#i promised myself i would draw them in it once i improve my art lol when i can bring myself to draw again

[homochihuahua]

There is this panel with Bruce laying atop Selina, they are nude and he is kissing her neck with the side of her face being what we see of them while she is gasping. Alfred intrudes on the and he looks mortified lol.

It such a lovely sexy thing and I can't stop thinking of it with Jason being the one to do this to Dick, maybe in the setting where Dick was filling in Bruce' sudden absence, they were almost successful in keeping their relationship a secret, but one night Dick's moaning got so loud it worried Alfred so much he had to take matters into his hand, only for him to catch them red handed.

[perla-speedofsound-adventuring]

Some drawings down memory lane

So as of recently I’ve been thinking a lot about drawing. Especially having a writing blog @the-excursion, I keep wanting to do more and bring my characters to life! So today after years I decided to put any hesitation aside and have another go at drawing!

SO I decided to go through an old sketchbook I kept just for fun to see where I left off with my style, and I want to show just how much of a drawer I used to be!

I’ll put under a Read More, but basically, I just really would like to get back into it without being so worried all the time...!

So this is one of the earlier ones, I’ve decided to pick my favorites lol. I remember drawing all the time middle school up until freshmen or sophmore year of high school. Little me was so ambitious and creative haha. The princess’ arm is like 6 feet but go off XD it's really good!

I can’t really tell but I believe this one might have been before the previous drawing, but it just sparks the feelings I felt while I drew back then, which I’ll get into later, but I also think this one is super cute. Also, can you tell I didn’t know how to draw eyes? pffff

This one is really another one of my favorites! I remember specifically learning how to do folds in clothes so I just went ham ever since lol. Can you tell I still didn’t know how to draw eyes??

Oh behold they opened their eyes... and they are BIG. Also, I was such a wizard back then lolol. I remember just loving to draw magical things! And there are those fabric folds hehe. I like the tiny dandelion. 

This I’m sure I drew around the time I started writing! Being a cute edgy boy I’m sure he’s most likely based off one of my first ocs, Angelo. And I had a whole storyline going! It’s like a little comic haha. I remember really liking how the flower petal girl at the end there turned out.

And so finally, after really years and years, I was inspired to pick up the pencil once again.

I know it’s no grand reveal lol. It’s rough around some edges and I may have lost practice, but I also do wanna say I was so inspired by this art by @cazarts​ to use the pose as reference I hope you don’t mind! I promise I didn’t trace because I really just wanted to have a go at my drawing after so much time!

Looking back at all those old doodles really did bring back the feelings I felt while drawing them. I remember enjoying myself soso much and not being afraid to just sit and draw what I want without the fear of being embarrassed or judged. Middle school and first couple of years of high school were really rough on me. I used to draw to make myself feel good but then it turned into something that would be questioned all the time. “what are you doing, why are you doing that, what’s the point.” All that drove me to be embarrassed of the things I loved to do. Thankfully I stuck to my writing despite all that but drawing was pulled away. 

I see posts on here that artists cringe and feel so bad about looking back at their old art. And while yeah the art is old and you’ve improved a lot! for me looking back just sparks some motivation to start again for the honor of my past self lol.

This turned into a whole ramble but I feel like no one knows.. my existence on here lol, hello yes I am a human can communicate sometimes.

I shall continue to practice!!

[franeridart]

Hey! So sorry if you already answered this but what application and tablet do you use??

I use Easy Paint Tool SAI and a pretty old wacom intuos tablet! Both questions are answred in my faq, actually~

Anon said:You. You awesome person. You are my new fav artist. 💘💘💘

AW thank you!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:I love your art and the style, it’s all so cute and it might give me a heart attack

He c k let’s hope not! Thank you so so much!!! ;^;

Anon said:hey, can ya do more tokage, pls

Sure, I mean to draw more 1B in the future anyway~

Anon said:nori is soo adorable!! I love your art and seromina so much and seeing them combined makes me mega happy!!! I gotta ask though, how are sero and mina as parents and how do they handle nori’s quirk?

They’re disasters as parents but they try their best and are always having fun - Nori adores them! In their house not a minutes goes by without someone laughing, they’re all super loud and cheerful always~ neither of them has any problem dealing with Nori’s quirk, Sero has spent a whole lifetime learning how to deal with sticky stuff and tape and glue so he knows all the tricks to save clothes and furniture from accidental quirk usage and so on, while Mina’s own quirk makes it easy to counter any glue that might end on her - the main thing actually is that the quirk itself was a surprise! Since Nori looks a lot like Mina, both she and Sero had expected her to have acid like Mina so when she started gluing herself around in places and walking along walls and stuff it was a surprise (they had expected to have to deal with the house being constantly half destroyed by acid though, so glue is nothing compared to that haha)

Anon said:Heyy I saw your twitter account and was wondering if you could link some of those “fics about them boys sharing a bed..“ I’ve been following you for a while now and absolutely love your work (: I hope you don’t mind lol. I need more kiribaku in my life gahaha ❤️ thanks !!

I didn’t really bookmark any and most were old things I had read in the past and spent time rereading lately, but the newest one I read is this one - honestly though at this point 99% of the fics set in the dorms have them sharing a bed, you just need to open ao3 and scroll down less than a page to find stuff lol

Anon said:If you’re not an Adventure Time fan this ask will make no sense to you (so skip it), but when I saw your drawing of Katsuki with a guitar, I immediately thought he was singing some edgy Marceline song, like the teasing-aggressive “I wanna bury you in the ground / I wanna bury you with my sound” (which he actually says at some point I think XD) or the romantic and melancholic “Slow Dance with You” and Eijirou M-E-L-T-S.

Not an AT fan, but the concept is adorable so I’m keeping the ask anyway

Anon said:Do you think you might draw more of your fantasy AU children while you’re playing with you’re new pencil tool? It would be neat if you did! Regardless, I’m grateful for anything you draw!

Yup! Can’t promise when it’ll happen but I love the fantasy AU and I love childhood friends AU, so the chances of me going back on it are pretty high!

Anon said:Are you going to draw Mako and Taiyou again? They are so wonderful.

YAH that’s definitely in the near future plans! Thank you for liking them!!

Anon said:I just…I love all your art. It’s so amazing you’re awesome

THANK YOU SO MUCH !!!! ;^;

Anon said:Stavo scorrendo il tuo blog e ho notato che hai risposto ad una domanda in italiano? Ho seriamente pensato fossi inglese tutto questo tempo! Amo seriamente i tuoi disegni, i tuoi oc sono meravigliosi e non vedo l'ora di scoprire più di loro.

AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH grazie infinite omfg ;^; specialmente per i miei oc, è sempre incredibile per me sapere che alla gente piacciono abbastanza da volerli vedere di più ;^;

Anon said:Hewwo! I’m a huge fan of your artwork!! I was wondering if you have any time could you draw some more of those dorm room scenarios?

Anon I’m sorry but I need you to be more specific, which dorm room scenarios are you talking about? Most of my comics at this point are set in the dorms hahaha

Anon said:I just noticed that on every artwork you sign “do not repost” and I hate it.I don’t hate that you do it, but the fact you NEED to do it. Artists all over the Internet say to not repost their art but people still do it…I hope this will stop someday Sorry for my english btw

Yeah well, I guess as long as people keep on following and giving notes to reposters that’s not really gonna change is it orz

Anon said:You should draw Present Mic x Aizawa *awkward finger guns*

Hell I really should, shouldn’t I

Anon said:my god im gay for your kiribaku like they’re so good aibdjsbsknwnx and i love the interactions between the bakusquad ahh keep being awesome :)

HECK THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!!!

Anon said:Honestly, this might be an odd question I don’t know, but would you ever consider putting your art together in a art book to sell? Cause to be honest, there’s not a piece by you that I don’t adore and I’ve seen some artist do things like that before so I didn’t know if that was something you’d consider. Maybe like all your BNHA pieces or something?

It’s not like I never considered it? It’s more like I dunno how worth all the work to figure out how to make it/where to print it and then to actually make it would be compared to the interest people would have in buying something they can have for free on my blog? It’s just doodles after all haha

Anon said:Would you be willing to draw a little lavi (dgm) doodle for me? Anything tiny, I just love him and your art!!!

I’m not doing requests right now, sorry, but soon enough the new chapter is coming out so I might draw him around then!!! I always fall in a serious dgm mood around the time of the chapter release haha

Anon said:More abuse of the ask function: 1- I love your art and have been for months. On top of that, it often feels cathartic, which is amazing to me. 2- I love how balanced you can make KiriBaku. You even manage to make me appreciate that overrated attention hogger that is Bakugou, you can handle him so much better than the author, because your character dynamics make so much more sense!! 3- I always, ALWAYS find myself reading through all your tags. They’re awesome. Thank you for everything.//Avevo finito lo spazio nell'ask precedente, so I’d only like to add that aside from cutie-smoochy (“It’s not about whether you break” and “I don’t need you” might be my favorite, and for what’s worth, I remember writing something exactly like the latter in the past), you also make mu burst into laughter. Like, the comic where Katsuki is about to out Eijirou on his red hair, I am still rolling. Kiri’s giant mouth is seriously hysterical XD

Thank you for the compliments!! I’m glad I can make you like a character and a relationship you’re not much of a fan of in the actual manga? ? ? Bakugou’s actually one of my favorite characters ever though so………. maybe……….don’t offend him and the way Horikoshi writes him while talking to me………….orz

Anon said:I am starved for Bakukamikiri stuff in this fandom……..But you got some good shit.

I’m!!! happy to be able to help there!!!! haha

Anon said:They mama Mitsuki art you drew 👏💯💖☺️💕👌 I love your art so much

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Yessssss you have Twitter! It is boring at the beginning but then you’ll love it! I can’t wait to see you here and there! Now all my Bakushima favorite artist have one I can die of happiness!!

I’m!!!!!!!!!! Still trying to figure it out but!!!!!!!! For now it’s not that bad? Just!!! Very different from tumblr so I’ll need to get used to it first!!!!

Anon said:Omg do u shade jirous hair like its a heartbeat line? Dhdisbdisb thats so fuckibg good

THANK she actually has it in canon too, tho, so I can’t take credit for this!!!

Anon said:Im crying on how you draw kirishima’s soft hair

S O B I’m glad you like it!! ;^;

Anon said:Can I ask what your stance is on bakugo’s mom being abusive and sorry if you’ve answered this before

I love Mitsuki with my whole heart and while I don’t think she’s perfect I do think she’s loving and caring and trying her best and always looking out for what’s best for Bakugou 👍 no abuse anywhere, for me

Anon said:OMG I LOVE SEROMINA LOVE CHILD NORI

Thank you for liking her???? heck!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:I wish I could use your art for my phone’s background ;^; You’re amazing! I love youuuuuuuuuu

No one’s stopping you from doing that, anon!!! Unless you don’t have a phone that allows you backgrounds, in which case ;-; thank you for liking my stuff that much tho!!

Anon said:Hey! I followed you way back when your main output was haikyuu!! comics and once you started putting out more bnha, i had to unf because i had no idea who everyone was rip. but now that ive finally had the chance to watch it i’m glad to come back and see how much you’ve improved!

HECK THANK YOU???? I’m glad you decided to come back????? oh man that’s super flattering !!!

Anon said:Yolo bakusquad bakubowl ?

I don’t really like the whole concept of [character]bowl, sorry!

Anon said:I absolutely adore your art style😍 every time I see your art it makes me happy:)

THANK YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anon said:Can you draw Hawks and Tokoyami together? You are rlly creative and amazing! So I believe you will produce sth. awesome!!!! (If you don’t want to draw Hawks, could you draw a Tokoyami fusion?)

I can draw that! I’m just waiting to know how tall Hawks is compared to him before doing that 👍 be patient pls relative heights are something I’m stupidly fussy about 

Anon said:Burn the whole world to ashes for you? R U serius?! You always killing me dude. I ascended to the heaven of soft things. I N C R E D I B L E. Im sorry for the break down, i was without tumblr 2 months and the firts thing i do is go to your profile. Keep doing this plis im trully love it 😭💖

mAN I’m so glad you liked that one this much, drawing the boys being unreasonably soft with each other is my fav thing to do tbh !!!

Anon said:Omg I can totally imagine Nori and bakushima’s daughter being friends!!!

THEY ARE !!!!!!!

Anon said:Your seromina is amazing!!! I love that ship I feel like it is so underrated! Thank you for this blessed image!! 😭

No prob!! thank you for liking it!!!!!!! I’ve been in such a seromina mood lately, I might actually draw more soon enough!!

Anon said:Omg imagine a Tetsuwase love child. Something tells me they’d be adorable and one rather angry child, considering who their fathers are

I can see them as being quiet and grumpy………. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

Anon said:Hey just wanted to tell you I love your art. It’s so soft and beautiful. My dad doesn’t ship any characters from the series, but he does like the series and he thinks your art and style are really pleasing. We were talking about how nicely you shade and that the style is well developed and lovely to look at. Thanks for making such great art that makes me smile and giving me and my dad yet another thing to bond over.

YO THAT’S SUCH A COOL THING TO HEAR!!!! Thank you to both you and your dad for liking my stuff????? h e c k !!!!!

Anon said:Thanks to you I started reading haikyuu.

I hope you’re enjoying it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[canaryatlaw]

alright, well today was actually pretty good, though the beginning wasn’t great because despite saying last night that I always regret sleeping instead of going to church, once again my desire to sleep won out over my want to go to church, so I just slept for a while longer and eventually got up and got ready for the date under the premise that I had just come back from church because that’s the circumstances we planned under. So I get ready and walk over to the restaurant, he’s looking for a parking space so I wait a few minutes and then he shows up and we go inside. this is the place we got lunch at yesterday which has a bunch of old arcade games and stuff but it’s also a sports bar, and of course today is Sunday which means football, and I had not put it together that it might be packed with screaming football fans. initially they were like uhh idk if we have any open tables but then they found one over by their second door which I was like oh uh that could get cold but apparently it’s an emergency exit so we didn’t have to deal with people coming in and out and letting cold air in (and it was like, 50 today, so that’s a vast improvement over how it’s been). we got cheese curds for an appetizer of course and I got the pancakes I was eyeing yesterday but didn’t want to do bread-like breakfast overload. they get the food out pretty quickly and we start talking. he’s a nice guy, the big draw here is that he is also a Christian and like, a going to church every week one not just using the label as a sure whatever. he was definitely raised in a super conservative Christian environment but I mean so was I and he said he’s been increasingly swinging towards being liberal with all of the bullshit going on in the conservative party, so that was encouraging at least (he did vote for Trump which I was like UGH about but he said he really regrets it so I guess I can let that pass). We did talk about more stuff other than religious and political views, it was just something I wanted to clear because like my contempt for Christians who are defending our current administration’s actions is so massive that it would honestly absolutely be a dealbreaker for me, so it was good to get that out of the way at least. and we talked about some child welfare stuff (or, mostly I ranted about it and why it pisses me off when people talk about tax cuts when they have no fucking clue what these innocent children are going through thanks to what is often an underfunded government) which I mean is like normal first date material at this point for me 😂 I’m not very good at keeping my passions to myself in stuff like this. He still goes to his parent’s church and he wasn’t really crazy about it, said the pastor could get a bit fire and brimstone-y and that their congregation had been dwindling in size (as many have) especially with young people (as many have). so I told him a bit about my church and what I think are the reasons so many millennials are drawn to it to the point where our “young adults” small group category is at like, a few hundred people at this point lol, so that’s had to become a whole program unto itself. he is definitely a (self-professed) nerd but we didn’t get into anything really superhero/comics related other than me talking about future con plans and who I may be meeting. There was a very smooth feel to it all, I still get the little jittery feeling when I’m with like people I don’t really know yet that like makes me want to limit the encounter but I’m generally able to push through it and I knew this was a good interaction and there hadn’t really been anything to throw me off up to this point, which is more than I can say for most of the other boys I’ve gone on dates with. looks wise he’s not bad, I’m sure I could get accustomed to him. so yeah, it was good. he paid, I offered to split it of course but he said it was fine so I accepted that and said thank you. after we paid the check we wandered around their arcade section for a little bit and tried out some of the free machines. there was a WWE one which I somehow managed to beat him at twice, which is odd because normally when it comes to video games I’m yet to master the art of walking and controlling where you’re looking at the same time, which kinda limits most of the things you can do, lol. then we did tetris which I was laughably bad at because I hadn’t played it in years and kept pressing the wrong button. but yeah, it was fun. we left off on a positive note, he of course had to drive all the way back to Wisconsin, he was like “yeah I haven’t really been down to Chicago since like middle school” which I thought was kinda crazy lol. but yeah, it was good, and I think there can be something there. I’m telling myself/hoping I’m not just saying that because he’s the first Christian option to come around in a while, but I do think there’s a legit connection there at least. so we’ll see what happens with that, I’m not in any rush at this point. After seeing him off to his car I walked back to my apartment and set myself to work labeling and wrapping the rest of the caramels, working with the chocolate covered ones now which are tricky because the chocolate is semi-ganache like because I used some heavy cream to thin it out and make dipping easier, so it’s easily prone to melting outside the fridge. but yeah I did that a bit, tomorrow I’ll probably split them up along with the Christmas cookies for the people I promised I would send them to (I ended up with a list of 8, which is good because I probably have like 300 caramels at this point lol). once I was done with that I made a quick dinner and set to watching the last few minutes of the great American baking show episode I left off on the other day, then back to netflix to continue on the great British baking show season I’ve been watching. I ended up almost being at the end of that one, I think I have two episodes left on that one. it’s been pretty good so far, in one of the episodes I watched tonight one of the like, really attractive young guys who’s a law student ffs managed to (TW for blood) cut his finger and not really pay attention to it and when he was kneading his dough it ended up like stretching the cut out and then his hand was like, covered in blood and it was a real HOLY SHIT moment so he of course had to leave to get that all sorted out and they didn’t end up sending anyone home that week (which they do semi-regularly, they just send two people home the next week). Yeah, so I watched that for a bit before starting to get ready for bed and now I’m here. I’m trying to come up with a list of things I want to do tomorrow, I need to do laundry for sure before I leave for NY on Thursday or I won’t have any clean clothes, I need to make it to a store of some sort to get milk so I can make cornbread (because Jess is craving it) and probably shipping materials for the Christmas goodies packages. and maybe (hopefully) look at some job applications and see if there are any worth applying to. so yeah, should be doable. And I get that’s it for now. Sleep seems like a good idea. Goodnight dears. Hope your Monday doesn’t suck.

[yukipri]

I am genuinely amazed at the amount of content you are able to produce regularly! I just saw the various rewards for each tier on your patreon and its awe inspiring! Care to share your work ethic? what pushes you to work so much and how many hours you put in?

My work ethic, which no one should ever imitate because it’s unhealthy and terrible af and is heavily based on a strong sense of worthlessness that unless I’m constantly producing work no one’s gonna stick around: Keep on working, keeping on pushing my limits and convince myself they’re “challenges for improvement” (which they are to an extent), keep on setting goals that I know are impossible and then being filled with self-loathing when I predictably can’t meet them, have the promised deadlines pile up, and then let my anxiety rise until I fulfill them all, and in the meantime more and more new deadlines come up and eventually I crash and have a breakdown ^v^)b

When I can’t get myself to work (as happens quite frequently, when the pressure is too much and it’s overwhelming to the point I feel I can’t do anything, or when I’m art blocking, likely a result of the former), I deny myself basic things until I am forced to move. Meaning, if I can’t draw, I won’t let myself do anything else either, and I will sit at my desk with my art program staring accusingly at me and I won’t let myself sleep/eat/drink/go to the bathroom until I start. Usually once I start I can get into a zone and draw for 10+ hours straight.

(working this way is unfortunately a habit I picked up in college when I had so many freakin papers/readings/tests and I’m a terrible procrastinator)

This is why my sleep schedule keeps on getting pushed back (since this is currently all I do and I have nothing else to regulate my schedule). I used to be able to go to sleep at 4AM, which turned to 6AM, which turned to 10AM, then noon, then 2PM-6PM wow where did all the daylight go LOL.

It is not unusual for me to draw an average of 10 hours a day, 7 days a week. I say on average because I balance out the days where I crash and can’t do more than 4 hours with the days I legit am drawing for 20 hours straight.

Most of my multi-page comics, whether they be 4komas or anything else, can take anywhere between 20-40 hours. Every single character in the Anniversary set takes at least 8 hours (which is why I haven’t done any for the past two weeks, I got sick of them lol). I’m a slow artist, I have to put in the time and effort and force myself to keep at it, and it’s hard ^ ^;

As for what pushes me to work? Before, when I was drawing purely for public, again a sense of self-loathing that my content is worth nothing unless I update regularly, so I set very rigid self-imposed weekly deadlines for myself and would feel awful when I couldn’t meet them ^ ^;

Now, it’s a lot better because it’s more out of a strong sense of gratitude for my patrons who feel my work is worth something, who’ve let me turn my passion into an actual source of semi-stable income, a Job, and therefore I must do Well to provide people their money’s worth to the best of my ability ^ ^; I also feel very strongly that my patrons have given me a Chance to try to make something of my art, and I can’t waste a single day of this incredibly precious time and opportunity to develop my art. I don’t know how long I can continue dedicating all of my time to art or if I’ll ever make minimum wage but I’d like to get there one day, and I know it won’t happen unless I put in the effort on a crowd-funded income system like Patreon. ^ ^;

So yeah, in short, don’t be me LOL

[kamewu]

tl;dr Reflection: 2017 was a wild ride with lots of grammar mistakes. but merry christmas yall!

My past job: I didn’t expect to work at my last job for so long, but all the people there made the decision to stay longer easier. I met a lot of new friends and I don’t regret every moment. At the beginning, I truly felt like I was part of something bigger and I adorned a smile that was trademarked to me. However, as time wore on, I felt really tired and working there felt like a chore. I started noticing that people didn’t treat this job with as much enthusiasm as myself. The thing that took the cake was the 4 STEM courses that I naively took (thinking that math was the best thing ever since sliced bread lol). I started getting constant headaches. I went to school in the morning, forced myself to take an hr nap, got ready for work, and then came home at 9:50 to get working at the math homework that was catered for that week’s quiz. My original plan was to work one whole day and one half day, but the dept head didn’t approve of that. She told me: “Its the rule that you must work three days.” But that was not the case against other people as I saw on the schedule. I realized then that I was merely just labour. So I left.

My academics: When I first started university, I thought that it was the norm to have shit grades. I know people/friends that failed a course or two in their first semester, which made me think it was ok to not try as much. So, I didn’t exactly give in my best effort and continued working at the above job and only got slightly above average grades. It wasn’t until this one guy I met in uni that made me realize that excellant grades were obtainable and that all the grading horror stories I’ve heard of did not have to be my destined future. So in Summer 2017, I put in my all and got variations of As in all my courses. But the semester after that turned sour. It was clockwork in the amount of quizzes that were offered per week. After the first four set of midterms were over, the second set of four rolled around. But thankfully I quit my job before I had the first midterm. I feel like I’m beating myself over a few decimal points in calculating my gpa. I know that you have told me to not stress as much but I help comparing that 0.05 difference with someone else.

My relationships: lol no bf. #foreveralone. Ok but regardless of that, I met so many new people this year! Whether its from T&T or from school, I managed to at least try to step out of my comfort zone. Admittedly, I’m quite overwhelmed at times, but I truly do believe that I made an effort and that I should be giving myself more credit for that.

My spending: LOL what is saving! I wouldn’t say that I forced myself to spend, but sometimes I feel that way? Learn now than later amirite? So the first outfit I’ve ever bought with money I earned from my jobs was this blue sweater and black pants from H&M. Well, the sweater lost its colour and so did the pants. But the sweater looks so bad that I don’t even know whether to give it away or wat. I still wear the pants though. Since then and probs $700 later, I’ve bought clothes from a number of places (HBC, forever21, H&M, Old navy, Muji, Uniqlo, Winners, Urban Behaviour, Yesstyle, lol i can list them out) and I would be able to tell you whats the best way to buy clothes. If you want some cheap basics (ie tshirts, jeans), H&M and Old Navy aren’t terrible options. Things other than that from H&M that I’ve bought had: a couple of holes after maybe 3 washes or had lost its colour (the sweater). I found that although the material of Uniqlo clothing is much better in comparison to American fast fashion retailers, their clothes arent constructed as well - ie the cut. I’ve only bought one shirt there (later returned), but my friend said the same thing about her flannel? I’ve only bought one thing from Muji but I noticed that a lot of thought was taken into account towards this item - the seams were beautiful and I’ve never seen any shirt with a hem like that ever. Notorious for the number of older women shopping there, HBC was the best bet for me. I loved every item I got there (except for these boots that I kept hoping that I would eventually break them in >:( ).

My social life: Its fairly non-existant let me tell you that. I’m sorry to all the people that have messaged me and I ended up replying a week later. I know that I promised to go on more often after I quit my job, but I didn’t uphold that promise. In fact, I think I went on facebook even less LOL. School was tiring and I eventually felt that I was going on fb out of my free will. I deleted ig and sc too and I practically lost all connections to my friends except for the close few that have my number and still text me. I found that people are less inclined to text and I feel thats ok cos eventually I’ll find the ideal types of friends. I usually don’t dwell on the bad parts of the past, so I truly dont regret meeting anyone. So thanks to you UBC, I got to meet the coolest people ever at sfu and t&t! #still_salty_tho. I haven’t elaborated on this but the reason why I stopped using social media is because it made me sad. One day, as I was scrolling through my feed, I saw the posted memories that people were creating with their friends and it made me feel bitter. I know that I have incredible friends and I still cherish all the people that I don’t talk to anymore, but I was feeling really upset over that and so I deleted everything so I couldn’t see the feed anymore. Well anyways, I recently downloaded it again, and it doesn’t give me the stimulus that it once provided. So I guess I’m deleting ig for the billionth time hahaha. So I’ll dump all the things that I would’ve posted on ig here with the addition of tl;drs! Enjoy my shit-posting!

My art: I haven’t drawn much since I’ve been pre-occupied with school and work and when I do have free time, I go out. But, I think it’s pretty clear that i’ve improved since the beginning of the year with this drawing. You needa click on the image to see all the details but ok.

I may or may not also post some irl photos, but stay tuned for that :).

Here’s to 2018!

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Best and Worst Reads of 2019

Let’s talk about books baby…

Before I get into my favorite and least favorite reads of 2019 I want to talk about the rating system that I adopted halfway through the year. I now use the CAWPILE method which I got from G. over at Book Roast on Youtube though I’ve changed it some.

CAWPILE breaks down a book into 7 different categories:

C = Characters Backstory Growth Arc Did you feel like you knew them? Were you invested? A = Atmosphere World Building W = Writing Style Did you like the Writing Style? P = Plot Did you like the plot? Were you able to follow it? I = Immersion Did the book keep your attention? Did you want to keep reading? L = Logic Did things make sense to you in the context of the story? E = Enjoyment Did you enjoy this book?

Now here’s where I made changes G. rates each section out of 10 then does some math to make it fit into the Goodreads 0-5 start scale. I, on the other hand, wanted something more simple so I rate my categories out of 5 stars then add each section up then divide by 7 (because there are 7 categories) For example:

Here is my break down of The Young Queens by Kendare Blake, which I loved but wasn’t one of my fav’s of the year.

C = Characters 3 Stars A = Atmosphere 5 Stars W = Writing Style 5 Stars P = Plot 5 Stars I = Immersion  5 Stars L = Logic  5 Stars E = Enjoyment  5 Stars = 33 out of 35 33 devided by 7 is 4.712% which makes my raiting for the book a 4.75 out of 5 stars.

I wanted to start off this post by going over my favorite and least books of 2019, let’s start chronologically with my favorites:

In an Absent Dream by Seanan McGuire 5 out of 5 stars

This is the fourth installment in the Wayward Children series or novellas. For those that don’t know these books follow children that have made their way into portal worlds like Oz and Wonderland but have for one reason or another been spit back out into our world. The kids usually cant readjust so they are sent to special boarding schools. The one school, in particular, is Eleanor West’s Home for Wayward Children. The first three played off each other whereas this one we follow a child we haven’t met in other books. If fact this book takes place years before the first three books in the series.

In an Absent Dream follows Lundy, a very serious young girl who would rather study and dream than become a respectable housewife and live up to the expectations of the world around her. As well she should.

When she finds a doorway to a world founded on logic and reason, riddles and lies, she thinks she's found her paradise. Alas, everything costs at the goblin market, and when her time there is drawing to a close, she makes the kind of bargain that never plays out well.

NOTE* I read this book prior to adopting my new rating system but I think my rating would be somewhere between 4.5-5 stars with my new system.

The Savior's Champion by Jenna Moreci 5 out of 5 stars both times with a CAWPILE rating of 35

This is a self-published book that in my opinion would rival any traditionally published work. The Savior's Champion is the first in a series of which I can’t wait for more to come out... This story had me hooked from the first chapter which I read before it came out in 2018. I got this book on Audio and the narrator Nick Denton, who is a sweetheart by the way, is amazing.

This book follows Tobias Kaya doesn't care about The Savior. He doesn't care that She's the Ruler of the realm or that She purified the land, and he certainly doesn't care that She's of age to be married. But when competing for Her hand proves to be his last chance to save his family, he's forced to make The Savior his priority.

Now Tobias is thrown into the Sovereign's Tournament with nineteen other men, and each of them is fighting -- and killing -- for the chance to rule at The Savior's side. Instantly his world is plagued with violence, treachery, and manipulation, revealing the hidden ugliness of his proud realm. And when his circumstances seem especially dire, he stumbles into an unexpected romance, one that opens him up to unimaginable dangers and darkness.

Trigger warning: this novel contains graphic violence, adult language, and sexual situations.

The Ruin of Kings by Jenn Lyons 5 out of 5 stars both times with a CAWPILE rating of 35

This is the first book in a high fantasy series (or trilogy I don’t really know which lol) The story grabbed me right away but it did take a second to get used to because you are following Kihrin through two parts of his life and the story jumps from the past to the present throughout the book. I listened to this book on audio and it was amazing. The THREE narrators (Vikas Adam (Kihrin), Feodor Chin (Thurvishar), and Soneela Nankani (Talon)) were amazing and I only hope book 2 and eventually book 3 will have the same VOA’s

Kihrin grew up in the slums of Quur, a thief and a minstrel's son raised on tales of long-lost princes and magnificent quests. When he is claimed against his will as the missing son of a treasonous prince, Kihrin finds himself at the mercy of his new family's ruthless power plays and political ambitions.

Practically a prisoner, Kihrin discovers that being a long-lost prince is nothing like what the storybooks promised. The storybooks have lied about a lot of other things, too: dragons, demons, gods, prophecies, and how the hero always wins.

Then again, maybe he isn't the hero after all. For Kihrin is not destined to save the world.

He's destined to destroy it.

Now on to the ones you really care about, I know you just skipped to this part…

I only had three disappointing reads this year and one of them was a re-try that I had DNFed when I got the ARC.

Genuine Fraud by E. Lockhart DNFed AGAIN

Imogen is a runaway heiress, an orphan, a cook, and a cheat. Jule is a fighter, a social chameleon, and an athlete. An intense friendship. A disappearance. A murder, or maybe two. A bad romance, or maybe three. Blunt objects, disguises, blood, and chocolate. The American dream, superheroes, spies, and villains. A girl who refuses to give people what they want from her. A girl who refuses to be the person she once was.

I first got this book as an ARC back before it came out (obviously)  I got 50 pages in and I wanted to rip my hair out that’s how much I was disliking it. So I thought that maybe Mystery-Thrillers weren’t for me. But now having a few under my belt and I’m liking these genres I’d give it another go especially since some of my favorite book bloggers and booktubers really enjoyed it.

Oh boy was I WRONG. I made it to that same spot and wanted to rip my hair out but I thought no keep going maybe it will get better. Wrong again, the MC was bland and boring and found myself wishing she would adopt a good personality or really any personality at all would be a vast improvement over who she was portraying at any given time. I didn’t care about the plot or her backstory or why she was hiding.

So I DNFed this book for a second time at around 100 pages.

The Umbrella Academy, Vol. 1: The Apocalypse Suite by Gerard Way 1 out of 5 stars

In an inexplicable worldwide event, forty-seven extraordinary children were spontaneously born to women who'd previously shown no signs of pregnancy. Millionaire inventor Reginald Hargreeves adopted seven of the children; when asked why, his only explanation was, "To save the world."

These seven children form the Umbrella Academy, a dysfunctional family of superheroes with bizarre powers. Their first adventure at the age of ten pits them against an erratic and deadly Eiffel Tower, piloted by the fearsome zombie-robot Gustave Eiffel. Nearly a decade later, the team disbands, but when Hargreeves unexpectedly dies, these disgruntled siblings reunite just in time to save the world once again.

This may have been partly my fault because I watched the Netflix adaptation before I knew the source material existed. I LOVED the show, it is hands down one of my new favorites but the graphic novel wasn’t well put together. I have been reading graphic novels and comics my whole life and I know you’re not getting a novel with dialogue and story spelled out for you. I know that there is a harmony between what is written and the art but the artist had to work twice as hard to convey the story. What little written word was there wasn’t the best.

I did like the art style it was fun and really the only thing that kept me going thought out this volume. I won’t continue in the series as far as the graphic novel is concerned but I am highly anticipating the next season of the show.

The Wonderful Wizard of Oz by L. Frank Baum 2 out of 5 stars

When Dorothy and her little dog Toto are caught in a tornado, they and their Kansas farmhouse are suddenly transported to Oz, where Munchkins live, monkeys fly and Wicked Witches rule. Desperate to return home, and with the Wicked Witch of the West on their trail, Dorothy and Toto - together with new friends the Tin Woodsman, Scarecrow and Cowardly Lion - embark on a fantastic quest along the Yellow Brick Road in search of the Emerald City. There they hope to meet the legendary, all-powerful Wizard of Oz, who alone may hold the power to grant their every wish.

I grew up with both the movies and had been a huge fan since childhood. The filmmakers took a lot of successful liberties with this story and were able to convey everything so much better than Baum. My least favorite part was the Witches of Oz, the Wicked Witch of the West she seemed more like a stern grandmother than an evil witch, though she had her moments with the Tin Man, Lion, and the Scarecrow.

But I will continue in the series because it is a goal of mine to read them all.

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Hi, so I have an idea for a fanfic but its really weird and I'm afraid to write it or post it, I've tried to 'subtly' tell other people to write it for me but they just encourage me to write it myself. Any advice?

alright, it seems like you really mean no harm so i’m going to explain the flaw in your plan here.

just like you can’t ask a fan artist to draw your favorite characters, you can’t ask a fic writer to write the fic you want. and i’m not trying not to be mean right now, i promise, because there’s layers to this, it’s like an onion (subtly quoting shrek lol). 

sure, both artists and writers have request asks and contests and friends might writer each other or draw each other things but all possibilites aside, what it comes down to is: if it’s not the writer’s idea / they have no interest in it / they have no incentive to do it, they probably won’t write it, especially if the ship / topic does not float their boat. and even with the chance you are friends with these writer’s, they still might not write it just because they’re to busy or they have to many other fics or the fic idea again, might not float their boat. it really all comes down to the whole, “the arts takes time and love energy” and they really do and fan creators as a whole just can’t be thought of in a way where they’re an endless, unstoppable creating machine.

now, my advice for you is to write this yourself. if you find this idea so compelling and you want it to happen, definetely write it, even if you think you can’t. because once you do, it’ll be done! and you’ll have it to look at always and it’ll be yours. and two, when you improve on your writing, you can always write again, just how you want! and then you’ll have two versions to look at and they’ll both be yours. of course, even if you still don’t want to write it, my last piece of advice would be to wait for a fic writer to take requests and send them your idea and just wait to see if they write it, because even in that case, they may never get to your prompt, again because of time and energy.

but, go anon, go on and try your best, write the fic of your dreams xxx

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About Valve OCs and the blog

This has been on my mind for a while.

This blog never got a satisfying end in my books, and I’m sure for other readers as well. Even though closure is a myth perpetuated by mainstream media, I will make this post to try to rectify past mistakes and general truancy of this blog. I have my own suspicions that most of my readers are dead (considering all of the porn bots are now starting to follow me), so I write this post in the darkness of the night into the void that is Tumblr. Read my cry if you care.

Firstly, this blog will never update again. There are multiple factors that have led to this blog’s extinction and I think they’re important to address

Motivation

This blog took up a large chunk of my life back when it was active. Don’t get me wrong, bad art still gets me to cringe and I find myself on occasion still pining over weird ocs and art styles on Deviantart. However, maintaining it as a blog with daily updates became a chore for me along with promising critiques of ocs and such. I’ve come to discover that I can’t do what I love as “””work”””. While bad art still remains a passion for me, I don’t see myself continuing this in blog format.

OCs have changed

The OC market has changed. Base art has definitely taken a downturn in the past few years and you’re more likely to see people hand-drawing their ocs or writing them out. Thanks with the culture of memeing about bootleg fandom ocs (This is my own original character blonic, donut steels) , it seems that people are more drawn towards creating their own worlds and characters rather than shoving their mary sue into their current fan favorite content. These are good changes in terms of originality for artists and writers in my opinion.

However, a lot of the formats for OCs have changed as well. There tends to be an emphasis on their sexuality and race in OC culture now. I don’t consider that a bad thing but I’d rather not poke that hornet’s nest of gender identity and race of fictional characters. What used to be the standard straight, bi, gay has expanded into other territories that I am unfamiliar with and now we have more ocs outside of the standard white chick but with Japanese last name because the creator really likes naruto. Again, this just seems to be the trend and I think my last few revival posts kinda show them.

Valve as a games publisher

LOL when’s half life 3???

Valve has definitely moved from being a game developer to a digital distributor.  Steam definitely seems to be their focus outside of Hat/Weapon Skin collecting and online gambling (and also their weird consoles/controllers???). Not that I would continue this blog if they released more content (They published another update to the TF2 comic, can’t wait for that to get updated in a year).

Along with this slump of their own original content, this has led to a slump in original characters for their franchises. There are not as many fan ocs and art isn’t being produced for their franchises (except maybe with comic updates for TF2 and nostalgia for old games).

This blog was created at the optimal time imo with L4D2 still being fresh, TF2 still having an active userbase, and Portal 2 giving some great content in terms of creative material.

Also I’m not interested in reviewing Dota 2 art and I don’t think there are enough Counterstrike ocs.

Negativity

I don’t know if this blog was a source of positive or negative energy. On one hand, I was ridiculing people’s art without much hesitation and not acknowledging how much time and effort that might have been put in by the artist. But on the other hand, it provided laughs for people during its duration and gave me a creative outlet in terms of humor, arguments, and writing. I think I did my best to avoid any harassment for these artists by removing any watermarks that might lead any rude reader to them, but I’ll never know if they suffered any bullying. Obviously I’m not going to put this on my resume as work experience but I like to think that this blog help think critically about their content, regardless of what role you played on the blog be it me, a submitter, an observer, or the subject. Maybe if some supreme being questions why I started this blog in the afterlife, I can tell them I did it for the lolz.

In the end, I think I did more harm than any general good for the world and nobody will really understand that weird pain if I try to repent for it publicly. I don’t know of any key examples of this (or really remember because I haven’t done this shit in years), but I do apologize if I ruined anyone’s ambitions for writing/drawing.

I’m glad there is a stronger hugbox mentality for artists who aren’t very good and I embrace that style of encouragement. I guess my only concern is veering too far into that and just embracing everything as perfect and awesome and never improving. Criticism has its place in society.

Perhaps the real lesson is that who the hell gives a shit about what you post on the internet. Why should you give a stranger any control over how much your art is worth? However, this also gives the argument into determining if any of your art is worth anything based on your preconceived notions on your art’s merits since you are only a stranger to me. Why should you tell me that your art is valid and equal to anything else produced when it looks like you drew it with your tablet pen stuck up your ass?

Maybe we all just need to learn to stop giving invisible voices the power to ruin our emotional states and work on our self satisfaction.

Growing up????

I wrote most of this blog like a million years ago. It was a stronger part of my identity and a part of a community in a way of similar blogs in the same style. But I don’t really relate to the content as much I used to. Valve games are still near and dear to me, but they’re more nostalgic than my current flame and muse. I feel the same happened to other blogs in the same vein as mine. Perhaps also age and the changes of time led to our own focuses in our own lives than looking at the scribbles of some stranger on the internet. While it’s still one of my internet past times, it is not my main focus in life to critique bad art (unless it starts paying serious dosh). I just don’t relate to the words and passions anymore. In a way, this is my own cringe that artists produce when they’re young on Deviantart. It’s kind of funny in a weird way.

This blog will continue to remain up but I’ll probably move into another blog of some sort (I accidentally made this my primary blog and I can’t delete it). It sort of became my main lurking blog and I guess its time that I make a less weird not ghost blog (I’m probably confusing a lot of the people that I follow with my constant hearts and comments).

I guess I wanna say thanks for all of the people who followed this blog and its contents. I probably wouldn’t have continued for very long without followers so you’re all to blame for this negative impact I’ve made on the world (jkjk). I like to think we’re connected with our mutual spirit in improving how we create things and wanting to see improvement in others. I think this blog helped me see the dumbest of things and not be afraid to say it was dumb and I hope it did for you as well. I also hope it brought you laughs in the content that was displayed or the humor I attempted to convey. It did genuinely warm my heart whenever I got a heart, reply, reblog, or messages to keep up the work. It kind of makes me sad to think that I left rather abruptly, but better blogs have died quicker and quieter. Simple fact of life really. Thank god my ego keeps me in check to constantly remind people of my existence.

To any artists out there, bad art is a fact of life. You do not come out of the womb knowing how to do two point perspective and 3d shapes. You mess up doing 3d shapes each any every time until you get it and then move on to the next thing you’re not good at. There’s a common TIL leddit post about how Michaelangelo burnt all of his old works so nobody would know how bad he was when he was starting out. I don’t know how true that is, but that’s not a great mentality to have for your art. Seeing that bridge between your former self and current self is important for seeing self growth in your skills. Plus you won’t have those juicy likes and comments on instagram when you do the art redraw and show how far you come like how can you skimp on that you dingus.

All of the great content creators right now love showing off the shitty art they did as kids because it gives them a sense of progress in their work and their accomplishments and continues to drive them in their own works. (unless you’re rebecca sugar and drew ed edd and eddy shipping porn lol). Heck, some of them even take the stuff that was once cliche characters and expanded on them in their own Original Universe Donut Steel. And thanks to their own Original Universe Donut Steel, now tens of thousands of impressionable young artists can look at it and say “that’s awesome, but it would be way better if there was my own character...”.

OCs are weirdly one of the ultimate ways of fan expression where you enjoy the content so much you wish you were part of it. Even though it’s very disjointed and out of place, it’s usually done in a place of love for the franchise or the characters. So for those of you that are doing that still, keep at it I guess.

Fan art is sorta in the same way where you enjoy something so much that you want to replicate the style/themes/characters in your own or the content’s style. While not as extreme, it’s still in the same place of love and people generally like that more than original shit anyways so continue to make it so I can buy your posters at anime conventions without supporting the original creator lol. 

If you want to harass me further for my sins against budding artists, I guess I’ll link my personal blog if anyone actually asks me. I also wrote this at 3 am so it is extremely unedited and awful but it’s the most “pure” for my usual diatribe. Consider it my first OC for the blog.

Good night, good life, and farewell.

[purty-pumpkin]

Blog Tag

Was tagged by @jwilliambyers , thank you muchly, Anita!!

1. why did you choose your url?

“Purty pumpkin” was something I said in an old home movie when I was about 4, describing a jack-o-lantern that my dad had carved.  I had a VERY strong southern accent at that age and my family makes fun of how I said ‘purty’ in the video all the time lol.

2. any side blogs?

Nope, I just dump whatever nonsense onto just this blog.  Keeps my followers on their toes.

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

Probably since around 2012?  I may have only actually gotten my own tumblr in 2013 but I can’t remember.  I just know I hadn’t even heard of this hellsite till I got to college and a friend talked about it one day.

4. do you have a queue tag?

Nah, I just post things as I go.  One might say I’ve been on here for 8+ years and I still don’t know how to properly utilize any of Tumblr’s functions. :D

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

My sister @memory-vacant got one and eventually convinced me just to get my own instead of just sorta sharing hers and also looking through specific blogs.

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

I usually try to use my own drawings as my icons and also I always get Henry Blake on ‘which character are you’ M*A*S*H quizzes lol.

7. why did you choose your header?

Once again, I like using my own art.  That header is a picture I’m still really happy with, which doesn’t usually happen with my drawings. (oh and it’s reddie obviously cause i’m still in clown-hell two years on XD)

8. what’s your post with the most notes?

This fucking drawing.  Which is one of the first Reddie drawings I did, I’ve improved so much since then, and that fucker still gets notes every so often. -_-     (I’m happy people like it, and when it first got so many notes that’s the most I’d ever gotten, so that’s pretty fucking cool.  But as I say, it was so long ago and I’ve gotten better at drawing, I promise lol)

9. how many mutuals do you have?

About 16 who blog regularly.  I treasure each and every one of them <3

10. how many followers do you have?

579, which is far more than I ever thought I’d have.

11. how many people do you follow?

It’s at 70 rn but I try to keep it at 69, both for the lolz and just cause I like actually seeing all the posts that the people I follow post.  If I followed too many people I feel like I’d inevitably miss stuff and it’d be too much to keep track of.

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

I mean...probably? But I don’t make original text posts that often.  One could argue that some of my drawings/comics are just visual shitposts...

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

TOO often haha.  First thing in the morning after I wake up, sporadically through the day, definitely before I go to bed.  Pretty much most down-time I have.

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

Nope  : )  I’m too uninteresting for people to bother.  PLUS I would much rather use the block button than start shit with some stranger on the internet who I disagree with.

15. how do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

As a tumblr veteran I have an immediate negative reaction to them.  I may reblog a post that says that but I certainly don’t feel any guilt if I don’t.  Absolutely some things need to be signal boosted tho.

16. do you like tag games?

      Getting tagged is always nice, it’s lovely to be thought of : )

17. do you like ask games?

I like sending people asks for their games but I don’t typically reblog ask games myself.

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

Y’all are all famous in my book.  *blows kisses*

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

I experience that “senpai noticed me” thing when I get messages or when I’m tagged by my mutuals.  I love them all <3<3<3 I’ll tag: @memory-vacant , @hexstrike16 , @horaetio , @skelesocks , @onekisstotakewithme , @reddiegays , and anyone else who’d like to do this!