#i should try actually writing out a script instead of writing all the ideas i get in a google doc

[psformybss]

hey loved the last one x

have a request for hidden vows

there is an interview the outerbanks cast did called scene stealerd where they react to fans doing stuff related to the show. I have an idea. what if the whole cast is reacting together and a clip of yn comes up. the producers of the channel asked her to submit a clip. the clip is a complication of her reenacting a couple of rafe scenes like:

the scene where he says, "I think we should kill them all" to ward

season 2 episode 10 scene where John b and rafe are in the red boiler engine room and he says " watch your head man" and the rest of the script

the scene where wheezie gives rafe money cause Ward kicked him out in season one, and she tells him about how ward is taking sarah to the Bahamas and he is like " I know about a billion more things about business them she does........"

lastly the season 2 scene where rafe and ward and talking how he shot her and he's like "I think I shot her. I was trying to shoot John b but she got in the way. i think I shot her but I don't care that i did".

in all of these yn is like impersonating rafe as kinda sassy and it's super funny. the cast cracks up and drew is all laughing and shaking his head

Scene Stealer

series masterlist

warnings: chaos energy, actor impersonation, unexpected talent, too much laughter

an: hiii, im so glad you loved them! this idea was so fun to write, there’s a slight chance i didn’t get all of the dialogue from the scenes right cause i mostly went from memory so if i didn’t pretend that’s the dialogue that’s actually on the show

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By the time the cast of Outer Banks piled onto the main couch, the room was buzzing.

They’d spent the past hour reacting to fan-made recreations—laughing, cringing, occasionally questioning their own performances when someone on TikTok out-acted them in a wig and a hoodie. Now, all seven of them were crammed together in front of the biggest screen yet, still breathless from too much laughter and too many inside jokes.

Madison, Chase, and Carlacia had melted into one tangled heap on one side of the couch, knees knocking and shoulders bumping as they fought for space. Madelyn and Rudy flanked the other end, the latter already half on the floor. JD had somehow wedged himself between them, sliding slowly toward the edge like gravity had given up. Drew sat slightly off-center, posture suspiciously straight—legs stretched out, forearms braced on his thighs, water bottle dangling loose in one hand.

He didn’t say anything.

Which, of course, made everyone suspicious.

“You’re suspiciously quiet, Starkey,” Madison noted, squinting at him.

Drew just eyed the monitor like it might bite him. “I know that face,” he said, nodding toward the producer behind the camera. “That’s the chaos face.”

The producer didn’t even try to deny it. Just smiled and said, “For this last video, we reached out to someone special. Someone who knows the show… intimately.”

Rudy gasped. “It’s your mom.”

“Worse,” Carlacia grinned. “It’s gotta be Y/N.”

Drew blinked. Once. Slowly. “Oh no.”

Chase pointed at the screen, already gleeful. “Roll it. Roll it now.”

_______

The screen faded in from black.

A familiar kitchen appeared, fridge slightly ajar, dishwasher humming faintly in the background. Y/N stood barefoot in the center, hair tossed into a chaotic bun, backwards cap tugged low, one of Drew’s hoodies nearly swallowing her whole.

She paced slowly across the tile. Calm. Deliberate. Head tilted just so.

And then, in a voice so casual it bordered on cheerful:

“I think we should kill them all.”

She stopped. Blank-faced. Still. Like she was talking about grocery lists instead of murder.

_______

The room detonated.

“NO—NO, WHY IS SHE SO CASUAL?!” Carlacia shrieked.

Rudy kicked the coffee table, rolling backward onto the floor. “SHE’S GOT THE HEAD TILT. That’s the tilt!”

Madelyn was pointing at the screen like it had personally offended her. “She looks exactly like him—why does she look like him?!”

Drew sat back slowly, squinting in disbelief. “That’s… that’s literally what I did.”

“She studied you like a nature documentary,” Madison howled. “You’re done.”

_______

Y/N crouched behind the backyard grill, wielding a rake like a weapon. She charged out of frame full-speed and slammed it into the wooden trellis with a crack that made half the cast jump.

She leaned into camera view, breathless, feral-eyed.

“Watch your head, man.”

_______

JD clutched the armrest like it was a seatbelt. “SHE BROKE THE TRELLIS FOR THE BIT?!”

“She’s gonna invoice you,” Chase wheezed.

Rudy was flat on his back, one hand in the air. “I’m ascending. Goodbye.”

Drew dropped his head into his hands, wheezing through laughter. “She told me she was out watering tomatoes that day.”

“Lies,” Carlacia declared. “She was watering vengeance.”

_______

The next clip was in their living room, Y/N perched at the edge of the couch, fisting crumpled cash, eyes wide. She stood abruptly, raked a hand through her hair, and spun in a tight frustrated circle.

“I know about a billion more things about business than she does!”

She kicked over a throw pillow.

“What is… what is this?!”

She threw her arms toward the ceiling like it had answers.

From off-screen—clearly pulled from the show—a voice cut in:

“We’re the black sheep. Get used to it, Rafe.”

Y/N froze. Turned. Looked betrayed. Then face-planted onto the couch with a dramatic groan, limbs dead-weight.

_______

“She’s got your rage pacing,” Madison whispered, eyes wide. “Like frame-for-frame.”

“She’s better at being Rafe than you,” JD said, pointing straight at Drew.

Drew scrubbed a hand over his jaw. “She didn’t even tell me she was filming this.”

“She didn’t need to,” Carlacia said. “It’s in her blood.”

_______

For the final scene the bathroom lighting was dim, Y/N sat on the edge of the tub, robe slipping off one shoulder, eyeliner smudged just enough to scream emotional turmoil. A bead of water trailed down her temple.

Her voice cracked.

“I hit her.”

Ward’s voice echoed, clipped from the show:

“What?”

Y/N turned to the camera, face blank.

“But I don’t care that I did.”

A beat.

“That’s your sister.”

She shrugged—one-shoulder, unbothered—and reached for something on the counter.

A juice box.

She punctured the straw with deadly precision and took the loudest sip any of them had ever heard.

_______

Madelyn collapsed sideways into Madison’s lap. “NOOOO.”

“THE JUICE BOX?!” Rudy shrieked from the floor.

“WHERE DID SHE EVEN GET THAT?!” Carlacia howled.

“This is Oscar-worthy,” JD yelled. “THE DRAMA. THE DETAILS!”

Drew just stared at the screen—mouth parted, eyebrows raised, laugh caught somewhere in his chest. And then it came.

A real, full-body laugh. The kind that forced him forward, face flushed, eyes shining. He looked stunned. Wrecked. In awe.

“She’s insane,” he said finally, wiping his face. “And I love her so much it’s actually terrifying.”

“She won the whole thing,” Madison grinned. “No one’s topping that.”

“She is Rafe now,” JD declared solemnly.

Drew gave a helpless shrug, smile tugging at the corners of his mouth. “Guess I’m out of a job.”

The screen faded to black.

The cast was still breathless, collapsed into each other, half-sobbing from laughter.

And Drew?

He just shook his head, the grin still stuck on his face like it had no intention of leaving.

“She’s gonna love this,” he muttered, already imagining her face when she watched this footage. Already planning the popcorn. Already bracing for round two.

Because if anyone was about to be dragged into another parody?

Yeah. It was definitely him.

[pixiesfz]

Omg I love your recent Kerstin fic. Would you consider doing a part 2 where we actually see Kerstin get jealous due to Courtney? Maybe some smut?

yes, yes, yes yes yes.!

jealousy k.c

plot: you and courtney become friends after being ex's for so long and kerstin gets a little jelly about it.

warnings: smut, public, part 2 of teammates

You were healing.

With the help of Kerstin of course.

You didn’t realize until the recent international camp where Australia would vs Uzbekistan when Courtney walked in and instead of a feeling of heartbreak washing over you, you finally saw her as a normal teammate, a friend almost.

“Media duties!” Macca called out with a grin as she held her phone and the tiny microphone which had some of the girls groaning.

“Partner up!” Allanna yelled from behind her she yelled and you were at the food table putting spaghetti in your bowl, meaning that when you went back to your table everyone was partnered up except for Courtney whom you both made awkward eye contact with another and Kyra coughed to save you both from it.

“I could switch” she offered to you but you shrugged your shoulders “It should be fine” you smiled and made your way over to her “Hey,” she said softly “Hi” you smiled, excited that you were finally feeling like her teammate again and not her ex.

“Excited for the games coming up, going to your homeland soon” she pointed out and you smiled “I haven’t seen my family since the break so I’m pretty excited, I’m giving my mum about 10 seconds before she starts to cry” you laughed and she joined you.

After a few seconds Courtney turned towards you “This is nice” was all she said and you nodded “Yeah” you breathed out and the two tall girls from your team walked over to you both with whiteboards “You have been chosen” Macca said in a weird voice you could only hear in star wars and you tilted your head “sorry I don’t speak Chewbacca”.

“C'mon” Allanna sighed and grabbed your hand, walking a bit faster so you were out of earshot of the other two “Are you okay?” she asked and you nodded “I’m okay” You smiled “Yeah?” Allana asked with a smile “Yeah” you confirmed and hugged into her side where she left a chaff kiss on your head.

“You know I didn’t like the idea of Kerstin taking you after what happened at the World Cup but you and her are really good together, even on the field,” she said to you and you blushed “C'mon let's just do this interview”.

You and Courtney both sat down together in the media room as a camera guy cleaned the camera Mackenzie held a script behind it and Allana held the mic. “Why did we need to clean the camera?” Courtney asked “Raso and Ellie did a try not to laugh challenge” the guy piped up and you laughed at the idea “oh that is chaos”.

“So you’re just gonna do like a ‘who’s most likely to’ kind of thing yeah?” Kenzie asked and you nodded and the camera started rolling.

“All right, who’s most likely to forget a teammate's birthday?” she asked and you wrote down Kyra’s name and turned it around at the same time as Courtney as the room erupted in laughter “Y/n” Courtney nudged your shoulder “what” you turned to her as your faces were close.

“It’s only out of us two”

Mackenzie and Allanna’s laughter filled the room again as your eyes bulged “Sorry Kyra!”.

“Who did you write anyway?” you asked as you rubbed Kyra’s name out “Me, you were always good with dates” She shrugged, and you nodded with a smile.

“Most likely to end up on Broadway?”

You both turned around your whiteboards to reveal your name “Me” you smiled “Fun fact: before I went into footy full time, I was always in my school musicals and local ones”

“And was even good at them” Courtney chimed as she remembered going to them.

“Most likely to go on Love Island?”

You thought about it for a second and then wrote down Courtney’s name, not sure if she would take it offensively but when you turned it around she laughed and you saw your name on hers “What?” you asked “Pretty people do well on Love island” Courtney pointed out with laughter and the comment went straight over your head “no you would do well in all like the challenges they do, you and your partner would dominate” you pointed out as everyone in the room was now laughing.

You both waved to the camera still laughing at each other as the cameraman turned it off.

“Well, at least I didn’t get water all over me this time”.

That night after dinner you laid on your bed with the phone in hand where Kerstin was “So how was tonight?" she asked after having a conversation all about her first couple of days "Good we did some media shots and I was with Courtney" you explained

You were too busy explaining your story that you didn’t see Kerstin's eyes when you mentioned your ex-girlfriend. “I miss you,” she told you with a smirk “Babe it’s been a week” you laughed but her stare didn’t change “I miss you too” you admitted with a smile.

“You getting a tan up in Spain?” you teased, and the girl smiled “Actually I was thinking we could come up here next break” she admitted and your smile widened “I’d love that”.

When you both hung up the phone for the night you saw that the admin had posted the video of you and Courtney, but you paid no mind to it, knowing what had happened in real life.

Kerstin sat in her bed and watched it, her eyes traveling to Courtney when her arm grabbed you and swivelled you around and told you that you were playing the game wrong. Then it went to her staring at you for a reaction whenever she turned her whiteboard around.

“Pretty people do well on Love Island”

Kerstin's eyebrows shot up at the blonde girl's (her words to her girl) words, she tried not to but her finer swiped up to see all the comments that had already flooded the video.

‘did they get back together?”

↪ we don’t even know if they ever broke up.

↪ isn’t she dating Kerstin

↪ just a rumour, just friends I think

↪ y/n and Courtney is an Australian power couple

↪ Kerstin and y/n are slow launching

↪ how many girfriends does this woman have?

Kerstin shut off her phone and put it on her bedside table with a groan.

She trusts you with every bone in her body and she knows you would never ever cheat, especially with Courtney but right now all she wanted was to push the blonde Australian away so people would know you were hers.

And hers only.

Tony took you off after 60 minutes, scoring two goals and assisting Mary for hers, you had the win in for sure and you helped your team make your way into the Olympics, jumping in joy from the sidelines when Caitlin scored her hattrick.

The game finished 7-1 and the Matilda’s team were singing random songs in the change rooms to celebrate. “Congrats” Courtney said as you walked in “thanks for the assistance” you smiled as you thought back to the first goal of the match.

You were on the wing, free as your defender got slightly confused and ran onto Raso. Courtney caught your eye as she dribbled and kicked with her right foot from their square to you where you hit it from your chest back down to your foot, giving you a clear way for a boot, which you did and thankfully the ball went in.

You jumped around in excitement as the team jumped on you, Courtney as well who lent her hand out to pick you up.

You walked away back to your cubby as Courtney watched you.

Allanna picked you up as you walked over “Can’t believe Tony took you off right before you got a hattrick” she groaned “It’s fine, he told me he wanted me fit and healthy for the Melbourne game cause he’s keeping me on for the full 90” you smirked and she gasped and smiled “Chicken!” Caitlin cheered over and sat down next to you “Got good news for you”

“What may that be?”

“Viv and I figured out that we and the Netherlands are gonna be at the same airport at the same time!” she told you quickly and you jumped up “fuck yes!” you cheered, ecstatic that you get to see your girlfriend.

“Alrighty girls!” Tony walked in “pack your bags cause we’re leaving bright and early in the morning!”

You weren’t usually a morning person but the idea of you seeing Kerstin again had you waking everyone else up to be quick, you even bought mini a coffee as Harper may have kept her up.

“Thanks, darl” she complimented you with a thankful smile as you walked together, Harper deciding to jump into your arms as you all walked onto the bus.

“Want y/n” she turned to her mum who shrugged “Take her,” she told you with a smile as you and the little one both cheered.

“You are happy,” Harper told you as you both sat down and you smiled “I get to see Kerstin” You smiled and the girl put her mouth in an ‘o’ shape letting out a little sound “I like Kerstin She gave me lollies” she smiled as she remembered when you took Kerstin to a ‘Tillies’ night out.

“That did not make your mummies happy,” you told her as you remember Kerstin apologizing as she didn’t know that the lollies she gave her had so much sugar in them.

The two of you fell asleep on the bus till you were shaken awake by her mother “I can still hold her” you promised her as you all walked in, quickly going through security with the little one stuck on your shoulder.

She didn’t wake until we all put our bags down “Kerstin” she mumbled and pointed before you turned around and indeed saw your girlfriend in all orange walking towards you, a slight sense of dominance as she locked eyes with you.

“You ruined my surprise little one,” she told Harper before wrapping her arms around you, squeezing you tight before pulling back and looking at you holding a child. “I look like a mum don’t I” you laughed

“milf”

“Kerstin” you scolded and grabbed her arm “C’mon let’s take her to her real mum” you smiled.

Although you loved the little girl, you just wanted to be with your girlfriend for the little time you had.

Dropping off Harper to Mini was easy but it was as you walked by your team members that Kerstin looked around for the blonde who was already watching you pass Mini the child, Kerstin didn’t like that.

“I have to go to the toilet come,” she told you, dragging you off.

You lightly scoffed “You need to learn how to control your bladder”.

You watched as Kerstin held you tight, turning from the regular girl's toilet last second to the disabled, throwing you in and quickly closing the doors behind her.

“Kerstin this is the-“ You were cut off by her lips on hers, moaning into her right away from the impact “Kirsten” you breathed out in between kisses, she simply shooshed you and travelled her lips down your neck, pushing you onto the sink “jump” she told you her hands grabbing your ass as you did and lowered you onto the bench top.

“we’re in public” you breathed out as she sucked onto your neck. She took her head away, looking at you with lust “I just want people to know what’s mine” she told you with a shrug as if it was the easiest thing to say in the world but you felt hot at the words, or maybe because it was the way her hands travelled up your legs as she said so.

“I am yours,” you told her and she crossed her head and tutted “Not everybody knows that,” she said and you thought back….Courtney.

“Are you jealous?” you ask as the woman's fingers played with your waistband “I don’t want anyone thinking they have a chance with you” She smiled and started pulling your shorts down, your underwear along with it, throwing it on the floor before her hands went under your thighs, pulling you towards her “so wet” she smiled, kissing up your legs.

“Did she ever make you this wet?”

You gasped at the words of your girlfriend, a new side that you had never seen of her, and you loved it.

“no” you mumbled as her kiss grew closer to where you needed her.

“Good girl”

Kerstin started slowly with a slow lick through your folds, moaning at the sight of her before she went in again, faster

“Oh fuck” you stuttered, your hand now tangled in her hair that she wore out, biting down on your lip to stop yourself from moaning.

But a buzzing sound interrupted your bliss.

Courtney.

“Answer it,” Kerstin told you before entering a finger into you.

“I-“ “Answer it or I won’t go any further” Kerstin looked into your eyes, silently telling you that she meant it.

“fuck” you cursed before pressing answer and lifting it to your ear as Kerstin eagerly watched you from underneath.

“hey” Courtney said on the phone “hi” you responded and Kersten started moving her finger slowly, you bit onto your free finger to stop yourself from any noise.

“Called cause you’ve been gone for a bit and we have to board in like twenty minutes” she said through the line “Lani said you could be with Kerstin but I just wanted to make sure”

At Kerstins name being dropped you looked down to the girl who was pumping her fingers into you, entering a second finger that made you gasp.

“Are you okay?” Courtneys voice rang out

“yep” you answered quickly, maybe a bit too quickly.

“okay uhm I could find you”

At the words Kerstin sped up and you moaned out into your hand so it was muffled “That’s-“ you started but stopped “That’s okay I’m good, be there in five-ten! minutes” you said but the squeeze of Kerstin's hands on your ass told you that you were going to be a bit longer.

“oh okay, well tell me if anything changes” Courtney offered and you nodded your head frantically, trying so hard not to scream out your lover's name “Yep okay bye” you said quickly before smashing the decline bottom and placing the phone on the table.

You took your hands in Kirstens hair again as you finally were able to release “oh fuck yes Kerstin” you breathed out as she let you ride out your high. When done you pulled her up by the front of her top and kissed her, lips molding together as you could taste yourself on her lips.

“You are so jealous”.

[eatmoresoupss]

i need to finish my current writing after i finish all my exams but i have another idea for a fic. i’m in a weird space where i want to connect what i research to my obsession w batman stuff. so like, bruce wayne gets primary progressive aphasia (a typically early onset form of dementia that affects only language skills at first). a LOT below the cut.

no one notices because batman’s already very uncommunicative and quiet typically, but he’s losing his grasp on his words, he can’t get them out. he knows them but can’t find them. and bruce already has anger issues so they increase. current canon so alfred’s dead, but maybe a little in the future and damian’s a med student on a neuro rotation and starts seeing this? everyone else is frustrated because they think bruce is falling into old old habits of yell/punch/grunt including damian at first but then he starts making Connections. damian’s secretly talking to his neuro lead and asking the radiologists what PPA looks like on an MRI. maybe bruce gets a little paranoid because he thinks damian’s sneaking around and stuck in his own frustrations thinks damian’s up to something. cue confrontation which ends with damian threatening his dad into getting into the fucking mri/see a neurologist or i won’t talk to you again.

then it’s like “oh” and bruce is distraught bc there’s no way around this. his brain is just degenerating, there’s not really a cure. he sees no point in therapy or treatment to help w the symptoms because it’s still going to eventually kill him. he tries to keep it a secret, tries to get damian to keep it a secret.

damian of course doesn’t want to, and is frustrated w bruce’s lack of perseverance. like father you’re fucking batman. but damain can’t get through to him so he has to bring in the big guns. maybe dick? dick or someone is able to smack sense into him, and bruce works really hard in speech therapy to manage the symptoms. maybe cass and bruce have a moment reflecting on language deprivation and loss.

a big part of PPA treatment is script training where patients work w speech language pathologists to make scripts about things important to them/things they want to be able to say. bruce makes a script for each of his kids. it’s bittersweet because the first time bruce can really communicate with his kids is when his ability to literally communicate is going to deteriorate. i wouldn’t want to end the fic w death, maybe with bruce saying all the scripts to his kids? which would be hard for everyone because another big part of aphasia treatment is to try to not interrupt, especially with scripts, so each kid has to actually sit quietly while bruce talks. it’s burns them inside but bruce’s words are for the first time rigorously planned to explain his emotions and love for his children instead of rigorously planned to trick/deceive like he does as batman/playboy bruce

i’d want all the wayne kids (also maybe steph) to have like a big moment but i’m not sure. maybe with tim he wants bruce to try out something experimental/magical to fix it and gets mad when bruce won’t. (i don’t know much abt tim but ik he’s mr. bruce is still alive ill work w ra’s and he tried to clone his friend). maybe tim tries to leave and bruce has to finally be like “i want you here. i just want you here” which touches on tim’s imposter syndrome stuff

maybe jason to address the idea that kids feel like they have to forgive their terminal parents? he’s still mad and doesn’t forgive bruce but he has either an internal/external force saying he should bc bruce’s dementia will eventually kill him. and in the end he loves bruce but doesn’t forgive him and they both have to accept that.

more w cassie maybe they have a passing of the cowl moment and it’s heartwarming but sad. bruce is giving up batman because of his loss of language and cass’s first steps towards finding her personhood were both the bats and language.

another damian bc i’m biased but like bruce reflecting on damian setting off this series of events. damian who bruce had visions of destroying gotham and the world and who he thought was a plot to destroy him. damian who is now the son that saved him, and set him on this journey. and bruce would also be forced to finally listen to damian, it’s much harder for him to interrupt, and realizing damian’s sweetness and humor and compassion and personality. parallel batman vs robin where now it’s bruce who asks damian to forgive him and damian’s the one who says i already have (because damian is different then jason, damian’s quicker to forgive and both are okay)

for dick i’m honestly not sure what i’d do, maybe dick knowing bruce so well after years and years and being the best at understanding him but also dick who’s relationship with bruce is so so complicated and now only one of them has the words to describe it.

[creepypastabilities]

How cruel it is.

Characters— Tim Wright, Alex Kralie, Brian Thomas, Jay Merrick (Marble Hornets)

CWs— None

Alex’s living room always sounded like a rehearsal. Papers rustled like sheet music, the clatter of keyboards came in polyrhythms, and somewhere in the kitchen a microwave beeped on a syncopated delay. The floor creaked in F-sharp whenever someone walked across it. The ceiling fan clicked on every third spin like a metronome that had learned how to lie.

Tim noticed things like that—he always had. Came with the territory. He couldn’t stop parsing rhythm, couldn’t stop cataloguing the music of mundane chaos, couldn’t stop hearing in everything the edge of a song he’d never quite finish writing.

Tonight, the tune was warm and loose and a little off-key: friends cramming for finals, half-asleep on Red Bull and familiarity, the dregs of a filming session still clinging to their clothes like fake blood. Jay and Alex were yelling about something in the other room, probably a corrupted file or a tragic lens cap situation. Tim didn’t care. He had his psych notes in front of him and Brian’s knee pressed against his on the couch. That was enough.

Brian was half-heartedly flipping through flashcards with the mechanical precision of someone who’d memorized more bones than any human being should and was now being haunted by them. He’d taken to muttering anatomical facts like curses.

“Do you know where the trapezius muscle inserts?” he said without looking up.

“Into your mom,” Tim answered, deadpan.

Brian snorted. “Thank you, Tim. Very educational.”

“I try,” Tim said, already scribbling tiny music notes in the margin of his study guide, bored out of his skull. “If I fail this psych elective, I’m blaming it on your flashcards leeching IQ points via osmosis.”

From the kitchen, Jay shouted, “Stop flirting and help me find the extension cord!”

Tim raised an eyebrow. “We are flagrantly ignoring you, actually.”

Brian didn’t even look up. “On purpose.”

They both went back to their respective texts, but there was something lazy and content in the silence between them, like a rest note in a lullaby—intentional, needed. Comfortable.

The others wandered in and out, test books in hand, phones buzzing, arguments half-formed and always fading. At some point, someone put on a playlist that shuffled through indie folk songs no one had the heart to skip. The air smelled like instant ramen and citrusy deodorant. There was a half-empty bag of trail mix on the coffee table that everyone kept pretending they hadn’t eaten out of. The sky outside bruised deeper into evening, rain just beginning to fog the windows.

And still—Tim stayed right there, shoulder to shoulder with Brian, letting the ordinary wrap around him like a worn-in chord progression.

He should have been working on his final composition. That stupid string quartet he kept rewriting because the second violin refused to behave. He should’ve been figuring out where the hell he was going to intern next year. He should’ve been worrying more, maybe.

Instead, he sat in the eye of it all. In the stillness before things changed.

And maybe that was the tragedy of it. That they were so normal. So utterly unaware of the thing barreling toward them. The monster wasn’t in the closet yet. It was still just a script, a camera, a weird idea Jay had once while sleep-deprived and obsessed with static.

Tim would remember how Alex had to bribe him with pizza to help run sound. How Jay kept claiming it was “all for the aesthetic.” How Brian got fake blood in his eye and laughed about it for an hour.

He would remember how it felt in this moment—safe, suspended, like a perfect chord hung in the air just long enough to make you ache when it vanished.

They would remember this night, later. The quiet camaraderie. The warmth. The sheer, blinding normalcy of it all.

And how cruel it was that it didn’t last.

[nqmonarch]

Valentines Day w/ HSR Characters!

Doing Calc homework and am very stressed, i can feel it everywhere in my body. the math is just not mathing mentally today (i looked at trigonometric identities today so maybe thats why)

Just writing out some messy ideas to take a break

Btw if u sent in a request and I haven't answered it yet I am working on it thank you for your uh question ask thingy i appreciate it, i like to know what people like to read bcus tbh i like to write anything altho jingyuan gets like +10 points cus he fluffy

Valentines Day With Some HSR Characters (Jing Yuan, Blade, Dan Heng, Stelle)

Jing Yuan

Jing Yuan is old school romantic. You cannot tell me he wouldn't arrive home with a big bouquet of roses (does HSR even have roses?) and 20 other gifts, including but not limiting to boxes of chocolate, teddy bears, and at least one gag gift. There's gotta be at least one, he'd make a dad joke out of it too.

Then he'd reserve one of the best restaurants on the Luofu and bring you there. He'd probably have booked a private room, thank goodness because no one wants to hear the general continuously compliment you until you're a puddle on the floor. What he is best at is attacks. But if he gets a compliment in return he'll freeze up for a moment before playfully returning it.

Jing Yuan doesn't put on his normal coy facade today, instead he just embraces how much he loves you because he's happy to still have you in his life.

Blade

Blade does not know it's Valentine's Day. It's not his fault, cut him some slack. Anyway Kafka probably reminds him that it's Valentine's Day about half way through the day to which he goes into a silent panic. You can't tell he's panicking he's just staring at the wall with a blank face, he actually looks like he wants to murder someone.

The two of you end up celebrating though! He... pulls something together, it really is something. Sure he smells like blood and the waiters are scared, and taking over this restaurant for a Valentine's Day dinner was definitely not in the script but... It could be worse. He's trying his best, really.

Afterwards you and Blade share lots of cuddles! Something he's pretty good at! Holding you just tight enough, and keeping you close to his side-- you just won't be able to get up if you want to get water or anything. He doesn't say too much but you can feel the love in each caress.

Dan Heng

Dan Heng doesn't really like going out, why would he when all he needs is right by his side? So the two of you stay on the express in the archives. What matters isn't where you are but the company. He'd probably get you a few trinkets from different places he's collected over the years, a necklace, a sick looking compass, whatever fits your vibe.

Dan Heng would probably also write you a love poem, and make you read it or awkwardly recite it in front of you. If you read it out loud though he will get unbelievably embarrassed and snatch it away from you. He'd give it back but he'd take some coaxing, be nice okay? His face is already red.

Then when the night draws to a close the two of you would curl up together on that sorry excuse of what he calls a bed. The majority of your body would be on Dan Heng's using him as a pillow, and his arms would be wrapped around your body keeping you still and warm.

Dan Heng's bed is not it man. Personally, I'd get back problems.

Stelle

"You are the one who deserves the golden trash the most," Truly romantic words from Stelle as she hands you a golden trashbag. That is just the first of the gifts she gives you tonight, and the one that's most valuable to her. It's the thought that counts right? You still have no idea what she's talking about when she mentions fighting Sampo as a trashcan...

The two of you spend a romantic night together, walking down the quiet streets of Belobog, and-- did Stelle just investigate a trashcan again? You should be used to this. On the bright side, every time she gets something cool she comes up to you with the biggest smile on her face, it's beyond adorable. Sometimes the trashcans even have good stuff, like a scarf Stelle lets you wear that thankfully doesn't smell like trash.

It's just good to spend time with the person you love. She spends her time catching you up on everything new from her adventures, and when it's too cold to stay out any longer the two of you head to the Astral Express. Where you shower together and then doze off on one of the Express' couch cushions while playing games. Your head rests against Stelle's reminding you, you're never alone.

Okay I need to get back to homework, fun break thanks guys. Imagine being alone on Valentines Day couldn't be me, I have my Calc Homework. It told me I was integral to it <3 legit peak partner material.

[doodlinge]

my writing tips, that i think people will find useful:

- write dialogue first and THEN make a scene around it.

i like to do this sometimes for multiple reasons. first, if you’re in a flow of good ideas, getting dialogue done will be a future GAME CHANGER. you don’t have to be stuck fussing over little word choices because you just do it when you have a good idea, and it works! fuss over it now, save time for descriptions later. second, the characters you’re writing usuuallly wont be able to read eachother’s minds. we people do everything by communication and talking! so, map out what you want your scene to look like through dialogue! i like to do mine as a screenplay or movie script, so that way i can ensure that the characters are speaking Like Real People (tm). and THEN I READ IT OUTLOUD >:)

- map out your chapters before you start to write. seriously, do it.

so, personally, my favorite part of fanfiction and writing is the planning stage. and i like doing it on paper, but we’ll get into that after this. first, you get the idea, the spark in your brain that could make an AMAZING story, comic, or au. that’s the general premise to work off of! write that down, if you need. next, do a VERY rough draft of what you want to happen—specifically, the 3 main points of your story: the beginning event, the middle event or climax, and the ending event, or your point A, B, and C. work off of and build up (or build down) from each of these core events of your story, planning the small events that lead up to The Big Guy (or B). these ideas or premises for each leading event can and probably will be VERY, VERY rough, but once you’ve got the rough idea of what will probably happen done, you can get to work on MORE PLANNING (sorry guys. learn to enjoy it)

- PLANNING PART TWO BABY WOOO (plan out your chapters. and if it doesnt work when you’re writing it, that’s okay!)

this is what you will do before you write your chapters, that works for me way better than just going in with no plan. personally, when i started to write the fic i’m currently writing, i mapped out all the rough details that i want to happen in the climax chapter of my story, because most people find the middle the hardest part. since i already had an rough idea of what would have happened before the climax with my previous planning stage, i already was able to connect how all of the buildup would lead into the climax of the story pretty easily. every action in your story will have a consequence, big or small, and that all will lead up to your protagonist bursting into tears or the main couple confessing their love or the final, epic battle between the protagonist and antagonist! if, when you’re writing, the rough idea you had just isn’t working out, you can either a: redo it completely if it’s a huge problem, or b (my favorite): work around it in the moment and improvise. i ended up making my fic’s climax way better just because of the extra scenes i added in while writing, but since i had my original plan to work off of, everything was a lot easier.

- make every scene with a motive to accomplish

most people know this one, but i thought it was good to add in. whether it’s to flesh out the world around your characters with fun and shenanigans or to give the audience a little more insight into a character who will be useful in the future, every scene and every chapter should have a purpose. when people act, they also like to give their characters motivations, and for a while, i wasn’t sure how that could connect. however, now i understand. let’s say a character is trying to motivate another one to be brave and face their fears, but character a is actually only interested in their own interests. character a’s motivation is to be self-serving—they’re not as concerned with helping character b, but instead, they want to help themself. this shows a lot about character a! when you have a purpose for every story beat and a motive for each character, it can help you flesh out the character much better.

- show don’t tell (and what i interpret that as)

okay, so for a while, i had NO idea what show don’t tell even meant. i LOVE writing about my character’s thoughts, their interests, their perspectives on what’s going on around them. character analysis is one of the best parts, for me! but there are ways to show what a character is thinking without the use of heavy description. for example, take this part from the fic i’m currently working on right now:

the character i’m writing for had not mentioned her mom the entire chapter, but when you go back and analyze her character throughout it, you can see major hints that part of why she who she is stems from her trauma with her mother. when she connects to an older adult female figure and feels understood, the issues she has are shown and not told, clear as day. by using dialogue and trusting your audience to connect the dots about your characters, you can make a better-written story! remember motivations; sometimes, characters don’t even know they have the motivations that they do, and the audience has to figure it out based on context clues. leave room for intrigue and mystery! think; if you were this character in this situation feeling the way they felt, what would you do? what would you say? why would you say it, and what would that reveal about you?

- write one story beat per day and WRITE ON PAPER

the word count, for me, doesn’t matter. if the quality of your writing is good, and the pacing gives audiences room to breathe, then that’s enough! quality over quantity, in my opinion. if you’re not up for writing, PLAN CHAPTERS! plan scenes, plan events! plan dialogue, make it fun! that is writing too. for me, when i have the planning done, i go with the One Story Beat Per Day Rule. if you get one small event done each time you write, you’ll be finishing The Big Event you wanted to accomplish in no time. and if you’re in the middle of a big story beat and you just need a break, i’d say to take one…. and later, come back with a notebook and a pen and think. paper has helped me write better because the flow of thought just keeps going when i’m focused, and i think it might work for a lot of people.

- remember, YOU CAN DO THIS! MAKE IT FUN!

writing and finishing stuff is really, really hard. but if you get one small thing done for the characters in your story, comic or au each day… you’ll eventually have an amazing, finished story. make it fun for yourself. listen to music, act out the scripts, use color theory, analyze your characters and don’t make it a chore! every small step contributes to getting to the top. make something you will love to write, and that you will love to read. make something for yourself, because in the end, if you enjoy it, the audiences will enjoy it.

[wonderinc-sonic]

psst hey :] im playing an uno reverse card (no pressure)

any stories or creative projects in the works 🎤 ?

So many I want to worrrk onnnn and I am not doing!

In the Sonic world specifically, I have recently started trying to write the script a sonic and friends friending simulator. So a dating simulator but instead of getting sex at the end you get to finish a puzzle with Tails and listen to Amy learn ukulele. I have absolutely no idea how to actually make one, as I can't code or really draw to the standard I would need. But I figured I'd cross that bridge once I scripted it.

I am half way through drawing Poms spaceship properly, then I will finally make the new Pom masterpost including the drawings I did of other seedrians and another Allium. I spent hours just drawing the hair of a generic allium guy who will likely never be seen except as a way to indicate Pom's specific details 😂

I am still wanting to finish designing the Personas and Shadows (the tv world kind not the hedgehog kind) for all the sonic cast. That I already hammered out the story for, and I have picked the names and pantheons but the designs are harrrrd. Drawing gods in a way that incorporates Sonic characters is dificult actually. I only ever finished Sonic and Tails and have like all the main cast chaotix and metal sonic incl to do. Oof! I'll get there. I really want to share them because I was chuffed with some of the assigned gods/ cultural figures!

Someday I will post the part 2s/ finish some of these fanfictions. When I stop thinking everything in my Ao3 library needs to be torched, ha! I can't look to hard at any of them without being full of sadness atm it's a bit of a pickle.

Oh and I have assigned every Sonic character a fire emblem class and I want to draw them in it. That should be fairly doable but I keep putting it off because I need to go back into engage and take model pictures for all of them and I am laaaazy. Might do it on the partners switch 2 as it could be in higher def, but idk if engage goes up to 4k.

And what I am currently currently working on - as in today - is some OC drawings based on sunflowers ocs as we have been talking about them. Won't share that as I don't assume she will want to share but they are very fun and exciting designs - especially the clothing and accessories are quite out of my comfort zone, I usually don't give my characters lots of interest in the outfits. Honestly I usually just give them big boots and an apron, shorts, or dungarees. So that has pushed me a bit but that's the point! I really want to do a good job, but it's always a bit nervewracking drawing other people's OCs in case you do a bad job lol.

There's a few more non-sonic things I am spinning in my head rn, but they'll probably never make it onto the notepad at this rate! Good grief!

[the-s1lly-corner]

platonic fluff alphabet with razzle & dazzle

chaos, attention and dude...

C A D w/ Razzle and Dazzle (Platonic fluff alphabet)

been writing for so long that my fingers are starting to get all weird and non cooperative i think this might be my sign to take a break for the night- already got so much written dwon prompts: chaos, dude..., attention notes: gn toon reader, centered around rnd, short and sweet, platonic post, written on computer, seperate parts for them unless they overlap enough to justify putting them together cws: none

RAZZLE

ATTENTION

given he and dazzle are connected to one another... hes learned to be able to hear someone out and check in to see if they need anything- usually its him checking in on dazzle to make sure what hes planning is okay with him... this habit has a tendency to bleed into how he treats others

but.. its not that hes a bad listener, its just sometimes he can be a little... centered in on his ideas... hes definitely more bold and more leaderly than dazzle, sometimes he focuses on trying to find a way to fix things than fully listening to you

not ill intent of course, he just... gets carried away...

CHAOS

its not so much that hes chaotic its just that sometimes he can be a little spontaneous and get carried away with his ideas- he has so many plans... usually theatre based... that sometimes he can get in over his head, dragging poor dazzle along with him

hes made even worse if you have a habit of encouraging whatever hes got planned for the afternoon. its never anything dangerous and he always always always reels it in when he notices you or dazzle arent having fun or youre showing discomfort

DAZZLE

ATTENTION

again, when you share a body with your brother you kind of have to learn how to pay attention to other people and listen to them... with dazzle he has the added bonus of being quieter- he tends to observe instead of interacting. he knows when youre feeling down before he or razzle asks

hes the better raw listener, hes not going to give you solutions unless you ask him to. he prioritizes giving you his shoulder to cry on

you can tell him anything and he wont judge you

CHAOS

he doesnt like doing much of anything thats high energy. if he had it his way the three of you would sit down and just read or watch some movies for the afternoon.. and sometimes you get to do that!

i like to think dazzle also struggles with staying awake... he gives off drowsy vibes... hes lower energy, and that definitely shows in his desire to not be on his feet doing something all the time

BOTH

DUDE

youve flubbed a line from a script so bad that BOTH.. it didnt even sound like you spoke english- let alone actually said a word a human... toon...?... should make. blot is an exception but they dont even think blot could sound like that

and thats putting it lightly. look. word vomit happens but getting possessed by a demon mid reading? now thats something else

they dont... outwardly dwell on it... but the falter and side eye speaks volumes

[eriyu]

my thoughts about zoraal ja

originally this was meant to be tags on a reblog of another post, but it ended up getting really long and being pretty negative and i don't want to inflict that on OP lmao.

one of the biggest criticisms i have of Dawntrail (maybe THE biggest) is that Zoraal Ja's character felt completely senseless. i genuinely like the points OP made in the post this was responding to, but i think the execution was SO lacking. it needed to be foreshadowed better, or it needed more exploration before we get to Heritage Found, or just... treated with more care. there's so much that's just lacking for a major antagonist, and one with deep personal ties to Wuk Lamat no less.

we don't get to see him fail the rite. we're told he attacked an elector after the fact, but there's no chance to show off his thoughts or emotions in that moment. that could easily have been the point at which we see the weight of expectations come crashing down on him.

we then don't get to see how he got from storming off to knocking out Ketenramm for his keystones... i guess that's sort of a separate issue, actually, but how he even found out about about the keystones feels like a very odd omission to me.

we don't discuss any of that??? Zoraal Ja goes MIA, and we mostly just forget about him until he returns with an interdimensional army. there's like a casual one-off comment about him not showing up for Wuk Lamat's ascension. during that intervening time would have been a great opportunity to dig into his motivations, or his childhood, to understand how the family he grew up with views him snapping like that.

he keeps repeating his aim of "uniting the world through war" and then the whole idea is just dropped hard. obviously plans change when you become king of another reflection, but there's no acknowledgement of it at all. not even a disdainful "so all that talk about unity was just a pretext for conquest after all."

then we just get people speculating about his motivations after his death. Gulool Ja, the Wandering Minstrel, they're just like "well maybe he felt this way..." but that's something we should have gotten earlier! show his motivations through his actions; don't just tell me what i'm supposed to get from the story after it's over.

the other post made a point about Gulool Ja Ja not being the father he needed, but it's not a point the narrative acknowledges: from beginning to end we just see Wuk Lamat's view of him as the best dad ever. i think it would have benefited not just Zoraal Ja's, but even Gulool Ja Ja himself's characterization (adding nuance!) for the script to have been more critical of his parenting?

overall, Wuk Lamat decries Zoraal Ja from the beginning as a warmonger, and Krile sees that he's full of darkness and malice... and after the attack on Tuliyollal, Wuk Lamat (whose entire thing is reasoning with people) declares that there's no reasoning with him; he just has to die. i guess the intention there was to emphasize just how serious this situation is, that not even Wuk Lamat is willing to reach out to him, but it really does not work for me. if you can reason with hundreds of years of bloodshed driven by entrenched cultural values, don't tell me you can't reason with your brother. that you won't even try. or at least show that you've tried and failed in the past! that would work too! but instead, we just write Zoraal Ja off as irredeemable and call it a day.

i just... see people calling Zoraal Ja's characterization "subtle" when it feels to me like it's not the writers being crafty so much as it's players patching the holes they left behind. i just find the writing frustrating. o|--<

[auraworkshop]

Hello Aura!! Aaaa, okay. I’m not here to write a success story yet! But to ask if I’m as close as I felt just a couple of moments ago.

So, I found about the void, the I AM, the golden state, aaaall of it a couple of months ago and I went through probably all the stages of someone trying to get the life of their dreams.

Overconsumption, doubt, and spurts of obsessive motivation that honestly took me nowhere. I have ADHD so the methods where I had to close my eyes, stay still and affirm never did a thing for me. I’d do them, six minutes at most would pass and I’d feel like a failure.

Procrastination got a hold of me and I’d feel more motivated to script and write what I wanted than actually go and try to get it because part of me knew I’d last very little. I tried yoga nidra, hypnosis and subliminals with very little progress and most likely because of my own laziness because in my mind if I was so powerful then why did I have to try so much. I have to mention I’ve used subliminals in the past and I’ve gotten little to no results so at night I’d cry and ask what is wrong with me. Since I know they work and the law is real.

Yesterday I came across a couple of posts with ADHD friendly methods where they say to let your mind wander and to let it do its thing. Plus others saying to mentally listen to music? But that’s not what I did.

I made a playlist of songs that wouldn’t bore me and I wouldn’t feel inclined to change the song. in total an hour or so. I knew if stayed still enough my body would be numb, I wouldn’t feel my fingers, my toes, etc.

If I concentrated in the songs instead of how tedious it is to stay still then it’d be easier for me.

I didn’t know if this was the floaty feeling everyone talks about until I decided to look into the black of my eyelids and try to see beyond that while affirming. my void is full of stars so I started to affirm they were slowly appearing and suddenly I did feel like my body was lifting up from my bed and numbness extended through my whole body including my face. Pins and needles like when your arm falls asleep, some of my muscles tensed and my heart started pounding for a second, I kept affirming but the song playing plus the excitement of feeling something overwhelmed me and I started to go back.

I paused the playlist and went to listen to epsilon waves and affirm but the idea of waiting for everything to happen again overwhelmed and frustrated me.

Was I close? How should I go forward? I sorta need advice directed at my situation because I can’t relate to most void posts.

Thank you for your time!!

I can relate to this so much. Trying various methods for so long with no result yet people were out there telling me that I must keep persisting. But I just didn't understand how to persist through the frustration of getting no result. It was only when I let go of this desire and I stopped caring about anything that anything and everything happened in the best way. I cannot even think of a single method that I followed to enter the void. I just stopped caring and let my mind wander.

You've already experienced a shift within your state of consciousness if you have reached a stage where you were listening to music and letting your body go numb. You need to let yourself flow without overthinking or overloading yourself. That is why it is important to start small because the feeling of going to the void state will come in fragments at first. That's just how the state of consciousness manifests itself. Let your mind wander and flow. Do not limit yourself with doubts of why it is taking so much time or why it's not working because that is exactly what it is, trust the process.

Everything you just experienced is a confirmation that you are exactly where you need to be. It is not a coincidence that you suddenly felt pins and needles throughout your whole body. This means exactly that your consciousness has started expanding, you've gone beyond your ordinary state.

You do not have to wait for it to happen again because you are already experiencing it. What you should be doing right now is continue with the process but you are going to be more patient. Be mindful and observe that which has changed in your perception, be aware of the subtle shifts ! 🤍

[incogmarley]

@anynomous268 here's the creek angst story you requested!! It's short but I think you'll like it, also I put it here so you didn't have to go to a google doc or anywhere to read it ^^

What if the Breakup Happened Differently?

(for anynomous268)

Another day of school, which means another day going to the principal's office, which means another lecture about being gay and consent…eugh. The thought of it makes my stomach twist into so many knots I'd be surprised it wasn't turned into a pretzel. I sluggishly tossed my backpack into my locker, grabbing my notebook and pencil before shutting it and walking to my first class of the day.

The asian girls were sitting at the staircase, talking in their own foreign languages and drawing me and Tweek again. It was horrendous. I mean, come on, I'm the straightest person in our entire class! Can't they get a fucking clue?! I'd never actually date anyone like Tweek, it's just a setup.

I scoffed and stepped on one of their artworks, smushing the paper beneath my boot discreetly before continuing my walk to class. Once I arrived and settled down in my seat, I felt a tap on my shoulder.

“Psst, Craig, why're you so pissy today?”

It was Clyde. He always noticed when my mood was anything other than my usual stoic self.

“I'm just tired…three hours of sleep doesn't exactly sound like the start of a great day, does it?” I mumbled back.

“Chill dude, just asking. Not trying to provoke anything..”

He moved back to his desk as Mr. Garrison walked into class, handing us our assignment and walking up to the chalkboard, writing down some equations. I didn't follow anything he said, instead clenching my fist to the sounds of that spaz attack’s twitches and tics. Even the loud talking of Cartman, bragging to his friends about the newest console his mom bought him, couldn't even compare to that annoying blonde losing it in his chair.

I only had to wait for the bell. Once that bell rang, me and Tweek could begin our fake breakup.

But I suddenly didn't feel like going with the script we planned.

It felt like an agonizing, torturous wait until the bell finally blasted through the school's intercom system, students piling out of classrooms to get to their lockers. Me and Tweek made our move to the entrance of the building, where the asian girls were, still chatting and drawing. It made me sick.

I sighed.

“Hey Tweek, wait up!”

The blonde turned his head, looking back at me with those paranoid yet almost gentle eyes, preparing himself for our staged breakup. To finally end this…this yaoi tirade once and for all.

The look in his eyes almost hurt me to go off our planned process, but I had so much to say.

“Listen…this, us? This isn't going to work.”

“What? Why no-”

“You and me?” I interrupted, “never should have happened. I can't even stand you! Those stupid tics of yours, the way you pull your hair, the fact you can't button your shirts up correctly…I can't take it!”

His skin seemed to turn pale at my rant, his mouth opening to try and say something, but the words never escaped his throat.

I continued, “I only got with you because I felt bad, because these people,” I pointed to the girls sitting on the staircase, shock all over their features, “kept making that stupid yaoi of us! That presentation Wendy made? The art? The way your parents loved the idea of us being gay? It made me feel bad. Truly, it did.

But I won't spend another second with you because I don't love you.”

Silence.

Silence was the only sound that filled the area for a long time. And, if I'm being honest, it hurts more than any words could. My chest tightened. Why was I feeling guilty? This is for the better. For both of us. I just told him how it is; we're not gay and do not love each other.

Then why, and why now of all times, did I want to hold him, to hold Tweek and tell him I didn't mean it? That I didn't want to see him cry?

“...what..?”

That was all he could say, before tears pricked at the corners of his eyes. I kept my stoic facade as the blonde ran out of the school, watching Wendy say his name once to no avail. She gave me a nasty look, and I flipped her the bird.

“I'm telling him how it is. What position are you in to choose my sexuality, huh?” I uttered.

That got everyone's agitated looks to disappear really fast. I put my hands in my hoodie pocket, walking away, but not without muttering a final,

“We would've never worked anyways.”

[cormorantcolors]

i just saw a post of yours from a couple months ago… could you please talk more about your ragtime younger brother hard of hearing headcanon please please

YES!!!! Sorry for the delay—I’ve been on the road for the last few days. I have seen that post gaining more traction, though, and am very excited for any and all fans of this loser freak to talk to me.

Book spoilers and rambling under cut:

I started thinking about this headcanon before I finished the book. Turns out, in his last chapter where he spends a year in Mexico, he actually does canonically go deaf! So I guess this is more “what if he started to lose his hearing before/during the story?”

(I should also probably mention that I’m writing a fic right now about Younger Brother in which he is hard of hearing, so most of this will be about how I’m writing him in that.)

It’s implied in the musical, and shown very explicitly in the book, that Younger Brother’s work with explosives is very hands-on. Going out to blow stuff up in the factory testing grounds is kind of his first response when things go wrong for him. So it would totally make sense if he lost some hearing because of that. Though also as I’m writing this I’m imagining a very cruel alternate possibility where Father saw a hard of hearing person and went “hey! you’d be less of a liability than these other people in my explosives plant!” and only later found YB to be a natural with it.

So, he’s hard of hearing. What does he do now? I’ve researched what would have been available for him, and, it turns out, the turn of the century was a great time for hearing aids! With the carbon microphone coming onto the market, there was an explosion of patents designed to help the deaf and hard of hearing. There were massive models you’d keep at home on a table, tiny ones you’d hook over the top of your ear, and, my personal favorite, the portable Acousticon.

Most of the machinery was in the belt pack, which wired out to a microphone on the lapel and a reciever earpiece.

The ads are also fun, though these came a bit later.

There’s also a lot of possible symbolism. I am disabled, and I know that disability as symbolic is really easy to do wrong, but I think it 100% can work. This is a great example. Younger Brother already has speaking/hearing symbolism in canon, so making his hearing something which he’s more aware of adds some fun depth to that.

Part of it is people’s voices, and why he can or can’t hear them. Mother speaks with almost desperately perfect diction, representing the easy-to-digest life in New Rochelle. It also shows that they have a positive relationship, that she can be politely and subtly accommodating. Father, on the other hand, is only really understandable because of the sheer volume of his voice. It’s not really a great solution, but I guarantee that if you told him you couldn’t understand him he’d just try and talk even louder.

Sarah, though, would probably speak in a whispery mumble from her voice being disused. At least at first. She opens up at the same time that she becomes friends with Younger Brother (another minor plot point from the book that I cherish deeply). And, besides, a lot of her actions speak more loudly than words.

He knows what’s happening in this moment and doesn’t need to hear Sarah to help her. Even if he hasn’t yet come to understand the oppression she faces, this is a moment of basic human empathy.

(I also like that clip because, instead of having Grandfather escort Sarah away like the script says, Younger Brother does at first. I know it’s probably just the audience, but I SWEAR I can hear him telling her “it’s okay”.)

I’m kind of rambling, but my point is that I really like the idea of using him to tell a literal story about learning to be comfortable with a disability and receiving accommodations for it, but which also parallels his canon arc of becoming more aware of the struggles people around him face.

And this is because of intersectionality! Younger Brother, even from the start of the story, feels like a bit of an outsider in New Rochelle. He can play the part, but he doesn’t seem to get the inherent respect other men in the community do. So he tries to find belonging with Coalhouse. He finds camaraderie, but not community. He, as a white person, can never really understand the lives of these Black people. His disability is invisible until he pulls out a symbol of his wealth and privilege to accommodate it. But he can still come to realize that the oppressed can be allies to one another.

I hope any of this made sense, I feel like I’m not articulating my points very well haha. But thank you for giving me a chance to talk about my favorite freak!

[jackabbot]

This has been on my mind (obviously with everything that's been happening) and I'm curious if I'm alone in it. Do you sometimes think maybe they missed the window with buddie? That it should have happened in season 4 and maybe now they're trying to tell us it's too late? They keep digging the hole deeper for eddie, with shannon being the "the love of his life" he'll never get over and I just wonder if it'll ever make sense again in a way that's not a "consolation" because that would be unfair

so much to unpack here and I doubt you'll like my answer but I'm behind on asks anyway so why the hell not.

so here's the thing.

I am so SO happy that they didn't do buddie in season 4. a rushed season affected by covid with literally one episode lead-up? if we lean into the idea that the shooting/will arc was supposed to be that, that is.

(but mind you that has never been said or confirmed, they floated a bi Buck storyline that got shut down, at which stage we don't even know, could possibly have been before even having a script written for it and way before they even came up with the shooting arc itself.)

but if we lean into that then I would've found it lackluster, personally. I know not everyone holds the same opinions and that's totally fine.

but having two characters who have previously only ever dated and talked about women* suddenly kiss and start dating, without coming out, self-realisation, any other preamble aside from "you almost died/I almost died" which isn't exactly a new predicament for either of these characters...

(*in Buck's case the bi crumbs were huge and I always felt that it could've been a pretty natural progression if they just let us know that actually, Buck was out this whole time it just didn't come up on screen lmao but in all seriousness from a general audience standpoint? having both of them suddenly be together? even though, we had a lot of subtext, I just doubt it would've worked as well as it could work now.)

I mean sure, it might've been just the start and then they could've done a bit more background work for it in season 5, but even if Fox didn't shut it down (again, just a simple bi Buck storyline, not even two main characters on the show suddenly being in a queer relationship or leading up to it at the very least) the risk of not getting renewed for season 5 would've been higher than ever, so for them to leave it hanging at the end of the season would've been unlikely imo.

just to reiterate before moving on: all of the above is based on speculation and what ifs.

and about buddie in this current climate, well... I talked about this extensively so just to keep it short; though I'm more than content if not, I still believe that buddie will become canon eventually.

and ngl I find it kinda frustrating how little faith some of you have in the writing of the show when this season proved more than anything that they are finally back on focusing on the characters and actually have ideas about where to take them instead of having every single one of them running around in circles.

sure, some of the storylines are more than bonkers, but this is 911 and that trend started in season 1, so if you don't like that, then maybe this isn't the show for you. because this season with all the insanity and heartbreak was and is so far, quintessential 911.

both Buck and Eddie are well established, complex characters and they deserve to be taken on a narrative journey separately and together if buddie should happen. yeah, clearly neither character is in a place right now, but what's the rush?

we have at least one more full season ahead of us, that could be more than enough time to take them there.

and I know that anytime I say this there are at least ten people in the notes saying that we had 6 years of lead-up, so it wouldn't be rushed, but I can't help but disagree.

Eddie still has no idea how to be in a relationship and actually be in it. yeah, sure, he and Buck have been playing house for years, but the fact that neither of them seem to recognise that is a big issue on its own. and Buck, for the first time since Abby, is in a good place romantically. like the ship or not, it's canon that he's more content and happy than ever and everyone around him thinks so too.

now, we don't know how long this relationship will last and if/when it'll end and why. but if Buck got the chance to discover this part of himself without trauma and significant pain, with the people around him being supportive and patient, then I don't want Eddie thrown in there with a halfhearted realisation-to-kiss-or-confession within one episode either.

I have trust that if buddie is about to happen, it'll be handled well and in no way, shape or form would it be a consolation prize — especially because Tim is no longer bending over for the bullying of the fans and just goes by his own rules and only gives as much as he wants to. as he should.

honestly, this whole "gimme and gimme now" attitude is so stupid. and frankly, the notion that a popular queer ship would actually have a real chance to go canon has just relatively recently became a thing and now so many people almost feel entitled to it, which then spoils their experience with what's actually going on as a whole.

if your enjoyment of the show is solely dependent on a ship becoming canon? then maybe watch something else, because you're just setting yourself up for heartache, one way or another.

[twipsai]

heyoo! just wanted to say love your rewrite comic of sonic forces!! tis very cool :)

if you don't mind me asking, is anything else going on in this rewrite which you could let us know about? or tis a secret?

ok first of all this ask, the two reblogs you added tags to, and the comment you left literally made me wanna write so much more for this rewrite you have no idea. genuinely such a large motivation burst TYSMMMM

SECOND OF ALL! this rewrite is kind of vague rn, i have an idea for a four or five chapter fic that takes place in the month gap between forces and idw, but (glances at my 2/3rds finished wip thats 32k words rotting in my gdocs) well. im trying to finish something else for the time being, so i have no idea when thats gonna happen

in terms of actually rewriting forces itself, i have quite a few ideas for it but not a lot of concrete things written down -- my main problem with the game, especially after fully playing it (5 hours of my life fucking WASTED), is that it is simultaneously such a serious story, but doesnt take itself seriously in the slightest -- you have, on one hand, Sonic being tortured for six months in a tiny prison cell, but on the other, you have Sonic walking out of there completely fine and it's never acknowledged again. you have, on one hand, two teenagers leading a resistance in a war, but on the other, you have those two teenagers acting bland and uninteresting the entire time. theres so much that could have been done with this story, but instead of grabbing hold of that spark, the writers, instead, decided to write something bland, boring, and worst of all, disingenuous. this is worse than writing something thats bad, in my opinion.

my rewrite takes a lot of notes from my buddy Chip's rewrite called Reinforced (which theyve only really posted about on artfight here), so much so that sometimes i talk about them interchangeably lol, one of the biggest changes in the story is that Tails and Rouge work together. also Infinite is a much bigger threat, specifically to Sonic, and his death is much more intense

this might sound like a deranged thing to say but ive been tossing around in my head what i want Sonic to go through during his time in the death egg, whether i want it to be a white room torture sort of deal, or if i wanna torment him with visions (illusions), so ive sorta been trying to figure out in exactly what way hes fucked up LMAO

additionally, like most other people, im cutting the avatar and Classic Sonic from the script -- theres something to be said about Sonic going through something that fundamentally changes both him and the world, and fighting that threat along side his younger self, but the source material isnt interested in exploring that, so im not either (i actually am, but not in this rewrite,,,, not in this rewrite.) and im cutting the avatar from this in favor of bringing Tails back into the story beyond him being scared and smart for like 10 minutes of the total runtime and then saying "true dat" at the end. i mean cmon!! he watched his big brother presumably die right in front of him! the unbreakable bond, well, broke! thats fucking important! Frontiers and IDW explored this, and i want to as well. its very interesting to me. and he should have been playable. i will die on this hill

also, Sonic doesnt get rescued at the start of the story, it happens wayyy later into the story (right before the climax probably). i hated how they found him practically two seconds after they lost him

a lot of this may be influenced by Sonic Forces Overclocked, which i have plans to play (once i have. free time), since ive heard a lot of good things about it and am very interested in the story it has to tell.

"wheres shadow" idk :( probably brooding in a cave i havent thought that far ahead

[honeyconez]

I’m back… and I’m full of hatred and anger!!!! (I am stuck on the water levels in sonic mania)

I bringeth …. “Art” from a week ago I think I can’t rememebr I’ve already changed how I draw metal

sum stuffs unde heres about the blog itd super long

I might make a new blog guys the teem fort 2 brainrot has been completely obliterated 😔 I don’t even like jumped academer anymore… apologies friends but this was long overdue the brainrot was on life support

I LOVED it and honestly thought that itd last for way longer than it did since it survived for a year

it’s been my longest one of my interests have ever lasted but I think I was just so burnt out from the same characters that when I found something else I was interested in I was immediately invested in it

I’d LOVE to be multifandom but for some reason I can’t love 2 fandoms equally

tf2s still got a special place in my heart and I’m sure I’ll draw the goobers every now and then

I’m not abandoning this blog (I think) but I’m also scared that some people from my school might identify me from this blog because some stuff I’ve shared could identify me if someone knew me and went to my same school

I don’t think I’ll be deactivating the blog but I will probably end up deleting a lot of my text posts. If I do end up deleting my blog I will be back

If I end up making a new blog I won’t post it on here but I will follow some moots I’ve interacted with and I’ll have this blog in the bio

the tf 2 brainrot might be back in a few years because my interests have been cycling back to old ones but I fear the sth brainrot will last awhile since theres so much more content and characters

and some stuff about my life down here kinda sorta venting be warned!!

So I’m not sure this was FANTASTIC for my mental health but for this project in school I wrote about how I REALLY felt throughout my school years and no one really knows how I actually feel not even the cone twin

Kinda cone lore rn?? A lot of people consider me really weird and some people are scared of me(which I didn’t find out until recently) and I just kinda realized that was the whole point and that I was trying to push people away because of some stuff that happened when I was little (tank you therapist… u da best!) so I get a chance to pour my heart out on a screen and tell everyone how I really felt and who I really am and it is LIBERATING!!!! I feel free as a bird!!!! So that’s one good thing but I also realized how much of a ASSHOLE I was and I’ve dug up a ton of memories that had NO RIGHT to be dug up and should’ve stayed in their dank little caves

So I’ve been tweaking out for a week because now I’m remembering all this shit I did and BOY does that suck :sillyemojiwiththumbsup: and not only that but I’ve completely forgot about that big project! And I have 2 weeks to make a 15 minute animation.(I have 45 seconds done and no interest in wwi anymore… tf2 brainrot would’ve been nice now! Soldiers the onlY reason I did wwi and that’s gone so erm) no idea how I’ll get enough motivation to do that in 2 weeks and write my script that will be 45 minutes long! Yup. I really wish I did it about animation because instead of actually doing anything I’ve been thinking about how I could’ve taught everyone how to animate AND i wouldnt have to make this awful game of uno!

I’m not stressed or anything but I think I should be more concerned about my lack of fucks but uh I’m not able to give a fuck about that either

ok byebye time to wallow in misery because fletway super sonc didnt get to live witj his lesbin moms😢

[silverolivia-upsidedown]

Hello! Just me back and being a huge nerd about the Eliksni So, while we don't have an actual official conlang for them we do have a VIBE for how their language might be written out by the design team. And it's been under my nose this whole time!!! Join me for this journey and exploration <3

First off let's take a look at what I've been seeing most places.. like, 99% of all the language we see is basically given to us like this...

(Yes, I might have obsessively taken a screenshot every time I see the in-game language DONTJUDGEMEOKAYTHISISASAFEPLACEFORSPECIALINTERESTS >.< But what we see here are probably something like a single word, or a word/symbol that has a meaning like the way that the Chinese alphabet has meanings for each letter. It could also be a tagger's name, but then that brings up all sorts of wonderful questions like WHO IS TAGGING THIS SHIT xD which is really just a nothing burger as much as it's a wonderful idea. It could also very much be a sort of... Like... you know how when you get a rubbermaid bin and you write like... "Christmas ornaments" on it, but then end up get rid of what's in it and just write the new contents next to the old contents? I feel like that might be what a lot of these are. Like the OFFICIAL, clean looking one says like, "Ether Tanks: Medium". And then the new spray paint next to it says something like, "Short Term Produce" or whatever. Or maybe it's like, the shortform name of the crew that this belongs too for shipping and redistribution, ala a quarter master trying to keep track of everything. 🤷

But I'm digressing. Here are those formal script and then the messy next to it.

Anyway. So the other way we see the language in very small snippets is like below, where we see there is a strong (but with notable variance) inclination towards a horizontal writing style instead of vertical. We can also see the general vibe or, um.... flow of the text and individual letters and how they deferrer when they are basically typed out and printed nicely instead of freehanded on the side of a wall.

Okay.

We have our baseline. Let's get into the weeds.

First of all we should not take into consideration a few of these for the rule of vertical vs horizontal because many of these are actually just turned on their side. And in general (and really what this whole post is about) right now I am focusing on the way the design team has decided the language should feel when it's written out. So very briefly, I am going to go over some not in-game official bungie material with Eliksni script on it, since I feel like this I have too, even though I kinda feel like, unless they specifically say "this is how it looks", the in-game art design is always going to be more... official? I don't know. We press forward!

There's more, but I think you get the idea. And yes, I included the Cayde comic because I feel like there's some interesting things in there.

Anyway, moving right along. I want to bring attention to two thing in particular. The first is that I don't think we should dismiss certain small lines in the spray paint versions as drips. I think they are part of the form.

I think they have meaning like in Japanese or other languages where each character has a story or a meaning and changes the way a word is said and also how that word might be used or changed when interacting with other letters/symbols.

The second thing is that there is a lot of repeating/flipping of the decals and in-game assets. But even with that, that I think there is a definite flow with the way the letters are allowed to smoosh into one another, but on a design level, while I think there are some basic rules, I feel very strongly those rules went into making the original script/decals/assets that the devs now use, and that when they go to write something like this...

they are literally just copy/pasting or going "qwertyuiop[]\';lkjhgfdsa" on the keyboard. Now, on to the exceptions of which there are three (as far as I've seen). For this next part I humbly request that you forgive my waxing poetically and also indulge my theories, I promise they are actually based in reality xD The first, and most exciting, and the reason I even posted this, is that I finally noticed the flags on the skiffs! And they.... have a FONT... And actual in-game font... and I think it was a happy accident the devs rolled into some fun lore.

This...

is house of dusk... but the FONT that whateverthissays is in is ABOSLUTELY in the style of House of Winter.

Now, I have two thoughts about this. The first is the happy accident I was talking about before which is that the original skiffs were all done in the design for House of Devils... and House of Winter in D1. But then they needed House of Dusk, who are mostly all the house of winter peeps who scattered after The Final Attempt (battle of six fronts). So they just recolored the House of Winter stuff and BOOM, they can keep the old assets and just recolor them.

The second idea, and one that is a DEEP LORE thought, that I don't think bungie actually cares enough about their lore to connect the dots for: is that as mentioned in a lore tab where Variks and I believe Fikrul are talking, there is a mention of a second "High Speech". And to me, it would make a LOT of sense for there to be a written version of that High Speech that would be a bit more flowery and have different characters. I think it would also make a lot of sense for that more special text be what things like House symbols are made out of, and also what one might put on their flags... like on that skiff.

The second is this little guy... he's very new and I only saw it recently, and I'm nearly 99.99% sure it's eliksni, only because there is a break in the "C" in the center and that's VERY eliksni.

That and it's on a crashed ketch that was in a mission we played within the last year lol

But this is.... totally different from everything else we've seen, and I honestly am totally stumped. It might actually be a representation of the influence that humanity has on the Eliksni. And that many eliksni (especially those in house of dusk) feel disconnected from their heritage, and more connected to the ruminants of humanity's golden age, and earth in general.

The other interesting little thing is something I found on a ketch that I managed to get on top of before it despawned. (at least that's what the file name makes me think I was trying to convey >.< past me is a dumbass and says "Oh, I'll know what this means later" spoilers, I never ever know lol)

Again, this is... just completely different from what we've seen before. Even the letters are different. The way they are grouped is new. I just wish I had more of stuff like this.

But theory crafting aside, we can really get an impression for how one could replicate or imitate the flow of the language. That's it! Thank you for coming on this little meandering exploration of the in-game text ^^..^^