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horizon forbidden west | the daunt 2/?
#horizon forbidden west#hfw#hfw landscapes#hfw the daunt#thought this shot with barren light and a horus and the base all visible was cool :) but i couldn't pick night or day so here's both#i really like the lights in the daunt at night for some reason#they feel homey or something#(i didn't have a number-y caption for the daunt yet? huh)
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the big apple ꩜ .ᐟ pt.2
pt.1 pt.3
pairing - ellie x reader
synopsis - you've just moved to nyc and ellie's your new neighbor. she hates you though and you don't know why :((
cw - mean ellie, eventual side gig dealer ellie, eventual weed, tattoo artist ellie, cigs, drinking, no smut this time but there will be eventually, swearing
a/n - second chapter, i hope you like it!! the pic is not how I want you to imagine reader bc I like to keep her pretty neutral in terms of what she looks like in order for u to fill that in, it's just a pic I found!
The four of you rode the subway towards the club. Dina and Jesse were quite talkative, and you managed to make conversation with them, but Ellie was dead quiet. You wondered if it was always like this or if it was because of you. From what little you’d seen of her interacting with her friends before you came into the mix, you guessed it was the latter.
You tried to pay it no mind, and for the most part it worked. Dina and Jesse were fun to talk to, and you felt excited for the night. You’d never been to the subway this late and it wasn’t uncomfortably packed like in the mornings. However, there were still plenty of people who judging by their outfits looked like they were going to the club as well.
You got to chatting about your back story. You told them you used to live in a small, conservative town which you were fond of in some ways, but that was ultimately not the place for you. They were impressed that you’d made the move on your own, saying that it must’ve taken guts to come from a town like that to New York all on your own, and at such a young age. You told them you hadn’t really thought of it that way. Leaving your hometown wasn’t an act of bravery, it was…survival. When you said that, it was the only time Ellie turned her head to look at you.
You talked about your job, and told them they should come visit you sometime for a drink on the house, earning you some excited chatter. You found out that Jesse was a freelance graphic designer and Dina worked at an independent bookstore to pay the bills but did theater on the side. You were fascinated hearing them talk about it. Jesse worked on his own terms, while Dina was passionate about what she did.
Then they started talking about Ellie’s job as a tattoo artist. They showed you pictures of work she’d done, all her own designs. You weren’t very knowledgeable about what constituted as a good tattoo but you were pretty sure she was really good at her job. The designs were gorgeous, and you could tell she had put a lot of passion into them as well as just technique. You looked at her as they talked. She was making a point not to look back at you.
Your attention was drawn to the skin showing on the parts of her t-shirt that were cut out. It was inked at the ribs, which you hadn’t noticed before. You wondered about what other designs were hidden under her clothes.
When you got off the subway, Jesse led you down two blocks to the place he’d talked about. There was already a line growing by the minute. Thankfully, it moved relatively fast, and soon you were at the door, showing the bouncer your fake id. When he waved you in you made a point to look back at Ellie, smile, and shrug. If she wanted to hate you so much, why not give her a good reason to?
Her expression was passive on the surface, but you could feel the hardness of her stare.
The club was, at first, a little daunting to you. You’d only been to bars with pool tables and jukebox machines. The lights, packed bodies and fake smoke were a lot on the senses, but you soon began to enjoy the chaos and your anxiety melted away. The four of you got drinks at the bar—beers for Ellie and Jesse, and a vodka cran for Dina. You followed her example, sighing when you looked at the price.
You stood there by the counter, sipping your drink, unsure of what to do now. Should you go straight to the dance floor? How did this work?
Dina slid in next to you, smirking. “Hey. Sorry about Ellie. She can be a real asshole.” She and Jesse were off to the side, not too far away, but out of earshot due to the noise.
“It’s fine. I’m glad you guys invited me. I guess I just wish I knew why she hates me so much.”
Dina tilted her head to the side. “Oh, I don’t think she hates you. She’s just kind of weird around new people. She’s been stressed about her job, and I guess she wanted to unwind today? Then Jesse invites you to come with us, which I obviously have no problem with—but now she has to deal with a new person. You know, judging by what she said about your id, she probably just thought you were uptight. And after what you said about being from a small conservative town and all, she probably thought you were conservative too. But I don’t think you’d move here, or be here”—she waved a hand around.—“if you were.” She smirked. “She’ll warm up to you though, I think.”
“Oh, I don’t know about that…” You laugh.
Dina’s brows shoot up. “What, is there something I don’t know about?”
“Uh, well, it’s nothing really. It’s just…”
“Uh huh…Go on.”
“Well, when the bouncer let me in with my fake id, I kind of looked back at Ellie and smiled. And uh. Shrugged.”
Dina turned to you, slapped her hand on the counter and laughed. “Oh my God! Fuck, that’s funny. I mean, it wouldn’t be a big deal with most people, but Ellie? Yeah, that definitely pissed her off. Totally deserved, though. I would’ve killed to see her face.”
You flashed a smile. “It was pretty damn great.”
“Damn, y/n! I didn’t know you were ballsy like that. But you know what? She respects ballsy girls. She just has to get over her pride first.”
“Oh, I imagine that’s going to be hard for her.”
Dina laughed. “Yup.” She took a sip of her drink, then looked off to the side and raised her brows. “Look who’s already getting down.”
You turned your face to see what she was talking about. Ellie was on the dance floor next to a pretty girl, gazing at her with a look you hadn’t seen on her face before. It wasn’t exactly of pure lust, but there was definitely something there. Her eyes were crawling all over the girl’s body. You felt a pang of jealousy, which pissed you off. You were supposed to be over your little crush already. You wanted to be.
“She hooks up with a lot of girls, huh?”
“Oh yeah. Leaves them all pent up for her, then ditches them. It’s pretty shitty, but I guess she never promised them anything in the first place.” Dina finished her drink in one big gulp and grimaced just the slightest bit. “These days she’s not really the dating type.”
You were almost done with your drink, and still a little bit buzzed off the wine. Curiosity was getting the best of you. It also helped that Dina was so nice, and definitely not sober as well. Two drunk people just made each other drunker. “Bad experience with an ex?” You asked.
“Oh yeah. That and she’s always so busy with work, I guess she just doesn’t see the point.”
You turned to the counter so Ellie and the girl were out of your sight then finished the vodka cran. “I guess being a tattoo artist must take up a lot of your time.”
“That and her side gig.” You looked at her, and she winked. “I’ll let her tell you about that.” She glanced at both of your empty glasses and pouted. “Wanna get a tequila shot then go dance?” Her pout turned into a wide grin.
You mirrored it. “Hell yeah.”
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You’d lost track of how long you’d been dancing. Between the move and the new job, it’d been a while since you’d had alcohol, and your tolerance was not what it usually was. Which was perfect to you. You were just the right amount of drunk, enough to have fun and not care about whether or not you looked silly and not enough to the point where you felt out of control or sick.
The music was great to dance to, and the speakers were of course the best you’d ever heard. The notes seemed to almost reverberate inside you. As the music got more intense you raised your hands and jumped to the beat, then accidentally bumped hard into somebody.
“Shit—“ You said, but swallowed the sorry when you saw who it was.
An annoyed looking Ellie was standing there, right next to the girl from before. She gaped back at you when she noticed that Ellie had stopped moving. The tension was palpable.
“Hey, Elliee.” Dina danced closer. “Having fun?”
“I need a smoke, actually.” She started to move away without the girl.
“Ooh, same!” Without asking, Dina grabbed your hand and led you to the outdoor smoking area.
The smell of cigarette smoke hit you as soon as you stepped outside. You felt a little embarrassed to be there, but Dina had been the one to drag you out. And a drunk cig did sound amazing at that moment. Dina waved to Ellie, who was lying back against the wall lighting a cigarette.
“Hey. You know where Jesse is?” Dina said.
“I saw him talking to some girl at the bar on the way here. I’m sure he’s fine.”
“Cool.” Dina placed her hands behind her back and smiled sweetly. “Can we bum one off you?” Ellie pushed off the wall and took her pack of Marlboro reds from out of her pocket, letting Dina take one. “Remind me why you never buy your own?”
“Because,” she began. “I don’t wanna get hooked like you.” She looked back at you while she took Ellie’s lighter and began to light the cig. “Shit, I forgot to ask if you even smoke. I guess that living here you kind of just assume everyone does?”
Ellie scoffed.
“I do,” You said, ignoring her. “I usually bum cigs from my friends too. I’m more of a smoker when drinking.”
“Right! That’s the best way to do it.” Dina blew the puff of smoke upwards so it wouldn’t hit your face, then passed it to you. “So, y/n. Anyone in there caught your eye?”
You smiled sheepishly, taking a drag. “Uh, not yet. I wish.”
“Well, what are you into? Boys, girls, your type…you know.”
Ellie. You were into girls like Ellie. You bit your lip. She was peering at you, tip of her cigarette burning orange as she took a drag. If you started describing your type, saying you liked masc, tatted up girls with baggy clothes, how would that look?
“Um…” You started. “Girls.” Ellie’s brows raised just the slightest bit before she looked away. How’s that for conservative?
Dina leaned back into the wall. “A win for us! And what else?” If you didn’t know better, you’d think she was flirting with you. But it seemed to you that that was just her style, friendly and flirty at once.
“Um. I like…girls who aren’t that feminine.” You hoped that was less obvious than straight up saying masc.
Dina smiled without teeth, brows slightly raised. Fuck, she was onto you, wasn’t she? You hadn’t exactly been that discrete, poking around about Ellie’s love life. And what must she be thinking about you being into a girl that had only treated you like shit? But then again, Dina seemed like she wasn’t the judging type. In fact, she seemed quite open-minded when it came to that stuff…And like she enjoyed the drama. You had to admit that so did you. You wouldn’t be into girls like Ellie if you didn’t.
“Well then, y/n. Let’s go find you a girl.”
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The girl Dina had pointed out to you had hair cropped close to her head, and wore black from head to toe. You did in fact find her attractive. Not as much as Ellie, you thought, before pushing that concept away. Ellie didn’t like you. She’d made that clear enough. Besides, you were drunk and wanted to have a good time.
It was that very same state of being drunk that gave you enough courage to come up to the girl and ask her if she wanted to dance. She said yes with a cute smile on her face, and the two of you made your way onto the dance floor. You were a bit shy at first, but she just kept grinning at you as if she was so into you that you eventually gained enough confidence to dance the way you wanted, moving your body without reservations.
At some point, you noticed Ellie staring.
She was at the bar with Dina and Jesse, who had appeared out of nowhere and was currently drinking a beer with her. You could see his mouth move as he talked to her, but she just sat there leaning against the counter, looking at you with narrowed eyes. You couldn’t parse what her expression meant. But you knew one thing, that she was watching what you were doing.
You stepped in closer to the girl, touching her shoulders, running your hands over her clavicle. The both of you started dancing slower. She put her hands on your waist. You got in close, so close she couldn’t tell where your eyes were really at. You moved your body lazily, deliberately, tilting your head this way and that as the girl moved her hands down your body to toy with the hem of your dress.
Ellie kept staring, not once deviating her gaze.
pt.3
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a/n - heyy so... sorry about forgetting to warn you guys about the slow burn. i'm planning on getting the next chapter done and up tomorrow tho, and I promise it's going to be good ;)
also, do nyc clubs have outdoor smoking areas like they do where I live? idk. let's just pretend they for sure do...
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library card ➵ valgrace university au
FINALE - part 10 [masterlist]
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Leo slid his phone down his back pocket and viewed the landscape of New Rome University. He can see that the sun, although ithadn't set yet, is a burst of brilliant light, scattering orange, purple, and pink hues in the sky. He really hates driving at night, and he really could just return to the architecture building tomorrow, but the curiousity is killing him. He had to go back. Now.
"Hey, are you in a hurry? I need to go somewhere," he called to Piper, who was walking by him on the way to the parking lot.
"Where are you going?" Piper asked, abruptly stopping to see that Leo had fallen behind.
"I think I left something. Can you wait for me? Or you can go on without me if you want," he said.
Piper shrugged. "It's fine. I'll see you tomorrow."
"Great!" he replied. "Be safe."
"You too," Piper said before turning to walk away.
Leo tried to walk the first few yards, but his feet took over and then he's sprinting. There was a loud pounding in his chest; whether it was from the sprinting or the nerves, he's not sure. At last, he arrived at the building, and the pounding just banged even more.
He paved cautiously, scared and excited about what he's gonna find. He's been searching for it everywhere he go, turning his head at every drawing tube yielding individual he sees, hoping his eyes lands on the right one. Perhaps it did, but now he will have a name. And now, Leo is certain.
His feet lead him to the bulletin board, his Docs squeaking at every step he takes against the tiled floor. The building is empty except the few students hanging out the tables just outside the archway, close to the vestibule in which Leo is at. He let out a shaky breath, steadying his chest as he approached.
He knew the piece very well. He admits that the reason it slipped his mind to look at the name was because the illustration captivated him first and his gaze simply brushed over the title block in the corner. Then he went back to admiring it.
It's some sort of summer camp. It has multiple buildings that carried different architectural styles but unified with classical elements, which he never imagined would work this well. At the frontage stood a big blue house white trim and wrap-around porch, and close to it stood a big pine tree. The pine tree seems huge and daunting, like some magical entity that protects the land.
There were cabins. It was surrounding a firepit in the middle, in a horseshoe shape. There might've been 20, but he's not sure. He took note of the little shabby chic cabin and got the sudden urge to tell Piper about it.
And then there's the red one. His eyes lingered at the little brick building. It's a mixture of industrial and steampunk, seemingly out of place to the bright gold and the wooden cabins on either side of it. He remembered pressing his palm against the sheet of glass that protects the board, brushing his index finger at the tiny drawing. He had never been in a summer camp before, but the tall columns and the bronze statues and the waves of the ocean are singing that he had been here before. He's even so sure that there's a hidden bunker in the woods somewhere.
Somehow, he is certain, that in another life, he is a camper in this camp, and he is with his best friend Piper McLean, and Jason Grace.
Jason Grace.
His gaze catapulted to the bottom right corner. And then he saw it. Right next to the student number he's been typing at the library for months, was Jason Grace's name. It was a name he memorized so well, so well that he didn't even struggle to read it even with dyslexia. It's as if his mind is trained to look for Jason Grace.
He fished his phone from his pocket, hands shaking. Then he dialed the number.
"Hello?" the speaker on the other end replied. It was Jason's voice.
"Hey. . . I'm at the archi building right now," Leo said, trying to disguise his nervous voice.
"I know, I'm looking at you right now."
He turned to the courtyard, and saw Jason amongst the students in the table. He smiled at him when he caught his eyes, phone pressed against his ear.
"See, I told you, it's easy to figure out," Jason chuckled on the phone. The Jason he's looking at rose, and approached.
Leo dropped the phone. "Hi," he said, to the Jason in front of him.
"Hi." He said it better than Leo. The word glides smoothly out of his mouth, with the smile never leaving from his face. There was a trace of a scar on the top corner of his lips, forming a crescent shape guided by his smile.
Leo bit the inside of his cheek, trying not to think about Jason's stupid lips, and the stupid scar on his lips, and the stupid smile on his lips.
"I'm sorry, this is so embarrassing," Leo said, shifting his gaze away from Jason. "This is so weird."
"What do you mean it's weird?"
"This! I've made it weird! I said some weird things now this is weird!"
"What? No, you didn't do anything weird at all!"
Leo avoided his gaze. "This is like a pattern for me, I fall in love so easily, and I do something embarassing, and then I drive them away. I — I just. . ."
"Hey." Jason put a hand on Leo's arm, sending thousans volts of electricity down his body. "None of this is embarrassing, it's just me."
Leo sighed. "Well, it will soon! I don't know how to act, I've never made it past the daydreaming phase! I've never had anyone know I like them, I just keep it to myself."
"You think this is embarassing? You should ask Malcolm how I acted when I saw you at the bleachers," Jason chuckled, his hand dropping grip Leo's wrist. "Good thing the helmet hid my face well, and you're far enough to not see it."
"W-what do you mean?" Leo stammered.
"You know what I mean! Now I'm the one who's embarassed."
"I didn't know you know me!"
"Of course I know you! You brought amazing flan to Mrs. Jackson's Christmas party!"
"I—" Leo dropped his head to hide his face, chuckling in disbelief. "So what now?"
"I say dinner?" Jason tilted his head, waiting for Leo's response.
"Your treat? Since you're the rich one?"
"Hey, you still owe me 30 dollars!"
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When he went home that night, a huge smile plastered across his face, Leo took out his phone and changed the contact on his phone. The mystery man he's been texting now has a name, and it is Jason Grace.
He was typing his thank you to Jason for the amazing night when the phone vibrated on his hand, along with it was a text from Piper. He smiled to himself. He has a lot of things to tell his best friend.
#valgrace#jason grace#leo valdez#jason grace x leo valdez#valgrace fanfic#jason grace fanfic#leo valdez fanfic#riordanverse#percy jackson#heroes of olympus#trials of apollo
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Pairing : Oli Sykes x Female Assistant Genre : Romance, Smut (18+ Only) Future Chapters : Available on Ao3
Story Content : Smut, Drama, Choking, Power dynamics, Romance, Rough sex, Sadism/Masochism, Dom/Sub, Mentions of addiction & self harm, Degradation, Praise kink, Exhibitionism, Orgasm denial, Breath play, Dirty talk.
Summary :
“Don’t you see what a dangerous game you’re playing? Why did you have to look so fucking delicious tonight, I couldn’t stop undressing you in my mind, thinking of all the twisted things I want to do to you.” She had only worked on the touring team for three weeks, but her mind had been hijacked by dirty thoughts of a man she barely even talked to. Sure, he was very attractive, but were there other reasons she was so uncontrollably drawn to him? This is a filthy story of pain, self discovery, and love.
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Chapter 1: Your eyes are swallowing me
Chapter title is lyrics from "Sleepwalking"
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I'd be lying if I said I hadn’t noticed him.
So maybe I did take a little longer to get ready when I knew he'd be around; maybe my skirt was suddenly pulled up just that little bit higher than usual; maybe I loosened a button or two, but it's not like I was delusional enough to believe I ever had a shot with the man.
I was just an assistant.
I did the menial tasks that usually went unnoticed. But sometimes when I came back with food he'd flash me the most wicked smile as he took it off me.
"Ta, love", and a shiver would run through my body.
It was the night after a big set in London, an apartment style hotel room had been booked for the whole band with a shared common space. The place had clearly been picked as a bit of a party accommodation to celebrate the tour. It was quite posh, lavish furniture, open planning, and a great view. All the things you'd expect of an expensive hotel.
Everyone had gotten a bit too drunk tonight, and it was part of my job to make sure they got to bed to catch a flight tomorrow, so I was the only sober one here.
It was also my job to make sure the alcohol kept flowing, the right guests were let in, and taxis were ordered.
Despite how busy I was, I kept catching myself staring at him. I couldn't help myself, he was always such a delightful mess after a concert; dishevelled hair, smeared eyeliner, a bit sweaty – a wonderful mix of tired and happy. Essentially he always came off the stage looking like he'd just finished having some really good sex.
I shook my head, realising I'd been staring again.
Hopefully he hadn’t noticed.
The night went by in a blur of busy tasks. Suddenly it was four in the morning, I had just finished getting everyone to bed and all the guests out of there. I sighed deeply at the state of the place and began the daunting task of cleaning up.
That's when I saw him across the room.
The lights were dimmed low as I’d been strategically turning them off throughout the night in the hopes that it would make everyone sleepier, so I was only able to make out the silhouette of a man.
He was sprawled on the sofa, legs spread and leaned back, but I could tell it was Oli – his long, fluffy hair is unmistakable.
"Oh fuck, Oli you scared the living shit out of me."
That was probably the longest sentence I'd ever dared say to him, as I was usually too flustered to form proper sentences, but the sheer exhaustion from the night and the adrenaline from surprise got the better of me.
I heard a laugh from the dark figure on the sofa, "Sorry love I didn't mean to scare you, but I'm not ready to sleep just yet." You could hear the words had been spoken with a lazy smile.
Suddenly I was very aware of the fact that we were all alone, and he sounded...
No, I didn’t even dare think it.
He's just tired and drunk, surely that's the only reason he sounds so...
"R-right. Just remember we've got a flight tomorrow."
I could see his head tilt to the side as he contemplated what I’d said, but he clearly decided he didn't give a fuck, as his response came unbothered, completely ignoring my comment, "Get me another drink will you?"
Suddenly the walls felt as if they were closing in. I was nervous to say the least. I had never been alone with him before, and for some reason it felt weirdly intimate despite him being all the way across the room.
I didn't know how to respond beyond simply following his order, so I shakily turned around and walked over to the dining room table where all the drink bottles were lined up, while being entirely too aware of his gaze on me from behind.
There was a rustle of fabric like he’d gotten off the sofa, followed shortly by the sound of his footsteps behind me by the table.
I didn't get a chance to properly digest what was happening before his hands were firmly gripping my hips, making me gasp, the impact almost making me fall forward. Instead I instinctively braced myself against the table, nearly knocking over the half empty liquor bottles there.
My heart began racing, threatening to jump out of my chest, as I felt his hard cock clearly through the fabrics between us, pressing against my ass as I was pinned to the table. His hand quickly moved to my throat to prevent me from falling forwards further, as if he didn’t want me bent over, using it to guide my head close to his.
I was surrounded by him.
His scent, his hair falling into my view, his lips against my ear, his breath against my cheek, the hand on my throat possessive and firm. I was contorted, pinned painfully between the table and his warm body behind me as I was being held up by his grip.
His lips parted gently against my ear, and spoke in a tone I can only describe as carnal, "I get lonely you see, and I've noticed you noticing me. You want me, yeah?”
He had noticed after all.
I swallowed, hard.
“Will you nod for me love if you want me."
My heartbeat promptly moved between my legs.
I do want him – oh god do I want him. My whole body felt like it was on fire.
But his request was so much more than a search for knowledge of whether I wanted him or not, it was an inquiry of approval, a probing of whether I’d allow this to happen, or if we part ways here before anything further happens.
I nodded against his hand around my throat, causing his breath to speed up.
His lips spread into a smile against my ear, "Let’s have some fun then."
I was wearing a simple, strappy, mini dress so his hair fell onto my bare shoulders as he kissed my neck, his warm breath fanned my skin. My eyes shut from the delightful sensations, and I began mindlessly moving my hips against him, causing his grip on me to tighten.
"Ah, you like that don't you?"
I nodded again, probably a bit too eagerly.
He chuckled, which I felt as a puff of warm air against my neck more than heard. His mouth returns to my ear, speaking lazily like a predator toying with its prey, "You're so fucking desperate for me, aren't ya?"
My eyes flew open. I nodded again, slower this time, feeling exposed.
The truth is that I am desperate; desperate enough daydream about him constantly, to touch myself at night when I was all alone, imagining all ways I want to be fucked by him. In fact, I’d grown quite attached to using all my perverted thoughts about the man as a distraction from my life, from everything I’ve been through lately.
From pain.
"I bet you're soaking, I bet you have been all night." His grip on my hip relaxed, turning into a caress, moving towards the hem of my dress, lifting it slightly as his fingers trailed closer to my pussy.
His voice darkened and intensified, "I reckon you've ruined your underwear just being near me."
Then his hand finally reached my pooling wetness and my body immediately went electric, my knees buckled and my mouth fell open with a gasping, desperate moan as my hands mindlessly grabbed at his strong arm holding my throat to steady myself.
The hand that had just caused my brain to short circuit from a simple touch to my core, quickly retracted away to yank me back up from slumping over.
"Sh, sh, sh, you're gonna have to be quiet or you're gonna wake the lads, can’t have that, can we?" He whispered playfully.
I just wanted him back between my legs, so I spoke, in such a desperate tone that I surprised myself, "I–I'm sorry, p--please, please don't stop."
His grip on me loosened to pull the skirt of my dress up to my waist, and slide my underwear down. I felt them pop over my ass before falling to my ankles on the floor.
"We don't need these anymore." He muttered behind me as he returned to feel my pussy, this time without the soaking fabric stopping him. I felt his forehead on my shoulder as he moved along my folds with intent, his breath coming faster.
"To be honest with you love, I'm pretty fucking desperate too." Then he pushed two fingers into me and I was suddenly fighting for dear life not to moan.
I gripped the table again to stay upright, willing my body to behave. The last thing I wanted was for him to stop.
His mouth replaced his forehead on my shoulder, kissing me with parted lips, biting slightly every so often, his hips pushed back into mine, causing me to feel his cock against my ass again – now only his fabrics between us.
I felt untethered, like I’d been transported somewhere else, into some wild fantasy; this couldn't possibly be happening.
I turned my head slightly, searching, wanting to kiss him. His mouth moved to my neck, then my ear, then my cheek, leaving breathy kisses and bites where he wanted to.
Right when I thought he was going to turn me around to kiss him, he removed the fingers and placed the now soaking hand firmly on the back of my neck, pushing me forward. I gasped in surprise and disappointment at the hand once again disappearing from my pussy, but the grip was strong and I could only obey. I pushed the bottles in front of me forward as I was bent over so they wouldn't be knocked over.
The shock of the sudden movements brought me back to reality and I started blushing. I was currently bent over a table, bare ass and pussy exposed to Oli Sykes, in the middle of a shared common room where any of the band mates could walk in at any point. This was insane.
But I didn’t want to be anywhere else.
"Fuck." he said under his breath behind me, "You're a vision…" Then I heard more fabric rustling, and suddenly something a lot warmer and bigger was at my entrance.
How was I supposed to not moan? How was I supposed to not…
And then he started pushing into me.
I bit down on my lip so hard it would probably bruise, clawing at the table. A low moan came from behind me as he pushed deeper, to the hilt. He stopped there for a moment and leaned over me; I could feel his heat, the rising and falling of his chest, his laboured breathing against me, his soaking hand still possessively on the back of my neck.
"You're doing great love, stay just like that, don't make a sound, yeah?" He whispered close to my ear.
That's when he started pumping, and I once again was transported to some other reality. I couldn't help it, I was moving, I felt wild, I wanted to scream, and suddenly I’d lost control again and another moan escaped my lips.
As soon as I did he stopped, his hand that had been pinning me to the table wrapped around my neck, leaving all the flesh there wet with my own juices, before pulling me back up against him.
His lips were back at my ear, hair back in my vision. “What a shame, you were doing so well for me.”
He pulled away and I felt him slip out of me, causing a pang of sadness to wash over me, thinking it's over, but in the same motion he turned me around, grabbing me by the hips to sit me on the table before him. He spread my legs to step between them, before our eyes met.
And suddenly it felt as if time stopped.
He is gorgeous.
Dishevelled hair falling haphazardly around his face, lips slightly parted, the tattoos creeping up his neck, framing his face. His eyes were shining bright in the dim light, glassy but still intense. There was so much hunger in them, yet so much sadness.
The words slipped out of me without a thought, barely a whisper, “...Are you ok?”
His brows furrowed slightly as he searched my face, clearly not quite sure how to respond, like I'd thrown him off. You could tell he was intoxicated, as I don't think he'd be this honest with me, essentially a stranger, in a sober state – nor this forward.
He spoke softly, “Tonight I wanted to throw everything away, just say fuck it; does anything really matter? I'm supposed to have my fucking shit together, yet all I want to do–” He looked away, shaking his head as he cut himself off.
Silence filled the air around us for a long moment as he was lost in thought, then suddenly his eyes shot back to mine, speaking slowly, thoughtfully, “I've had my eye on you all night, and you look just as wrapped up in temptation as I feel. I just need an escape and I have a feeling you do too, don't you?”
His vagueness didn't matter, I knew what he was talking about, and I felt it too; the relentless pressure of life was crushing and there was a reason I couldn't keep my eyes off of him, why I wanted him so badly. Everyone could see there's something tortured about Oli, something passionate and wild that could barely be contained.
And while I didn’t like to acknowledge it, I could relate. I also wanted to just let go, be free. Whatever that meant.
And I wanted to go there with him.
I reached out to touch his face, he flinched at the intimate gesture but didn't resist.
My mouth opened to speak, but I couldn’t find the words so I just nodded instead.
His expression softened and he nodded in return; a silent understanding that neither of us fully knew why the other needed this, but it didn’t matter. We didn’t need to know the intimate details about each other's pain to know we’re both desperate for some relief.
His eyes fell to my lips, “I just want to lose myself in you for a little while...”
Lose myself.
Yes that’s it – a nice little escape from it all. I could feel a sombre smile spread across my lips. With the caress on his cheek I tried to guide him into a kiss, but instead he moved to my neck, tasting my juices still lingering there.
He made a low rumbling noise in his chest then moved back to my ear, “You taste so sweet, love. Now, let's see if we can keep you quiet for this next bit.”
Pulling away he met my gaze again, this time with a faint devilish smile playing on his lips as he placed his hand over my mouth to encourage me to remain silent.
I didn’t resist, I wanted nothing more than to feel him inside me again.
It hit me that I am not sure exactly where my limits were, as long as he just continued using me.
Using me.
That’s what it was, that’s what I craved.
I just want him to use me.
While this was news to me, I didn't want to think about this revelation now. The last thing I wanted to do right now was psychoanalyse myself. Thankfully I didn’t have to try very hard to shake the thought off, because Oli pulled me right back to the moment as his less busy hand slipped between us, guiding his cock back to me.
“I'll take things a bit slower at first, yeah? And you will stay quiet this time.”
He was nodding his head while holding my gaze steadily, clearly expecting me to nod back in return.
So I did, looking nervous as I didn’t fully trust myself.
“Fuck, don't make that face love, I just want to start pounding to watch you struggle.”
Despite his last words, he entered me slowly. His eyes darken as he pulled me closer to him. Then he was moving inside me, that wicked smile tugging at the corners of his lips as his gaze lazily roamed me. When his eyes came back to meet mine I could see something wild flicker behind them, like a promise of things to come.
Yes.
He was moving faster, testing me to see if I could keep quiet. My nails were digging into his shoulders to retain control, but I was doing it, only the slightest of noises escaped me.
“That's it, just like that.”
He looked at the hand covering my mouth, the tip of his tongue playing against his teeth. The grip loosened and two fingers pushed playfully into my mouth, his breath catching at the sight, appearing positively feral. His movements stopped for a moment, before he thrust into me, hard, his smile turning into a more serious expression, as if he was at some type of breaking point.
As if he was really sick of containing himself.
“Fuck it.” He said in a deep tone before removing the fingers that had been feeling my tongue, replace them with his lips. His arms wrapped around me, kissing me deeply, moaning into my mouth as he began thrusting harder.
Our hands are everywhere, grabbing, pulling, pushing, clawing.
I felt fingers slip into my hair to yank my head back in order to bite my neck, and I couldn't help it, I whimpered in response.
But he didn't care, if anything it spurred him on.
After a moment he pulled away to push me down on the table once more, this time facing him.
I looked up at him; he looked dangerous, unleashed, almost animalistic. His hair was everywhere, his mouth was open, panting heavily, and I could barely see his eyes. The energy was infectious, I was smothered in it as I writhe on the table.
Yes, this is it. This is what I need.
He pulled the top of my dress and bra down in one swift and painful motion, his hand gripping my throat agonisingly hard.
Hard enough for normal breaths to become difficult.
A rush of adrenaline washes over me, a confusing yet delightful mix of fear and arousal. He must have noticed, as his grip on my neck loosened slightly, letting me know he was still in there somewhere, despite appearing almost possessed.
With that knowledge I let go.
I clawed at him, wrapped my legs around him. He was so warm and solid, and I felt as if I was drowning in it; in him. Our movements became a blur of pain and pleasure.
Somewhere in the distance I heard glass bottles clanging, then one after another fell to the floor.
Again, he didn’t care.
The world had fallen away and it was only us and our ecstasy here.
His head lowered as his movements came slower, with more intent. In a deep, nearly unrecognisable voice he murmurs, “I'm close.”
Another rush of emotions washed over me.
A certainty, an almost primal need. I spoke my wishes through clenched teeth in a strangled and desperate tone, “Cum in me.”
His grip on me tightens further, this time constricting my breathing entirely. He falls forward on top of me, burying his face in the crook of my neck next to the vice grip he held on my throat. My fingers dig into his hair, pulling him closer. His breath became ragged as I felt him filling me up with every thrust.
After a moment I hear some of it drip onto the floor beneath us.
The grip on my neck loosened and I inhaled sharply.
We lay like this for a minute before coming back to reality, letting our heart rates slow down.
I was bewildered, yet amazed.
What had just happened? I felt like I’d unlocked a whole new part of myself, a longing that I didn’t quite understand yet, something simmering under the surface for what felt like years.
Something in me craved the danger, the fear, the pain, to be used. Like there was some depraved form of freedom in giving my body and mind to someone and letting them have their way with me. And not to mention; how can something make me feel this incredibly good, without having even reached orgasm from it?
In all the confusion, one thing felt completely unwavering;
I wanted more.
Thoughts were swimming around in my head when a gentle caress grazed my throat. It was a sweet gesture, the polar opposite of the aggression I’d just experienced during our shared bliss. My brows furrowed in confusion for a moment before he raised himself up, our faces only inches apart. I studied his expression, he appeared worried – questioning.
A soft, almost boyish voice spoke, “Are you alright?”
Such simple words, but the question wasn’t.
I could tell he wanted to know if I felt unsafe, if I was in pain, and if what transpired between us had crossed a line. If he had crossed a line.
My face blooms into a tired smile, “Yes. I’m a bit confused, but I’m good.”
His expression softened some but not fully, and he started searching my neck and chest for any signs of injury, but I grabbed his hands to stop him.
“Really, I’m okay. I didn’t know I could feel like this. I-I don’t fully understand it…“ I paused to try and find the words, “Tonight you’ve done more for me than I could–”
He cuts me off with a kiss, much more tender than our previous ones. After a moment he pulls away to speak, “Oh love, you have no idea.”
I continued smiling, I couldn’t stop, and his features mimicked mine.
My words came sheepishly, “Maybe we could do this again?”
Right as I finished speaking another audible drop of cum was heard hitting the floor beneath us. We both exhale a small laugh – an acknowledgement of how bizarre the situation was.
He brushed some hair away from my face, “How about we have a little chat tomorrow, yeah? When we’re both a bit more clear headed.”
I couldn’t tell if he just wanted a way out, or if he wanted to make sure I was really okay with what had happened tonight. So I just nodded.
“Alright, let’s get you sorted then shall we?” He helped me into a sitting position and attempted to adjust my clothes a bit, as if I wasn’t the picture of freshly fucked; one of my dress straps had torn, my hair was completely messed up, with equally messy makeup, and of course – literally dripping cum.
I had to stifle another laugh.
He pulled away, adjusting his own clothes, and shot me one last smile before slipping back to his room.
I sat there for some time, taking in the mess all around me. Almost all the bottles were on the floor, with one of them having shattered.
How had I not noticed?
There wasn’t a chance everyone in the band hadn’t heard us.
This will be awkward tomorrow.
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Dramamine—Part 10
Pairing: Noah Sebastian x Nick Ruffilo
Series Summary: Cynical, brooding bartender Nick meets too-earnest, pretty boy singer Noah when The Rabbit's Foot starts hosting an open mic night.
CW: light angst, brief crying, self-doubt, mostly just fluffy cute boy things, oral sex (m receiving)
*Content warnings are updated by chapter*
Word Count: 2.5K
Author's Note: final part before the epilogue <3 huge thank you to everyone who's read and enjoyed this little series and massive thank you to my friends for their support, brainstorming, handholding, etc.
dividers by @cafekitsune 💐
He feels a little silly being so nervous about this. The hard part should be over — he’s already gotten Noah back — but tonight feels daunting. As he stands outside Noah’s door with a bag full of groceries, he feels shaky on his feet and afraid to knock.
His phone vibrates in his pocket and he reaches for it, happy to kill time and put this off. It has a bit of the opposite effect, though, when he sees it’s from Autumn.
He had to beg her to let them have the apartment to themselves for the evening. He’ll owe her for ages, and he’s reminded that Noah’s probably behind the door sulking about being left alone on a Friday night.
I can see you on the doorbell camera. Don’t be weird.
When the door swings open before he’s even done knocking and Noah’s on the other side of it, everything settles. Nick doesn’t think he’ll ever get used to the way Noah’s gaze can ease his nerves so simply.
“What are you doing here?” Noah asks, stepping aside to let Nick in without a second thought. He doesn’t seem at all unhappy about Nick’s arrival, and a gentle hand on Nick’s arm stops him from moving far past the entryway. He sighs into it when Noah brings their lips together, feeling his lips curl up into a smile against his own.
“I was going to make us a nice dinner,” Nick responds. He can’t stop himself from leaning back in for another kiss when Noah’s eyes light up. “Treat you to a proper first date.”
His nerves kick up again as he lets Noah lead him into the kitchen. He’s not used to this, and he’s so out of practice. He’s certainly no chef, but Noah fixes him with the sweetest look when he hops up onto the counter, pleased to be in Nick’s way the entire time. There’s nothing in him that wants to be annoyed, or feel inconvenienced. Instead he feels an unbearable warmth in his chest as he starts unloading the bags, avoiding eye contact for the fear his face is beet red with the adoration he holds for this boy.
“So, what are you making me?” Noah asks, legs swinging like a child.
“Here, taste this,” Nick says, offering the spoon to Noah, who accepts it gratefully. He makes a pleased little sound and Nick feels his stomach swoop. “It’s good?”
It’s not a complicated sauce, just a basic marinara he found online, but he loves making Noah happy. He loves how easy he is to please, although he wishes he had to try a little harder.
“Really good, Nicky,” Noah responds, scooting closer on the counter as if he doesn’t mind being in the middle of everything. He’s very much in the way but Nick can’t find it in himself to mind, not when he gets to have Noah this close.
Satisfied that their dinner is mostly done, he starts unloading the other bag — mint, lime, sugar, club soda, white rum, and his shaker.
When he looks over at Noah, there’s a confused expression painted on his face.
“What’s all this for?” Noah asks.
“Thought I’d make mojitos,” Nick responds, suddenly feeling shy, a little unsure. Maybe the moment hadn’t made as much of an impression on Noah as it had on Nick. “Can you grab me some ice?”
Noah’s face shifts from confusion to self-satisfaction. Nick wants to roll his eyes, but he can’t. He’s too pleased that he made Noah happy.
“I’m not making you a mojito, pretty boy,” Noah mocks — Nick does roll his eyes then.
“Well, that was before,” he reasons. He leans over for a kiss on the cheek. He just can’t help it. “Ice, please?”
The plates lay forgotten on the coffee table. Noah seems happy, sated, resting himself on Nick with his half-finished second mojito in hand. Nick feels an all-consuming calm, like he wouldn’t mind staying here with him, on his sofa, for as long as Noah wants him.
“Oh, I got you something,” Noah says, eyes suddenly wide and sparkling as he lifts his head from Nick’s shoulder. “Well, I found something I think you might like. Do you want it?”
He can’t imagine saying no to him, not when he’s this excited and fidgety. He finds himself nodding, giving a small smile before Noah is up and disappearing into his bedroom.
Noah’s nerves are evident when he comes back out, holding something small in his hand. Nick feels himself getting nervous, too, but he puts on a brave face for Noah. Noah seems to settle, at least a little bit, when he meets Nick’s eyes.
Without sitting back down, he holds his hand out, presenting it to Nick.
“For your Jasmine box,” Noah says, shifting back and forth on his feet. There’s a long moment that Nick just stares at Noah’s hands, and when he looks up at him, his eyes are wide with something less like excitement and more like terror. Nick places a soothing hand on Noah’s thigh, telling him it’s okay, before taking the item from his hand.
It’s a photograph he hasn’t seen before, but he remembers the moment so vividly. It was Autumn’s 30th birthday, when she had come up to them with her disposable camera, drunk and stumbling, and told the two of them to pose. It was so shortly before it all went bad, but everything was still so good then. Jazz hadn’t hesitated before grabbing his face and planting a kiss on his cheek for the camera. He’d felt warm everywhere. If he tries, he can still feel her lips on his skin.
“Noah,” he breathes, feeling tears prick at his eyes but not wanting to scare him off. He doesn’t know what to do, whether to break down in front of him or just hug him and say thank you. He doesn’t know where to find the words for how grateful he feels.
“Aut found it in her room when she was cleaning up. I asked her if I could give it to you,” Noah tells him, somehow more shy than before as he sinks to the floor in front of Nick, placing a shaky hand on Nick’s knee. There’s a look in his eyes more hopeful than he’s ever seen, and all Nick knows to do is reach out for him. “Is it okay?”
“It’s more than okay,” Nick responds, taking Noah’s hand in his and intertwining their fingers. “Can you come up here for me, please?”
There's bravery in Noah when he rises from the floor. Though unsteady on his feet, he still lowers himself into Nick’s lap. Instinctually, Nick places a hand on his lower back, drawing him closer.
“Jasmine was really important to Autumn while I was gone. I’m really grateful she had someone,” Noah says, voice quivering. Nick doesn’t stop himself this time from reaching out, wiping the few fallen tears from Noah’s cheeks. “I wish I could have known her better.”
There’s something in his eyes when Nick brushes away the few strands of hair that have fallen in Noah’s face. He can spot a distant sadness in his expression, a downturn at the edges of his mouth. He presses his fingers into Noah’s sides, needing to see that smile and delighting in it when he gets it.
“You’re really something, aren’t you?” Nick asks, a little amazed when he allows himself to think about it. He never imagined he’d find himself in this position again — another chance, deserving of something so wonderful, someone so wonderful. Noah buries his face in his neck and it warms Nick from the inside out. “How did I get so lucky, huh?”
Noah squirms a little in his lap and it jostles something awake in him. Kisses are pressed to his neck and he swoons, sinks back into the couch as he pulls Noah as close as possible.
His mind takes him back to the last time he was on his couch, the way that Noah had treated him so nice, the way Nick had abandoned him because of it. He’s done his best to fix this, but there’s still that one piece that’s so wholly unrepaired. He doesn’t know that he’d be able to stand it, if the scenario had been reversed. He hates to put so much weight on what had happened, yet there’s a stomach-turning guilt when he envisions the weeks that Noah sat on this couch with the memory of what Nick had done.
He slips his hand beneath Noah’s t-shirt, grazes his knuckles along the expanse of his skin. When the scarred skin of Nick’s knuckles meets the ultra-soft skin of Noah’s middle, it’s not quite as scary as it had been, letting Noah see all of him. He finds he wants himself to be seen, to be known. There’s a nagging, vibrating something beneath his skin, but he lets himself push it away this time.
Noah’s hand cupping his cheek brings him back into the moment. Noah’s lips on his set a fire beneath his skin. He needs to fix this — he needs to repair this one final thing.
“Noah,” Nick breathes, dragging his palms down over Noah’s thighs, fingertips dancing toward the waistband of his sweats. His eyes sparkle, and God, Nick would do anything to keep those eyes clear and bright and on him. “Baby— baby, can I?”
The nerves evident on Noah’s face do little to calm the ones bubbled up in Nick, but the small, barely-there nod he’s given before Noah leans in for another kiss gives him the answer he needs.
His hands are shaky as they inch under Noah’s waistband, as he finally gets his hands on the soft skin there, like he’s been dreaming of all this time.
He loses himself to it, time slowing as they kiss. He could stay happy like this, hands wandering over every inch of skin he can find, roasting hot everywhere Noah touches him. Noah’s pretty little gasp as Nick’s fingers drag across his cock bring him back to reality.
He vibrates with nervous energy as he pulls Noah’s face away from his own, hand cupping Noah’s cheek and entranced by how glassy his eyes already are.
“Can I do something for you?” Nick asks, to which he receives a shaky nod in return. “You wanna hop up for me, love?”
Noah’s quick to do as he’s asked and it sets a fire alight in him, a need to make this good for him. He gets on his knees between Noah’s legs and his nerves kick up. He’s so out of practice, but he’s sure in his actions when he slides Noah’s sweats down over his hips. He looks up at him, not sure what he’s looking for in his gaze, but gaining confidence when Noah gives him a nod, threading his fingers through his hair.
His head empties — everything he’s ever known about being with someone is gone, because this isn’t just someone, this is Noah. He loses himself in the expanse of bare skin he’s presented with, all so new to him. He can’t help it as he lets his hands wander, fingertips grazing Noah’s tummy, his thighs, laser-focused on the way he tenses and relaxes beneath Nick’s touch. He has to do something, but finds himself so transfixed with everything he never thought he’d get to have.
He carries his mind back to the last time he was here, when he was on this couch and Noah was so polite and pretty on his knees between Nick’s spread legs. He tries to replicate it — his hand wraps loosely around Noah and the whimper he receives makes his vision blur.
He can’t keep his eyes off Noah as he sinks his mouth onto him. Maybe he wants to keep himself grounded in this moment, or maybe he wants to memorize every little shift in Noah’s expression. As much as he wants to let himself get lost in it, he can’t look away.
Where Nick’s hand rests on Noah’s thigh, Noah’s hand rests centimeters away, twitching fingers as if he’s itching to close that gap. Nick’s gaze shifts between Noah’s face, the anxiety in his expression, and his trembling hand. He knows Noah is nervous, scared to close that gap — Nick can’t blame him, not after last time.
He closes the gap himself, slides his fingers under Noah’s and feels as everything in Noah relaxes. His rhythm falters, only for a moment, as he considers how he wants this to continue.
He wants to be here, on his knees, a small consolation for what he did the last time Noah did the same for him. But as he allows himself to look at Noah, at his glassy eyes and his pretty open mouth, he needs to be closer. They’re touching, but not nearly enough. He needs to kiss him, to blanket him, to taste his gasp as he finishes over his tummy and Nick’s fingers.
As if able to read Nick’s mind, Noah gives his hand a gentle tug. When Nick meets his eyes, there’s a glint that Nick reads a little like desperation. He’s sure it’s the same desperation he feels.
He doesn’t take his hand off of Noah as he stands, scrambling into Noah’s lap and regaining his rhythm. Noah presses their mouths together and Nick is quick to lick into his mouth, slapping his hand away when Noah goes for the button on his pants.
“No, just—” Nick starts, taking a deep breath and resetting when it’s clear his actions are about to be misread. He cups his hand over Noah’s face, placing a kiss to the corner of his mouth, a smile into his cheek. “Just let me do this for you, yeah? I just want this to be for you.”
Noah nods, losing himself in their kiss again, bucking his hips gently into Nick’s grasp. He can feel it, in the way he tenses, in the way his thrusts go a little sloppy and uncoordinated.
He catches the pretty gasp on his tongue when Noah rushes to lift his shirt up as his cum spills over Nick’s fingers and onto his belly.
As Noah catches his breath, Nick busies himself looking around for anything to clean him up with that wouldn’t require detaching himself. He lands only on the cloth napkins they used for dinner, and he knows Autumn would make him buy an entire new set.
“We should go get you cleaned up,” he says instead, though the idea of getting up and having any space between them sounds dreadful.
“In a second,” Noah responds, his hand curling around the back of Nick’s neck to draw him in for a kiss, stopping just short to mutter against his lips. “Will you stay with me tonight?”
Nick can’t think of anything he wants more, nodding as he lets Noah pull him the rest of the way in.
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Chapter 7: Forbidden longing Pairing: Wanda Maximoff x Fem!Reader Word count: 4.2k Warning: NSFW, 18+ just in case, angst, dark thoughts, depressive thoughts, Wanda using her magic in a questionable way, Mommy!Kink, Summary: Wanda wanted to live the normal life she was never afforded, but something was always missing. Something she denied herself and buried deep inside. But watching you move next door, she quickly realizes that this may not be possible for much longer. Especially with all the interesting things she found in your thoughts. Chapter summary: Being alone in a new town can be hard. Especially when your past comes back to remind you of all the things you’re missing out on in life. Would Wanda be able to look the other way? Would she be able to stay away from you? Part 1; Part 2; Part 3; Part 4; Part 5; Part 6; Part 7; Part 8; Part 9; Part 10 Series materlist Masterlist of all my works
On a Wednesday night you sighed as you sat on your balcony, a glass of wine resting on the table in front of you. You looked down at the pool, the lights at the edges giving the water a brilliant quality to it that you could easily get lost in. It was a beautiful view. You had many reasons to be happy, including the fact that you managed to hire the last needed person on your team today. By next Monday morning, everyone would have started onboarding, relieving some of the pressure this project had been putting on you, but you were feeling down. The days blurred together on weekdays and they dragged torturously slowly on weekends and you couldn’t find your balance. You needed an escape, a way to recharge in some way, but the one person who offered you respite, you had to cancel on, and now you didn’t have the courage to speak to her again, asking for some company, even when you needed it. Especially after the way you couldn’t tear your eyes away from her body every time she wasn’t looking. You couldn’t deny the woman her beauty and the allure of her maturity was obvious, which only made you shy away from her more. But this wasn’t the only thing weighing you down. You knew the source of your current frustration. You looked at your phone for a brief moment again, the image on the screen daunting. Your eyes lingered on the face of a blond woman, smiling at the camera. She looked happy. Really happy. God, why did that make you feel so dispirited? She hasn’t been in your life for years now. Perhaps it was her, that made you scared of thinking of Wanda, you thought distractedly. That blond woman, who had a cute girl on her arm, the two of them taking a selfie to the background of a sandy beach, she was your first girlfriend, your first ever love, the first woman to claim your heart and body. And she had destroyed you. You knew her since you were little. She was a friend of your mother’s and always so amazingly beautiful. Her glacier, icy blue eyes often seemed as cold as her demeaner, but you knew the woman had a soft side, she often kept hidden. To everyone else, she was one of the most influential, respected business women in your town, but when she was with you, her voice grew soft and sweet, her lips forming into a kind smile that very few knew, her touch so gentle, it almost felt like she was afraid you’d break. That soft side is actually what you fell in love with. You were awfully young, but that attraction stayed with you and during the summer after you turned 18, she finally admitted she knew of your feelings. You tried to deny it, of course, your heart hammering in your chest and your cheeks turning pink at the mention of it. You weren’t sure what you expected, but hearing her say that she shared in your feelings certainly wasn’t it. Yet, she told you she’d give you her heart. That you had it already and she’d do everything in her power to convince you that she was worthy of your affection. Her words and the sincerity behind them had your heart leaping. You wanted her love desperately, so you hid your relationship from your mother, knowing she would be against it. You spent afternoons after school sneaking though town, so you could meet her and your summer “interning” for her, having the time of your life. She knew how to lead, knew how to take control almost effortlessly and you were so happy to give in, so happy to let her take charge and guide you. She took her time to build your confidence and trust in her, took it so slow and steady, until you were ready. Eventually she became your first and you were thrilled to experience love and intimacy with her for the first time. You were happy with her, happy to be hers. And she was happy too. Having a pretty girl on her arm, one that looked at her with so much love and adoration, with so much affection, was all she wanted. When she asked you to take a gap year, between high school and college, so the two of you could spend more time together, you happily agreed, letting her make the decisions and choices you weren’t ready to face. She gave you a more permanent position with her, allowing you to save some money for college, while spending each day with her. She took you to so many of her “business trips”, which were no more than excuses, so she could take you on vacations and spoil you. It all looked wonderful on your resume too, so despite your mother’s very vocal disagreement of your choice, she let you go ahead with it… Now, years later, she told you, it was because she knew of your relationship. Disagreed with it wholeheartedly, and even almost threatened your now ex-girlfriend, but wanted you to be happy. And you were. You would have been happy to be with her for the rest of your life. But the things you loved about her and made you happy, were the same things she grew to dislike about you. In her eyes you were indecisive and rarely took initiative, always relied on her to help you and she was growing frustrated. After a couple of years into the relationship, she kept telling you that you’re a grown up, that you should be able to do things on your own, to deal with life on your own. You were so co-dependant and it was suffocating her. It was almost time for you to go to college and you kept asking her opinion for every decision, kept begging her to accompany you for every small thing, her presence providing calmness and reassurance, that you didn’t know how to function without. If only you knew how to tell her that. How to make her understand. One day, when you needed to go and shop for all your textbooks and supplies, you asked her to join you and she snapped. God, she looked so furious. For the first time since you’ve known her, she was as cold to you, as she was with everyone else, her voice a growl as she told you that you were such a useless little thing, incapable of doing even the smallest of things on your own. Your co-dependency was too much for her. She told you how sick she was of having to decide everything for you. Sick of carrying you through life, sick of seeing that pleading look in your eyes, waiting for her to save you. That day she broke up with you and broke your heart in the process too. The things she said echoed in your head for months. They fed your darkest fears, heightened your insecurity, until you couldn’t recognize yourself. You couldn’t pick yourself up from the floor, spending the remainder of your free weeks before college trying to grow the confidence to even attend. It was the worst pain you’ve ever known. Eventually you thought of it as a lesson you had to learn. No one would want you the way you were with her. She told you that. And you believed it. You fought social anxiety and insecurity, trying to be independent and strong, trying to never be the way you allowed yourself to be with her. You were raised to be strong, your mother always reminded you, you were meant to lead, to be in control, to be powerful. And you were often told you’re good at it. People trusted you, you had a highly developed sense for justice and you cared about people. Yet, that was never what you wanted. You always felt safest under the blanket of another’s authority. Your next relationships were very different, but never worked out. You were never really yourself with those women and in return, they grew distant and eventually you broke up. At this point you thought that having a relationship that made you happy was impossible. No woman would care for your true self, would she? Your first girlfriend was the most patient of them all and even she had trouble to sometimes accept you and especially your kinks. She always hated it when you called her ‘’Mommy’’. You didn’t mean to, in fact it just slipped out sometimes, but it never failed to turn her off. She tried for you, of course, talked it through with you, but she always had a distaste for it, so you learned to keep it to yourself, never letting it slip out with other partners. No matter how much your other exes asked you about your fantasies or kinks, you never shared that one. You were sure that you would never meet a woman who would accept you, let alone share your preferences, choosing to forever keep them buried. And to keep them that way, you avoided the type of women, who actually attracted you most, knowing that sooner or later you’d slip… Perhaps that’s why you avoided Wanda? But she was kind, sweet, caring, she was always so gentle with you, yet assertive and strong, confident in herself and what she wanted. God, she was perfect! She was everything you ever imagined in a partner. Although that thought was absurd. You didn’t even know her… Truth be told, you shouldn’t even think of her. If you let yourself imagine what it would be like to be with her, you knew you’d fall for her so desperately. And she would snap your heart like a twig. Yes, thoughts of Wanda were a dangerous thing. So, you did your best to ignore any idea of her that would pop into your head. Keeping your distance would be in everyone’s best interest. Especially yours. In the long run, it was much kinder to your heart. Somehow that saddened you more and you gulped down the glass of wine in front of you, pouring yourself another. You were in a self-pitying mood and you allowed yourself to look at the picture of your ex and her new girlfriend and how happy they looked together, a lump in your throat. God, when would it be your turn to be this happy? To find the person, who would look at you with so much love in their eyes? Why was it, that you had to look at the happiness of others, never being allowed to taste it yourself? Was there truly no one out there for you? What was it about you that pushed people away? Were you not pretty enough? Not smart enough? Or were you simply unlovable? You often thought so. And the prospect of walking through life alone had you feeling disheartened quite often throughout the years. You’d smile for the world, observing it quietly, pretending to be content. And when you’d get home you’d cry for hours and hours, wanting to scream so hard your throat would go sore. But you’d take another sleeping pill instead and you’d sink into nothingness. It could be worse, you used to think… But nothing was worse than what you felt inside. It’s a good thing you found help when you did, you thought bitterly. Therapy helped you pull yourself out of the darkness and to start living in the light. But there were always days like this from time to time. Just as you thought of that, a movement inside the Maximoff’s house, a sudden shift, followed by the lights in the entire house going out attracted your attention. You could have sworn you saw the lights on both floors go out at once, but you could see nothing suspicious or out of the ordinary, so you shrugged, your eyes moving back to the pool with its brilliant blue water, entirely unaware of being watched by a pair of green eyes. * * * After she came home from that disaster of a date, Wanda spent the whole night thinking. Her thoughts spiralled for hours, her heart protesting the thought that she should just pull away from you. She certainly didn’t want to. But could she keep this a friendship? After everything she saw, everything she did? After sharing so much intimacy with you, could she go back? Of course, she could, she decided. It meant a lot to her, yes, and God, she wanted to take everything else, but nothing was set in stone. You never had to know about Wanda’s transgressions. But she knew… She knew about all those wonderful things inside your head and as she watched your movements from a distance, her mind closed to the outside world and to your thoughts, and she felt deprived. It was almost like withdrawal. Just like right now… She could see you there, on your balcony, sulking… And she wanted to know what you were thinking about. She wanted to know what made you seem so sad. But she couldn’t allow herself to probe, not if she wanted to stay away from you. Annoyed, as much at the situation, as she was at herself, she huffed, red magic erupting from her fingers and taking out the lights in her house. You were off limits. A place where she shouldn’t wander. If only she had seen the dark thoughts that swirled in your head, the pain that you felt as you sat there, perhaps things would be different. Perhaps she’d know just how much you longed to reach out to her, longed to text her and ask for a moment of her company. But such a thing was not meant to be. Despite the proximity, the two of you were worlds apart, each one engulfed by her own doubts and fears. You, so oblivious and blind and completely consumed by the fear of rejection that resided in your heart, and Wanda, who could see you so clearly, but couldn’t bring herself to take another chance with her barely salvaged heart. As Wanda walked up her stairs, her feet silent in the darkness, she felt a sudden sense of anger. It was the quiet, deeply unnerving kind, the kind that crawled up your skin and made your body suddenly heat up, but just wouldn’t boil over. It was the kind of anger that lingered. It stayed with her while she undressed herself, throwing on only a t-shirt, instead of her pajamas, it messed with her while she brushed her teeth, while she sat up in her bed and watched you through her window… You looked so sad. You looked so fucking beautiful in your sadness too and it made her want to blast the walls of this house with her magic, just so she could be closer to you. She wanted to know what caused your sadness and she wanted to find a way to make it better. Resentful of her own reservations, her own rules that restricted her, she huffed, closing her eyes and trying to push the thought of you out of her head and find some comfort in sleep. But sleep never came. And every time she opened her eyes, she was met with the same sight. The same out worldly beauty, the same terrible sadness written all over it. And she couldn’t stand it. Why did you have to be so beautiful? Why did that look in your eyes have to affect her so much. Wanda watched you for another 5 minutes, her eyes unblinking and her thoughts surprisingly empty, before she decided that she couldn’t stand this anymore. Rules be damned. She wanted to take care of you. She wanted to be good to you tonight. Wanda’s astral body levitated out of her physical one with surprising ease, despite the fact that she hadn’t projected in years. Some things just couldn’t be unlearned over time and magic came way too easy to her now, so perhaps she shouldn’t have been surprised. She walked in front of the mirror in her bedroom and her head tilted as she examined her reflection. Yes, some things never changed. Those scars, gained in magical battle might have disappeared from her skin, but she could see them clearly here. Her red eyes glowed in the darkness, her skin covered in angry, jagged lines, the blackened fingers, that twitched with unused magic, the tattered crown over her head and the suit that she hasn’t worn since mount Wundagore... All those things from her past. She was a true horror, even in her own eyes. How could she ever ask a girl like you to love a monster like the one she so clearly was? But she wasn’t going to ask you to love her. In fact, you wouldn’t even see her. You had no magical abilities, she checked soon after you moved in. So she had nothing to worry about tonight. With a final glance that lingered on her face, Wanda flew out of her house and hovered over your balcony, examining you up close. You were almost in a stupor and Wanda’s astral form flew closer, landing near you and taking the last few steps to you. “Poor, sweet girl. You look so tired.” She said with a note of melancholy understanding, knowing you wouldn’t be able to hear her. The dark circles under your eyes gave you a grave expression that didn’t sit right with her, that didn’t even seem to fit in the image she had of you and the way your body sagged looked so unnatural, like you were a misshapen doll, that it made Wanda shudder. Only your eyes gave away that there was still a spark of life in you, a tornado of feelings and emotions that scrambled your thoughts. As if to show her you’re alive, your hand moved, blindly taking the glass of wine and dawning the remainder if its content, the sharp taste making you shiver as you swallowed it. In a gesture of gentle compassion, Wanda reached out, her fingers stroking your hair softly. “That’s not good for you, darling girl.” She said with a tenderness that looked almost macabre, considering you couldn’t see or feel her. To her surprise, you put the glass down, pushing it away with an apathetic gesture and Wanda crouched down in front of you, eyes studying you with a curious expression. She wondered for a moment if perhaps you had sensed her, but nothing actually gave that away. Your eyes looked unseeingly through her and into the blue water of the pool. But perhaps on some level you could feel her, she hoped, standing up straight again and moving to your side, her forehead touching your temple softly as she breathed you in, while one of her hands circled your shoulders and embraced you gently. Her blackened fingers looked so grotesque next to your unblemished skin, but she couldn’t help herself basking in your proximity, in your presence, in your smell, in your warmth. Despite what she might have looked like, she only wanted to get a moment of gentleness from you. She wanted to hug you, to lay your head on her chest and stroke your hair, a gesture she knew would soothe both of you. God, she probably looked deranged right now, but as soon as your body tilted to the side, as if to lean more against her, Wanda lost all ability to care. Some part of you did sense her, she thought, a surge of excitement passing through her body. She wondered just how much she would be able to influence you in this state. You were obviously more susceptible to suggestion in your tired drunkenness, but she was only in her astral form, her own capabilities limited. And she didn’t really want to manipulate you in any sinister way, just to get you to bed, so you could rest a little. You still had work in the morning and it was already so terribly late… “Sweetheart, do you think you can go to bed for me?” She asked softly, still holding you. It was an empty feeling, her astral form incapable of feeling the way she did, but it was better than nothing. With a soft, affectionate smile, she felt you yawn, your arm making the instinctive motion of covering your mouth, but coming up a few seconds late. “Yes, that’s right. You’re feeling very sleepy right now and you want to go to bed.” She whispered, detaching herself from you. She watched you try to stifle another yawn, but it didn’t quite work. You seemed almost ready to fall asleep right on the chair. It was downright cute, the way you tried to snuggle into the chair for comfort. But Wanda couldn’t let you sleep here. “Your bed would be much more, comfortable, darling.” She whispered in your ear, feeling elated. She felt free. To speak as she wished, to say the things she wanted to say, without fear, without restrictions, without limit. In the cover of darkness, in a state, where the whole universe was her witness, yet no human around would ever hear her, she could say out loud the things she kept hidden. Your body refused to move, your eyes opening and closing in uneven intervals as she watched you. Poor baby was so tired. She would have picked you up and carried you if she could, but she only had her voice to use, so she tried again. “Go on, baby. Go to bed. You’re not supposed to stay here.” She said again, stroking your hair. God, it felt so good to be able to say this out loud. To show you the affection you deserved. Perhaps in her freedom, she could use the words she had never spoken out loud… “Come on, darling, Mommy will cuddle you to sleep if you go to your bed.” She suggested, feeling a shiver pass through her at how good it felt to say those words, already feeling the rush of excitement at the thought of having you in her arms. She could talk to you like this for hours. At this, you stirred, straightening in your chair and trying to keep your eyes open and Wanda smirked. Such a sweet, pliable girl… “Let’s get you into bed.” Wanda smiled, repeating her instructions, until you finally stood with a tired sigh and another stifled yawn. “Such a good girl.” The witch praised you, following your steps into the house and its master bedroom. The space was dark, but you couldn’t be bothered by the lights, not wanting to irritate your eyes, instead standing in front of the bed and reaching to undress yourself. “No, don’t undress, baby. Mommy won’t be able to stop herself if you take your clothes off.’’ Wanda rushed to stop you. It’s not that she didn’t want to see you, the temptation to let you strip yourself down and expose all your beauty almost too great for her to resist. But she didn’t want to take advantage of you like that. “Just lie down, now darling.” She instructed in a gentle voice, coaxing you to lie down. She watched you take a deep breath, before you reached behind your back, unclasping your bra and taking it off your shoulders and from underneath your clothes, throwing in carelessly on the nearby armchair, before you climbed into bed, not even bothering with the covers. It was such a warm night anyway. You pulled down one of the many pillows at the top of the bed and hugged it, your body needing the feeling of proximity and Wanda’s eyes swelled with tears. God, she couldn’t even remember how many nights she had fallen asleep in just the same way. True to her words, she climbed into bed, facing you and she draped one of her arms over your body. “Sleep now, little angel, Mommy’s here.” She whispered softly. She watched you fall asleep in mere seconds, clearly exhausted, and she watched the features in your face grow softer and more content, once you had drifted. You were still so gorgeous, so precious, cuddled up into bed. She could stay and watch you like this all night. She certainly wanted to. She wanted to let her physical body sleep in her bed, while she stayed here with you, watching you, soothing you, admiring you… But she couldn’t do that… She was meant to keep herself away from you, not learn a new way to be close to you. Staying would only tempt her further. Bargaining with herself, feeling reluctant to leave your side, she spent another half an hour next to you, her hand stroking your cheek affectionately as she watched you sleep, but eventually, she left. Her astral form returned back into her body as if slammed by invisible force, leaving her breathless and full of half-felt emotions. Wanda felt so unfulfilled, knowing you were so close to her, sweetly curled around a pillow and sleeping peacefully. Leaving your side truly left a bitter aftertaste in her. She had gotten a glimpse of being so close to you, of being so utterly herself and now she wanted so much more. She wanted to throw away all her restraint and just fly back to you, where she felt whole, felt a sense of serenity that’s been missing in her. As her eyes snapped open, she groaned. Giving you up, would be much harder than she anticipated. ______________________________________________________ As always, I’d love to know what you guys think about the chapter and the story in general. Disclaimer: Gif is not mine. I’d be happy to give credit if I knew who made it...
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Two Lines (Benedict Bridgerton x Reader)
Benedict Bridgerton x fem!Reader Modern AU Rated: G - domestic fluff Word count: 1.7k
Summary: As you settle into your new home, you have a surprise for Benedict.
Author's Note: Sometimes late at night, modern Ben shows up and hands me a one-sitting story. This is one of those. I cannot express enough gratitude to @bridgertontess who put so much thought and care into making the custom photo edit above 🫶 I hope you enjoy this little cottage moment, my dear 💙
Two lines. Eight, if you were counting all the tests together, the reason you had locked yourself upstairs for the afternoon. Each of them clear as day, opening some new chamber of your heart and flooding it with so much feeling, you had to sit on the floor and allow yourself a little cry. You had tried for so long, the process eventually becoming so demoralizing that you had stopped planning and both started to make your peace with it. You would let nature decide, and had nearly convinced yourself she simply wasn’t in your corner, until now. Right when you had stopped worrying about it, that’s when she caught you by surprise.
Your husband hadn’t even registered your absence. He was too busy painting the rooms of the ground floor. The cottage you had purchased was the definition of a fixer-upper, every wall and window and fixture needed attention. You had been daunted when he showed you what he had found, but that undeniable light in his eyes would have made you agree to move into a caravan. He was enjoying himself with all of the projects, something to pour his boundless energy into when he wasn’t working. He was taking on more than he should, in fact. You loved him, but he was tragically posh and really had no place touching the electrical box. But he would be damned before he’d allow you to hire someone. All probably something to do with male pride and being king of his proverbial castle.
With your heart pounding in your throat - it had only pounded as hard before on your wedding day - you descended the cramped staircase and walked to the dining room.
“Benedict Bridgerton, please be careful on that thing!”
The ladder he had found looked to be as old as the house itself. Some splintery relic that wobbled with every brushstroke he made. He had unearthed it from the shed and saw no point in shelling out for a new one. Now it was the only thing keeping him suspended over the double length windows as he turned the dingy walls a muted sage green.
He looked down at you with a shrug, which caused another wobble. “It’s fine.”
You moved to the ladder, ready to brace a fall. “I can’t afford to have you break your neck. Or anything else for that matter.” You suddenly realized what a challenge it would be to keep him intact over the coming months, especially as your mobility gradually became impaired.
The look on your face must have been upset enough, because he pouted and descended a few rungs, reaching a stable center of gravity. “But wouldn’t it give you just a little bit of vindication? Proof that you were right and we should have hired someone?”
That smirk. That smirk was the reason you had allowed him to try his hand at everything in the first place. His undaunted confidence. It made you admire him to the point of resentment.
“No, it wouldn’t,” you spat. “I don’t want my husband in hospital, even if it proves my point. You’re covered. Take a break.”
Glancing down at himself, he saw that his hands and forearms had practically been dipped green, and the splatters were never going to come out of his orange t-shirt or jeans. He didn’t have many tops to speak of, so he had better start using his brush more carefully. Somehow, this lauded artist who could stipple and blend the most delicate details into a portrait or landscape, looked like a five-year old with a bowl of spaghetti sauce when it came to wall paint.
“The sun is setting anyway,” you handed him a cloth. “Come watch with me.”
You could see through the west-facing window how the sky was layering orange, pink and purple. Your little spot of countryside afforded you the most breathtaking sunsets, the sellers hadn’t lied about that. It really was the perfect home for an artist and Benedict had known as soon as he saw it. All sky and wildflowers and distant sounds of birds.
He wiped his hands and swiped the bottle of wine your new neighbors, the Crabtrees, had brought over. He grabbed a glass.
“Do you want some?”
You waved him off. “No, thanks. I’m alright.”
The back garden held another relic, a stone bench that was surprisingly comfortable. That was where you watched the sunsets together, plotting all the improvements you wanted to make. Benedict sat and poured the wine, and you laid down beside him, resting your head in his lap. The hand not holding his glass trailed softly through your hair. You realized he was probably turning it green, but you didn’t mind.
He took a sip and looked down at you curiously. “Are you feeling okay?”
You furrowed your brow. “Is that some commentary on my drinking?”
He laughed. “No…I mean, well, you do always join me, but…” His voice grew soft. “I just want to check.”
There he went, intuiting everything. Your pulse jumped wondering if you had already been too transparent. If he could see right through you, as usual, and knew what you were about to tell him. But you checked yourself. Of course he didn’t, he wouldn’t be able to keep calm with the news. You smiled, snuggling into him. “I’m feeling fine. Very good, in fact.”
He smiled back, lopsided and devastating. “Good.”
You both looked skyward, watching the orange slip out of sight, then the pink fade to indigo, and the purple to navy. It was autumn and the last of the birdsong was accompanied by gusts of wind, blowing about the falling leaves and grey brush in the flowerbeds stretching before you. The garden had been the lowest priority as you focused on making the cottage comfortable, especially as winter approached. But now there was a new deadline to prepare for, more to take into consideration on what you tackled and how.
Benedict finished his glass and kept one hand combing through your hair, bringing the other to rest on your ribs.
“We need to clear out these beds.” You gestured to the abandoned mess of long-dead foliage in front of you.
“I know,” he nodded. “It’s on the list.”
“If we do it now and plant some bulbs, they should bloom in the spring just in time.” You wrapped your hands around his forearm, sliding it lower, his massive grasp spreading out across your abdomen.
“In time for what? Do you want some grand housewarming once all the projects are done? I’m not sure my family will fit in this place.” He snorted.
You held your breath, feeling the warmth of his fingers pressing softly onto your body, a cosmic point of connection where the three of you intersected. Your momentary little secret.
You couldn’t help but quip. “Your family fits in here just fine.”
If he noticed your goofy grin, he didn’t comment on it. You turned your head and nuzzled into his stomach, that knee-weakening sandalwood scent still evident under the paint fumes. This man, he gave you so much by simply existing. Now you had something to give back that finally felt like an adequate reciprocation. You were ready.
“I want the flowers as a backdrop for a portrait.” You said matter-of-factly.
He leaned down and ran his nose into your hairline, murmuring against your skin. “Mmm, that would be lovely. You in our garden.”
“Yes, the both of us.” You whispered, breathless with anticipation.
He kissed your forehead and chuckled deep in his chest. “If you want me in it too, I’m not exactly sure who is supposed to be doing the painting.”
Keeping one hand pressing his into your torso, you brought the other to his hair and gently pulled him to look at you. Locking into his eyes, you spoke, quiet but purposeful. “I didn’t say you’d be in it.”
He stared at you, blue-grey eyes darting back and forth at your pupils, the smile on his face fading from bemusement to confusion, a furrow forming between his brows. Then the penny dropped, and you felt the jolt run through his every muscle. With a shout he melted over you, rocking you as he buried his face into the crook of your neck. You didn’t know if he was forming words, he seemed to be gasping and letting out wonderful little sounds of desperate happiness. His arms bound tighter around you, trembling with nervous energy. You could feel the heat of his tears on your skin, and it was enough to break you. You cried too, clutching back with fingers curled into his dark hair.
Such euphoria, that you had planned on for so long. Had nearly written it on your calendar you felt so in command of when it would occur. Then when it had been denied and denied and denied, the least painful route was simply to give up hope. To comfort yourself with the knowledge that Benedict brought you so many other euphorias, it almost seemed selfish to demand this one too. But now it was yours, and you felt spoiled by the universe. Spoiled but oh so grateful.
Gaining some semblance of control over himself, he hovered his face above yours once more, eyes wild, breathless. “You’re…oh my god…we’re…”
You laughed through your tears. “Yes, my love.”
His hand brushed warm over your belly, reverently. You could already see in his eyes that he was going to treat you like you were made of glass for the next nine months. It would be equal parts endearing and aggravating. The house projects would be laden with a new layer of stress, everything now with a greater sense of urgency, and he would try to do it all himself.
Immediately confirming your assumption, he snapped to attention. “I’m clearing the beds tomorrow.”
You pulled his lips down to yours and hummed. “Not if I don’t let you out of ours.”
At the very least, you could delay his preparation mania for one day. You wouldn’t let him bear every burden on his own. You would build your home together, the two of you, until there were three. Then you would keep building, and see what other gifts lay in store.
With a smirk, he scooped you into his arms and rushed back into the cottage, the two of you giggling like fools.
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🔪Hallowe'en Special🔪
William the Ripper.
William Afton x female sex worker reader
Synopsis: You’re a harlot prowling the streets of London in 1891, looking for patronage. And you unknowingly become ensnared by a very dark man.
A/n: This isn’t anything like what I usually put on here, it's somewhat inspired by real life events aka the Whitechapel Murders, so this is your warning that it might not be for you. I’d also like to say I’m in no way making light of this, yes it was a long time ago, but I still think all victims should be treated with respect. However, this is fictional and I hope you enjoy it, even after all that.
Warnings: sex-work/Victorian prostitution, violence, hints at sexual assault and rape, murder, this is really dark folks.
Image above is of Dorset Street, London, taken in the late 1800s. Just for a little scene setting.
This night felt off from the start. There was a brutal chill to the air, the penetrating kind that made your joints sore just from enduring it. And the depressing rain fell to the ground in a quickly succeeding tap-tap, tap-tap… so rhythmic that your pace matched it instinctively, making you walk hastily through the quiet streets.
The weather made business achingly slow and you clutch the sixpence in your pocket that little bit harder, resigning yourself to the fate that tonight that was all you were going to get. The knowledge that you would have to return tomorrow night is daunting, though if you tried to find more custom now, in this weather, you’ll only fall ill, and that is one of the worst things that could happen to you.
You begin to move faster, turning on your heel and nearly throwing yourself down alley after alley, you’re damp to the bone, your skirts clinging together to form restrictive and heavy baggage that only makes you more desperate to escape the night air. You pass an inn where the water runs fast from the swinging sign, dripping painfully cold down your back, reminding you of how little clothes your line of work calls for. And it only became more apparent as patrons step out of the inn, calling after you. You should stop, they look like sailors and God knows sailors are a reliable custom, but something stops you, some forbidden instinct or knowledge that motivates you to keep going. Something that felt dangerous.
Fear lessens when you stumble out onto Dorset Street, the familiar sight of other midnight women a comforting sign, you’re not far now. Not much longer until you’re back in the cramped rooms you share with girls who’d fallen on similar hard times, girls who bind together, who made you feel as safe as you could be here, with nothing but a fucking sixpence to tide you over.
You exchange a nod with a girl whose name escapes you, jealous of her shawl and good boots that were going to allow her to stay out tonight and earn enough to buy herself breakfast in the morning. Very much unlike yourself. You enter the last cut before your accommodation, shivering from both the cold and the lack of visibility that makes unease rest around your shoulders. It was so dark you could hardly see your boots hitting the cobbles below you, let alone any sight of the end of the alley, all you have for confirmation that you’re moving is the sound of you walking, step, step, step, step… not loud but the disconcerting stillness echoing it around you. You’re somewhat glad it's so silent, it means you’re astutely aware of your surroundings, almost too aware, so aware that it doesn’t take you long to clock the dull thud of steps behind you.
Your head turns without any consultation from your mind, like a rabbit who’s nose twitched at the mere thought of a predator. It’s then it dawns on you how dangerous this really is.
Not far from your trembling form is a figure, a gentleman, the hat and cloak kind of man who clearly had some money. At first you panic for a different reason, thinking it could be a peeler and being overcome with images of the constabulary, a place you never wanted to return to. But a copper wouldn’t follow you down here, what with your lack of punter, what would he have to take you in for after all. But if it’s not the police…
You turn fully, stopping still and trying to hide any wobble from your voice. “I’m not working. F-find someone else!” You call out, the fear is evident despite your efforts and so potent you nearly cry. The cloaked form stops in turn, the short distance of a road between the two of you, yet still you can’t see anything of him, other than the menacing figure of a man much taller than yourself.
In the silence that follows, the figure raises a hand up in a slow and patronising wave, almost making you think you had it right, just a john who’d take your words as rejection. You breathe deeply in an attempt to steady yourself, turning your back on the gentleman and resuming your walk, your pace now quickened with a primal urge to see yourself protected by the eyes of others.
Step, step, thud, step, thud, step-
You whimper, movement nearly faltering with the realisation that the man behind you was still mirroring your pace, each sound of his feet hitting the ground making you flinch. Reeling, you walk faster and it quickly becomes a run as the desperate need to get out of the alley floods through your veins.
A bend in the path sees your body hit the wall, your hands scrambling along the wet bricks to try and navigate the turn, the darkness so suffocating your touch is all you have to see. A gloved hand grabs your arm with such force you instantly cry out, fear repelling you away, a new-found power in your pulling which allows you to free yourself.
You try to run from the man again, tears warm as they stream down your face. Your feet hit the cobbles loudly and messily, the rain making it hard to keep your balance as your cheap boots lack the necessary grip. Stumbling, you lose your footing, sliding before wrenching your ankle in between the stones. The sudden bleaching pain makes you scream and as you fall to the ground, the pain in your ankle is soon joined by a dull ache in your whole body from the force of the fall. Knowing the figure is still pursuing you, you try again to crawl to your feet, but such a scorching grasp on your arm drains the will from you.
You’re pulled forwards before the man’s other hand strikes you across the face, the bright agony knocking you senseless. He again grabs you, tilting your face to him and in the almost pitch black you can see him smiling. A foul grin slashed into his face, so sinister you go completely still, stunned into submission.
“Maybe you should have been working, whore.” He spits, the venom of the words like an ice-cold grip on your heart. You sob, lacking the strength to pull your face from his hold, a despondent futility settling over you, and you only hope he’ll take what he wants from you and leave you to drag yourself home. But whispered rumours of much worse things happening to other girls blur in the back of your mind.
“Please, sir. I-” the sound of your voice sounds foreign and you hardly recognise the shrill desperate noise.
He wrenches you up closer to him, his grip settling under your jaw, making it hard to breathe. “Go on.” You open your mouth but the words turn to shuddering breath when you hear a light click followed by the sensation of cold metal against your throat. “Beg.” His voice isn’t human, it’s void of anything and just looking at his eyes you see an absence of life.
This was it. The face other's saw before meeting their most grisly end. You'd heard all about it, girls who disappeared and were found days later with their throats cut. Butchered by Leather Apron. Mutilated by the Whitechapel Murderer. Taken apart by the Ripper. Whatever the papers would take to calling him this week.
And strangely, it occurs to you how unremarkable this man looks. Not some self-loathing creature or deprived streetwalker. A gentleman. A handsome one that many ladies would happily take on as a john.
The silence rings out and, for just a moment, all you hear is the rain and the sound of your own heart. The monster chuckles darkly, pressing the knife hard against your throat.
He sighs, “What a shame.”
A/n: And that's me done! Happy Hallowe'en, folks! Thanks so much for reading and I hope you have a spooky one this year. X
#fnaf#william afton#william afton x reader#william afton x you#william afton the ripper#cw murder#cw violence#cw sa mention#FWB's halloween event
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August
Ginny on her sixteenth birthday, her loneliest to date. (Also on AO3!)
He’s painted the end of her summers with beacons of light and green and gold since she was nothing but a little girl; he’s filled every August with colours so bright she’d never seen before. He’s been in every breeze, every pink sunset, in the faded and distant sound of crickets chirping somewhere in the garden. But he’s also been in the scorching hot sun, in the breathless and sweaty afternoons spent in the orchard, in the laughter and the yelling and the banter, on her skin like her new summer freckles covering her bare shoulders. She doesn’t exactly remember when she’s stopped awaiting August like the month that would bring her birthday, her month, and when she’s started yearning for it as the month that would bring him, his month.
But he’s not around, this August. In the month where he used to be just about everywhere, now he’s gone - gone from Ron’s bedroom, gone from the kitchen, gone from the orchard, just nowhere at all. This August is not bright or green or golden; this August is dark, it’s hazy, it’s red, and it burns deep in her veins. Her anguish is suffocating; at every breath, she feels like her chest is being cut open and her heart is being ripped out of the body, leaving her breathless, leaving her numb.
Sometimes she feels like she doesn’t even exist anymore; and yet, time seems to go on around her like nothing's changed. Somehow it’s her birthday today - but that’s barely even possible, because it feels like only one single, daunting, dreary day since they’ve left, since he’s gone and he’s taken her whole heart and soul with him. She feels sick for having taken it for granted then; for having thought that they’d have more summers, for having thought that they’d have August forever.
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Funny how she’d once thought that I can’t be involved with you anymore would be the toughest, most wrenching, ever tormenting thing she’d have to process - how foolish, how naive, how could she be ever so damn stupid . Because not knowing is worse, it’s what keeps her awake at night, what haunts her in her sleep and in every second of her day. She hears it in her voice every time she speaks, it weighs on her chest every time she takes a breath. And it’s not about not knowing what his classified and important mission is all about, whatever Dumbledore has left him and Ron and Hermione to do. No, she’s long given up on that - it’s never even crossed her mind that she could ever dare to ask, she knows it all too well that it’s not her secret to learn. It’s simply about not knowing if he’s all right, if they’re all right - if they’re injured, if they’ve found shelter, if their hiding place is hidden enough. If they’re hungry; when is the last time that they’ve had any food. If Ron and Hermione are healthy, if Harry’s -
He’s alive, she often has to remind herself, her stomach painfully writhing and lurching. He’s still alive. And yet, somehow, for some sickening, twisted reason she can’t shake that one daunting feeling, as if she’s already grieving him.
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Just as her brother lights up her candles with a flick of his wand, and just as everyone starts singing to her in a way that reminds her of her childhood, those three empty seats become somehow emptier, her agony unbearable. The smiles around her are strained, the eyes are wary, yet nobody seems to notice her trembling hands, nobody seems to hear her heart pounding so hard it could burst through her ribs. Why does nobody hear it?
Her parents kiss her on both cheeks, they squeeze her tight, mumbling some dull pleasantries about how fast she’s growing up, already sixteen, already a woman. Sixteen has never meant anything to her really, except being just short of coming of age. Yet she’d never expected that she would have turned sixteen on a day like any other, and that the pain would have been just the same. She’d never expected she would turn sixteen on the eleventh day after being ripped away from the person she longs for the most.
Not that it matters now, but he did promise her once that he’d be there for her birthday - heavy rain was pounding on the windows as they were sitting on one of the couches in the common room, curled onto each other, dreaming of August. He said he hoped to join her at the Burrow right after his birthday, or even before if he could have his way, and he really meant it when he vowed that he would do his best to make her day special. She even allowed herself to picture it back then, ridiculously naive as she was - he would’ve sat next to her at breakfast, held her hand under the table, looked at her with those sparkling eyes as he always did; and then he would’ve led her to the orchard, where they would’ve snogged and played Quidditch until they would have both been out of breath. Not a care in the world, at least not on that day. And then, at sunset, she would have told him that this was exactly the day she had wished for that very same morning, when blowing on her candles.
But she doesn’t have it in her to make any birthday wishes this year - it’s too far-fetched, too unattainable, too illusory. Something out of someone else’s life, her mind says before she can stop it, a chill stealing through her chest. She knows it all too well, if she’d even dare to allow herself to form a wish in her head, she’d think of bright little bedrooms, of doors that do not bang open, of wandering hands and wandering lips, of whispers and gasps and blushes. She’d think of him, his messy hair, his enchanting gaze, his beautiful, beautiful smile. She’d think that she loves him, because it’s true, she loves him so much - but it’s too late now, and she can’t even remotely daydream of saying it out loud.
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He’s never told her he loves her, not with words at least; and yet he’s told her a million times over with his eyes; he’s told her with his hands and with his lips, always craving her touch, always eager for her. She often finds herself pondering if she’s managed to tell him in the same way he’s told her, if he’s understood. She would have liked him to know, after all. She would have liked to whisper it in his ear, that one evening by the lake when they had held each other while everything else around them had started to crumble. She would have liked to scream it from the top of the stairs here at the Burrow, right to his face, and to hell anyone else. I love you, I love you, I love you. Then also: I miss you, please don’t go, please don’t leave me. And finally: Fuck Dumbledore, fuck Voldemort, fuck this war, fuck whatever it is that you have to do that has taken you away from me. But then he would’ve found another stupid noble reason to push back, to keep her at arm's length, to return to doing his thing - saving the world and all that. At the end of the day, she wouldn’t have expected anything different from him. At the end of the day, she would have loved him even more for it.
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‘I’m sorry we couldn’t celebrate your birthday in better circumstances, Ginny,’ her mother says, her voice sombre, her eyes sunken with apprehension.
Ginny looks at her - her sweet, yet unwavering, courageous, ever powerful mother, now worn out by worry and fear. She’s raised and loved seven children of her own, and now she is condemned to ignore where most of them are, when she’ll see them again, if she ever will.
‘It’s fine, Mum,’ she replies softly, giving her a timid smile. ‘I’m really grateful.’
She’s become good at putting on a brave face, better than ever. She feels like she owes it to her to her mother, to her father, to all her family who’ve already been forced to give up on so much. She doesn’t think it’s her right to give them another reason to be concerned, especially not now that she’s about to go back to Hogwarts, to leap into the unknown. And besides - there is something oddly comforting about having a secret, something that is hers and hers only, her own holy place where to seek refuge. She only ever allows herself to brood late at night, when she’s sinking deep into her bed, sheltered by a couple of blankets, and she can’t sleep anyway. That’s when she lets her mind wander wild to faraway memories, to brighter summers, to explosive and colourful days that have slipped through her fingers way too fast. Sometimes her thoughts work a soothing effect on her, allowing her to peacefully doze off into blissful oblivion; sometimes she weeps silently on her pillow, despite herself. And then there are other times when all she feels is anger, really. She is angry, she is extremely furious for being so stuck in her own head, wrecked and defeated by emotions she’s unable to control. Those are the times when she’d curse her brother for sitting next to Harry on the train, that September of so many years ago. She’d take her silly crush, her starstruck awkwardness and clumsy elbows a thousand times over all this.
‘Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all,’ had said Hermione once, quoting some Muggle poet. It can’t really be true, now, can it? She reckons nothing in the world could ever justify this living hell, not even the greatest, most earth-shattering love of all time. But then the sound of his laugh elbows its way through her memory, a warmth suddenly floods her chest, and for a short, fleeting second she feels like she’s whole again. Maybe one day she’ll fully see that it was worth it, maybe one day it won’t hurt as much - but not today, not as she’s playing with the leftover cake on her plate because her body can barely take any food, not when the mere thought of him still crushes her soul.
And as her attention is suddenly caught by Bill placing a soft kiss on Fleur’s forehead, his new wife of eleven days, it finally hits her - that on the same day her brother has gained a forever partner, she has forever lost hers.
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Touch has always been their language since their very first day together, that glorious sunlit afternoon after winning the Cup. She never would have expected he’d enjoy it that much - that noble and restrained git who turned out to be anything but . He loved kissing her and wasn’t afraid to show her, or Ron, or Hermione, or pretty much anyone else in their entire school. All that seemed to matter to him was that his lips were on hers, or her hands, or her neck, or her hair (particularly her hair), or her collarbone, anywhere on her skin. Sometimes he would forget to catch his breath, would become all flushed and clumsy, and she would just laugh, laugh at how unbelievably happy she felt, laugh at how she’d really thought she could ever be over him. One day he told her that her mother had been the first person to ever kiss him goodnight, and then she vowed to do anything in her power to kiss him goodnight every single night for the rest of their lives or (and here she would have to correct herself with the hint of a blush) at least while she could. That night she nicked his cloak and snuck into his bed to kiss him once more, and then again and again and again, just as Ron snored loudly right next to them.
-
She often wonders if she’s given him enough; she often wonders if she’s managed to make him happy during those eight short weeks they’ve had together. If she’s given him enough smiles, enough touch, enough sunshine. His life will have been back to being all dark and eerie by now, wherever he is, whatever he is doing, but she hopes that he’ll be able to cling to that one last kiss they’ve shared, if he’ll ever need to. She hopes it will bring him light; she hopes it will bring him treacle tart, broomstick handles, a flowery garden, a small glimpse of a warless August. She hopes it will bring him home.
And when it will, that very summer will be filled with dread and despair, and only the grip of his hand will guide her through what will be the darkest days of her life. Every night she will leave her bedroom door unlocked, and he will be the one sneaking into her bed to kiss her and love her as if both their lives will depend on it - and, quite frankly, they will. She’ll start to see it then, hesitantly at first, but so fiercely and intensely later - the future. It will look all messy and blurry, blissfully chaotic, but certain at last. They will finally have the chance to heal, to slowly take their time; and nothing else in the world will matter other than getting to live an eternal August together.
#angst#missing moment#deathly hallows#ginny weasley#harry potter#hinny#i'm an august baby can you tell?
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salt-and-vinegar dreams
Fandom: Percy Jackson and the Olympians Pairing: Percy/Annabeth Rating: T Word Count: 1256
Summary: Percy might have an evil, prophesizing grandpa hijacking his dreams, but he also has Annabeth, and she's welcome any time.
Based on Percy’s extensive and up-close experience of bullying and recess dynamics, Camp Half-Blood makes no sense. Sure, if he compares pretty much any aspect of his life among mostly humans to his life here, there are some fairly glaring differences, but this is what stands out:
Out there, a kid who wins a fight becomes the Toughest Kid, and nobody wants to mess with that kid. In here, a kid who wins a fight also becomes the Toughest Kid, but everybody wants to fight them to see how they measure up—even if, instead of pushing another kid down on the playground and kicking sand in their lunch, they clobbered the god of war with a humongous wave. Percy kinda gets it, in a weird way, like he’s kinda getting everything about this, being here, being who he is. But he’s also tired.
He’s tired of dodging Clarisse’s attempts to take her turn at him. He’s tired of turning his last conversation with Luke around and around in his mind until it becomes a whirlpool it’s hard to pull back from. He’s tired of the dreams. Sinister, persistent. Always at the cottage in Montauk, which really pisses Percy off because that’s their place, his and his mom’s, but as soon as things go all dark and foggy, he can’t keep Kronos out. Just once, he’d like to tell that trespassing asshole there’s no welcome mat for a reason, maybe slam the door in the face he keeps hidden under a hood like preserving maximum spookiness when Percy already knows who he is isn’t the lamest thing in either this world or the subbasement the Titans call home. Instead of being stuck in the front room, Percy would like to run deeper into the cottage to grab the baseball bat he knows is somewhere in his room (back of the closet? Under the bed?) and use it to crack that dumb lantern he carries. He’d like to rush Kronos before he reaches the door, keep him outside and chase him around, spraying him with the garden hose.
Yeah, there’s a lot Percy’d like to try. At the top of that list is a good night’s sleep. These new Kronos-flavoured dreams suck; like a watered-down salt and vinegar from the heavy fog. And when he wakes up? Clammy skin from that fog, and the general bitter aftertaste anyone might associate with interacting with their creepy pit-grandpa. Zero out of ten.
So he’s a little worn out.
While everyone else is cramming their final days at camp with hand-to-hand combat—plus other normal stuff kids do for fun—Percy’s getting really into afternoon naps. Oh, that’s supposed to be an old-person thing? Uno reverse, Gramps. He already has the Poseidon cabin to himself, so it’s not hard to find a quiet spot. Even with his shiny-new status as the Ass-Kicker of Ares, the Mount Olympus Backtalker, the Lotus Casino Strip Poker Champ (ok, maybe the rumours are getting out of hand), the other campers don’t usually seek him out here. His guess is that the cabin stood empty so long that it became sorta mythically untouchable. Maybe that makes him the murky algae growing on the glass of the haunted aquarium, but he doesn’t care. He just wants to sleep.
Except one person never hesitates at the threshold. She doesn’t seem to mind the fishermen’s cathedral aesthetic or the unusual light; it spills down through tall, diamond-paned windows and reflects off the lap pool to cast a wavy aurora maris on the ceiling. Annabeth’s not daunted by the creak of suspended skeletons or the lobster traps piled by the door (why?).
She gives him the face that says he’s making a stupid choice which may or may not actually be wrong (she’s still deciding) and asks, “Why aren’t you outside?”
“I’m the demigod version of Superman: I prefer my solitude,” he says, then pauses. “Or, I guess Clark Kent, ’cause I’m not on duty.”
Annabeth frowns.
“Who?”
“Just… this journalist. Doesn’t matter.”
“You felt like being alone?” she somehow translates, sifting through the broken oysters of his words for the pearls.
He looks at her, her head tilt that could be cautious except he knows it’s thoughtful, her steps that miss all the squeaky boards his personal water feature has swollen with damp, the way her straightforward question spreads like a ripple—you felt like being alone alone alone alone?—because her eyes keep asking it after her lips close. Her feet keep walking into his abandoned marine museum, his one-storey lighthouse, his rejected Little Mermaid film set. He looks at her.
“Not… exactly,” he says, liking her here. “I was just gonna try to get some sleep.”
“Would it be alright if I stayed?”
There’s this feeling in Percy’s chest—sore and warped, but warm and still. He’s glad she asked; it means he doesn’t have to. It would’ve come out of his mouth wrong, fumbled and awkward, even though they’ve slept near each other before, basically the whole quest. He nods; it’s alright if she wants to stay. He can’t say he’ll probably be able to sleep better with her watching over him, that, actually, he’s scared a lot of the time, but not so much with her nearby. Even if their eyes are closed and their defenses are down.
Though Percy doesn’t stray from tradition and put his guard up as he lies down on his cot, there’s an awareness of a different nature. Annabeth darts a look at him like she’s suspicious that he’s going to keep watching her, but then she does something kind: she sits at the edge of the pool, right in his line of sight. She has her back to him as she strokes her hand back and forth through the water. Percy rolls onto his back, exhales. He’s not going to fall asleep, but he’s watching the light change on the ceiling, and he’s listening to the gentle waves break against the sides of the pool, and his eyelids are feeling heavy…
The cottage surrounded by darkness.
Kronos with the swaying lantern, the billowing cloak.
Percy: wide-eyed to be suddenly adrift inside his own mind, the cottage a trick.
An ominous message, full of blame, full of a sickening pride, full of ownership and control and—
Do you ever dream about Mom?
The look in his dad’s eyes, and then falling, but falling through light, falling like floating on water.
Percy knows he’s still sleeping—it’s the one similarity between this scene and his seaside encounter with Kronos—because he’s looking down at the lap pool from above. The water’s serene, undisturbed.
When he faces Kronos, does his body give clues? Does he twitch or flinch or groan? Anything that might call Annabeth away from the pool? Because she’s sitting there on his cot, holding his hand while he sleeps. Did he do something to make her scared for him, or is it another thing? A scared-if-you-don’t-feel-this-too thing. Scared if you do. Percy doesn’t know if this is real, but the feeling of wanting it to be is. They’re just… a good team. And if his tired brain was reaching for an antidote to Kronos’s unwelcome invasion of his subconscious, yeah, it coulda done worse than Annabeth’s hand tucked into his, light on her braids casting shadows like sea turtle ribs.
She’s looking at him. Her head tilts, and it could be cautious, wary, unsure.
Except Percy knows it’s thoughtful. She’s always thinking.
Right now, she’s thinking about him.
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❝ The Night I Lied to You | 2.0
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“You’re lying.” They recoiled as though the words themselves had burnt them. The moment the spin of his heel was caught in the corner of their eyes, they diverted their gaze to the sleek, copper floor, not daring to raise their eyes. Not when a calloused hand, with utmost tenderness, lifted their chin. Not when they could feel his gaze burning into the slices—gashes, maybe, they had not actually looked—all too close to their jugular vein. “Hunter rays don’t do that.”
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chars: Freminet (they/them), Lyney (he/him), Lynette (she/her)
tags: horror, brief comfort,
warnings: body horror, trauma, panic attacks, near death, injury
wordcount: 4,290
chapters: 2/2
ao3 link | masterlist | twitter post
a/n: easily my heaviest post yet... and its only my like, 2nd one? (well, 3rd if you count the one on my genshin blog.) anyway, this si the fanfic ive been working on for like. 5 months. and YES its only 2 chapters i KNOW.. fremi doesnt have a panic attack really but they get really close several times so i figured it'd be best to tag it as such. AND YES I KNOW VISION WIELDERS CANT DROWN! its a headcanon! dont yell at me! thanksies
i recommend reading it on ao3 instead, but the fic will be here as well. dialogue will be color coded.
anyways, enjoy.
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Deep breaths. In, out. In, out, their breathing trembled and heaved as Freminet hauled themselves through the desolate halls, their feet dragging with every weighted step they took. Water still dripped from their diving suit, trickling in disturbed rhythms. Save for the whir and buzz of electrical energy residing in the creaking walls, that was the only noise. A place called home, a place where they should feel comfortable. And yet, their consciousness would not allow them to feel safe, instead they were wracking their brain, scrambling to think up some valid excuse as to why they were like this. Forming reasonable excuses for anything was already daunting enough, pair it with incessant ringing and fuzziness of, well, everything they might as well be good as screwed, for unfortunate lack of a better phrase.
Time to think ticked on away, as they turned the corner on instinct. There it was, that door. Lined with pipes, towering with its mystical impressions. Pampered with poker cards, shimmering silver and golden coins, strings of loose confetti, all intricately placed to decoratively mask an undistinguished, average white door. They took a deep breath, air filling their lungs, heart pumping through their ears with every second that passed. What do I even say? The grand question looming over them like a threat. Perhaps more specifically, what could I say that Lyney would believe? Not much at all. Was there anything they could—?
“Freminet?”
Their heart sunk to the core of Teyvat. With a start, their head whipped, their soaked, disheveled blond hair sending chilled droplets peppering their freckled face. That silhouette, even whilst it simply stood shadowed against the walls, such a familiar sight that struck an unfamiliar chord of apprehension. Consciously, staring dead at the dark figure, they had to remind themselves; it’s Lyney. It’s Lyney. Why try to hide that deer in the headlights look of theirs—Lyney didn’t have to see their expression to clock them. Freminet flinched as suddenly, he was right there, dragging them away by the wrist and into that same door they’d stared up at as though it were the disappointed “Father” herself.
At the flick of the light switch, their eyes slammed shut. Light flooded into their eyes as would water, overpowering, blinding, suffocating. Lyney led them, as though he were the current whisking them off to safety. Next thing they knew, they were sat down on a cushioned surface—his bed—and Lyney was gone. Where– their eyes snapped open, only to thankfully spot him across the room, rifling through stashes upon stashes of disorganized clutter. “What happened?” His voice jarred them. Their mouth dropped open, yet not a word came out. All seemed to freeze over, as would an ocean at the most biting of winters.
“Just—” the word seemed to cut itself off, as though even their tongue was saying no. To just tell him the truth. “I got caught in the middle of some hunter rays. Th–at’s all.”
“You’re lying.” They recoiled as though the words themselves had burnt them. The moment the spin of his heel was caught in the corner of their eyes, they diverted their gaze to the sleek, copper floor, not daring to raise their eyes. Not when a calloused hand, with utmost tenderness, lifted their chin. Not when they could feel his gaze burning into the slices—gashes, maybe, they had not actually looked—all too close to their jugular vein. “Hunter rays don’t do that.” Of course he wouldn’t believe that. “We’ll deal with that later. Pain scale?”
They had to think about that one, impossible as it sounded. It had lingered for a while now—the exact time, Freminet was unsure—enough for it to have dulled into the background. Drowned out in the thrashing, crashing waves of haunting memories, if you will. “Two? Th– th–ree?”
Another light sigh, Freminet found themselves shrinking to their shoulders, as though it would foolishly bring them solace, only for their brother to oh so gently place a hand over their shoulder. The other hand found itself occupied with a medical kit—one of many in the house—set between them on the sheets. “Raise your chin, keep it up,” the showman instructed, too gently for someone like Freminet (at least, in their mind), whilst rummaging through the less-than-organized supplies scattered through the scratched-up, worn case. Reluctantly, they lifted their chin, hoping, praying to Lady Focalors herself that the trembling of their hands did not continue Its waves through the rest of them. Why were they still shaking?
Blinking the blurry haze from their eyes, they stared deadpan ahead at the walls as though they were most captivating. Ignoring the sizzling sting ripping through their neck and calves, and the cautious cotton pads pressed and patted against their skin. Instead, focusing on the black-and-scarlet diamond patterns that lined the clean bedroom walls. Confetti strings of any pastel color one could possibly think of popped through the macabre colors, especially, they noted, around where the magician’s top hat hung. Hanging, with violet bows and ribbons sagging without life. The world slunk away to the back of their mind, melting into obscurity. A blank void, detached from reality, with ever distancing thoughts. Just how Freminet enjoyed things.
“Freminet!” The sharp voice snapped them out of their daze, hands flung up protectively as they jumped. When that fear dissolved, its only remnant being a rapid thudding in their ears, they were not met by a threat, but soft concern. And yet, it was like his eyes burnt them. “Don’t scare me like that. Why didn’t you answer the first time?” Lyney’s voice strained with a forced, uncomfortable laugh. His hands came to their shoulders, forcibly turning them to face him. Like a knife struck through their chest, locking eyes sent a spark setting aflame an instantaneous flashfire of unreasonably intense panic. Freminet’s eyes snapped away. They couldn’t even look their own brother in the eyes. They could feel the worry of an older brother increase tenfold, both figuratively through the burning of his gaze and the tightened grip, nails pulling the fabric.
“I’ve seen you look a lot of ways, Freminet, but I don’t think I’ve ever seen you this rattled.” It took a lot to not flinch at such a quiet tone, from a showman known for his extravaganza. Then, came the dreaded words: “Please, just tell me. What’s wrong? What happened?”
Their throat tightened, heart sinking to their boots. A realization clicked in at that very moment. A rather haunting one.
He’s not going to believe me.
Who would?
“I–“They refused to look up at him. They couldn’t. They couldn’t, all they could think about was that thing. “I c—I don’t—” They sputtered, only for their voice to fizzle out, instead replaced with a spinning light-headedness, their heart still drumming In their poor ears.
“Never mind.” Huh? “We’ll talk about that later.” Freminet almost looked up at Lyney, only to take it back at the first sign of eyes. They couldn’t get that image out of their mind, as if it had been branded with a scalding iron. Contrastingly, Lyney lit up, brightening as if he’d gotten an idea, one of which could be one of two things: clever, or incredibly dumb, and both naturally entailed mischief.
“Say, Freminet. What about a magic trick?” said the magician, already reaching into his sleeve with a contagious grin.
“…Huh?”
“A magic trick! Just watch,” he insisted, whisking out from his sleeve a Romaritime flower. “An ordinary flower, yes? No strange properties about it—” he tilted the small blue and pink plant— “just a pretty, spectacular flower. Now, watch closely.” As Lyney waved his hand over the illuminating petals, their shine coating his scarred fingers in a gentle light, they couldn’t help but wonder; why was he doing this? Why now? Freminet had watched this trick hundreds of thousands of times, so it wasn’t new…
With another wave, the flower vanished. Like every time before, Freminet blinked with surprise. Hearing his giggle, Freminet’s hand reached for their shoulder, expecting to feel the damp petals between their fingers…
It wasn’t there. Hm? They glanced up at Lyney, to be met with the most vibrant of smiles. And though they didn’t look, they just knew his eyes were sparkling. They could picture it, clear as an undisturbed, crystalline lake.
Their hand reached up for their hair. Sure enough, their fingers brushed something, but it was no flower. No, it felt like… With a few more touches, they traced a weaving wire, something softer intertwined through the gaps. Curiously, they gently removed it from their head with both hands and could not help but stare. A crown of Romaritime Flowers, crafted with shaky experience. The flowers still were freshly damp, with small droplets decorating the hidden wire and reflecting their pastel bloom. Their stems interwoven through and around the wire made for not only stability, but comfort and aesthetics. Amazed, they turned it in their hands, and for but a moment, their burden was lifted.
“How did you…” they trailed off, subconsciously glancing up at their brother’s oh so distinctly pleased smile.
“Magic, dear Freminet.” Lyney’s hands took their own hands, guiding them to place the floral crown back upon their hair. “Now—what do you say we go meet up with Lynette? She’s just out shopping, maybe it’ll help to get your mind off whatever happened.”
They were, admittedly, a little more inclined to decline. But, Lyney had a point—not only that, it was better than being stuck in here, alone with the thoughts they drowned in. “Th–at’s fine,” they mumbled.
“Wonderful! Come get me when you’re ready. And, oh, let me know if any of the bandages come loose, I can fix them up for you.” Springing to his feet, Lyney extended a hand for Freminet to take. Inclined as they were to decline, they eventually accepted his hand.
Through the streets of Fontaine, Freminet strolled on between their two siblings, finding a warm safety with their sunshine incarnate of a brother and deadpan sister. They would have to be a fool not to recognize that Lyney was taking them sightseeing as a distraction, even though the trio had seen the sights many a time now. They had also spoken to plenty of familiar faces—‘they’, being mostly Lyney chatting people’s poor ears off–which, if you asked Freminet, was a bit of a bonus. They did not, however, enjoy all the concerned glances at their bandages, and not just from strangers. But from Lynette, too…
Lyney had simply told her he’d explain later. “Just act like nothing happened, and don’t ask,” he had whispered to her, to which she had nodded. And they went on with the casual day. At least they’d dropped it, Freminet hadn’t a clue how they were even meant to explain what occurred, even if they theoretically were to tell the truth.
That brought the siblings to the open sea. More specific to the fishing area, where divers and fishermen gathered ‘round a particular area near a stand where many bought their scuba equipment. Even Lyney seemed distracted, casting curious glances to the way of the crowd. Threading their ways through the web of people, Freminet overheard a voice, one striking against the murmurs of distress. The voice told of a story of a failure. A failure all too familiar to Freminet.
Lyney and Lynette’s gazes were drawn to the very center. Freminet peered over their shoulders, seeking the source. Packed as the crowd was, they vaguely could see something, someone, whom the crowd was gathered around. An ordinary man… to anybody else.
Their eyes locked. Time screeched to a halt.
Freminet didn’t think twice before they whirled on their heels, shoving through the crowd and taking off. The wind in their ears muffled out the call of their name from their siblings, their feet carrying them away from the scene. From it. And yet, they did not truly know where they were fleeing towards—it was like they were right back there. Detail for detail, sound for sound, every incessant noise repeated in their mind as a broken record. Endlessly.
Nobody would ever believe them.
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Blood. It stained their pale hands, their own frightened gasps all that reached their ringing ears. Reeling, their mind scattered, icy stare fixed upon the twitching man outside their cover. Sick, gagged wheezes uncomfortably close to that of a laugh fell from his bloodied lips. That man was Cyrille—not somebody Freminet knew particularly well, but they knew he had chemistry with several other divers. The poor man rattled so violently, his back arching and facial muscles so tense it stuck into a twisted, wide grin that burnt into their mind, clearer than they ever would have hoped. Though his brown eyes held firm contact with those of the diver’s own, Freminet knew that man was long, long gone.
After all, how could anybody who had their ribcage and the guts within gouged out of them in one fell swoop, ever survive?
Freminet tore their eyes from the macabre sight, bloodied hands clamped hard over their mouth. Into their hiding place, they’d sunk once more, knees pulled tight to their chest for any semblance of security. That horrid, horrid scene, it played on loop, over and over like a broken record insistent on playing only three seconds of material. It felt all like an eternity to them.
One moment ago, hardly even, they traversed through the underwater tunnels in a group of seven. The mechanics had come here for one simple reason; investigate the source of the faults in the underwater tunnels close by the Fortress of Meropide before they had a chance to cave in. Freminet came as their backup, in the case of flooded areas needing to be checked. The next? Bloodshed. By what? All they saw were its eyes. Low, towards the ground, wide without eyelids, skulking and slinking as it snarled and skittered. They had been fast enough to avoid it, though not to land on a hit on the swift, four-legged humanoid. The others?
They… were not swift enough. Nor did it seem they had the same instinct nor knowledge to know when not to fight, to put it as least morbidly.
Drip, drip, drip, the tunnels whispered, echoing through the metal chambers like a clock. It was safe to say they had found the source, if there was any bright side to this.
Drip, drip, drip.
Crunch.
Drip, drip, drip.
What was that? Scowling at the coppery scent filling their nostrils, their head rose. The crunch and crack of bone did not go unheard, even from the small cubby they’d locked themselves in. Cowering like a fool, as Father would say. Blankly, they watched the dim light, straining to reach through the rusted grates they hid behind. Their mind raced as they tried to figure out what that disgusting noise was. Crunching, cracking, ripping and slopping like teeth tearing into—
Their heart dropped. They curled tighter into a ball, their stomach twisting painfully. Never had they felt so disturbed. Never had they felt so horrified – and they had seen a plethora of things no man should ever have seen. That thing, it’s- it’s… Freminet did not think they’d ever felt so disgusted, so disturbed.
Above, there was a creak. A distinct groaning of metal, over the ongoing foul feast outside. They looked up. The somber illumination flickered. The thing shifted, shuffling about. Bubbles, waves, vigorous currents, all pried with destructively eager intent at the weakening points where tunnels connected. Fontaine workers constructed everything to remain safely secure against the strenuous attacks of tides, above or below the water’s surface—and yet, it was a wonder these tunnels only had decided to crater now, the state they were in. Not like Freminet could prevent such a disaster anymore—they just had to go with the flow, if you will.
In a split-second decision, they decided they would. Not without a deep, crushing terror in their chest, of course. A fear more suffocating than the deepest ocean depths could ever dream to be.
And then, it burst—roaring water rushing in, rampant without empathy. A crystalline, turbulent blue, pouring and flooding the tunnels with a vengeance. The cool water pooled around their shoes, running off the waterproof fabrics of their sweater as it rolled through. The inhuman wails and shrieks outside made Freminet’s deep breath stutter; a chilling reminder of what they had to face. No time, their frantic brain unhelpfully reminded. Breathe. Breathe, they repeated to themselves, as the water pooled higher, higher, until suddenly their knees were submerged. Just outside, that creature thrashed. Just breathe.
Lyney and Lynette are waiting for you. And Father will be disappointed if you die here.
They kicked open the grates, wincing as one of the bars unexpectedly snapped off, flying off at an angle. The force of the flood nearly knocked them over, but they’d managed to stagger to their feet, albeit with questionable balance. Just in time, of course, to watch the flimsy bar fling right on by the flailing creature’s head, before it was whisked away by the current. Now, as it flailed like a fish out of water, Freminet got an unfortunate, fleeting glance at the sight beheld in front of them. It almost reminded them of a Blubberbeast – the dull blues and sandy yellows, the structure of its arms, its legs, even it’s somewhat fin-like hands. In any other regard, it was anything but one of those carefree water puppies. A scrawny thing, with a blanket of loose, limp skin floating around it, and an entire lack of a neck to elevate its disfigured head—an amalgamation, an only vaguely humanoid monster. Freminet hoped it drowned here.
Despite themselves, they allowed the water to sweep them off their feet, taking the first opportunity to swim by that struggling horror, and towards the gash in the sturdy metal. Despite their racing heart, despite how they thought their eardrums would explode from the pitch of that hysterical, hungry squeal, despite the bloodied, half-eaten corpses floating to the top of the tunnels. It even abandoned its meal, Freminet spotted in the corner of their eye, that now-faceless man drifting limply to the surface, wisps of crimson following his ascent. It preferred its prey live, apparently. Don’t look, don’t look don’t look don’t look don’t look—
Soon, much to Freminet’s joy, the water had filled the tunnels up to the top, any remaining air pushed out in the form of meek bubbles. Miraculously, they’d gotten past it, propelling themselves out into the vast ocean blue, dark and shadowed yet still visible enough to the trained eyes of the diver. Calm down, you’re not going to be able to breathe if—
Thunk. Right behind them. Startled, their head whipped around, only to be met with a sight that, had they ever been given the opportunity to erase any of the many traumatic memories that burdened them, that would be it.
Cyrille. Or the thing molding itself into his form. The limp blue flaps of strained skin filling and expanding with the steady, sudden generation of flesh as it stroked against the water with practiced ease like a Blubberbeast’s, its spine protruding from its back like dull dagger blades vanished into back muscles that strained with unpracticed effort of someone—something, they should say—that never, or rarely swam with such anatomy. Carelessly cut locks of sodden hair sprouted rapidly from its scalp, pushed back as it swam up, up— Shit, it can swim?!
In a heartbeat, they whirled, swimming upwards at accelerated speeds. They hoped, faster than the speeds that mimicking monster could reach. Even the fish, from the relaxing hat jellyfish to the scrapping hunter rays, they all scattered, fleeing fins slicing the water. Freminet only wished they were small enough to hide in the colorful corals as the marine life could. Instead, they just had to make it to the surface. How hard could it be? How hard could it be? That said… how far down were they?
They couldn’t yet see the surface. Any nearby cliffs or seaweed to give some sort of judgement were masked in darkness, and if Freminet was beyond them, they sure as hell couldn’t tell, nor would they be turning any time soon to check. Freminet didn’t know where it was – had it given up on them? They hoped so. Maybe it has, they tried to optimistically hope, courtesy of Lyney’s frequent insistence they should do so, don’t stop, just keep going, and don’t look back, don’t look back—
Something wrapped around their ankle. Chubby, long fingers, coiling around the waterproof fabric of their diving boots. An urgent yank, and nails scratched and clawed tearing through their pale flesh. Their scream was a lost, choked sound to the waves, the vile taste of pure salt flooding their mouth, and like a tsunami, their adrenaline spiked. No matter how they blindly kicked, more often than not, they’d kicked their own calf or just straight up missed entirely in attempt to detach those claws as they climbed up, and up. Up, until when Freminet spun around, they’d came face to face with a tight-lipped smile, and amber eyes so unsettlingly predatory and wide, it was a miracle they hadn’t popped out of their sockets. In their panic, they had nearly forgotten all about one thing, obvious in hindsight they should have turned to long ago.
It was only when the nails of the mimic managed its way around their neck, slicing and cutting into the flesh so fast Freminet, in all their frenzy, could vividly see and remember heaps of water dyed ruby, that they remembered. Or maybe it was just survival instinct.
Under their feet, a cold solid burst emerged from nothing. A slab of sheer ice shot curving upwards, knocking back the head of the thing—Freminet had to admit they were slightly disappointed it hadn’t been decapitated—before it could do any further damage than it already had. Freed from its grasp, and by pushing themselves off their very own materialized ice, they continued their ascent, ignoring the tang of saltwater filling their lungs and the enraged wail behind them. Surely the surface was near, right? But where’s the closest land? No, don’t think about that. Don’t, just please don’t. Don’t make yourself panic more. They’d already messed up their breathing, they couldn’t afford to again, lest they drown here. If you don’t drown on land… that was a lot of— No. Stop.
Suddenly, they could breathe. Sprays of droplets flew, peppering the still waters as they abruptly surfaced. Crisp, biting cold air of nearing dusk had burnt their throat, and their immediate response was a heavy fit of coughing and gasping. Ignore it, ignore it, you’re fine, they repeated, eyes adjusting to the dying rays of sun reaching over mountainous peaks like an angel’s wings. Oranges and golds danced across the waters rippling surface, split as they paddled straight towards the sandy beach not far. Already, they could feel that rush of adrenaline fading, one of very few times their arms and legs burned with the exhaustion. In hindsight, maybe exhaustion wasn’t all.
Soon gravel scratched their knees, fingers digging and sinking into the sand as they climbed up. Water sloshed behind them, dripping off their diving suit and hair. Once they deemed themselves far enough away, and figured that thing wouldn’t be surfacing yet (maybe they’d accidentally frozen it? They could only hope), only then did they let themselves crumble. Gagging, sputtering, water spilled from their open mouth as it was pushed from their lungs, heaving gasps for the oxygen they never thought they’d ever so dearly miss.
It felt eternal, sitting there on their hands and knees, spitting out all that saltwater and glancing back at all too still waves waiting for something to emerge. However long it may have been, it was enough for the adrenaline to fade, and for the stinging pain to rear Its ugly head. Only then, Freminet realized how much of the sand had been tainted red from their own wounds. Too much to be comfortable, far, far too much.
How deep of crimson it contrasted against the fine, sullen yellow grains, and Freminet only could wonder how much of that deep orange flitting amidst the still water was reflections of sinking sun, and how much was their own blood. They weren’t intending to find out. Nor were they intending to find out if that thing would peel itself from under the mask of uncanny calm that currently sat in front of them. With a deep breathe, they pulled themselves up, flinching and hissing through their teeth at the desperate protests and jolting sting that shot through their body like lightning. In the distance, they could see the Court of Fontaine, thank Focalors herself it wasn’t as far away as they thought it was. It would take a while, but what other choice did they have? No medical supplies, no way to stop the bleeding, no way to call for aid, likely no passerby at this hour. No sane one, anyway, and they didn’t think they were at risk of bleeding out, even if it really stung.
And so, they willed themselves to take a single step. Another, then one more, and they found themselves traveling at a swift enough pace with a single goal in mind; find Lyney or Lynette.
All the while, they left a convenient trail of crimson staining the sand behind them, a perfect lead for something to creep its way into the walls that was Fontaine’s unsuspecting capital city.
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I love Ever After High more than I could probably ever say, but I’ll try in honor of its 10th anniversary.
I discovered Ever After High when I was maybe 7 or 8 years old, so I was very young, and I LOVED Disney Princess movies (kind of ironic given the history, huh?) and so I discovered the Brothers Grimm fairytales, and I adored those too. I find a series from a YouTuber I don’t remember the name of (7 Super girls? Or something?) And I think the video was “What’s your favorite show?” And the girl in the video explains what Ever After High is and that sounds AWESOME to a little kid like me. It was a high school for the children of the Brothers Grimm characters?????? AMAZING! Obviously not much was aid about the more,,grizzly details of the stories as this was a child’s doll line as well.
I started watching, and I instantly fell in love with Raven Queen when I saw what her whole deal was, also I really liked her style, as I was a little emo kid, and Raven striving to be herself in a world that didn’t accept that, that she had to just follow the rules that actively worked against her. That struck a little cord with me, and I wouldn’t realize it until many years later, but, spoiler! I’m trans. Raven is a character that, in general, means so much to me. I full person and soul mean this when I say she is my favorite fictional character of all time. Raven Queen meant so much to me, and others as well.
Ashlynn and Hunter because I ate, slept and BREATHED True Hearts Day as a kid, to see these two people that loved each other, so deeply and true that they were willing to sacrifice their stories for one another despite the danger. Society told the two of them their love was wrong, Ashlynn’s best friend even told her she thought it was wrong, and that crushed Ashlynn. She even broke up with Hunter over her fears about their stories, but also so everyone would just. Stop. The whole reason they even told ANYONE was because Duchess had threatened to essentially out them when they weren’t ready.
Then, after all of that pain, and trail and tribulation they got up, well Ashlynn did, she got up and she told the whole world that she loves Hunter, and doesn’t care what anyone, or their destines have to think. If she can’t love Hunter and be a royal? Then call her Ashlynn Ella the rebel!
Then as the years went on, I got older, and Dragon Games aired. I saw Darling Charming, a character I didn’t really care about too much until I got older, and I saw her give “CPR” to Apple White, a character I hated, and ALSO grew to love as I got older.
My personal feelings to these character didn’t matter, though. I saw these girls KISS on screen. I saw two same gender people give TRUE. LOVES. KISS. to one another for the first time ever. It wasn’t just an m/f couple with some VERY gay subtext. Seeing that kiss was more magical than anything in the show. That one moment between two characters that I grew up watching, as if to say it was okay..I won’t lie when I tell you I maybe cried that night after I finished watching it. It made me feel so happy, so seen. Safe.
As I got older, I saw these characters in different lights, and I saw more depth to them than I ever did before. Characters I hated as a kid suddenly made more sense, this horrible system of destiny looked so much more daunting and scary than it ever did before. I hated Apple as a kid, and that’s an understatement. Sorry Apple fans, I love her now, and that’s because as I aged I saw more depth in her than I did when I was younger.
Apple was also a victim of destiny, just in a different way than say Raven, or Briar. She had such high expectations put on her from her mother, her father, the WHOLE SOCIETY THEY ARE STRUCTURED AROUND. Apple also faced a traumatic experience as a kid that also just reinforced this line of thinking. She had her entire life planned, if she liked that or not, and she couldn’t escape it. Apple was faced with harsh reality so suddenly at what was supposed to be the biggest, most important day of her entire life. All of that particular planning to be the perfect princess, her entire life’s purpose for as far as she knew, was over. Torn away in an instant with the rip of a page. It would make sense that Apple would take so long to come around to the idea of choosing your own destiny, or that CHOOSING can also mean living your destined story, but maybe with some tweaks.
Apple’s whole arc in Dragon Games and Way Too Wonderland is just so good. I love her so much.
ALSO Raven never even wanted to start a whole movement or anything, she just wanted to not be like her mother, she just didn’t want to be evil. She was just 15, like literally everyone else in the show. All she wanted was to exist as herself, and it was a battle to get close to that goal.
I realized as I aged, and in general became a tad more jaded towards the world that oppressive systems don’t really help anyone. A lot of kids at Ever After High, royal or rebel, is screwed over with the destiny system in some way. It made me think about our own society in ways I haven’t before, but that’s a talk for another day.
Also, as a kid I only had access to YouTube and maybe Netflix, so I didn’t read any of the books until literally about two years ago when I could get my hands on them, so I literally just have NEW information to sift through, and grow with a world that I’ve had for so long with me already.
I think there’s so much more i can say about family issues, and family non-issues, and about culture, or the way there are rebels who want their destiny, but still side with the rebels because they think everyone should have a free choice, or how Cedar and Cerise feel just a tad trans to me, or THE WONDERLANDIANS AND RED AND BADWOLF, but that’s more general fandom posting or a bit too personal, so I’ll just leave it here.
In conclusion, Ever After High, it’s been a beautiful, spellbinding 10 years and I’m so thankful for the fans, the people that made the series/dolls/books/etc, and that I wish all of these characters, and people a Happily Ever After in their own ways.
#eah#ever after high#raven queen#apple white#ashlynn ella#hunter huntsman#huntlynn#darling charming#dappling#cedar wood#cerise hood#10 years of ever after high#ever after high 10 years#way too wonderland#dragon games
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Title: Just as the sun rises, we’ll meet again
Author: Hipster71elmWeebtrash (1queer-bookworm on tumblr)
For: shinakiham_soup
Pairings/Characters: Hajime Hinata, Nagito Komaeda, Hajime Hinata x Nagito Komaeda
Rating/Warnings: General, no warnings.
Prompt: Fanfic: DR3 despair arc - what-if scenario detailing how Komaeda and Hinata could’ve met in a version of despair arc where Chiaki doesn’t exist
Author’s notes: Here you go! I chose your what-if alternate meeting scenario and may have taken some liberties…it became a little bit more like a meet-cute. But I hope you like it anyway, it was a very fun prompt to play with!
It is an odd time of day: the early hours of the morning.
While it is true that the night has its grasp on the body, burdening the limbs and clouding the head. Thoughts then gain the tendency to sink, allowing the gravity of them to linger and rake over every inch of oneself: leaving only the bright and buoyant to remain unnoticed. This is but a fraction of its grandeur.
For, once the weight of midnight has been thoroughly dusted off and the phantom of dawn is imposed onto the gloomy canvas of the sky: all is well and truly tranquil. At such a time, it’s likely for one to witness those billions of static lights dim as they’re steadily eclipsed by the rise of the glorious sun and its all-consuming brilliance.
And as humanity is wont to do, most miss it all. Catching but a glimpse of what it means to see all fall into despondency, then ascend with the silent constant that accompanies all light.
If one were to witness it as Komaeda has, then perhaps they might genuinely understand the true power of Hope.
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Yet, even this despairful fact can be momentarily eclipsed by a stroke of fortune.
One such, is the enviable reality that the academy’s library is open at all hours of the day, allowing Komaeda to have the odd pleasant morning.
This, admittedly, wasn’t the prettiest daybreak. The sky was a firm wall of somber storm clouds that both hid any hint of light and threatened to rain at a moment’s notice. A perfect recipe for the typical melancholic day, the scent of petrichor at one’s doorstep, the chill of a dim sky and the inability to know for certain if the sun had ever risen at all.
It was all for the best, really, although it may superficially appear as a stroke of bad luck. For, Komaeda could have the reassurance that his misfortune could harm no-one but himself, the nonsensical hour and daunting sky detering all reasonable people.
If it were the middle of the day, the simple task of both stepping outside and entering the library would’ve surely wrought disaster. He can picture the dismay as the sunny skies are swallowed by a great wave of cumulonimbus clouds and the panic as the shelves rattled.
Though, nevermind the hypothetical dooms, Komaeda had been given a book recommendation and he was determined to find it.
It was a collection of papers by a fairly modern astronomer: Nevermind had described it as both a rewarding and engaging read. A suggestion he was inclined to pursue.
Komaeda could admit that his urge was in part duty and curiosity. He wasn’t well-read in matters of physics or cosmologie as it hadn’t been an interest of his Father’s and thus, the closest approximation to it on the shelves of his home had been philosophical texts.
That all meant that the words of the book’s title meant very little to him, presently. And there was, of course, no staff present that could aid him. As such Komaeda was left with nothing but a title and a vague sense of an author with which to comb the hundreds of shelves.
His dedication eventually leads to a touch of luck, the book appearing in the corner of his left eye, exactly at eye-level. It’s a tome, rather, wrapped in an emerald leather binding and its font appearing a tasteful copper.
Komaeda reaches towards it mindlessly, his body twisting to follow the movement purely as an afterthought and as his fingers graze the spine- his hand jolts as it collides with something notably softer than leather.
There is the briefest moment in which his hand lingers on the spine, his ring finger brushing right against the other’s index and their hands remain still. Another’s hand, just as bruised and just as unsteady and yet- sturdier, calluses and the odd speck of dirt under their alarmingly uneven nails. Nothing but the distant sound of the rumbling sky that often preceded thunder to prove that time hadn’t simply- stopped.
Then, their eyes meet.
And Komaeda is immediately struck with the thought that this is an idiot.
An idiot with handsome green eyes. An idiot with tousled dark hair, short bangs thrown askew. An idiot who didn’t sleep well -if at all- and was hardly ever awake enough to take notice of the violet under his eyes. An idiot who lacked any sense and threw himself into conflict, seen by the scabs on his chin and the mottling bruise the size of a fist, on his cheek. An idiot who didn’t dress for the weather and left the house in a suit…A black suit. A familiar black suit.
…an idiot reserve course student.
Komaeda quickly snatches the book, slapping the reserve’s greedy hand away in the process.
“Hey- what the hell!” The idiot cradles his hand and has the gall to look offended. “I need that for class!”
“Well, you can’t expect me to really believe that a reserve course student could deserve this more than an Ultimate, someone with the capacity to actually create Hope in the world.” Komaeda answers smartly.
“You’ve got to be kidding me-” The reserve’s frown forms easily, anger seeping into every crease of his face in an instant. “You’re so full of yourself it’s absurd! You don’t even have a reason! I actually need this book and you just-” He flounders. “Want it!”
Without so much as the decency to surrender his turn to speak, the fool continues with an air of mockery. “And what’s your talent anyway? The Ultimate Astronomer? Oh yeah, I remember now, you’re the luck guy. Well I don’t know how reading Burnell’s observations could help with that” He then stupidly adds, “or hope. So if you think I’m just going to stand here and let you-”
“You reserve course students are nothing but a plague, taking resource after resource without thought-”
“Oh, right.” The reserve interrupts him callously. “The people who actually pay to be here have no right to use anything on Campus-!”
Komaeda scoffs. “How small minded of you, it really is typical of a reserve course student to consider only the selfish option- no thought of sharing or relinquishing it to its rightful-”
“Well,” The reserve mutters, his eyes widened by the mere thought. “I-I guess we could share it…”
Any and all of Komaeda’s ire is swept away with a single exhale, the reserve’s offer registering in his mind. “…I suppose we could, theoretically, both use it…” Komaeda relents, pressured by the fragile sense of sincerity that occupied the meager space between them. Although he can’t quite muster the ability to imagine what he’s proposing. “…simultaneously.”
The reserve course student simply stares at him in response, his eyes occasionally lowering to the book he supposedly requires. Komaeda breaks the silence. “You do know what simultaneously means, or do I have to explain that to you?”
The frown is back. “How stupid do you think-” He stops himself and takes a deep breath, his -admittedly dapper- suit rising and falling in sync with the motion. “Okay, sure. That-that works. I shouldn’t need it for more than a few hours, anyway.”
Komaeda, still with a firm grip on the hulky book, starts towards the library’s common area and the reserve course student easily falls into step beside him. Neither rushing or meandering.
Komaeda ventures to ask, the tables not yet in sight. “What exactly do you need this for anyhow…you…” He meets the boy’s eyes, “I wouldn’t have guessed that astronomy would be a hot commodity for people like you.”
“It’s Hinata to you,” He quips, then he begins blabbering on. “And well, if you really want to know, this is for my astronomy thesis. I wanted to reference the initial notes made on the pulsar and compare it to the language used in today’s observational astronomy, maybe cite a few passages if it fits with my outline.”
Hinata then proceeds to give an entire spiel on what Komaeda can only rationalize as the death of stars and the telescopes, using far too many terms without relinquishing their definitions and presumedly with the assumption that Komaeda was well-versed in the subject already.
Hinata finishes with a dramatic sweep of the hands. “This is one of the only copies in the world with Burnell’s actual, unedited thoughts on the whole thing! Even the very first recorded use of the term pulsar! I couldn’t not include it!”
There’s an unmistakable passion underlying his rant, an earnestness that not even his unpleasant attitude could mask. It was clear in the faint flush of his sole pale cheek; the way his pace had started to match his as he’d lost himself in exuberant explanation.
“So…” Komaeda averts his eyes. “you’re looking to become a researcher?”
There was something agonizing about that image. The image of this boy -just as brash and just as stubborn-, poring over calculations, agonizing over theories, and spending his nights peering into the night sky through a million lenses. All just for a chance at uncovering the truths of the universe and giving humanity a fighting chance in the unending struggle for purpose.
…an image void of hope (as any featuring a reserve course student would) and yet, inexplicably brimming with it.
Hinata then grows uncharacteristically quiet, his previous enthusiasm suddenly dashed, until at last he says. “…I don’t think I’ve got much of a chance at that…it’s one thing to like the class and another to-”
Hinata stops, sheepishness giving way to a dawning optimism. “Well, I guess I could be, now, in a sense…” He shakes his head. “Whatever, even if it’s a hard class, that’s no reason not to try your best and try to have a little fun with it.”
Then predictably making far too many assumptions, Hinata asks. “What’s so weird about it? Do you Ultimates not write papers?”
“Well of course they do! Ultimate Students are constantly conducting research for the betterment of the world!”
“I don’t need the sermon- it was a rhetorical question you know.”
Komaeda huffs at the pitiful excuse. “Regardless of your intentions, to have the sheer audacity to imply that the Ultimate students could neglect their duties and stoop to a virtue as hopeless as sloth! You forget yourself and- your place!” Hinata’s scowl returns with a vengeance. “Although I don’t necessarily have first hand experience-”
“Wait, you haven’t written a paper? Not even a memoir- I heard that was all the rage on your side of things!”
“Well,” Komaeda sputters. “why exactly would anyone write about something as worthless as me?”
“You said your talent was luck, right? Who wouldn’t- of course I’d want to read about that! The fact that you can actually quantify your luck enough to call it a talent is interesting enough.” And he’d seemed so certain of that fact, that Komaeda was forced to agree, although he’d have argued that it wouldn’t be educational or worthwhile, if that were relevant.
Once the two of them arrive at the muster of tables, Komeada finds himself strangely content with allowing Hinata to pick two chairs and unwilling to voice any protest when they find that to properly share it they must sit chair to chair, thigh to thigh.
Thus, the morning begins not with sunlight, but with the faint glow of the chandeliers overhead and the counterfeit warmth of fingers nearing just enough to turn a page. The hours creep up until it’s nearly time for classes to begin for the day, leaving no room for any further procrastination.
Just as they’re about to part ways, however, just as Komaeda opens the door- it is only then that it begins to pour. Not the pathetic trickle of hours ago, but a true downpour that could easily drown a rat. Not the kind of rain that either of them could properly see in, nor escape without irremediably drenching every inch of clothing.
There’s a moment in which they both look at one another and realize that neither of them have an umbrella. Komaeda closes the door.
Hinata starts, glancing between him and the entrance. “So…I guess we’ve got to make a run for it…”
“Well, at least the journey isn’t very far at all.”
Hinata’s expression shares nothing but melancholy. “It’s a ten minute walk. For me…”
“Oh…right.” Luckily, at that very moment there’s a crash and a decent sized umbrella rolls to Komaeda’s feet.
“Huh, that’s convenient…” Hinata hesitantly suggests, tripping over his words. “I guess we should probably- I mean…”
“That would be…logical…”
And so…they do. They walk into the rain, side by side, under an umbrella that happens to be just the right size to shelter them both if they walk exactly shoulder to shoulder. Hinata’s forearm is strangely warm and if Komaeda were to turn his head, he might brush his cheek.
Then, not a minute into the journey, he hears Hinata’s voice. “…I think we will see each other again.”
Suddenly, Komaeda feels terribly self-conscious about the terrible weather. “Hopefully in better circumstances.”
“Oh, it will be. Everything will be better.”
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Maisel Prompt: “Today I feel like running naked through your street To get your attention”
Dear Lenny,
I know I said calling wasn't something we do last time we ran into one another, but I've been thinking about you lately so I thought we could give letters a go. See how it feels. If I don't hear back from you then I'll have my answer…
So. Who's got gout?
All clear here on the eastern front in that respect.
But in all seriousness, I hope you're well. That all is really, truly well, and that California has been treating you kindly.
I imagine there's a certain lucky little girl who is very happy to have you there with her. Has your social calendar been completely booked with fancy tea parties and trips to the beach? Busy taking peanut butter and jelly picnics in the park? You're shaking your head at me I'm sure, but if you ever find yourself in need a proper hat for just such an occasion, I have more than any reasonable person should stashed away in my closet. I'm sure I could spare one for the cause.
Or perhaps I'm being presumptuous to assume there isn't someone on the west coast you could more easily borrow from. Someone else who's turned your head since you left?
I've been working again. Thought you might like to know. By day I'm the resident lady writer for the Gordon Ford Show. If one of my jokes ever actually makes it to air, maybe we can make an exception on the no calling thing just so we can marvel at the miracle.
I wish I could say it's a dream gig, but it's been an uphill battle in stilettos getting any of the other writers to take me seriously. The pay keeps the lights on, though, so I'll keep at it for now. On top of that, Susie has me working the club circuit around town almost every night. No need to worry about me hiding away at 30 Rock. I learned my lesson on that front. I'm taking every gig that comes my way. And a few of the ones that don't. It's been daunting getting back out there, but I made you a promise and I intend to keep it.
Can't have Lenny Bruce walking around brokenhearted.
I'm sorry for letting you down before. You've always been one of the few people who have believed in me through all this, who have gone the extra mile to give me a leg up, to help me over the roadblocks. Even the ones I put in front of myself.
You always saw me better than anyone else. Even me. I find myself wondering what it might take to turn your head my way again after such a royal fuckup.
Some days I think about packing a box full of every poster and billing with my name on it from the last few months and shipping it off to your house, just to show I listened and took your words to heart.
Others nights I look at the phone on my nightstand and contemplate the time difference until I fall asleep.
There's been a few times I have considered walking right over to Gordon's desk on air just to tell you hello into the camera or tell a joke you might actually laugh at, but that would lose me the nice paycheck I've come to like so much.
Today I feel like running naked through your street just to get your attention, but given there's a child also living at your place of residence perhaps that would be ill advised.
I'll refrain from purchasing any airfare for the purposes of streaking, if only to save you the hassle of having to explain to your daughter how you know the naked crazy lady.
New York has been awful lonely without you. I ran into Peluso at the diner the other night. He's absolutely beside himself with grief from missing you.
But we understand there's someone out there who needs you more. And that's a very brave thing to show up for her. Be there for her. I know I always felt better when you showed up for me.
Thank you, by the way for always showing up when I needed someone. When I needed you.
You have always been sensational in that regard, as you are in many, many others.
I'll never look at blue walls the same way ever again.
Try not to burn in the sun, oh creature of the night.
All the best,
Midge
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any help on reading the Bible? I struggle a lot with it & feel super unmotivated while reading.
Something you might find helpful is participating in a Bible study group, or if you can't join one then using Bible study resources online. I know Fr Mike Schmitz has done a Bible in a Year video series, you can always use that or something similar. Sometimes the reason we struggle to engage with something is because we're struggling to fully process what we're reading. Having someone else provide helpful insights, and talking about things can make the Bible more accessible and therefore easier to engage with.
Some people find it helpful to have a structured routine and approach to Bible studying. Be it taking a quiet moment in the morning or night, and really just trying to focus on God. Maybe they will light some incense, maybe they will play hymns quietly in the background. You might find doing something like this can create a habit which can carry you through even during periods where you're unmotivated. It can become a time that you associate with feeling peaceful and calm, and so you can look forward to it.
We are always going to have periods in our life where engaging with something can be very difficult. Motivation is very much something that's fleeting, and while it's helpful and nice to have it. It's about trying to develop the discipline to do something even when we aren't particularly feeling like doing so. And as much as we might feel like we're not getting anything out of the Bible during those periods, we are still connecting with the word of God and that's always going to be beneficial even if it doesn't feel that way in the moment.
You might also be trying to read it for either too long (past your attention span) or not giving yourself a goal time. You might find telling yourself 'I'm going to read the Bible for 15 to 30 minutes' makes it much easier to engage with the Bible because it feels less daunting. You could also really break it up and do 5 minutes here and there throughout the day.
Pray before reading the Bible. Pray to be able to engage with it, to be able to concentrate on it. Be open and honest with God about your difficulties in concentrating. And then push yourself to engage with it and to concentrate on it.
If it's still a huge struggle, then I'd say switch to the Daily Readings: https://bible.usccb.org/daily-bible-reading. They're shorter, and you will be reading along with the Church. You might find engaging with these for a bit encourages you to pick up the Bible to read a bit more around the daily readings.
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Sometimes when I’m having some creative block, or know I want to draw but don’t know what to draw, I look through my old stuff to see what I can redo.
This is a drawing I did back in 2008 when I was in high school. Nicolette is a character of mine that I have been working on since 2006, she’s been through a lot of revamps and a lot of dye jobs, and I remember this being a very ambitious drawing for me at the time. I still don’t love doing full backgrounds and avoided them even then. I also wanted this to be a two-parter, with the second part being her boyfriend listening to music in a room where it’s daylight, but I honestly never even started that second part.
So, how about a little critique for past me? It will set up my game plan for the new drawing and hopefully help some of you reading this that draw.
Perspective has always fucked with me and something I will say about this drawing is that everything does appear to be going to the same vanishing point, so good job, teenage me. Unfortunately, the scale is absolutely wack and as soon as Nicolette stands up, she’ll hit her head on the ceiling. Anymore, I like building 3D references (I use DAZStudio, but there’s a lot of options) and just trace them to help with perspective. If you think that’s cheating, take it up with the old masters.
I also feel like there is no character to the desk and chair. They’re just so clean and look kind of cheap. The desk chair looks more like a dining chair. There’s basically nothing on the desk, it’s like she just moved in today and hasn’t had a chance to fully unpack. I think at the time, putting more objects on the desk and figuring out the perspective for all of them felt just too daunting to bother with. I definitely want a ton of clutter on the redo (famous last words).
At the time, I had it in my head that I wasn’t allowed to outline anything if I was going to go for a more painterly style, so a lot of it looks pretty blobby and undefined. If you’re going for a painterly style rather than line art, you are allowed to use lines, just be mindful of the weight and the color of the lines. Thick, black lines, are obviously not what we’re going for. In the new drawing, her face and fingers in particular should be much more defined.
Hair used to really, really throw me for a loop. I think part of my problem was looking at all the hair as one thing, and it ends up feeling sort of like hair for Lego people that just snaps on. It makes a lot more sense to break it down into different clumps and strands. Think about things like how and where the strands attach to the scalp. Another nitpick is just that her hair would obviously be obstructing the sound coming from her headphones.
I believe she is wearing black flats (at least, I don’t think they were supposed to be black ankle socks) and I want to get rid of those. Who wears shoes when they’re hanging out in their room at night?
As though admitting that I was in high school in 2008 did not age me enough, the computer is running Windows XP with the most generic looking music player possible. I think I’m going to make the computer in the new drawing a little more obscured, screen-wise, in the hopes of not aging so badly and obviously.
The window and the lighting from it isn’t so bad. I definitely was mindful of the lighting on the curtains and the rug, but didn’t really bring it in toward the figure or any of the other furniture. This is supposed to be dark and moody, and hopefully I can bring that across better in the new one. I also want to put rain drops on the window and make the view something more reasonable for just outside someone’s bedroom.
The posters I gave her are pieces that I just kind of threw together as I was working on everything else. This time, I’ll use some of my other art that’s already done and that could reasonably be a poster that she owns. I also want to add some shelves for more clutter (again, famous last words).
The bed will probably not be in the redo, nor the guitar. I think the bed makes the room seem very small, and this way the desk can be more of a focus. As far as the guitar, as I’ve worked more and more on Nicolette, she’s gravitated more toward keyboard, so I’d like to fit that in if I can.
Overall, I remember being proud of this piece, and I don’t think I did a bad job or had a bad idea. I do think I can do a lot more with the idea now, and I am looking forward to doing so.
#old art#critique#art critique#art redo#art redraw#artists on tumblr#illustrators on tumblr#art#illustration#my oc: nicolette
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