she puts into preparing my dinners. while we do switch up the dinner menu every night to avoid monotony, it is ALWAYS a vegetable paired with a meat protein.

typical vegetables: broccoli, asparagus, cauliflower, zucchini, brussels sprouts

typical proteins: chicken, salmon, turkey, pork tenderloin

i try to eat as early in the evening as possible, around 6:30pm, so my body has plenty of time to digest and also burn off any additional calories before i go to bed. to avoid late night snacking, i focus on homework or watch youtube videos, specifically mukbangs or 10,000 calorie challenges. if i really cannot resist the urge, my go-to treat is 1 outshine fruit popsicle. the no sugar ones are 25 calories and they're just the right size to satisfy me. it also makes me think that i'm cheating on the diet, so having just one is enough to keep me from going back.

EXERCISE / WORKOUTS

this is so important for this diet, and i definitely credit it for speeding up my weight loss process. even as someone undoubtedly suffering from body dysmorphia, i am starting to see positive changes in my physical state. my legs are slimmer and have more defined contours, showing off my muscles. my stomach is MUCH flatter than i was at my starting weight, and my hipbones actually protrude out.

i play lacrosse for my school, meaning i exercise roughly 4-5 days a week. practice extends for 2 hours, while games last 50 min, plus our 1 hour warm-ups.

i'm definitely not saying you NEED to pick up a sport in order to do well, but i am telling you that being obligated to teammates and a coach really pushes me to workout every weekday, and prevents me from excusing myself from exercising.

before practice every day, our team runs 1 mile together, with the average pace being 6.5mph. at my weight, 150lbs, that burns me roughly 100 calories.

during actual practice, we do a lot of jogging/sprinting throughout all of the drills, but we also wait in lineups and whatnot, so when i calculate my burned calories in myfitnesspal, i always underestimate the time of my workout. instead of logging 2 hours of lacrosse, i typically log 35 minutes, which burns 320 calories for me. i'd rather underestimate than overestimate.

for those of you that are not committed to a sport: i highly recommend purchasing the p90x package. once my lacrosse season ends, i will be turning to that as my form of exercise. p90x provides a great workout plan for those who are specifically looking to become lean, rather than bulky, while still building defined muscle. i'm pretty sure the average p90x workout burns around 450 calories, and if you pair that with a mile run, that'll give you a total of -550 calories a day.

PLEASE do not skip this aspect of the diet— if you think you can just create a calorie deficit without implementing some form of exercise and strength training, you are not going to get the results that you want. yes, you will lose weight. but that weight will be a combination of fat AND muscle.

the more muscle you have, the higher your BMR is, simply because it requires more energy to maintain muscle than fat. in addition, having muscle will make you look much more toned rather than flabby/one-dimensional. i promise you that you will not bulk up like a body-builder if you eat protein or workout. instead, you're going to achieve a flat stomach/abs and toned arms/legs. the only way you would bulk up is if you eat a caloric surplus, so you have nothing to worry about.

ADDITIONAL POINTERS

cut out oils. this is so so important— oils contain way too much fat and way too many calories. your body needs to be using the fat it already has for energy, not new sources of fat that you put into your body

the macronutrients ratio: 50% protein, 30% carbohydrates, 20% fat. you want to really boost your protein intake in order to repair your muscles after working out. carbohydrates also provide your body easily-accessible energy, but a majority of those carbs should come from vegetables.

NO fruit. fruit contains way too much sugar and while they do contain fiber, you can do without them.

NO grains. grains, such as pasta and bread, are extremely high in calories and, honestly, do not really keep you full. i understand eating a bagel right before an extreme workout in order to get some energy, but grains really do not provide much sustenance and i highly suggest you do not indulge.

gastrointestinal issues. yes, you are going to be constipated. stick to coffee and the salad dressing as natural laxatives, but if you NEED a bowel movement, consider drinking smooth move tea. or milk of magnesia. and a TON of water. as someone who often suffers from painful bloating, i recommend buying gasx chewables— they are so relieving and they actually taste like candy, without having any calories.

buy a lifewater. lifewater is my saving grace. by purchasing a 1L bottle, it encourages me to drink SO much water throughout the day. i normally keep it room temperature and i end up drinking over 3L within 24 hours, and i am TERRIBLE at reminding myself to hydrate. water is so so important for this diet, especially if you are working out often. it also encourages more bowel movements and prevents your body from retaining too much water.

avoiding a binge. i actually keep a list of foods in my notes app. it features a ton of meals/snacks that i am dying to indulge in. for some reason, it helps me. also, try to remind yourself that the primitive part of your brain is fueling your irrational cravings, but your advanced brain is control of your motor functions. YOU are in control of whether or not you grab snacks and feed yourself, NOT your cravings.

feel free to send me any messages if you have any questions! hope this works for you all!

[fearlessinger]

I wonder if you remember that petition to make a winter soldier solo movie? On one hand Bucky is my absolutely favourite MCU charater and honestly the only one I'm emotionally invested in. But! Right now the only movie I could get behind would be the one about WS trial (ending with Bucky free of all charges ofc as a giant middle finger to everyone doubting he was a victim). Do you have a narrative you'd like to see for Bucky in a solo feature?

Confession time: I don’t actually want a Bucky solo movie.

First of all, I simply don’t trust the Marvel writers, any Marvelwriters, to do right by him. As a supporting character, he basically onlyexists as fuel for Steve’s manpain, but he’s allowed to be what we love himfor: a subversion of basically everything we know and expect of (white) manly masculineguys in action movies. As a protagonist though? I don’t trust that thatessential aspect of his character would survive. The MCU loves to make theirprotagonists into assholes. The MCU doesn’t know how to write conflict into a (white)man’s life that isn’t either his own doing or manpain over some secondarycharacter’s real pain. It’s already apparent that the MCU has no idea what todo with a story like Bucky’s, the story of someone who has been violated sothoroughly he now has to fight for ownership of his mind and body and actions. Someonewho had no control over what happened to him, who did not ‘ask for it’ and did not ‘have it coming’ but still had to sufferthrough ‘it’ and then got blamed for ‘it’. Someone who was rendered completely, absolutely powerless, and whodidn’t demand compensation for that powerlessness in the form of bloody revenge. Someone who despite all this still has the strength to be gentle. Someone who actually likes playing the role of support in other people’s lives. As it’s been already pointed out by people other than me, that sounds like a whiteman’s worst nightmare. If Bucky ever became a main character you bet Marvelwould feel the need to fit his round shape into the square that they’re familiarwith, that they’re comfortable with, that does not unsettle them. They’d twisthis story, the story of a person trying to reclaim his humanity, into the storyof a white man trying to reclaim his masculinity. I cannot emphasize enough howmuch I don’t want that.

Besides, the MCU does, indeed, have enough white male leads, so I’d reallyrather have the spotlight put on a woman for a change, preferably a woman ofcolor. I want a Kate Bishop movie, an America Chavez movie, or both (preferablyboth). I want Sam to have his own captain America trilogy, and Bucky to be init as his supporting character. I want the Sam/Bucky road trip movie we alldream of. I want something that will force the Marvel writers to think out ofthe box in a way I don’t believe, sadly, that a Winter Soldier solo movie ever could.

That said, I’d love to see a legal thriller or drama or something of thesort centered on the Winter Soldier’s trial. I think it’d work wonderfully as achoral movie, because of course it wouldn’t be just about Bucky but also aboutSteve, and Sam, and possibly Natasha and Sharon and Fury. And it would be theperfect opportunity to introduce Bernie Rosenthal and/or Jennifer Walters tothe MCU. If it were down to me to write a WS solo movie, I’d probably go thisroute, or the Sam/Bucky roadtrip movie route… or, as a friend and I werediscussing some time ago, I’d like a quiet, slow paced movie about Bucky inthose two years after TWS and before CW, making his way through Europe,remembering, relearning how to be aperson, deciding that neither death nor revenge are for him, choosing life,choosing peace. Maybe finding himself in Sokovia after the Ultron disaster,deciding to stop there for a while and help because he can, and discoveringthat he is, indeed, still capable of doing something other than murderingpeople… rediscovering anger and grief on these people’s behalf, mourning fortheir loss the way he can’t allow himself yet to mourn for his own, wonderinghow many grieving people he himself is responsible for. Then, when things beginto settle and people start to ask questions, fleeing again, to Romania, wherehe decides to try for normalcy, stability, with a home and a dailyroutine and maybe even, once he’s finished whatever Hydra money I assume hemust have gotten his hands on, some kind of job (I’m partial to the idea ofBucky doing translations, or the occasional small carpenter works for theneighbors). It never quite feels completely right, especially when he catches aglimpse of Steve on TV, saving people from burning buildings with his winged friendand the other Avengers, when he reads about him in the paper (he misses Steveso much and he’s terrified of seeing him again, of Steve judging him and hatinghim or even worse, of Steve giving up his life for Bucky again), or when hejumps at some shadow, when he tenses at the sound of a siren, when he dreams ofbeing found and dragged back into hell. But it’s the closest he’s been to okayin a really, really long time.

Basically I want the fanfic that fills the emotional holes left behind bycanon, I want the artsy, intimist superhero film Hollywood will never give me.

What I would never want instead, is something like what that petitionyou mentioned described: a movie set in Bucky’s past, a movie about Bucky losinghimself as he’s forcibly molded into a weapon. If I have to see any more of that, let it bethrough flashbacks, but let the main story be about him reclaiming himself. Iget that Bucky’s traumatic experience is one of the biggest reasons why werelate to the character, and I get that for some people it’s the part they are mostinterested in, maybe even the only part they’re interested in, and that’s theirright. But personally, what I love and find most interesting about Bucky isn’t theabuse he was forced to bear, and it’s certainly not the terrible things he was forcedto do; it’s the fact that he survived all that, and that he now has to – no, that he now WANTS to live with all that, and that he WANTSTO BE BETTER than that. That’s ultimately what I want to see more of, be it inan Avengers film or in another Cap film or in anything else.

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I have known I'm bisexual from a long time now, but in 2014 I was on an abussive relationship with another female, and it scared me deeply. So much that I'm scared of dating again, but mostly women. Whenever I start talking to a girl, and they start flirting with me I start to panic, and I simply end the conversation, I try not to be rude but I can't help it but to think that is my ex I'm talking to or someone she knows, I just don't feel safe anymore with women, (1/2)

(2/2) but I still feel attracted to girls. I never knew that can be possible, whenever I see a girl I like at first it’s like a normal crush but it quickly escalates to extreme fear, and it happens with boys too but just when things are getting serious is when the fear of suffering begins, and I ruin every potential relationship I have, I really don’t know what to do anymore. Being called “baby” triggers me, just like every flirty action or word, it makes me physically ill. I need help…

Hi Anon, 

I’m so sorry to hear what you’re going though. I’ve been where you are. Know that your reactions- the fear, the triggers, the attraction- all of it is normal. And it is perfectly okay to, regardless of attraction, decide not to date people of a certain look or body type based on how it reminds you of past trauma. 

But if it is something you want to work to move past, here are my suggestions: 

1. Know your triggers.

It sounds like you are already doing this. It is so important to know what triggers you and what doesn’t so you can avoid ones you aren’t ready to address and monitor/control your exposure to those you are ready to or capable of dealing with. There are many resources online focusing on how to address specific types of triggers which after a certain point are far more useful than trying to simply eliminate all your triggers all at once. 

I think it would be helpful for you to identify exactly when the fear starts and why.  Is it at a certain time period (say, 3 weeks into dating) or is it related to a certain level of intimacy (say, after the first kiss, or the first deep conversation)? And what is it exactly that you are afraid of? Trauma trains our bodies to react in instinctual, knee-jerk ways. People survive trauma by reacting immediately to red flags; waiting to see how things turn out can sometimes put the person in a lot of danger. This reaction doesn’t stop once we’re in a safer place. Sometimes we may get scared because we project past red flags onto current people. For example, someone raising their voice doesn’t mean it will escalate into physical violence. But if your body has come to expect that violence, someone raising their voice will elicit the same fear as the physical violence itself creates.When our bodies feel that fear, it can help to take a step back and think logically. 

Ground yourself by going over the facts of your current situation. Is the person you have a crush on actually showing the same red flags as your ex? What are your resources to deal with something like that now, as opposed to in the past? Is it genuinely likely that the person you’re talking to knows your ex and is actively contacting them about you?

2. Communicate your triggers.

You don’t have to go through this alone. You also don’t have to reveal every detail about what you’ve been through, if you don’t want to. You’re allowed to be uncomfortable with things without having to explain yourself. But it is really important to let people know how you’re feeling and what they can do to help, for your sake and theirs. 

 For example:“I don’t like being called baby. How about sweetheart?”

“I do like you, but when you [insert flirty action], it’s a little bit too much/ too fast for me.” 

“I’m a little nervous. Can we take this slow?” 

 More explicit examples:“My ex called me baby. Please don’t call me that.”“I’ve been through some stuff, so I need to take this slow.”“I don’t mean to be rude, but I am feeling triggered right now and I am going to take some space.”

3. Move at a pace that is right for you.

If you push yourself to do too much too fast, it can actually intensify your triggers as your body fights back against it. Be patient with yourself. Some wounds really do need time to heal. 

It’s also possible you just haven’t met the right people yet, or you’re not in a stable enough situation yet. Maybe the type of relationship you need right now will look different from the types of relationships you’ve had in the past. All of that is okay.You might be worried about “scaring away” partners by being open about your past and present. I cannot stress enough that a good person, a good partner, and a good match for you will respond positively to these messages. If someone cannot handle taking things at your pace and making an effort to ensure you feel comfortable and safe, they are not a good partner and they are definitely not what you need right now.

 These are all reasonable things to expect from a partner regardless of whether one has been through trauma or not.I feel for what you’re going through and remember you’re not alone. We at BWSN are always here for you! 

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