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harpieisthecarpie · 1 day ago

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Thanks for the peer review o7 i will use this power for ramble

I do think that a lot of the fic sex/romance issues were started in a genuine push to not spread misinformation, bc iirc fics used to parrot a lot of common myths re: intercourse (even moreso than now), especially ones about non-"traditional" non-cishet practices. And safety. And anatomy.

Which, it's cool and good to see a push for sex positivity and education! But I do feel there's now a pressure (internal or external) for the sexual aspects of fic to be textbook safe, sane, and consensual in all avenues.

I have 2 main reasons (beyond fic ≠ sex ed) that the squeaky clean route shouldn't be our only route. Which are: characterization, and erotica vs romance.

Firstly, characterization:

Intimacy can be an amazing way to explore characters, a relationship, or even a setting in your story. You can miss out on a lot by treating sex as simply a lesson rather than a tool in your narrative toolbelt!

Tbh I think the reason gen z ppl (like me) often say we "hate sex scenes" in media is bc they feel unnecessarily explicit or unnecessary in general, and we often don't have the language for what the problem is. Or we misattribute the ickiness to sex scenes happening at all!

I'm grayace and they can be boring af, or sometimes creepy as hell for reasons unrelated to the narrative (stop auteur directors now! /hj).

But one of my fave fave fave book series is the Binding Light trilogy by Freya Marske (I think the author's on tumblr actually), in which the sex scenes are narratively pivotal. And I, the sex scene hater, love the series sm I didn't even have to look up the title or author just now!! Unheard of!!!

These books are so dear to me bc the intimate scenes mirror both the (wonderful, superb) magic system AND the characters' relationships! Their sexual vulnerability and connection evolves alongside the characters' development. I've never before rambled about breathplay as a metaphor for trust, but Marske had me writing ESSAYS. My apologies to my friends' DMs

At first I had skipped those sex scenes, but once I had to go back for plot info, actually reading them made me go "oh holy shit this is all important".

I think stories miss that relevence pretty often. You don't NEED to have sex scenes, but also you CAN have them wherever it feels right.

IMO It's important to treat intimacy (of all kinds) in a work as character exploration first, rather than purely mile markers or something for characters (and writers) to "get a good grade in"

Moving on to erotica vs romance:

I've recently been watching a lot of SAVY WRITES BOOKS on youtube, and in one of her CoHo reviews she talked about the difference between works labelled "erotica" and "romance".

To her, romance novels have a sense of realism, they exist in a world that functions (at least adjacently) like ours. A romance would treat consent and safe sex like we do irl (or some historical equivalent based on setting). Basically, characters wouldn't be able to smash in a subway car without getting charged with public indecency.

Thus, if the characters were practicing BDSM, they would on some level acknowledge they're performing a scene (ex. consent check-ins and safewords). Here we have some level of RACK. Or if its unhealthy, there's framing acknowledging that fact!

Whereas erotica exists inside that BDSM scene! An erotic fic that tags its kinks and content correctly has given you enough for you to have informed consent. If you read the fic, you will thus be reading the "fantasy" of a BDSM scene. We know this isn't necessarily realistic or healthy, and that's fine! We read it with the knowledge it's not meant to be!

Uhhhh so. This was a really long way for me to explain "fanfic isn't sex ed so it's fine if they don't always use contraceptive"

tl;dr Intimacy and sex are cool for characterization. And smut is a Scene, if a person is informed of its contents all consent is accounted for :)

author’s notes today: hey guys so just a warning there isn’t 100% explicit verbal consent even though they’re both really into it so remember this is FICTION, also they don’t use a condom :((( but in real life safe sex is important!!! please be safe out there everyone

a/n back in the day: kept thinking about ____ stabbing knives through both of _____’s hands to pin him in place while they fucked so here you go lol =P

#nsft #fanfic #im using that bc its relevent gdi #cw sex mention #i am sorry mutual and op but. i had an excuse to rant about one of my favorite books series #and intimacy as a characterization vehicle can be SO COOL #i spent too much time on this i need dinner #harp rambles

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awsugar · 7 hours ago

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And I forgot about the DRUMS!!! I think this is an album they may have been working on for years. I think they are going for a magnum opus

yea so i read this went you sent it at 6am cause ive been out of work sick for a few days now and my sleep is allll messed up. and i tinhatted EXTREMELY close to the sun on this one. but i kind of think im cooking. so let me explain.

also ill just say i think because we know somethings coming but we dont know what BUT we know there are threads throughout somehow connecting things from years prior like. all tinhatting is plausible until proven otherwise. if we want to draw a connection between two things we CAN. and i think thats why im so on board with mcr5 now when i havent been since 2019. bc ive done this before. i was in the trenches for the danger days rollout/promo and the transmissions on the website and everything and THAT was one of the most exciting times of my life and THIS reminds me of that. im glad people never gave up on mcr5 but they never gave me ENOUGH before now to really run with. and now they have and its a free for all. THIS is what being an mcr fan is about. tbh. this is what this fandom has been missing for AGES. when they dont give us teasers and lore and crpytic messages we devolve into like theorizing and arguing with each other about who they are as people. but this is the basis of mcr community to me....getting together with your pals inside your phone and inside your laptop (who now have grown ito irl friends for so many of us) and dissecting every shred of info they give us. thank god for my chemical romance.

ANYWAY sorry that. went down a path i didnt intend when i started. so yes um so what you said about them going for a magnum opus. let me tell you a little story. when i was in my first year of being a my chem fan, i was 13, i became QUICKLY obsessed, first with the black parade and then after i spent i think 2 months straight listening to nothing but the black parade on repeat all day every day (literally) i ventured into their other stuff and got like really sucked in to everything else, reading articles and interviews and watching every video of them youtube had to offer and talking about them 24/7 on the forums instead of doing homework, i would sneak the family laptop into my room at night so i could keep reading about them and talking about them instead of having to go to sleep it was THE most exhilarating and exciting time of my life. anyway. i remember (16 years later) reading a specific review of the black parade that said something like "my chemical romance will never top this album and they know it" and i STILL REMEMBER sitting on the couch and crying over it. because i had never listened to music that had made such an impact on me as the black parade IN MY LIFE. nothing had ever made me feel that way and that strongly as listening to that album. you know how we all always say we wish we could listen to my chem for the first time again just to have that feeling again. that was me. i had never experienced an album of their when it came out and i felt like the author of the article was telling me that i would basically never acheive that high again. it was devastating. i promise this is relevant. bc regardless of your PERSONAL FAVORITE my chem album, it is generally agreed upon that the black parade is their magnum opus. it just is. both in scale and musically and its impact on pop culture and its the best known to a general audience.

so you say they're going for a magnum opus. when the black parade is DEAD. they killed it. (in the new lore they were sent to the MOAT which i assume is some kind of exile and stripping of their status as the national band)

and so i started thinking about "in the face of extermination say FUCK YOU" and i think this applies here two-fold actually. MAYBE 3-fold. on one hand, in-universe. extermination being the concrete age, the dictator holding the people down and exterminating their livelihood. but also the extermination of the black parade! and then - irl - we have the extermination of mcr's chances of doing something huge again like this. music publications resigning them as soon as the album came out to never achieving something as epic and grand as that again.

and the FUCK YOU being, the opposition of the dictator from the people, the black parade being reinstated but? maybe they have plans to overthrow the dictator? IRL mcr saying fuck you, we can actually use the concept that you said was the best we would ever do, completely turn it on its head, and make something even more grandiose and epic and MAGNUM OPUS.

and also hail just reminded me obv of the UNKILLABLES drumhead in sydney. which both relates to franks personal experience there but also like. with this concept of in the face of extermination say fuck you. along with his end of tour post being a cockroach, notoriously unkillable! notoriously a target for extermination!!!!

god theres so many layers to this but i needed to get it off my chest do you still like me

#anonymous #asks #mcr #my chemical romance

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kkoct-ik · 27 days ago

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doodles of the guy

#kostik draws #sou hiyori #yttd #your turn to die #kimi ga shine #fanart #shin tsukimi #i really like the first one tbh its personal #drawings drawn when the voices were screaming #i also have a soushin wip but it doesnt fit the vibe so ill hold onto it

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turbo-tsundere · 2 years ago

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Let’s disturb da balance of the universe

#gonta gokuhara #gokuhara gonta #kokichi ouma #ouma kokichi #danganronpa #v3 #ndrv3 #pregame #ougoku #if you squint at the second pic #my art #tbh I don't really subscribe to the fanon that the pregame personalities are the exact opposities of ingame ones #(but then does anyone really?)#with v3 writing being overall more nuanced and usually going the 'yes but no but maybe except it's complicated' route #personally I like to imagine that even if they act differently at their core they aren't that different #and their in-game personalities are actually their repressed/subconsciouss true selves - or perhaps their ideal versions of themselves #that they couldn't reach due to being cynical/jaded and disillusioned with society #(nevermind what they wished for comes with its own set of grievances and pitfalls ;p)#that's just my impression given the audition tapes and what-not #BUT for the purpose of entertaiment let's imagine how much of an absolute menace the first combination would be XD #(whether it's a menace for Kokichi or they're a menace to everyone else is an entirely different matter ;p)#side note but drawing this made me realise and appreciate smth - Kokichi's gakuran is dark contrasting his in-game outfit #but Gonta also has his own contrast - the blue/indigo color historically associated with royalty #vs the brown of his in-game suit - color more associated with commoners and plainness but also symbolising being down to earth and friendly #that's really neat actually #esp considering he's from high-status family

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kaiserouo · 2 months ago

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my heart fucking melts

#i love hack #can really give a destiny ghost vibe if it actually has its own personality but crypto won't give it one #ok art ramble time #i think i change how i do coloring everytime i try to do that #this time instead of using a hard asf brush for the first layer of flat color i use opaque watercolor (from old csp brush set)#and just use that brush for almost anything until the metal part where i start using the blend brushes like before #in hindsight opaque watercolor is kinda good for quick stuff like this #it kinda has its own lowkey texture #i think in terms of my recent art all textures were from blend brushes #that does work. its just if you already have some texture from opaque watercolor maybe it wouldn't look that bland when doing flat colors?#anyway. this turned out well. kinda unexpected tbh #which is good because this is just a quickie and i dont actually wanna do lineart for this #apex legends #apex crypto #my art

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ozlices · 11 months ago

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cannot express enough how much this scene means to me, especially as a trans person myself. it seems so small, but this scene is groundbreaking in so many ways.

for anyone who hasn't watched alice in borderland: the woman in the last picture is canonically a trans woman. she left home prior to transitioning because of her father's disapproval. this is the first time she's seen her mother since leaving home, & the first time her mother has seen her post-transition.

her mother's first reaction to seeing her as her fully realized self is to call her beautiful. this scene, itself, is so small. but man. is it beautiful.

#mine #alice in borderland #kuina hikari #it was such a pleasant surprise the first time we watched tbh.#we knew there was a canon trans person in the show but we had no idea how it was like. portrayed.#so this scene was a total surprise for us & i think made us cry our first time watching it #the fact the series even takes the time TO give us a scene like this despite kuina not necessarily being a main character #is just. really fucking nice honestly.#like the fact that they undeniably make sure u know she's trans & that her mother accepts her is just. ugh. it's so damn good #god i love this show. it has its faults but THIS. this. is one of the best scenes in all of media bye

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ganondoodle · 1 year ago

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im kinda glad i was a tiny child when windwaker came out and i only played it years later without having internet access for the longest time bc i would have NOT survived the hatred i know ww got when it first came out bc it wasnt what most people expected (ww is my fav zelda)

loving botw but not liking totk and seeing the vast majority praise the latter like its the holy grail while alot also discrediting and needlessly hating on botw for it is already making it hard to stay calm about :U

#ganondoodles talks #special interest go brrrr #sucks when you care so much about a piece of media thats out of your control and it does something you hate #i do not control the hyperfixation #it wouldnt be so bad if people wouldnt keep hating on botw just to praise totk more tbh #and before people say but arent YOU doing the same thing in reverse???#welll ... its suppposedly a sequel yes?#direct sequels should build on the first title and totk does the opposite doesnt it?#again one of my biggest problems is that it was advertised and called a direct sequel qhen it really isnt #like at all #how some characters also made a weird turn in their personality it really does feel like it did a majoras mask thing without admitting to i #like majoras is GOOD #it was weird and kinda nonsensical but ultimately worked #can you imagine if totk just went with the whole other dimension thing properly and really went ham with it-#.... i am coming up with even more ideas for totk rewritten arent it..#anyway i dont think im gonna get a collectors edition ever again given the risk of me not liking what its for #regret spending that kind of money on it after i calmed down my fears and in the end they turned out to be mostly right #;__;

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sieglinde-freud · 1 year ago

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WHERE WERE THE AWAKENING SECOND GEN ON JULY 21ST 2023

#fe13 #fe awakening #fire emblem #fe shitpost #not tagging these mfs goddamn anyways #long tag ramble incoming btw #this is a lie bc owain pleaded all of them to go barbenheimer with him #but still #also yes there is a difference between being in between barbie and oppenheimer and being at barbenheimer #barbenheimer is its own concept #anyways i think cynthia is the type of person to be like 'yeah barbie isnt really my thing but i'll go with you' and then she cries the most #yarne is too scared of oppenheimer but he thinks the memes are funny #the morgans are FUNDAMENTALLY DIFFERENT and as much as fmorgan likes barbie shes such an oppenheimer girl. crush on florence pugh i know it #kjelle is not up for debate btw. thinks oppenheimer is cool but shes literally feminism the unit #sat for florence pugh tho #inigo has I'm Just Ken on repeat and it will be number one on his spotify wrapped #bradys thinks saying hes an oppenheimer guy will save his masculinity but it didnt matter bc he cried at the first scene of barbie #no one knows why. it was of girls smashing baby dolls on rocks.#know that im looking at them though.. tbh they all cried at barbie its just a matter of when #u can tell me im wrong if you so wish but i dont care and im not listening #after this they went out for the barbie burger king meal and got sick

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bunnihearted · 1 month ago

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im sorryyyyy i dont wanna be a mean bitch but genuinely i feel like im the one of only ppl who are actually alone bc i keep seeing all of these ppl complain abt how alone they are then they post a bunch of pics with their friend groups and they go on trips and celebrate their birthdays with friends and im like 😦?????????? im ngl i lowkey feel betrayed bc like yes sure we can relate on "feeling lonely" but ig at the end of they day im so sorry im not saying this to gatekeep loneliness or whatever but like u just cannot relate to what it feels like to not only feel lonely but also be alone and not even have people who want to spend moments with u. and feel and be like on your birthday you're alone. on your insta you're alone. irl u dont have ppl who even want to make plans with u. i know i know that everyone's loneliness is valid and you can still have partners and friends and feel lonely and that is valid i really do think so. idk i just feel so fkn alienated from everyone, including people who say theyre lonely - bc they still have ppl to talk to and ppl to be with and ppl who wants to be with them and consider them their friend lol.... i dont have anyone to take pics with or have groupchats with or go to concerts with or go for walks with and i dont have anyone to message abt stupid things or blah lahblahblah it doesnt even matter atp

#and like i am really really lucky that i have one person i talk to on a regular basis and have been for almost two years #and that he stills wanna be friend even if hes seen my insane person rants abt him on here #like genuinely i'd prob slowly wither and die without having had experienced talking to him #ig its not even only other ppl it is my avpd #if i just send a message thats like casual everyday talk between friends #im first freaking out abt it for hours bc i obviously deserve to DIE for even bothering them with a message #so even if i long for certain things its like well yeah i cant do that bc i deserve to die and im worthless useless and a bother and burden #and why would i force someone to waste time on me when they have ppl out there who are actually worth their time #i dont know #i just feel sad bc i checked insta and someone who talks abt being alone often posted pics of them celebrating their bday with friends 😭#and ofc everyone are valid to feel what they feel!!!! i know that!!!!!! it just hurts selfishly lmaooo #bc i am lonely but i will spend my bday crying in my room alone #like i have been for the past years #not even my own family wants to spend it with me #i talk a little abt plans w my mom and she acts like im holding her hostage 😭😭😭#so idk she'll prob agree but it wont feel great bc i know she doesnt really wanna spend time w me #anyway...... we're all alone as i get to hear all thw time #its just that most ppl who are alone also have partners and friends and family members or even a therapist haha 👍#i dont care tho its all good ^-^#also one of my old bully friends is marrid and just got her baby and she messaged me like hii how are u?#like what do u even want me to say.... cool... u have traveled the world u have found love u have made a ton of new friends #while still having your old friend group (that i got dumped by) and u even have your own kid #i am a fkn loser who should just die tbh #so yeah im doing great hahahha just gonna kms real quick 😸🙌🏻#but idc tho 😁

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thewhizzyhead · 5 days ago

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one day I wish I could actually like understand songwriting especially for theatre so that I can I dunno actually put to use the random tunes I have in my head that just spontaneously appear while I'm doing the most mundane of shit. anyways patron has the concept of an opening number now

#im gonma call it Silakbo #the gist of this is um LOOK TO REALLY EXPLAIN WHAT PATRON IS UMM #understand that patron was originally two separate musical ideas whose events occur At The Same Time To Teach Other #so like yea same universe #Patron (pronounce it in the Filipino way) is about modern student activism in the philippines and the nitty gritty of it #Patron (english pronunciation) is about a young filipino playwirght struggles to find their voice in an american landscape (new york)#especially in the context of the events of Filipino Patron #both discuss what it means to be a young filipino revolutionary in this day and age #so um i first thought of this when i was 17-18 - and now im 20 and like the masochist i am i have decided to have them become one project #dual protagonist - one a new and rather sheltered stude of UP Diliman and one decorated young progressive writer in New York #the former is a journey of looking beyond privilege and what it really means to be among the masses #the latter is a story of how privilege blinds - and how susceptible we are to american neoliberalism #that it dulls once sharp pens + the irony of succumbing to such amidst environment and communities that scream for resistance #and whatever one protag does affects the other protag - whatever happens in america affects philippine events and vice versa yay #anyways openign number Silakbo is the arrival of these two protagonists to their respective settings - both with their own musical styles #(UPD protag progresses from broadway belts to pinoy hiphop - NY protag progresses from pinoy hiphop to broadway belts) (this is A Clue)#and most of UPD protag songs will be sung in Filipino while NY Protag will um progressively grow into being fully English #and silakbo can be used synonymously with storm so its basically a storm is coming who's gonna bring it #a change is approaching who's gonna chase it #tbh this out of all of my works is gonna be inspired heavily from lmm's work because tbh this is gonna be a beast to even conceptualise #so um yea thats a mini patron ramble woo hope its um understandable at worst 😭#personal shit #also yes the NY storyline is based on um once progressive Filipinos becoming subservients to conservative and harmful politics #either out of ignorance or power or simple nonchalance #i can name a lot of namess gjdjd

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ryuseitai · 4 months ago

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walked in this morning snd my coworker says You're training today! and I said Oh.

#IM OT GOOD WITH POEPLEEE Eepecially not new people and #the girl im training is quiet And so am i so im like forcing mhself to be kind of outgoing Its torture.#And i also dont know how to..ask people to do things #or tell them to do something #Which is like. almost all of what training is #omfg im only 18 and shy whyy whyyy #well its not too bad actall6 hut inwas really nervous at first but im getting more used to it #but i gave to train people bc im a Team Lead #which means nothing to me except thay i know how to do my job #and a 50 cent pay increase than not being one Wow..!#i wanna sleep so bad #Only. 3 and half more hours after my break ends.#i am glad tho atkeast it is good experience for like.. interacting with people #this job in general has made me a lot better at that and less anxiety aroujd it #but im still a shy and quiet person to begin with #and i say weird things on accident #Its funny tbh hiw often i say something just like. Something that i think is regular and normal #and not suppsed to be a joke or comedic and ppl im talking to start laughing #lile not my intent but if youre happy im happy💗

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eonars · 6 months ago

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um. tfw your life is about to change massively very very soon and it still doesn't even feel real yet and still feels like somethings gonna pop up and it won't actually happen and also you're scared as fuck that you're too stupid to actually do it and it'll all be for nothing

#like what do you mean full time salaried w benefits and paid vacation just to do. school.#what made you so enthusiastically think i was the perfect one to do this #when the last approx 20something other guys were like ummmm no you cannot do it #tbf like all that other shit up there aside #this did actually come at the perfect time #i look back on who i was during my masters and i legit do not recognize that person #i barely even remember it i have to look at pictures to think back on who i was #in a strange roundabout way being forced home to stay for a while #kind of re centered me and gave me time to come back to myself in a big way. i was really lost before #and chaining something like this directly after my masters would have been disasters #even like this time last year i did not have this level of mental clarity #and i think thats why i didn't get any of the other positions i was just in a fog and i think people could tell #so as much as like im super scared and nervous about this big change and big exit from my comfort zone #and a little sad and mournful that im leaving my family and wont hear my native language all day every day anymore #im the most ready ive ever been #2019 me was NOT ready im scared of her tbh!! idk what wave i was on but it was weirdo shit!#im also proud that i essentially rawdogged and brute forced a lot of introspection and improvement #entirely on my own #like i really can only just describe it as clarity i feel like i matured 10 years in 4 and cleared all the fog #i feel so good about the way i handle things and react to things now vs then #im like 500x more unbothered and actually know how to put myself first now #anyway uh this prob could have been its own post in and of itself #but woteva innit im proud of how much internal repairs i did on myself over the last few years #became a stable genius as it were #whos a lot more clearly defined and present #but fuck man! i am still scared of being 2stupid

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todayisafridaynight · 7 months ago

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I’m fairly new to the fandom, but I do have a question if you can answer it! Why do people ship Daigo with Aoki / Masato? I tried looking to see if they’ve interacted before, but couldn’t find anything! Sorry for asking I’m just </3 dumb AND I LOVE YOUR ART OF THEM!!! Nerd looking ahhhhhh

hi ! welcome to the community i hope you're having a lovely time so far and ty for enjoyin my stuff :) no need for apologies it's a very fair question to have :]

i cant speak for everyone (all. ten people into masadai anyway) but Personally To Me i just think the idea of them together is very funny. thats quite literally it im afraid..

#snap chats #//twenty page google doc in the background// ignore that. it's mostly for comedic purposes #might also be my fault idk sorry about that. allegedly. idk ive had like three people tell me they started to ship them cause of me 🧍‍♂️#@mementoasts is another person who's drawn masadai and whose stuff i love and am inspod by .. i love their disneyland fic sm ...#there was another artist on twitter who posted a neat drawing of them but i cant remember who they were and i didnt bookmark it //screams//#recently there's been ANOTHER masadai artist ive started following on twitter - @wifekiryu. his account's n/s/f/w fyi before you go looking #he has a tumblr too @foxdies. i say cause i realized as much recently vjeaKLGJALKGJ #oh but I GUESS ill get deeper into why. /i/ personally ship masadai or whatever #first off they're opposing factions yet their character alignments Do Not Match their roles. stereotypically anyway #aoki who leads the 'surface' of society and is meant to be an admirable figure and someone 'just' when really. he sucks LMAO #though that's not atypical of politicians but just from a stereotypical This Is A Respectable Individual perspective of his role #daigo on the other hand leads the 'underbelly' of society- yk comprised of dangerous criminals and outcasts and whatnot #yet as we know him daigo's compassionate and considerate of his men- he doesnt treat them like tools like aoki does #if put in a room with the two daigo would be most people's choice of person to hang out with. probably open a trapdoor on aoki tbh #and i think thats really cool and epic i always love that kinda Subverting Expectations thing #theres also the fact they both started off like. edgy/angsty in the franchise and then brush up down the line #masato does a stronger 180. publicly. obviously but its still really funny they both have to get their act together #if you wanna talk about in-text reasons. there really is none LMAO I TELLS YOU masadai is pure crack #but if i wanted to pull a muscle reaching then there's daigo being on aoki's side while everyone else is on arakawa's during the funeral #im lying of course. mitsu was behind him. rgg tryna make me forget mitsu exist .... put him back in y8 ....#and ofc ichi joins that side to even out the seating but moving on another Goofy Reason is arakawa being like #'the chairman and my son are like p much the same age Surely he knows how he thinks :)'#and then i just think daigo being all smarmy about outsmarting aoki is really goofy and im choosing to interpret that as personal #they both also have issues with their dad. s. dad/s/. anyway.#tbh the google doc tag was a joke but i really could sit here and list every dumb reason why i think theyre funny together #like i started going over the tag limit so uhhhh yeah needless to say i have a lot of. dumb reasons 💀💀💀💀#one day ill use the main text for long rambles like this but todays not that day Point Is my imagination is rampant im afraid #so the short and sweet of it is I Think It's Funny. And They'd Be Terrible Together. Which Is Why It's Funny.#and the unfortunate part is anything i find funny i obsess over for a year so. //gestures to the mountain of bullshit thats my masadai tag/

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ghostlyschizophrenic · 8 days ago

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fingers crossed but it looks like i'm starting to stabilize. i had a relatively normal day yesterday, and while i still had more drastic mood swings than i would have at baseline, i wasn't overly manic and i also didn't feel suicidal when going to bed so i was able to fall asleep pretty quickly and without music at full volume in my headphones. i woke up naturally this morning around 8am instead of 4am or sleeping until someone wakes me up to tell me it's already noon and i feel pretty rested and able to focus. i'm almost caught up on my quantitative reasoning homework assignments and i'll be back up to being ahead of the class content wise.

i see my psychiatrist in a week so i'm going to keep monitoring it and let the new dosage adjust to my system but maybe, just maybe, my bipolar 1 is starting to recede!