#i need to get hit with a bus
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i love you, a secret between you and me
transformers / ratchlock / wc: 418 / warnings: NSFT, heatfic. this is literally JUST pnp. okay ? okay / notes: this one skips the queue i'm already embarrassed enough i don't need 400 years of anticipation
"Deadlock!" Ratchet shouted, clinging onto the Decepticon. Said Decepticon was pounding into the medic, claws dragging down his back, biting into his shoulder. "Deadlock," Ratchet sobbed, finding himself unable to say anything but the other's name. The assassin's presence was so overwhelming, taking over every sense Ratchet had- all he could see, hear, feel, it was all Deadlock. All he could think about, too, was Deadlock.
"So good," Deadlock groaned, thrusting up into him. Ratchet looked good like this, in the larger's lap, clinging onto him for dear life. "So fucking good, doc." One of his claws punctured the metal of Ratchet's back, drawing energon, and the medic yelped at the feeling. "So pretty. Wanna keep you here, all mine."
"Yours," Ratchet panted, "Deadlock, Deadlock, yours, please-"
"Wanna fill you up," Deadlock whispered back, voice strained, hushed. "Wanna keep you full and dripping, wanna-" he paused, letting out a groan. "Ratchet, I'm not letting you go. I'm not."
"Don't let me go," Ratchet pleaded, definitely delirious to some extent. "Please, keep me, please-"
"Not even after your heat is over," Deadlock let out, growling. Because that was really what started this. Under normal circumstances, Ratchet wouldn't do this with him- being on different sides of the war was enough to assure that. But when Deadlock found him like this, abandoned by his team, dripping, mindless, begging, really seriously begging, the war was the last thing on either of their minds. But Primus, Deadlock didn't want to let him go when it was over, didn't want things to just go back to how they were before.
So he wouldn't. He was already picturing it, a little hideout, just for them. They could be together and Ratchet could be his little conjunx-in-spirit, constantly full of Deadlock's transfluid, constantly dripping, all for him- all for him-
"Deadlock!" Ratchet moaned, tightening his grip on the assassin as his spike thrust in deeper, again, again, again. He let out a broken scream, his valve clamping down around Deadlock, shaking as his overload rolled over him.
Deadlock bit into the Autobot's neck, holding him in a crushing grip as his own overload approached, and he thrust his spike as deep as it could go as it finally hit. He stayed as still as he could, and Ratchet let out an exhausted moan feeling the transfluid fill his forge.
Deadlock kept Ratchet held there as the two came down from their respective highs. Little hideout, him and Ratchet, just like this, everyday.
A mech can dream.
#dont look at me im so fucking embarrased#i need to get hit with a bus#🧃 i wrote something!#;; transformers#;; ratchlock#;; drift / deadlock#;; ratchet#;; nsft
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i'm gonna run him over with my car does anyone want to join me
#lego monkie kid#wukong#this isn't a hate post this is said lovingly#he's my blorbo but i need him to get hit by a bus
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under-appreciated moment in fool's assassin was when bee looks at fitz shortly after the funeral and goes "well,, I have a lot of things to do so I'll be seeing you around i guess"
#in FAIRNESS that is not out of the oridinary for a developmentally-6yo to say bc children looooooove copying their parents#and her parents were more partners in land management atp than anything#and especially since i read bee as autistic--my autistic daycare baby gets off the bus every day and goes to her 'job'#csring for and training the chickens to do tricks#we did not ask her to do that#but she'll be like 'hi school was good sorry i have to get to the chickens now'#anyway i love fool's ass sm it's such an insane thousand pages#fitz to his daughter whos never spoken in front of him in 9 years: we need to have a talk#bee who just didnt see why she needed to talk to fitz: yeah actually we need to figure out how to run the estate better than this#says kenna#fitz is such a bad father to her that nighteyes takes over as her dad even before shit hits the fan#it's so funny i love this awful man so much#realm of the elderlings
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unbearably unhappy and lonely and anxious and yet I bear it
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being an adult is all fun and games until i have to take my cat to the vet for urinary inflammation and myself to the dentist for a massive cavity and infection in the same fucking day 🙃🙃🙃
i'm so tired
#at least he doesn't have a blockage#i cried so much this morning i was so worried#but he should be okay#they gave me pain meds for him and also gave him a shot to help the inflammation at the vet so#also my face hurts#and i need a root canal#but it's gonna be $3600 total and i don't have insurance#and it's only $600 or so total to get it pulled#but i don't wanna lose my tooth#but i'm pretty sure i've had issues with this tooth before so like#idk it might be easier to just pull it#anyways i'm fucking tired#it was a very long day#and very expensive 😭😭#(although god bless my friend for being moral support and helping me cover the vet bill)#i'm gonna eat dinner and take my antibiotics for my face infection#and then i'm going to go the fuck to bed bc i have to bus across the city for work tomorrow#fml#when it rains it fucking pours man#feel like a hurricane is hitting my life rn#fuck#personal rambles#ignore this#not stargate
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if twenty years ago someone told me i’d cry in relief knowing i’m getting a psychiatrist appointment within a week I’d have probably told them to not exaggerate and yet here i am counting the hours until i actually get the damned timing
btw sorry if im mia i’ll catch up asap i really can’t keep up with socials rn
#took having a breakdown in front of the parents to get the point across#but like i can’t go on like this i do stupid stuff because of anxiety and shit every other minute#everything goes half slightly wrong i cry for half an hour#i feel like a complete mess i can’t go on like this for another month#idt normal therapy cuts it anymore i just hate it i need to get my shit together#not to cry on the bus while the three year old in front of me does the commentary loudly i hit rock bottom enough thanks#anyway sorry if i’m not around or answering the tags i’m just#doing extremely poorly i hope after this i get some fucking stable brain chemistry
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Girl who rear-ended me left me on read for a week after I sent her an estimate and is now claiming she’s not the one who did the damage. Lmao
#(laughing bc otherwise I will scream and cry)#still don’t have her insurance info so I will either need to get her to hand it over or get law enforcement involved#which I should’ve done in the first plave#especially since she refused to give me her insurance info#but whatever#she’s saying I should just let her go through my insurance so SHE can have a cheaper deductible… girl#first of all you don’t even know what MY deductible is#second I don’t know that you’re actually gonna pay it bc you sure don’t seem like you want to#and third why would I care about you saving money 😭 you hit my car and are trying to lie to me about it!!#ALSO fourth that’s not even. how this works. like. the insurance companies are supposed to decide that between one another#sighhhhh#anyway. waiting for the bus and then I’m gonna go get groceries#I need to cope (eat chocolate) and I don’t have any at home 💔#also I have homework due tonight fml#I just spent like five hours in opera rehearsal#AND I still need to figure out what I’m gonna text this girl back. I’m gonna wait til I get home probably#ellyposting
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taking an extra half an amfexa before I leave work bc [redacted] (popular artist) is playing my city tn and I'll need it to cope with how awful the traffics gonna be when I'm on the bus 💀
#thinking of that post abt the customwr who tried to pay for smth with a piece of paper that said $40 voucher on it#and the guys coworkers being like how are u so calm? and the op is like i went to the break room and took an extra adderall#NOT TO MENTION PPL ACTUALLT GOING TO THE CONCERT ON MY BUS.....theyre gonna be soooo annoying 😭😭😭😭#but i wont care ill be listening to the katamari damacy ost and reading dorohedoro v10 peace and love on planet earth#i hope i get a seat at least#ALSO NINTENDO DIRECT WHEN I GET HOOOOME YAYY#.diaries#its fine cuz i didnt take a dose at lunch since i wasn't crashing anyway.. its only rly hitting me now#i didnt have anything to do at work this afternoon so didnt need to be able to focus.. someone from qc was using equipment i needed to#so i had to move it to another day. was nice tho i gave a coworker some of my leftover brownies n we took an extra half hour break >:)#and then went and complained abt [artist] to another coworker bc hes not a fan either LOL#very productive day 😇#im gonna need the focus to be able to call my mum tonight tho.. amfexa save me save me amfexa#and im gonna go to bed even earlier. i somehow got 7.5 hours last night which is a rarity for me but still felt knackered when i got up#maybe like 9:30 tn and hopefully it wont take longer than an hour for me to fall asleep and i can aim for 8hrs🤞
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i cleaned house for like two entire days and was thinking the whole time "wow I don't feel as exhausted as I thought i would, maybe i am okay and normal again!" and here i am having to spend 80% of the day lying down for two or three days afterwards. bro u just had the fatigue centre in ur brain blocked so u could get the cleaning done, it did not mean u were not tired, u just weren't feeling it 😭😭😭
#now to be entirely fair i was not in control of blocking that off fhdkdl#idk Who did that but it wasnt me#so i didnt rly know for sure if it was happening or not#but i just. needed to get the shit done either way so i didn't sorry abt if it was happening or not#BUT OHHHH THE QUENCIES..... OUGGHHHH#i am so fucking tired i feel like i got hit by a bus fhfkdld#pippen needs 2nd breakfast
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I have covid :(
#first time. :( I really thought I could avoid it. :(#we made it to bloody ARIZONA and BACK without getting it!!!! :(#We made it through FOUR YEARS of it being a pandemic without getting it!#At least I'm a few years late to the party and a handful of vaccinations in. Do NOT want to know how bad this would hit me#without those vaccinations#Like I'm pretty much fine just a little feverish and weak#Also: It wasn't ME who brought it home (second worst nightmare) and I wasn't in contact with it while doing stuff at the#nursing home (Absolute WORST case scenario nightmare tbh)#so. Those are both pluses.#Yes I AM and WAS very privileged to be able to go live out in the country with my parents during shutdowns and I am SO grateful#I wish we hadn't decided to leave my fellow disableds behind in the dust with covid#(& I'm not innocent etiher because *I've* gotten lax with masking too except for when going to visit elderly relatives)#kat gets personal#me#if anyone needs me tubi has yee olde Magic School Bus so. That's what I'm doing
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wowww!! wowzerrss!!! its this guiy!!!
redraw of this thang
after the documents of alex revealing he’s a not a cool dude, and in fact a terrible person I am not making any more tmc art/content
please do not reblog any of my old tmc works!! I will also be deleting some as well!!
#mandela catalogue#the mandela catalogue#cesar torres#tmc cesar#guys look at my boy guys#look at my colors and shapes guys /optional#“wow u draw cesar a lot!!” i dont even know who he is but i need him to get hit by a school bus
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you are not better then people who experience delusions wholly shit I feel like crazy
"You're horribly mentally ill and not in the same way that real systems are. Delusional people that can't handle being online get off the internet challeng. Like SERIOUSLY." DO YIU FUCIIBG HEAR YOURSELF. ???????? I am gripping your shoulders.please please think for two seconds how you sound when you compare mental illness like this, like one is inherently worse then rhe other experiencing delusions is not some insult, or like a flaw?????? it's a symptom of A MENTAL ILLESS?
#rant#i lost the idgaf challenge im sorry#im so irriated at how ppl w shizopherina && those who experiende have been just#thrown under rhe bus ??? like hits head#DONT ACT LIKE YOU CARE ABT MENTILLY PPL IF THIS IS A LINE FOR YOU?#dude fuck rhe like anti endo and endo stuff some of you ppl are straight up beibg just abliest and shitty#i just needed to get rhisnout.#anyway dont follow id you support aspern???? aspen the weird twitch streamer lol#jojody look at thisbi am irrnationally angry#⭐.txt [he/hive]
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i should be getting out of bed but i keep thinking about the cursed fact that I'm trapped to be seen either as a man or a woman by the general public for the rest of my baka life
#i dont want to pass!!!! i dont i donttttt#and i recognize that “passing” as nonbinary would just mean that the general public would form an idea or a set of characteristics#they call nonbinary and it would just be another box to escape from#and getting gendered isnt really that bad for me. it doesnt exactly hurt most of the time.#and what the fuck do i care what people i dont even know see me as#but idk. sometimes i will be existing in a public place and get hit by the knowledge that most of the people seeing me there will think#i'm a man or a woman. no both no neither no inbetween. and. idk man it's kind of depressing#and sometimes when i think about things i could possibly want if i ever medically transitioned to some degree it's like.#yes i want these things but i dont want to trade “(almost) solely gendered as a woman” for “(almost) solely gendered as a man”#it would just be different kind of misgendering#and maybe even worse on some aspects because like. i'm accustomed to being gendered as a woman even though i am not one.#so it's ''yeah it's not me and i dont exactly like it but at least it's familiar''#i know it's not actually this hopeless and people do transition to that inbetween look i'm after all the time and i do have many people#in my life who do see me for what i am and also most people in public places are not even paying attention to me#so like. i'm fine really. i just needed to get that out of my system#and now i'm late for the bus :| sorry tosse i might be late to our scheduled lunch
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i hate this stupid bitch
#*fizzyspeaks#hope she gets hit by a bus#i need to go back to stardew valley smapi would not treat me like this#if there's a probelm she tells me exactly what's wrong and not send me these cryptic fucking messages
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libraries are the best places in the whole wide world!!!
#i said this#library#libraries#checked out two books and bought two#kinda on an impluse bc i've gone to town To Shop... i'm down to one 20...#first i decided to get Lets Talk About Love bc it's an ace classic#i mean. lets be real the only ace book before loveless all we had inbetween were a couple demi books i think. and one or two ones#that were less of a hit and less focused on the aceness#and then i only had 20s and was like. well i'm not going to overpay for this book. and there's a book of chiense idiom stories in both#chinese and english.so i got that too and dropped in a bunch of pennies bc i need to get rid of my pennies#i probably shouldn't have bought them idk it was just the euphoria of riding the bus and being in a lbirary again#literally so little cash... i should have packed more i have an envelope full of 20s from tutoring back home :P#also checked out Homebody i'm super excited to read Homebody!
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#i am at my fucking limit lol#i need to leave this fucking town and this fucking state the very second i can nail down both a car and a remote job#the fucking ''''affordable'''' housing company i rent from has once again opted to start harassing us#and we're once again gonna have to be in a fucking fight with landlords who think that we're making too much money to live in a $1200 apt#and want us to pay $2000 a month for this rathole we live in despite taxes and deductions literally absorbing a quarter of our earnings#so they want to absorb half of what we have left when ive yet to be able to even afford a car that isn't a fucking beater destined for scrap#at least not without using p much all of my current life savings in the process#so we have to instead get around by buses that refuse to actually show up take us on huge detours for no reason have lead feet that-#-exacerbate my chronic pain and - oh! how could i forget? is also horrifically mismanaged to the point where they're now canceling entire-#-bus routes including the one i take to work and ALSO GOES TO THE AIRPORT lol#and nothing will fucking change about the highway robbery rent hikes bc the entire state legislature is filled with and bought by-#-landlords NIMBYs and property management firms.#that's not even getting into the fact that ive got too many traumatic memories too many enemies and not enough good things to show for it#the only thing I've got in this fucking town is my partner bc not even our home can be considered safe anymore.#i want to take them and the home we dream of and get the fuck out bc i can't keep doing this shit#and i can't even fucking talk to them about this bc they need me to be the strong one for once#im so tired. i feel like im in danger even though i know we'd be able to tank the hit to our finances. but i would like to escape.#i know of a city in ny where our $1200 rent is considered the norm. there's also so much more to do within reach that isn't just. drinking.#i wanna go there. i may have had a desire to live there since our vacation there this past March.#but for now im stuck here dreaming of the future and fighting off desperation and despair in the present#this breakdown brought to you by: the bus purposely avoiding my stop this morning after learning my landlord wants to ruin us again#vent
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