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u know its bad when ur checking ur insurance to see if mri's are covered
#im worried#p#i know it's probably nothing but some of the symptoms ive been experiencing lately have been. worrying me#into thinking i might#maybe#have a tumor#i might just be scaring myself but#a lot of what ive been experiencing recently are symptoms of that#:(#scared
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THANK YOU FOR 100 FOLLOWERS!!!!
or. its 115 now but THATS NOT THE POINT!!!!!!! THERES A WHOLE LOT OF YOU AND IM A WHOLE LOT OF GRATEFUL!!!!!!!
so my gift to you... is my single full body of Griefer!!! my whole design, all his colours, everything in solid, pickable colours!! i hope this'll help you crazy awesome people out there who draw him sometimes <3
in all seriousness i really didnt expect to get this much love and kindness and excitement so quickly. i havent had this much fun doing an ask blog in a LOOOOONG TIME and it feels so good to be back drawing a silly little guy! im drawing a lot more often and its so productive feeling its great
i wouldnt have a blog at all without you guys so. <3!!! youre all the coolest!! thank you to every anon and every person who has the gall to come into my inbox and post images of smoking undertale and minions and scary hawks with their whole chests
#block tales#block tales griefer#griefer blocktales#if you saw this on twitter yes you did#i cant steal from myself dont be scared#i caught a devious sickness so posts might be slow for a few days#promise im not dying im just coughing and headachey#see you sooooooooon <3
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‼️ tw // health anxiety/contamination ocd ‼️
baby with health anxiety/contamination ocd who just got a new piercing and their dada who takes care of them, is patient, and reassures them nothing bad will happen
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“dada… it hurts… s’it supposed to hurt?”
“sweetheart, its a new piercing. its natural to hurt, it doesnt mean anything bad.”
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“i feel icky and weird… is it bad? am i gonna get sick?”
“its normal to feel a little yucky after a new piercing, baby, its an owie! it has to heal like all the other owies, so we have to be extra gentle with it, but i promise its nothing you need to worry about, hun.”
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“it looks infected dada…”
“cmere, hun, let daddy take a look. no, honey, that doesnt look infected, its healing just like its supposed to! were cleaning it three times a day and not touching it, so im sure its gonna be perfectly fine.”
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“the thoughts in your head are just that, sweetheart. theyre just thoughts. thoughts cant hurt you, yknow?”
“but what if theyre more than just thoughts dada? what if it comes true?”
“i know your thoughts are scary, honeybun, but the scariest thoughts are the ones that are least likely to come true.”
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“honey… why are you staring in the mirror?”
“…m’just lookin…”
“baby, you know its not good for you to worry about your piercing that much… how about we watch your favorite show instead, hm? that would be much nicer, wouldnt it?”
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hushing and rocking the baby to sleep “shhhhh sh shhh… i know youre worried baby, but i promise i wont let anything bad happen to you. i promise you youre safe, and youre not sick, and youre completely healthy, and nothing bad will happen. dadas got you baby.”
“you sure?” they mumble sleepily
“101 percent… now lets get that mind of yours quiet and get some rest huh?”
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this can technically be applied to any ocd intrusive thoughts, but i specifically wanted to make it about new piercings because to me theyre very scary 😞
#babyzai scenarios#self indulgent post#this might be cringe but i needed to make it to make myself feel better 😭#this is my announcement that i just got my eyebrow pierced!#but im very scared.#but it looks very cool!#but im also very scared.#but itll be okay my brain is silly sometimes <3#age regression#agere community#age regressor#agere#agere blog#agere sfw#sfw age regression#age regression sfw#autistic agere#safe agere#agere caregiver#agere little#sfw agere#sfw agere blog#age regression caregiver#ocd#contamination ocd#actually ocd#ocd awareness#neurodivergent
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black sails has such nice compositions and im using stills to try and level up
#the other day i was thinking about how badly i want to be able to draw complex scenes#with multiple figures and complex background and correct perspective#but i always scare myself out of starting complex pieces#bc figure drawing is hard#backgrounds are hard#perspective is hard!!!#and combining all three just seems SO much#but you know#if you just sit down and fucking DO IT#you might discover you're actually able to do a thing lmaoooo#i sketched this out as fast as possible so i didnt have time to criticize myself :^)#i eyeballed everything and things are not even that off????#!?!?!?!#im just... surprised is all :')
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Thinking about Akiren and his hometown…. I like to think/headcanon that he doesn’t hate it there. There is a strange sort of comfort being there at times, but it’s not really.. Home anymore. Same with his parents - my hc is that they’re pretty average (he goes through So Much shit all the time I think he deserves a Little bit of normalcy in his life lol). They’re nice and they care for him, but after living in Tokyo for a year and everything that happened that year, there’s this weird gap now.
Akiren went through so much in the span of that year and he changed a lot during that year. We obviously don’t know too much about pre-game Akiren, but it seems like he’s always had this strong conviction, but acted more reserved than he actually is, similar to how he keeps his head down when he’s put on probation. And then he does not only awaken to his persona and is able to rip of that mask both figuratively and literally, but he finds a place where he can truly start being himself. He finds people who also discover themselves and grow alongside him, and makes him stronger - and he finds people he truly belongs with. And despite all the shit they had to go through, it’s also some of the most fun he’s ever had and these people are so special to him and they understand him and he them and -
And then he has to go back home. And he knows they’re gonna miss each other, but also that he’ll see them again. And it is a little nice to be back, it’s peaceful for a change and at least he has Morgana with him. But it’s a bit too peaceful. There’s not the buzz of the city anymore, he’s not used to it being so quiet - he’s not used to having so few people around him anymore. The town is the same, his parents are the same, but he isn’t. And it feels weird cause nothing is necessarily wrong or bad there, he’s just so. Out of place. He’s a completely different person but no one in this town knows that. And so it’s really easy to slip back to how he’s always acted when he’s there. Because this isn’t where his real self is supposed to be.
Then summer rolls around, and he travels back to Tokyo and all his friends are there to welcome him and Morgana back and it finally feels like he can breathe again. Like he’s finally back where he belongs and he’s able to be his full honest self.
He’s home.
#oh man I hope this is coherent and made sense my thoughts abt this are very . they’re hard to put into words#I might have . self projected just a little bit. Idk I see a lot of myself in the whole Going to and living in a different town and being#changed and finding people there. and how weird it can feel coming home and being unable to act the same just cause. it doesn't feel right#and esp strikers reminds me so much of finally getting to meet friends in the summer and just getting to spend time with them for a while#I know I’m adding to a big pre-existing log of Akiren analyzises but . the phantom thieves and their relationship means a lot to me#and it’s been on my mind a lot lately so I HAD to get it out lol#persona 5#p5#persona 5 royal#persona 5 strikers#anyway . runs off#I like character analysis . i get so scareds abt posting it#talkies
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I'm starting to wonder if I'm actually neurotypical or neurodivergent
#im not like crazy right????#like im very curious#i have no idea who i am (kinda my brand as an unlabelled individual) but like am i actually considering the fact i may be neurodivergent???#i have no clue and genuinely i want help to figure out what i am#many people say im neurodivergent or i have adhd or autism and considering that with full honesty is like “shit are they right?”#i dont see me being neurodivergent or neurotypical a bad thing#i just dont understand or know a lot of things about being neurodivergent which can totally throw me off since if i am and im scared it#might ruin a lot of stuff for me like how i function in the mornings how i do certain tasks and more#all and all im just really confused and i need some sort of sense of direction#i dont know if self diagnosing myself is okay if im close to whatever i might be or not but isnt saying im neurotypical self diagnosing??#im just confused#if someone could give me some sort of advice it would be heavily apperciated#kadens yap session
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I just want to have one author of a book that shaped my childhood be a good person. I guess that's too hard of an ask. I guess it's a prerequisite to being a successful children's book author
#i was just mourning the loss of harry potter as something i could feel nostalgic about#like the feeling of pretending to go to that particular wizard school#imagining what it might be like#i can't bring myself to find joy in those memories without a hint of dread for where we are now#coraline was one of the first books i really truly loved#it was one of the books that made me love reading#i guess every great childhood experience comes with a hefty depressing asterisk now#when i learned that he was married to amanda palmer for so long I knew something wasnt right but I was scared to find out what#neil gaiman
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First batch of designs!!! I hope y'all like em hehe :3
(Yapping about my designs and future designs under cut hehe[LOTS OF WORDS AND STUFFS!!])
Sketch: The sweater that they're wearing under their shirt is actually one of Tony's old sweaters he grew out of. I wanted to go for a mixed match look with a lot of color while avoiding visual looks of green for obvious reasons. I think they're one of the more outgoing of the bunch, especially since I think they're one of the younger ones(like late 20's, early 30's) so I tried to fit that in their design. Definitely one of my favorites out of my designs.
Tony: Looking at my previous ref sheet of her, I'd say this is a major upgrade. Not a lot has changed about him except for some tiny things and the colors. I love this pose. Also, at the ends of her suit jacket, they look like little clock hands, I thought it was cute. With Tones, I kinda just took inspiration from everyone else drawing him with formal attire, but I think mostly everyone sees him wearing a suit or something adjacent.
Shrignold: For the information, it has a bit of question marks I should talk about real quick. The question marks on the species was just a silly little joke to reference what Yellow called them in their episode and people headcannoning Shrig as more of a moth than a butterfly, which I totally see where they're coming from because I don't know what my Shrig is anymore. As for the relationship status, nobody(not even them) are sure if they're dating or not. Sure, there's a lot of evidence, but it is still a confusing relationship. I can talk about it more when I post my Larry with its respective headcannons.
Colin: My bbg. Anyway, with his old design, he was way too lanky, and it kinda looked off. The colors were also way too dull, so I made them a little more pastel. Also, Lana is the name for Laptop, not sure if it'll change, so this is kinda a placeholder. I also added some cute patches to their overalls to reference their digital world since I wanted more representation of that part of their character in their design. I just love Colin if you couldn't tell lmao. I feel like all the new details are a major upgrade.
FUTURE DESIGN SECTION!!:
The reason why the Health gang isn't in this is because I'll make a post of all of them together in a group bc I believe they should all go together. It may take me a long time since I, to be honest, never really cared to make designs for them. The reason why I haven't yet is because GOOD LORD they are kinda hard to translate to my style, specifically Steak and Fridge. I'll figure it out eventually.
The same goes for the love cult. Trust me, I wanna draw them so bad(might get to them before the Healthy Gang). All I'm saying is that that bunny is coming first he's literally my favorite. I love that blue bunny boy so much.
Larry might also need to go into his own post. There is so much, and that's all I'm really saying so far.
Listen, I'll only draw the machine teachers if i wanna, there are too many.
The TV teachers will obviously get designs, no doubt.
Also, have a scrapped outfit for Shrignold! I decided this should just be just for when it's in the cult :]
That's about it!! Thanks for reading my ramble. Have a good night/day/afternoon/whatever time of day it is!! :D
#WOOF these took me a bit#i really hope yall like em bc it took me about a whole week to make all of these#i was gonna put larry in this batch but he has different different forms and different thingys#i might just post some fun art after this to give myself a break from making refs#if you read my ramble thank you for looking at all my little notes :]#i cant wait to share more lore :D#dhmis#dhmis art#dhmis fanart#art#dhmis tony#tony the talking clock#dhmis tony the clock#sketchpad dhmis#sketchbook dhmis#dhmis sketch#dhmis shrignold#dhmis butterfly#dhmis colin the computer#dhmis colin#dont hug me im scared art#dont hug me im scared fanart#dont hug me im scared#dont hug me im scared clock#dont hug me im scared computer#dont hug me im scared sketchbook#dhmis ship#apologetically rambling#apologetically drawing#cant tag everything but make sure to drink water!! take care of yalls selfs yayyy :DD
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imagining all ur fav characters in the same room and how similar they are and then theres that one guy
#mcyt#wilbur soot#grian#professor layton#professor layton clive#yosuke hanamura#persona 4#sry i thought this was funny#still scared of tumblr. wanna use this place more tho. might just shitpost to myself like this a bit more#pls lmk if i'm using the wrong tags#i still dont know what im doing lol#lliwless art#professor layton spoilers#btw are u impressed i didnt sketch for the wilbur drawing hehe#i didnt sketch any of them but the wilbur one is in my usual style and it still came out ok so im proud
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Thinking about the possible aftermath between Tomura and Izuku after the war, and how Inko might feel about it
Like... You tried to kill my son multiple times. You held him hostage once. You tried to kill everyone. The attack from your villain group is the reason he isolated himself from the people who love him. I can't understand you. I don't think I want to understand you. How could you do all of this? Why did my son want to save you?
Why, in the end, did it work?
You're in this room with these heroes and I don't know anything about you but still I never imagined someone like you could look so small. I don't know what they plan to do with you. I don't know what to do either. I used to think you should leave us alone, locked up and shut away. But the way my son looks at you, the way he hangs onto the hope for your future, the way he looks even more changed after coming out of that final battle, I wonder if he wants there to be another way. I wonder if locking you away is the right thing
I offered cookies to my son. I only offered them to you because I felt obligated and nervous about what you would do if left out. I can't forget the look on your face when you took one and bit into it. You thanked me, quietly, and it was strange to me that a villain like you could behave in such a way
You look small again. You keep to yourself despite how rude you can be. You keep bringing out that video game device when you're bored and take up space anywhere you can, on the floor or on the couch, in people's way. There's paperwork to do, a pile they want you to fill out before going forward, and you're groaning like it's homework. You behave more like a teenager than a villain. You're more like a kid, sometimes
I made cookies again. This time I offer one to you because I want to. You take one and thank me before you even take a bite. It's like you already know they'll be good
I could have sworn I only had one son
#obvs it would be a little more complex than that#specifically the whole 'is locking you up the right way' thing. there'd be more to that#but whatever you get what im saying#I THINK ABOUT INKO MEETING TOMURA... A LOT#idk man the transition from 'im scared you'll hurt my son again i want you out of our lives'#to 'this villain is just a kid. if you even think about hurting my boy again i'll strike you down myself.#i made katsudon. yes there's a place for you at the table'#is one i think they could have. maybe#i also think she'd get used to him through all might#all might 'wants to make things right' toshinori yagi#all might wanting to make dinner for tomura and izuku and he asks inko to help#suddenly she's having dinner with izu and all might and The Number One Villain. or um. ex Number One Villain#is there a fic about this? there needs to be a fic about this#if i had a penny for every time inko midoriya allowed someone into izuku's life at dinner i would have 2 pennies#which isn't a lot but it's weird that it could happen twice#bnha#inko midoriya#tomura shigaraki#shigaraki and midoriya#mettys posts#metty posts#this ran away from me real quick but the point is.. i want inko and tomura to interact. i would like to see what happens
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I love being aromantic because every now and then I get to play a very fun game of "am I crushing on this person or do I have no fucking idea what's going on and I'm just really fond of them"
#moss talks#it's extra fun when your parents are technically divorced and you get so scared that you completely drop everything and regret it for years#anyways guys it's so fucking over for me I got 2 crushes rn and i cannot see myself confessing to either of them#i LITERALLY cant confess to one because she's 1. straight 2. my best friend irl who i see all the time and 3. in the same program as me#so it would be soooooo easy for things to get sooooooo awkward and i'm not taking that chance <3#anyways might delete this later we'll see I just gotta get it out of my system rn before I combust#here's hoping that this blows over quickly weeeeeeeeee
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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is this a safe space to admit that I think Neve has great chemistry with Emmrich and they'd be an immensely cunty couple
#i am NOT tagging this i'm scared lmao#gracelogs#but can you imagine him managing to sweep her off her feet#just absolutely wooing her until she has to scream into a pillow out of sheer frustration#and her gently helping him loosen up juuuuuust a touch#taking care of one another because they both get so wrapped up in their work they forget to take care of themselves#i could go on#but i won't because i might make myself jealous that i'm not in the middle of that sandwich 😩
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truly and literally obsessed with how advtime civilizations see their ancient founders as glowing angels
#the human founders one reallllllly gets me. like the wizards might actually have been glowing figures of light#but i know the humans were just scared refugees like everyone else. fleeing from the mutants and destruction#wizard city didnt have to go so hard on that scene of them ascending out of their bodies. its like. one second long.#ahgmeemgheme. goes crazy insane.#adventure time#not art#i feel like theres another similar instance but these are the only glowing angels i know of... the s-mos utter reverence for bmo is close#also. those.were those the founders or the usurpers. of wizard city. i get confused. how was that city built. or made. or what.#how did all that work. it makes no sense to me. she tells pep in a fit of desperation before trying to make him die to host her god.#give me more information you horrible woman.#i dont blame her. shes angry she came downstairs and found out her friends didnt clean up the dead guy they were supposed to clean up#ok stops myself from talking infinitely about nothing. i am supposed to only talk about what is relevant.#'angels' is a loose term i can apply to anyone who looks cool in adventure time including those evil lookin triangle mfers
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i keep thinking about a phandom book club, but i have no idea how to go about organizing it or if anyone would be interested or even where to host it
alternatively is there already a phandom book club i could join? because i would love that
#tbh my first thought is TheStoryGraph bc they have group/buddy reads but idk if anyone else uses that much#there's discord (which im not super familiar with even though i have used it)#or making a separate community here#or i guess fable but i truly dont know how anything works over there#plus like... yes there's a few names i can think of who might be in but overall idk!#and i dont want to put pressure on anybody either#i am terrible at reaching out and staying in contact and all that. always have been. even though i think about people all the time#im just not very good socially and im so worried about coming across a certain way or saying the wrong thing#so more often i keep to myself and i think sometimes i come across like i dont care or standoffish or something#but that's not it. i care so much i just get scared that it's too much or in the wrong ways.#im better at hiding but i know i need to get over it. its just hard.#(and i tell myself you know..#'not feeling lonely i just like being alone' but it's less true than i like to think it is#ANYWAY feelings dump aside i think a book club would be fun. i just dont know how to go about it.#ks talks
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Nicholas D. Wolfwood sketches. This boy — he might seem like he’s all anger and rough edges but he’s really just a lost kid. Vash was right — his eyes give it all away.
#trigun stampede#trigun#tristamp#nicholas d. wolfwood#oracle’s art#oraclesandomens#He makes my heart hurt#like really look at the screencaps of him#ever damn one he looks so scared and sad#he might be a grown ass man who acts all wild and vicious#but inside he’s just a scared lost and hurt kid#he’s burdened by guilt and believes he doesn’t deserve happiness#his eyes give it all away#ugh my heart#I made myself sad#SketchbooksAndOmens
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