#i need to draw him again i need to post posts that get 0 notes about him

[gigamuffin]

man speaking of blonde sailors i want to go insane over røde ruben again right now.....

[five-hxrgreeves]

Two Positives Equal a Negative (Or Something Like That)

PAIRING: adam warlock & fem! quill’s sister!reader

WC: 2.8k (again, a long one. I just can’t seem to write anything short!) 

SUMMARY: you’ve always had trouble sleeping thanks your numerous (unfortunate) life experiences. While he hasn’t lived as long as you have, Adam has a similar problem. Fortunately, a Terran phrase that your brother taught you might have the solution that you seek.

WARNINGS: slight gotg three spoilers, fluff, angst if you squint.

AUTHOR’S NOTE: okay, so I accidentally lied and I realized that my last one-shot wasn’t my first official one; I wrote a Natasha x reader several years ago. I just don’t post on here that often so I forgot about it, lol. Anyway, Adam Warlock currently has a chokehold on me so here’s another one-shot for him- the sequel that I mentioned on the last one. I’m tempted to write a Gally one/two-shot, but I’m not familiar with the TMR universe so I’m worried that I’d mess it up.

Also, I know that the phrase is actually ‘two negatives equal a positive,’ but I was drawing on the fact that non-Terrans wouldn’t really remember/understand Peter’s references, and since ‘you’ had only been to Earth during Endgame, you it mixed up.

Part 0 , Part 1

You’d always had trouble sleeping, especially on your father’s planet. There had just been a sense of. . . wrongness that you didn’t need Mantis’ empath powers to feel. It had made you on edge most of the time, alert for the unseen danger that you felt. While this might’ve just been your role as Ego’s protector speaking, you knew that your sister felt similarly. Mantis had once offered to put you to sleep using her powers, which you’d agreed to. Although it had worked, you hadn’t liked the feeling of your emotions being messed with, or the vulnerability that came with sleep. Even though you trusted that your sister wouldn’t hurt you, Ego was a different story entirely.

So, that meant that you were up most of the time with only catnaps and snatches of sleep when absolutely necessary. (Luckily your enhanced stamina helped in this case so it wasn’t terribly detrimental to your wellbeing.) It was hard to hide your unusual sleep patterns on the Milano with your new friends since there wasn’t space to walk around like there had been on Ego’s planet. But the Guardians all had various traumas of their own, so they understood the difficulty of getting peaceful rest. Some nights had even been better than others as Peter would teach you how to play Terran card games, which would then include the rest of the Guardians once you’d learned.

You also liked to sit in the pilot’s chair late at night and watch the darkness of space light up around you. It was funny, really; everyone expected space to be a dark, black vacuum of nothing when it was actually just the opposite. Sure, there was no physical form of life, but space was alive in its own way. As the Milano sailed aimlessly through the stars, you’d pass the orange-red clouds of dust and gas— nebulas. Or the brilliant white-blue of a dying star, or the different hues of blue-black that surrounded you. Space was truly beautiful, which was something that you never tried to take for granted.

But now you were stuck on Knowhere. There were no brilliant colors of space to distract you or friends to play card games with. Mantis was gone— your only source of comfort on those long nights when you’d served your father. You were alone, with nothing but a Zune to distract you as you sat, bored, in the kitchen late into the night. You’d decided on some calmer tunes and were currently listening to the Frank Sinatra playlist you’d curated. A warm mug of tea— which Peter had also introduced you to— sat between your hands as your eyes glazed over, getting lost in your music.

--

As it turned out, Adam wasn’t that great of a sleeper, either. It always felt like there was too much energy running through him to be properly restful— not to mention that, whenever he closed his eyes, he saw his mother waiting for him as he flew desperately towards her. And then the explosion would come, jolting him out of sleep as a reminder of his failure.

With a sigh, he pushed back his covers and stood. Since he was already dressed (his mother had always told him to be ready for anything), he made his way to the kitchen where he’d baked cookies with you. It hadn’t been that long ago, but he already missed the comfortable, homey feeling he’d gotten as he formed the batter into spheres with you standing at his side. You had yet to talk to Rocket about how his comments made you feel, but he knew it was because you respected your teammate and didn’t like making a big deal out of things. Thinking about you now, he sort of hoped that he would see you in the kitchen when he got there— but that was a crazy thought; it was the middle of the night! Any normal person would be in a deep sleep by now.

So, it was definitely a pleasant surprise when he came upon you, sitting at the head of the table. Your earbuds were in your ears, as usual, and you seemed to be deep in thought as you absentmindedly traced the rim of your mug with your finger. He was comfortable enough with you to approach you without hesitation, so he took the chair next to yours and nudged you gently to get your attention.

You jumped, startled by the unexpected presence of someone else in the room. At first you had a wild thought that it might be Peter, who came to keep you company as he often had. You were only mildly disappointed to see that it was Adam instead (and this was just because you missed your brother; you were actually quite happy to see the golden boy.) You took out your earbuds and paused your music. “You’re up late. Or early.”

His golden eyes met yours— something you noticed that he did often; it seemed that eye contact was his way of showing that he was listening to you, which always made your stomach flutter pleasantly. “So are you,” he replied. “Can’t sleep?”

“Nah,” you said with a shrug. “You?”

“Me either,” he agreed.

You sat in a comfortable silence together, one so long that you were almost tempted to  put your earbuds back in. Maybe this was a one-off thing; you’d never seen him before on your sleepless nights. Maybe he wasn’t used to being up at this hour and just wasn’t as talkative as he normally was with you. But you were also curious; what could a supposedly perfect being be troubled with at night? So, you sighed, and against your better judgement (as you hated to talk about your feelings), you asked, “wanna talk about it?”

But Adam also knew how you were, and he shook his head. “No, it’s okay. I don’t mind just sitting here.” He got to enjoy your company, after all, so he considered tonight to be better than most.

You let out another sigh. As much as you hated getting touchy-feely, the night was already very boring; sitting and not talking would only make it worse. “I don’t mind, actually. I’m used to being around other people when I’m up like this. Talking would make the time pass faster.” You studied his expression for a moment, which was unusually unreadable; it always seemed like he had a kind smile or glance to send your way. “We can start off easy, if you want. Are you up like this every night?”

His expression softened at your willingness to go outside your comfort zone, so he answered honestly. (He had nothing that he wanted to hide from you, anyway.) “Most nights, yeah. What about you?”

“Same,” you agreed. You played with the rubber protective tip on your earbud. “Can’t get to sleep or bad dreams?”

“Both,” Adam admitted. “Although it’s usually the first one.”

You nodded. “Same, again, but for me it’s mostly the latter. You remember when I said that you weren’t the first person to try and kill me?” At his confirmation (because how could he have forgotten that?), you continued, “yeah. It’s mostly that. My father was a great parent,” you finished sarcastically.

When you’d first become friends, you’d shared stories about the Guardians’ adventures— even the ones that had happened before you’d joined the team— although they’d mostly been lighthearted in tone. You’d acted like they hadn’t really affected you and had laughed at the fact that your father’s planet had tried to swallow you whole. Adam sort of wished that your father was still alive so he could fight him for you. While his mother had had her moments of parenting issues, he’d never doubted that she did love him; it was clear that this wasn’t the case with your father.

“I’m sorry,” he said, not really sure what else he could say. Despite everything that had happened to you, you were still a good person; you hadn’t fought the Guardians on your first meeting like he had, which already made you better than him. He wished that there was something he could do (such as getting revenge for you) to help ease whatever burden you were feeling as you often had for him, but there didn’t seem like there was anything that he could do.

“Don’t worry about it,” you replied in a blasé tone, already moving on from your heavy things. “Want to talk about your stuff?”

He shifted in his seat, a little uncomfortable to admit his failure to you. He wanted to prove that he was just as capable as you were, and this was one of his worst moments. “I. . . keep thinking about my mother.” His gaze dropped to where his hands were folded on the table, unable to watch your reaction in case you thought worse of him. “How I. . . wasn’t able to save her. I was so close, too. If only I’d been faster—”

You reached out a hand to put it on top of both of his, cutting him off. Yours was much smaller in comparison, barely covering even one of his hands. He looked up at you with surprise, feeling his face heat up at the contact. Your usually jovial expression was uncharacteristically serious as you chided him gently, “stop. Thinking like that never helps, you know. You’ll drive yourself mad if you keep wondering ‘what if.’ I should know.”

While he was relieved that his fears about your reaction were unfounded, he frowned at your last words. “What do you mean?”

You pretended not to notice that your hands were still holding his as you answered, “remember what I told you about the Snap?” At his nod, you continued, “Peter and I were the only ones who weren’t trying to subdue Thanos. My powers are mostly defensive, so they would only anger him, which was the opposite of what we were trying to do. Peter got— understandably— distraught at the news of Gamora’s death and he was practically solely responsible for the Snap.” You sighed heavily, dropping your gaze from him. “As the only other person not doing anything on that planet, I could’ve stopped him, but he was my brother; I couldn’t hurt him. But if I had. . . everything could’ve been so much different. In a way, I was responsible for the Snap, too.”

While he understood your reasoning, he didn’t completely agree with it. You’d filled him in with great detail about the Infinity War, which you’d only learned the missing parts after you’d been brought back. So, he insisted quietly, “Thor could’ve also gone for Thanos’ head, but he didn’t.”

“But Thanos wouldn’t have even gotten to the Terran planet if we’d stopped him on Titan. You see what I mean? These what-ifs really messed with my head— still do. You eventually just have to accept the fact that the situation can’t be changed and learn from your mistakes.” In a lighter tone you added, “I promised myself that the next time I needed to sock it to Peter, I wouldn’t hesitate. Maybe a good hit to the head would knock some common sense back into him.”

Adam chuckled at this, his serious expression lifting. Sensing that you didn’t want to talk about such emotional topics anymore, he changed the subject slightly. “So you’re up every night because of these thoughts? Don’t you need sleep?”

“Yeah, but I’ve got enhanced stamina, so not as much as a regular person,” you said, relieved that he picked up on your hint. “What about you? You’re practically a god yourself.”

He felt his face flush with (pleased) embarrassment at your indirect compliment, even if it was truthful. “That’s part of the problem, I think,” he explained. “All this power. . . it gives me too much energy and. . . I can’t sleep.”

You frowned thoughtfully at your similar predicaments, an idea (admittedly, a stupid enough one that Peter could’ve come up with it) forming in your mind. “Y’know,” you began slowly, “Peter taught me a Terran phrase awhile back. I can’t exactly remember how it goes— it’s like two positives equal a negative, or something like that— and it means that when there’s two good things, it cancels out the bad one. We could try and apply it here.”

He gave you a curious look. “Really? How?”

“Well, since we both can’t sleep— that’s the negative— maybe. . . maybe if we slept. . .” You felt your face burning at your suggestion. “If we slept. . . tog— well, not together-together, I mean— with each— does that sound worse? I—” you struggled to find the right wording that wouldn’t come off as suggestive. “You don’t have to if you don’t want to,” you added hastily, misunderstanding his bemused expression.

“Little Quill,” he teased you lightly, “you haven’t even gotten the question out.”

Oh. You only felt even more embarrassed. “Do you want to sleep in my room?” you finally managed to blurt out, burying your face in your hands, unable to look at the boy across from you.

Instead of taking offense or making fun of you as you’d expected, Adam seemed to actually consider your offer. “Do you think it would work?”

At his question, you dropped your hands to your lap and shrugged, though your face was still very red. He seemed remarkably unflustered, not that you could tell if he was (damn his beautiful golden skin— wait, what?) “I don’t know,” you mumbled, still refusing to look at him. “I can only sleep if I feel safe, and there’s only one person I ever felt that way with— Mantis. But. . . now I think that includes you, too.”

Adam couldn’t help the bright smile that formed on his face at your words, the thought that you felt safe with him (especially after everything that he’d done to you and your friends) meant more than he could say. The thought that you would willingly be vulnerable in his presence made his stomach feel enjoyably— and inexplicably— nauseous. “I feel safe around you too,” he replied without hesitation. “And. . . I wouldn’t mind trying it.”

--

Not long after, the two of you returned to the room you were renting in the dorm-style building. Since neither you nor Adam had family to speak of (and were also short on funds), you’d both found rooms in a tenant building that had lots of other people, many of whom had lost their homes during the Guardians’ most recent adventures. Luckily you’d gotten a room to yourself, though you had to share basic facilities with everyone else.

“You can sleep in the bed since this was my idea,” you offered. You were still in what you considered your pajamas, so you just had to gather some spare blankets and pillows.

Adam shook his head, against the thought of you making accommodations for him. “I can sleep on the floor. You shouldn’t have to give up your bed.”

“It’s not like I use it much anyway,” you joke, pulling the covers back. “But if you’re seriously against me sleeping on the floor, I guess we could. . . share?”

He seemed not to mind your proposal as he agreed readily, and after taking off his shoes, he made to get in when you spoke again with a confused look on your face. “You. . . sleep in your clothes? No wonder why you can’t get comfortable!”

Adam seemed to not understand your comment. “You sleep in your clothes.”

You laughed a little at his observation. “These are sleep clothes, not everyday clothes. At least take off your jacket,” you reasoned.

But as he did so, you realized why he hadn’t gotten more comfortable: there was nothing except chiseled chest under his clothes. You blushed and tried (but failed) not to stare as he got into bed next to you, admiring the way his muscles flexed with his movement. Luckily he seemed to not notice your attention as he settled next to you. There was a sizeable gap between you two despite the bed not being very big, one that you wished you had the guts to close. (Wait— again, what?)

You wondered how you’d ever get to sleep with all that muscle right behind you (okay, this one you could admit freely), but somehow, in the quiet stillness of your dark room, the safe, peaceful feeling lulled you into the first restful slumber that you’d had since your siblings had left months ago.

--

And if you woke up the next morning, curled up against Adam’s chest with his arm wrapped around you protectively, neither of you bothered to say anything about it.

[glitter-stained]

Character design ideas for Tim, you know the drill

-black fingerless gloves. His hands may be cold but by god is he gonna show that black nail polish

-on that note: black nail polish. Tbf I'd give like half of the batfam black nail polish, and Tim is one of them for sure.

-sleep apnea. Idc that making that fit with canon is impractical, I saw that image of Tim falling asleep on a rollercoaster on a date and my brain decided he has sleep apnea.

-active noise-reduction earphones so he can hear himself think.

-I already ranted about this but that man doesn't drink coffee: he drinks energy drinks and these yfood bottled meals that got a meal's worth of nutrients in them, and he takes vitamin pills and protein supplements when necessary. My man knows the importance of a balance alimentation, but he's on a schedule.

-intense fixed blank stare. Oh, he's looking you in the eyes alright; and then he's not looking away.

-sensory issues around food; another reason why my Tim likes liquid food is that he doesn't have to handle and process all the different and weird textures. This isn't developed enough or associated with an emotional state of mind enough to classify as ARFID, but it's still important. (I describe it a little in The Protector).

-he has an elbow scar from a really stupid skateboard accident where he fell and then the skateboard fell on top of him snapped in half. He lies and blames the injury on Ra's.

- We know that Tim plays off-brand dnd, but what are his favourite builds? Easy: he's tried to recreate his perception of all of his teammates and family members as dnd characters, even the ones he doesn't like, and circles through them depended on his state of mind. (one day I might make a "batfam dnd build but according to tim drake" post idk). One time, his Nightwing insert dropped to 0 (didn't even perma die and got healed immediately) and he screamed like someone was getting murdered irl. Sometimes when he's in a particularly petty mood and upset at someone he'll get into a game playing that person's character and try his best to perma-die. One time he was so pissed at Jason he joined the party as Jaybin, got himself killed (by jumping into the dragon's mouth to stab it from inside), pulled out a backup character that was Red Hood and got himself killed again. He has a mini for each and everyone of his close ones' vigilante personas, which he has hand-painted himself.

-his right eyebrow tilts upwards when he is stressed.

-Sometimes my Tim is half-vietnamese (from Janet's side). That's because one of my favourite Tim fanartist draws him as vietnamese and their art and headcanons have imprinted in my brain.) so, no reasoning here, just a big shout-out to @axiliern for being cool af

-somehow he always has a human bone available when you need it. This is unrelated to any question about the no-kill-rule, he will not explain whose bones they are or where they came from but you need a femur? If he's at the nest or any of his safehouses, he'll just hand it over to you no question asked. He's the embodiment of that meme.

[birds--daily]

welcome to birds daily!!

this is my blog where i draw a bird every single day! the idea was completely ripped off from one of my best friends of all time, @fish-daily !! please go check him out :0)

my name is sunny and i'm a wildlife biology major and art minor from michigan. i'm 21 years old and i use they/them pronouns!

i'm here because i love birds so much, and i'm assuming if you're following then you do too!!

IMPORTANT INFO BELOW!!

what to know before you request

please check if i've drawn a bird before you request it! if you don't want to scroll through everything, all my birds are tagged by order. don't know the order of your bird? look it up! the IOC world bird list has a great resource for this.

i tag them by name, but some birds have multiple common names.

i also have a spreadsheet of every bird i've done so far! but i can definitely see myself forgetting to update this, so it's best to double check.

any avian dinosaur archaeopteryx-and-beyond can be requested! many ornithologists consider avialae to be the cutoff for "modern" birds.

i can't guarantee full-accuracy of prehistoric birds as i'm not very well-versed in paleontology.

please keep asks to only one bird! feel free to send multiple asks though. if you include multiple birds in an ask i'll just pick one. when i answer the ask to post it, the other birds will be gone forever...

i will prioritize requests in the order i received them in, but a couple times a week i might draw a personal pick instead.

not accepting duplicate birds doesn't mean you can't request a different version of the same bird, which leads me to…

sexual dimorphism and seasonal plumage!

yes! you can request different plumages and sexes of a bird i've already done! want to see a female ruddy duck? of course! want the breeding plumage of the willow ptarmigan? absolutely!

i have sex, maturity, and plumage recorded on my spreadsheet, but i'm bound to make some mistakes on there. once again, double-checking my blog is your best bet to getting accurate bird info!

if you don't specify anything, i'm going to assume the basic mature male with breeding plumage that you come to expect from a bird.

breeding and non-breeding plumage can also be called summer and winter plumage. some birds also have special names for their plumage forms. just to keep things consistent i'll be referring to it as breeding and non-breeding!

final notes

my main blog is @eggpathy if you're interested in any of my other art! i forget to post there a lot. most of my art is on my twitter under the same name (trying to move here though)

i'm a full-time college student with a job, so some days i won't be able to get a bird out. sometimes i might even have to take a few days to a week off just to keep my sanity. this doesn't mean i'm not having fun and enjoying drawing birds! it just means i'm busy and maybe need time for other things

i'm also still human. this means i WILL MAKE MISTAKES! i have not finished my degree yet and i'm still learning! one of the big reasons i made this account was to help myself learn my birds! i take extra time out of my day to find facts to post with my birds, and sometimes those are wrong. if you see me post misinfo, please kindly correct me with a comment, dm, or tag!

any post that isn't a daily bird will be tagged #not birds. any post that is a daily bird will be tagged #birds.

please feel free to add extra fun facts, info, and generally any other silly comment in the tags. i love reading them and they make my day!

asks don't have to be request-related! feel free to ask me anything :0)

thanks for reading! peent!

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

Quitting Weed Day 9 Status Report 📝

to start off , i'll say, i do indeed feel like Ass ! this post might get a tad emo. regretting my life choices to smoke for as long as i have 😕 But then again, maybe that's harsh, cus i was just doing the best i could with the circumstances i been dealt in the past.

i couldnt just quit cold turkey cus every time i try that its way too intense and i alwaus end up going back. So the past 9 days i've been hitting my (extremely weak) weed cart a couple times a night, only after 9pm, just to help me sleep. Before that i was smoking probly like. 5-8 bowls a day, followed by hitting the weed pen RELENTLESSLY all night until i passed out. So its still been a huge change lol. From tonight onwards tho i'm done w the weed pen and ready to try 0 thc 🙏

kind friend @palmceader sent me a CBD tincture made for sleep (thanku again 🥹) which im sure has a TINY percentage of thc, but nothing even close to how much im used to.

i cant even imagine how fried my dopamine receptors are, cus honestly, i feel Fucked. spaced out is an understatement. i cant focus on anything and its kinda driving me insane. it feels impossible to read or draw or do any of my hobbies.. my body feels heavy and depressed. No motivation. its kinda the opposite of what i was expecting. i can barely keep my eyes open during the day..

on a brighter note i havent been struggling too much with sleep or appetite. i think sleepy time tea + the tincture + magnesium is rly helping. my dreams recall is already improving so much, and the times i have nightmares arent as bad as its been previous times i tried to quit. i havent rly struggled with cravings at all either, which used to be a huge obstacle for me ! im just so over it now. i was starting to get chest pains and coughing a lot, which was taking any joy out of the act of smoking for me.

morbid to say but I often think of my father and how his rampant addictions directly lead him to such a painful and horrific early death. its a rare perspective of imagery so disturbing , i know i can't go on in such a manner. Like, what a fucking fool i would be! For others i can understand it but for me, no. it has haunted me for a long time to know i'm letting myself go down that path, even with all my insistent self-justification that his death is what brought me to this in the first place. deep down ive been knowing i need to break the cycle like i have the choice and the power, im still alive im still here ..

Sorry if thats depressing to bring up! i do feel depressed tho. i cant use weed to hide from my pain anymore.. i have to rewire my whole ass method of coping with stress at age 30. i know i can do it but its gonnnna be a long winded process full of ups n downs. Running away is no longer an option and thats a lot to face! a lot of old wounds i never rly dealt with, cus i kept my head in the 💨clouds💨 for so long.

i promise not to give up this time tho no matter how hard it gets 🙏 i want to set a good example too like indunno a lot of younger ppl follow me now i dont wanna feed into narratives that may influence them in bad directions. i have a responsible heart. i rly dont think weed is cool i havent since i was like 16. i was just dependent on it so i tried to romanticisze its role in my life. its silly.

im kinda laughing now cus im like god, i initially felt like the reason im quitting is so i can be more active in my dream world, but the more i think about it the more i notice MANY many more reasons to quit that go way deeper.

All in all the reason im talking about it is to maybe inspire other ppl who have been on the verge of quitting but too afraid to rly take the plunge-- Ur not alone, ur not weak for being addicted, if u need to reach out to me u are more than welcome.

Ppl rly downplay weed addiction cus the withdrawals arent life threatening like other substances, but that doesnt mean its a walk in the park. Most ppl i know who are stoners have never been able to quit for similar reasons as me. It takes a major psychological hold over u. if u ever need to vent about it or need advice, im here!

if u read all of this, pls dont worry abt me xD Even if it feels miserable rn i have faith things will improve, the heaviness and brainfog will lift, the emotions will be purged, i am excited for my future. One day at a time....Dont giving up 🙏

Signed, PMD9

[atalossofwords]

YOU TASTE THE SILVER - IvanTill WIP (Part 5&6)

And we have two more POVs on this one! I was posting just one at a time to give myself a buffer to posting on AO3, but I wrote more than I expected haha.

That's right! The first chapter is now up on ao3 on this link. Please come by and leave some kudos!!

part one - part two - part three - part four

Things move on smoothly for Till. He's used to his new apartment, his set-up is pinterest-worthy if Hyuna has anything to say about it, and he's even opened his PO box again, warning his fans to only send letters and small packages, since he really enjoyed reading what everyone had to say.

(He's actually working on a collage of sorts, decking out one wall of his office with the letters. He always feels warm, looking at them. Kirby sent a really cute letter full of mongmong stickers, Bonbon's kid drew a really cute crayon rendition of his dad peering at his phone while vacuuming, and Jaewoon sent about 5 different drawings he treasures greatly.)

Leaving his PO box open, however, also means Navi has been sending a never-ending stream of little gifts. Almost none of them come with letters, or if they do, they're brief and printed from a computer. Apparently, since Till only comments on the contents of the gifts if he happens to wear them on-stream and said viewer comments on it, Navi decided that's the perfect excuse to spoil Till without making him lose his composure on-stream.

So far, Till has gotten; a new sweater, a varied collection of rings, a bundle of cellphone charms after he commented the string he looped through the case to hold his phone in case it falls frayed away.

Apparently, Navi also managed to walk around the "small package" limitation by sending gift cards for several stores. Till had no idea furniture stores even did gift cards.

He felt… sort of warm. If it was just an old man looking to spend his money or lure Till in, they'd probably insist on more diamonds or expensive stuff, right? Or insist Till comment on the gifts live, if it was some sort of sasaeng looking for attention.

Navi never did any of those things. After the diamonds, the gifts were never something Till would consider super expansive, unless you counted the frequency of them. The rings were silver, but none had jewels, the phone charms looked like something Till himself could get online, except the tags on them showed they were bought in Taiwan. The gift cards were weirder, but nothing more expensive than what Navi would donate over the course of one or two streams.

That is, until this latest gift.

Till stares at it, feeling the bottom of his stomach give out. He's in his kitchen, back from a supermarket run after he picked his latest batch of letters. He was going to read them while he ate lunch, but he feels 0 interest in his food right now.

He's holding two tickets for Mizi's concert, in the VIP section. One of those that comes attached to a meet-and-greet.

Clipped to them in an inconspicuous pink paperclip is a note.

I don't know if you got tickets for yourself, but I won these and will be out of the country at the time. I hope you can enjoy them with someone else. If the staff needs any information about the VIP status, here's my number. (xx) xxx-xxx. - Navi.

It is a handwritten note, written with a black pen in a hurry, so much so Till has to squint to make some of it out. The handwriting looks like someone who's not used to writing, with lots of places where the pen left marks as it hovered over the page without gliding, except the signature, which looks practed and neat.

Till has no idea what to do about this.

He calls Hyuna.

"Hi, I'm live." She answers, and he swears. He forgot to account for her streaming hours. He must sound agitated enough it worries her, because there's the sound of a few buttons being pressed, probably muting herself. "Till?"

He takes a deep breath.

"Sorry, I can call later." He says, putting the tickets down carefully and taking his lunch to the sink. He won't finish it.

"It's fine, what happened?"

"Navi sent in another gift." He can practically feel her rolling her eyes equal parts exasperated and relieved.

"Till, if you called me to fawn over your potential sugar daddy–"

"It's two tickets to Mizi's concert, VIP, with a meet-and-greet. And a number to contact if there's problems getting in." He says quickly, interrupting her. He runs one hand through his hair, starting to get stressed. Is this a trick? Is Navi going to be waiting on the seat besides these, corner Till in the show? No, they wouldn't send two tickets if this was the case.

"Holy shit." Hyuna says, entirely surprised. He makes a little agreeable noise. "Holy shit, Till, these aren't just expensive, they're like, hard to get. Did you message them yet?"

Till shakes his head, then realizes she can't see it. "No, I didn't call or message. Should I?" On the other side of the line Hyuna makes a tsk sound.

"No, don't call or message it. Let me finish the stream normally, and then we can look into it, okay? You said two tickets right? If you decide to go, take me or Isaac, and it should be alright." Till hums his agreement, and lets Hyuna go to finish her stream. It's a good plan, Hyuna can and has punched guys who harassed her, and Isaac is built like a brick house, no way a weirdo is getting close to him with Isaac there.

Dewey is probably a bad idea, he's more likely to punch first and ask questions never.

Till sighs, puts the tickets back on the envelope and goes take a bath, hoping it'll help him relax and maybe bring back his appetite.

Ivan is taking a water break from rehearsals when his phone chimes with a notification from an unknown number.

He immediately feels dread, did his number get leaked? He sits up, putting his water bottle down and opening the message.

Unknown [ 3:24PM ] Is this Navi?

Ivan blinks at the message, not understanding it for a long second. And then he is hit with the memories of staying up at night some days ago, reviewing the footage from the day's shoot and going over the script time and time again, because his performance was horrible and the whole scene had to be scrapped and he was so frustrated, and…

And Sua sent a message asking if he'd meet her for Mandated Lunch Time before Mizi's concert next month, and he remembered he couldn't make it since he'd be shooting that day, and he thought.

Till likes Mizi. Ivan has Mizi tickets.

He doesn't even remember what he wrote on the damn letter, oh god, did he sign with his name? Plaster his address on it??

This is fine. Ivan is fine. He asks one of the fight coordinators for five minutes and heads into the bathroom.

You [ 3:25PM ] Yes, who is it?

Better to see what they know before saying anything incriminating.

Unknow [ 3:25PM ] This is Till. Did you really send me Mizi tickets? How did you even get them?

Okay. Deep breaths, Ivan. You can do it. Say this is Navi, you really sent the tickets and that it's no big deal, and you got them… How did you get them? You can't say your real name, and saying you bought them for Till would sound weird, these really are expansive.

Ivan takes a deep breath, and sits on the toilet's lid, crossing his legs to rest his elbows on his knees.

You [ 3:26PM ] Hyung, you always said you liked them, and I happened across these as a job perk. I'll be out of the country, so it was no problem to give them to you.

Unknow [ 3:26PM ] A job perk? Even if that's true, they can't have been cheap. I've already told you, there's no need to keep wasting money on me.

You [ 3:27PM ] It's not wasting money, hyung. I really enjoy your lives, and it makes me happy knowing you're enjoying yourself. I work in the industry, so I know some people who are much less talented than you with a lot more opportunities. I just wanted to give you something to enjoy.

Ivan's fingers are flying over the keyboard before he's even conscious of it, indignation flaring up in his chest. Till works so much, he produces and sings and plays the guitar and drums, he writes his own lyrics, he's so incredibly talented and it makes Ivan furious to know he doesn't see it.

Ivan's been in the spotlight since he was a child acting on toy commercials, met even more people when he and Sua acted together as the twins of a famous singer on a period drama, and there's so many of these so-called "idols" that have a pretty voice and body and nothing else to give. So many actors bank on their looks and have 0 dedication to the craft. It makes Ivan livid.

You [ 3:27PM ] Hyung is so hard-working, and I really wish you'd see it. Your music deserves to be sold on albums and people should praise you so much more for how good your lyrics are. The people I work with don't put half the effort Hyung does, and they get to go to shows and afterparties all the time. I just want to let Hyung see his Idol and have a good time, since I won't use the tickets anyway. Is that bad?

Ivan is… breathing hard. He's somehow lost his cool. He watches as the three dots appear and disappear, and decides to get up. He exits the stall, splashes some water on his face, combs his hair back. Does a breathing exercise his mother taught him and Sua when his father and Sua's mom were fighting, and looks back at his phone.

Unknow [ 3:28PM ] Thank you. I'll enjoy the show.

Unknow [ 3:29PM ] Can I still message this number after it?

Ivan lets out an entirely undignified squeal, and almost does a little victory dance, all previous frustration wipes clean. Till wants to keep talking! Till isn't rejecting him!! Ivan has Till's phone number!!

You [ 3:29PM ] Yes! Hyung can message me whenever <3 I'll do my best to answer!

Unknow [ 3:30PM ] Great. I'll let you know how the show goes, then.

Ivan may be getting ready for a heart attack at the tender age of 22, but he's never regretted anything, in his life, ever.

part seven

[maythedreadwolftakeyou]

WIP Wthursday

meant to post yesterday and then forgot bc of who i am as a person so, whoops. anyway, current state of affairs

embroidery:

absolutely 0 progress on the Hermit since i last posted it in like mid september. whoops. i WILL finish this thing by veilguard i swear but for some reason it's just grueling every step of the way. meanwhile, i'm banging out this mini version of The Tower in like 4 days. I want to post the pattern/thread colors I made for my big design, but i feel guilty selling a pattern for a piece where i hand-dyed at least 5 of the colors involved. So I'm making a second version with only commercially available colors as an alternative (and a slightly less saturated background), and I'll include both color guides as options.

haven't made any new digital designs/patterns since the last one of the qunari dialogue symbol. considering making a new one for another piece of art to copy out, but currently unclear on how to get the proportions for the frame accurately copied into photoshop because I want to try an oval frame instead of circular so... yeah. we'll see.

writing:

went digging through my old WIPs folder and found a k!meme prompt fic for Lavellan getting hit by a truth spell that I'd basically almost finished and then just... completely forgot about I guess? it's a silly premise and under 15k so it must have just poofed from my brain when I moved and lost track of all my then-projects.

           Just the memory sends a flush down the back of her neck, her heartbeat skipping inside her chest like a stone over water. She can almost feel it, even here, her legs aching after a days of travel. The warmth of his body against hers in the cold air of the mountains. The unexpected passion of their kiss, the pressure of his lips crushing against her own, driving all other thoughts from her mind.             The way just beforehand he’d still hesitated, almost tearing himself away.             That’s the real problem, she thinks to herself, as she tries to ignore the wet slapping noise the drenched fabric of her robes makes with every step. She just can’t reconcile the intensity of his words with the way he keeps drawing himself back again. Every time she considers making another move, she can’t help but think that maybe it will be what convinces him she’s not worth the trouble after all.             Ar lath ma, he’d told her, despite it all.             She has no idea how to respond to something like that.

the first two and final chapters are entirely finished, while 3/4 are more disjointed segments that need some fleshing out. but i'll probably just go ahead and post the first bit soon because why not. maybe that'll push me to clean it up faster. i'll also be honest. half of this fic is like... the prompt premise, and the other half is just. me wishing i was out backpacking. i wrote it the summer of lockdowns when i went from working outside 5 days a week to bedroom WFH prison, and its funny rereading now like. oh yeah so i was going fully insane about not being the one camping myself, huh.

Anyway. otherwise I also started another new short thing for my still currently nameless No-Longer-Lavellan from reunion, but it's only a couple hundred words and some vague notes so far. Not sure if I'll turn it into something more polished or leave it as general musings. I wish I could draw better because I have way more concrete visions for visual art for that whole scenario but, alas.

[archandshri]

23rd Feb '24 - [arch] OH RISO my beloved!!!!!! ft. cyberpunk hermitcraft soup group

A cliffhanger!!!! And now I have to wait a month for you to upload the second half?? How will I cope :’’0

For real, it’s so awesome to see your process and the sheer amount of inspiration you take! In particular, I thought ‘Sit on Two Chairs’ and ‘This Was Our Pact’ were particularly yummy. 

I think book covers are really hard. You have to sum up a book’s energy in one image, make it stand out and show just enough so people want more. Exploring the narrative through those full pages is really interesting - though this is something you did for fun, it could be a really useful technique for getting to know a narrative. When I’m designing my comic covers, I always do it last - that way I’ve had practice with the visual style and I’m thoroughly familiar with the themes, so I guess spending a bit of time with the characters and narrative in this way helps for standalone book covers too. Of course, it helps if you have the time for that XD

Okay!! Onto what I've been up to!!! [warning this is a beefy post I'm sorry for your poor reading brain]

The past two weeks have been really enjoyable! I’ve been playing a lot with slow world-building, in sketchbooks, google documents, and voice notes to friends. Letting myself really sit with concepts, think about the characters, let them play in my head with no expectations. With this relaxation and lack of pressure, some beautiful narratives and interactions have been developing. I’m starting to need a name for a world/ the story. I’m not quite ready to give them a full introduction to the internet - I know it doesn’t but it feels like there’s some accountability to *produce something* and this slow development is really important for the quality and my skill building. It’s really hard to take on, but we actually don’t have to make the perfect thing now! In fact, it’s impossible. Pressure on ourselves makes it so hard to make something good if we’re always grasping at the final result.  In the meantime, while those characters develop, I have been working hard on my basic skills. I wrote about characterization last post, but this week I focused on setting and colour. I was inspired (once again) by Hermitcraft. I’ve seen some really incredible illustrations of Minecraft builds in the fandom, and it seems like a great exercise.

Bdouble0's Season 10 Base illustrated by @applestruda [source] and The Red Zone, built and illustrated by Bdouble0 [source]

One of the creators on Hermitcraft, ImpulseSV, created this build in a recent episode. It takes inspiration from the last season of Hermitcraft, where he was part of the ‘soup group’ with two other players, and his current base concept - a cyberpunk city.  I also LOVE his new character design, so I wanted to place him in the scene.

Screenshot from Impulse's video and new impulse design by @maxx-doodles

Here are some initial thumbnails I did, trying to figure out the composition. I wasn’t sure of the vibe yet, so I tried some rough thumbnailing, and drawing on an isometric grid and other perspective techniques. I’m going a bit mad for characters at the mo, so I wanted to place some in the scene. I found the angle of the isometric grid steep to place characters comfortably, so decided against that.

Looking back at it, I love the second! But I believe I was struggling with the perspective. I decided on the last one eventually.

Now, I absolutely adore all of the players in the Soup Group, and I am BIG fan of redesigning their notable characteristics to suit different settings. So yes, I decided to put all of the soup group in the image.

PearlescentMoon (left) from my comic and GeminiTay's Hermitcraft Season 10 design [from this thumbnail] (right)

Here's the sketch of the final image. I really enjoyed coming up with cyberpunk versions of them all. I used the impulse design almost exactly, with a few extra interesting details since he's mostly viewed from the back. For PearlescentMoon (middle) I kept her fringe, dark hair and gave her a glowing moon symbol on her top. For GeminiTay, I kept her long ginger hair, antlers (but glowing!) and took inspiration from her new season 10 design - a dark blue jumpsuit to match her dark blue clothes in her new design, and the braids she is often drawn with. I also gave them edgy new hairstyles. And a robot arm. I don't have lore for that.

As usual, I filled each flat colour-to-be with black and lowered the opacity to play with the values. Then I added colours one at a time, aware might be riso printing it. Originally I stuck to trying to make it printable (making the colours out of ones I could make my layering 2-3 colours at different opacities), but as I went on, I decided to drop that and focus on the quality of the image in a digital format alone. I did keep the grayscale version above with all the separate layers in case I needed that if/when I came to riso printing it. Below are the main two digital colour schemes I tried out.

I settled on the one on the left, with the blue tones - the foreground characters really pop. I put a few details in Gem's hair, colour variations etc, and cropped it for Instagram. I actually much prefer the cropped version - it sits better in a rule of thirds.

Now the moment we've all been waiting for :'')

RISO!!!!!!!!!!!

I returned to Cardiff after a couple of months away and was delighted to spend my first day back at The Printhaus, an awesome shared print studio where I have basically made my home. A few of my awesome friends happened to be there, so I spent the day playing around with this image with their help! (please check them out they're very cool - Gavin helped me a lot (we hung out at Thought Bubble, remember? and Rhi gave good crits too!!)

For those who don't know, risograph is basically a shitty photocopier that can only print one colour at a time. However, you can play with gradients and opacities, and layer colours really nicely to combine. I've done a lot of single-colour tonal work with riso but this is my first go really layering.

First, Gavin showed me how to separate the channels in Photoshop, using the flat image uploaded to the 'gram. We copied and pasted these layers in grayscale and added blending modes to each layer to replicate what they might look like when printed.

With blending modes, the digital mockup looked like this!!

This bit goes into technical details for replicating what the print might look like for those who might want it - feel free to skip :)))

I copied and pasted the Cyan, Black and Magenta layers as greyscale (as you can see above)

I made all of the greyscale layers multiply layers since risograph ink is transparent and we wanted to see how it layers. The ink usually comes out a bit lighter than you think, so it's good to bear that in mind. I used a clipping mask over each greyscale layer and a blending mode. WHEN YOU PRINT, PRINT IN GREYSCALE, NOT COLOUR.

Here's how I split the colours from CMYK to the riso colours, their hex codes and the blending mode I used to replicate the colours:

Cyan - Mint [HEX#82D8D5] Screen Magenta - Fluorescent Pink [HEX#FF48B0] Screen Black - Blue [HEX#0078BF] Overlay Yellow - scrapped for colour scheme purposes

Blue, Mint and Florencent Pink layers in greyscale in Procreate.

Riso printed Mint and Florescent Pink layers on separate paper, followed by the two layered together.

We always start with the lighter colour inks first, because sometimes the rollers can pick up the ink and cause extra marks where you don't want them. The first two colours came out great!

The first time we printed the blue, it came out very dark (left, first image). I have had this issue before - my last book, Winter Wellbeing, came out much darker than I wanted. Now I realise that the blue ink is super sensitive. All the 'white space' that is covered by a low-opacity blue on the left is only 2%, and yet it has come out pretty strong. We tried printing it on one of the misaligned images just to see, but it took all of the brightness out of the neon soup sign at the top of the image (second image). So I changed the values and pushed them way lighter, so it just pushed the values of the darker bits slightly, and brightened some of the lineart (right, first image)

And this is the final riso printed version!! I'm so so happy with how this came out. It's so different from the original digital version, and I actually love that.

I didn't create new colours in the way that I intended to - I wanted to play with overlaying purposefully to create specific colours eg. orange for the hair etc. But!!! I'm really happy with how it came out. That will have to be a project for next time.

Also, many copies are slightly misaligned, so in future I think I'd do flat layers for the colours a more blobby style with the linework on one layer only so there's less of a chance for obvious misalignment. design for the riso, rather than riso the design.

Overall though, this feels like a super cool step up and a milestone for me. Super happy with how it came out!! And I'm excited to play with colour some more. Can't wait to see the rest of the Lionheart brothers! Enjoy your weekend :)))

Archie 🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺🕺 <3

[vertumnanaturalis]

i finished drawing, cirrus, connie, stratus, cumulus, nimbus, nena, chino, ves (one of my favorites!! they look so cool.), misu-misu, kelvin, mac, pan, whimsy and praline for the first time.

im trying to get stuff set up to do more detailed designs!!! :D

i was also wondering if i could get some notes on the characters? right now im only drawing them once and not really doing much with them, but when I color them i want to know what you imagine them to be. also, for the newer post, it doesn't have the full names. could I have those, too?

this is a lot of fun to do, so thanks again for giving me the permission to!

I'm so excited to see it!! I made you some more detailed notes on Nem's little brothers (below the cut) and got some basic colors for the rest of them, so while it's not everything I hope this is good for now ^^,

and as for names and such, here you go! The bolded information is whats pulled from canon, the rest is my interpretation

Cirrus - He/Him - 6 at landing (turns 7 before Sol wakes up) - Anemone's little brother, one of the triplets

Stratus - He/Him - 6 at landing (turns 7 before Sol wakes up) - Anemone's little brother, one of the triplets

Cumulus - He/Him - 6 at landing (turns 7 before Sol wakes up) - Anemone's little brother, one of the triplets ; Kid with an animal tail augment (fennec fox)

Nimbus - He/Him - 3 at landing - Anemone's littlest brother, explicitly not one of the triplets

Nena - Nectarine - She/Her - 5 at landing - Photosynthesis augment ; A possible death if the bomb goes off during Glow 18

Chino - Maraschino - He/Him & She/Her* - 2 at landing - Firestarter augment

Ves - Effervescence - He/Him (& They/Them post-Helio) - 5 at landing - Nocturnal vision augment

Misu Misu - Mistletoe - She/Her - 6 at landing - An orphan from the wormhole crash now being raised in the creche ; Attempts to sneak out through one of the drainpipes as a child ; Sorrel and Thicket’s baby sister

Kelvin - He/Him - 6 at landing - A kid with a family who's still being raised in the creche ; Attempts to sneak out through one of the drainpipes as a child

Pan - Panache - He/Him - 2 at landing - Kelvin's brother, who is notably not being raised in the creche ; A possible death during the Glow 14 attacks

Mac - Macaroni - She/Her & He/Him* -1 at landing [design reflects age 2+] - No pain augment

Connie - Contrivance - He/Him - 1 at landing [design reflects age 2+] - Shark tooth augment ; A possible death during the Glow 14 attacks

Whimsey - She/Her - 0 at landing [design reflects age 2+] - Kid with an animal ear augment (sheep ears & horns) ; An orphan from the wormhole crash now being raised in the creche

Praline - She/Her - 0 at landing [design reflects age 2+] - Kid with an animal ear augment (goat ears & horns) ; An orphan from the wormhole crash now being raised in the creche

Benji - Benzodiazepine - He/Him - 0 at landing [design reflects age 2+] - Kid with an animal tail augment (dog)

Ena - Enigma - She/Her - 1 at landing [design reflects age 2+] - The last child born in space, just a short while before coming through the wormhole

(* a child named Maraschino with the nickname 'Mara' and 'she/her' pronouns is listed in the games files, but the Maraschino encountered in-game is called Chino and referred to with he/him pronouns. I decided to take them both as canon and have Maraschino use both freely from a young age, a trait I also gave Mac. For consistency, I usually use he/him for Chino and she/her for Mac.)

A public copy of my npc list is 99% ready to share, I just need to make a quick opening page and it'll be ready to go, so hopefully I'll be posting that later today.

And the more detailed notes for the brothers

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[littleharpethcrossfit]

Tuesday, 19 December, 2023.

It was a brisk 42 degrees. Herb complained so many times that Dana warned him that he would be ridiculed in this blog. Was that a Nordic ski-hat that Herb was wearing?

Warmup

3 Rounds

10 Small Banded Thrusters

5 Pull-Ups

I should give participants some kind of reward for doing the warmup.

Strength

Back Squats: 5 / 4 / 3 / 2 / 1 / 1

Aiden=315 Ed/Chase=295 Dana/Herb=235 Paul=205 Tom=185 Coach=175 Kayla/Sue/Elisa=105 Linda=85 Joe/Lew=75 Shannon=late

WOD

12 Minute Cap

Run 400 / Row-Ski 500 / Bike 1000m

18 Thrusters (95/75/45)

Run 400 / Row-Ski 500 / Bike 1000m

15 Thrusters (115/85/55)

Run 400 / Row-Ski 500 / Bike 1000m

SCORE: MAX THRUSTERS (135/95/65) IN TIME LEFT.

Lew=48 Ed=41* Sue=34 Chase=32* Herb*/Dana=20** Coach=19 Tom=18 Kayla/Joe/Elisa*=15 Shannon=10 Aiden=8 Paul/Linda=0

Extra Credit: Anyhow Dips 5 / 5 / 5 / 5 / 5

Akin to the warmup, participants should get special notation.

Notes:

As ironic and ludicrous as any event could be, a traffic cone was this evening driven over once again. The ironic part is that the very self-same person who tore one up a few weeks ago, today ran over the replacement that he so readily purchased for the Barn. Luckily for him, the replacement ones he bought are of far better quality and stood the test his luxury Lexus. BTW, these new ones are much taller and have reflective tape, which begs the question "How can they be missed?"

While researching today's WOD (which should shock my detractors), I noticed that the exact same WOD had a Cap of 10, 12, or 14 minutes at various boxes. Therefore I sacrificed my healthy well-being earlier in the day by doing a test run. I was able to have 90 seconds remaining under a 12 minute cap, which is why I gave LHCF athletes the 12 minute cap. Everyone got to post scores except Miss Linda and Paul. Sad for them.

Chase brought me some Anna-Christmas-cookies. I know she meant them all for me, but several ants came to the picnic table and made off with most of them. Miss Linda and I both got one, and it was delicious. Why did Miss Linda blame me for the ants ??

This Thursday is truly not any special occasion. The 21st of December is the Winter Solstice, which means that the Earth has reached its maximal tilt in relation to the Sun. Herb can draw great comfort knowing that from that day forward, the days are getting longer and the nights shorter. We will have to keep Herb ignorant of the fact that Spring, The Vernal Equinox, is not until 20 March, and Baseball season is still far away.

But for some reason I want Thursday to be a better than usual wine tasting. Not so fabulous as last Thursday (The Mexican Buffet) but nice. Not because Miss Linda's Birthday is only 2 days away (hint), but maybe because it's almost Christmas Eve. Do I really need a reason ?? Never-The-Less (I like to say that), the party will be in the warm indoors of the Barn, and I will bring the best wines of 2023.

Thursday at 4 PM.

[pwrestlingxpress]

Final Match Card for June 22nd + Match Predictions

After the events for Pro Wrestling NOAH from Saturday and Sunday, we now have the official match card for Episode 5 of "Star Navigation 2023" as another injury has caused a card change once again.

Back on Saturday at "Green Journey 2023 in Nagoya" during his challenge for the GHC Heavyweight Championship against Jake Lee, Takashi Sugiura apparently dislocated his eye that got worse during his 6-man tag match the next day in Osaka. He has since elected to take surgery to repair the eye. At the current time, there is no timetable for his return. Due to the injury, he's been removed from Thursday's show and has been replaced by Daiki Inaba who was to compete in the second match on the card. Akitoshi Saito (who was not booked to compete) will take his spot in that second match.

With that said, here are the predictions for Episode 5 of "Star Navigation 2023"

Opening Match Prediction: I consider this almost too easy to predict at the same time a little hard. Out of all the makeshift Kongo/NOAH teams back in January, it was Katsuhiko Nakajima and Seiki Yoshioka that were the most consistent and that consistency managed them to win the 2023 Scramble Tag Tournament. Now, more than 5 months after winning the tournament, both are together under the main unit banner facing Manabu Soya and Hajime Ohara who were each pinned by Nakajima this past weekend. The prediction here is that the team of Nakajima and Yoshioka will win with Nakajima pinning Ohara once again.

Match #2 Prediction: Night One with Shuhei Taniguchi as the newest member of "REAL" didn't go the way they wanted it to go. Don't think that'll be the case in this second match. "REAL" for the win.

Match #3 Prediction: Last-minute card change as Daiki Inaba replaces Takashi Sugiura in what could've been the last tag match post-title for Lee and Sugiura. Originally would've gone with the team of Sugiura and Legacy but due to Sugiura's injury and the withdrawal, this match here...going with Jake Lee and Jack Morris for the win.

Match #4 Prediction: A very intriguing 6-man tag that could somewhat determine HAYATA's next challenger while at the same time begin a feud between LEONA and Eita. Prediction here is the team of Yoshinari Ogawa, Kai Fujimura, and LEONA getting the win over Kaito Kiyomiya, Eita, and HAYATA. And the feeling is post-match, there maybe a surprise instore for the losing team.

Match #5 Prediction: This is Hi69's last test to see if what he had learned from Kongo is enough for him to move to the next step. So far, he's 0-3 and have to wonder what will happen if he loses this last bout against Shuji Kondo. My prediction for this match is Shuji will win in dominating fashion.

Match #6 Prediction: Hijo del Dr. Wagner Jr. is looking for his next challenger for the GHC National Championship and apparently has his eyes set on AMAKUSA. Interesting note I learned last year is that the GHC National Championship is an Openweight Championship meaning anyone can challenge it so if AMAKUSA is to be the next challenger, he has to pin the champion. Also, Dante Leon and Ninja Mack, need to keep an eye on those two because though they are teaming up together, cannot really trust Dante Leon. With all the elements in this match, I'm predicting here that the team of Naomichi Marufuji, AMAKUSA, and Atsushi Kotoge emerge victorious.

GHC Junior Tag Team Championship Prediction: Many are predicting here that there will be new champions crowned in Korakuen Hall. Don't think that's happening anytime soon. My prediction is that somehow and someway Tadasuke and YO-HEY emerge victorious but in post-match, will be attacked by the next challenger team.

Main Event Prediction: After Katsuhiko Nakajima and Kenoh went to a 45-minute draw back on May 31st; Go Shiozaki approached Kenoh with the request of a singles match. Though he accepted it, since then Kenoh has basically been stating that Go has done "nothing" before his return while he's been seen (in his eyes) as the one that kept NOAH a float. Not sure if Kenoh knows this but I learned that most athletes while on rehab, never really tweet or post on Instagram. They're mostly silent so that they can focus on getting 100% which is what I believe Go was doing. As for who wins this match, this is must-win for Go Shiozaki. These two have met 4 times (2 of them taking place in Korakuen Hall) with the record being 0-3-1 in favor of Kenoh. Back in 2020, Shiozaki almost beat Kenoh in a double-title match but the clock ran out. Will that be the same case this time around? Unlike NJPW websites, a time-limit is never listed until we see on-screen, so it's unknown what the time-limit to the main event is but if this match is 30 minutes, they'll go the full 30. If it's 45 minutes, then I believe Go will win with minutes to spare. Again, this match, must-win for Go Shiozaki. Has to beat Kenoh to prove to himself and to the world that he still has it. And the feeling is that should he emerge victorious, then he'll call out Timothy Thatcher for a singles match while at the same time declare himself and Nakajima as the next challengers for the GHC Tag Team Championships.

Episode 5 of "Star Navigation 2023" comes Thursday June 22nd at 6:30 PM Local Time/5:30 AM Eastern/4:30 AM Central/2:30 AM Pacific on ABEMA with Japanese Commentary and Wrestle Universe with English Commentary. Go to timeanddate.com and type in the city you're currently live in to find the start time in your area if the start time is not listed on here.

Final note, also on Thursday, we will find out who will be the 2023 N-1 Victory Participants. So far, only Jake Lee has announced his entry. Again, due to Kaito Kiyomiya withdrawing back on June 10th to focus on NJPW's G1 Climax Tournament, we are already guaranteed a new N-1 Victory winner unless that winner ends up being either Kenoh or Katsuhiko Nakajima. Thursday, find out who joins Jake Lee in one of the cruelest tournaments of the summer, N-1 Victory.

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Year 1 - Episode 3 : Station Management

Notes in messy order:

Warning ! long post !

oh back with the lights in the skyhead in hands Oh poeple dont know how to read in nightvale ? but what about all th poster talked about earlier ? To be fair, i can't imagine the kids learning much in this town. Plus it makes sense then why there is a radio station, the people can't read

LMAO FILLED WITH MILK wow, honestly so true

???? NIGHT VALE STADIUM ? how big is this town ? november 10 ? oh my god of course EWWWW UNDER THE SLIDE ? 'openely steal baby and let him do it for some reason" ToT no wonder no one can read.

sounds like a shitter HR. SOUNDS LIKE UNHUMAN HR ? UR ? cecil are you goign to be ok ?????

what is robins egg color ToT "Sunday: void" cool

Nightvale is our home and it rains dead animal <o/ RED FLAG RUN ????? what is up with the trash can

"Books have stopped working" scientist <33333333 ok i'm about to be real honest, this sounds like a dictator ship. Don't read books ? i know this is very litteral, like yes the books will kill you, but i can't help but to draw paralleles to dictatorships :( see ? books shouldnt be kept ect…

"The sporting good store is a front for the world government" dude how could i have been so blind. it was so obvious "extensive research has been done" litterally one guy saying it look sus OK NEVERMIND THERE ARE HELICOPTERS. Black ones too, i dont remember which color is which with the helicopters. CHAD THE INTERN NO !!!!!!!! BRO THIS WAS SO HEARTLESS ???? lmao so like your son's dead hope you cope well.

Larry, relatable. oh the sky again. OOOOooohhh joyce :D oh cecil :( he is so stressed out. AWWW CECIL Q-Q i hope you will feel better

CARLOS <3333333333333333 :0 NOT HIS HAIR carlos the local celeb <3333333333333333 dude, let's cancel him. fuck telly the barber. ok cecil, you need to calm down. Seems like you're gonna murder him. IS CECIL IS YANDERE ?????? i'm getting missed messages from you bestie

Traffic review <o/ wow so informative

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO yo wait, shut down your life ? UMMMMM THE HUMAN RESOURCES DONT SOUND LIKE UM VERY HUMAN ? station management, please dont shut down this show ToT pleaaaaaase don't shut down their life please

Ok how is big rico's pizza fucked up. peope are being forced to eat there. i'm starting to piece why all the pizza places have burned down

IS CECIL DEAD ????? CECIL ARE YOU OK ??????????

Can't understand shit about the song, but this is by far the nicest one out of the ones i listened to

one of the comments on youtube "He's spent more time bemoaning Carlos' hair then he did talking about Chad the intern dying" TRUE

CECIL ARE YOU OK ???? CECIL I WROTE A LETTER OH FUCK I'M SORRY I DIDNT MEAN TO NOT JERRY !!!!!!!! OH GOD WHY DOES THIS CONTESTS EXIST ???? CECIL NOOOO CECIL COME BACK, GOT DAMN IT …. ……. hope you make it safely out goodnight, cecil :'(

[mentally-retired]

SO!!! DREAMTHEORY/SECURITYWAITER HCS

Ive said it before and I'll say it again, ness has freckles!!! theyre faint in winter but hes covered in them in the summer!!! mike just likes to stare at them and when theyre alone he likes to kiss all the freckles on his face, he just loves ness's freckles

MIKE HAS DIMPLES YOU CAN ONLY SEE WHEN HE SMILES REALLY WISE AND NESS WILL DO ANYTHING TO SEE THOSE DIMPLES!!!

i agree with the fact abby and ness get along, and ness tells her the best stories, he one time told her about the pizzaeria and she qas just like "ik" and he was so confused. she also once asked mike if ness is he brother in law now and mike spat out his coffee

when they met, mike drank black coffee and just thought he didn't like coffee but he needed it to survive, however ness has the most complicated order to man like it goes on and on with the oddest requests, he helped mike enjoy coffee

on that note, ness doesn't just have coke (the POP not the drug) addiction bro needs caffeine because he has unmedicated undiagnosed adhd and its the only way he can focus on anything. as someone who is audhd, i firmly believe mike has autism and ness has adhd

ness and susie (chicas ghost) are siblings, after his sister went missing and the police said there was nothing and william was scot free, ness still knew/thought it was william and he tried to snoop around to find his sister until he was banned from the pizzeria, ness is to this day, banned from the pizzeria. he thinks all the dead kids are kept is a secret dead children safe and mike doesn't know how to explain he met ness's sister in his dream and also her corpse is inside the animatronic

ness and mike need each other fpr certain stims: mike has pressure stim and ness has a texture stim. mike likes ness to lay on him like a weighted blanket, and ness like to rub his face against mikes scrappy facial hair

ness might be taller but mike had a gym set in his room, he can pick ness up amd the first time he did ness was just like ">:0"

ness loves to paint his nails funky colours, its just against his works dress code so he removed it before work and them reapplies after, Abby found out and loves when ness paints her nails too cus mike tried to once and is really bad it. ness taught abby how to paint her nails and now they paint ewch other nails, mike finds it absolutely adorable

picnic dates, especially under the stars, thats all

ness talks through movies, mikes sleeps through movies, after movies ness carries mike to bed and tucks him in snd just stsres at him all gay for a bit

HOPE YOU LIKE THEM

if you're gonna draw any of these hcs credit me pls :3

im the original freckle person too btw, this is like my 3rd(?) post on it DHDHDHDH 💪💪💪💪

guys would anyone be interested in all my securitywaiter/dreamtheory hcs?

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#5

Egotober, Day 22: Bury/Buried

Time reclaims us all

66 notes - Posted October 22, 2022

#4

(ISWM ficlet, Noir x Reader. Reblogs are hella appreciated!)

Your first thought after stepping out of your pod into the newly colored world is one of continued confusion as to what the hell is even happening. Your second thought, as Mark casually exits his, is Oh...he looks good. You almost want to go over and adjust his tie just so you have an excuse to get closer, but you’re startled to hear what sounds like his thoughts clear as day. You lift your glass that is somehow in your hand on reflex to mirror him, and but you’re too distracted between the fact that you’re hearing him, plus just how gravelly his voice is, to take a drink.

“Whatever it was…” He draws out the word in a way that can only be described as inadvertently sultry, “at least the company’s nice.”

Huh?!

“Well…seems like that didn’t work out so good for us, eh, Captain?” He’s actually talking, this time, and his voice sounds the exact same as in his thoughts. You half expected his normal voice, perhaps hoping the spell on you would be broken. “Oh well.” He chuckles. “You can’t win them all.”

He hits the control panel, and the computer system starts talking. You half pay attention to what it's saying; perhaps it’s important, but you’re a bit distracted right now. You continue looking up at where the speakers presumably are, but keep glancing at him out of the corner of your eye. It doesn't seem like he can hear your thoughts like you can hear his, which you're grateful for. He doesn't need to be listening in on this.

You've always been fond of Mark; he can be a massive dork at times, but it's endearing. Frankly, your memories before joining him on this voyage are a little fuzzy, but you’re sure it doesn't really matter. He's well-meaning, despite his pitfalls, and sometimes he's pulled off acting smooth in the past, although with varying degrees of success. Certainly at least made you giggle.

But now? Now he's suddenly consistently much more suave, and it's really throwing you for a loop (pun not intended). You're assuming and hoping that, thanks to the sepia tinge the world has taken, any color in your cheeks is unnoticeable. It doesn't help that he's inadvertently flirting with you in his inner monologue— And what was that about a date?! He's actually interested in you back?! The warmth in your body gets worse when you realize he's looked you up and down before taking a sip of his drink.

Somehow, you get the feeling in the back of your mind that you knew this already, that he wants (wanted? Did?) go on a date with you, but then he's talking in that smooth voice again and you lose your train of thought. In fact, it takes you a solid thirty seconds to realize something happened and he's asking you a question. Thankfully, it seems you appear more collected than you feel, so it seems he didn't suspect anything.

“Or are you just happy to see me?” That’s what he said last, you realize, and you swear there’s an undertone, but it’s probably just the way his voice is now. Was his voice always capable of doing this? Has he always been capable of affecting you like this?

This is ridiculous. You’re the captain, he’s the head engineer, and anyway you’re in the middle of a dire situation that requires your immediate attention. Losing your head won’t help you now.

…even though you’d really like to.

103 notes - Posted June 16, 2022

#3

I love watching Mark and Celci bicker, and it's probably cuz 1) it's funny how petty and childish it is, but also 2) this is the closest we've gotten to any Actor/Celine interaction (and DAMIEN doesn't count in this sense, cuz they were both way beyond petty bickering at that point)

104 notes - Posted April 7, 2022

#2

Actor steals your glasses to be a lil shit, inadvertently leading to something important.

Word count: 2,459

A/N: this originally wasn’t going to be like this ajskdjfk I started with the glasses portion and next I knew it was over 2k words.  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

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Keeping yourself busy in the home of Mark Iplier between sometimes inane adventures is a necessary task to ward off boredom, a task that Mark usually does not help you with. He’s usually too busy himself, off doing who-knows-what. You’re curious, sometimes, but not terribly concerned; you like the alone time, usually. Plus, the less you see him, the less chance for snark-filled conversations to hide behind. Not that you don’t enjoy the barbed exchanges themselves, but there’s more than their face value that you are unwilling and uncertain to say aloud.

You’re not thinking about all this right now, however. Right now, you’re engaging in an artistic endeavor that you feel is much more productive than wandering around the house for the tenth time. Well, more accurately, you’re taking a break from said endeavor, standing back and trying to will new ideas into your mind, hand on your chin and elbow propped against opposite hand resting across your chest. 

Suddenly, your glasses are pulled off your face, causing the world around you to blur. You whirl around, incredulous and confused, to find Mark Iplier himself with a shit-eating grin, holding your glasses above your head.

"Hey!" You scowl. "Give them back!"

His grin only grows. "How about...no."

Your scowl deepens, and you jump, swiping at your glasses. "Give me those!"

He snickers, holding them higher. You put more of a spring into your jumps, but even with the little progress you make, he moves them even higher. "It's cute, seeing you struggle like this."

You ignore how that sends heat to your cheeks, your frustration overlapping your fluster. "You tall asshole, I need those to see!"

"Oh, so that way you can see me? I'm flattered."

Why does he have to say shit like that— Makes you want to fight him more than you already do right now. "I can see you well enough," you snark, still jumping. "Don't need my glasses to see you bein' rude."

"My dear, you wound me." He presses his free hand against his chest dramatically. You roll your eyes.

"You're lucky I don't just kick your shins in and call it a day."

Mark pretends to think. "There's an easier way to get your glasses back."

You finally stop jumping and cross your arms, eyes narrowing. "And just what, pray tell, might that be."

He smiles smugly. "Kiss me."

Immediately, your entire body flares with warmth, staring up at him in shock. "Excuse me?!"

"You heard me." He leans down a little. "Kiss me, and I'll let you have them back."

“You can’t be serious.” You’re stalling. “ There’s gotta be a catch.” (As if the kiss wasn’t a catch enough.)

“No catch.” Mark raises his eyebrows, wiggling them like a doofus. “Unless you want to catch your glasses.”

You huff and look away. “Absolutely not.” 

It surprises you that there is a degree of sincerity in his face and in his tone, despite his cockiness, but you don’t know if you’re misreading the situation. You don’t think you are, but you don’t trust yourself. For multiple reasons, actually. 

You’re quiet for what feels like far too long; you can’t tell when nervousness exaggerates your perception of things. "You can keep them." You hope he can't hear your heart beating out of your chest, because that would betray everything.

“What?”

There’s genuine surprise laced into his voice, and it makes you panic a little, because was that a wrong answer? He was actually expecting you to do it? You can’t look at him correctly, eyes jumping all over, sometimes down to his lips, barely catching yourself. “Y-yeah, just keep ‘em. I’ve— I’ve got more.” 

You don’t. You’re lying, because despite the underlying fact that maybe you do kinda want to kiss him, every fiber of your being also wants to be anywhere but here. It’s a conflict you don’t want to be part of.

…Oh. Oh no. Was that hurt in his voice?

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149 notes - Posted February 8, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

*sticks my poor little meow meow in the washing machine and watches him spin*

149 notes - Posted July 12, 2022

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WHOOPS I WAS SUPPOSED TO POST THIS WAY SOONERRRR how did i manage to post more this year than last year abdnsndnjsjs gotta love how the percentages don't add up correctly cuz they don't do decimals 😂 and also that video and kitty tags far outpace the third tag which I'm surprised is my personal aesthetic tag (but in retrospect I guess i shouldn't be). Also i love that my top post this year was about throwing a fave in the washing machine, thanks u guys <3 AMD THE FACT TJAT IT'S TIED WITH MY ACTOR FIC amazing. It looks like that's the only non-fandom specific post in the top five, too. (I still can't believe that fic is the longest MarkCU fic I've ever written, and maybe the second longest fic I've written period). Thank you guys, but also a majority of the people who helped make this possible don't even follow me so this is just me boasting about how I managed to get some reach in this hellsite i guess lmao. Here's to another year!

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