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"Obsessed with You" - Orion Experience WMV Ft both WWF and Memphis Jimmy!
This is exactly what you think it is. No real fancy effects on this one, focused more on clip selection and timing. Regardless, happy how it turned out lol
#jimmy hart#fanvid#fancam#music video#i made this for myself and thats a-okay#;w;#i was listening to this song in the car and thinking about Wimpbusters and thats how i got here
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Jack Delroy's deliciously biteable neck✨
#david dastmalchian#jack delroy#late night with the devil#i made these for myself okay#but its okay you can look at it too#obsessed with a body part of my obsession#thats me currently
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Thinks about my next series again... I drew the icon for it!
I'm planning to have it launched within a year! I'm hoping for summer 2025. I want to make a prelaunch page before Time and Time Again ends so people can subscribe if they're interested, but I'm worried the series return would be too early...
#SORRY HAHAHA REPOSTING IMMEDIATELY#i. it. IM SORRY okay the.#i had 'im not interested in the comic' as an option but it immediately made me feel bad#DONT FEEL BAD IF YOU PICKED IT i put it there#i just realized its not really a helpful metric to me at all!#im making the comic either way!#so i just want to gague interest. disinterest doesnt do much for me. you can come and go as you please!#just wanting to retain readers as much as possible but without losing them due to taking too long#ahhhh the balance of marketing. a beautiful beast she is.#anyways yeah hoping to launch like about as tta is ending#or like at LEAST a prelaunch page by then#im also not intending for the prelaunch page to be like. announced...#moreso just a link i append on art for the series!#just so when a drawing of zagan gets 500 notes#people who are interested in what hes from can. see that...#anyways. sorry i haven't been posting work is wild im going 70+ hours a week again i am so tired#not much time to draw non work stuff#im hanging on by a thread of having multiple projects i can bounce between again#and sometimes thats this one! so heres the results of some mental health work variety#we were legion#polls#sorry for the instant repost. in my defense. i am exhausted.#i can not wait until im making a different comic that i can do a fucking. normal ass schedule with#where im not every week gasping for breath in some kind of bad at swimming metaphor.#anyways if youre not interested dont tell me. it doesnt matter to me. no offense but i just dont wanna hear it.#i want to make the comic and my audience as much as i love you all is not going to have any control over what i do with my art#im gonna make this comic if i only get it done on weekends after getting home from the fuckin movie theater#i am not working for webtoon again wnd im not forcing myself into the dirt for comics again#but im also never gonna stop making them. just need to build a healthier relationship!#FUCK I MADE IT A ONE DAY POLL.
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warriors 2024 and the art of giving meaning to struggle
alrighty ramble time: let's talk about luther and how he managed to fuck up NYC for good. if luther were like i dunno lex luthor, i'd say his move to destabilize gang relations in nyc is a very fucking calculated move because i really do have to give credit to him in actually achieving the goal he set out for himself because his decision to kill cyrus,,,,aka the one that organized the "Please No Gang Fighting" summit that aimed to unite everyone against the bigger baddies of NYC,,,essentially fucking killed any and all chance of such a peace summit and unity initiative from ever happening again. because, like, after seeing a beloved and seemingly untouchable leader be murdered in front of all of you despite explicit instructions to Not Bring Weapons, would you even risk witnessing that chaos again in another summit? would you trust that forming a united force work after such a tragedy? is there even a possibility of finding trust among other NYC gangs if someone among their number killed your very hope? so yea knowing how the movie ends with just the gramercy riffs saying that the warriors (with two dead people and one arrestee in tow) are off the hook because someone else witnessed luther killing cyrus,,,the original ending is actually quite hopeless when you think about it in their shoes. in the words of movie swan himself in the movie, is what they end up with all their night of sleepless fighting and struggle is worth? hence, i now really see why warriors (2024) decided to make what I consider to be the 2nd biggest diversion outside of the genderswap: making cleon live - because otherwise, the warriors' struggles surviving the night can be said to be struggle for solely struggle's sake.
in the musical, cleon is an astute believer in cyrus and the future cyrus envisions for all of NYC - thus, she becomes the harbinger of cyrus' hope in the form of still breathin' and somewhere in the city. her being alive doesn't detract from the widespread tragedy faced by the NYC gangs - i still really believe that no matter what, luther effectively killed their one shot at true unity and trust - but in cleon's own words: "What do you do when they kill everything you believe in? Give it meanin." the decision to keep cleon alive is warriors (2024) counteractive measure at the absolute shithole luther placed NYC in because in her message of keeping the dream alive despite situations that are, realistically speaking, impossible to wholly recover from, gives their struggle meaning, purpose, and direction - the end goal being hope. that theme of hope despite and in spite of adversity now becomes evident on as to why we are made to be invested in the warriors' journey home and their subsequent growth. in mercy's decision to leave the orphans for a place of belonging and pride that can make her finally hold her head up high. in ajax's and fox's decisions to retaliate against their pursuants among sleazy old men in blue. in swan's persistence in getting the rest of her crew home alive despite still reeling from the loss of her leader and her fellow warriors. all attribute their own reasons to why they resist and rebel because they ultimately hope for something fucking better. ultimately, warriors (2024) exists because of the want to give more meaning to struggle in the form of hope amidst hopelessness. in the movie, the warriors find their meaning in the sweet simple bliss of survival - in making to coney island's sunrise. but in the album, another meaning is emphasized among not just the warriors, but the marginalized communities of NYC in general: their meaning of struggle goes beyond surviving the night - because they carry on and carry forth the dream of one day having a city where they all come home alive. because after all, isn't the formation of grassroots rooted in resistance - and isn't resistance born out of the want and hope for something better?
#okay um here as an journalist activist here in the ph this theme hits hard for me#because like for example why do i choose to like bend myself backwards in my work beyond academics?#because this is my means of resisting#and why do i choose to resist#because i choose to believe in the hope for something better#hence with that i understand why cleon had to live for warriors 2024 to work#because without an earnest believer in cyrus' vision of a better nyc for their constituents#then the theme of hope and the meaning of struggle made evident in cleon's shining moments#would not have been fully recognized as a running theme for the warriors' journey home - at least in my opinion#especially now that the genderswap has led the recontextualization of their struggles#and with added socio-political themes in the form of emphasis on the cops being the fuckin baddies#but yea anyways woo this is why i hold somewhere in the city and still breathin as among my top 3 best songs here#lyrically and thematically speaking#because like woo we have our two thesis statements right there hallelujah#anyways woo thats the warriors ramble for tonight imma sleep na bye bye#warriors#warriors album#warriors musical#lin manuel miranda#eisa davis
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i really want to make isat friends…
#in this moment…#but i’m too scared ;-;#you guys all seem rly fun n cool n sweet#i love seeing tags on my art n everyone is so so nice!!! i’d love to reach out n make friends so bad#but i’m. terrified.#my usual method of making friends is starting a private discord server#n it usually goes amazing - it’s how i met my current family and how i’ve made so many friends!!!#but i’m petrified right now. something in me broke a while back and i don’t know if it’ll fix…#i hope that… i can make one soon. maybe after i get back on my meds i’ll be okay.#but!! like. in the meantime#if anyone. wants to try ? i may be slow and scared and overly guarded bug i want to make friends#and i’ll Try if anyone feels up to reaching out? ;-; i’d appreciate it tbh!!! but no one has to!!!#i wrote myself a lil script tfgvu for a comic maybe. itll be so annoying but it’ll be a very person piece n i think it’d b good for me to#make ngl… a good look into my Twisted Mind (/s/s/s thats a joke!!!!!)#SORRY THIS IS REALLY REALLY VENTY JGUGGUG#i have difficulties my whole life with feeling like a perpetual outsider <3 i need to work on that somehow
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setbacks do not mean you have lost all of your progress. it is part of the healing process to go through ups and downs. as hard as it is, it will never be straight sailing—but the wonderful thing is that’s why we have other people to walk through it all with. it is okay (preferred, even) to lean on someone you trust when you are hurting or when you feel like you’ve failed yourself.
healing does not mean you will never experience that hurt again. healing means learning to cope and strengthen yourself for the hurt you know will come. healing means finding the courage to endure it. healing means asking for help when you need it and learning to even know when you need that help. healing does not mean just surviving—it means learning to live, too.
you haven’t failed. you are growing. it is okay to start again with the knowledge that you’ve acquired in your setbacks, so that each time you do start again, you make it further and further until eventually, those setbacks are so few and far in between that they are no longer your default state.
your hurting won’t always be your default state.
#cathy says words#comfort#i never thought i’d have a fullblown panic attack again#but i did today#and thats okay. i did my best to cope and accommodate myself through it#and i made it through and i am okay#setbacks happen and thats inevitable#you must learn to take care of yourself and be kind to yourself instead of being angry with yourself when they happen#it is okay
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Dizzy and testament having 5 voice lines between them is kind of fucking bleak to be so real. I kinda hate strive when it comes to character interaction. If you dont make it into arcade mode youre fucked. Testament and dizzy interact more substantially in the shitty 2006 psp spinoff game than strive
#WHAT DO YOU MEAN GOLDLEWIS AND ABA IN HER ARCADE MODE#i wasnt letting myself expect testament but like. huh#i havent checked it out just seeing people underwhelmed lol#ftr testament just has the 2 intro lines for dizzy. same for dizzy but she also has aaaa. respect or win line idk#its cute. commenting on the progress theyve made. the intros are just like. okay. happy to see you talking in general i suppose#dizzy has an extra voice file thats just the second half of one of them idk what thats about. got excited that she had 4 but well no -_-#the kat goes meow
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👁️🦎🎯
(crops under cut)
#natsume yuujinchou#matoba seiji#natori shuuichi#horrible exorcists#sorry i couldnt think of a caption i literally sat here for like 2 minutes lol#usually i use a quote from the scene or a lyric from a song but in this scene they're just Looking#anyway FUCK architecture#really though this is csp's perspective ruler's fault. i shoulda just done this by hand#but i made it work. since it wasnt super super complicated lol#ummm i feel like natori looks like a baby ceo but that is what he was wearing at least in the anime version of this scene#and midorikawa's kind of vague about clothes so i made it easy on myself#but why are you rolling up to the exorcist meeting in a navy blazer and tan chinos?#his uniform color is tan so ig the pants could be from that but the blazer......#tryna represent the natori clan in front of the other exorcists ig idk#meanwhile matobas just in his gakuran lol#hes not the clan head yet so he can just be there as a kid#he even gets told off by takuma and called seiji-kun.....could you imagine like.#it's weird for him to not be matoba#anyway. um i completely kind of fudged the architecture because its hard to tell where exactly in the building this scene is and#i had a specific composition in mind#i only realized i messed up how the windows work like 3/4 of the way into lineart soooo#but thats the kind of thing only i would notice probably#btw i was originally drawing a different scene of them but i was faced with the reality of foliage.#and i remembered this romeo and juliet ass scene existed so#i chose architecture LOL#okay last thing. i feel like natoris haircut is too polished and nice but fr wtf is his canon hair#im doing my best LOL.........but boy#OKAY im done
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nobody fucking touch me rn i went to see tf one in the cinema and im shaking. they actually made a good transformers movie. what the fuck
#time to go home and read the entirety of jro's mtmte and lost light again ig#what the FUCK i was not expecting it to be actually fucking stunning. that's MY loser dumpster fire of a children's toy franchise how did t#ey actually make it . good#really good#five out of five stars. when elita said “you dont have the touch or the power” i fucking choked#obviously it is only going to mire the canon more because of the changes to megatron's backstory (no gladiators 😔) & lack of allspark plot#but i dont even fucking care. dont even touch me rn i cant ever get over this#broken friendships & corruption arcs are THE SHIT and they did this one better than i was expecting#when pax fell like a falling star... primus itself opened to him...#ratchet cameo! arcee cameo! jazz cameo! not to mention ALPHA TRION#i can see the war in this . i can see this . millions of years in the future they will still b fighting. orion mightve been a “pacifist” by#megatron's standards but he knows how to fight. he fights more than he should. and bee.... bee... THATS MY FUCKING NAMESAKE GUYS DONT EVEN#TOUCH ME RN. IM SHAKING. HOLY SHIT#bumblebee you are SUCH a dork. what the FUCK.#and the quintessons!!!!! i am LIVING for the art direction and the organic/inorganic imagery#those quintesson energon-hoover things reminded me of energon eaters too. & in that first shot of them entering the cave w the primes i#originally thought scraplets before i came back to myself. there's something to be said here tho.#they did a good job with the worldbuilding. suitably alien-like. exceeded expectations. that ginormous quintesson ship? i'm going insane#you can SEE the birth of the myth in this stupid fucking movie you can SEE how op becomes who he becomes. the way he grew. the way they bot#grew until they were the only person that could hold the other back . the way he is going to be irreversibly changed. d16's eyes...#that scene w starscream has a chokehold on me. i cant breathe. the way they all looked at megatron when his blaster emerged#the fight scenes#ELITA ONE !!!#AIRACHNID !!!!#honest to god though i must confess that the first coherent thought i had about this movie was “oh they made him so cunty” . abt pax. i#am so sorry#but okay okay okay i . they were amica endura at the beginning. at the least. i'm. AKHRERJGH#tf one#me when megatron ascended out of iacon & he was the only land vehicle amid a swarm of planes. me when the SYMBOLISM#🐝
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Seb Malaysia 2010 comp because it is my favorite Seb hair
#me obsessed with you? yes. yes I am#there are of course many other pics from this gp that i like#but this post is for me to be unhinged abt his hair okay....#he just looks so angelic to me???? very cherubic????#the ringlets in the front of his hair....im...just...adsjlskjl#but this to me is his perfect 2010 hair length#he just looks so pretty....like i really cant understate how pretty he looks in these pics#i dont even remember why i was looking at this gp in specific but his angelic looks have bewitched me#but yes incredibly self indulgent bcs im just so entranced w these pics#at least twice a wk i have some unhinged moment where i cant contain my love for him and thats this post#btw that very first pic is the whole reason i made this post its literally been haunting my brain#how many pics can you post of one man at one gp?#me: yes#if i could i would post literally every picture i have from this gp(its too many) but i tried to restrict myself#key word: “tried”#sebastian vettel#2010 malaysian gp#sv5#red bull seb#we do a little bit of f1
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Ace MoodBoard - Related Images
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#thats my favourite girl#stimboards glitch out my phone so instead yall are getting moodboards okay? okay.#anyhoo#ace#i wish i had more content for her#i guess ill have to make it myself.#also...psst...if youve made it this far...send me a character and a theme to make a board for....#you totally should....#the outsiders musical#the outsiders ace#moodboards#alfies moodboards
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Okay so maybe trying to draw a bunch of comics at once wasnt a great idea motivation and energy-wise,
#break time#i think if i doodle one more immortal au piece i will just explode myself and this au#which is not fun considering this au was a comfort story i made for myself#so lets not get to that shall we#sometimes i wonder if maybe trying to tell that story was really a good idea#because it isnt as fun to tell a story when you're basically screaming into the void or talking to a wall#tumblr's fandom culture sometimes is tiring#but thats okay#just needed to complain for a second#anyway what yall thoughts on apple pie#sunshine talks
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Obviously a complicated subject to navigate but the theme of "a person's worth" in the canto is a very interesting adaptation of the book and I'm enjoying it very much.
Heathcliff's attitude towards and understanding of his own upbringing shapes how he acts with the second generation- it's a sort of experiment for him, as he sometimes likes describing it in scientific terms. Talking about the boys with Nelly he draws this distinction between Hareton and lil Linton, that Hareton is an incredibly smart child and very aware of his own situation and degradation- especially as he meets other people his age, namely the younger Cathy, for whom he quickly develops feelings for, and love becomes yet another thing he cannot be allowed to participate in.
While in game it's someone else who ends up saying these lines, what they're actually referring to + what they represent in the book is actually shown through Hindley, the degradation, relegation to servant and denial of education as well as the condemnation that to Hindley is the most cruel and most important: losing the worth "necessary" to be loved.
In the end book!Hindley's efforts go through in making Heathcliff a horrible person just like him, though neither his nor game!Hindley's plan ever manages to actually deprive Heathcliff of his sister's love (though they certainly work in making him believe that!), but book!Hindley's plans are further defied by Heathcliff becoming rich and educated, and book!Heathcliff's plans go off the rails even further as Hareton is not only smart, but also manages to become a legitimately good person- which is where I think it's very clear how game!Hindley is inspired by Heathcliff's book self. This line describes game!Hindley's behavior towards Heathcliff and Catherine just as much as it describes book!Heathcliff's towards Hareton and young Cathy.
But in the end the point is there's this awareness of being hurting and turning a person into something they're not, something worse.
I think it's also very important to note those first rate qualities he talks about are very heavily referencing Hareton's ability to learn. While Heathcliff doesn't talk about this when referring to himself by this point it's obvious his own learning abilities are something he's quite proud of, all through the book he's adapting and changing to what he's faced with (from his first appearance as a child, where he doesn't even speak the same language as the family, but learns soon after, to his final plan for his own burial) and by comparing himself to Hareton he's recognizing those same qualities in him. And I feel like with what we've seen of game!Heathcliff ever since the first chapter, and what we see of him in the different identities and mirror worlds, this is gonna be quite important in part 3- all the abuse has never deprived him of his ability to improve, to learn new things, to trust in new people, just as it's never deprived him of the love he no longer feels worthy of. So! Hope we'll get to see you realize that soon, Heathcliff!!!
#bell.txt#limbus company#canto vi spoilers#canto 6 spoilers#I WAS LIKE IM GONNA TYPE A SMALL THING REALLY FAST AND INTEAD I BURNED MY HAMBURGERS WHILE WRITING THIS#this is also part of why heathcliff? is not book!h and specifically he isnt part 2!h.#his revenge is turned completely inwards instead of being outwards which makes them completely different characters#heathcliff? is specifically a deviation of timeskip!h: i was planning on doing justice on myself; until i heard your voice#it is a version of him thats never heard cathys voice again- it is the version of him whos never realized he was loved#that voice changes him! it is the reminder that she (and her love! and a future happiness!) existed- and that i have lost her!#that is a very important point in all his further behavior: all that rage is because he KNOWS they couldve lived a life together if they#hadnt been separated by circumstances and injustice. he KNOWS that was injustice that was done to him. okay im done. THANK U FOR LISTENING#edit: added alt thumbsupemoji. made me remember the extra Cycle moment in cathy mentioning the cudgel#while heaths log mentions earnshaw presumably beating hindley w/his cane. i believe hindley also fights w/one in the rabbit fight doesnt he
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i will never understand how some people can actively shit on something they know someone loves and finds joy in right in front of them. how can you hate something that makes someone else happy in this absolutely fucked world in front of them.
its the passive aggression for no reason i will never ever understand or do to others. if you have a passion, fucking LIVE it. if nothing else, passion gets us through every shitty day, and i will always support it.
have passion in spite of those who hate.
#its absolutely mind boggling to me#and genuinely makes me so fucjinf upset#i was sitting next to my sister who has been nicer to me than usual as she is talking to her online friend and im doing my nails silently b#its her polish and i didnt wanna take it out of her room. but i look up and shes ranking music genres which is all cool. but without#hesitation as the first one at the most bottom tier she put kpop. like i understand its not her cup of tea but i was like okay thats#something that actively makes me wanna keep living yaknow. and she knows that. so i was like#‘interesting placement for kpop’ and she didnt say anything so i said ‘im not sure youve listened to it enough to have such a violent#opinion on it’ and she immediately got angry saying shes ‘heard enough’ and then got mad at me for saying that saying why was i being ‘like#this what the fuck’ and my heart genuinely sunk into my ass but i couldnt leave even though i felt like crying bc i only did one hand and i#was drying at that moment plus i didn’t wanna make it a big deal. but this is not the first time she’s actively hated on my music without#prompt from me and it just makes me ????? like. music taste differs with everyone i understand this and i respect it. if something brings u#happiness then i would love to hear and listen even if i wouldn’t choose it myself. but being a bitch about it. idk#ultimately its the fact of being mean for no reason over someone else’s passion makes u a fucking asshole#:)))) im not crying bye#ashley rambles#to delete later#my mom and brother do it too btw. hating on it and making sure i hear it.#my mom was doing it the other day and my 7 year old nephew kept saying ‘pook i love it. i think its cool’ and it made me cry because kids#have the capacity for such unaltered kindness as the world has yet been cruel to them#idk man
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im actually amazed i cant find this;
SPN FRIENDS HII
do any of u know where i could find a gif of dean saying the iconic quote of "You know who wears sunglasses inside? Blind people. And douchebags." from s9 e5 "dog dean afternoon"
i SWEAR i had it saved years ago but i cant find it. pls help. xoxo
#yes theres a supernatural gif for everything and every moment#if it doesnt exist anymore thats okay one day ill make it myself#but i feel like this comes up a Lot and i'd love to be able to send this regularly#thank u gif makers btw. u literally make the world go round#i dont have an income rn but if anyone who makes fandom art (gifs fic etc) ever wants pics of my cat cas my dms are OPEN#always ready to send cas pics. always.#also for context. when watching the s1 ep ''faith'' my partner /immediately/ made fun of the faith healer for wearing sunglasses inside at#night and i responded so deadpan ''john hes BLIND''#ajchskncksjx#thinking abt that always and whenever we see someone wearing sunglasses in a piece of media this moment comes up#i sent him the lady gaga gif where she goes ''incredible. show-stopping. never been done. completely original. [etc]'' and#he responded ''is she blind'' KAJXKSJX#for ONE: that is LADY GAGA so NO U CANT MAKE FUN OF HER EVER and for TWO: AKCHKSXJKD#he just had to make sure. just had to check.#anyway. im done now#spn#dean winchester#gif search#supernatural#may delete later if anyone ever finds it#thank u for checking if u do#<3<3<3#much love to everyone ever. yk yk
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i rly spend like 75% of my time thinkin about her tbh 🥺💖
#also daydreamin about cute lil one days with her in them never ever ever ever leaving her unless she decides one day she wants me gone#its so so so so good being ur fp's fp like i love her more than i love myself rly but thats not hard ig but god i love her n shes so pretty#n cute n i just love talking to her n it makes me smile n giggly a bunch of the time#we r one in the same n like always on the same wavelength we r made from the same stuff rly truly#im just rly obsessed oki#she sent me a song today she said made her think of me n i cried i just ahhhhh like its so wild to think we wanted to die together n now#its like we daydream about doing cute stuff together rly no matter what happens in life if we hav each other its pkah#okay*#batbaby rambles
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