#i need days off... to work on commissions.....

[lovelygwyneth]

AZRIEL WEEK DAY 3: BELONGING @azrielappreciationweek

We know that this is a very significant topic for Azriel, as he has always wanted to find his own place. I think it's really interesting how in his POV we can see how fate plays with him, and how his shadows act as a guide.

from:

"...the shadows kept him company, as they always had, as they always would."

to:

"Azriel aimed for the training pit, giving in to the need to work off the temptation, the rage and frustration and writhing need. He found it already occupied. His shadows had not warned him..."

So I wanted to bring this canon scene made by the amazing @/jacysarts (IG) and commissioned by me 🩵

Please do not repost!

Characters belong to @sarahjmaas

[icareabtyou]

Happy birthday kinich

Summary: You were excited to celebrate Kinich's birthday but he just came back from an exhausting commission

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY!"

He didn't even got the time to react before you install him on a chair and put a small party hat on his head. The poor man was confused and probably too tired to understand anything. He just had a long day of work and wants to sleep alongside with you in his arms.

However, you were throwing in a party. For what? Oh yeah right, it's his birthday.

Even tho he already told you it meant nothing to him, you couldn't just ignore his birthday. So that's why you thought about surprising him when he get home.

Kinich was just sat there, waiting for something to happen. He could see from the corner of his eyes your overexcited self.

"So I got you meat and fruits. I don't really know if you already eaten but I also got you-"

Before you could continue Kinich's head fell flat on the table. You grew even more concerned and ran to him in worry. After seeing he was still breathing, you noticed how tired he looks. He had dark eye bags without forgetting how his whole body was stiff even while sleeping.

You couldn't help but feel bad about prioritizing your own excitement to his well-being, plus the day of his birthday!

"Well this took a funny turn, continue human ! With a little luck it could end him!"

And if it wasn't enough, Ajaw was out. You usually wouldn't mind him, his words wouldn't get a touch to your heart. But right now, it was just too much. You already felt guilty about letting Kinich literally collapse out of exhaustion, so Ajaw's comments weren't helping.

"Ajaw..."

Kinich's faint voice could be heard. It was muffled by the table yet it was easy to hear his annoyance. He slowly raised his head up and put Ajaw in a time out.

You looked at him and helped him stand up to walk to your sharing bed.

In silence.

...

Not a single word was exchanged.

Kinich was already half asleep to and he needed this sleep, and he had you by his side. So he didn't mind.

You on the other hand...

"I'm sorry Kinich..."

He slowly turned to you and opened his sleepy eyes, his gaze falling on yours before he softly smiled and brought you closer to him. His arms wrapping you in a warm hug.

"...it's fine just....stay like that..."

You hugged him back, and closed your eyes feeling yourself dozing off too. Maybe you weren't as energetic as you thought.

"Happy birthday...."

"....Thanks...."

Even tho it was a really bad birthday, he still got to talk to cuddle in bed with you. The party could wait tomorrow.

[fobnsfwdoodlesbackup]

Hi y'all, I just wanted to talk a little about the behind the scenes of what I've been up to, to give y'all a little transparency and to open myself up for any tips or input! 🙏 Thank you for your continued support and for taking the time to look at my art 🫶

First and foremost I wanted to give some transparency about my art capacity.

As og followers may remember, I started this blog when I was doing art full time. Eventually my living expenses grew and I had to go back to work. I find myself in a cycle of "I'll make more art soon, once I get a job!" And "I'll make more art soon, once I am done with this job!" I lost my most recent job suddenly, having had an extension waved over my head until the last day(October 7th). Now I'm excited to have more time for art, but I am also feeling a rush to get a new job ASAP as I've been living paycheck to paycheck. I dream of doing this work full time, I'm just scared it's not quite there yet and I worry that I come off as scammy or dishonest when I anticipate more stability around the corner.

Second, I've been struggling with the Patreon. It's taken me a while to come to terms with this, but from what I've seen Patreon is not intuitive at all from the creator end. It doesn't do a good job of organizing addresses, emails, showing who or who isn't subscribed to me, or organizing and displaying the work I put on there. I've been really shocked by this experience, since lots of big names use Patreon. It's been a great way to streamline support, but it's been unhelpful in every other regard. I would like to continue using it, but I will most likely post more wips or process videos there in the future.

Which brings me to my third point, zines. I love making zines so much, it feels personal and fulfilling and fun! However the Patreon issues make it harder to keep information in order about where to send zines, or even where to message folks about them. In addition to this, the post office has been a big barrier to me, oftentimes only being open at the same time as my dayjob. Making zines can take days, then sending them out is a whole other monster.

This work is so important to me. Drawing peoples fantasies, representing body types, creating work around sexuality and the human experience feels like what I'm meant to do. I've made comics since I was a kid. This is the dream to me. The friends I've been able to make through this work are so important to me, and the conversations have been invaluable. Not to mention fun! I wanna doodle, I wanna draw hot stuff, I wanna thirst over these dudes! I want to play!

But I also just want to be transparent about the barriers I'm working around to share that experience. I'm completely self taught, both in art AND in running shops, building websites, running 8 accounts, etc. I take a lot of time to learn the logistics of these things, and try to make them make sense for my relationship with y'all (I do not want to paywall my art!! I don't want to!!!). This year my desktop broke down (the main one I use for all paintings and digital art). I've paused my Etsy shops and my Patreon to try to catch up with things. Trying to learn to paint in a completely different program. Then lost my job with no savings.

At the end of the day I don't want anything to come between me sharing my art with you. I wish I could doodle a thing, take a picture, and post it here. No third party site, no shop, no subscription. Just sharing my art with you. I promise I'm trying to figure out how to stay as close to that as possible, and I want to thank y'all for sticking with me as I untangle all of that.

So, what can you expect in the near future?

I'm working on a couple of painting commissions right now, which you should be able to see in the next couple of days! I want to catch up on kinktober and get those posted as well. There's a comic commission in progress which I'm very eager to work on, and which I think y'all will be excited for! To ease the weight of the Patreon I think I may do less zines/polls there and more wips and process videos! If possible, I want to do more full colored work too.

Thank you again for enjoying my work, and if you have any input or tips my inbox is always open 🙏🫶💕

[b4kuch1n]

Hello! As you guys have seen, I’ve been figuring out the dip pens recently for a project, and I’d love to draw a guy of your choice as practice!

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[toytulini]

the challenge of i should commission art of my ocs. would love to commission like, siiyr or bokrae, maybe krachyn or jula. siiyr or bokrae would make the most sense, maybe krachyn. i think theyre the ones with the most detailed notes on their anatomy

but also

oh god i cannot subject another artist to the anatomical war crimes i committed in making these ocs

[crowrelli]

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[donnyclaws]

I was gonan make a post apologizing for lack of regular art but I feel like jts already clear im sporadic and in and out of it bc chronic pain and circumstances. So for now I'm gonna hibernate, get my health steady again, deal with money issues, and art will happen when it happens.

[wyrmflight]

pre-tadpole durge. fancy party. and i put a cape on the man. thats how it goes. they're bout to dance.

don't ask whose blood she's wearing. it's an important accessory for any high society social event when you are the chosen of bhaal

[ilonacho]

it hit me what makes me the most miserable abt my work week is how it’s just school all over again. just hanging in there until the weekend. repeat. repeat. repeat

[dandyshucks]

thinking thoughts but unable to put it into words... oughhh im just rotating scenarios and characters in my brain around and around and around

[munch-mumbles]

as soon as i actually make refs for my ocs its over for my wallet

[princesscallyie]

So they gonna drop my hours kinda low but I still gotta work 5 days a week… the whole reason I was alright with the hours dropping so I can get a 3rd day off…

[practically-an-x-man]

SFX Instructor: And really guys you should be putting yourselves out there, make those connections now and it'll serve you well later

Me: hello sorry if I'm exhausted I've spent all weekend at the theatre performing shows and helping with set strike. I never got home before 11 PM all weekend and didn't get a chance to recharge

SFX Instructor: remember that this is a fast-paced program, these classes need to be your primary focus. you're building your future career here

[aberooski]

If I have another breakdown at work tomorrow like I did the last time I worked a Saturday I'm going to kill myself because last time I screamed in the hallway and cried so hard I was shaking because of how stressed I was.

[arrowpunk]

Current mood: gosh I sure would enjoy my life more AND make a good bit more money if I was able to just do art full time- Like if I spent 8-10 hours a day on art for commissions and such I would probably make twice what I'm making at my current job- but also I don't have much visibility as an artist which is fine, and I don't have the time to churn out shit for free in order to grow my visibility and market myself (because yeah sure I know drawing fanart would get a lot more eyes on my shit but I just do not want to so I am not going to) but also IF I had the ability to use all the time I'm currently at work on art stuff I probably Would gain a big enough following to at least get a decent amount of commissions- I mean I'm skilled enough as an artist that it's definitely not unthinkable- but ALSO I cannot afford to quit my job or take the time off of work to Have enough energy to churn out art pieces consistently enough to build a following and get customers.

In conclusion: my life is a Sisyphean nightmare of no money and no time but have to go to job that steals all my time to get enough money to barely stay afloat because the only other option is completely sinking and that is not something I will accept.

[p0tat0-g0ddess]

:/