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im probably going to be quiet here for a little bit. or maybe ill write my grief, who knows at this point
#i feel suffocated right now and its hard to stop crying#all i can really do is send my love to his family and friends#i hope anyone who follows me that is affected grieves safely#i love you. please stay safe.#wooahaes.txt#writing usually helps but i dont even want to look at it right now for… obvious reasons#maybe when i stop feeling nauseous.
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will wood was right, it’s fucking awful out here socrates
#will wood#willard#in light of recent events#my god you guys#i love you all so much please stay safe
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queer people?
#pitskederdoenerhaendler#pitske’s art#w2h film#w2h#welcome to hell film#w2h jonathan#w2h sock#sockathan#I am insaning today please send no help I need to suffer in silence and lonely#except that Tecs with me in vc HELLO MIKKEYYY#anyway. I drew the gays#I like them so much I think they shouldn't kill themselves#I got a vision for drawing today. I just fnally needed to get these out of my system#I was asked if I would post them today or tomorrow but you have to understand my schedule does not exist and posting happens on a whim#either way stay safe y'all love you
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To survive is a show of strength
#id in alt text#queer#queer community#therian#otherkin#alterhuman#misceverse#objectum#disabilty#system#plurality#blm#lgbt#lgbtq+#trans#unicorn#I love all of you please stay safe#all you need to do is live
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Yoongi
Hang in there. We will get through this. He left after giving us all he had and with a reassurance that he'd be back. He slipped but we will catch him. We are here for a reason. The Universe said so.
#yoongi#we will get through this#apobangpo#army x bts forever#no one is perfect and thats what makes it human#i love you yoongi#please stay safe
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hey, so i don’t usually talk about this sort of thing on here and i’m not the best with words, but i need to say this:
you, the person reading this, have to survive.
you are strong. you are so, SO strong and so extremely brave. don’t give them what they want. they want you to be afraid, they want you to give up hope, but you cannot give that to them. do not give them power over you like that.
it’s only 4 years. that may seems like a very long time, but you survived his first term. you can do it again, i KNOW you can. and if his term somehow lasts longer than 4 years? i still know you can do it. will it be challenging? of course it will, but i and so many other believe that you can make it through to the other side.
take a break from the screens. go outside and just sit with yourself or invite your friends to sit along with you. spend time with your pets, indulge in your hobbies, or try something new. take the time to enjoy the little things in life. maybe reach out to a mutual you’ve never spoken to or who you haven’t spoken to in a while.
just please don’t give up. don’t give up on yourself. don’t let that smelly old man have power over you as a human being.
please survive. i know you can. it’ll be okay.
#graveyardtxt#u.s politics#sorry if this sounds repetitive or it just isn’t that great. i just woke up to all this#i won’t post anything else today (maybe not tomorrow either)#but after that i’ll go back to being as silly as i can to create a safe space for those who need it#just please don’t give up#the world fucking sucks rn. this election. the war. it all sucks#but you have to stay alive. there are people who love you so much
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Scoria and Sakura are best friends! It's so cute when I see the things they do together, and it makes me so beyond happy that they both came to live with me so that they could share their lives with each other. They absolutely insist on it, and does so much good for the other.
I can't imagine how else they could have found happiness if things hadn't worked out exactly as they did. Scoria has basically been Sakura's "emotional support snake" while she worked through things from her past I'll never fully know that caused her a lot of issues with panic and fear. Sakura knows this too, and looks out for her sister, the only one she truly trusts and feels completely safe with.
The moment they wake up they both want each other to snuggle and play with. Scoria loves to be affectionate with both me and her sister who seems to have not had this earlier in her life- but Scoria is showing her how nice it is not only directly but demonstrating with me and Sakura also trying, copying what she has seen her sister do.
Sometimes when one goes to check on the other they'll join in on... I'm not even sure what they were doing. But they had a good time while taking a mandated union break from digging tunnels for the isopods.
So happy I get to share in the adventures of these two best friends! It makes me so happy to see them living their best lives together, and being beyond content snuggled together with their found family.
#cute#pets#snakes#friends#animals#I think Sakura tried copying Scoria and didn't quite get the full memo#So she went down the front bark and Scoria went down the back which leads into diggy dirt#And Sakura was like#“I followed friend into bark but where is friend???”#Meanwhile Scoria was probably oblivious her little sister was trying to find her & she may was well have her front half going into a portal#Eventually they found each other fully#And were very clear they prefer their home far more than this enclosure they helped build tunnels for#I'm glad to know they like their home#While I do want to make it more aesthetically pleasing#the current focus was filling it with things they enjoy#Specifically things they have a lot of fun playing with or on#I want their home to be the place they feel safe but also enjoy being in#not a prison#a bedroom#I think they like their enclosure but they sometimes don't want to go in it because they also really enjoy spending time with me#Scoria really does#but also communicates effectively when she is sleepy from playing and needs to rest#as much as they love each other when they go to sleep for the night they sleep alone#even with the option to stay near each other#I think this is nature rather than something I taught them by separating them into their own enclosures after play time#which makes me wonder if humans classified them as solitary just because they don't want room mates#like plenty of people i know choose to live alone but that doesn't mean they are introverts/solitary#I wonder if wild hoggies sleep alone (not counting brumation) and their social lives outside their den was completely ignored#Like I bet they live in a neighborhood or kingdom or whatever you want to call it#The fact they can communicate“I'm friendly let's be nice to each other”indicates a species that regularly comes into contact with each other
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To all my Jewish and Israeli peeps- I love you. You all are amazing and wonderful people. Please stay safe and please take care of yourselves ❤️
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trans people i love you trans people i love you trans people i love you trans people i love you
#i am so sorry#i am so sorry and my state is very likely to be even worse about their handle of trans rights (which was already worse to begin with)#i am hugging all of you#please stay safe#please take care#i'm struggling on what to say but i love you
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Sorry if this is a personal request but!! Can I get Venti, Scara, and Gorou with a S/O who has heavy triggers to alcohol/the smell and stuff bc of a parent who was always drunk so they had to be the parent in the house? Not like abusive or anyth but just always drunk and emotionally distressing to see
No worries if you don't wanna take this, ty for reading! 💕
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𝜗𝜚 ┈ venti, scara, and gorou x reader (seperate) ! 。
notes: idm taking this at all! i feel very honored that you came to my writing for this kind of comfort. that means very much to me. i hope you're ok and in a safer place now, anon. if not, it's ok. everything will get better; i promise you <3
headcanons ノ fluff/angst (?) ノgn! reader ノcanon universe
second person pov !! please enjoy! ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶
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venti
now, we're all well aware of his drinking habits. it's a fun past time for him, and it helps him relax
one night, he tried to drink around you, and was admittedly very surprised when you didn't want to
the two of you were practically attached to the hip, you two did everything together! so...why was this any different?
once you explained everything to him, he immediately understood and put the alcohol away and makes a fun soda/cider kind of drink instead!
over time, he starts drinking a lot less. on the odd occasion that he does get drunk, he just lets you know and stays kind of far away (he'll miss you greatly, but your comfort is safety is far more important to him)
will come to you the next day, hung over and clingy, but most of all; so happy to see you
scaramouche
he only really drinks as a sign of politeness, but nothing too crazy
he hates the taste and gets 0 enjoyment off being drunk. him coming home wasted isn't something you have to worry about
however, if you're at a place like a party or a festival, where there's a large collection of drunk people, he'll immediately whisk you away and take you somewhere else; wherever you want to go
if you two go back home, he'll immediately start to pamper you. he wants you to remember that you don't owe him anything. that you aren't a child stuck as a parent
he knows you weren't exactly abused or anything, but he's still careful with his touches regardless, only wanting you to be comfortable
expect gentle massages and light kisses. he'll praise you on how well you're doing, no matter if you're freaking out, or if you're just calm
gorou
similar to scara, gorou only drinks for polite reasons, or if there's something to celebrate. he never goes too far
however, if he does get drunk, he might get a tad bit clingier. not to the point where he's totally helpless; just more affectionate
if you need him to step away because you're getting upset, he'll do so with no complaints. he knows your boundaries need to be respected
will 100% show up with a bouquet and a box of candies the next day as an apology, even if he didn't exactly do anything wrong
gorou would probably stay the night with a buddy to make sure you don't end up triggered or scared. the last thing he wants is for you to be unsettled because of him or something he did
listens if you need to just vent and talk abt it. he understands that what you went through was traumatic, and that seeing someone you love in that very same state must hurt you to a degree. he'll just hold you and comfort you, providing all you need <3
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#genshin impact#genshin imagines#venti#venti x reader#scaramouche#scaramouche x reader#gorou#gorou x reader#anon i love you please stay safe#ghost.writes
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Trans women. I'm grabbing you by the shoulders and yelling. YOU DO NOT HAVE TO BE SKINNY TO BE FEMININE AND PRETTY AND CUTE. PLEASE STOP MAKING DIETS PART OF YOUR TRANSITION GOALS. WEIGHT LOSS IS A SCAM. I LOVE YOU. TAKE CARE OF YOURSELVES. YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL.
#I see so many transfems say they want to have “flat stomachs” or do diet and exercise regimes to try and get an “hourglass figure”#and it really worries me. girls you do not have to destroy yourselves to fit into unachievable beauty standards#the vast majority of cis women don't even fit those standards#and the same goes for you transmascs! I see you! I see you trying to get smaller chests and hurting yourselves with weight loss routines#and excessive workouts. it's not worth it. weight loss has OVER a 90% long-term failure rate and there's a reason for that#I assure you whatever diet you think you've found that “works for you” won't be working so well 5 years from now#and you're going to blame yourself for “slacking off”. but it's not you. it was never you. it was designed to fail.#these standards are made to hurt people and then sell them a false solution at the price of your health#I encourage you to transition if you'd like and live your best life I really do. but please please please do so SAFELY.#if weight loss is part of your transition goals please reevaluate WHY you believe thinness is necessary for achieving femininity#(or masculinity or androgyny but this stuff particularly affects women in the way it's marketed)#do research on fatphobia and the roots of weight loss culture. Learn where these ideas come from and why they're so prevalent.#It's extremely important#take care. stay safe. love you very much#trans#fat liberation#transgender#lgbt#trans rights#fat positivity#diet culture#fatphobia#transfem#trans positivity#transgirl#trans women#trans woman
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I'm bummed out!! I hope these goobers cheer you up, too. Reference used.
#fiddlestan#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#stanley pines#You can probably tell what I'm depressed about given the date.#just live despite it all? okay?#We'll still be here for each other. Alright? Please ensure each other's safety. Please make sure you're safe too. There's resources out‐#there. Alright? Alright. I love you guys stay safe.
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Wasnt going to post tonight but I think we all need some stress relief posts to break up the tension tonight. I'll be trying to get to as many requests as I can.
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I wish y'all a sweet sweet pride month. Sending you strenght, hugs if you want them, and love.
#You never have to come out if you don't want to or you can't#stay safe#love you all my queer mutuals and viewers#star trek#star trek fanart#sketch#my art#spock#mr spock#SFS40#SearchForSpock40#pride month#Currently hiding under my blankets because of covid#I wanted to do a full illustration here but heh sometimes you have to take a break#So here is a SFS redraw#if you're a bigot and reading this#well maybe you should rewatch Star Trek more closely (and please block me)
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there's something really cool about the environment
even if all the living organisms - the plants, animals, and soil - are wiped out of an area, and it becomes bare rock
eventually, with enough time, moss and lichen will start to grow on the rocks. the moss and lichen will grow and die and grow and die until eventually they make soil. they allow for small plants and grasses to grow. they are called pioneer species.
with enough time, intermediate species like shrubs, grasses, and certain trees take over. eventually, the landscape will grow into a forest, or whatever ecosystem it was originally. it becomes a climax community.
this process is called succession. if trump winning is the disturbance that makes us go back to bare rock, let us be the pioneer species. we cannot give up just because there's mostly rock right now. we have made our own soil before, and we must do it again. embrace your inner lichen and make sure we pave the way for success, even if we don't see it ourselves.
#us politics#election 2024#us elections#kamala harris#donald trump#fuck trump#please stay safe#we have no choice but to stay strong#i love you
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MEDIC! Part 38 (Donald Malarkey x Fem!OC)
Hey guys big tigger warning on this chapter! Please be very aware, I do not want anyone to feel triggered or uncomfortable by my writing. I write a lot of things from my own experience, and it does sound weird to say but writing this chapter helped me express a lot of feelings I didn't know I had. If you do not want to read this chapter I totally understand, I have tried to make the graphic scene less so. I hope anyone who has ever experienced SA or worse has been able to heal. Love you all truly, if you want to talk about anything my messages are always open, I am so happy to chat!!
TW- R*pe, SA, Violence, talks of assault, (please let me know if I missed any).
Based on the HBO show and the actors who portray the characters, not hate to anyone involved.
Tag list: @imusicaddict, @b00ks1ut , @mstiemountainhop, @awaterfalls, @lovememadly92 @lucyfromtheoldhouse @blueberry-ovaries anyone else please let me know.
The man had dragged me into the jeep, the cold barrel of the gun pressed into my side. The replacements didn’t get to me in time, I watched them stand over Grant’s body as the soldier pulled away from the scene. Tears streamed down my face as I tried to muffle my sobs, the man kept the gun pressed into my side.
I glanced over to him, the purple smudges under his eyes from when Don had struck him in the face. He drove erratically swerving from side to side on the road. I gripped the side of the car, nervous that I was going to fly out the side. I thought about hurling myself from the vehicle, but the thought of being crushed under the wheels and then losing the ability to get away made bile rise in my throat.
“What do you want?” I yelled over the whip of the wind.
The man looked towards me, the glare in his eyes made my chest clench, he looked as if he wanted to kill me. He raised his gun, I bit my lip regretting my words, squeezing my eyelids shut, I didn’t want him to be the last face I saw. The butt of the gun smashed down into my cheek, I yelped out in pain reaching up to cradle my now throbbing face. I flinched away from the man trying to crawl into the farthest reaches of the car. But it was no use, I was trapped.
With every passing second we were getting further away from the base, if we kept going any longer I wouldn’t be able to find my way back.
“I killed him.” The man uttered, I cautiously set my eyes back on the driver. “Your fucking boyfriend, I killed him. He got what he deserved y’know, no one fucking hits me and gets away with it.”
My eyes widened, he thought Grant was Don. I didn’t point out the fact that he had actually gotten the wrong man. I didn’t need to give him incentive to go back to base and hurt anymore people.
I sat as still as humanly possible, hoping that my silence would make me invisible. My hyperventilating made me feel faint. I dragged in deep breaths trying to stop the shake in my hands, but it was no use. The adrenaline that surged through my veins had me set on edge like a live wire.
The jeep slowed, my eyes frantically searched the surrounding area. I didn’t know where I was anymore. My brain had blacked out the drive we had taken, time had lost all meaning. I didn’t know how long I had been in the car, or if we had turned along the way.
But there didn’t seem to be anything of note for him to be stopping. So why were we?
Unfortunately my question had been answered all too quickly. Out of the corner of my eye I could see the man surging towards me, my arms came up to protect my face, but his hungry hands latched onto me.
“No, please.” I uttered terrified. But it was no use the man tugged me down, until I was laying flat against the car seat.
He hovered above me a sickening slimy grin shone in the dark. He eyed me like a wolf eyed its prey, I was a piece of meat and he hadn’t eaten in weeks.
“You’re so pretty.” He muttered into my ear. By this point I was gasping for air, nothing was making its way into my lungs. My eyes burned, the places his filthy hands touched felt like acid on my skin.
I swallowed, his gun was on the dash. I could reach out and grab it. But what if I wasn’t quick enough, or he won it off me before I could even shoot. I didn’t know where I was, if he shot me and left me out here I was surely going to die. But I didn’t want to be unconscious, not around him, I wanted to know my fate, even if it was dreadful. I couldn’t have the unknown, I didn’t want to wonder what he had done to my dead body.
His hand clamped around my chin forcing me to look him in the eye. I felt vomit rising in my mouth. His greasy hair hung down limp and lifeless as his bloodshot eyes roamed my body. I squirmed under him as he straddled my waist.
There was no way of getting out of this. If I wanted to live I would have to endure what was going to come.
His fingers dug into the open wound on my cheek, a cry of pain crawled from my throat.
“I said, you look so pretty.” The drunk man’s lips brushed my skin with every word.
Tears streamed down the sides of my face and into my ears muffling my surroundings. I choked back sobs. My body was pinned under his, my arms by my sides. I was stuck, his body weight didn’t even give me wiggle room.
He flashed me a wicked smile as he pulled back, his eyes were pitch black, the sound of his lips curling up around his teeth had me shaking.
“Thank you.” I uttered, my voice breaking.
I love you Don, please forgive me.
“Relax Emily. We’re just going to have some fun.” The man’s voice was hoarse and croaky, his breath smelt of stale liquor.
My name in his mouth made me want to scream, but we were so far away from anyone no one would hear my pleas for help.
His hands found the tops of my thighs dragging me down further so I lay more flat in the passenger seat. My heart hammered into my chest, so hard that it physically hurt.
The sound of his zip sliding down the track filled the silence of the night. It wasn’t long till his hands found mine, I felt his fingers brush down my crotch. I squeezed my eyes shut, willing myself to wake up from this nightmare. I had fallen asleep on Don’s chest, I would wake up back in the room, the sound of the men’s voices would fill my senses along with the warm fire.
But reality hit me like a tonne of bricks as the man yanked my pants down exposing me to the cold night.
I know what I must do.
The man’s hot breath fanned across my face, making my eyes water more than they already were.
He pulled down my pants, to just above my knees. I forced myself to relax, I knew it would be more painful if I resisted.
I heard him grunt, the sound of my clothes ripping deafened my surroundings. I looked up to the night sky, just past his head. Thousands of tiny flickering lights filled the black void. This wasn’t my body anymore, the stars were my home. I felt myself floating up towards the sky, high above the scatter of thin clouds and into the atmosphere.
He forced himself into me, dragging me back down to earth. I plummeted back into my body, jolting in pain and gasping for air that never gave me the satisfaction of filling my lungs.
I focussed back on the sky, trying to not hear his moans and grunts.
The dark void of the night pulled me up again. So high I could see all of Austria. The lake shone in the pale moonlight, the thick forest was like a black hole pulling all of the light into its vacuum. The mountains stood like tall giants against the night, looking like they were watching over the small town, its yellow flickering lights glowed warm.
My body was a tiny spec down below, in a vacant street hidden in the trees. That body wasn’t mine, that wasn’t me down there being violated, I was up here in the heavens so far away from earth it was nothing but a crumb.
But I could still hear her, even from so far away. I could hear her stifling sobs and her ragged breath that misted in the cold night air. I could see the shimmer of tears sliding down her cheeks and into her hair that haloed around her head. I could see her blood stained hands curled into fists as she lay perfectly still.
The man hovered above her, the muscles of his back tensing, then shaking with release. I could see him pull back, leaving the young girl bare and lifeless as she stared up at me. Her cold eyes held no life, they glazed over not present with reality.
Suddenly I crashed back down to earth, back into the body that wasn’t mine. I gasped for air, the sensation of my skin prickled and tingeld, I wanted it off, I wanted out again. To not be here staring up at the bright moon that tauntingly hung in the night sky.
But my suffering wasn’t over, the man’s hands latched around my neck. I wasn’t even present enough to jump at his touch, my eyes bulged as he squeezed, cutting off my oxygen supply. I could feel the blood vessels bursting in my sclera, my temples throbbed from the pressure. I clawed at his hands as my vision started to blur. No, no, no! I needed to be conscious. I bucked against him trying to throw his weight, but the crushing sensation of my windpipe never ceased. His grip was strong.
So I gave up, my body grew slack and heavy. I let my eyes flutter shut and my head loll back.
I fought the urge to gulp in air as his hands released from my throat. I didn’t dare breathe until I knew I was safe.
The man’s weight fell from my body, my eyes clamped shut. I used my other senses to try and figure out what he was doing. I dragged in short shallow breaths as I heard his side door open and the jostle of the jeep as he got out of the car. Gravel crunched under his feet, I could hear him walk away and then closer again.
I stalled my breathing when the door behind me opened. I let my body tumble out of the car as he cursed wildly under his breath. His hands grasped under my armpits as he dragged me off the road. I could feel the texture of the ground change from small sharp rocks to soft grass.
He grunted as he tossed me, my body rolling down into the ditch on the side of the road. I kept my body as floppy as possible so that he wouldn't suspect I was still alive.
I lay face up, my arms thrown to the sides of my body as my legs had tangled with each other. I heard him walk back to the car but not get in. I begged silently for him to leave, but his footsteps arrived back to the edge of the bank again.
Time stood still as I heard the mechanical cock of the gun.
Five shots rang out in the silence.
I was surprised I was able to choke back the scream of pain, I clamped my lips shut and prayed. Prayed that he hadn’t seen the jerk of my body as one of the bullets drove into my shoulder.
I played dead, lying as still as possible, not knowing if he had left or not due to the ringing in my ears. I counted to 100 ten times before I cracked open my eyes. The jeep wasn’t on the side of the road anymore.
Whimpering in pain I dragged myself up the bank, staying low to the floor. Tire marks imprinted on the gravel road he had left. I finally let myself break down, sobbing hysterically until my voice grew hoarse and the pounding behind my eyes became unbearable.
Clutching my shoulder I rose to my feet, I fixed my pants and shirt. I gave a humourless laugh, unsure at why I was trying to make myself look presentable after all I had been through.
Hobbling down the road where we had come, I hoped I wouldn’t bleed out before I found someone.
Malarkey POV:
After losing miserably at poker, I had made my way back to the barracks. I didn’t check on Em, knowing she would be tucked up in bed fast asleep by now.
I had just drifted off to sleep when a pounding on my door caused me to sit bolt right up in bed. I lazily wandered to the door cursing under my breath at whoever it was making such a racket in the middle of the night.
Swinging open the door I found Bull, and the rest of Easy company half awake and half dressed flowing through the corridor with urgency.
“What’s going on?” I asked, peering out from my door.
“When need to go, grab your things.” Bull ushered me out of the room before I could ask anymore questions. “Replacement shot Grant in the head, Speirs has given orders to track him down.”
I looked at Bull horror on my face, he gave a grim nod confirming my question. This was real and not a sick joke.
Tab led the men down the hall giving orders to the men.
“Hey Lieb, he wants a noncom guarding each roadblock and at least two men watching every road out of town.” Tab strode down the hall.
Bull and I fell into stride behind him.
“Bull, Malark, you each take a squad and one of these witnesses on a house-to-house search.” Tab explained as we followed.
“Can we shoot this bastard on sight?” I asked. I was ready to beat the shit out of this no good son of a bitch. How dare he shoot Grant in the head. I was ready for a fight.
“Try and take him alive.” Tab said.
“Where’s Grant now?” Bull asked from behind me.
“They took him to a Kraut hospital to see if they could drum up any good doctors.” Tab replied to Bull.
We each took off to do our respective tasks. I wanted to be the one who found that fucker.
Maybe say my hand slipped and accidentally shot him in the leg.
But with all the men we had out searching my group didn’t find him first, just my luck.
They dragged him back to base, gathering in the main lounge. The same lounge we were all in hours before playing poker and laughing. Now the room made my head spin. By the time my men and I arrived the replacement was barely recognisable.
Tied to a chair in the middle of the room surrounded by angry men, the soldier took a beating. I watched the man’s head snap back as blood poured from his mouth. Easy men were pissed to say the least, they took charge of the beatings. Their fists collided with the man’s face, each with gruesome crunches, as they beat the ever loving shit out of the fucker.
I stood and watched, there was no need for me to step in, so I watched from the back of the ground with a sick satisfaction as each punch landed.
The man’s head hung low, too weak to hold it up on his own accord. He spat on the ground, clearing his mouth of the blood. The man only groaned in pain, he didn’t utter a word otherwise.
The men cheered with each hit.
The doors swung open, a stoic Captain Speirs stood in the doorway. Taking in the scene before him. I could see under his calm facade the man was raging like the rest of us. The room fell silent as his footfalls hit the soft rug.
“This him?” He asked, strolling in.
“That’s him.” Bull confirmed. The soldiers surrounding the man stepped back, letting Speirs have room to stand in front of him.
The man coughed and gagged on his own blood. The room collectively held their breath, unsure of what Speirs was going to do.
“Replacement. ‘I’ company.” Bull informed the Captain.
“Where’s the weapon?” Speirs asked calmly.
“What weapon?” The man replied in a snide tone. I scoffed, how could this person have so little respect.
Speirs didn’t hesitate, bringing down the butt of his gun and smashing it into the jaw of the man. The replacement's head whipped to the side as blood sprayed from his mouth.
“When you talk to an officer you say ‘sir’.” Speirs growled in a menacing tone.
The man chuckled, hanging his head. “Maybe I left it with that whore, Sir.”
Silence filled the room for a beat, I could feel the tension becoming thicker. I glanced at Martin who shrugged, sharing the same questioning look as me.
“What whore?” Speirs spat, picking up the man’s head by his hair, getting into his face. The man only flashed a bloodied grin at him.
“You know, that girl. The pretty medic. What was her name, ah, that’s right Lane. Emily Lane.” The replacement grinned sadistically.
The room swirled as the air left my lungs. I felt as if I had been slapped in the face.
That couldn’t be right. Emily was in bed, she was sleeping. Grant had walked her back to- hadn’t he? Or was she with him when it happened. Disbelief clouded my vision, I felt like I could barf. He was wrong, she was safe in bed.
My heart was pounding in my ears, surely he had to be mistaken. But he said her name, he knew who she was.
Martin’s hand clamped on my shoulder as he leaned into my vision. I shook with rage and fear. There was no way this was true. Martin’s gaze fixed with mine, he was mouthing something, or he was saying it, I couldn’t understand it either way. My white knuckles clamped at my sides. I waited for someone to speak.
“What did you do to Emily?” Speirs snarled, the room was so silent you could hear a pin drop.
“She just lay there and took it, like a good little slut.”
Another blow came from Speirs as he struck him again across the face this time with his fist. I hadn’t realised but I had surged forward, both Bull and Martin held me still.
“Wait boy, we don’t know it’s true yet.” Bull whispered beside me.
“What did you do to her?” Ron snapped in the man’s face. As he laughed.
“I had my way with her and then disposed of the evidence.”
What did he mean by disposing of the evidence? My skin felt like it was on fire, the only thing I could really hear was my erratic heart rate pounding in my ears. I only saw red. Rage shook my body.
“I’ll fucking kill you!” I roared, surging forward to get to the man. I was held back though, Johnny had a firm grip around me. I looked around the room, the men all looked horrified and disgusted. Their stares could kill. It was silent, as the man coughed up blood. I hoped he would choke on it. I was still trying to fight Martin’s grip. Why was no one doing anything!
“Get the replacements in here now!” Speirs demanded. Someone left the room and arrived back with two skinny looking men.
“Who was with you in the car?” Speirs boomed. The two boys shied away from the furious Captain.
“Answer me!”
“It was us, Sergeant Grant and-” The replacement stalled looking around the room.
“Who else, private?” Ron seethed with rage, “Who else?” Speirs' voice echoed around the room.
“The female medic, she said her name was Em.”
So it was true.
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Chapter 39
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