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iamsonyeondone · 6 years ago

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heir!svt // lee seokmin

♥ fluffy and angst if you look at it under a microscope

♥ 1.5k words

the one word everyone associates with lee dokyeom: sunshine

this boy radiates like the actual fking sun and his smile oh gOd even the emos who wallow in the darkness cant surpress their happiness when they see him

he just has that amazing friendly aura that makes people's day happier

it's mainly because his family runs a high-tech farm where they cultivate fresh and high-quality produce

one of their important devices was a speaker

because hOo boi who knew strawberries liked to listen to Troublemaker iconic

and who ever visits their farm during a school trip or for picking fruits, may or may not have the chance to listen to the Prince sing to the blueberries

and its just the most wholesome sight ever

even though theres like weird equipment whirring and pumping in filtered water or something

you'll see this shining handsome boy, singing his favourite ballad while he checked on the equipment

and sometimes when it does a sudden weird noise, it shocks him so much that he does a typical slapstick comedy and slips onto his butt

but he brushes it off with a smile and little cute dance when he gets up

anD he is just. so. adorable

so everyone literally fawns over him everytime he passes by with that radiating smile

and the girls just swoon even more whil his hyungs want to make sure no o n e messes with him or they'll have to face them

since his family produces such top-notch quality fruits and vegetablez

they naturally get sponsored or help their fellow chefs and friends

and one of them is your father!!

your father runs this one michelin star restaurant by the sea and serves mostly seafood

but their dessert is as good as their secret special home-brewed eel soup i just made that up idk i want sushi

which your mother is in charge of!!

and their both friends of seokmin's parents so naturally, the both of you know each other

sometimes a little too much

"lee seokMIN stop telling the raspberries that i fell in front of the entire school or I'll tell them about how you fell into the toilet"

"thAT WAS ONE TIME"

yeah so the both of you are really close friends but its not surprising since seokmin is like a friend to everyone

and everyone knows that you're a part of seokmin's protection squad which jeonghan leads

"make sure everyone claps for him at the farm when he's done singing, got it?"

"aYe aYe cAptAin,"

so naturally you're always there for him

walking to class, walking back home together and eating lunch with him and your mutual friends

its not only because you're there to protect him but he's just such an amazing and nice guy to have around and his voice is like warm milk on a sleepless night and also because he looks amazing with that smile-

ok maybe you dont just see him as a friend,,, and probably mayhaps more

but who could blame you when an actual embodiment of rainbows and everything good in this world is your best friend

im very weak for this baby can you tell

everytime he saves your ass from embarrassing yourself bY embarrassing himself

or when he makes sure you've eaten all your three meals everyday and stays hydrated

yea he's a bit of a nagging mother but you reciprocate the care in return by ensuring that he's doing so well in choir and that everyone loves him for trying his very best in the extra curricular

like you even have to force him to spill your feelings towards you

because you KNOW this guy tenfs to surpress and bottle up his feelings and that is not healthy at all

talk to your friend/family if you're bottling it up too ❤

and seokmin makes sure he treats you with fresh berries from his garden whenever you come over

and you guys sometimes talk about everything and anything under the stars while snacking on those fruits and snacks your parents prepared for you and him when you drop by

and its all so pure and warm and being next to seokmin always has this welcoming aura that you never really sense with anyone else

not even when you have those crushes in your first few years of high school

and that was when you realize that you saw him more than just a best friend

on the other hand, seokmin has always admired you for your personality and how you're so caring to nearly everyone and especially him

oh my how his heart races whenever you look at him with those worried look in your eyes

or the way your voice turns so soft and calming to his ears when he's feeling down

wow look at this its the pining pals sorry for ending soft hours it will come back shortly

the both of you were walking to school, the usual routine:

you guys are sipping on your favourite drink, talking about the recent school rumors

and everything's normal,,, like nothing has changed

but it feels different some how

did your feelings for him grow too much?? did you no longer see him as your best friend?? or did you want to be more than just friends?

and you notice that seokmin doesnt have his arm around you like always

his absence of not clinging around you in the autumn breeze made it more chilling

and,, you just want him to hug you, even if it was a half-hearted side hug

but did your feelings get the best of you? does he know that you have feelings for him and is that one of the reasons for him being distant??

you werent ultimately sure but your last thought keeps lingering in your mind, taking attention away from the fact that you and seokmin had reached your class

"i guess we'll see each other at lunch! take care and focus in class alright?" he chuckled, ruffling your hair a little before jogging through the halls

what made his heart race wasnt his quick steps but the way you had looked towards him so innocently, that adorable look on your face being hard to wipe away from his mind

he had tried his best to keep a space between you, hoping that maybe the space would give him some time to think

but it was no use, his crush on you only grew

and he only thought about you for the rest of his classes

"yn, seokmin needed to clarify some things with his teacher so he'll be a little late to lunch. he asked me to forward the message, take care alright?" jeonghan smiles sweetly before he waves you goodbye to sit with joshua and seongcheol

was this another way for him to get rid of you in some way? no you shouldnt get ahead of yourself,, he's only being a hardworking student,, right?

ten minutes pass and seokmin rushes to your table with an apologetic look

"im so sorry yn, i wont be able to stay for lunch because i need to help some of the juniors from choir to find their costumes. but i brought some of the fruits from the farm for you to enjoy!! eat up okay? see you after school!"

and thats all you heard from him for the rest of the day

and once school had ended, he had given another hurried excuse that he had to attend a group project meeting and asked you to meet him at his farm instead

the both of you did hang our there quite often, but you werent sure if seokmin would even show up at this rate

but the little pinch of hope you had left made you walk straight to his farm

maybe,,, just maybe,, you were just overreacting

you sat by the bench outside the strawberry tent, nibbling on a bowl of berries his mother had given you for snacks

a few minutes pass and a figure comes running towards you

disheveled in his school uniform and,,, a bouquet?? in his hands??

seokmin huffs, stopping right in front of you while he clutched the bouquet to his chest gently

"i needed to stop by your parent's restaurant for a while,,, for this,"

and he shows you a bouquet of a variety of fruits, cut and scalped into flowers like an actual bouquet

and when your eyes trail back to his, and despite the panting and running he had done the second before,

he looked far more radiating than before

his eyes sparkled and his lips wouldnt budge from the wide grin it had plastered on his face

and it was all because he was looking at you

"i needed to make sure that your dad didn't mind me dating his child," he chuckled, taking your hand in his with so much care that it made you seem fragile

"so will you go out with me yn? your dad says its a-okay and that-"

you cut him off with a peck on his lips, eliciting unstoppable giggles from your lips as you hugged him tight

"you should have just given me the fruits as it is but you just had to go the extra mile,"

"anything for you, yn,"

a/n: i dont know why this took me so long to finish like i waited a whole week just to finish the ending in 10 minutes :| im an idiot but i hope you guys have a nice day/night ♥

#kpop #svt #imagine #scenario #fanfiction #writing #fanfic #seventeen #bulletpoint #lee seokmin #lee dokyeom #seokmin #dk #dokyeom #vocal unit #vu

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pure-o-soft · 6 years ago

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hi im feeling really bad about myself because i just rememberer when i was what like 11 or 12 maybe 13 i had a dog who had 2 liters of puppies before hand and bc of that her nipples were like rlly weird n long and i remembered when i used to rub her belly id touch them and be like “ha squish soft weird” (nothing sexual at all and it wasnt harming her of course) but looking back i feel like i dont deserve my dog now? i love her more than anything and i feel like i dont deserve to live? (1)

and i told my mother this and she’s like “it literally wasnt sexual at all? and no its not like assaulting a real child. shes a dog. and no i know what sexual assault against animals is and thats not it?” And i just cant believe her for some reason? Its like everything i didnt think twice ab before bc shes a dog like masterbating with her on the bed or changing in front of her or petting her while she licks herself clean after she goes to the bathroom is all coming back at me and im like (2)

-i’m like freaking out over it that im a bad doggy parent and i know im not my dog loves me i never intentionally harm her but im just scared that i did something unforgivable and people would me and that i hurt my dog and now i dont even wanna touch her or look at her bc i feel guilty and i just need some reassurance from you or just from confessing that im not bad? do i sound like a danger to you? I swear im not. (3)

and like i remember doing it in front of my mom right to see if she would say stop or im doing something wrong bc i think even at that age i didnt know? i dont think she said to stop but maybe she did and i was just like psh im not hurting her its a doggy too. Bc she wasnt bothered by it a d it wasnt sexual i was just a stupid ass child and i can tell myself i didnt know any better but what if she DID tell me to stop so technically i DID know better? my mom thinks im overreacting but fuck man

and also i just cant stop thinking ab all the bad things i may have done that are maybe bad or not. how do i even let go of that. its in my head non stop. i cant say i never hurt anyone bc what if i did? what if im an animal abuser? what if i hurt my dog? what if im a bad person? how do i even go on with life knowing i may be a bad person. i dont wanna be alive if im a sicko or i hurt someone or could in the future.

Hi there!

I can tell this is bringing you a lot of grief. I can’t imagine how hard it must be to have these thoughts and fears about someone you love so much! Obsessions can really become consuming and make it hard to think of anything else! I know that this fear and guilt can really put a wedge between you and the things that you love, but you can get your peace of mind back and feel comfortable with your doggie again!

It is important to mention that where obsessions are concerned, even though it may not feel like it now, it’s never the theme that is the problem. Meaning it’s not the fear that you may have hurt your dog, it’s the process of obsessing and doing compulsions. Compulsions can often times be hard to spot, and even seem meaningless at the time. But they are a silent killer! Reassurance seeking, confessing, checking and avoidance are all mental compulsions (and all behaviours that you mentioned doing or seeking above). Doing these things is a response to the anxiety you’re feeling, but it actually continues the cycle of obsessing and makes anxiety worse. It’s how people can get stuck in a constant pattern of obsessing, and not know how to stop or where they’re going wrong! I know that being in the anxiety can be so unbearable and uncomfortable, but often times the best thing to do is to sit in it! Compulsions validate the intrusive and obsessive thoughts, so when you don’t do them, you tell those thoughts that you aren’t giving them the time of day and that they aren’t important! Of course, stopping compulsions are easier said than done. This is where getting help from a professional and coping mechanisms can come in! I think it would really be worth your time to talk to a doctor or a mental health professional about what you’re experiencing (mention not just the content of your thoughts but how these thoughts are effecting you and your daily life and mental health).

From an outsiders perspective, like your mom, your actions and worries will seem very strange and irrational. Which is because these thoughts are irrational!

I’ll offer a coping mechanism that will hopefully help you for the time being (but remember that it would still be best to talk to someone about what’s going on). Whenever you get a thought like “what if I did something inappropriate with my dog” or any variation of that, you can respond as sarcastically as you can! Something like “ya suuuure, Sharon. Whatever you say.” I know this can seem weird, and even feel it when you’re doing it, but this can help to make your thoughts feel less serious and frightening.

I hope this helps, and please know that you can get through this!

#asks #anons #animals

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mook-pooltable · 7 years ago

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Spaz Henry AU

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: au where henry is joeyish but still the protaginist

unhealthily talkative skittle:he's completely reckless

entirely

he would want to see what would happen if he ran towards the monster instead of away from it

to see if he could scare the monster

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds-:he licks the record when he finds it

and tries to use norman as a jungle gym

bendy; kills norman in front of bendy

henry, waving both arms to catch bendy's attention; HIIIIII

literally every other henry; why are you like this

Halfus: hdjdddks

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: once he tried to draw bendy in a flame design hawaiian shirt

yknow like the kind guy fieri wears

unhealthily talkative skittle: oh god

Lili: He still drinks all the soup that's the same

unhealthily talkative skittle: he drinks ink instead

regrets it instantly

tries to drink thinner

to get rid of the taste

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: jeufebeh

Lili: Drinks ink again to counter that

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: he tried to dive headfirst into one of the flooded hallways

Halfus: He smashes all of Sammys instruments and axes his way to his sanctuary(edited)

Lili: He breaks the axe faster than in canon because he just swings it at everything

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: y es

he just keeps getting axes

unhealthily talkative skittle: yeah

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: from who knows where

unhealthily talkative skittle: out of nowhere

Lili: The organ groans at him and he smashes it

Halfus: Mango

He wanted to dive into the one where Inky appears at the end of 2

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: y es

Halfus: and he ends up on Demons head

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: ironically enough, he DOESN'T immediately smash up bertram

he tries to play on him instead

Halfus: free ride

Lili: He tries to play with Bendy like he's a cat

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: yes

Lili: He thinks Bendy is adorable

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: laser pointer and all

when THIS henry is high on paint fumes, he's comically serious and does a batman voice

unhealthily talkative skittle: yeah

"WHERE'S THE BLACKSMITH"

that is

the oldest joke

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: yes exactly

Lili; YES THAT'S HIM

unhealthily talkative skittle: but he would say something similar

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: (he was the blacksmith all along)

unhealthily talkative skittle: “WHERE'S THE JANITOR"

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: ncjsndi

unhealthily talkative skittle: “CLEAN THIS SHIT UP"

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: y e s

this henry is just

unhealthily talkative skittle: the worst

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: if markiplier was the protagonist of batim

Rosie: He's a spaz-case.

He would have markiplier's voice and (mostly) his personality.

Lili: XD he's the best I love him

Now the real question is: What's Joey like in this AU?

Rosie: Stone-faced serious.

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: batman serious

Lili: (Rosie you better document this for Mook-Pool)

Rosie: Feck, what's the name of that steel faced guy from Fantastic 4?

He would be like him.

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds:he refuses to swear ever and is a ridiculous dork when caught off guard

Lili: What's his motivation

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: the first thing that comes to mind for this dynamic is henry as deadpool and joey as cable

Rosie: OMG YES

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: joey's motivation would be to revolutionize the animation industry

Lili: Oh my god

But... Murder

unhealthily talkative skittle: ohhhhhh god

oh god

oh fucking god

henry as deadpool

fuck

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: henry is obviously less killhappy

but still as reckless

unhealthily talkative skittle: since he can't die

Rosie: Joey would be the pefectionist guy who has power to control metal (I think that was his power) with the metal mask. The one who's the arch enemy of the fantastic 4.

Why the fork can't I remember his name?!

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: magneto?

no doctor doom

Rosie: THAT"S THE ONE

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: magneto is against the xmen

Rosie: Joey is frigging doctor doom.

Henry is Squirrel Girl

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: jdjxjsndn

Rosie: He's a masculine Squirrel girl

Squirrel girl is canonically the most powerful and undefeated hero Marvel ever created. Henry is the guy version of her

Lili: I don't know where this is going anymore

Also what the fuck

Rosie: She's defeated Doctor Doom with Squirrels.

unhealthily talkative skittle: the joeyest henry

Lili: THAT'S HIM

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: its himmm

LiliL I LOVE THIS AU

Rosie: http://marvel.com/universe/Squirrel_Girl#axzz5GMqiHWGt

Lili: Okay what happens when he meets Alice

unhealthily talkative skittle: he calls her pretty

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: he flirts with her

unhealthily talkative skittle: all women are queens

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: he calls alice a thot when she steals boris

unhealthily talkative skittle: “that freakish, misshapen eye is looking lovely today"

[gets smacked]

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: boris is his precious bean and he loves him

Rosie: “If anything happened to him, I would kill everyone in this building and then myself."

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: yes exactly

Halfus: SKITTLE THATS A FUCKING GOOD HENRY

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: how does he react to sammy

unhealthily talkative skittle: I drew it in thirty seconds what are you talking about

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: (also if this joey were to be stuck in a room with all of our other joeys, he would be In Suffering)

Halfus: HES G R E A T

unhealthily talkative skittle: if this hen were in a room with the other hens, they'd be in hell

and same with joeys

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: yes

unhealthily talkative skittle: someone would pick them both up and switch their places

Lili: What do we call this AU

unhealthily talkative skittle: boss swap?

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: Hyper Henry and Serious Joe

Halfus: dick aura swap

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: jdjfnskd

unhealthily talkative skittle: impulsivity

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: I like boss swap

Lili: Boss Swap!Henry and the Lost Ones

unhealthily talkative skittle: for once, he might feel bad

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: the one time hes actually serious for real

unhealthily talkative skittle: he'd try and comfort them

he might be very dadly for a while and gather them for some Wholesome Human Interaction Time

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: yes

hed try to adopt them all

unhealthily talkative skittle: story time with henry

Lili: :) yes

unhealthily talkative skittle: the lost ones would like this happy, giggly man

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: henry; guess im just tough

joey; just yesterday you were crying over the lost ones

henry; THEY DONT HAVE ANY SOOOUUULS

unhealthily talkative skittle: he's actually really soft on the inside tbh

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: hes soft but hyper

hes still henry after all

unhealthily talkative skittle: yeah

Halfus: my joey would be super into that henry like oof

Lili: He's just as much a dad as any Henry

Rosie: He's a cross between Markilpier and Squirrel Girl.

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: y es

unhealthily talkative skittle: oh god

Lili:He adopts everyone but aggressively

unhealthily talkative skittle: “I LIKE HIM! HE'S FUN!" - Halfie's Joey

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: yes

Halfus: XDDD

Lili: “I’m your dad now"

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: this henry is the henry of the chair saga

Lili-: Holy shit YES

unhealthily talkative skittle: “I’m your dad now"

"but-"

"what did i just fucking say"

Halfus: c h a i r s

Lili:I love him so much

Rosie: Squirrel Girl may seem silly, but she can actually be very serious at times and she's very intelligent. So is Spaz Henry.

Lili: SKITTLE CAN YOU DRAW MORE OF HIM I LOVE HIM

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: boss swap henry would absolutely play with chairs for actual hours

Rosie: I’M GONNA CALL HIM SPAZ HENRY

unhealthily talkative skittle: I actually can't

i gotta go home

i'll draw him on paper when i'm there tho!!

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: home in saaafe

lfls hen scolding spaz by dragging him around by the ear

Lili: I don't know that acronym

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: like father like son

Lili: Ah okays

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: aka rp henry

hen; you could get yourself killed!

spaz; yolo

Lili: When Spaz sees all the pentagrams he demands to know why he wasn't involved

Why did he leave anyways?

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: he left because he and joey got on an argument and he overreacted

Lili: It was over something small but Hen just escalated the argument beyond reason before shouting "I QUIT" and Joey is just left completely confused

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: y es

Rosie: That, or Joey lost his patience with his flighty friend.

ShouldProbablyStartTakinMeds: or both

#batim #batim au #boss swap au #bendy and the ink machine #Spaz Henry au

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ookamihanta · 7 years ago

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i absolutely in love with bruiseshipping too! And I was wondering why you like them so much? I just love how their character developments involve one another!

//breathes inSorry for any spelling errors. Im writing on mobile.

I’m leaving this TL;DR version here.IM A SUCKER FOR BEST FRIEND TROPES AND STRANGERS/RIVALS/ENEMIES TO LOVERS TROPE.I really, really like the way Cole’s and Jay’s relationship is handled too. Since literally, s2-5ish does many things centered around their “rivalry”.

But before that, they’re best friends. They’re best, friends. Meaning they have a level of trust and companion ship that are a little more than what they have with the rest of the team.

And what i find really damming about the start of their developing friendship in the beginning, is that the show tries to make the whole s3 love triangle thing into their fallout. Into their whole, “ i hate them so much because __ ” kind of thing. (Which is usually a situation that both characters misunderstand and thus leads to drama.)

Many ppl have pointed out before that the s3 love triangle shit actually strengthens the ship and I agree. Jay has the misunderstanding that Cole is trying to date Nya when he’s really not and Cole is simply mad at Jay for assuming so. (This problem is also, pretty much Nya’s fault anyways so uh-)

This leads to a rivalry part of the story as the two “try to win Nya’s heart” when really, it was A) Cole trying to prove Jay is an asshole for assuming Cole would ever want to be with the girl his bEST FRIEND likes and B) Jay trying to prove to Nya, or more likely himself that he is the better suiter for her.

Either way, this goes on for a while. A whole seasons worth, which means we get plenty of scenes where the two display their feelings about each other. When Lloyd goes around trying to get the team together, Jay’s and Cole’s reasoning for not wanting to go back is literally because they do not want to see each other; when in fact it’s later revealed they wanted to apologize to each other sooner.

But ofc, they’re both stubborn af.

So skipping to the scene which I like to call “ the moment bruise really fucking solidified for me ” scene.

Here, Cole and Jay have been bickering for a shit ton now, and are finally able to unleash their emotions through fighting each other in the tournament of elements.

It’s shown that even though they are furious at each other, there’s a peice of them that truly missed the other and their friendship. (As we could see in the 10sec of them warming up for the fight before seeing the photo of one another and realizing that they are going to have to fight their BEST FRIEND).

They may act like they hate and want to fight the other, but really, they realized they’ve dragged on their silly misunderstanding for so long that they’re not sure how to fix the things they broke.(They’re friendship ofc)

So when they actually go to fight, they end up just confessing their true feelings on the fucking spot(like okay???). Cole is def the more mature one so that’s why he was the first to say “hey maybe we should stop cause i care about you bro”.

And the lines they say to each other is what REALLY got me attached to them.

They are, and I quote, “ I never meant to hurt you, Jay. If I knew it would ruin our friendship, I would take it all back. ”

MEANING, COLE LITERALLY PUTS HIS BOND WITH JAY, OVER THE GIRL HE (POSSIBLY?BUT NOT REALLY) LIKED.

then jay fUCKING GOES TO SAY :“ Well, if we’re being honest. I was upset about losing Nya, but I take blame for that. I was more upset about losing you. ”(thATS FUCKING GAY JAY.)

So what Jay’s saying is that he knows the reason why Nya left him was because he overreacted to the whole “perfect match thing” and that he takes HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH COLE OVER HIS RELATIONSHIP WITH THE GIRL HE’S HEAD OVER HEELS WITH.

That is some motherfucking shoujo bullshit right there.

Cole even says he wishes they would of just talked it out earlier instead of being stubborn and refusing to get along, even though they both know that they’re both in the wrong.

(Random irrelevant fact here : Jay’s VA says he believes Jay and Cole have the strongest relationship on them team (when concering Jay’s relationships). This is also, ironically, confirmed by Tommy Andearson as well. Jay’s VA also accidentally said without knowing that he ships Bruise Lmao)

Now that they’ve kissed and made up during the tournament arc, it’s obvious their friendship is back to what it was. Terrible jokes, teasing, always there for the other, support, and just genuine appreciation of the other’s presence??

Which is shown with Cole in s6 when he’s stuck on the island with Nya and Lloyd. He says and I quote, “ I was just wondering what Jay would say. ” and proceeds to do the best impression of Jay ever. This tugs at my heart strings a little simply because the 3 are literally stuck on a island right now. And all this dude can think about is Jay.

(Also irrelevant canon here : Remember when Jay sat on Cole’s lap and asked him to do something and fucking pulled out the best friend card? Yeah, me too)

Let’s not even start on DotD. That shit made me almost shed a tear with these two.

Let me start by saying, wow, someone at the production studio must have a soft spot for these two or some shit cause there’s a lot of small Jay/Cole interactions that I really appreciate.

1) When Cole lost control of his vehicle, Jay was the one who went to go help him first. He was the one who was ahead of everyone fyi while Cole was the last.

2) Jay was the one who reacted the MOST when he remembered about Cole and frankly, was probably the most surprised he forgot him.

3) THE SCENE WHERE EVERYONE THOUGHT COLE DIED BASICALLY AND JAY SAID “ Oh no! Cole’s gone forever! I’d do anything to have him back! ” MAKES ME WEAAAAK. He looks like he’s about to fucking cry. And Jay is literally the only one to have canon crying scenes. 1)Him smelling apple pie 2)Nya dyingWHICH MEANS COLE’S DEATH(Lol not really) HAS JUST AS MUCH OF A EFFECT ON JAY AS DID THE GIRL OF HIS DREAMS DYING IN HIS ARMS.

I haven’t watch much of s7 yet, but all I’ve really seen is that Jay and Cole are partners. That’s all that really matters.

(Random irrelevant fact here : That moment when Nya literally said that Cole and Jay belong together)

(Another random irrelevant fact : There’s the perfect screenshot of Jay producing lightening in the shape of a heart in front of Cole somewhere and is def some sketchy proof that an animator for Ninjago has a thing for Bruise)

Anyways. Yeah. That was long but I really do love bruise with all my heart. It’s funny, I can write a 10pg essay about my otp, but not for school. Makes sense.

So @ the lego ninjago movie :From the trailers and screenshots, I see you guys have a thing for glaciar but for my peace of mind, pLEASE have a scene where the awkward Jay tries to have a conversation with the almost moody and mute Cole. Because their relationship is gOLD.

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withnosuchgrace · 7 years ago

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Hiiii (can I call you mom? You seem every motherly I don't know, sorry 😂) soooo, I'm new and have confirmed that I like seventeen, but it's still kinda hard to know who's who, can you help me differentiate them pleaseeeeee

hello hello hello !!!!!!!! ejgwiesugfiuewsg you think im motherly????? im really not sgidhiuegsbuesb but sure thing ofc you can call me mom :’))) as long as you’re comfortable !!!!!!

awwwww im sosssoso happy to hear you slipped into the diamond life !!!!! i love my bbys seventeen sosososo much :”))) and dude i totally feel your struggle it took me ages to tell them all apart !!!! (it took me weeks just to tell mingyu and wonwoo apart rip)

i hope i can make this process a little easier for you!!

(all gifs and photos used are not mine, credit to the rightful owners!!)

okay so seventeen has like a million members (im kidding theyre 13 but when you first get into them it’s overwhelming to say the least)

i find it’s easiest to learn them by their units since it’s a clean and simple way to organize them !!!!!

we’ve got three units in seventeen: hip hop, vocal, and performance

each unit is responsible for a specific aspect, like the hip hop unit is in charge of writing the rap, the vocal unit writes their lyrics and woozi produces all their music, and lastly the performance unit creates all the choreography

(remember that this is completely my opinion and things that i have noticed that makes it easier to tell them apart. if i make any mistakes pls feel free to correct me!! i am in no way an expert!!!!!!!!!!!)

hip hop unit

(from left to right we have Wonwoo, Vernon, S,Coups, and Mingyu)

S.Coups

- he’s the leader

- he’s like a father figure to the others since he’s the oldest and the leader

- treats the other members like his children, he’s so protective of them

- actually one of my fav leaders in kpop tbh

- but anyways

- he’s the one usually being an embarrassment

- like he’s a mess

- an embarrassing dad basically

- he’s pretty easy to tell apart looks-wise

- but he has tiny ears ????? they’re so cute

- also his gummy smile saved my life

- he’s pretty built and the strongest in the group like w o w throw me off a cliff pls

- v v competitive like he does n o t want to lose

- would do anything for his members ;-;

i told you he was an embarrassment smh

can also be hot af

Wonwoo

- aka the loml

- he’s very quiet like hardly ever talks

- but when he does it’s most probably to tell a really bad pun or joke

- that only he’ll find funny

- claps like a damn seal when he laughs

- a lil weird

- likes to randomly burst into song for no reason whatsoever

- lowkey savage

- also emo

- his most distinctive feature is his eyes

- he says while they’re super cold and sharp-looking he’s actually really warm inside

- for real he may look super intimidating and scary, but trust me he’s the biggest dork i love him

- just wants to read his book in peace tbh

-he also wears glasses a lot !!!! and it kills me !!!!!!!!

- when he laughs his nose crinkles and it’s the cutest thing i cry

- sings sometimes and it makes me sob

- voice deeper than my love for him

look at the eyes !!!

did i mention im in love with his laugh :((

Mingyu

- he’s the tallest

- he’s also the visual like the other members say he’s the best looking (theyre all good looking tho so like wtf)

- has the most beautiful brown skin you will ever see like it g l o w s

- the best cook and cleans like hes lowkey a mom

- loves to eat pls feed him

- super caring and a total sweetheart always lowkey taking care of the others

- is super artistic and stuff like he created bongbong out of his bare hands and designed their latest album cover

- can be a mess sometimes

- okay all the time he’s the clumsiest someone help him

- always laughing and smiling what a joyful person :’)))

- he has long canines?????? and they’re beautiful ????????

- actually a model like w o w

- looks older than he actually is tbh

- also lowkey built bye

a r m s

look at that smile !!! and the canines !!

Vernon

- he’s half-white, so pretty easy to tell apart

- he doesn’t speak a lot either, but when he does he’s the biggest meme

- always lost in his own world tbh

- never knows whats going on

- pls protect him

- the others say hes like a mini leonardo dicaprio so there ya go

- visuals af tbh

- he’s usually the one people can tell apart first

- you can probably find him by his bf’s seungkwan’s side

- he was on show me the money so a lot of people recognize him from there

his smile is v v cute :’)))

look at those visuals !!!!!

and that concludes the hip hop unit !!!!!

we’re 1/3 of the way there…..

vocal unit

(from left to right we have DK (aka Dokyeom), Seungkwan, Woozi, Joshua, and Jeonghan)

Woozi

- leader of the vocal unit

- a musical genius w o w

- the tiniest

- deadass looks so smol and cute i cry

- but if you call him cute he’ll dropkick your ass

- a mini yoongi tbh (literally everyone call them father and son)

- is cute ???? but hates aegyo????? even tho he does it so naturally ?????

- the actual cutest okay

- usually has pastel coloured hair

- is shy af

- but also savage af

- don’t wake him up unless you have a death wish

- may look innocent and adorable but will be planning your death behind that sweet smile

- pretty easy to tell apart tbh

- just look for the smol one

the actual cutest o my god (he cringed so much im crying)

a baby!!!!! must protect!!

Jeonghan

- also pretty easy to tell apart

- h a i r

- had like super long hair and everyone mistook him as a girl rip

- but now it’s shorter (rip long hair you will be missed ;-;)

- is actually the most savage

- has everyone wrapped around his finger

- literally gets away with everything

- king of cheating and succeeding

- likes to call dino his baby

- l a z y a f

- hes the one that’s lying down 99% of the time

- the other 1% he’s trying to get out of doing work so he can lie down

- likes to mess with everyone

- an actual angel o my god

look how soft !!!

v i s u a l s (i miss his long hair ;-;)

Joshua

- a m e r i c a n

- ????? looks like a prince ?????? literally all of the time ????????

- like im not even kidding his visuals have me in awe

- like okay the one who blows you away by his royal looks yes thats joshua

- randomly says words in english (along with vernon)

- is super sweet and precious wow i dont deserve him

- also makes terrible jokes

- has the prettiest eyes

- will be extra sometimes

- calls himself a gentleman (he is)

- likes to rap but can’t for shit

- seriously is rhymes are the worst

- has a really really soft voice wow fit for the prince he is

- is a little awkward but it’s okay he’s still adorable

- will do pin drops like his life depends on it

okay so he has a lot of ear piercings that can tell him apart and im in love with his piercings ajkfeauwf

his visuals ?????? a prince ?????? i just gasped w o w

- the human personification of sunshine

- loud af

- literally will never shut up

- but it’s all in good faith he just wants everyone to be as happy as him :)))

- always laughing

- will make himself a fool to make the others laugh

- he has a very prominent nose (if that makes sense????)

- kinda hard to miss since he’s always yelling

- vocal king

- like literally his vocals are out of this world

- has a very infectious smile that can cure cancer

- certified cutie patootie

a cute !!!!!!!!!! also look at that nose !!!!!!

when will his extra ass stop (im mingyu in the back with the mop)

Seungkwan

- human definition of extra

- s a s s to the m a x

- literally sass king

- booty so great kim kardashian is quivering

- never thought i’d say that sentence in my life

- wants to be a variety king and is doing a damn good job at it

- his reenactment of american movies when a tsunami hits is iconic pls watch it

- he has a really round face and chubby cheeks i wanna squish them :((

- cries a lot same

- literally scared of everything my poor boy

- he’s probably the one overreacting

- also never shuts up

- has incredible vocals too that kill me

i wanna pinch his cheeks :(((( i love my boy :(((

probably slaying everyone with those bomb ass vocals

that’s it for vocal unit!!!!

and last but not least…

performance unit

(from left to right we have: Jun, Dino, Hoshi, and The8)

Hoshi

- leader of the performance unit

- part of the extra squad that i totally made up on the spot rn

- but okay hes really extra too

- “naega hosh”

- super cute and funny i cannot believe

- he has eyes that are positioned at 10:10 on a clock and thats what he calls himself

- like his nickname is 10:10 bc of his eyes

- pretty iconic eyes tbh

- he looks super cute and adorable one second but the next he is ummmm a lil too sexy bye

- the duality of man is real within him

- he’s always super hyper

- his voice is really recognizable ????? at least for me ???? like it sounds so cute ??????

- aegyo is his middle name

- dancer extraordinaire

- a mess basically

look at this fucking tease bye

someone pls stop him

Jun

- underappreciated af

- chinese !!!!!!!!!!

- an actual visual god

- hardly speaks

- always in the background doing weird and questionable shit

- not even kidding whenever they’re filming something you will find him making hearts or just doing something super random in the background where he thinks no one will see him

- but we see everything

- his eye stare is something the majority of the earth’s population cannot handle

- his smile is the 8th wonder of the world

- has a v v sharp nose w o w

- the biggest flirt this world has ever seen someone stop him

- k n o w s he’s hot af

- makes everyone’s heart flutter and breath hitch

- but also gets super super awkward but its okay i love him with all my heart

- voice of an angel

- never knows what to do with himself rip

look at this smol baby laughing so pure ;-;

he has a really sharp nose and he makes me melt

The8

- s a v a g e

- will fight you

- also underappreciated, also chinese

- v v fashionable

- pretty sure him and mingyu are the best dressed

- looks super cute :’))

- lowkey reminds me of bambam tbh (looks wise)

- he couldn’t speak korean for the longest time but now that he can no one is safe

- out here to expose his members

- always judging

- dabs

- lowkey a meme too

- b-boying king

- can do flips like it’s second nature

- he has a v v cute voice it’s so precious ;-;

him judging jun’s ass (but he still looks cute all is well)

look how cute !!!! a precious !!!!! pls love him!!!!!

Dino

- the maknae, an actual baby

- i couldn’t recognize him for the longest time rip im sorry my son ;-;

- has a really loud voice and talks quite a bit

- lives and breathes dance

- michael chanson (he’s a huge michael jackson fan)

- everyone in the group treats him like their lil bro, their baby

- esp jeonghan

- but he is a growing boy !!!!!!!!!

- meaning he doesn’t wanna be called a baby anymore jeonghan is v bitter about this

- he’s still a baby tho

- he raps, and quite well

- aegyo is his friend

- he actually looks pretty distinct from the others

- like in mansae era he had that astro boy hair that still haunts me

- has a sweet smile

- prominent cheekbones

- loves himself lmao

wow my son my child look how cute hes a mess

here we have the hair that still haunts me to this day rip

and there we have it!!! i really really hope this was helpful!!! welcome to the diamond life !!!

if you have any more questions feel free to ask :’))) my ask box is always open :))

also if you ever feel like making some more carat friends, or just want to see more seventeen content, don’t be afraid to join a network!! i’m the admin of a hip hop unit network (applications are still open !!!)

also a good way to learn more about hem is to watch a shit ton of videos, that’s what i did!!!!

here are some videos to get you started

One Fine Day (you can find the new japan season floating around on here !!!)

weekly idol (i still havent watched the new one im a fake but this is the one from last year)

also just watch their vlives :’)))

i really hope this is helpful !!!!!

in conclusion pls love seventeen a lot theyre really talented and deserve all the love in world ;-;

#this took a whole day to create omg #i hope it makes sense sfjeusefe #i only introduced svt to two of my friends before so like typing it out like this was really hard #seventeen #scoups #wonwoo #mingyu #vernon #woozi #jeonghan #joshua #dk #seungkwan #hoshi #jun #the8 #dino #answered #tahira speaks

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what the... fuck?

yet again we start off with a cutscene that looks like its from a completely different game... or low quality anime

...why are we starting off in court

“who brings a defendant to his own trial late”

why... is this sentence not processing

for the life of me i have no idea what that means;

simon: you can just SCARE the judge into not giving a fuck about shit like being late, or threatening people under the guise of clever psychological manipulation!

also hi again simon

are you ready to be fun and likeable and not awful ?? I'm excited!

“i wish he'd stop treating me like a child all the time”

hey, old habits die hard.

simons already doing well by being an overprotective dork... so far so good. dont disappoint me, samurai.

our defendant is drunk

we’re off to an excellent start!

what... accent is this...

oh its drunkinese ok

“three sheets to the wind”

ive never heard that one

maybe they can get away with having a drunk guy but they cant actually say drunk?

somebody get this guy some raw eggs and hotsauce??

wow hes drunk enough to be close to vomiting? he’s not acting hungover so I'm assuming that he’s been drinking up till now. and simon was last with him, so...

yeah I'm blaming simon for this

“ive known athena longer than ive known bucky”

“ive frequented his soba restaurant”

contradiction! simon was in jail up until very recently, and knew Athena for a very short period of time during her childhood. unless he met Bucky right after taking care of athena, it’s not possible that he’s known her longer. that or i guess he could just walk right out of jail to get noodles.

“meat slapped between slabs of bread...”

oh no ya dont, translation team. you made your burger bed, now you have to lie in it. no mocking the joke now.

quit being so tsundere simon. and yes I'm giving you the luxury of being tsundere and not just an asshole who’d prefer the company of men he once tried to cut to ribbons just because Athena’s a girl. because I'm in a good mood today!

a) scariest ringtone to date

b) he runs that place alone?? sucks to be buck

please stop doing the vomit animation its making me uncomfortable

“this is no time for idle chatter”

oh simon, you obviously dont know what a chekov’s... um, conversation is.

wow so not only are we starting in the court room, but Sadmad said his prayers already. This is shaping up to be a rushed case.

...because obviously this is just filler before we get back to the Oh-So Delightful Adventures in Lawyer Land

edgeworth called him back for this case?? ...why???

Sadmad: I could be less horrible now that I owe the WAA a favourOR I could threaten to send a young lady to hell for just doing her job!!!! GO SADMAD, GO SADMAD

...dont call her a spring chick.

wait wait MAY 12TH?!

They just finished Maya’s trial and Edgeworth hauls Sadmad back to America over night?? How the fuck does Sadmad think he’s more prepared than us?? He had about the same amount of time to prepare!

I’ve got a good feeling about this case

Sadmad just let that poor butterfly rest jfc the aesthetic isn't that important

“this guy stole the deed to this other guys shop, so other guy KILLED HIM to get it back”

yes, brilliant deduction, not an overreaction at all

Sadmad, you literally got back here at like 1 am last night. Go fuck yourself and leave Athena alone.

So Apollo’s a red pepper, Athena’s an egg yolk... But there aren’t any blue foods, so Phoenix is just stuck being called ‘putrid’ in general.

Anyway cut Athena some slack. She’s already progressed far beyond having a breakdown in court because someone talked over her.

SEXY PAN UP SHOT FOR SIMON BLACKQUILL,

“Simon!! You didnt tell me you were taking the stand!!!”

“There wasn’t time...”

no time at all during that 5 minutes you spent in the lobby. But I'm laughin’ so I’m not judging. Also I missed that theme...

AW YIS

THROW DOWN SIMON

he’s the lesser of two evils this time; I'm ready to back him up! Simon in the blue corner, ding ding!!!!

half-awake sadmad looks up “rakugo” on wikipedia at 3 am

“yeah that should do it”

...and memorizes the whole article apparently

(coughmartystucough)

Sadmad: No wasting time!! This soul must get to the afterlife post-haste! You’re all putrid lumps of fecal matter for putting off the last ri–– wait, an opportunity to gloat?! Hold onto your hats, baby! The next twenty minutes are mine!!!

(weeps) thank you Athena

simon will remember this (you blackguard)

sexy pan up shot for–– oh, it really is a “sexy” pan up shot this time

except for those... soulless eyes...

aw nuts she has that drone-y X people theme.

OH GOD

OH GOD YOUR BOOBS

THAT WOULD HURT SO FUCKING MUCH

IM CLUTCHING MY CHEST JUST THINKING ABOUT IT

but I'm also chortling at the booby jokes teehee

“Never show sadness! Smile, smile, smile! With a twisty-twist-twist!”

Hey, it’s the new motto of ace attorney! Your self worth is based solely on how well you can cover up your less palatable feelings! Yaaaay!!

...also I’m calling it now, she did it.

i think her balloons are pretty impressive, athena

420 WE GOT ONE FOLKS

“Sad Monk Sadmahdi”

simon, youre gaining brownie points fast

Lang Zi says... Oh, uh I mean, the Kooraheenist Bible says......

“I’m checking in with the big tough old man prosecutor because i underestimate this small, young, female defence attorney”

I'm getting flashbacks to Turnabout Beginnings. and not good ones.

You kick it, girl. tell them off.

nice! the judge is on our side!

why did she mention the dog barking a lot if it was only because he was hungry?

that is one hongry dog

something about the dog just burying the rest of the food is making me laugh

oh so that was important eh

hmm

has athena always done this double-slam thing, or is this new?

Athena: Witness, I think you might’ve been lying a little bit

Sadmad: Vile hitler-satan, I cast you down to hell for your debauchery, how dare you insinuate that this case has more to it than what is readily viewable on the surface? Tsk tsk, so inexperienced, so putrid,

“What? The gallery doesn’t get a say in this!”

They’re not a jury, you know!!!

“Why is the whole gallery siding with prosecutor sadmadhi?”

it’s because he’s hot, athena. thats the only reason anybody likes him.

tbh I'm actually pretty proud of Athena

same time last year Sadmad would have put her in a panic-stupor. but not today. Kudos on working that out, kiddo. You’re moving up!

...wait a minute

“with a little push, you could succumb to despair”

>despair

does Sadmad know? Does he know about her PTSD? If so... He’s deliberately TRYING TO TRIGGER HER SO THAT HE CAN WIN THE CASE?!

WHAT THE FUCK

oh boy!! OH BOY!! a dying message!!! THOSE ARE FOOL PROOF, AS PROVED BY EVERY SINGLE CASE IN THIS SERIES TO CONTAIN ONE!!

“That makes perfect sense, doesn't it!”

Yes... the man who suffocated to death somehow had time to leave a clue to his killer...

...you do realize that to be suffocated, the killer has to be there the whole time, right? if there’s nothing in his lungs and no trace of poison in his stomach, then it has to have been manual suffocation, either by strangulation (though we have yet to hear about any marks on his neck) or by covering his mouth and nose.

so youre implying that rather than fighting back, the old coot rearranged a bunch of playing cards... in plain view of his aggressor

yet again, Sadmad makes a brilliant fool proof deduction.

ohhh my god he’s still trying to do it. HE’S STILL TRYING TO TRIGGER HER. I SWEAR TO FUCK, he’s been tolerable–– very thinly tolerable up until now. But this is just disgusting. This is brazen, malicious cheating. I don’t care if he turns out to be jesus himself when the inevitable “urhurhur he was good all along!!” twist shows up; I’m not forgetting this.

Damnit , Athena, don’t fucking listen to him. Don’t listen to a word he fuckin says.

Man I’ve never been so happy to see Simon. Little bit of the pot-calling-the-kettle-black here since Simon’s MO is to threaten and manipulate–– err, ah, use psychology!! to influence people, but I hate Sadmad so much that I don’t care.

“To think, you were so easily manipulated by his parlour tricks...”

Watch it, Simon. You’re the lesser of two evils this time, but that doesn’t exempt you from criticism. As a psychologist, you should know WHY it worked so well on Athena and you should be SENSITIVE about it.

You’re cleared of all charges, remember?? You don’t have to pretend to be a douchebag to keep up your ill-thought-out plan anymore.

“I’m not girding up anything in this skirt!”

well i just don't know what to say to that

Oh boy here comes Uendo.

Everyone seems to love him so I’m hoping he’ll be a reprieve from Sadmad’s......... everything

Sexy pan up shot of... a guy on a bunch of flower bags. With his own theme song!

so far I'm loving his animations and I'm always a slut for shitty puns!!

let’s see... blush stickers for the goofy one, hair forwards and eyeshadow for the lady. Clever little things that make each one of his characters different. He's definitely a fun character so far!

ah I'm really enjoying his dialogue

ill bet the translators had a ball with this

won't you PLEASE laugh at my PUN!!!

its ok uendy, i thought it was good.

“Silence is more precious than diamonds”, eh?

I can definitely see which Sadmad values more...

ooh a spit take! not since godot have we been blessed... also i notice they've dialled up the rock guitar in Athena’s theme. Personally don’t see it as an improvement but eh

“yes, making it look like the man drowned was obviously because the culprit hated him and wanted to desecrate his corpse instead of getting the fuck out of there quicker like any killer would”

not to make it look like

he’d drowned in the bowl

to throw off the police.

of course not; that’d be too obvious.

another win for the great Sadlock Madholmes.

wait did Sadmad just say Objection?? I thought he didnt do that

also; duel of the growly voices

prosecutor sad monk. simon’s still a dick but at least his dickishness spreads to people i dont like :3

ooh i love it when i can rearrange physical pictures

“you can put the cards back in their right place but if you cant explain them then youre fucked”

ever thought that maybe theyre irrelevant to the case and theyre just... cards?? sadmad??

i mean i know theyre not but they could easily have just been on the table when the murder happened. they could stand for absolutely nothing.

ahh... the sweet refreshing scent of common sense. you redeem yourself step by step, simon. i mean, when youre not being a dick about it.

“don’t testify.”

franziska tried this once. it was for an evil scheme. i dont want to have to threaten another witness with revealing a dark secret; that was depressing.

but at least we know meanwhile that Sadmad isn’t above dirty shit like shutting up a witness. .......not that we didnt know that before.......

“Are you trying to taunt him into talking? Such a petty trick will never work”

POT.

CALLING.

THE KETTLE.

JET BLACK, SADFUCK.

simon’s lucky he’s surrounded by idiots and people with poor impulse control, otherwise his “mind tricks” wouldn’t do shit

“to be turned by such an obvious ploy... what a man of weak spirit.”

for once, Sadmad, I gotta agree.

its time for

Artistic!

License!

Psychologyyyyyyyyy!!!!

sadmad doesn't get his way: my god will smite you later :(((((

now that we’ve worn this non-joke out...

“seeing my master asleep just made me so fuckin sad...”

i love that anger has such a distinctive ping sound

please do not call your toe that

“You gotta fuss over every tiny detail like this?” yes, Uendo. That’s why I’m writing these !!

that box of buns keeps drawing my attention. i love buns

Simon, you could try using some positive reinforcement. Mia wasn’t soft on Phoenix, but she encouraged him to think and puzzle things out for himself; she didn’t just call him an idiot. All the time.

“as sharp as a trout”

what the fuck

“so thats how it works ! fascinating!”

its not like i spent a lot of time working under the woman who invented said matrix!

its kinda sad that Athena’s never seen multiple emotions in high dudgeon

she must hang out with a lot of mild mannered people

athena: ive just proved these words mean something detrimental to the witness

sadmad: erm but they mean nothing to me therefor they warrant no further investigation.

???

i stg most of Nahyuta’s “”””counter argumnets”””” are legitimately just him trying to disparage the obvious contradiction away.

again athena seems unable to believe that people can only feel one intense emotion at a time

should i be worried

silly AA, that’s not how DID works!

oh well, at least Uendo is the fun kind of DID, unlike other... side-splittingly shameful characters I could mention...

Pohlfuckya indeed sadmad

ROLE CALL

“You seem proud of yourself, but all youve done is infringe on the privacy of the witness”

(sweats) i hate it when Sadmad makes good points

its not really dissociative if you dont... um... dissociate.

Sadmad: let it go and––

Athena: Shut up!!

Sadmad: Let it g––

Athena: Sssh!!!

Sadmad: le––

Athena: SJSJSJSJ

“if words will not sway you, perhaps pain will”

eject

him

i dont... like that... the beads are around her torso.......

YOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HE FUCKIN CUT THEM IN MID AIR

that deserves a fucking cutscene all on its own. its like the time Lang caught Franziska’s whip only cool and not bulshitty

...also you coulda maybe done that a lil earlier simon lol

“I dont give two flips”

all his flips have flown the coop

“but if Cykes dono were to submit to you here...”

DO NOT

USE THE WORD SUBMIT

WHEN PRAYER BEAD BONDAGE IS INVOLVED

fuck you sadmad, not everyone has magic gary-stu powers that let them memorize everything about a single subject in one night.

once again sadmad wastes precious time and diamonds showing off

after this lengthy, lengthy, leeeeeengthy detour............ wouldyouliketoaddthisstatementtothetestimony?

“you look like a hen with a dozen eggs to say”

you can just say “constipated” and it'll be less creepy, simon

how could they... not tell... oh who cares

“we’ve got you by the stones now, Uendo!”

DAMN the TESTICLE references in this game!!!

“heres a big plot twist that i just convenientlyforgottomention urhurhurhr..”

spoken like a true prosecutor

there was such a long pause there i thought he was building up to a pun

but of course he wasnt. sadmad isn't cool at all

heheh i just noticed that Bucky has hair noodles, just like Mr. Eldoon (tho Bucky’s dont appear to be a wig)

also its... very distressing to have a drunk client.

y’know i just realized

Sadmad is always talking about sending souls to the twilight realm in the proper way. but he's an international prosecutor. he’s probably prosecuted victims of all religious alignments.

isn't it kind of disrespectful to perform your religion’s funeral rites on someone who doesn’t practice it???

again, BK is only successful because Uendo is a moron

to be fair though, that was one of his better ones.

“You were leading the witness!”

I...

Just, fuckin’. Please stop making good points, sadmad. I don’t want to be enraged with you, I want to be enraged AT You!!

...well i mean I don’t want to but i hate it when you bring up excellent points.

anyway why doesn't sadmad want them to find Owen anyway. if it comes to nothing, who cares? can you just not stand having people who aren’t you waste time??

again... DID doesn’t work like that........

macbeth, starring athena cykes and simon blackquill

hey i jusT REALIZED WHERE’S TAKA

thats,,, reallllllyy not how DID works,,,,,,,,,,,,,

highfalutin’

“if you see one, there are likely thirty in your home’

thirty what

WTHIRTY WHAT

look if you knew how DID is supposed to work you'd probably have a good hypothesis by now. not an... ethical one to implement, but a working one.

i guess Uendo just never sleeps then, because apparently falling unconscious calls out another personality.

...brilliant.

Simon: STOP BEING SO NERVOUS. IS MY NAGGING AND DISAPPOINTMENT SOOTHING YOU???? IS IT?????!!!!

the time honoured tradition of turning a slip of paper over... truly, this is an Ace Attorney game

dude.... if you conk out from the trace amounts of alcohol in a bun, you should maybe visit a doctor possibly

“hmm, yes, i will allow you to render this man unconscious from alcohol.”

classic judge!!

au where blackqyil is a very angsty delivery boy

BABY

THERE HE IS

MY PRECIOUS BIRD

I WAS SO SCARED SOEMTHING HAD HAPPENED TO YOU

...that bird is going to fly into a shop, terrorize the workers, steal bean buns and (hopefully) drop a twenty on the counter as he flies the coop

awesome

phew that was a long court... but wait if this is a half-episode (which it probably is) and it started on a court day...

no investigation?! RIP OFF

gonna cut this one off here. till next time...

#sulking over SOJ #soj spoilers #soj spoilers obvs]

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whenimsadandconfused-blog · 8 years ago

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you deserve happines

*thinks what tags she should put for teens to see this

i have never been in love. im not really a romantic person. i am that boring person you see in the movies, you know that one nobody cares about ,its not the main but her story is still sad you wanna cry. somehow you feel bad for her and become grateful that you dont have that life. yes thats me. but im not in movies. i wish tho. it’s real life and im the main. i started my “speech” with love. and its probably really weird because i stopped and start to tell my sad story but i’ll go back to love in a minute.

so what makes my life special and interesting you may ask?

well i’m sad all the time. i have low self esteem. but tbh i always try to be positive and find good in everyone. i dont have that much words and im too lazy to tell my whole story but its pretty boring. i never get along with people, i overreact, i overthink , im overdramatic, super sensitive, i am not fake so thats why i dont get along with many. i hate fake people btw. life sucks, people suck blah blah blah..u get me.

well i have a notebook. i will not call diary okay. so legit 2 days ago i wrote motivational speech, how should i be grateful for everything i have , and how should i just take it easy and be happy. so it was like- how to not give a fuck speech, you can say. i was super pumped about it. i was like new year new me but new year started like 2 months ago. whatever. literally 20 minutes later my friend texted me. we have groupchat and shit gets down in here. we talk shit all the time not because we are mean. we have to deal with fuckboys and fakeis all the time okay? we dont gossip thats lame. so my friend showed me that one fuckboy texted her about me. welll its a fucking long story i don’t want to go there. idc tbh. i got real depressed real quick. and start lowkey cryin. (because im overdramatic like i said ) then i go to bed and start thinking about my life. (like always) and realized im not happy, an i have never been. im not including small things. im talking about real genuine happines. i have never felt that. well its long story too (wtf whats the point of this blog then u may ask) but i have problems all the time. i dont get along with my family well. and im not ever lying we fight literally every day and that shit is tiring. im over it . well this story is already sad if you have a heart . because happines i think, is everyones goal. and i havent reach it (yet). ye i started talking about love right? well like i sad i have never been in love. because im surrounded by homophobic ,racist , fuckboys that im not interested in. i didn’t even have a crush. but 3 or 4 days ago i found a boy on insta. (wow so romantic ) and the stalker i am, i found him on other social networks too and i stalked him so hard . well i dont even know what he looks like. because he does not show his face fully. i thing he’s insecure or something. but i fell in love with him so quick. because his posts is just so relateble to me . we have same interests and shit and he is just so cute. he has same taste in music and shit. and personality is just so hot to me. i dont even care what he looks like. and the end of my sad story is that saddest part is that i know for sure i can not be with this guy even if he knew me even if he liked me back. i can never be with him and with boys like him. im 17 and i dont get whats the point of living in this place like this. well i dont think about suicide at all . dont get wrong idea. but i just dont get it you know?

yeah whatever thats my story .. so tumblr i know .. blah blah blah.

probably no one will ever see this and you will stay the lame you are.

and if someone sees it , there are many grammar mistakes, i know because english is not my main language but im sure you get it what i wanted to say :)

you may think its long for you to read and i get it . read it or not idc

#teenager #problems #relatable #love #happines #read it if you are not lazy

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j-cypher-moved · 8 years ago

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@the anon who submitted their message two days ago

I dont know why im doing this.. im sorry

Hey alice! I’ve been following your blog for a year now, i think? I havent regrettted following you bc your posts, whether they’re your own or just reblogs, always make me smile especially your happy tag. I read all your asks and I did come across your bunny anon and I liked how you took your time to reply to them. So… I know im being selfish right now.. but because you’re the only blog i follow that actually takes her time to read and understand a person without judging her.. and give a lengthy answer, i thought i should… try my luck..Even if you wont understand me..i’ll just write what comes to my mind without a plan and hahah im already getting tears in my eyes.. Also im really sorry Im submitting this, but I think its gonna be legnthy (sorry for that too) and im afraid tumblr would eat the seperate asks..

So.. to start off: Im turning 23 soon, but I really dont like myself. like at all? I mean, being 22, i should have achieved something in life,right? but i achieved literally nothing.

I finished school and the 13th grade (its not university but here its considered like a college. after graduating you can choose an even higher school, 11th to 13th grade. but its not university because that comes after 13th grade). I mean yeah i finished the 13th grade but for what? I did something i thought i wanted, but am actually miserable in and so i suffered for 3 years. the grades in my final certificate suck and so no “good job” accepts me and tbh, you’ll think im a slob now, i gave up? Im registered somewhere that sends you mails of companies that are looking for employees, but i gave up? Im not even sending my application anymore but at the same time i feel incredibly guilty for that. And the worst part is, this has been going on for 2 years now. I left school in 2015 and have beenliving home, like literally home, for 2 years

what i mean with literally is… I never go out. I dont have friends lol i dont know what i did wrong in my life but ever since 1st grade i got bullied a lot. there was a girl and fate decided that we should be in one school, in one class, till the 9th grade. and because i’ve been bullied so early on in my life I had absolutely no confidence to speak up and the bullying continued until the 9th grade. she threatened to “kill me” once because I didnt want to play with during the break with her (Im pathethic because i still hung out with her in school because i didnt want to be alone. I did it once, stay away from them in breaks but i couldnt handle it and just went to the toilet to hide and cried silently until the break was over). I did talk with my parents about it near the end of the year and they immidiately went to my school to talk with the teacher and also went to her house to talk with her parents. But it continued in school lol. My teacher at least made sure that I wouldnt get paired up with her for any group activities though. For 10th grade, the class got seperated and I was for once lucky enough because I was smarter than her and so i got into the “advanced” class. Everything went super well in 10th grade. I actually had people i liked and felt comfortable with to talk more openly and the boys in my class treated me nicely, too. I wasnt just invisible for them. Its still one of my most favorite memories. But it only lasted for 1 year and after graduation we all seperated ways and I was alone again. (back then we didnt even have whatsapp and FB wasnt that popular so we couldnt keep contact) 11-13th grade was weird. like i said its not something i can do and i struggled a lot during the years. the class was again..very childish. (i was the oldest because after 10th grade, i took 1 year off because i was too late to apply to any school, then a year later i got accepted but realized i cant do it so i left again. I had to wait another year to apply to another school so..10th grade -> 2 years doing nothing -> 11 th grade again) But i got treated like im not there, again. the girls didnt like me for some reason even though we have never talked, i even think some of them were racist. But i could hear them talking about me in class and the boys did nothing to stop them (not that i really expected it but still..) and it kind of… hurt me in a weird way? Like my pride? I was the oldest in class and they still treated me like that, but actually I was disappointed in myself because i let it happen again? I was that old and still wasnt confident enough to speak up to myself and let them look down on me. I only had like 2 girls in class that i could talk to and that was it.

Now… thats 2 years ago, like i said. I want to get a job to at least do something with my life because i dont have anything else im good at (and no im not saying this for show, i mean it) but also because i dont have anything im passionate about, nothing i like and nothing that i can see myself doing? and so i thought getting paid would be best for me. But…. im not trying and i know that. im not trying anything to get into a job, im not going out to look for jobs, i cant talk to people i cant even make a phone call to ask something. And I know getting anxious for stuff like this is normal, but its not normal to not do anything for 2 years, especially at this age (Just because im an adult doesnt mean i have to be one, i know, but still there are expectations of myself that i fail to achieve and so i only disappoint myself further, does that make sense?) Like… all i do… is sleep, get up afternoon, sit on my laptop, eat dinner and sit on my laptop and then sleep again <— this has been going on for 2 years. from 2015 to beginning of 2016 i was kinda ok with it, i thought I still had time to figure things out, but mid 2016 it started messing with my mind. I realized how pathethic i actually am. I cant do anything to help my mom lol im “eating” her money (im not a bratty kid that wants expensive shit but it still feels WRONG to use my moms money at this age) and almost everyday I get the random confidence boost and motivation to actually do something tomorrow, to wake up before noon and try and call this or that company or go out personally… but… i dont. Even if i wake up early, I get the dark depressive thought of “Why? why should i do that now lol i havent done anything till now so why now? its already too late do you really think you can do something with your pathetic self?”

I dont have a drivers license… I want one. Its actually my first ever goal i have ever set in my life for the beginning of the year. The “new year new me” thing. I got the eye-test done while I had to a checkup, but even that is a month ago. For weeks i’ve been trying to go to the drivers school or call them to ask them questions but im so incredibly scared?? of what i dont know?? Of getting judged because I am dumb. I was born in this city but i have no idea which streets is where or what they’re called, i cant do math and so im scared of trying to calucate the distance between cars etc. Well im scared to call because im scared of phone-calls in general and because i know that I set it as my goal to GO there personally but on the website it says to please call them for questions, and so i didnt end up going because what if they’ll laugh at me and yada yada all those thoughs…

Also… this is very, very… personal.. that no one knows except my mom… and something thats making me cry whenever i look in the mirror. I… am really hairy. lol wow a tear just dropped onto my laptop oh god… ok so im hairy, yes. I have a hormone problems according to my gynecologist. The Testosterone is higher than the Estrogen, and so i have a literaly happy trail + all visible dark hair all around my stomach/chest. Of course my upperlip is dark too and very visible. for my face, i just wax it. but I cant possibly wax my whole torso.. i do take the pill with more estrogen in it, but its not helping. I’ve been to many doctors and even to hospitals but no one seems to care or help me.. they say the pill will help but its been years and it doesnt. I cant look at myself naked…. I never had a boyfriend, no first kiss, no boy was ever interested in me (yet… hopefully) but even if someone would be ??? enough to be interested in me.. I couldnt get naked in front of them.. im so ashamed of myself and my body as a female. And i know the talk of “Media is trying to give you the picture of what a female should look like, hairless thin etc etc. / The one that truly loves you will love you and your body for who and what you are) But the thing is… im not happy with it /myself/. I dont feel comfortable. If we go to a vacation with my family I cant wear a bikini like other girls even though I want to, i always have to get a bodysuit that will cover my stomach… To you or anyone else this may sound like im overreacting, telling me to "just shave it” but its not that easy and seriously no one can truly understand that doesnt have this kind of “extreme” hormone problem…

I dont even know why im sharing all of this with a “stranger on the internet” to be honest… i just want to get it off my chest, to let SOMEONE know how i really am? an adult that does nothing? and know it but again does nothing to change it? I know i might need help from a professional, but i dont want to and i dont have the courage or will to go to one.

Regarding the boyfriend and friends thing… yes… i have absolutely zero friends and thats also the reason im inside all day. I dont see a point in going out ? and thats also something that leads to… no boyfriend. because I dont go out (i dont mean like clubbing but just in general, like daytime) i cant meet anyone you know?

Also… you know what i realized after being on this earth for 22 years? I dont know if its because i never had any friends or experienced it, but i cant feel geniunely happy for someone? or be really proud of them?(im talking about people i have contact with. I AM geniuenly proud of BTS but thats another kind of proud) To my few fleeitng friends that i had, i still found something that annoyed me at one point but of course i never told them that or showed them that (because i think its normal to get annoyed with a friend at one point) but like.. i was never truly happy for them. I never truly loved them i think? Like i somehow in the end I felt selfish and was envious? And to realize that really hurts me now because I actually have no right to feel that way, i should be happy that a few people actually had a friendship with me (and i am happy for that but.. its not geniuene.. i dont know if i could explain it well or get across my point) I dont know… it feels weird..Its like im not capable of doing that. i wonder if i can love a boyfriend in the future

After reading all of this you might think I look like how i am and behave, too probably.. like a unhygienic bum or something, but tbh, im not even that bad looking. I have long hair, I straighten it, I dress nicely and put on perfume, I do my makeup and eyebrows to frame my face nicely and I actually do smile while talking to strangers because i want to leave a kind first impression..

I dont know why i divided all of these later on tbh.. i thought maybe it wouldnt hurt your eyes that much like this ;; I just rambled and shared so much of myself, im so sorry. Please dont be creeped out @ anyone who decides to read all of this ;; I guess I… feel at least a little bit better like I can breate a bit better now. I went completely mute 1 week ago, i just woke up and didnt feel like talking to anyone (anyone= my mom and bro. only people in my life) so i just.. sit silently in my room all day..I hope i can get out of this “mute” phase and at least talk and laugh with my mom again… my mom.. I cant imagine how it must feel like to see the own daughter fail at life this badly lol..

Anyway— I am extremly sorry for randomly coming into your “ask box” like this and making you read this.. if you’ll read this that is.. please dont feel obligated to reply to this if you dont want to.. But thank you..

Hello anon!Thank you for following me and im really glad my posts makes you smile!(i didn’t think anyone will go to my happy tag but :D)

Also you are not selfish in my eyes,you don’t have to be sorry and I’ll try my best while answering you~~

First of all,I do not think in any way that by the time you are 22/23 you must archive something,especially when that ‘something’ is a social construct.In some societies the ‘something’ means finding someone to marry before you are 25,in other it means ‘finishing uni and getting a successful job’,in some others it means to just be able to finish school.However,no matter the case,just because something is considered a norm,doesn’t mean that it corresponds to the reality.Just think how many people try to postpone their marriage,even in places where forming family is considered as the number priority.

There are many things that fuel this type of thinking-that you must have some sort of significant achievement before a certain age-but instead of talking about the source of those,all i am going to say is that these words usually comes from people who are very stereotypically thinking without having a glimpse on what is going on in reality.Take for example,the job market(esp since you even mentioned it),people who are in their 40s-50s and go around shouting things like “but there are sooo many jobs!!you just need to try harder!!back in my day,i got my first serious job when i was 23!!”.Well...dear Robert...and every Robert who says things like that,apparently since you secured yourself a stable job from your 30s,you ‘kinda’ forgot to check how the things are today before saying things like this.The competitiveness is in job market is nowhere near the levels it was 20-30 years ago and this more or less applies to any country(i am telling you this as someone who studies this subject).

Besides,let me tell you,again as someone who is in the academic field, I know so many people,and even some of my professors,who changed completely their degree in their late 30s-40s because they understood that the thing they studied in the first place was just ‘not their thing’.Like, real examples,my professor who teaches now history of european parties (he is his late 40s) had his first degree about computer sciences,my professor who teaches macroeconomics,was supposed to be a chemistry teacher(and both of them are A+ teachers now btw).

As for going specifically to the bullet points-i am going to mix them up a bit-but first of all congratulations on your certificate!You did it,you have one,and it that is that matters.As for the job situation:i don’t know if this company sends you specifically job emails that have to do with the field you studied,but if yes,I get why you don’t even open them.As you mentioned,you ended up not liking what you studied so having a job revolving around the same field is very pleasant to say the least.Also,again as someone who has studied the issue,have you considered going to some seminars?I mean I don’t know how if your economic situation allows you to consider this as an option,but I thought I’d let you know that even if your certificate doesn’t have the best grades or even if you don’t have a degree/certificate at all,there are some seminars (in most countries) at reasonable prices,especially considering how many doors they can open for you.

For example the other day I was thinking about starting some seminars on ‘how to be a professional secretary’.Im sorry idk how to say this more formally,but that was their main point:to teach you how to be a responsible,productive secretary,for any field really.I mean think about it:nowadays (at least in my country) those who get to work as secretaries are usually overqualified students who just got their degrees (e.g law one) but the thing is,even tho it may be really beneficial in some issues that will have to do with law issues,the general job of a secretary is law-unrelated.As a result,these freshly made lawyers sure can be great in solving law-related problems,but when it comes to making an organizational document in Excel for the company’s needs,they get lost,because they studied law,not how to use these programmes.What I mean here is,even if your grades aren’t high you can still be competitive in the job market,so don’t let those discourage you.

Moreover,I hope I didn’t scare you when I said in my second?third? paragraph about how competitive the employment market has become,because even when it is the way it is you can still get a competitive edge over others,by ‘building up’ your degree(if you want ofc).

I must also mention that i don’t know your field nor to which jobs you are referring to when calling them as ‘good jobs’,but in some positions having experience is way more valued than having a higher degree.This means that you almost unavoidably will have to start from a lower position (unfortunately).Like for example,if you want to become a cafe manager,at first you will need to work some time a waiter,then as a cashier and then lastly as a manager,ykwim?

And one last thing,which is kinda the complete opposite on my previous ‘tip’ is that there are more and more companies nowadays that want ‘baby minds’ aka workers who have zero experience in the field so they can ‘form’ easier their job behaviour according to the company’s policy.Generally,as someone who has been studying about this subject and also side eyeing job applications,I perfectly do understand that there is a difference between the theoretical part and the the actual reality,and the companies that follow the second or the third strategy may be very few,so I am not trying to make everything seems as through some pink glasses,but!!!! To give you a boost and help you gain some confidence,because frankly no matter the job/field it may come out as very important thing.I also do not want to make you feel you bad or guilty,overtly or covertly,about not having a job!!!!absolutely not!!!i just wanted to show you that IF you ever think about getting a job,not to get discouraged immediately at the thought of the overall grades and that there are some ways,besides the certificate(and even more which i didn’t elaborate on here),that can make you a qualified worker.

About you not going out..Hmm..First of all I am really sorry that you got bullied by that girl especially in such a young age,when kids should gain confidence while being with their classmates/friends.Also,from my point of view,you kinda grew addicted to her,even though your relationship was so toxic and when I say her I don’t mean specifically her as a ‘’’’’‘friend’’’’’’ but the temporary,superficial and even fake safety being with her provided you.Not because she was great as a person,but because when you were together I suppose she bullied less when you were together with her and you couldn’t make any more friends other than her,so that’s why you were,to put it simply trapped.I am glad it is over for you.And if it is not,if you still catch yourself thinking about her even now or think that people still may be like that to you,I’d suggest going back to your school days and wondering why she was like that,not because of sympathy reasons,but to try to do a ‘breakdown’ of her personality and her behaviour.Why?Because once you understand that,you may get why she wanted to badly for you to be her friend and I repeat,this is by no means a way to excuse her behaviour,but to realize that even the scariest monsters,are not so scary if you draw them bunny ears and put some pink blush on them(if my predictions are correct,this must be the fourth time you are wondering wtf I am talking about).WHAT I MEAN BY THAT:You mentioned that your parents talked to her parents,but the situation wouldn’t change much,if it wasn’t for your teacher’s intervention.What was their reaction like?Did they say anything specific to your parents?I do not know how much her behaviour has affected you and sorry if this is not very pleasant thing to recall,but what I am trying to show you here(if she did affect you)is that that girl had her ‘reasons’ to act the way she did(unless there was/is some serious medical condition of hers) and not everyone has been though the same as she did so not everyone will/can treat you the way she did(again it does not serve as an excuse or should make your feelings less valid).

As for the girls in the 11th-13th grade,well...The only thing that comes to my mind is jealously.You didn’t say that it was girls AND the boys who talked about you,it was specifically girls and keeping in mind that you didn’t know them before going to 11th grade(it’s not like the had grudges against you for something,they literally didn’t know you) and the fact that you were two years older aka ‘naturally’ stood out,it was their ‘duty’ to seems as superior.

Also,just a little tip which you can completely ignore ofc,but from personal experience,if anyone speaks about you,don’t try to correct them nor ‘stand up’ for yourself,put them in place etc,especially if it is a group of people and not just one person and I say this for several reasons.Firstly,one of the main reasons that these people talk badly about you,especially if they do it in front of you,is simply,your reaction.If you try to talk back to them them it is going to just fuel their motivation to talk about you even more.Even if you make a ‘valid’ point and say it to them,the chances are it won’t even reach what they call their brain and just laugh at you or even worse,try their physical strength on you...So what to do?Yes,you are right,you are about to hear the most cliche answer for those cases,to not care,or more specifically not give a f*ck about them and their words.Like it is really hard to offend/hurt someone when they don’t give a f*ck about you or your opinion(sorry if i sound too forward or harsh but i genuinely believe this).Besides,people will always talk about anything and anyone and anywhere,so what’s the point of caring about their words,unless they come from someone whose opinion you value?

*As a side note,I cannot not say how happy I actually am to hear how well you did in 10th grade,both academic-wise and relationship-wise (and it even continued in your 11th-13th grade)!(If you think that having only two friends in your last years of school was a very small number,ask yourself:you would like to be friends with anyone else from your class,besides those girls?Like the boys who did nothing?...I don’t think so…)Also,even if you are not talking with the friends you made anymore,that’s okay,because you still didn’t let your past affect you back then,which is so, /so/ important,so please try keeping this in mind and cheer up on yourself for this!....And now that I think about it,I mean i don’t know if you considered this,but have you thought about messaging someone from school e.g. those two girls?Like do you have a facebook now?How about finding them there and having a light chat with them? (even if it’s been two years).

As for you wanting to get a job and not finding your passion..Well,to be honest I am very weak when it comes to this and honestly the only advice I can give you if trying out new things?You don’t necessary have to do them physically,esp since you mentioned sitting on your laptop for quite a big part of the day.Have you tried learning a new language?Reading a book?Also,if you feel guilty about not looking for a job,how about trying and helping your mom in a different way?Like with the house chores?For example,if she is planning on going to the market you can go with her and help with buying stuff/the shopping bags plus,you will go out a fraction more and maybe meet a new people/have some light conversation with them.This way,you will also beat the anxiety that bubbles up when you try to speak to people/making a phonecall,because again,I am sorry,I am not an expert in this area and the only,most productive way of overcoming this type of anxiety in my eyes is ‘by getting more of it until you get used to it’.By that I don’t mean of course that you should get used to anxiety attacks,ofc not,but start with small talks e.g. with the cashier or your mom’s friend you bumped into in the shop,and even if your heart will race during the first conversations,after a while,I think you will get used to it,not the heart fastening,but having conversation with strangers and from there the anxiety may fade.

For when you get those sudden motivation rushes,and this goes for anything tbh,i have to say one thing:DONT trust your future self..because if you won’t do it today,you won’t do it tomorrow.Like it is definitely not just you,it is just that our future selves and way lazier than the today’s.And answering your question if “its already too late do you really think you can do something with your pathetic self?” NO!!!!!!Absolutely not,IT IS NOT TOO LATE AND YOU ARE NOT PATHETIC.You are literally 23 years old,you are literally /so/ young!!!Like if anything you are in the perfect age(maybe a little too young even) to get a job!!!Even if you haven’t had your first job yet,23 is still the perfect time to start..and the same goes for 24,25,29...59.I ‘can’ tell you that you can do ‘anything’ at any age,but that won’t be entirely true because money is usually what keeps people back,but if your dream,if your aspiration doesn’t really require huge money investment,then yes,you can do anything at any age and getting a job is one of them.I won’t lie to you it is probably going to get tough and hearing things like “this job requires experience’ or ‘we are looking for someone with the X,Y mark in the A,B subject’ may become a frequent thing but try to not give up if you ever to make some phone calls,but I promise you are going to find something,maybe after the 100 call,but I promise you will (if you want ofc).

Speaking of phone calls,well my friend,if you are scared of (let's put everything you mentioned under the same umbrella and call it)adult things..let me tell you a secret..THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NO ADULT THAT HASN’T F*CKED UP or seemed more or less/dump by an office employee/a cashier etc.etc.We all have our first time for everything and being an adult requires lots of those.I am not telling you are going to get things messed up but I am telling you that if you do,that is okay,it is definitely not the end of the world and you 100% not the only who messes/messed up.Btw you are not dumb,esp for not knowing those things,I mean I didn’t even knew you have to calculate the distance between two cards to get a license…(wtf).You are not going to get judged for not knowing all those things,you are not a taxi driver and you are not obligated to know the road in your city(i mean,even they use a gps/ask the passenger for directions) and also there are approximately another 234987239 people who face the same problems/worries as you and the people working in the drivers school know and understand this,so everything is going to be 👍I believe in you!!!!Also a tip if you want for when making a phone call,if you are not sure of how it will go,get a piece of paper beforehand and write all the the things you’d like to ask/are curious about so you won’t forget anything and also during the actual call have a pen next to so you can immediately write down the information you get,so you won’t miss anything they say to you!(I hope this helps!!)

Another thing is that whether one’s gender may be,it still doesn’t mean they are going to a have ‘perfect’ body either and also something thatpeople hide is that this ‘problem’ is not as uncommon as we think it is?And let me tell you that boys also get worried about this issue (having too much leg hair etc.) so if you ever happen to like someone and they like you back,please don’t let this you hold back from showing your feelings.And if someone is an *sshole to you about it,like I said,the door is right there.Those who are worthy will stay.

Um,and btw since I also have the same thing as you(a little bit about the medical aspect) but have you done an ultrasound of your ovaries?Because I used to have a huge cyst and that’s why I couldn’t take the pill,it just simply wouldn’t work(i started taking it only a month ago since it..popped on it’s own).Another thing to check is your tryroid?It can as well cause a hormonal disbalance.Lastly,the pill itself may not be suitable for you,as there are so many of them that work in various ways. (please consider these next time you go to your doctor ;-;).

About you “being an adult who does nothing”,well the word ‘nothing’ itself may carry a different meaning for each person..Second of all,it doesn’t mean that the point where someone starts doing the ‘something’ is the same for everyone.For someone it is when they are 15,for others when they are 45.And just because someone starts later than the others,doesn’t mean their start is less valuable compared to others’.Everyone has their own pace.Also,you might not feel now life seeing a professional,but you may want in a month or not at all,who knows.And that is also okay(tho i would still suggest mustering all the courage if you feel like this process it taking too long for you(NOT by comparing yourself to others but how it feels to YOU) and visiting them at least once as a ‘check up’ if you want to call it ;-;)

About you staying at home all day..Well,i think some good ways to change it,if you want to ofc,is to,more or less the things i mentioned before like contacting one of your friends from school or attend a few events like book presentations,open courses,seminars.Like I am suggesting these things from my personal experience because 2 years ago I moved to a new place and practically knew no one,but by attending places like this,i got to meet a few new people who really helped me.Also,another thing that may motivates you to call faster the drivers school is,since the first few weeks focus on the theoretical parts of drivings(driving signs etc.),you are going to be in class aka with other people,prob around your age,so it may come as an opportunity to meet new people or even make new friends.

As for your realization that you cannot feel genuinely proud of someone,from my point of view it is what you said:if you don’t/haven’t experienced a feeling yourself it is really hard to reciprocate it and show it to others.One thing tho that I really want to mention is that the term ‘friend’ is really flexible.A friend may be someone you have been knowing for five years,greeting them everyday with a ‘good morning cutie’,sharing the same desk at school but still never sharing a deep emotional connection with them,so i really don’t think you should feel guilty about not loving the friends you made in school.Like your ‘obligation’ as a friend to them isn’t necessary to love them back to pieces,but be a good friend to them,which is a different thing?A good friend is someone who understands,respects,makes you laugh and I,or anyone else,can go on and on on those trails which appear according to personal taste/views,but if anyone ‘demands’ that you should love every friend you make,I am afraid I’ll have to argue with that.Besides,love in my eyes is too overrated anyways so…

Maybe you felt envious and selfish because after all,you weren’t /that/ close?If you imagine a scale like this:

You may have been closer to points A or B,rather than C,and that is okay.We are not supposed to form deep connections with everyone and that’s why there are so many different kinds of friendships.And I don’t think that you incapable of being genuinely happy/proud of someone-it is just you haven’t met that person yet- and I also do believe that you are,very capable of loving your future boyfriend.

After reading your message hhhhhh no,i don’t think at all like you behave like an unhygienic bum ah!!and please teach me how to smile,because i have naturally a resting bitch level 252 so i kinda…’naturally’ repel everyone?...oh well ,anyways,a thing I do think however,is not so much the lack of motivation,as much as lack of confidence?Like hon the way you described yourself will all your nice perfume and eyebrows ,aka more like a soft godness………I know how you it sucks being in that sort of ‘bubble’,the muted phrase,but really,the only way to get out of it in my eyes and also how i got out of it is a)kick the door open in your room and go back to your mom and bro 2)make something from the outer world ‘drag you in’ it constantly aka have some chores to do.Like again,for the drivers school:if you have classes every tuesday and thursday you ARE going to go to them because I know you can,and YOU also know that you CAN do it.Also,I don’t think your mom thinks of you as a failure,because moms are moms and a good mom’s role is to support their child no matter so please do not worry about the emotional aspect.

I am really wishing you the best and I hope you will be able to make those phone calls as you can and go out as soon as you feel like!I really must mention that maybe it won’t be as easy in the beginning and probably not everyone you meet is going to be polite,but i promise you are going to eventually meet nice people.And if you ever catch yourself thinking “why do this,there is no point” or “it’s too late for me to do the x thing” just remember that there IS a point and IT IS NEVER TOO LATE to start something new.Everyone got their ‘first time’s for everything.However,not everyone is doing it at the same time at the same time,so remember that.You can also get a little motivation imo from thinking about your mom and how even your little steps are going to make her and your brother happy.I hope this helps you💕

!!!!aslo a very useful and truthful (thanks to suga-honey-honey ;-;):i'm sorry to butt in on this, but i wanted to point out to anon that when you seemed to 'flourish' in 10th grade the things that were different were the surroundings and the people around you. don't think that there is something wrong with *you*. in 10th grade you were the same you, but you were surrounded by nice people and a positive environment. you can definitely recreate that. you have the potential, once 1 ball gets rolling the others will follow. you'll be okay <3

#replies #anonymous #please refrain from reblogging this~~#i have been having horrible headaches for the past 2 days but i still hope this makes sense!!

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