#i may talk abt the fish a lot then if you and others are interested!

[oddberryshortcake]

hello!! i been following you for a while but im too scared to talk ;w; but i rlly lov ur analysis and twst theories!! ;u; you get the characters so well, i was wondering if there’s any other twst charas you’d ever want to analyze?

have a super nice week!! ;w; -<33

Hey! Thank you so much!

I would love to yap about all kinda of twst characters cause I really like all of them in one way or another. I just yap about Scarabia and Diasomnia in particular, but my brain never ceases to have thoughts on all sorts of things.

And thanks to Cozy and mine’s combined interest in animation history and binge of every single animated disney movie I can find a lot of little details in twst.

So tldr YES!

[sleepinginmygrave]

OML 300 FOLLOWERS YES CONGRATS YOU DESERVE IT SM <3

(also lmao sry if you get a notification saying i just followed you i managed to click the unfollow button instead of the ask button like a rly smart human)

help this event is so prettyyyyyy i can’t even it looks so niceeeeeeeeee if you want to ofc/have the energy could you maybe do the manta rays one? you have such interesting interests lmao

AAAAAAH HI EVIEEEE

AND TYSM HJJHLHLHLH YEAH OFC!!!! giggling

i may have been a bit carried away so hmm it's quite long

⇢ ˗ˏˋ {manta rays}࿐ྂ AHHH so i guess you want me to talk any my interests then!!!! giggling okay hmmm i have a big big oral exam tomorrow like really big and we had a theme to chose a subject from i picked science ofc and i made my presentation at hammerhead sharks!! it's mostly about why are they shaped like that and why would evolution create something so different than all the other? hammerheads are the newest sharks to appear on our earth the first sharks appeared around 450 millions of years ago while hammerheads appeared 20 millions of years ago, they didn't knew any of the mass extinction that older shark survived; but like why would evolution take such a different turn? a shark like that look like it's prehistoric or smth while all the others sharks have a pointed snout those are the only one like that. okay first we have the vision reason: the visual field of any creature is what the can see without moving their eyes;; our monocular vision is what we can see with one eye etc and the binocular overlap is what we can see with both eyes. predator often have a wider binocular overlap so they really can focus on their preys while preys have a smaller binocular overlap and a bigger monocular vision on both eyes. when we see a hammerhead we dont really know what going on there like?? its obviously a predator but WHY ARE THEIR EYES SO FAR APPART and i'm making it short but basically in 2009 searches looked into this made an experience with two more basic sharks and three hammerheads (among those were the winghead shark, the one with the longest head compared to his body (his head is 1m long while is body is 2m) and turns out the longer the head the bigger the binocular overlap so YEAH they have the best view of the marine world and it shows!! the second reason is for hydrodynamic!! when thinking hydrodynamic we tend more to think abt dolphins, with thin nose that can cut through water. so like. WHY??? why making something that takes so much more effort for hammerheads to carry!!! for quite some time scientists beleive the cephalofoil (name of the head) acted like a plane wing (that's where the word came from actually) since sharks din't have a swim bladder they can't stop swimming so they thought it was like to keep their head parallel to the water flow or smth BUT again to make it short turns out its for MANEUVRABILITY!!! (or however you type this shit) i won't go into details BUT when the incline their head like upward or forward it help them move?? kinda?? like quicker hk and we we see what their diet is composed of (especially wingeads, bc the bigger the head the more MANEUVRABILITY) it FITS like they do eat a lot of really quick agile fishes so the cane moved up down left right and turn REALLY QUICK thanks to their cephalofoil hehe AND FINALLY the last reasons is their 6th sense!!! all sharks have a six sence that make them able to detect electric fields produced by ughhh living things?? so yeah it's mostly like ''pores'' called ampullae of lorenzini (silly name ik) and its all over their nose!! again u won't get into details of how it works but yeah they can detect electric fields SO since hammerheads have like a way bigger head they have a lot more ampullae!!! so they can detect more!!! (i'm trying to make this the least complicated i promise) SO YEAH that's why you can see their head moving like that close to the sand it's actually a ting like a metal detector but its looking for preys!!! and this sense can work even when the five other senses dont' work SOOOO all this combined makes them GREATTT hunters!!!! yay!!! i love hammerheads!!! i love sharks!!! i may have gotten a bit carried away sorry hjjlhglg also i didn't read all this again so bear with me i'm just excited and sleep deprived as i type this

thanks for your visit!! don't hesitate to come back<33

[astyrluna]

im boutta load up bg3 but first i gotta get some thoughts abt my tavs backstory out lmao

as you may know my tavs name is astyr and hes based on the oc thats my minecraft skin, so cuz of that i gave him the outlander background. but ofc the game offers you dialogue choices based on being baldurian and i have selected some of them SO im gonna say his parents were those off the grid, isolationist types. didnt trust other people, hated towns and cities. for the first few years of his life he was raised out in the wilds, only taught what was necessary for survival, hunting and fishing for food, building tools and shelter from scratch. but, he was always a curious kid, and even tho his parents forbade him from approaching other people, he would occasionally see travelers or adventuring parties down by the river he liked to fish at

astyr overheard a LOT of these people talking abt baldurs gate, which ofc piqued his curiosity, and eventually while tryna eavesdrop on an interesting conversation abt magic and sorcery vs. wizardry, he got spotted. now obviously this was a dirty, ratty little feral tiefling kid, so they assumed hed been abandoned and offered to bring him back to the city. and, well, these people were nice, and his parents were mean, and he wanted to know more abt the city but he could never find out how to get there, so he agreed

im thinkin that these adventurers ask his name, and he has no idea what a name even is, and these people are devastated. how long has this kid been out here??? and then he says his parents always called him "you" or "child" or "boy," are those names? and these adventurers are like "what the fuck??? kid are you okay???"

ANYWAY astyr is brought to baldurs gate and set up at an orphanage or smth (im not that far into the game idk if theres actually an orphanage or anythin actually in baldurs gate) and holy shit, this kid now has access to books. this kid learns fast, and as soon as he grasps the basics of reading hes basically teaching himself. its around this time he also discovers hes a sorcerer, and has a propensity for thunder/lightning magic, and starts teaching himself how to be a storm sorcerer! and also picks out a name for himself. he just thought it sounded nice

he eventually leaves the orphanage or wherever he was brought to and starts just livin out on the streets of baldurs gate, sneaking into school classrooms to learn whatever he can whenever he can and spending most of his time in libraries and whatnot, while slipping back out into the wilds to hunt for his own food and spending most nights sleeping in trees. hes just out here bein a forest cryptid and masquerading as a normal lower city kid, and by the time hes in his late teens its only partially acting. hes like a weird mix of feral wild-man and street-smart urchin, and is all the while honing his magic. and lemme tell ya hes a damn good sorcerer. hes not famous or well known, hell, basically only other ppl living on the streets know who he is, but he ended up being the go-to guy for magic stuff if you have no way to pay. just give him smth to eat or a potion or smth and hes down to do whatever

ALSO cuz hes a tiefling he obvs faced all the discrimination that tieflings face, so most of his social interaction was with other tieflings. hes pretty connected to tiefling customs, culture and history and takes pride in himself and his people

last thing, cuz he is p much a self insert, hes my age (24 almost 25) and this actually makes him one of, if not the youngest of the group? like, the only one i could see as being around that young as well would be shadowheart. maybe karlach too, depending on how young she was when she was sent to zariel, but i read her as being late 20s-early 30s anyway. so this rag tag group of adventurers on their way to save the world has inadvertently made the youngest member of their group the de facto leader. like ofc astyr is still a grown ass man but almost the entire rest of this group are in their mid-30s at the youngest, and yet this 25 year old is the one in charge while out adventuring. and while hes GOOD at it but he does still have his moments that remind the others that hes the youngest of them. idk i just find that whole dynamic interesting and kinda funny

...to get a bit angsty for a sec, one of these "he really is the youngest of us" moments was the reaction to kar'niss' pleading after astyr convinced him to walk into the shadows (based on my own negative reaction to that moment). that slightly smug smirk of satisfaction from outsmarting and avoiding a fight drops from his face in a second, ears lowering and tail freezing, and for the first time since the companions met him, astyr pales. he seems to snap out of his funk when the harpers speak to them again, and he goes onwards like everything is normal, but his tail still isnt moving. normally, it sways when he walks, flicks like a cats when hes content, idly wraps around the ankles of whoever hes standing closest to, but no, its just been dragging limply behind him ever since. and sometimes, in the silence and the darkness, he gulps, and shivers, and if theyre listening carefully, his breaths shake. and while he talked the toll keeper into killing herself with no problem, when the party was on the roof and spotted the drider and his caravan again, now shadow creatures, they all saw him freeze for a moment, but only astarion, who was stood in front of him to shoot the creatures all down from the edge of the rooftop, saw the shine of welling tears, the obvious signs of reliving that memory, in his eyes

[arechickensreal]

✿ Cove Holden headcanons !! ✿

(still in love with this little guy!! I decided to make a post specifically for headcanons for Cove cuz i have a lot!! I cry over this little ocean boy a lot, and thats ok. anyways, enjoy the hcs)

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He doesn’t really like going to a barber or salon to get his hair cut. He think its kinda awkward and isn’t really fond of the idea of some stranger touching his hair.

So he probably cuts it himself or gets one of his parents to do it (tbh if he knows you know how to, he would probably trust you to cut his hair too)

His dad or his mom used to cut it until he just kinda started doing it on his own.

He probably started cutting it himself after he moved to sunset bird and was still a little upset with his dad

The two of you made each other friendship bracelets and wore them until you couldn’t anymore

Derek also got a friendship bracelet at some point when he became part of the friend group

His favourite ghibli movie is ponyo (for obvious reasons)

Likes both, but prefers dogs over cats a little more

He likes medium/bigger dogs a little more since they don’t bark as much as smaller dogs do, but he doesn’t hate small dogs or anything

But he is still a LITTLE intimidated by the little dogs that bark and growl a lot lmao.

Cove’s not super picky or big on music, and mainly just listens to what's on the radio or whatever someone else puts on, but I can see him liking the same types of music as his parents (i talked abt my hcs for cliff & kyra’s music tastes in my post abt them)

I feel like he would like softer music and lofi and stuff.

I can picture him listening to mxmtoon and khai dreams.

If he knows about the types of music that you like, he would try and listen to them too.

He also tries to learn more about your interests and stuff he can talk to you about them or at least have a better understanding of what you’re talking about

He’s actually pretty decent at singing, but he doesn’t really sing much.

He does like to quietly sing or hum to himself if he’s just doing stuff in his room tho

After the first time you two sleep in the same bed together, he starts hugging in his pillow in his sleep when ur not there (he may or may not sometimes imagine its you when he misses you)

If he’s not holding onto or grounded (is that the right word lmao?) by something, he’ll move and shift in his sleep a lot.

He doesn’t really talk in his sleep, but he sort of quietly, incoherently mumbles to himself.

You can’t really make out a full sentence, or proper words out of it most of the time, but occasionally you can make out something that sort of sounds like your name.

He likes stuff like diffusers and scented candles because he likes the smell. He doesn’t really go out of his way to buy and use them or anything since he doesn’t really know much about them, but he likes/appreciates it if you or other people do.

He isn't the biggest fan of the ones that smell overly sweet/strong tho.

On that note, he has a really good sense of smell. Like, he can pick up on things that literally nobody else can.

He likes to talk to his fish about things (he also loves to tell them about you)

Honestly he just loves talking about you in general

I think he likes it when you say his name (not in a weird way lol)

Like you’ll say his name if you’re just talking to him, and internally hes just like

“Yes !! That’s me !! :D”

I think he also wants/wanted you to be there when he gets his tattoo/piercings. For emotional support. (if you choose the cove that has either of those)

But yeah

Also if you were down for it he would also like the idea of getting matching tattoos

Probably something beach related or white poppies or something along those lines (tbh I kinda do wanna get a poppy tattoo irl one day lmao)

Anyways thats all the ones i'm gonna post for now

Might make a second part idk yet

Hope you enjoyed my ramblings about my favourite fictional neighbour <33

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[cartoonemotion]

after a million years plus an addition million years post the show ending i am finally just now scribbling out my takes and stuff on fethry's immediate family a la how they would fit into dt17 canon

the breakdown in my mind is that all 3 of eider and lulubelle's children are Strange and Ambiguously Disordered (fethry taking the most after his mother) and also to some degree have inherited eider's legendary strength (abner being basically on par with his father and fethry as the baby and the runt of the three being much more close to just having normal person strength, though still a bit surprising for how noodly he is)

more specific points abt the family under the cut bc i dont want the post to be too long @_@

abner

definitely autistic (as 3 and also lulu are) but its like in that. i dont have healthy coping mechanisms to deal with how alienated from ppl i feel so im just gonna fish and carve wood and if anyone enters my space i will burn it down with both of us still inside it. way

that being said abner’s still plenty capable of being a compassionate guy deep down. he cares a lot about his family and takes whatever responsibility u entrust him with extremely seriously

comes off as emotionally stunted bc he doesnt really show affection in the “normal” way, including and especially physical affection and also. saying shit  out loud. he has his own love language its called * noncommittal groan of acceptance as you enter his house *

in my brain i know he should have a job but all i can think about is him fucking off in the woods so he doesnt have to talk with people. maybe one of those people who sit in towers all day to make sure forests dont burn down. i dunno

mary

loves acting and wants to be a professional stage/screen actor so bad but is unfortunately terrible at acting. probably been in like a few commercials or something

very very dramatic, im talking full comedy sketch of a julliard actor levels of melodrama and stage fainting, whether onstage or not. this makes it hard to tell if her reactions to things are genuine or not unless u are her brothers or parents who have been dealing with this forever

since the acting career is not really taking off Yet she has maybe ripped off 1 or 2 or 20 or so people maybe more just to keep the lights on. ironically when shes conning people she can actually act convincingly (my leverage fans out there. you know)

some of you will probably ask about dugan and while i do absolutely love dugan personally in my mind marys not ready nor interested in motherhood. so. maybe some day i will reveal my own dt17 dugan origin concept idk

eider

something of a local folk hero due to both his truly legendary strength and his equally strong inclination to lend his neighbors a hand, or really anyone else who may need a little help for that matter

as exceptionally goofy and loving as you could want any dad to be, though he can also be a bit stern when he needs to be, and a little prideful

in my mind i think it would be very cool if he had moved his family into granny elvira’s farm to give her a hand bc while shes a tough old woman everyone still needs a hand from time to time but i dont know if this contradicts any serious duck lore so forgive me

lulubelle

full loon baby ! none of this “looks like every other member of clan mcduck” shit !!! yes this includes the blood red eyes #epicloonwin

many make the mistake to count her as an absent minded spooky insane woman but this could not be further from the truth. she is very sharp-witted, observant, and is only spooky simply because its pretty near impossible to creep or gross her out, and even harder to full-on scare. and also because she makes long uninterrupted eye contact all the time

fethry definitely inherited a lot from her, but one of the main things they share is the tendency to cycle through all kinds of seemingly unrelated hobbies and interests; but much like fethry’s chief passion seems to be marine biology, lulu greatly enjoys botany and all it’s practical applications, as well as music

[jellyfishmakeoutparty]

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introduction post!!

hi!! I’m mora or ray! I use he/him pronouns (I’m non-binary) n I’m bi, aroace n polyamorous!! I really love marine biology so you’ll probably find a lot of that on here.

I also have a shop! I make handmade marine biology earrings and stickers! —> @eelmaniashop , @eel. mania on insta!

some of the things I primarily post include:

- marine biology - polyamorous stuff - aroace stuff - general queer stuff - general nature stuff

^ but also I just post whatever I feel like!! those r what I mainly post tho

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- DNI if you are: proship, Zionist, homophobic, transphobic, aphobic (anti-queer); racist, ableist, or in general a bigot. identity policing is also not tolerated here. there’s no need to be a bigoted asshole here or ever.

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other blogs:

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- I’m always up for civil discussion and debate, especially since I primarily post wildlife-related content. please correct me on any incorrect information I post about marine science and in general. like for realsies it’s no biggy!! i love learning and I don’t wanna spread misinformation

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- also also!! in regards to my policies with my posts/blog interaction: spam liking is totally okay!! I also tend to respond late to asks bc I often don’t have the energy to immediately, but PLS KNOW I LOVE ASKS!! I have the best time talking abt stuff n meeting new people

I think that’s it?? if u have any questions lmk!! have fun on my silly blog :}}

[fairycosmos]

girlies do you all agree that like... someone being in love with us seems so unrealistic and almost unreachable? i am always so amazed and shocked how ppl talk so calmly abt all the partners they have had when i am like... how do you even find someone to love you where and how does that happen and how do you turn into someone other than just a funny comedic bro friend you know... i am not trying to be all depressing or fishing for compliments but i GENUIENLY cant imagine anyone ever loving me just because it seems so far away and unreal. i have had a boyfriend one time and i didnt even know him i just didnt want to reject him and like. i was so scared of the intimacy and i was so overwhelmed that i hid in the bathrooms in school and refused to look into his eyes whenever we did talk like 💀 i feel like i am not made to love and be loved you know

plz this is so :(( i just wanna hug you. also i completely know what you mean and i think a lot of ppl do. i have never understood ppl who just fall in and out of relationships. i’ve only ever officially dated one person too - but i never fell in love w him and i think i was just doing it out of societal pressure or to prove to myself i could. i was JUST thinking about this the other day when i was laying in bed. how i just couldn’t fathom someone laying here with me and actually enjoying it. it looks so natural for everyone else but if someone put their hand on my shoulder or looked at me up close i think i’d cut them out of my life. i don’t know how i handled it in the past. i feel like dating me would be such an honest to god disappointment - and that someone would only ever do it if they were settling lmfao. i would feel so bad that they’d have to see me and put up with me? and not get anything in return. like i’d be such an embarrassment and there’s no way around it. i’m a void of a person with nothing to give anyway. plus it’s just so much work to be vulnerable when there’s no guarantee or even high chance it’ll last. and how do you even meet anyone in the first place besides dating apps? how does love even start or how is the protentional for it found?

there are a few things i like to keep in mind when i get overwhelmed by this. the first is that all of your problems with love are internal, but actually nurturing a loving bond with someone is both internal and external because half of it comes from some place outside yourself. outside all your own issues. what i’m saying is others don’t see you or your emotional difficulties the way you do. your self hatred has you convinced you’re unlovable and i’m sure that is deeply rooted and comes from a multitude of factors in your life and your past, but it is not an absolute truth. it may have felt like one since you were a kid, but it is not. the trick of it is to make you believe you are. it has to make you believe because it’s not a fact in the first place. you weren’t born shying away from love, you learned to, and you can unlearn the impulse as well. honestly everyone reads each other differently, everyone sees each other in a new way. you have never seen or perceived yourself in a moment of relaxed happiness, when you’re talking about your interests, when you’re joking around with someone. but everyone else has. there’s nothing inherently wrong about you. you just have a very limited viewpoint of who you are and what your presence could mean to people. the second thing i like to remember is that there is literally no rush. it is so so much more common than you think to remain single up to your late 20s and beyond. i know it seems like the whole world has someone but it doesn’t mean they’re fulfilled or happy either. we live in a relationship and sex obsessed society, and i really feel like most of us wouldn’t date so quickly if we didn’t constantly feel like we had something to prove or that something was missing from inside of ourselves. it is much healthier to go with the flow and to let whatever will be, be. the third thing is that you are a whole person on your own. there are so many different types of love in this world and romantic is just a slither of the greater picture. obviously it’s entirely natural to crave that type of intimacy, but it is not something you will crumble without. it doesn’t make or break your life. it is much simpler and easier to let it find you cause it will, when you feel capable of seeking it out. i think you may have been uncomfortable in past relationships because you just weren’t ready, and that’s totally fine. you can yearn for love and still recognize that you may not be emotionally prepared to take on a relationship just yet, those experiences can co exist imo. i think it’s all just a matter of idk. patience and self love is whats coming to mind for you.

idk if therapy or talking to someone about why you feel this way is available to you but if so, or if it ever is, i would really recommend it. i know that may seem like a big step and super nerve wracking but it’s important to examine who or what made you feel this way in the first place. then you can begin dismantling those beliefs and building your life around being your own friend rather than your own worst enemy. i know that’s a lot, it’s just something to consider for the future. anyway you are good!! you are lovable!! you were born with an inherent worth that hasn’t disappeared just cause you can’t see it at the moment!! and i’m sure you’d say the same about other ppl, so it applies to you too. sending you a lot of love. which you will take on bc guess what :^) ur capable of feeling and giving all forms of love. even if it takes a long time for you to really learn how to do so in a way that you’re compatible with. mwah x

[kumikoumae-archive]

what are some underrated anime you’ve watched that you’d rec? also continue more pls with any slice of life / rom com type anime. If you had non high school settings that’d be great too 😭

Underrated:

Higashi no Eden (action, sci fi, thriller, romance, drama) i see this in almost every ‘underrated anime list’ so maybe it’s not as underrated as everyone thinks lol...

Hourou Musuko (drama, slice of life) this is a very short anime about a trans girl (it’s in a high school setting but the story is very different from any high school anime because it deals a lot with gender issues and gender norms and stuff) very heartbreaking but also very sweet. the animation is stunning.

TSURITAMA (comedy, sci fi, slice of life) aka The Fishing Anime. idek how to explain this anime?? it’s super weird. a guy with anxiety issues befriends an outgoing alien and an angry boy and together they learn to fish? there is a duck named tapioca?? none of my friends have ever watched it even tho i have been bothering them abt it for years lol

Kaze ga Tsuyoku Fuiteiru (sports, drama, comedy) HAIKYUU BUT IN COLLEGE. lol no. all jokes aside this is a very interesting sports anime. a guy recruits 10 (unwilling) colleagues to run a marathon with him. The most interesting part of this one for me was watching them evolve not only their running but also their relationships with each other.

Kyousou Giga (fantasy, supernatural) very underrated but i understand why people may not like this one. this anime is off. the. shits. when you think you understand what is happening nothing makes sense again. all i can say is that this anime is about family. that’s it.

Punch Line (comedy, ecchi, supernatural) dont let the ‘ecchi’ category fool you. this anime is a masterpiece. i think it ended too fast, it needed at least two more episodes for a very satisfying ending but i loved it anyway. i also dont know how to explain this anime tho lol... The main character’s spirit gets separated from his body if he sees a girl’s panties? but if he sees it twice the whole world will explode?? time travel? body swapping? super powers? “Punch Line follows Yuuta as he unravels the mysteries surrounding Korai House, its residents, and a villainous organization attempting to end the world. Will Yuuta be able to save everyone, or will the ever-present threat of panties result in their doom?“ this was written in myanimelist and yeah...

Mushishi (slice of life, mystery, supernatural) i dont really consider this underrated... a lot of people have watched this but no one talks about it anymore. This anime has a very unique vibe. It’s mysterious and unnerving but at the same time it is heartwarming and soft...

Rom com: (tbh i havent watched many romcoms)

Wotakoi. this one is a classic, i was a skeptic before i started it but the comedy is gold. Romance in the work place with the bonus of Everyone being a fucking otaku but trying to hide it.

Servant x Service. much like wotakoi this one is also abt romance in the workplace. tbh i watched it in 2013 so i dont really remember much about it other than the fact that i really enjoyed it

Danna ga Nani wo Itteiru ka Wakaranai Ken. THIS ONE!!! THIS ONE!!!! each episode has like 4 minutes so if you really dont know what to watch and you dont want to commit to anything too seriously go watch danna ga nani. It’s about the married life of a woman and her otaku husband. It is The Cutest thing you will ever watch.

Another slice of life i have to recommend is Sangatsu no Lion, i still havent watched season 2, but i can definitely say this anime is a masterpiece. We follow the main character as he struggles with depression. it’s a very accurate portrayal of depression and watching Rei make progress towards recovery is truly a stunning experience. The supporting cast is amazing. the animation is very unique. you can feel the moments of loneliness in your soul because the animation perfectly conveys the mood of each scene. And the heartwarming scenes feel so special... damn, maybe i should watch season 2 now

One more: Sora yori mo Tooi Basho (adventure, comedy, drama) 4 girls go to antarctica!!! That’s it!!!

[lonksadventures]

can u tell me abt ur ocs,, particularly fish boi but i wanna know abt everyone gimme info theyre so funky i love them?? like i have no idea who they are but also love at first sight or something?? :0

YOU FOOL NOW I CAN INFODUMP ABOUT MY OCS

Ok so I have a lot of characters… though the ones I tend to share on here are Len (fish boy), my dnd characters and some ocs for a story I’m working on with my friend!

Len is a weird one because he was originally a random character I had that got turned into a dnd character! He woke up on a beach with no memories 4 years ago and was found by a kind lady named Paula. Paula taught him how to talk, read, write and be a decent person since he had a habit of trying to bite her. Eventually the bodies of the other players washed up on his island and they agreed to start sailing together. During their first voyage a pirate Lord by the name of Roger showed up, showing interest in Len and killing Paula before a sea monster showed up and he had to flee. The rest of the party already had beef with this Roger guy but he has now put out a warrant for Len's head :D. Currently gosh boi is just running around with the party and trying to regain his memories! One interesting thing about Len is that his fishy features are not natural and have actually spread across his body since he first woke up. He also recently started seeing a little flying sea snake that he calls Ghost since no one else can see it. Turns out Ghost is a greater leviathan (one of the strongest monster on the ocean) aaand we don’t know what to do about that! (I'm not gunna go into his past since that’s a whole other can of worms but let’s just say shit gets interesting)

As for my ocs that aren’t dnd related, they all exist in the same world! The current story I’m working on has them all eventually meeting up and fighting against a cult that has taken over most of the world that they live in! I plan to go more in depth with each characters backstories at some point but for now things are still in the concept stage!

I often try to add some descriptions and backstories to my characters when I post them so if you wanna know more about them you may have to scroll down a bit lol! (And if you have questions about a specific character lemme know)

[dragimal]

ok this is like. MAJORLY self-indulgent, self-psychoanalyzing rambling so I’m putting it under a readmore, but my thoughts have been spinning in circles over this for like. practically my whole teen/adult life. and I just need to put it down somewhere

idc if anyone wants to read this or respond or anything, again I’m just basically trying to vomit out my thoughts until something makes sense

so like. anxiety. I know I have it, that’s the ONE Problems Disorder I’m 100% certain I’ve got, to whatever degree it matters

but that’s kinda the thing-- to WHAT degree, and DOES that matter? at what point can I say it’s a legitimate part of me, and at what point is it something negligible and unobtrusive?

b/c here’s the other thing-- anxiety is, in fact, a strong aspect of my self-image. it’s something I associate strongly with as a character trait, and I tend to relate to ‘meek’ characters

I know part of it is a defense mechanism. I had to make myself small, being raised by my mom. she’s a whole other rant, but essentially she’s a very defensively prideful person, and any attempt to steer a conversation towards your own accomplishments/needs/interests is met with a blank look and a swift topic change back to herself. (and god forbid u bring up her faults, that would guarantee manipulative guilt-tripping at best, screaming and crying at worst)

but there’s also another convoluted level to this defense mechanism. I recognized at a young age, on some subconscious level, that pride was/is my mom’s greatest downfall. so I internalized that as, “pride (and even more broadly, confidence) is bad and and a danger to those around you” 

not to be Homestuck on main, but Dave’s first conversation with Dirk struck me on a level of personal experience that few other pieces of media have ever hit, particularly this bit

obviously the physical aspect of this abuse is beyond me, but the emotional manipulation, and Bro subsequently ruining a generally positive concept (the concept of heroism, in his case) hits incredibly close to home

my mom exuded confidence and always told me that confidence in myself over all else would save me, but she ultimately ruined confidence for me. I know there will always be this underlying thread of fear that if I’m not afraid-- that if I allow myself confidence-- that I will become like her. that I’ll hurt people with my pride

now this is all shit that I’ve known abt myself for a long time, and I know I’ve even mentioned some of this in passing before. but here’s what’s fucking me up nowadays: what happens when you cling to anxiety like this? what happens when you craft a disorder into your personality? where does subconscious reaction end and deliberate masking begin?

b/c here’s the other thing: I don’t truly hate myself. not rly-- not on the level I would say is dangerous or clinical. some of it may very well be real, but I definitely play it up. like play-acting at under-confidence

and it’s not like I don’t have pride either. I have tons of pride for various things I do or accomplish, namely academic studies, crafting/art, and just like working standards in general. when I can eloquently describe/argue my point, or accurately craft something to my inner image, I feel very real pride

but pride hurts. I feel pride, but equal to that is the shame I feel at feeling pride in the first place. it’s genuinely painful at times to accept a compliment without argument NOT because I necessarily disagree (tho there are definitely times where I DO actually disagree), but to accept a compliment is to admit I have pride in the thing being complimented, and THAT is unacceptable

and it’s not like my fear is unfounded either. I’ve hurt ppl w/ my pride before-- and this isn’t my anxiety making me self-critical, I KNOW this for a FACT. it simply comes with the territory of all that “gifted child” bullshit in school. yeah I was one of those. thankfully not a very outspoken student (the anxiety in my younger days was a lot more real and visceral), but I do still distinctly remember moments where my academic pride gave me an... inflated sense of presence over those that didn’t get the material, I guess u could say

I know there were times I made ppl feel small, due to my pride. hell, times I got overly, fearfully defensive of my knowledge or artistic skill to the point of talking over others and making them feel stupid. no one deserves to feel small, and it fucking tears me up to know that I did that to ppl. that I still knee-jerk react in that way sometimes, even now, and it still slips out

and isn’t that just proof that I can’t appropriately handle pride? that I’m not mature enough for confidence?

and it’s not even all about making myself small for others’ sake. half of it is this incredibly selfish knowledge that not living up to my own standards will fucking kill me if I let it

I feel like every ‘gifted kid’ experiences a chain events that starts at, “wow I’m so smart, I’m great at every subject!” and ends at, “christ I’m fucking garbage at literally everything.” we’re taught that success is in being able to do something well the first time (or at least quickly and with little effort), so if we’re not immediately good at something, we shut down b/c we were never taught that success is actually in the effort at the task

this has been talked to death by others so I don’t want to bother w/ it too long, but the critical thing to note is that there’s there’s this eventual sense of defeat in everything you do, when ur brought up w/ this mindset

I used to be somewhat competitive in certain things when I was younger-- the rare sports I played when I was RLY young, academics obviously, etc. or at least, competitive with my own personal standards, if not necessarily against other ppl. but every failure and mistake made me so upset that the angst was like. genuinely dangerous to my health

I used to play golf on a team in middle school, and every time I whiffed it I would get SO angry at myself that my dad literally told me that that level of upset would kill me someday and that I rly needed to stop

so I took that to heart and just. stopped caring

every time I whiffed it after that point, I was just like, “ah, well, what can ya do ¯|_(ツ)_/¯ ” this attitude definitely lowered my blood pressure, but it also rly killed my motivation to like... improve. b/c the thought of even trying to improve brought up all these feelings abt trying to meet my own standards of success, and how much it would hurt to fail

when u don’t set any standards u gotta meet, then when u fail u don’t rly fail, y’know? “well I didn’t even try, so it’s actually fine”

obviously I couldn’t give less of a shit abt golf anymore, but sometimes I wonder if my cold-turkey drop in confidence played a part in killing the interest itself? I know that sports and physical activity were never rly my thing in the first place, but did I perhaps give up so hard that I convinced myself that I didn’t even like those things in the first place?

I know it happened w/ academics at least: start to struggle with math? now I hate math. chemistry? that sucks too. etc etc

I kinda side-tracked here w/ all the talk of ‘gifted kid’ stuff, my point is that I have a vested interest in humbling myself-- to actively craft the persona of a meek, humble person

and I’ve been wondering if that, in and of itself, is manipulative. like, is it manipulative to let others think I rly lack THAT much in self-confidence? that I rly hate myself that much?

it certainly feels that way when I knee-jerk reject a compliment abt something I do, in fact, feel pride in-- when the shame at that pride is too much. but my friends don’t know it’s that reactive shame-- they think it’s that I rly don’t have confidence in that thing

but god, how do I even explain this fucking tangled, convoluted bullshit over my reaction to compliments? that I have to be small or I’ll hurt someone? that I do feel pride, and that’s the problem? what does that even MEAN to someone outside my own head??

and that’s not even to get into whether that manipulation is like, actually some subconscious tactic to get MORE compliments! am I fishing? when I make a post like this, am I actually just fishing for more compliments? is that what I’m doing??

I feel like I’m running in circles here, nipping at my own goddamned heels abt pride and shame and what is real and acting and does it even matter if nobody gets hurt?

do people get hurt? ppl get hurt when I allow myself pride, it’s happened before. but now I’m realizing that my self-hate may hurt ppl too-- my self-deprecation often goes too far, and it hurts the ppl who care abt me

how do I explain that self-deprecation is safe? a shield to hold back my pride? hell, it’s more accurate to say it’s a safe way to EXPRESS my pride in a way that ppl don’t detect. I acknowledge my faults, and if I frame it in a socially-acceptably comedic way, I get the pride of making someone laugh! it’s SAFE pride!

but is it? but is it, when it hurts ppl to hear me self-hate?

is there any way to feel pride safely?

I’ve never thought of myself as an actor, or as someone who can lie well (or at all). but can I lie, when I also believe the lie? is it a lie that I have anxiety? that I hate myself? that I have no confidence?

how much of me is real? how much does that hurt others? how do I carve out the parts of me that hurt others how do I make myself smaller in ways that are genuine and lasting and don’t hurt people??

I want to be small. I like being small. but am I small? or am I playing at being small?

I don’t know. I don’t know.

(cashing in on that safe comedic validation babeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy)

[f-nodragonart]

Are predators in general smarter than prey, or is it the opposite? And why would that be?

so first off, intelligence is a tricky subject to even identify, much less to quantify or grade on a hierarchy. we humans are HEAVILY biased in what kinds of intelligence we consider valid, not to even MENTION more specific cultural biases therein. we humans tend to base a lot of our intelligence testing on social skills and abstract thinking, b/c we’re a social species that has the tools/language to properly communicate the abstractions that float through our heads. not every animal (predator OR prey) is social, nor do many of them have the tools at their disposal to communicate abstract thoughts. and that’s even IF they have abstract thoughts in the first place, which they certainly *might* (plenty of species have been shown to grasp abstractions within human testing environments), but they wouldn’t always necessarily NEED to understand abstractions for their survival, depending on the abstractions in question. cognitive maps are an example of an abstraction that would be practical for, say, a traveling animal to develop and use, but this isn’t always the case for certain abstract intelligence tests

thus, things like sociality and more anthropomorphic abstract reasoning simply can’t be parameters of intelligence for non-social animals that may have little reason to think abstractly in the ways we do. hell, intelligence shouldn’t even *be* graded/compared in the first place, due to this complexity. and I’m certainly not the first to make this argument– human IQ testing is p wack and based on a lot of ableist and racist eugenic ideals, for example, which truly only reveal the test’s contextual shortcomings 

when questioning the intelligence of a nonhuman animal, we HAVE to be incredibly careful to take the animal’s specific circumstances into account and frame the test around what THEY may be expected to naturally do based on their abilities and past behavior– not what we’d expect a HUMAN to do in a similar situation. the ways in which animals may respond to certain stimuli/situations may seem confusing or stupid to us, but in-context may make perfect sense given their natural habitats, circumstances that animal has had to deal with in the past, the range of their sensory abilities, etc.

and even beyond all that, the pred/prey boundary in general is kinda false and grey, which further complicates this question. life is not as simple as slotting all animal species into two preset boxes, and most animals can be both predator and prey (and scavenger) depending on the situation and how we decide to analyze their life and behavior. not to mention that vague pred/prey groupings encompass VASTLY different clades of animals with different neurological setups from one another, from insects to fish to mammals. while humans tend to think of mammals as the most intelligent clade b/c we ourselves are mammals, that’s just a false assumption and I won’t be making that silly distinction here

but if we rly want to try comparing animal intelligence, then, “intelligence is measured in animals by their ability to learn from situations they are exposed to. Learning stems from what is called phenotypic plasticity, which allows for short-term and long-term changes in behavior to permit individuals to adapt to changing situations or environments.” (x) thus, some of the most informative tests of ‘intelligence’ in nonhuman animals are those that study adaptability to new situations. every organism has some level of adaptability b/c that’s just life and evolution, so seeing how adaptable an animal is to new/tricky problems can reveal interesting insights into their capacity for learning and change

now I must reiterate– there does NOT seem to be much solid evidence for either preds or prey being more or less intelligent due to the complexities I detailed above. BUT I will throw some food for thought your way– just some of my armchair theorizing. and for the sake of simplifying my point for this, you can assume that the predators I’m talking abt are exclusively apex, obligate predators, and the prey are obligate herbivores, giving us a more simplistic hard-line of comparison

so, generally speaking, safety+time+energy are the big things an animal has to worry abt in the most basic bare-bones of survival. an animal that has guaranteed safety and/or free time/energy can use that extra time/energy to, say, explore a new situation out of pure curiosity, develop non-essential skills, or to simply play. animals that don’t have this guarantee of safety+time+energy that encounter a novel situation are more likely to flee or fight out of fear for theirconstantly-threatened safety and scant energy stores. while this isn’t specifically a sign of intelligence, it is an interesting development that’s worth noting

that in mind, many apex predators have more safety since they’re prolly not being hunted by anybody, so they don’t have to waste time/energy being vigilant for their lives. additionally, a lot of top predators like lions or wolves can usually gorge on a large meal once and can go at least a few days or longer before the energy from that meal is eaten up and they HAVE to hunt again. and I’ve also heard that it generally takes longer to digest protein-rich food? so preds just need to rest more to digest anyways. a lot of prey, on the other hand, must always be on guard for preds, and have to constantly keep eating b/c their chosen plant matter (particularly leaves/grass for grazers) doesn’t have as high energy levels per unit

though this is of course being very generous in assuming that the preds in question have a decent hunting success rate and are bringing down large kills– hunters still have to dedicate time/energy to finding/capturing food, and there are plenty of preds that live on the edge of starvation. and on the flipside, there are plenty of prey species that DO lead relatively safe/lax lifestyles just b/c they’re so goddamn huge that they rarely have to worry abt being hunted (like elephants), or they may live in large groups where only a few individuals need to keep watch for the group’s safety, thus they have free time/energy to play/explore

tho there’s also an argument to be made that adversity– rather than safety– actively pushes the development of new skills. after all, tools aren’t invented unless there’s a need for them, and the needs of survival can lead to some incredible solutions to tough situations. so, one could argue that the starving predators or fear-fueled prey are the most intelligent, as they are living on the razor’s edge of survival, yet they’re still going using whatever tricks they can

though none of this rly answers whether preds or prey are smarter– just complicates that question further with more examples of diverse lifestyles among the two groups. this isn’t rly the cut-and-dry question that a lot of ppl seem to think it is, sorry to say. but that’s just how ethology is– it’s all abt context and educated assumptions

-Mod Spiral

[cowdragons]

hello i know uh,,,, absolute jackshit about dinosaurs (and reptiles in general) but you seem rlly passionate abt them so could you talk more abt ur favorite kind(s)??? it doesnt have to be cold numbers and facts if u dont want it to you can just like list off what you like abt them akshakahjsh

I’ve decided 5 am is the right mindset to be in to answer this ask SO

my absolute favorite dinosaur is the spinosaurus!

mostly because our perception of them over time has changed so much, but theres a boatload of other reasons i find them really interesting like a.) they were really big and b.) they were really cool looking

but! because that would be the end of my list, here’s some cool (possibly innaccurate; i’m not a scientist, i just like big reptiles) facts that i can remember

back in the the early 1900’s is when the first skeleton was discovered in africa, but it was destoryed during around 1940(?) in WWII. dude exploded. and even though we wouldnt find another one until 1996, please look at the dopey lizard we thought this thing looked like:

this thing would absolutely be a friend of mine and yours. he’s everyone’s friend, doing a little dance. bustin out the ol’ razzle dazzle. what a guy.

LATER we would find a more in tact skeleton and realize how wrong this was; and predict it looked something like how it did in jurassic park!

a big huge crocodile with a curvled sail going down its back, a fragile skull, and tiny lil arms

which is...mostly true. until VERY recently, where we’ve discovered: we dont actually know how they moved! even though we know what they look like, we know that they ate fish, and that they had the super cool ability to detect unseen prey in the water, there’s a lot of argument if they were pipedal, much like seen above, if they were quadreped, or if they had the ability to switch between the two.

a more accurate picture of how we believe it looked like as of now would be this!

And for the sake of not scraping the bottom of the internet for a size comparison that is entirelt accurate, here’s a semi inaccurate (at least around the arms) size chart comparing it to a person

i mentioned size before, but the spinosaurus was actually the largest carnivore to walk the earth AND swim the ocean!! (theyre semi aquatic how is that not fucking cool??? theyre the biggest in BOTH places)

since i’m out of facts i can remember i would absolutely 100% recommend everyone check out this really cool spinosaurus model by James Bear on artststion cause you can spin it around and its a goregous piece of art. and you can. spin it around. which may prove im easily amused HOWEVER

and i’d like to mention to plaeoblr/people who probably know much more than me; again- i like talking about them...but this may not be the most accurate! partially because i’m writing this at 5 in the morning and because not entirely fact checking this, theyre just neat things i can recall and google for images

this post took about an hour to write and got way longer than i thought it would, but thank you so much for this ask!!! i fuckififucng love spinos 

and i dug up this pic of me with the one from universal studios

[tofflecrusher]

what do you headcanon about what counts as a 'person' in moomins universe? I keep thinking abt that one comic where they eat a pig, but the pig had a wife who could speak? And also that time in Memoirs when Hodgkins gave Moominpappa a ham sandwich? And it's occasionally implied that fish have their own lives and society? Do statements like 'the Groke eats people' become void if the 'person' was like... a squirrel? Feel free to into as much detail as you want on this. It's an interesting subject.

well, it’s hard to put this one into words… but i suppose it’s a bit like how animals treat eachother in real life. There’s plenty of examples of prey animals forming strong bonds with animals that SHOULD be their natural predator, but these animals who bond with prey may still eat other members of the same species. There’s definitely a further degree of separation with some species, though. dogs and cats are shown as pets at time despite being sapient and talking to their owners, and bugs and fish are treated more like animals than other species. Some species also seem like they might not be able to speak.

there are some species that are always seen as equal persons, but most likely a lot of species aren’t inherently deemed “people” until a social bond is formed. There’s a lot of people with pet chickens who still eat them! I think it’s quite complicated and a lot of characters would have different feelings on the matter. 

[strawbterrys]

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ok woW u asked ALL of them DBDIDOSMSMABD

Also sorry to my followers bc idk how to put stuff under the cut? So scroll super fast lol if u don't wanna see!!

💖 have you ever been in love? are you in love rn?

im not sure..i think so..? idk i haven’t rlly been in many relationships but I know whenever my gf talks to me I get all excited and happy!!!!! if it isn't love then idk what is!!!!!!!

but i believe in being in love platonically, if it makes sense? like i know it's a bit of an oxymoron but i love my friends and being appreciated by them and making them happy and spending time with them just!! wrow!!!

🌹 what do you think are the most romantic flowers other than roses?

answered!

🍫 do you have a favorite chocolate or sweet?

UUUU THATS SO HARD I HAVE SUCH A SWEET TOOTH LIKE .. WROW. ummmm. OH ! PANCAKES I LOVE PANCAKES THEYRE SO SOFT N FLUFFY AND PERFECTLY SWEET !! 💗✨🥞✨💗

OR BOBA!!! I LOVE BOBA in my milk tea!! Okinawa and matcha milk tea in particular are super good

💗 how do you show you care? what do people do that makes you feel loved?

I try to be considerate of ppls feelings. Like, I'll try to remember things abt them and i actually love spoiling my friends when I can? i guess I feel loved when ppl do the same for me, heheh;;

🕊 what do you think about marriage? how would you like to be proposed to?

marriage seems sorta scary on one hand,  but on the other,, spending the rest of my life with the person I love sounds pretty great too!! As for the specific proposal, Hifumi would invite me to the host club the works at and w

🍰 what’s your favorite dessert to eat? do you have a favorite to make?

macarons are fun to make! I always struggle and I wasted like 8 eggs trying to get the bitchass merengue to form and UGH but they're still fun,, esp when  u make them with friends! Also I liked shaved snow w pocky, mochi, and condensed milk yummm

💘 you would fall in love with someone who…

bro this is so embarrassing my answers are all the same pls just . just show me i matter to u

that or be @pukaaz

🍨 describe your ideal first date, what about it makes it perfect?

i actually rlly like aquariums! i love them bc theres so many interesting fish and sealife and just uGH I LOVE THE VIBES AQUARIUMS GIVE  YFEEL? LIKE im that bitch who collects every fucking fish in animal crossing and then sits in my museum watching them for five hours

They just make me feel so peaceful. A first date shouldnt be super nerve wracking and I would love to just be able to chill out and enjoy smth tranquil like that

(And obv we have to get ice cream or boba  aND!! I WANT A PLUSHIE FROM THE AQUARIUM GIFT SHOP DUH)

💝 what gift would you like to receive? what type do you like to give?

I like getting stuffed animals… or things that maybe I've  mentioned wanting and they remembered like?? Ok?? Wowowo???? and same thing when giving like i one of my dearest friends mentioned on her ig abt a plush she wanted so like...maybe a year later? idk?? i finally found it and got it for her and her reaction was so happy it was absolutely worth the trouble

💌 love letters or poetry? love songs or mixtapes? make out sessions or snuggling?

LOVE LETTERS VALIDATE ME   P L E A SE

and mixtapes!!! And snuggling bc im.  Tooshytokissanyonernoknextquestion-

💋 lipgloss, lipstick, or chapstick?

answered!

🍒 which is better- a down to earth, comfortable love or an exciting, butterflies in your stomach type of love?

umm .. im sorta shy so like. i get butterflies over literally anything? so someone who could be patient enough until im more comfortable would be so nice AHHHH cozy… (ㅅ´ ˘ `)♡

💓 what do people do that makes your heart skip a beat? what makes your heart melt?

honestly there's been so few times when this has happened like validation whomst but again,,, nothing makes me feel warmer than when ppl do stuff that shows they care,, like double messaging or remembering stuff abt me or knowing smths wrong w me without me even having to say smth

💐 how would you woo someone? how do you flirt?

I! CANNOT! FLIRT! ohmygod. but maybe i’d just try and spend time with them and pay attention to their interests? i’d also try to make sure they knew they’re appreciated

💕 vague about your crush or partner?

shes very pretty!! i had a fATASS CRUSH on her as soon as we became friends a few years ago but APPARENTLY she knew because i’m “”””obvious””””

nyways, she's super duper funny and her laugh is so cute!!! she doesn't love herself and i rlly wanna help her see how great she is!!!

💫 do you get crushes easily? what makes you fall for someone?

literally anytime someone decent looking even says my name I start blushing like an iDIOT but my validation deprivation (rhymes...hypmic wya) makes me interpret any form of non-hostile treatment as like… grounds for a crush? jesus.

as for what makes me actually fall for someone

hmm.... i think people remembering me and the things important to me really just makes me feel like i matter, and when even IM able to feel like i matter a LOT to someone? If it gets to a point where i,,, the most insecure person on the PLANET,,, knows that this person cares about me? Bam. I love u,,,, u own my heart,,, take my firstborn and h

🍓 what are you doing for valentine’s day? do you have any self care plans?

since its may already, i dont rlly know what i’m gonna do. hopefully by then i’ll be able to see my gf and obv shower her w love n affection and gifts and fun trip out somewhere, and also my friends! i try my best to come up with little gifts for them each year but I've been failing miserably the past two years TT

🍦 what are ten things you love about youself?

answered!!

❣ red, pink, or purple? glitter or sequins? silk or velvet?

PINK!!! look at my bLog BRO! also hmm….glitter….and velvet! PINK GLITTER VELVET

[lazikade]

K so i was feelin pretty shitty,, again,, tonight n when im feelin Shitty i think abt things that make me happy and!! What better things than my friends. So yeah this is just me typing out my thoughts bc thats just how i do

I didnt tag anyone just mentioned by name- if u see this n want out of the post let me know pwease

Sorry for shit grammar I'm too tired to give a fuck

Here we go

So i was Thinking right and i started thinkin abt how much?? I lo v e,?? That people love things?? Like- people just got these Things and Topics they love so much and that make them happy and i just! Ah!! I LOVE seeing people gush abt the shit they enjoy! I love hearing abt these things people enjoy and i looove seeing them happy! Its also so amazing to get to know someone n just find out all the stuff they enjoy. When i see those things i just associate them w that person and its wonderful,,

Imma type some examples out here bc yeah.

So like for me- i fuckin love rocks n minerals. I have an obsession. I take every damn chance i get to excitedly gush abt them bc i LOVE this thing and i love sharing it! I wanna spread my knowledge!! The same goes w cats and betta fish- but mostly rocks tbh.

Kenna fuckin baffles me sometimes bc they know So Much about so many things. Like once they started rambling abr bridges and circles and i was like HELL YES tell me abt this shit. And i learned that circles are the strongest shape and would be the best for construction- theyre just inefficient and hard to make. Sometimes theyll just talk abt plants and im like mmmmyes bless me w this plant knowledge.

Ghost dragged us all into sephora once and started rambling abt make up. Im not a fan of make up and all that and i really wanted Out of that store but i listened anyway bc 1. this shit makes my friend happy who am i to shoot that down and 2. i was interested bc idk Shit about make up, Educate me abt whatever concealer is. Ghost also rly loves furbies and tho she may not just ramble about them she still loves to show us them and God Damnit if she loves it then im gonna fuckin support that shit. Furbies are cute anyway so ill happily hold and pet her babs

Dewa will talk to us abt her fuckin,, figure skating but on rollar blades and im like woah. Shit man i cant even rollar skate thats fuckin rad.I love you. And she also sometimes educates us on Brazilian School™ and gave us a crash course on Carnival. This is why i love friends from other countries so much! Culture!! Educate me u wonderful being i wanna Know.

On the topic of culture,, Sal sometimes talks w me about native american culture (in general), and occasionally like his specific culture n i just?? Love it so much. I love learning and hearing abt these things even if im absolute shit abt remembering. This is especially important 2 me bc i come from a state w heavy native american roots and history and of course w a lot of native american people and i just?? I NEED to know these things. Im white. I dont wanna fuck up and i wanna be educated- especially when where i live is so influenced by this stuff but Nobody teaches us.

Sal also talks to me abt creepypasta (mostly marble hornets) and thanks to him i was dragged into that hell shshjsksks. Hes the 1 person i can go to to hear and talk about it and its great!!! We both get so excited its just so good!

I would keep going but this post is long as fuck already.

In short, i fucking LOVE my friends, and if u wanna talk to me abt ur interests dont fucking hesitate bitch. Im happy to listen. I love you

[rigelicn-blog]

just a transcript of a discord chat for future reference under the cut lmao

nvp-Yesterday at 10:39 PM

ok real talk before they like threw in the brand and everything i kinda believed alm could 100% follow rudolf's plans about how to save valentia?? i mean it could still be the same way i'd have to wonder tho would rinea and celica also swap or nah?

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:39 PM

my rudolf muse : rubs grubby little hands together

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:40 PM

Good question they very well could swap thinking about it, I wasn't thinking of them just Alm and Berkut. What do you think N which ones better?

nvp-Yesterday at 10:41 PM

i kinda like the idea of rinea and celica stay in their same positions?? it's interesting to explore the dynamics of how alm would interact with rinea and how berkut would interact with celica

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:41 PM

tru

nvp-Yesterday at 10:42 PM

tho i do think the most interesting au i had heard was where all four of them swapped roles?? like it was rigelian princess celica, fiancee alm, deliverance leader rinea, and zofian prince berkut

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:42 PM

oooooooo

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:43 PM

Omg that does sound like a cool AU swap I like both those ideas mainly the latter.

nvp-Yesterday at 10:43 PM

YE tho it's kinda hard to organize unless you can find all four roles

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:43 PM

regardless berkut will still get treated like garbage by rudolf

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:43 PM

He can't win in any situation

nvp-Yesterday at 10:43 PM

rest in pieces berkut

pls imagine a young rinea being trained by mycen tho

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:44 PM

also I low key feel like the main reason why rudolf kept berkut out was bc he really did care (but not about him)

he didn't want alm to fucken die(tm) by berkut's hands, and even tho his nephew failed repeatedly, he's still a competent warriorand alm could be killed

nvp-Yesterday at 10:45 PM

hmm okay rudolf's like. caring about berkut or not is always a super weird thing for me but i've been open to literally any explanation??

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:45 PM

But I'm used to NPcing characters because of Nessa, even if one controls the other we always sometimes swap control to process the roleplay here on Discord. So we'd have to find a Celica and a Rinea to do this with them. Berkut tries he really does

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:45 PM

and rudolf respects that

nvp-Yesterday at 10:45 PM

i know i've heard some folks also say that berkut was told he was too weak so that berkut wouldn't be killed by alm in the fight against rudolf? but rudolf didn't expect berkut to have some Fun(tm) with God

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:46 PM

low key tho I just do it for the crack,,, , I truly believe that deep down rudolf cares abt his nephew

also that's what I thought too

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:46 PM

Yeeaaahhhhh, Berkut lost his mind and gave in to Duma's call.

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:46 PM

berkut got himself a stand and a lot of trouble

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:47 PM

Honestly, the reason why my Berkut at least tries so hard is because he wants to impress Ruldolf and for a reason that's purely HC on my side.

nvp-Yesterday at 10:47 PM

if we ever find a rinea and a celica tho to be down with this au GOD BLESS

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:47 PM

do tell

nvp-Yesterday at 10:47 PM

oooo?

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:50 PM

Okay so, I have it so Berkut's Dad was a Duma fateful that gave his soul to Duma a long time ago, and his mother was just a normal noblewoman. When he was about six his father wanted more power then he bargained for from Duma so he tried to take Berkut's mother and sacrifice her. She wasn't a good enough offering to Duma because his father cared very little for her, so as punishment for a lackluster offering, they both died of the Plague. So because Berkut is only six at the time it was Rudolf that took him in and raised him from a child to what he is now, this is also where Berkut gets his intense hate for the Duma Fateful and their stupid power.

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:50 PM

oh my god,,,,,can i like 

hug berkut

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:52 PM

You are free too but I can't promise he won't make that distraught face he makes when he fails at something.

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:53 PM

god all i want is an actual moment of familial respect between rudolf and berkut like ,, give him a pat on the head and tell him he tried his best maybe throw around a baseball or something god damn give him the childhood he missed out onCrack A Cold One With The Nephew

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:55 PM

please do this boy needs love 

Even when his parents were alive they didn't really do anything with him, his dad always forced him to train every waking moment of every day. His mother is where he inherited his hate for commoners from she was that type of woman so he just, always spent his time training trying to get stronger. Fun fact: His dad only forced him to train to offer him to Duma when he was strong enough

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:56 PM

and rudolf knows of Duma's madness and all so that could give him more reason to dislike it

i- oh god

concept ; either rudolf doesn't die or berkut gives up and attempts to sacrifice himself & rinea to Duma earlier and like ,, rudolf tries to coax him out of it or somethin idk(edited)

nvp-Yesterday at 10:57 PM

WOAH I REALLY LIKE THAT HC

it has really good parallelism to act 5 too so i'm like Immediately Weak

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 10:59 PM

another concept ; when rudolf lives, he can't manage to coax berkut out of it and berkut ends up sacrificing both of them to Duma

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 10:59 PM

I like that idea omg, I already have Berkut didn't die HC. He took the power but he was hanging on such a thin string of life that Duma actually took his power back, so Berkut was just down there at the alter trying to rip off his armor to get to his shirt Where he made lousey field stripped bandaging out of it, becase he got Mcfucked up by Alm.

nvp-Yesterday at 11:00 PM

ooo see the thing is i wonder if berkut had sacrificed rudolf, if alm might've had a much more explosive reaction to finding out??

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 11:00 PM

yes

nvp-Yesterday at 11:01 PM

i still wanna know what tf happened to alm's mom who tf was she

i kinda assumed she died in childbirth but still

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 11:01 PM

Good question

Unless Rudolf had green hair when he was younger.

nvp-Yesterday at 11:01 PM

idk i like the idea rudolf's hair is naturally white? then it gets passed down to walhart eventually

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 11:02 PM

tru

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 11:02 PM

Come to think of it Alm's hair color is like a darker version of Milas right?

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 11:02 PM

also uh if I may, I would like to quote this chat

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 11:02 PM

LOL

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 11:05 PM

tho tbh I feel like rudolf's hair is naturally white

since Walmart™ has it and everything

nvp-Yesterday at 11:05 PM

hmmm i wouldn't say alm's hair is a darker version of mila's cause i think it has a bit more blue to it but then again i just add blue when i color it so hold up i'll actually check

Fish Pond (crueltythroned)-Yesterday at 11:06 PM

Yeah the white hair thing is better, but hair color can be really funny in a way too. I know someone with like brown hair x2 can have a blond child it's something to do with past ancestors having the color. So the ressesive gene wins out.

foxy grandpapa-Yesterday at 11:06 PM

yep

alm's hair looks like a really saturated tone of duma's to me tbh

etc, etc.