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Impulse Control
Author's note: I know who you are anon, and this one is for you <3 that's all I've got to say LOL also if you like kpop, check out my kpop page @ta3mint bc I am trying to revive it after such a long break lol also fun fact...I think this is one of if not the longest fic I have ever written. So yeah...send in your LADS requests. It's good to be back, ya filthy animals.
Contains: Zayne x MC/YN, consent king Zayne, jealous/down bad Zayne, explicit sexual scenes with unprotected P in V (use protection irl pls), fingering (fem receiving), MC briefly on top, relatively vanilla missionary (but it’s a classic okay?) and somewhat vague hints at Zayne and MC lore if you squint
Warnings: Minors for the love of God, pls do not interact!! Sexually explicit content, adult themes, cursing, etc. and as always...no proofreading <3
Word Count: 7,872
It was no surprise that Akso Hospital was winning an award for their exemplary service to Linkon City. What was a bit of a surprise though, was Zayne taking the initiative to ask you to come to the banquet with him. He could be so hard to read sometimes, and though of course he could be thoughtful, this seemed to be a direct request, even for him.
You couldn't help but reread the texts from earlier, your heart and your mind racing in tandem.
Zayne☃️: How has your day been so far? Have you been staying hydrated? You often forget to drink enough water when you are busy.
Me: Dr. Zayne, do you text all your patients and remind them of their hydration levels?
Zayne☃️: Only the most forgetful ones.
Me: You mean there's more than one? And here I thought I was special :(
Zayne☃️: Don't fret. You are, in fact, the only patient who I perform this service for.
Me: Well in that case...I should probably go drink some water in between training sessions.
Zayne☃️: Before you go, I wanted to ask you something.
Me: Oh? I am listening (and hydrating as we speak)
Zayne☃️: The hospital is receiving a service award tonight. There will be a banquet. I was hoping you might want to come with me. After all, you have served Linkon as much as I or any of the other medical staff has. It is only fair that you are my plus one. If you want to be, of course.
Me: I would love to, Dr. Zayne. One question though...
Zayne☃️: Yes?
Me : Will there be dessert? 🧁
You had hoped the little joke about dessert would take your mind off of...everything. But it hadn't worked. You were still sitting in your desk chair, knees pulled tightly against your chest.
What did this invitation mean? Did Zayne...no. No way. There was no way he was inviting you because he saw you as something other than a friend and a patient. He said it himself, that it was only fair to invite you due to your service as a hunter.
How about you, though? What did you see Zayne as? You definitely would like to be more than friends. You couldn't help but fall for him after seeing him so often nowadays. He was everything you could have ever dreamed of in a man. But did he know about your feelings? Did he notice the amount of time you spent watching him work or study instead of focusing on your own work or training material in front of you? Did he notice you watching him even more closely during your workout sessions?
You swallowed the lump forming in your throat.
Anyway. It was time to get ready now, and the part you dreaded most was here... Choosing what to wear.
You didn't really have many formal outfits to choose from, and you felt like the ones you did have were worn too many times. Right about now, you were wishing that Zayne had asked you earlier than the day of so you could've had more time to prepare. But honestly, would it have made a difference? Procrastinating was one of your favorite sports.
Eventually, you settled on your favorite dress.
Putting it on turned into somewhat of a chore, though. It didn't fit quite the same way as you remembered... but it had been a while since you last wore it.
Thankfully, it went on without any damage to the dress, but you couldn't help but pull at the fabric at the bottom of the dress. It was also a bit shorter than you remembered, it seemed.
And was this slit in the side always there?
Never mind that, it would have to do. There was no more time, and you still had to do your hair and makeup, as well as put on accessories to go with the dress. To be honest, you were a bit out of your comfort zone at the moment.
"Tonight better go well," you muttered to yourself.
~
The sudden noise from your phone caused you to stop what you were doing with your hair.
Grabbing it with a gloved hand, you immediately saw the text from Zayne letting you know he was waiting outside to pick you up.
You placed the last bobby pin in your hair and gently pushed your earrings in, then grabbed your phone and clutch before heading out the door.
As you passed by the mirror on your wall, you checked your makeup one last time, too.
Was it too much? It was a formal event, so you assumed you were to look the part. Ultimately you decided you looked fine, and part of you wished that Zayne would like it, too.
Oh, who were you kidding. You really hoped that Zayne would like it.
The sounds of your heels meeting the hard floor echoed throughout your apartment building until you got into the elevator. Once you were inside, you sent Zayne a quick text letting him know you were on the way.
Ding!
The elevator alerted you to let you know that it had arrived on the first floor. Quickly, you stepped out and into the parking lot, not wanting to be the cause of potentially being late.
After a quick scan of the nearby parking spaces, you saw his car a short distance away. You made your way over, cursing yourself for choosing these particular heels that were already causing foot pain.
As he saw you approach, he stepped out of his car and walked around to the passenger side, placing his hand on the door handle. He was wearing a traditional suit, accompanied by his glasses that he seemed to save for special occasions or work.
"Wowww, Dr. Zayne. No lab coat today? And doesn't your car have a button to open the doors, even when you're inside?"
"Would it still count as chivalry if I were to only press a button?"
He gave a small smile and pulled the door handle, stepping aside to let you in the car.
You smiled back, gently sitting down so as not to disturb your hair and dress.
As you moved past him, Zayne took a deep breath through his nose, closing his eyes briefly before forcing them back open.
"You okay, Zayne? Am I wearing too much perfume? Or even worse...do I stink?"
Zayne shook his head and smiled once more.
"No and no, of course not. I like what you are wearing."
You nodded, satisfied with his prompt answer which caused your cheeks to burn.
Zayne closed your door and walked back around to his. He sat down and buckled himself in, motioning for you to do the same.
"The banquet is in an event hall not far from here. There will be some speeches that may bore you, by the way. This is your last chance to back out."
It was your turn to shake your head.
"Not a chance. It took me so long to get ready, I have to see this through. Besides, I was glad you thought to invite me."
Zayne turned the steering wheel to back out of his parking space, carefully eyeing his backup camera.
"Well, I am glad you accepted my invitation."
~
Zayne was telling the truth about it not being far. You made it there in only a few minutes. Frustratingly though, it had started to drizzle.
"Aw man, my hair and makeup will be ruined. Then everyone will think you brought a drowned rat as your plus one."
Zayne chuckled, pressing the button to turn his car off.
"Nonsense. Chivalry is still alive and well in Linkon."
Once again, he came around to the passenger side of the car rather than pressing the button to let you out. Seemingly out of nowhere, he had produced a large umbrella that was big enough to cover both of you, and especially big enough to protect your hair and makeup.
"Zayne, you are really outdoing yourself already. How could I ever repay you?"
"Don't worry, you already are."
Zayne walked slowly with you, making sure to keep the umbrella placed perfectly over your heads. Thanks to him, you both made it to the doorway of the event hall dry and in one piece.
There were lots of people, which was to be expected. Nevertheless, you instinctively clung to Zayne's arm, wrapping a hand around it tightly.
He was caught off guard, but only for a moment, before placing his large hand over the top of the silky fabric of your glove.
"You hunt Wanderers for a living and you're scared of a little crowd?"
You glared at him playfully, the amusement obvious in his usually soft voice.
"Hush, you meanie."
If you thought there were a lot of people in the foyer, it was nothing compared to the amount of people in the actual hall.
Numerous circular tables littered the hall as far as the eye could see. Pretty much all of the seats were already full, causing you to wonder where the two of you could possibly sit down. In the center against the back wall was the stage, presumably where the speeches Zayne mentioned were going to take place. Flower displays were plentiful, several of the biggest ones taking up the front of the stage, and the smaller ones sitting in between tables. Tiny vases with smaller versions of the displays sat on top of the tables, surrounded by expensive looking crystal dinnerware. It was definitely not something you see every day.
"Where would you like to sit?" Zayne asked.
You scanned the nearest tables, squeezing Zayne's arm when you saw an empty one.
"Let's sit there," you said quietly, pointing with your index finger so he could see what you were talking about.
Zayne nodded once he saw your choice, leading the way through the people that were still standing around.
There were five seats at the table in total, and by the time you got there, one of them was already filled by a young man that hadn't been there before. Oh well, you couldn't have expected to sit at a table with only Zayne at an event like this. But a girl could dream.
After you and Zayne sat down, the young man turned his attention to you. Nothing in particular stood out about him, and you couldn't say you recognized him from anywhere.
"Hello, it's nice to meet you," he said in a voice that didn't quite match his plain-looking features.
"Hi! It's nice to meet you, too," you replied politely.
"And you as well," the man added as he looked towards Zayne.
Zayne nodded, but didn't say anything. It seemed his mind was elsewhere at the moment.
"I'm (Y/N), and this is Dr. Zayne from Akso Hospital."
The man gasped quietly and looked back over to Zayne.
"Ohhh, I've heard a lot about you. You're definitely a big part of the reason the hospital is receiving the award tonight, I'm sure!"
The man seemed genuine in his comment, as far as you could tell.
"I am only doing my job. I have no desire for awards or accolades. Besides, there are many competent doctors and nurses that work at Akso. That is the reason for our award." Zayne said harshly.
You were a bit taken aback by Zayne's choice of words, but you chalked it up to potential nerves about tonight. The man didn't seem too fazed, which relieved you.
"Oh, where are my manners? My name is Richard."
You nodded and smiled at him, just before a sharp noise echoed throughout the event hall. Your eyes searched the surrounding area, and you realized the banquet must be underway. There was a very important looking man near the edge of the stage, clinking a metal spoon against his wine glass.
"As you all know, we are here tonight to recognize the achievements and outstanding service of Akso Hospital...but we are also here to eat!"
This earned a few laughs from the crowd of people, and even one from you. You couldn't deny you were starting to get pretty hungry.
You looked at Zayne and noticed that he did not laugh, nor did he even smile. Instead, he seemed to be set in stone, staring straight ahead at the man speaking by the stage. It almost seemed as if he was looking through him, like his mind was still somewhere else entirely.
"It isn't like Zayne to be nervous...but what else could it be? Does he regret bringing me here? I probably look so silly, like a little girl all dressed up for her secret crush", you thought to yourself.
Ignoring the sudden pain in your chest, you turned your focus back to the man up front.
"...once again, I thank you all for coming. But for now, let us eat and we'll get to the rest of the award ceremony later!"
The hall gradually began to get louder as people began to talk amongst themselves again. This seemed like a good opportunity to get Zayne to talk and settle the nerves that were boiling under the surface of your skin.
"Zayne, aren't you starving? We didn't eat before we came!"
"Mmm," Zayne hummed quietly in agreement.
"Oh! I didn't realize you two came together. Are you...?
Richard didn't finish his implied question and your ears began to burn instantly.
"Oh, no no! Nothing like that," you quickly replied, waving your hands back and forth in front of you.
You didn't dare glance at Zayne, so you weren't sure of his reaction to the conversation. But thankfully you didn't have to worry for long, since Richard started talking again.
"I see! Well, (Y/N), what do you do for a living?"
Grateful for the change in topic, you jumped at the chance.
"Well, I'm a Hunter!"
"She's very good at what she does. I have seen her at work. We often assist each other," Zayne said suddenly from the side.
Both you and Richard glanced at each other before looking at Zayne, who was as stoic as ever, but this time looking directly at you.
Your ears, still not recovered from a few moments ago, grew uncomfortably hot.
"I think the line for food has gotten a bit shorter," Richard pointed out. "Should we go ahead and head over?"
"Yes, I-."
Zayne cut you off, leaning forward to rest his elbows on the table.
"Why don't you save us a spot, Richard? I need to ask (Y/N) something about a confidential matter at work. It cannot wait."
Richard stood, giving a small nod and a quick smile in your direction before walking towards the food serving line.
Once he was out of earshot, you hastily gathered yourself before facing Zayne.
"Is something wrong? You've been acting strangely since we sat down."
Zayne pushed up his glasses, keeping his eye on Richard's back as he stood at the end of the line on the other side of the hall.
"There is something odd about him. We should find somewhere else to sit for the night."
You scoffed, unsure of what he could be talking about.
"I'm not sure I understand, Zayne. He seems perfectly normal and nice to me."
He shook his head.
"Don't you trust me?"
"Well, of course I do, but..." you trailed off before continuing, "It just seems like something has gotten into you. Am I not allowed to make friends?"
"Of course you are. You can have as many friends as you like. Just not him. There is something wrong."
For some reason, Zayne's words frustrated you.
"I don't need permission, Zayne. Now if you'll excuse me, I am going to get some food because I am starving. If you'd care to join me, I'll be over there."
Without waiting for a response, you left the table and walked with determination over to Richard, where he was still waiting in line. You truly had no idea what had gotten into your usually very kind and understanding friend, Zayne. You had never seen him act this way, so far as you could remember. Even so, as you got farther away from him, your resolve faltered. Had you been too harsh? No. Zayne was being...weird. You wanted to get to the bottom of it before the night was up.
"Hey!" Richard smiled and waved you over.
You gladly stepped beside him where he had saved you a spot.
"Thanks for holding a place for me, Richard. I'm sorry it took so long for me to get over here."
"It's no problem! I know you and Dr. Zayne must have a lot of secret work you need to do for Linkon. Speaking of, is he coming? There's more than enough room for him!"
You sighed, shaking your head.
"I'm not sure. He seems a bit...stressed at the moment. I may just bring him something to eat to help out a little bit."
Richard nodded.
"That's very kind of you. Dr. Zayne is very lucky to have a friend like you."
"Yeah," you couldn't help but sigh as the staff behind the table handed you a serving of the first dish. "A friend."
As you progressed down the line, Richard told you more about himself. You returned the favor, sparing some of the more private details of your life. But it truly was nice talking with him. He was very easy to get along with, and that further fueled your confusion towards Zayne's behavior.
After the two of you finished getting your food, you made your way back over to the table. As you got closer, you realized Zayne was no longer in his chair.
"Where did Zayne go?"
Richard looked around, nearly spinning in a circle.
"I'm not sure. He must have gotten tied up in an important conversation somewhere."
Just then you felt a buzz in your clutch, your phone alerting you to a text.
You set your plate down and reached into your clutch, grabbing your phone easily thanks to the small size of the bag.
On your phone's screen was a brief text from Zayne, asking you to meet him outside.
"Is everything okay?" Richard asked.
You snapped your attention away from your phone and smiled nervously at Richard.
"Of course! I just need to use the restroom before we start eating. Will you finish telling me your story that you mentioned in line when I get back?"
Richard nodded enthusiastically.
"I would love to!"
"Great, I'll be right back, I promise."
~
The air outside had gotten significantly cooler after the sun finished setting. Thankfully, it wasn't raining anymore. But you didn't see Zayne anywhere. He wasn't in the foyer and not immediately outside of the building. Almost in a panic, you turned around to search the entire parking lot. And that's when you caught a glimpse of a nearby streetlight reflecting off of something other than a car a few feet away.
It was Zayne's glasses, and he was leaned up against the side of his car with his arms crossed, looking off to the side.
"Zayne?"
Your voice caught his attention, and he used his weight to push himself off his car and move closer to you.
"There you are. I need you to come with me, we have to go."
As you got closer to him, you noticed he had an unfamiliar look in his eyes. It was one you had never seen in them before, and it instinctively made you nervous.
"Zayne, what's going on? You've been so weird tonight and now you're kind of scaring me."
Zayne sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose.
"Forgive me, I..."
You remained silent, waiting for him to finish, the rapid beating of your heart pounding in your eardrums.
"I seem to be acting on my impulses tonight. Something I thought I had been teaching myself not to do."
His actions were still not understandable to you, and he instantly read the confusion on your face.
"It's...it's his fault," Zayne murmured. "It's this dress."
Suddenly, he bent down to your level and ran his finger up the sleek fabric of your dress resting against your thigh. It caused you to tense up and shiver, whether from his actions or the night air, you weren't quite sure.
What you were sure of though, was how badly you wanted him to touch you again.
"Forgive me," he repeated. "I can call you a taxi to take home. I shouldn't have done that."
"Zayne," you said abruptly, causing him to stop from getting his phone out.
"Yes?"
"Kiss me."
"What?"
"Kiss me," you repeated, this time a little less confident.
Zayne didn't say anything else before closing the rest of the gap between you in one step. Both of his large hands found space on each side of your face, and they rested there for a moment before he looked at you in the eyes, his own moving back and forth to discern the expression on your face.
"(Y/N)..." he began hesitantly.
"What?"
"If tonight has shown me anything, it's that I have not been controlling my impulses as well as I have previously. If I do this...I fear that I won't be able to stop myself."
You tried to take a deep breath, but it got caught in your throat.
"Do you want to kiss me, Zayne?"
"Yes," he breathed, pressing his forehead against yours and closing his frenzied eyes. "I cannot tell you what it has been like, seeing you almost every day now and falling in love with you all over, again and again. I have waited as patiently as I could have."
Shakily, you reached a hand up and loosely gripped one of Zayne's hands still on your cheek.
"Again? You've fallen in love with me before?"
Zayne hummed quietly, almost imperceptibly shaking his head against yours.
"Never mind that. Just know that I need you...I always have."
"Zayne, I..."
Something about what he was saying felt eerily familiar, and it felt like an invisible force was pulling you somehow even more closer to him in that moment.
"Please," Zayne whispered. "Tell me what you want."
"I...I want..."
Zayne rubbed his nose against yours, inching closer and closer to your parted lips. His labored breaths mixed with your shallow ones, causing the cool night air to visibly swirl around you. Your heart continued to pound, so loud and hard you were sure Zayne could hear it.
"I need to hear you say it...one more time."
Lighter than a feather, his lips brushed against yours as he spoke to you. And finally, finally, you were able to get your words out.
"I want you to kiss me...and I don't want you to stop."
Zayne tightened his grip on your face, his hands slipping slightly due to the thin layer of sweat that was between your skin and his. And then he pressed his lips firmly against yours.
You would be lying if you said you hadn't thought about what it would be like to kiss Zayne before. You had always assumed it would be magical, meaningful, and passionate.
And it turns out, you were right.
His lips tasted slightly sweet as he moved them against yours in perfect harmony. The sounds of your breathing echoed around you, muffled slightly by the sheer lack of distance between his face and yours. Your hands moved to hold onto his shoulders, and his moved from your cheeks to your waist, leaving a feeling of bitter cold behind. Somehow, in the contrasting heat of it all, he turned you around so you were now pressed between him and his car.
As soon as he did this, the kisses became more sloppy, more intense. You could feel his energy shift and it nearly caused your knees to buckle as he moaned quietly into your mouth. It occurred to you that your nails might be digging into his shoulders, but he didn't seem to notice.
Suddenly unable to breathe, you were the first to pull away. Zayne froze, looking down at you with a scared look in his eyes now.
"Are you okay? I'm sorry, I should have restrained myself properly."
"Zayne...again. Please, I only needed to catch my breath. You aren't the only one who has been waiting for this, you know."
This time, you didn't even wait for him to initiate the kiss. You moved in first, catching him slightly off guard. But he recovered quickly, matching your intensity in a flash.
The tip of his tongue brushed against your bottom lip, causing you to shiver for what felt like the hundredth time tonight. You weren't sure if he did it on purpose or if just happened, but you decided to open your lips slightly, providing an opening for him to push into deeper than before.
Zayne quickly obliged, a significant portion of his tongue meeting yours. This time it was your turn to moan, though yours was a little less controlled, and a little more loud.
He audibly groaned, the gnashing of your lips, tongue, and teeth causing a drop of saliva to run down your chin. You were pressed up against his car so tightly that it cause your shoulder blades to burn where they met the hard exterior of it. Zayne had a vice grip on your hips, and his hands were so large that you were sure it would leave marks.
The slit in your dress that you were shocked by earlier became Zayne's next target. He used one finger to trail up your thigh and hook under the edge of the slit as he kissed you, the fabric being pulled taught against your tingling skin.
Once again, you pulled away, letting your head roll back so that it rested against the top of his car. Your chest heaved, stretching the dress where it rested against your breasts with every breath in.
Zayne nestled his head into the crook of your neck, leaving small, wet kisses there. His finger that had been hooked into the slit of your dress continued its way up your body until his hand came to rest against your ribcage.
"Zayne, we should...get back before people start noticing we're gone."
"Hmm," he hummed against your collarbone.
"I mean it. What about the speeches?"
"Easy..." he murmured before placing an open-mouthed kiss, this time against your jawline. "Forget them."
"Zayne! You can't be serious."
"I assure you, I'm very serious. As serious as a heart attack."
You weakly raised your head back up to meet his gaze. There was a deep hunger in his expression, one that you could tell had not been fully satisfied.
"I did warn you," Zayne murmured before kissing you on the lips again briefly. "I have waited so long for you, it will be nearly impossible for me to let you go now that I have you."
You couldn't help but wonder what exactly he had in mind. But your thoughts and your body seemed to be communicating together, the undeniable warmth from your core spreading outwards fast. You knew you wanted to taste him again, to feel him against you again.
"Take me home, Zayne."
~
The drive back to your apartment seemed longer than it did when you left earlier. Inside Zayne's car, the air was thick with tension and desire. Neither of you spoke, too hesitant to mess anything up.
Once you were at your door, you prayed Zayne didn't see your hands shake slightly when getting your keys out to unlock it.
As you made it inside, Zayne closed the door behind the two of you and then slowly crouched down in front of you.
"Zayne, what are you..."
"Shh. Let me help you."
He motioned for you to lift one foot up, and you did so. He then undid your heel's strings and slid it off your foot carefully, before repeating the same steps on the other foot.
This time though, he placed his hand against your calf and let it trail up your bare leg until he stood up all the way. He took a deep breath as he did so, causing you to shake in anticipation.
"(Y/N). I know what I said, but if at any point anything becomes too much for you...or you simply change your mind, I want you to tell me. I will never do anything you don't want to do. Does that make sense?"
You nodded, overwhelmed with all the feelings coursing through you at the moment.
Zayne seemed satisfied, taking off his suit jacket and hanging it by the door. You couldn't help but notice how nicely his white button-up shirt sat against his toned arms.
He chuckled.
"If you don't like this," he said softly, pulling at the fabric of his sleeve, "I can remove it, too."
Involuntarily, you shuddered, realizing what he meant. But you had a better idea.
"Can I?"
Though your question was short, he understood what it meant.
Without a word, he stopped closer to you, looking down at you with a glint in his eye.
"If that's what you'd like."
You didn't mean to necessarily, but you held your breath as you let your clutch fall to the floor and instead placed your hands at his collar. As carefully as you could, you undid the first button of his shirt. Zayne watched you intently, his breathing picking up again like it had earlier in the parking lot.
One of your knuckles accidentally brushed against his collarbone while you undid another button, and it was his turn to shiver, even at such a slight touch. Honestly, it made you feel good, knowing that he must be feeling the same things you are feeling.
You continued down the shirt, each button coming undone with an almost inaudible pop sound. The farther you made it down, the more of his chest you started to see. It was unsurprisingly perfect, chiseled in all the right places, so much better than you could have ever imagined.
By the time you made it to the last button, you needed to pull the fabric out from where it was tucked into the hem of his pants. It was here that you hesitated.
"Are you alright?" Zayne asked, sensing your mind reeling. He placed a hand over top of yours where it still held onto the last button of his shirt.
"Yes, I'm alright. I just...don't want to mess anything up."
"Don't worry. You are perfect. Whatever happens will be perfect. Let me help again, okay?"
"Okay," you whispered, nearly silent.
Zayne gently removed your hand from the last button, and tugged his shirt out from his pants to remove it completely.
Your breath hitched in your throat as you took in the sight before you.
Then without thinking properly, you let your hands reach out for him, flattening against his bare chest. Your fingers traced the lines carved into his skin, and you realized you really shouldn't be surprised at this since you know he works out regularly.
“Would you let me take you somewhere more comfortable?” Zayne asked, nodding his head towards your bedroom.
“That definitely isn’t a bad idea.”
Zayne chuckled at you again before grabbing one of your hands to lead you away, making sure to carefully step over your forgotten bag and his white shirt on the floor.
He sat on the edge of your bed, waiting for you to enter into the room completely.
You were still mesmerized by him, by the situation. And then you realized that you had on remarkably more clothing than him. You decided to enlist his help one more time.
You turned in a circle, so that your back was now facing him. Though you could do it yourself, you thought this would be more fun.
“Help me again, Dr. Zayne”
From behind you, you could hear him stand up and make his way over to you. You moved your hair out of the way so that the zipper on the back of your dress was now visible.
“If that is what you wish.”
Even through the material of your dress, you could feel his cold fingers against your back as they slid the zipper down to your waist.
Once he made it to your waist, you took a step forward and chanced a look over your shoulder.
Zayne stood behind you, watching you with another unknown emotion behind his darkened green eyes.
You shrugged off the top of your dress, causing it to instantly gather around your waist. Your bare back was now directly in front of Zayne, as the dress didn’t require you to wear a bra. The air in your room made you tense up.
Braving any lingering fears, you pulled the dress past your hips so that it fell to the floor, and you stepped out of it. Now you stood only in your underwear.
A few seconds passed and you could then hear Zayne take another step forward. A few seconds more, and you hissed as Zayne’s cold hands made contact with your exposed hips.
“So beautiful,” he whispered, planting a kiss against your shoulder.
You no longer felt the metal of his glasses bump into your skin, so you assumed he must’ve tossed them aside.
“Let me show you what you do to me. What seeing you with someone else does to me. How it makes me feel…”
Before you could respond, one of Zayne’s hands snaked around the front of your waist and began teasing the waistband of your underwear. You instantly knew what he was planning to do.
“And more importantly, let me make you feel good.”
You couldn’t help but gasp sharply at how bold Zayne was being as he gently slid the tips of his fingers past the edge of your underwear. His other hand was laid flat against your stomach from behind you, and the pressure against you only intensified once his pointer finger made contact with the edge of your aching core.
Zayne placed his chin on your shoulder, looking down with an almost gleeful smirk on his lips while he watched the rest of his hand disappear past your last piece of clothing.
“Mmmm,” you hummed as the pad of his pointer finger circled around your center.
“Such a pretty sound,” Zayne stated as if it was a well known fact.
He took this time to softly dip the one finger inside of you, pumping it a few times before adding his middle finger. You could tell he was instantly covered in the wetness coming from deep within you, the slick feeling of his fingers inside already driving you wild.
A fire began burning inside your mind and body as he continued drawing his two fingers in and out of you, curving them slightly to find the spot that would inevitably cause you to unravel around him.
Your knees buckled and his grip around your waist with his other hand tightened.
“I’ve got you. I always will,” Zayne spoke against the thin skin of your neck, nuzzling deeper into the space between it and your shoulder.
The faster he went, the less you felt like you were physically there. The only feeling you had right now was the feeling of his touch, as if that feeling which wasn't even your own doing was the only thing that tied your existence to this room, to this place. You weren't even sure if you were standing properly anymore or if he was holding you up with his other arm. You didn't really care.
Never in your wildest dreams had you expected to end up in this situation. But now that you were, you couldn't imagine being anywhere else or with anyone else. You knew from this point on, he was the only one allowed to witness you like this. There was no going back from this. He had drawn you in and made you his, and this was where you belonged.
It was when you realized this that you came undone.
Somehow, you remained conscious of your neighbors and stifled the strangled whines that threatened to escape your gaping mouth. You eyes screwed shut in pure concentration, causing a single tear to escape the corner of your right eye.
"Shh," came Zayne's quiet voice from behind you.
He rubbed his nose against your cheek where the tear had fallen, ultimately wiping it away. The contrast of his cool nose against the sizzling skin of your cheek was very noticeable.
"Would you like to lay down?"
"Mhmm." This was the only sound you could get out now, but Zayne understood.
He kept a stable grip on you because he had, in fact, been holding you up for the past several minutes. You would have to thank him later.
Zayne guided you towards the bed and helped you first to sit down, and then to lay your head against the pillows. He gingerly grabbed your ankles and readjusted your legs so that they would be laying more comfortably on the end of the bed.
You couldn't help but cringe at the feeling of your now freezing, wet underwear that was sloppily pulled back into its proper position.
From the left side, you could hear Zayne lay down next to you, and his wide hand rubbed the clammy skin of your stomach.
You laid in silence for a few moments, waiting for your breathing to calm down before speaking.
"That was, ummm..."
You briefly glanced over at the man next to you and couldn't think of what to say next, your mind a tangled mess. Really, you had assumed he would say something to fill the silence where you were lacking. But when he didn't, you decided to take a better look at him.
Though his hand had come to a rest on your stomach, he was not looking at you. Instead he was looking at the ceiling, his jaw set harshly as if he was concentrating on something.
"Zayne, are you okay? Did I do something wrong?"
You rolled over onto your side, wrapping an arm around him and trying to ignore the feeling of your bare nipples against his cool exterior.
"No," he said shortly, but softly. "You were perfect, just as I said you would be. I just find myself...struggling to restrain my actions further when I should already be satisfied. And I am...satisfied. However, it would seem that you allowing me this pleasure has turned me into not only an impulsive version of myself, but a greedy one as well."
"Zayne...?"
You began to sit up on your elbow to look at his face, but your other hand brushed up against a lower part of him you weren't expecting to. The sensation immediately elicited a sharp hiss from Zayne.
"Oh!" you exclaimed in surprise, "I'm sorry."
Zayne shook his head roughly.
"Don't be. And don't feel obligated. Promise me, (Y/N). We don't have to go any further."
For a minute, you thought about what you would like to happen next. You took Zayne's words to heart, and you knew he meant them.
But perhaps you had become a bit impulsive as well.
Wordlessly, you finished sitting up enough to look down at Zayne who was now making eye contact with you rather than looking at the ceiling. Your hand had come to rest on his lower stomach now, right below his belly button. If you moved down any further...
You noticed how tight the fabric of his pants was around his bulge. You swallowed thickly, the embers of the fire you felt a little while ago becoming reignited.
"(Y/N)..."
Zayne watched as you looked between him and his painfully restricted erection.
"What do you want, Zayne?"
He was visibly surprised at your sudden confidence, but remained composed.
"That is not as important as what you want. I will always place your needs and wants above my own, no matter how tempting it may be otherwise."
Zayne sounded almost hoarse from timid anticipation and it only further fueled your own desires.
"Let me show you what I want."
He didn't say anything else, he could only watch as your now steady hands touched the belt keeping his pants up.
"(Y/N)," he repeated, this time urgently.
"I want..."
You let your sentence trail off and began undoing his belt as sensually as you could manage. Out of the corner of your eye, you could see Zayne's chest begin to heave as he studied you like a hawk.
"You."
The belt was now completely undone, and you pulled it from its loops to toss it carelessly aside on the floor. You then undid the zipper of his pants, the sound of it clashing with Zayne's distorted breaths. Once you had the zipper down all the way, you did the best you could to pull his pants down while he was laying down. It didn't take much before his throbbing length was now restrained by one less layer of clothing.
He shook at the air hitting him down there, and you struggled to keep your eyes from widening noticeably at how large he seemed to be. At the center of his white underwear, you could see several small dark spots from his increasing arousal.
Before he could try to talk you out of it, you lifted one of your legs to straddle him. Both of you moaned simultaneously as your tingling core came into contact with his rock-hard bulge.
Using the last bit of your newfound confidence, you bent down and captured his lips in a wet kiss.
"I have always wanted you."
Zayne watched your lips in awe as you spoke, the corner of his own lifting in a small smile.
And then he collided into you.
It was like the kisses you shared in the parking lot, only...it wasn't at the same time. This felt more primal, more passionate. As if your souls had begun threading together like they were somehow meant to.
You held onto his face tightly as he kissed you, the wet sounds of your mouths echoing in your small bedroom. His deft hands came to rest on your ass, and they dug into the softness there as he thrusted upwards against your throbbing genitals. This caused your back to arch slightly, making your lips leave his, the only thing now connecting them a string of your mixed saliva.
Zayne took this opportunity to roll you under him so that he was now hovering over your exposed body.
One hand held his own body up, and the other tenderly traced around the edge of your breasts.
"You are too good to me," Zayne sighed under his breath.
"And while I do not normally condone this..."
Zayne stood up suddenly and fully removed his pants and underwear in what seemed like one swift motion before climbing back over top of you.
"I have no control left within my body."
His hands gripped your underwear tightly, his knuckles turning white and his veins popping as he completely ripped the flimsy material off of you.
"Zayne!"
He gripped the headboard, leaning over you to whisper in your ear.
"I'll buy you more."
You shuddered at both his words and the proximity of his naked body to yours.
"Do you trust me?" he continued.
"Yes. I trust you Zayne."
"Then hold on," he growled, his hot breath fanning over your ear.
Using his other hand to grip himself, he steered his length to your entrance, teasing it slightly with the head.
"Oh, shit," you gasped loudly.
With no further hesitation, Zayne fully inserted himself inside of you, making the both of you moan noisily. He remained there for a moment, his sweaty chest rubbing against your own. The hand that was on the headboard now came down against the mattress to hold the rest of his body up. His other hand grabbed one of yours, and he weaved his fingers in-between your own.
Your clasped hands gripped each other stiffly as he started to thrust in and out of you. As he did so, your other hand clawed at his back.
Where it had been silent before, your room now seemed like a concert of lewd noises. Zayne's grunts, your mewls, the wet sound of your bodies slamming together repeatedly...it was all so disgustingly beautiful.
Though your eyes were shut, you could feel Zayne's sticky forehead against your temple. The grip he had on your hand intensified, and the rapid, hot breaths from his mouth collided with your neck. Shamefully fast, you felt the familiar feeling of your impending climax, and you couldn't help but wonder if Zayne could, too.
"You..." Zayne panted, pulling himself out of you before slamming back in, all the way up to the base of his cock. "Already?"
You scoffed, opening your eyes to look at him, chastising yourself for thinking he was anything other than observant.
"You do things...to me too, you know?"
Zayne groaned, almost animalistic in the way that it sounded.
You licked your swollen lips, the moisture temporarily aiding in the chapped sensation you had been feeling.
"I want to feel it...I want you to look at me."
Zayne withdrew his hand from yours and instead grabbed your chin roughly. He then turned it, so that you were facing him completely.
"You are doing so well..."
For some reason, you fixated on the sweat that was flowing down the side of Zayne's face, dripping from his soaking wet hair. A few drops of it landed on your cheeks, but Zayne's increasingly harsh thrusts made them run down to your neck.
He kept a grip on your chin and began sucking on the skin where his sweat had pooled against a divot in your neck. It was with such force, you knew there would be a purple bruise there the next morning. The thought of others being able to see the evidence of the filthy night you had with Zayne was enough to send you over the edge for the second time.
Zayne felt you begin to tense up, and knowing what was coming and that he would not be able to stop himself from climaxing inside of you if he remained there, he begrudgingly removed himself just in time.
His warm cum splattered harshly against your pulsing core, and he couldn't help but watch as it did. The sight of you so utterly spent and covered in his seed was enough to make him collapse next to you.
This time, the silence in the room seemed ridiculously loud. It smelled completely of sex, and you knew you would have to wash your bedding tomorrow.
But you also couldn't help but feel completely at ease. That was the closest you could have ever hoped to be to the man you loved.
Love...what a word, right?
Part of you wanted to proclaim it right then and there. Though the other part of you was content with the silence, laying next to the second half of your somewhat broken soul.
It felt complete. You felt complete. And you hoped he did too.
You'd have to thank Richard if you ever saw him again.
#love and deepspace#lads#lnds#zayne#zayne x mc#zayne x reader#lads zayne#zayne smut#zayne fic#reader insert#zayne love and deepspace#lnds zayne#love and deepspace zayne
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#digital art#illustration#fanart#digital painting#aziraphale#good omens#ineffable husbands#crowley#good omens 2#good omens fanart#leyendecker#nah cause this took me like 8 hours. longest ive ever spent on a drawing#i didnt even necessarily find it hard i was just pissing around and procrastinating#anyway them#they should be happy
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today and even tomorrow, let’s all play together
#HITORINBO ENVY THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU!!!#im just saying…. mizuki literally ran away to a lake for fear of being unloved……#AND THE AFTERSHOW…. mizuki imagining them singing together and then they disappear….#i had 90% of this done by the end of mizu5 but procrastinated sooo hard on cleaning up a few frames#never got around to it but i want it posted b4 ena5 lol#mizuki akiyama#mizu5#project sekai#prsk fa#my animation#prsk#pjsk#nightcord at 25:00#niigo#ena shinonome#kanade yoisaki#mafuyu asahina#suicide tw#like. implied. lmk if i should tag that more/different
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Skktober - Day 18 - Cuddling & Blankets <3
Prompt by @featheryphoenix
#skk#soukoku#bungou stray dogs#bsd chuuya#bsd dazai#bsd#bsd art#skk fanart#stars art#skktober#never done inktober before and now its kicking my ass lmao#turns out drawing something everyday is hard#I should really draw these in advance but procrastinating is my first love
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#never put this nothingburger of a post on tumblr but you guys can have it too#trucking people into believing i have an established brand when i have no plans to draw mh again soon because my head is empty of inspi#inspo* Oopsies#marble hornets#jay merrick#tim wright#jay mh#tim mh#Ummmm#art#coloring#statement#it’s raining really hard and all my car windows are fogged up so i’m procrastinating wiping them down and leaving#yes jay is a girl To me. he is also gay. don’t ask if you don’t understand 🤦♂️🤦♂️#should i tag this as jamFor engagementBRO SHUT UPPPP
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I love your art a lot!! kinda like glossy eye candy. would you ever draw hyacinthus again or continue the winter soldier au? you convey character expressions rlly well!!
This is so sweet omg thank you 🥹💕 I'm actually in the process of outlining how I want the story in the AU to go so yeah, I'm definitely continuing it! Figuring out Hyacinthus' personality is a bit tricky because of how little we have of him in canon (and also kind of because of the whole premise of this AU) but it's coming along 🫡
Meanwhile here's a little Hyacinthus sketch for you <3
It was originally a test for a fake Hades screenshot but I ended up making Helios instead so this is what's left of that attempt lmao
#i should draw him more often 😔#anyway about the au. it might take me a while#both because i have some things going on irl#and also because i'm very very prone to procrastinate things i find hard#but i WILL finish it eventually i promise#i'll try to give you updates along the way <3#lonely thoughts#ask#toa winter soldier au#scribbles#trials of apollo#toa#pjo
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Did BioWare lose their lore bible for Dragon Age or... ?
I didn't even get around to replaying the series before Veilguard and I'm still clocking little weird things. Bull's romance card says that he was pleased the Inquisitor returned his overtures. What overtures? The Inquisitor was the one who made overtures and Bull pretty consistently passed over them until after his personal quest (probably because he thought they needed trust before they could enter into a BDSM dynamic and I think his superiors wanted him to foster that kind of relationship if he could, but Bull was edging away from that because he thought the Inquisitor was doing good work and didn't want to use them that way; once his personal quest is done he can finally enter into a relationship with them without feeling conflicted but anyway --)
And the bit where Solas says that he abhors the use of blood magic when in Inquisition he said that it can be a useful tool in the hands of those who don't want to abuse it and use it for harm.
They're not huge details so it's not game breaking, but the current lead writer wrote Bull and Solas, so it's kinda strange...
#Don't mind me; I'm just annoyed that I'm having lag and bugs aplenty with this game that I should be able to run on recommended settings#So I'm posting to procrastinate having to clean my PC and update my BIOs to hopefully clear that up because I don't wanna deal with it#(And I'm annoyed that CC differences are making it hard to replicate my Inquisitor)#Guess I can't blame them if they stopped caring so much after having to scrap Joplin and start over with Morrison#Dragon Age#Dragon Age: The Veilguard#The Iron Bull#Solas#Fen'Harel#Inquisitor#Inquisitor Lavellan#Herald of Andraste#Inquisibull#Inquisitor/Bull#Solavellan#Inquisitor/Solas#Headcanon#Video Games#BioWare#Patrick Weekes#Game Development#Dragon Age: The Veilguard spoilers#DATV spoilers
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#marshall d. teach#blackbeard#blackbeard pirates#one piece#whitebeard pirates#my art#so sometimes i think about how teach stayed on WB ship for close to 30 years#now i know he was fighting and doing his part but still he never tried particularly hard and he was basically living under his dads roof#for his entire adult life#and would have continued to do so if not for the yami yami no mi#anyway after talking with a friend it got me thinking about him as a neet so there#really loose concept and this is just me procrastinating but kind of funny i thought#neet au#about marco since someone mentioned. since he was ship dr and 1st commaner i wouldnt consider him a neet#marco had a lot of responsibilities while teach was just a regular member#so marco would be the more mature and successful older bro#anyway with this i finally drew bb with tired eye bags#like this man doesnt sleep. he should look tired as hell#i feel like im going crazy#i want to draw highschool luffy and discord mod teach having a brawl on the street
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missing them hours
#I am procrastinating so hard rn#but umm inspiration hit and umm them#QSMP#qsmp fanart#fanart#qsmp elmariana#qsmp slimecicle#qsmp slimeriana#slimeriana#misclick duo#miras art#i should go to bed
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SO many amazing takes and additions in my reblogs and asks, I want to reply to each and every one of them but the skeletal claws of depression and unmedicated adhd keeps my ass sat in bed where I will read manga and stare blankly at a wall for 12 hours instead.
#to anyone who has ever sent me anything or added any sort of additions or takes to a post of mine in reblogs:#i love you.#we r making out rn.#im kissing u full on the mouth#in a gay way#i absoloutley thrive reading them all and going “oh I need to reply to this !! i need to think about this !!!”#and then I dont. because doing things is hard#but I WANT to#in a similar vein I feel like I should apologize to the like 6 different people I keep accidentally leaving on read in dms#procrastination: “accidentally ghosting ur friends bc youre bad at replying#and have like 50 dms waiting ominously for u to reply to them so it feels like itd be an entire Thing(tm) now“ edition#one day....#one will reply to all my dms and all my asks and reblog all the posts I want to reblog with full additions from my end.......#then youll see....then youll all see...#birds rambles#delete latee
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if this gets more than 100 notes i will write that chapter
if this gets more than 200 notes i will write two chapters
if this gets more than 500 notes i will power through with who-knows-where-it-comes-from energy and write at least four more chapters (they're short chapters, but still)
if this gets more than 1000 i will post that other fic that has been in my drafts for five months
#should i add tags?#not bc i want to procrastinate#but the point of this post is not procrastine#hmmm complicate topic#i'll add them but not a lot of them#writer#writeblr#writing#writing is hard#ao3#ao3 fic#ao3 writer#thats it#dont get notes i want to procrastinate
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Barbados and Morax
Are and will always be love lost to time.
Hear me out, here just like how sometimes married couples fall out of love naturally they also did by some miracle. It was a combination of B sleeping all the time M still finds it cute and lives him for it but wants more physical affection that a sleeping lover can't have and B needs more words of affirmation but M can't express himself well witch B finds enduring to and adorable.
They loved each other hard , fast, slow but it couldn't withstand the needs of themselves ans the leangh of time.
They, while not divorced in the god scene are at the point in their lives where they learned its better for them to love each other from a distance where they can't hurt each other.
#genshin venti#zhongli x venti#zhongli#zhongven#they are married#love lost#alt universe#i should be studing since i procrastinated#but i cant physics is just hard
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I think I can’t say Dream is crazy for putting himself in the hellish box of his own making, because I’d have to say that I’m crazy for constantly procrastinating myself into a hellish box of my own making…
#someone please explain to me why I just like to make myself suffer……… there is no reason things should be this hard…..#of course in this instance I full on am walking into prison knowing Quackity is following right behind me but still………….#me on the menu#pandora's vault#c!dream#dreblr#oh and then I cover up that I’ve been stupid and procrastinated by lying and pretending everything is fine…. I totally have my shit together#uh huh… yea for sure for sure… you better let me bitch about my lack of sleep and lie about why :)#some people just want to watch the world burn. I just prefer to jump into the lava ;D
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Sam: "Look at me. Hey- look at me a second. I know. I know you're tough. I know how strong you are. You have every right to be proud of that. But being able to handle somethin' doesn't mean you should have to. Least of all when I'm right here trying to help. Please let me help. If not for you then for me, because I don't like knowin' you're hurtin', especially when there's somethin' I can do about it."
Me, shaking my head, fighting back literal tears: "B-but it's gonna give you another headache!"
#redacted sam#redacted audio#redacted asmr#redactedverse#redacted fandom#[Sam's name doubles as a link to the specific lines i quoted btw. just for full credit/transparency & for anyone who wants to (re)listen]#Sam's deep-seated need to heal vs my inability to accept help would be a battle for the ages. unstoppable force vs immovable object#wait Sam already mentioned the force vs object thing to David during the inversion didn't he lmao 'they call /me/ Immovable Object'#he does suit Immovable a little more than Unstoppable i guess. i mean he can def be both imo but ykwim. anyways i digress#listen. i'm not a Marriage kinda guy. but good god the way some of Sam's lines make me wanna take a fucking knee and propose#i'm love him ur honor. he is comfort incarnate#can't believe i waited so long to listen to the Valentines Vampire Attack audio. it's got so much of that sweet sweet hurt/comfort#very reminiscent of their 2nd audio given all the healing he does for them & the consent checks before moving clothing and whatnot#which makes it a top favorite for me bc that's probably my most replayed Sam audio. and the one that initially hooked me#i didn't put off listening to it bc i thought i Wouldn't like it btw i just procrastinate everything for no real reason#listening to it now tho actually worked out well bc i could uh. definitely use it. so maybe i was subconsciously saving it for hard times#this post isn't a joke btw it really does hurt to hear him put himself in pain for the sake of healing Darlin' :(((#anD PAINKILLERS DON'T EVEN WORK ON HIM!!! ough man i would struggle so hard to accept his healing if i were in Darlin's shoes#like yeah there's other reasons i'd struggle to accept it too but him being in pain as a result would be one of 'em. the Guilt bro i can't#rp audio stuff#Seven.txt#(Seven blorbo-posting at 2am when they should either be doing something productive or sleeping?? more likely than you might think)
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So... How we feeling gang?
#blabberings!#ME talking to MYSELF#ugh okay...#so do you when you when I when when when we when I you know? that we so like that we#sh2r is good so far btw!#....I'm ass at it though#PROCRASTINATING IT'S REALLY FUCKING HARD LMFAO but there's a lot of options that make it easily accessible though#<- okay I should shut up now LMFAO
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Just over 3k words in (and ignoring my other projects lol) which is slow for me actually but I'm having fun with my Jack on vacation fic so far!
I remembered I once wrote a fic about Jack playing video games with the Monks but without them knowing it was him and visa versa.
It was two years ago and I never published it but I hope it's still on my old phone so maybe I can!
#no but i really should finish my fics for other fandoms#since my eye surgery phones have been hard but also procrastinating is easy lol#xiaolin showdown#jack spicer#fic#fanfic
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