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˗ˏˋ꒰ 🔪 love interest ꒱ . . . yandere ! m. kinich ! high school ! au x fem ! reader
˗ˏˋ꒰ 🔪 format ꒱ . . . headcannons
˗ˏˋ꒰ 🔪 warnings ꒱ . . . stalking, yandere themes
˗ˏˋ꒰ 🔪 authors note ꒱ . . . I don’t think I’m that good at writing kinich, so I hope he’s not too ooc :( || teyvat high school simulator homepage!
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Something about Kinich’s uniform HAS to break the rules in some way, shape, or form. He’d wear headphones until being told to take them off… then proceeding to keep them around his neck. He’d also over-accessorize with black and silver jewelry and piercings.
But if that wasn’t enough already, he will always be seen with some sort of handheld video game console for some reason. He’s really good at pretty much any and every video game he has, it’s very impressive actually.
His appearance is usually very well put together — if you don’t include the dark, tired, circles under his green eyes. It gives people the impression that he stays up all night playing video games (which isn’t entirely wrong).
But you have to admit, those dark, lidded, eyes with his almost perfect black eyeliner makes him look all the more attractive.
He’s a very athletic student, having played on different sports teams in the past. He’s probably one of the first kids picked when choosing teams in P.E.
I’m pretty sure Kinich is based off of Ancient Mayan culture, but (don’t shoot me) I really like the idea of him being bilingual in English and Spanish. Like, he can take a Spanish elective or something?
His favorite subjects are math and science.
The type of kid to sit in the back corner of the class to play games on his phone.
Kinich has a very blunt and cold personality towards about everyone. Especially people he dislikes or finds annoying. But when it comes to you people he likes, he’s a bit less rude.
Kinich is in the School’s art club (along with Xiao), and his most favorite thing to do in there is painting. Although, he hates all of the effort it takes in scrubbing the dried paint off his skin. It’s a really tiring process.
I like to believe that he’d like using more colors when drawing or even writing notes. Like, using different colored highlighters on his notes.
He’s also started a video game club at the beginning of the year, making himself the President. You would think that because his introverted personality he wouldn’t want to be the president of literal club, but he honestly doesn’t mind it at all.
Many students know Kinich for his very obvious love for video games. Which is pretty hard to go unnoticed due to his
backpack literally being decked out with pins and keychains of pixelated characters from a variety of different game franchises.
As a yandere, Kinich would be more possessive and obsessive. His most favorite thing in the world is to be by your side. You’re just too perfect to be left alone in his eyes.
His desire to always have his eyes on you would grow into bit of an… obsession, so to speak. Maybe following you home every evening to make sure you’re safe isn’t so wrong right?
Kinich may be a bit overprotective as well…
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Sweetest Devotion
terry richmond x black, fem!/plus size reader
summary: Your and Terry's son started preschool, and you and Terry continued discussing having another baby with you.
warnings: explicit smut 18+, oral (m & f ), unprotected sex, dirty talking, dilf! terry, daddy kink, breeding kink, baby fever, ovulating, fluff, five-year-old son, domestic life, angst, fainting, use of y/n, nicknames [ baby, sweetheart, baby girl & more ] words: 7k
note: I really love writing for this story, it has to be my fav. Please enjoy, but there may be some errors.
sequel to { funny how time flies } mini-series masterlist one { everything I ever wanted } two { make it right } three { you are my joy }
The preschool orientation came around, and you still danced around this baby topic. Elijah happily chatted about his new friends and couldn’t wait to learn with them.
It was Elijah’s first day, and you and Terry took off work to share in the excitement. You took many pictures before heading out, once at the preschool.
You watched as Elijah walked confidently into his new class, waving goodbye and not even glancing back. You turned to Terry, chuckling nervously.
���Well, that was…weird,” you pouted. “Thought he’d at least cry a little or something.”
Terry smirked, wrapping his arm around your waist. “He’s got your confidence. Eli is a natural.”
You rolled your eyes but leaned into him. “Yeah, yeah. Still, I thought I’d at least get a dramatic goodbye. Maybe a tear or two. Guess I’m not as essential as I thought.”
“Oh, you’re essential, alright,” Terry said, squeezing your shoulder.
“But he’s just ready to take on the world. He’s a big boy.”
You lingered there momentarily, watching the classroom door as if expecting Elijah to burst out, realizing he’d forgotten something—or someone.
But the door remained closed, the faint sound of children laughing and teachers guiding them filtering through. You sighed, a mix of pride and wistfulness swirling in your chest.
Terry nudged you gently, his smirk softening into a smile. “Come on,” he said, tugging you down the hallway, but you heard a familiar voice calling out behind you.
“Daddy! Mama!”
You spun around to see Elijah running toward you, his little legs pumping furiously, his face full of excitement, his hazel eyes shining like twin suns.
You dropped to one knee instinctively, arms open wide, and he barreled into you with all the force of a tiny hurricane.
“Elijah!” you exclaimed, wrapping him in a tight hug, your heart swelling with relief and joy.
“What’s wrong, sweetie? Did you forget something?” you asked changing to curious and worried.
Elijah shook his head, “No!” he said, pulling back just enough to look at you with a serious expression.
“I just wanted to tell you that I’ll miss you! And… and I’ll be brave!”
Your eyes filled with tears, and you cupped his face. “Oh, Elijah,” you said, your voice trembling.
“You’re already so brave. We’re so proud of you.”
Terry knelt down beside you, caressing Elijah's head. “Yeah, little man,” he said, his voice thick with emotion. “You’re going to do great. And we’ll be here waiting for you when school ends.”
Elijah nodded solemnly, then leaned in to hug Terry quickly before returning to you.
“I Love you, Mama,” he said, kissing your cheek sloppy.
“I Love you too, my sweet baby,” you replied, giving him one last squeeze before standing up.
With a final wave, Elijah turned and ran back toward his classroom, where the teacher was waiting for him, his small frame disappearing through the door once more.
You stood there momentarily, watching the space where he had been, feeling the weight of his absence settle in your chest. Terry’s arm found its way around your shoulders again, pulling you close.
“He’s going to be fine,” Terry said softly, his voice reassuring. “And so are we.”
You nodded, leaning into him. “I know. It’s just… it’s a big step, you know? Our little boy is growing up.”
Terry chuckled, pressing a kiss to the top of your head. “Yeah, he is. But he’s still our little boy. Always will be.”
You sighed, a small smile tugging at the corners of your lips. “I guess we’ve got some time to ourselves now,” you said, glancing up at him.
“What should we do?”
Terry’s grin widened, his eyes sparkling with mischief. “Well, we could go get some coffee. Or… we could finally have that conversation about whether or not we’re ready for another little one.”
Your heart skipped a beat at his words, the familiar mix of excitement and anxiety bubbling up inside you.
“You really want to talk about it now?” you asked, your voice tinged with uncertainty.
Terry shrugged, his expression softening. “We don’t have to if you’re not ready,” he said, his tone gentle.
You hesitated, the weight of his words pressing against your chest like a stone.
The thought of another child—another tiny heartbeat to care for, another soul to mold and guide—felt both exhilarating and terrifying.
You glanced at Terry, his eyes warm and patient, waiting for your response. His hand still rested on your shoulder, steadying you.
“I… I don’t know,” you confessed, your voice barely above a whisper.
“Elijah’s still so little, and there’s so much to consider. Can we enjoy this?”
Terry nodded, his thumb brushing against your arm in a soothing rhythm.
“I get it,” he said softly. “It’s a big decision. And you’re right—Elijah’s still our whole world. We don’t have to rush anything.”
You exhaled slowly, the tension in your shoulders easing slightly.
“I just want to make sure we’re doing it for the right reasons,” you admitted, looking up at him. "It has to feel… right.”
“Sure,” Terry said firmly, his gaze unwavering.
“And when it does feel right—whenever that is—we’ll know. ” He gave your shoulder a final squeeze before letting his hand drop.
“For now, let’s just enjoy this day. Coffee, maybe a walk, and then we’ll pick up our little man later. Sound good?” Terry added.
You nodded, a small smile breaking through the uncertainty. “Sounds perfect.”
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As the weeks pass, you and Terry settle into a new routine. The days were filled with Elijah's laughter and stories about his friends at preschool, and the nights were spent in silent companionship.
You noticed the tiny distance between you and Terry - he was still the fantastic dad and husband he was, but there was a distance between you regarding intimacy.
The two of you haven't had sex in two weeks only because you haven't been in the mood, but a few days have gonna by. You were practically throwing yourself at Terry.
One evening, as you sat on the couch scrolling through your phone, Elijah was at preschool, and Terry was off work.
Instead of spending time with you. “Hey, baby! Heading into the garage for a bit,” Terry said casually.
“Gotta keep up with this routine.”
You paused, your heart skipping a beat.
Something about how he said it—so nonchalant, so routine—made you wonder if there was more to it.
Before you could stop yourself, you blurted out, “Can I join you this time?”
Terry’s eyebrows lifted in surprise, but he nodded after a moment.
“Sure. If you want.”
You hurried upstairs to change, your mind racing.
You slipped into a form-fitting workout outfit, a tight sports bra that gave a good view of your breasts, and leggings that hugged your thick curves just enough to remind him of what he’d been missing.
The fabric clung to you in all the right places, and you caught a glimpse of yourself in the mirror. You bit your lip with a spark of determination in your eyes.
When you descended the stairs, Terry was waiting by the door, looking sexy. His eyes flickered over you, and briefly, you saw something flicker in his gaze—something warm, familiar.
But just as quickly, it was replaced by his usual demeanor. “Ready?” he asked, holding the door open for you. You nodded, following him out into the cool evening air.
The walk to the garage was short but filled with tension. You could feel the space between you, charged with heat and desire. Once inside.
Terry started setting up his weights while you lingered near the thick yoga mat, stretching casually but deliberately. As you bent forward, your box braids falling over your shoulders, you caught Terry glancing at you from the corner of his eye.
You held the pose a little longer than necessary, feeling a thrill when he quickly looked away. You moved through a series of stretches, each designed to highlight your figure more.
You could feel his gaze flickering back to you occasionally, sending you a little satisfaction. You decided to take it further, letting your movements flow with a fluid grace that you knew would be hard for him to ignore.
You sank into a deep lunge, arching your back slightly so the curve of your ass became more pronounced.
"Terry," you called out softly, your voice carrying a teasing lilt. "Can you give me a hand with this pose? I think my form might be off."
He hesitated momentarily, clearly trying to stay focused on his routine, but eventually, he set down the dumbbell he was holding and walked over.
"Sure," he said, his tone neutral but his eyes lingering just a beat too long on your body. "What do you need?"
"Just guide my hips a little," you said innocently, looking up at him through your lashes. "I want to make sure I’m aligned properly."
Terry’s hands hovered uncertainly for a moment before settling on your hips.
His touch was tentative at first, but his grip tightened ever so slightly as he adjusted your stance. You could feel the warmth of his palms through the thin fabric of your leggings, and it sent a shiver down your spine.
"Like this?" Terry asked, his voice low and a little strained.
"Almost," you murmured, shifting your weight subtly so your ass brushed against his crotch. You felt him stiffen, but he didn’t pull away.
Instead, his hands lingered, fingers pressing into your hips with a barely restrained intensity. You arched your back just a little more, letting the curve of your spine draw his gaze downward.
“There,” you said softly, your voice like honey. “That feels perfect.”
For a moment, neither of you moved. The air between you was thick with tension, electric, and undeniable. You could hear the faintest hitch in his breath, the way it caught in his throat as his eyes traced the line of your body.
Then, slowly, you rose from the lunge, turning to face him. Your breasts pressed against his chest, and you tilted your head up ever so slightly, your lips parted just enough to be inviting.
“Thanks, baby, you’re the best,” you whispered, your voice barely audible but heavy with meaning. You stepped back, lingering for a moment longer than necessary.
“I think I’ve got it now.”
Terry’s jaw tightened, his eyes darkening as they met yours. He didn’t say anything, but how he looked at you—like he was teetering on the edge of something—was enough to make your heart race.
You knew you had him right where you wanted him, and the power of that knowledge sent a thrill coursing through your veins. You turned away from him with a sly smile, swaying your hips just enough to keep him hooked.
"Alright then," you said, your tone light but laced with intention. "Guess I’ll get back to it."
You moved away from him, putting just enough distance between you two to make him ache. Then, without warning, you dropped into a quick set of jumping jacks.
Your arms swung wide, and your breasts bounced rhythmically with each motion, drawing his gaze like a magnet. You could feel his eyes on you, hot and heavy, but you didn’t look back. Instead, you kept going, letting the rhythm of your movement amplify the tension in the room.
"Fuck," he muttered under his breath, low enough that he probably thought you couldn’t hear it. But you did, and it only fueled your fire.
"Somethin’ wrong, Terry?" you called out between breaths, your voice dripping with feigned innocence as you continued your exercise.
"You lookin’ a little… distracted over there."
He cleared his throat, trying to regain some semblance of composure.
"Nah," he said gruffly, his voice rough like gravel.
"Just makin’ sure you keeping that form tight. Can’t have you slacking now.” But the way his eyes stayed glued to your body betrayed him—his words were weak, and you both knew it.
You slowed, letting your arms fall to your sides as you turned to face him again. Sweat glistened on your skin, and you licked your lips slowly, deliberately, watching his gaze follow the movement.
“Oh, I ain’t slacking, baby,” you purred, stepping closer to him with a sway in your hips that made his breath hitch. “You the one lookin’ all kinds of tense over there. Maybe you need some… loosening up.”
His jaw clenched, and you could see the muscle ticking in his cheek as he fought to keep control. But you weren’t about to let him off that easy.
You closed the distance between you, standing so close that your breasts brushed against his chest again with every breath. Your hand reached up, fingers trailing lightly along the curve of his jaw before sliding down to rest on his chest.
You could feel the rapid thud of his heartbeat beneath your palm, and it only made you smirk.
“You like what you see?” you whispered. Your voice was low and sultry, dripping with confidence, making Terry’s breath catch in his throat. "Do you want me right now?
His chest rose and fell faster now, his eyes locked on yours like he was trying to figure out if you were playing or serious. But you weren’t playing.
Not this time.
“You know I do,” he finally replied, his voice deep and low. His hand grabbed your wrist lightly but didn’t pull it away. Instead, he pressed your palm firmer against his chest, letting you feel the heat of him, the way his heart was pounding like a drumbeat just for you.
“You know I always want you.”
You tilted your head, your lips curling into a sly smile as you leaned in closer, your breath brushing against his ear.
“Then why you have been actin’ like you don’t?” you murmured, your voice honey-sweet but cutting straight to the point.
“Why have you been keeping your distance, Terry? You ain’t been touching me like you used to. Ain’t been lookin’ at me like you need me.”
He exhaled sharply through his nose, his grip on your wrist tightening just a fraction. His tone steady but laced with something raw, something unspoken.
“I have been respecting your wishes, baby. You said you haven't been in the mood, so I wasn't gonna push.” His voice dropped lower, a growl that sent shivers down your spine.
“But don’t for a second think I don’t want you every damn day.”
You let out a soft, breathy laugh, your fingers trailing down his chest, over the hard planes of his abs, until they rested just above the waistband of his shorts.
“Respecting my wishes, huh?” you teased, your voice dripping with a playful challenge.
“That’s cute, Terry. That's really sweet of you. I'm sorry…that's on me, but I am in the mood now, fuck me, please, I need you, Daddy” Your fingers dipped lower, brushing against the bulge in his shorts, and you felt him twitch beneath your touch.
“You have been holding back on me, and it’s been driving’ me crazy. I like it when you’re all over me, even if I say I’m not in the mood.”
Terry’s breath hitched, his hands moving to your hips, gripping you with a possessiveness that made your knees weak.
“Fuck” he growled, his voice low, and his eyes were dark, intense, and filled with a hunger that made your heart race.
“Let’s fix it,” he said, his voice firm. “Right now.”
Before you could respond, his lips were on yours, claiming you with a desperation that took your breath away. It wasn’t soft or gentle; it was raw and consuming like he was trying to make up for every moment he’d been distant.
Your hands found their way to his shoulders, gripping him tightly as you kissed him back with equal fervor.
“I miss your touch, Daddy,” You moaned, taking his tank off, went to caress his erection through his shorts, and got on your knees while looking up at him.
Terry’s breath hitched as your fingers traced his outline through the fabric, his hands instinctively finding their way to your shoulders.
“Baby…” he murmured, his voice thick with desire. His fingers tightened slightly, grounding himself as you looked up at him with those big doe eyes that always seemed to see straight through him.
You didn’t waste any time, tugging at the waistband of his shorts until they slid down his hips, freeing him. The sight of him—hard and ready for you—sent a jolt of heat straight to your core.
You leaned in, pressing a soft kiss to the tip before letting your tongue trace a slow, deliberate path along his length. His hips jerked involuntarily, and you could feel the tension in his body as he fought to keep himself still.
“Damn, girl,” he groaned, his voice rough and strained. His hands moved to cradle the back of your head, fingers threading through your braids as you took him deeper into your mouth.
Your rhythm was slow and deliberate, each movement designed to drive him wild. He let out a low growl, his grip tightening just enough to let you know he was barely holding it together.
But you weren’t done yet.
You pulled back slightly, teasing him with the tip of your tongue before taking him in again, this time deeper, your lips wrapping around him with practiced ease.
Terry’s breath came in short, ragged bursts, his chest rising and falling as he struggled to maintain control. "You’re gonna be the death of me," he muttered, his voice shaking with need.
Your hands moved to his hips, anchoring him as you continued to work him with your mouth, each stroke drawing out more of those delicious sounds from him.
You could feel the tension coiling in his body, the way his muscles tightened beneath your touch. Knowing you had this kind of power over him was intoxicating, knowing you could bring him to the edge so effortlessly.
But you wanted more than just his pleasure. You wanted to see him unravel completely, to hear every filthy word spill from those lips as he lost himself in you.
Pulling back with a slow, deliberate drag of your tongue, you looked up at him, your lips glistening, your eyes heavy with desire. “You wanna feel how much I’ve been missing you, Daddy?” you purred, your voice dripping with honeyed temptation.
Your hands slid up his thighs, nails digging lightly into his skin as you teased him with your words. “You wanna know how much I’ve been dreaming about this? ‘Bout you?”
Terry’s jaw clenched, his chest heaving as he stared down at you, his eyes burning with a fire that made your entire body ache. His hand gripped your chin, tilting your face up to his.
“You been dreaming ‘bout me, baby? ‘Bout what I’d do to you?”
You nodded, your breath hitching as his thumb brushed your bottom lip. “Yes,” you whispered, your voice trembling with need. “Dreaming ‘bout how you’d stretch me out, fill me up, make me scream your name ‘til the neighbors call the cops.”
You licked your lips, your eyes locking with his, unflinching. “Dreaming’ ‘bout how you’d hold me down, make me take every inch of you ‘til I’m begging for mercy. Dreaming ‘bout how you’d make me yours—all over again.”
Terry let out a guttural groan, his free hand gripping your hair tighter as he pulled you closer to him. “Mmm...let me make that dream come true, would you like that?” he growled, his voice dark and dangerous.
“Yes, let me finish,” you said, your voice sultry and defiant. You leaned in again, taking him into your mouth once more, this time with a hunger that bordered on desperation.
Your tongue swirled around him, your lips working him with a rhythm that had his legs trembling beneath him. You could feel the way his body tensed, the way he fought to keep himself from thrusting too hard.
“Shit,” he hissed, his head falling back as he let out a string of curses that only spurred you on. “You gon’ make me lose it, girl. Fuck, you got me ready to bust, and you ain’t even let me touch you yet.”
His voice was raw and ragged like it was being ripped from his chest. “You think you can handle all this pent-up tension? You think you can take what I got for you?”
You pulled back just enough to let him see the wicked grin on your lips, your eyes glinting with mischief. “Daddy, yes, give me all that you got,” you purred, your voice smoky and full of promise.
“I have been waiting for this, waiting for you.”
Terry’s laugh was low and throaty, but it didn’t mask the hunger in his eyes. He reached down, gripped your braids, and guided you back to him.
“You talkin’ like that you didn't have me waiting for it first,” he murmured, his voice dripping with menace. “But Imma give you exactly what you've been asking’ for.”
His grip tightened as he pressed himself more profoundly into your mouth, a groan rumbling in his chest.
“Shit, baby! You're so good at this—like you were born just to suck me off,” Terry growled, his voice thick with lust. He pulled you up suddenly, his hands rough and possessive as they roamed your body.
“But I’mma need more than that pretty pussy right now. I miss it.” Terry said, dragging you across the room, his movements urgent and commanding.
Your heart raced as he tossed you onto a thick, plush mat on the floor, the friction of the fabric against your skin sending shivers down your spine.
Terry loomed over you, his eyes blazing with hunger, and you knew there was no escaping what was coming next. “On all fours,” he ordered, his voice low and gravelly, leaving no room for argument.
You obeyed instantly, your body trembling with anticipation as you positioned yourself on your hands and knees. Terry knelt behind you, his hands gripping your hips with a dominance that made your breath hitch.
Terry ripped a hole in your leggings, the sound of fabric tearing echoing through the room. "Oh baby," he muttered, his voice dripping with approval as he exposed your ass.
He smacked it hard, the sharp sting making you gasp and arch your back. "You been walking’ around like this, all this ass out here tempting me? You knew what you were doing!"
Terry growled, his voice thick with desire. His fingers traced the curve of your spine, sending shivers through your body as he leaned down, his breath hot against your skin.
“You have done it now. You got me all worked up, and I ain’t letting you off easy.”
His tongue flicked out, teasing the sensitive skin at the small of your back before trailing lower, leaving a wet, hot path that made you shudder.
“Fuck, Terry,” you moaned, your voice trembling as his hands spread you open wider. He chuckled darkly, the sound vibrating against your skin as his tongue dipped lower, brushing against the folds of your pussy with a teasing flick.
“Damn, baby,” he murmured, his voice muffled as he pressed his face deeper between your ass cheeks.
“You taste so fuckin’ good. Like sweet candy—I could eat this pussy all day.” His tongue swirled around your clit, slow and deliberate, drawing a whimper from your lips.
“You like that? You like how Daddy’s taking care of you?”
“Yes,” you gasped, your hands clawing at the mat beneath you as his tongue worked you like a damn masterpiece. “Yes, Daddy,” you whimpered, your voice shaking with need.
“Please—fuck, don’t stop.”
He growled against you, the vibrations sending shockwaves through your core. “You beggin’ already?” he teased, pulling back just enough to make you ache.
“Nah, baby.....” His hands gripped your hips tighter, his fingers digging into your flesh as he leaned back, his dick hard and heavy against your ass.
“Look at you,” he murmured, his voice low and rough as he traced a finger down the curve of your spine. “All this ass up in the air, just begging for me to ruin you.”
He smacked your ass again, harder this time, the sting making you cry out and push back against him instinctively. “Yeah, that’s it,” he said, his voice dripping with approval.
“Show me how bad you want it.”
“Please, Terry,” you begged, your voice trembling with desperation as you rocked back against him. “I need it—I need you inside me. Fuck me, please, big daddy.”
Terry chuckled darkly, the sound sending a shiver down your spine as he positioned himself at your entrance, the tip of his dick teasing your slick folds.
"You sure, baby?" Terry murmured his voice a low growl that made your stomach tighten.
"Yes," you breathed, your voice barely above a whisper as you pushed back against him, trying to take him in. "Please, Daddy—I need it. I need you so bad."
"Alright," Terry said, his voice thick with approval as he gripped your hips and slammed into you in one smooth, brutal stroke. The air left your lungs in a rush, a strangled moan tearing from your throat as he filled you, stretching you most deliciously.
"Fuck," Terry groaned, his voice strained as he paused for a moment, letting you adjust to the feel of him. "Pussy always gotta gripping’ me like it ain’t never letting go."
"Don’t stop," you begged, your voice shaking as you clenched around him, your body already craving more. "Please—fuck me."
"Shit," Terry muttered, his hands tightening on your hips as he pulled out almost entirely before slamming back in, the force of it making your breath hitch.
"You feel that, baby? That’s all me, stretching’ you out, makin’ this pussy mine." His thrusts were relentless, each one deeper and harder than the last, and you could feel the heat building in your core with every movement.
"Damn, you take it so well," Terry growled, his voice rough and raw with need. "This pussy was made for me and only me—you hear me? Made. For. Me."
"Y-yes, Terry," you stammered, your voice breaking as he hit that spot inside you that made your vision blur.
"All yours—only yours." Your hands clawed at the mat beneath you, desperate for something to hold onto as he fucked you senseless, each thrust sending shockwaves through your body.
"That’s right," Terry said, his voice dripping with satisfaction as he leaned over you, one hand sliding up to grip your throat just enough to make your pulse race.
"You’re the best wife, Y/N the best thing that's ever happened to me. I’m so grateful to call you mine,” he added.
“Oh, Terry, yes,” you moaned, feeling grabbed your breasts through your sports bra.
“Fuck…always takin’ this dick like a champ—like you were born for it. Turn around for me, and let me see your face and those tits."
You whimpered at his command, your body trembling as you turned to lay on your back as he slides his dick deep inside you. The movement made you gasp, the fullness of him sending a jolt of pleasure through your core.
Terry’s dark eyes locked onto yours, his gaze hungry and predatory as he hovered over you, his hands moving to tear off your sports bra swiftly.
Your breasts spilled free, and he groaned low in his throat, his eyes taking over your exposed skin like he was devouring you whole. Terry growled, his voice thick with lust as he palmed your breasts, his thumbs brushing over your hardened nipples.
“Look at you—fuckin’ perfect. These tits? Mine. This pussy? Mine. All of you—mine.” Terry leaned down, capturing one nipple in his mouth, sucking hard as he rolled the other between his fingers.
The dual sensation made you arch into him, a desperate moan escaping your lips as he teased and tormented you.
“Terry, please,” you begged, your hands tangling in his hair as he continued to feast on you. “I need you to keep going…fuck me more, please.”
Terry pulled back with a wet pop, his lips curling into a wicked grin as he looked down at you. "No need to beg, baby," he said, his voice low and gravelly, sending shivers down your spine.
"You already know I’m gon’ give you what you need." His hands slid down your body, rough and wild, gripping your hips as he pulled out slowly, teasing you with the drag of his dick before slamming back in with a force that made you cry out.
"Fuck, Terry!" you screamed, your nails digging into his shoulders as he set a brutal pace, each thrust driving more profound, more challenging, until you felt like he was everywhere—filling you, owning you, consuming you.
"Y-you feel so good—so damn good!" you moaned. "Yes, do you feel that? Feel how deep I’m in you? Huh?" Terry asked.
"Yes, I feel it!" you cried out, your back arching off the mat as he pounded into you with a ferocity that left you breathless.
"You’re so deep—oh, you’re everywhere! Terry, please—I need more! Fuck another baby in me, please!"
"Are you sure?" Terry growled, his eyes dark with hunger as he leaned down to capture your lips in a searing kiss, his tongue invading your mouth with the same intensity as his dick was ravaging your core.
"Because I’ll give you what you want. You want me to put another baby in you? Huh? Are you ready for that?"
"Yes, please, yes!" you moaned into his mouth, your hands moving to grip his ass, pulling him deeper still.
"Fuck, you beg so pretty," Terry snarled, his voice dripping with raw desire as he slammed into you again, the wet slap of skin on skin echoing in the room.
"You hear that? That sound your pussy makin’ when I hit it? That’s what I wanna hear every damn night. You gon’ give me that, huh? Gon’ let me wreck this pussy whenever I want?"
"Yes, Terry—oh fuck, yes!" you cried out, your body trembling as he drove into you with relentless force. His words were filthy, dripping with a hunger that matched his movements, and they only made you want him more.
"Wreck me—fuck me however you want! I’m yours—all yours, fuck another baby into me please!"
Terry’s hands tightened around your hips, his fingers digging into your skin as he leaned back slightly, his dark eyes never leaving yours.
“You want another baby? Huh? You want me to fill you up, plant my seed deep in you, and watch you grow with another child inside you?”
“Yes!” you screamed, your voice hoarse from the relentless pleasure as you clawed at his chest, your nails raking down his skin. “I want it—I want you to fill me! I need it, Terry—please!”
Terry growled low, the sound primal, as he thrust into you harder, faster, each stroke more punishing than the last.
The garage was filled with the raw, wet sounds of your bodies colliding, the slapping of skin against skin, and the desperate, breathless moans spilling from your lips.
“Say it again,” Terry demanded, his voice rough and guttural, his grip on your hips bordering on painful as he pulled you into him with every brutal stroke.
“Say you want me to come inside you, to make another baby. Say it.”
“I want it! I want you to come inside me—oh, Terry, please! I need it—I need you to fill me up!”
“Fuck,” Terry cursed, his face twisted in a mixture of pleasure and raw, animalistic need. “You’re such a good girl, takin’ this dick like you were made for it. My girl, my wife, my everything.”
His hands moved to your waist, lifting you slightly as he pounded into you, each thrust lifting you off the mat.
The world around you blurred, the only focus the relentless drive of his hips, the heat building in your core, and the raw, unfiltered pleasure coursing through every nerve in your body.
“Come on, baby,” Terry growled, his voice strained as he leaned over you again, his mouth brushing against your ear.
“I feel you squeezing me, but don’t you dare come yet. You hear me? You wait for me. We come together.”
“T-Terry, please—I—” You couldn’t finish the sentence, your breath catching as he hit that perfect spot again, your body trembling on the edge of release.
“Not yet,” Terry snapped, his thrusts becoming erratic, wild, as he chased his own climax. “Hold on, baby—hold on for me!”
Your hands clawed at his arms, your legs wrapping around his waist as you pulled him deeper, your body desperate for more. The heat inside you was building, coiling tighter and tighter until it became almost unbearable.
“Let me see your face,” Terry growled, lifting his head to lock his eyes with yours. “I want to see you when you cum. I want to see my baby full of my dick, takin’ every inch like the good girl you are.”
The words sent a shiver through you, and you could feel the dam breaking. “Terry—I can’t—oh fuck—”
“Now,” he barked, his voice harsh as he slammed into you one final, brutal time. “Cum now, sweetheart”
Your body obeyed, the release tearing through you like a freight train as you screamed, the sound raw and guttural. Terry wasn’t far behind, his growl deep and primal as he buried himself inside you, his hips jerking as he emptied himself into you, hot and thick.
For a moment, time stood still as the two of you rode the wave of your climaxes; the only sound was your ragged breathing and the pounding of your heart.
Then, slowly, Terry collapsed onto you, his weight pressing you into the mat as he buried his face in your neck, his chest heaving with exertion.
Terry flips off of you and lies there; his breath slowly steadies, and he turns his head to gaze into your eyes, the intensity still burning within them.
Terry brushed a braid from your face, his touch tender yet charged with the remnants of their passion. "Fuck...I love you," he whispered, his voice still husky.
"I love you too, Terry." You smiled weakly, your body still trembling with the aftershocks of their climax. Terry shifted slightly, pulling you closer, his arms wrapping around you like a shield.
The garage was quiet now, the only sound the soft hum of the world outside, a stark contrast to the raw energy that had filled the space just moments before.
As you lay there, the weight of Terry's words settled over you. The want for another child, for the expansion of your family, lingered in the air.
You thought about the future, about the possibilities, and how this moment might be the beginning of something new. Terry's hand drifted to your belly, his fingers tracing gentle circles as if envisioning the life that might soon grow there.
"We'll see," he murmured, a soft smile on his lips. "We'll see."
-
The days turned into weeks, and the weeks slipped into a month, then more. Life fell into its familiar rhythm, but something felt different.
At first, it was just a faint morning nausea, a queasiness that lingered long after breakfast. You brushed it off as a stomach bug, something that would pass.
But as the days went on, the sickness persisted, and with it came a weariness that clung to you like a second skin. You were always tired, no matter how much you slept, and the smell of the simplest meals could send you running for the bathroom.
Terry noticed first, of course. He always did. He’d watch you with that sharp, observant gaze, his brow furrowing when you pushed food around your plate or excused yourself again to be sick.
“You should go to the doctor,” Terry said one morning as you sat on the edge of the bed, your head in your hands.
“You’ve been feeling like shit for weeks. It’s probably just a bug, but you must ensure it’s not something more serious. You might be pregnant; we've been trying.”
But you were stubborn, not thinking you were pregnant just yet, even if you two were trying. You shook your head, insisting you were okay, that it was just stress or something you’d eaten.
Terry sighed and dropped it, but he wasn’t convinced. Then came the day at the zoo. Elijah was bouncing with excitement, his tiny hands clutching the map as he dragged Terry toward the lion enclosure.
You trailed behind, the sun beating down on you, making your head swim. The air was thick with the smells of popcorn and sweat, and your stomach churned in protest.
You paused and took a breath while leaning against a railing as the world spun around you. “Mama! Mama, look! The lions are eating!” Elijah’s voice carried back to you, distant but clear.
You tried to smile, to wave, but your vision blurred at the edges. Terry turned, his expression shifting from amusement to concern in an instant.
“Hey,” Terry said, stepping closer. “You good you look-.”
“I’m fine,” you lied, but your voice wavered.
"Sweetheart, you know it's me you're talking...I know when something is wrong," Terry said, but the ground tipped beneath your feet, and everything went black before you could stop it.
-
"Daddy, I think she's waking up," you heard a familiar voice as you opened your eyes and lay in a clinic bed.
Terry’s face was etched with worry, and Elijah sat in a chair beside him, his small face drawn.
“Thank God,” Terry whispered, his voice cracking as he took your hand.
"What happened?" You whispered.
“You fainted, scared the hell out of us, baby.”
You tried to speak again, but your throat was dry. A nurse bustled in, smiling warmly, and handed you a cup of water.
“Take small sips,” she said. “You’ve been out for 20 mintues.”
As you drank, the doctor came in, clipboard in hand. “Good to see you’re awake, Mrs. Richmond,” he said.
“You fainted at the zoo; your husband brought you in. We ran some tests." The doctor’s voice was calm and reassuring, but you could sense a hint of excitement beneath his professional demeanor.
“You fainted due to a combination of dehydration and low blood sugar, but…” The doctor paused, glancing at Terry and Elijah before returning to you.
“We also found something else during the tests.”
Terry’s hand tightened around yours, his eyes narrowing slightly as if bracing for news. Elijah, oblivious to the tension, leaned forward, his curiosity piqued.
“What is it?” Elijah asked, his tiny voice breaking the silence. The doctor smiled a small smile that put you at ease. “It seems you’re going to be a family of four soon. You’re pregnant.”
The words hung in the air like a whispered secret, their weight settling over you like a soft blanket. You blinked, your mind racing. Pregnant?
Terry gave you a *I told ya so* look and you should've known, and the nausea, the fatigue, it all made sense. A small, incredulous laugh bubbled up in your throat, but it caught there, leaving you breathless.
Terry’s face transformed in an instant. His initial shock melted into a vast, radiant smile, and he squeezed your hand so hard it almost hurt.
“Really?” Terry asked, his voice trembling with hope. “Are you sure?”
The doctor nodded. “Yes, very sure. She's about eight weeks along. Everything looks healthy. You just need to stay hydrated, Mrs. Richmond, take it easy for a while, and come in for regular check-ups.”
Elijah, who had been quietly processing this information, suddenly jumped.
“We’re gonna have a baby!” Elijah exclaimed, his voice ringing. He jumped on the bed and threw his arms around your neck, almost knocking over the water cup on the bedside table.
“I’m gonna be a big brother! I’m gonna teach them everything!”
You laughed then, the sound breaking free from your chest. It was a shaky, half-tearful laugh, but it felt good. Terry leaned over, kissing your forehead, his eyes shining with unspoken promises.
“We’re gonna be okay,” Terry whispered. “We’re gonna be great.”
The doctor smiled again, clearly pleased with your reaction. “I’ll give you a few minutes,” he said, stepping out of the room.
“We’ll set you up with an appointment with your preferred OBGYN for a follow-up, and I’ll send in a nurse with more information.”
As the door closed behind him, you looked at Terry and Elijah, your heart swelling with love and gratitude.
“I’m gonna be a big brother,” Elijah repeated with a giggle. He pressed a small, earnest kiss to your cheek.
“I’ll take care of the baby, Mama. I promise.”
Terry chuckled, shaking his head in amusement. “I think we’re all going to take care of the baby,” he said, wrapping his arms around you.
“Together.”
You leaned into him, feeling his warmth, his strength, and let the happiness wash over you.
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☕💖 Can I Get Your Number? ☕💖 Ch 37
Jason Todd x (f)Chubby!Reader
written with a female reader in mind, first person pov, no use of Y/N, NSFW, MDNI, let me know if there's anything else I should tag this with!
warnings/labels: some mild hurt/comfort, brief discussion mentioning and alluding to typical Crime Alley shit (drugs, prostitution, human trafficking, etc.)
wc: 2.2k
Chapter Selection
Gotham University stood tall and proud; the pinnacle of modern design, all sharp edges and floor to ceiling windows. Jason insisted on walking me to class for my first day, looking longingly at the library building as we passed.
“... You could take some classes too, you know.” I smiled softly. “I can just see you pouring over the Epic of Gilgamesh for some classic literature class while I'm memorizing the names of the bones or something. We could be GU's next power couple~”
He chuckled softly, smiling wistfully. “... It would be nice, … if only … I … I didn't even graduate high school … kinda died in the middle, and then …”
I gently squeezed his hand, stroking his knuckles. He smiled weakly, gently tugging me closer to press a soft kiss to my jaw; silently reassuring me that he was ok. I leaned in, smiling softly; “... You could get your GED, if you want it?”
“... Maybe, some day. But for now, I’m happy to cheer you on from the sidelines.”
I cupped his cheek gently; “if that's what you want.”
He nodded; “... For now.”
Other students streamed past us into the classroom. “Ok, … wish me luck!”
Jason smiled softly; “good luck, baby girl~ … you're incredible, you know that?”
I felt my face warm as he pulled me into a hug. “... Nah, not really…”
“Yes really. You're gonna knock their socks off…”
I giggled softly, kissing him one more time before heading into my class. Jason waved me off as the professor shut the door, starting class.
I changed, scribbled a quick note on the whiteboard on the fridge, in case Jason came home before I did, tossed Damian's helmet into my riding bag, and headed out. I found the restaurant easily enough, quickly spotting Damian at a little metal table out front. My heart ached at the sight; he looked so defeated, sitting there with his hands in his lap. Emma was nowhere to be seen. As I pulled in to a spot, he slid his backpack onto his shoulders and approached.
Damian: Sister, can you please come get me?
3:45pm
Me: Yeah, you at school?
3:46pm
Damian: No, the boba place down the block.
3:47pm
Me: Oh yeah, your date! How'd it go?
3:48pm
Damian: I'd rather not discuss it.
3:50pm
Me: Oh damn. Ok, I'll be there in 10
3:51pm
Damian: Thank you.
3:52pm
His cheeks were a bit flushed, and his usual self-assured smirk was replaced with a blank expression. I pulled his helmet out of the bag, offering it to him, and he immediately tugged it on. His arms wrapped tight around my waist as he settled into his seat.
I gently squeezed his hand and we took off. “You wanna ride for a bit, or go straight home?”
“... Ride.”
“Ok, we can do that.”
I turned down a road that led to some nicer neighborhoods, so he'd have pretty parks and historic architecture to look at. He sighed softly, hugging me tight, and we drove in silence for a while. Eventually a chime in my helmet headset let me know I was being called.
I pushed a button on my helmet to accept the call; “hello?”
“Hey Doll, you on your way back?”
Damian squeezed a bit tighter. He wasn't ready. “No, not yet, Jay. Damian wants to ride around for a bit.”
“Oh. Hey demon spawn!” Damian grunted softly in response. “... Woah. Ok then. Not a good day. Should I order dinner, or is Damian going back to the manor?”
“That sounds nice to me. Kiddo?”
“... Indian?” Damian mumbled.
“Sure, Indian. You both want your usuals?” Jason sounded a bit concerned. Damian wasn't usually this obviously affected by things…
“Yes please. Thanks Jay~”
Damian grunted a soft; “thanks…”
“Sure. See you in … what, maybe an hour? Two?”
“Something like that. I'll call you when we're on our way home.” I stroked the back of Damian's hand, hoping he'd find it reassuring.
“Ok. Be safe.”
“Always. Love ya!”
“Love you too, princess.” With a click the call disconnected, and Damian sighed softly.
“... You wanna talk, sweetie?”
“... She … she didn't even realize it was supposed to be a date. … She showed up with a group of people. … Everyone was ordering bobas, and laughing. I tried to talk to her, but she wasn't really paying attention … Suddenly they were all talking about going to the mall. I said I didn't want to go, … And she left with them anyway.”
I sighed softly, gently squeezing his hand. “I'm so sorry, Damian. That must have hurt a lot …”
“... Jon was right … I'm undateable.”
“Oh honey, Jon doesn't think that. I think he was just surprised that the first time you mentioned this girl to him was also the day you told him you had a date. That's all.”
“... So he thinks I'm indecisive? … That might be worse. What kind of leader can't make a simple decision?”
“... You're not indecisive, baby. No one thinks that. You're discerning. You choose your friends carefully, and Jon knows that.”
He sighed softly. “... Can I sleep at yours tonight?”
“Of course. Should we head to the manor for you to feed your pets first?”
“Yes. … Thank you.”
I nodded, and we made our way to the Wayne household. Damian was silent the whole way, sluggishly sliding off the bike when we got there.
Alfred frowned, watching us as we entered the house. I smiled weakly, and Damian hurried off to tend to his animals.
“He's asked to spend the night with me and Jason.”
Alfred nodded. “I see. Well, do you have time for a cup of tea? I'd like to hear about your first day at the university.”
I smiled softly, nodding. “It was good. My biochemistry teacher in particular seems really nice; he's a bit stern, but still warm if that makes sense?”
Alfred nodded, leading me into the kitchen. We had tea and discussed my classes for a while. Eventually, Bruce stood in the doorway and cleared his throat.
“May I speak with you for a moment?”
I nodded slowly, standing to follow him. Alfred wished me farewell, and Bruce led me to a sitting room. We sat in plush armchairs, watching the fire in the fireplace.
“... I have a favor to ask.”
“Ok?”
“... I'm worried about Jason … and, I've been thinking about it, and you might be the only person who could convince him …”
I frowned. “Convince him?”
“... He puts himself in unnecessary danger on patrol. And I-”
“Wait. Is Bruce asking me a favor, or Batman?” I leaned forward a bit. “Because you know that I will not help Batman. And I cannot imagine why Bruce would be bringing up patrol with me.”
He sighed; “... I'm worried about my son's safety. And it occured to me that you, as his girlfriend, are in a unique position to convince him not to take unnecessary risks.”
“I see … risks, such as going out on patrol at all?”
“... Risks, such as having a reputation among the Gotham underground for coldblooded murder.” Bruce grimaced.
“Ah. … See, here's the thing, Bruce; that ship has sailed. Red Hood is already known to kill when necessary. Changing that now will not protect him, it will make him appear to be going soft, and put him in more danger. And even if that weren't the case, … I still wouldn't help you with this.”
He clenched his jaw, narrowing his eyes at me. “... Do you like that he kills?”
“... Let me tell you a little story, Bruce. When I was in high school I walked to and from school. And every single day I walked past half a dozen dealers, all offering me the first taste for free. I saw dozens of my classmates give in, one by one. They sought stress relief, or party enhancers, or study aids, but the result was always the same. Everything they were eventually slipped away until they were entirely consumed by the drugs. … By the time I graduated, almost a third of my classmates were dead, missing, or dropped out, most of them because of drugs. Only two kids had gone to rehab and come back in time to graduate with the rest of us.
When I first got my job at the diner, I only worked day shifts. I made sure I was home by nightfall no matter what, because from dusk till dawn the dealers, pimps, and gangs owned the streets. Joker, Two-Face, Penguin, and even Batman and Robin had all pushed the ordinary criminals out of the rich neighborhoods, out of the middle class neighborhoods, and into mine. So I followed all the rules; keep your head down, stay inside at night, don't draw attention to yourself, carry pepper spray but not a knife.
One day I woke up, I made my way to work, and halfway into my shift a coworker called in. I was told I could stay late to cover, or not come in the next day. So I stayed. Late that night I finally went home. … And nothing happened. I didn't see one shady deal in a back alley, or hear one prostitute calling out to the folks on the street. I was alone. … It was unsettling, to say the least. In the morning all the headlines were reporting that there was a new crime boss in Gotham. That a dozen gang members had been executed in a single night, and the underground was in turmoil.
… Over the next several weeks more reports came out, all calling the Red Hood a murderer, a serial killer even. But you know what the people in my neighborhood said? They called him a hero. They said we were finally safe, that we could leave our homes after dark again. The high school dropout rate in my neighborhood plummeted that year. Our sisters and daughters actually came home after a night out. It became known - if you see a flash of red in the night, someone evil is about to die. Seeing Red Hood wasn't a guarantee of safety, of course; innocents still died. But they died knowing that their killer would be in hell soon, because the Red Hood takes no prisoners.”
Bruce watched me, a pained look in his eyes as he took in my story. “... So you will not discourage him from killing?”
“... When Jason Todd returned to Crime Alley, he single-handedly did more good for my neighbors than Batman ever has. He makes us safer; not just feel safer, we are safer. I am not going to tell him how to run his business. I trust him to make good choices. He knows I want him to come home, and I trust that he will always do his best to do so. I can't ask for more than that. He's a man, not a god.”
Bruce sighed, nodding slowly. “... With every life he ends, he takes another step down a path of darkness. … Someday he may find himself too far down that path; too far to turn back, too far to hide from the consequences. … It is a path I cannot follow, and if I cannot follow him, how can I protect him?”
“I understand, but ... He's making the choices he can live with. He's a good man, Bruce. You know that, don't you?” He nodded slowly. “Then maybe you should try to trust him.”
Bruce sighed and nodded slowly. “... I am so worried for him…”
“Good. You're his dad, it's your job to be worried about him. But that doesn't have to mean second guessing every choice he makes. You're allowed to have different moral codes.”
Damian cleared his throat from the doorway, changed into casual clothes and a bag slung over his shoulder. “I'm ready when you are…”
I nodded, smiling softly. “Ok, baby brother. I'll meet you downstairs. Will you tell Jay we're on the way?”
He nodded, smiling a little. Bruce frowned a bit. “He's spending the night with you then?”
“He asked to. I'll take him to school in the morning.”
Bruce nodded slowly, sighing. “... Fine. … Have a good evening.”
After dinner, Jason convinced Damian to tell him what happened on his date. The boy curled in on himself, mumbling, and I went to the kitchen to load the dishes. Out of the corner of my eye I saw Jason pull Damian into a hug, and Damian hugged back, even leaning into it. I smiled softly, glad they were opening up to each other.
“... I think I'll take a shower.” Damian slowly pulled away.
I nodded. “Go ahead, kiddo. When you're done we can have dessert. Nothing soothes heartache like a brownie sundae, yeah?”
He smiled a little and nodded. “Yeah, ok. Thanks.”
“Of course, baby brother.”
He headed into the bathroom and Jason came up to wrap his arms around me. I kissed his cheek, smirking a bit, and whispered; “way to go, papa.”
He blinked a bit, groaning softly. “Dear god, no.”
“Oh yes~” I giggled.
He chuckled, pulling me closer. “Ugh, gross … don't let B hear that.”
“Are you kidding? Bruce already doesn't like my relationship with Damian, I'm not about to give him any reason to distrust yours too.”
Jason nodded, kissing my jaw. “Good …”
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Headcanons for being Viktor’s younger sibling
Viktor x sibling!reader
warnings:
a/n: im so sorry if this sucks so bad im soooo sorry its my first arcane fic
prompt: anonymous: “Hooray for open requests!!! Maybe hc for being Jayce or Viktor's younger sibling? And accompanying them to the lab?”
you and viktor never thought you’d make it out of the undercity, but viktor was gifted. he helped give you a better life
heimerdinger helped you find your place in piltover, viktor wouldn’t let you get left behind
“y/n deserves to go to a good school. have advanced classes. they can handle it.” -viktor
“i have no doubt, especially if y/n takes after you” -heimerdinger
you’d come a long way, farther than you ever thought you guys would go
“i’m glad i have you as a brother, vik” -you
“you’re just saying that because you have a nice plate of food in front of you” -viktor
“it doesn’t hurt” -you
even if viktor was your older sibling, you devoted yourself to sticking up for him
especially when you lived in zaun, since viktor was not treated kindly
“no more fighting up here?” -viktor
“i hope so, but just because we’re in piltover doesn’t magically solve discrimination. we’re still outsiders” -you
“why do you say that? has something happened?” -viktor
“just the way the people up here act” -you
you two still made the most of the opportunity with your studies, moving up in piltover
viktor soon met jayce, which you had mixed feelings of
maybe you were a little prejudiced againts topsiders still, even after all this time
“hey, who’s this!” -jayce
“viktor’s sibling, y/n. who are you?” -you
he liked you though!
you started to accompany them as they worked, especially intrigued by hextech
you were sort of an “intern” as they liked to call you
but it was worth it, experiencing something so fascinating
“y/n, stand back” -viktor…experimenting
“fineeee” -you
after some time working together, you saw a future in this
but not everyone saw it your way
you started coming around to jayce when he convinced mel not to pull the plug on hextech
“don’t act like im not your favorite” -jayce
“you’re far from my favorite” -you, jokingly
after some time, viktor grew ill and you grew more worried
you wanted to care for him but he simply would not let you
and he hated letting you see him that way
“viktor, i’m your sibling. please don’t shut me out, i won’t let you.” -you
“i’m fine, y/n. please, do not stress over my health.” -viktor
“come on, viktor. you know as well as i do something is wrong. you fainted!” -you
“yes, and i have better things to do than ‘rest’ as you keep asking me to do” -viktor
“you’re impossible” -you
“takes one to know one” -viktor
viktor pushed you away as he got sicker, leaning into his work
the hexcore was the breaking point
he showed up to your door in tears in remorse for sky’s death, you knew it was bad when he told you that you were right
“viktor, you’re not well. it’s time to rest” -you
“i don’t think i can after this” -viktor
you reached out to jayce after this incident, viktor left and you didn’t think you could follow
“he thinks you worry too much, he doesn’t want to be a burden” -jayce
“then will you help him? i don’t want him to be alone” -you
you gave him a hug and hoped for the best
but maybe he was destined to fail
you fell apart when you heard of the attack on the council, even more so when you saw viktor within the hexcore
“what did you do?!” -you
“i did what you asked! i helped him!” -jayce
you visited viktor every day regardless, usually ignoring jayce as he worked
and jayce really tried to make it up to you
“i don’t think he knows how much he’s done for me” -you, breaking silence after jayce hands you a pastry
“how so?” -jayce, timidly
“i could still be in zaun. i could be starved, suffering, and wasting my talents. but i’m here—because of him. he gave me the opportunity of education, safety, peace of mind and i feel like i failed him” -you
“i can’t imagine he sees it that way. you used all your resources and focused on yourself. that’s what he wanted for you, not to get involved in our messes” -jayce
when viktor woke up, he wasnt the same. he was a shell of himself. it caused you a lot of unease
your hug was weakly returned, and at first you thought it was just his recovery, but you soon found he was changed.
you stepped back, finally heeding years of warnings viktor had given you about worrying for him, caring for him, trying to help
you felt you were on your own, maybe it was for the best as you pursued your interests and career
and jayce went his own way pushing you away as well
but you chased him anyways and ended up in a dark, cruel world—the future viktor created
“where the hell are we?” -you
“i told you to leave! you shouldn’t be here!” -jayce
“i don’t…i don’t know where here is? you’d prefer to be alone in this?” -you
the mission changed as time went on, you loved viktor but you saw what came of the world
and jayce felt the need to try to convince you, but you’d already made up your mind
“we have to stop this. any way we can.” -you
“wha—i had a whole speech planned?” -jayce
“don’t want to hear it. viktor died when jinx attacked the council. this is…someone else’s work” -you
jayce and viktor taught you well, and soon enough you were back where you needed to be—and jayce took lead
but it wasn’t so simple, war broke out and all your hard earned time suffering in a broken timeline paid off as you fought against noxus
you watched from afar and viktor and jayce were taken from you and you felt…at peace
taglist: @summersimmerus //
#viktor arcane#viktor league of legends#viktor arcane x reader#viktor arcane imagine#viktor x reader#viktor imagine#arcane#arcane imagine#arcane x reader
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⋆˙⟡ Wishing. Katsuki Bakugou x Fem!Reader ⟡⋆˙
⋆.˚✮ Valentine’s Day story 5/14 ✮˚.⋆
Warnings; swearing (it’s Bakugou, obv), 3A Bakugou, post war, angst, pessimism, friends with benefits relationship, sexual mentions/actions.
Minors DNI
Enjoy pookies ✧˖°.
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Nsfw under the cut!
The sound of the bed under you filled your senses, the lewd slapping sound of skin on skin making your stomach churn. You arched your back as your classmate, Katsuki Bakugou, relentlessly slammed into your body, over and over and over.
His grunts mixed with your whiny moans, your nails digging into his shoulders and your legs pressed wide open for the blonde. “Fuck- Bakugou- oh god I’m so close-“ you threw your head back as a moan of pure ecstasy shot through the air of his old childhood bedroom.
“Me too, just hold on” he growled through gritted teeth, a low groan slipping passed his lips as his body lurched against yours.
Lust was a dangerous emotion, if you could even call it that.
However, the consequences of it seemed less scary than love, or at least that’s what you always told yourself.
Ever since middle school- hell, ever since you were little, you’d been told not to wear revealing clothes, not to spread your legs when sitting, not to let a boy too close, because all he wanted to do was get into your pants.
That was then though, back before you’d let yourself go. Back before you encountered an entire fucking war.
Stress, anger, frustration, anxiety, fear, depression. All of these emotions ran high through the one and only class A, a lot of the members suffering PTSD or varying other disorders thanks to the gruesome experiences that they endured thanks to the Paranormal Liberation Front.
That was no different for yourself.
You’d always been a bit of a train wreck anyway, so the emotions weren’t exactly new to you, but sometimes you just felt everything at once, and felt nothing at all.
“Bakugou! Bakugou!” You cried out, your legs trembling violently as you came for the third time, Bakugous teeth sinking into your neck and leaving dark purple-ish red marks that would no doubt be there the next day.
“Shut up” he growled against your skin, dragging his tongue over the bite mark he left you “you love this, and you know it, whore” and he wasn’t wrong.
Some sick part of you loved the pain from the biting, from his harsh words. It was Bakugou, you were used to it, it was grounding. The pain made you realize you were alive, mixing with that pleasure and creating a very addictive mixture.
Those negative emotions that usually got so pent up, that, not even sparring with someone built for endurance and to take a beating like Kirishima, could quell them away. That was scary for several reasons.
Having heavy emotions weighing on your heart like that was dangerous, after all, weren’t villains forged from broken people? Didn’t pain break people?
So having the physical pain to snap you out of the cloud of emotions and trauma was..reliving, and you knew Bakugou felt the same. He always encouraged biting, or scratching during sex. Was it masochistic? Probably. Did either of you care? Not really.
You two never took it too far though, and you both had a clear understanding of your limits when you set up your arrangement in the first place.
“Fuck-“ Bakugou panted heavily, looking down at the mess of you he’d made in his sheets. You both were sweaty, dark marks lining your neck and his shoulders. Your eyes were half lidded and watery, your jaw slack as you tried to catch your breath “that..was amazing..” you muttered breathlessly. Bakugou huffed and rolled his eyes “I know, moron.”
Ah right. Your arrangement.
You and Bakugou had established a mutual, physical relationship, one to ‘relieve stress.’ It was Bakugou who actually suggested it originally. He’d been extra angry, and not even Kirishima could get him to open up. Not that there was anything to talk about anyway. He was dealing with the aftermath of the war like everyone else, his method just affected other people in its execution.
You agreed, but for all the wrong reasons.
You needed the stress relief, sure, but there were deeper reasons, reasons that killed you.
The blonde had a softened a part of your cold heart you never figured could be softened, especially not by someone as prickly as him. But it was those rare moments of quiet with him, how considerate he was, how strong and devoted he was, how he’d grown and changed over the years.
You were in love with someone, who saw you as nothing more than a physical relief for himself.
Of course you knew there was more to it than that, but you dumbed it down to that extent to try and use it as snuff for the ember of love in your heart.
Love.
What a scary thought.
You sighed as the hot water of Bakugou’s fancy shower slowly slid down your body, his presence behind you, silently rubbing your skin clean with a washcloth. His hands were gently and firm. Callouses and a few scars littered his hands and arms, not looking horribly different from your tattered body.
You angled your head back as Bakugou carefully kneaded your shoulders, rubbing out the knots he’d put in place with his rough treatment of you, making sure not you touch any of the bite marks or hickeys he’d left on your skin.
It always felt amazing to have Bakugous hands on your skin, and his motions of gently kneading your tender breasts was incredibly soothing. You leaned back against him and let out a soft sigh, your eyes closing as he gently palmed your chest, being careful and tender with your body.
Despite what you thought about Bakugou, the truth was actually pretty different. Sure, Bakugou was hotheaded and incredibly brash, often raising his voice to anyone who pissed him off, no matter the status or position, you knew that. But you also knew a different side of him, the other part that was more soft, that he rarely ever showed, but sometimes you caught glimpses of.
The side that made you breakfast when you two had a long night, the side that cleaned your sore body in the shower, no words being shared between you. There didn’t need to be.
You got to see the side of him no one else did, but you were caught up in your delusional state of denial, partially because Bakugou had said he wanted no feelings attached to this arrangement, so why would he go back on that?
Your body slowly melted into the sheets as he placed you down on his bed, the pillows and blankets feeling amazing against your body. You didn’t even open your eyes as you felt Bakugou get into bed with you, pressing his chest against your back and closing any distance between you with his warm form.
A sigh escaped you and you closed your eyes, allowing him to spoon you from behind.
While you were wishing he loved you, he was wishing you saw how he expressed his love for you.
Two souls scared to be hurt.
It was unoriginal and the both of you knew it.
You were both too scared to be hurt again, and yet even as you laid in each others’ arms, you were both still in pain.
Ironic.
Blame it on the lust, blame it on the trauma, whatever floats your boat. But one thing is for sure.
The two of you were in way over your heads when it came to this love thing, and in even deeper with your ‘friend with benefits’ that neither of you were satisfied with.
Just..
Complacent.
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Hello !! Sorry about the angsty piece, I was feeling the groove of the hopeless romantics and pessimism. I’m sorry if it feels a little off, I don’t think I’ve written for Bakugou ever, but I think I’ll read some fics and make a part two to this. Goodnight loves, drink some water and get some sleep.
~ Lex
#boku no hero academia#my hero academy fanfiction#my hero academia#my hero acadamy#bnha#bnha bakugou#bnha katsuki#bnha Bakugo katuski#bnha bakugo katsuki#bnha bakugo x reader#bnha bakugō#mha bakugou#mha katsuki bakugo#MhA Katsuki#mha kacchan#MhA Dynamight#mha x reader#mha smut#katsuki bakugou#bakugou katsuki#bakugou x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#katsuki bakugo mha#bakugo katuski#katsuki x you#katsuki x y/n#katsukibakugou#bnha valentines#valentines 2025#valentines day writing
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I NEED ANDRE HCS PLEASE I DONT SEE ENOUGH PLSLSLSSSLALA
Ofc !! Here r some of my Andre headcanons! :3
Andre Kriegman Headcanons
Some of Andre’s favorite games to play are Grand Theft Auto 2, Final Fantasy VII, and Resident Evil 3: Nemesis. He prefers more story-packed experiences rather than shitty little plotless gameplay. He mostly plays video games with Cal— that is, only if they’re multiplayer.
When he was a little boy, he had a minor speech impediment— a small, slightly noticeable lisp. He got teased quite often for it— on top of how he wasn’t all too familiar with English yet, having only understood German through his toddler years. Because of this, he didn’t speak much in his classes until his late elementary school years.
He suffers from mild anemia. It doesn’t severely affect his daily life, but he has to take daily iron supplements along with his Prozac. Also, he finds that running and exercising regularly— like with being on the track team— both help his anemic symptoms. Standing up too quickly makes him dizzy, and he has to lean over a flat surface to make that lightheaded feeling go away.
Andre isn’t fond of getting drunk— or, well, he’s kind of a lightweight. One time, when he and Cal were at Chris’s house, Chris allowed the two boys to try some of his alcohol. Andre attempted to successfully— key word: successfully— chug a can of beer, which resulted in him getting immediately pulled into a coughing-and-hiccuping fit. Calvin, who was already drunk, laughed at him ‘til he was in tears, clutching his stomach and all. But what was previously only one can of beer turned into two or three, and the next morning he woke up on Chris’s couch, with Cal passed out on the other sofa. Nausea chewed at his stomach, and he knew he was going to have to puke. He felt terrible, because having to spill his guts— especially now upon getting previously shitfaced— was always awful for Andre.
Andre has a small collection of knives he keeps in his closet. He doesn’t use them for anything, really, unless he’s helping his dad with construction around the house that requires the wielding of a sharp object. Also, on the shelf above his clothes in his closet, he stashes Polaroid photos of himself and Cal, alongside little crafts they’d made when they were younger. He’ll exhibit a sense of longing when he reflects on the memories he and Calvin previously had.
Andre is a skin picker. He picks at his acne to the point where his skin bleeds and scabs over, including the acne patches that appear on his face. He can’t help it, as he grows a little self-conscious, too, with pretending that the acne scars on his back are just freckles.
With Andre being interested in science, physics is his personal favorite subject. He finds it intriguing how when forces act upon an object, that same object will want to keep going— until it eventually stops due to the resistance in Earth’s air. He makes connections to how bullets launch out from the barrel of a gun, when he and Cal are out with Chris practicing their aim. He can’t physically follow the bullet’s high-speed path, but still, he thinks outside of the box. Additionally, Andre knows that if he deeply examined the separation of a bullet and a gun, that it would be similar to the formula of an explosion/separation under the conversation of momentum. He considers whether he and Cal could be figuratively compared to this, with “setting off” their final mission, perpetrating Zero Day. Sometimes he wonders which type of guns he and Cal would be if they were both military firearms.
#zero day#andre kriegman#zero day 2003#zero day movie#calvin and andre#andre and cal#cal and andre#zero day headcanons#zeroday#ben coccio#andre keuck#andre zero day#zero day andre#zd#zd 2003
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all that’s unspoken. — aespa ft. lesserafim
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genre — angst | main characters — fem!reader. aespa & lesserafim.
synopsis — the beginning of a new school year, and it’s already looking terrible. lost your friends, and nowhere to turn to after a night gone wrong.
content warnings — themes of depression, anxiety, loneliness, sh, & SA (mentioned briefly)
note — my inspiration for this is based off the book & movie ‘speak’. it’s one of my favorites of all time, so i hope you enjoy. i’m not sure if it’ll become a series or parts yet. just experimenting. i also want to say that to anyone who may have any relations in this, you’re not alone and don’t be ashamed. you’re strong. <3
starting junior year with a headache, bags under your eyes, and an outfit you hated definitely wasn’t how you were expecting to start it off.
neither was your mother’s banter of how late she was for work, or how your father needed to pay a bill, or get the car fixed.
the bus was coming to pick you up soon. you could hear the engine roaring just from down the road as you were standing in front of your driveway.
your stomach was practically doing flips. you were nervous, but your face didn’t show it. at least you hoped.
you were the first stop. it was evident as there were no kids on the bus.
as you stepped on, you debated on where to sit.
the front? no. the back? ehh. the middle? definitely not. the back it is.
the bus driver took off as you look outside of the window. the blurs of trees, cars, and houses catching your eyes.
before you knew it, more kids were loading up on the bus. you kept to yourself as each kid stepped onto the bus and taking a seat next to another.
by the time the bus was full, you had just caught onto the fact that you were still in a seat by yourself.
no one had wanted to come up and sit beside you.
you couldn’t tell if you were happy with the fact or not.
your eyes tear away from the window, finally, only to lock eyes with your ex-best friend, uchinaga aeri.
she only gave you a dirty look and rolled her eyes once she looked at you.
you weren’t surprised, but it did hurt.
you’ve been wanting to talk to her for so long, but there wasn’t even a phone call from her ever since that night.
the school bus engine came to a stop as you arrive to the highschool.
walking through the hall, you could see people who you instantly recognized.
the ones who you used to call friends.
you didn’t know who they were to you anymore.
some of them, like yu jimin, kim minjeong, and ning yizhuo, stayed close.
while aeri didn’t, and she preferably hung out with the more “popular” crowd, with this girl named kazuha. and her.
a pit of hurt in your stomach settled as you walked past them.
finding your classes wasn’t going to be hard. you had gotten used to where the classes were after two years of starting highschool.
the only problem was, that some teachers moved classes, which made it harder to go off the stupid map you’ve had since freshmen year.
you let out a soft huff as the bell soon rang, and the halls became empty.
how others managed to find their classes so easily is beyond you.
you remembered you had to find your first class, english. room 201.
it was the sudden— “excuse me. where’s your hall pass?” that made you stop in your tracks.
turning around, you saw a teacher.
he looked strict. really strict. his face didn’t help any either.
he looks like he’s unhappy with his life.
he approached you with a stern face, “hall pass?” he asks.
you stutter, “um, i’m just trying to look for..um-”
“i see the excuses, missy. what’s your name?” he interrupts.
“y-y/n l/n.” you got out with another small stutter.
he nods grabbing out his notepad, scribbling on it, most likely his signature, you assumed.
“well, miss l/n, seems like you’re gonna be trouble already,” he says handing you a warning slip. “now get to class.”
jeez.
first day of school and this guy is already on my ass.
you only walked away with a slight huff.
thankfully, soon, you found your english class, to which students were already sat at their desks.
the teacher smiles looking at you, “oh hello! welcome to my english class. what is your name, dear?”
“y/n l/n.” you get out.
“well, my name is Miss Smith, just find a desk to sit at, y/n.” she says checking off the attendance board.
quietly, you found a desk all the way in the back of the class.
perfect.
after taking a seat, you look up seeing aeri turning back and looking at you. she looks at you with disgust before turning away.
she actually seemed disgusted with you.
what did you do wrong? then again, she doesn’t understand what had happened.
you bit the skin at your bottom lip, it hurt when you did.
but it was a habit you couldn’t quit.
class went by in the blink of an eye, and before you know it during third period, it was your time to go to lunch.
you already dreaded the idea of going into the cafeteria. you didn’t even feel like eating, either.
should i just stay in the bathroom until the bell rings?
before you could answer your own question, you found yourself already walking to the bathroom.
it was only when you saw aeri standing at the mirror, applying lip gloss to her full lips.
you stopped in your tracks, frozen.
should i say something to her? no, she hates me. but i should at least try?
your throat felt dry as you anxiously chewed on your bottom lip, and before you could even get the courage to speak up, aeri purposely shoved you with her shoulder leaving the cafeteria.
the action made you stumble back in surprise.
at least you didn’t have to embarrass yourself by talking, somehow.
soon, was art class.
the class was located inside of the gym, so you and others could hear the chaos just from the room. the sound of basketballs dribbling, the sound of shoes squeaking against the floor.
your teacher was calling attendance. he introduced himself as Mr. Donovan. he seemed like a nice person, just off his vibe.
“y/n l/n?” he calls out. you slowly raise your hand in the air.
you look around the room and notice one of your old friends, ning yizhuo.
she likes to be called ningning as her nickname. plus, lots of others couldn’t pronounce her full name correctly to save their life.
her hair was now black, and mid length. it definitely grew over the summer.
going all natural is a nice way to start the school year.
Mr. Donovan said that for the class portfolio, you would be given something to make for the whole year.
basically, you’d make a pieces of art with whatever you were given. each piece was supposed to tell a “story”.
he went around with a bucket filled with tiny folded papers, and what you got was a butterfly.
how am i supposed to tell a story with a butterfly?
it made you think long and hard, and honestly, you felt it to be ridiculous. there was no way you’d be able to be that creative.
ningning had gotten a flower. she seemed excited for it, but she’s an artistic person, so no matter what she would’ve gotten, she would be happy with.
ningning was the one in the friend group who was always making stuff, even if it was silly. she made things from bracelets, to different painting portraits.
she was talented. she even would buy new shoes to paint them to her liking. it seemed silly to others, but she didn’t care.
she loved expressing herself.
but how were you going to express yourself with a simple butterfly?
finally, the school day ended, and you got off the bus and made your way inside your house with your key. you didn’t see your mom’s car in the driveway, nor your dad’s.
once making it inside, you made your way to the kitchen to get some water.
the house was quiet. eerily quiet.
as you grabbed a water bottle from the fridge, you saw a note attached to the fridge by a magnet.
‘pizza in the fridge, just heat it up for dinner. going to be home late, as well as dad. be good.’ — mom
the usual. you swear your parents are just never home.
since you hadn’t eaten breakfast, you decided to eat your pizza early. sitting at the table alone felt nice, but also lonely at the same time.
at least you didn’t have to deal with your parents asking the questions of how school went, if you made any friends, if you liked your classes.
you didn’t feel like talking right now. or ever.
as soon as you finished and placed your plate in the sink, you went upstairs to your room where you went inside of your closet, also where you made it into a little hangout spot.
it’s not big, but just big enough for your to sit in to get away from it all.
the closet made you feel safe. like nothing could get you. sometimes, you even slept in here, to which your mother constantly you nagged you about how you’ll get neck and back pain.
it was the end of the first day of eleventh grade, and you ended it with no new or old friends, a warning slip, and the void of silence.
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currently at That Point which occurs once every few months where one briefly begins pacing around the house teary eyed contemplating selling their own organs or becoming an online scammer or getting on anxiety meds so you can bear the risk taking required to be a hitman or so on and so forth.... why must everything so Expensive... Surely all would be healed in life if only I had one big plate of lasagna and a simple loan of $40,000 ... auoughhh....
#And then you just eventually shrug and go 'welp. nothing i can do i guess' and sad cartoon music plays as you shuffle back to your room#It's just hard with my specific physical and mental issues since it's like.. I couldn't really handle most jobs. I can't handle school. I'm#100% aromantic and asexual so I'll never get married so I can't get money that way. I have too much issues with social cues#+ too nervous temperament + too low energy to put effort into lying and having a fake relationship just for money. so on and so forth etc.#Really I should have just been born into a middle class family. Which I guess everyone says. but ESPECIALLY considering my#chronic conditions kind of hampering my ability to function 'normally' or be Independent in a regular way. I'm always going to be#in some way sort of beholden to the whims of people around me who I must depend on. so... well of course they might as well have been rich#lol like that would have been better for me of course.#AAANyway... Just thinking about another stupid fucking climate change summer... months keep going by so fast.. soon it will be so again#And it's like such SMALL things would make drastic improvements for me. Literally if I just had a place with central AC#then like 75% of my issues with summer would vanish instantly. literally. But instead it's like.. having a cheap hot apartment + only#half functional dinky window ac + my illnesses that make me heat sensitive + living in a part of the country that keeps getting hotter +#inability to leave the house much meaning I can't just go spend time in a cooler place etc. all factors which combine together to make#it just utterly miserable for MONTHS and mentally draining. And literally ALL I would need to fix that is just...#have a place with central AC that works.. (or move to a colder country/area but that also takes money. Or just not have illnesses#that make me heat sensitive. but that I can't control). etc. etc. I guess it's just the nature of the constant background frustration of#being part of The Masses under our current manifestation of unmitigated capitalism. Such minor details would make such huge#quality of life improvements and yet will remain ever out of reach. ONE little thing could change your whole life but you can't even have#that. so many 'If only' scenarios. etc. And of course obviously I am incredibly thankful just to have anywhere to live at all. food to eat#. any sort of stability whatsoever no matter how fragile it feels/is. But that still doesn't make it not frustrating occasionally to look#around and see how relatively little would have to change in order for you to be a decent percentage more comfortable and yet#how still far away even those ''small'' seeming goals are. etc. etc.#Seriously think I've been traumatized by the summer or something somehow lol like thinking about it being warm weather eventually#makes me nauseous with panic. It's just SOOO much labor. micromanaging windows and fans and blocking every ounce of light#and not being able to cook (cant even afford a single degree of temp increase due to the stove) for months and barely being able#to sleep for months and the claustrophobia of days on end crawling out of your skin because it doesnt even get cool enough at#night to offer relief so you're just always feeling trapped.. hgrhh...#It starts getting hot here sometimes in May but mostly June then lasts through October now.. thats like half the year almost.. ARghhH#anyway... If any extremely rich person reading this would like to buy me an air conditioned house in exchange for multiple years worth#of art (I will paint murals on all of your grand dining halls and make all the custom sculptures you could ever want etc) then.. hewwo :'3c
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ive been saying the 'im a humanities major i cant do math' joke for a long time but i was just reminded today of how much i liked math when i was in high school. math was a bunch of fun puzzles that you got to solve and as long as you understood the process it was so satisfying and rewarding to complete
#ignore me#when i was visiting colleges i sat in on a calculus class bc i was taking high school calc#and the profesdor put a problem from the homework on the board and asked someone to solve it and nobody answered#so i put my hand up. and he was like OH LOOK THE HIGH SCHOOL STUDENT CAN DO IT and i think everyone wanted me dead#i solved the problem correctly too. even tho i said x for the variable instead of t. idk why variables are always x in my head#i have since forgotten how to do that kind of math but i liked it a LOT when i was younger... i should take math classes again#i really really want to go back to school and just take some classes for fun. math and art history in particular i liked those when i was#getting my undergrad degree but i just took intro courses to get grad requirements out of the way. wish i'd done more#math art history AND philosophy. i wanna take more philosophy classes
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okay i think i have a game plan. this is good i'm feeling good about this.
#0.txt#school thing might work out really well actually#the only thing is they only take fall admissions so i need to figure out if there is something#viable to do between now and fall of 2024. preferably even take classes and forward those credits but idk if its feasible. will ask#if not ig i'll just do some traveling??? or some sort of vacation lmaoo#i also obviously need to get admitted first LMAO#on the other end my mom is trying to get me to consider super top schools like mit or carnegie mellon#bc to be frank i do have a shot. but i really. don't want to move lmao like i love this area i have a fucking house here#i don't want to have to deal with selling all that to what. pay rent on the east coast. the school i am targeting also is still very good#and if they require me to take the gre i'm absolutely out lol#also i'm not going so much for the degree but for this specific lab that focuses on AR/VR and just general networking#ofc you can find that kind of shit elsewhere as well but isn't it so nice and convenient that it's HERE#anyways. we're so back babes
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finished my first year of college last week and i truly do not know how to feel about it
#i wanna go back i dont wanna be in my home town i miss it so much and it literally hasnt even been a week since i left#anyway.#my grades defintely were not what i wanted them to be and i have to get my shit together big time if i wanna go to law/grad school lol#BUT#besides that and me getting mold poisining and being sick the entire first semester it really wasnt bad at all#i met so many wonderful people and did so many fun things and i absolutely cannot wait to move into my apartment in august#and start my sophmore year#i have so so so so so so so so many exciting things to look forward to#plus i'm really excited for my classes next semester so i hope those go well#i'll be finishing my minor in my spring semester so i'm going to try to find something else to minor in since i couldn't double major#i also really have to get the ball rolling on taking classes for my major because almost everything has just been geneds so far and that#is not doing me any good so i'll definetly be taking some summer classes#but anywhosies all in all it was really good and i absolutely cannot wait to go back#lacey talks
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i have to be honest. i was filling in for a third grade book club this morning and i read up to the first seven chapters of the book (which is where they were) while i was on my half-hour break and i was thinking. man i do not agree with some of the messages in this book lmao.
#third grade angels by jerry spinelli#the cool teacher character tells them they're ALL responsible because two kids ripped up a woman's hat#fighting over who would give it back to her so they could be 'angels'#i get explaining intervene-when-you-see-something-wrong to children#but literally what could a child have done to intervene that wouldnt escalate that situation with their classmates?#tales from diana#there are some interesting messages in the book. i dont love the writing style (I GET IT'S JUVENILE ON PURPOSE it just bothers me lol)#(it's not the age demographic that it's clearly targeted to that bothers me. it's the tone. it tries to be cool in some weird ways)#(cant really explain wo going into page specifics... take my word for it it's weird)#but one of the things about being an adult working w children is telling them to mind their business sometimes. lmao#like if two children are getting into an argument--even if one child is clearly instigating it--you want the ADULTS to handle it or#for the kids themselves to work it out. you don't want to expand the situation outward. bc usually the kids aren't mature enough to handle#it on their own. understandably!#and these quarrels often end up distracting the whole class and you want to prevent THAT just as much as the quarrel itself.#but the whole class in that book scene was either fighting to do this woman a favor or just ignoring it#and ignoring it is frankly what they should've done#just let the woman pick up her own damn hat#idk it's a weird book#unrelated but on recess duty one of my after school kids from last year told me how much she misses me :'''''')#i miss them all too. my after school job was awesome. it didn't have enough hours to justify doing it forever but i loved it#my boss was a pretty good man too#he's retiring at the end of the year + so is one of my coworkers who i talked to today on recess duty#it was also nice to catch up w her. love talking 2 sherry.
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#wooo tag rant!#this feels too silly to talk to friends about (and also feels a little like bragging which I’m NOT but)#but some stuff has happened in the last week that made me sad so. here we are.#for some context: I’ve always loved music. I sang constantly when I was younger (much to my parents amusement and therefore belittling)#I took piano lessons for five years and cello for three or four#both of those my parents were hugely supportive of#but neither of them were really It for me#I really really wanted to sing#finally in early middle school I talked my mom into letting me take a group voice class at our nearby music school#I didn’t think that would go anywhere of course#but the teacher of the class disagreed#she moved her entire schedule around to make room for me to take lessons with her#she immediately had me fast tracked to the basically honors program in the school. super performance based super exclusive#I’m pretty sure she tried to get lesson prices lowered for me#it was. amazing.#and also the first time I really felt like an adult thought I had potential for something?#I took lessons with her for a few years. I was about to be accepted into the honors program. and then I got my wisdom teeth removed.#tldr we don’t really know what the fuck happened but the muscles in my jaw went insane. I was in constant pain for like two years.#I tried to stick with voice but I just. had to quit.#I went back with a different teacher later in high school but had to deal with Constant complaints about it from my parents.#and when that teacher fell through I just. stopped trying.#my jaw is a lot better now. but I still don’t sing much because it all just. makes me so sad.#it’s this constant reminder of pain and having to quit something I’d dreamed about for Years and having my parents just… not care.#I’m just. so angry and sad.#this was something I loved. and I was good at it.#and now I barely sing in private.#I went to a cool chapel a few days ago that had amazing acoustics and was empty. and it was the first time I had fun singing in. years.#but then I tried again today and felt miserable.#idk.#I miss singing. I miss music.
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i got rickrolled today but it didn't work because i have adblocker installed, so youtube just told me i violated the terms of service. yesterday i was trying to edit a picture as a joke for my girlfriend, and google made me check a box to prove i'm human because i wasn't "searching normally".
it isn't just that capitalism is killing fun and whimsy, it is that any element of entertainment or joy is being fed upon by this mosquito body, one that will suck you dry at any vulnerability.
do you want to meet new friends in your city? download this app, visit our website, sign up for our email list. pay for this class on making a terrarium, on candlemaking, on cooking. it will be 90 dollars a session. you can go to group fitness, but only under our specific gym membership. solve the puzzle, sign up for our puzzle-of-the-month-club. what is a club if not just a paid opportunity - you are all paying for the same thing, which makes you a community.
but you're like me, i know it - you're careful, you try the library meetings and the stuff at the local school and all of that. the problem is that you kind of want really specific opportunities that used to exist. you are so grateful for libraries and the publicly-funded things: they are, however, an exception - and everything they have, they've fought tooth-and-nail to protect. you read a headline about how in many other states, libraries have virtually nothing left.
do you want to meet up with your friends afterwards? gift your friends the discord app. you can choose to go to a cafe (buy a coffee, at least), a bar (money, alcohol) or you can all stay in and catch a movie (streaming) or you can all stay in bed (rent. don't get me started) and scream (noise complaint. ticket at least).
you want to read a new book, but the book has to have 124 buzzwords from tiktok readers that are, like, weirdly horny. you can purchase this audiobook on audible! your podcast isn't on spotify, it's on its own server, pay for a different site. fuck, at least you're supporting artists you like. the art museum just raised their ticket price. once, they had a temporary exhibit that acknowledged that ~85% of their permanent art galleries were from cis white men, and that they had thousands of works by women (even famous women, like frida! georgia o'keefe!) just rotting in their basement. that exhibit lasted for 3 months and then they put everything away again.
walmart proudly supports this strip of land by the street! here are some flowers with wilting leaves. its employees have to pay out-of-pocket for their uniforms. my friend once got fined by the city because she organized a community pick-up of the riverfront, which was technically private property.
no, you cannot afford to take that dance class, neither can i. by the way - i'm a teacher. i'm absolutely not saying "educators shouldn't be paid fairly." i'm saying that when i taught classes, renting a studio went from 20 bucks an hour to 180 in the span of 6 months. no significant changes to the studio were made, except they now list the place as updated and friendly. the heat still doesn't work in the building. i have literally never seen the landlord who ignores my emails. recently they've been renting it out at night as an "unusual nightclub; a once-in-a-lifetime close-knit party." they spent some of those 180 dollars on LEDs and called it renovating. the high heels they invite in have been ruining the marley.
do you want to experience the old internet? do you want to play flash games or get back the temporary joy of club penguin? you can, you just need to pay for it. i have a weird, neurodivergent obsession with occasionally checking in to watch the downfall and NFT-ification of neopets. if i'm honest with you all - i never got into webkins, my family didn't have the money to buy me a pointless elephant. people forget that "being poor" can mean literally "if i buy you that toy, i can't afford rent."
you and i don't have time to make good food, and we don't have the budget for it. we are not gonna be able to host dinner parties, we're not made of money, kid. do you want some kind of 3rd space? a space that isn't home or work or school? you could try being online, but - what places actually exist for you? tiktok counts as social media because you see other people on it, not because they actually talk to you.
there was a local winter tradition of sledding down the hill at my school. kids would use pizza boxes and jackets and whatever worked, howling and laughing. back in september, they made a big announcement that this time, rules were changing, and everyone must pay 10 dollars to participate. when im not scared shitless, i kind of appreciate the environmental irony - it hasn't gone below 40. so much for snow & joyriding.
i saw a bulletin for a local dogwalking group and, nervous about making a good first impression, showed up early. the first guy there grimaced at me. "sorry," he said. "there's a 30-dollar buy-in fee." i thought he was joking. wait. for what? the group doesn't offer anything except friendship and people with whom to walk around the city.
he didn't know the answer. just shrugged at me. "you know," he said. "these days, everything costs money."
#spilled ink#warm up#“why did u tag it warm up” bc i wrote it off the cuff while drinkin coffee lol#btw the 30 dollar buy in for the dog walking is bc they pay the organizer a small pittance so she can#run fb ads and stuff and like she does put in a lot of work i don't mind paying her#but that's exactly what im fucking talking about like.#ppl can't afford to volunteer their time anymore and we all understand it!!! everything costs money for everyone!#like we didn't have to use to say ''do you mind paying me back for the stuff we ate''#we used to be able to afford to feed our friends once in a while!!!
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I was punched and pepper sprayed by cops that my university administration set on student protesters yesterday. Including once where a cop ripped my mask off my face, grabbed my jaw, and sprayed pepper sprayed straight into my mouth. The university sent out an alert in the middle of our protest canceling classes for the rest of the day, only citing “adverse conditions”. After protesters dispersed under threat of even more violence and three buses of riot police from all over the state with rubber bullets and bully sticks parked in front of one our school’s famous landmarks. I staggered over to a couple of friends who were watching on the sidelines. They gave me water and an apple and held a bag of ice on my very pepper spray irritated face. As they were walking me back to my dorm we ran into one of their roommates. She had taken cancelled classes as an opportunity to get crumbl cookie with her friends. Standing in front of her, happy in a floral blouse with her box of cookies, in my pepper spray and water soaked tshirt, keffiyeh sadly hanging off my shoulder, holding an ice pack to my mouth, felt like a slap in the face.
After putting my pepper spray soaked clothes, shoes, and keffiyeh in a plastic bag and taking an extraordinarily painful shower, a friend and I went for dinner just off campus. There we had a pot of green tea and ramen to soothe pepper sprayed throats. We got ice cream after (shared a cup with chocolate and raspberry pomegranate with strawberry pieces on top, it was very good). From our spot outside the ice cream place we watched a steady stream of groups of sorority girls in matching jeans shorts and blue bikini tops walking back to their apartments after some apparently raucous parties. The cognitive dissonance was insane. I really felt a little like I was going crazy.
Even this morning, waking up to the smeared sharpie of the National Lawyer’s Guild’s phone number on my arm, a black and blue chest from where a grown man straight up clocked me while I was held up by two other protesters in a wall, and a still sore throat and eyes from the pepper spray, life goes on like normal. I still have final papers to write and a math exam to review for.
I’m not sure I really have a point. But, this feeling only makes me want to fight harder for a free Palestine. So, fuck Israel for being an apartheid state and all of their crimes over the last 76 years. Fuck university administration for not disclosing their level of investment in Israel. Fuck university administration for not divesting from this genocide. Fuck Joe Biden for actively supporting this genocide. And fuck the police.
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my perception of grades totally changed since i started uni
#in school i just did the bare minimum a pass was fine and a 3 great#it's insane to think about it how little i did like for a lot of subjects not at all and if i did i'd study like 2 hrs the day before 😭#and i thought this was studying hard or if i studied 3 hrs at least whaaat#well for some subjects i did a bit more#but like it is no comparrison#at uni i also did study the day before a few times but then i did an 8hr session#(i might just need to do that tmrw but the thing is the exam is one you can't study for so literary idk what i'd study so long for??)#(or how to study... it's translation but how tf do you study translation it's highly subjective and there are no practice exercises)#(i will probably just look at the notes)#but anyway for my last exam i spent 5 hrs in the library a day and i already started 2 weeks before (altough just in smaller bits)#but bumped it up exam week i did like 2-3hrs on average a day#even if i start too late like i did for one of the hardest test of my studies i only studied for 2 days but like all day or 10hrs sth a day#it by far exceeds the 2hrs lmao and even that was very little for this exam many studied 2 weeks but like i got a good grade so it's okay#but my point is now that i get better grades good one's a C is a massive disappointment for me 😅#unless it was a really difficult one then i'd take it but like it upsets me#a teacher once told me when i got a c on an exam quite a few failed that many would be happy to have that grade well true tbh but i can't#and once i almost cried because i got a C because i thought it was an easy course but it was an oral exam and i'm worse in these#(because in written i often remember the answer later in the exam and then go back but in oral i can't do that)#well that was embarrassing😭 i'm trying to never do that again so if i get asked how i feel abt it say it's okay ig#but sometimes even a B is meh 😅 especially if an A was possible and it was an easy course/exam#i want more A's less B's tbh B's also because i really want to go abroad and raise my grade average for that#i want to go from a B average to an A something average to improve my chances#but yeah younger me wouldn't believe this 😂#i really want to study harder to make that step up to more A's than B's like uni does come quite easy to me#and while i study way more compared to others i still get away with less effort and good results but i could have excellent grades#on the one hand it's good that i improved so much on the other those expectations might not be because i'm almost never satisfied anymore 😅#and i know it's kind of really unimportant because there are real problems and also many uni students struggle to pass their classes#it's maybe even a bit disrespectful because they'd be happy to have these grades and i should be more grateful#but i swear i don't look down on anyone with worse grades i know how difficult it can be and also how outside factors play a role#some have it more difficult some have to work a lot next to uni or really suffer from mental illness besides no one's brain is the same
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