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âHe canât be real, she thought. A boy made out of flesh and bone could not be so painfully lovely, so free of any blemish or flaw.â | âSheâs the only divine thing heâs ever believed in. The only creature in this vast, cruel land who could kill him. And sometimes, in his loveliest dreams, he imagined she does.â
#the poppy war#rinezha#fang runin#yin nezha#my art#digital illustration#old art from february#theyâre so unhealthily in love#why are they like this#when she thinks heâs so pretty he canât possibly be human#and he thinks sheâs divine#pathetic meow meows#i miss them#uni is making me post old art#iâll have time soon#i hope
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something about servitude⌠âď¸
#i canât think of captions⌠especially when iâm in this headspaceâŚ#always thinking about servitude though đ#reuploading all my old pics so lemme know if thereâs a certain one you guys miss#also kitty always wants attention so if you enjoy these you should totally send me an ask (only mutuals in my DMs please) and tell me..#⌠what your immediate thoughts were :3#my photos#meow maid
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âď¸ LIS: DOUBLE EXPOSURE (MINOR) SPOILERS âď¸
MAX CAULFIELD CAT POV?????

#miss Caulfield........#oh my gooooood dont look down at me and tilt ur head this way and that#i can meow too WHAT. WHO SAID THAAAAT#im sorry. 30 year old max has done terrible things to me#LIS#Life is Strange: Double Exposure#Max Caulfield#[ RJ ]
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I am like 30 pages out from finishing a book (and the series) and AAAAAAAAA
#JOHN RODRIGUEZ MY BELOVED#IM GONNA MISS YOU ONCE YOU TURN INTO A RABBIT GODSPEED OLD FRIEND#southern reach trilogy#control my poor baby meow meow#SAUUUUULLL#i just read the bar scene where everything goes fucking Crazy and AAAAA the thought of it just..#i was really hoping things would be ok thats the optimist in me but wow it was so much worse than i thought it was gonna be#and control can feel the brightness and hes not fully human aaAAAAAAA CONTROL NOOOOO#i feel so deeply for this poor guy#his entire life has just been so fucked up#i might make a separate post exploring how tragic of a character control is#but well see
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Bought the memorial plush for Cassy. It's gonna be here on Thursday
It looks pretty similar to Sammy's in style, just with a different pose. I'll see how they look when placed together.
#speculation nation#animal death ment/#fuck dude literally just looking at his Name made me cry again#typing out Cassy made me confront that yes. this is about my boy Cassy. my sweet baby boy who wanted to be a fat cat so bad#and swung his tail as he walked when he was happy. to which i would always comment 'that shit Swangin!'#and who would stuff his entire nose in tally's ass to sniff it. to which i would remark 'oh he's Snuffin!'#and who would always use the most garbled meows when begging for food. so he was my Garble Boy.#i already miss his obnoxious yelling. the way it sounded like a Mraaaaa. the way he would sometimes draw them out super long#i wish id taken videos of it. i dont think i have any. because i didnt think id Need to look back on them like this.#he wasnt even 2 years old yet... i didnt think id have to worry about this for at Least another 5 years...#sometimes life is really unfair. he deserved to live a long and happy life. i wish i couldve given it to him.#negative/#sorry for posting so much about this. it was just super sudden and im kinda wrecked by it lol#this time yesterday i knew something was wrong but i Never thought he'd actually die. he was so young...#im just glad i got him to purr in the end. made him happy one last time at least.
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genuinely might have a cry over the neighbours cats
#i had a chat to him to say how much i loved them#and how holly and rupert come to have a chat and meow forlornly at me when they leave#and we had a chat about how they used to go into neighbours houses (they still do i have woken up to them in my room having a look)#but i found out that their third cat bear passed away#he was hit by a car when we had construction earlier in the year#and it breaks my heart because he was LOVELY#theyre all very pretty birman cats but he had this very dark chocolate face and paws and big brown eyes#and he was the gentle giant he was big and slow and lovely and i will miss him#and it makes me so sad because now bella (fourth cat and i believe bears littermate) is coming outside even less#shes smaller but looks like him and is more timid than the others#she became reclusive when they moved here like 8 years ago. before they got holly they had an older birman called lily#and she passed from old age and it really affected bella and rupert poor rupert would look for her
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Digging up dirt on someone who apologized and hasnât repeated the problem behavior since is being petty.
Digging up dirt on someone who hasnât changed whatsoever is just pointing out a pattern.
#Meow.#I hate how âPeople can change so maybe lay off the people who do.â Is such a controversial statement.#Or one that people seem to decide warrants trolling and slurs#Change can happen at any age#Not everyone starts in the same place or at the same time#And kids. Kids look at me.#Not everyone grew up in a time when everyone recorded and saved your every word and could bring them up 10 years later#That being said. The whole âarent you just doing the same thing when you called this person out?â Argument also misses the point#Itâs not bringing up old behavior if the behavior hasnât changed#Both of these statements are true and can coexist.#Fucking sick of people who think theyâre contradicting
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yesterday the dad i nanny for asked what we do outside
watch the rolly pollies, listen to the birds, wave at the airplanes, dig in the dirt i said
do you want me to buy her more toys? he asked. i donât want you to be bored.
i didnât know how to explain
what a privilege it is to slow down. to watch the bugs crawl, to notice the sounds the birds make, think about the people flying by, to consider the texture of the dirt
i spent years as an honors roll student. pushing myself through hours of rehearsal, the maximum amount of classes i was allowed to take. i neglected friendships and parties and joy because i thought that was what success meant. i thought thatâs how i earned the right to be loved. if i wasnât a perfect student i wasnât good enough
so no. im not bored. iâm so incredibly grateful for the rest my body has yearned for, for a decade. i am so honored to be paid to spend my days playing. i donât need toys or games to keep things interesting. just your daughterâs smile, her contagious laughter, her boundless wonder. thatâll keep me going for a long time yet
#i had some stressful shit going on with my theatre jobs yesterday and it was the first day Iâve *ever* felt impatient with the baby#(she also didnât really nap and her mom had been away for a few days so she was CRANKY)#and i just. i think people think that im usually faking patience the way i was yesterday afternoon?#and i think thatâs why i get so much âoh wow i could never do thatâ or âarenât you bored?â about nannying#but like. oh my god I love it so fucking much#like itâs making me not want to do theatre anymore because theatre is so demanding#and nannying (right now with this kid at least) is so stress free#like the hardest parts of the day are the diaper changes and trying to get her to nap#but 98% of my day is meowing. drawing. looking at books. giggling. dancing. running. drawing. listening to sounds. like thatâs what life is#supposed to be. yes im trying to teach this little girl things (things like what noises animals make and how to talk) but. really sheâs#teaching me about slowing down and just being. ideally being happy but just being. and damn if it isnât easy to forget that#i keep missing my old theatre job. i grew up working at a childrenâs theatre#and i miss that. but what i miss about it is how funny my boss was. how silly the kids were. how appreciated i was. and like. i get a lot of#that nannying. and itâs low pressure. itâs easy days and little activity. itâs so peaceful.#anyway im stuck in bed today cause ofc i am. but im gonna try to get up and moving#and maybe Iâll try to remember the things the little girl has taught me. about listening and loving and being
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Not a dirty vault boy confession but instead Iâm confessing to you that I go through this account all the time as a vault boy lover because itâs so funny please never delete it half of these posts have became inside jokes
thats really cute and funny and awesome i wont delete it unless tumblr goes down. even then id just archive it on some google drive.
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I have to except that my cat might truly never come back and Iâll never know what happened to her and that kills me.
#I want to be angry about it and blame it on something but I canât#we think she ran into this open vent even though she never has before has no reason to and I literally have 2 crates in front of it#we heard faint meows every now and then the first day but idk my cats a yapper especially if she hears my voice calling#we have a very old and hollow house you can hear every and anything#I can be in our basement and hear her loud ass meow from my 2nd story room#my dad thinks sheâs outside and I wish but how could that explain us hearing her meows in the walls and if she was outside#she has always stayed around our house or come back the 2 times sheâs ran out#idk it kills me that I was at work when they noticed she was missing#24 hrs hadnât passed and we had the hvac come and he put the camera down multiple vents and didnât even see her footprints in the dust#I just have no explanation for it she literally disappeared into thin air and it kills me sheâs a person clingy cat she
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A very nice cat just greeted me like an old friend and escorted me from the bus stop to the shop while meowing conversationally and keeping perfect pace with me the whole way which was already incredibly charming but then it also waited on the corner by the shop, shouted to get my attention when I got out, and then chattered away while walking me back to the bus stop and demanded 5 minutes of little cheek scritches before wandering off into the night?? Who was he. Missed connections me 25M you cat of indeterminate age or gender interests nighttime walks do you wanna hang out again some time
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Are you fucking kidding me rn
#meows#my old boss is now calling for me to come back#I missed the call but she left a voicemail#like be so fr
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what's wrong with dry food??? my humans feed me it all the time and i think it's fine
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op wheres the natural feeding option
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you guys are getting fed?
#im a barn cat so maybe im missing something here #meowtthew don't look
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âď¸ pawsitive-affurmations Follow
ITS OKAY TO BE A MOGGIE
ITS OKAY TO BE A MOGGIE
YOU ARE NOT LESS VALID IF YOU ARE NOT A SPECIFIC PEDIGREE!!!!!
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extra special shout out to cats who have "common" coat colors. grey tabbies and black cats i am rubbing against your head affectionately <3
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as a grey tabby i really needed to hear this :"3
#i feel like i never see positivity posts for moggies even tho we're the most common type of cat....
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đľ rage-against-the-meowchine Follow
i cant believe there are cats ACTUALLY advocating for kittens to be separated from their mothers before 12 weeks??? kittens still need to learn how to interact with other cats before being placed into their furever home omg you guys know you're advocating for undersocialized and aggressive cats right
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um op some of us??? matured early??????? i was separated from my mother at 7 weeks and i turned out fine... interesting how you assume that kittens being separated from their mothers at a younger age will lead to the degeneracy of the next generation...hmm i wonder where i've heard that before...
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OP got bit too hard during a play-fight as a kitten and it shows XD
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also op have you ever considered that just because somecat is kind of scared and unable to deal with strange cats or humans, it doesn't mean they don't deserve to be adopted?? you sound like a vet psyop honestly
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oh meow god saying that kittens should be fully weaned before leaving their mother is NOT veterinarian rhetoric and i never said that they deserve to be euthanized!!! my mother literally died when i was 3 weeks old and it seriously messed up my development so stop putting words in my mouth, thanks
anyway friendly reminder that underweaned kittens are prone to illness and often struggle with basic cat behaviors like litterbox usage, and in some nyavinces it's even considered kitten abuse
#discourse #cant believe "kitten abuse is bad" is controversial now
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BORN TO DIE
WORLD IS A FUCK
çŤçĽ Kill Em All 1989
I am trash cat
410,757,864,530 DEAD BIRDS
#outdoorliving #outdoorcats please interact #outdoorcat friendly
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can't believe cats are uncritically reblogging that born to die world is a fuck post. i know it's funny but op is literally an outdoor cat truther
#like cmon now you just have to go to their blog #lulu speaks
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gentle reminder that pushing cups off the table is not cute and can cause a lot of distress in your human!!!! gentle reminder that our teeth and claws can easily hurt them more than they can hurt us!!!!
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evil reminder that the cup should always be pushed off the table. evil reminder that you should always bite and claw at your human no matter what. you can do whatever you want forever
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make your own pawst
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umm i know a tomcat who did that and his human ended up putting him down so...
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Nyaverage shelter cat behavior
#not nyaruto #re-nyab #pickles shut up
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saw two male cats sleeping together on the porch today. homeow behavior imo
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hey um what the fuck??? it's really not okay of you to go assuming other cat's sexualities, especially cats you don't even know???? as a queer cat i'm VERYY uncomfortable. real-ass cats didn't consent to your nyaoi fetish, thanks
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1. i was making. a joak
2. i'm literally gay???
#literally what's your pawblem
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reblog if you've ever caught the laser pointer
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i know you fuckers are lying
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this tom hasn't caught the laser pointer
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shut the heull up
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đž b-e-a-n-t-o-e-s Follow
grey toebeans >>>>>>>>> pink toebeans and don't let the haters make you believe otherwise
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op shut the fuck up ALL toebeans are beautiful!!! just bc you're miserable and insecure doesn't mean you can bring others down based on things they can't control
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oh so the cat-human separationist wants to preach to us
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My nana maternal grandmother who taught me swears had one of the most ridiculous pet names for her cat when I was growing up. For reasons known only to her, she simply called the cat: Kitty Kitty Meow Meow. The creature in question was an absolute love bug and lived to be almost twenty.
When I was dating my last boyfriend Brendan we ended up living with his mom briefly before we moved up north together, and his sister lived at home too. One day I was sitting in the kitchen and heard Brendan call teasingly to his sister, âOkay, Miss Kitty Kitty Meow Meow!â
His sister laughed but my head shot up. âWhat did you just say?â
Brendan ambled over to me, âOh, itâs an old inside joke. There was this one day I was riding the bus to Charlieâs house and I heard this girl on the bus say her grandmaâs cat was named Kitty Kitty Meow Meow. It was so stupid I rushed home to tell my sister. Itâs like naming a dog Doggy Doggy Bark Bark.â He was hysterically giggling just relating this story.
I stared at him.
I said, âCharlie and I were on the same bus route.â
He blinked, his giggles tapering down and slowly started to frown.
âThat girl was me. That is the name of my nanaâs cat.â
It turned out that while Brendan, a year younger than me, had never met me before we both graduated high school, he had apparently sat behind me once on the bus and turned a brief snippet of my life into a meme with his sister. Then a decade later we met through Charlie in college and went on to date. We were both flabbergasted by this coincidence.
But there was one more twist in store for me. I told my family about the way our paths had crossed before we ever dated and they thought it was hilarious.
Then a few weeks later I got a frantic call from my parents while they were in California visiting my paternal grandmother.
âHey guys, whatâs going on?â
There was weird excited static and thumps as the phone passed around and I heard my dad in the background urging my grandma, âTell her!â
My grandma said ponderously, âYou know my cats name is Kiki.â
âOf course, itâs a really cute name.â
âYour dad wants me to tell you the full thing.â
My eyes widened. I could not believe what was about to happen to me but I knew it was coming.
âHer name is Ki-Ki Meow Meow.â
I got it on both sides. Both my grandmas, in different states, with no contact, had named their cats the same silly ridiculous thing. I immediately ran to tell Brendan who laughed so hard he almost threw up.
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ŕł spoiled. ( part one )
đđŻď¸đ âËâšâĄ â baby , can you call me back ? i miss you ⌠itâs so lonely in my mansion ⌠â đ§¸đŞ˝đŹ

pairing: ellie williams x rich fem!reader
synopsis: the mansion you live in is getting too cold , the silence is way too silent , and not even reruns of sex & the city can help ⌠long story short , youâre feeling lonely . wonder if you can think of someone in your contacts that can help and warm you up , a certain classmate perhaps ?
warnings: girly reader , kind of desperate loser ellie , bratty spoiled rich reader so don't read if that annoys you , allusion to smut , actual smut will be in the second chapter , this is dirty so mdni as usual !
an: i wrote this such a long time ago and it wasn't supposed to be two parts but well now it is !! i will start writing the second part if u guys want to so don't be shy in my inbox. not proofread unfortunately âĄ
A perfectly manicured hand rests on the fluffy white and silky smooth duvet. the Egyptian cotton, to be exact, is nothing but lavish, a sanctuary of indulgence in the realm of your own private luxury. Then, you tap your nails atop it, and the fabric crinkles. You gently sigh, but it's more so a grumble, and reach over for the âDunkinâ cup standing on your wooden bedside table. It perfectly matches every single one of the furniture in your extravaganza of a walk in closet, and the bed-frame as well. You take a slow, indulgent sip out of the icy cold drink, take an ice cube out with a straw, and gently suckle on it. You place the drink back on the table, shifting your gaze back over to the flat screen television.
Carrie forgave Mr. Big again, and now sheâs seen frantically pacing around the streets of New York City in her shiny Manolo Blahniks. You arch your brows, humming in high pitched amusement. you have the exact same pair!
Carrie, Samantha, Charlotte and Miranda always seem to bring you a sense of comfort. Usually, your bed brings you a sense of comfort as well, and so does an icy drink with specifically eight cubes of ice. Your room smells like French vanilla, a tinge of cinnamon, and the sweetest pie youâve never learned how to bake. Most of the time, youâd bask in the scent and feel nice, and cosy, and your nose would scrunch and your nostrils would flare out, then youâd open your favorite food delivery app and order a nice olâ package of nine chocolate chip cookies. Then, youâd pop open a bottle of champagne and indulge yourself in the sweets deliciousness.
But your appetite is less existent than snow in the middle of August.
Youâre also freezing cold, fuzzy socks and all â goosebumps rising on your skin and feeling sharp like Japanese knives.
Your best friend of a white home cat, Toodle, elegantly extends his supple frame, his lithe form gracefully ascending to nestle within the cradle of your neck. His bell gently dingles, he yawns and mellifluously meows. Right now, it sounds more like an old mans groan.
âI know, Toots⌠mâbored too. And cold, JesusâŚâ you mutter towards Toodles, who, in his usual aloof manner, closes his eyes and surrenders to the soothing hum of his purring. You puff some air out of your mouth, brain wheels turning as to find out whatâs the cause of this blue mood. The air conditioning is completely turned off, youâre sure of it, and the fireplace crackles with warmth. Your entire moisturized body is covered up by a ridiculously expensive thick blanket, and itâs not the short VS nightie that makes you feel freezing, youâre convinced of that. For some reason, the frosty sensation persists. You smack your lip-glossed lips before bumping your head against your mountain of pillows, emitting a low grunt of exasperation.
You donât know the reason for your boredom, or for this bum mood, because albeit youâve seen this episode about a gazillion times, it never fails to entertain the shit out of your brain.
Maybe itâs due to the fact that youâre entirely alone (except for Toddles, of course, can't forget him) in a 10,000 square feet mansion. or perhaps itâs because the only lit room inside the mansion is your own.
But then you roll your eyes, because your parents are always away (at St. Tropez this time), so feeling alone isnât a new and strange concept.
Alas, being alone isnât the same as being lonely.
Your face twists at the depressing thought, ew. Youâre not lonely, just⌠bored, and unamused, and the icy drink isnât sweet enough and Carrieâs getting on your last nerve, and the 1,000 dollar blanket is starting to itch the hell out of your hyper-sensitive skin.
Which is why you get up from the bed in a moment of eureka, landing your feet against the fuzzy carpet and slide them into your Uggâs. âUh huh!â you chirp, you finally got it.
Youâre experiencing an old friend of a feeling called (drumrollâŚ) â anxiety, over your unfinished chem project! It must have masked itself in the form of frigidness and discomfort and loneliness.
But the project isnât even due till next week, and you rarely get stressed over college stuff unless theyâre due the next day and youâre sitting, staring down at your laptop screen, trying to communicate with it through telepathy or something of that sort.
Somaybeitâsnotanxiety and maybeyouârejustloney.
You shake away that uneasy and irritating thought, and sit your pretty butt down on the rolling chair. You click your shiny glittery pen (that always sheds some glitter onto your hand) and open up the thick as brick textbook.
You read the first question out loud.
The correct formula for aluminum nitrate isâŚ
Valentinoâs Lòco Toile Iconographe shoulder bag in hot pink?
Nope.
You shake your head, you have got to focus. You place your chin atop your palm and click the pen once more.
Al(NO2)3? or maybe itâs Al(NO3)3âŚ
or maybe youâre so far off you need to close the book shut and throw it out of the window. Youâve always sucked at chemistry.
Which is why you were assigned to be tutored by that auburn haired, green eyed, slightly sullen, tatted up girl who went by "Ellie" â or "El", but you didn't know her like that.
Ellie, is the one who stuttered out your name as she realized you werenât paying attention to her tutoring, as you had your gaze fixated on the black ink etched on her forearm, a half-covered flannel and a canvas of delicate veins. A bug, adorned with intricate botanical details, unfurled its wings across her skin.
âSâuh⌠A moth, with ferns around it nâstuff. Itâs kind of faded now thoughâ
Her voice was raspy and husky, and she stuttered out your name. Usually, youâd hate it when people got nervous around you. It made you feel odd, ostracized, and you always insisted â you were so damn sweet, thereâs nothing to be nervous about. You wore sweet perfume, sweet as goddamn cherries and cupcakes, and your voice was soft and you always smiled brightly, and so what if your purse cost more than a college tuition?
But her nerves didnât annoy you. In fact, you found them charming, and you found her sweet. You found that all of her âUhhhâ âs, and her âMhhmâ âs, all of her stammering and her lack of ability to keep eye contact with you to be⌠infatuating.
Then there was that rich voice, and those eyes, that smile, those hands, those damn toned arms, those biceps and the haircut, the way two short strands of hair always framed her face perfectly and her scent â that you could tell was just a cheap cologne, but mixed with her unique fragrance, proved nothing short of intoxicating.
It was also the fact that she seemed to damn know everything â and that she was always ahead of you, and that her face always bore that coy little smirk when you got a question wrong (which you seemed to get more often than not), and that she would grab your Swarovski pen out of your hand and scribble down the answer for you, just to explain it in detail later.
The way she licked over her bottom lip and bit as wrote down.
With her long fingers and all.
When she spoke, her breath smelled of mint and the faintest tinge of weed, which made you think of how lovely it must be to be able to transform into a damn joint just so she could place you in her mouth and suck â
now youâre sticky, and god now you really are distracted, and not by a cute purse or the sound of rain pouring down on your window. Toodles stretches his tiny limbs and you hear his bell faintly dingle again. He climbs down from your princess bed and jumps up to sit at your lap. You caress down his white fur and he purrs.
You wonder if Ellie likes cats.
You know she likes pussy.
You have got to get a grip.
You massage your temples, attempting to focus on the written down questions again, but the words and the numbers seem to mix into a cacophony of odd symbols and letters, and youâre still so goddamn cold.
Albeit your eyelids droop down slowly, eyes spazzing out of focus, the assignment must be done today.
âJust, finish the damn work and go to sleep. Yup.â You mumble to yourself, a habit you picked up as a result of being alone for most of your childhood, and having to opt for the help of imaginary friends to keep you comfort. Alas, youâre older now and only have yourself to talk to.
You try and follow your command.
The problem is, you donât know jack shit.
You wish Ellie was here, with her hair sticking to her forehead and your pen in her hand and her old chuckâs glued to her feet, as she sits down on the spare chair aside you with her jaw resting on her knees.
You wish you could hear her faint chuckle as you get another question wrong.
As a tutor, of course.
Not even as a friend, because sheâs not.
Definitely not as a lover, obviously, because that would truly be so far fetched from reality â although⌠right now, you canât help but think of the way her eyes fall down to your chest as a crimson blush creeps up her cheeks.
And you keep thinking about the time you purposely let your bra strap cascade down your shoulder, just because you wondered how sheâd react â Which was with averting her gaze to the side and clearing her throat. Now you think of the time you wore an extra short mini skirt, not that different from the rest of them although a bit tinier, and how you kept rubbing your thighs together just to see whether sheâd notice or not, which she didâŚ
You groan and slap your palm against your forehead.
Then, you stare at another question and then at your phone. Toodles chimes in with a high-pitched meow.
âOh my gosh Toots, so true! I should text her the questions, duhâ
Youâre not delusional at all, by the way.


So you send her your address.
In the meantime, you make sure your studying environment and your room are as tidy as possible. You grab your sparkly pink pen and place it near the textbook, and you grab a matte black pen for Ellie as well, a thoughtful gesture.
You also apply some strawberry scented moisturizer on your body, and spray your sickly sweet perfume on your pule points.
You slip your feet out of your slippers, and you wear your favorite heels. However, you keep your little nightie on. Youâre supposed to feel comfortable, this is your house after all, and the heels â are just a courtesy, you are expecting company, and opening the front door with house slippers is entirely rude, and the silky robe⌠Itâs long enough and proper. Ish.
You stare at your reflection down the mirror, and for some reason, you feel utterly nervous. Youâre all dolled up for a person who isnât a stranger, but who also isnât a friend. When you coat your lips with some minty gloss, Toodles stretches his tail upwards and meows.
âPsh. Do not judge me, Toots. This is normal, I do this all the timeâ
Which again is a total and complete white lie, because if it was a regular friend coming over, you wouldnât have even bothered to fix up your makeup, and youâd barely even get up from the comfort of your own bed.
As a matter of fact, not many people come by your house at all. You have your fair share of friends, but youâd much rather hang out by the mall or at one of their mansions, yours always feels just, utterly suffocating â as giant and spacey as it might be. And sure, youâve had hook ups before, but you always went rigid when they tried to slip past your panties, and you were always⌠dry, as an autumn leaf.
Ellie makes you feel anything but dry.
Physically â you shake your head and try getting rid of the thought by giving yourself some good old whiplash.
You find yourself pacing around your room, until you manage to cascade downstairs as soon as you hear the bell ring. With each step you take, your heel taps the lavish ceramic pavement.
âStayâ, you gesture towards your fluffy feline companion, who responds with a squinting of his eyes. âDonât freak out our companyâ
You look at Ellieâs face from the intercomâs shiny screen. You look at it so hard you nearly forget to press on the button thatâs purpose is to let your tutor-guest in. A couple of strands of her auburn bangs stick to her forehead. Ellie scratches her eyes with the back of her hands and she straightens up her spine. As she waits for the gate to open, she puffs some air from her cheeks. She attempts to fix her eyebrows with the tips of her fingers, and seems to be murmuring something underneath her breath.
Youâre not the best at lip reading, but your gut tells you she just whispered a âHiâ, and added your name, then â âHeyâ adding your name once more.
Itâs absolutely impossible for her to not be aware of how stupidly and irritatingly cute she is.
You press on the button and clear your throat. Youâd be lying if you said you didnât practice your greeting in front of a mirror as well. Your robe cascades down your shoulder, you fixate on it and contemplate pulling up the fabric.
Toodles meows once more.
Yup. You should keep it down.
It takes Ellie a good five minutes to walk the full distance from the front gate to your huge white door.
Then she knocks three times on the wood, and you squeak like a mouse although you really were fully prepared.
Your tutor wears a blue flannel with a white undershirt tucked beneath. The first button is opened, revealing a tiny piece of her pale skin. Below, her legs are covered with tight skinny jeans with a tear on the knee (youâre not sure if she fell or if itâs done purposely so), and to your surprise â no Chuckâs, but Doc Martens.
Noted. She has more than one pair of shoes.
When you greet Ellie with a cheerful â yet ever so relieved and breathy âHiâ, you kiss her on the cheek like you do all of your friends, and you can smell that cheap cologne again.
Amber, citrus, musk, lavender.
Thereâs a hint of actual Ellie in the mix as well â smoke, herbs, sweat⌠did she run here?
When you hug Ellie you focus on her scent.
When you hug Ellie she focuses on absofuckinglutely nothing â Her body goes rigid and stiff and she doesnât hug you back until two way too long seconds pass, and she finally manages to place her hand on your waist.
But she doesnât hug or squeeze, she rests it there.
Then she coughs.
âHeyâ
You take a step back and you can tell sheâs a bit flushed, or flustered â but you take it as her just running. You lean your hand against one of the thick pillars. Her orbs travel frantically from your eyes down to your⌠legs, that are completely bare and smooth and shiny, then they run down to your feet, which are covered with heelsâŚ
You think she might say something about it, about you, how ridiculous you look, so youâre washed up with self consciousness and shyness which is something you rarely get to feel, unless youâre with that damn girl for some reason.
Then her eyes hyper-focus on⌠the ceiling?
You grant Ellie a half smile and you really yearn to break the silence â but sheâs ahead of you. Again.
âItâs⌠you have a really high ceilingâ she says, then immediately glues her eyes on to the floor.
âUh, shiny floorâŚâ she chuckles so freaking awkwardly, grazing the bottom of her left legs docâs on the floor so it squeaks. Immediately, Ellie apologizes.
âShit, sorry, my shoes fuckinâ muddy. I uh, ran hereâ
You gingerly smile and furrow your brows. You theory has been proven correct. âYou ran?â
âWalked, like, not ran ranâ
Thereâs the tiniest droplet of sweat on Ellieâs forehead, which she wipeâs swiftly and clumsily with the back of her hand when she notices your eyes scan it. Oh, she ran ran alright. You do feel a little bad, picturing Ellieâs shoes hitting below her ass as she runs through the streets of your city, with a packed and awfully heavy mauve backpack â smacking against her back with every step she takes. You almost pout, youâre still leaning against the pillar and you smack your lips together â gloss and all, out of habit.
âCouldâa given you a ride, yâknowâ you light sweetly. Ellieâs scarred eyebrow arches up in response. âYou have a license?â
You so want to shove her shoulder playfully, but youâre convinced itâll make her go absolutely rigid again. Physical contact bricks her up â noted.
âWhy is that such a surprise?â you flash her a teasing smile. She smiles back at you.
âSâjust, thought youâd have a personal driver. Canât really imagine you driving that monster of a Rover back there ââ
You nod in complete amusement. âOh?â
âYeah,â Ellie teases, followed by a throaty chuckle. âPlus, took you more of a passenger princess type of girlâ
And that sentence shouldnât make you stutter the way you do next. It shouldnât, but it does. You back away slowly and Ellie follows your footsteps.
âT-thatâs, awfully presumptuousâ you chirp. Her boots stomp on the floor and your heels click clack. âPlus, I donât drive that Rover. My carâs in the garage with the rest of âemâ you say matter-of-factly.
Ellie scoffs impishly behind you. You walk up the stairs and she follows suit. Sheâs confident when she teases, you think, which is a tad different than her usual awkward self, but if only you knew she nearly slipped down one of the steps as she noticed the tiniest, delicious, most precious piece of your flesh that was just exposed behind you as a result of your incredibly short nightie.
âPsh, so presumptuousâ
As you walk towards your room, Ellie walks behind you although she has more than enough space to walk besides you. You get the feeling that she's nervous, even after her teasing and all, and you don't have to wonder why too much. Your house is huge, intimidating, filled with strange sculptures and paintings by obscure artists regular people have never even heard of. You don't have just one living room, you have three, and in each and every one of them stands a different technology piece of some sort. Also, your heels cost more than her outfit, could be more worth than the entirety of her damn closet, and most importantly â you're walking with a pink robe and some heels on.
When you reach your room, Ellie awkwardly smiles and straightens her muscular back. Then, she holds on to the straps of her backpack.
"First of all" you sigh, and now it's your turn to feel coy. "Thank you for coming over so late. I know it's like, absolutely ridiculous, and you know, you don't get paid for this so...", you flash Ellie an endearing smile, the apples of your cheeks rising sweetly as a humble thank you. "And, second of all... jus'... brace yourself?"
Ellie's brows arch up, but before she has time to ask â oh.
You both step into your lit room. Toodles follows by closely, entering the room as well, whilst rubbing his furry back against Ellie's calves.
"Yup..."
Ellie's fingers instinctively clasp onto the straps of her backpack once more, her eyes widening ever so slightly, but she fights to seem as unsurprised as she can â she fails miserably, because she gasps a little.
Your room is nothing but a... cotton candy dream world. A wall that's painted in pretty dusty pink, a princess bed that's nothing but a regal centerpiece. Above the bed, a canopy of gossamer silk drapes from a custom-crafted wrought iron frame, And the final sophisticated touch, a grand crystal chandelier, suspended from the ceiling. There are also clothes everywhere, empty water bottles, used sheet masks, a stack of books â some half-read, others forgotten, teetered precariously on a random corner. Ellie sticks out like a sore thumb. She stands out like a neon sign in a library, a skateboard at a black-tie gala.
You like it.
She clears her throat, stepping further into your room. "I take it black is your favorite color?" she titters sarcastically.
You giggle.
"Mhm, also I'm clearly very organized, and I hate clothes" you murmur and point out the pile of dresses haphazardly bunched in the corner of your room.
She should feel out of place. She should probably laugh, even sneak a pic â tell all her "cool" friends about how mindblowingly ridiculous the prissy rich girls room is. Instead, she thinks about how cute you must look cuddled up in a bed this big, how adorable it'd be to see your bed-head poking through the sheets at 8am, how sweet it must be to watch you skip around your room, trying on your shitload of clothes, throwing them in the air and huffing like a medieval brat of a princess. She wants to place a fucking tiara on your head. She sees your sticker collection from the corner of her eye, your vinyls, your candles, your crystals and Toodles' sofa.
And she likes it.
You take a deep breath. You shouldn't even care if she likes it or not, you shouldn't be bothered by it at all â you rarely are, but something inside of you yearns for... something.
"It suits you" she murmurs.
And that's certainly good enough, because it does.
You gesture Ellie to sit on the rolling chair next to yours, and her eyes still roam over the space of your room. âMy room looks exactly the same, by the way⌠same uh, size too⌠nâstuffed animals⌠Shit, I like the elephant oneâ, she sarcastically remarks as she sits on the chair and hunches down, manspreading as she often does. Your eyes canât help but roam down, because her damn thighs flexed under those jorts and you heard her, but you also kind of didnât.
Ellie clears her throat and narrows her eyes. Jheez, she thinks, you must be absolutely exhausted since your eyes donât seem to be able to focus.
âHuh?â you say, startled. Youâre still standing up on those heels. Ellie sniffles and chuckles and her voice goes all quiet.
âSaid pink nauseates me, that I hate those stuffed animals and that your elephant dollâs ugly as shitâ
You roll your eyes and your tongue swipes over your glossy bottom lip. You bite it and you sit down on the chair. Ellieâs eyes scan over your chest and she averts her gaze like a deer caught in headlights.
âHate you, chem tutorâ you huff, resting your head on the palm of your hand. Ellie doesnât maintain a second of eye contact but she chuckles and itâs cocky.
âYou need me, and you need an A in chemistryâ
You like that side of her.
You let your eyes blink lazily at her, a cheeky little smirk forming on your lips. When you open your mouth again, just to smack it on your glossy lips, you brush your leg âaccidentallyâ against hers, and rigid she goes. âMhm, I definitely need you, EllieâŚâ
The apples of Ellieâs cheek shine in bright crimson and her hand flexes. She grabs her pen and clicks on it once. You didnât mean it like that, she so obviously knows or believes, but it matters nonetheless. You like that side of her so much more.
You cross your pretty legs and let the tip of your heel graze her chair. âSo, you want a drink before we start studying?â, youâre way too damn close, she nods â but she doesnât need a âdrinkâ she needs a damn water fountain that directly flows onto her mouth and satisfies that damn drench. Is it possible for her damn knee to feel hot? Why is her knee feeling hot?
âAnything specific?â
âJusâ waters fineâ Ellie manages to murmur, lips forming a teeny tiny, shy, crescent smile.
âI was thinking more⌠like, wine? I have a wine cooler nâmy room⌠if you wanted water iâd have to like, go downstairs and⌠Itâs so lonely in thereâ your voice is saccharine, delicate, and it and coaxes Ellieâs mind.
âWineâs perfect, I love wineâ says Ellie.
She hates wine.
âMhm, red or white?â â Your question comes when you lift your butt off the chair and walk slowly towards the cooler.
âUh, r-red. Sâmuch⌠richerâ Ellie falters, remembering vaguely the time Joel had mentioned white wineâs for pussies. When she tried a red one, she gagged.
âImpressiveâ you note.
Ellie rolls the chair with the help of her heavy Doc's, and watches as you pour the red liquid into two delicate glasses. Your leg, she notices, is clad with a shiny, delicate golden piece of jewelry. Her eyes scan upwards, towards your bare thighs â the flesh is glistening, almost appearing as if it's covered with oil. Her mind drifts elsewhere, to a world in which your nightie is nothing but nonexistent, and those thighs...
Her stomach grumbles, she firmly holds onto it. Why NOW.
"Hungry?" you place the glass on the table, slightly nudging it towards Ellie.
She's starving.
you flash her a devilish smirk, cocking your head to the side.
"Oh, uhh... nope"
Famished.
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