#i might still talk so much longer

[moe-broey]

Close ups on the pocket details!!! I'm SUPER happy w how the top pockets look 😳😳😳

I think the variety of pride pins with the moral panic button/Mr Faggot beadwork just. Really sells it. Shadow the Hedgehog voice Pee Your Pants. If you're going to be a shithead about me I'm going to be really annoying and do a bit about it. Plus the little golden angel pin... ALSO really pulls the whole thing together. "God help you" Right in front of my guardian angel? Really? 😒And how could I not make mention of. The Skull. I love you The Skull. It's a button (not sewn on yet, pinned) that I filled the details in w nail polish. Oh yeah! Besides the bottle cap pins (acrylics sealed with mod podge and a prayer), the biggest addition there is the chain lining the pocket flap! I think it looks SO SLICK

The pansy was gonna go on the queer side, but then I got the boutonniere idea! And I think it looks nice! Kinda adds to the asymmetry of the floral print/plaid blocking. And... of course.... I have... my friends...... 🥺 Biggest additions here are the glow-star pentagram pin, soda tabs and the heart locket!

I don't really have many new additions to the bottom pockets. Not yet! The only thing I did was stitch one side of the handcuff chain, and rearrange the pins holding up the other side. The cuffs/scorpion was just an impulse addition before going to a concert. But I do like it! And it looks even better now! Meanwhile, that other pocket, I actually have no idea what I'll do. Sakura is just there cause she matches really well, esp w the angel pin actually!

[seiwas]

hope everyone is having is having a great week so far! 🥹✨

[kacievvbbbb]

While I love Jack and do think Alexander Calvert did a truly amazing job playing him and the fact he looks a little like Misha is adorabel.

but I do think that we were robbed from how astronomical the following seasons could have been if Jack was a girl.

[moomeecore]

i found a book abt the anti lawn movement at the library & decided to sit out in my yard & read it. but ironically there was a neverending barage of power tool noises making it difficult to focus. so i walked to a nature park near me in order to escape the dreaded sounds. almost stopped at the mowed picnic table area bc i hate walking but fortunately pushed forward and made myself walk up an annoying hill to an area that is a preservation of a native oak savanna & sat down against a tree near the edge of the path & did my reading there. and honest to god that was a 100/10 experience. there was something so powerful abt being in a preserve for a locally native habitat while reading abt the impacts homeowners can have on native plant preservation! it powered up my energy towards my life mission (evangelize abt enviormentally sustainable gardening to every single person who comes within a 10 ft radius of me) by like. 15 points. also a deer walked up to me and that was super cool

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

one odd thing about going deeper is that I'm no longer satisfied with shallower. and that's, weirdly enough, a net positive. I've self harmed - eh, twice? in the last month. both were well into the criteria that should have got sutures and ignored it; suspect I hit a vein once and was extremely close to muscle, which feels kind of odd. yeah, it's ramped up; yeah, there's a lot of blood and all that kind of stuff. very high risk of infection, potential nerve damage and all that kind of stuff (though I have not got either of them; I scared off an infection that wanted to hang round by chucking quantities of alcohol on it). but at the same time. that's only twice. that's a lot better than previously.

[supercantaloupe]

i got a survey to fill out about my experience of antisemitism on my university campus and while i'm cool with sharing my opinion for data purposes (the results are all anonymized anyway) i wish there had been a field somewhere to clarify that my university has a vanishingly small jewish population (could probably be counted in the low teens, if even that high, in the entire university), absolutely zero jewish life on campus like hillel or chabad or even an interfaith club, and is, in terms of social/political climate, very out of the ordinary when it comes to the majority of american schools

[palms-upturned]

Sorry for being late today coming online, a lot has happened and I am trying to think about the best way to organize this blog going forward. For now though I will try to get the list updated quickly and read through my messages/@'s

[murderbees]

thinking abt Dyson

because why was he so fixated on the renegade? Well, I just ranted about this to my sister so I will tell you

He's offended by The Renegade's very existence. They're a mediocre copycat at best. He wants him gone, derezzed, erased. And why? Because he care about Tron, and that's complicated.

He's the one you looked up to, trusted implicitly, trusted with your life and health. He gets to make the decisions because he'll always make the right one, he won't let them derezz or get needlessly hurt, right?

But he does, Tron defended the ISOs. The ones who started the fight(debatable), who ruined his face. And still, Tron defends the ISOs because Flynn says so.

So he doesn't get it fixed. He waits for Flynn, wants him to see exactly why the ISOs are dangerous, get him to admit that the ISOs are an issue, not a miracle. Because, if Flynn admits that, changes his mind, then so will Tron, and everything will be FINE again.

But Flynn doesn't. He doesn't even seem to care, and just like that, he knows Tron will never stop defending the ISOs. He's lost Tron forever.

So they overthrow Flynn, because they have to. And they take in Tron because they need him. Sure, they could have derezzed him, but he's The BEST and Dyson still hopes he'll change his mind.

He tortures Tron, because he cares. They could rectify him, but he wouldn't be Tron anymore. He still wants him to change his mind, but he HATES that Tron still defended the ISOs. If he changes his mind, it might be okay.

He slices into his face, so they match. If they match, maybe Tron will get it, will see how much he suffered.

He creates a virus, so he can make Tron perfect again. Because if Tron changes his mind, joins Dyson, he'll be perfect. And HE wants to be the one to fix Tron. Not CLU or some medic, DYSON.

And then Tron dies not really but Dyson doesn't know that. And he's relieved. Tron is dead. And it's easy to love a memory.

Then the renegade shows up, and in the smallest, deadest part of your heart, he hopes it's Tron. But it isn't. He's weaker and stupid and overall worse. He Tarnishes the name of Tron and he can't abide by that. The Renegade must be derezzed.

But you're smart and cunning. You shouldn't care so much anyway. Luckily, you have an excuse. The renegade is a threat to CLU, even if a small, albeit annoying one. And you will win, just like Tron trained you to.

[redstrewn]

Notes are cool but when u start talking to me...thats worth 50 notes babey

[gay-fordeath]

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[icewindandboringhorror]

Recent ones of these even though they all look the same lol.. forcing myself to document progress..

[zemnarihah]

also he was like we should still be friends and i was like okay but i don't want to talk to you for a while and he was like okay let me know when you're ready and then after like a week i felt fine about it and was like we should have a call to talk more about being friends and stuff and what that would look like and he was like i'm soooo busy.... maybe tomorrow.... and it's been like several days and he hasn't made any effort to contact me. okayyyy

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

sometimes..so.etimes they change something even after the premiere. sp you appear and watch an entirely new and prolonged monologue. and it's like. FUCK YEAH.

[balladetto]

speculation about why aegis and the kids who were stolen away with him were so affected by their time in the still world despite surviving it, beyond just they spent a really long time in there, as well as the reason for his ability to sense rifts before they can actually manifest:

i'm basing this off a single playthrough of the game and so might adjust the concept as i consolidate my understanding, but i'm interpreting people fading away in the still world as null seeping its essence into them ( that void is their domain as much as it's their prison, so i don't believe this is too far-fetched ) and devouring them from the inside-out. like. breaking them down to reintegrate it all into itself

it's not a quick process, as shown ingame with zelda's ( and various npcs' ) experience with the rifts herself, and null probably consumes nonliving things faster than they do living beings

spending so much time on that plane without falling to that fate and most likely escaping without a prime tri's help might mean that though the children left the still world behind, remnants of null remained within them. not by way of sharing consciousnesses or anything, but more as a null has settled within all the spaces left by what they devoured kind of deal

"all of the kids [...] have lost something" and "[they] lost a lot in that ordeal" would be massive understatements. i think every one of them is grappling with that black-hole emptiness of having virtually Everything eaten away, in a sense ( a feeling that is at once because of and comes from null, though in their case it looks like it's manifested as Hunger and externalised as a need for fulfilment [i.e. restoring the 'order' of nothingness, revenge, etc.] ), aegis is just...further along the road to recovery

what i mean by that is i think he handled things about as well as the rest of the kids when they first returned, if only slightly better due to not having accumulated as big a share of null's Influence ( implied to be related to the reason why he can move in the still world ). he was completely withdrawn, barely reactive, and couldn't find the will to do/try to do much of anything now that the goal driving him forward at that point — get out of the rift with everyone else — was accomplished

aegis is doing a lot better since, ofc! with the support of his community and those who care about him, he's learnt to commit to crafted routines and re/formed his own daily habits over the years, such that he can manage everyday life without needing the same level of help he initially did post-first rift contact

cementing a new purpose to work towards — investigate rifts, defeat the monsters that come from them, make sure nobody is swallowed up — helped in getting him back on his feet, too! even if it kind of backfired once null was defeated because he was more or less left adrift again ( he gets nudged towards treading a healthier path of Living eventually, don't worry :'D )

went on a bit of a tangent, but! back on topic: i think what pieces of null are left behind in him and the others before the end of eow sort of like. resonate with the null in the still world, in that they can all feel* when and where null concentrates its power beneath hyrule's dimensional fabric for another breakout attempt — i.e. when and where a rift will form. aegis just happens to be the only one who can do something about it

( *to varying degrees. aegis probably has the most accurate sense for it, whereas the others might be more aware of when a rift will form rather than where. and even then, it's hard to say if they'd know what the feeling actually means or if they'd have the wherewithal to acknowledge it at all )

[phagodyke]

weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<

[rosicheeks]

I hope your days aren't as heavy and dark, I am sending all the positive thoughts your way. You deserve the best, fairy princess. <3

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