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kkoct-ik · 3 months ago

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doodles of the guy

#kostik draws #sou hiyori #yttd #your turn to die #kimi ga shine #fanart #shin tsukimi #i really like the first one tbh its personal #drawings drawn when the voices were screaming #i also have a soushin wip but it doesnt fit the vibe so ill hold onto it

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kaiserouo · 4 months ago

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my heart fucking melts

#i love hack #can really give a destiny ghost vibe if it actually has its own personality but crypto won't give it one #ok art ramble time #i think i change how i do coloring everytime i try to do that #this time instead of using a hard asf brush for the first layer of flat color i use opaque watercolor (from old csp brush set)#and just use that brush for almost anything until the metal part where i start using the blend brushes like before #in hindsight opaque watercolor is kinda good for quick stuff like this #it kinda has its own lowkey texture #i think in terms of my recent art all textures were from blend brushes #that does work. its just if you already have some texture from opaque watercolor maybe it wouldn't look that bland when doing flat colors?#anyway. this turned out well. kinda unexpected tbh #which is good because this is just a quickie and i dont actually wanna do lineart for this #apex legends #apex crypto #my art

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sundial-bee-scribbles · 15 days ago

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end of year shitty meme comp pt 2

#shitpost #vocaloid #utau #ok cheating technically because a fair amount of these are from 2023 but i wont have any other chance to post em so... yeah whatever #i also dont have that many from this year anyways bc... i like wasnt here for most of the year tbh 💀 really feels like it flew by #i was gone the first half bc hiatus. then the surgery nerfed me for the summer. and then school nerfed me for fall+winter #so yeah lol... even though its not a lot i hope some of these are still funny hskjghkjh. dont remember if ive posted any of these before?#the iku one is my personal fave i think i made that while stuck in the middle of traffic LMAO

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pandorashearts · 1 year ago

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cannot express enough how much this scene means to me, especially as a trans person myself. it seems so small, but this scene is groundbreaking in so many ways.

for anyone who hasn't watched alice in borderland: the woman in the last picture is canonically a trans woman. she left home prior to transitioning because of her father's disapproval. this is the first time she's seen her mother since leaving home, & the first time her mother has seen her post-transition.

her mother's first reaction to seeing her as her fully realized self is to call her beautiful. this scene, itself, is so small. but man. is it beautiful.

#mine #alice in borderland #kuina hikari #it was such a pleasant surprise the first time we watched tbh.#we knew there was a canon trans person in the show but we had no idea how it was like. portrayed.#so this scene was a total surprise for us & i think made us cry our first time watching it #the fact the series even takes the time TO give us a scene like this despite kuina not necessarily being a main character #is just. really fucking nice honestly.#like the fact that they undeniably make sure u know she's trans & that her mother accepts her is just. ugh. it's so damn good #god i love this show. it has its faults but THIS. this. is one of the best scenes in all of media bye

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ganondoodle · 1 year ago

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im kinda glad i was a tiny child when windwaker came out and i only played it years later without having internet access for the longest time bc i would have NOT survived the hatred i know ww got when it first came out bc it wasnt what most people expected (ww is my fav zelda)

loving botw but not liking totk and seeing the vast majority praise the latter like its the holy grail while alot also discrediting and needlessly hating on botw for it is already making it hard to stay calm about :U

#ganondoodles talks #special interest go brrrr #sucks when you care so much about a piece of media thats out of your control and it does something you hate #i do not control the hyperfixation #it wouldnt be so bad if people wouldnt keep hating on botw just to praise totk more tbh #and before people say but arent YOU doing the same thing in reverse???#welll ... its suppposedly a sequel yes?#direct sequels should build on the first title and totk does the opposite doesnt it?#again one of my biggest problems is that it was advertised and called a direct sequel qhen it really isnt #like at all #how some characters also made a weird turn in their personality it really does feel like it did a majoras mask thing without admitting to i #like majoras is GOOD #it was weird and kinda nonsensical but ultimately worked #can you imagine if totk just went with the whole other dimension thing properly and really went ham with it-#.... i am coming up with even more ideas for totk rewritten arent it..#anyway i dont think im gonna get a collectors edition ever again given the risk of me not liking what its for #regret spending that kind of money on it after i calmed down my fears and in the end they turned out to be mostly right #;__;

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thewhizzyhead · 2 months ago

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one day I wish I could actually like understand songwriting especially for theatre so that I can I dunno actually put to use the random tunes I have in my head that just spontaneously appear while I'm doing the most mundane of shit. anyways patron has the concept of an opening number now

#im gonma call it Silakbo #the gist of this is um LOOK TO REALLY EXPLAIN WHAT PATRON IS UMM #understand that patron was originally two separate musical ideas whose events occur At The Same Time To Teach Other #so like yea same universe #Patron (pronounce it in the Filipino way) is about modern student activism in the philippines and the nitty gritty of it #Patron (english pronunciation) is about a young filipino playwirght struggles to find their voice in an american landscape (new york)#especially in the context of the events of Filipino Patron #both discuss what it means to be a young filipino revolutionary in this day and age #so um i first thought of this when i was 17-18 - and now im 20 and like the masochist i am i have decided to have them become one project #dual protagonist - one a new and rather sheltered stude of UP Diliman and one decorated young progressive writer in New York #the former is a journey of looking beyond privilege and what it really means to be among the masses #the latter is a story of how privilege blinds - and how susceptible we are to american neoliberalism #that it dulls once sharp pens + the irony of succumbing to such amidst environment and communities that scream for resistance #and whatever one protag does affects the other protag - whatever happens in america affects philippine events and vice versa yay #anyways openign number Silakbo is the arrival of these two protagonists to their respective settings - both with their own musical styles #(UPD protag progresses from broadway belts to pinoy hiphop - NY protag progresses from pinoy hiphop to broadway belts) (this is A Clue)#and most of UPD protag songs will be sung in Filipino while NY Protag will um progressively grow into being fully English #and silakbo can be used synonymously with storm so its basically a storm is coming who's gonna bring it #a change is approaching who's gonna chase it #tbh this out of all of my works is gonna be inspired heavily from lmm's work because tbh this is gonna be a beast to even conceptualise #so um yea thats a mini patron ramble woo hope its um understandable at worst 😭#personal shit #also yes the NY storyline is based on um once progressive Filipinos becoming subservients to conservative and harmful politics #either out of ignorance or power or simple nonchalance #i can name a lot of namess gjdjd

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sieglinde-freud · 1 year ago

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WHERE WERE THE AWAKENING SECOND GEN ON JULY 21ST 2023

#fe13 #fe awakening #fire emblem #fe shitpost #not tagging these mfs goddamn anyways #long tag ramble incoming btw #this is a lie bc owain pleaded all of them to go barbenheimer with him #but still #also yes there is a difference between being in between barbie and oppenheimer and being at barbenheimer #barbenheimer is its own concept #anyways i think cynthia is the type of person to be like 'yeah barbie isnt really my thing but i'll go with you' and then she cries the most #yarne is too scared of oppenheimer but he thinks the memes are funny #the morgans are FUNDAMENTALLY DIFFERENT and as much as fmorgan likes barbie shes such an oppenheimer girl. crush on florence pugh i know it #kjelle is not up for debate btw. thinks oppenheimer is cool but shes literally feminism the unit #sat for florence pugh tho #inigo has I'm Just Ken on repeat and it will be number one on his spotify wrapped #bradys thinks saying hes an oppenheimer guy will save his masculinity but it didnt matter bc he cried at the first scene of barbie #no one knows why. it was of girls smashing baby dolls on rocks.#know that im looking at them though.. tbh they all cried at barbie its just a matter of when #u can tell me im wrong if you so wish but i dont care and im not listening #after this they went out for the barbie burger king meal and got sick

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reticent-fate · 7 months ago

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part 11/26ish

anyone remember those scales with the springs in 'em? all i ever see these days are digital scales but those things made the best noises. i think i've seen some kitchen scales that still use spring mechanisms, but it's been a while.

technology is weird.

from the beginning

#otherkin hrt #fictionkin hrt #fictionkin #otherkin #digihrt #dg arts #-apomon #updates might slow down from daily since our brain ceased letting us do art about halfway through bfsdhjfbjshdbfs #oh well #i'm thinking of doing another fake in-universe pamphlet for a bonus though #specifically like talking about the “weight” stat #fun fact: we'd never stepped on a scale in almost a decade before finally seeing a doctor for the first time in that 10 years last year #we used to obsess over our weight in a way inherited from our mom's diet culture BS and then like #i'm pretty sure we split someone in the system who just managed to not give a shit #and everyone else that did basically got put in time out or fragmented to hell (we still don't know)#i think about this post i saw a while ago that talked about how like #weight (specifically as it is medicalized) shouldn't be a concern so much as if you're moving your joints and stretching them enough #and it should really only be a concern when it drastically changes in a short period of time because it can sometimes be indicative of #your body flipping its lid #the post talked about rapid weight loss specifically and how a lot of doctors will go “oh wow weight loss!! yay :)” when like.#no??? not yay???#anyways some medications can cause weight fluctuations too #our fibro medication can cause weight gain and tbh i don't give so much of a shit about that as i am curious about the mechanics behind it #our relationship to weight is mostly informed by being the one person in our family who never had to deal with fatphobia targeting them #but just because we weren't the target didn't mean it didn't affect us when our mom's whole life shifted around WW #i didn't want to delve into that in this comic tbh so aside from the little bonus pamphlet this is the last time it's brought up #but like a comic where we take a version of ourself through this kind of transition would inevitably have to touch on relationships to food #we're just lucky we finally found out that we can actually like... enjoy food without it hurting us?#part of the wish fulfillment of this scenario would (and is) the idea of getting to enjoy food without bodily discomfort #because on top of us almost developing an ED we also just have a garbage stomach

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ryuseitai · 6 months ago

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walked in this morning snd my coworker says You're training today! and I said Oh.

#IM OT GOOD WITH POEPLEEE Eepecially not new people and #the girl im training is quiet And so am i so im like forcing mhself to be kind of outgoing Its torture.#And i also dont know how to..ask people to do things #or tell them to do something #Which is like. almost all of what training is #omfg im only 18 and shy whyy whyyy #well its not too bad actall6 hut inwas really nervous at first but im getting more used to it #but i gave to train people bc im a Team Lead #which means nothing to me except thay i know how to do my job #and a 50 cent pay increase than not being one Wow..!#i wanna sleep so bad #Only. 3 and half more hours after my break ends.#i am glad tho atkeast it is good experience for like.. interacting with people #this job in general has made me a lot better at that and less anxiety aroujd it #but im still a shy and quiet person to begin with #and i say weird things on accident #Its funny tbh hiw often i say something just like. Something that i think is regular and normal #and not suppsed to be a joke or comedic and ppl im talking to start laughing #lile not my intent but if youre happy im happy💗

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eonars · 8 months ago

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um. tfw your life is about to change massively very very soon and it still doesn't even feel real yet and still feels like somethings gonna pop up and it won't actually happen and also you're scared as fuck that you're too stupid to actually do it and it'll all be for nothing

#like what do you mean full time salaried w benefits and paid vacation just to do. school.#what made you so enthusiastically think i was the perfect one to do this #when the last approx 20something other guys were like ummmm no you cannot do it #tbf like all that other shit up there aside #this did actually come at the perfect time #i look back on who i was during my masters and i legit do not recognize that person #i barely even remember it i have to look at pictures to think back on who i was #in a strange roundabout way being forced home to stay for a while #kind of re centered me and gave me time to come back to myself in a big way. i was really lost before #and chaining something like this directly after my masters would have been disasters #even like this time last year i did not have this level of mental clarity #and i think thats why i didn't get any of the other positions i was just in a fog and i think people could tell #so as much as like im super scared and nervous about this big change and big exit from my comfort zone #and a little sad and mournful that im leaving my family and wont hear my native language all day every day anymore #im the most ready ive ever been #2019 me was NOT ready im scared of her tbh!! idk what wave i was on but it was weirdo shit!#im also proud that i essentially rawdogged and brute forced a lot of introspection and improvement #entirely on my own #like i really can only just describe it as clarity i feel like i matured 10 years in 4 and cleared all the fog #i feel so good about the way i handle things and react to things now vs then #im like 500x more unbothered and actually know how to put myself first now #anyway uh this prob could have been its own post in and of itself #but woteva innit im proud of how much internal repairs i did on myself over the last few years #became a stable genius as it were #whos a lot more clearly defined and present #but fuck man! i am still scared of being 2stupid

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todayisafridaynight · 9 months ago

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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

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pinkcasket · 4 months ago

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ik bpd akechi is popular but honestly I'm dying on my bipolar + c-ptsd + npd/narcissistic and ocd features for c-ptsd hill

#💖.txt #tbh i am one of those who thinks bpd isnt a useful category and its just ptsd mixed with other stuff #im also very attatched to him being low empathy #the ocd is smth i flip-flop between. i think its more that after shido's palace if he survives #he's going to have MASSIVE issues with holding himself to impossible standards #spends the first month at the shelter panicking that he's an awful person for choosing to stablize himself before going to the police #(i do personally think he turned himself in. the dialogue from the scene at the shelter heavily implies that's his intention)#maruki's ideal reality is that 1. akechi would find joker on xmas eve and 2. he'd get let out early #or yknow. he never killed anyone so it doesnt matter anymore #the npd is just yknow. oh no! by marina intensifies #bipolar is bc call of chaos REALLY reminds me of manic episodes #and inflicting that on people? wanting to make other people experience how everything in your head is suddenly different and it feels like #this is Right and How It Should Be while your destroying your life??? yeah ive wanted to do that #ive always seen call of chaos as a representation of lashing out/acting out in an attempt to make it clear to people #just how *bad* your mental state is. how poorly tethered you are and how desperate you are for help #wanting to hurt others because no one is seeing how hurt you are and it feels like the last option #(i also see him using it in sem 3 as him finally being around people who are okay with seeing that level of pain)#(the thieves dont forgive him ofc but they see how much pain he's in and said thats fucked up. what they did to you is fucked up)#(you have every right to be mad about it. be mad about it with support.)

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arlathen · 2 months ago

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spins the cake stand ariel sits on. she would have made a great companion. i already know what her companion quest would've been.

#this is an au where they actually depict slavery in tevinter and the shadow dragons Do Anything btw #but she lies to you about busting a slave auction on shadow dragons business -- in reality she thinks shes finally tracked down #one of her sisters. it isnt a shadow sanctioned job and tbh she was going to go in by herself #but shes happy to have backup in You. except she misjudges the timing and they get in when the auction is half-over and her sister #has already been sold. so she recalculates. this is the point where you realize this was NOT well planned.#and shes like well lets go kill the guy who bought her. you can encourage her to Maybe Not Knives First. or to Yes Knives First.#this will impact her later but either way she doesnt kill him. BECAUSE HE RECOGNIZES HER ITS HER BROTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#he has the same plan as she does but hes elf-blooded human-passing. not an altus mage but hes high-ranking and respected.#and hes buying and legally freeing any of his sisters he can find #i have a scene in mind later where orlando is begging her to please come see their mother #who ariel has painted as just an unfeeling evil woman in her head. when she was really just. poor and desperate. she gambled and lost.#she has tortured herself for twenty years about what she did. and how ariel deals with it depends on whether #youve pushed her toward mercy or toward revenge 🫶#SIGH. poor emmrich being the substitute protagonist for the purpose of doing ariel's personal quests #carly.txt #carly's ocs #oc: ariel

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ghostlyschizophrenic · 2 months ago

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fingers crossed but it looks like i'm starting to stabilize. i had a relatively normal day yesterday, and while i still had more drastic mood swings than i would have at baseline, i wasn't overly manic and i also didn't feel suicidal when going to bed so i was able to fall asleep pretty quickly and without music at full volume in my headphones. i woke up naturally this morning around 8am instead of 4am or sleeping until someone wakes me up to tell me it's already noon and i feel pretty rested and able to focus. i'm almost caught up on my quantitative reasoning homework assignments and i'll be back up to being ahead of the class content wise.

i see my psychiatrist in a week so i'm going to keep monitoring it and let the new dosage adjust to my system but maybe, just maybe, my bipolar 1 is starting to recede!