#i miss you sometimes

[aliensareactuallycows]

To my pen pal, Leipä

I know that I knew you just for a few letters, for a month. Still, I miss you. I wish you would said your farewells.

I started to use that app. You were one of the first people I wrote. It was automatch system and your pre-written letter was sent to me. Your wild writing style, your emoji using and your seemingly great sense of humour got my attention, and I wrote back. I told about myself, asked questions and wrote reference to a series that almost no one knows, in hope you would get it, and lied that it was traditional greeting.

Of course you didn't get it, so I told you I lied. You didn't trust me since (okay, I believe you were just joking. Maybe.).

To my delight, you answered. You told something about yourself (not your real name, because not like me, you are a reasonable person and don't tell those things to a complete stranger on internet), answered my questions, and asked some.

Then we started to speak and I told you about my preferences, role models and dreams. It was nice. I always waited impatiently when I saw your letter was coming.

Then it came: lack of motivation. It's always when I download an app. For a while, I'm super into it. And then the lack of motivation just comes. I can't really influence it. Anyway, I tried to keep it up even if I sometimes forgot that the app existed. Still, I appreciated your letters, even if it took long time to write back.

We wrote few letters. You even told me your real name. But then... You send that one letter, normal letter. And I tried to answer, but like usual, it took long time. But about 3 days after that letter, your account was deactivated. I don't know what changed or why did you do it. Maybe something happened, or you just got bored to app.

But still, I would have wanted farewells. It's okay, we didn't really know each other. But I considered you as my friend. I know. I sent you like 3-5 letters maybe. Maybe it's weird. But you were, (oops I shouldn't write this in past tense) and still are, amazing as far as I can tell.

I even tried to find you from internet, but nothing. Well, if you would have wanted me to reach you, you would have warned me, but still I wanted at least hear it from you. Probably this will never reach you, but I just wanted to send this to somewhere, partly because I have this futile hope that you would read this.

(The app was Slowly if someone wants to know)

From

Your weirdo pen pal 🌼

[mimibearluvr]

i sometimes think about how when we still talked, there were times when i felt annoyed by her, mad at her, unhappy with her. but now, even after we have said the worst things possible to each other. i can only ever think of how we laughed together, cried together, saved each other. maybe this is the difference between a romantic breakup and a friendship breakup. in the latter, only the good parts become open wounds.

[tokyocyborg]

Trista Mateer, Honeybee Poems

[ciaraland333]

I still haven’t gotten over how you broke my heart , but I’ve forced myself to get over you… & that broke my heart too.

[writtenintoexistence]

I always thought I needed you but I’m reality I needed myself

[theblob1958]

people are saying do it scared, but you also gotta do it alone. you'll miss out on so much you want to do if you wait til someone will do it with you. do it scared and do it alone.

[yb-cringe]

something insanely meta about jack and tommy chatting about how it all sucked everything sucked and it was a mess and it hurt and no theyd never wanna go back but.. they miss it sometimes. to the way things were and how they felt. sometimes you just wanna go back

[clarisse-doodles]

inspired by this post, in which Damian does not know what Vine is

[anna-scribbles]

resolutions

[kenobihater]

after literal years i finally got around to downloading a pdf of the wipers times, an unsancitioned satitical british trench magazine circulated among the troops in france from 1916-1918 after the fortuitous discovery of a printing press. i have approximately five million other things i need to read so idk when i'll be able to devote much time to it, and i gotta pick up a proper copy bc it's missing at least salient no 4 vol 2. that said? i'm genuinely laughing at what i've skimmed so far

[2tahstatepark]

[looselipssinkships-x]

Realized the other day that if i hadn't moved, i probably never would've accepted myself, definitely never would've been able to get top surgery. If i had stayed there i probably wouldn't be alive today. If i did manage to survive I'd probably be married, likely with a kid, because i know that's what he wanted and he made me feel safer than anyone else, past or present. Some days i still crave that sense of safety, feeling protected, feeling like i had to fight less. I regret the way i left because i know it hurt us both. But i couldn't stay, and I didn't have the vocabulary or the emotional distance to articulate all of the reasons why yet.

But i see he has a house now, and two dogs, and i hope he has found every ounce of happiness the world has to offer because he deserves it.

[autopsiedeganduri]

Day after day I caught myself, eyes pointed at the sky, hands pressed together against my chest, close to my heart "Please, God, let love be enough!", pleading at the empty sky, my prayers left unanswered. And in the end I could hear her voice, soft as silk, burdened down by regret, with sighs like chaines tied around each word, through the echo of time, through the broken painting of memory, "But love is never enough. Not love itself, not by itself."

[madxmadii]

[lotus-pear]

the dialogue choices in this game should be more diabolical

[riuhere]

They are constantly on my mind 24/7. I literally can't get them OuT of my hEad-

...Yup... I'm screwed-

Triad Au belongs to @novelcain

Vault Hunters AU & Eternal Servants AU belongs to @emelinstriker

Twice As Bad AU & Monster Boyfriend belongs to @semisolidmind

Bone King Au belongs to @ninjasmudge

Cross belongs to @jakei95