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hart-on-my-sleeve · 5 months ago

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"Obsessed with You" - Orion Experience WMV Ft both WWF and Memphis Jimmy!

This is exactly what you think it is. No real fancy effects on this one, focused more on clip selection and timing. Regardless, happy how it turned out lol

#jimmy hart #fanvid #fancam #music video #i made this for myself and thats a-okay #;w;#i was listening to this song in the car and thinking about Wimpbusters and thats how i got here

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cent-scratchnsniff · 1 month ago

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Please don't hurt yourself

#lobotomy corporation #lobcorp #library of ruina #hod #hod lobcorp #hod lobotomy corporation #hod library of ruina #erm... michelle. hii michelle. going to have to spoiler tag for you though baby #lobotomy corp spoilers #lobcorp spoilers #okay i think thats it #no shading because this made me want to KILL YMSELF #it looks fone w out it anyways. yay. thank you filter after effects for saving my ass this . hurt me so muchh to try to finish #nothing specific that had me make this. at least from lobcorp lor. its more of having more empathy towards my past self or when i was young #than me. right now. it feels as if the past is so devoid of my current self yet i know that its Me. its just so distant. to the point where #at times it feels as if the me of the past is devoid of the current me. im told im very empathetic? hard to tell. that im patient and kind #or more of understanding to everyone but Myself. so when i try to be kind to myself it feels impossible. but im able to do it to my past se #which makes a disconnect. please dont hurt youself. please dont hate youself. you dont need to do that. i know you want to live it hurts #i know. its alright to want to live. you dont need to apologize and feel Guilty. but never towards Myself. to console and wish to soothe bu #not to the current self. to pardon and accept but not to this Me. so i wanted to put it down kinda. felt most similar to hod ish.#its guilt for living. apologizing for existing. wanting to be accepted and pardoned. but also forgiving and accepting the self of before #not so much forgiving. forgive is a weird word. the hurt never leaves. and the guilt is there regardless. but. yknow. accept #sorry some random shit. yappin. who gaf abt that guy. who was that guy. anyways. hod <3 HODD!!!#just like to ramble abt what i think abt when i go to make pieces. since i uhh dont really have anyone to tell who would care. so. awkward.#god thats embarrassing actuallt migjt delete if im not lazy asf later. loser oversharing on the internet AHH 💥💥#uhmm back to the actual piece. the proportions and fhe coloring were having me feel like i was dging trying to get it right. almost #considered just gettinf rid of it and scrapping the whole piece. didnt though. wanted to have it done and finished. hod <3 #the feeligns described arent what i would relate w hod? but closest chatacter towards the general thougut. so wanfed to draw her #i wanted to do more w ligjting and such as well. but it never ended up getting in. maybe later

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polkadotjohnson · 10 months ago

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Jack Delroy's deliciously biteable neck✨

#david dastmalchian #jack delroy #late night with the devil #i made these for myself okay #but its okay you can look at it too #obsessed with a body part of my obsession #thats me currently

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deoidesign · 5 months ago

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Thinks about my next series again... I drew the icon for it!

I'm planning to have it launched within a year! I'm hoping for summer 2025. I want to make a prelaunch page before Time and Time Again ends so people can subscribe if they're interested, but I'm worried the series return would be too early...

#SORRY HAHAHA REPOSTING IMMEDIATELY #i. it. IM SORRY okay the.#i had 'im not interested in the comic' as an option but it immediately made me feel bad #DONT FEEL BAD IF YOU PICKED IT i put it there #i just realized its not really a helpful metric to me at all!#im making the comic either way!#so i just want to gague interest. disinterest doesnt do much for me. you can come and go as you please!#just wanting to retain readers as much as possible but without losing them due to taking too long #ahhhh the balance of marketing. a beautiful beast she is.#anyways yeah hoping to launch like about as tta is ending #or like at LEAST a prelaunch page by then #im also not intending for the prelaunch page to be like. announced...#moreso just a link i append on art for the series!#just so when a drawing of zagan gets 500 notes #people who are interested in what hes from can. see that...#anyways. sorry i haven't been posting work is wild im going 70+ hours a week again i am so tired #not much time to draw non work stuff #im hanging on by a thread of having multiple projects i can bounce between again #and sometimes thats this one! so heres the results of some mental health work variety #we were legion #polls #sorry for the instant repost. in my defense. i am exhausted.#i can not wait until im making a different comic that i can do a fucking. normal ass schedule with #where im not every week gasping for breath in some kind of bad at swimming metaphor.#anyways if youre not interested dont tell me. it doesnt matter to me. no offense but i just dont wanna hear it.#i want to make the comic and my audience as much as i love you all is not going to have any control over what i do with my art #im gonna make this comic if i only get it done on weekends after getting home from the fuckin movie theater #i am not working for webtoon again wnd im not forcing myself into the dirt for comics again #but im also never gonna stop making them. just need to build a healthier relationship!#FUCK I MADE IT A ONE DAY POLL.

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thewhizzyhead · 4 months ago

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warriors 2024 and the art of giving meaning to struggle

alrighty ramble time: let's talk about luther and how he managed to fuck up NYC for good. if luther were like i dunno lex luthor, i'd say his move to destabilize gang relations in nyc is a very fucking calculated move because i really do have to give credit to him in actually achieving the goal he set out for himself because his decision to kill cyrus,,,,aka the one that organized the "Please No Gang Fighting" summit that aimed to unite everyone against the bigger baddies of NYC,,,essentially fucking killed any and all chance of such a peace summit and unity initiative from ever happening again. because, like, after seeing a beloved and seemingly untouchable leader be murdered in front of all of you despite explicit instructions to Not Bring Weapons, would you even risk witnessing that chaos again in another summit? would you trust that forming a united force work after such a tragedy? is there even a possibility of finding trust among other NYC gangs if someone among their number killed your very hope? so yea knowing how the movie ends with just the gramercy riffs saying that the warriors (with two dead people and one arrestee in tow) are off the hook because someone else witnessed luther killing cyrus,,,the original ending is actually quite hopeless when you think about it in their shoes. in the words of movie swan himself in the movie, is what they end up with all their night of sleepless fighting and struggle is worth? hence, i now really see why warriors (2024) decided to make what I consider to be the 2nd biggest diversion outside of the genderswap: making cleon live - because otherwise, the warriors' struggles surviving the night can be said to be struggle for solely struggle's sake.

in the musical, cleon is an astute believer in cyrus and the future cyrus envisions for all of NYC - thus, she becomes the harbinger of cyrus' hope in the form of still breathin' and somewhere in the city. her being alive doesn't detract from the widespread tragedy faced by the NYC gangs - i still really believe that no matter what, luther effectively killed their one shot at true unity and trust - but in cleon's own words: "What do you do when they kill everything you believe in? Give it meanin." the decision to keep cleon alive is warriors (2024) counteractive measure at the absolute shithole luther placed NYC in because in her message of keeping the dream alive despite situations that are, realistically speaking, impossible to wholly recover from, gives their struggle meaning, purpose, and direction - the end goal being hope. that theme of hope despite and in spite of adversity now becomes evident on as to why we are made to be invested in the warriors' journey home and their subsequent growth. in mercy's decision to leave the orphans for a place of belonging and pride that can make her finally hold her head up high. in ajax's and fox's decisions to retaliate against their pursuants among sleazy old men in blue. in swan's persistence in getting the rest of her crew home alive despite still reeling from the loss of her leader and her fellow warriors. all attribute their own reasons to why they resist and rebel because they ultimately hope for something fucking better. ultimately, warriors (2024) exists because of the want to give more meaning to struggle in the form of hope amidst hopelessness. in the movie, the warriors find their meaning in the sweet simple bliss of survival - in making to coney island's sunrise. but in the album, another meaning is emphasized among not just the warriors, but the marginalized communities of NYC in general: their meaning of struggle goes beyond surviving the night - because they carry on and carry forth the dream of one day having a city where they all come home alive. because after all, isn't the formation of grassroots rooted in resistance - and isn't resistance born out of the want and hope for something better?

#okay um here as an journalist activist here in the ph this theme hits hard for me #because like for example why do i choose to like bend myself backwards in my work beyond academics?#because this is my means of resisting #and why do i choose to resist #because i choose to believe in the hope for something better #hence with that i understand why cleon had to live for warriors 2024 to work #because without an earnest believer in cyrus' vision of a better nyc for their constituents #then the theme of hope and the meaning of struggle made evident in cleon's shining moments #would not have been fully recognized as a running theme for the warriors' journey home - at least in my opinion #especially now that the genderswap has led the recontextualization of their struggles #and with added socio-political themes in the form of emphasis on the cops being the fuckin baddies #but yea anyways woo this is why i hold somewhere in the city and still breathin as among my top 3 best songs here #lyrically and thematically speaking #because like woo we have our two thesis statements right there hallelujah #anyways woo thats the warriors ramble for tonight imma sleep na bye bye #warriors #warriors album #warriors musical #lin manuel miranda #eisa davis

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scissorcraft · 8 months ago

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i really want to make isat friends…

#in this moment…#but i’m too scared ;-;#you guys all seem rly fun n cool n sweet #i love seeing tags on my art n everyone is so so nice!!! i’d love to reach out n make friends so bad #but i’m. terrified.#my usual method of making friends is starting a private discord server #n it usually goes amazing - it’s how i met my current family and how i’ve made so many friends!!!#but i’m petrified right now. something in me broke a while back and i don’t know if it’ll fix…#i hope that… i can make one soon. maybe after i get back on my meds i’ll be okay.#but!! like. in the meantime #if anyone. wants to try ? i may be slow and scared and overly guarded bug i want to make friends #and i’ll Try if anyone feels up to reaching out? ;-; i’d appreciate it tbh!!! but no one has to!!!#i wrote myself a lil script tfgvu for a comic maybe. itll be so annoying but it’ll be a very person piece n i think it’d b good for me to #make ngl… a good look into my Twisted Mind (/s/s/s thats a joke!!!!!)#SORRY THIS IS REALLY REALLY VENTY JGUGGUG #i have difficulties my whole life with feeling like a perpetual outsider <3 i need to work on that somehow

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comfortfrogblog · 2 years ago

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setbacks do not mean you have lost all of your progress. it is part of the healing process to go through ups and downs. as hard as it is, it will never be straight sailing—but the wonderful thing is that’s why we have other people to walk through it all with. it is okay (preferred, even) to lean on someone you trust when you are hurting or when you feel like you’ve failed yourself.

healing does not mean you will never experience that hurt again. healing means learning to cope and strengthen yourself for the hurt you know will come. healing means finding the courage to endure it. healing means asking for help when you need it and learning to even know when you need that help. healing does not mean just surviving—it means learning to live, too.

you haven’t failed. you are growing. it is okay to start again with the knowledge that you’ve acquired in your setbacks, so that each time you do start again, you make it further and further until eventually, those setbacks are so few and far in between that they are no longer your default state.

your hurting won’t always be your default state.

#cathy says words #comfort #i never thought i’d have a fullblown panic attack again #but i did today #and thats okay. i did my best to cope and accommodate myself through it #and i made it through and i am okay #setbacks happen and thats inevitable #you must learn to take care of yourself and be kind to yourself instead of being angry with yourself when they happen #it is okay

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lesbiangiratina · 3 months ago

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Dizzy and testament having 5 voice lines between them is kind of fucking bleak to be so real. I kinda hate strive when it comes to character interaction. If you dont make it into arcade mode youre fucked. Testament and dizzy interact more substantially in the shitty 2006 psp spinoff game than strive

#WHAT DO YOU MEAN GOLDLEWIS AND ABA IN HER ARCADE MODE #i wasnt letting myself expect testament but like. huh #i havent checked it out just seeing people underwhelmed lol #ftr testament just has the 2 intro lines for dizzy. same for dizzy but she also has aaaa. respect or win line idk #its cute. commenting on the progress theyve made. the intros are just like. okay. happy to see you talking in general i suppose #dizzy has an extra voice file thats just the second half of one of them idk what thats about. got excited that she had 4 but well no -_-#the kat goes meow

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tommygotwrittenoff · 3 months ago

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listen, buck doesn't actually miss t. like yeah maybe he misses dates and kissing someone and sex, but that's him missing the relationship, not t. i think what is driving buck insane is the fact that t was able to see he wasn't buck's last. he saw something in buck that made him not even want to try. and that's what keeps driving buck to call him, he wants to know because he's been trying for years to figure out why all his relationships fail and t knows but didn't explain.

#also the fact that t was like im not your last but still dated buck for 6 MONTHS is wild #and yeah okay sure t was talking about how your first gay experience isnt your last #but like no????#your first can be your last #i think he just said that because he knew thats how it was for buck not for like all queer people #he knew hed never get to be anything more than bucks first #he knew going into that relationship that he wasnt going to be bucks last #and when buck tried to move things to be more serious he ended it #because he Knows #buck finding his last (eddie) is inevitable and it wont even be a competition #it wouldnt even be a choice for buck because theres not a world where buck doesnt choose eddie #and t knows that #wow i almost made myself feel bad for t #JUST KIDDING FUCK THAT MAN HES GONE YIPPEEEE #me thinks

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rebornofstars · 4 months ago

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nobody fucking touch me rn i went to see tf one in the cinema and im shaking. they actually made a good transformers movie. what the fuck

#time to go home and read the entirety of jro's mtmte and lost light again ig #what the FUCK i was not expecting it to be actually fucking stunning. that's MY loser dumpster fire of a children's toy franchise how did t #ey actually make it . good #really good #five out of five stars. when elita said “you dont have the touch or the power” i fucking choked #obviously it is only going to mire the canon more because of the changes to megatron's backstory (no gladiators 😔) & lack of allspark plot #but i dont even fucking care. dont even touch me rn i cant ever get over this #broken friendships & corruption arcs are THE SHIT and they did this one better than i was expecting #when pax fell like a falling star... primus itself opened to him...#ratchet cameo! arcee cameo! jazz cameo! not to mention ALPHA TRION #i can see the war in this . i can see this . millions of years in the future they will still b fighting. orion mightve been a “pacifist” by #megatron's standards but he knows how to fight. he fights more than he should. and bee.... bee... THATS MY FUCKING NAMESAKE GUYS DONT EVEN #TOUCH ME RN. IM SHAKING. HOLY SHIT #bumblebee you are SUCH a dork. what the FUCK.#and the quintessons!!!!! i am LIVING for the art direction and the organic/inorganic imagery #those quintesson energon-hoover things reminded me of energon eaters too. & in that first shot of them entering the cave w the primes i #originally thought scraplets before i came back to myself. there's something to be said here tho.#they did a good job with the worldbuilding. suitably alien-like. exceeded expectations. that ginormous quintesson ship? i'm going insane #you can SEE the birth of the myth in this stupid fucking movie you can SEE how op becomes who he becomes. the way he grew. the way they bot #grew until they were the only person that could hold the other back . the way he is going to be irreversibly changed. d16's eyes...#that scene w starscream has a chokehold on me. i cant breathe. the way they all looked at megatron when his blaster emerged #the fight scenes #ELITA ONE !!!#AIRACHNID !!!!#honest to god though i must confess that the first coherent thought i had about this movie was “oh they made him so cunty” . abt pax. i #am so sorry #but okay okay okay i . they were amica endura at the beginning. at the least. i'm. AKHRERJGH #tf one #me when megatron ascended out of iacon & he was the only land vehicle amid a swarm of planes. me when the SYMBOLISM #🐝

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asthedeathoflight · 14 days ago

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She is one piece now!!!! Sleeve island was not that bad. Joining sleeves in the round while doing intarsia in the round though. Fucking nightmare. I hate it here. You all better cheer and clap for this fucking W or im blowing this whole building up.

#the sweater #telling myself this isnt the most stitches ive ever had on my needles by a long shot #but stilllll the rows are sooooo fucking long #like this is only 208 stitches #and im a shawl knitter okay. i made a wingspan. that bitch prolly had 500+ stitches by the end #but stilllllllll #i mean its def the most stitches ive had in a plain stockinette round thats for sure #only like 10 more rows of intarsia in the round and then im free!!!!#then its time to do plain stockinette for approx. ten years. and then a little bit of colorwork around the neck. and then a collar.#and then im DONE!!!!!!#btw this sweater pattern has an afterthought hem???? hello???? girl????#why would u do that.... what do you have against casting on in rib on smaller needles.....#anyways i didnt do that bc i. didnt notice.

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thecrowsart · 11 months ago

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👁️🦎🎯

(crops under cut)

#natsume yuujinchou #matoba seiji #natori shuuichi #horrible exorcists #sorry i couldnt think of a caption i literally sat here for like 2 minutes lol #usually i use a quote from the scene or a lyric from a song but in this scene they're just Looking #anyway FUCK architecture #really though this is csp's perspective ruler's fault. i shoulda just done this by hand #but i made it work. since it wasnt super super complicated lol #ummm i feel like natori looks like a baby ceo but that is what he was wearing at least in the anime version of this scene #and midorikawa's kind of vague about clothes so i made it easy on myself #but why are you rolling up to the exorcist meeting in a navy blazer and tan chinos?#his uniform color is tan so ig the pants could be from that but the blazer......#tryna represent the natori clan in front of the other exorcists ig idk #meanwhile matobas just in his gakuran lol #hes not the clan head yet so he can just be there as a kid #he even gets told off by takuma and called seiji-kun.....could you imagine like.#it's weird for him to not be matoba #anyway. um i completely kind of fudged the architecture because its hard to tell where exactly in the building this scene is and #i had a specific composition in mind #i only realized i messed up how the windows work like 3/4 of the way into lineart soooo #but thats the kind of thing only i would notice probably #btw i was originally drawing a different scene of them but i was faced with the reality of foliage.#and i remembered this romeo and juliet ass scene existed so #i chose architecture LOL #okay last thing. i feel like natoris haircut is too polished and nice but fr wtf is his canon hair #im doing my best LOL.........but boy #OKAY im done

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tired-demonspawn · 24 days ago

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hey. so.

didnt plan on reading sonic the movie fanfiction of all things, right? right.

but alas the picture of outsider pov mean bean customer witnessing stone pining on main between movies 1 and 2 was so utterly VIVID in my mind i ended up looking some up.

because i mean. the setup is so obvious, it is practically begging to be written and then read by some fanatical idiot like myself. no way an author hasnt yet taken advantage of the premise.

ONLY TO FIND OUT NOBODY HAS

WHAT ARE YOU GUYS DOING?????

(left an essay in the tags, christ 💀)

#sonic #sonic agent stone #sonic live action #live action sonic #agent stone #i SUPPOSE i could write it myself but thats not the point of this post is it?#the point is that im flabergasted that nobody has made it yet #like i said the setup is so OBVIOUS #i mean when he closed early there were actual honest to god people in there #some of them HAD to be regulars and god i hope some of them were NOSY regulars #fuck it dude you dont have to be nosy to be intrigued by a guy making elaborate latte art of some guy and then-#being like 'doctor where are you? 🥺' while looking at it longingly #also also??? the establishment was called karen's before with management what you would expect(as seen in the tie in comic)#AND its in green hills #like???#okay i havent seen the 1st movie in a while but???? pretty sure the only character who interacts with stone is robotnik #you could literally write maddie and tom and hell wade if that strikes your fancy go there completely without knowing????#i know i mentioned wade offhandedly but i mean we know he goes there as part of his rounds????#LIKE IM TALKING ABOUT THE WASTED POTENTIAL HERE #NOT ONE FIC GUYS #amateur hour istg

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szaryherbatnik · 27 days ago

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Marius is so very character to me. I snort whenever he says these cliche heroic things. As my friend said- most of the things he said are very paladin core. And i havent seen enough of eom to be sure about this but i interpret these things as some sort of masking if i can call it that? Performing to cover up his past, repeating the same phrases hes heard from those he considers true heroes. Being a true knight only because his performance is so polished.