#I’m doing a crochet commission for a friend rn and it stresses me out because I want it to be PERFECT
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#rambling#idk exactly how to have this conversation with him but#I wish any time I created something my dad’s first instinct was not to go ‘oh you could make money off of that!’#I crocheted some flowers for my mom for Mother’s Day and my dad was like ‘yknow those are really good#You could easily sell those’#And I was like yeah sure mHM#And any time I mention writing to him ever he’s like ‘so when are you gonna publish’#It’s not for publishing!!!!!!#both him and my mom (who is a published author) will tell me over and over that I’m a super good writer and that if I published I would#make money but#I don’t#WANT to right now#Like I’ve tried to monetize my hobbies in the past and it’s sucked all the joy out of them#I’m doing a crochet commission for a friend rn and it stresses me out because I want it to be PERFECT#which is what ruins the fun of doing things for money#I get anxious that it won’t be good enough#And sure yeah anxiety is bad and not to be trusted but also I shouldn’t have to publish/sell my work if I don’t want to!#I need to sit down and have a serious talk to him about this but he has a history of not really listening#I know he means well. He and my mom both do. They make a lot of money via self publishing and they want me to be financially comfortable#but I want to be regular comfortable as well
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1, Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Already answered
2, is your room messy or clean? Generally, clean. Right now? Messy, by my standards. Mostly because my roommates let the dishes pile up in the kitchen, so there is no room to wash, therefore my dirty dishes have been piling in my room. I’m refusing to clean up after them, so right now I’m waiting for someone to free up the counter/sink, so I can wash my dishes.
6, describe your personality in 3 words or less Kindly stressed
9, where do you shop? For what, exactly? I could tell you store names, btw, but all of them are franchises operating in Hungary, so I don’t think you’d gain much insight.
10, how would you describe your style? To my utter sadness, lately it’s mostly jeans and graphic T-shirt (no incentive to dress up). I haven’t even work make-up in two weeks--there is no point in lipstick because of the mask, and I was banned from eye make up for two weeks because of my surgery. But regularly, I’m really feminine. I like soft colors, floral patterns, long skirts (a part of me would like to dress in Victorian/Edwardian fashion, really). Oh, I just bought a long, gauzy dress last weekend I’m itching to wear!
12 what size bed do you have? We don’t do “twin” and “queen” and whatever sizes here, so don’t expect such answer XD It’s a 200x140 cm frame (pretty regular double bed)
24, how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? I actually have two wallets. In my regular one (the one in which I keep my papers) there is about $25 rn. The other one I keep for the money I earn from crochet commissions (I spend this money on yarn and hobby/creative stuff, so I like to keep it seperated from my “other” money), and it holds about $160 rn.
42, do you take any medications daily? Nope. I try to take some vitamins daily, but I usually forget.
46, whats your go to hair style? Simply let down, with an elastic on my wrist, so I can put it up in a ponytail/bun if it starts bothering me.
59, do you smile for pictures? Ugh, I try, but it often ends up looking ridiculous.
73, do you want to get married? Yes.
82, favorite ice cream flavor? Maybe cookies?
85, what shirt are you wearing? A PJ top :D It’s dark blue, has sparkly silver stars and says “sleep under the stars” in silver lettering
88, do you like it when people play with your hair? Yep. Once in high school some of my classmates braided it into something like 80 mini braids. It took over 3 hours.
92, have you ever been drunk? Not black-out drunk, but yes, a couple of times. I like to drink, but I wouldn’t like to suffer because of it the next day, so usually I’m really measured when it comes to drinking. Plus my body is pretty good at dealing with alcohol quickly, so it’s hard to get me drunk to begin with. My friends hate it.
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