#i presented the results well i think.

[puncheur]

ohhhh the urge to hand in my paper without proofreading is Strong. searching for the last shreds of my pride to save me

[fvckw4d]

I don't know how to explain it exactly, but Danny phantom (the show)'s identity and tone problems make the whole viewing experience kind of uncanny, like it's forever trapped between the two entirely different genres of wacky superhero comedy and serial horror thriller, as if it was both simultaneously two incompatible things at the same time,

[daily-hanamura]

[fisheito]

What is this weirdly feelyweely status exclusive to yakumo

[du-hjarta-skulblaka]

It's never going to happen bc I don't have the skill or the determination or the simple understanding to actually do it but lately I've been thinking about potential video essays on...I'm not even sure. Autistic joy? Trans joy? The sheer unique joy of being me and of being a human who thinks and feels and how that's different but the same as so many other people. Like I'll legit start plotting out scripts in my head for how I would explain it to people (which I do alot for special interests and such but rarely to explain Myself) and a big part of me would love to just. Talk. About how it feels to be Me. But I'm also very unlikely to do that lol

[neverendingford]

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[indigodawns]

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[happyk44]

There is so little info around HPD, it's frustrating, I just wanna see how an atypical or covert presentation would come across and then write a bunch of stupid HPD!Piper posts about it 😩

[anthromimicry]

sorry, halsey — hopeless fountain kingdom.

[penwrythe]

After seeing the recent II episode, I've seen ND fans discussing how Cabby is treated in the episode. I also saw Justin comment his thoughts on the discussion as well.

Part of me want to share some insight into how I rewrote a scene in my script for Rise of Relics to remove an ableist implication of Nicodemus' behavior towards Nikey (see this post here about it). There's also another scene I plan to rewrite as well that has a few ableist implications and I want to show how to improve it with research and listening to those with physical disabilities.

I'm not sure if it's alright for me to share this, as some of the II fans have similar symptoms to Cabby's memory issues, I do not want to speak over them as I do not have any memory symptoms as they do. What I do have, in reference to the scene in Rise of Relics, is anxiety and (possible) undiagnosed OCD, and Nikey is written with the implication of having both of these. The other scene I want to later rewrite is also in reference to how Nikey finds comfort in others, sometimes invasively due to having poor coping skills, and Nicodemus is often the person who helps ground her.

I think it's best for me to listen to those who are most affected by the episode before I say anything. But, one thing I say is that condemning a character's aids and accommodations they use to cope with their symptoms is wrong. Showing unhealthy coping mechanisms is okay (carefully saying this while keeping in mind my own experience coping with anxiety), but I do think this episode should have been written with more care.

To Justin and the Inanimate Insanity team, please consult sensitivity readers for your scripts in the future, please.

[chaddicus]

see the longer I play with my understanding of my transmasc experience and dysphoria, the more I grapple with the conflict between mocking fragile masculinity for refusing to allow the use of 'feminine' things vs knowing more and more keenly how much dysphoria I would and do get whenever someone associates something I do or use or wear with femininity. and no amount of people insisting that using "feminine" things doesn't invalidate someone's gender, man or otherwise, seems to have any impact on that dysphoria

we do need to untangle cultural perceptions of masculine vs feminine and respect for a person's gender, manhood in particular in this discussion, but I almost feel like knowing that means it's my responsibility to refuse to engage with those ideas for my own gender — and the problem is that knowing this is not the common understanding means knowing that other people *will* associate my use of feminine things as some sort of contradiction with any masculinity I may wish to express or identify with, and no amount of understanding the concepts and holding the principles can erase the revulsion and pain and fear I feel at the thought of people associating me with some concept of womanhood that I adamantly *do not experience or identify with.* fuck.

[early-sxnsets]

haaaaiiii guyyyyssss (gn) probably gonna be on here more often again soon. life events occurring. have occurred? still occurring, i suppose.

i'll probably post abt it more in depth at some ltr point, still in the very early stages of some stuff. i dont want to classify them as positive or negative things, however they're certainly things.

there's a lot of thoughts in my brain (hah), and ultimately i want to share them, but for now this is kind of me waving at everyone with a smile while my life has an "under construction" sign

[unproduciblesmackdown]

forsooth reread the first part of lackadaisy and just a few excerpts, particularly w/a visual focus

like i said, that i started reading this in '07 (which, consulting the copyrights, means the end of this section was still Currently Updating at that time, very fun for me, i do also remember A Break b/w the end of that section & the first page of part two b/c i remember being so [oouhh hell yes] when that updated)

mentioning the off the shits quality right from the start and like, around this age maybe already starting to draw a bit more / beyond like doodles to pass the time at school or at home largely; not being at all very Online yet to know abt what the hell people post anywhere so like my god people not only just make their own comics, not only are they essentially ongoing graphic novels, someone can also just be making something this high quality....intriguing and just holistically inspirational on the artistic front, that people just Were out there able to just do this kind of stuff, nonprofessionally, b/c they wanted to. and just the intrigue of like, i loved keeping up with it as a whole then & since, the historical element is fun, the drama & mystery elements, the dynamic adventure aspect, the slightly lighthearted playful nature of the work overall (jellicle...), the constant relevance of Character and the constant progression of Story

but also it sure occurred to me that a big like Artistic Illumination & Motivation element of it is how immediately effectively quasi three-dimensional the art is, especially with the figures: the realistically consistent geometry in changing perspectives / characters being consistently constructed out of would-be three-dimensional shapes, the Lighting/Shading doing a ton to define the 3D shapes, the use of fabric wrinkling adding not just visual detail but following form & movement....middle school / would-be high school years as sure a particularly transformative time for my drawing like, hey, i can just do stuff, hey i can make & post niche fanart so that i'm motivated to draw just a lot more b/c i really am hardly moved to do it outside of that lmao....and i imagine that having This dropped in my lap and like, its feeling pretty immediate was this inspiration of like, organically selling this approach of Constructing Figures / to be thinking of things very three-dimensionally even when it Wasn't actually like, animation or an elaborate still life. like evidently my own art is very Line focused but i would say i'm also definitely thinking of figures as 3D like this / striving for the linework serving that too, or just generally striving for more [the Geometry works "realistically" despite obvious stylization, as it clearly does w/lackadaisy]

[dan-crimes]

Me and my issue with always overcomplicating every character I make smh smh

I mean I think part the issue is that I wouldn't even know how I myself would react in a lotta situations cuz you have to think about the specific person, the environment, how I'm feeling in that moment (emotionally and physically), if other people are around and also the type of response I'm looking for

Like in the moment it's a no brainer for me but if I think about a moment in THEORY then I overthink it

Which also leads to me overthinking every possible interaction and response a character will make like idk how they would act in that situation! Is there some sort of backstory reason that they might have a certain reaction to that thing! Have they thought about this interaction before or are they going in without any preperations for this interaction! Do they think before they speak!! How am I suppose to write a character who doesn't think before they speak while I am literally thinking before they speak

[lostiethoughts]

i think the idea of fate and determinism lies not in our "future" (our "destiny") but actually much more in our relationship with our present. the idea of us being creatures of habit is reflected in how we view and put meaning into our past into determine our actions and choices today, and what the consequences of that will be tomorrow. but we do not live in a vacuum so all the choices we make still, as a result, affect others and therefore the choices they make because of that.

but either way the more i think about it the more "our future resembles our past" makes total sense to me, because we as creatures of habit, in our nature, despite our desire to find meaning, are defined by the choices we have made before, which in some way or another dictate a choice we make in the future. it's why the idea of personality exists, a way to categorize the pattern behind the history of our decision making, as a representation of our uniqueness, our soul, who we are in the world. and in the same way humanity has an identity - a personality - of its own, of values we've given name to, a range of good and bad and in between. of greed and companionship and envy and curiosity and love and hate and competition and vengeance and nostalgia and hope and pride and humility. we are diametrically contradictory creatures, hypocrites, prone to extremes in both our need for ourselves (survival) and our need for others. all of these are natural characteristics we have as humans and have put beliefs on, beliefs which are the fundamental idea of behavioral patterns.

but the things we believe result in the choices we make in the world; and in turn the nature of time puts those choices in the axes of cause and effect. the beliefs we hold as humans all of which stem from the past are directly linked to the choices we make in the future; therefore there is no breaking free from the fabric of space time being something that exists with stability rather than instability. i made the choices i have because of who i am; if i would've made any choice from my past differently then i would not be the person i am and have always been. not because i didn't decide to make that choice, but that there is something unique in the person that i am right now and that i have always known myself to be to make the decisions i have, and despite the thought experiment, no idea of parallel universes stemming from different decision making will change who i am fundamentally as a person: and therefore, the decisions i know i have indeed made

it's mostly to say that our inevitability does not lie in the expanse of time, but rather in who we are and the choices we decide to make, every day. sometimes there's luck (in coincidences of the universe), and oftentimes other people's decisions affect our beliefs, and therefore our own. and yet there is still the core truth of free will, of us being able to make whatever decisions we want: and yet those are formed by our experiences and knowledge (which we can only acquire by being curious enough), and do not exist in a vacuum outside of our patterns of behavior, our habits, formulated by our beliefs.

and so, the past resembles the future because for that all we progress in terms of other aspects of our modern lives, one thing remains constant: we are human. we are as human as the ones before us, and we are as human as the ones after us. therefore, of course we will fight. we will kill. we will seek dominance. we will torment and torture. but we will also love and help and be curious and create communities and try to learn the meaning of the world, and why we're here. so through all the suffering of the world, we will still see and love each other through our shared humanity; for all the people who create the pain, there will always be people who wish to heal that pain.

that speaks to the nature of humanity; of past and present; of how we cannot escape our inevitable ends. but our fate is not those ends, but rather the journey we have along the way - a journey that is guided by our decisions, which then in turn is affected by the patterns established from our past, whether as an individual or a community or culture. the future resembles the past because we are as human as we have always been; and just like the chaos in nature and the chaos in ourselves, there is something beautiful about that

[crossbackpoke-check]

Fixed point (mathematics) // The History of Perspective // "Point of Disappearance", Dennis Held // How the Hughes hockey family stays grounded // Fixed Point Photography-- // "Portrait of A.", Tung-Hui Hu // Mic'd Up | Hughes NHL 25 cover shoot // "Burnt Norton", T.S. Eliot // "Circuitry", Janine Joseph // Bruce Bennett // Nick Wass // from obedience [maybe one day, during a point in time], kari edwards // Bill Rapai // "Errand Upon Which We Came", Stephanie Strickland // Benchmark (surveying)

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