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the actual literal meaning of TARDIS (Time and Relative Dimension[s] in Space) is so funny cause itâs justâŠ. a very succinct description of what the vehicle travels through? âhello iâm a human and this is my CAR (Concrete and Roads)â uh yeah i sure hope it do
#unrelated but âi need to start writing otherstide cards for people#iâm about to go through a major life event but i kinda have some time to write letters in english and gallifreyan#i may do a little announcement about that at some point for anyone who wants a letter BUT first i need to know how much time iâll have#but with my inbox complications getting addresses would be tricky and idk if ppl would be comfortable sharing them soâŠ. ough. bah humbug#doctor who
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(Part of this post with older brother danyal al ghul)
...Okay, look. Sam knows she's staring. She knows very well that she is staring. And that if she doesn't stop staring it's gonna draw her unwanted attention, and that will only have to make her explain why she's staring. Which she doesn't want to do.
She's trying not to stare, which she thinks she should get brownie points for. She tries to look away, to find a spot on the wall to stare lifelessly at, maybe she can burn holes into some of these annoying socialites' heads. But eventually her eyes drift, and suddenly she's back to staring again.
Can you blame her though? Damian Wayne looks like a very close mini-me of her fucking best friend. Seriously, it's like looking into a mirror to the past. If that mirror to the past had green eyes rather than blue and a distinctive lack of a facial scar.
The first time she sees him when her parents drag her over to Bruce Wayne to butter up to him she has to do a doubletake. Then a triple take. Then a quadruple take, just for good measure that she was seeing what she was actually seeing. She was sure she looked like one of those stress toys that when squeezed had their eyes pop out comically like a Saturday morning cartoon, that's what she certainly felt like anyways.
Look, Danny's come a decent way from being that scowl-y, jerkish little ten year old she first met when he arrived like the wind to Amity Park five years ago (even if he was still occasionally scowl-y and jerkish), but one thing that's stayed the same is how reserved he is about his home life prior to being taken in by the Fentons.
He doesn't talk about it much, and Sam's come to know that he's very good at changing the subject when it gets brought up. Even after being friends for nearly four years, the only thing she and Tuck know for certain is that he has a little brother that he refers to as 'starlight', whom he cares a lot about but left on really bad terms with. And that he's never met his father, but wants to and knows who he is.
He's never told her or Tucker who he was though, and glancing at Bruce Wayne, Sam is realizing why. She can begrudgingly acknowledge all the good he's done for Gotham, but... well, if Danny told her that Bruce Wayne was his dad, she wouldn't have believed him at all.
But she's starting to see the resemblance, as subtle as it is.
And she sees the resemblance to Damian Wayne, her eyes dropping back down to him as he wears a very Danny-like scowl on his face, arms crossed behind his back as his eyes swept around the ballroom. He was five years younger than Danny, and god it was so, so weird.
His eyes turned on to her, and they locked gazes for a moment.
Involuntarily, Sam makes a startled noise and looks away. Fingers tap against her purse, black and purple and unfortunately a clutch that only held her phone and her wallet in it. She would have kept a knife on her, but her parents put their foot down and there was a security detail at the door. Only in Gotham.
Silently, she was hoping that the little Danny-me didn't say anything. Or at least, he hadn't noticed her staring. Which was a tall order if she ever heard one -- and unfortunately, her silent prayers went unanswered as her mother's eyes dropped down onto her.
"Did you say something, Samantha?" She asks in a sickeningly sweet voice, a sound that makes Sam's skin crawl. Her dad and Bruce Wayne's attention also turns onto her, and she glowers at her mom from the corner of her eye.
"I didn't say anything." Sam says, barely keeping her tone polite as she turned her head away. Her mother clucks her tongue, disapproving, but from her peripherals doesn't pester her more
Bruce Wayne, the bastard, takes that time to turn to Sam and grace her with his dime-a-dozen billboard smiles. "I've been talking with your parents this whole time, Miss Manson, you must be terribly bored. How is your schooling going?"
Sam eyes him up and down. On one hand, she immediately wants to be snarky. It's none of his business what her school life is like, she doesn't care for his fucking small talk.
On the other hand, this was Danny's whole father. Someone who she knows that Danny has wanted to meet for, what she's assuming, his whole life. He's never brought it up much, but she remembers that very quiet, solemn conversation she and Tucker had with him where he admits to having never met his dad. But god does he want to.
And... wait. Sam's eyes narrow, and she meets Bruce Wayne's eyes. Does this man even know Danny exists? She drops her gaze down to Damian, who was staring at her suspiciously, and then back up to Bruce, and she alternates between them.
Why was Damian living with Bruce, but not Danny? Why hasn't Bruce done anything to reach out to him - what was going on with Danny's biological family that Danny had to be separated from them, but not Damian? Danny's always been kinda mysterious, but now things weren't adding up.
Was Danny given up? Does Bruce just not want Danny, but wanted Damian? Why the fuck does Bruce Wayne know about Damian but not her best friend -- or does he know and just not care? He's fought for custody for his adoptive kids before, does he just not want to fight for his other biological son? Does he think Danny's not worth it?
She's never cared much about the Wayne family before, other than to hear about the advancements on WE's eco-friendly tech, but Sam thinks she's gonna have to look into why Damian Wayne was living with the Waynes.
Slowly, with a protective anger beginning to burn in her gut and crawl up her throat, a scowl slowly curls at the corner of her lip as she redirects her glare from her mother onto Bruce. "It's going fine," She says curtly, jutting her chin out defiantly. "Me and my friend Danny started a petition to fix the leaky faucets in the girls and boys' bathrooms in order to conserve more water for the rest of the city."
She eyes his face, waiting to see if anything like recognition flashes through it. And- and nothing. Sam breathes in slowly through her nose, trying to quell the red that's blurring the edge of her vision -- does he just, not know where Danny is?
Her parents however, make vaguely displeased expressions. "Our Samantha is... quite passionate about her pet projects." Her dad says, laughing low and nervously, "she's very vocal about silly things like that."
"Her friend Daniel is perhaps even worse than she is sometimes." Her mother adds on, fanning her face with her perfectly manicured hands with a sigh. "I swear, he's the one that keeps dragging her into these things."
Sam's anger turns on its head, and she whirls on her heel like a fire-breathing dragon. "It's Danyal." It rolls out like instinct. Danny's told them both that he hates the Americanized pronunciation of his name, but in a rare moment of restraint, puts up with it for reasons unknown to her. "And Danny doesn't make me do anything, it was my idea."
The name, Danyal, seems to ring some kind of bell in Brucie Wayne's head, because she sees him and Damian quietly perk up like two cats pricking up their ears. Her eyes flick onto him immediately, something dangerous rearing its head. So Bruce Wayne knows about Danny. And he's not reaching out to him. Is he? She's not sure.
She does know that she's gonna rip his throat out if she finds out that he's known about Danny this entire time and has been ignoring him while favoring his little brother. She'll hunt down Aragon herself and steal his dragon-shifting amulet and wreck house on Bruce Wayne if that's the case. Batman and his league of vigilantes be damned. Her parents don't notice her slowly turning head towards Bruce.
But Bruce does, and she makes direct eye contact with him. His smile doesn't falter, he just tilts his head like a curious puppy and looks at Sam's parents. She hopes Bruce can read minds, she hopes he can hear her threatening him.
"Danyal?" He asks, and Sam doesn't know if she hates the fact that he said it correctly or not. She just continues burning holes into him and hoping he might spontaneously combust.
Her mother waves her hand dismissively, tilting her nose up poshly into the air. "Our dear Samantha's little... foster friend from school," she says, not even bothering to hide her disdain, "a creepy little boy with the most garish scar on his face. He's a rude little thing, not good for polite company."
Scratch that, Sam mentally alternates between ripping into her parents and Bruce. She whirls on them. "Do not talk about Danny that way." She all but snarls, and they all but ignore her.
(She's tearing up the upholstery when she gets home. She's going to paint over the fine china. She's going to do something to make them pay for this.)
"Oh yes, he was taken in by that freaky Fenton family a few years ago." Her dad continues in lieu of her mom, and they both shake their heads disapprovingly. "It's just what our city needs, another menace."
"Danny is not a menace." Sam continues, raising her voice while her hands shake with rage. Her parents finally look at her, but she can already tell that they're going to scold her for raising her voice. She bulldozes over them and jabs her black-painted finger at them. "He's got a bigger heart than the both of you combined."
"Samantha, please." her mom says, exasperated. They both give her disapproving looks, Sam thinks about grabbing champagne off the tray of a nearby waiter and throwing it in their faces. "You defend that boy far too much. What do you actually know about him and his family?"
Sam sets her jaw, puffing herself up like a dragon protecting its hoard. She steps into her mom's space. "I know that he loves the stars; you can ask him anything about astronomy and he could give you an entire lecture on the formation, class types, and various gasses that stars are made up of. He can tell you how the Earth was formed, he can tell you about the visible light spectrum and about light curves, and a whole ton of other stuff that I don't really understand. But Danny loves talking about it."
Her face twists and scowls, "I know he cares a ton about the environment and about fixing light pollution, and preserving the forests and natural habitats of animals." She nearly jabs her finger into her mom's chest, "I know he loves dogs, and that there's one he feeds every day on the way to school that he calls Cujo, its a St. Bernard puppy and Danny carries him around whenever he sees him after school, and is in the middle of training him."
It's not a total lie, but it's not the whole truth either. Cujo doesn't need food, but Danny gives him it anyways. "I know he likes spicy food and loves movies but specifically only sci-fi and horror, and he hates most martial arts movies. His favorite superhero is the Martian Manhunter, but Batman comes in at a close second." For reasons to her that were pretty unknown, but it didn't matter.
"I know he loves wordplay and making puns, which I would have never expected from him when we first met, but it's so unbelievably Danny-like that I can't imagine him not making puns." And she smiles a little to herself, she remembers the first time Danny intentionally made a pun once and it got startled laughs out of both her and Tucker.
Her smile suddenly falters, and she swallows. Her lips purse up, wobbling, and she very quickly glances over to Damian Wayne, of whom is watching her with a vaguely bewildered expression alongside Bruce.
She turns her eyes back onto her parents. "And I know that he worries a lot, even if he has a shit way of showing it. I know he had a little brother that he hasn't seen since he was adopted by the Fentons, and he doesn't talk about him often but when he does he he calls him 'starlight'." From the corner of her eye, she sees Damian jerk.
"So- so, so what if he's not 'good for polite company'." Sam's voice, embarrassingly, cracks down the middle. But she's so angry over Danny's behalf that she doesn't really care. "Or that he can be mean, and critical, and stubborn. He's learning, and he's becoming kinder by the day. That's more than I can say about you."
(She remembers when Danny finally admitted to her and Tucker being his 'closest friends'. It was sometime before the portal incident, and it felt like a milestone because beforehand he only really referred to them as his companions or allies.)
(At the time, he'd looked unsure of himself. Skittish like a stray in the back of an alleyway, almost shy in his own way. It had come out stilted, slow, like an infant taking its first steps, and it would have been endearing if it hadn't been heartbreaking.)
Her parents rear back like she'd struck them, and her mother holds a hand against her chest in aghast. Sam doesn't care, she blinks the sting out of her eyes. "Samantha." Her mother starts.
Sam cuts her off, "I don't care what you have to say, you-- you pricks." she snaps, around her, there are gasps. Belatedly, she realizes she's grown an audience, but again she doesn't care. "Danny might be an asshole, but he cares. And I'd rather be around someone whose mean but cares, than someone whose nice but doesn't."
With that, she whirls on her foot and turns on Bruce Wayne, who has been silent the entire time with a surprised expression on his face. He starts to shake out of it when Sam turns to him, but she doesn't give him the chance to speak. "Enjoy your party." She snarls, and then stalks away.
#dpxdc#dp x dc#dp x dc crossover#danny fenton is not the ghost king#dpxdc crossover#dpdc#danyal al ghul au#older brother danny#sam is one protective gal. this scene went differently in my head. way differently. but alas. i am not complaining.#sam: if bruce wayne abandoned my best friend i'm gonna physically transform myself into a dragon and incinerate him. how dare he.#bruce and damian got to watch in real time as a random girl who knows danny suddenly realizes he's related to them. which is comical to me#because she suddenly goes from being disinterested but weirded out by damian. to suddenly looking at bruce like she's gonna kill him#which is very funny to me bc from their pov at first its like this random girl just speedran hating bruce. and then her parents bring up he#friend danny and then she calls him danyal. and suddenly its starting to click into place like 'oh fuck wait we may just have a lead on --#-- finding danyal and his whereabouts.' especially after sam's mom mentions the scar on his face. like wow. what a crazy ten minutes.#not seen but def happened: sam gets her phone out to go text danny in the corner. she's not gonna bring up the bruce thing yet. she needs#a pick me up. related note: danny and tucker know she's gone to some gala thing with her parents but not to a wayne gala. if danny had know#he may have told her that he was related to damian wayne. just to prepare her for that. not so sure on the writing in this one folks#but i also dont wanna go through and edit anything its like half past one in the morning and i also dont wanna wait until morning to post#when i can just do it now. and get instant serotonin. i thought of this scene in various ways. like sam calling damian 'danny' out of shock#and then quickly correcting herself. and then excusing herself very quickly. or her mentioning that damian resembles her friend danny a lot#so she was just thrown off by him. because i def think that could happen if sam has no reason to think that she needs to hide danny from th#waynes. i also thought about her parents mentioning that damian resembles danny a little bit. only for one of them to go 'oh no no couldn't#- be. how insulting to damian since the daniel they know has this horrid scar on his face.' and then go from there. either way i thought#a scene like this would be fun. get to also kinda explore how danny looks like from his friends' povs. of which he is#'our lovable jerk who is an ex-cult member and whom we will maim someone over.'#not a scene that was added but i wanted to: sam mentioning in parenthesis that she and tucker think danny was part of a cult prior to the#fentons. and that sometimes danny will say something alarming and sam and tucker will stare at him until he frowns and goes#âthat... isn't normal. is it?â and tucker will clap his shoulder and cheerfully go âno buddy. no it isn'tâ bc i think the idea is funny.#sam is so focused on the idea that bruce abandoned/ignored/was unaware of danny's existence that she momentarily forgot that bruce may have
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small little doodle page for you @niceguyanonymous !!!!!
((I tried my best, I'm not a very good writer, but I hope you like it <33 sorry I didn't put too much detail into this one, I wasn't sure how exactly to interpret it!))
#edgar electric dreams#edgar#electric dreams 1984#electric dreams#my art#ms paint art#I need to draw more of him#he's SO cute#pls send asks to my askbox if you guys want to ask for little doodles of him!!#I'll do more colored stuff later but I struggled a bit with this one xD I need to get better at drafting comics#mini comic#I may not be a fan of magic or suspension of belief.#but I personally think he should be allowed to wag his tail#he deserves it. as a treat#some notes:#yes I did write this myself#I hate poetry I'm so bad at it HEKDBDKDB#also I figured he'd try to write in rhymes!!! since he's been told to use those#he's trying to be as smooth and impressive as possible
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boys cry. real men weep.
#homestuck#hom3stuck#home2t4ck#home24uck#dirk strider#jake english#dirkjake#admin draws#fanart#got the urge at like midnigjt to draw this so i ended up staying up til 2 đ#two for three on drawing jake english just sobbing his eyes out recently. ans youll see the 2nd one tomorrow#jake is just. hes a crybaby to me. the main way i can see him having initiative in a relationship#is needing and seeking out comfort#dirk may think hes not a great person for this but to jake its everything. he soaks up the fact he has someone to hold him#and dirk marvels at the excuse to hold another human being and having someone trust him enough to be an anchor#some extra thoughts. i know i had more when i just drew it so id better start writing tags before shunting posts into drafts
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i was just searching for screens of lilia's house and couldn't help but notice the amount of pearl curtains she owes like girl i know how much time it takes to make i see how you spend those evenings
+ lmao she's petty about the stereotypical image of witches as if her business wasn't the spitting image of the divination witch clichés
+ just a picture of her kitchen because she's cute
#lilia calderu#agatha all along#i feel the pearl curtains is some material for a fluffy fic#i can imagine myself cuddle on her sofa threading some pearls#i have been wondering ; what was she up to during thoses 400yo while trying to shut down her powers#my baby needs comfort#lilia calderu x reader#patti lupone#lilia thirst brought me here#i may or may not write some fics
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i think it is fascinating that the first time we see mulder have sex (in 3) and the first time we see scully have sex (in never again), both of them approach it fundamentally as an act of self-harm.
mulder, wracked with the grief of losing his partner, trying to save this woman he just met as an act of penance, while scully's necklace dangles around his neck.
scully, processing that she does not have much longer to live, feeling terrified and frustrated, once again trying to force herself into doing what society expects of her, as if that will bring the happiness she has been denied.
i just think it's neat.
#i could write a dissertation on how this reflects their characters but... not today#someone who is on the ace spectrum watching anything: getting some serious ace vibes here#this may be swinging a bat at a hornet's nest but i need to speak my truth#but before anyone takes this and makes it into a discourse piece: I HAVE ONLY SEEN UP TO 5x08 OKAY? pls no spoilers#much love <3#txf#the x files#dana scully#fox mulder#<- not using the msr tag here because it feels wrong
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Hi! I hope you feel better soon!
This is a great prompt by @academicblorbo about Hob Gadling being the landlord of the Dead Boys. It has a wonderful fill already by @omgcinnamoncakes but Iâd love to see what you come up with for it!
Alternative prompt from me if that doesnât work for your brain: remember the date between Jenny and Maxine? How about one between Jenny and Esther? Poor Jenny is going to really question her taste in beautiful blonde women đ
Thank you! I saw âlandlordâ and âdecadesâ and blacked out. I love Hob having them as tenants. Maybe even before the modern day meeting in Sandman.
The Sandman/Dead Boy Detectives, 2.4k, G Dream/Hob, pre-slash, alternating/outsider POV, found family, a reunion and revelations etc.
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Hob did not, strictly speaking, have tenants. It was more of a minor haunting. Pun intended.
The small room above the pub and below his flat wasnât worth charging anyone rent for; when he first bought the building he had put a handsome oak desk in there and some bookshelves before wondering who he was possibly keeping up appearances for. Who was he going to take back upstairs that would stop and say, Wait, can I see your office? So heâd left it as more or less an abandoned room.
When he realized a pair of boys were using it as their clubhouse, he didnât do anything at first. He saw them quietly coming and going a couple times, disappearing around the corner of the first landing. Brazen things. He meant to call after them, but the shout had died in his throat. Heâd been young once. He still remembered the need to get away from it all. It was only when he went to check if theyâd been making a mess of the room that he discovered it was still locked.
Heâd crouched down and inspected the latch and found no marks at all. Huh, heâd said, and jiggled it again, and been a little more interested in whatever clever way they were getting into it after they disappeared up his stairs. Then he didnât see them for weeks, and assumed they had gotten bored and stopped.
Until they came back. In the middle of an argument, striding through the pub like they owned it. Hob straightened up as they passed him.
âI cannot believe you broke the mirror.â
âI was in a rush! Itâs not my fault you forgot you needed Arcana Incantatum after we arrived at the church. And found the demon.â
âI hardly forgot, I only made the mistake of assuming you would know to pack it by now.â
Hob raised his eyebrows. The boys disappeared into the back hallway. He followed them as they went upstairs, too preoccupied with their drama to notice Hob. They turned onto the landing, still carrying on. Even as they walked through the door. The locked, closed door.
Hob blinked. Then he drew his keys from his pocket and opened the door. The boys were still inside. One of them was pulling a mirror out of a backpack that was several times too small for it. They didnât even look up, and Hob wondered how he couldnât possibly have put it together earlier. He cleared his throat.
âHello, boys.â That caught their attention. Hob grinned. âSeems weâre neighbours.â
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Edwin abhorred getting involved with the living. He and Charles got along perfectly well on their own. They were a duo. An intrepid pair. Best mates, like Charles often stressed whenever he was about to ask something particularly ridiculous of Edwin. They were solid together. As solid as two ghost boys could be. The living, though, were messy and unpredictable.
Perhaps the most salient fact at present: Charles invariably became attached to them.
âHeâs sad, mate. I can see it in his eyes.â
âYou said those exact words in â94 about a dog. At least ask Hob himself.â
Before you decide to adopt him too.
Hob Gadling, irritatingly, was unobjectionable on every ground Edwin could think of. He had made no imposition upon them. When he found them, he only asked them their business, and then told them he was usually downstairs, or upstairs, if they needed anything they couldnât procure themselves. He had an interest in rare and old books, as it happened. In explaining this, he had also hinted at being far older than his looks would suggest, which vexed Edwin twice over. He knew his curiosity would not be slaked until he talked to Hob, but then he would be the one getting involved with the living, and Charles would hardly let him forget it.
âDo you think heâs really immortal? Mateâs far too calm. Last week I saw him stop a fight downstairs by stepping right between these huge blokes. He just said something and smiled and they backed right off.â Charles lit up. âDo you reckon heâd teach me how to do that? Conflict de-escalation, innit? I could show him some moves with the cricket bat, I bet. Oh, do you think heâs a cricket fan?â
It was obviously a hopeless case, and since the Dead Boy Detectives never took on hopeless cases, there was only one course of action that remained. Edwin had long since disabused himself of the notion he needed to breathe. He had no beating heart, yet when he was startled, he would find himself clutching his chest. Now, he exhaled slowly through his nose in an entirely superfluous sigh of resignation. âWell, Charles, shall we go talk to him?â
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When the millennium came around, Hob found himself celebrating it with his accidental tenants. There was something gloriously satisfying about being able to make a toast to the next one and have it taken seriously. Heâd asked them if they had something better to do - spectral trouble to get into et cetera - and they both looked at him with almost identical put-upon and incredulous expressions.
Hob had a terrible suspicion they thought they were taking care of him as much as he thought he was taking care of them.
Edwin, with his insatiable curiosity and, deep underneath it, something Hob thought he recognized from himself: a sharp animal ferocity and a refusal to go until heâs good and done, natural laws be damned. Charles, still brightly, painfully alive for a ghost - who should be alive still, by all rights, but nothing of this life was fair - who joked to cover up hurt in a way Hob knew too, and glowed any time Hob turned so much as a kind word to him.
He wondered what they saw when they looked at him.
The year ticked over, and technology kept working. Charles grinned innocently and said he could probably possess the telly and break it that way if Hob wanted?
Hobâs heart twinged. He knew they werenât his, not to keep, but it seemed that teenagers didnât change at all over the centuries, even if the boys were only sort of teenagers in the way Hob was only sort of in his thirties. It didnât change that theyâd been punted from the mortal coil before having a chance to grow up, and figure out the kind of men they were, and make their own choices and fuck up and try to be better than their fathers, and everything everyone deserved. Hob had made more than his share of mistakes. They hadnât been given the chance to make nearly any at all.
So they made toasts to the new millennium, to the detective agency, to themselves, all stuck out of time in different ways and refusing to move on for different reasons, and Hob allowed himself to think of Robyn and privately pretend that they were his all the same.
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A week later, Hob was reminded of the other universal traits of teenagers when he mentioned his stranger and both boys began to grill him with terrifying alacrity. Before turning to his dating life, like ravening bloody wolves. When Edwin had asked, in a specifically nineteenth century manner that Hob remembered all too well, if Hob had always been unmarried, heâd nearly put his head in his hands.
âIt can be hard for me to associate with the living too, you know. For obvious reasons.â
Charles had turned to Edwin and hissed âSee? I told you.â
Right in front of him. Nobody had taught them manners.
âManners, Charles,â replied Edwin loftily. âWe will, of course, respect your privacy. A man is entitled to his secrets.â
âYouâll go upstairs and rifle through my personal things, is what youâll do,â said Hob.
Charles coughed to hide his laugh. Edwin flushed and looked away. Hob snorted, and told them about Eleanor and Robyn. Properly. It was a strange relief. Heâd told the story wrong for plausibilityâs sake so many times he had been worried heâd forget the truth of it one day.
They had listened, and been remarkably quiet until Charles piped up and offered to set him up with a âreally fitâ ghost. Hob had roundly shut that down. Woefully, not all explanations were satisfying enough. Charles cornered him again the next morning while he was cleaning the bar.
âNo, mate, I still donât get it.â Hob was about to say he no more wanted to be with someone who couldnât feel pleasure from his touch than someone who would grow old and be taken from him while he stayed the same, when Charles went on, bafflingly, to ask, âWhy donât you meet your mysterious friend more often than once a century?â
Hob sighed. âAdults are often busy, Charles.â Nevermind that he had begun to wonder the same since the eighteenth century. Heâd always just assumed time passed differently for his stranger.
Charles just laughed and perched himself on the bar top. âOoh, low blow. Weâre busy too, you know. Plenty of cases to solve.â
âReally,â said Hob. âYouâre busy. Right now.â
Charles waggled his eyebrows.
âCharles, I am not a case,â said Hob, sternly as possible. âIâm not even a ghost. Heâs not a ghost. No ghosts.â
âWe could investigate. Maybe ghosts are involved. What even is he? Why every hundred years? Is it some sort of Persephone situation?â
Hob bit his lip against shouting I donât know! I donât know anything about him! Instead, he tried to smile, and felt it come out as a wince instead. âHeâs very private.â
Charles scowled. âYeah, obviously. You donât even know his name. He canât be that good of a friend if heâs too busy to see you more than once a century.â
Hob couldnât see the expression on his own face, but he saw Charlesâ shocked reaction well enough. It was so long ago for him, and still Hob knew at once what Charles saw now: that first time you manage to visibly hurt a grown-upâs feelings, people who seemed too old and too stern to actually feel pain, when youâd been going around kicking at them like a new foal, just to stretch your legs.
âSorry,â said Charles, instant regret chasing his surprise. He was a good kid.
âItâs alright,â said Hob. He meant it. He looked down at the shining bartop. His hands were restless with the urge to light a cigarette. He gave in. It wasnât like Charles would be dying of lung cancer any time soon if he decided to follow Hobâs example. âI donât think he would say heâs very good at being a friend either. Truth is, Iâd love to see him more often. But we had an awful fight the last time we met. If he forgives me, Iâll have to ask.â
âMates always make up,â said Charles earnestly. He was such a good kid.
âI suppose they do.â Charles still looked sorry, and Hob clapped him on the shoulder. âHey. Thanks for looking out for me, Charles.â
Charles beamed at him. âAlways. Weâve got your back, me and Edwin.â
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Charles couldnât bloody believe it. Hobâs friend was here. There was nobody else it could be. He and Edwin were watching from a nearby table, pretending to be absorbed in their own conversation. Neither man noticed them. They were too busy looking at each other.
He couldnât imagine spending more than a century apart from Edwin. The way Hob had talked about him and his stranger over the years, it sometimes seemed like they were best mates too, no matter how little they saw each other. He was dead sure thatâs what had Hob looking so gutted when he thought nobody was looking. He had known they would make up, though. Maybe now Hob would be happier.
âCharles, we really ought not eavesdrop,â hissed Edwin. Right as he scooted his chair closer, the cheeky hypocrite. Hob and his friend were talking too quietly to properly hear, their heads bent together. Lots to catch up on, Charles reckoned. A hundred years. He couldnât stop thinking about the number. It seemed impossible. Funny, he couldnât imagine that long away from Edwin, but he could imagine spending that long being best mates. There was nobody heâd rather hide from Death with.
Hobâs face was doing something strange as his long-lost friend talked. Then Hob moved and grasped him by the shoulders, so tight that his knuckles stood out in relief. The man said something in low tones and Hob shook his head, and then pulled him in for a hug. The man stiffened and then relaxed, and his arms came up around Hobâs.
Their cheeks both looked wet.
Charles swallowed and it felt suddenly a little like he was choking. He should look away, only he couldnât.
âThey must be great friends,â said Edwin softly.
âYeah,â he managed to croak. We wonât ever need to have a reunion like this because Iâm never going to lose you, mate. I wonât let them take you. It was stuck behind the phantom lump in his phantom throat. His hand, without him telling it to, reached out and grabbed hold of Edwinâs. Edwin squeezed it hard, and Charles knew he didnât have to make his voice work after all.
Then the man pushed Hob away, but only far enough to grab his face and pull him back again, thumbing over Hobâs cheeks, and beside him, Edwin honest-to-god gasped, and then Charles momentarily forgot how thoughts worked too.
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It happens thus: in the New Inn, just next door to the White Horse, some 639 years after they first met, Hob Gadling and Dream of the Endless share their first kiss. Neither, if they had bothered to think about it, would have intended to have an audience, but itâs a well-known fact that some kisses cannot wait, and theirs was chief among them, being that it had so much to say, and was so very long overdue.
I missed you, it said, and I came back, it said, and Please donât go away from me again, and I could not.
And atop them, like blankets, were laid invisible the daydreams of those who saw them, including two long-dead boys, whose dreams were woven from the fresh and unaccounted-for possibilities of Hob kissing his mysterious stranger. Another man, thought Edwin. His best friend, thought Charles. Dream was the only one who could have heeded this, but he did not, because Hob Gadling was holding him tight and daydreaming loudly of this kiss and more, of this today and tonight and tomorrow, ever greedy and ever easily pleased, and Dream could hear nothing at all over their clamouring and comingled joy; the bright gold daydream between the scant space of their bodies that sounded so much like at last.
#asks#the sandman#dead boy detectives#fic#crossover? fusion? i guess? who is to say! not me!#dreamling#perhaps some notes of chedwin#(a fabulous ship name btw. i may not get cob but i WILL get chedwin)#author wrote this while sick as dog so please excuse errors :')#might put on ao3 later if i have a chance to clean it up and expand on it a little!#my writing#me yesterday: 'i really don't see the appeal of blending both stories beyond doing it for the sake of it'#me today: 'no you don't understand they NEED each other here is my chart of the interpersonal dynamics and a list of all the ways hob can h#accidentally writing the new inn reunion scene i'd always dreamed of oops
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okay so pandora and reggieâs friendship is very special to me but BARTY and pandora is precious.
hear me out:
pandora encouraging barty to ask evan out because she knows that they both like each other.
pandora being there to comfort barty when his dad is being shit (all evan can feel is anger towards bartyâs dad and he is raging somewhere plotting his murder) while pandora is holding him in her arms and singing to him.
evan cutting off contact with pandora when he becomes a death eater to keep her safe and barty continues to meet her in secret to keep her updated on everyoneâs whereabouts because he knows she would do something stupid like become a death eater to keep them all safe.
barty telling pandora that reggie is dead and they both sit there to grieve together, just holding onto each other and sobbing. he brings evan with him next time and itâs they first time theyâve seen each other since to start of the war (only barty couldâve convinced him that she wouldnât be in any more danger by seeing them)
pandora feels evan die in her soul and she just knows itâs happened. the next day when barty shows up, he doesnât have to say anything before she is pulling him into a bone crushing hug.
barty stays at her house to lay low for a while after the war ends because she would die before she lets him go. she names him lunaâs godfather.
both of them can find evan in each other. barty sees the love of his life in her blue eyes and she sees her brother in bartyâs maddening grin.
when barty is free, the first thing he does is go to pandoraâs house. luna answers the door and xen tell him pandora died years ago. that is what sends him fully over the edge.
#pandora rosier#pandora lovegood#marauders#slytherin skittles#barty crouch jr#barty and pandora#they were best friends#fight me#i need a study into their friendship#i may have to write it myself#it is devastating#headcanon#i am so sorry#pain and some more pain
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â± Let Me Worship You â±
â± Kinktober Day 4 âą Charlie Mayhew âą Waxplay/ass eating â±
Warnings: Blasphemy galore(obviously), sex in a church, wax play, ass eating (M receiving), face fucking, cum eating, reader gets fucked with a candle(not burning), pet names(kitty/angel), church girl reader, choking, hair pulling 18+MDNI
You never expected to find yourself in this position. Completely naked atop the altar of your church's chapel while your priest stands above you with a burning candle. Youâre still not even quite sure how you ended up here. It all happened so fast. One minute you were looking up at Father Mayhew asking him about some of the murders you had seen on the churches website and then next thing you knew his hands and tongue were on every inch of exposed skin of your body that they could reach. And when that became not enough he shed you of your clothes. You pressed your naked body against his hardly covered one, the lace of the cream robe he adorned rubbed against your hard nipples and soft skin as you got lost in a messy, heated kisses only to be cut off abruptly by him bending you over the altar with your hands pinned above your head. He leaned over you and rutted against your ass with his cock that was only covered by the thin jock strap and framed perfectly by the assless chaps covering his muscular legs. He bit down on your shoulder hard before calling you a desperate little sinner that needed to be punished, then manhandled you onto the altar on your back and instructed you not to move unless he gives you permission.
âWeek after week you come to service in these tiny little dresses and each and every time I have to punish myself for the way I grip my cock when I think about you afterwards. I think itâs time I give you a little punishment of your own.â Father Mayhew tips the candle gripped in his thick ringed hand just enough for another drop of hot, white, wax to drip down onto your skin, joining the other droplets he bestowed upon your flesh moments ago. Your breath hitches at the heat of it and your back instinctively arches off the altar underneath you as your toes curl. âLook at you, the perfect sin.â
Charlie lets another drop of wax fall onto your stomach before slowly walking around the altar like a predator that caught its prey. The fingers of his free hand gently glide along your legs until he stops at the opposite side of you and it grips onto your upper thigh roughly. His eyes are burning embers as he glowers down at you with a sickly satisfied smile before tipping the burning candle directly above your boob and onto your nipple. It lands with a light sizzle that has your eyes rolling back from the pain. He gives the other boob the same attention and then takes your tit in his hand so he can roughly smear the drying wax along your supple skin. He glides the candle so itâs hanging over your face, the hot wax moments away from dripping over your lips.
âI could drip this down into your eyes or down your throat if I felt like it and youâd let me, wouldnât you?â Father Mayhew chuckles lightly and darts his tongue out to wet his lips. âYouâre so obedient, you follow me around this church like an eager little kitten after milk and think I wonât notice the damn near starving look in your eyes when you look at me.â He tilts the candle to the point that thereâs a drop of wax barely hanging onto the tip of it, dangerously close to dripping down onto your cheek but at the last second he jerks it through the air quickly enough that it lands on the top of your mound instead. Before you can fully process whatâs happening you feel another burst of hot liquid dripping directly on top of your pussy, just barely missing your throbbing clit.
âOh, fuck!â You gasp in surprise as you watch him tip the candle nearly upside down allowing the melted wax that had gathered there to fall down onto your pelvis in a stream. The hot liquid burns your skin in the most delicious way as it drips down the side of your hips and the crevices of your thighs, just barely missing your clit and puffy, dripping folds as it slowly starts to cool and stick to your skin. Charlie doesnât stop until the final drop of remaining hot wax drips onto your clit and snuffs out the candle. The burning heat is an agonizing pleasure that only grows stronger as the wax cools and tightens around your sensitive bud.
âPerfection.â The devilish glint in the holy manâs eyes as he devours you with them is sin in itself. Charlie grips onto your thigh and presses your knee flat against the clothed table, exposing you entirely to him. His free hand glides the still warm tip of the candle down your other thigh, up your stomach and across your tits, almost like he is connecting the dots of the droplets he left on your body.
âLike god handcrafted you, just for me.â He flips the candle so the side with the wick is cupped in his hand before bringing it to your chin, circling your lips and using the cool wax end to pull your bottom lip from between your teeth. Charlie runs the candle across your lips, smearing the spit that had gathered there and you take it upon yourself to dart your tongue out and taste the dry wax. His eyes widen, the flames from the candles still lit around you flickering off his irises as a low groan leaves the back of his throat at your actions. âSuck on it.â
You wrap your lips around it and swirl your tongue while you hold eye contact with the man youâve lusted after week after week as you watch him deliver sermons in a way youâve never seen before. He shoves it further in your mouth until it hits the back of your throat and you gag. âThatâs it, little kitty, get it nice and wet for me.â
After a few moments of practically fucking your throat with the candle causing the taste of wax to coat your mouth Father Mayhew pulls it from your lips, brings the slickness of it between your legs and caresses your folds with it. You mewl when he glides it up and uses it to push the now dry wax on your clit away before tapping it against your throbbing bud. Your hips try to raise off the altar but the hand on your thigh holds you in place. He circles it around before sliding it back through your dripping pussy lips, effectively coating it in your creamy wetness. He teases your entrance with the tip and you try to tilt your hips again to press it further inside you but he pulls it away with a deep chuckle.
âBeg me. Beg me to put it inside you.â He circles your clit before caressing every inch around your pussy, but never pressing inside you. The hand on your thigh glides down to push the dried wax at the apex of your thighs away as he grins down at you with a carnal look in his brown eyes.
âPlease, fuck me, Father. Any way you please, Iâm yours.â Your voice is desperate and exasperated in a way youâve never heard but you donât even care because youâll do anything for him to continue to defile you. Charlieâs lips crack into smirk and his eyes fill with elation as he brings the candle to your dripping hole and thrusts it inside you. âShit, yes! Thank you, thank you.â
âSeeing you this way, fully exposed to me, begging for me to defile you, it makes me question if carnal desire is a sin, or just God's greatest gift.â His voice is husky as he starts to pump the white wax in and out of your pussy, your wetness allowing it to glide with ease. Charlie tilts his wrist so somehow itâs hitting your sweet spot just right and brings his thumb to your clit and youâre so sensitive and worked up that itâs all it takes to have delicious euphoria wracking over you. âOh, thatâs a good girl, come for me, angel.â
He fucks you through your orgasm before holding eye contact with you as he pulls the candle from your pussy and brings it to his lips, sucking your sweet nector off of it with a growl that viberates his chest. Father Mayhew comes around so he can replace the candle he just tainted with your cum back into the holder above your head, some sort of sick satisfaction at knowing heâll be the only one that knows what happened here during tomorrow's service running through him.
You tilt your head back to follow his movements and you canât help but dart your tongue out and lick his asscheek when he bends over causing it to peek out from beneath his robe. Heâs just so beautiful. Every inch of him. From his meticulously styled hair, his dark eyes that always hold a purpose, those plush lips that speak knowledge that you admire, his thick throat and even the bleeding wounds you caught a glimpse of on his back all the way down to his perfect ass. Charlie jolts forward at the feeling of your warm tongue on him and his head whips around so he can look down at you with an eyebrow raised. You push yourself up on your elbows so you can tilt your head further and caress the black strap cupping his ass with your tongue. A breathy moan leaves him and he twists the upper half of his body enough to grip your chin with his hand, but he leaves his lower half facing you.
âWhat are you doing, angel?â Charlie uses his grip on your face to gently shake your head from side to side as he looks down at you greedily. âSomeone as sweet as you wouldnât want to do something as nasty as youâre implying, would you?â The question is laced with desire and filled with temptation that you canât resist.
âLet me eat you, Father.â You run your tongue along the crease of his hand with a moan and he has no idea how he will ever atone for this. But lord forgive him because thereâs no way in hell he can turn down anything you say at this point. âLet me worship you.â You wrap your forearms around his muscular, chap covered thighs so you can pull him closer to you and nip at the skin of his exposed ass. He groans and pulls the lace robe from his body then lets his hands fall to the table on either side of your head and bends slightly, giving himself to you. You lick along the black straps cupping of both his cheeks, slipping your tongue underneath the material with every few flicks of it. Then you lick up his ass, and greedily lick and suck on his smooth but still muscular skin until itâs covered in darkening red bruises and dripping with your spit.
âOh, angel, Iâm going to need you to stop teasing me or Iâm going to have to take away your privileges.â His voice is domineering and oozing with finality so you use one of the arms wrapped around his thigh as leverage to pull your face closer to him while spreading his ass with your other hand so you can lean up and run your tongue through his crack. You graze past his hole a few times as your tongue glides through the crevice between his supple cheeks, wetting him there too. You finally circle his tight hole with your wet, hot, tongue before pressing the tip of it inside him. âJesus Christ, your mouth is sin and heaven wrapped in one.â
Father Mayhewâs back arches and his grip on the altar is so tight you feel the cloth underneath you shift as you start to fuck his ass with your tongue. You rim his hole and run your tongue down the crevice of his plump cheeks between thrusts of your tongue. You press it as deep as you physically and flick your tongue inside him. He feels like heâs going to lose his mind at the way youâre eating him like itâs the last thing youâll ever do. The lewd sounds leaving your lips driving him closer and closer to madness by the second. He undoes the chaps and lets them fall down his legs so he can take his thick, throbbing cock into his hand and jerk himself off while you continue your feast on his ass. You reach your hand further around so you can caress his balls and you can feel them tighten in your grasp.
âFuck, youâre fucking disgusting, kitty. I knew you were a little pervert.â Charlieâs voice is deep and raspy and he starts to thrust into his hand while he grinds his ass down on your face and it has him dangerously close to the edge. But he canât come yet, not like this, not without seeing your heavenly body spread out before him. He flips over abruptly, his hands coming back down on either side of your head as his now messy hair hangs down in his eyes and he smiles down at you damn near wickedly. âI need to fuck your pretty throat, open your mouth.â
âMake me your cock sleeve, Charlie.â The crass words coming out of your mouth while you look up at him from the altar with that pretty little cross hanging between your perfect tits that are covered in wax by his hand is the most beautiful thing heâs ever seen. That combined with the fact that you just called him his first name is almost enough to make him burst on the spot. He watches as your tongue slides from your mouth and you look up at him eagerly like his cock is a gift heâs bestowing upon you. In your mind it is, youâd forget there was a god and devote yourself to Father Mayhew if he asked. You already belonged to him, but now he owns you. He laces his fingers through the trellis of your hair before using his grip to yank your head back and slide his cock across your tongue all in one motion. You wrap your lips around his shaft and it causes him to slam all the way in the back of your throat, making you gag. He pulls all the way out of you, watching the string of glimmering spit that drips from his cock and onto your chest, reveling in the borderline insane smile painted on your pretty lips. And youâre so fucking perfect every ounce of pain he feels after for this will be worth it. You flick your tongue out to lick his head and he takes that as a sign to slam back into your mouth and start thrusting deep into your throat.
âThatâs it, give yourself to me, let me use you.â Father Mayhew grunts and grabs onto both sides of your head for leverage as he brutally assaults your throat with his thick cock. Your eyes roll back and muffled moans leave your lips at the feeling of giving him control. âOpen your eyes.â He taps your cheek and your eyes dart open and he smiles manically at the sight of your watery, mascara run eyes looking up at him. âKeep them open, and touch yourself for me. Spread your legs nice and wide, so I can see.â
You oblige him, all shame long gone as you let your knees fall flat against the altar so you can gather your wetness and rub it across your eager clit.
âGood kitty.â His thrusts resume causing you to gag and drool around him. He canât keep his eyes off the way he can see his cock sliding down your throat with each pump of his hips. Charlie runs his large hand down your neck, feeling himself inside you before squeezing your throat tightly. âLook at that, you really are my perfect little cock sleeve, arenât you? Iâm going to come down this gorgeous throat and youâre going to swallow every.â Thrust. âSingle.â Thrust. âDrop.â On that last word he presses his hips flush against your face as his cock twitches in your throat and the taste of his cum floods your senses. You press your fingers inside your pussy and use the pad of your hand to run circles on your clit and white hot pleasure washes through you as you fall over the edge right along with him. He comes so much that it starts to drip down your cheeks when he pulls his cock from your mouth and you have to audibly gulp to swallow the rest of it. Father Mayhew tilts his body so heâs leaning on the altar next to you and leans down to lick the cum from the side of your mouth before connecting your lips in a filthy, bruising, kiss.
âYouâre my new favorite sin, angel, and Iâm never letting you out of my grasp now.â You arenât sure if itâs a threat or a promise, but you donât really care if itâs going to feel this disgustingly good.
Tagging fellow Maywhores(shout out @cxrrodedcoffin for coining that phrase): @babygorewhore @fear-is-truth @chavezprincess @cameronsprincess
#some of you may notice that I switched kinktober day 4 to this and I have my reasons#the top one being I needed to write about this slutty priest immediately#charlie mayhew#charlie mayhew x reader#charlie mayhew smut#charlie mayhew x y/n#Charlie Mayhew x you#grotesquerie#nicholas alexander chavez#nicholas chavez#divider by me
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every time you read a g/t story where the tiny faints repeatedly and youâre like âno one could possibly faint this muchâ, think of me, your local tiny who has a disability that involves fainting often. i personally love the representation of a person who drops like a sack of potatoes at the slightest inconvenience. like realistically if i ever met a giant i wouldnât flirt or run or scream, iâd blink up at them and then hit the ground like
#g/t#POTS girlies RISE UP. BUT SLOWLY SO WE DONT BLACK OUT#i havent had an actual fainting episode in a minute#usually its just presyncope#one time i âfaintedâ in the sense that i couldnt move see or hear but i was awake and could feel#and ykno that would fucking rule for some gt fearplay actually hold on#like being unable to see the giant or hear them but you FEEL them looming over you. picking you up. carrying you away#oghogohoâŠâŠi may need 2 write that
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*sigh* thoughts on Nintendo's botw/totk timeline shenanigans and tomfoolery?
tbh. my maybe-unpopular opinion is that the timeline is only important when a game's place on the timeline seriously informs the way their narrative progresses. the problem is that before botw we almost NEVER got games where it didn't matter. it matters for skyward sword because it's the beginning, and it matters for tp/ww/alttp (and their respective sequels) because the choices the hero of time makes explicitly inform the narrative of those games in one way or another. it matters which timeline we're in for those games because these cycles we're seeing are close enough to oot's cycle that they're still feeling the effects of his choices. botw, however, takes place at minimum 10 thousand years after oot, so its place on the timeline actually functionally means nothing. botw is completely divorced from the hero of time & his story, so what he does is a nonissue in the context of botw link and zelda's story. thus, which timeline botw happens in is a nonissue. honestly I kind of liked the idea that it happened in all of them. i think there's a cool idea of inevitability that can be played with there. but the point is that the timeline exists to enhance and fill in the lore of games that need it, and botw/totk don't really need it because the devs finally realized they could make a game without the hero of time in it.
#i really do have a love-hate relationship with this timeline#because it's FASCINATING lore. genuinely. and i think it carries over the themes of certain games REALLY well#but i also think it's indicative of a trend in loz's writing that has REALLY annoyed me for a long time#which is this intense need to cling to oot#and on a certain level i get it. that was your most successful game probably ever. and it was an AMAZING game.#and i think there's definitely some corporate profit maximization tied up in this too--oot was an insane commercial success therefore you'r#not allowed to make new games we need you to just remake oot forever and ever#and that really annoys me because it makes certain games feel disjointed at best and barely-coherent at worst.#i think the best zelda games on the market are the ones where the devs were allowed to really push what they were working with#oot. majora. botw. hell i'd even put minish cap in there#these are games that don't quite follow what was the standard zelda gameplay at their time of release. they were experimental in some way#whether that be with graphics or puzzle mechanics or open-world or the gameplay premise in its entirety. there's something NEW there#and because the devs of those games were given that level of freedom the gameplay really enforces the narrative. everything feels complete#and designed to work together. as opposed to gameplay that feels disjointed or fights against story beats. you know??#so I think that the willingness to allow botw and totk to exist independently from the timeline is good at the very least from a developmen#standpoint because it implies a willingness to. stop making shitty oot remakes and let developers do something interesting.#and yes i do very much fear that the next 20 years of zelda will be shitty BOTW remakes now#in which botw link appears and undergoes the most insane character assassination youve ever seen in your life#but im trying to be optimistic here. if botw/totk can exist outside the timeline then we may no longer be stuck in the remake death loop#and i'm taking eow as a good sign (so far) that we're out of the death loop!! because that game looks NOTHING like botw or oot.#fingers crossed!!#anyway sorry for the game dev rant but tldr timeline good except when it's bad#asks#zelda analysis
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anyone else obsessed with the recurring theme in TTPD about how in each instance with the three notable muses referenced, they each made a show in their own way of stepping up to Be Someone for her, only to completely cut and run (whether physically or emotionally or both).
The first love who laid on the charm offensive, "I'm not an organ donor but I'd give you my heart if you needed it," sweeping her up in this great big first serious adult love, inspiring all of the dreams that go with it, making her feel like This Is It and the actions undertaken as a result. But then bailing at the first sign of inconvenience, leaving her distrusting of her own feelings and instincts.
The longtime partner with whom she built a foundation against all odds, the one with whom (or perhaps rather for whom) she meticulously placed those stars on the ceiling. The one who at one point painted dreamscapes on the wall and sparked her darkest nights, the one who chose her mess and said there was nothing that could stop them, the one she believed in so completely she crafted a whole life around, but then accused her of abandoning the ship when he had long since metaphorically and physically left the house on the Heath.
And then of course the final boss level, the infatuation from hell who saw all this and said "I can be the one that none of the others were" and insinuated himself into her life and her consciousness until it felt real, only to vanish after the ploy did its damage.
(Of course, it's all contrasted by a fourth party with whom the trust and dreams come freely and solidly.)
It's just a fascinating study in how patterns keep repeating themselves, not only in a person's choice of partners but in people's behaviours in general. And how so much of the album is not just about specific situations but also globally about the pitfalls of relationships and dynamics and how we choose to believe. TTPD album that you are.
#it's the 'you said i needed a brave man then proceeded to play him until i believed it too'#because it may be about one person -- whoever -- but the reality is that shades of it have happened every time#i was listening to the black dog the other day and like... whoever it's about#i was like 'you know that has shades of Jake because of the strong come ons'#'and even john because again that is prime gaslighting: saying you need someone mature who will Get You only to drop you#when that very thing is why things don't work out the way they want'#it's just like about the way in which men treat women in society even in the most 'evolved' contexts idk#it's some sociological shit don't mind me#the tortured poets department#writing letters addressed to the fire
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against all odds (to wait for you is all i can do) â part ten
alexia putellas x photojournalist!reader
warnings: none (im pretty sure)
(a/n in the tags) [parts: one, two, three, four, five, six, seven, eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve]
word count: 5.8k
The melodic chirping of birds in time with the gentle beat of Alexiaâs heart roused you, your back delightfully warm, and for what seemed to be a long time you felt well-restedâfelt as if the leaded weight that made its home in your bones finally melted away because, truly, youâd forgotten the lightness of being one felt upon waking from a nightâs sleep or, even more so, the lightness one felt when waking in the sheltering arms of a lover. So you sighed, content and at peace, as you breathed Alexia in when you nestled further into the safety of her neck where faint wintergreen and her delicate, earthly scent lived, familiar and evermore comforting.Â
When you finally drew your eyes open, the world came to focus and revealed, in its center, Alexia already awake, her head propped on her arm with her honey eyes, just like molten gold in the resplendent glow of the morning sun, lidded as she gazed at you with a lazy smile, soft and relaxed but it ignited you with a gentle flame all the same, whose radiance only intensified upon meeting your eyes.Â
âGood morning.â Alexia greeted you and it struck you just how much you missed the sound of her voice in the morning, low and soft with just the right amount of rasp that never failed to incite the desire to kiss her right then.
âGood morning.â You replied in the same tone, cheeks warming to a gentle simmer in the face of your loverâs tender demeanour. She brushed the back of her fingers on your cheek while a silence filled the space between your eyes, intimate, as you soaked each other in. But when you could no longer sustain the weight from her gazeâwhen you chest had filled twice over that it felt in danger of bursting from the sheer joy of being looked upon by such earnest affectionâyou whispered, âyouâre staring.â
Alexia tucked your hair behind your ear before she countered in a voice so tender your heart ached.
âAnd youâre beautiful.â
No words could translate the gravity of what you felt in that moment, so you spoke the only language that could ever come close to conveying it: you cupped her jaw and caught her lips between yours, seared the missed âgood morningâsâ and the lost âhello, how are youâsâ into the kiss, the pace languid but sweet, savouring the way her lips parted in this silent conversationârelishing the way Alexia tasted like summer on your tongue.
Alexia tugged you closer, and closer still but still not close enough, with a gentle pressure from her hand against the small of your back, the other now over the nape of your neck.
But the conversation was cut short, too short, when a small gasp reached your ear, electrifying you in an unpleasant way your eyes flung wide open, darting immediately to the direction of the sound to find Elisa standing at the last step of the stairs, her hair ruffled from sleep, her loose shirt creased and draped slightly to the side, mouth wide open in disbelief as she gawked at the sight of the two of you.
And what a sight the two of you must have been.Â
In your haste to extricate yourself from Alexia, you ended up flopping down against the tiled floor, the carpet doing little to cushion your fall, but you recovered quickly and now you stood there not quite knowing what to do with your arms or what to even say. Alexia, on the other hand, remained half on her back and half sitting up, her weight against an elbow, the other arm frozen outstretched towards you, a clear attempt to save you from when you fell down. If the situation had been different, you probably wouldâve laughed especially at Alexiaâs expression: her face contorted in part mortification and part worry, brows upturned, eyes agape, and lips partially openedâif only you werenât too flustered yourself to do so.Â
Alexia got her bearing faster than you, thoughâdamn her and her athletic conditionâbecause she, too, now stood from the couch (and did so with a lot more grace than you did). She cleared her throat, fumbled with her hands as it looked like she tried to stick her hands in her jacket pockets before it dawned on her that it remained still on the coffee table, so she resorted in putting them in her jean pockets instead.Â
âGood morning, Elisa. How are you?â Alexia said in English and her voice wavered at the end, the question infused with a guilty inflection.Â
With bated breath, you waited for your daughterâs reaction as trepidation filled you, which only worsened when Elisaâs eyes darted at you, then to Alexia, then back to you again. Numerous scenarios fleeted through your mind and out of all the images your mind conjured, what happened next was not one them: you didnât expect the way with which Elisaâs surprise morphed into smug delight, her once opened mouth now curved into a coy smile, not dissimilar to a catâs, that only served to accentuate the mischievous gleam in her eyes.
âAre you guys dating?â Each word deliberately drawled out as Elisa posed them, punctuated by a teasing cadence that set your ears and cheeks aflame. The question, thankfully, brought you back to yourself because only you could save you and Alexia from this situation.Â
âOkay, I think I need to have a conversation with you so up you go, young lady, back to your room for now.â You said as you approached Elisa who you guided towards the stairs with a gentle hand on her back but not before you placed a good morning kiss on the crown of her head. Elisa whined, but she heeded your words nonetheless, although she did sneak a wave and a cheeky thumbs up to Alexia on the way up, leaving you with an amused smile on your lips at her antics as you thought fondly, shaking your head, âOh my god, this child.âÂ
When Elisa was finally out of sight and you heard her bedroom door shut, you let out the breath you were holding. That really could have been a disaster, and when you looked over your shoulder, you found the same thought written in Alexiaâs face. You dragged your feet back to where Alexia stood who, as soon as you got close enough, was quick to pull you back into her gentle arms. With your cheek pressed against her collarbone, her arms loose around your waist, and her chin resting on your head, you were grounded back to the moment, your muscles relaxing as apprehension began to leave you.Â
âThat was mortifying.â
Alexia let out an airy laugh, the remnant of her nervousness still apparent. âI know. At least we didnât do it last night.â
âAlexia,â you groaned as your cheeks burnt anew, âplease, donâtâI donât even want to imagine that right now.â
Melodic laughter filled your ears again before it tapered off which, once again, left you two blanketed in the subtle refrain of the waking world and the warmth of the sunlight that streamed through the window. You didnât know which of you moved first but in the next moment, you found the both of you swaying to a gentle rhythm as you held each other.Â
âSo, what now?â Alexia asked, breaking the silence.
âI⊠I donât know.â You answered truthfully. Sure, the both of you agreed to take everything slow, but where to even start? When intimacy and familiarity were already there, strong and incessant in their pull, how could torn lovers begin to mend the fragmentsâto keep everything tentative and slow? Where should the lines be drawn, the boundaries set, when a profound desire that transcended physical affection already made its home in your heart, a yearning that constantly craved for not only Alexiaâs company but also her thoughts? Because with Alexia, you wantedâand would alwaysâwant more.
âI think, for now, I need to talk to Elisa about thisâabout us.â Sighing, you continued, âwhat do I even tell her?â
âWell, she seems to approve.â At that, the both of you chuckled, then Alexia spoke again, serious but her tone remained light when she did. âTell her whatever youâre comfortable with. Slow, remember? No labels for now, itâs just you and me.â
She placed a kiss against your ear and you hummed, nuzzling her neck in gratitude.
Another pause.Â
âI think I should go.âÂ
Hard as you tried, you couldnât hide your disappointment at what Alexia just said even though it was probably the best thing to do right now. There were much you needed to talk to Elisa about alone: her nightmares and her therapy, and now this. The only thing that eased your heart was the fact that Alexia seemed as reluctant to go, too, with the way her hold on you tightened and you responded to her touch by falling further into her, clutching the fabric of her shirt in an attempt to let her know youâd rather she stayed.
âI know. Me, too,â Alexia sighed seeming to understand what you were feeling as she kissed your temple. âHow about this? If you and Elisa are feeling up for it, I could take you some place tomorrow? I did tell you before that Iâd show you around.â
At the reminder, the memory fleeted through your mind and a sense of melancholy filled you but you swallowed it down before it could take root. Then you hummed in agreement, âIâll ask Elisa about it. Whatâs on for you today?â
âApart from waiting until tomorrow comes?â Alexia joked which made you giggle. âIâll probably visit La Masia, check with Josep for next weekâs schedule, then head home or visit MamĂĄ and the family.â Â
âThat sounds fun.â You said as you began to kiss her, knowing that your time together for the day would end any second now. As you punctuated each word with a kiss, you continued, âalright, I should let you go now, then.â
The rumble from Alexiaâs chuckle radiated beneath your palm on her chest as she whined, âyouâre making it really difficult to leave.â
âOkay, okay, Iâll stop now,â you giggled and just as you began to pull away, Alexia cradled the nape of your neck and sealed your lips together again for a deeper kiss. Then she pulled away but not before dragging down your lower lip with her thumb as she untwined herself from you and gave you a look that made you burn all over.
âCall me later?â
You nodded.
Alexia grabbed her leather jacket, gave you a smile and one last peck on your cheek, before she strode out of the door.Â
The feeling of loss that arrived upon her departure did not go unnoticed by you but before it could settle in your heart, you made your way to Elisaâs bedroom. As soon as you entered though, Elisa shot you a question without any preamble, practically buzzing in her excitement.Â
âMom, why didnât you tell me youâre dating Alexia?âÂ
Your cheeks burnt at Elisaâs bluntness.
âBefore we get to that, ladybug, I need to talk with you about something first.â You said as you set yourself down next to her on the bed. Elisa regarded you with a look that said she already knew what you were going to talk with her about. You wrapped an arm around her and squeezed her shoulder. âIâm worried about your nightmares and your therapy. Do you think we need to switch to a different therapist?â
Elisa gnawed on her lower lip before she spoke in a soft voice. âI like my current one. Sheâs cool and she makes it easy for me to talk about what happened. But I can take more sessions if you want me to.â
âDo you think you need more sessions?â You looked at Elisa pointedly, emphasising the fact that the choice was hers to make. âAll I want is whatâs best for you and your wellbeing, Elisa. Iâm not trying to make you do anything, especially if you know yourself you donât need them, but I also canât just stand by and watch so Iâm just here to tell you that there are options. If you need more sessions, we can do it. If you want to change therapists, weâll both find you a new one. As long as itâs going to help you get through this, we can do it.âÂ
âIâm not sure⊠Can Iââ You caught her eye again and you raised your brows at her chosen word, and you watched as Elisa nodded, understanding what you meant, before she began again, âI will talk to my therapist about it and see if I do.âÂ
You beamed at her, proud as you squeezed her shoulder again. She smiled back.
âSo, what do you think is causing this spike in nightmares?âÂ
âI⊠I donât know. I think Iâm just nervous? Also, maybe too excited?â Then Elisa added with a small laugh, âor both? I donât really know.â
âAbout what, ladybug?â
âGoing back to the Academy.â
At this information, you couldnât help but frown, confused. âIs something happening in the Academy?â
Concern must have been too apparent in your tone because Elisa quickly looked at you and said as she waved her hands in reassurance, âitâs nothing bad, Mom, donât worry! Itâs just, Coach told us there are scouts coming some time around the end of the year and Iâm⊠I really want to play for Barça, Mom.â
You understood her apprehension but her answer didnât tell you why her shoulders looked like theyâd taken on an invisible weight again with the way her spine curved inwards, almost dejected.Â
âThatâs a really big opportunity, ladybug, so I understand that pressure is there for you to perform your best. Is it the pressure thatâs making you think about what happened?â
Elisa shrugged, quirking her lips to the side in an unsure manner. A moment later though, she nodded and admitted in a small voice. âI just donât want to let them down. I donât want to let you down.â
âElisa,â you took her hand in yours. âNever, never. If your parents were here, they would tell you how proud they are of how far youâve come already. Youâre so strong, ladybug, and you donât even know how much. And if you happen to fall down, weâll be here to support you until youâre ready to stand back up again. Just know that whatever happens, you will always be enough. Always, Elisa. â
Elisa leant her head against your shoulder then she turned her head and gazed at you with wide eyes. âYou really think I can make it?âÂ
âI believe in you, ladybug. Do you?â You pinched her arm playfully which earned you a giggle from her. When she looked back up at you and you saw the determined gleam in her eye, the worry in you was put to rest.Â
âYes.âÂ
At that, you couldnât help the warmth that surged through you and you hugged her. âThere you go. Iâm so proud of you, ladybug.âÂ
After a moment of silence, Elisa asked in a teasing tone, âso⊠Alexia, huh, Mom?âÂ
Your cheeks warmed. âWhat about her?âÂ
âAre you together?â
âItâs⊠complicated right now, ladybug. Weâre working on it.â
âWas that why you always looked sad whenever we talked about her? Before now?â You raised your brows in surprise. Youâd always tried your hardest to school your features whenever Alexia was brought up because you didnât want Elisa to worry but you didnât think that you were that transparent.Â
âDid I really?â
âYeah. I donât know how to explain it but whenever you tried to smile, it didnât quite reach your eyes.â
âOh.â Pause. âI⊠I didnât know. Iâm sorry.â
Elisa shook her head. âThereâs nothing to be sorry for, Mom. And itâs different now. Now you look happy.â
âI am.â You admitted with a small smile. âHow⊠how do you feel about us, though?â
âIâm happy that youâre happy, Mom. Itâs going to take awhile to get used to the Alexia Putellas being around but Iâll be fine. And as long as she treats you well, Iâm alright.â
Your chest expanded at her words. âThank you, ladybug, that⊠that means a lot.â
Elisa hugged you then and you hugged her back.Â
âSpeaking of, Alexia offered to take us around the city tomorrow. What do you say?â
At that, Elisa practically jumped up, unable to control her excitement and you laughed.Â
True to her words, Alexia pulled up in her car the next day a couple of hours before noon. Alexia looked comfy in her white sneakers, ankle length socks, shorts, an oversized t-shirt, and a baseball cap, and upon opening the door for her, she took you in her arms and kissed you. Her eagerness amused you and you laughed against her lips but you tangled your fingers in her hair to deepen the kiss anyway.Â
âI missed you.â Alexia spoke between kisses.
âItâs only been a day,â you smiled into the kiss, charmed. âAnd I missed you, too.â
Time slipped you as you lost yourself in Alexiaâs arms and lips, and you didnât know how long the both of you were there by the open door, but it was apparently long enough that Elisa needed to interrupt you two. A terse cough made you pull away and, turning to look at Elisa who was standing just beneath the archway that lead to the living room, offered your daughter an apologetic smile. Elisa only stood there with her arms crossed, clearly unimpressed with the way her brows were creased.Â
âHola, Elisa.â Alexia said with a shy wave which drew your attention back to her and you bit your lip at the state of her face. You reached out to wipe away the faint smudge of your lipstick on the corner of her lips and, upon realising what youâd done, Alexia quirked her brows up as she smiled at you, sheepish.Â
âHi, Alexia.â A pause. âWait, should I be calling you Aunt Alexia now?âÂ
Alexia opened her mouth then closed it, seeming to be completely disarmed by the question. And when she looked at you with plea in her wide eyes asking you silently how she should answer it, you knew just how much the question definitely caught her off guard.
âUh, if you want to.â Her words lilted with so much uncertainty it sounded more like a question than a statement.Â
Then Elisa grinned at the both of you, practically beaming. âIâm just messing with you, Alexia.âÂ
She then continued to skip between you two, bounding through the door and down the porch stairs, and you held your laughter in as Alexia looked after her with a bewildered gaze, mouth agape. Once Elisa got to where Alexiaâs car was parked, she started to wave the two of you over.Â
âSheâs⊠sheâs very funny.â Alexia laughed nervously, eyes still fixed at Elisa. Then she whispered conspiratorially, pointing to Elisa for good measure. âAre you sure sheâs the same kid I met at the Olympics?â
âYes.â You chuckled as you locked the door and began descending down the stairs. âSheâs only like this when she feels comfortable around people. So, do you know what that means?â
Alexia shook her head.
You smiled at her, cupping her cheek before you pressed a light kiss on the other. âIt means she likes you.âÂ
At that, Alexia smiled back at you with lightness in her eyes before she grabbed your hand, intertwined her fingers with yours, and kissed the back of it. And the gesture warmed you more than Barcelonaâs summer sun ever could.
Then, once the three of you were in Alexiaâs car, you asked, âso, what do you have planned for us today?â
Alexia adjusted her rearview mirror to look at Elisa at the back seat, smiling. âFirst of, whoâs hungry?â
After a deliciousâand a quite scenicâbrunch at a restaurant located by one of Barcelonaâs waterfronts, the three of you took a short walk down a nearby landing connected to the port. By this time, the sun had already reached its peak, and with the vacant sky and the high tide, the view was one someone would expect to have come out of a film; the blue tinge of both the heavens and the sea was so vivid that you knew your camera would have trouble capturing the essence of it. Image after image, you captured your surroundings and as the three of you walked on, rolls of film were exposed to the light of Elisa and Alexia, and these images, you knew, you would cherish forever.Â
At one point during the walk, Alexia asked you to teach her how to work your camera, and so you did. With Elisa between you looking over at the sea, you guided Alexiaâs fingers over the camera and taught her how to hold it properly, before you told her about the rest. As soon as she got it, she slung your camera around her neck and immediately started taking photos of you and Elisa. You laughed when she held the camera at armâs length in an attempt to take a selfie of the three of you, adjusting it as best as she could to get the right angle before she set the timer. You told her as all of you returned to her car that youâd send her the fruit of her labour the moment you developed the negatives.Â
About half an hour later after hitting the road again, the three of you ended up at the second stop for the day: Camp Nouâs Barça storeâmuch to Elisaâs delight. When Alexia parked the car at a less crowded spot and began to take her seatbelt off, you fixed Alexia with a reluctant gaze, speaking in Spanish so Elisa wouldnât understand.
âIs it really wise for you to just march in the store? Youâre the Alexia Putellas, after all, thereâs no way no one would notice.âÂ
In response, Alexia held a finger up to indicate you should wait and shifted so she could grab the hoodie that was hanging over the back of her seat. She put it on, zipped it up and pulled the hood down over her cap, then she put on a face mask and her sunglasses, her light brown hair spilling out to frame her face.
âVoila!â Alexia waved her open hands. âWhat do you think?âÂ
You looked her up and down. All of her tattoos were covered but even with her attire and her face concealed, you could still recognise herâmaybe you could chalk that up to you intimate familiarity with Alexiaâs being but still. So you said as you schooled your features, your voice monotonous. âWow. You really look like a whole new person.â Â
Alexia threw her head back, laughing. Then, âweâll treat it as an experiment and see if they will.â
âThatâs very modest of you,â you countered, tone still dry.Â
âThank you,â she retorted in a saccharine tone while she flipped her hair over her shoulder, and that, in turn, made you laugh.Â
So then it was decided that you and Elisa would also wear face masks as all of you went on ahead in your quest to infiltrateâas per Alexiaâs wordsâthe store. Much to your surprise, Alexiaâs disguise worked although she did draw some unwarranted glances, ranging from suspicion to pure amusement, due to the nature of her getup. And to your chagrin, once the three of you got back to the car with your bags of merch, Alexia smirked at you, smugness all too evident in the curve of her lips.Â
After that, Alexia took all of you for a drive up a mountainside with the windows rolled down that let the fresh, summer breeze rush inside. With the wind in her hair, she began to sing along with you and Elisa to the music playing on the radio, nodding her head to the beat of the music. At the end of the ascent, Alexia parked the car at your third stop, which turned out to be the Tibidabo Amusement Park.
You knew this place was pretty high up, but the moment you stepped out of the car, even from the parking lot, the view hit you: it was incredible. The city of Barcelona stretched out far into the distance, expansive and seemingly never-ending, and you could just see the strip of blue that bordered the ports, and the colours of the cityâs structures were made ever-vibrant by the radiance of the sun. The view pulled you towards the edge of the parking lot, where you put the viewfinder to your eye to capture it.
âThe view is stunning, isnât it?â Came Alexiaâs voice from beside you.
âYeahâŠâ you said, breathless, dragging you eyes from the cityscape to Alexia and as you did the remainder of your breath was completely taken away, cheeks warming when you found Alexia gazing at you, her smile as tender as her eyes, while her loose brown hair fluttered to the breeze which added to the softness of her demeanour. The urge to kiss her then became too much so before you fall into temptation, you closed the distance and simply rested your head against her strong shoulder, an arm around Elisaâs shoulder when she stepped into the space beside you.
Soon, you began a short trek upwards to get to the entrance, and if the view from the parking lot took your breath away, it was nothing compared to what you found at the top: from the regal immensity of the structure of the Temple of the Sacred Heart of Jesus that greeted you, to the Torre de las Aguas de Dos RĂos that stood proud just behind the Temple, to the perspective that overlooked the other side of Barcelona. After another round of picture-taking, the three of you finally entered the park.
The day went by as the three of you amused yourselves with the park's attractions. And since you'd all forgone wearing masks, Alexia was, as expected, recognised by people and was stopped more than a handful of times for photos and signatures during different points of your excursion. And you watched with Elisa on the sidelines, appreciating the way Alexia interacted with her supporters, and smiled at her with encouragement and reassurance whenever she looked at you two with an apologetic gleam in her eyes.
By the time the three of you left the park, the sun had begun to set.
It was another drive around the mountain side that lead you to the last stop for the day: Mirador dâHorta. Alexia parked the car in such a way that the trunk faced the cliffside before she urged the two of you to step out and you gasped.Â
Youâd seen some magnificent scenes today, but this one was definitely your favorite.
There you stood, taking in the way the lights of the city burned like embers embedded in the earth. There was something about witnessing the city at night that never failed to make you feel connected, elevated, when you see the million tangible proofs of existence: under each light was a person, a familyâloversâall in their own worlds at their corner of this world you shared with them. And in your corner, in the opened trunk of Alexiaâs car, was your world right beside you, and there was nowhere else youâd rather be. The three of you sat there in silence, Elisa in the middle of you and Alexia gazing over the city lights.
It wasnât long until the day finally took its toll on Elisa, and she ended up settling her head on your lap and dozing off into slumber. You smiled down at her, brushing back her hair behind her ear as you watched her breathe deeply, feeling relieved when you noticed the peaceful smile on her lips.
âSo her battery does run out. Sometimes, I forget just how much energy kids have.â The pure awe in Alexiaâs voice made you let out a quiet laugh.
âIt has its way of catching you off guard.â You shook your head fondly before you met Alexiaâs eyes and teased, âI canât believe she tired you out; arenât you supposed to be the athletic one?â
âHey! Iâm only human; thank you very much. And whatâs a thirty-year-old compared to a twelve-year-old?" Alexia raised an eyebrow in challenge.
âTouchĂ©. Ah, to feel young and full of energy again.â
Alexia cringed before she laughed out. âPlease, stop. Youâre making me feel old.â
âIâm making us feel old.â
The both of you chuckled, then took a momentary pause. You turned to Alexia and asked, "Did you run your parents ragged as a kid?â
The inner corners of her brows liftedâit was subtle, but you were familiar enough with the intricacies of her demeanour that you caught itâexposing more of her eyes, which looked pensive in the dim light, her lips pressed in a melancholic line before she smiled, wistful.
âOh, yeah, but Iâd like to think I wasnât a menace. Itâs justâyou know, when you get so focused on something that you forget the time?"
You nodded. She continued.
âWhen I was much younger, there were times I was so intent on winning that Iâd forget about dinner. So, one of them would look for me around the streets or the square. But after I got into Sabadell, my energy finally found the right outlet, and most days Iâd gone home tired. PapĂĄââ Alexia bit her lip, her eyes glazing over for a moment as she receded somewhereâa tender memoryâthen she shook her head. You watched the way her throat moved as she swallowed before she continued, voice raspy and quiet, âHe, uh, heâd always exclaim, âSheâs finally tamed!â whenever Iâd slump down on the couch after a practice. It was ridiculous, but it never failed to cheer me up.â
You grabbed her hand and squeezed it, expressing silent gratitude for the memory she imparted, as you smiled at the image of young Alexia with red cheeks in a sweat-soaked shirt, hair matted to her face, being chased and dragged back home to have dinner.
âNo, I canât imagine you being a menace. Mischievous, yes, and probably hot-headed, but never a menace.â
She laughed, winking at you. âYeah, hot-headed is probably what people who knew me then would say about me. And I canât imagine you being a menace, either.â
You raised your brow at her, smiling slyly. âAre you sure about that?â
Alexia opened her mouth as if to reassert her claim, but you saw the way her confidence wavered as she regarded you. Then she closed her mouth, now looking more unsure.
âWait, are you being serious right now?â
You allowed her confusion to linger for another moment before you finally broke your character. âNo, I wasnât a menace, but you really shouldâve seen the look on your face.â
Alexia squinted at you and muttered just loud enough for you to hear, her tone dry. âAre you sure about that?â
âHey!â You yelled quietly, giving her shoulder a playful nudge but being careful not to accidentally jostle Elisa awake before you took her hand again. You intertwined your fingers together and pressed a kiss on the back of her hand, meeting her eyes. Then you took a moment to soak her in.
âThank you, Alexia, for today. You donât know how much this means to Elisa... how it means to me.â
Alexia squeezed your hand, smiling softly.
âIâm glad you both enjoyed it.â Alexia squeezed your hand as she regarded Elisa with a soft eye. Then a sincere smile lingered on her lips as she caught your gaze and said, âI think I needed something like today more than I realised. It feels good to be spending time with you again.â
Warmth bloomed in your chest, clearly understanding what Alexia meant.
âI know the feeling,â you whispered. And I missed you, too.â
With her other hand, Alexia reached out over the space between you and brushed her thumb over your cheek, tucking a strand of loose hair behind your ear as she smiled at you with her eyes and her lips. With the city lights behind her, the soft glow of the car light bathing her features in its golden glow, and the summer breeze playing with the soft strands of her hair, Alexia looked so tenderly human, the embodiment of warmth and all that the word entailed, gentle and, oh, so soft.
The two of you sat in silence, just soaking each other in, until a ping from Alexiaâs phone interrupted the moment. Alexia looked down, read it, and then locked the screen with a sigh. When she met your eyes, hers were apologetic. You smiled in understanding.
âTime to go?â
âYes.â Alexia sighed as she stood up and tucked her phone back into her pocket. âIt was Josep. He reminded me I have a full day tomorrow.â
You nodded. You gently roused Elisa, watched her drag her feet to the back seat, and nearly chuckled when she fell right back to sleep after putting her seatbelt on and closing the door. You turned to Alexia, and as soon as she closed the trunk, you cradled her jaws in your hands and pulled her down for a kiss. Immediately, Alexia wrapped her arms around your waist, pulling you closer to her.
âI wanted to do that all day.â You whispered against her lips.
Alexia gasped when you nipped at her lower lip before she buried her fingers in your hair, deepening the kiss. âYou have no idea.â
On the way back to Derek's house, Alexia kept one hand on your thigh. And with the radio playing softly as the car passed under a tunnel with lights overhead, it felt like you were in a movie.
After Elisa had gone back inside the house after thanking Alexia for the day and bidding her farewell for the night, you kissed Alexiaâs cheek in gratitude. Then her lips.
With her forehead resting against yours, she whispered, âIâll see you Tuesday?â
âYeah.â You brushed your nose against hers before you kissed her again. You began to pull away. âHave fun tomorrow.â
âI will. Iââ Alexiaâs cheeks flushed before she smiled. âBye, for now.â
Later, when you were in bed about to go to sleep, you received a message from Alexia. She sent you a link to a tweet containing a photoset that contained pictures of the three of you but mostly pictures of a hooded Alexia taken from a distance by the photosâ grainy quality, captioned, 'Alexia, what are you doing????â followed by a string of laughing emojis.
At that, you couldnât help but laugh. Her disguise was ridiculous in person, but captured like this, you thought it was a work of pure comedy.Â
You messaged her back, 'I guess you do have reason to be modest after all.â
#ap11#not proofread#mine#my writing#a/n:#this was meant to be longer but i decided to split it into (or else this wouldve been like 10k long or something lol)#sorry for not updating last week id been in pain for the last 2 weeks so it was hard to concentrate#not to mention i got hit by a writer's block so i needed to just take a step back lol#anyway i just need to tie up some loose ends in the next part and then against all odds will be finished in two weeks time đ„Č#also i apologise for any style inconsistency#i may or may not have been rereading frankenstein while going through some parts of this lol#will fix any grammar/spelling/prose mistakes later#woso x reader#alexia putellas x reader
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MHA didn't create some miracle way of helping others. It was never promised to be this way. And when it came to villains...
Spoilers for manga all the way to chapter 423.
The only way to get anything in life in MHA was to be born "normal" like everyone else and that way of thinking never left Izuku with Toga getting the same treatment she did before from everyone from her family to her "normal" classmates. It was Ochako who helped Toga even if just a little by lifting the weight of all the feelings that Toga had.
She couldn't save Toga the way one could save a civilian by saving them from harm. If it worked that way Dabi would've saved Toga even before Ochako could apologize for failing to notice Toga. She was so lazer focused on saving everyone else, that she was just another villain to stop, not a human.
Even if by the end of it Ochako helped Toga to deal with her grief, acceptance as it was wasn't something possible when a quirk makes you want to drink someone's blood from jealousy.
We got a bittersweet ending with Toga, in which she probably died from blood loss just like her double did in MVA. If it wasn't for Twice she would've died back then.
Giving away her blood for Ochako wasn't a redemption or a way to save Toga in the end, more as it was her being true to herself until the very end.
Just like Twice chose to stay with the League even if Hawks offered him a way to survive that battle. He refused and died protecting his friends who accepted him instead of choosing to betray them and accept Hawks' offer.
After Twice's death... It was a matter of time that more 'active' LoV members would join him as well. As sad as it is, we now can return to Izuku.
Who, after his time OFA-AFO quirk space, now wanted to help a "crying boy" he saw in Tenko just as before with Katsuki in chapter 1. He didn't forgive Tomura and didn't excuse the way he chose to solve his problems.
It didn't mean that Tomura would survive in their battle, even if Izuku didn't see killing others as a way to solve problems. He didn't understand Tomura, but he still wanted to try, and try he did.
The rest of this post was nothing more than a contextual prologue to understand that it's not the first time a hero failed to save a villain and in Twice's case we know that he died and his death was the reason Toga started thinking about her own possible death and Dabi finally revealed himself as Toya.
The goal of saving a "crying boy" never was an end-goal for Izuku in the Final arc, since helping Tomura deal with his feelings just left him hollow with a goal that clashed with Izuku's. As being a hero for villains meant destroying the world for them to help them live freely.
But that was before AFO resurfaced.
Sadly after that Tomura who was talking about making his own choices for a while now stopped doing that. Even if he still had a goal of helping villains and only villains, Tomura was almost gone. And his goals were now unreachable.
Izuku helped Nana who in turn kept Tomura from fading away entirely. In MHA there were countless situations where Izuku's help affected people by helping a different person to keep hope, All-Might being the first one and Nana being the last one at the moment.
Hollow after Izuku helped him to get rid of his hatred Tomura could do the only thing he did - accept the situation as it was.
Accepting AFO as his Sensei, accepting Stain's ideals and Overhaul's deal was the way he solved his problems. Just like Izuku had a problem of understanding something outside of his norm, Tomura was accepting too many things, which lead to his downfall after accepting AFO's quirk.
Just like Twice could've given up everything that he had for his friends so did Tomura.
With Izuku helping as much as he could let Tomura to finally rest as he wasn't really living ever since waking up in the hospital. With his body now affected by AFO's wishes instead of his own until the end.
In a way Izuku didn't succeed in his wish for Tomura to stop ever since PLF war arc. As he "kept fighting to destroy" no matter how hard Izuku tried to stop him.
The only thing he succeeded in was changing Tomura's mind about himself, instead of viewing himself as a monster he accepted that he was a human just like Izuku said. A "crying boy" who couldn't really destroy Izuku's hands in the end.
For a group of Villains who weren't supposed to get profiles of their own at the start of the series, League is slowly fading as the most memorable group that there was in MHA, getting backstories, their own Villain themed arc all the while being as human as anyone else.
As sad as their story is they were not "unlucky", they didn't need a happy false ending where they would need to change to be normal - they chose to live this way and they lived it to it's fullest.
#bnha#bnha manga spoilers#bnha analysis#league of villains#shigaraki tomura#tenko shimura#toga himiko#mha twice#midoriya izuku#ochako uraraka#todoroki touya#dabi#spinner#shuichi iguchi#not art#While writing this I've been rewriting it time and time again#But by the end of it I just started crying because god... I didn't want them to end like this#Also I finally found the tracks that connect to the scene of Twice's death#Which may or may not have been a reason I started crying#Anyway the reason I wrote this was as simple as that - I read Twitter got sad and needed some way to cope#Because I'm getting sick from all 'oh they'll survive' yes HEROES might survive all of this VILLAINS would not#Magne died Twice died wnd Kurogiri literally became a cloud in the sky#I do hope that Spinner would be at least alive because leaving Mr. Compress alone with no sushi too is just too cruel#While writing this I suddenly found myself so frustrated with Izuku that my last tries to write this ended in a trashcan instead#it's so fucked up#To be a LoV stan and see how Class 1-A is getting the best ending they can with so much hope while LoV is... Dead :(#this is a mess
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okay but sarah celebrating tommy every year for motherâs day
#who needs a mommy when you got a tommy#the first time shes does this its preschool teacher mariaâs idea#shes four and mothers day is coming up and its usually a hard time for her so joel lets maria know just in case she has any behavioral issue#miss maria is like đ«Ą i gotchu#she makes sure to emphasize to the kids that families are all different#they spend every day of may leading up to mother day reading books exploring diversity in families and talking about what mom really means#that it doesnt have to be the person who had you in their tummy or a girl or even a person we call mom#for example miss mariaâs real mommy wasnt so nice growing up so miss marias TRUE mommy is just her daddy and her auntie rose#because those are the people that loved her no matter what and kept her safe and taken care of and fed#thats all mom is#it just means someone thats there for you every day and loves you and cares for you#someone who is one of your favorite people and who would say the same about you#all the kids go around and say who they think are their moms#mosy say some iteration of âmommyâ and âmamaâ or âgrammyâ#but then baby ellie says âtess and auntie marleneâ#and baby sarah says âuncle thommyâ#one of the other littles says âdaddy and miss mariaâ đ#and they all make heart cards for their mommy firgures#they cant write or really read anything but a few letters yet#(even though hyperlexic baby sarah does have pretty incredible letter recognition for her age)#so they tell miss maria what to write on their cards and then decorate with oil pastels#sarahâs says dear uncle tommy thank you for being my mommy you are so funny and i love when we play horsey and princesses. happy mommy day#when he picks her up at the end of the day shes like HI MOMMMMM all giggly and hes like ????? hi???? whats this???? OPEN IT OPEN IT OPEN IT#and when he does and read it he literally drops to his knees to hug her and cry#because theres really nothing more precious than his little angel his baby his best girl#thats tommys DAUGHTER DO YALL UNDERSTAND??????#miss maria watching them from the cubbies like: godDAMN theyre so cute#the next day tommy brings her a oat milk chai from her favorite coffee shop as a thank you because it meant a lot to him and shes like ????#how did u know???? and hes like my brother and you ran into each other there last week yeah? he told me abt it i asked for your order#and shes like đ„čđ„°đ« thanks
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stacy is sooo interesting because she's in love with house but knows that they will never ever be able to have a healthy, stable, sane relationship because they're too similar so. she finds house-lite instead and marries him and. essentially moves on with her life! and is successful in this because she's a moderately well-adjusted person!
wilson, in contrast, never manages to escape the inevitable, in spite of his best efforts to find a house-lite of his very own, because he's an absolute fucking freak and ends up glued to house to the bitter. bitter end
#yeah im too sleepy to revise this. UNFILTERED posting wooahh#some may b shocked but i do actually read thru most of my posts several times to make sure i didnt accidentally write mein kampfe 2#recently ive come to the realization that i am in fact not an incredibly chill person#and that the constant paranoia and fear in which i live my life is actually PROBABLY a symptom of severe anxiety#like damn. ive always known that im pretty prone to depression but ive preetty much always been aware of that#my mom is a chronic depressive so i know the symptoms i know the signs i have a pretty good arsenal of healthy coping mechanisms#UNFORTUNATELY mommy's mental health problems did not help her not abuse me as a child#so i ended up being a terribly anxious kid who was constantly being screamed at and told i was overreacting (because i was. because i had#a severe anxiety problem that was making me react irrationally.) to everything all the time#which is you know. it is VERY difficult to deal with a mental health problem when you arent aware you have a problem!#its incredible how much. better. my life has gotten since i figured this out and started actively trying to work out what triggers it#and being able to like. realize 'oookay. there is an Issue here and it needs to be overcome'#instead of just beating on myself constantly for not being able to do things without feeling sick or getting breathing problems!#anyways. trauma dumping in tags is over now!#house md#hilson#greg house#james wilson#stacy warner
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