#i say light hearted as opposed to the messed up aspect of their relationship all my other song recs are for

[currentlyonstandbi]

[skz-celine]

✯ RELATIONSHIPS WITH SKZ MAKNAE LINE !!

the relationships types celine has with the maknae line ! of skz

✯ JISUNG && CELINE : rank 1 in popular relations ( they're a comedy duo and absolutely always producing something weird as well as always hugging, cuddling, or touching in some way but 100% platonic )

pin board now playing : sure thing - miguel

these two are like twin flames in the way they work. their interactions are often filled with light-hearted teasing and affectionate gestures. They share inside jokes that revolve around playful nicknames and funny anecdotes, which bring a sense of warmth and joy to their friendship.

you will not find these two sitting next to each other and not hugging, cuddling, or anything of the matter ( unless in interviews of course ) , they're always together like her legs could just be on his whilst sitting and they'd just be paying no attention to it bc its so subconscious its a natural habit.

she also feeds him a lot and whenever she cuts fruit or cooks food, he'll be the first she feeds ( besides leader bang chan )

many fans would describe their relationship as mother bird to baby bird since she tends to often care for him as such. She is a little shorter than him ( and I mean by sooo little, emphasizing so) so he'd often lean on her whenever she was standing next to her.

we all know jisung is notorious for using baby/jagiya as a nickname and it's something he also tends to call her as well. "자기야 그거 나한테 줄래?"

he also sometimes jokes and calls her noona ( older sister ) because she scolds him sometimes for his messiness.

and to that of course our comedian is gonna reference his first line in "WOW" and be like "jeogiyo nuna hoksi namjachin-gu isseoyo" ( excuse me noona, do you have a boyfriend?)

they weren't always peachy though, their relationship is crazy.

back when she first joined the group, he was also one of the unsure members but he was a little vocal about it often mumbling stuff as she messed up and got frustrated. it was a hard time for all of them at that time and that contrast just made it worst.

it wasn't until he caught her crying in frustration that he went over and spoke to her, apologizing if he's made it even worse for her and explaining how he was stressed. she explained how it wasn't just what he was saying or the distance of the members but with the add on to the fact that some fans weren't happy with her joining and that she was nervous to officially debut with the group because she'd be even more hated if she didn't do things right

they had a long chat that day and talked deeply about everything.

✯ FELIX && CELINE : rank 4 in popular relations ( physical playfighting as a love language, teasing and mockery duo, they both love changbin)

pin board . now playing: young, dumb, and broke - khalid

they are notorious for always hitting each other. it's always soft and never actually hurts but it's something they always stick to bc their love language = hitting

whether it be her wearing a hat and he just hits the top of it, covering her eyes or her randomly jumping on him , hitting his arm, they're somehow always in fight or flight mode.

they're close in the aspect of teasing , that's their way of bonding. "cejin-ssi, wanna watch me play this game?" "are you platinum yet?"

he's for sure glaring at her with a tired and insulted smile on his face while she's cackling like a witch.

in fact, he even referred to her as one.

"what is my favorite holiday?" she was reading a comment before she leaned back, pondering before felix squinted his eyes and begun to speak

"i think... halloween maybe? cause- you're like... a witch y'know?" cue the grin and her glare before she pushes his office chair across the room.

✯ SEUNGMIN && CELINE :: rank 2 in popular relations ( they act like such a married couple and he always acts opposed to her affection but he secretly adores it. )

pin board . now playing : looking after you - joy again

absolute married duo, they're always arguing in some way but it's like their debate love language.

seungmin will not pass up an offer in finding some way to bother her and she both hates and loves it.

like for example, she could be lying down on her bed scrolling through her phone and then he comes into the room and sits down next to her before surprising her with a pillow to the face and now a pillow fight has broken out with lots of silent giggles and cries from whoever is being sat on with a pillow on their face

celine is obsessed with seungmin's teeny waist and will grab it randomly with affectionate aggression , squeezing it tightly as she replicates that little angry puppy face he always does.

he'll do it as well sometimes but it's only ever subtle and when she doesn't notice.

we know seungmin is someone who seems like a menace and revels in being cold and heartless but he's very deep when it comes to love and care towards the kids and whenever they have talks, like he'll listen to her, she'll listen to him. and thats what he truly likes about her; the fact she'll listen whenever he rants and shows genuine happiness whenever he gets her a gift despite pretending to hate it when he initially gives it to her.

whenever they do lives, she'll have her phone angled to where seungmin can see it from where his head rests on her shoulder. she knows they always tend to use his phone for the lives for whatever reason so she'll have something to keep him entertained.

they hold hands sometimes , especially when it's cold she'll just be slightly jumping beside him, trying to get rid of the cold feeling that freezes her skin

and seungmin will just be standing statue-like as he has a small smile on his face, his forearm slightly bouncing because of the jumping girl beside him

✯ JEONGIN && CELINE

pin board . now playing : where is smiley ? - serani poji

celine and jeongin, since their days are so close are the type of people that act like twins who are fighting to see who's the eldest.

celine and Jeongin’s relationship can be best described as twin-like, marked by playful banter and an affectionate sibling dynamic. with celine’s birthday just days before jeongin’s, she often embraces her "older sister" role, delighting in asserting her dominance over him. she often says stuff like “I’m older than you, respect me.” which often gives her eye rolls and playful protests from jeongin

she doesn't often like physical affection by him since she's not used to it ( he doesn't like physical affection either ) but she'll resort to head massages which he often likes and will clothes his eyes for them because they comfort him.

she's one of the first he'd call if he'd gotten arrested, besides seungmin and the obvious leader bang chan. she's always there to listen to his rants and his insecurities and there to help him feel better

sometimes, when he comes to her room to nap, she'll say "tell me about your day" and he'll be lying in her bed just talking about the day. she uses it as asmr and ends up drifting into the best sleep imaginable and wakes up, drooling with vocalracha standing over her face giggling and taking pictures

SKZ-CELINE , 08 / 24

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[anxso]

@ygoc-week day 5 is swap, so let’s swap to talking about another OC for a bit!

YU-GI-OH! DM — ISABELLA “IZZ” ROOKE

Oh Izz. Izz baby. My girl :3c She's the main character of a DM alternate fic called Soul Release, named after a card that's very important to her. She survived a tragic pileup that killed her entire family. Unbeknownst to her, this event tied her to a freshly-born reincarnation of Anubis named Rin in this verse.

This version of DM also includes a faction of worshippers of Apophis because of the existence of The Prophet of Apophis, a strong leader and manipulator… as cult leaders tend to be.

Aigami/Diva also appears earlier in this story rather than being a post-canon aspect; we get a Kisara reincarnation named Sapha, a German TCG champion; and Battle City gets a top 16 on the blimp with these three OCs especially mixing things up via their being chosen by the Wickeds.

I say “chosen,” but both Yami Bakura/Zorc and Rin/Anubis work together to create them to oppose the Egyptian gods. Yami B and Rin have a… working relationship, very much rooted in “the enemy of my enemy is my friend.” They both strive for the pharaoh’s downfall. Rin chooses Avatar for herself while Yami B takes Wicked Dreadroot. Then Prophet blows up the museum, catching Yami B in the blast, and steals it for himself. Rin gives Eraser to Izz because she sees Izz as a puppet Rin can coerce to do her bidding anytime, including opposing the pharaoh.

Izz moves to Yugi and co’s school. She’s fairly distant from everyone in her life because of the tragedy, but they are kind to her and she is kind in turn. She wins local tournaments and tops regionals because, in order to hide from grief, she fixates on Duel Monsters deckbuilding and ratios and meta etc. This is enough to earn her a Duelist Kingdom invite. Overall, she’s an anxious mess who needs a hug and isn’t sure how to properly interact with other people anymore. She feels like a cataclysm waiting to happen again and again.

Now the elephant in the room! You see her with the Pyramid of Light. Rin approaches Izz after her first regional win. Izz is weak at the knees for beautiful women (and men—everyone is a bi disaster, remember?). Rin explains she hosted the tournament and forgot about a particular prize. She compliments Izz’s dueling and gifts her the Pyramid of Light, saying she’d like to get to know her better. Izz is flabbergasted and accepts the Pyramid, asking only what it is. Rin only describes it as valuable jewelry and recommends Izz keep it on her person.

The iridescent swirls in the pyramid’s sky blue are mesmerizing to Izz, and staring at it provides an indescribable comfort… and focal point to keep her grounded/stop her out of body experiences such that she does indeed wear it constantly

This has an unintended side effect

See, Izz wears a necklace (in the artwork, matches Dark Magician Girl’s pendant) that just so happens to contain the ancient and slumbering spirit of Mana. Being so close to the dark energy of the Pyramid of Light stirs her, and she becomes Izz’s ghost like companion similar to the pharaoh and Yugi. Mana is always trying to be a positive influence on Izz where Rin is like the devil on her shoulder. Izz often makes mistakes and trusts the wrong people, hurting her friendships with the gang and repairing them again.

Her using Wicked Dreadroot however… that one will certainly be difficult to come back from.

And as for pairings, I’m undecided and going so many directions! I would probably have to write it all out.

(but my heart says fellow orphan Seto Kaiba if Izz can ever look away from all the other gorgeous gorgeous guys and gals) (Rin can’t stop rizzing her up) (y’all just WAIT until she meets Ishizu)

I’m just a writer! Artist credit in first image and rest are picrew

[amplifyme]

@randomfoggytiger

On Ceremony of Innocence you wrote:

Full disclosure-- I knew Vincent/Paracelsus/Anna's backstory from Nan's work and even the twist of Paracelsus's death, but this episode was so well-acted I got confused and doubted myself.

I knew you knew. But knowing it and actually seeing it play out in front of you is something else entirely. This is a banger of an episode, from start to finish, and is one I can watch over and over and never skip a single scene. One of the finest of GRRM's often superlative scripts.

More under the cut...

The opening shot of Vincent is so, so eerie (picking up from the prev ep's close, I see.)

This is so shallow of me, but I find it hard to look away from those massive hands of his. Or should I say paws?

Cathy's nightmare-- a lot to unpack: "He’s an animal-- what does that make you?” is probably why Cathy resists that aspect of Vincent the most, because their bond is a reflection of each other (Vincent staring at his reflection in the lake while her nightmare plays out, for instance) and more particularly, she fears, a reflection of herself.

That's exactly why she resists it. And by sharing that nightmare through her, Vincent now knows it too. And to him it's just one more blow proving his unhumanity, and eating away at his dream of a physical relationship with her. Because some part of Cathy knows he's not just a man, and that part of him is more Other than she's comfortable admitting to herself.

He can never escape the fact of his otherness. Can never hope for more than the life he has Below. And it is his tomb. He will live and die there, and there's nothing to be done for it.

I don't think Cathy truly, fully loved Vincent as a whole before the finale (because there was always a part that held her back unless everyone else held back from Vincent too, which summoned her "call to action" or stubborn insistence of his humanity.)

I couldn't agree more. It wasn't until then that she realized she couldn't just love the parts of him she admired and accepted as human. She would have to love all of him in order to save him.

Father's "It's been a wonderful... dream" followed by Vincent's "No Father-- this is my tomb" certainly set up for the aborted plans George R. R. Martin had for S3, as did Vincent's wandering the catacombs for answers (twisted in death, as Narcissa calls it.)

Yep, GRRM definitely threw those in to foreshadow the planned Land of the Dead trilogy in S3 that never happened.

Mouse's "he needs Catherine" practicality opposed to Father's longwinded rationalizations further emphasize how tied everyone's hands are.

Mouse is a very practical guy. 😊

Paracelsus inviting Father to 666 (you dramatic man you) and challenging Father to fire a gun in the light (oh, the drama) and overpowering him and leaving him for dead while he goes to "release" his son from the imprisonment of civilized humanity was a great crescendo (not to mention the subtle hints of sending Vincent on a paranoid quest for more answers and asking the community for weapons and flawlessly transitioning from acting like "Father" to pressuring like Paracelsus.)

You wouldn't believe how many folks (fans) didn't pick up on those clues and didn't realize it was Paracelsus and not Father until Cathy, Elliot, and Manning discovered Father in that hidden room. And Vincent didn't figure it out until the very end. Considering his powerful gift of empathy, it makes you aware of how truly messed up he was after What Rough Beast.

And then... I mean it's heart wrenching to think about all that Vincent was going through in this ep. From the moment this man who's raised him tells him that all the stories were a lie, that everything he believed about himself was a lie. That he was once, for a brief amount of time, a mother's child. But then he wasn't, he was just the result of some terrible experiment and he killed the vessel that'd given him life. And then it's just one blow after another, everything he's told pushing him closer and closer to the edge, until the final shove that unleashes the hated otherness and he guts Father. And then discovers it wasn't Father. And then, maybe worst of all, turns to find witnesses to his unspeakable act of murder. People he loves who then go on to tell him that he just did what needed to be done. How do you live with that? In Vincent's case, you don't. You decide you're just going to die instead, give in to the Beast until it kills you.

Cathy was right-- that it was a lie-- but that's not what he needed reassurance about: what if it did, what would she do? Vincent's cruel birth story, scaring Cathy and sending her away, Cathy leaving but ultimately wanting to make Paracelsus pay and inadvertently saving Father (and leading Father back down), and the two arriving in time to see the aftereffects in Father's study.

One of my favorite things to dig into with Nan was this: what on earth did Vincent and Father find to say to each other after things had settled down? Was what happened ever directly addressed? Or did they just not talk about it? And what would that do to Vincent in the long-run? I tend to think Father quickly swept it under the rug and Vincent raised no objection.

"You and Father-- you wouldn't admit the truth even if it stood right in front of you" is both right and very wrong: Cathy will deny it in the name of love, but Father does love if not embrace or accept fully that side of his son.

I mostly agree with this. But I'm not sure Father loved that aspect of Vincent. I think it frightened him. Not that you can blame him, after all.

Next!

[gilbertscarrot]

I just finished watching the mlb movie, and I loved the animation and the Ladynoir fight scene! Those aspects stood out to me the most, and I just let myself enjoy the banter and pretty visuals. It was a solid film. Of course, pacing is an issue, but it's a clear result of the shorter runtime in comparison to the show. My main critique relates to how they wrote Adrien's character, especially in regards to his interactions with Marinette, so here's my take (plus other side notes).

Personally, him saying Marinette is weird is out of character, full stop. Even if he said it in a light-hearted tone, it wouldn't feel right for his character, because he would have found Marinette endearing, regardless of his emotions. That being said, I like how he processes/blocks out everything with music, as it adds another layer of depth to his character.

I would have loved to see Adrien take a liking to Marinette's awkwardness (help her put all of those books back!), and then disappear while reflecting on their interaction with a smile. Then he could be shown distancing himself once more after a nice interaction with Nino. That way, it would demonstrate Adrien's kindness and his desire to be social, but also the facade he feels he needs to put up while coping with his family life, which mirrors Marinette's desire to not mess up in front of others.

What truly irked me was Chat Noir's attitude towards Ladybug's clumsiness when they first meet, and this is why I couldn't fully accept the Adrienette portion of the love square: Ladybug's intial clumsiness is essentially Marinette's lack of confidence, and Chat Noir only took a liking to Ladybug after he believed she was "capable" and supposedly doing the hero thing for years. It's fine that he falls in love with Ladybug and not Marinette because of Ladybug's bravery, but by being unkind to Ladybug when she's still adjusting, his aversion to Marinette's clumsiness becomes apparent. If he makes jabs at Ladybug at the beginning, then is that what he thinks of Marinette's clumsiness? Maybe, as these opinions would line up ("She's so weird").

Alternatively, I might've felt better about Adrienette in this film if there were additional scenes between them and Adrien became more fond of her, even as just a friend. So, when Marinette revealed herself at the end, it felt off. There were no substantial scenes which exhibited Adrien's bond with Marinette other than a brief montage. The reason the show works is because Adrien likes Marinette at the very least / is oblivious to his feelings. Movie Adrien doesn't seem to like her much, essentially. He rejects her and...that's it until they see each other at the end? What about his relationship to Marinette moves him to tears when he connects her to Ladybug? Not much, from what we're given.

As for Marinette's impression of Adrien, she could've been curious about him first, then fall for him once she realizes he's not making fun of her for tipping over the library cart, since it's all she's ever known. This would give Marinette a solid reason to like him as opposed to love at first sight, though arguably maybe she fell for him because he started helping her? It was still a beautiful scene, however. It was giving "soulmates in every universe."

My last criticism is of Marinette's character arc. Her turning point — that is, making the decision to step into the shoes of Ladybug once and for all — could have been motivated by a more dire, personal consequence, such as saving Alya or her parents, specifically.

All in all, I enjoyed the film! It was super fun, and it was closer in tone to the original concept art, which I adore. Again, the animation was stunning and was probably my favourite part. Plus, I love the nuances they added to Marinette's character. I'll be thinking about it for the next few days, for sure. Sorry this was such an incoherent mess, but I'd love to hear any other opinions as well.

[angelguk]

so much happens in this it’s such a huge mess omg. the return of the angst plot line of jock!jk (aka pretty boy universe please check ml for the other parts). this time featuring: Angst (with a capital A), miscommunication that makes you want to scream, chayoung’s true nature, namjoon catching stray bullets (figuratively), and lucas being a gem. also jungkook is somewhat semi-violent in this one (in terms of thoughts and some actions but no one gets hurt) so please don’t read this if that makes you uncomfortable. in general just an angry heartbroken boy. also oc is finally doing something good. listen to mess it up by gracie abrams + if we were made of water by banks + i will by mitksi + save room for us by tinashe. roughly 4.2k

titled — old friends, new foes

The spring scavenger hunt is an enormous success, all thanks to your careful planning and Bina’s much needed support. While you excelled at organising, you heavily lacked in the social aspect, something Bina fulfilled with smart marketing and a bright personality that drew in a larger crowd than you thought would appear. It's partially expected–she was head of the Events Committee for a reason–but it felt a little strange to lean onto her instead of Jeongguk. He was the one who usually spearheaded that side of your event plans, more than anyone else, and while planning this one you felt his absence tenfold. Like a gigantic gaping hole excavating through your chest and leaving behind a lonely hollow.

That hollowness surges when you spot him meandering towards the third location at the university courtyard, his fingers tangled with Hyeri’s. You slowly turn away from them, heart aching with each thud against your ribs, hoping they haven’t seen you. Maybe Bina sees the fall on your features because she’s gently tapping your arm, leaning in with a graceful brush of her amber locks over her shoulder.  

“Are you okay?” Her voice is soft, feathering through the late afternoon breeze to reach your ear. 

You’re about to say it, the pained ‘I’m fine' that had become a part of your routine. But then you hear him, loud effervescent laugh hitting the air, the sound striking your false demeanour down. Your vision blurs before you could choke the word out and suddenly Bina’s arm is firmly around you, guiding your heavy feet far away from the presence evoking your pain. 

“I’m fine,” you finally manage to choke up, folding into yourself in the middle of a bench. She stares at you for a moment, before taking a deep breath and sharply clicking her tongue.

“You’re not.” Her eyes are gentle despite the harshness of her words. “I know this isn’t my place, but I do know why you stopped coming to committee meetings.” 

The scoff you let out is instinctive. The jarring sound is a stark contrast to the action of your hand hurriedly wiping away the stray tears staining your cheeks. Of course, you’d avoided committee meetings – why the hell would you go when the president was your ex?

“And,” Bina continues, pointedly ignoring your reaction. Her hand reaches out moving to intertwine your fingers. You focus on the image of her sharp stiletto shaped nails that glitter under the glow of the sun settling on your lap instead of the thumping of your heart as she speaks. “Judging from what I’ve seen, it hasn’t been easy for him either. I know you’re probably thinking that you were the only one who cared about him–about your relationship, but I’m pretty sure he did too. So it’s perfectly okay for you to feel like this, no matter how long it’s been.”

Two months and three weeks, you mentally add. A lifetime and a single blink simultaneously. 

“I didn’t need to know that,” you say, hoping to kill the hope fluttering in your heart. Bina squeezes your hand instead and gives it wings.

“You did. Also, Jeongguk’s kind of an asshole. Sorry if it’s too soon.”

It’s not, and you can’t help the tiny laugh that escapes from your throat. You glance up at her then, suddenly glad for the dazzling glossed coated smile that greets you.

“But,” she continues. “You’re doing the wrong thing too. I know you’re dating Lucas and it’s not fair to him when you’re still hung up on Jeongguk.”

“I know,” you admit. “And I’m going to fix that.”

She beams. “I hope you do. Don’t let him make you pick the wrong choices. You deserve better than that.”

Perhaps it was her words of reassurance that aided in getting you out of the house tonight. (Or it was Bina gingerly whacking your arm and insisting you needed to reward yourself for working hard). But a minuscule part of you is glad you heeded her advice. The music is louder than the words bouncing around your head, sound shoving your sorrow down as Chayoung hands you another drink. Everything is fast, bodies shifting wildly around you and the faint sound of a beer pong game capturing everyone’s attention. For a moment, you begin to forget. But then Lucas’s looming head materializes before you and guilt swarms your heart.

“Hey,” he offers, deep timbre sinking into your bones. You might just throw up.

You haven’t told him about Namjoon. You can’t bear to. But there’s something else more urgent that you need to say to him first.

Chayoung watches through narrow eyes when he leans forward to brush a light kiss on your cheek. He’s so sweet it makes your mouth turn sour. 

“Haven’t seen you around,” Lucas continues, slipping beside you. A steady hand settles at the base of your back. You almost jolt away. 

Chayoung’s face is hard, expression carved out of marble as she stares you down. You know she’s mad at you, rightfully so. Even Sieun hadn’t said anything for a few days after you’d told them about Namjoon. You were mad at yourself too. For what you did–for what you need to do to fix it.

“Been busy. Planning the scavenger hunt and all,” you say, gaze glued to a random lamp at the opposite side of the room. It’s easier than staring at Lucas, who’s still so warm and bright. Practically glowing like he’s got the Sun living in his chest. 

You hope you don’t leave him cloudy.

He weaves his hand into yours, a pleasant noise escaping past his lips. “I know. Great job, by the way. You should be proud.”

Chayoung slinks away at that, the glower on her features burning your blood. You haven’t told anybody yet because you don’t want their advice on this. But you do need to end things with Lucas. It wasn’t fair to him. Yet, it feels nearly impossible when you tear your eyes off the fading figure of your friend and glance up to find him staring at you with the softest smile.

All you do is hurt good people. 

It’s a terrible realisation but it forces you to croak out the words, a rip forming inside of you when that soft smile slips off his face at the sound of them.

“We need to talk.”

But the second they are out you feel something in the world click into place like you’re finally making the right steps toward the correct path even though you need to step on the hearts of others to get there. 

Lucas lets you lead him in silence, the weight of it sinking onto your shoulders when he closes the door behind him, the music giving way to the noise in your head. When he turns to face you, watching apprehensively as you perch yourself at the edge of the bed in the room, it all begins to feel like deja vu. Except you’re on the other side.

“So,” you start, eyes on the wall. The feeling of the mattress dipping as Lucas descends beside you pulls your gaze back to him, heartstrings thrumming when the moonlight leaking through the opened curtains pools into his eyes.

How could Jeongguk have done this?

“We need to end this,” you say, realising as the air leaves your lungs that he did it like this. Like he needed to breath. It feels like cutting an anchor off your ankle, head breaking through furious waters to finally find air.

Lucas pauses, blinking slow. You don’t fill the emptiness with more words, afraid you’ll pour salt into an open wound. He lets what you said ruminate, eyes shifting to the scene around you. A random room, bathed by the glow of the room, and two hearts opposing each other–one already poised to leave. One that was never really there.

“Why?” It’s said lowly. You know why. You owe him this admission, after dragging him around on a sinking ship. But the words refuse to part from your throat. 

“I’m not right for you,” you say instead, hoping he understands. By the flicker across his eyes, he doesn’t. “Like,” you try, your eyes dropping to where his heart lies. “You’ve got a lot of good in you and I don’t. We don’t match.”

Lucas cocks his head, staring at the ceiling. And this his gaze careens to you.

“You don’t think you’re a good person?”

“Well–” you splutter. But Lucas isn’t having it.

“You’re a lovely person, Y/N. With a lot of good in you too. You are kind of shitty for this though but every good person does shitty things.” It’s said factually like he needs you to understand this.

“I know that–”

“You don’t. You put yourself down too much. Why do you think Jeongguk loved you?”

Oh. That seizes that air from your chest, Lucas’s gaze slamming into your own with a surety that stings. 

“Why do you think I like you?” He adds. You don’t know what to do, nervous system spazzing at this information assault. “And I know why you want to end this. You could have said it. I understand, though. The two of you did fight together so well.” He gets up then, towering like a God dictating judgment. “I didn’t expect you to stop loving him immediately, you know.” He’s near the door now, not fleeing but parting a new path. There’s a weird smile on his lips, like the forging of his steps hurts as much yours does. It’s like it’s been hung there, not pulled from his heart like you’d grown used to seeing. 

“What did you expect?” You can’t help but ask.

He pauses, the door half-open. You could tell him to shut it, you could tell him to stay. 

You don’t want to.

“That maybe one day you would love me more than you loved him,” Lucas whispers. He sees the fall on your features, knows the answer on your lips instantly. “But it’s okay that you never could.”

And then he’s gone, honey blonde hair swallowed by the crowd even with his impossible height. He leaves the door ajar, the music seeping into the room. But this time your head is louder, surer. Because Lucas just let you know something you weren’t even aware of yourself. There was no room for anybody else except Jeongguk. And it truly wasn’t fair to offer him your heart when it was half a world away.

—

Half a world away is apparently glaring at the shrubs flanking the back garden. Jeongguk doesn’t know who’s house this is. He doesn’t care either because at the moment he’s considering burning it down. He’d just seen you amble into a room, Lucas trailing behind like a stupid dog and his heart clenching hard in his chest. It took two seconds after the door shut for him to shove Hyeri off his lap and mumble something about needing air.

(What he needed was you).

The coolness of the night ebbed at his boiling blood, but nothing could ease the ache. 

“You look like you need a drink,” Chayoung’s voice feels alien, creeping up his back. He turns to look at her, a polite comment on how he’d like to be left alone hanging on his lips. She interrupts it by handing him a cup, a tender smile gracing her lips. Jeongguk accepts it with a shrug, hoping the burn in his throat will be a distraction. It isn’t. But he forces another sip down as Chayoung slithers outside too, the room behind her glowing as if the building was on fire.

What store sells matches and lighter fluid in the middle of the night? And won’t ask incriminating questions? 

“Why the long face?” She asks, peering at him from the corner of her eye.

Jeongguk shrugs, the words in his head refusing to form into understandable sounds.

“Hyeri not cutting it?” Chayoung murmurs. His eyes snap to her, but she’s not staring at him, her gaze fixed on the dark sky. 

“What do you mean?” Jeongguk is baffled say the least. He thought his act with Hyeri was a little bit more solid proof. He liked her–somewhat. 

Chayoung turns slow, almost sinisterly, a glint in her brown eyes that unsettles him. “I just don’t think she’s in your league.”

The scoff that leaves Jeongguk’s throat burns. He hated that stupid idea of leagues. You should like a person for who they are, not where they stand in foolish social hierarchies. But Chayoung reads his response wrong, suddenly impossibly close, a stray finger trailing along his shoulder. Her nails are talons. He shudders, trying to hide it by leaning away. Chayoung just leans closer, alcohol tainted breath grazing his own. For a moment, Jeongguk considers fleeing back inside to come ask you to collect your drunk friend (a perfect excuse to finally say something to you after months of radio silence) but then he remembers that might potentially end with him walking into the room and finding you with Lucas’s tongue down your throat.

And that would suck. A lot.

But before he can think of another solution Chayoung’s fingernails are scrapping his neck, leaving his skin prickled.

“But then again, do you seem to always pick the wrong ones.” That bristles him and his eyes are suddenly hard and narrow.

“What do you mean by that?” He spits it out, a spark igniting in his chest when Chayoung shrugs. The smile on her face disgusts him.

“You know what I mean.” Her finger is sliding down his shirt and Jeongguk feels branded even through the material. “When you look like this, running around girls like that is honestly a little sad.”

“What the fuck are you talking about?” He’s hoping he’s hearing this all wrong. That she’s just drunk and acting stupid. But when her eyes lift to him he knows she means it. Every word of it.

“You could do better, Jeongguk. So much better.”

“Chayoung you need to shut the fuc–”

Her lips taste like vodka and cherry lip balm, which is sickening because that’s what you taste like–sans the vodka. Cherry lip balm was your brand. It always was, you’ve got like five of them scattered around your room and a couple more hidden in Jeongguk’s. He recoils instantly, acid climbing up his throat as his hands find something–anything to push away. What he finds are Chayoung’s shoulders and when he pushes he pushes hard. They break apart and the floor beneath Jeongguk cracks wide open, his head spinning violently.

“What the fuck is your problem?” He doesn’t know what else to say, the circuits in his brain frying. Chayoung’s tongue skips over her lips, now wet and a little plush from the force she used to slam her mouth into his. 

“Showing you that you can do better.”

He blinks, taken a large step back when Chayoung moves forward, a little sway in her feet. 

“You’re drunk and acting crazy. I think I should call Y/N to com–”

“Oh fuck Y/N. Such a whiny bitch. Do you really think she deserves you? After all the shit she’s put you through?” Chayoung’s eyes feel like knives, sharp and striking deep with every word. 

“Aren't you her friend? What the hell is wrong with you?” Jeongguk needs this to de-escalate. Chayoung wants to throw gasoline on an open flame instead.

“No–what’s wrong with you, Jeongguk? Moping around for a girl who never realised what she had when it was right in front of her? C’mon now.”

“You seriously need to shut the fuck up. You’re not gonna talk about her like that in front of me.”

“Why not? Cause you still love her? Even when she’s fucking Lucas?”

That stings, his heart bursting in his chest because Jeongguk didn’t know you were sleeping with him. He thought it would just be kisses or something. Not that–not Lucas touching you like he used to. But then Hyeri’s face flashes in before his eyes and he wilts. He can’t blame you for anything, not when he’s been doing the same horrible shit to you. And that makes him pause, the sudden realisation that he’s been hurting you smashing into his head. He didn’t want to hurt you–never. Not even if you were hurting him. He just needed a distraction, something to ease you off his mind. And maybe you did too, but all left you both with was gaping wounds that would never heal. And with other people hurt too.

God, this was a mess. And it dawns on Jeongguk that’s he’s made the worst mistake he’s ever made in his life. 

“You should hate her,” Chayoung continues, venomous. 

“I don’t,” Jeongguk returns, voice levelled. All he hates right now is himself. And Lucas (which is fair). Chayoung blanches, shaken by his firmness. “I really don’t, in fact, I need to talk to her. Right now.”

He moves fast, foot already past the threshold when Chayoung speaks again, her words aimed with intent to kill.

“She kissed Namjoon.”

He feels the nerves in his legs still instantly, before they nearly give way entirely, his grip on the door frame the only thing holding him up as his heart tears out of his chest. 

“I thought you should know,” Chayoung adds. And he hears it then, that vile smugness in her voice. She’s lying. She has to be. You wouldn’t do that to him. And he says that, storming back to Chayoung with his chest ripped open, his body thrumming with barely concealed rage. And fear. Jeongguk feels so scared right now because if you did that means everything he felt–everything he feared–could be true.

“She did.” Chayoung is immovable, standing tall and staring him down. “I’m not lying to you. Go ask Namjoon if you don’t believe me.”

Which, Jeongguk realises as his eyes fall shut that is going to absolutely do. And possibly break a nose in the process. He turns, trying to blink away the blurriness in his eyes, before Chayoung stops him with a single sentence again, this one said a little softer.

“Jeongguk,” she starts, eyeing him down, her brown eyes aflame under the moonlight. “I mean it when I say she doesn’t deserve you.”

—

Someone is attempting to break down Namjoon’s door. Which is bizarre considering it’s almost three in the morning. He has to drag himself out of the comfort of his warm sheets to figure out which maniac is attempting to smash through solid wood with only their fists because it seems like they’re almost succeeding. 

The maniac in question is Jeon Jeongguk, standing rigid when Namjoon swings the door open, moonlight bleeding over his features. He’s mad, staring at Namjoon like he wished his head was rolling on the ground instead of stationed square on his shoulders. But there’s something else there, doe eyes glossy.

“Jeongguk? What the hell are–”

“You kissed her.”

Everything stills, the two men fixated on each other. Jeongguk is so still he could have been mistaken for a statue. Almost as if he was waiting for the words that would break this moment, ease the tension seizing his muscles, tell him what he wants to hear. Namjoon can’t do any of that. Instead, he sighs, a muted, “Oh”, floating from his lips.

Jeongguk snaps the second he realises it’s true.

“Oh? You kissed her and all you have to say is oh?” Hands are digging into the soft cotton of his nightshirt and Namjoon’s feet are no longer on the ground. He’s apparently levitating, lifted solely by this hurt angry boy invading his apartment. His back hits the nearest wall with a thud that vibrates through his bones. When the hell did Jeongguk get this strong?”

“Whoa–relax,” Namjoon wheezes, his strong fingers guiding Jeongguk off him. But heartbreak tends to be enough fuel because Jeongguk pushes back with an ease that unnerves him. “Jeongguk, you seriously need to relax. Let go of me and we can talk about this.”

“Why did you do it?” That is what he gets in return. Jeongguk’s voice wavers, coloured a violent red in the velvet of the night.

“I didn’t do anything,” Namjoon returns, the words delivered gingerly.

“No–no you did. You kissed her. You–”

“She kissed me, Jeongguk. And I can seriously explain all of it if you just relaxed and we talked about it–”

“No, she didn’t. She wouldn’t do that to me–she wouldn’t.” And Oh God No, Namjoon thinks he just heard the sound of a heart breaking. It sounds like a weird mangled bird collapsing from the sky and its wing hitting the ground with a funny wet smash, fragile bones snapping like twigs. 

Jeongguk’s fingers peel from his shirt and bury themselves in his hair, yanking at the cropped strands as his face twists. 

This is far too much emotion for a single person to deal with in the middle of the bloody night.

“Hey–hey, calm down. It was a mistake, I promise you. She was just feeling a little all over the place and made a bad choice–”

“No–that’s the fucking point! She made a choice. She chose you.” Jeongguk’s staring at him in a way that hurts, like he’s attempting to transfer all the pain that’s writhing through his body into Namjoon’s from sight alone.

“What? What are you talking about?” 

Jeongguk is frantic, almost like he’s trying to stop himself from pouring out onto the floor. A flood barely contained. “She chose you first. I was there–I was always there. But then you waltzed in and she saw something in you that she didn’t find in me and she chose you.”

Namjoon cocks his head, staring hard at Jeongguk’s round wide eyes, slowly coming to realisations that he was surrounded by idiotic people.

“I still have no idea what you are talking about, but I have to ask, don’t you remember a single thing I told you the last time we spoke about Y/N? You’re the reason we broke up.” That halts him and Namjoon takes that as a moment to press onward, somewhat tired of being dragged into this awkward mess. “And I’ll say this in the nicest way possible but you’re an idiot if you think Y/N wouldn’t pick you over me any day–over anyone really. I could be drowning and you could have a scrapped knee and she’d check on you first. We broke up because I realised I was just a placeholder until she felt brave enough to tell you she liked you. You were rather intimidating for her to approach. Or have you forgotten your track record of girls? It wasn’t easy for her–especially when she was risking losing her best friend.”

The silence that follows aches, Jeongguk’s eyes flashing like he never considered that in the first place. 

“But why the other guys then? Why not just tell me after you?” 

Namjoon’s going to bang his head into the wall. “You’re her best friend–what about that are you not getting? What if you didn’t like her back and it ruined the most important relationship in her life?”

“But I did–I always liked her.”

“No,” Namjoon nearly groans out loud. “You didn’t. If you liked her you wouldn’t have fucked Chaerin in the back of your car and then gone to report it to Y/N with a grin on your face.”

“Oh.”

“Yeah,” Namjoon returns. “Oh. That’s the exact day we broke up too. Such a stupid fight because she was crying and that’s when I put two and two together and realised I was never going to take precedence over you.” 

“I didn’t know I was hurting her,” Jeongguk murmurs, almost distraught. 

A strangled noise erupts from Namjoon’s throat. “You’ve hurt her a lot more than you’ll realise.” But the second he says that and Jeongguk’s face twists into something unrecognisable he wants to take them back.

“She’s too good for me. Maybe we are better off apart.”

“No, no. You’re so wrong actually. This break-up thing has been miserable to watch and I’m not even in the centre of it. I’ve just caught a bunch of stray bullets.”

“You’re not getting me,” Jeongguk’s eyes swing to him. “She came to you at the end of it all. Maybe we are better with other people. Maybe you’re better for her.”

“She came to me because she missed you. She just needed someone to lean on during your absence. I wouldn’t have to do that if you were there. You know, you should just talk about this with Y/N.”

“I can’t, she’s happy with Lucas. I think.”

Namjoon wants to bang both your heads together so bad. Maybe finally the fact that you love each other would get through your thick skulls then. 

“She doesn’t,” he says, instead. “And I know that for a fact. You should really go talk to her. Figure this whole mess out. And also finally get out of my apartment.” Jeongguk’s gaze withers. Namjoon shrugs in return. “It’s the middle of the night and I have a meeting in the morning. I really need to sleep.”

“Oh, fuck, I’m sorry.” He’s so meek like this, nursing a shattered heart and a confused head. It’s slightly jarring to the image he usually presents, so self-assured and unfazed by whatever gets thrown at him. Never exposed like this, every emotion he holds inside displayed across his face. 

“It’s alright. Just think about what I said and talk to her. Honestly. Not skirting over shit like the two of you tend to do. Okay?”

“Yeah,” he says, trailing towards the open door. Namjoon had registered a breeze billowing in, but he’d completely missed the fact that the door of his apartment was swung wide open. Jeongguk abruptly stops just as Namjoon’s sense of bearing returns, turning to face him with his face pulled down by shame. “I’m really sorry. For this whole thing. I shouldn’t have grabbed you like that I was just–”

“I get it. You love her and it feels like she’s slipping from your fingers. Just don’t do that shit again and stop trying to push her away. I’ll say it again–you were always her first choice.” He sees it then, a slight flutter through Jeongguk’s chest. A broken bird mending. 

“Yeah,” Jeongguk breathes. “Thanks.”

Namjoon sighs, offering a tight smile and shutting the door firmly when Jeongguk finally drifts out. He needs a drink before he hits the sheets again. A strong one.

[iguana-braces]

Natasha Trace NSFW Alphabet

Masterlist 

Note: Finally, some Phoenix content to soothe my bi heart, no I’m definitely not projecting at all what are you talking about 

MINORS DNI, 18+

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Absolutely the most considerate, will help with clean-up, is down to shower together, and also likes a good recap. Not like a sports commentator, but just some light banter to relish how fun it was and even to bring up any issues. Let’s talk about sex, baby. Let’s talk about you and me. Let’s talk about all the good things and the bad things that may be. Communication is key!

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

I feel like she’d love her hair. Especially having to have it tied back all the time on duty, it’s so refreshing for her to let it down and to style it and do fun things with it. Might also have a slight hair-pulling kink. 

On her partner, she definitely has a thing for arms, biceps, hands. Hands can say so much about a person, and she loves those little details about her partner. 

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

Doesn’t mind cleaning up a mess ;) whether that’s with a towel or her tongue, that’s up to you

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Really doesn’t have a go-to category when it comes to porn, it’s really just whatever she’s feeling in the moment

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

I think she’d be more of a relationship woman, as opposed to flings and hook-ups, so she’s only had maybe a few partners. But in those relationships, she definitely takes the time to get to know her partner’s needs and how to treat them right. 

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

Even though she can definitely top (and I would let her), I feel like she’s a vers and definitely doesn’t mind being on bottom too. Might be a repressed pillow princess, secretly wants to be spoiled and definitely deserves to be treated like the queen she is.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

Might be more romantic than serious or goofy, but she’s not above saying some dumb shit because it’s funny. Laughter shouldn’t be a mood killer! 

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? Does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

Definitely neat, she might not always take the time to keep it completely bare, but it's never out of control, just as her own personal preference. 

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

Loves intimacy, loves those gentle touches of holding each other, grabbing each other, holding hands during sex. It’s a comfort thing. 

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

Can get loud during masturbation and often has to cover her own mouth or bite down on something if she needs to be quiet, ie. when she's off-shore. 

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

Hair pulling. I know I said this earlier, but I’m sticking with it and her hair is so fucking soft. It’s just a really nice bit of roughness without being too overtly hardcore. 

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

The bed and the couch are preferable, but exceptions can definitely be made. She does have this vague fantasy of masturbating in a plane, it’d be such a head-rush to get off mid-air, but she also knows how risky that would be and how insanely bad it would be if she was caught so unfortunately, it will remain a fantasy for her. 

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

Banter. I mean, the bar scene? I can’t be the only one who was picking up on sexual tension between like, every character and Phoenix was definitely contributing her fair share. Not sure what the context was but something was going on there. Also loves some good old competition with the object of her affection, whether it's playing oiled up football on the beach or Jackbox game night. 

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

She probably wouldn't be into hard pain kinks, inflicting pain, receiving it, etc. Maybe some spanking, but that'd probably be as far as it goes. 

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

Honestly prefers to be the receiver, but is more than happy to work her magic on her partner because their pleasure is her pleasure too. She wouldn't consider herself particularly gifted at it, but she's definitely better at it than she thinks. 

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

Probably likes it a bit more on the slower side, more passionate and sensual where you can take your time and enjoy each other, rather than it being frantic and exhausting and overwhelming. 

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Doesn’t mind non-penetrative sex as a quickie, ex. oral, hand-stuff, especially as a little preview of where the night will end up. But for Phoenix, full-on sex should be something you take your time with. 

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? Do they take risks? etc.)

Absolutely is open to experiment, just for pure curiosity. She might find something new she's into, or she'll just end up with a funny story to tell later. She's definitely more cautious though, not a huge risk taker, but will occasionally let her inhibitions get the best of her. 

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

Can definitely go for a few rounds before she needs a break/nap. But then, like the mighty Phoenix, she rises from the ashes and is ready for more action. 

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

Absolutely, at home she has quite the collection of toys. Even if she doesn’t exactly use them all frequently, she’s definitely tried them all out at some point. It’s about the experimentation, the discovery! 

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Absolutely loves to tease just as a build-up to whatever y’all will get up to later, but I don’t think she’d be intentionally unfair about it. It’d be more light-hearted and for shits and giggles rather than, “I’m gonna push you to your limits until you’re a wreck”

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

The first couple times, she might be a little self-conscious and quieter. But once she’s comfortable, and especially if her partner is into her being loud, she’ll let herself go, moaning, gasping, etc. It's a way to reassure her partner that they're rocking her world. And she’ll do some light dirty talk/reassurance/prompting ex. “You like that?”, “Harder”, “Feels so good”. 

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

I don’t have anything particularly exciting for this one…. 

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

I feel like this question is more directed at people with dicks... I wouldn’t think she has any piercings, maybe a belly button piercing. Definitely has a regrettable tattoo hidden somewhere though 

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

It’s pretty average, she’s not constantly thinking about it and can go for a while without it, but when she is in the mood, she’s not completely afraid to show it, especially around her partner. 

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

She’s up for some pillow talk afterwards as y’all wind down for the day. 

[leejeongz]

nsfw a-z YOSHI (treasure)

🔅 for @ateezwhorez i hope you enjoy this honey 🥺❤️ dw the others should be written soon tooooo 🔅

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

he just feels cuddly and swoony. he’s in love with you, even more so than before even though he didn’t think that was possible. he loves to cuddle with you, just until you catch your breath again at least. he’s still still high from the whole experience, it’s the perfect time to be open and show your vulnerability even more. it’s less about the physical things he does for you, more about how you two deepen your relationship even further. he uses this time to have deep chats that slowly fade into more light hearted conversations before drifting off to sleep.

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

his eyes are his favourite thing about him i think. he likes how you can understand what he wants just from looking into them. they’re intense and needy, oppressive even. they’re infatuating. they’re his secret weapon to make you obey him without even realising what you’re doing.

on you, he likes your lips. he likes how they feel on his own lips, on his neck, around his dick, anywhere and everywhere. he also just thinks they look pretty and are the perfect colour naturally, actually something he noticed about you first which he found really attractive.

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

doesn’t like to make a mess at first… might even cum in a tissue the first few times because he thinks it’s more respectful.

but when he’s comfortable and such, he’d love to cum all over your hands after you finished him off with a handjob, he thinks it looks really hot and it’s enough to get him horny again hehe.

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

he often imagines how you'd look tied up in front of him. at his disposal. his fantasies are actually super kinky but he very rarely tells you them. he’d probably never tie you up to the extent that he dreams of doing because he doesn’t want to hurt you and he thinks of you as quite fragile 🥺

i wanna do another because my wild card was kinda short this time but he would l o v e to do a life drawing of you. like this isn’t even sexual but i don’t wanna get attacked if i write this on something that is fluff lol. it would be something that he’d treasure and something that he would be so proud of. to make it dirty since it’s a dirty secret 👀 he had a few intrusive thoughts while he drew you and found it super hard to stay hyperfocused on the drawing. if you tried to flirt with him while modelling, he’d just tell you to save it for later and that’s when he’d unleash the beast lol.

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

1 sexual partner with whom he was in a relationship with. he doesn’t think about it much and when he’s with you, he’s very much focused on you. one look at you and he’s forgotten about them already.

he knows what he’s doing for the most part, but sometimes he just wants to learn new things with you, together.

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

he likes facing you: missionary and cowgirl, depending on what feels natural at the time. he likes bringing his face close to yours and hovering his lips over yours, occasionally touching with every thrust. enough to feel the other’s breath, but not enough to actually kiss.

once the pace has slowed a little, he’ll give you the kiss he’s been teasing you with for what feels like hours just so that you’ll appreciate it and enjoy it all the more.

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

he’s quite serious in the moment. he wants to make sure that you’re enjoying yourself and that he’s doing the absolute most to exceed any expectations each and every time.

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

he naturally doesn’t have much hair down there. he trims what he has and keeps it tidy since he feels it’s more intimate.

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

most of the time, he’s extremely romantic during sex. he’s very into slow and sensual sex that allows you two to bond physically and emotionally. it’s important to him that he understands your wants and needs as his partner and vice versa, making the whole experience super romantic.

but that’s not all the time. sometimes he just wants to rip off your clothes and have his way with you and that’s ✨totally fine✨

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

i feel like he’s a typical laptop on desk, tissues besides him type of guy. he doesn’t do it too often, but when he does he has to fully commit because there is absolutely no way he’s stopping for anything/anyone that isn’t you.

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

he’s not that kinky, he’s a vanilla man. i’ll just list some sexual things that he likes hehe

whispering- he likes when you whisper close to his ear and he likes doing it to you. the tingling down his neck is intoxicating, he can’t help but want to feel it again and again. what you say is important too. he likes receiving praise. saying things like “you make me so wet” or “you turn me on so much” makes him so happy, it’s a great way to drive him crazy.

ropes- not to an extreme level, just one rope to tie your hands together behind you or in front of you.

eye contact- he likes that his eyes intimidate you of course, but you pushing past that and maintaining eye contact makes him feel a rush to MAKE you feel intimidated. he wants you to feel like he’s in charge (even if he’s not) and if he can’t do that with his eyes, then it’s pretty much over for him, but he likes that fact that you stood up to him and it turns him tf on.

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

he likes sex in bed or on the floor. anywhere that he or you can lie comfortably. he likes fucking you in hotel beds. although it’s not really that dirty, it is for you two.

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

gentle strokes- he likes when you trace his jawline or collarbones with your fingers, especially when you have long nails. he almost always returns the favour. he likes gently dragging his finger up and down your thigh before and between rubbing your pussy.

directness- tell him you’re turned on. tell him why you’re turned on. tell him how he turned you on. tell him how you feel and why you think he should feel the same way to. by the end of your talk, he’s gurenteed to feel the same way.

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

angry sex/sex during an argument.

he wants to settle things properly first. sex isn’t a solution nor is it forgiveness. the only way he can truly be intimate with you is when you’re both happy and when you’re both on the same page. “angry” sex like that is meaningless to him, the argument mustn’t have been important if you can just forget about it so why can’t you just talk it through?

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

he’s naturally a giver and oral (sex in general) is no exception. he wants you to be able to allow yourself to receive instead of forcing it upon you if you’re not used to it. he introduces his tongue slowly and always asks if what he’s doing is okay. even if you are used to it, he’s always gonna build up to it. he likes when you take the lead even when he’s eating you out, he likes when you’re giving him directions or your hands are in his hair, controlling him, because then he knows that what he’s doing is right.

not too fussed about receiving head. of course he would never say no, but he’s not one to ask for one just to finish without pleasuring you. he’s eyes are closed during the whole thing and and he lets out small, quiet cusses which he knows turn you on. also says nice stuff to you (when he can get the words out) while you’re sucking his dick because 🥺 he is nice.

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

as i mentioned before, he’s slow and sensual. he keeps the experience extremely romantic and memorable. it leaves you wanting more and he knows.

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

not his style. at all. he likes to draw out the details, take his time with you, ensure you've both been treated and pleasured sufficiently.

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

he’d only experiment with things that you’d tried before or things you’ve researched. he doesn’t wanna try anything new to the pair of you especially early on because he doesn’t wanna hurt you or leave a bad impression or anything like that. he’d never spring anything on you that you hadn’t discusssed either.

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

2-3 rounds, but it totally depends on you. how much you want, how much you turn him on after, how tired you are etc.

he usually lasts for around 20 mins but needs like a 10 second breather sometimes

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

i don’t see him owning any toys but i don’t think he’d be opposed to using them. if you wanted to use them, great fantastic he’d get straight to it. he would definitely like to try them for himself at least once too.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

he doesn’t tease you much, because he’d rather just do it? but i guess if you’d consider extended foreplay to the point where you have to beg him to fuck you as teasing then he’s the master lol. oH and also doesn’t just kiss you during sex, he definitely teases with those.

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

tries to hold his moans and cusses back but fails lol. they’re quiet and soft but you can still hear them. he gets kind of shy about them after sex too and he doesn’t really like it when you bring it up.

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

“take it off” he orders, looking directly at your chest. you remove your tshirt on command and throw it to the ground. he walks towards you, backing you into the wall behind you. it was a harsh and sudden coldness on your back, but there was something even colder in front of you. his eyes glared at you, which subconsciously made you remove your bra.

“so fucking beautiful” he growled while taking one of your breasts in his hand. it wasn’t long before he started with his tongue. he circled your nipple with his tongue while he played with the other one in his hand. your head automatically fell back, luckily resting on the wall. he slowly began to flick your nipple with his tongue before gently kissing it and moving to the other one.

your hand found its way to his hair, grabbing it and pulling it a little. you occasionally let out small gasps, which almost always made him look up at you and smile.

after a few minutes, he stood up once again, head buried in your neck as he whispered what he wanted you to do for him next.

“please, make me cum. you've turned me on so much tonight.”

that’s when it all started making sense. you’d been bowling that night with friends. this involved a lot of bending over, a lot of casual skin touches when neither of you were bowling and a LOT of whispering closely in his ear since the music was so loud. you knew he liked it when you whispered, but you didn’t know even in that context that it would send shivers down your spine. you stored that info, maybe you’d use that against him one day after he’d been teasing you.

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

i think average, with just a little under average thickness. i’m not sure if you can ever call a dick pretty but i feel with yoshi it would be justified, especially when it’s hard.

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

i’m pretty sure it varies depending on your type of relationship. if you are a romantic partner, 3-4 times a week. if it’s just a fling, once maybe twice a week at most. he has a naturally high sex drive, but he’s less likely to take his time with someone he has no feelings for meaning he doesn’t really crave sex as often as he would with someone he’s romantically involved with.

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

as i mentioned above, yoshi wants to talk to you and connect with you even further after sex. he falls asleep when he’s ready to fall asleep, which is after he’s learnt something about you that makes his heart flutter, that he can tease you about later on.

[lady-griffin]

I'm curious, who do you ship in Otome Game no Hametsu Flag?

Oh Boy, get ready for a lengthy answer, that’s a lot longer than you ever wanted. 

I pretty much ship Katarina with everyone in the harem, except Keith and Sophia.

Even though Keith is in love with Katarina, they have such a pure sibling dynamic. I would hate for Katarina and Keith to lose their sibling, even if they gained a romantic partner out of it.

Sophia and Katarina have such a wonderful platonic relationship that I just adore. I know Sophia loves Katarina like the rest, but their whole dynamic is the most friendship based, especially for a certain big reason. I prefer their friendship with one another than a romance.

Here’s who I ship and in what order.

1. Katarina x Geordo

I love their dynamic and relationship and just everything about them. The setup for these two works for me on every level. Their scenes are my favorite and I’m always looking forward to seeing them interact with one another.

The juxtaposition of Geordo clearly being in love with Katarina and her having contingency plans in case he exiles or attacks her is just amazing. It’s so goddamn funny.

Plus, that juxtaposition provides such wonderful tension between the two, which is very enjoyable to see and explore.

It’s also interesting that their dynamic was established first, which makes me think that the rule of first guy/girl might apply to the story. Especially, since their engagement is a factor to a lot of the other love-interests’ feeling towards Katarina.

While it hasn’t been developed that much (at least in the Manga) something about Geordo being a black-hearted prince and not the fairytale prince he presents himself as is, for me, a very rich mine that has yet to be explored. The fact that Katarina is also very aware of that side of him, because of her secret knowledge, makes it all the more intriguing.

There are just so many possibilities for these two.

While this might ruin the harem aspect of it all, I think there could be a very interesting new dynamic if Katarina returned Geordo’s feelings –

(1) But she was completely unaware of her own feelings.

(2) If she were aware, would completely think Geordo is not in love with her.

(3) Katarina wonders and panics if her wanting to be with Geordo confirms that she is the villainess. Is she getting in the way of him and Maria or him and someone else? Is she just sealing her own doomed ending by being in love with him?

OR what if Geordo did break off his engagement with Katarina, because he has to be engaged to someone else (or thinks he does). And Katarina, to her own surprise, became sad.

Because then I can imagine a whole Ouran Highschool Host Club like-scenario, with Katarina going after Geordo but some other group or force tries to stop her.

Then whole harem helps her get to him, each letting her go in the process, because of their feelings (not despite) they all want Katarina to be happy.

There are so many possibilities for these two, so even if it’s not what I imagine, I’m just excited to see what is to come for these two. 

They just won over my little shipper heart.

2.  Katarina x Mary

I greatly enjoy Mary and Katarina’s friendship and whole dynamic. I love their scenes together. Seeing them together as friends, an unrequited love, a couple – is perfection for me.

They have such wonderful chemistry together and I’m always hungry for more. 

I love Mary having that bit of an edge to her (apparently more so in the Light Novels). And combined with Katarina’s density you have the makings of a great comedic dynamic.

In the game it seems like Mary was just the perfect lady – outside and inside. There wasn’t a darker shade or ulterior aspect to her (though that could just be the game’s limited view of the world).

But our Mary, she is more than willing to fight for Katarina.

That girl has an extensive profile on all of her rivals and is closely monitoring all their relationships with Katarina. Mary would cut a bitch is what I’m saying.

Which is very similar to Geordo, which is why I think Mary is so appealing to me as a love interest for Katarina. What I like about Geordo and Katarina, Mary and Katarina also have that factor.

Also, since Katarina is best girl and Mary is also best girl then clearly the two should be together (I’m sorry, Sophia and Maria – I love you two as well).

If Mary got the girl in the end, I would be over the moon.  And that’s what shipping is all about.

3. Katarina x Maria

I enjoy their relationship, whether it be platonic or romantic.

I was curious when I began to read the Manga if Maria was going to become the villain, since Katarina became the heroine. I was pleased that was not the case – hell, far from it as Katarina romanced her too.

They’re just so cute and sweet. And I love that when everyone else is exasperated with Katarina, Maria is just smiling all lovey-dovey, not even bothered. That’s great.

It also seems like Katarina saved Maria from her loneliness in a way that the game never really explored with the four main love-interests, so there’s that whole aspect to their relationship, which I am intrigued by and really like. 

If I’m being honest, though, I do think they are missing that good romantic tension that I think all good romances need. I want more of a bite to them and their relationship. So, they’re not quite there for me as a couple, at least not yet. 

Nonetheless, Katarina is lovely and wonderful. Maria is lovely and wonderful. So, the two of them together would be lovely and wonderful. 

4. Katarina x Alan

I guess with the kind of character Alan is, I thought we would have gotten more of his relationship with Katarina than what we actually get (in the Manga so far).

When I started reading the manga, I just assumed he was going to be the main rival to Geordo. So, when that didn’t happen, I was surprised. A part of me feels like there’s something missing with these two that I’m not being shown, which piques my imagination.

I like that the anime has elaborated on Alan and Katarina’s relationship, with what we’ve been given so far, because their relationship was lacking.

I love the drama of Alan falling in love with his brother’s fiancée and all that jazz. They also have a unique dynamic as friends and once rivals which is nice.

While Katarina is dense as all hell, Alan is not too far behind – especially when it comes to feelings and how to act on them. So, their combined density might just kill everyone else if combined– which would be a lot of fun.  

Overall, I do ship them less because of what we’ve been given so far, but more because of their potential.

5. Katarina x Nicol

Unfortunately, for Nicol there’s not all that much of him in comparison to the others.

I like his and Katarina’s relationship from his side - he’s cool and reserved to pretty much everyone (except Sophia), but quickly loses all that calm when it comes to Katarina. 

I do love his whole I’m prepared to walk an appropriate distance behind you, while you become the wife of my dear friend and prince and maybe my future King. That’s just some good romantic angst there.

It’s also nice how they both love Sophia and that is the basis of their entire foundation. 

There is something so underrated about a person falling for another, because of how they interact with their family. 

Oh, and Sophia rooting for these two, is just too cute.

6. Katarina x Raphael

Honestly, these two just comes across as though Katarina adopted a new little brother – even though he’s older. But I’m not opposed to their dynamic if it got more development. I’m really more in love with their friendship than anything else, though. 

Non-Katarina Ships (Gasp, can it be?)

7. Alan x Mary

I really like their dynamic as it currently is – and it would hilarious to me that while these two are engaged and both in love with Katarina – that somehow amongst all of that mess they started to develop feelings for one another.

In the game, Alan didn’t have any feelings for Mary (which how is that even possible - she’s Mary).

But, boy did he get jealous in this timeline when he thought Katarina was stealing away his fiancée when they were kids (which, yeah, that was 100% the case).

It feels like there could definitely be something between these two, which I’m not oppose to, as long as it feels organic and not just them being paired off together to tie up loose ends. 

8. Maria x Raphael 

I don’t know why, but I just really like the idea of these two together. Maybe because it feels like opposites coming together with their magic.

I think it would be fun if one of Maria’s romance-targets became a romantic possibility for her in this time-line. I just like them - romantic or not.

9. Keith x Maria

I think they would be sweet. Out of the four main romance-targets these two just work the best with how they are in the current timeline, in my opinion.  

10. Keith x Nicol

I saw a fan comic of these two and I liked it…

Keith being charmed by Nicol (as we have seen men are also affected) is nice. They also have the whole, I will do anything to protect my sister thing, going for them.

So, that’s some nice shared ground between the two of them. 

11. Keith x Sophia

They’re both very sweet and adorable younger siblings. It would be cute.

12. Mary x Maria

Honestly, why not. There’s not a real reason here, other than – why the hell not?

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And that’s who I ship in Otome Game No Hametsu Flag. 

This is just my personal opinion of who I ship. No judgement on anyone else or what they ship or who their favorite ship is. 

Also, sorry for the length. I have a lot of feelings and opinions on Hamefura. 

[lady-plantagenet]

if you’re still doing those: edward iv / elizabeth woodville for the ship bingo 🕊x

I’m so sorry, this whole past week has been one massive mental breakdown and I have been finding it incredibly hard to do anything besides uni assignments and writing. Also, I have a lot to say about these two so I didn’t want to half-ass it.

Some Comments:

I don’t know if I told you this but this used to be my OTP, like years ago when I first got into this era and did not think/know much about Clarence and the others. But now it’s no longer the case and that’s not necessarily because it got replaced by gisabel per se but because I’ve always found it extremely hard to reconcile myself with the infidelity aspect. Even when I was more childish I felt a bit dissapointed in the fact that he didn’t appoint her (or Anthony) regent, like obviously now I understand why it was to an extent untenable politically, but back then my younger mind just saw it as ‘he trusted his brother more’, which kind of threw a wrench. So much for the ‘it’s complicated’ square. The problem with long marriages is that the delicious aspect tends to wane, and that can’t be helped in a 20 year long marriage! But obviously the 1464-1470 years taken into isolation... well... it was the epitome of delicious, sexual and romantic. You might find me pointing this out wierd given that I didn’t make the same remarks on Catherine of Valois and Owen Tudor who were also a pretty long marriage, it’s just that... in my mind they kind of stagnate age-wise even as they advance past their twenties because the whole narrative (historical and fictional) around them focuses on the first years of their union and the tribulations, whereas Edward and Elizabeth have a presence way past that as they were after all monarchs and never at one point left to live a quiet life and were no longer chronicled - so in that way they age before our eyes. And with that age you see the infidelity issue get worse, together with Edward’s greater promotion of Gloucester, his drinking, eating etc issues and it starts painting a sad image into my mind of like idk a love that at one point stopped being what it once was and could never again be - like the embers burning out? This turns the what could have been a obbsessive unhealthiness borne from passion into another caused by disillusionment? I don’t put too much stock into this, personally I feel the change in Edward was caused by other external factors and not Elizabeth herself eg Warwick and Clarence’s betrayals and deaths, the massive burden of fixing the previous administration’s mess etc. Nevertheless, Elizabeth on her own did not seem to be enough to drag him out of it and prevent some of his unhealthy habits. I do realise it’s a bit too much to ask for though.

Nevertheless, I do see them as soulmates, she seemed like one of the only people who could keep up with him in will and wit (though Jane Shore seemed quite a competitor in this regard) I’m not the type of person who thinks Edward was dominated by his lust, and I think based on that venetian letter (you know the Ziglio one XD) and the fact that it said that Edward loved her for a long time before marrying her, it was clearly a decision from the heart not the *ahem* codpiece. Also a part of the soulmate/star-crossed trope is the whole ‘they defied all odds, they withstood opposition’, and Liz and Big Ed are famously that. I would totally read fic for this but surprisingly there aren’t many! I honestly don’t know how come?? Like yes they do appear in a lot of histfics and the like, but apart from TWQ they are never the central focus, and even there we don’t get enough of them (which really irritates me). Some write me some!! I am intrigued by the pairing but extremely picky when it comes to how they are written because I have particular headcanons which I am fairly wedded to but do not expect they will be abided by. More in the pragraph below.

The Ship:

I absolutely can not stand portrayals of Elizabeth Woodville as a golddigger, much less some Marilyn Monroe type of bimbo. We know the type of beauty she had... a chronicler called her an excellent but solemn (or sthing like that) beauty where York in his letters to her for the marriage of Sir Hugh complemented her deep sorrowful look or such. She was a pious, economical woman who took her queenship extremely seriously and led a cultivated court, patronised literature and may have also written a poem herself (you know the one about Venus we spoke about). She was years older than Edward and on top of that a widow with two children of her own. I want to see that dynamic! I want to especially see how she drew Edward away from Warwick’s influences in order to put him on the path he was angling for: the statute of livery 1463 and the new sumptuary laws (that most famously restricted the length of piked shoes to 3 inches hhh) are very indicative of a king who (even before meeting her) wanted to install a strong centralised monarchy with a monopoly on violence and its laws. Not because of some rapaciousness on her part but because her and her family believed in him, experienced the exequies of war and wanted to put a stop to it. I want her to love Edward for putting an end to people like Warwick who caused all her family’s (and the gentry class as a whole) misfortunes and struggles, and in a way feel like she provided him with not only a circle of people who would help him realise this but also with a sort of family to soften the personal blow that he felt when part of his birth family betrayed him. I love the father-in-law becomes surrogate father trope (as I think you can tell) and I like to see Earl Rivers as that for him, hell you can take it even further and make Jacquetta as some sort of mother-figure for him as opposed to Cecily who apparently scorned the marriage and at that time seemed to side more heavily with George. I like to think under her influence she empowered him to act more ruthlessly in pursuit of his goal, but at the same time I think that while certain things were good in the long-term eg Clarence’s execution, (maybe Desmond’s??) they may have had a toll on the relationship later on. I headcanon Elizabeth as tragically hardened by the loss of her brother and father at Edgecoat and I think that may also have thrown a bit of a wrench into their love, given how she was faced with the violent consequences of being queen and afterwards with how Warwick and co. went free and she lost her chance of vengeance. I don’t think they were ever out of love though, especially judging by how she continued to be pregnant up to 3 years short of his death and the absolute trust he put in her. But I headcanon his attachment to Jane Shore as him seeking the light-hearted wit and lively banter that Elizabeth slowly started losing as the years went on and she became less vivacious and a tad more calculating and icy. I headcanon them as having a rift when it came to dealing with problems: she would keep on with her ministrations whereas he would just want to engage in escapisms. But the thing with the infidelity is that one should keep in mind that during that period relations would have to stop once the woman started showing, so Edward having affairs should not be read into too much tbh, perhaps it was more a type of addiction on his part like drinking and eating was - like all part of an excessive Epicureanism which he adopted to relieve himself of his stresses and sorrows (and boy were there many!), so not something that necessarily indicated he grew tired of her or whatever. Maybe she understood that and that’s why she didn’t make a fuss? But then again, the fact that there wasn’t complete faithfulness remains a personal impediment for me with this ship :// that’s just me personally.

Also the discussion we had about Mélusine and the alchemical elements and Edward IV’s own interest in such (which was used as ammunition for George when he accused Edward of engaging in dark arts to corrupt his subjects XD... yes I know très ironique)... made me headcanon him and Elizabeth bonding over this, and perhaps seeing their union as somewhat quite mystical. It would be something so interesting to explore and I think it’s a real shame that people nowadays recoil everytime they hear the word ‘Woodville’ and ‘Mélusine’ put together which is a shame because when handled delicately it could turn into something beautiful and it was certainly not a PG invention!

Also... those two have some bitchin’ fannart!

So yes, this was quite the stream of consciousness... but I do have a lot of thoughts for this couple! They were my OTP for the longest time after all.

[billyhardgrove]

could you make a nsfw alphabet with billy 🙏

A = Aftercare (What they’re like after sex)

Cuddles and cigarettes pretty much sums it up. Just lying there with you, nicotine in his lungs, that’s when Billy’s most content. Your chin would be resting on his chest as you look up at him, while his hand would trace up and down along the spine of your back, the pair of you revelling in each other’s company. The calm mood was a complete contrast to what you had been doing moments prior.

B = Body part (Their favourite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Of his own, it would have to be his arms. We all know he works out like a maniac, lifting weights, doing push ups etc. And he loves the times when he’s pounding into you and your fingers have to grasp onto his arms from the utter pleasure you were in. He also can’t deny the talent of his hands, using his fingers in ways that have you screaming his name while it also being a good visual for him, fuck.

His favourite body part of yours would have to be your tits – he prefers boobs over ass – and he finds it so sexy watching them bounce while you’re working his cock inside of you, with him not being able to help himself when his lips start sucking and licking at the nipples. But then also, your own lips are a whole other turn on, kissing them whenever he can, no matter where you guys are, in public or not, he adores having your mouth on his. He also loves taking your lower lip in between his teeth when you’re heavily making out and especially loves seeing your lips wrapped around his cock while you look up at him, God, in those moments, you truly had him wrapped around your finger.

C = Cum (Anything to do with cum basically… I’m a disgusting person)

He enjoys watching you cum, the way your eyes close and your mouth forms an ‘o’ as he hits the perfect spot to make you release. Seeing you fall apart because of him not only increases his ego but also assures him that he’s somewhat good at treating you well – something that he’s always so doubtful over no matter how many times you reassure him. There was just something about being able to pleasure you so well that made him feel a little more confident in himself around you, secure even, that, as stupid as it sounds, you really did want to be with him and that you weren’t faking it.

D = Dirty Secret (Pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

The dirty polaroids he has of you stashed in his desk drawer. You had just gotten the camera for your birthday and Billy took it upon himself to do a photoshoot, if you like, of the two of you together. He loved looking at them if he was horny and you weren’t there to help him out. He was particularly fond of the one with you where you were laying back on your bed, your face in utter ecstasy, mid-orgasm, your mouth agape, your eyes scrunched shut. Billy’s dick was visible towards the bottom where his cum was shooting out onto your tits and it was the hottest picture he had ever seen. It was like something straight out of a porno and it never failed to get Billy hard from a mere glance at it.

E = Experience (How experienced are they? Do they know what they’re doing?)

He’s as experienced as they come. The concept of commitment was completely tarnished and torn apart when the only representation he had of it was between his mum and dad, and their shitty relationship is what led him to be the way he was today. So yes, he’s slept around, a lot. He knew exactly what he was doing but that only made him so much more addictive. And the idea that sure he had been with many others before you was perhaps a little intimidating, it also gave you a hidden confidence because you were the one he chose to – dare you say – commit to.

F = Favourite Position (This goes without saying.)

Billy loves fucking you from behind. He loves seeing your face pressed into the mattress, your eyes closed in pleasure as your hands grasp onto the bed sheets beneath you. And it’s gotta be the hottest thing when he slaps your ass and your mouth opens and the sexiest moan leaves your lips every time.

G = Goofy (Are they more serious in the moment, or are they humorous, etc)

There are some times when it’s more light-hearted and you guys are just messing around, maybe having lazy giggly morning sex or having a quickie somewhere, but other times it’s very rough, very dirty and very hot. Dirty talk and moans matched with various different positions are what most hook ups consist of.

H = Hair (How well groomed are they, does the carpet match the drapes, etc.)

This is Billy we’re talking about; he cares about his appearance a lot and that includes downstairs as well. So he keeps it tidy, trims it, keeps it neat.

I = Intimacy (How are they during the moment, romantic aspect…)

For the most part, Billy isn’t that romantic, preferring dominance and rough, hard sex as opposed to ‘passionate’ sex. However, there have been the occasional times in which he may have been in a low mood, feeling vulnerable and particularly clingy towards you because he had convinced himself that you were thinking of leaving him. And so that would lead to the two of you actually ‘making love’, nothing but affection and love and care shared between the two of you as he takes it slow, wanting to prove to you that he adores you and you show him that you won’t leave him.

J = Jack Off (Masturbation)

He does it whenever he can. Every morning in the shower, sometimes slipping out of class to do it in a janitor’s closet; wherever he can get away with it, he’ll do it. The guy’s got a very high sex drive, what can he say.

K = Kink (One or more of their kinks)

He’s pretty kinky. Billy’s very in to being rough and dominant so a lot of the times you hook up there’d be choking and spanking, a lot of dirty talk and name calling.

L = Location (Favourite places to do the do)

Surprisingly – as much as he loves his car – his Camaro probably wouldn’t be his favourite. Sure, it’s an easy choice when there’s nowhere else but really it’s quite cramped which really limits what exactly he can do. He actually really likes doing it against furniture, perhaps bending you over your desk or on the sofa where the risk of getting caught is high. But then again, sometimes just fucking on a bed is the most simple and satisfying.

M = Motivation (What turns them on, gets them going)

Red lingerie – there’s just something about it that he fines so hot, the way it compliments your body, how frisky and sexy it is when you slowly and teasingly remove it from your body. God, he gets reminded of how truly lucky he is from seeing you in your underwear.

N = NO (Something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

There’s not a lot Billy wouldn’t do because as we know, he’s very rough and dominating, but he absolutely refuses to share you. You’re his, and his only, and there was no chance of another guy getting his hands on you just to get him off. He also wouldn’t do anything that you wouldn’t be up for. He wouldn’t force you to do something or try and persuade you to change your mind if you’re adamant not to, as he respects you and doesn’t want to make you do something you’re not 100% comfortable with.

O = Oral (Preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc)

Honestly, he loves receiving. There’s just something so hot about it that on days in which you’re merely wearing your hair in a ponytail or he catches sight of the bruises on your knees, he finds himself trying to fix his pants because it reminds him of you sucking him off. The way your mouth wraps around him, your eyes looking up at him innocently while you’re doing the furthest thing from innocence. And, God, he loves getting sucked off in scandalous places, whether it’s behind some bushes at the park, or while he’s driving, he just loves it.

And of course, he adores going down on you too. Tasting your sweetness and hearing your moans for him while he pleases you with his tongue. Sometimes just out of the blue he would ask you to sit on his face just so he could pleasure you because he knew how much you liked it.

P = Pace (Are they fast and rough? Slow and sensual? etc.)

Fast and rough always. Billy has a lot of pent up anger and aggression, and the way he releases it is either through fighting or sex, so naturally he’s very rough when he fucks. Seeing the nail marks on his back paired with the bruises on your hips, he loves the reminders of the mind-blowing sex you guys always have and he sometimes can’t help but show them off to others (like while he’s playing basketball, shirtless).

Q = Quickie (Their opinions on quickies rather than proper sex, how often, etc.)

Billy loves to fuck whenever he can, so of course he loves quickies. Normally he enjoys doing foreplay and taking his time, teasing and taunting, making you want him before he finally gives it to you, but sometimes there just isn’t a lot of time and a quick fuck is all he needs right then.

R = Risk (Are they game to experiment, do they take risks, etc.)

Of course! Billy lives life like he’s going to die young (I’m not sad fuck off) and that often involves risk taking. He loves (as previously stated) driving while you’re sucking him off, and that can go vice versa too; he’s fingered you a handful of times while you’ve been driving, before you’ve had to pull over and sit on his cock. He also would be down for anal (so long as you are obviously), which he has done a couple of times before but he knows it’s not as enjoyable for the girl most times (but he’d be sure to make it up to you in other ways ;) )

S = Stamina (How many rounds can they go for, how long do they last…)

Billy’s built up his stamina and he can last for a long time. He always always makes sure you finish before he does, ensuring you’ve came twice most times before he finishes. Then give him a moments rest and he could go again, sometimes a third time too if he’s really horny.

T = Toy (Do they own toys? Do they use them? On a partner or themselves?)

He wouldn’t personally use them, but he couldn’t deny that the image of you doing it to yourself would definitely give him a hard on. Though he prefers to pleasure you himself rather than the aid of some toy. Billy doesn’t need help.

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

A fucking lot. He loves to watch the excitement build in your eyes and face, watching the way your body reacts to what he does, your back arching off the bed when he hits the perfect spot. You would be absolutely soaking for the boy before his cock has even been inside you. The filthy words he would whisper to you, telling you of exactly what he would do to you, which way he would take you, even the mere lustful expression he would give you, his lip in between his teeth as his eyes trail your body, God, he knows how to make you want him.

V = Volume (How loud they are, what sounds they make)

He isn’t big on moaning (though he for sure loves to hear yours). He lets out low deep grunts, that are not too loud but are often pressed to your ear, and lets out throaty ‘fuck’s occasionally when he thrusts into you in a certain way. However, he is big on his dirty talk, not being able to help himself with telling you how you feel, what way you’re taking him, with a lot of ‘you’re pussy feels so tight around me, baby’ and ‘God, your filthy mouth takes my cock so well’.

W = Wild Card (Get a random headcanon for the character of your choice)

Billy is possessive and jealous as fuck. If a guy so much as looks at your ass, he will either be putting the guy in his place or else showing him exactly who you belong to, probably making out with you in front of them, or merely smacking your ass to which you would blush at. But sometimes you enjoy messing with him a bit, making the boy jealous on purpose because, my God, jealous sex is the single dirtiest and hottest thing you have ever had, and you just love when it happens. Billy is rougher, wilder, more dominant as he goes out of his way to show you just who’s girlfriend you are, often painting you with marks so as everyone else is well aware the next day too.

X = X-Ray (Let’s see what’s going on in those pants, picture or words)

Let’s just say, the next day after sex you often find yourself with a sore jaw and difficulty walking.

Y = Yearning (How high is their sex drive?)

Very. It’s like his blood is always poisoned with lust and hormones as he’s horny 24/7.

Z = ZZZ (… how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

It depends on the circumstances, but he could fall asleep pretty easily (though that doesn’t necessarily mean he does) as he is next to you and he is completely content. Though, for the most part, he enjoys cuddling you, talking about nonsense and waiting until he finally hears your breathing deepen before he finally allows himself to pass out, with at least one arm around you. It’s just, sometimes his brain starts telling him that you’re going to leave, and he falls scared of being alone, but so long as he actually sees you falling asleep in his arms, then he can sleep in peace, knowing you’re right there by his side.

[afterpinkdiamond]

We Need to Talk S2E9

This show hits hard when it tries. This episode is such a roller coaster of emotions it manages to feel like a much longer story. What we know about Pink Diamond’s life on Homeworld throws Rose and Greg’s conversation in a new light and we’re introduced to the original Rainbow Quartz. Also Garnet is like the ultimate shipper.

Connie and Steven are helping Greg sort his vinyl collection when Connie remarks that she only ever listens to Classical music and movie soundtracks at home. Greg immediately jumps to correct this error by playing The Philosophy Majors’ record “Nietzche’s Breakdown” for the kids. Everyone is dancing and Steven and Connie accidentally fuse into Stevonnie again! Greg is absolutely astonished. The kids quickly break apart and Connie freaks out a little, begging Greg to not tell her parents about the magic things she’s doing with Steven. Greg calms her down, claiming he’s probably the only human who understands. Steven senses a story and Greg starts telling them about attempting to fuse with Rose by showing them a vhs cassette music video.

The video is of Greg in his younger days with the Gems, playing “What Can I Do for You?”. Garnet is playing keytar and Amethyst is on drums, just like they were in “Steven and the Stevens”. Rose is center stage on vocals and Greg is playing guitar and harmony. Pearl is sulking off stage. Greg must be one of the most amazing music instructors the world has ever known, that or gems have a natural talent for music. It’s confirmed that this episode is only a few months after Rose and Greg met and he’s already taught Amethyst and Garnet two very different skill sets enough to be in a band. Later in “The Question” Ruby picks up guitar-playing in a matter of hours, and I’m not sure if that’s because she always liked the guitar part of the keytar or gems are just that talented at picking up instruments.

The video is clearly set up with Rose as the center of attention, with even Greg looking up to her the entire time from a lower level. She’s still incredibly elevated. He’s smiling and happy singing with her but his emotions change a few times as she sings her solo. She calls him “human man” and sings that she finds him “entertaining” and his smile drops into a frown. She sings about “playing along” because she likes how humans play and it’s difficult to say whether he’s turned on or dismayed by her nonchalance. As they sing the chorus together again his part is more subdued and he’s staring at her wide-eyed. Eventually, Greg takes his confusion and just falls back on what he knows- wicked guitar solo.

While Greg shreds on guitar we see Pearl looking very jealous of the attention he’s getting. She walks right into the video and whispers to Rose. They push Greg out of the center of focus and perform a fusion dance to bring out Rainbow Quartz. She dances around and shows off. It’s clear that Pearl is trying to make Greg uncomfortable while Rose is just trying to impress him with something he’s not seen before. This version of RQ makes me really uncomfortable. I know a lot of people like her but even this early in the series, Pearl’s jealousy is the main vibe I get from this moment. I will grant that Rainbow showing up briefly in “Now We’re Only Falling Apart” has a whole different meaning and feeling, it’s just hard to see Rose and Pearl’s actual relationship through Greg’s eyes. 

Rose leaves after explaining the fusion with the promise to come back later. Amethyst collects her payment of popcorn. Pearl taunts Greg, saying he’s just a phase because he’s not a gem and will never be able to fuse like a gem. Greg insists that he’s gonna try to fuse. *mic drop* Greg tries to mimic Pearl’s dancing, watching the video he made and gets frustrated very quickly. Garnet and Amethyst find him and Garnet explains the physical aspect of fusion. Greg gets completely discouraged. Garnet tries to inspire some confidence, saying she thinks he’s capable and he just needs to be open and honest so he and Rose can invent themselves together. She lowers her visor to give him a wink, revealing to him for the first time that she’s a fusion. Greg agrees and sets up for when Rose returns.

When Rose comes back, Greg has a dance floor set up on the beach. He starts a record and without saying a word begins to dance with her. They’re having fun so he flips on the lights, clearly trying to emulate what Garnet said about having light in the core of your being and a partner you trust with that light. They twirl around some more and Greg leads Rose to a pile of instrument cases that he climbs to get eye level with her before dipping her and kissing her. Talk about goals. After the kiss, he looks up and is disappointed while Rose is starry-eyed.

Rose laughs at Greg when he says he was trying to fuse with her. He tries to get her to understand but she keeps laughing, saying humans are all so funny. Greg finally snaps at being dismissed as just a human and yells at her to just talk with him for once like a real person. She stops, all mirth gone, and says she’s not a real person. She understands that Greg’s not been treating her like the alien that she is, that he’s been trying to see her as a person. It finally hits Greg that he’s been sleeping with an alien. Rose is confused as Greg laughs at his own denseness and cries with hopelessness. She actually seems alien in this moment, completely disconnected from Greg’s wildly swinging emotions. He makes the point that they’re very different with hardly anything in common, suggesting that they just talk.

From behind the broken-off hand of the temple, Pearl, Garnet, and Amethyst are spying on the whole encounter. As Greg and Rose finally talk about some of the underlying emotions and unspoken history they haven’t shared with each other, Pearl is confused. The fusion dance didn’t work so why are they still talking? Garnet tells her to be quiet. Greg asks Rose if she’s ever been in love with a human as opposed to just loving a human. She asks how she would know and Greg says that love is torture. Knowing that Pink was often abused on Homeworld by the other Diamonds, this statement affects her strongly and it makes sense that this statement is what finally gets through to her. She knows what it’s like to be tortured and she is alarmed to think Greg is feeling that way. She pulls away from the hug, and for the first time calls Greg by his name rather than “Mr. Universe” or “human man”. He’s visibly affected by the change and answer honestly when she asks if their relationship has been torture. She apologizes but he tells her not to be sorry. They both laugh at how confused they are and start spinning around, laughing together. Pearl is even more upset that they’re still dancing, but Garnet claims that the fusion worked. Her shipper's heart knows she’s set up a real couple, after centuries of Rose having human flings that meant nothing. Pearl is dismayed but Amethyst likes her new potential step-dad. 

Greg ends his story and Steven and Connie are both blushing. Greg emphasizes that the most important thing was talking together and being open. He tells the kids that human-gem relationships are still a very new thing they get to explore together. Just when you think this episode is going to end on a happy and positive note, Greg tells Connie that she can always talk to him if she needs to talk with a human being who understands her position. They do a “human beings” high five with Steven watching, clutching his gem like he wishes he could rip it out and not have to deal with being half alien. His alienation at the end of the episode is such a quick shift and it foreshadows more of his internal conflict, learning to accept his identity as the bridge between species but also as a being unlike everyone else. It’s like a sucker punch at the end of an otherwise happy story.

I think the positioning of this episode is incredibly interesting, seeing that we’re about to start into the “Pearl basically commits rape” arc. We see Greg tell his side of the story of how he won over Rose. Past episodes like “House Guest” have hinted at the disharmony and distrust Pearl has for Greg. We get Rainbow Quartz, fused in a moment of jealousy and flaunting, a brand new fusion just an episode before we’re introduced to another show-off Pearl fusion. We also hear Garnet talk about what makes a fusion work. Garnet who’s about to be taken advantage of in the worst way. This episode is also just after “Keeping It Together” in which Garnet expresses her extreme revulsion to forced fusions. This arc of episodes is thematically heavy. Pearl messes up badly and the crewniverse seem to want to tie it back to the betrayal she felt when Rose fell in love with Greg. Pearl looks to others for her validation and “Cry for Help” is about to show how far she’ll fall looking for that strength and affirmation.

[skygemspeaks]

Log Horizon and KHR

Log Horizon:

My all-time favourite character:

Shiroe - Maybe I’m a bit basic, but I really do love our protag in this series. Smart protags are depressingly out of favour these days, and it’s so refreshing tbh. I love how badass he is without having any traditional strength - his class really reflects his personality very well. He’s the GL of a small guild and would otherwise not have any power, but he knows how to use his skills to his advantage and that makes him one of the most powerful people in the game. I love how caring he is about those around him, even if he doesn’t show it, and I love that he’s not all that hung up on people’s opinions of him, even if it does frustrate me to death seeing people badmouth him without knowing him.

A character I didn’t used to like but now I do:

Rundel Haus Code - I love my sparkly son and would die for him in a heartbeat. He brings a really interesting perspective to the show, as a person of the land, and I just love everything about him.

A character I used to like but now don’t:

I really genuinely cannot think of anyone rn. There aren’t very many characters I actually dislike in this show and the ones I do dislike, I’ve disliked from the beginning.

A character I’m indifferent about:

Kanami - I don’t find her the least bit interesting as a character and the episodes of the anime that focus on her are some of my least favourite. I don’t dislike her, I just find her parts dull.

A character who deserved better:

Akatsuki - okay so there is a lot to unpack here. I love the concept of her character, but the way the author treats her is unacceptable and it breaks my heart because she could have been such a great character. I love her no-nonsense attitude and I love how capable she is. That being said I hate that she’s a typical “loli” character. I hate that she has the face of a 12-year-old despite being in her twenties, and I hate that Naotsugu sexualizes her even when thinks she’s an elementary/middle-schooler. I also hate that so much of the time (especially in the latter half of season 1), she’s relegated to standing around next to Shiroe without doing anything, or otherwise she’s being pitted against Minori and Henrietta in fighting for Shiroe’s affections.

A ship I’ve never been able to get into:

Shiroe/Akatsuki - The way he treats her is basically how he treats Minori most of the time - that is to say, like a younger sister. There’s no romantic chemistry between them and I wish the author would stop trying to force it. If I honestly had to choose a girl out of Shiroe’s harem that I would like for him to end up with, Henrietta would be my first choice by far.

A ship I’ve never been able to get over:

NaoShiro - They’re in love and I won’t have anyone tell me differently. I really love their dynamic, and how they treat each other as equals. Not to mention that Naotsugu’s “pervynness” is extremely OOC in relation to the rest of his otherwise extremely respectful and chivalrous character, and I like to think it’s him overcompensating for his crush on Shiro as a result of internalized homophobia.

A cute, low-key ship:

Isuzu/Rudy - They’re cute and I like how they complement each other. The dog comparisons are pretty messed up though and Mamare Touno needs to Stop™.

An unpopular ship but I still enjoyed it:

Marielle/Henrietta - It’s been implied before that they know each other irl and I like their relationship with each other. Henrietta is quite obviously a high femme lesbian, and I think she and her disaster femme lesbian girlfriend make a very cute couple. In 2019 we let both girls move on from their comphet crushes and start dating and being happy with each other.

A ship that was totally wrong and should never have happened:

Krusty/Lenessia - I originally didn’t mind this ship very much because Lenessia looks to be in her early twenties, but after reading the light novels and finding out that she’s only 15 (as opposed to Krusty’s 26), I am completely squicked out by this. It’s obvious that she has a crush on Krusty, and it looks like the ship might become canon and I really hope it doesn’t because it is just absolutely nasty.

My favourite storyline/moment:

The Goblin King Arc - it was absolutely fascinating seeing the politics between the Round Table and Eastal’s council of Lords. I would love to see more of the interactions between the Adventurers and the People of the Land.

A storyline that should never have been written:

That one episode during the scale festival when Shiroe went out on a date with both Akatsuki and Minori, and the two girls spent the entire episode being horrible to each other and to Shiroe

My first thoughts on the show:

Amazing plot, lovable characters, can’t wait to see what happens next

My thoughts now:

All of the above, but also I can see that there are some extremely problematic aspects to it. I don’t like the way the female characters are treated, and I don’t like that so many of the young female characters have crushes on guys so much older than them (eg: Serara’s crush on Nyanta, Minori’s crush on Shiroe, Lenessia’s crush on Krusty).

Anyways nonny, this ask is getting a bit long, so I’ll leave it at just this for now, but don’t worry, there’s another ask in my inbox also about KHR, so I hope you don’t mind if I don’t answer that one quite yet.

[bangtan-spells]

Jungkook Scenario: Rumor Has It - Part 2.

Request: Can I request Jungkook Rumors has it pt 2. Y/N agrees to be in relationships w/Jungkook but asked to keep it a secret so ppl wont gossip.Jungkook doesn't know what to do so he ended up treat you a bit poorly at work so ppl wouldn't figured out. you misinterpreted think you were right about Jungkook is just playing w/u. So on the company's party night when a guy asked you whether you have a boyfriend, you just said no. Jungkook overheard it and got mad.

Part 1.

Genre: Romance.

Not only had you accepted going on a date with Jungkook that one time, but you were now actually seeing the guy regularly. Jungkook, you thought, wasn’t as bad as you had deemed him to be, the thing was he was both a devil and a gentlemen which made him a deadly combination you hadn’t been able to resist. You were dating your boss under everyone’s noses and that fact made you both nervous and excited as you could be. Just last night you had given him the definite green light but you had insisted in keeping it a secret from everyone as you didn’t want your relationship to be in the way of your work or to create more unnecessary gossip, to this Jungkook agreed rather reluctantly, he seemed not to care too much about that but then Jungkook was more of the reckless type, not at all like you.

The vultures kept their eyes open on your every move as always, since they had always had the thought of you doing some funny business with Jungkook their behavior hadn’t changed much, which meant you needed to be extra careful.

Jungkook walked past your section as every morning, handsome as ever in his suit, he nodded formally at everyone stopping just for a split of a second near your desk to then greet again with a casual “good morning” and then kept going. You would be lying if you said you didn’t miss the sly smirks and the special attention that at the beginning bothered you. How things changed so quickly, you barely could believe it, but then keeping it discreet was for the better, it would made you uncomfortable being talked about more than necessary.

-Y/N- one of the vultures, a woman named Sonhye talked to you at mid morning. -Have your report ready, I’ll deliver it to Mr Jeon-

You frowned  a little wondering what was happening, usually you were the one handing the printed reports, as requested of Jungkook himself, so her handing them now made no sense. -I thought…-

-I will be delivering them from now on- she said proudly like it was a big achievement. You nodded, if you opposed then they would talk shit about you, damn they would even say you were jealous, which you weren’t.

-Sure-

It bothered you a little, but you decided to not think much into it and keep on as if nothing. You were walking to the elevator to go out and buy something to eat for lunch break when you felt a hand grab your arms, and next thing was you being pulled to a little meeting room you had never been before. Jungkook smirked at your surprised stare and leaned down so his face was closer to yours. -Good morning-

-Hi- you said not helping your smile. -Was that necessary?-

-Very much so- he answered kissing your cheek, sneaking his arms around you.

You hugged him too, you didn’t see him since last night but the feeling of his body close to yours once again felt too good. You had been “dating” for three months now and things were getting more intimate each time, you still have not had sex, but the desire was there, on both sides. You felt his hands massaging your waist and back and his lips kissing  their way from your cheek to your lips. Jungkook was reckless. Which was why you has asked him to be more careful.

-We can’t- you said pecking him but creating some distance. -Not here, remember what we talked about-

-Is that really important?-

-It is, for me, in my position it is- you stated firmly

Jungkook straightened his back, pulling apart but not entirely letting go of you, he nodded. -Alright, I do whatever you want, you see, and you think so bad of me Y/N-

You laughed at his fake victim tone which made him laugh too. -Please, let’s… let’s take things slower-

He seemed taken aback. -I thought everything was fine?-

-It is but… let’s just take things slow, ok? Remember what we talked about-

-Y/N, I know but…-

You didn’t let him finish, remembering you had limited time on break and god only knew what could happen if anyone came in or found out you were sneaking on rooms with the boss. -I have to go, ok? I have work to do-

Jungkook nodded and you went out of the room, almost escaping from him, you didn’t even understood yourself anymore.

You had a very busy schedule that week and the next that followed, Jungkook even had to fly to Daegu two times for meetings so you had practically not seen each other after that last encounter. You thought everything was fine, but then a sour feeling installed on your gut, what if Jungkook was playing you all this time and you were just believing his lies? 

You had told him to be more discreet, but now he didn’t ask you for your opinion like he used to, now it was Sonhye the one always treating with him going to his office and whatnot. Sonhye was way older than the two of you, you didn’t know if married or divorced, but what if… You shook your head, reorganizing your desk, you were thinking crazy now. Over Jungkook, he was the one crazy, not you. You had the job to be the rational one in this relationship. But was this even a relationship?

You had accepted the dating, but you had not talked about anything further than that, dating meant you were his girlfriend? He had not used that word, he had never referred to you as such, he had not asked you. You wanted to smack yourself with the stapler, you were a fool. Maybe he was just waiting to take you to bed. That thought made your stomach drop, because despite everything you had started to feel something for him, you had cared about him. You had thought maybe he felt the same way, but now, you weren’t sure of anything anymore.

And to add more to your inner fight he walked past your section, dashing in a dark grey suit, you almost jumped on your seat, you had not seen each other all day or talked too much and truth was you missed all the attention. But this time Jungkook didn’t even spare a glance to the editorial section, walked past as if nothing, not minding even you.

Jungkook talked to you that night as most nights on whatsapp, it was your main way of communication but you had not said anything about your thoughts maybe waiting for him to say something, or maybe of you being afraid. Jungkook seemed to be treating everything casually and that angered you, it angered you because you had done the exact same thing you said you wouldn’t some months ago, fall into his charms like a silly girl. You had wanted tot think Jungkook was the man that you were needing in your life, for a moment you truly believed it as you two not only had good chemistry and liked each other physically, but in other aspects your thought he was the one for you. Now you couldn’t say that was the case.

To top it all now you had the news the company was launching a party for the project you were working for, of course you were happy of the success and that meant Jungkook’s meeting’s had gone well, but it made you a little sad that you weren’t as involved as before. You had asked for it, for things to be more discreet, but that meant being excluded or not giving you your place? You didn’t think so, and it hurt because you cared about him, much more than you would like.

Will I see you tonight at the party?

You read his text and sighed, of course you would. A part of you wanted to skip the whole event entirely, the other part was resentful of not going with him. But that would be a scandal for sure.

I’ll be there

Nice, I’ve missed you Y/N

Your heart jumped, he said things like that and you just felt happier. But what did he miss? It was you and the constant flirtatious bickering, the little games, or maybe something more?

Me too, see you there Mr Jeon.

You called him that to mess with him, since he always insisted in you calling him Jungkook. But then it was the appropriate way to address him at the party, after all you’d have to act as boss and employee and nothing more.

We will have a talk about your ways later Miss Y/N.

You got to the party by yourself, you could bring a plus one, a date, but the only person who could serve as that was the main host of the party and your boss, so that was a no. You guessed you could have told a friend but it was better to come alone, so if things weren’t looking up you could just leave early. Nevertheless you had put all the extra effort to look good for tonight. A bordeaux dress that had cleavage enough to be sexy but still suitable for a company event, it hugged your body in all the right places and you paired it with strap black heels. You let your hair loose and straight and used glowy makeup being the center of attention your lips, also in bordeaux.

You greeted people as you were walking into the salon, the party was held in the event center of the building, everything was decorated perfectly and you could feel the luxury even in the canapés and champagne flying around. You saw the vultures, three of them with companions, one alone but still with the group, you greeted them politely but didn’t stay long enough, you had given them enough of a close up for them to talk about your look, or try to, since you were sure you looked impeccable tonight.

Then there was the time for the opening speech, everyone gathered to watch, to hear Jeon Jungkook talk about the new venture with a huge company from Daegu, the deal had been closed this week and it appeared to be promising for the magazine. You were happy for him, you wished you could celebrate this together, the thought of you proposing something like it crossed your mind but then you didn’t know if that would be too much.

Beside Jungkook were another executives from the magazine and the Daegu team, led by another young man close to Jungkook’s age. You noted he was also quite handsome, but your eyes were just for Jungkook. Incredibly handsome in his all black suit, his fair skin seemed to glow, his eyes shone, he was happy about this success.

Jungkook proposed a toast that everyone joined raising their glasses, including you who couldn’t stop staring at him, Jungkook saw you then, fixing his eyes on you as he drank. You smiled and shook your head after drinking, clapping when everyone did to then turn around. At last he had looked at you and he got you all giddy, you needed to do something with all these feelings, but what could you do?

You turned and left the empty glass on a table to then feel a hand on your shoulder, you knew it was him, you turned back and there he was, the man of the night looking at you. 

-Y/N- he smiled. -Sorry, I’ve been busy with all this-

You shook your head. -It’s ok, I’m happy for the new business, congratulations-

-Yeah, I hadn’t told you because…-

-It’s ok Jungkook, you didn’t have to-

At that moment another man, the same one that was standing with him during the speech approached you, he was indeed very handsome and you wished you could have focused more on that than on your struggling feelings for Jungkook.

-Y/N, I have to introduce you to our new business partner, Kim Taehyung-

You bowed and smiled. -Thank you for working with us-

Taehyung smiled. -Pleasure is mine-

-Taehyung, this is Y/N, she is…- Jungkook cleared his throat looking at you unsure of what to call you. But then there wasn’t anything you could call your relationship, not really. You thought that was fine for you, and to some point it still was, but the thing was you had discovered the label, the definition was more important than you had initially thought. You cared for it and you cared for Jungkook, or else you wouldn’t be feeling as hurt for such a meaningless detail. -One of our finest, the best editor we have-

You shook your head smiling politely. -Mr Jeon thinks too highly of me Mr Kim, I do work my best-

Taehyung smiled again. -I’m sure of it if my friend says it- he patted Jungkook’s back. -But call me Taehyung, no need to be so formal at a party-

You smiled a bit flustered not sure about what to say so you kept silent, feeling Jungkook’s eyes on you was proving to be nerve-wracking enough, but when you were to look at him he avoided your glance.

-I see you don’t have a glass- Jungkook said to the two of you. -I’ll look for them, we should… celebrate-

-Thanks Jungkook, very nice, if only you were as nice discussing costs-

Jungkook laughed as loud as Taehyung. -Business are business- he said before walking away.

You were bit uncomfortable not knowing how to treat the new business partner of the company, if you should stay there or you should just go somewhere else and not interrupt. Perhaps you just had to go home and call it a night.

-So Y/N, how do you like these events?-

You laughed lightly. -Not so much to be honest, my place is writing, this is good for the company though-

-Right- he smiled. -I have to say I like them, but I get that everyone feels at ease in different places-

-Yes, not everyone understands that-

Taehyung gave you a knowing look and then continued doing the same as you, looking at the people at the party from afar, sometimes throwing a little glance to the side, to you.

-I… I don’t mean to be intrusive but… I see you are alone- he chuckled a little. -Sorry, I just thought you might be with your boyfriend or… husband?-

You laughed to not say the first thing that came to your mind. That you were screwed in that department. -I don’t have a boyfriend, that’s the reason-

-Outrageous- he laughed.

You were thinking if he was seriously flirting with you or not when you heard a throat being cleared. Both of your turned to Jungkook who had returned with the glasses of champagne and had a completely different look. If before he was being friendly and charming now he looked like he was forcing himself to be, at the defensive.

-Here you have- he said handing Taehyung his glass and then placed yours on a nearby table. -Do you mind if I… steal Y/N for a minute?-

Taehyung drank from his glass and lifted his shoudlers. -By all means-

You frowned not liking you not being included in whether you should be stolen or not, but then you figured right now your opinion didn't matter as Jungkook took your hand and started to practically drag you out of the party.

You had to rush your steps to keep up with him and he wasn’t giving away anything as much as you asked.

-Jungkook, what is this? Can you please let go of me? hey!-

He guided you outside, towards the parking lot, where you two were completely alone. He then stopped but kept his grip on your wrist just for a few more seconds before letting go of you.

-What is this about?- you asked a bit angry about him acting so aggressive all of the sudden.

Jungkook licked his lips, he had his hands on his waist so his chest looked even broader, you could see he was worked up by his breathing, but you didn’t understand why.

-Jungkook-

-So when were you going to tell me?-

-Tell you what?-

-That you…-he huffed. -That you broke up with me, you dont’ want this-

-What?- now this was outrageous. -Jungkook I don’t understand-

-I heard what you said to Taehyung, is that what you have been saying to the guys that talk to you? That you don’t have a boyfriend?-

You couldn’t believe it. -Jungkook, I told him that because that’s the truth, you and me, we, we have something but…-

-But what? I thought everything was ok-

-Ok?- you snorted. -Jungkook you barely… you changed the way you treated me, since we started this you changed, you don’t ask for my opinion anymore, you prefer Sonhye bringing you the reports, you don’t even greet me in front of people-

-Because you asked me to- he answered confused. -You said you wanted to go slower, you needed space so I gave you that-

So that was what translated “space” for him? You were starting to see all this was a misinterpretation on both sides but you still felt stubborn, on feeling ignored, on him not formalizing your relationship.

-Space doesn’t mean you ignoring me-

Jungkook sighed moving his hands in frustration. -When have I done that? Never, since you started to work there I’ve been crazy over you, trying to get your attention, you didn’t like it so backed off to not bother you and now you say I’m ignoring you-

You bit your lip, that sounded about right, you had to admit you had been rather ambiguous with your requests, but it was due to the fact of your own doubts and fears, doubting if you should really get on into a relationship with him, fearing what people might say. Jungkook had been thick headed to see it but you hadn’t helped either.

-You said you didn’t want people to know, and I complied- he continued. -You said we should go slow and I don’t mind that Y/N, I don’t if that would make you trust me, but then you go and say that you…-

-I’m sorry- you interrupted him. -I’m sorry, ok?- that fazed him and you sighed crossing your arms, feeling your cheeks burning. -I just… I let myself get away with what people would say, because I’m not your girlfriend-

-But you are my girlfriend- he retorted instantly.

You smiled out of nerves and incredulity. -Since when? We have not talked about that-

-Since… since we started to go out more serious-

-But how could I know that? To some people that doesn’t mean anything-

-To me it does-

-Then why you didn’t ask?- you went again getting on your nerves.

-So you want to be my girlfriend?-

-Jungkook seriously I…- you couldn’t believe now he was the one being this slow.

-No, sorry, I said that wrong- he went closer to you until he could touch you. -Y/N, I don’t care about what people would think or say, I can wait as long as it is necessary for you to see that you can trust me, to see that I care, that his isn’t a game I’m playing- his squeezed your hands and you were trying hard to fight your nerves and your scandalous heart that wanted to go out of your chest. -I should have planned this differently, but this can’t wait no more, I would go crazy if anyone thinks they have their free way to you- he let go one of your hands to caress your cheek making you inhale deeply. -Would you be my girlfriend? Mine no matter what anyone says-

-Yes- you breathed not being able to hold it, to drag this moment or the magnetic attraction between your lips now on top of each other, you held to him coiling your arms around his neck while he kept a hand on your cheek and the other held you tight by your waist pulling you more to him. Your lips were moving and nipping until you gave him space for his tongue to play with yours, you had missed him kissing you so tremendously you let out a little moan that got Jungkook more eager to devour your mouth, to press you to his body and move his hands, one to your small back, the other ran down your side to your hip where he squeezed and this time it was him letting out a faint groan that got you feeling your body on fire.

-I don’t care about what people say Y/N, and for your job, you don’t need to worry- he said as bite your lower lip and then kissed your jaw, his lips moving to your neck. -I’m crazy about you Y/N-

-Jungkook- you exhaled his name as he kissed his way up to your lips again.

-I’m serious, I want nothing more than to go inside that party and tell everyone you are my girlfriend, scream it to the world, hell, tell everyone you are my woman-

You stopped to look at him after he said that, to see if it was just the heat of the moment, how many doubts you still had of him? You kissed his lips making a decision then, to trust him, to trust in what you were feeling.

-Do it then- you said searching for his hand to lace your fingers. -I fell for you too Jungkook-

He smiled wide, so much, his eyes shone and it made you laugh how happy he was with your confession. -Jungkook!- you screamed his name when he took your off the floor, hugging too high and tight, he kissed you again before he let you down. -Let’s go- he said taking your hand again, you looked at his eyes and nodded, squeezing that hand as you walked together to the party.

[nightqueendany]

Another submission today:

No one is saying that you should think that they’re the best writers. I think that their work pretty much speaks for itself. Y'all called 7x06 trash and it won an award for best direction. Same with season 7. Won the biggest Emmy for the year. People who claim Emilia can’t act were bitter because she won some prestigious award for acting. Not saying you do these things, but the same people who shit on D&D also shit on the actors.

You can criticize without being nasty. The “Dumb and Dumber” thing is juvenile or calling them hacks or whatever vitriolic shit that people feel the need to spew. Fyi, Benioff is a great writer. He’s written critically acclaimed shit. Google it.

They are the middle men between the HBO execs and the fans. HBO wanted to extend the show to 10 seasons, but D&D stopped that because they know that quality is better than quantity. So many of the things that they’re criticised for are actually shitty because people like to focus on pendatic shit. For example the so called time travel has been there since day one. Catelyn travelled from KL to the Vale in one episode. A raven was sent to Stannis and it got to him in the next scene. Their biggest crime is overestimating some of their audience and thinking that they’ll appreciate the “show don’t tell” approach. 

So they made some changes. So what? It’s only the book readers who care about that shit and considering that many of those book readers swore with all their heart and Daenerys isn’t Jon’s type, they’re not the type of company that you should be proud of keeping. They’re clueless fucks who circlejerk to uncovering the mysteries of a fictional story and then end up being wrong years later. They’re the same people who claim that Jon is stealing Stannis’ plot.

David and Dan have the same bugdet that friends had almost two decades ago and look what they’re delivering to our screens. 

Fyi, they’ve been criticized since the very beginning of the show for not sticking to George’s vision only for George to come out this year and say that most of what happened in S7 was what he planned. Some so called mistakes and plotholes aren’t that at all. Like the chains for Viserion. If people weren’t blind with nerd rage, they would have seen that the Night King shot him down close to a dock that was buried in snow and that dock had chains. The time it took Dany to arrive was ambiguous. They put in a lot of time and effort to make it as close to perfect as possible. It’s not their fault that GRRM couldn’t keep his word and finish the books on time.

There’s no difference between some of y'all and the star wars fans who shit on Kathleen Kennedy for making some changes on the movies. Entitled, bratty, ungrateful fans. Thank God it’s almost over. Unfortunately, the prequels are here and the pretentious book readers are already complaining because of the casting descriptions.

Also, being a woman doesn’t excuse you from being a decent human being. Most of Daenerys’ thoughts are in her head in the book. Unless you wanted a voice over, there’s no way that they would have been able to convey her thoughts. Even with her thoughts, pov and other POVs of her character where people see how great she is, she was one of the most hated characters amongst book readers so you can’t blame D&D for that. Watching reaction videos should tell you all you need to know about how people see her. Even without reading about her compassion, viewers are drawn to her.

Finally, Daenerys is a fictional character no matter how wonderful and amazing she is, she’s not real. The people who work on the show are. It is messed up to focus on what you perceive to be their fuck ups. If people did that to you, you’d never grow

I’m so confused, Dan Weiss, is that you?? I’m half convinced this is Dan Weiss.

1) I’m not a pedantic book reader. I’ve said many times I started with Season 1 of the show, then read the books, then continued with the show as it aired. I’ve never pretended to be a book-expert. There are many of them here and on Reddit and Westeros.org and in the comments sections of Geroge’s Not a Blog but I’ve always admitted my knowledge of the entire WOIAF is limited to a once through read of the books and the show. I’ve certainly never pretended to know the series any better than anyone else.

2) I’ve stuck up for decisions made by D&D PLENTY of times. I got a lot of shit in inbox from anons when I wrote a post defending (or suspending judgement) on their choice to have Sansa replace Jeyne Poole in the Ramsay-Winterfell-rape plot which is decidedly their most controversial decision that was not a matter that wasn’t out of their hands, like network things.

And I’ve defended other storylines from them as well - the wight hunt mission, I’ve talked extensively about how it would have happened any way you slice the story so it wasn’t a “dumb” D&D idea, I’ve talked about their filming & casting limitations and how it’s a result of location and availability and not anything to do with the actual race of the extras in scenes, I’ve talked about how I definitely think Dany will burn the Khals in the books, just as she did in the show, defending that plot, I’ve talked about things I love in terms of book vs show - Battle of Blackwater, Robb&Talisa, how Season 6 is unarguably the best season of Game of Thrones and it’s the one that had to go completely off books because they had surpassed what George had already written, I’ve talked about how I’m glad they left Lady Stoneheart out of the story because I thought it would have cheapened Catelyn’s death and the impact of Jon’s resurrection, I’ve talked about how I like that they changed scenes like Dany’s wedding night and the Jaime/Cersei sex scene next to Joffrey’s body in the Sept because in the books the nature of the ambiguity of “consent” is ridiculous and D&D choosing to present those scenes as rape made it easier for the audience to see what was actually going on vs the books which leave it open to question whether the victims are actually victims, I’ve talked about how I like they aged Missandei up so that Daenerys could have an actual friend as opposed to young Missandei in the books who’s dependent on her and sees her as a mother figure, I’ve praised the show for making Dany more mature when it comes to her relationship with Daario, I’ve talked about how I love Shae and Sansa’s relationship in the show and how they humanized Shae and made her a more lovable character, I’ve praised the show for setting Tyrion and Dany together sooner than in the books because the Tyrion ruling Meereen in Dany’s absence plot worked really well, I’ve defended their depiction of the Jonerys romance to Jonsa and Jonerys shippers alike who say it was rushed or poorly done and praised the way they so closely stuck to both Jon and Dany’s character....so many others, I forget them all.

3) I’ve never called D&D “Dumb and Dumber” or any other rude names and I usually refrain from using insults like that on my entire blog. I also usually refrain from reblogging posts that contain language like that because it’s childish and really insulting.

4) Just because someone’s writing or something is “critically acclaimed” doesn’t mean really anything. Critics nowadays are widely acknowledged as being “out of touch” with the times and the nature of story-telling as a whole and many industry people also admit this - Why do you think the Oscars wanted to include that “Outstanding Popular Film” category for the coming year? So not sure what David Benioff’s critically acclaimed other work has to do with anything.

5) I’ve never really criticized D&D for their plot lines or storytelling as a whole. I think I’ve only pointed out plot holes only twice - once about Jon receiving Tyrion’s raven before Sam’s even though Sam’s was sent an entire episode before Tyrion’s and once about Jon telling Tormund Dany would only fight beside them if he bent the knee when the entire Wight Hunt mission was so Dany could fight beside them and he hadn’t bent the knee.

Aside from that, I’ve never criticized their story choices as they deviate from GRRM.

I’ve criticized their portrayal of women - especially Dany but really women as a whole - throughout the story and I don’t think I need to defend my criticism for that. It’s a HUGE deal.

Because here’s the thing - story changes made by D&D...don’t really matter. They’ve said plenty of times the show will end just as the books will end so I’m happy to tag along with their journey because I know they’ll stay faithful to George’s vision in that respect and I’ve defended them to other fans in this regards.

But when they CONTINUALLY make decisions that cast female characters in a much harsher light than their book counterparts and cast male characters in much better light than their book counterparts, I’m not going to defend that! I’m not going to sit idly by and just pretend I’m okay with that.

If it were one or two isolated incidences, it would be nothing. But that’s not the case. This is a pattern repeated time and time again throughout the entire series. This isn’t a network thing, this isn’t even about “you can’t please everyone.” This is blatant sexism, regardless of whether that was their intention or not.

Just now looking at the IMDB page for GOT, I noticed they’ve only had TWO women work in writing aspects for the show for a total of 4 episodes. The rest were written exclusively by men. Also, only ONE female director has directed a total of 4 episodes throughout the series.

Now I know, as someone who is a film minor and one day wants to work in the industry, that the film and television industry as a whole, is very lacking when it comes to representing women and that’s unfortunate. So it’s not entirely their fault. They just fell into the pattern of the industry.

But again, when it comes to sticking to George’s original dialogue or creating their own, the times they’ve opted to create their own frequently results negatively for female characters...or when a female character’s lines are given to a male character making the man appear the brilliant one in the scene.

I’m really curious to know if this anon is a man or woman...or Dan Weiss. Not that it changes anything but perhaps it’s the reason you’ve yet to either notice the sexism in the writing or just don’t see it as such a big deal.

Yes, these are all fictional characters and the people behind the show are real people.

But the people who watch the show are real people too. And while again, I know there is no possible way for D&D to please every single member of their audience, the least they could do is approach their writing from a more neutral standpoint or, you know, just fucking hire a full-time woman to co-write episodes with.

However, it’s too late for that. The show is finished. There’s no changing what’s already been made.

So I will be here, continuing to defend a female character that wouldn’t need nearly as much defending, had she been translated onto the screen properly and not through a biased lens.

[classquads]

lemme get fuckin uhhhhh relationships for a Heir of Void

Rubs my tiny gremlin }{ands together.

Alright, Heir of Void’s relationships!

Long ass post so puttin’ it behind a readmore!

For the Red Quadrant I think a… Hmmm……… Maybe a Sylph of Space? Or a Bard of Time, honestly. Space in general is a pretty good match for Void, so the Bard initially acting as a Space player would be pretty good for a budding relationship between the two of them.

Naturally, the Heir of Void probably doesn’t think anything ‘wrong’ with them per-se. At least, not at first, not until they develop as a person and realize. Hey. I kinda need help. Which is kind of important when talkin’ about relationships, since the Heir could act like a total blunt dick, and push their potential romantic partners away from them by saying, or doing, things that are mean, or offputting( Looks Equius straight in the mcfuckin eyeballs ).

Firstly, Bard of Time; The Bard of Time and the Heir of Void would initially not be too interest in each other - At least not until the Bard does, or says, something to attract the Heir. And, honestly? The two would hit it off right off the bat. They’d click pretty well, both having their own hangups that could make them bond as friends making light of their issues together.( They’ve both got HELLA baggage ) The others might see this as kinda weird, having two awkward, and kinda really messed up people taking an interest in each other and making morbid jokes would really put them off.

But the Bard and Heir would just be all too happy to finally, FINALLY, have someone who gets their senses of humour. Someone who isn’t afraid to generally be kinda dickish to themselves, and relate to even the most fucked up of scenarios.

The two of them slowly, ever slowly, start to have inklings of feelings for one another and, well… This is kinda where is could very easily tapper off. Both of them wouldn’t be the best at admitting their feelings for the other, and may very easily result in them distancing themselves, or worse, have one party completely overwhelm the other with some gesture of romance that goes horribly for one reason or another.

Secondly, Sylph of Space; Okay, so, the Sylph in general is like. Mom Friend City Central. Tack Space onto that and they become the Cool Neighbour Mom Friend. The one who makes totally amazing things that you can only wish to make, and so UTTERLY TALENTED in whatever they apply themselves to creatively speaking.

At first the Heir could be sceptical of the Sylph, thinking them to be too good for them, or even being jealous of their talents. Buuuuuut, and boy howdy do I use that a lot, the Sylph would be more than willing to step down off the pedestal the Heir has set up for them, relating to an issue they are having with their own project(s). The Sylph would work with the Heir, despite the Heirs reluctance to be so close to them( Good people cooties, oh no!! ), without even being asked to do it, showing them easier ways to do the thing they had been stumped on. They’d work up close and personal with the Heir until they understood it as best they could, and even then the Sylph would keep trying to motivate the Heir to keep going! To keep working towards their goal, whatever it may be! Even if it’s completely unrelated to what they had bonded over, the Sylph is just happy to know the Heir isn’t giving up. That they are continually doing their best despite the Heirs lack of self-confidence.

Inevitably, the two will start to get along on a more personal level, and learn more about each other. The Sylph would become more comfortable actually talking about themself, and not just their craft, and could ease the Heir into talking about themself too. Maybe even picking into some of that trauma, which is a huge deal for the Heir of Void to do. Sharing( Personally or otherwise ) isn’t exactly in their vocabulary. it’s something the Heir of Void REALLY NEEDS TO DO THOUGH. Uhhhh, nyes, hello, therapist town??? We need one of you here STAT. We got a real bad case of VOID ASPECT mixed with some horrible HEIR CLASS.

And what can the Heir do for the Sylph, I hear you asking. Well, simple. They supply a quiet partner, someone who has trouble dealing with certain things, someone for the Sylph of Space to ‘fix’( Or help to heal, really. ). Sylphs WANT someone who is bad for them, who is so inherently broken they have no chance to be fixed by someone other than themselves, but Sylphs NEED someone who can not only keep up with their quips and inbuilt sarcastic nature, but also provide with someone to assist, to help in any sense of the word since it brings the best of both their wants and needs.

The Heir could very well develop romantic feelings for the Sylph through all of this, knowing that the Sylph is there for them, that they are wanted by someone. The sylph, too, could develop feelings for the Heir, buuuut we all know that Sylphs have bad taste in romantic partners, so it’d take them a bit to realize that they’d be better off with the Heir who has come to be such a big part of their life.

Really, it’d be a lot of the Sylph being their ever patient and kind self, while the Heir grows.

After the Heir has become who they were destined to be, no matter how much time has passed, you better believe the Sylph will be there to congratulate them. Just make sure that you’ve let the Sylph know you’re interested, even if they might have an inkling to it, it’s always better safe than sorry, since the Sylph could probably get snatched up by someone who’s really kind of shit.

For the Pale Quadrant I’d say a Rogue of Heart Seer of Heart might work out pretty fuckin well, yeah? Void players have this tendency to be quiet people, ones who don’t ever really speak their minds and just let life happen to them. Basically the epitome of Depression. And tack the Heir class onto that and you’ve got a ridiculously quiet, but sturdy person who does their damndest to get their point across while keeping mostly to themselves, and hardly speaking up about their feelings. ‘Cause feelings are dumb, right? And also a burden, right? Right? BUT! This is where the Seer of Heart comes into play, since they could just. Read the Heir like a book. The Heir wouldn’t be able to hide anything from the Seer.

From the moment they meet, the Seer could easily know exactly what the Heir is thinking, know what they want to get across but can’t because of inherent awkwardness and be able to say it properly for them. The Seer could easily, EASILY, become a key point in keeping the Heir stable Keep them from going Grimdark by knowing the best times to start feeling jams, and the best times to avoid them.

And the Heir? The Heir could help the Seer work on their inability to not constantly push themself into other peoples business. Seers are just THOSE kinds of people, the kinds who just can’t help but want to get into other peoples private affairs as if they were entitled to it. The Heir could distract them, keep them busy with other things so that their team wouldn’t get upset with the Seer for becoming TOO invested in what doesn’t concern them.

Honestly, I think Void and Heart in general is just a really cute Pale pairing, as the two aspects go hand in hand in a lot of ways. 

Ashen issss a bit harder to pin down, due to determining a good rivalry to cockblock being a bit out of my sphere for the moment.

Aaaand Black. HOO BOY. A Witch of Blood, or even Light, could fit the Heir of Void pretty well. Their rivalry would be built on their mutual lack of trust in others. They would be paranoid around one another, thinking that the other knows more than they should, that maybe they’re plotting the others downfall.

The two would butt heads near constantly, to the point that it’d get a wee bit ridiculous to everyone around them, especially since the Heir wouldn’t be the most outward with any Hate they felt, yet the Witch makes it come out of them. Kinda like word-vomit, but with hate, y’know? The Witch could be talking about anything, really, and the Heir, even with their quiet and reserved nature, would instantly butt into the conversation and aggressively oppose and/or debate with the Witch over the topic at hand. Honestly the two throw the entire party for a loop with how vehement they are about trying to get the upper hand over the other.

Even if the black quad is built on hate, it’s also a Rivalry quad, so even if the two of them can’t stand each other, the Heir of Void and the Witch of Blood/Light would have an understanding between them, one that they probably don’t even notice until much later on. Probably after the both of them have had time to come into their respective classpects. They highkey just think they hate each other, and don’t have any kind of rivaly-thing goin’.

Specific to the Witch of Light; The Witch of Light would also probably get on the Heir of Voids nerves from how mouthy and lond-winded they are, nto to mention the never ending pep they seem to radiate. It’s kinda like shoving an 8000 year old vampire up to a loud youtubers lets play and telling them to listen/watch to all of it. It just ain’t gonna click all too well, and probably result in the Vampire choosing to walk into the sun instead of suffering any longer.

But t}{is is all just me spoutin’ BS. W}{en it comes to relations}{ips, in t}{e end w}{at reely matters is t}{e people be}{ind t}{e classpect. }{ell, an Heir of Void could even get wit}{ a fuckin u}{}{}{}{ Knight of Mind and make it work.