#i remember when markiplier played fnaf for the first time

[wp100]

people are really saying FNAF was "OG Markiplier"?

Try SCP Containment breach. Or Slender. Or even Amnesia, Dark Descent.

I feel so old seeing people say that btw, and I'm 24. Lmao

[the-kittens-of-vol-tron]

Had a dream of the entire team playing the first "Five Night at Freddy's" game on the castle and just screaming

[iswmperson]

well

happy b-day

Hi, I'm getting old Happy Birthday to me

[eyesore-boi]

You think that you're alone but

We are waiting for you every night...

You're mine.

Close ups and other stuff below!

...so....10 years, huh?

I cannot understate how much FNaF means to me in my life, and yeah...know that sounds a b i t much considering it's the funny har har bear games, but lemme explain-

Truth is, i was actually terrified of FNaF when it first came out! I remember my first introduction to it was when i was having a sleepover at my friend's place and he was both playing and watching other people play the first game, and when i was watching it with him, i got scared and tried to avoid the game as much as i could, even claiming to hate the game despite just knowing the first game. I was young and was prone to sheltering myself from stuff i didn't understand, and that being the first scary game i've ever seen caused that reaction, but over time...that changed.

It happened when i was watching YT and clicked on a comic dub i never seen before, thinking it was an AU for a fandom i was in (probably Undertale i dunno), but lo and behold, it was actually a fandub/animatic for the missing kids incident, and that...peaked my interest. I got curious on how this scary game actually had an interesting story to it and not just some game that goes boo. So, soon after that, i decided to look up simply "FNaF Story", found the Game Theory videos, and...the rest is history.

I was amazed and hooked, got invested in how the games explained the story in ways i've never seen before, got excited when i saw everything click together in real time, and pair that with how i got into the series r i g h t when Sister Location came out, arguably when the lore really started to kick off, i knew there was no going back now. I stuck with the series since. I watched all the animatics and dubs, listened to all the songs, tried drawing the characters, made OC's, and even talked to other people about this franchise.

And now look- Not gonna pretened this whole time it's been sunshine and (Chica's) rainbows, especially in recent times. The drop off SB caused, the lore getting more and more complicated and convoluted, the divide between older and newer fans, being the founder of Mascot Horror (for every Poppy Playtime there i s a Garten of Ban Ban) and course the IRL drama, but in all seriousness...i still wouldn't trade it for anything.

FNaF, this series, is my very first experience connecting me with a community like this, both good and bad, helping me understand how to properly enjoy media and even learn/take things from it, and i think without it i wouldn't be in the fandoms i'd be in now. The scary, horror ones, the niche, hard to find ones, story driven, character rich, and of course...more importantly...getting me into Markiplier, which further influenced the "outside the box" kind of thinking cause my g o d for these two stories you need too-

And speaking of, because of those two stories, it lead to me branching out more creativily and even creating my own webcomic for an AU combining both of them, so regardless on how that'll go, i'm just glad this series has influenced me enough to create something for others to see, since that's all i ever want to give.

But really, this franchise will forever be with me, and though i don't always agree with all of it (i haven't read any of the books in y e a r s and i refuse to do so), it only makes some of the stuff it does do right completely worth it (like the movie, peak cinema), and for where ever this bear shaped train is going next, well, i'll be here for the ride for all of it. No matter how many burning buildings it goes through.

...oh and um- Right yeah. The actual art piece. Uh....it crashed multiple times when drawing it. It's even a miracle i was able to export it. I can't even open it up anymore. So even if i wanted to change anything about it, i c a n 't -

But still pretty happy with how it came together! Was run drawing these robos, some being kinda redraws from the past, while other's i've n e v e r drawn before, so that was interesting! But still, tried to draw the "main character" so to say from each of the main FNaF games, and just kinda be...walking along through the series, nothing too deep or complex, but still interesting enough! ....unlike the fnaf storyline cause g o d how many restaurants wERE THEIR S C O T T -

But for real this is going long enough, so ima head out and do my own FNaF related things thay you don't need to worry about shush *commits arson*

HAPPY 10TH FNAF BIRTHDAY EVERYBODY!! >:DD

[tophthedaydreamer]

HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY

FIVE NIGHTS AT FREDDY'S

Sentimental thoughts under the cut:

I first heard of the game back in 2014 when I was at a friend's house, noticing a group of teen boys gathered around a phone, occasionally screaming and sometimes even throwing said phone. I was too scared at the time to actually see what they were playing, because once they mentioned evil animatronics I was gone lol. I've always been deeply afraid of animatronics a la Chuck E. Cheese, but FNAF helped me gain a morbid fascination for them, leading me to appreciate their history.

In 2015, I had to get help from my older cousins to find the courage to watch playthroughs of FNAF, which created a lot of fond memories of turning off all the lights in the room, huddling in blankets, and cracking jokes as Markiplier and Dan & Phil fell victim to another jumpscare.

FNAF is a really special franchise, and I'm happy to have seen it grow over the years, right from the beginning! I remember watching Markiplier's playthrough of Sister Location in school, being excited when Scott shadowdropped Pizza Simulator, and watching Game Theory's videos on FNAF's convoluted lore. I remember Security Breach's chaotic release, falling back into the fandom again when the Sun and Moon craze took over, and going to go see the long awaited movie on the big screen! While this current era of FNAF isn't perfect, since when has it ever been? At the end of the day, Five Nights at Freddy's will always be a weird, funny, and sometimes very scary survival horror game about a haunted pizzeria and a dark mystery to solve.

It will always come back.

Happy 10th birthday, FNAF.

[tmuse-ac]

How did you get here?

How long are you here?

Thoughts on exlipse?

Have you played fnaf games?

Ah these are related to the general FNAF fandom questions, okay, nice nice nice.

I will reblog the question prompt again when I find it!

(sorry this took so long zofifi AHHHH)

HOW DID YOU GET HERE/HOW LONG HAVE YOU BEEN HERE?: I've been here since 2014 when the first game came out! The youtubers I was into at the time were talking about it and playing it so I just watched it because that's what they put out. I remember actually predicting Foxy being in the closet in FNAF 4 because I was scared he would pop out of there (b4 fnaf 4, it was crazy!!). Even though I was scared of him, he was my favorite at the time.

I don't remember the first person I watched play, but I do remember that FNAF is how I got into Markiplier!

THOUGHTS ON ECLIPSE?: I love them so damn much! They are one of everythings, my husband, my wife. I love them. Most versions anyway. I love how versatile they are to anyone's story and how differently people interpreted them from the Ruin DLC. Going to talk about non-canon versions of them/before he was canon, certain versions made me hate him (in a good way) so much because it was such amazing damn writing (thinking about Naff's SJ!Eclipse, cuz man I hate that guy)!! Other versions of them I enjoy like them being a fusion between Sun and Moon (them being active at the same time), a security mode, or being a third personality are all great, I love 'em all.

My personal preferred version of them is the third personality because I view it as somewhat canon. How else would Sun be able to separately thank Cassie? I love Canon/Ruin Eclipse with all my heart. Kellen did such an amazing job with the voice and noticeably it doesn't have any grit from him like Moon and Sun's do (wonder if that was a personal choice lol). But honestly Eclipse's voice: beautiful, gorgeous, perfect in every way.

Also I don't remember who's post it was, but someone made a joke about Ruin Eclipse being malewife and I thought that was hilariously adorable and that's my headcanon now. My beautiful wifeband... huswife?

We're getting married next week, you're all invited.

HAVE YOU PLAYED FNAF GAMES?: I have played up until Sister Location myself, but I've never beat any of them except for FNAF 3. I'm not really good at games like that, but they were super fun to watch. I honestly think people are sleeping on FNAF 4 nowadays. It's still got it man.

[pwurrz]

holy shit. fnaf is ten years old. an entire decade. half of my life. i was 11 when the game came out.

i still remember coming home from school and watching markiplier play the first game in my dad’s old desktop computer. i had to invite my friend over because i was too scared to watch it by myself. i still remember pretending withered foxy was giving me a hug every time he jumpedscared mark in his playthrough of fnaf 2. i remember witnessing the ICONIC “WAS THAT THE BITE OF 87!?” moment in real time.

and, looking back on it all? i can’t bring myself to hate this franchise. sure, it’s had some low lows, and the games weren’t always.. the best, but i can’t help but look back fondly regardless. fnaf and the community around it inspired me creatively so much. it was the first fandom i was actually a part of, my first hyperfixation that i was able to indulge in with so many other people. it was.. amazing, to be honest.

despite everything, i will never hate the fnaf franchise. it was such a core, enjoyable part of my childhood, and i feel lucky i was able to experience something like that ♡

happy birthday, freddy fazbear and friends!!!

[seeinglittlestars]

Scary story – My New Job

So I was looking for a job because I was a broke college student and needed money badly. When I suddenly see this application for “Freddy Fazbera’s Pizzaria.

Huh, sounds… familiar. Where have I hold this name before?

So I apply, it is a job for a security guard working the night shift. This strange place holds four animatronics, a teddy bear, a purple bunny, a chicken, and a pirate fox. I get the job, and I think yay, I can’t wait to get some money. I need money badly. Even the metal factory wouldn’t accept me.

So it is my first night on the job, and I am sitting in the security office, getting acquainted to my surroundings, when I get a strange call from my supervisor… “uh, hello hello?” He said, and he begins to talk about the job and what to expect. I am totally on board and ready to do this job, until he tells me… “sometimes the animatronic creatures do get a bit quirky at night.”

A shiver rolls up my spine. I also notice that the doors can close, and that I have a limited supply of power. I think to myself, wtf?

Then, when I look at the cameras, I see it… THE BUNNY HAS MOVED!!

Fear grips over me a billion times.

The animatornics are… ALIVE!!!

I watch him on the cameras, as he gets closer and closer!!! At 3 AM, he is RIGHT OUTSIDE MY DOOR!!! Frightened, I quickly close my door!! I keep closed until he leaves, and continue to put up with this terrifying night!!

Until 5 AM… I am at 1% power and I have the door closed for fear of the bunny, when, automatically, the door opens… the lights go out… I can no longer open my camera.

Suddenly a little lullaby song begins to play, and I remember why this place is familiar… yes… Markiplier. It all makes sense now. I watched a youtuber play a scary game called FNAF, and now I have figured out it is real!!! Suddenly, all my worst nightmares become true, when I am greeted…

By the face…

Of…

Freddy Fazbear!

[cartoon-buffoon]

Late night, can't sleep, am bored. I'm gonna list off YouTubers that I watched growing up and some words on them.

Newscapepro—I can do a full rant on this channel/Corey alone and I'm devastated he privated or possibly DELETED his Minecraft roleplay series. I loved all of it, undertale, BATIM, FNAF, all his MC roleplays and minigame videos. The newscape team was a key part of my childhood and I still follow Unicomics, Ashlie9596, Nick, and Jon now that they are doing their own things (the first 3 still play together which is super nice). I'll forever miss those old videos (especially the FNAF ones, I miss bittybab and Uni as lolbit/Funtime Foxy).

Popularmmos—Pat & Jen were like parents to me and seeing them break up was devastating. I laughed to their videos all the time and they always cheered me up, so glad Jen is doing well for herself rn and although Pat went off the deep end for a bit he seems like he's doing okay although I'd love for him to return even if it doesn't look nor sound like Jen will. Him alone would make me happy.

VanossGaming/The Banana Bus Squad—Yes, I was an edgy little fuck, still am, shoot me. Anyways, yeah no all these guys were great (expect for Pablo and the bunny), they made me laugh just as much as Popularmmos yet their videos were obviously a lot more adult oriented. Thanks to them I developed a similar sense of humor to the stupid shit they did/said and my favorite crew members gotta be Marcel and Wildcat to this day, I do love Moo and Terroriser though yet both their jokes/bits were always hit or miss yet when they hit THEY HIT!

H2ODelirious—Adding him separate from the Vanoss crew as he was the only one who made content by themselves without the Vanoss crew that entertained me. If we're gonna be technical delirious is my absolute favorite crew member yet by himself is where he shined. His and Toonz' friendship is also by far one of like the most wholesome things ever and even when they'd yell at each other their camaraderie was unmatched and the chemistry made delirious' videos a joy to watch with Toonz in them. As I said before delirious also by himself is where he shined because he's a total goofball and sometimes stupid while also being incredibly witty and funny. His GTA character model of a clown perfectly represents him because he juggles the stupid and clever perfectly, still watch him to this day (proud member of the delirious army)

Dorkly—As stated before I was an edgy fuck and them video game parodies were as edgy as ever back then. Sonic for hire particularly was hilarious to me and I still characterize a lot of Sonic characters but their for hire counterparts and the phrase "Fryin' and Buyin'!" Lives in my head rent free. Not much to say

Tony Crynight—Fnaf animation man.... The FNAF animation in question being the one that was a love triangle between Foxy, Mangle, and chica where chica maims mangle. Honestly I do not regret watching those videos at all as they are genuinely better than half the movies I've seen in my life.

Balena Productions—This channel is on the list because he made mother fuckin' SONIC ZOMBIES! FUCKING SONIC ZOMBIES! Ong, Knuckles & Espio are still better gay representation than most of the shit they be putting in TV and movies. I absolutely loved the Sonic Zombies series when I was young and watching it now some of the jokes still do hit despite them being from a bygone era.

Jacksepticeye—This was his super high energetic era and I remember binge watching his happy wheel videos 3 times over, the entire series. Safe to safe I absolutely loved Jack and although I stopped watching him he holds a place in my heart as one of my favorite feel good YouTubers who were upbeat and wanted to bring joy for the sake of joy. And of course the "*WAPOOSH!* TOP OF THE MORNIN' TOO YA LADDIES!" Is legendary for a memorable intro.

Markiplier—wasn't a giant fan of Mark yet I did undeniably watch him growing up and binge a lot of his videos. Him being the king of five nights of Freddy's is obviously unforgettable and I also watched him during his "energetic era" where his montone and dull start of the videos would devolve into him getting overly into the game he was playing. So cool to see what he's done since then and now he's directing a movie, it's awesome.

FusionZGamer—was and still is the goat of FNAF content. Consistent uploads and is still getting scared for the sake of our entertainment. Not exactly as entertaining as Jack or Mark and he's obviously a more of a niche YouTuber but bro has been doing what he's been doing for awhile and found his audience. Kinda moved away from him for a bit yet I still go back and watch some of his older videos or binge his newer stuff as he hasn't changed a whole lot, he still plays horror games and cracks jokes whilst not actually getting in the way of gameplay, he knows when to be quiet and I appreciate that. A lot of YouTubers don't know when to shut up and appreciate a game and it's tension/moments yet he usually does and can wait like 3 seconds speak his thoughts or make a joke. Will say tho in his recent videos he do be getting a bit more wild yet I appreciate it as he started off not very family friendly yet moved more towards not cussing yet he's been getting a lot more loose with it. Whatever he wants to do he can do it though, just saying it seems like he's comfortable doing more stuff now.

That's all I can think of, this actually tired me out & goodnight?

[rivangel]

saw someone say when the fnaf 2 movie comes out they’ll be old enough to watch it and i just aged 10,000 years threw up and have tears in my eyes oh my god i hate time passing

i was old enough to watch markiplier and jack’s first episodes of the first game. i remember pewdiepie making those videos making fun of it. i remember watching the trailer for the 2nd game and getting hype in middle school with my friends. when the 4th game was announced the lore atp was so complex it was annoying so i stopped being a fan for a while, but i remember watching mark / hearing the ending monologue from fnaf pizza simulator for the first time and the CHILLS. i was there for snork or whoever that guy was that made the top ten fnaf lists and had never played the game. THE ORIGINAL MATPAT FNAF THEORY VIDEO. i’m not being elitest or anything im just sometimes reminded the internet how i remember it is considered old or classic or legendary now and i feel sick bc there’s something CRIPPLINGLY HORRIFYING to me about the passage of time and getting older.

[rumbleonthemill]

I want to address this issue, and I want to write my thoughts about it (it’s my page after all) It’s the old story: people shitting on Hello Neighbor, despite all they know is misinformation and lies. Nothing more.

…

I’ve been subbed to Markiplier for 9 years, if not more. He was the first and only youtuber I began watching, when this whole youtube thing became big. I remember watching him during university years, whenever I felt down, whenever I was happy. and after university too. And for long, I watched nobody else, but him.

…

He has a recent video, which you find here: https://youtu.be/tkREzi3IL7M I’m going to ignore the fact that they probably paid for a traced art for the thumbnail, this is another topic, but holy fuck. Ew. Okay, so this video went out recently, for nobody’s surprise, it is full of misinformation and gossips, and that’s HN for Mark and his friends.

This video…this video goes against one single rule, which sane people keep: “don’t like? Ignore”

I have a shitton of things I dislike. Heck, I even have things about Mark I dislike, but I have no right to change him, nor to criticize him. I skip the disliked things. But what does Markiplier do?

Nothing special. He does what every “fnaf youtuber” does nowadays: kicks into a game that is already laying on the ground. This doesn’t only mean a kick in the game, and the developers, who are probably the nicest people I’ve ever met. I love them. (And no, they didn’t beg to fucking matpat, whose HN theories are WRONG, it is marketing category, not development, and matpat himself does tag people multiple times, so find another cringe excuse to shit on us) God save us, the developers are not equal to the producer/publisher, who is responsible for the marketing part. Tinybuild is ONLY the publisher of HN, the game was created by Dynamic Pixels(now Eerie Guest Studios) who were five people in an office during that time. Five. Their first pc game.

This doesn’t only affect the devs, or the publisher. Believe or not (I don’t give a shit if you don’t) the FANS of the game also receive hate and actual death threats - because they’re fans! You read it correctly, I’m being harassed and sent death threats, made fun of, people wish my DEATH, because I’m thinking DIFFERENTLY. I word my comments fairly and trying to encourage people to not instantly hate something and try it for real - useless. Makes me think, where is the brain level of those shitting people. If I, a random person, despite hearing a lot of bad things, could try HN on my own and experience it, while my forming MY OWN opinion, then why can’t others?!

I like something they know nothing about, but the xy famous youtuber said, it is bad, so it must be bad, right?!

…

Absolutely fucking not. I’m tired of mob mentality and people shitting on things they have no real knowledge NOR REAL INTEREST about. I wrote my personal story about Mark, because I’ve been his faithful fan for years, watching his videos, saying “hey, Mark disliked HN and I’m okay with it. I wouldn’t want him to play with something he dislikes. At least he won’t shit on HN this way.” BUT HE FUCKING DOES. I don’t care that I’m one of the million fans of his, that he doesn’t care if he loses one. I’m aware.

But as a 30 something GROWN adult man, he should think and be aware of the consequences of his words. It was so fucking unnecessary to shit on something he has no interest in, nor knows anything about.

DONT LIKE? IGNORE. SCROLL PAST. or say “I’m not interested” and people with brain will perfectly accept and understand. It’s this simple.

(And no. Idc if Mark is famous. He is a human being, a man like many others. I treat him like a normal person. His opinions are as equal as everyone else’s, those opinions just have insane consequences which make people attack others. Shit on others, harm people they don’t even know.)

all I want is peace and people minding their own business, especially if they don’t care about something.

[clanwarrior-tumbly]

Today is fnaf 9th anniversary, man i remember it when I was 12 before going to middle on 6th grade for the first time. Hell I still have my horrible drawing of fnaf but need to find it and hopefully my mom didn’t throw it away to the garbage

YEAH I feel so old

I remember my friends talking about it in highschool during sophomore year, and the first game was so scary to one of them that they cried 😭 like real tears

That convinced me to check it out and then I stumbled upon markiplier playing it, and....the rest is pretty much history haha

[unclekaz]

6, 21, and 25 for Springtrap? :)

honestly uh. it's probably the touch starvation. i imagine that Machine Theory springtrap craves human warmth and affection to the point where he hovers over fireplaces and takes unbearably hot showers to simulate someone's warmth if someone is available to give him a hug and im exactly like that too-

my favorite thing to do when writing him is always focusing on his emotions and thoughts first before anything else. in I'll Fight For You Until I Die, nolan (y/n) returns home wounded and his springtrap immediately tries to help heal his wounds. i went into that fic thinking 'how would springtrap feel seeing his loved one show up hurt?' and just went from there.

something i don't like writing is probably just his rapport with nolan (y/n) because it hurts my soul so much. they have a shared respect for one another but springtrap can't bear seeing nolan not taking care of himself and writing springtrap fawning over his loved one heals me but throwing nolan (y/n) through the wringer just makes me think 'what if springtrap saw him like this' and just. ughff.

i remember seeing markiplier play FNAF 3 for the first time and uh. i remember very clearly thinking springtrap was cute. his stupid toothy smile and the way his jumpscare looked like he was just saying hello made me feel really happy

now uh. ive completely held onto that cuteness for springtrap and turned him into an absolute softie who's scared of thunder and gives you the softest hugs. honestly? not much has changed since then other than my enthusiasm!

[scary-friend]

I'm back from the Five Nights at Freddy's movie

Spiloer Free Review below.

I absolutely loved it. I highly recommend it to anyone who hasn't gone yet. It exceeded my expectations and was better than I had hoped. I hope you all give it a chance. Seeing it in theaters was such an amazing experience. I remember back in 2014 when I first got into Fnaf. Now seeing it on the big screen has really done a lot for me. I was just so happy on the drive there, and I'm still flooded with positive feelings. I cannot recommend this movie enough to Fnaf fans. It's truly such a love letter to the fans. There was so much care put into this movie.

Spoilers Beyond this Point...

Okay, so I honestly love all the little Easter eggs all over the film. I think my favorite was the opening credits in the 8-bit game style, just like the mini games. I also liked the detail of Spring bonnie slowly getting more evil looking as it continued. I also loved the little detail of when the lights were flashing there was an It's Me on the glass. Of course I can't forget the cameos of MatPat and CoryxKenshin. The "It's just a theory," chefs kiss. I'm just sad Markiplier didn't get to make an appearance.

I also loved how they included the spring lock of William Afton. It was less intense than I had expected in the moment, but I still appreciated it. To be honest I'm glad they got a little bloody. Like when Max was bit in half. "Was that the bite of '87?!" I also loved the feral cupcake. No ghost, just gremlin bitey cupcake.

I also think the dream sequences were a really good edition. It's a way to expand on Mike's character, as well as a good way to introduce the ghost children. The scene where he gets attacked by the children when he picks his sister over rewriting the past really got to me emotionally. I don't know why.

I really liked how the ghost children played a role in the movie too. They weren't silent the whole time. I appreciated how they introduced the living animatronics by showing them being nice to Abby. I wish I could hug them, I'm so jealous. I appreciated that it was known the children were in the animatronics, rather than it just being alluded to. Fnaf fans know about the lore and they treated it as such in the movie. I'm glad it wasn't like other movies where the adults don't believe the kids when they talk to ghosts. Rather it's accepted that the animatronics are haunted.

I got a lot of goosebumps throughout the movie both from actual fear and pure happiness. I think the scares were all well done. I heard some people say there weren't enough jump scares, but I think there were plenty. I think the scares were done really well, and I also appreciated the light hearted moments as well. I think a lot of fans had times where you wish you could help the animatronics and they did that for us.

Seeing springtrap walk out was so freaky. Also the little Easter egg with the Scream ghostface knife swipe was a nice detail. Just a subtle nod to a previous roll. The ending though, with Abby putting up the true drawing and the animatronics circling William was great. Him slowly getting crushed with the, "I always come back", really got me. Just little things like that make me happy. Just showing how much they cared.

Hearing Five Nights at Freddy's by The Living Tombstone made me so happy. I was just listening to it on the way to the theater and hearing it in the movie made me so ecstatic. Also the very end with "C...O...M...E...F...I...N...D...M...E...", I mean what can I even say.

Truly one of my favorite movies of the year. It really brought me back to 2014 in the best way. I even brought my Freddy plushie with me. So much love and care went into it. Seeing it all in real life is just so unreal to me. I'm just blown away and I'm really happy I got to see it in the theater. It's just a wonderful experience.

[immadeofgranite]

I think that given the release of the FNAF movie, I will tell the tale of my most memorable dream. For context, I was 10 at the time, undiagnosed asthma (this will matter later), and had been watching the games since Markiplier first played the game.

The dream started with being in a completely blank house, myself going through the doors and finding random items inside, closing them, and going to the next one. For some reason, if I found a FNAF animatronic, they would chase me, except for Foxy and Chica. I don’t know why those two, but they were also searching doors with me. I’m pretty sure I was supposed to be looking for an exit, but that part’s pretty blurry, since the next thing I remember was being outside on the path leading to one of those roads that game devs have when they don’t want to make a whole town. The ‘enemy’ animatronics weren’t chasing us, but we started running anyway. Then, I heard footsteps coming from behind me, and I think it was phantom Bonnie (the purple, really rare one) who I saw behind me. Cue more running, until I start to get tired. This is where I think my exemplary survival instincts come into play; my legs were beginning to get tired, and Chica and Foxy were running past me (because apparently they were also scared) so you know what I did? I stopped completely, turned around and was like ‘I’m tired, you can kill me now’. Phantom Bonnie began slowly walking towards me, but it was two steps away from me when I decided suddenly, ‘Oh! Actually, I don’t want to die’ and then started running again. Made it to the end of the road and then woke up.

No clue what the moral was.

Thanks for coming to my tedtalk.

[inkabelledesigns]

So knowing that I'm a huge Bendy fan and love some good angsty fanfic with body horror, it may surprise you to hear that I'm not actually a big horror fan. Yeah, I can't do horror movies, I don't engage in most horror games, this is literally my one thing, save for a little bit of FNAF in regards to Security Breach and Ruin.

If I think back, it's been that way for a while. When I was a kid, we went to Disney's Hollywood studios, and our family of five rode the Tower of Terror together. Now, I love yo-yo styled rides, up and downs are some of my favorites. But I hated this. The story scared me so badly, and on that day there was a thunderstorm in the forecast, it was stupid levels of scary. I refused to ever go on it again until this year. Yeah, when we went on our trip this summer, my brother in law really wanted to go on it, so all seven of us gave it a shot. I was a big wimp the whole time. X'''D I turned away from the screen during the preshow and let one of my sisters hide her face in my shirt while covering her ears. I learned something very valuable! If I can't see the horrors, it's not so scary! Audio alone doesn't get me. But I did need to cover my eyes multiple times to not see the ghosts. My brother in law was really amused when he was holding his wife's hand in a cute couples way on one side, and mine in fear on the other. Laughed the whole time. We had a great time. I also wasn't bad on the Haunted Mansion anymore. Yeah, I was so scared of sitting alone on that, but nope, I rode it twice all by myself, and it was fine, I'd dare to say I liked it.

I think back to my teenage years, and oh boy, my friends sure did like scary stuff. One of them had a birthday on Halloween, so we went on a trip to a haunted house together. I stayed in the back because I didn't like being scared. That was a weird day in general, I remember thinking one of the animatronics in it looked like one of our professors who was kind of a garbage teacher? And I pointed it out to my best friend, and she laughed. Oh, there was the birthday someone made us watch DHMIS. Yeah I cannot look at that, nope, we block out everything related to that, I can't do it. That friend didn't know me as well, so I don't blame her so much, but a heads up that it was scary would have been nice. More than I can say for how I got introduced to FNAF.

Gosh let me tell you THAT story, it's kind of a doozy. I had an ex-friend who was a big Markiplier fan, and one day he and my bestie came over, and he insisted we watch the new Markiplier episode together. He had already seen it and knew what was coming, but I sure didn't. It was the first episode of his Let's Play of Five Nights at Freddy's, the very first game. We were seniors in high school, and I was very sensitive to horror. This friend knew that and showed it to me anyway. After the first Foxy jumpscare, I was done. I couldn't walk in the dark without swearing I saw Freddy out of the corner of my eye for like two months. But the worst part was, this had been looked up on MY YouTube account, and back then, YouTube didn't have the option to say "don't show me this" or "don't recommend me this". So for months I was stuck with recommendations for FNAF, most of which had thumbnails featuring Bonnie's jumpscare. I was dead set against FNAF for YEARS, hated it with a passion because I couldn't reasonably block it out. Which is why I'm grateful for more self curating tools on YouTube and Tumblr nowadays, and why I'm so appreciative when people bother to tag things.

It's because of that bad experience with FNAF that I was very hesitant to get into Bendy. I knew it was horror from the start, and my friends who were into it were also big into FNAF. But with all their icons changed to the Bendy face, I was curious, I needed to know. The art style intrigued me, I liked cartoons a lot, I wanted to know what this was. What really solidified it was hearing Can't Be Erased for the first time over a Discord call and then looking up the music video for myself. That and Build Our Machine had me hooked, so I watched a friend play through the first two chapters, and I found myself on a journey to dig into it myself. Sammy and Alice would proceed to steal my heart, and let me tell you, the anxiety I felt when Chapter 5 first dropped, the wait to see what happened, oh gosh did I need someone to hold my hand. One of my friends stuck with me through a playthrough of the chapter over a call, and bless her, I was such a mess. X'''D I can say that Dark Revival did not have me shaking with anxiety the whole time thankfully. The Bendy books have given me a similar rush though, I was so haunted by DCTL and TLO on a first read through. Like I knew it would end badly, but the how and why of it kept me curious.

The thing is, the only horror I really engage in is a little bit of indie mascot horror, but not all of it. Some of it I don't find particularly engaging. I've got little interest if there isn't much of a story, and I'm rather particular about what kinds of stories and presentation I like. But I like this little slice of horror, it's enough. Like you would think Poppy Playtime would be up my alley, given my love of toys and dolls, but no, it's not. Haunted dolls don't really do it for me I've discovered, maybe I ought to write a story that does. I like My Friendly Neighborhood, which I know, isn't very scary, but it sure did spook me with opening lockers. I think, it's okay if I'm not into most horror things, I have a few small things I like, and that's more than fun enough. I just acknowledge that this probably surprises people given some of what I love. X'''D