#i need to be sedated lol
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˖ ݁ … into the eye of the blizzard.
they say eyes are the windows into a person's soul﹔ and this is jack's. tumultuous, ever—changing &&. UNFORGIVING. intensity of the world's glaciers held within, a ferocious, icebound gaze that's not human in the slightest. embedded with gradients of gunmetals &&. floes, spun alive with child—like mirth.
bad habits persist, an unblinking, dead stare in the face of authority, crinkles set ‘neath floes from centuries of laughter ﹠ to guise untouchable melancholy. a squall awaits, crackling &&. brewing it’s winds.
their pupils are capable of constricting into star—like slits, feline—esque. it operates under light sensitivity &&. strong, usually negative emotions. often paired with a snarl of curled lips﹔ an animal—akin cornered.
conversely, when nightlight awakens within him, eyes become a flared white—out, a catalyst of a brimming supernova expands, galactical surge weaved within their veins, setting him alight. he is not to be reasoned with, a weapon has no heart. where does he place his grief﹖ where will he enact his wrath﹖
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hey guys I collected all the Xander + David matching/mirrored sprites together bc I'm very very normal about their parallels!
(under the cut just for minor spoilers)
not all of these match perfectly but they're pretty dang close... (and there were also some that I excluded because they only sort of matched)
(no ones with ch2 David sprites bc not all of them are up on the sprite gallery yet, but I'm sure some of them match too...)
#hghsjskshdghg somebody sedate me i need to stop thinking about them#theyre so normal about each other <3#some of these HAVE to be on purpose#xanvid#drdt#danganronpa despair time#holding off on making any posts for the next ep cause im still in mourning lol (im not readyyyyyyy)#xander matthews#david chiem
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i'm never going to be normal again. oh my god
#i literally don't know where to look#this is the hottest music video i've seen in my life idc#i feel so insane so fucking insane i need to be locked up#someone sedate me pleaspeleaplseplaselplespld#i'm gnona loop this one to death just like i did with espresso#i hope the people who are weird ab these two are pissed LOL#barry keoghan
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A Trojan Horse
Arthur Morgan x F! reader
Content: 18+ mdni, very low honor Arthur, angst, referenced/implied sex, canon typical events & violence - cw gen / substance abuse Type: second pov & rdr2 spoilers (wc - 1067) / pc: my PS5 a/n: wow, me uploading og written content?? crazy. this was in my drafts since summer lol, hi!
Summary: low honor Arthur navigating his skewed mental state, he could never put his guns down.
Heavy with burden, the man slouched after each strike. A sharp burn that prodded into his biceps made his knuckles turn white against the pine handle. Yet he continued against the ignited flames, sweating out the sin needed for a good night's rest.
With a rather vicious strike, the logs would send echoing cracks across camp, his dull eyes meeting yours in between pent up visceral.
The rings beneath them said more than any words. You hadn’t slept, and maybe he hasn’t either— God only knew that Dutch would eventually kill you all. The lucky few would leave with their lives, their permanent scars casting them out from society. But Arthur was always too much of a fool to realize. Blinded by promises and loyalty, he wasn’t sure what he owed the man anymore.
The routine of wrath replaced the debt Arthur kept on an altar, only leaving traces of a corrupt man gone off the deep end. His sinful deeds engraved a trench over time, then eventually a six foot hole beneath his feet, there was no escape now.
On his good days, Arthur would feed into a rare glimmer of hope he found in your eyes.
His search for the same feeling would be fruitless, and inevitably led to you every time. The man could never control his gluttonous urge, ravishing through you and taking what his cruel years had pried away.
Your optimistic proposal of fleeing would dance around his intoxication. The words sloshing around in his weary head, they never quite made sense against the view of your body.
“Alright, darlin’,”
A shallow rasp would spill out and be followed by depraved hands reaching for your hips. His dismissal would temporarily appease you— he knew it would.
Arthur’s blasphemous lust would momentarily be broken. Both your moans and prior offers of redemption digging deep into the scratches left on his back.
Despite Arthur Morgan's decline, his skewed world rapidly moved on. The last ditch attempt of a changed man would often peek from the floorboards, but a day vowed to start with coffee would always end with whiskey.
The tinge of hope was worn on the outlaws shoulders, it was foolish to show vulnerability, the men he once called his brothers would use it against him. But maybe Arthur could still rewrite his wrongs, redeem himself in the time he had left. He just needed to leave, that’s what you always said.
You nearly convinced him that solitude would fill the gallows of his soul, a home to embrace closure after years of running. A resentment of your words created war within, a part of him hated you for being right. He never did apologize after lashing out at you, the words were lost in the translation of his mind, which he only sank deeper into.
The home he envisioned would manifest in the pipe dreams, created by the drugs for the pain brewing in his lungs. A home with you would eventually contort into a lone wolf on the vast prairies, still he hung onto the tenderness of your very first days together by the lake.
Maybe the window of his soul would soften with time under your presence, the cold blue dog eyes suited for killing would crack by the grace of yours, and settle into a warm sea that smiled off the sun. A more boyish look that still withheld some wonder, never to be tainted again.
Only when your eyes fluttered shut is when his guard would lower, just enough to kiss the skin he scarred under the sheets. It wouldn’t make it go away, but help keep his guilt at bay. The dirty little sin of lust would be tucked away in a locked closet, separate from the rest.
Arthur Morgan, a Trojan horse filled to the brim with wickedness, and you his pacifist.
You would always be forgiving in return, accepting the trophy of a changed man; sparing him of judgement and disgust— he’d received a couple lifetimes worth already.
But please, don’t stare for too long, he can't hide behind the half-baked smile like he can apathy.
the walls within his temple are cracking.
Tattered drywall would cover the insecurities and structural flaws, he wanted the walls a baby blue, but they would be painted black as sin, only to cover the hideous stains a lighter shade could not.
You would live within these walls, protecting his inner peace while chunks of flesh and wood crumbled around you— but it’s nothing that can’t be fixed, don’t worry, he has tools and that soft smile of yours.
The lock to his temple would be neglected, and eventually the door would be left ajar. You didn’t close it on your way out, Arthur didn’t see you as a forgetful one—
and his black walls would bleed a brief shed of grief.
An unwanted solicitor would slip back through the open defenses he spent years building, and the devil would sell him a product he didn’t want to buy.
That’s okay— no harm, no foul. He had to keep going, like he always does.
But his focus would always conclude on your hands. Small and dainty wherever they touched, cuticles pure from the dried blood and countless deaths he accumulated over the years. He always appreciated them most on his chest before welcoming you into his embrace, he never did tell you that. The sickness had taken too much, blurring both the bliss and agony.
He’d try not to focus on the way his palms encircled your back, or how your legs brushed against his lap, if he did, the walls would turn to glass.
a soft answer turns away wrath… even if it’s just for a breath.
Each touch you left on his body, the lips on his jaw and neck, the hushed affirmations that would give life to the tent, all would be scrubbed off by the blood of more enemies.
gut, skin, consume, repeat,
everyone knows a good hunter uses every part of the animal.
An honest perspective would be regained as a violent cough rattled through Arthur’s frame, stinging his throat on the way out.
The soft candle light flickered as a gust of wind whistled through the canvas, causing the man’s attention to fall onto your abandoned bedroll, soiled in mud by his boots.
Tomorrow, he vowed to be a changed man. But tonight he would get lost in the bottle, the candle lit at both ends.
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#red dead redemption 2 x reader#rdr2 x reader#rdr x reader#rdr smut#rdr2 headcanons#arthur morgan#arthur morgan x reader#arthur morgan smut#draft cleaning#was a wip but meh. im posting#is this too depressing??? lol#i have never written arthur before so idk either man#i need to be sedated#rdr2
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Cute thought 🩷: Astarion casually fucking his hand in front of Tav, knowing it makes her lose her composure.... gets her all flustered....
He doesn't shy away from moaning her name as he squeezes all that precum with each stroke.
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i wonder if ill be like this forever
bound to relapse again
and again
and again
will i ever be happy with the scars fading?
probably not since still, despite what ive said
the blades are hidden in my room
and the urge comes back;
i guess at the end of the day
ill go back to it
because its all i know.
right?
maybe ill get better
though i doubt that.
#girl interrupted#sh#girl interupted syndrome#crazy#crazy girl#lizzy grant#lana del ray aesthetic#im stupid#i wanna relapse so bad#vent maybe#i wanna die#cutspo#jk#maybe#shedtwt#my beloved#lol#what am i doing#is this real#can i die#this is what makes us girls#what the fuck#idk what else to tag#i need to lose so much weight#i need to be weightless#someone sedate me#how to lose weight#lose weight fast#im gonna die#im insane
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Y'all.
OUAW EP 46 is sooooooo fuckin awesome!!!!
Frothing at the mouth fr fr
#unfortunately i had a couple details spoiled for me at some point i think so it didn't hit nearly as hard as it could've#but still omfg#another phenomenal episode from the legends of avantris crew#someone needs to sedate me lol i'm losing my marbles#no spoilers#spoiler free#snek speaks#dnd#dungeons and dragons#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#legends of avantris
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sprinting here to alert our peril captain that melody said she believes darry and paul def had a thing on live today (im now gaslighting myself into it not happening but im 90% my memory is right)
also dan said casual is his favorite chappell roan song and also good luck babe and pink pony club which is just perfect for paul scrreeeeeee
DID SOMEBODY SCREENRECOEDDDD
#the outsiders#outsiders musical#outsiders broadway#darry curtis#paul holden#peril captain i just burst into tears ilysm#also good luck babe. so fucking real for darry paul LOL#AND CASUAL#peril casual. someone sedate me.#i need to see this im praying someone was screen recording i was at work 😭😭😭
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this fandom is a prison
SO. I've officially moved to Tumblr after finishing Arcane, mostly because I was looking for (Arcane) Jayce and Viktor content.
I'm IN LOVE with vikjayce.
I'm not that surprised. I was already getting into LoL, but I wasn't expecting to get sucked into a different side of jayvik. Not complaining at all! It's great!!! All I think about is Jayce and Viktor!!! They're my everything, and I cannot wait until I'm so in that I can't back out.
okay im tired goodnight
#jayce league of legends#jayce talis#jayce giopara#arcane jayce#vikjayce#jayvik#viktor arcane#viktor league of legends#I LOVE VIKJAYCE SOMEONE SEDATE ME#scratching at the padded walls rn#if anyone wants to info dump about jayce (LoL + arcane) hmu..#pls...#I NEED TO KNOW IT ALL#AND VIKTOR TOO
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happy punkflower wipwed i'm making them sweet
#this thing is already over 10k words and half of it is just vague outlining someone sedate me#still trying to figure out how to write them but Man am i having fun!#edit: oh i realized the first one might need a lil context. they've met their older versions from a different dimension#and that hobie took - 0.001 seconds to start waxing poetic about their relationship to a very flustered miles lol#punkflower#spiderverse
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wonder how priest feels knowing she has some of the coolest women ever in her character roster
#looking at you wei chengxiang#and hui xiangjun#like Directly looking at you#changed the trajectory of my life forever#OH also my beautiful wife qiu sha#i know priest wrote other cool women but this post was just an excuse for me to mention my favourite tai sui women#like princess duanrui#AND DID I MENTION PRINCESS DUANRUI.#there’s also zhou xueru….. lol………#i need to be sedated#i love her so much#also zhao qindan the loml#she’s so funny#and let’s not forget wu lingxiao#she’s literally mobile suit gundam irl it doesn’t get much cooler than that#her coolness is undeniable#honourable mention to jiangli for quite literally changing the trajectory of the story forever#atp i just love all tai sui women#one way or another#very normal about wcx hxj and zxr though#it’s peak#tai sui
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IM SO IN LOVE HELP
#professor spencer reid#spencer reid#dr spencer reid#silly guy#idk lol#spotify#criminal minds#matthew gray gubler#sedate me#i’m so in love with him#i need him#the songs are more about my daddy issues
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The translation here is closer to "If he were to abandon me/throw me away, I would die".
The choice of the word, abandon/throw away, is paralleled when Ryunosuke reveals to Kazuma that "As punishment, Ren's parents abandoned their child in a foreign country where he couldn't even communicate".
Despite being a child when his parents did this to him, their decision to do so matters less to Ren than his fear being abandoned by Kazuma.
Ren's choice has always been Kazuma. It was Kazuma the moment he told his truth of what happened in that hotel room to those adults in hospital, despite knowing he would be punished somehow. The fear he had for his actions was overruled by his fear that hiding the truth from them might affect Kazuma's life.
Ren continues to believe that Kazuma is straight and is merely in their fwb relationship out of kindness, thus Ren decides that he will have to be the one to end what he believes is a relationship with one sided love since Kazuma won't. To Ren, he is not abandoning Kazuma, but freeing him from this relationship that Ren has somehow trapped him into.
#tokyo in april is...#shigatsu no tokyo wa...#ren 😭😭😭#every week i feel like i feel like i need sedating when watching this drama lol
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Wazzzuppp my fellow heathens~ I'm back with a redraw of my old Monkey King drawing. Previously in a older post I had mentioned how it had been one of my favorites until it got ruined. Weeeell— last night in my state we had some pretty gnarly storms and the power went out. Soooo because I had no power and barely any battery on my cell I just drew instead. So bare with me! I had to use a little flashlight to draw the majority of it once the sun went down.
It's not as detailed/shaded as the other one but that's because I'm thinking about coloring it tho idk. Maybe, maybe not well see ~
Regardless I hope you guys like it!!!
(Quick thought should I draw a Macaque one?)
Sorry that the photos suck
Thank you for looking and I hope you guys have a great week~
#im a simp#redraw#redo drawing#remake#sun wukong#lmk sun wukong#monkey king#lego monkie kid#monkie kid#yandere lmk#yandere lego monkie kid#traditional art#i suck lol#i need to write#i need to be sedated#i need to stop procrastinating#male yandere#yandere#not really yandere just the tags I lurk in#tho I can draw yan sun wulong if someone reqs it#trash's sketches#journey to the west#idk what else to tag
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Beginning to realize that I was in an echo chamber of hope and the belief that Kamala was going to win in a landslide. Now I'm in an echo chamber of doom and gloom and hysteria
#claire chit chats#uspol#hopefully my last post on this tonight i had to get it out lol#the amount of people saying they are leaving the country? i know ppl never actually do but#yikes.#plus all the Preppers haha#fearmongering is at an all time high and i am being hunted for sport#i feel like i need to be sedated. is there something that will be make me not care abour the next 4 years. like a lobotomy
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I'm about to be so annoying btw
#by this I mean I'm going to talk about my job until it's no longer new and exciting sorry guys#but this is literally the first good thing to happen to me in MONTHS#shit has been so bad like SO unbelievably bad for a WHILE#like. not only do I have a job (!!!!!!) but it actually seems like a really good fit for me and what I need#like. the hours aren't horrible and in fact I could stand to have more of them#the pay isn't *good* but it's not the worst I've ever made for sure#the work environment though... that's where it gets me. because I get to just be one guy in a store interacting with customers and literally#nobody else#for most of my workday#like. no small talk except for with customers. no learning about my coworker's stupid life. no trying to get along with someone for the sake#of work#like. I just get to be alone and sell shit and when it's slow I get to organize shit like. hello??? yes please#I don't have to be micromanaged because I'm literally alone. like. god I'm so excited#plus it's similar to work I've done before. so. yay#I do really like the coworker I've met before though. he's very sedate and has excellent customer service.#which I know bc every time my mom shops there and he's the one working he's very genial and nice#definitely good at his job. but I wouldn't be surprised if he was getting high in the back or something lmao#he's just so calm ive never met a dude more chill like. he seems like the exact opposite of anxious#and then my other coworker I haven't met yet but I'm sure she's fine.#I do like my boss though! and she's only my boss until they get another manager bc she's actually the manager at another location too#she's just filling in here while they look for another manager#but I like her she was extremely up-front and no-nonsense and plainly stated exactly what she needs from an employer#employee*#which is honestly such a relief like my last job I felt like I had no clue what people wanted from me and it was horrible#but this seems better so far#also I know for a fact I beat out two other people who had interviews the same day and I was so much the preferred choice#that she didn't even wait to decide or anything#she called me like a few hours after my interview ended like. that 3rd person left and she immediately hired me instead lol#which I have to admit does feel good after so long feeling inadequate and unhirable.#I am more hirable than at least two people. so THERE
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