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aquapede · 1 year

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what if i gave you a power band in the future of darkness. and we were both boys

#pokemon #pokemon mystery dungeon #pmd #pokemon mystery dungeon explorers of sky #pmd eos #pmdeos #dusknoir #grovyle #ms paint #scribbles #i cannot explain this one. releases it into the wild like a beautiful baby bird #i wanted to add more grey to grovyle's palette but now he looks like an emo boy. which isnt wrong but is funny #made like a dark and twisted grovyle. just a small glimpse into my twisted mind

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antisisyphus · 6 months

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i keep thinking back to a quote by some architect who was arguing that the most sustainable architecture is the architecture that doesnt get torn down bc we will be (hopefully) constantly finding newer, cheaper, more efficient, ways of being "sustainable" so trying to make the most sustainable building is a moot point. in 5 years it will be outdated & if all it has going for it is "was once a very sustainable building but isnt anymore" well. that isnt much. the point was that the architect was saying that classical/romantic architecture (often considered very beautiful & worth saving which i could get into but that a whole other thing) is sustainable bc of its beauty. bc of the value we put on it. bc we dont want to erase or tear down things we find beautiful or important. i dont really have an end thought but im just musing on the importance of beauty & how aesthetic value can extend itself into material value & also how beauty (infinite) is hoarded by the rich as if it is a finite source. inch resting

#i feel like this could be a thesis but i dont know enough about anuthing to make it more than a post #the whole othr thing i could get into is how classical/romantic architecre is often held up as the most beautiful style #which is very eurocentric.#but also delegitimizes other reasons for wanting to keep a building around #ie historical importance #im just thinking about the endless capitalistic cycle of creating mass produced soulless buildings #from the catalogue homes from the 50s to the white box condos of now #where they get made & sold as New and Modern and Cutting Edge #and then in a few years (when they arent new or modern or cutting edge no one likes them so they get redone/torn down #and often those renos are ALSO souless and just fit more New and Modern and Cutting Edge appliances/architecture #this creates a lack of conse4rvation of “ugly/cheap/poor” buildings which is. again a whole other thing #also what im saying isnt new. and can be applied to many other aspects of capitalism/comsumerism #anyways

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faaun · 7 months

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idk how to live so im going to talk to myself out loud until i do

#listen. take a deep breath. i know your bpm is high but you need to think with me for a second.#remember that you are paper thin. all your facets are sheets of paper and what you gave her is just another one.#make a new one. you dont need it. you dont need her to see you. i know you think you need her but you will be okay. i know its hard.#you wish you could have shown her how you loved her. listen to yourself. you are made of paper.#she might be concrete or maybe wood or maybe gold. you need to start laying your roots elsewhere. shut that thought down #and blink and listen. the parts you keep thinking of arent lost. they still happened and they are yours to keep.#there is beauty in this loss. tell me about the beauty in this loss. its okay to think about it. you got to see it all and nothing more #and this is great because it would have been bad. you know it would be violent in a way you dont need. you know this to be true.#you are going to look at that empty space in her shape and youre going to fill it with everything that happened when you knew her.#the memories with her but then also the the way your friends talked you through it. the game with the clovers.#your first allergic reaction you almost died and you couldnt stop laughing and you were held so close to their hearts.#learning the names for all the floursecent gene tracking dyes that everyone else knows already. about the exam - listen again.#i know you think if you fail your life is over but you need to try your best. youre not going to get a good grade in a uni test for the fir #youre going to make up for it. youre going to make sure you make up for it. do you understand? i love you. you have to do this.#right now you need to sit up. breathe. i know your heart hurts. go to the living room. grab something to eat. i dont care if you feel full.#youre going to clean your mattress heater. youre going to study a bit longer and then youre going to sleep. youre going to tell your mother #im sorry and i might genuinely fail a test. shes going to tell you its okay. if you do badly in this course you can just become a neurosurg #just agree. dont argue right now. its okay. youre okay. you are paper thin. i know any puncture hurts.#breathe. think of your friends. think of their hands in yours. it isnt eternal.youve lived through worse. the empty sky is still beautiful.#the lack of her is still beautiful

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ganondoodle · 2 years

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a wild assortement of comic wip screenshots and a random doodle that i posted to twitter but not here

(this doodle here is of Raal (aka demise before he became a deity) but whatever happens here isnt anything 'canon', i just randomly doodled him to try a loosen up my painting style bc when i work on the comic i tend to concentrate too much of rendering it perfectly and i dont like that)

#ganondoodles #doodles #art #i am so very tired #too tired for tags #btw i do love and read every ask i get but damn i just dont have the energy to reply to most #and i feel so guilty #i wish i could make a warning show up when someone wants to send me an ask #that just says -yo i love and cherish and reread all asks but unfortunately have zero energy to reply but chances are it made me cry-#given the asks isnt mean spirited or straight up bots #which my impsoter brain sometimes still tries to make me think #like either woo look at all those people LYING to your face #but i have grown alot since those days and now its mostly just #so look what a nice and lovely absolutely beautiful ask this person send you and you disrespectful fool are not answering it shame upon you #thats most likely why i have been getting less and less and man i feel so bad #like when its asks about drawing advice i either dont know what to say bc i dont have any idea what im doing eihter #or bc i plan a giant response with a big ass illustrated tutorial even tho i know i neither got the time or energy for it #but still cant answer then bc wait you wanted to make a tutorial you cant answer it just like that #and when its a super nice compliment about my art i just #dont know how to express my gratitude and silently reread it time and time again never answering it bc then it would be gone from the inbox #;__;#alright falling asleep brain better not have written sth i will regret reading tomorrow #i think this is the longest tags i put on a completely unrelated post of mine #if you have read all these tags send me an ask only containing the name of your fav fruit and i will make you a little pixel sprite of it

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eagleeyethree · 1 year

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thinking about an alternate universe where betty returns but not everything is well

#fanart #my art #sketches #betty grof #fionna and cake #inspired by that one analysis where globetty has seen the past present and future #and by merging with glob she is no longer really human #and no longer experienced things the way humans do #and that new perspective has made her realize some hard truths #also the way the first couple of episodes set it up make it seem #that simon's obsession with finding betty again #is just a shallow solution to his broader problem of finding meaning in life #that isn't to say their relationship can't work out!#it's more like they both got off the train to p aris #and realized it isnt as beautiful as they thought it was going to be #and like tourists #they can either be disappointed and leave forever #or they can enjoy the time there and learn something new. grow and develop even.#but i feel like they still go on different roads because of the events that had led up to it #like they need time to figure out what they mean to the world now #in a way that doesnt base their entire reason for existence on a single person

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lesbiangiratina · 1 year

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Not very fond of people like waving off testament’s gender as just a Gear Thing but well at least it becomes funny when people apply it to gears as a whole. Like yeah i can agree with that. It has nothing to do with being a gear tho theyre all just transgender

#okay ill talk about it seriously down here #it does feel like the original intent behind their androgyny was to kind of Other them from humanity #daisuke saying theyve transcended humanity / talking about their ‘inhuman beauty’#i dont want to call it dehumanizing since theres like. a weird positive (…i guess) angle of them being ‘above’ humanity #thats just kind of a trope though. like nonhuman characters without a human concept of gender or sexuality. yknow #but anyway strive didnt really go back on this. they kinda made it a part of their arc?#i think dev backyard says that theyve ‘lived without the concept of gender’ since being turned into a gear #but theres no disconnect from humanity that goes along with that anymore #i like the implication that reconciling with humanity and more importantly their OWN humanity coincided with their presumable transition!#alright now for the part of this i dont like. its weird to assume the gear conversion had some effect on their body and THATS why theyre nb #i think any implications of that are vague enough to be dismissed #i wouldnt even call them Implications its like. messy (and contradictory!) early 2000s phrasing and a theory about 1 line of dialogue lol #early fandom stuff im aware of but dont know enough to talk about aside. nowadays its just used to like #excuse their androgyny. by gamers who cant just. believe that theyre nonbinary because they want to be. lol #not because of anything that was done to their body against their will. or even more simply because theyre just a gear and are Above gender #literally theyre just nonbinary. isnt that cool. i wish everyone could agree this is cool and end the discussion there.#except for me. i can discuss it all i want forever. because im the understander.#whatever. at least the section of testament’s wiki page theorizing about their genitalia is gone now. kissaroo for whoever took that off.#I NEED TO WRITE UP THAT TIMELINE IM LITERALLY NOT KIDDING WHEN I SAY IM AUTISTIC ABOUT TESTAMENT’S GENDER. CLEARLY #the kat goes meow #gg

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g0thsoojin · 2 months

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#im like very much having a crisis right now... i mean to most ppl it isnt that serious lmaoooo #but tbh i am a loser and tumblr is 80% of my life and most of my social life #all social interactions i get are on tumblr ._.#so i dont want to keep alienating myself on it because then im just ruining it for myself and removing the only place #and source of social interaction and attention :/#i personally can not for my life comprehend this because i really dont take other peoplës venting personally #but ever since i started using twitter and tumblr i have ruined so many connections .. by venting on my own account.....#and now.. when i lost and fucked it up with the love of my life... just bc i vented and he interpreted it from his pov..#and got hurt when i wrote things abt being lonely and unwanted WHILE talking to him everyday and having him call me beautiful and care abt m #... i understand why he got hurt and i understand his pov bc it looked like i pulled away and distanced myself and only complained and that #he didnt matter to me when in fact he was EVERYTHING to me and i lived off his attention #i hate that i ruined the best thing i could ever have just bc i have this pathological need to share my every thought #like shut the fuck up... i wish i wouldve shut the fuck up and instead gushed abt how much i liked him which was what i wanted to do #my avpd just made me feel stupid bc when i did he didnt interact with those posts and then i felt embarrassed #which like i know how fucking stupid avpd and bpd makes me and i hate it but i cant stop it #god i regret it so much like my dumb ass blog isnt worth losing him over... it just isnt #only an online connection.. makes it so hard to see bc he only saw my diary where i complain he didnt see everything else :(((#so he thought that he wasnt important to me and then slowly started to detach himself from me (understandably) god i wanna die #so yeah ive started to HATE my main account. bc it has ruined so much for me. plus lately ppl have started being mean #and i get it its the internet ppl suck but i AM so fkn sensitive. and i get sad and hurt really easily #and i feel anxious abt venting bc im scared of getting a mean ask after #like... i feel so fucking alone and idk what to do. all i want to do now is vent vent vent but ive started to feel like venting is bad #and harmful and only ruins my friendships and connections and makes ppl be mean to me #i honestly wish i wouldve stopped venting every thought looooong ago #and that i had a more normal blog and had a secret vent blog and that he didnt read all my miserable posts #bc then maybe.... he wouldve actually understood how much i fkn love him and hadnt looked in other places and now i lost him #bc i really dont blame him bc i know what he is struggling with and seeing me who he cares for so much say those things...#i get it 100% and thats why im so pissed with myself for just not stopping!!!! why cant i stop????? whats wrong with me #i just feel so lonely and like no ones listening but he was listening to me i just had to be brave and go to him #plus all my venting made him think that im like in severe emotional distress every second and that i was too fragile to talk to

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meejijis · 3 months

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Tfw your a SK Jeanne fan only

#jeanne posting #im going to use that tag from now on to gush about jeanne. maybe i should come up for a renmei one too #Btw no shade or hate to any fate jeanne fans. this isnt a hate post #I only know like 30% on the original fate series but other then that I never touched the gacha game #Fate jeannes design is beautiful though I do have to admit #but yeah i made this silly thing cuz everytime I try to look up jeanne / jeanne sama / maiden or maiden sama in Japanese in the twt search #its always bombarded with so many famous jeanne characters from other animes im just. no i want to see the REAL jeanne from SK. i want to #see my girl. THE “JEANNE” with super long curvy silver hair with red eyes from SK like THAT jeanne only #shitpost #memes #mine #my edits

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lvebug · 1 year

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wahoo new blog design! i feel like a whole new man!

#its something that feels much more andie to me. when i first made the theme n carrd i just threw something together so i could start #im a whole lot happier with it now its very true to andies origins. ask me about her comic origin!#i dont have a lot of her narrative planned yet but i have some funky details in mind for her first solo run #which is what the carrd is.. its her first issue she's introducing herself #funnily enough the art isnt even from a marvel comic its from nightwing bruno redondo just has be by the throat i think abt his art everyda #THERE'S A LOT OF BEAUTY IN ORDINARY THINGS — ooc

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hella1975 · 2 years

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the boys' first commentary on keating's lessons being cameron and neil saying 'that was weird' / 'but different' is getting to me like the entire film is a narrative on the suffocation of heavy academia and how it prioritises certain subjects (medicine, law, business, engineering) while condemning creativity and passion and how institutions are promoting conformity and grades-over-wellbeing teaching methods more and more as you both move up the elitism scale and as time goes on, and how that was okay for these kids and like so many generations before them they were going to let it happen to them, but one teacher was different. one single teacher told them to seize the day and make their lives extraordinary and he made them look directly at the state of things, and for a little while it was beautiful but they're just kids; how could they ever change things? and sure enough it catches up to them and the institution wins because it always does and suddenly the suffocating thought of what neil is so sure his life is going to be is so daunting and terrifying that he cant even face it

#he's just like me fr just without the gun #like yeah the world is actually a harrowing monotonous place and my generation is the last one to play outside as children #and if you dont chase a certain career path or excel in certain subjects then you're deemed inherently lesser #and your success is measured by your bank account and there is no warmth #like damn this film realeased in the 80s and set in the 50s had no business capturing the terror of being young in our society so perfectly #the ONLY saving grace is the 'o captain my captain' scene at the end #it's proof that the beautiful passion-filled independent lives the boys dreamed about #dont just become food for worms and we dont just go right back to the beginning #there's hope at least even if half the time im too busy BAWLING MY FUCKING EYES OUT to even see the screen at that point #godddd girl watching this doing an 'academic subject' that you despise and on bad days think might be the thing to beat you #but you do it anyway bc you're stuck now and besides your parents kinda made you do it when all you ever wanted to do was write #but that cant happen bc writing isnt 'good' the way economics is 'good' and maybe #maybe all that'll happen is i'll lose and start a career in business and work an office job for two decades #in a world that's melting and owned by corporations that want to bleed me dry #maybe that's all there is #i need a fucking cigarette #dps

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infizero · 2 years

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kills you kills you kills you kills you kills yo

#listening to the audio on the page again gawdddd i feel ill im gonna throw up #kris' frenzied discordant playing. you usually play the piano a bit more beautifully. they didnt have a piano at their house #they loved to play the piano and there was no piano in the house there was no keyboard in the house nothing #and now their hands' movements are not their own their fingers uselessly mash against the keys in the clumsy frustrated way #they cant even do the one thing they were good at anymore. you usually play the piano and bit more beautifully #and then noelle listening in from the other room. there were times when i wasnt even sure if we were friends. maybe they werent thinking #about me at all. we're friends. we're something else. we havent hung out in so long but i know how you like your eggs. what your favorite #color has been throughout the years. the first movie you cried to. i know you better than anyone. i dont know you at all #your voice isnt your own. what happened to your voice? what happened to the beautiful music you made? what happened to you?#why are you telling me to do these unspeakable things? why am i going along with it? (we're getting stronger) why do i let the blood drip #down my finger from the ring you slipped onto it? (we're something else) what happened to us?#we used to play tag in your backyard. there's blood on my hands because of you. i dont know whats happened to you and i cant stop it #maybe they weren't thinking about me at all #you usually play the piano a bit more beautifully #but when i closed my eyes it felt like a concert just for me #i need a drink #serena.txt

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cheriboms · 1 year

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I really love loving things <3

#cherry thoughts #obvs ive been reblogging everyones art/fic and it just makes me sooooo happy seeing things be made and have heart put in them #like someone MADE that!!!! isnt that WONDERFUL??? isnt that AMAZING????#and seeing how everyone is so unique and talented in their own way(s)#like there truly is no such thing as 'bad' art. every piece is beautiful and i wanna appreciate them ALL SM #also applies to things i dont know about. love seeing art from a fandom im not in and going 'i dont go here but this is awesome'. FAV THING #like why is there so much love in the world??? how is everyone so full of talent and skill and passion????#it truly does make my day #like its not consuming content. its witnessing ART fr #...anyway #cheesy post is cheesy i know #but like. yah #i love being a lover #and i love seeing other ppl love things too <3 #goodnight for now :)

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tyrianlynch · 1 year

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I started watching Suits today and have been playing the sims nonstop and have been reading nothing but fanfiction about gay firefighters and articles about how the CIA started a domino effect that created al qaeda and the taliban so yes I’m doing super well mentally

#I’m honestly like doing okay in a lot of aspects like I feel like I’m taking steps towards having a life I enjoy #but taking small steps over a long period of time gets so exhausting #and I keep saying ‘I just need to keep going and keep trying to add things into my life that bring me joy and then life will be better’#but it’s taking so fucking long and I’m tired of the ‘just keep going’ part and wanna get to the ‘every waking moment isnt a nightmare’ part #like can that happen now please #and I keep getting too cocky and thinking I’m there and universe does its best to push me down and put me in my place #I have a great day with a new friend at a beautiful location? cool but ur gonna be in such bad pain u can’t stand for at least 3 days after #i go out to eat with my family? sick but ur gonna get nauseous no matter what u eat and ur gonna be so exhausted ur gonna sleep for 2 days #and it’s just never gonna end is it? bc that’s the chronic part of chronic illness #this is the life I’ll be subjected to until the day I die #anyways not even my deep mental anguish can stop me from obsessively reading about the Soviet-Afghan war #and the main guy of suits is such a pathetic babygirl and I’m obsessed with him #and my sims are about to graduate college #and I’ve been writing and I made new friends and was invited to an event with them and am going to a dance party in a week #and I’m trying really hard to remember that things aren’t always awful

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volunruud · 1 year

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ladies can we please stop being so obsessed with book accuracy... sometimes a book and the show/movie adaptation are just separate stories... and thats okay :) if u want book accuracy just read the book maybe

also a movie is the collection of many different forms of self expression and interpretation... from the director, the actors, the set designers and costumers etc etc etc

as long as it stays true to its original messages and themes and characterizations then i say its fine...

#i love book accuracy but sometimes people just want to share their own interpretation and ideas and express themselves!!!!!!#and sometimes yeah it do go off the rails like GOT's final seasons....#obviously its not always good but. i think thats mostly the rushed amd terrible writing!#the actors and everyone else put their all into got and the writers fucking ruined it #now there was a few slays tho... tommen killing himself was so chilling and effective #probly my fav made up addition #so ya deviation from the source material isnt always bad is my #point #but sometimes it obvi is bad #but just bc its not book accurate doesnt mean its bad #i mean arwen being the one to run frodo to rivendell? beautiful.....#but like the read the book if its so important to you bae #book accuracy almost always doesnt matter #unless its actually changing the theme or characterization...#own #the iwtv completely changed louis' backstory and appearance and even made him like 130 years younger or so #and it was fucking incredible

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luxazz · 2 years

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I have never felt uglier in my entire life

#not to richocette back n forth between pure confidence and like pure shit but uhh #i will never fully get over the fact that i dont have beautiful 'feminine' features #like no one looks at me and thinks im beautiful agskdlddhslla #i could be like #oddly cute at best #i want to radiate attractiveness without having to tryyyyy #trying to tell myself being conventionally pretty isnt everything and i should enjoy every stage of myself #and just be young #but also why dont i look like that lmao #side effects of not being pretty or popular in a school of assholes #edit: my mom thinks im pretty so we take what we can get #my mom grew up her whole life thinking she was ugly this will not have side effects on her daughter #i actually cant even be mad at her obvs bc it made her just as unconfident as it makes me now #she was only ever positive towards my looks and i love her #but damn self hatred runs in blood oop

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cerealmonster15 · 14 days

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i want to be bffs with astarion in my playthru :( he seems like he needs a hug and good platonic companionship wahhhh

#my bestie with so many issues ....#on the romance path im torn between wyll and karlach #like karlach was the plan but im struggling to raise her approval rate lol shes been at neutral then fair for a long while #whereas wyll easily shot to very good approval super fast jksdfhsdkjg im on track w/him #and hes delightful. but then i talk to karlach and im like teeheehee fksljfksdlhflsjg #ughhh i just wanna hold both their hands....#i gave astarion the scary necromancy book. i fear this may have repercussions later but it made him like me a little more lol #we had that convo where he was asking me what he looked like and when he was like 'ok now call me beautiful'#it let me diverge to saying either wyll or karlach were instead #idk if it's bc they were the other two in my party or bc of the approval rate #id say party bc karlach isnt as high as laezel i think #either way i reloaded to test them all and he was cute and silly whe i said them so i kept it lolol #i want to have bestie banter.... 'ooh i gotta step up to the competition' NO you and i will be friends and it will be awesome.#famous last words idk i might get swerved into astarion romance we'll see

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