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I've always like the Barbiere overture but after last night where i was able to be ON STAGE while a LIVE ORCHESTRA PLAYED IT it is now The Greatest Overture In The World
#this may be one of my best theater experiences ever just for that#i love my costume and i love my role and the whole show is fun#but the best was during our dress rehearsal last night when we were waiting backstage#i was able to sneak over to the very edge of the wings and watch them rehearse the overture (which is played before the actors enter)#it was an incomparable experience. magic.#i've seen live orchestras before but being on the same stage as them and watching them so close and seeing the conductor like ten feet away#was !!!#i can't even describe it#i may or may not have been in tears#i can't wait until final dress tonight where i can watch them again#idk if they'll let me for the actual show#i got to see them twice last night#i did not want the music to end#i could have sat there watching them play that music forever and been so happy#opera#opera tag#live theater#live music#excited for the show tonight but sad it will be over
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my martha knight au in a nutshell:
Danny/Martha: see up here?
Danny/Martha: *taps skull*
Danny/Martha: intense psychological damage
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Danny/Martha: *upon finding out she's pregnant*
Danny/Martha: oh my god i cant be a mom, I'm fifteen and homeless--
Danny/Martha: im going to be a terrible mother--
Danny/Martha: i live in a cAR--
Danny/Martha: what if the baby inherits my powers? Oh no--
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Danny/Martha post giving birth: i've only had Bruce for a minute and a half but if anything were to happen to him i won't even need to fuse with Vlad, I'm razing this goddamn planet to the ground myself
Danny, to Baby Bruce: you are the last remaining thread of my sanity. I'm going to give you the world :)
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Danny/Martha prior to getting pregnant: Fuck it, if everything in my life has led to this moment, i'm allowed to make one stupid decision. I'm getting drunk and getting laid
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Danny/Martha while Bruce was a toddler: i swear to fucking god i am going to kill the next person who talks to me--
Bruce: hi mommy!! i brought you something!!!
Danny/Martha, immediately flipping on a dime: hi baby!! what do you have?
Bruce, a weird child like his mother: a spider :)
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Danny/Martha, talking to Falcone after he made an unsavory comment at her and Bruce: If you ever come near me or my son again, I will dig up your shithead father's corpse and make you eat his skin.
Danny/Martha: do you understand me
Falcone:... crystal, ma'am
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Danny/Martha new in Gotham: *getting mugged*
Danny/Martha: *grabs man's arm*
Danny/Martha: I AM GOING TO BREAK YOU IN HALF LIKE A TWIG, FUCK BOY, DO YOU HEAR THE WORDS COMING OUT OF MY MOUTH--
(she then proceeds to terrorize Gotham's night life for the next extended period of time, mostly unintentionally)
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Danny/Martha: Danny Fenton?? No. you must be mistaken, my name is Martha Knight.
Danny/Martha: this here is my littlest knight, Bruce.
Danny/Martha: I made him all by myself :]
#if martha could become the joker in one timeline if bruce died then she had to have SOMETHIGN going on up there mentally. im all for it#im a 'martha wayne may have been secretly batshit' truther. subscribing to bruciemilf's portrayal of the wayne parents#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc#fem danny fenton#female danny fenton#martha knight au#dp x dc crossover#dpxdc crossover#dpxdc au#dp x dc au#dp x dc#giving danny fenton psychological issues since 2022 folks#points at marthadanny: she's a hot mess with unprocessed trauma and psychological prblems. she's hanging on by a thread#LISTEN TO AFTER ALL BY CHRISTINE EBERSOLE THAT SUMS UP MARTHADANNY ENTIRELY#bruce your mom is even crazier than you. how is that possible. her trauma has trauma.#marthadanny: i dont wanna talk about my feelings OR my trauma i want to raise my son. go away#martha: who knew that being a child hero without any support would result in deeply rooted psychological issues and paranoia in spades#marthadanny: im fine (<- experienced liar. is not fine. please god someone restrain her before she claws someone's eyes out)#she has eyebags the size of the savanna and wields red lipstick like a weapon. she's going to rob a rich man blind. she has a baby to feed#what would a mother not do for her child? what heights would a mother not climb.#and you're shaken to your soul with an ache that you cant erase. like the tears you never cried but still keep scrubbing off your face.#there's a pain you cant imagine. the little talk that keeps you wide awake that somehow turns to bold determination that you wont ever make#the same mistake. so you've got to feed your little future and ensure her talent poise and charm might just grow up and save you after all#fun fact bruce and danny's birthdays are exactly one week apart. danny is Feb.12 and Bruce is Feb.19. take that as you will :)
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[Fic Book Covers 11+12/?] Integrative Approaches by Nnm / @mouseonamoose
Demonology and the Tri-Phasic Model of Trauma
As soon as Aubrey Thyme, psychotherapist, had opened her office door and seen her new client, Anthony J. Crowley, sitting in her waiting area, she was observing and assessing him. At first glance, she paid attention to the following: --His clothing was expensive and stylish; --He wore very strange but noticeable cologne; --His relationship to the seat he occupied could only, very loosely, be described as “sitting;” --He looked angry; --He was wearing sunglasses. What Aubrey Thyme, a professional, thought, upon first seeing her new client was: you’re going to be a fun one, aren’t you?
Angel-Centered Therapy Through A Multicultural Lens
“I’d love to meet with you,” Davey said, apologetically, when he had been called up by a fellow looking to initiate therapy, “but I’m all booked up for months.” “Are you sure?” The fellow said, through a poor connection that crackled. Davey had been sure. And yet. Right there in his calendar was a blank spot, just a few days away, which he had somehow completely overlooked before. “How about that…I’ve got Wednesday at eleven, if you can make that work.” “What a miracle,” the fellow said, “that would be just the perfect time.”
#fic book cover#fanfic cover#fic rec#good omens#demonology and the tri-phasic model of trauma#angel-centered therapy through a multicultural lens#Nnm#illogical makes#these have been sitting in my drafts for...a long while bc they didn't feel quite right#until i was struck with: they look so brand-new-textbook-right-off-the-shelf. they look too neat and pristine#they need some wear and tear. they need to look like the paperbacks i read 100000 times in middle/high school#and once that was added it really came together imo#anyway. these fics are so lovely & gentle & supportive and i read them at a time when i really needed a story that said w/ its whole self#'things can and will get better. it may be difficult. it may be painful. it may not be the same as it was before. but it will get better.'#so thank you for that <3
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shiv's motivations for voting to pass the gojo deal are so layered and i don't think they should be dismissed in favour of any one interpretation. shiv desperately grabbed on to a lifeline for her relationship with tom. shiv was the deciding vote and she couldn't bear to hold the crown only for a moment just to place it atop her brother's head. shiv knew she would have more influence as wife of CEO rather than sister of CEO. shiv absolutely hated seeing kendall crystallize into logan before her eyes, especially when he made roman bleed ("and if we did kill him we get to go to bed") -- succession has always been about siblings so of course she tried to free her brothers before her child. shiv still thinks she can raise her child with all the material benefits of being the daughter of waystar CEO while doing better by her, whatever that means. and all of those things are true
#shiv roy#succession#succession spoilers#ok i'm sleeping#wait i know i just assumed tomshiv baby is a girl but like. i'm right#also i have seen many people say shiv did it purely out of spite and i will say#i don't think they would have had dialogue about shiv saying she's tired and they should all rest#or panned to shiv looking at roman's face fresh with blood#or shown shiv tearing up over her conversation with tom at the beginning of the episode#or had her say 'i cannot stomach you' which has pretty obvious connotations even in the context of succ#or had shiv make up her mind precisely when kendall said the andrew dodds confession was a lie#if her motives weren't meant to be read as ambiguous. they would not have put those things in there without reason#shiv leaving the room may have been impulsive spite but what came after was more complicated#it's also not even wholly altruistic it's just cold admittance that they don't have It. she thinks she does#and i'm not sure why the sentiment that they can't take it but she can surprises anyone#she's literally always seen herself as the exception
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When the angsty ahh aus meet
+ smol comfort bestie swap
#if I had a nickel for everytime I made an au where the main char gets severely injured and they get a bestie to comfort them#I'd have two nickels#wait actually three if I count that lil old sonic and su one#peppino and jack just constantly look like they're one milisecond away from breaking down on tears#and guavo there still being the bestest friend#about the btw creature-#Mai is like eight and still takes fcking huge responsibilities on her shoulders#like saving the savior of the entire world#she is a thing who has always been treated with cruelty yet only knows how to give kindness#good chinchilla#pizza tower#samurai jack#pizza tower au#samurai jack au#tower of mistakes#paws of magic#ToM#PoM#art#peppino#gustavo#jack#mai#aku#pt#sj#the samurai jack au is a wip btw. I'll post the 1st chapter when it's ready#pizzaposting#jackposting#radaverse
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I don't make the rules but - if you don't get excited at the thought of going back and re-reading the story you wrote then you're writing the wrong story.
You are your first and most important reader.
#the way I got into my bed one night and was awake and anxious at 2 AM and decided to open my story on my phone and read it from ch 1#I was having a blast and didn't want to tear myself away to go to sleep#also been daydreaming about the scenes in this chapter I'm currently writing that may or may not make its way into the actual story#but every day or so I begrudgingly write a few hundred words to get it on paper#and I go back and reread it voraciously until I get to the point where I left off and am like WHERE IS THE REST#so yeah#what is the point of putting words to paper if not to finally indulge in the pleasure of reading and enjoying the scenes we daydream about?
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I promise I’m going somewhere with this but I am currently fixating on how seeing Naberius’s trident knife in the beginning of HtN gives Harrow the Gideon Memory Migraine™, despite no clear connection to Gideon:
Ianthe considered this. She nudged the confection basket hilt of the rapier at her hip aside, and took out a long knife that, again, ran a hot rill of pain down your temporal bone. It was—though you had never bothered to learn—Tern’s main-gauche, his trident knife, a long blade from which two other blades would spring at the press of some hidden mechanism; she flicked that mechanism now, and with a snickt they burst out like a firework, two hard points of gleaming steel. She flicked it again, and the blades went snickt back into their housing.
Is it simply that it’s something from the Canaan House era in general? Or is there more going on? Stick with me here.
One of my pet theories I’ve been harboring since Kiriona’s wounds were revealed is that Harrow herself wounded Gideon after she threw herself on the fence, paralleling Jesus’s side wound from being speared after his crucifixion. They needed to ensure Jesus was truly dead, and presumably Harrow also needed to be well and truly sure that Gideon was dead before proceeding. Ianthe says she put a sword through Naberius’s heart to pin his soul in place for her ascension, and we see his body run through with the sword. Harrow needing to do the same to Gideon would certainly be some very juicy angst fuel.
The other crucial component here is one of my other favorite pet theories: that Harrow knew Gideon’s sword was haunted, likely before even coming to Canaan House. I’ve seen a few people do some more detailed explanations about that, but I’ll do a brief rundown here.
Harrow says as far back as GtN about the sword “I never liked that cursed thing anyway; I always felt like it was judging me.” After the events of HtN with the River and Canaan House 2.0, we know she has an innate and potentially subconscious talent with spirit magic; it seems likely she was able to sense what was in the sword whether she knew exactly what was going on or not.
In HtN, Guideline #3 in her her pre-lobotomy letters to her post-lobotomy self has several stipulations (wipe it down with arterial blood nightly, coat it in regenerating ash, don’t cut flesh or bone with it) that sound a lot like precautions one would take to keep a soul from hopping out of it.
When discussing the sword with Abigail in Canaan House 2.0, we get some very specific qualifiers around how much information Harrow is able to provide about the sword. Directly before remembering that the sword was Gideon’s we have: “Harrow’s brain, though still a jumble, was no longer a mess in a darkened room. Memory had gifted her a small torch she could light the disarray with.”
After that, she struggles to recall further details, her own brain providing obstacles: “The light was not proving helpful enough: she was, in desperation, kicking over piles of the rubble in her own brain.” In the end, she’s able to tell Abigail: “I hated that damned sword for years. I don’t know why; it just felt strange - rancorous. I cannot deny that I often assumed its edge would be the last thing I saw. I don’t know.”
Circling back to the final battle of GtN, we get my favorite little nugget of support for this: Harrow is described as looking “affrighted” when Gideon tells her to go get her two-hander. I’d initially taken that to mean she was startled (and maybe a bit annoyed) to find out that Gideon had brought it at all, or freaked out at the situation in general. But I’ve begun to wonder if she specifically didn’t want Gideon to bring that sword with her to Canaan House because she knew, or at least suspected, what it contained.
Which brings us to the trident knife. If Harrow needed to fix Gideon’s soul in place by impaling her herself, and she knew there was a malevolent soul in the two-hander that could conceivably hitch a ride in another body that it came into contact with, she would have needed a different tool for the job… Which may very well have been the trident knife. Seeing the weapon she used to mutilate her cavalier’s body with seems like exactly the sort of thing that would bring on one of Harrow’s Gideon-induced headaches, no? It’s also notable that when Harrow sees this knife, it’s directly before Ianthe stabs her through the hand, again analogous to crucifixion wounds. I gotta say, if this holds water, there’s a certain poetry to both Harrow and Gideon receiving versions of the Holy Wounds on the blade of the same knife.
(Edit to add: further theorizing prompted by @camilla-rekt‘s fab addition can be found on this reblog)
#this is really just a jenga tower of theories but i'm still sitting here rubbing my hands together like a cartoon villain#i am just ripping biting tearing to know what happened between those two chapters#(and incidentally there may have been actual ripping biting tearing involved but i digress)#i wonder if this could have anything to do with the favor harrow owes ianthe… hmm#Nona the Ninth spoilers#harrowhark nonagesimus#Gideon nav#kiriona gaia#ianthe tridentarius#Nona the Ninth#ntn#the locked tomb#tlt#tlt meta#tlt theories
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Turn around
Look at what you see
In her face
The mirror of your dreams
#legend of zelda#loz tears of the kingdom#loz link#link and zelda#light dragon#I may have been inspired by the never ending story#my art#zelink#totk fanart#loz totk#Zelda
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the problem is i get genuinely, unpleasantly freaked out by Scary Face Images a la smile.jpeg or cartoon cat or whatever which makes enjoying creepypastas and internet horror videos and stuff a real fucking minefield
#watched we'll be right back on call with friends a while back#and it Absolutely Fucking Ruled. great series highly recommend.#but the Scary Face within that um. i forget the name of the entity its been a bit but we did#just call her the cockmongler#genuinely freaked me out so bad . there was on epoint at which i was like#putting the video picture-in-picture and scooting it off to the side of my screen so i could hear but not see#and in doing so i accidentially *fullscreened* the video instead#right when the cockmongler was there#i Did scream Very loudly and May have shed a Couple tears about it dont tell anyone .#shoutout to local 58 for its minimal use of scary face image. appreciated#and like its not All scary faces either.#like the distorted faces in morley drive? those are cool! PLEASANTLY creepy!#but the goofy ass freaky faces in like the mandela catalogues? are goofy but they make me upset.#idk what the line is 😭 i wanna move past it though there's a bunch of shit i'm missing out on because of it
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#cddwtd#cddwtd lily#cddwtd cuphead#my art#lily rose#I've been captured by helluva boss once again#yes again#the newest episode got me right back into it#fizzarolli is such a cool character#and I love blitzo even more now#their dynamic is so cool#OK BUT THE ANGST TOO#I may have teared up a bit#I'll make sure to draw some fizzy stuff soon#helluva boss
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I won't promise it'll be okay, regardless of what happens over the next few days, but I can promise the outcome is navigable.
#us elections#2024 us elections#also while the presidential race isnt over until it's over#there has already been some great news re: state measures#and those have palpable impact it's just no one (least of all americans) knows how the american government works#so theyre conflated with other things and get less press#but theyre real and substantive#anyway.#all of this to say: it's literally not going to be over tonight and there will be days of uncertainty#the outcome may be horrible and the best case scenario is pyrrhic#but we tuck and roll anyway#the green light isnt real it's a metaphor#it's that we strive for meaning that creates meaning#it's that we strive for beauty that creates beauty#it's that we strive for righteousness and justice and humanity that creates the same#curse bless me now with your fierce tears i pray#do not go gentle into that good night#rage rage against the dying of the light
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On their quest to find Falin, ¿should the party bring along a talented culinary ally? ¿A hungry, underappreciated loner? ¿Some asshole who could very easily get distracted and fuck it all up? ¡¡¡You decide!!!
(Please reblog and explain in the tags)
#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#delicious in dungeon#touden party#gordon ramsay#samwise gamgee#lotr#lord of the rings#link#princess zelda#zelink#legend of zelda#botw#totk#breath of the wild#tears of the kingdom#rose lalonde#homestuck#hiccup haddock#hiccup and toothless#hiccup horrendous haddock iii#toothless#httyd#how to train your dragon#twilight#twilight saga#the twilight saga#leah clearwater#those of you who have been keeping track of previous polls i ran for some ungodly reason may have noticed this is her second time in one#that’s because i just want her to have a good adventure for once in her life
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#mindofserenity#allahumma ameen#I recently met with a lovely friend of mine who had just been to ummrah#the experience she shared was so heartfelt and beautiful that it transpired to my heart#we both began to tear up#I cannot fathom the fact that I was truly happy for her experience and though I have not been to Mecca#I had goosebumps as if I was#may Allah bless us all the gift of ummrah#journey of a tainted heart#myreminders#islamic reminders#writing#subhanallah#islam#sabr#quotes#muslim#islamic quotes#muslimah#islam help#islamic#deen#welcome to islam#islamic post#arabic#sunnah#dua
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about how long do you need to be the owner of a shop before dealing with customer service emails / help requests No Longer Feels like being surrounded by a pack of feral hogs. I don't have this problem I'm asking for a friend
#just curious. this isn't applicable to me at all and I am never afraid#sergle.txt#EVEN IF THEY ARE NOT MEAN. the feral hogs don't even have to be mean. they might just be asking a basic question#they may in fact be very understanding. the hogs i mean. the wild ones#I've got more messages than usual after the christmas rush because etsy has been - in business terms- tearing my pussy apart#with tracking numbers and the jankiness therein. I'm hoping that this becomes less common now that the rush is over
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Sksw Zelda in a Zonai style! <3
Inspired by this post by @melonsap ^v^
#fanart#legend of zelda#tears of the kingdom#skyward sword#zelda#digital art#my art#melonsap inspired <3#the ideas that Bee comes up with are awesome and I want to draw so many of them haha#this may have been the drawing that broke my apple pencil :')#Bc now it decides to Not charge when connected#and yes I've turned things off and on again#I think it was just its time#Worth it tho#she was fun to draw!
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hey guys I’m helplessly hyperfixated on Wuthering Waves and i think Chixia deserves to be chubby so here’s some art I made about it
#I have so many hyperfixations going on rn it may kill me soon#i keep forgetting I have this app cause I’ve been playing wuwa daily#which is the most I’ve played on a game. ever. I think/hj#I PULLED BOTH OF THE 5 STARS I RLY WANTED THO SO LETS GOOOOO#ahem anyways#wuthering waves#wuwa#wuwa chixia#chixia#wuthering waves chixia#chixia fanart#wuthering waves fanart#tears in my eyes I hope I don’t get jumped for this post idk how this fandom is yet#Moomins gallery<3#also if you’ve read this I think Chixia and Yangyang are girlfriends btw
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