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something soft based on this fic by @hero-in-waiting because I spent like a week reading it, saw a good pose reference on Pinterest, and promptly blacked out
#tgm#hangster#top gun maverick#top gun rooster#top gun hangman#bradley rooster bradshaw#jake hangman seresin#it was crazy the ref came across my pinterest home page and it was just like okay gonna draw now i guess lmao#art#digital art#illustration#fanart#artists on tumblr#clip studio paint#csp#top gun fanfiction#i need to stop reading really good fics because then i want to DRAW FOR THEM
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I SWEAR I KEEP TRYING TO DO ART BUT THEN SOMETHING GETS IN THE WAY AND THEN I PROCRASTINATE AND THEN SIX MONTHS PASS
#this has been happening for like TWO YEARS BUT I SWEAR TO GOD I AM TRYING.#my usual art motivation (my webcomic idea) has been put on hold for a bit and because of that i forgort... everything#my will to draw specifically#but in my defense i have been writing k*arlach / oc indulgences and i've been VERY focused on finishing it#i also got a marketing manager (my friend <3) to help with advertising my comms and stuff so uh... look forward 2 that#i might need to start posting all of my art on a sideblog so she doesn't have to log into my main though#so there might be some changes#but i promise i want to do art!!!! but there's always something to do first and then months pass :(#or i get the urge to draw and then life is like ''have a cancer scare'' lmao...#(ended up being cancerous actually </3 but because it's skin stuff it was easy to remove)#(but that really took the piss out of me for most of july... not to mention that ffxiv released a new expansion and i have been...#having a good time with my new friends doing content and stuff!) i also made a friend irl after like 3-4 years of total isolation#we feed ants and watch them move around together and comment on their behaviour patterns...#but like when i say this takes literal hours.#we just sit out there and talk about random shit and watch ants walk across the floor. both of us hate ants btw.#like we don't like having them ON us so it's a bit like playing with fire.#but anyways yeah i've also been really low energy recently too bc of the heat and burnout from college...#but the good news is that i'm transferring in fall to a much more relaxing college & courseload!#i'm hoping it'll stop me from feeling so... awful ?? i guess ??#like i was taking classes i didn't need to that were really difficult & punishing#not to mention extremely boring & hard to pay attention to when dealing with literally anything. i did not want to be there.#my next college is much more interest-oriented so i will finally be able to take classes i want to and learn from them...!#and then maybe i will feel a bit more in control of my life / more encouraged to draw#anyways thank u for reading my ramble. hoping it all comes together soon.#i need to do a lot of work but most of it is so i can sell commissions again#but once the karlach fic is done we're so back on the webcomic train !!!!!!!!
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I ATE THE WHOLE DAISUKE DATING HC AND I MUST SAY ALL THE BRAINROT THAT HAS BEEN STEWING IN MY MIND!!!
I think he's such a golden retriever bf đ like both waysâ sfw and nsfw. HES SO DOWN BAD FOR YOU, he loves you so much and fjdkkd if his partner also has physical contact as a primary love language, he would die for headpats. Like genuinely, give this guy headpats be when you two are cuddling or when you are both in an intimate moment. You could reward him with a little patpat on the head when Swansea is not looking, and he would lean in to your touch a little bit before reminding himself, he needs to learn!! he needs to make you proud
NOW NSFW-WISEE.....
Praise kink goes so hard on him is insane
He could be eating you out with sparkles in his eyes, almost like asking if he's doing a good job, and if you do express it, tell him he's such a good boy, how good you are feeling because of HIM, he's going to go harder on you out of pure happinessâhes doing a good job!! you're like this because of his work and that amazes him
i could write more but my mind is a mess and im so sleepy wnwnkd.
đ out!!!
đ anon I love your thinking please donât spontaneously combust. BUT IM SO GLAD THE HIM LIKING HIS HAIR/HEAD TOUCHED IS CATCHING ON OMGâŠ.
Sfw headcanons/thoughts
- Now that Iâm thinking of it. I should have known heâd like head pats. LIKE I ALREADY GOT THE GOLDEN RETRIEVER BF VIBE FROM HIM.
- But he definitely loves getting head pats or his hair ruffled! Specifically he really likes it after/is doing something good. Like normal head pats are fine but. Knowing your giving him them because he did something good?!?!
- You guys have definitely gotten called weirdos by Swansea, cause you patted Daisukeâs head. Swansea wont say anything cause this man is emotionally constipated đ. But heâs glad Daisuke has someone who Daisuke can be his true weird self.
- If your hand is somewhere close to his head, and he wants head pats. Daisuke will head butt his head against your hand to show he wants you to either play with his hair, pat his head, scratch his scalp, etc ect.
- I think like the first time he head butt your hand for attention was when yâall were cuddling. You had your hand by his head. And you werenât taking hid obvious hints! (Slightly nudging at you). So well he just thunked his head against your hand. Ever since then he keeps doing that when he wants you to play with his hair
NSFW - DO NOT READ IF YOUR A MINOR OR UNCOMFORTABLE WITH NSFW (mostly AFAB some Gn )
- Omg please pull his hair. PLEASE. He loves it so much. Like holy moly. If you pull his hair while heâs deep inside. HES COMING IMMEDIATELY! Like pull just right and omg. Itâs like a switch in his brain. And that man is going HARDER AND FASTER. Like I hope to burnt curly Anya can lend you a wheel chair.
- Omg just imagine Daisuke pulling his hair back during sex. OMG MY GYATTTT. Guys I see the light and itâs Daisuke pulling his hair back.
-(AFAB) I just thought of something. GYAHH IMAGINE SEEING DAISUKE TIES HIS HAIR BACK TO EAT YOU OUT(might need to make this into a FIC).Iâm Actually foaming at the mouth. Guys wait let me cook.
âwait!â. Daisuke said. Before rolling a hair tie he had on his wrist for working on machines. Biting it as he collects his hair. Tying it up in a ponytail. Before pushing his sleeves up. Daisuke Looks back at You with a smile. âNow Iâm readyâ he say cheekily.
- Guys someone please draw Daisuke with a sexy man ponytail please Iâll be in debt with you. PLEASE HEâLL LOOK SO HOT JUST TRUST MY VISON!!!!
ïżŒ-(AFAB) Omg and grip his hair while heâs eating you out. Like omg if youâre pulling at his hair moaning. Heâs gonna feel so good about himself knowing heâs pleasing you. Also if you ever shoved his face in your cunt while heâs eating you out. You gave yourself a death wish. CAUSE THIS MAN WILL NOT STOP UNTIL YOU HAVE TO PULL HIS HEAD AWAY.
You couldnât take it anymore. Itâs like he couldnât stop. The pleasure was getting to much. You gripped his hair. Feeling him moan in you. You pull his head back, letting out that breath you didnât know you were holding in. You could hear him catching his breath before hearing him let out a sad noise. You looked down seeing Daisuke giving you these sad puppy dog eyes. âDid I do something wrong.â He asked, genuinely concerned.ïżŒ
âNo no! Just needed-â. You huffed, âneed..need a moment.â You said dazed. He paused for a moment. The glimmer in his eyes back with a vengeance. He starts to grin. âDid I..â He started. Wiping his mouth with the back of his hand, cleaning your slick off around his mouth. âDid I do good?â He asked. Daisuke happily looking up at you waiting for your response. His grin got wider as he felt your hand rub against his head.
Authors note: GYAHH I LOVED THIS REQUEST SMMMM. Like, reblogd, and especially comments are appreciated! This was so fun writing thud.
#mouthwash smut#mouthwashing smut#mouthwash x reader#daisuke mouthwashing#daisuke x reader#daisuke smut#mouthwash game#mouthwashing game#mouthwash#mouthwashing#mouthwashing x reader
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Okay time to be really opinionated: I think almost the entire TMA fandom writes Michael Distortion wrong.
Every time I read a fic about him people are emphasizing how swirly and elongated he/it is.
What's scary about Michael is that it is essentially the living personification of gaslighting. He makes everything else metaphorically swirly.
Sure there's "nobody would believe you", but most people who meet Michael think he looks angelic. He only looks scary out of the corner of your eye, or if he's feeding you just enough truth to get your guard down. He's fun to draw and describe as a psychedelic nightmare, but he is basically the gaslighting demon. It's a polite young man with curly hair and a beautiful smile who you could absolutely take home to meet your mother.
You only know he's a monster because your lizard brain starts screaming.
On a related note, its portfolio also includes dissociation and hallucinations, and nobody takes enough advantage of thatâ like, kissing Michael. Lots of people describe kissing Michael as a very physical event with notes of static and that tingling sensation of limbs falling asleep. A good start, but my argument: you feel him smooching your cheek and giving your hand a cute little squeeze, despite the fact that he's across the room ordering a coffee. It feels so real. You can feel his callouses catching at your fingers, but no matter how you flex your hand there's nothing there but air. You don't know if you just want it that badly and your eyes are lying, or what. He brings you a coffee and the sensation vanishes.
I know exactly what that episode about "the man who wasn't there" was because I've experienced it, and nobody utilizes that enough. Have you ever closed your eyes and tried to walk through a room, and been Firmly Convinced there was an object in front of you you were about to run into, despite no evidence of such an object when you open your eyes? It's a little like that. Any sort of relationship with Michael Distortion (not recommended and likely a way it has killed many people) would involve you getting comfortable with the fact that your senses are lying to you at an exponentially increasing rate, like a frog slowly being boiled alive.
Is he there? Is he not? Does it matter? You feel loved. You remember being told good morning and eating a homemade breakfast. Did you actually? Maybe it's a memory from a year ago you only think is from this morning. He's adorable even if his laugh gives you tinnitus. Maybe you've always had migraines. He takes care of you through them. Can you remember what he does to take care of you? ....normal people stuff, probably. Ice packs. You think he brought you ice packs once. You're sitting at a bus stop, going... somewhere, for a reason you're sure, and your body is telling you you're sitting on his lap but you keep checking, tapping with your nails, and the seat is hard metal. Does it matter? Maybe it really is him. You'd prefer if it was him. These cute little hallucinations are his way of showing affection. It's comfortable, even when the city shuts off your water because you only thought you paid your bills. He gives you his coat in the rain, and you laugh together and run through the weather, but when you get home you're holding a stranger's purse full of cash instead of a coat and you have no idea why. It's his idea of affection, though. He says he loves you when you ask about it, anyway, and don't you need the money now?
He's a lovely young man and the only normal thing in a world gone mad. The gloves only come off when it's done playing with its food.
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A fluffy fic inspired from this old drawing I didđ
English is not my first language and I hate writing so donât expect too much. Itâs just a small scene where Sebastian realises heâs in love with my MC, you can imagine yours there too of course! I ainât stopping youđ«Ą enjoy I guess?
Sebastian yawned softly as he kept silently reading his history of magic notes while sitting on the carpet and resting his back on the couch, Eleonora was next to him laying fully on it while reading the chapter trying really hard to not fall asleep.
âUgh I swear Iâm failing this timeâ
She mumbled while flipping pages. Sebastian rolled his eyes and spoke back with annoyance.
âYou literally have the highest grades of all the students in our class, shut up-â
Eleonora huffed and gave him a soft nudge with her knee in response.
âJust because the competition prefers wandering in the restricted section more than studying actual subjects. You know- instead of forbidden onesâ
Sebastian groaned and rested his head on the couch seat cushion to look at her better.
âYou are a pain in the ass.â He breathed out glancing back at his notes pretending to ignore her.
âThe feeling is mutualâ
She ruffled his brown curls gaining a soft laugh from him , the boy rested one cheek on the cushion and gazed at her while his notes ended up spread around the intricated embodied carpet of Russel living room. Sebastian glanced at the book and got an idea.
âI can read it for you, if you want, so we both learn something at leastâ
His proposal sounded quite nice to Eleonora, she gave him the book and set herself comfortable as he cleared his throat. He started reading and he could almost feel her gaze caressing his skin, Sebastian didnât know how he managed to say the words correctly without fumbling while having that lovely pair of blue eyes staring at him, the warmth of her presence, her sweet scent of lavender and soap pervading his nostrilsâŠMerlin help him!
On the other side Eleonoraâs eyes were looking at his freckles, she always thought they looked like a starry sky , sometimes she would find full constellations in them while stealing glances at her friendâs features. She glanced at his lashes, was it even legal to have them so long and soft? The way they fluttered while he was reading, the way the sun was making them shine with a warm orange shade. She was mesmerised. Thatâs for sure. The words sounded like a sweet lullaby rather than an actual lecture on how their ancestors channeled magic trough the years, her eyes felt heavy and her body a little too relaxed.Â
Maybe if she closed her eyes just for a secondâŠyeah that should do it.
Sebastian was reading the last paragraph when he heard soft snoring coming from his right side ,he turned his head a little to check on Eleonora and a warm smile formed on his lips as he realised she had fallen asleep. He closed the book putting it away before adjusting himself leaning closer to the sleeping girl. He rested his elbow on the couch cushion careful to not disturb her rest, as usual Eleonora needed her afternoon nap.
Memories of their third year flashed in his mind, rainy afternoons spent napping all together on the same couch down in the undercroft between a mess of books and unfinished candies. Anne was stillâŠwell Anne. No curse, no pain just Anne, sleeping peacefully while her tiny head would rest on Ominis shoulder as he was nestled up almost like a cat. Eleonoraâs long blonde hair would tickle his nose as he often found himself using her soft curls as a pillow. They always smelled so good it wasnât his fault they felt so comfy.
Instinctively Sebastian brushed off some of her blonde strands that were framing her face, very carefully as if she was made of porcelain. Her long blonde curls that once were left wild and free were now tied up in that blue ribbon he gifted her almost two years ago.
âYou keep wearing it all the time mh?â
He mumbled softly more to himself than to her. The soft blue satin fabric was a bit smudged near the knot after years of wearing it every day, thatâs what happens with the things you love most isnât it? They change.Â
Sebastian always questioned why she would refuse to buy another one, a prettier one maybe made from the most expensive silk with embodied details but she always said that one was just perfect. She loved it.
And he loved how beautiful she looked with it. He loved the way it always made her eyes stand out matching their colour, he loved how it swayed like a swallowtail when she would rush around the hallways late for classes trying to not trip on other students. Swallows are a sign of hope and freedom, he was certain that if she had to be an animal she would be one of them. She was always there trying to see the good side of everything, which in his darker days was both infuriating and yet comforting. It was reassuring having her slapping some sense in his thick skull sometimes, he couldnât deny it.
He also loved that, her scolding tone, her stubbornness and resolution whenever he was acting like a complete ass. He loved the way she would ruffle his hair to annoy him, he loved how her soft hands were making him feel butterflies flying around his stomach every damn timeâŠ
Sebastianâs chocolate brown eyes were fixed on Eleonoraâs delicate face as the sudden realisation hit him like a whole bombarda in his chest.
He was falling in love. No. He was in love. Utterly. Undeniably in love.Â
He didnât realise his face was few centimetres away from hers till now, his lips dangerously close to hers. Before doing something stupid and reckless he pulled away slightly and took a moment to gain his composure, his eyes wandered around the luxurious living room of her familyâs manor, the paintings of the Russels were almost staring at him, judging him with their cold gaze.
Who was he trying to fool? He was nobody compared to her family, an orphan living in a cottage with his grumpy uncle, it would never be fair to her. Knowing her parents Eleonora had probably her life planned since day one, as her older sister Ofelia once told him they lived in a golden cage with all comforts but still a cage. It was all doomed from the start so- for now it was better to suppress those feelings. To pretend they never had been there.
For now having her friendship was more than he could hope for, Sebastian looked at the big wood carved clock and checked the time, it was getting pretty late, he sighed and with a soft spoken tone called for her.
âHeyâŠBirdieâ
The world would never want them together, thatâs what he was telling himself, yet when he saw those blue eyes and that warm sleepy smile greeting him Sebastian thought that the world could burn or destroy itself in that exact moment.
The world would know Lady Eleonora Russel but Birdie. Birdie was just for him and that was all he needed.
âBirdie? What am I a chicken?â
Eleonora said with a snort while sitting up and stretching a bit letting a yawn escape her lips.
âNo more like a goose.â
Sebastian retorted with a cheeky grin. She had no idea of what passed by his mind all the short time she was asleep.
âOuch- did I snore loud?â
âTerribly. I mistaken you for a troll or something at some point.â
Eleonora laughed at the statement and crossed her arms in a proud stance.Â
âWas I annoying you?â
âTerribly.â Sebastian said faking an exasperated sigh.
âGood. I can consider my mission accomplished thenâ
She added with a chuckle while they both got up to walk towards the kitchen for stealing a snack or two. Luckily her parents wouldnât be back till next early morning considering their habit to attend balls and ceremonies maintaining their high social status connections. That was a relief for the two of them but also for the servitude. The house elves were quite fond of Eleonora, a true ray of sunshine in that toxic household.
The afternoon passed by with their usual playful bantering like any other. It was better pretending nothing happened for Sebastian, it was for the best really.
Was it? Only time would tell. For now they were just fifteen, sitting on the kitchen counter munching a stolen slice of lemon tart while yapping about how they were both convinced Professor Garlick was hiding âspecial plantsâ somewhere in the greenhouse.Â
It was a normal spring afternoon during the end of the 19th century.
Flowers were blooming , birds were chirping and the air smelled like clean laundry and soap.
Winter was just a distant thought, none of them could ever imagine how everything would irreversibly change in few months.
Moments like these would be soon turned into distant faded happy memories but for nowâŠit was all that mattered.
#hogwarts legacy#art#hogwarts legacy art#hogwarts legacy mc#illustrators on tumblr#my ocs#oc art#artwork#illustration#sebastian sallow#mc x sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian x mc#fluff#oc x canon#sebastian sallow x reader
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DREAM RECALL your kind heart often led you down dangerous paths. So when there's a knock on your door and you find a beautiful man in dire need of your help, who are you to turn him down? Even if it may cost you your life.
pairings vampire!taehyun x afab!human reader warnings minor character death, descriptions of violence, descriptions of injury, DUB-CON (taehyun compels reader), blood drinking, oral (f. rec), vaginal fingering, unprotected sex, orgasm denial, breast play, marking, choking, manhandling, slight dumbification?, taehyun refers to reader only as 'human', prey/predator dynamics. please let me know if I missed any !!
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#serene adds â... ahem the literal bible of warnings...anyway! guys I lowkey really like this one, it's my first ever vampire fic, which is crazy because I'm a diehard vampire fan (name any show/movie/book and I will know of it) so I'm surprised that I've managed to go this long without writing one. I really didn't intend for it to get this long and um like 1/3 is just smut... happy reading ! :3
The radio of your old car made a bruising noise before giving up completely, your last bit of civilization diminishing to nothing. Sighing you glance toward your GPS, but even that seemed futile. âI guess itâs just you and me now, Lolaâ, you state as you peer at your dog in the rear view mirror.Â
Ahead, the narrow road made for a bumpy ride as you dwelled deeper into the forest. Surrounding you were pine trees, standing tall and proud, looming over you in an almost menacing way, as if to say; you are not welcome here. With both your phone and radio cut off, you were beginning to think that maybe there lay something in the unspoken words of the trees. This was no place for humans, yet you recognized the way the road turned, if ever so slightly, not to mention the familiar large stone that you had climbed so many times before.Â
Soon the small cottage comes into view, and it was just as you had remembered it, save for the overgrown lawn that reaches its way through the old wooden planks of the porch. Your vehicle comes to a stop and as you step outside, the earthy smell of the forest greets you. Lola, on the other hand, sems skeptical; she fuzzes for a moment before finally getting out as you opened the trunk for her. âOh donât be so quick to judge it, you havenât even seen the inside yetâ, you give your dog a few pats before retrieving your large bag from the car.Â
The old wooden steps creak under your weight as you make your way toward the front door. Rust had formed around the lock and it took more than a few tries to get the darned thing opened. With the push of your shoulder, the old door finally budges and you step inside. Nostalgia immediately fills your senses, it smells stuffy and old yet exactly like your childhood. The many summers you had spent cooped up in the small house, plenty of your drawings remaining on the wallpapered walls.Â
It had been years since the passing of your parents, years since the house became yours, and years since anyone had even bothered to acknowledge its existence. In a way, you supposed you felt bad for the place, yet you hadnât been able to come here without the painful memories of your parents flooding your mind. Not up until recently had you felt ready, ready to return here and remember the good things, the good memories. You wanted this house to remain a happy place for you.Â
âWell it could definitely use a sweep, whatâd you say, Lola?â The dog lets out a gruff of agreement as she noses at the dust covered sofa with a displeased look. Most of the place had been drowned in layers upon layers of dust and spiderwebs, you were certain that all kinds of animals lingered around the old building, seeking shelter from the harsh conditions the outside world provided.Â
You spend the rest of the day cleaning, going through old photographs and personal belongings of both you and your parents. The downs of being an only child you supposed, not having anyone to share your grief with. It wouldâve been nice to not be completely alone in the mess that your parents left, from arranging their funeral to selling their house back in the city. The project that was this cabin had all become too much, and thus you had put it off, admittedly for longer than you had originally intended. Though now that you were finally getting around to it, it was with a light heart rather than a heavy.Â
By nightfall you had finished off practically all of the first floor. Flopping down on the now very much clean couch, you let out a tired sigh. Lola was sleeping peacefully on the carpet nearby and you leaned to give her a few pats before reaching for your phone. The device had been in and out of signal throughout the day, you figured you could try your luck with a call.Â
Bringing it up to your ear, your phone rings, once, twice, three times before thereâs a shift in the audio. âHello?â The voice of your friend calls out on the other line and a small sigh of relief escapes your lips. âJjunie? Hii, itâs me! Can you hear me?â You ask as thereâs a small disturbance in the quality of the call.Â
âDimples?â he asks and you giggle, âwho else?â Yeonjun lets out a huff of air and you hear the rustling of his mattress as he sits up, âIâve been texting you like crazy, where have you been all day?â he questions, a tone of fake hurt lingering in his words. âI knowâ, you mumble as you pick at your cuticle, âIâve barely had any service all day, itâs a miracle that this call even went through.âÂ
âI guess youâre really living that outdoor mindfulness life now huh?â he teases and you couldâve sworn that you heard the shit eating grin on his face. âHa-haâ, you muse, âcareful or Iâll make you spend the next week here with me. You could use a detox from that phone of yours.â Your friend snorts, âas if. My followers need me.â You roll your eyes, âyou sure itâs not the other way around?â you ask to which Yeonjun responds with a row of profanities.Â
Aside from a few break ups here and there the call runs smoothly and youâre relieved to be having a conversation with another human being for the first time today. After about twenty minutes of catching up, the subject suddenly shifts as Yeonjunâs voice grows wary. âYouâve heard about the stuff thatâs been happening right?âÂ
You frown, "No? What stuff?â On the other side of the line, Yeonjun hesitates. âWell câmon and tell meâ, you press as you sit up a little straighter. Drawing in a long sigh, he then exhales, âwell thereâs been, bodiesâŠâ âBodies?â you repeat, âyou mean likeâŠ?â â âDead bodies, yeah.âÂ
A small silence lingers in the air as you process the words of your friend. âHikersâ, he then adds and you gnaw on your bottom lip. âWell thereâs plenty of good hiking trails aroundâ, you mumble. It wasnât unusual for people to try their luck up in this forest, during your summers spent here you had seen plenty of tents indicating someoneâs stay. âSome are quite dangerous though and-â â- âThatâs not why they died.â Yeonjun interrupts with a solemn voice and you feel your throat go dry.Â
âRightâŠâ you murmur as your gaze flickers toward Lola, âthen how did they die?â Once more, your friend on the other line hesitates. âPlease, Jjunie, I need to know, and I donât exactly have any other way of finding out, other than going out there myself.â Outside of your window, the forest seemed darker than it had all those years ago; something bad had happened here.Â
âThey think it was an animal of some kindâŠâ Yeonjun whispers and suddenly you feel a slight glimmer of hope. âJjunie, trust me Iâve encountered plenty of-â â âThis oneâs different, Dimples.â Your friend interrupts you again, though his voice is now uncertain, âthis thing, itâs smarter, itâŠit lures its way inside.âÂ
You swallow, âwhat do you mean?â Though you werenât certain that you wanted to know. âItâŠthe bodies, they never left their tents. It came to them.â The silence that follows is palpable and a shiver runs down your spine, despite the fact that you were covered head to toe in blankets.Â
That night, you barely got any sleep. Your mind kept shifting back toward your conversation with Yeonjun as your gaze flickered to the window. You got up to close the curtains, but it did little to help the uncanny feeling seeping through your veins. Lola seemed to notice it too, she barely made a move to go outside, if only to use the bathroom. As three days passed, your phone refused to work and you became increasingly paranoid.Â
By your fourth night at the cabin a heavy storm rolled around. This would also mark your fourth night without any signal whatsoever, the events of the outside world remaining unknown to you. The thunder roared outside, and if it wasnât for Lolaâs sensitive hearing, you probably would have missed the light knock to your front door.Â
The persistent barking of your dog turns your attention toward said door, âwhat is it, Lola?â you ask to which your dog lets out a small whine. Thereâs a brief pause and for a moment everything is quiet, even the merciless storm outside seemed to hold its breath. Another knock against the old wood sends your heartbeat into a small spiral. You knew better than to open the door for just any stranger, besides, what business did another human being have in the middle of this forest? Unless⊠They were a hiker.Â
Soon a raspy voice echoes out from the other side of the door. âP-pleaseâŠplease help me...â Your eyes widened, were they hurt, had something happened, and why were they alone? âAre you hurt?â you question as you get up and slowly inch toward the door, Lola trails behind you worriedly.Â
It takes a moment before the voice replies, ragged breaths and soft grunts are all that can be heard. â...yes.â Their answer makes you hesitate, there was something uncanny about the voice, it felt almost strained. Upon noticing your evident doubt the voice pleads to you once more. âPlease, please let me in. It hurtsâŠâ The voice morphs from a quiet plea into one of sheer desperation.Â
âWho hurt you?â you ask, still wary as you keep one hand on the doorknob. Behind you, Lola whines in protest as she pulls her tail between her legs. The person on the other side of the door draws in a sharp breath, âIâŠI donât know, itâŠI couldnât see it clearly but itâll come back Iâm certain.. Please, please let me in!â it begs.Â
Suddenly, you recall your last conversation with Yeonjun, about the animal preying on hikers. Could this be another of its victims? Whoever was on the other side of the door were in dire need of your help. With one final deep breath you unlock it and turn the handle.Â
On your doorstep, you find a young man, slightly hunched over as he maintains a tight grip on his left arm. His breathing is labored and his clothes torn. It is not until he glances up at you, a hesitant yet hopeful look on his face that you finally see him. He was beautiful. Big dark eyes stare up at your own, his skin was smooth and perfect, yet sickly pale, you supposed it had to do with being out in this weather.Â
âOh my goodnessâŠâ you quietly mumble as you take in the state of the man. âCome in.âÂ
Upon urging him inside and shutting the door tightly behind you, you guide him to sit on one of the chairs by the dining table. The man thanks you over and over for your kindness as you rush to get him a warm blanket. âWhatâs your name?â you wonder as you place the quilt over his shoulders. He silently thanks you before replying, âTaehyun.âÂ
Just when youâre about to tell him your own, Lola emits a loud bark as she growls toward the man. Taehyun gives her a questioning glance but doesnât seem to pay her any further attention. âLola! Quit that!â you scold, embarrassed over your dog's odd behavior. âShe isnât usually like this, I donât know whatâs gotten into herâŠâ you apologize as you swat the dog away with your hand.Â
Taehyun gives you a small smile, âitâs alright, Iâm certainly not the most pleasant thing to gaze upon at this given moment.â You thought his statement to be debatable as your eyes trail across his well built frame; stopping as they reach the large gash on his left arm. âOh my, yourâŠyour armâ, you exclaim as you watch the way blood trickles from the fresh wound. Following your horrified gaze, Taehyun winces as he flexes his arm slightly.Â
âStay here, Iâll get you something for the pain!â You say as you scurry out of the kitchen and to your bedroom where you kept most of your essential supplies. Thankfully you had thought to bring along a medical kit, in case of an emergency like this. Though you were rather unsure if your meek bandage and lacking surgical skills would do much good to the large gash on his arm. Before exiting, you make sure to shut Lola in, not wanting her to cause yet another scene, she whines in protest as you do but you pay it little mind.Â
Hastily, you return to the kitchen, and as you set the medkit down you begin rummaging through it. âI should have some kind of disinfectant here..â you mumble without lifting your gaze. It wasnât until you went to check on the severity of his injuries once more that you froze in your tracks. The once large wound on his arm wasâŠgone. You frown, âwhatâŠbut I couldâve swornâŠâÂ
The quiet chuckle emitting from the man before you makes your blood run cold as you lift your gaze to meet his. Taehyunâs once pleading eyes were now peering at you in an almost predatorial way as he studied your perplexed expression. âBut IâŠâ your words fall short as Taehyun suddenly rises from the chair, without taking his gaze off of you, he reaches a hand up to his neck, it makes a cracking sound as he tilts his head to the side, a small sigh escaping his lips.Â
âYou humans are far too kind.â His voice is low and as he takes a step forward, you immediately falter backward. The back of your legs hit the table behind you and you wince as you fumble to move around it. âInviting just anyone into your home like that.â Taehyunâs eyes never leave you as a smirk etches its way to his lips. âMy, your gullibleness is quite endearing.âÂ
You cast a quick glance around the old kitchen, your gaze falling on one of the larger knives. All you had to do was move one step to the right, reach out and⊠Taehyunâs eyes follow your own and he cocks an eyebrow. âI admire your plan of strategy, but a mere humanâs tool will bring little harm to my kind.âÂ
His kind? Just what exactly was this man. You swallow a gulp as your gaze flickers between him and the knife, your heartbeat working overtime as you grasp for a decision. Despite his words you end up reaching for the knife, grabbing it tightly with both hands, you aim it toward the intruding man. âWhat do you want from me?â you grit out as you steady your feet against the wooden floor.Â
Taehyun inhales slowly, letting his eyes flutter closed for a brief moment; as if savoring a pleasant scent. When he opens them again theyâre a swirling pool of crimson. âNow youâre asking the right questionsâ, his voice lingers with desire as he slowly makes his way around the dining table.Â
Like a deer in headlights you immediately dart in the opposite direction. Tumbling out of your kitchen and into the open spaced living room. Behind you, Taehyun laughs, an almost sinister laugh. Frantically you search for anything to shield yourself with. Settling on one of the armchairs in the corner, you quickly dip behind it. With your knees to your chest and back pressed against the soft cushion; you cover your mouth with your free hand, the other maintaining a tight grip on the knife.Â
The wooden floor creaks beneath him as Taehyun slowly emerges from the kitchen. âYour determination to live is surely fascinatingâ he muses, the sound of his voice only becoming louder as he slowly approaches your corner. âFoolish human, you forget that I can hear the delectable sound of your heart beating from miles away.âÂ
Biting down on your hand, you will the tears away as you screw your eyes shut. âThe humanâs weak body gives them away before they even become aware of the dangers surrounding them.â The sounds of his footsteps come to a stop and you hold your breath, you donât dare open your eyes, prolonging the moment for as long as possible.Â
It is not until you feel his cold breath on your face that they snap open. The smirk plastered on his beautiful face as he watches you with much intrigue is enough for you to finally act. Your arm works faster than your brain as you swing the knife toward him. Taehyun lets out a faint hiss as he pulls back, thick red liquid seeps from the small cut on his cheek and his expression soon turns from smug into a scowl.Â
Seizing your opportunity, you scramble to your feet as you dart for your bedroom. Though you barely make it 10ft before something hard crashes into you from behind. With inhumane speed Taehyun slams you up against the nearest wall. A cold hand wraps around your neck as he lifts you without much trouble.Â
Your feet kick at the wall behind you as your body trashes against his grip. With his free hand, Taehyun wipes the blood from his cheek, the wound closing up before your eyes. In your haste you realize that youâve lost your knife, your only hope. Letting out a huff of air, Taehyunâs gaze locks onto yours, âthe others did not struggle this muchâ, he mutters.Â
The others? As realization slowly seeps in, your eyes widen â it wasnât an animal that had killed all those hikers. It was him. His tight grip on your neck restricts your intake of air and you barely manage to gasp out the word, ây-you..â Taehyun tilts his head to the side, a glimmer of curiosity flashing before his eyes. The grip on your neck falters, if only for a moment, as he lets you regain your breath in order to continue.Â
âIt was you. You killed all those peopleâ, you splutter as your chest rises and falls in a heavy manner. He smirks, and from this close youâre able to make out the sharp fangs that prod against his bottom lip. âI see I have earned myself quite a reputation amongst your kindâ, he comments before leaning in closer, eyes glinting with intrigue, âpray tell, what else have you heard of me?âÂ
You part your lips to reply before you stop yourself. As Yeonjunâs words ring in your ears you suddenly realize your mistake. âIt lures its way inside. They never left their tents. It came to them.â He had come to you, he had knocked on your door and you had let him in. You hadnât even left your house and the next time you would it would be in a body bag.Â
Everything aligned, the pale skin, his inhumane strength and speed, his ability to heal, the crimson eyes, his fangs. He was a vampire and you had willingly invited him inside your house, ultimately signing your own death.Â
âI let you inâŠâ you whisper, disbelief evident across your face. âAh, you are finally connecting the dotsâ, he mumbles, âI must admit you differ from the rest.â Cold fingers trace the outline of your face before trailing down your collarbone. His touch causes shivers to ripple through your body and Taehyunâs smirk grows. âHad I not been so insatiably hungry right now, I might have kept you around for a bit.âÂ
His gaze shifts from your mortified expression down to your neck. Contradicting to his previous tight hold on you, he now gently brushes along the exposed veins. ïżœïżœïżœThis forest has been vacant for weeks, I thought my last meal here had long since passed.â He brings a strand of your hair to his nose, inhaling the scent.Â
âBut then came you. And you smell absolutely divine.â His voice is low as his eyes flicker back to yours once more. Horrified, you shake your head as you push against his chest, your meek attempts at breaking free drew a breathy laugh from him.Â
âLet us not struggle now.â The once feathery touch along your neck is replaced by a harsh and cold hand against your chin as he holds your face in place. And as your eyes come level with his own, you suddenly find it hard to look away. Dark pools of crimson pull you in, entrancing you as Taehyun mutters something under his breath. You know that it is wrong, but the longer you stare into his eyes the more you feel like giving yourself to him. Despite every instinct in you screaming for you to shut your eyes and pull back, you instead find yourself going limp in his grasp.Â
âMuch betterâ, he whispers as he loosens his hold on your chin. Your feet softly hit the ground again and you glance up at him. Somewhere in the back of your head, the urge to run still exists. But you donât move, you stay unblinking as you gaze at him with a clouded expression. âYou humans are almost beautiful when you donât fretâ, he mumbles as his cold fingers brush your hair back to expose your neck fully.Â
His tongue drags across one of his fangs as he eyes the skin of your neck with anticipation. âDonât worry, your sacrifice will not go to wasteâ, he assures as he leans in to press his cold lips against your warm skin. The feeling of his sharp fangs piercing the flesh of your neck causes your body to feel as if it were on fire. Yet all but a soft gasp is what leaves your lips at the intrusion.Â
Everything hurt and you wanted nothing more than to push him off, pry his teeth from your weakening body. But your limbs felt strangely heavy, unable to move, your vision threatens to give out as your knees wobble. What was going on, why werenât you doing anything? Taehyun groans against your skin, his hands harshly tugging at your hips to keep you in place.
Soon the burning sensation faded before it morphed into something dangerously similar to pleasure. Your body felt tingly, sensitive, every gulp of blood he took sent minor shock waves surging through you and you let out a small sigh at the feeling. To think that this was how you were to die, as nothing more but the next meal of a hungry creature, and in your last moments you found pleasure in it? The thought alone was enough to have your eyes drooping shut. Â
Realization slowly creeps its way into your foggy mind â you were actually going to die. No one was coming to save you, you were all alone and this was how your last moments would play out? It was hard to feel any emotion, your mind far too clouded to even keep your eyes open, but if you could feel something, you supposed it would be despair.Â
Teetering on the edge of unconsciousness, you accept your lowly fate. Just as the darkness is about to consume you, everything suddenly stops. Was death really nothing? Was there no heaven, no hell? Just darkness? It takes you a moment to realize that you are in fact not dead, and that Taehyun has pulled himself away from your neck. Â
Slowly, your eyes regain focus as you look at him, confused. You were certain that he was going to kill you, did he really intend to prolong your inevitable death, to make you suffer further? You thought him to be cruel but this was far worse than you had imagined.Â
His eyes remain a dark crimson as they fixate on you, but they had lost their sharp edge, he no longer looked as if he was eyeing his next meal, but rather his gaze held something akin to desire. Taehyunâs tongue swipes across his lips, coated in your rich blood as he savors the remnants of it. His breath is shallow, though you wondered if vampires ever really became out of breath.Â
âYou tasteâŠâ he trails off, eyes fixating on the puncturers heâd previously caused on your neck, â...unlike any human Iâve ever had before.â He almost looked to be at a loss for words as he stared at you, you werenât sure if it was a good or a bad thing, and you couldnât find yourself to care. Your body felt weak, numb and not like your own anymore. Perhaps death had been the easy way out from your current situation.Â
As his cold fingers brush along your exposed collarbone, your gaze flickers back up to his once more. The movements of your own limbs still felt restricted by the unknown force caused by Taehyun, and even if they werenât, you were sure that your body wouldnât be able to maintain an upright position, much less run away from the creature before you.Â
âI wonder if the rest of you taste just as divineâ, he murmurs. His peering gaze suddenly shifts toward your lips and before you have time to question his intentions further, he crashes his lips against your own.Â
At first you remain unmoving, unblinking, Taehyun pays your unenthusiastic response little mind as he kisses you hungrily. The faint metallic taste of your own blood lingers on his tongue as he pushes it inside your mouth and your nose turns up in slight disgust. Suddenly your body jolts to life once more, as if the spell in which he had put you under was lifted the moment his lips pressed against your own.Â
With newfound strength you push against his cold and hard chest in a desperate attempt to break free. Your fighting hands are met by his own as Taehyun pins them to your sides before taking the liberty to explore all of your body. Cold hands wandering beneath your loose t-shirt, earning him a small whimper from you.Â
You canât help the moan that escapes from your lips as his fingers rub over your perked nipples, squeezing the soft flesh of your breasts. His touch felt oddly enticing and your body suddenly craved more, a lot more. But as his lips found your neck, the memories of what had previously taken place, flashes before your eyes and suddenly it feels as if those sharp fangs pierced your skin all over again. You become dangerously aware of what is about to happen as one of Taehyunâs hands tug at the hem of your shorts and you immediately try to twist your body away from his invasive touch.Â
âNo! Wait- stop!â you shriek as your hands work to pry him off of you. Thereâs a brief pause as Taehyun once again pulls his lips from your neck. He doesnât say anything as he looks at you, an impassive expression pending across his face. You swallow, âthis- I, whatâs happening? This isnâtâŠâ The words fall from your lips in a hasty manner as you struggle to form coherent thoughts, afraid that he would grow impatient at your antics and just kill you off. Finally you settle on, âI donât understand.âÂ
Taehyun looks at you as he cocks an eyebrow, an insatiable hunger swirling behind his eyes. âYou do not understand the act of indulging in one's sexual desires?â He wonders as he studies you with a mix of apprehension and disbelief. Your mouth falls open as you blink, â...I, of course I do butâŠâÂ
âThen you must understand that a vampireâs hunger exceeds beyond just his thirst for bloodâ, he murmurs as his gaze returns to your lips. âYou are a very pretty human.â He breathes, cold fingers trail along your chest, pushing your shirt up to reveal your soft stomach. His eyes twinkle in anticipation, âthere are other ways for you to satiate me.âÂ
With that statement, he reconnects your lips in a kiss filled with yearning. You donât have any time to react before you feel your feet lift from the ground. The surge that forms in your stomach at his rapid movements remind you of that when a roller coaster drops. Your back hits the soft cushion of the sofa as Taehyun swiftly takes place above you, his arms caging you in. Â
With one harsh tug, he pulls your shirt up to reveal your breasts. The cool air causes goosebumps to bloom on your skin, Taehyun trails his fingers over the small bumps as his lips attach around one of your nipples. Sharp fangs graze over your sensitive skin and you shiver in a fear mixed arousal. âI can hear your blood rushingâ, he groans against your breast before moving on to the next one, leaving red marks that would soon blossom into purple. Tongue swirling over the sensitive bud, he elicits a small moan from you.Â
In a tantalizing slow manner he moves down your stomach, inhaling your scent before stopping above the hem of your shorts. He looks up at you, with that same expression that had terrified you not long ago, he looked ready to eat you whole. âAre you scared, human?â he asks, fingers dipping inside the waistband of your pajama shorts. Your gaze flickers between his hand and his eyes, you swallow, âno.âÂ
Taehyun smirks, âliar.â Without warning he pulls both your panties and shorts down, a small shriek leaving your lips at the action as your thighs instinctively squeeze together. âThere is little point in denying meâ, he grunts as his hand easily finds its way between your sealed legs. Upon reaching your already wet cunt, Taehyunâs smirk grows, âand in denying yourself.â You bite your lip, unable to hide the fact that his lips on your own had spurred you on further than youâd liked to.Â
âMy, are you prettyâ, he mumbles as his crimson eyes fixate on the way his fingers glide against your folds. His subtle comment has blood rushing to your face and had it not been for the way your core ached to be touched, you wouldâve probably even been embarrassed at the remark. Squirming beneath him, your hips buck in an attempt to seek any kind of relief. Taehyunâs gaze snaps to your face, âyou humans are far too greedyâ, he snarls, ânever satisfied with what they have, you always want more.âÂ
Your back arches off the cushion as he pushes two fingers inside of you. âIs that what you want?â He curls his fingers, brushing them against that small bundle of nerves that never failed to make you go cross eyed whenever you pleasured yourself. âTo be ruined to bits by a vampire, reduced to nothing at my mercy?â
You meekly nod, struggling to keep your eyes open at the intense waves of pleasure that overflow your senses. Taehyun huffs, âI knew that your kind was pathetic, but this sure takes the price.â His words barely register, youâre too lost in the way his fingers move inside of you, thumb pressing up against your clit in a menacing way.Â
When he suddenly pulls his hand away, you cry out in displeasure as your eyes shoot open in search of his. You find him already looking at you intently, his gaze unwavering as he watches the steady rise and fall of your chest, the way blood rushes beneath your skin, listening to the supple beating of your heart.Â
His hand glides across the soft flesh of your thighs, âI need to taste you againâ, he says, his voice strained and hoarse as his stare drops to your glistening folds. Before you have the time to register his words, his head is between your legs and you let out a small yelp at the feel of his cold breath hovering over your sensitive cunt.Â
The idea of him, his mouth, his fangs, so close to such a sensitive part of you was terrifying in itself, yet you couldnât find it in you to push him away. A low groan rumbles from deep within his chest as Taehyun drags his tongue along your slit, leaving you gasping as your nails dig into the cushion of the sofa.Â
He pulls back for a moment, his eyes never leaving your core as he licks his lips, as if he focused entirely on the taste of you. Then, without warning he dives back in and your thigh twitches as his lips latch onto your clit. Hungrily, he sucks and laps at your cunt and you wondered how this man had been close to killing you just moments prior.Â
Pathetic whines leave your lips as his tongue pushes inside of you, the tip of his nose rubbing against your clit. The harsh grip of his hands holds your thighs down as they threaten to close around his head. Moans and pleas fall from your lips but he pays them little mind, too focused on the way you taste, the way your body reacts to his touch.Â
Your stomach draws into knots as you feel your orgasm approaching. Taehyun lets out a sound of contentment as he feels you clench around his tongue. âF-fuckâŠIâm..â your words are swallowed by the whine that leaves you as he pulls his head from between your legs, robbing you of the high that was just within your reach.Â
âAgain, you humans are consumed by your greedâ, he tskâs as he watches the way you squirm, pathetically chasing after your desired orgasm. He leans back on his knees as one of his hands frees his cock from his pants. âPatienceâ, he grunts as his pale hand glides along his shaft, âcomes naturally when living for centuries. You humans only live to see a fragment of what I experience, yet you greedily take and take.âÂ
You swallow as your eyes shift from his intense gaze toward the hand wrapped around his cock. Like the rest of him, it was beautiful, flushed at the tip and slick with precum that spilled from the slit. Your cunt throbbed at the sight and you bit your lip in anticipation. Above you, Taehyunâs expression turns into a sneer, âdo not think that I am here to fulfill your bottomless greed, human.â A small gasp leaves your lips as you feel the head of his cock pushing against your folds.Â
With one harsh thrust, he buries himself deep inside of you, drawing a small shriek from you at the burning intrusion. Taehyun lets out a groan of satisfaction as his lips return to suck at the mark on your neck, the still fresh wound causing a throbbing pain to flare through your body, mixing with the feel of his cock deep inside of you.Â
He moves slowly, taking his time to feel the way your body wrapped around him. The warmth of something so full of life entangled with the very epitome of death. The rapid beating of your heart against his unmoving one filling his senses. Your mind feels hazy and that familiar feeling of pleasure you had felt when he drained you of blood returned. With each slow thrust you felt him graze along every inch of you, the tip of his cock caressing the bundle of nerves that had you clenching around him. You had never felt so full before.Â
His lips reconnect with yours, the taste of blood completely gone and now replaced by the remnants of your own fluids. And while it was certainly not something you had let previous partners do, it somehow felt right with him. Your hands loosen their grip on the cushion as they move across his body; the body you had longed to touch since he first appeared on your doorstep.Â
Taehyun inhales against your lips as your warm fingers wander beneath his shirt and over his cold chest. Perhaps he was right, perhaps you were greedy, even on the brink of death you had let your desires consume you. But did it really matter? Your life was bound to end anyway. Once more, just once, you would let yourself be greedy.Â
His hands glide across your body, squeezing and groping at every part of flesh he could access, relishing in how alive you felt, how your blood pulsated under his hands. Your legs move on their own, wrapping around his waist as you drew him in closer, making him groan into your mouth.Â
He breaks the kiss to look at you, watching your eyes roll back in pleasure as your lips part in a silent moan. Cold fingers dig into your cheeks as he keeps your head in place. âFoolish humanâ, he grunts, âI could kill you right now.â His thumb pulls your bottom lip down, âeither you are too dumb to even comprehend the danger of your situation, or youâre just too fucking desperate to care.âÂ
Without warning he pushes his thumb inside your mouth, you respond eagerly by swirling your tongue around it. âConsidering the way your pussy so desperately sucks me in, I would assume the latterâ, he sneers before pulling his thumb from your mouth, smearing your saliva across your lips and cheek.Â
His thrusts grow ragged as he presses his lips against yours. You know that heâs close, and you were too, if only you could⊠Your hand slides between your bodies and down your stomach, but before reaching where you need it the most, cold fingers wrap around your wrist. âStupid humanâ, Taehyun groans as yanks your hand away.Â
The whine that escapes your lips is soon replaced by a soft gasp as his fingers circle your clit. Your legs around his waist tremble as you finish around his cock, a cry of pleasure emitting from deep within your throat as your nails dig into his arms whilst you continuously clench around him.Â
Taehyunâs lips travel down your neck, licking over the previous bruises heâd left before hovering above the sensitive bite marks. Youâve barely come down from your high when you feel his hips stutter, the warm liquid that shoots up inside of you makes you completely unguarded for when his fangs re-pierce your neck.
The shock only lasts a moment as Taehyun rocks his hips into you, all the while he takes gulp after gulp of your blood. As you lay there panting, you think that you might just actually die, but then you feel him pull back, the sensation of his fangs withdrawing makes you shiver.Â
His tongue drags across the punctures, licking up the very last droplet of blood before he leans back to look at you. Despite everything, you still thought he was the most beautiful thing you had ever seen. Even as thick blood coated his lips and chin, his uncanny and red eyes peering at you; contrasting his sickly pale skin, you found yourself in awe.Â
Taehyunâs gaze shifts from your neck to your eyes, no matter how hard you tried; you couldnât possibly decipher a single thought going through his head. âPerhaps there is more to you than just your pretty face, humanâ, he murmurs as his tongue swipes across his lips.Â
âI intend to keep you.â
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5 Fun Facts About the Prostate!
I finally finished it. I'm not going to beta read it bc this thing has been causing me so much pain lmao.
Zayne gets pegged. That's it. That's the fic. Enjoy. NSFW, MDNI
3.8k words
It's one of those few times when I have Zayne on my lap, instead of the other way around when I finally get the courage to ask about something I've been thinking about... For a while.Â
His hands are braced on the back of the couch on either side of me, and he's been tugged closer and closer while we kiss, thanks to my grip on his tie that I refuse to relinquish. Still, even though he's straddling me, Zayne doesn't drop his weight onto my lap, maybe being slightly afraid he'll crush me, or hinder the circulation in my legs or something.Â
I lick into his mouth, and he lets me (the same way he lets me do a lot of things. I'm starting to get the message.), and my other hand at his hip trails a dangerous path around to the frankly amazing curve of his ass, only accentuated by the tight slacks he's wearing, and I squeeze.Â
Zayne makes a small sound in the back of his throat, and jolts a little in my lap, but it doesn't seem like he's trying to get away as our foreheads press together and our hot breath mingles. "Zayne..." I say, and trace my finger down the seam of the back of his pants, drawing a line to where I can likely assume my prize would be, and he stiffens in my arms, brows furrowing slightly. I'm not sure if it's from confusion or discomfort, so I stop there, though I really want to push harder into the unyielding fabric.Â
"I really want to fuck you."Â
He blinks, and the flush already on his cheeks from our heavy makeout session darkens even further. From this angle, so close to him, I can physically see his pupils grow in size, blowing out the molten gold and green in his eyes.Â
"... You what?" His voice is still low, and rough, though surprised. And then, after another long moment of us looking into each others eyes, he seems to fully realize what exactly it is I'm asking, as I let go of his tie and grab his other cheek with that same hand, using my grip on the plush pillow of his ass to pull him downwards and finally, more fully onto my lap.Â
"You're serious." Zayne says, almost in disbelief, the chuckle present in the words themselves.Â
So... He definitely doesn't hate the idea.Â
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But of course, because he's Zayne, he spends a few weeks doing research. Purely academic, he tells me, just so he knows what he's getting into and how to be prepared. Because he's Zayne, and he'll never deny me anything. Maybe he'll hate it, he doesn't know yet, but he will, always, without fail, indulge me at least once.
Another reason I'm starting to get suspicious is that when we are in bed, so far, he's really only made an effort to cater to my own needs, instead of his own. The sex is great, yes, and having a boyfriend who gets on his knees for me multiple times a week without ever once being asked too? Phenomenal.Â
And clearly, he loves eating me out, fingering me, judging by the way the act seems to wreck him almost as much as it wrecks me (the first time he did it, I'm almost certain he came in his pants, because afterwards he insisted he was fine, that he didn't need anything from me, and then made a hasty retreat to the bathroom. When he returned, he said it was because he wanted to clean me up).
I'm not an idiot. Zayne is a powerful man, who bears a lot of responsibility on his shoulders, and he considers me to be one of them, most of the time. At least in bed, well... Maybe he can let me take care of him instead. Because I want to. He is very good at following orders, after all(I've noticed on more than one occasion). And I have been wondering more and more often... Just how far this tendency of his goes.
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"How do you want to do this? On your back, or all fours?" I tilt my head slightly at him, pulling away from a sloppy kiss that has his lips shining with our shared spit. Zayne's ears are pink. He opens his mouth, but seems to have no immediate answer. "Or do you want me to bend you over the bed? ... Or do you want me to pick?"
"You choose. You're the one who wants this so badly." He tries to keep up his bravado, but at my final suggestion, I feel him twitch beneath me, though he's still dressed from the waist down. I'm the one who's more naked right now, having lost my shirt and shorts some while ago, not long after he closed the door behind him. He barely had enough time to toe off his shoes and set his bag down before I was crowding him against the wall, determined to make sure tonight went a very certain way.Â
And now, with him shirtless, blushing, laying back in the bed and letting me touch him all over... I think I might get my way tonight. I just need to be careful... I don't want to scare him off of being this vulnerable for me.Â
"Well," I begin, my voice light and teasing as I let my lips turn their attention to his throat and chest, kissing his Adams apple and collarbone, deliberately taking my time down to his tiny, pink nipples, while my fingers work at his belt and pants, sliding down his legs and discarding them somewhere on the floor, "I mean if I could really choose... We'd be doing this in your office and I'd have you over the desk. And you'd still have your lab coat on."
Zayne scoffs, "That one may have to remain in your fantasies, I fear. I do have a reputation to uphold." But I feel his cock twitching again, twice this time, belying the fact that he finds that thought arousing as well, though he's doing his best to scold me, despite the position he's allowing himself to be forced into.Â
"Boo," I murmur, and bite his nipple softly. In return, I'm rewarded with one of his soft little whimpers, and he'd scowl at that too, if I said it to him. "On your back, then. I want to see your pretty face while I fuck you. Surely you understand the appeal?"Â
Zayne's eyes glimmer with mirth, and I get another sound of amusement from him, though he says nothing else, giving me his consent as I feel him fully relax beneath me, and the fingers he has tangled in my hair move down to my thigh, and then knee, urging it upwards so he can spread his legs for me while I suck bruises into his chest.Â
"Ready?" I ask, raising my head to meet his eyes, now dark with desire, half lidded, his bangs hanging almost entirely over one of them. He nods, and once I've managed to lube up my fingers, with the bottle prepared (in advance, of course) nearby, I raise one of his legs at the knee, bending it upwards as I reach down between them, bypassing his cock to slick up his entrance. Zayne jolts at the sensation, and I haven't even pushed in yet, only pressed against the pink pucker, spreading the wetness on my fingers around it.Â
"Have you tried anything on your own?" His cock, I notice, is already half hard against his stomach, pretty and pink and perfect.Â
"No... Other than... Well, I purchased an enema bulb, but that wasn't..." Zayne attempts to explain, and I begin a slow and gentle push into him with my index finger, and his brows furrow at the sensation. "Given how excited you were, I assumed you would..." He sucks in a breath, and his eyes close, "would want the pleasure."
"You're right." I confirm, and rub my other hand across his thigh, where I'm holding it, "Stop talking though. If we're ever going to get anywhere, you need to relax." Zayne is clearly tense, along almost every line of his body, and I try to distract him with gentle touches, along his hips and ribs. "Breathe, honey... Just breathe.... Relax." I murmur to him, and he makes a clear attempt to obey, though the breath he takes shudders on the way in and out.Â
"Relax..." I press a bit deeper, and feel his hole clench around my finger, trying to push me out, and so I stay right there until his walls ease up. I wipe the furrow from his brow, and he finally meets my gaze again, his expression clearly unsure.Â
"Remember, like I said, if you hate this, we never have to do it again." Finally, I get my finger all the way inside, and he's so tight around me just from this, I'm suddenly unsure how far we'll be able to get tonight.Â
"How does it feel?"Â
Zayne is clearly trying to relax his body, sinking further into the mattress, but his ass is not a muscle he's used to paying conscious attention to, and so he's clearly finding it difficult, though I do feel him start to relax more fully after some time, as I just wiggle a bit inside.Â
"Strange..." He begins, and then gasps as apparently, I twist and crook my finger in just the right spot, and his previously flagging erection grows just a bit, right before my eyes. He looks down at me with a mixture of surprise and curiosity, mouth open as I crook my finger again, and he grunts, his warm hole fluttering. "That was..." Zayne tries, seemingly conflicted by the sensation.Â
"Your prostate? I would assume, based on your reaction." I smile, nodding down towards his cock that has begun to fill out. "Does it feel good?"
"... I don't know. I do know it's a pleasure point in the male body."Â
"Zayne, you are not about to give me an anatomy lesson right now." I move my finger, pull it out, drizzle more lube over it, and then press back in, starting a slow rhythm, hopefully to help him get more used to the sensation. For my troubles, I get another little sound out of him, this one sounding more pleasured than confused.Â
"You don't--" He grunts again, turns a little pinker, and rolls his head on the pillow while I fuck him on my finger. His cock I am ignoring on purpose, knowing that would only distract him. "You don't think my lectures are sexy?"Â
"Everything about you is sexy. Would it help you relax if you did give me a lecture on all the functions of the prostate while I get your ass ready for my dick?"
The slide of my fingers in and out of him becomes easier as he lays back and groans, so with another drizzle of lube, gently, I try to press my middle finger in as well. It's tight again, but he's becoming looser.Â
"Yes--" he gasps, and I openly chuckle. In return I get a lazy half smile out of him.Â
"Go ahead then, honey. Tell me what's so special about..." I twist both of my fingers the way I had before, to make him jump, rubbing them there when his hips buck and he gives me a whine, brows pulling up as his mouth drops open. "This."Â
"Fuck." Zayne rarely swears, so that's how I know he's starting to lose it, and goddamn if that word from his lips doesn't get me wet in more than a few seconds. I let up though, focusing my attention on scissoring him, stretching him, fucking gently in and out. I don't want to overwhelm him, not yet.Â
"The prostate..." He begins, the tensing in his abdomen easing up a bit as my focus shifts away from that particular bundle of nerves. "Is located below the bladder, and in front of the rectum." His voice has gone breathy, tight, but funnily enough, it does seem to be helping the tight warmth of his pretty hole relax while I work patiently. "It's primary function is to aid in--" another small whine when I add more lube, "to aid in semen production, and to help push it through the urethra."Â
Hilariously enough, I do find myself actually listening, and bite my lip to avoid distracting him while I add my ring finger. At this point, his cock is now fully hard, which, honestly... I didn't expect.
"Go on." I encourage him, looking away from the sight of my fingers inside of him to see his neck bared, eyes closed as he almost arches into the pillow below his head. An adorable sight, he's panting, flushed from his ears to his chest, and yet his expression is one of almost complete focus.
"The urethra runs directly through the prostate. There are... Nnh... There are five lobes."Â
Lobes? Zayne... I bite my lip harder. With three fingers now, he's much looser, and it's both so cute and so hilarious that his focus on anatomy right now actually is helping him open up to my intrusions. I can feel it happening.Â
"There's the... Anterior--" The rest of whatever heâs about to try and explain about the lobes of the prostate is cut off as I move, leaning up and over him to capture his lips in a kiss. The heel of my palm rests over, and presses against his balls. Zayne makes a little muffled sound and then sighs. I can feel him melt into me and I smile.
âAs much as Iâd love to hear the rest of that lecture⊠You feel like youâre ready?â Our noses brush, and he looks up at me, his eyes dark and filled with emotions that I have trouble naming⊠Vulnerability, maybe? But something else too. His breath is hot against my cheek as he exhales.Â
âYes. I think so.â
âFeels good?â
âMore than I expected.â
When I slip my fingers out of him, he grunts a little, the sound so disappointed that I chuckle as I climb off of the warmth of his body, and reach back for the dresser at the foot of the bed, slipping my legs through the harness and tightening it as fast as I can manage.Â
âGood. Donât move. I want you just like this.â I say as I crawl between his legs, one hand full of the silicone cock now attached to me, and the other with a bottle of lube that I drizzle generously over the entire length. Zayne pulls up his knees as I approach him, spreading his legs a little wider to accommodate me. For a moment, the sight has me frozen. His hole gapes now, stretched from my fingers, and I watch it flutter under my gaze.Â
Zayne is blushing, hooking his hands behind his thighs, and no doubt shy about the way heâs presenting himself like this to me. Heat rocks through me, and I know Iâm slick between my thighs. âFuck, Zayne.â I breathe, and his blush grows brighter right before my eyes.
âYes, I believe thatâs the idea.â He quips anyway, and we both share a smile, his lips quirking while I try to hold back a giggle.
While I still have his eyes on my face, I reach my hand down, beneath the leather of the harness Iâm wearing, and collect my own wetness on my fingers. We both look down at the same time when I press them back into his pink hole, and I feel him clench down on me, his cock twitching several times, growing harder than itâs been all night in a matter of seconds.Â
âYouâŠâ He whines.
Heâd never admit thatâs what it was, but I become determined almost instantly to force him to make that sound again. I pour more lube over the space between his thighs, retracting my fingers to smooth some of it up and down his hard length and his balls, and then gather the excess in my cupped hand and push into him once more, only enough to ensure heâs good and wet for me before I settle more fully against him. I grip the silicone dildo in my hand, and press the blunt tip against him. Itâs honestly not very big, or thick. I didnât want to overwhelm him the first time we tried this⊠And it seems like that was the right choice, because thereâs little resistance as the head pops inside.
I rock my hips, gentle, and study his face. Heâs propped up on his elbows, watching the sight of a cock entering him for the first time, and he looks⊠Curious, almost. Confused, but also turned on, if his blown out pupils have anything to do with it.Â
âOkay? Tell me if you need me to slow down.â
Zayne nods, his focus unwavering as I push further. Again⊠Thereâs little resistance. Maybe I should have gotten a bigger one.
âKeep going.â He encourages me. With a snap of my hips, Iâm flush against the bare skin of his ass, and with the sudden movement, his head goes back, and a long moan leaves his throat. I watch his adamâs apple work through the sound.
After that, I start to fuck him, rolling slowly against him, pulling almost all the way out before pushing back in, giving him the chance to get used to what must be an extremely foreign feeling to him.
It isnât long before heâs panting, open mouthed, his brows pulling up and together as he falls back against the pillows. God, I canât help but think how cute he looks like this⊠For once, heâs the one laying back and letting me fuck him into the mattress, and itâs not hard to see how much heâs enjoying it.
Weâve been together long enough for me to know how turned on he gets when Iâm the one who takes more initiative. One evening, after he let himself into my apartment, shortly after we really started dating, I shoved him against the wall, kissed him until neither of us could breathe, and he came the moment I shoved my hand down his pants. I havenât been able to stop thinking aboutâ well, not this exactly â but something like this ever since. Seeing how easily he falls apart for me, and me alone, the great and powerful Dr. Zayne, just makes me want to take more and more. To push him further and further, but Godâ
One of my hands replaces his own at the back of his thigh, pushing it up further, and my other hand braces itself against his muscular chest while my thrusts grow faster, shallower, and the moment I hit that perfect angle, amidst the soft whimpers leaving him with every thrust, his expression contorts further. His stomach clenches, and he cries out, grabbing my wrist against his chest, almost like itâs a lifeline as his head turns into the pillows.
âPleaseâ fuckââ Zayne manages, his voice high and thready while I pound into that sweet spot.Â
âPlease what, love?â I ask, my own voice a little hoarse, punctuated with sharp breaths.
âI canâtâ Iâmâ Iâm close.â He gasps, while I punch out more soft moans from him. His cock bounces with every thrust, painting a thin line of precum across his abs.Â
I need no further instructions. I extricate my wrist from his grip, pushing his knee higher, until itâs almost against his chest. His other leg has long since fallen, his thigh quivering. I wrap my hand around his erection and jerk it hard and fast while I fuck into his body.
Zayneâs back arches into a perfect curve, and I swear the sight of it almost has me coming instead of him. I grind into him, doing my best to stimulate him from both sides, and I swear I can see a tear running down the side of his face and into the pillow.
âGo on.â I say, and he does. The sound he makes almost sounds like a sob, and peters off into a desperate whimper as he comes in my hand, and I can feel his ass tightening, trying to push me out while I continue to grind against his prostate. His cock throbs in my hand, and warm come splatters over his own chest, dribbles over my fist while I work him through it. His hips roll against my own, the movements uncoordinated and almost staccato, his long, pale neck on full display as his head goes back, and the arch in his spine becomes more pronounced. He trembles against me, gasping, and only once I see the tension in his limbs start to fade, do I stop.
In the aftermath, weâre both left panting. Zayneâs eyes donât open again until I pull out of him. He whines at the loss, or maybe the discomfort, I canât be sure which, and his hazy eyes find mine while his chest continues to heave, and his heart likely races.
Thereâs a soft smile on his lips as the harness comes off, the lube is put away, and I crawl to settle into his side. Our bodies stick together with the thin sheen of sweat covering us both.
I give him a second to catch his breath, and then look up at him. Heâs staring at the ceiling like heâs just had a revelation. Itâs kind of funny.
âSoâŠâ I start, almost singing the word, propping myself up to lean over him, âAre you gonna let me do that again, causeâŠâ
When he looks at me, Iâm very suddenly taken off guard by the molten gold in his eyes.Â
Zayne huffs a little laugh and shakes his head.
âOnly if you get a towel to clean us up with. Iâm not sure my legs are capable of supporting my weight at the moment.â Itâs my turn to laugh. He really does look like heâs about to pass out, but heâs not so far gone as to let go of the chance to give me one of his famous Dr. Zayne scowling faces. I kiss the pout off of his lips, and jump up to go get a warm, wet towel.
âIs that Dr. Zayne speak for, âWow, you totally just blew my brains out and gave me the best orgasm of my lifeâ?â I lean over him as I return, and he pulls me down into another kiss, slower, and longer this time.Â
âYour translation skills need a bit of work to capture the true intent⊠But I suppose that one works just as well.â He chuckles against my lips.
âSo are you going to finish telling me about all the lobes of the prostate? I was actually pretty invested. I mean, I definitely am now.â
âNot tonight. Just lay down, darling.â
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(Once Bitten) Twice Shy
Chapter Eight
Plot summary : Desperate to get away from your controlling family, you take a job in New York as a wealthy vampire's blood source. A million dollars awaits if you can make it through a year, but life with Billy Russo is not going to be as simple as you think.
Pairing : Billy Russo x Reader
Story Rating : RÂ Chapter Rating : R
Warnings : [This is a fic for 18+ only, minors DNI] Mention of periods (don't worry, we're not doing Saltburn), smutty behaviour, use of toys. More sickening cuteness. All chapters will contain mentions of blood. Please check the warnings on each chapter if you choose to follow this story.Â
Word Count : 5k
A/N : It's not exactly a cliffhanger but I get the feeling people won't like where it ends... Oh also spoilers for Jane Eyre (but it's 170 years old so I'm assuming people know the twist?)
CHAPTER ONE | CHAPTER TWO | CHAPTER THREE | CHAPTER FOUR | CHAPTER FIVE | CHAPTER SIX | CHAPTER SEVEN
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Chapter Eight
The gentle touch of his fingers on your cheek woke you and, for a few seconds, you werenât sure where you were. Billy was crouched in front of you, smiling softly. Your eyes threatened to close again, feeling exhausted and like all of it was just a dream.
âHey,â he muttered softly, his fingers still tenderly caressing your cheek. âAre you okay?â
Finally, you managed to wake yourself up enough to realise that you werenât dreaming, and that youâd fallen asleep on the sofa beneath the yellow blanket Billy had bought for you.
âIâm fine, just tired,â you told him, slowly sitting up.
Billy remained crouched in front of you, tenderly cupping your cheek and looking almost concerned.
âDid you draw too much blood again?â
âNo, it's not that. I did that hours ago. I'm just really tired.â
âJust tired?â He pressed the back of his cold hand to your forehead, checking your temperature.
âAnd my head hurts a little.â
âWhen is, uh -â he hesitated, almost looking uncharacteristically embarrassed, â- when is your next period due?â
Your cheeks warmed with both the realisation and the fact that Billy had figured it out before you. That was why you felt so awful. âSoon, I think? I-I lost track of the days after I moved in,â you explained, âand I've never been very, uh⊠regularâŠâ
Thankfully, Billy just nodded and sat himself beside you, an arm around you pulling you into his side.
âDo you need to go lay down?â
âNo I - I want to spend time with you,â you told him, resting your head on his shoulder. âWe didn't really get to finish talking last nightâŠâ
âWas there something else you wanted to say or ask?â Billy asked softly, shifting a little so you could get comfortable against him.Â
You stayed silent for a few moments, thinking over all of the things you wanted to ask, wondering what you had the right to ask. âWhat causes it? What makes you feel like everything is... too much? Iâve only ever seen a vampire lose control from hunger...â
âSometimes itâs hunger,â he offered reluctantly, âother times itâs just... I donât know. Even before I was turned, I was never any good at controlling my emotions. And, now, I feel like Iâm constantly fighting myself. When Iâm with you, I feel like Iâm drowning. Everything about you; your scent, the taste of your blood, the way your heart races... itâs a lot to try and ignore.â
Although the words were spoken to you, about you, you knew better than to read too much into them. It was the constant proximity, he probably felt that way around any human after enough time. It wasnât because he felt anything for you.
âThat sounds exhausting.âÂ
âIt is,â he admitted, waiting for a beat before asking; âwhy did you apologise? I lost control but you apologised.â
âBecause I -â you stopped yourself before the lie managed to leave your lips. It hadnât been your fault, as difficult as it was for you to accept that fact, you knew it was true. âBecause Iâve always been made to feel like itâs my fault when bad things happen to me. The night we met, you asked me what I was running from, and thatâs part of it; I was raised to feel ashamed and believe I deserved everything bad that happened to me.â
You heard him inhale sharply before he pressed a kiss to the top of your head. He was silent a moment before speaking again.
âWho left you?â He asked softly. You lifted your head, frowning. âLast night when you asked why I was leaving you it just⊠you sounded hurt, like someone had left you beforeâŠâ
âMy sister,â you answered, âshe left home when she was eighteen and my parents disowned her because of it. She said she'd come back for me, but she never did.â
âWhy did she leave?â
âMy parents wanted her to marry a guy she didnât want to marry.â
âIs that why you left?â He asked and immediately seemed to regret it when your gaze dropped. âSorry, you donât have to answer that.â
A moment later, you snuggled back into his side and closed your eyes. âHow long until you have to go to work?â
âI can stay another twenty minutes,â he told you softly, slipping his arm around you. He was silent for a few minutes, before letting out a slow exhale. âIâm not going to be able to see you for a few days, itâs not safe for me to be around you while youâre...â
He didnât have to say it for you to understand and, as much as you wanted to argue with him, you knew it wouldnât be fair to try and force the issue. Now that you had some idea of how he felt and how much of a struggle it was for him to be around you sometimes, you knew Billy needed space.
âItâs okay, I understand.â
You stayed that way for another twenty-five minutes until you gently reminded Billy that he was going to be late for work. He didnât seem to want to leave you and it made your heart ache to think about why that might be. Though, rationally, you understood that it wasnât you; he was just tired. You were finally starting to understand just how difficult and exhausting it was for him just to get through a day.
He gave you a soft kiss and told you that heâd see you again soon.
The next morning when you woke up cramping and feeling terrible, until you found that heâd left a gift basket in your kitchen, filled with things you might need over the coming days; painkillers, chocolates, a new smart-watch with a cycle tracking app, a heating-pad, various toiletries and a large teddy bear with a note pinned to his chest.
I thought you and Bill the Beagle might want some company.
Take care of yourself. Iâll see you soon.
B.
Butterflies filled your stomach at the thoughtfulness of the gifts and, later that afternoon, when you left blood for him, you couldnât resist leaving him a note of your own.
Thank you for your considerate gifts. William the Bear is a wonderful addition to my growing stuffie collection and the chocolates were lovely. Hope you have a good night at work.
xoxo
The next day you felt even worse but, again, you were pleasantly surprised when you managed to drag yourself to the kitchen to get breakfast and some coffee. There was another box of chocolates and another note waiting for you.
William is a terrible name for a bear. I didnât expect you to get through the chocolates so quickly, remind me to stock up next month. I hope youâve not been watching Black Sails without me.
Take care
B.
And, of course - of course - you had to reply, leaving your note with his blood again.
I happen to like the name William. I think it suits him. He looks like a William. I hope youâre not trying to shame me for enjoying the chocolates, truffles and caramels are my weakness. Donât worry, Iâve not been watching anything without you, Iâve been reading. You were right, Jane Eyre was a very apt choice.
xoxo
His notes became your reason to get up in the morning, though they were a bittersweet reminder of his noticeable absence in your life. It filled you with a strange yearning and an uncomfortable sadness to think about him out there on his own. But that was a silly thought. You didnât know anything about his life outside of the penthouse, about his work or his friends, maybe he wasnât even noticing your absence.
(Or maybe he felt it just as much as you did.)
Okay, I have to ask; what does a William look like? Of course Iâd never shame you for enjoying the chocolates, but now youâve told me your weakness I might have to use it to my advantage. I hope youâre enjoying Jane Eyre more than you enjoyed Dorian Gray.
I hope youâre not feeling too bad. I miss our talks.
B.
Your heart stuttered as you read and reread those four little words; I miss our talks. He missed you. Maybe not quite in the same way that you were missing him but, still, it made you long for him even more.
Well, in my experience Williams tend to be cute and cuddly, even though they look a little dark and brooding at first glance. Oh no! Please donât use my weakness for chocolate truffles against me!!! (The extra exclamation marks are so you read that in a sarcastic tone.) Yes, I think I like Jane Eyre more than Dorian Gray - Mr Rochester kind of reminds me of you.
Iâm feeling a bit better today, I should be fine in a couple of days. I miss spending time with you too. I hope youâre not too lonely without me around.
xoxo
You doodled a little picture of the teddy bear heâd given you on the corner of the note but gave him a grumpy looking face and a tag that read âmy name is Williamâ.Â
There was a strange feeling of embarrassment when you left the note and you almost changed your mind about it halfway back to your room, and you spent the rest of the evening wondering if it was a little too much.
So, the next morning, you felt a little reluctant to go into the kitchen, and had to take a deep breath before reading his note.
Dark and brooding?? I think you might have to elaborate, but Iâll let you save that for when I see you next. I hope that there will come a point in the book where Mr Rochester doesnât remind you of me quite so much (I donât know where youâre up to and I donât want to spoil it).
Iâm glad youâre feeling better. The penthouse isnât the same without you. Itâs strange, youâve only been here a couple of months yet and it already feels empty without you. I miss you.
B.
P.S. Is the doodle supposed to be me or the stuffie?
It felt like your head was spinning as you read, reread, and read again.Â
He missed you.
Billy missed you.
You spent half the day writing and rewriting your note to him, in one attempt confessing your feelings, in another acting completely blaise about his confession. Nothing you came up with felt right but the thought of not replying seemed worse.
I see what you mean about Mr Rochester... though I donât know if I can completely rule out the possibility of you having a strange woman tucked away somewhere in the penthouse. It would certainly explain where all of the chocolates have been going.
I miss you too. I know what you mean, I feel the same way, like Iâve been here longer. But I suppose thatâs how things feel when you get close to someone. Hope to see you tomorrow.
xoxo
P.S. Iâll never tell. An artist never reveals her secrets.
There was no end to your relief the next morning when you woke up finally feeling better, knowing that youâd be able to see Billy again. Part of you expected not to find a note, but there it was, waiting for you on your kitchen table, just like the others had been.
I can think of a less mysterious explanation for the disappearance of your chocolates, little hummingbird.
Iâm not used to missing people. Iâm not used to being close to them either. Some days I feel like my whole life has turned upside down since I met you. I canât wait to see you again.
B.
P.S. I think itâs magicians that never reveal their secrets, not artists.
Again, he left you searching for deeper meaning in every word, your heart aching for a man who seemed so lonely and alone, a man who didnât deserve that life at all.
After breakfast you showered and washed your hair, wanting to look your best when you saw him again.
Slowly but surely, over the course of the day, your nerves started to eat away at you; what were you going to say to him? Were you going to pretend that the notes hadnât happened and that their contents was just idle talk to help the other feel less alone?
You couldnât sit still as you waited, counting down the hours before sunset, perched on the edge of the sofa and watching his door. The moment it started to open, you were on your feet.
Before he had the chance to even realise that you were there, youâd cleared the distance between you, throwing your arms around his waist and pressing your face against his chest. Billy let out a breath but, for the life of you, you couldnât tell if it was a sigh of relief or simply because you were squeezing the air from his lungs.
âHey,â he muttered, his arm slipping around you and holding you almost as tight as you were holding him.
A minute or two passed, neither of you moving or saying anything, until he pressed a kiss to the top of your head and your grip on him started to loosen. You didnât pull away, but gave yourself enough space to look up at him, smiling shyly as your cheeks started to warm.
âHi.â
âHi, hummingbird.â
Neither of you seemed to know what to do or where you were supposed to go from there so, again, you both fell silent, still holding each other. Finally, you dared to reach for him, placing your hand on his cheek. His eyes closed and he leaned into your touch, and butterflies began to swarm in your stomach. Before you could talk yourself out of it, you lifted onto your tiptoes and pressed your lips to his.
It was a soft, chaste kiss, nothing at all compared to some of the kisses that youâd shared, but you felt his lips pull into a smile against yours before his eyes finally opened again.
âI missed you,â he admitted in little more than a whisper.Â
His hand moved to rest on your neck and you found yourself glad of his cold touch after what seemed like so long without it.
âI missed you too,â you confessed, âI - I missed you more than I probably should have.â
If Billy understood what you were trying to tell him, he didnât show it. Instead, he just shook his head and smiled before kissing you again.
You sank against him letting him deepen the kiss and turn it into something else, something new. Normally when he kissed you it felt explosive and desperate, like he was laying claim to you, but this kiss was tender and filled with longing, like he was savouring being with you again. It stole the breath from your lungs.
âI missed you,â he muttered again.
âYou already said that.â
âI know, I just -â his head shook, and he let out a huffed laugh, â- this has felt like one of the longest weeks of my life.â
âHave you been okay? Was it -â you hesitated, not sure you wanted to ask the question, â- was it easier without me around?â
Billy pulled back a little, frowning. âWhy would it be easier?â
âThe other night, you said you feel like youâre drowning when youâre with me,â you shrugged a little, letting your gaze drop for a moment. Â
Before the notes, youâd assumed that everyone made him feel that way, that it was just part of being a vampire for him. But, now, after his last note and after that kiss, part of you longed for him to admit that it was more, that it was you, that he felt something for you, that he cared.
âI was wrong,â he told you, waiting until you looked up again to continue, âI feel like Iâm drowning without you.âÂ
âOh.â Whatever youâd expected, it hadnât been that.
âItâs a lot. I know itâs a lot -âÂ
âNo,â you shook your head, âno, itâs not.â
âI wish I couldâve met you in another life. I wish it wasnât like this.â
The words caused your chest to ache, understand what he was saying and why because you felt the same way; the situation was a mess and all either of you could do was make the best of it.
There was more you could say - more you wanted to say - but it didnât feel like the right time, and it wasnât fair for you to try and push anything when you had every intention of leaving him once youâd finished your year. So, instead, you pressed yourself against him and hugged him tight.
Once youâd managed to pull away from each other, you spent the next hour sitting with him on the sofa, talking while he drank, trading gentle touches and kisses until he needed to leave. You followed him to the elevator, not sure if he was keeping hold of your hand or if it was the other way around.Â
It took a couple of weeks for things to start to return to some sort of normal between you.
Karen noticed the first time she saw you, mentioning that you seemed distracted as you walked through Central Park together (thankfully with no sign of Madani in sight), but she didnât bring it up until you were sitting together a week later, having lunch in a little coffee shop.
âIs everything alright with you and Billy?â She asked, deciding to just go for it.
âYeah, itâs fine,â you answered. And it was fine. You were happy. You just could stop thinking about what heâd said to you and how you wished that things could be just a little bit different so you could both be happy.
âI know Billyâs my friend and you donât really know me all that well, but you can talk to me if somethingâs bothering you. Or if heâs done something to bother you.â
There was something in her voice, something knowing that you really didnât like. But how could she know what was going on with you and Billy, when you didnât even know yourself?
âEverythingâs fine, honestly. Itâs great, actually. Weâve been really getting on lately; weâve been hanging out talking about books and Iâve been making him watch Black Sail on Netflix,â you told her.
Karen nodded, though it didnât look like she believed you, but she let it drop, leaving you with the sneaking suspicion that she knew a little more about the way Billy was than she wanted to let on.
Your quiet evenings with Billy slowly started to become a little more physical again, though neither of you seemed in a rush to try and push for sex again. Instead, most evenings heâd end up with his head between your thighs, or youâd slip your hand into his pants while you made out. And, even though you found yourself longing for more, you didnât want to push him. No, you wanted to take things slowly, wanted to make sure that he wouldnât get overwhelmed again before you took that next step.
Time seemed to fly by and it wasnât long before the whole penthouse was being turned upside down in anticipation of Billyâs big party; live music, caterers, decorators and, of course, more blood than you felt comfortable seeing in one place. The whole place was transformed over the course of three days and, when the night finally came, you felt almost sick with nerves.
Even Billy had a strange energy about him, checking and double checking every little thing, including a security team from his company whose presence he seemed reluctant to explain to you. You watched from the sofa as he led them around the apartment, explaining where he wanted them and which areas of the penthouse were off-limits. He introduced you to one of them, a human man called Curtis who would be spending the night near the door to your quarters if you needed any help during the night (and, again, Billy didnât explain what that meant).
A couple of hours before the guests were due to arrive, you went to shower and draw blood before doing your hair and makeup, and getting changed into your dress and shoes. For a few minutes you found yourself staring at your reflection, hoping to find some of the confidence youâd had that night in the dressing room with Billy.
When you stepped out into the penthouse, it only took a moment for his eyes to find you, his jaw threatening to drop as he took in the sight of you. His appearance had the same effect on you; his well tailored tux had you biting your lip.
âWow, Russo, you really know how to pick them,â Curtis called across the penthouse, earning himself a withering look from Billy and causing your cheeks to heat.
Billy made his way towards you, not bothering to hide the way his eyes were taking in every inch of you. When he reached you, he placed a hand on your hip and kissed your cheek.
âI got you a present,â he told you, using his hand to start guiding you towards the library, pausing momentarily to tell Curtis and his team that they could go take a break before the party started.
Your heart was hammering in your chest as he led you into the library and towards the seldom used desk by the window. Waiting for you were three boxes, each beautifully wrapped in silver paper and tied with black ribbon. Without thought, you found yourself gripping Billyâs arm as your legs threatened to turn to jello beneath you.
He smiled softly, picking up the first box and handing it to you.
âOpen it,â he instructed, managing to sound as excited as you felt about this whole exchange.
It felt wrong to destroy the immaculate wrapping, so you took your time, carefully untying the ribbon and peeling open the paper to get at the box. You removed the lid and there, in amongst black tissue paper was an ornate black and silver mask.
âItâs for the party tonight,â he told you when you looked at him for clarification, âwe wear the masks until midnight and then take them off. Itâs supposed to symbolise vampires being seen by society, but really itâs just an excuse to have fun while no one knows who you are.â
You laughed, head shaking. âThank you, itâs beautiful.â
But he didnât give you time to linger, gently taking the box and mask from your hand before offering you the next present, seeming to get more eager with each passing second. He was practically vibrating with excitement.
Your breath caught as you opened the second box. It was a beautiful choker style necklace with diamantĂ© detailing - at least, you assumed that it was diamantĂ© because you couldnât even start to imagine how much it would have cost if they were real diamonds. For a few seconds you were lost for words.
âHere, let me,â he offered, pulling the necklace from the box before you even had the chance to answer him. Billy stepped behind you, gently draping it around your neck and fastening it for you.
Your fingers immediately reached up to touch it; it felt a little heavy around your neck and youâd never had a choker style necklace before, but the feel of it would be a constant reminder of Billy and you loved that.Â
âThank you, Billy,â you finally managed, turning and wrapping your arms around him before pressing a kiss to his cheek.
âThereâs one more.â He reached for the last present but seemed a little more reluctant to hand it to you.Â
And once youâd opened it, you understood why.
âOh...â said somewhere between shock and confusion.Â
You werenât sure what youâd been expecting, especially not after the mask and the choker, but a new sex toy certainly wasnât it. Your cheeks heated as you looked at the box, trying to make sense of it, the words discreet and remote play only confused you more.
âI want you to wear this for the party,â he told you, a hint of nervousness in his voice, âif you want to, I mean. If itâs too much, I get it. I just - I thought we could have some fun. And thereâs going to be so many people, I guess I want to know youâll spend the night thinking about me...â
Your cheeks continued to burn, part horrified by the notion, but a much larger part couldnât help but find the idea interesting, arousing even. And, after everything that had happened between you, part of you was still longing for more.
âYou want me to spend the night thinking about you?â You asked quietly.
âMore than anything,â he answered in little more than a whisper, like he knew it was something he shouldnât say.
It felt like your heart leapt into your throat for a few seconds and you struggled to swallow around it. All you could think about was that night a couple of weeks ago, how he told you it felt like he was drowning when he wasnât with you, and you knew that you couldnât say no to him. (You didnât want to say no to him.)
âOkay,â you finally answered, âhow do I...?â
âLet me,â he offered, perhaps a little too eagerly, taking the box from your hand, muttering something about how heâd cleaned it and charged it ready before wrapping it.
You bit your lip, watching as he pulled the purple silicone toy out of the box, knowing that he could hear your heart pounding. Then he kissed you, slipping his tongue between your lips and enjoying you for a few moments. When he pulled back he began to trace your lips with the tip of the toy before slipping it into your mouth, causing your cheeks to burn hotter.
You watched him suck his fingers, leaving them glistening with saliva before dropping to his knees and slipping them beneath your dress and into your panties. His free hand nudged your knee and you parted your trembling legs a little further while his fingers stirred between your folds, wetting you before slowly slipping into you.
You moaned softly as his fingers slowly started to pump inside you, twisting and bending, easily finding that special spot.Â
Your hands gripped his shoulders, feeling like your legs were going to give out. Another soft moan escaped you when he looked up at you, holding your gaze as his fingers filled you, over and over. You clenched around him as he licked his lips, knowing that he was imagining the taste of your arousal on his tongue.
âYou can come whenever you need to,â he told you, smiling up at you like he was in awe of you.
âBilly...â you moaned, your voice muffled by the toy in your mouth, hating how close you were to falling apart.
Your walls clenched and tightened around his fingers again, but you were already so wet that you couldnât hold onto him or make him slow. There was something about all of this that seemed so obscene, so dirty, and it just made you want it ever more. His fingers hit that sweet spot one more time and it was enough to push you over the edge. Your legs started to tremble and your thighs pressed together, trying to keep his fingers inside you.
And, all the while, Billy smiled up at you.
A needy whine slipped out when he pulled away his hand, but you soon fell silent when he took the toy from your mouth. Your eyes fixed on the bookshelf behind Billy as he inserted the toy, suddenly feeling embarrassed despite everything youâd just let him do. Once he was done, he straightened your panties and made sure your dress was perfect.
Shifting your weight between your legs, you tried to get used to the feeling of the toy while Billy stood up and took out his phone.
âLetâs give it a little test,â he said with an almost mischievous grin on his lips that caused you thighs to clench. Something told you he was going to enjoy this. A lot.
A sudden whimper was pulled from you as the toy started to vibrate.
Billyâs grin grew as his finger swiped on his phone, causing the vibrations to intensify. As good as it felt, a mixture of shame and concern threatened to ruin the moment.
âWhat?â Billy asked, stopping the vibrations the moment he noticed your discomfort. âIf itâs too much, you donât have to do this.â
âI want to,â you answered shyly, a little embarrassed by just how much you wanted to, âItâs just... what if someone realises?â
He offered a soft smile, placing a hand on your cheek.Â
âThey wonât,â he told you with confidence. âItâll be too noisy for anyone to hear it, and youâll be good; you wonât come until weâre alone together and I give you permission.â
His thumb tenderly caressed your cheek as he leaned in to kiss you, his tongue slipping between your lips and wiping away any misgivings you might have had. You wanted to do this. You wanted to give Billy the comfort of knowing that you were thinking about him all night. And you wanted to do it for yourself too. Youâd wanted to have new experiences and this was definitely new for you.
âCome on,â he said, slipping his hand into yours, âletâs go have a glass of wine and wait for the guests to arrive. Itâs going to be a long night...â
Chapter Nine
End Note : So, originally, this chapter and the party were going all be one chapter, but then I got carried away with the cute notes between reader and Billy. That means next week will be a whole chapter of party shenanigans.
As always, thanks for reading/commenting/liking/reblogging, hope you're enjoying this as much as I'm enjoying writing it! Have a great weekend!
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Fic Recs (Stranger Things Edition IV)
My semester is over and I can finally read fanfics again!! and maybe write??? All fics are fem!reader
Marvel One Two Three Harry Potter One Two Three Stranger Things One Two Three Specific Characters Tangerine Masterlist
Like a Random Tuesday in December by @bimrwolf (18+ Only)
Pairing: Steve Harrington x Reader Summary: âReader had always had a crush on Steve, but he is not interested. Yet, when he starts to get closer to her, he realizes he made a mistake because it might be too late.â
Whip it! by @schoopsahoy
Pairing: Steve Harrington x roller-rink!Reader Summary: âsteve gets forced into taking the kids to the new roller rink, but he doesnât mind so much once he meets you. basically just steve being a massive simp for reader.â
Dazed and Confused by @caxde
Pairing: Eddie Munson x Reader Summary: âyou work on Hawkin's music shop, and Eddie is a regular costumer. Your friends (Steve and Robin mostly) help you to gain confidence and flirt with him.â
Start Me Up by @jobean12-blog (18+ Only)
Pairing: Mechanic!Eddie Munson x Reader Summary: âYour car needs a major tune up but when you meet your mechanic, all you want is for him to tune you up.â
Dreaming of You by @boomhauer (18+ Only)
Pairing: Virgin!Eddie Munson x Reader Summary: âPlagued by graphic dreams about the Munson boy, you decided to see if he can make them come true.â
Sketchbook by @galaxy-siren
Pairing: Eddie Munson x Artist!Reader Request: Could I please request an Eddie x artist!reader story. Maybe he sits next to her in a couple of classes and he sees her drawing in her sketchbook and heâs just like âholy shit that really goodâ and he asks if he can look at some of her other drawings. She lets him forgetting that she has a couple of sketches of him.
Second Chance by @astermath
Pairing: Steve Harrington x Reader Summary: âsteve decides to ask out the girl who he keeps seeing around hawkins with her nose in a book. heâs a little surprised when he gets brutally rejected, only to find out his âking steveâ era is haunting him more than he expected. he attempts to make it up to you and show you heâs changed, even if it takes him a couple of tries.â
Private Viewing by @lokis-army-77 (18+ Only)
Pairing: Camboy!Eddie Munson x Reader Summary: Â âWhat happens when your favorite camboy is in your class? You should stop watching his content... or should you? What happens when you are eventually paired together for a project? Everything will be just fine, won't it?â
Next Caller by @eddiemunsons-missingnipple (18+ Only)
Pairing: College!Eddie Munson x Shy!Reader Summary: Â âEddie hosts a late night radio show for his college campus, where he discusses various different topics. He's mostly known for his DnD and sex talk segments. You've been a long-time listener who works up the courage to finally call in for some help.â
Deal with the Devil (Series, Ongoing) by @hard-candy-writing (18+ Only)
Pairing: Eddie Munson x Cheerleader!Reader Summary: âyou want to piss off your parents. eddie wants to pass his classes. so you make a deal with each other: he'll date you, you'll tutor him, and you'll both end the year happy. the catch? no falling in love. slow burn romance, enemies to friends to lovers, fake dating, don't fall in love. fic takes place in 1984-85.â
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the way it follows you home, the stories i never told
My guy Vox once again graced us with lovely Goyuu fanfics, and the way it follows you home, the stories i never told, made me go FERAL.
Time travel? Two Gojou Satorus? Double affection for our sunshine Yuuji? Yuuji sandwich? What feels like possible continuation of (you'll whisper, serpent tongue) what you fear you have become???
FUCK.
I need to stop indulging my imagination too much. I shouldâve been content with writing long-ass comments but noooooo, my brain goes âyou gotta draw itâ. DAMMIT VOX, YOU AND YOUR DELICIOUS WRITINGS HHHHHH
So⊠usually I shouldâve picked a favourite scene that is within my drawing capability, but I just⊠love all three chapters??? So I made a questionable time investment? I canât stop??? Help???
This is probably the most ambitious fanart project Iâve ever done so far. Fair enough, considering I might combust if I keep these welled-up emotions inside from reading Voxâs Goyuu fics. Fuck.
Fic info:
Title: the way it follows you home, the stories i never told
Author: @voxofthevoid
Pairing: YuuGoGo. Future!Yuuji, Future!Gojou, Teen!Gojou
(idk why I laugh writing YuuGoGo. Iâm beyond help)
Currently, it is 3 chapters out of 8. And itâs gonna be NSFW chapter 4 onwards, so donât forget to read the tags first, folks!
The drawings are under Read More, because I have lots of thoughts surrounding each chapter and drawings. Itâll be hella long if I didnât hide it here. It was a mess down there. A combination of hours before, during, and after I read said fic. Iâd say good luck finding the art among the sea of jumbled words but⊠youâll find them easily. Donât worry about it haha
SPOILERS FOR ALL 3 CHAPTERS! I highly recommend reading those first before diving into these drawings!
Also for the comics, read from right to left please!
From here on, I will be referring to the Future!Gojou as Gojou and the teenage one as Satoru.
Overall, drawing all these is fun! Really fun! This project pushed me quite hard, forcing me to test my limit (because I rarely draw this much back to back). Since this is a combination of drawings and comics, the coloring style will not be consistent. In a way, I want to try some brushes I never get to use, as well as try out my new graphic tablet. Drawing these got me giggling because I was finally able to let loose during line art. It's much easier to do so, and sometimes I just get to reread the fic and giggle to myself for the nth time.
CHAPTER 1:
Whooo. Whoooooooooâ
Ok, ok, the premise is just that good. It intrigued me, fascinated me, and I just⊠oomph. I cannot refuse a Time Travel Yuuji Sandwich. Sign me up.
Honestly, there are two scenes that are just⊠a bit too clear in my mind when reading this chapter. That would be the one I drew above, and the other is when Yaga called Gojou to come outside of the class. I love, loooove how Vox wrote Satoruâs POV. And when Yuuji fucking giggles?
I lost it.
Can you imagine, drawing Yuuji grins, with shiny stuff, maybe some sunlight, just purely happy and indulging Gojou?
Help me, for I am drowning in my love and adoration for Yuuji.
Page 2 is an experiment on using harsh black as shading (kind of?). I really enjoyed colouring Yuuji, and drawing those buffalo skulls! I wish I can grasp the concept of contrast a bit better tho :v
CHAPTER 2:
This is probably the only chapter where I picture still images instead of comic panels. A bit like those cool chapter covers in mangas. The one I really, really want to draw is the scene with Satoru on the table. Canât pass the opportunity to highlight Satoru being a brat, albeit a really cool brat.
Cool idea drawing always proves to be a challenge, because of course my artistic skill just so happens to be below the requirement. Thank you, Sketchfab, for the chair and deskâs perspective otherwise Iâm screwed lmao
The second scene that I want to draw the most is this:
Gojou is one step away from climbing Yuuji. Also, I have a bit of a problem picturing a man pouting that makes him look crazy instead, so please have Gojou pouting adorably instead. Because, as Yuuji said (with love), Gojou is (also) a brat.
This is possibly my favorite art in this project, after Yuuji's in Chapter 1 page 2. It's clean because I don't have to draw background, and I was having a fun time drawing Yuuji. And Gojou's squishy cheek as well.
Oh, actually, there is a âmangaâ scene in this chapter. Itâs when Yuuji said, âI love Satoru.â
I justâ
AAAAAHHHHH YUUJIIIIIII YOU AND VOX ARE GONNA BE THE DEATH OF ME. That secure relationship between Yuuji and Gojou? Satoruâs description of how Yuujiâs smile could blot out the sun??? Not me screaming đ I also see bits of hints of possible co-dependency, though I could be reading those wrong, but either way Iâm good. Secure and possessive relationships are fun to consume hhhhhh
But yeah. There are too many wholesome Yuuji smiles in this fic, and I⊠I am not confident enough to draw genuine happiness. Itâs too much for me â ( á ăâ )ïŒż
For this chapter, another reason why I chose these two scenes is just because I want to try and draw cover-worthy pictures of Yuuji and Satoru, and Yuuji and Gojou (cough)
CHAPTER 3:
We start the chapter with Nanamin. Ah, Nanamin. I forgot what his teen self looked like and was surprised to see his design again lmao
I want to draw Yuuji and Nanami scene because⊠I just want to, I guess. I have never drawn him before (Yaga as well) so that's an interesting challenge. I got two ideas on how I want to draw it. One is a bit painting-esque, and the other one is like another chapter cover. In the end, I chose the cover one because I want to emphasise the difference between teen!Nanami and the Nanami from Yuujiâs original timeline, and how the watch feels like a connection between the same (yet not) person. Itâs a bittersweet feeling? In a way?
Iâm not really good at explaining my intention â ( á ăâ )ïŒż
I love Yuujiâs answer to Nanami's question.
AND FINALLY.
A Yuuji SandwichTM scene.
And oh B O I do I love it. Have I told you I like every chapter? I probably have. But this one? Satoruâs curiosity, Yuujiâs on-brand self-deprecation, and Gojou come strolling down to show more of Yuuji to his mini-self. I want to draw this whole scene, from Gojou finding them, feeding Yuuji snacks, bitch-slapping Satoru into the backroom, to Yuuji growling. Them trying to hide a boner from Yuujiâs growl got me cackling so hard I LOVE IT đ
I love it all. Please love Yuuji in my stead, Satoru and Satonyan :3
Oh! Also! 40-finger Yuuji sounds really, really cool! Iâll be happy with whatever Vox will give us in future chapters, but 40-finger Yuuji⊠possible scene with this timelineâs Sukuna⊠my god. The action! The drama! The bloodshed! One can only hope.
However, as much as I love that whole scene, itâs still too much for me :â) Iâm still not yet confident in delivering the humour and action. Also my already-long drawing plan had my brain groaning in protest so I canât push my luck :'D
When Gojou said "He looks sweet, but he's a bit of a beast", I kept picturing Yuuji staring innocently, but there was an edge to his look. As if the moment Satoru looks away, he will pounce. But in the end I just stick with innocent-looking Yuuji because I accidentally drew his eyes that way and I want to keep it in lol
Since Satoru points out how soft and cuddly Yuuji is, I also want to draw soft Yuuji :v
And the last one⊠is the last scene. For some reason, I read that both Gojou and Satoru share Yuujiâs lap and was having a frustrating yet fun time figuring out how itâs⊠physically possible, without having their butts on the ground because they both are not small at all. As I lined the art, I reread it again and⊠perhaps I read it wrong? Satoru is beside Yuuji, and not on his lap? So yeah, this one might be the least accurate, but hey, at least you can view it as a crack drawing or something :v
AAAANNNDDD I HAVE EXCEEDED TODAYâS BRAIN CAPACITY OF FORMING WORDS
Have I told you I love this fic?
âŠI probably have.
Have an amazing week (âÂŽâœ`â)*âČïŸ*
#yuu's art#jjk-fic-fanart#jjk ship#jjk-ship#äșæ #goyuu#goyu#5u#gojou x yuuji#speedrun this bad boy of a project in 3 days#from planning#now I can sleep in peace
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Cock Worshiping
Request: Yes / No Kinktober Day 16
Donât be shy, request things! <3 Have a nice day/night
Daryl Dixon x Fem!ReaderÂ
Word count: 790
Warnings: SMUT
Summary:Â You've noticed your boyfriend, Daryl, has been so stressed lately and you decide to show him how amazing he is.
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I did absolutely everything I could to make sure tonight would be perfect. Daryl needed to relax because heâs been working too hard lately. I waited in the house that we shared in Alexandria. I got dolled up in a little set I found on a run. I spent a lot of time wondering if I should even put it on, but when I looked in the mirror I looked so cute.Â
When Daryl finally got home, he smiled at the sight of me lounging on the couch. My eyes met his and I jumped up, rushing to wrap my arms around him. I pressed kisses all over his face, making him laugh a bit. I was always so affectionate with him, even if he was hard on the outside.Â
âIâm happy to see ya too, darlinâ.â He picked me up and I kissed his lips.Â
âIâm happy too!â He carried me into our bedroom, gently placing me on the bed. I knew what he was trying to do, but I wanted this night to be all about him. He slipped down my lacy bra down past my tits, but I stopped him and cupped his cheeks.Â
âI have something for you.â I said and he narrowed his eyes. I took his hand and led him back into the living room. On the ground in front of the couch were a few soft cushions. I smirked as I watched his reaction. Candles were scattered around, making the room look a bit more romantic.Â
âWhatâs goinâ on, babe?â He asked, but I hushed him with a kiss.Â
I pushed him down on the couch and got down on my knees. He smirked as I slowly began to strip him. I helped him out of his vest and shirt, my hands all over him. I caressed his muscular body, drawing soft groans from him. I kept going and unbuckled his belt. His pants were soon pulled down his hips, exposing the bulge in his boxers. I pulled those off him too, making his cock slap against his abs.Â
âYou really donât need to be doinâ all this, babe.â He said, but I could tell he wanted it.Â
âI want to.â I said, before grabbing his cock. I slowly started jerking him off, then spit on the head of his cock to lubricate it.Â
His head fell against the back of his couch as I picked up my pace. I started licking his tip. He couldnât even look down at me. I could read his body like a book, itâs how I knew how to make him cum.Â
âBabe.â He groaned. His cheeks were so blushed as I began sucking on his head.Â
âFuck, feels fuckinâ good.â He moaned. I looked up at him with wide, adoring eyes. I pressed soft kisses to his shaft, licking and sucking on his veins. He grunted and I smiled at the sound.Â
âI love your cock so much, baby.â I moaned, jerking him off again. I leaned down and pressed a kiss to his balls.Â
âFuck!â He groaned, his cock throbbing in my hand.Â
âItâs so big and makes me cum so hard.â I said, giving his head another kiss. His grunts turned into moans as I took him deep into my mouth. I repeated this a few times, making him pant as his balls tightened.Â
âItâs such a thick cock, makes me almost choke every time I suck it.âÂ
âYeah? You love suckinâ my big cock?â He asked.Â
âI love it so much.â I moaned. I started deepthroating him, his moans becoming desperate whines. His finger dug into my hair but didnât do anything more than that. He was ready to cum already. I moved my hand down to cup his balls, massaging them.Â
âYou have no idea how hard it is to hold it.â He groaned.Â
âGood, thatâs what I wanted to do. Your cock makes me cum so hard, so you deserve to cum hard too.â I said, jerking him off a little faster this time. I pressed my lips to his balls, sucking and licking again as he fucks my fist. My head moved back to the head of his cock as I massaged his balls again. He started cumming with a low growl.Â
âFuck yes, swallow everâ last drop!â He groaned. I did everything I could to ride out his pleasure.Â
Finally, he returned back to earth and smirked down at me. I was trying to catch my breath, but he wasnât done with me yet. He pushed my head back down again and chuckled darkly.Â
âShow me again.â He said and I whined around his cock.Â
âShow me how much you worship my fuckinâ cock.â He said and I moaned.
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Yknow what, I might as well see what happens
Gonna do the notes game, just gonna see what happens I dunno (I have a lot of stuff I need to do and no motivation so Iâll use the internet to force me to)
25 notes - Iâll finish reading Good Omens
50 notes - Iâll finish pulp musicals (I started it and got distracted, came back an hour later so damn confused I HAD MY EARBUDS IN AND EVERYTHING)
100 notes - Iâll draw more (both traditionally and digitally, I want to improve)
150 notes - Iâll continue writing a coffee shop au I started last October and never finished (it was like 75 pages and I just stopped :()
200 notes - Iâll listen to Starry
250 notes - Iâll try to get at least a 70% in Spanish this quarter
300 notes - Iâll clean my room
350 notes - Iâll work on eating healthier
500 notes - Iâll spend more time with my friends outside of school
750 notes - Iâll finish listening to all the musicals on my musical watch list (there are so many of themâŠ)
1000 notes - Iâll get back to doing taekwondo
1500 notes - Iâll take a walk every day
2000 notes - Iâll spend more time with my family
2500 notes - Iâll rewrite my really bad Xehaqus fic from 2 years ago and try my hardest not to just delete all of it (Iâd be rewriting 183 pages, I dunno I wanna see how Iâd write it now without changing the entire plot)
3000 notes - Iâll actually start to study for school and not just wing it
4000 notes - Iâll stop being such an asshole to my parents Jesus Christ how do they deal with me
5000 notes - Iâll come out to my mom as trans
Try and reach the goal before uhhhhh I dunno April 16th
I may add more later, depends on how fast yall go through the goals, I have a lot of things I need to do (mainly because I need to start caring about my health and how I treat other people). I dunno, letâs see how this goes
Edit kinda did the âcome out to my momâ thing soooooo idk Iâll figure something out for 5000 (maybe)
#note game#Yall im so bored#And I need motivation#And also I need to start being like⊠a decent person#Idk man#I probably shouldnât be needed to do some of these things but also peer pressure is a wonderful thing#And Iâm just kinda a mess rn#Hopefully 4th quarter for school goes well#Fingers crossed?
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Caught In A Trap âą Joel Miller
âąïž sexual assault (past but thereâs flashbacks and discussions) âą victim shaming âą description of injuries âą blood âą panic attacks âą swearing âą âąïž
Main Masterlist âą Joel Miller Masterlist
This is part 2 of Cat and Mouse. You should really read that first unless you enjoy not understanding the narrative. Unfortunately this fic has a mind of its own and is gonna have a final third part. I know, I know. I hate myself too. It should be out by tomorrow night, yes I said that last time. No, Iâm not lying this time. Thank you to everyone who has read, reblogged and commented so far. I love you all.
âItâs stupid. Isnât it?â You asked Lou, pacing her living room. She had listened to you explain the whole date to her and now she was weighing up her opinion of what happened and you couldnât take the silence. âIâm stupid. Heâs fucked half the town. Why am I surprised he played me?â
âLike you played him?â Lou asked and you stopped your pacing to stare at her. She didnât hide from your stare like most people tended to, meeting you dead on. You clenched your jaw before taking a seat and nodding. âLook, I love you. When two people have been through what weâve been through, there are repercussions. We were items of use. We werenât people. We didnât get to have names or belongings or even autonomy. That way of living is going to leave a scar.â
âI donât want them to have me any more. I donât want to hide and just do as Iâm told. I donât want to have sex with a man just because he wanted it.â You told her with a sniffle, wiping your face. âBut they all do it. They all do something and then they make it my fault, like Iâm the crazy bitch.â
âHear me out?â Lou asked and you nodded. âYou keep picking men that make you crazy. Like Nolan right? He used you for sex. He wasnât open about it but once you figured it out, you let it continue to happen. Abdul, had a reputation for having more than one woman on the go. Aidan was a misogynist from the word go. Luca wanted a housewife, not a partner. Every man youâve tried to date has been really fucking shit.â
âThey have to be. They need to be awful. There arenât any good men.â Lou held her hand out to you and you took it, letting her draw you into a hug. You hadnât realized that it was you that was sobbing. âThere was so many and none of them tried to help. If there was good men they wouldâve helped.â
âThose men werenât banded together because they were good. They banded together because they were like minded individuals.â Lou told you, rocking you both from side to side. âYou knew Joel Miller was a slut. Youâve heard more stories about him having sex than there are single, age appropriate women in the compound.â
âHe was nice. He was nice and I slept with him and we, he made me laugh. No one ever bothered to do that. He offered to go home. He wouldâve left if I didnât want it.â You whispered and Lou shushed you again. âFor the first time since Nolan I had sex on the first date. I wanted it this time.â
âWhile Iâm sure Joel Miller is a great guy, thatâs the bare minimum. I know youâve never received it but respecting your right to withdraw consent is basic human decency.â Lou told you and you wondered what it meant that having your basic human rights respected felt like winning the jackpot.
âHe didnât mean it though. He got what he wanted by filling my head with false promises. Then he sent his kid, who wasnât even suppose to know about us, to bail him out. He had expected me to give in.â You cried against Louâs neck and she shushed you gently. âIt felt good. For the first time. When I told him I had an ache the next morning he didnât insist I just push past it. He was gentle with me.â
âThose are some more of those basic human rights. Absolutely no one should be trying to push you to agree to sex that will hurt.â Lou sighed and you blinked at her.
âItâs bad that I donât know that, right?â You asked and she only shook her head, kissing your forehead.
âYou were in that room for a long time. There was so much you missed, so much to learn. Iâll help you.â
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Joel stayed to the rear of the group out on patrol. He was fixing to give Tommy a peace of his mind but heading out to kill a bunch of runners wasnât the time. Tommy and Joel never argued on a patrol because they needed to have each otherâs back.
So Joel didnât give in to the temptation, keeping his distance from his brother who clearly didnât see anything wrong in his actions. That just made Joel even more mad.
Ellie was on his shit list too because she knew better than to listen to Tommy. She knew better than to come looking for him on a night he said he wasnât available to her. Boundaries were important between him and Ellie and he was pissed that she ignored him.
âI know that face.â Joel inhaled deeply because right now Nolan was the last guy he needed to see. He had been pissed enough to find him on the patrol but so far he had stayed well away. âBlack Widow sunk her fangs into you, huh?â
âDo I look like Iâm in the mood?â Joel asked, barely tilting his head in Nolanâs direction. Tommy looked back at Joel when he heard him speak and winced but turned and kept his face forward.
That pissed Joel off even more. Tommy had probably had something to do with Nolan being on the patrol. Joel clenched his jaw.
âShe ended things?â Nolan asked and Joel stared resolutely ahead. âYou said something bad, didnât you? It was a joke or a throw away comment but little miss took it to heart.â
âNolan, fuck off.â Joel warned, eyes facing forward. He couldnât help but be relieved when Abdul heard the tension in his voice and dropped back. Abdul was a good guy and it might deter Nolan.
âAlways ends it once she gets what she wants. Bet every conversation left you wrong footed. Had to feel like youâd make it up to her?â Joel inhaled deeply and stared at Tommy. He was willing to bet Ellieâs life there was no pack of runners.
âYou can go and fuck yourself too.â Joel warned. He took measured deep breaths and remembered that he was liable to get in trouble if he hurt any of them unprompted. It wasnât the same lawless land in Jackson. He couldnât just punch people that pissed him off.
âMan, weâre trying to help you here. Weâve all been through it. This is what she does as some sick fucking revenge.â Abdul told Joel and he swallowed roughly. âShe had some bad times outside the wall, got a little roughed up once or twice before Jackson.â
âWhen she got here she decided it was our fault. Letâs it look like our decision, you know? To pursue her. Happened to be in our line of view at the bar, we chose to talk to her. We didnât choose anything.â Nolan piped up and Joel furrowed his brow. âLetâs you feel like youâre playing her then leaves you high and dry. Like you need to go looking for her.â
âSheâll bump into you a couple of times. Each time sheâll cause an argument or make you out to be an asshole. The next time she sees you sheâs already forgotten about it.â Abdul spoke again and Joel felt his chest tighten. âTells you all about her three date rule.â
âShe doesnât do one night stands.â Nolan scoffed and Joel looked over at him sharply. âShe never does it, makes her feel dirty. Until sheâs crawling into your lap like a damn bitch in heat.â
âThatâs enough now.â Joel warned Nolan when his tone changed from conversational to direct anger.
âSafe, you made her feel safe.â Abdul finished and Joel realized that without a shadow of a doubt, heâs been played.
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âJoel isnât a dick.â You jumped, the rocking chair jolting with your movements. You raised your sunglasses off your eyes and found Ellie Williams standing at the top of your porch step. Unlike the times you had pretended with Joel, you genuinely hadnât heard her coming and it sort of unnerved you. âIt seems like he is but he ainât.â
âEllie, Iâm sure he ainât.â You sighed and set your sunglasses back down over your eyes and tilted your head back to continue absorbing the last of the Summer sun. âDonât you worry about what I think about your daddy.â
âOkay firstly, thatâs weird. Donât say that. Joel isnât my dad.â You lifted your head up again to look at her. âHe and I went through a lot together but I only met him like two years ago.â
âOkay. My point still stands. Iâm sure heâs a great guy. Donât worry about me. I was just in a bad mood the other day, âs all.â You assured her. You didnât want her to think bad of Joel, father or not.
âCause I made you think that. I shoulda known better than listen to Tommy. Joel was having an off-duty night. Weâve got boundaries. Boundaries are important.â You sighed and sat forward in your chair. You knew that your relaxing had come to an end.
âHoney, I was mad at him before you knocked on that door. People like me, well, we got issues. Iâm tryna work on them but I donât always do that good.â You told her and she nodded, listening earnestly. âI had some rough things happen and now I play games with people. I canât help it. Iâm trying to find someone that can put up with me, pass my tests.â
âJoel can put up with anyone. He crossed the country with only me for company. Iâm annoying as fuck.â Ellie told you with a grin and you huffed a laugh. âYou should give him another chance.â
âI donât think itâs in the card but youâre real sweet for tryinâ to fix things between us. It isnât his fault really. I shoulda known better.â You explained and she frowned, crossing her arms.
âIs this cause Tommy says you dump men to punish them?â You clenched your jaw and wondered if you were going to have to have a word with Tommy. Tell him to mind his own business before you minded it for him. âI was taken by a man who wanted to hurt me before. I killed him.â
âNot all of us are that fortunate, kid. But if I ever see him again Iâll have a go. See if it fixes me.â You assured her. You ignored her comment about Tommy and leaned back in your seat again.
âI think that youâre making a mistake. Punishing Joel. Heâs the only person I know who doesnât deserve punishment.â Ellie spoke quietly.
âMe keeping my distance is the opposite of a punishment. I can assure you that.â
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The key got caught in the lock. The hinges of the door squeaked. Every floorboard creaked and groaned. You were able to map the steps taken right up to the edge of the bed. The rattle of a belt buckle. Your arms ached from being tied above your head. âYou just been waiting for me, huh?â
You gasped, springing up in the bed with a hand over your racing heart. The room was black with darkness and you fumbled for your lamp, knocking it over in your haste. You ignored the shatter of glass in an effort to get to the main light switch.
You fell against the wall, your panic urging you on. When your fingers closed around the switch and the light came on you could finally breathe.
You were in Jackson. You werenât there anymore. You were safe and you were home. When your breathing was under control you looked down, unsurprised to find footprints of blood. You had walked on the broken glass.
You let yourself slump against the wall, slipping down to sit and take the weight off your damaged foot. There was no pain to feel yet, your nervous system still on high alert. You sighed heavily, head tilted back. As the adrenaline wore off and the pain kicked in there was no point in fighting the tears.
There you sat against the wall, sniffling and blinking while attempting to get all the glass out of your foot. Swiping at your eyes angrily when you couldnât see and breathing deep through the sobs trying to fight out of you.
It was exhausting, feeling this way. There were tricks you had learned to make it better. When you had arrived to Jackson every night was spent like this, sobbing in your room cause you were scared of the dark.
Then you had met Nolan. And sure he was a little forceful in his come on but you found the nights easier with him by your side. You had felt safe from the nightmares that plagued your mind. Putting up with sex you didnât really want was a small price to pay. He never took it forcefully, just spent his time convincing you and wasnât that easier than what had already happened?
It wasnât until you found out he had been enjoying your deep sleep a little too much that you had to call it all off with him.
You hadnât ever told anyone that. Nolan was a valued member of Jackson. He was big and strong. He worked the patrol routes and fixed up houses. You just helped around wherever you were needed.
Nolan hammered home two harsh truths. The first was that there were no good men. The second was that you unfortunately couldnât keep away from them.
So you played them at their own game. You got a warm body to sleep next to and they got their dicks wet. You made them work for it. You didnât hand yourself over in a way that made you feel that skin crawling filthy, the way Nolan and all the men before him made you feel.
There was the introduction of your three date rule. You teased them. Made them want you with a desperation that made sure that theyâd tell you all their dirty little secrets. The men of Jackson didnât want to kick you out because you had dumped them. They wanted you out because you held their worst secrets close to your heart.
They feared the monster of their own creation. You wanted them to fear you. Every cheating, lying scumbag among them.
Joel had been different. He had risen to every single challenge you had offered. He had gone the extra mile for you. Sure he had said stupid things but never out of cruelty. Never to hurt you.
Ellie had told you that Tommy had orchestrated the bail out so maybe he hadnât expected you to do whatever he wanted. Maybe he had been as much a victim of outside sources as you were.
You had wanted him in a way you had never actually wanted a man before. You hadnât broken your three date rule in years, never since Nolan. But you couldnât help yourself, crawling into his lap in a way that made you feel like the games were over.
You wanted them to be over. You wanted to be wrapped in Joelâs embrace, wanted him to fend off the nightmares and hold you when they broke through anyway.
You wanted him on top of you, gasping against your neck, pushing into you slowly. He had been so gentle with you, taking his time with you. He had been bashful about his size, almost apologizing until you had been begging him to fuck your harder and deeper.
You sniffled again and probed the skin of your foot, checking for any pain that could be caused by glass still being inside. When you found none you pushed yourself up, limping out of your room and hitting each light switch on the way, bathing your house in the golden glow.
You found your first aid kit in the bathroom and patched your foot up. The tears had stopped for the most part and you took advantage of that to clean up the broken lamp and the blood.
Youâd have to visit the clinic tomorrow and get it checked out but for now the bandages would do. When you looked at the clock you found it to be a little after four. Acceptable enough to get up and start your day.
You wouldnât be getting any more sleep with those images in your mind and the phantom ache in your arms.
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âJoel it isnât that big of a deal.â Ellie sighed, trying to shake the grip he had on her shoulder. He didnât answer and she rolled her eyes at him, wiping the blood out of her face. âShimmer is gentle usually, she just spooked.â
âShe ainât broken yet. I told you not to ride her.â Joel huffed, pushing her towards the clinic. She had slapped a piece of gauze over her injury and called it a day. He had half a thought to kill her when he had peeled back the gauze and found the deep wound. âCouldâve died.â
âYouâre being dramatic.â Ellie sighed, shaking him at last when they pushed through the door. She let him talk to the receptionist, looking around. She blinked when she spotted you dozing in a chair, bandaged foot elevated on a table. Ellie looked over to Joel who hadnât spotted you yet and grinned, moving to drop into the seat next to you. âHey.â
âFucking- Jesus Ellie. What the fuck?â Your eyes flew open and you almost bolted out of the chair. It was then Ellie took in how exhausted you looked. âGonna put a fucking bell on you.â
âYou just reuse all your lines like that?â Joel asked with a scoff and your eyes widened, turning to look at him and back to Ellie. âGot nothing original, huh?â
âWhat are you talking about?â Ellie asked him, wondering why Joel had his âI shoot people for funâ look on his face.
You were saved from the conversation by your name being called. You pushed yourself up, ignoring Joelâs comments and barely took one step, limping heavily, before Ellie slotted herself in under your arm.
âIâm fine.â You assured her and she shook her head, resolute in helping you.
âShe said sheâs fine, Ellie.â Joel grunted. Ellie ignored him and supported you walking toward the treatment room.
âThank you.â You lifted your arm from around her shoulders and supported yourself on the door handle.
She was in the treatment room by the time you had gotten your stitches. You were hoping not to see them again but just as you were receiving a pack of gauze and bandages Ellie stepped out, prodding her own stitches against Joelâs advice.
âWhatâs the verdict?â Ellie asked, slotting in beside you at the counter. You had been given a pair of crutches and you propped them under your arms.
âFour stitches, no pain meds and the threat of brute force if Iâm caught working or walking on my foot.â You told her with a sigh, ignoring Joelâs glare. You felt sort of off balance having him this mad at you. It wasnât anything you werenât used to but you werenât blackmailing Joel. You had gotten mad at him for a proper reason.
âI got four stitches too!â Ellie cheered and bumped her shoulder into your arms. âAnd Iâm not allowed nap today. Just in case itâs a concussion. Joel probably wonât let me on a horse ever again.â
âSucks to be you, I guess. Iâm gonna nap all day.â You told her with a shrug, smiling when she laughed at you and shook her head.
âYeah yeah, youâre a dick. You gonna be okay to get around? I can call by and help?â You frowned at Ellie, eyebrows furrowing at the effort she was suddenly putting in. âWhat?â
âThanks for the offer, Honey. But itâs just a little cut. Iâll be fine.â You ruffled her hair before grabbing the gauze and bandages off the counter. âStay away from them horses, okay?â
âYeah, yeah.â She sighed and you rolled your eyes before shuffling towards the door, your crutches clicking loudly in the silence that followed. Just before the doors closed behind you you heard it.
âShe ainât your friend. Stop acting like it. Sheâll just let you down too.â
If there was one thing you wouldnât let happen ever again, it was letting a man be right about you.
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You spent a lot of time out on the rocking chair on your porch over the next few days. The summer was winding down and you were enjoying the last of the warmth before Jackson turned into the frost bitten, snow covered town it was in Winter.
Your foot hurt something awful but it showed no sign of infection which you were grateful for. Without pain meds the best you could do was stay off it.
Reading on the porch seemed to be the best way for it. And so you spent all of your time out there, watching the comings and goings of Jackson. The days were peaceful, allowing you to nap in the chair to avoid the fact you werenât sleeping at night.
It wasnât until the creak of your garden gate sounded on the fourth day that your peace was interrupted. Ellie had a large plaster slapped haphazardly on her forehead and a larger grin on her face.
âShouldnât you be in school?â You asked her with an eyebrow raised. She only shrugged, tossing her book bag down at your front door and taking a seat on the bench on your porch.
âTold them I had a headache. They sent me home. Except Joel is out all day on a patrol and Iâm bored.â Ellie explained and you nodded, rocking yourself with your good foot.
âAnd you canât call over here while Joel is around cause he told you not to.â You offered. She shrugged instead of denying it and you had to laugh a little.
âLike I said. Joel isnât my dad. I donât have to do what he says.â Ellie explained and you rolled your eyes at the pure teenage attitude that poured off her. âHeâs afraid Iâll get attached to you. I once got attached to a book full of puns so heâs probably right.â
âWell I mean, youâre only talking to me cause I spent a night with your father figure and you feel bad for interrupting.â You teased and Ellie laughed.
âNah. I heard about you way before Joel. I take note of women that men hate. Itâs important to be feared by men.â Ellie told you honestly and you laughed, shaking your head. âI read a book about feminism. It was in my room in Jackson when we moved in. Itâs important to have good female role models.â
âIâm not a good female role model. Iâm the opposite of a role model. I sleep with men to get their secrets. Thatâs not exactly inspiring.â You reminded her and she shrugged.
âWell I ainât gonna go copying you if thatâs what youâre afraid of. Not like Iâll be sleeping around with the men of Jackson.â Ellie scoffed and you tilted your head at her.
âIs that right?â You asked with raised eyebrows. âIâm sure the women of Jackson will have as many secrets.â
Ellie flushed a deep red and sat up on the bench, her jaw hanging open. âI never said that.â
âDidnât have to. Iâm very observant.â You told her, letting your head fall back again. âI ainât gonna tell anyone.â
âEllie!â You winced and Ellie groaned loudly. It seemed Joel had gotten home early. You continued to rock your chair and took a deep breath. He was just as in the wrong as you were. âWhat the hell are you doing here?â
âMore importantly, what are you doing here?â Ellie asked, laying back down on the bench. âItâs way out of your way.â
âLooking for you. I get back early and hear youâre suffering headaches and canât find you anywhere.â Joel snapped, pushing in your garden gate. âI told you I didnât want you hanging around here.â
âShe ainât doing no harm.â You sighed, you hated to get involved but she was shrinking in on herself, away from his anger. âEvery kid played hooky once.â
âI didnât ask you. Last thing she needs is to be hanging around you. Sheâs a kid, no games to be played with her.â Joel snapped and you huffed a laugh.
âThatâs right. Iâm the only one who plays games.â You told him, pushing yourself to your feet. You winced, reaching for a crutch. âYou know what you did. All the games I played was to prevent you doing that.â
âOh yeah, the same games you played with damn near every man in this town, huh? I heard it all, Nolan and Abdul had a lot to say.â Joel scoffed, grabbing Ellieâs backpack and waving her forward. She looked between you both before shuffling towards him. âWe all had it tough outside Jackson. You donât gotta punish everyone for it.â
âIs that right? They told you all about me, huh? Thatâs a silly game for them to have played.â You leaned against your porch railing and grinned at Joel, wide. âGet off my property, Joel.â
#the last of us#tlou#ellie williams#joel miller#joel miller tlou#joel miller x afab!reader#joel miller x f!reader#joel miller x f reader#joel miller x you#joel miller x reader#joel miller smut#joel tlou#joel the last of us
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Hiya I have read you Natasha and Wanda fics and I would like to say that they are so good and if itâs possibly u you could do a age regression with either Natasha or Wanda or both and reader set up a whole date night scenario with the help of maybe Yelena or carol and they get annoyed and just become really possessive over reader and they end up fighting and reader has just woke up from her nap and comes downstairs and they all stop arguing and they make up as reader told them to. Hopefully you understand that đđ„°. How u have a good day also if u donât want to do it thatâs fine
Stop Fighting! | WandaNat X Fem!R
Gif not mine, credits to creator
Pairing: WandaNat x Fem!Reader
Word count: tbd
Warnings: Slight Arguing, Age Regression, Fluff, Little One (R), Mama (N), Mommy (W),
A/N: I'm So Sorry This Is Like A Year Late! Hopefully It's What You Wanted/Expected <3
Summary: The Ask
Stop fighting!
"It has to be perfect!!" You squealed whilst Carol was laying the plates on the dining table
"I know munchkin," She chuckled "why don't you draw your mommies a nice picture, yeah?" She finished setting the table and picked you up.
She rests you on her hip and carries you to your playroom
"Bu' I wanna help youuu!" A loud whine left your mouth when Carol puts you down.
"Don't be like that little one, I'm sure your mommies would appreciate a little picture to go with their meal and dessert, which you can help me make, eh?"
"Okay Aun'ie Carol!" You run over to your little table and grab a pack of crayons
Carol walks back to the kitchen and stirs the sauce that's currently cooking in the pan
Half of an hour later you hear a car pull up the drive and your chair falls over from how fast you stand up
You run to the front door and practically vibrate from excitement when you see the handle pull down
"MOMMY! MAMA! YOU HOME! YOU HOME!!"
Wanda drops her bags and picks you up
"Hi baby we missed you so so much" she rubs her nose against yours and chuckles
Nat comes around your other side and kisses your cheek
"ĐŃĐžĐČĐ”Ń ĐŒĐŸŃ Đ»ŃĐ±ĐŸĐČŃ" (hi my love) Nat takes Wanda's and her bags upstairs whilst Wanda carries you to the kitchen where she sees Carol
"Oh... Carol, I didn't realise you were here"
Wanda places you in your highchair so she can take over cooking from Carol
"Yeah I'm still here, this cutie must've used the emergency list to call me," She strokes your chin "Said she needed help so I came 'round straight away"
Wanda glares at her "What kind of help did she need that required....You?"
Carol gulps and takes a step back "I can't tell you, it's her surprise for you"
"Mommyyyyy! Be nice! We jus makin dinner for 'oo! Wanted make dinner for us thwree an Aun'ie Cawol jus helpin'."
You huff and pout as Wanda's eyes softened towards Carol
"Oh Carol I'm so sorry, I just assumed the worst and I shouldn't have I'm truly sorry" She hugs Carol and they make up just as the Oven dings to signal the meal was ready
In the end, You and your mommies enjoy a fancy meal (with Auntie Carol to make up for the misunderstanding) and finish the day off with watching your favourite movie: Frozen
"Bye bye Aun'ie Carol, fank yoo fo' helping make dinner!" You squeeze her goodbye before having to go to bed as it was your bedtime
"Did you brush your little teethies ĐŒĐ°Đ»ŃŃĐșĐ°?" Nat asks, as she climbs into bed behind you, as Wanda snuggles into you into her front
"Mhm, sleepy time now?" You hold onto Wanda and use her chest to rub your itchy face
"Yes sweetheart, sleepy time now goodnight darling" Your mommies hold onto you as your soft snores fill the quiet room
"We love you" They say before drifting off to sleep too.
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My requests are now open again because I'm ready to get back into writing
#marvel#marvel imagine#wanda maximoff x reader#mommy wanda#mama nat#mommy!wanda#mommy!natasha#wandanat fluff#wandanat x reader#age regression#natasha romanoff imagine#natasha romanoff x reader#natsha romanoff#wanda maximoff
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Same as it ever was 8
Warnings: this fic will include dark content such as neglect, bullying, manipulation, cheating, and possible untagged elements. My warnings are not exhaustive, enter at your own risk.
This is a dark!fic and explicit. 18+ only. Your media consumption is your own responsibility. Warnings have been given. DO NOT PROCEED if these matters upset you.
Summary:Â Between your home life and work, you just canât catch a break. Especially after you draw the ire of your boss.
Characters:Â Lloyd Hansen ft. Pete Brenner
Note: hello again.
As per usual, I humbly request your thoughts! Reblogs are always appreciated and welcomed, not only do I see them easier but it lets other people see my work. I will do my best to answer all I can. Iâm trying to get better at keeping up so thanks everyone for staying with me.
Your feedback will help in this and future works (and WiPs, I havenât forgotten those!)
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You change out of your work clothes into a pair of old jeans and a fraying sweatshirt. You can smell the smoke from the basement as you huff at the ceiling. Great. You thought maybe having Pete home could at least spare you a few minutes to lay down. As usual, you have to save the day he's spoiled. Not that it was any good before that.
You go upstairs as the fire alarms wails and you hear Simone asking if everything's okay. You come up behind your daughter and gently touch her shoulder, "go read, everything's fine."
Pete pokes the button on the detector with the end of the broom as you hurry in to move the pan from the burner into the sink. The pan is ruined as the breasts stick, burnt to the finish entirely. You shake your head as you face your husband. He looks like a beaten dog as he holds the broom and pouts.
"I'll put some of the frozen nuggets in the oven," you resign, "why don't you set the table or something?"
He mopes and puts the broom back in the closet. He doesn't leave though. He approaches as you open the freezer and take out the breaded processed chicken. You put the bag on the counter and tear it open.
"I'm sorry, babe. I'm really... I'm trying."
"I don't want you to try, Pete, get it through your head," you whisper sharply, "I don't want you. At all."
He sputters as you refuse to look at him. You pull out a baking sheet and spread out the nuggets. He watches, helpless and stunned.
"You can't mean that," he mewls.
"What am I supposed to want with you?" You ask, "You blew it. We both did. It's done. We just... get through for the kids. For the company, until you can pay me alimony."
"Huh?" He chokes on the noise.
"Mom," Simone jolts you as she chimes from the doorway. You and Pete turn in unison. "That idiot with the lip fur is outside."
You frown as Pete gives another confused utter. "Who-- he is?"
"He knocked but I told him to go away," she shrugs, "don't think he got the message."
"Simone," you look at Pete as he furrows his brow. "My boss..."
"What the hell is your boss doing here?" Pete asks.
"I wouldn't know," you answer dryly.
You march out of the kitchen, past Simone as you go to the front window and peer out. You see Hansen inspecting your mailbox before he jams the doorbell. Great.Â
You go to the door with your daughter and husband trailing you. This is the last thing you need. How dare he come there and disturb your family. He gets eight hours a day to torture you. And you haven't eaten, you're about to fall over.
You swing the door open, ready to eviscerate him but stopping short. You can't do that. Not least of all because Simone is right there.Â
"Mr. Hansen," you greet airily, "what can I do for you?"
"Ah, nice to see you too," he eyes Pete over your shoulder as Simone stands beside you.
"Wish she could say the same," Simone sneers, "I told you to go away."
"Sim," you reproach, you're starting to think she gets that from you. "Mr. Hansen..."
"You're the boss? What're you doing here?" Pete asks, gripping the door frame as he' stands almost right against your back.
"You must be the old man," Hansen smirks, "didn't the wife tell you? She got a promotion."
"Huh, old man-- promotion?" Pete reels aloud. "No."
You swallow and suck in air. Just go along with it. One wrong step and he might just tell the truth for once.
"I haven't had the chance, we've been making dinner," you simper sourly.
"Well, I wish I could say I'm just here to say congrats but business calls," Hansen checks his watch.Â
"It's six-thirty," Pete scoffs.
"Oh, you know, the big boys, it's a business dinners and useless small talk but gotta put on a good face." He looks at you and a line forms between his brows, "so better go doll yourself up."
"Wha-- right now?"
"I called you. Several times. You didn't pick up. Your problem, not mine. Let's go," he snaps your fingers.
"Mommy," Malik's voice startles you as he squeezes between you and Simone, "oh! Mommy!"
He whimpers and clings to your leg as he gapes up at Hansen, hiding behind you like he did when he was younger.
"I told you he's evil," Simone grumbles.
"Alright, everybody, inside," you declare as you raise your hands, "Mr. Hansen, please, just, give me a couple minutes."
"I've given you a few already but suppose I can't take you to dinner with grease on your shirt."
You look down at the new stain on your sweatshirt. Of course. You back up and close the door, turning to face your family, crowded in the entryway, bearing down on you.
"Okay, here's what's going to happen. Pete, put the chicken in, twenty minutes, make sure you flip them so they don't stick. Simone, keep an eye on Malik, please, help him with his homework, honey. Mal," you pause and untangle your son from you, "be good, please."
"Are you leaving?" He pouts.
"I have to."
"What the he--ck," Pete corrects himself before he can swear, "you're just going with him?"
"He's my boss, Pete," you snip, "I don't have much of a choice. I need the money. We both do. I doubt it'll be all night. A dinner, easy."
You know it's probably not what Hansen says it is but you're not going to unveil that deception. It's better to go along. You hate to lie to your family but you'd feel worse to let them down.
"Great, so you get to go out and have a fancy dinner and I have to stay here?"
"Pete," you sniff, "you're a father, start acting like it." You stop yourself, "Simone, Malik, please, go watch some TV."
Simone frowns as she peeks between you and your husband. You see the suspicion and anxiety sparking in her. She takes Malik's hand and takes him into the living room.
"I'll bring leftovers, happy?"
"That guy looks like a real scuzz bucket," he growls.
"Oh, please, you've spent how long staying late to go to dinners and be with Miss Panties or No Panties," you snarl, "don't start because I have to miss one night."
"Honey," he changes his tone, "I can't-- what do I do?"
"What do you do? Figure it out," you shoulder past him, done with the argument. You haven't won, you have to go put up with Hansen.
"Babe," Pete calls after you.
"I'm sure you could ask Simone, even a twelve year old can figure it out," you toss over your shoulder as you stomp upstairs.
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You pull on a plain black skirt that ends at your knees, of the few you have among your wardrobe. You match it with a lamb gray blouse and a blazer you canât button. You try your best to refresh your hair and face but at this point, thereâs not much you can do about it.
You come downstairs and slip into a pair of round-toed flats as Pete watches silently. You know he wants to argue. You donât want to go either but youâre sure as shit not telling him that. Let him suffer while you do the same.
âIâll try not to be too late,â you shrug on your coat and hook your purse over your shoulder, âMalik, donât give your father a hard time at bathtime and Simone, do your math. You canât read all night.â
You reach for your phone and spin back for the door. Pete catches you, holding you at armâs length. His blue eyes cling to yours with a glimmer of desperation.
âLove ya, honey,â he says, âI really do.â
You gulp and put your chin up. The kids are there. You try not to let your loathing tighten in your cheeks, âlove you tooâŠâ you eke out and clear your through. âLove you all.â You pull away from him and smile at Simone and Malik, âhave a good night.â
You quickly turn away and scurry to the door. Something about the moment leaves you breathless. The realisation that your family is hanging by a fraying thread. You pull the door shut as you come out to find Hansen leaning on the hood of his sports care. Is that douche bag red?
You come up the walk as he watches you with a smirk, âadorable, got the whole clan home.â
âPlease,â you grumble, âletâs just get out of here. Far away.â
He stands up straight, âalready jonesing for more, huh?â
âNo, I just donât want you near my family,â you retort.
He cackles and the car chirps as it unlocks. He goes around the driver side as you approach the passengerâs. You open the door and get into the low seat. You donât like the incline of the seat or the smell of the air freshener. Everything about him is unbearable.
He jams his index into the ignition, hitting the button to turn the engine. He sits back and rests a hand lazing on the bottom of the steering wheel as he pulls out slowly. You buckle the seat belt and stare ahead.
âIâm sorry I didnât answer the phoneââ
âGood start, toots, but a better one would be your hand in my pants,â he snickers.
You cringe and put your purse between your feet. You strain against the seat belt and lean over the stick shift. As you reach for him, he swats you away and growls. You retract, annoyed.
âI thoughtââ
âYou know, I was thinking of just driving you to the Wendyâs parking lot and sticking it in,â he cruises well past the speed limit as he remains casually reclined, âbut that seems too easy.â
You grit your teeth. Heâs mocking you. He slaps his hand on your knee and drags it up your thigh, rumbling your skirt.
âI didnât know you owned one of these,â he pinches the hem, âyou really got yourself prettied up, huh?â
You donât say anything.
âCan I make a suggestion? Doesnât matter, Iâm gonna. Try something shorter. You got the tight part but this is something my fourth grade librarian would wear. Oh, and lace. Or silk.â
You want to scream at him. Does he really think you can afford all that? That you want your ass or tits hanging out in front of your daughter? He knows all that, heâs once again making a joke of you.
âAw, tootsie roll, am I upsetting you? Well, thatâs real fucking shit,â his voice goes rigid, âI was pretty upset listening to your voicemail on fucking repeat.â
âSorry, I told youââ
âI donât care. Busy? Not in my world. Letâs get this straight, the only thing youâll be busy with is me. Or⊠I think Petey Boy may just love to hear all about your workplace antics. I mean really, he should be proud, youâre fucking skilled. That man, I see why he put a ring on it. Wherever it is⊠ShitâŠâ he skids to a stop at a sign and looks at you, âyou didnât have to pawn it off? Thatâs goddamn sad, honey buns.â
You inhale and lift your chin. That would be a better story than the truth. Besides, you have a feeling he doesnât genuinely care.
âIâll buy you a new diamond. Two of them, one for each titty,â he chortles as he steps on the gas again, âwhatâs your birthstone? Iâll get that for your ass.â
âMr. Hansen, I understand youâre upset. I didnât listen. I didnât answer the phone, but I canât just leave my familyââ
âYou will do whatever I tell you,â he interjects, âfirst, youâre going to stop. No more excuses, you figure it out. Second,â he veers into a lot, just behind an unmarked office building, âyouâre going to loosen the fuck up.â
He steers around to the back of the lot, parking slightly crooked and across the lines. There arenât too many other cars this time of evening. He turns off the engine and rolls his shoulders. Well, itâs not a Wendyâs at least.
âGet in the back,â he orders.
You want to ask what or why but you know better. You get out and open the back door. You sit on the end of the seat.
âLay down,â he says, still facing forward.
You glance at him, slightly confused. You slide up the seat and recline. His seat belt snaps back against the interior and his door opens. Gravel crunches under his soles and his shadow passes between the car and the streetlights. He darkens the open back door.
âPull your fucking skirt up,â he orders in exasperation, as if you shouldâve done so already.
You lift your shoulders and reach down to tug at your skirt. Itâs hard to get it up, itâs tight and uncomfortable, you shouldâve thrown it out. You feel the zipper about to burst. Impatiently, he shoves the hem up as he bends over the seat.
Youâre suddenly very self-conscious as you realise what heâs going to do. He holds himself between your thighs as his hand crawls up to your panties. High-rise cotton underwear that balloon a bit too much around your pelvis.
âSir, Iâll just take care of you,â you insist as you try to sit up.
âFuck off,â he snarls, âlay down.â
You blink as your lip twitches. You canât remember the last time Pete did that. Youâre not okay. You donât want Hansen down there. You really donât want anyone at this point.
âReally, Mr.--â
âLay the fuck back and shut up while I eat your pussy,â he grabs your panties and yanks, jolting you.
You fall back as he forces the fabric down. He growls and rips along the seam. You close your eyes and tense. As he exposes you, your thighs quiver.
He presses his face against your leg, his mustache tickling you as his breath dampens your skin. You swallow a shiver. Youâre oversensitive and strung out. You squeeze your eyes tight and focus on your breath as he nuzzles and nips up towards your cunt.
You clench as he gets closer. Without thinking, you push your hand to his head as you try to stop him. Your heart is racing. Why is this harder than what youâve already done?
He snatches your hand and throws your arm over the edge of the seat. You wince as he bites into your tender thigh. You squeak and he growls, his nose grazing up to your lips. You hold your breath as he closes in.
His tongue flicks up and you gasp. He glides between your folds, delving into you, humming so it rumbles through you. You raise your hand to grip the back of the seat. You forgot how nice this felt.
He takes it slow. A patience youâve never seen in him as he dotes on your clit, swirling back and forth, suckling, dipping his tongue up and down your lips, lapping up your flowing delight. You quiver as you sink into the sensation, almost forgetting the man whoâs inspired it.
His hand creeps up to your blouse, beneath your open jacket, and he squeezes your chest through the fabric. You wiggles his head back and forth as his tending grows more intense. He spreads his tongue wide and groans, his mouth slurping and sucking noisily.
The heat spreads into your thighs and tingles up your back. You arch your spine and dig your nails into the seat. You puff as you feel a climax rising. Hansen stretches his other hand over your stomach, pinning you down as he devours you ravenously.
Youâre tipped over the edge, letting out a series of squeaks and squawks as you give into the orgasm. Youâre dizzy from the sheer ecstasy of the moment, of his still lapping tongue, not stopping even as you cry out. He keeps on, urged on by your helpless moans. As in everything, itâs never enough for him.
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I joined this fandom 10 years too late and there's rarely new fics being posted so I guess it's up to me now!
Dipper makes a little oopsie when texing Pacifica late at night.
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He could blame it on the fact that itâs after 2 A.M. and he was up at 5 A.M. for Varsity Swim practice this morning. He could just say it was an accident, pure and simple, like when little kids call their teachers âmom.â He could say he meant to text it to his cousin in Phoenix (he doesnât have one, but she doesnât know that). He could claim that Mabel must have been messing with the auto-correct features on his phone again; some sort of mean prank. Hell, he could say it was Mabel who had typed it out in the first place.
None of these thoughts occur to Dipper Pines in this moment. In this moment, the only thought repeating through his head is:
Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
He sits and stares at the offending text. The bright blue bubble surrounding it confirms that yes, he actually sent those words.
Goodnight, love you.Â
He watches in frozen horror as the âdeliveredâ text below it transforms into âRead: 2:23 AM.â
Fuuuuuuuuck.
Snapping out of it in an instant, his thumbs feverishly begin tapping out an apology. He stops, erases what he wrote. This isnât really something you apologize for, right? Would that be weirder than leaving it be? Sheâs his best friend. She knows he loves her, at least she knows he loves her platonically , and calling it out might draw more unnecessary attention.Â
But then, heâs definitely never said those words before.Â
Yeah, this is new. Itâs weird. He needs to say something.
He starts again, tapping in some bogus message about how life is short and tomorrow is never promised, and hey why not tell your friends you love them? This line of thought is pretty out of character for him, so he blames it on some sappy coming-of-age movie that Mabel was watching the other night. And hey maybe it was kind of saccharine but thereâs some truth in all art, right?Â
She will totally call bullshit. He erases this too.Â
He starts tapping out a simple â I didnât mean to send that â but thatâs no good either because he doesnât want her to think he doesnât care for her. He just doesnât want her to know that heâs desperately in love with her, that he thinks about her every night before bed, about how he turns bright red any time his mom innocently asks how she is, or that he printed out that photo of them at the lake last summer and has it taped in his locker at school.Â
(âWho is THAT?â his lab partner Tyler once asked, and he just smiled in response. Nothing wrong with letting people think he has a super hot out-of-town girlfriend; he canât help it if rumors circulate.Â
They donât, but it was worth a shot.)
Heâs broken out of his reverie by the appearance of three little blinking dots appearing on his screen. He swallows.Â
Pacifica: You know I can see each time you start your message over again, right?Â
Dipper feels his cheeks warm. He braces himself and slowly taps out an answer.
Dipper: Yeah, sorry. Overthinking I guess.
Pacifica: You? Never.
Relief floods him. Sheâs teasing him, this is normal.
Dipper: I know, right? Better call the feds and alert the media.
Pacifica: Iâll start working on the press release.
Dipper: Maybe I can give Toby an exclusive interview.Â
This is good, he thinks. They can just banter a bit, and heâll guide the conversation to another topic and then they can say goodnight again ( sans accidental love confession ) and heâll push this little slip to the recesses of his brain where he stores every other embarrassing memory. It will live blissfully ignored next to memories of the lamby lamby dance and the time Mabel accidentally uploaded an episode of Dipperâs Guide to the Unexplained to the school server instead of her AV assignment.
Pacifica: SoâŠ
Well, shit . Nevermind .Â
Dipper: SoâŠ
Pacifica: What exactly were you overthinking just now?
Dipper: I mean, I think you know.Â
Pacifica: Iâd like to know weâre on the same page though.Â
Dipper snorts. They havenât been on the same page about this particular topic since the night he realized just how delectable the smell of champagne and flowers could be, or since the afternoon she entrusted him with her deepest insecurities, and he realized she was one of the most courageous girls he knew.
He smiles grimly as he types his response. Be brave, man.Â
Dipper: Iâm sorry. I didnât mean to type that. I know thatâs not something we say⊠not in the way that Mabel and I do, or even Mabel and you do. Sorry if I made you feel weird.
Brave-ish, anyway.Â
Pacifica: So it was an accident then?
He frowns. Was he not clear?
Dipper: Well, I mean yeah.Â
Her response takes a long time to come in, and he wonders momentarily if sheâs fallen asleep.Â
Pacifica: Okay, I understand.Â
Wait, what?  Is sheâŠÂ disappointed? No, no that doesnât make sense. She must just be offended, she thinks he doesnât care about her at all.Â
Dipper: No I mean, I do feel like that. Like obviously you mean a lot to me, and that is a real feeling I have. But I just didnât want you to feel uncomfortable. Since you know, Iâm a guy and normally when a guy says that to a girl it means something else.Â
Thatâs better, he thinks, satisfied with himself. Why didnât he just say this in the first place?
Pacifica: I get it, Dipper.
What the�
His blood pressure is rising and he feels a jumpy anxiety course through him. Fix it, fix it now his brain screams.Â
His finger is tapping the tiny photo of her at the top of their thread and jabbing call before his brain manages to catch up.
She picks up on the first ring.Â
âHello?â answers a small, sniffly voice.Â
âPaz? Whatâs wrong? Iâm sorry. What did I do?âÂ
He hears a quiet chuckle muffled by another sniffle.
âYouâre apologizing without even knowing what you did?â she teases lightly, voice still shaky.
âYes,â Dipper responds without hesitation, not seeing her point.
âYou donât need to apologize, Dip. You didnât do anything wrong,â she sighs.
âI donât understand, Paz. Why are you crying?âÂ
âItâs nothing, donât worry about it.â
âPaz, Iâm going to worry. Youâre upset and itâs my fault.â
âItâs not your fault. Itâs mine,â she says quietly, so unlike herself.Â
Dipperâs head is still swimming, looking for answers. The emotional whiplash heâs gone through in the last ten minutes isnât helping.Â
âCan we talk about it?â he ventures, keeping his voice low. In his urgency to call her he forgot that everyone else in his house is asleep. The last thing he needs is his dad walking in on this conversation and ushering him to bed.
Pacifica is quiet for a few long seconds, but eventually he hears a soft âokay.â
He stays quiet, giving her space to pull together her thoughts.
âI⊠liked what you said earlier. When you said goodnight. It felt nice. And I guess it made me sad to find out you didnât mean to say it.âÂ
Well now youâve gone and done it. Idiot , he thinks at himself.Â
He takes a deep breath, decides to edge a little closer to honesty.Â
âIâm⊠really glad it made you happy. Itâs⊠true. I doâŠfeel that,â he says carefully, not having the courage to repeat the forbidden L-word . âYou mean the world to me,â he adds, hoping it will be a bit of a balm to his earlier fumble.Â
She sniffles again, but itâs not quite as wet as her earlier sniffs.
He continues, slowly, deciding to edge one more toe a bit closer to the truth. Under no circumstances is he about to confess his undying and likely unrequited romantic love, but he can make her feel better.
âI donât think you know how much you mean to me,â he adds.
âThatâs probably trueâŠâ
He puzzles at her response, chewing on his bottom lip. Before he can reply, she continues.Â
âThatâs why Iâm sad. I donât⊠know, really , how much I mean to you. InâŠâ thereâs a long pause. âIn what way.âÂ
His heart leaps into his throat, hopefully. Could sheâŠ? NoâŠ
âOh,â is all he manages to say.
âI wish I did,â she says bluntly.
Thereâs no avoiding what sheâs hinting at. Hell, sheâs not even really hinting. Heâs so close to telling her, telling her all of it, but thereâs that one small, mean voice in his head telling him that she could never return his feelings, that she just wants to clear the air because itâs become so obvious that heâs crazy about her, and she wants to let him down easy so they can go on being friendsâŠ
But she keeps talking, interrupting the small, mean voice.
âI want you to know how I feel, too,â she says, a bit more of her usual confidence finding its way back into her tone. Dipper senses that sheâs made up her mind about something. Â
The only thought present in his mind now is that heâs about to either be the happiest heâs ever been, or have his heart shattered into a million pieces.Â
âBut can we talk about it in person?â she asks.Â
He chokes.
âYeah, yeah of course, thatâs fine,â he lies.Â
It absolutely is not fine , his heart wails. He wonât be in Gravity Falls for another two months. How on earth is he going to wait two months to hear the answer to the question thatâs been on his mind for the last four years?Â
âCan youâŠÂ ugh this is embarrassingââ she starts.
âWhat?â He interjects. âWhatever you want, itâs done.â
He winces. Ugh, heâs such a goner.
But he thinks he can hear a smile in her response, which calms him a little. âCould you tell me some things you like about me, in the meantime?â she asks. âIâm⊠uh⊠feeling a little vulnerable right now.â
âOh⊠yeah, yeah of course.â
He thinks for a beat, cataloging the thousands of images, feelings, and memories currently flooding his mind.Â
âWell just to get it out of the way first because itâs incredibly obvious, youâre gorgeous. But you donât need to hear that from me.â
âBut I like hearing it from you. I like hearingâŠÂ you say that,â she repeats, with emphasis.
Heâd have to be pretty thick to not catch her meaning there, and Dipper may be many things but heâs not a complete idiot.Â
Emboldened, he goes on.
âAlright, well, youâre stunning. Like, the way your eyes match the sky, and when the sunlight hits your hair and it just kind of shimmers.â He makes a waving motion with his fingers even though she canât see it. âAnd when you smile, I swear it makes everything brighter. Whenever one of my friends down here sees your photoâŠâ He almost tells her about the locker photo, but decides against it. No need to out himself as a total creep just yet. âTheyâre always just like, shocked, that I even know someone like you.âÂ
Pacifica giggles. âOkay, okay, I get it. You think Iâm pretty.â
âItâs not just that though,â he adds quickly. âThe way you stand up to your parentsâ and I know you canât go full-on rebel-modeâ but you do it in your own subtle ways, and I just want you to know that I see that, and I think itâs amazing. Youâre brave; you always have my back when weâre exploring. Youâre hilarious, even if half of your jokes are at my expense⊠I donât mind it. Because theyâre usually true. And I like that youâre paying attention to me. I like being seen by you, too.â He swallows. âIâm happy when Iâm around you. Even if youâre driving me up a wall. It⊠it feels good.â Â
His honesty, rather than feeding his insecurities, has him feeling bold.
âI like it when weâre together. I think weâre good together,â he finishes.Â
And it sort of feels like he just took a flying leap off a cliff.Â
âI think weâre good together too,â she says.Â
And itâs also like landing in a soft, warm, solid bed.Â
âOkay,â she starts. âOkay, I feel better. Thank you, Dipper.â He hears her sigh contentedly. âI can let you go now; I know youâve had a long day.â
But heâs still feeling brave. And heâs not really used to the feeling when it comes to this, so he doesnât want to let it go to waste.
âHey, not so fast, missy,â he says, keeping his voice playful. âI canât let you go to bed hearing all those sweet nothings without getting some for myself.â
She giggles, and his heart soars.
âOkay, mister,â she teases back. âFair is fair.â
âFeel free to start with my devastatingly handsome features, too. Rogue-ish good looks. All that.â
She giggles again and ugh heâs going to get addicted to the oxytocin that floods his brain at the sound. Oh, who the hell is he kidding? He has been for a long time.Â
âOkay well, yes, you do have a certain inherent charm that is somewhat related to your cute, cocky smile, I supposeâŠâ Dipper feels himself grin involuntarily. âBut what I like most about you, devastatingly roguish features aside, is your character. How you care about right and wrong. How you challenge me to be better, but never make me feel judged. How curious you are about the world around us, and how you help me learn new things, too. How you love your family, and stop at nothing to protect them⊠and me. You make me feel safe. And I just⊠I admire you.â
âPaz, I donât want to wait until June forââ He almost says âfor thisâ but realizes they havenât exactly called a spade a spade yet, and he wants to keep up the charade they both know they are playing until they are face-to-face. â--to talk about this.â
â...what are you doing Saturday?â
âThis Saturday?â he asks, surprised.Â
She hums in confirmation.Â
âUh⊠well, nothing. Some people were going to the movies, but thatâ thatâs so not important.â
âWell, thereâs⊠this little city off the five, near Mount Shasta, it'd be about a three hour drive for each of us. We could both leave early⊠have a late breakfast together⊠it looks like thereâs this arboretum that could be cool, or maybe just walk along the riverâŠâ
âWow, you know a lot about this particular town, Paz,â Dipper teases.
âIâve never been, but⊠I mightâve done some research into the areaâŠâ she admits, and he thinks he can hear a shy smile breaking through in her voice.Â
âSounds like a date.â And he grins at his own cleverness, at the double meaning.Â
âYeah,â she laughs. âI guess it is.â
âIâll see you Saturday, then,â he says, and the butterflies in his stomach somersault happily.Â
âSee you then,â she replies, and he knows he can hear her own grin now. âGoodnight, Dipper.â
âGoodnight, Pacifica.â He pauses. Fuck it. âLove you.âÂ
âI love you too.â
Dipper lets the phone drop on his chest as he falls backwards onto his bed, dopey smile plastered to his face and pleasant warmth coursing through his body.Â
He starts thinking of all the ways he can tell and show her just what she means to himâ just as soon as sheâs in his arms. And as these pleasant thoughts slowly shift into dreams, he gives in to sleep with an unburdened mind and full heart.
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