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sparring-spirals · 6 months ago

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loved exu calamity. so deeply and immensely. REALLY fucking love. cr downfall. as a mirror to it. in so many ways.

i promise i wont make 3 million posts until ive watched it properly in full but. well. for posterity i am posting this incoherent message sent live

calamity where we spend the whole time knowing theyre fighting a doomed battle and so much of calamity came down to what do you do when the world is going to end? what do you do when you cannot stop the end? when there is no way you will survive- what do you do, when you WILL lose? wins that are not complete but feel earned.

vs here when success is guaranteed in a way that is awful and terrifying and is like a natural disaster bearing down. Like the inherent horror of. you will win. you WILL win. your humanity unravelling and falling away. this success is guaranteed. your enemies will fall. everything crumbling before you like the force of nature that you are. you win but. do you. do you. does it mean anything.

#wow. wow. wow.#critical role #cr spoilers #cr liveblogging #c3e101 #everyone say ty to professorthaddeus for the co-yelling and informing me of details i was missing due to hopping in 4 just the last 3 hours #(and for enticing me to watch. not that i ever need much convincing to watch w/o catching up)#😅

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tteokdoroki · 4 months ago

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sonic says good morning let’s get get this bread

#hello hellooooo :3 #how r u all what’s the tea #i need to catch up w everyone !!!#am writing thingies am excited to share #✧ ₊˚💭੭ — aali just posted

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nozomijoestar · 1 year ago

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Asuka is a tragic figure, a figure of mystery, a wild card, all because the only thing she wants in life is peace and quiet for herself and to feel in control- yet her secret heritage that may be hidden from her for her own protection and the reality that life is unpredictable and will go on with or without you keep ruining that delusion, that vision of how the world is meant to work to her, and she suffers regardless of what she wants, what she does, and how little she understands anything

She was born into a family preaching peace and balance and order while being a creature of violence, and puts a dozen mental locks and excuses over this truth to justify giving into her impulse for fighting by pretending she's justice when she does it

She keeps trying to build a place of safety but she's using sand and life is a wave that destroys, yet she stubbornly persists rather than give up, not drowned to the point of self centered suicidal loathing like Jin- there's contrast, where Jin is cloaked in death Asuka stubbornly clings to life and humanity as a normal person in a terrifying world

She's not a fucking narrative clone for Jun's own purpose, Asuka's purpose must be determined by Asuka herself

#tekken #Jin is born of two worlds Jun walks between two worlds Asuka is at the crossroads of two worlds #Jin is broken by it Jun traded part of her humanity to reconcile it and now Asuka has to accept it yet persist- she is always persisting #that's her strength that no matter what she's always still herself #'For being so very Y o u' as Lili told her bc she sees it #she's an interesting character BECAUSE she's not Jun and she's not Jin and she's not aligned with them entirely #stop waiting for her to be something she's not #also i think it's GOOD she doesn't know everything or everyone in her family bc that builds mystery and suspense #it gives everything a tension in the background for when the normalcy charade will be broken by the bigger family drama catching up w her #what's happening to the Mishimas should be something no one is dragged into yet the one family member who's the least connected #is going to run out of time at some point and get hit by that trauma anyway and she doesn't even Know it's coming for her eventually #isn't it fucked up. how everything catches up with you in the end #and you won't even understand it until it's too late ie. her involvement in T8 global war now #also a character that wants peace and order but actively pursues violence ensuring she will never truly have those things bc of her nature #AND she's already been traumatized by T5 Feng and T6 Jin that just makes her retreat to seeking comfort in detachment- in the familiar #which only prolongs her avoiding the world outside what she can control- and then Lili won't let her live in ignorance not to punish her #but bc she wants to help her bc the Mishimas have already put their claws in Lili- they won't catch Asuka off guard #what is it with people sanitizing the messiness and humanity characters represent in favor of 'If they just acted logically the way I want #then they'd solve the entire story 1 2 3 and we'll have everything wrapped up easy' THAT'S NOT A STORY THAT'S A MATH EQUATION #FEEL SOMETHING INSTEAD OF ALWAYS NEEDING TO SOUND SMART AND HAVE PERFECT ANSWERS YOU STUPID FUCKS #IN TRYING TO MAKE EVERYTHING HAVE A PERFECT SOLUTION YOU'VE LOST SIGHT OF WHAT'S IN THE TEXT #AND ALSO ASUKA BEING VIOLENT BUT STILL CARING ABOUT PEOPLE AND DOING GOOD DESPITE IT #and AsuLili is about two similar people who've been traumatized finding safety in each other once they put down the trauma responses #this is all in line with T8's tagline of Face Your Fate btw this is literally what was always coming finding you & you face it

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hanrinz · 1 year ago

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number 9 is now my favorite number

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inkats · 4 months ago

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I really thought I was a relatively calm stress free person before meeting other people.

#none of u feel like vomiting when thinking about doing anything huh……… that’s not normal…..#Alas. I will have to live this way for now. maybe exposure is all I need. I’ll just realize it’s not scary and nobody hates me.#^ not going to happen but ehhhhh.#It really is no one else seems concerned at all w how anyone sees them or like. worried about it more.#hm. hm. ^_^ aw well. I do be hanging around w the most carefree ass guys in the world that might also not be normal.#he definitely seems more put together than one should. Everyone else is still being silly 💭💭#I’m not being silly bc of the horrors and he’s not being silly bc been there done that . And then there’s the super awesome girl #who is incredibly silly but also like sometimes it peeks out how smart and like put together she is really. Which. She’s so awesome.#I need to get like that I think. I am hanging w the right ppl bc I need to get like that.#I will become super awesome maybe through uni by simply trying really hard to catch up w my peers.#also I don’t think I fell that far behind by doing nothing and talking to no one throughout highschool I’m not. As horrific as some #at social interaction. I’m not good but it’s not always a failure. Objectively. In my head it is but.#Wow I spiralled my way out of the spiral ^_^ now I just need to not seem that attached to ppl I’ve known 4 three weeks.#bc it turns out ppl being nice to me turns me very clingy very fast. I have to be normal about this specifically.#they’ve all had friends bf but this is the closest I’ve been to anyone ……….. ehe ^_^

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yakultii · 5 months ago

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SORRY I HAVENT BEEN VERY INTERACTY LATELY I’ve been suffering and busy w uni at the same time but I have a few days off now (though I have assignments to do still) so I’ll try more tomorrow to catch up w the homies (bc rn I don’t feel real but also everything hurts lol)

#but also I see everyone who interacts and all my blogs each day and it makes my life worth living #so I need to catch up w my mooties #I’ll try !!!!!

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callilouv · 7 months ago

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damn genshin cc's r on fire and not in a good way

#i just heard of the drama going on and its fr some hs clique ish kind of drama #wow i hate these peopel #i went on a watching spree tryna catch up w it #cuz hoenstly im just bored and needed smthn in the bg while i draw lmao #and holy shittt its akshally insane #feelsbadman for tectone tho ever since i heard out his side im just wow #this the guy everyone hated back then? 😭 crazy #yeah uhm anyways so in conclusion: not going back to any gnshin spaces anytime soon!#aside from tumblr #cuz most of my moots r from genshinblr wwww thats fine #alright going back to watching random vids now and drawing #and hopefully finish it tn :3 😎

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loverboybrightsideghost · 9 months ago

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i really do love practicing 🎻

#i'm in music school so now it's a much more significant source of my already very significant fears #but practicing only feels stressful when i don't do it enough and i'm trying to 'catch up'#some weeks fly past me like hurricanes and i get to my lesson and i can't say i've made any progress and that fucks me up #and i don't think that's ever going away- like i'll always have weeks like that cuz everyone has bad days and bad weeks #from time to time #but when i plan correctly (which is becoming more and more the norm for me) my practicing is something im really proud of :)#i have a System. i didn't do very well before i had it and i would die without it now.#i get excited about learning! i get excited having realizations abt things to change or work on when i practice!#it feels experimenty a lot of the time and i like it!!!#i have a lot of catching up to do in terms of comparing myself to others but i'm not here for them i'm here for me #i will do my best and i will learn from others of course but my goals are to make my Me better first and worry abt other people later #i won't lose sight of that #<- and when it doesn't feel experimenty it can be calming to just be like okay ik what i need to do now just. Practice. Repeat.#i mean music is a fucking rollercoaster and sometimes you are at the bottom and i hate that but it comes w the territory #sometimes you're just Stuck but you do get past it and in those moments i just try to think back to previous times ive felt like that #ive felt horribly shitty before and gotten through it and come out the other side slightly better!#life is like that i think #anyways. hashtag iris loves music and being a musician 🙄 nothing new over here hehe

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faaun · 10 months ago

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clouds by alex g great song to almost tear up to

#date i had on sat cancelled bc she had too much work to do which me too but i was rly looking forward to catching up w her #that plus all the other stuff that has been happening #my friends' house is almost empty everyone is going home #the weather is playing along too #two of my friends are in thailand i miss both of them dearly #ive found myself subconsciously believing in some form of karma over the past few months #even if logically i dont believe in it whenever a string of bad events happen i ask myself what i did to warrant this #i think right now my crime is a lack of self discipline #making false promises to myself and not following through at detriment to my own future #i know this line of thinking isnt helpful but maybe i need it because otherwise its just. that im very unlucky #or that im meant to not be loved or things will just keep going wrong and id really like thst to not be true #the sun is shining a little bit through the clouds #maybe thats a good sign

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sloaaaa · 11 months ago

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there Has to be a better education system than this

#splootspeaks #currently struggling in college rn teehee tangena #i seriously need to be more responsible and catch up w everyone else but it's just so hard #and i hate that i'm behind not because i can't understand the topics (like yea some need a bit more explaining but i get the gist) but bc #i just can't get myself to give a shit #as soon as something becomes uninteresting my brain just shuts off and refuses to absorb any more information and it's so fucking frustratin #nakakainis na feeling ko ambobo ko #i hate being so fucken lazy against my will 💥💥💥#i don't want to be here amymore #i hate that college tuition cOSTS SO MUCH #it sucks so bad that i'm stuck here bc i have a scholarship that i'll have to pay back big money for if i don't finish the contracy #i wish i had more time for personal art and time to learn things that i'm actually genuinely interested in #and not just things adjacent to my interest #ugh. anyway #trying real hard not to drop out of college. again.

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sundial-girl · 1 year ago

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#ask #i pondered for a while on how to answer this and. i cant come up w/ anything. its beautiful in its sheer essence #yknow smthn smthn modern art is defined by evoking the same strong feelings in you as classical art except you cant explain why #OKAY AHKJSHDKJGHKS JOKES(?) ASIDE a friend once sent me the entirety of nyan nyan neko sugar girls and i still havent watched it 😭#i want to tho. agughhh so many things i need to catch up on. everything cool happens when im GONE im gonna explode #like back home theyre showing ghibli films in theaters again FUCKKK MAN IF ONLY 😭 I COULD SEE SMTHN FOR MY BDAY BUT NOOO #anyways hows everyone doing. carry on. im procrastinating on homework again

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maladaptivedaydreamsx · 1 year ago

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Had enough items to speedrun and read both parts to Silvio's, then found more items and was able to read the sweet end for both Clavis & Jin.... aw hell yeah, triple epilogues baby 👀

I still feel very torn about how they're running things lately though, Ikepri is starting to feel much more cash cow-y with the high point requirements, the premium ends requiring BOTH readthroughs, and no more bday stories but instead grinding through events... love the characters & the storylines but like.. damn. i'm getting genshin ptsd ngl💀

#aerin.txt #same thing w genshin regarding fomo and requirements and stuff sometimes #im just grateful this isn't one that requires you to have strong cards and grinding up those cards just to progress..im so tired of farming #it's a big chunk of why i don't play obey me as much if at all these days.. and why i dropped mr love to begin with 😢#tears of themis is lucky I'm still invested but also like that one doesn't always feel as bad #...maybe that's just bc of how behind i am idk. but the gacha rates & 50/50s still suck ass.#at least they allow you to post cards and translations in places so you don't HAVE to catch em all lol #what in hell is had is also on thin ice bc its quite possibly the WORST gacha I've ever seen. rates suck; no pity; no info/breakdowns ;;#you don't even know what characters are available on the standard banners aside from the main characters.. what if i wanted a side hoe 😭#but anyway i think that's enough of a vent outta me. i really need to get my ass and neck away from gacha games or at least try to aksjdjf #hope everyone's been doing well and hope yall enjoy the event #i really really loved silvio's route bc of how silly they are (and how hot it was). kinda liked clavis' but jin's felt kinda meh imo.#lowkey a ventpost

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kitteneyejo · 1 year ago

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so mad at the way shit works in the world rn i think it should all change drastically immediately with no negative consequences or periods of upheaval

#all landlords and cops explode right now #everyone gets free money forever to meet their needs and help them lead fulfilling lives #actually you know what maybe money just stops existing #everyone gets the resources they need when they need them with no hangups or catches #why does the world run on greed how did it get this way why is it like this #it makes me sick and angry and im not smart enough to know how to fix it effectively and that also makes me angry #bc if i say 'hey this is messed up we should change it' everyone suddenly expects me to be a scholar and have all the answers as to how to #do it. and i dont i just recognize what is wrong #jo mews #tearing things apart w my teeth #i know what im saying in the post is unrealistic btw thats like. the point. i know change is never perfect and i KNOW #i just wish it were #and something has to give this is getting more and more untenable

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n0thing2me · 2 years ago

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my ed makes me so selfish but i literally dp not care anymore