#i ramble. i have so many thoughts & feelings

[deadpoetsandlivinglegends]

Feel like Neil couldn’t have been any other kind of actor than one in theatre. If he was a movie actor or on social media or whatnot, it would not be the same. Theatre by nature is fleeting. Recorded mediums can be rewatched over and over, creating a time loop of sorts. We the audience can keep going back to a time when Neil is still alive. Theatre however is live and once the play is over, there is no going back except in our memories. It is much like life. We are forced to live in the moment in a theater lest we miss it altogether. It’s not that the poets choose to live in a world where Neil is dead, it’s that they must because the only other option is to die themselves. I feel like Keatings teachings could only be reflected in stage theatre because that’s the only way there can be no time loop of grief. I think dead poets society itself isn’t about overcoming the authority in your life to do what you want but rather about grief, about allowing oneself to feel grief and all one’s emotions without letting it consume you and to keep living after, to live every day in the moment lest you fall into grief and regret that will destroy you or force you into a miserable life

[randomizer971]

Wakfu the Great Wave, Chapter 11

Beware of spoilers

Chapter 11 just dropped, and all I know is that GigaChad!rasalar is a masochist. His interactions and dialogues were giving spicy noodle. And that hair, omg!

As usual, the visuals are excellent. The coloured panels were a nice surprise. The character design is everything! So glad Cynthia Leman is working on this project. 🙏

I feel dumb for being surprised by the whole "Mystery Father" situation. Up until now, I thought the twins knew who their biodad was. Seems like I was wrong?

Their conception was shown to the audience in several media, but I can't remember one Wakfu material confirming any of the Wakfu siblings canonically knew about their father.

Still, this is wild because how can they NOT know?! There are several sets of twins, each made of a dragon and a humanoid with wing-shaped antlers! They know that dragons lay Dofus when in love (how the incarnation of Stasis could actually feel love is beyond me, but that's another story). They know goddesses and dragons can reproduce (Dame Echo). They know their mother is the literal incarnation of life/wakfu, but they can't guess who their daddy is? Might as well call Maury, smh.

🤔 Weirder is the fact that Mewing Fire Lizard over there knows all the tea, while those two remain clueless. It's not like there were so many dragons when Goddess Eliatrope was looking for a dance partner. Bruh...Rasalar must have been trolling when he said Adamai was clever, smh.

Not one lie detected about Yugo, though. Bless his hot-headed little head! He is a lot of things, but certainly not the brain of this Dofus.

Anyway, my hype is back, so I'll keep on rambling until the end of Volume 2.

[american-horror-whore]

what are your opinions on natalie? i feel like we haven't seen her and evan in a while.

woo, okay, so (long ramble under the cut)

To start off, as i’m aware they haven’t been seen together (relationship wise) since october, though they were spotted hanging out, as what was assumed by many, as friends + accompanied by someone else. As far as the fandom is aware, they didn’t spend Christmas, Thanksgiving, or New Year together, considering Nat was in Australia (her ex was assumed to be around the same area, as he made a post on his story near the same location but take that with a grain of salt since the story is no longer available) and Evan was assumed to be in St. Louis.

As far as my stance goes, i’m neutral on her. there’s some things i like about her, and some things I don’t like, which we’ll be talking about here. as of recent, i’ve heard on many accounts she’ll block anyone that asks about evan. she also turned off her comment section after an argument with a fan where she had called the bond between her and Evan, a ‘friendship’, which threw off many of us. Another account stated that back during the coachella ‘scandal’, she had her friends take a video of her and Evan (while he was assumed to be intoxicated, because well it’s a music festival) and send it off to Deuxmoi, which was then confirmed by them in a podcast, saying the video was sent in by someone in Natalie’s “inner circle”. That part was later cut out of the podcast episode after someone, most likely natalie, reached out to them. she also stated in the comment section argument that she was ‘traumatized’ from said incident, when there is in fact footage of her looking straight at the camera while being on top of him, and she still allows herself to be tagged in that video on instagram, not even attempting to remove it. i personally consider that extremely contradicting, but that’s just my opinion.

I was never ever one to dislike her from the start. I had a hopeful stance on her, but there’s been a few ‘fishy’ incidents with her, and i’ve been trying to dig up as much proof as possible. She seemed like a good-intentioned person, and I don't particularly hate her, but I do wish she wouldn't try these mind games with Evan's fandom, it's like a whole “where's waldo” situation in all of her stories and it's why i’ve been kind of fed up with her. she’d starting to irritate me and adding more things to the pile that make me like her less and less. she doesn't benefit my time at all, which is why i try not to dwell on her too much, but she can’t seem to escape my fyps and dashes. most of the aforementioned evidence was sadly lost after the original evan peters subreddit was privated. I’m currently in contact with a few of the original screenshot sharers to see if they still have them and I will edit this post one I gather the receipts. I’ve been very very open minded about her until these incidents came up, and i still try to be open minded, but it’s started to get a bit difficult. I understand this post might get some backlash, but at this point, it’s my blog, and people on the internet have no say in my actual life. anon, thank you for allowing me to talk about this subject. anyone else who has thoughts, feel free to interact. a respectful back-and-forth is always welcome !!

and to everyone else, consider this my resumé for a position as an official evan peters gossip blog, as well as being a writer 🖤

[robjn93]

do you ever see tim being a dad? like, i completely agree with you that tim can’t just abandon being a vigilante/hero unless he dies/is forced out of it because like you said, it would feel selfish to him when there is always people in need. but if there’s a kid involved? his own flesh and blood (from one night stand cause let his life be even messier lol) and he has to take responsibility? i’m afraid that the answer would be no, it wouldn’t be enough, if the kid is an infant/too young to remember him and he gives them up for their own safety? torment himself for many years for not being there for his kid? does he have the strength to give them up? idk i’m just rambling at this point i just wanna hear your thoughts on dad!tim

THIS IS SUCH AN INTERESTING QUESTION one i honestly didnt think about much before but its never too late!

in the circumstances where tim were to have a kid i think he would have probably already quit. especially after being there for stephs pregnancy, theres no way he wouldnt plan ahead and i think hed probably be sure to not have kids until he is in the business. after experiencing whats it like to lose both parents in such tragic circumstances he would never want to put his kid through that so you know he is gonna have protections (in all senses lol). unplanned pregnancies or a damian wayne situation where the kid he didnt know he had reaches out would probably result in him being forced to quit by the people around him. he would try to manage vigilantism but, in the end, either dick or steph would make him come to his senses and eventually make him quit, after making him realize gotham has other people that take care of her. in this case, it would be fun to see tim feel the slightest bit of resentment towards himself for choosing his own happiness and feeling completely helpless and, once again, left in charge of taking care of someone needing him. but it would also make him revaluate his life and eventually find a way to help while having a family by choosing the civilian route if it makes sense (my district attorney tim drake hc always omnipresent)

[alpaca-clouds]

Using a vague excuse to ramble about more historical stuff

As y'all know: I freaking love history. And as such I could not help but perk up, as we saw the gang hang out in those ruins that clearly are near Machecoul. I instantly assumed that this was the Chateau de Machecoul, given that the ruins do indeed look similar and are located in about the same location in relation to Machecoul as the real ruins.

I was however informed by the crew that these parallels are coincidental and that indeed those ruins are not meant to be the Chateau. It is just a ruin by Machecoul.

And I mean, it is kinda fair, given that we are in Europe, and it is hard to throw a stone and not hit some medieval ruins over here.

But y'all know what? I am going to talk about the Chateau the Machecoul either way, and be it just to talk about one of my favorite historical figures. Gilles de Rais.

So, first things first: Indeed, in medieval Europe, there were a lot of castles. This had to do both with how much the different regions went to war at each others, and that nobles wanted to feel safe in some way.

Now, with Castlevania Nocturne I am still somewhat interested to see should we get a season 3, why the plot is originally set in Machecoul. My original thought was, that the show would go into the War in the Vandée. But so far that has not yet happened.

But Machecoul indeed for being a fairly small town was actually involved in several historical events.

And then we have its role towards the 100 Year War, and especially the stuff towards the end of it.

See, there are two figures in regards to the late medieval and early modern time that are quite similar in their reception today - especially in regards to how Japanese media treats them: Elizabeth Bathory (or more correctly Erszebet Bathory) and Gilles de Rais.

Why are those two so similar?

Well, because they were high ranking nobles who were sentenced for murdering children, and are by today's historians assumed to be innocent in fact.

Now, the details could not be more different though.

Erszebet is assumed by today's historians the target of a misogynist campaign for being a well-educated and quite opinionated woman. There is some assumptions also going on, that she practiced medicine, and at times could not save her patients. While historians are very sure that not even half as many people died due to her as people had said, they are also sure that there were at least six deaths attributed to her. But those were very probably just accidents due to her being unable to cure everyone. She lived in the 16th century. Those people mainly still believed in the four humors theory.

Meanwhile we have Gilles de Rais. Gilles de Rais was a noble and a commander during the 100 year war, and notably he was a close confidant of Jeanne d'Arc (Joan of Arc). And from all we know he was very unhappy with the sham trial against her, and tried in fact to petition people to release her. After she died... Well, we have little in terms of first hand accounts of how he saw the situation. But what we know is, that after her death he stopped financially supporting the church, and instead focused on producing art (mainly a very extravagant theatre play), while also getting interested in some spiritualism. One way or another: He was first accused of heresy, as he got into a brawl with a clergyman in a bar. And then there were suddenly accusations coming up that he had killed a variety of young boys, which got him in front of a court, and eventually executed.

While in both cases historians are fairly certain that they were innocent and got eventually prosecuted for political reason, only Gilles de Rais eventually got post-humosly got declared innocent. He now is considered a heroic figure in France.

However, this does obviously not stop Japanese game developers to use both figures as the horrific mudery kind.

Of course they do show up in the Fate games.

I mean, what can I say? At the very least they did not turn Gilles into a loli? lol

And yes, obviously they also showed up as characters in the Castlevania games.

Generally speaking, they are definitely among those figures who do show up a ton in Japanese media that somehow features references to European history - and usually those will just assume that they are in fact the kind of murderers that they were prosecuted as back in the day. And also they are probably some sort of magic being. (To be fair, Gilles de Rais also got prosecuted for witchcraft.)

But yeah, to come back to the Chateau de Machecoul: Gilles de Rais was living there by the time that he got accused of those murders and of witchcraft. He was living there when he got arrested. So yes, he has a strong connection to Machecoul.

As some of you might know: I used Gilles in my own Castlevania writing in a big role, as he is the main villain of The lesser Evil. However, given that I personally am not a big fan of propagating those possibly false accusations, I made his entire plot hinge on the fact that he had been wrongly accused and now kinda was out for revenge - very willing to draw Europe into chaos for this goal.

But I absolutely think he is a very interesting historical figure.

[askthemedbay]

Lore wise, I would have to know the lore of what happened to Pharma. What is shown is fascinating and love to know more! Your art and worldbuilding is really good, and I am happy to see more.

(OOC: Thank you for the kind comments!! And congrats, anon, you’re the winner of the first story post! It’s a bit lengthy, but I’ll do more of these if you guys like them!)

Ratchet was already growing suspicious by the time he noticed what Pharma had done.

No one could find that many willing donors that quickly, and morgue was filling up with cogless corpses.

It was stupid to believe Pharma, and he saw that now, just like he saw him drugging those sleeping bots. Those optics that would never open, that would never see their new home planet.

If only he was faster.

Ratchet adjusted his wrists. His new modifications hadn’t exactly settled with his original circuitry yet, making the joint feel bulky and slow. It would settle into its new purpose soon, though. It would see use soon.

Pharma hadn’t stopped stalking around the room since Ratchet agreed to leave, his pedes tapping rhythmically to every calculated step. Keeping up with quota drove him mad, Ratchet thought. No bot would think to kill a patient mid operation, to rip out their most precious organ and leave the corpse as an accident.

It was so stupid to believe him, in hindsight he was a fool. But that was hindsight, and this was now.

Ambulon stepped into the small room, and Ratchet pressed himself further against the wall. No one had noticed him yet, not even the keen-opticed trainee. He knew what Pharma planned to do to him. He felt all that Ambulon felt, and had heard Pharma’s mad ramblings late into the night. Yes, he was smarter than they assumed. The elder medic still had a functioning processor.

“You requested me?” Ambulon prefaced. Primus, he was only a kid. He was older than his own, but clearly not by much. That soft faceplate and hardly set jaw said enough. He’d only recently grown into that heavy plating.

Pharma ceased his pacing, looking at Ambulon with wild optics. That was not the same bot he once considered a friend, a colleague. That wasn’t Pharma, not anymore. Some kind of disease had wormed its way into his processor. It bastardized him. Turned him into… into…

Ratchet didn’t blink. His optics were tuned in and focused. That’s how fast it was. Though, seekers moved quickly under stress, didn’t they? Pharma raised his servo, which quickly turned into a loud, screeching engine.

Ambulon wasn’t stupid. He also made it through grueling medical academies before the war ruined his chances of a real certification. At least he was there to teach the poor kid… the long and short of it, he’d figured it out quite a while before Ratchet had; wether the circumstances were some sick twist of fate or not, the kid’s safety was his greatest concern. And for good reason. “Pharma..? What are you doing?”

Ratchet wasn’t nearly the fastest bot on the Ark, but he had some good days. This just happened to be one of those. Though, not nearly as fast as Pharma was in drawing his weapon of choice, Ratchet flung himself at the other medic.

They landed in a pile of scraping frames and harsh curses, tussling on the sterile ground of the medbay. Pharma, while lithe and agile, was no match for the bigger mech, but he was certainly trying. He waved his saw around like a mad mech, almost grazing Ratchet’s crest multiple times.

If any time was good to test his new ability, now was that time.

Ratchet raised his new, awkward servo, and revealed its purpose. The plating snapped away easily, revealing about a dozen tinier cables, ones that almost resembled those Soundwave used to disable his enemies before he went for the kill; but these were far more humane.

He fought for a better hold. Ratchet pushed Pharma onto his front, unwilling to listen to his screams. Not anymore. His free servo held his saw-wrist down, while he placed his modification on that practiced place. Ratchet closed his optics, focusing his power into controlling those smaller tendrils.

Pharma yelped, then that yelp turned into stupefied groans. When Ratchet returned to himself, the cables had snaked up the back of Pharma’s neck and into the thin gap between the heavy protective plating and connective wires. He was cradling his processor now. Subduing him manually. Finding the small nodule at the back of the processor, Ratchet watched the light fade out of Pharma’s optics.

He was not offline, not entirely, but he would be in stasis for some time. Just enough to get him locked up in the Ark’s brig.

Ratchet released soft vent, his internal fans clicking on as he carefully removed his processor-scrambling equipment. He stood, only now noticing that Pharma… he’d definitely hit him. The glass panels of his chassis were shattered, and he was coated in pink, purified energon. But that wasn’t his greatest concern.

Ambulon was frozen in place, like he’d gone to recharge standing up. He couldn’t speak, only opening and closing his intake stupidly. Ratchet stumbled to him, grabbing his shoulders roughly and squeezing. “He didn’t do anything to you, did he?”

When Ambulon shook his helm no, Ratchet cycled his vents with relief. He pulled the young bot into his arms, trying to comfort him. “You’re okay, kid. You’re safe. Go… go take the next decacycle off. Please.”

“Yes, sir..”

He always was quite good at taking orders.

(OOC: Once again, I’ll do more story posts if you guys like them! Have some related sketches too)

[randomminty]

Five billion octopath 2 scribbles i feel sick

[deimosatellite]

[evercelle]

2024 art summary! it sure has been a year

[milkamel]

Sudden kross thoughts + headcanons I drew in like 20 minutes I seriously can't stop thinking about these two idiots and I need to write about this somewhere..

Like- They're so different (also very similar) but complement each other so well- just perfect for each other. Cross needs someone to tell him that it's okay to relax sometimes and Killer needs someone to help him take care of himself more <3 gfjgkfgjfkh my sweet babies-

Killer belongs to rahafwabas Cross belongs to jakei

[iliothermia]

I won't be able to finish this drawing before the convention, which will take up my next 5 days.. But I want to talk a little about him.. I've been thinking about golems and Frankenstein, and the trans body, projection and misunderstanding, villainization and death.

The concepts of Frankenstein's monster and the golem have been swimming in my head for a while, and their lore intertwining.. The tragedy of existing being seen as a monster no matter how you try,.. And the Golem, a protector of his people and a servant whose only flaw always rang a bit close to home as an an autistic person-- being too literal in execution of his orders. He's tired and struggles with a yearning for death. His havdalah candles will be out.. The first flame of the week, a spark of starting over again-- The flame brings him fear. As much as he's kept himself together he doesn't know how much longer he can keep doing it, he fears failure- but the fear of what may happen if he's gone is even more terrifying. He's lived a long life, and over time the one who formed him has sculpted him to the golem's own wishes.. From nothing to the man he is- but even with that effort, to outsiders he's still a monster. His skin is different shades of clays from varying riverbeds as his people have travelled.. Golems are unformed, imperfect.. but even as outsides can be polished the insides can still be broken

[lazylittledragon]

As someone who read the second half of the Drizzt series as it came out (yes I'm that old lol), I just know you have thoughts about him/the books so PLEASE share! So glad there are so many younger DND players getting into it and keeping our lovely boy alive <3

YOU'RE SO RIGHT ANON I DO HAVE THOUGHTS ABOUT HIM

i just!!!! love him!!! so much!!!! he's such a treasure

idk if this is me just overthinking things but the fact that he's THE dnd hero but he's also like. a petite little guy and his defining character trait is being KIND and he loves his friends and he's very physically affectionate (which feels kind of crazy to me that the early books came out so long ago and he was always like that??) and his best friend is his cat and he likes to have FUN and he treats swordfighting like dancing and he STILL sought the approval of his family even after years of abuse aND HE JUST LOVES EVERYONE SO MUCH

he's truly the fantasy protagonist of all time i love him i need to kiss him on the forehead

[puddii-ng]

swan lake x valkyrie

[buqbite]

Halo

[luck-of-the-drawings]

so REVENGE, HUH? or justice, if that makes you feel better. it tastes the same when cooked just right. 'I REALLY WANTED A BROTHER.' such a shame to burn a bridge you so desperately wanted to keep, especially when it wasnt even you who started the fire. especially when you hope that not a single fragment of that bridge ever washes ashore.[MAY IT ROT FAR FROM MY SIGHTS] an unfortunate loss! atleast he has his friends.

[thetwilightroadtonightfall]

family visit 🏝️

(ghosts can be haunted too)

[Scala script translation in alt text]