#i love them so much *cries in i love jb*

[bwoahtastic]

Umm, for your brocedes agenda,

Nico doing his pundit job without knowing he’s pregnant after a one night stand with Lewis. It took him vomiting his guts out and almost fainting in Jenson and Mark’s arms in the paddock, before they convinced him to get himself checked. Ofc, the paddock doctor easily finds out that he’s pregnant, and seeing how Nico was accompanied by both JB and Mark, said doctor asked who among them is the father so he can brief them about what to expect from here on out. Nico says it doesn’t matter, because really, Lewis doesn’t even deign to give him the time of day when being interviewed, how much more now? That man literally hates him to the marrow of his bone (or at least that’s what he thought), and seeing the hurt and quiet resignation in Nico’s face, both JB and Mark scrambles to insist that they are the father, getting a bewildered look from the doctor, and a weirded out one from Nico. The doctor ofc seeks to clarify what just happened, but the two (Mark and JB) just insists to know what they have to prepare for, which the doctor reluctantly explained. Fast forward to Nico shopping for baby essentials with either Mark or JB, then getting captured while doing so, so now, the rumors are in full blast. Lewis and Nico eventually met one time then, in the harbor in Monaco, and Lewis who’s only source of news about Nico are the rumors, can only go, “ur pregnant?” And Nico, answers, “obviously,” signaling towards his belly, “how long?” Lewis asked, and Nico coldly replied, “none of ur concern” before walking away, nursing his broken heart, chanting to himself that it’s better this way. Nico gives birth, the child a boy looking everything like Lewis except for the hair and skin color, that was Nico’s. Nico was content raising their child by himself along with Mark and JB who visited and helped him frequently as the ‘daddy uncles’, but yeah, a single picture is all it took for Lewis to have and confirm his suspicions, the child was his. Up to u how u want them to meet or how Lewis gets to know his child.

Plss Nico being in denial after a one night stand with Lewis and the signs are there but he refuses to believe he is pregnant, keeps saying he has food poisoning but jenson and Mark convince him to see a doctor after he almost faints.

Nico is stressing out so bad hearing he is pregnant and so sad because in another life, he would have loved to do it together with Lewis. He looks so sad and scared and jwnson and Mark both scramble to help, to pretend they are the dad and its chaos but sweet. They would support Nico so much! Take turns checking in on him and going out with him when he goes shopping for the baby because sure, nico would never ask for help but they cannot let him be all alone in this! He deserves better! Ofcourse they get seen and rumours start bur Nico just ignores it and tries to be as ready to be a momma as he can be.

Lewis hearing the rumours but not daring to ask until he sees Nico in monaco, so clearly with a baby bump that he protectively keeps his hand on. Lewis asks him how longhe has been pregnant and nico gets pissed off because they haven't spoken since Lewis left in the morning without saying goodbye and now he can't even ask Nico how he is? He snaps at Lewis and leaves, has the baby with judt his family and jenson and Mark there. Nico cries a lot the first days because the little one looks like Lewis a lot and he misses Lewis so much 🥺 and Lewis seeing the pic wnd he knows its his baby and I think they would meet up,eventually? Nico wants Lewis involved and Lewis wants to meet his son!

[hanluex]

♡ LOVE TO ME — JJ MAYBANK

jj x gn!reader | wc : 0.9k words | content : possible grammar and spelling mistakes, lowercase intended, best friends au, unrequited love au, angsty angst, college au, slight cursing, crying | loki's lines : my hs crush went exactly like this and i’m embarrassed now that i put it in writing

“jay! are you okay? what’s up?”

you furrowed your brows, looking at your friend with a worried expression etched on your face.

“couldn’t sleep last night because of an assignment,” jj replied, surprised by how croaky his voice sounded. “i got it done, though.” he cracked a small smile, hoping you’d believe him.

because how could he possibly be honest with you? how could he tell you that when he finally collected the courage to ask you out — he found out you were asked out by someone else?

how could he tell you that when he went to the university’s charity ball to find you last night, you were dancing with someone who wasn’t him? how could he tell you that when he wanted to ask you out, he broke down instead because he saw you kiss someone?

how could tell you he wanted time to turn back just so he could tell you the three little words he’s been wanting to tell you for the last two years? how could he tell you it broke him completely to see you look so happy in someone else’s arms?

just how … could he say that the reason he spent the entire night in tears was because of you?

the answer, in short, was no. there was no way jj could tell you any of that — because jj would rather experience heartbreak, every single day, for the rest of his life, rather than not have you as a friend anymore.

he treasured you that much.

“see you after class?” you asked, oblivious to the thoughts that ran through his head. “lunch?”

jj nodded. “i’ll be outside when your class finishes,” he answered quickly, not trusting his voice enough.

“you are seriously the best, maybank! love you!”

“i know. love you too.”

if there was anything jj maybank sucked at; it was controlling his expressions. and carrying out this simple conversation with you took so much more willpower than he had thought.

his emotional battery was draining speedily, so he did what he had to, quickly bidding his goodbyes as he walked away from you.

turning around a corner as he fumbled with his phone, jj sighed in relief as he saw his roommate standing in front of him.

john b routledge was jj’s guardian angel of sorts, having stayed up all night with him as he cried the night before.

upon seeing the similar expression on his best friend's face, john b ran to his friend, who looked like he was going to break down again.

“jj!” john held the male’s face, sighing before pulling him into a hug. “hey, it’s okay, bud. what happened?” he patted his back, glaring at anyone who looked at his friend weirdly.

“i don’t think i can do it anymore, jb. i tried talking to them, but i can't. how can i continue to talk with them normally when my mind constantly repeats what i saw last night?” jj sniffled, pulling away from the hug as his best friend took him to a secluded area. “i don’t know what to do, jb.”

john b thought for a bit, shrugging. “maybe … you should just get it off your chest,” he suggested, breaking into a chuckle at the way his best friend looked at him with wide eyes. “okay, not my best idea.”

“it’s not.” jj let out a choked laugh, shaking his head as he wiped his tears. “i really like y/n. i’ve liked them for the past two years. and the worst part is that i know i’ll continue to like them.”

"jay–”

“i know, i know. that’s an absolute shit plan, but i just can’t help it. if only liking someone for two years can be forgotten in two minutes, i would’ve done that last night itself, jb.”

“no, stop–”

“who am i kidding? i’m just trying my best to bury all these feelings. i don’t like y/n, i love them — and i’m fucking doomed because of that.” jj groaned, smacking his hand against his forehead. “love is supposed to be something beautiful, john b. but i love y/n, and love to me is loving them till the end of time, knowing that they’ll never love me back.”

john b inhaled sharply, grimacing. “i tried to tell you, but you wouldn’t let me fucking speak. now deal with them.” he placed his hands on his friend's shoulders before turning him around, letting him see the person who stood behind him.

and that person was none other than you.

hearing jj maybank say all those words was equivalent to a comet crashing on you. you weren’t really sure what to do or what to say, and it clearly didn’t help when the tears fell down your face, either.

“i’m sorry, jj,” you choked out, not really sure why you were apologizing. “i’m really sorry.”

was it because you felt bad for your friend for bottling his feelings for two years? was it because you didn’t return the feelings he had for you? or was it because you did like him but didn’t know what to do since you were with someone else now?

the possibilities were endless, and right now, you were crying in front of your best friend while apologizing for something you didn’t know … until a minute ago.

“you don’t need to apologise, y/n. it’s not your fault.” the male bitterly smiled, moving away when you stepped forward. “these are my feelings. i’ll learn to handle them somehow.”

you shook your head. “but i–” your voice cracked, feeling your heart drop as you saw a teary-eyed jj turn away from you.

“like i said, y/n … love to me is loving you till the end of time, knowing you’ll never love me back.”

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[chlorinecake]

"The Sheep's Garden" title is so cute I was almost deceived. Almost. I read it and went back to stare at it mindlessly for a good few minutes after realizing the ominous undertone associated with it. It's literally, genuinely unsettling. You portrayed the title's essence effectively in your story too like... and even though it was twisted I admit feeling a somewhat shameful attraction to it 😅 *I'm crying*

I'm glad @/starrywonie and @/@hee-pster encouraged you to start a blog❤️ and replying to ur answer on the previous ask, half of my family are teachers and unfortunately I didn't inherit their smarts in math but I think I'm doing quite fine in the literature department. Ofc my literature and writing are still in the process of progressing because I genuinely feel there's so much out there that I can learn from. but the love for arts runs in the family and so much like u, it's been something I've known all my life. Seeing as we're a bunch of artists in different fields, writing, painting, any forms of creation! I think my love for writing truly blossomed at the end of 2018, and 2019 is when I took up the challenge of bringing my thoughts to life. I started on wattpad and somehow gained an audience which literally shook me because It was just me ranting on and on. I had a lost to say and people seemed ready to listen. I had a 1D phase🙈 not surprising lmao, and that brought me to wattpad, kpop made me stay, and kdramas officially opened that gateway for my writing journey to begin.

Despite occasional glitches and hiccups, the engagement and interactivity of this app are pretty good so I stay🫣 but lately, I'm mostly lurking. I think @/starrywonie is slowly getting antsy. I can see her eyes twitching from across the world. 🫣🤭

─ Hayzie

Ugh 😩 I absolutely LOVE the way you describe things… but yeah, this story in particular has ALWAYS been a ~special~ one for me to write, and as much as I try to prevent it by making Jungwon progressively more insane with each update (👹), the readers keep falling for his twisted ways :’] I guess that’s the charm manipulation *cries with you*

I’m really thankful for discovering those blogs when I did, too, hehe 🩵 That’s really interesting tho how half of your family is made up of educators and artists across different fields… most often than not, mathematics just doesn’t translate well with ppl more geared towards literature and the arts, so you’re not alone 🤧. And omg, the 1D era was such a time to be alive 🫠… I was never really a huge fan of them growing up bc I was honestly more of a JB girly (still am 🥲) but can I use the word bias for a non-kpop group 😭 ?!? Idk, but basically I’m just curious as to who your favorite member was back then…

“Kpop made me stay.” This is a crazy line bc it makes me realize just how much music affects our lives in so many different areas.

And yes ☝️ Tumblr is infamous for her MANY technological inconsistencies, but its always fun to hang around here either way… whether that be as a fellow writer… or lurker 😶‍🌫️ And OOP- Nanaa ~~~ your virgo is showing 🤭

[theyluvsierra]

PART 5 JJ MAYBANK X Y/N

Warings:eating disorder, depression, hospitalization,SH,suic!de,drugs

Kie:I ordered pizza

Everyone: yum

*everyone hut y/n grabs a slice*

Kie:Y/n do u want some

Y/n:oh no thanks I ate a lot earlier and I'm taking care of the baby

Sarah:kie can me and u go to the store later I wanna get more pickles and ice cream

Y/n:pregnancy cravings hitting hard I assume

Sarah:yep

John b:I had to get this girl more ice cream and pickles from Wal-Mart at 2:30 am

Jj:u only do it cause u love her

A few weeks pass and the pogues would always order and cook food y/n would always say she is taking care of the baby and is full bc she ate already they also barely see y/n

Jb:I ordered Chinese

Kie:I'm not that hungry so im just gonna take a egg roll and some white rice

Pope:I'll take some chicken a egg roll,soup,dumplings, and Cleo I hot ur plate and soda for us

Cleo:thank u baby I love u

Kie:jb have u seen our sister (y/n)

Jb:no I only saw her once today

Jj:weird

Pope:I haven't seen her much in these past few weeks

Cleo:no one knows

Cleo:me either

Sarah:me either

Waves (the dog):*barks*

They hear a thud

Waves: *barks* signaling them

Everyone puts their plates down

Waves:*walks to y/n's room*

Jb:opens the door

Everyone sees coral (y/n and jjs daughter in the baby carrier y/n passed out)

Pope:how did this happen

Sarah:walks in sees there is a lighter next to y/n and burn marks on her arms and legs

Kie:jb I found a note

Jb:what's it say

Kie:if u find this note I probably have passed out from not eating anything and the baby is probably down with me and fainted and has a red spot on her cheek and jj I loved u so much so did coral and kid u were my sister I loved going to tan on the beach and jb I had so much fun surfing with u pope I had fun with u when we climbed the mountain on the beach and Cleo and me jumped off -love y/n

Jj:*crying* wait what about coral

Pope:*sniffles* I think she's gone too

Jb:*cries* probably

Sarah:*sniffling* call the fcking hospital

Cleo:*sniffling* dont be dumb pope hurry up call

Pope:calls

The operator: hi this is 911 what's ur emergency

Pope explains

30 mins late jj gets in the ambulance with y/n and the baby

Everyone Else drives in the Twinkie

At the hospital

Jj:so coral and y/n are in one big room with a bed and an incubator when can all stay the night

Jb:everyone grab ur things they follow jj

Jj:*sniffling* here's coral theres 3 pull out couches and 3 three recliners

Jb:Sarah can have a couch so can Cleo and kie

Jj:me,jb,and pope can have the recliners

Jj:looks at coral in her incubator with her tubes and all the.machines keeping her alive along with y/n in the bed next to her

Pope:coral is one strong baby she's not that hurt just fainted and has some bruises

Jb:y/n is much worse tho

Kie:I got us some food

Pope:I just want the small bag of chips and water *turns his phone*

Kie:I just got a salad and water for me and jb

Jj:and I got a pb and j with some chips and soda

Cleo:I just got a salad too

Sarah:I got a slice of pizza

Jj:hang on I need to refill corals feeding tube

Pope:not to make this depressing but y/n has what's called an eating disorder its where u eat too little or too much and coral has what's called fetal drug disorder,austim,cprs and probably more y/n has fetal drug disorder, borderline personality disorder and bipolar,And probably more

Jb:where would she get drugs.....

Sarah:that two faced lying backstabber RAFE

Sarah:Cleo come on lets go

Jb:where are u going

Sarah:to refer where's the gun btw jj

Jj:here gives her the gun

30 mins later they get back

Sarah and cleo:the problem has been dealt with

The boys: nvm we dont wanna know how

Sarah:rafe said to go to kie's house we found a SH/suic!de note

Cleo:we found a love letter to jj I think u should read it

Jj:reads it

Sarah:also y/n left u her favorite surf board if she is gone

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[dedahblog]

About the "ichiruki being BFF" debate

Blech fandom is a joke.

(Just some thoughts I wanted to get off my chest. Basically me rambling)

People are calling Ichigo/Rukia just friends or BFF as an attempt of restraining how much they mean to each other while IRs fans are getting triggered every time writing essays as if this is the worst insult ever made.

Like ... seriously ?

Let's be logical. Is it really worth having a debate about ? Is the opinion of fans of sh1tty pairings like RR and IH really relevant ?

I'm not trying to roast them or anything (ok ... maybe a little) but their standards are pretty low : getting this euphoric when their only ship canon validation is porking. All you have to do to invalidate their crap is tearing off the last two pages where the porking products appear and that's it. Nothing to see.

I block / don't interact with anyone of those guys not because I'm a "salty IR fan". Actually I loved Blech much more than IR. And God knows how much I love IR. If anything, I'm more of a Blech salty fan and I don't want to discuss anything related to Blech with people happily dancing on its ashes claiming "they won".

Is the opinion of those who are euphoric about an ending where Yuzzu is molesting her nephew that important ?

People who think a final chapter that ended with a random character yelling "whaaat " has any credibility ?

Or people who can't read crystal clear facts

Juha back : I will come back when you feel happy Ichigo !!

then Akon: wow this is the first time JB reaistu appeared in 10 years.

What about Porking Product Number 2 idolizing Mayuri who killed and tortured innocent souls ? (as mentioned in the hell chapter)

As for their passive aggressive way of insulting IR fans, let's just set it straight

Rukia and Ichigo trust each other like no other since day 1.

They are each other's salvation from their guilt of not saving their loved ones (Kaien and Masaki)

No one has ever made Rukia happy like Ichigo since Kaien's death and the same with Ichigo since his mother's murder.

When he didn't believe he could defeat his hollow, it's neither Rukia kicking his butt nor her pep talk that gave Ichigo courage. He regained hope when Rukia told him how highly she thinks of him.

And Rukia trusts Ichigo so much that she has never shown her crying face aka her vulnerabilty to anyone but him.

Ichigo takes so much pride in being a shinigami because he places high value on Rukia's ideals

When she thought she was going to die in the SS arc, Ichigo was the reason Rukia cried when she said goodbye because it's Ichigo's existence that brought hope to her life.

There is no other relationship in this manga that had such a mutual positive impact on each other

Calling them best friends isn't really an insult, if a best friend is someone who helped you have faith in yourself, regain hope, learn from your trauma and move forward.

If that's how they define best friends, then Reji and Orhime are not even worthy of being called their friends at that point

".....w-well a-at least they f***ed !!".

.....RR and IH fans please enjoy your canon to its fullest. Kub0 had granted you the power of being associated with that crap till the end of time. Be blessed by this almighty gift .

Your low self worth is second to none

[readingqueerbooks]

[“there were times when the pressure to achieve happiness felt almost oppressive, as if happiness were something that everyone should and could attain, and that any sort of compromise in its pursuit was somehow your fault.”]

a little life — hanya yanagihara [ 4/5 ★ ]

god where do i start. i have a lot of thoughts after finishing this book — it was loooooong. a little too long, maybe? i feel like it still could have gotten its point across had it been a little shorter. the writing style is also a little unconventional and took me a few chapters to really appreciate, but that being said, it was still arguably very well-written. i have highlights and tabs and annotations on nearly every page.

one thing i will say before i really get into anything else is PLEASE take the trigger warnings seriously. this book is basically just trauma after trauma after trauma and it’s all very graphic (more so than i was expecting even after reading multiple reviews). there are like two happy moments in the whole book lmao.

but the CHARACTERS. oh my god the characters. specifically jude and willem. they were absolutely wonderful. incredibly well-rounded (which i suppose you’d expect with a book of 800+ pages but still) and written so beautifully — you really feel for them. jude’s point of view especially hits hard. his perspective is so sad and extremely traumatic but he is such a beautiful character, you can’t help but love him immediately. not gonna lie, i cried several times reading about jude and his experiences throughout the book (i love him… So much).

however, i don’t know if i would necessarily suggest this book to anyone. it was honestly very hard to read at some points, albeit being a beautifully written book. if you do read it (and if you like audiobooks) i would highly suggest the audiobook. i’m not usually a fan of audiobooks myself, but i grew very attached to the narrator and his way of telling the story and especially his portrayal of the characters. it was probably my favourite audiobook i’ve ever listened to. all in all, this book was undeniably an a piece of literary genius and my kudos go to the author for creating something so heartbreakingly beautiful.

synopsis:

When four classmates from a small Massachusetts college move to New York to make their way, they're broke, adrift, and buoyed only by their friendship and ambition. There is kind, handsome Willem, an aspiring actor; JB, a quick-witted, sometimes cruel Brooklyn-born painter seeking entry to the art world; Malcolm, a frustrated architect at a prominent firm; and withdrawn, brilliant, enigmatic Jude, who serves as their center of gravity. Over the decades, their relationships deepen and darken, tinged by addiction, success, and pride. Yet their greatest challenge, each comes to realize, is Jude himself, by midlife a terrifyingly talented litigator yet an increasingly broken man, his mind and body scarred by an unspeakable childhood, and haunted by what he fears is a degree of trauma that he'll not only be unable to overcome—but that will define his life forever.

[youritalianbookpal]

Ten Questions Book Review - A Little Life by Hanya Yanagihara

What is it? Story of the life of a group of friends: Jude, JB, Malcolm, Willem. It will mostly follow the mysterious Jude, though. You'll be glad about it but also completely heartbroken.

Who should read it and why? Read this only after reading the trigger warnings somewhere. I didn't and I was fine (Yanagihara has a talent for writing the most excruciating things in a beautiful way), but there's a lot of heavy themes in here. A lot of darkness. This book is beautiful, but I don't think I'll ever tell someone to read it.

Which genre(s) is it? Contemporary novel.

What is the setting? Most of the plot is set in New York, though the characters do travel around the world a lot, and there's several flashbacks in other parts of the US. The book spans for some 50 years, but there are no clear references of when the story happens (at least that I can tell of). I think it's very important not to have clear references of the time passing through the happenings in the world, but only through what happens in the lives of Willem, Jude, JB, and Malcolm.

How are the characters? To tell you that I loved the four protagonists, Andy, and Harold is an understatement. I have so many feelings about all of them, I'm not sure I'll ever be able to put all of them to paper. There is no way that Jude will not always be in my heart. And all the people he holds in his heart will be in my heart too. It's just too difficult for me to think of the right words to speak about this. This is how good the characters are. So good they make you speechless.

What are the strengths and weaknesses of the novel? Don't ask me about weaknesses, I don't want to find them. This book is too good. It's also long as hell and I'm sure that people who hated it can point out exactly what is wrong with this novel, but I can't. I loved every single one of the 816 pages, even the ones specifically designed to beak my heart in tiny little pieces.

Did I cry and/or laugh? I cried so much. Just. So much. I had to stop so many times. I CRIED ON THE TRAIN FOR THIS BOOK AND I'D DO IT AGAIN. And it also has some funny parts. Sometimes, someone will say something funny while your heart is breaking in two and you laugh and you don't even know why you're laughing. Well, that's how I laughed reading this.

Who shouldn’t read the book? There are way too many trigger warnings here, so I'll just say the ones I can think of, but please find a complete list somewhere: self-harm and suicide, child abuse and rape, car accidents, abusive relationships, child prostitution, grief, eating disorders, drug abuse, ableism and internalized ableism, child death, chronic illnesses.

Any random comment? No comments, just so many things to say about everyone and no words to say it because I'm traumatized and speechless. Loved this though.

Which quote stuck with me?

Finding a single quote for this book was incredibly hard. It is a testament to Yanagihara's writing how hard it was. But I decided to go with this one:

All the most terrifying Ifs involve people. All the good ones do as well.

[chanstopher]

To be fair the fanwars weren’t as toxic compared to twitter 😂 they were quite mild and it’s just the usual ‘why I like my group better/why x is better than z’ though I think the JB stan cried one time bc BTS were growing really big and their numbers were dwindling 🤔 same tho! I was stuck in my own lil bubble most times 😭 I’d get updates from my friends since they weren’t into anime that much. JB the og purple user 😂 I forgot about that amg I always associate him with if I was ur boyfriend i’dneverletugoo!

waaah yeah their telepathy game was so fun 🥺 I think what really made me like kpop was the variety/team dynamics bc often times my friends would recommend me songs and not funny moments compilations 😂 that’s how I got into skz (finding skz god edi.) and svt (gose bungee jump and best friends) too

//also oms will give you more chris and cheol prints next time we meet 😂 I got a better printer so I can print things in merch quality now

— chia 🐏✨

ah that’s fair u can really only be so mean face to face without consequences lol so they had to be tame compared to the bloodbath that twt was in the bts vs exo days dhxhsj personally the jb contribution to my life has always been that interview clip where he goes “i like that laugh hehehe” and i don’t think he’s done anything for me since lmao

i definitely agree that the variety side of kpop is a huge reason to love it. i remember clinging to the random 1d clips of them being stupid and wanting more and finding that kpop is half just pure chaos and humor definitely made it more appealing especially with skz and svt and just how much content they put out of the just being together doing stupid stuff lmao

[the-invisible-queer]

How did you get into the Jonas brothers. Was it like a rite of passage for all 90s/‘00s kids that they had to listen to The Jonas brothers???

I got into the Jonas Brothers in 2006. I was 9 and they were performing on TV. My mom saw them and asked if I wanted to watch. I don't know what show and I haven't been able to find the performance, but they performed "Mandy" and I immediately fell head over heels in love with Joe. That was before they joined Disney. That was the year they released their debut album, It's About Time, which actively gets forgotten and ignored, but I think it's an important album of it's era. It's a pop-punk album written and performed by 3 teenage boys.

I became a diehard fan of the band. Not just Joe. To me they are a packaged deal. I can't be a fan of one without being a fan of all of them. But I was definitely (and still am) a Joe girl.

Then in 2011 my dramatic ass ended my parasocial relationship with Joe. However, I still kept up with Kevin and Nick. Called myself a Kevin girl for a few years.

Then they broke up and I was devastated. Cried my eyes out and my mom made fun of me for crying over it. But as someone who related to Joe as a middle sibling and the whole "I didn't think I could succeed without my brothers" (paraphrased quote from him from Chasing Happiness) vibes he had, I felt for all of them.

Fast forward to 2019 when the announce their comeback on my birthday and I was so hyped. That was an extremely hard year for me so them coming back very much helped me survive. But while they were on my radar and I'd occasionally listen to and post about them, they weren't my main focus. Even when The Album came out last year, I didn't listen to it until MONTHS later.

This current fixation resurgence happened last July. I was ALWAYS on Jonas Brothers TikTok since I got it, but last July my FYP was JUST Jonas videos trying to make me fall back in love with Joe which I refused. But then I started writing @lgwio to get him out of my head.

That backfired and now I am like THIS!

In 2008, it was very much the popular thing for girls to have a crush on JB and be a [insert brother] girl. There were even a few who liked Franklin and there was some Bonus Jonas merch.

I don't know if it was a rite of passage, but they were definitely the biggest Disney pop sensation at the time along with Miley and Demi.

They were boyband status - but they are not a boyband and I WILL fight anyone who says otherwise. They were SUPER popular in '08 and '09, but I think the hype died down after Lines, Vines and Trying Times came out.

They had their Disney show, and both Camp Rock films. They were truly on top of the world in 2008.

These are my boys and they will forever be my boys.

[protegetapaix]

4/10/23

1.20pm - morning,i woke up with puffy eyes,ikutkan hati nak duduk rumah nangis je but okaylah kuatkan diri,i deserve this trip. Im sti angry,hurt. I feel like you chose this trip over me by not even coming for me while youre still here. But part of me understands why ypu want it so bad,just that you couldnt understand on my end that,i let you go on the trip,but at that exact moment my emotions took over me my overthinking god. and you didnt came for me,you didnt understood me. im sorry for the hurtful words i said,but on my end i can still be angry,because you didnt came for me,you always do,you promised the lasy fallout we had would be the last where you didnt come for me.In the end i still came for you,i waited hours. I have to shower now bye

2.34pm - i reach jb alr sayang,so funny i uldated the gc i alr at checkpoint and they wtf and insisted to follow,tbh idw them fllw bcs got nad n ipan gf but im like wtv,part of me also thought if they came maybe youd come at night but my bad your bus is the next morning..

2.54pm - baru lepas custom sg now in bus to go jb

3.18pm - baru lepas custom jb now changing money den grab to sogo,our fav place

3.35pm - i reached sogo and bought my contact lenses alr rm500 worth of it wtfwtf hahahahah. I miss you

3.45pm - im at popular now to buy stationaries for my book hehe

4.33pm - idk how long i spent in there but damn i was pretty long your friends all waiting for me alr but idc. I didnt know which colours were nice,if you were here youd probably knew which one suits me right.. but i bought the rare beauty blusher ive always wanted and their lipstick too,i picked a pinkish shade smth i would nvr go for but the pink is quite subtle,cant waitt to show you hehe hopefully.

4.44pm - eventho da lambat.. i bought coffee HAHHAAHHAHA the one we bought at angsana but i bought the spanish latte yumyum

9.19pm - we reached the ikan bakar olace alr,the whole time we always infer about you here and there wishing you were here and allsz mostly me eh,cfm they annoyed sia lowkey but we hoping can come w youu.

Also ipan gf syirah spill sm tea sia.. even about nad…. HAHAHAHAHAHA

11.23pm - ok we at pasar karat now

1.13am - ok we home bebs i bought so much thrift shirt and i even bought for afiya n dania bubble bubblleee gun sehhhh HAHAHAH cant wait to show u,i walk around alone while they see see here there hehe healing siot

1.30am ok now i just at balcony smoking they karaoke all

1.50am im with them kat sofa they singing sad songs for me cb we even recorded a vid for u so u can watch when we go here tht next time. Why never see this airbnb sooner seh cfm fun sia with jusy you got board games ,karaoke projector all ohmyyy cant waitbfor your bday also seh

6/10/23

12.20am - im finally in sg sayang,my heart felt so heavy otw home knowing when i reach home i would break down god i miss you my amsyar

1.11am - i reached home idk what time im sorry for not updating,but i cleaned my thrash all to keep my mind off things,you specifically. Yet i still cried when i did all that.

3.28am - i love how im dking this,helps me cope seh its as though im talking to you but i have so much tea to tell you sia abiiii

11.50am - i in 187 now,i hope you enjoy your day today with your friends,jangan buat bukan2… i had major diarrhea jn damn and i also asked rusyd for off alr.

4.16 - i ended break already,i ate tangled hehehehe ok ttyl

8.48pm- I was smoking when she textsd me ,you broke my fucking heart. My love and trust for you. I ended things off with mama papa for real already,they kept asking convincing my heart couldnt take it in anymore i felt so numb till they just said,sarah sayang amsyar kan ? Sabar lah sikit ,sikit je insyaallah. I just teared and gave my salam and ended. I felt so bad they had so much more to say they kept saying eh eh dengar ni hahahaha,my heart cant.

i hope it was worth it my amsyar :)

[mylifeisactuallynotbad]

Really struggling.

Don't know how to handle living with jb and sm.

My anxiety is weirdly bad at the moment, I'm so hyper aware of everything I do. I know this is my home but I feel like it's theirs.

The sofa is a 3 seater- but they sit on it like it fits 2. If I asked they'll move but sometimes I feel like I shouldn't have to ya know. I'll be stood in the living room while they sit there and watch TV- I wait for them to notice and to offer me a seat- they don't so I go sit alone in my room. Like yes I should just ask because it's fucking crazy for me to expect them to realise.... but like I always make space for them.

They eat their dinner and I sit in my room. I wait for sm to shower before I have mine because I'm afraid of using the hot water before they can.

I feel like I bring the mood down with my sadness.

The other day we all went to IKEA (fucking stressful trip). I know it was offhand and not deliberate but we were looking at furniture for the balcony. Saw some I liked, pointed it out, sm said it would look weird/ take up too much space to get 3 chairs so he said let's just get 2.

It's so silly because who the fuck am I but a friend they live with. I hoped I wouldn't feel so out of place.

I'm afraid of using their stuff, even tho we said we'd all share stuff.

I don't think they've even noticed I've stopped eating or that I'm throwing up - which is good because I need to get it under control before I worry anyone. I really want to buy a scale.

I'm not jealous of them spending time together or anything; I just wish I didn't feel so damn lonely.

My immune system has gone to shit, 2 weeks of the worst tonsillitis I've ever had. Literally felt like I was dying, but I didn't show it. If I'd have been back home I wouldn't have left my bed. Then the sciatica- not usually this bad. Some nights I've cried so hard, genuinely considered calling 111, barely able to move. I mean I burst into tears in front of them yesterday! When have I ever cried in pain in front of someone. I was so embarrassed I wanted to die. I HATE FEELING WEAK LIKE THIS. WHY CAN'T I JUST FUCKING FUNCTION. Why am I always in fucking pain. I'm so tired.

Stopped going to therapy a month ago, I know I should but I just can't be bothered. I can't be bothered with anything. I just lay in bed and literally stare at the walls. In silence.

I'd kill myself if I didn't think it would traumatise the people I love.

[delilahjanepierce]

She squealed in response to being flipped over, bending her legs back and spreading them wide for her Domme without thinking. Every hard thrust into her body made the submissive let out a little scream, the sounds getting louder when JB slapped at her sensitive, swollen breasts. "I love it so, so much Daddy, my cunt was made for Daddy's cock!" she cried out, her eyes fixed on JB's face.

JB continued to enjoy the view as Delilah bounced and rocked on top of her. She stole a few peeks under Delilah, watching the thick toy disapear and reappear as Delilah continued to ride her beautifully. "That's enough," she growled, doing her best to flip them over, JB now towering over Delilah's body, swollen mounds barely staying onto of Delilah's body. JB lifted the other's legs, hooking them on her shoulders as she pushed herself back inside the other girl. "Oh, that's a good little slut," she growled, thrusting hard and succinct into Delilah, her body banging the bed against the wall. "You love Daddy's cock in you, don't you little slut?" she growled, giving a firm slap to the large breasts bouncing beneath her. "Tell me how much you love it!"

[anders-hawke]

Thank you so much for your response ❤️ I came across this essay of a fucking JB shipper defending Jaime and the events of S8 and I needed that essay of yours, so thanks. You're a true Brienne fan unlike those bitches, so of course you're going to accept Larry Lannisturd as the irredeemable monster that he is, unlike the idiotic "Jaime is alive! Aw the white book scene😍" crowd. The worst part is that I fear Jaime might pull this shit in the books too. Do you think he could?

Like, I can understand how some people enjoy writing variations of “Jaime lives and both he and Brienne learn how to cope with that + they’re having a kid” because I will die on the hill that every single Brienne/Jaime/JB stan was traumatized by That Scene and everyone has different coping mechanisms to deal with the emotional fallout of that trauma, and I’m not going to begrudge them that. But there’s definitely a line between “I’m writing this fic because I have Feelings about season 8’s bullshit” and “the White Book scene was so amazing <3 Brienne’s ending was great!”

And, Anon, you don’t need to worry about Jaime pulling that fucking shitshow in the books one bit. I’ve written some meta about why Jaime dying isn’t going to happen in the books, let alone how he did in the show, which ties into my answer to this. But here’s the thing: Jaime only left because Dumb and Dumber didn’t give a shit about the characters of GoT if they weren’t part of the Red Wedding, and afterward, they didn’t care about any of them.

Basing theories about Jaime using Game of Thrones is a side effect of the very probable trauma GoT stans went through because of season eight, so take a step back and remember all the ways Jaime and Brienne’s characters and character arcs differ between ASOIAF and GoT! Pragmatically, what would need to happen for book!Jaime to leave Brienne like in the show?

He’d have to realize he’s attracted to Brienne.

He’d have to act on that attraction and make love to Brienne.

He’d have to remember him throwing Cersei’s letter into the fire and all the ways she’s abused him and then compare that to how Brienne’s treated him and go, “Cersei is the better of the two,” or, “Me being with Brienne isn’t a beneficial situation for either of us no matter how you look at it.”

Do I need to go into detail of how number three makes absolutely no sense? Because it doesn’t. Jaime is someone whose existence is based around giving and receiving love; if that’s not happening properly, he’s basically a wreck. (See: literally all of Jaime’s chapters.) But when his relationship with Brienne turns into one where they start to love each other (even though in ASOS it’s mostly, “I don’t want her/him to like,, die, you know?” *oops i care haha.*), we start to see this version of Jaime who allows himself to care, who allows himself to love someone in an uncomplicated way, even if the feelings surrounding that love are all tangled up.

At this point in the books, we’ve seen Jaime come to the full realization that what he and Cersei had wasn’t reciprocated/genuine love. Now that he knows that and has taken the big step of discarding Cersei’s plea for help, there’s no way he’s going to up and leave Brienne. He’s too far gone. If the overwhelming fear becomes a lot just remember the bolded line from ADWD:

He posted sentries to see that no one left the confines of the village. He sent out scouts as well, to make certain no enemy took them unawares. It was near midnight when two came riding back with a woman they had taken captive. “She rode up bold as you please, m’lord, demanding words with you.”

Jaime scrambled to his feet. “My lady. I had not thought to see you again so soon.” Gods be good, she looks ten years older than when I saw her last. And what’s happened to her face? “That bandage...you’ve been wounded...”

“A bite.” She touched the hilt of her sword, the sword that he had given her. Oathkeeper. “My lord, you gave me a quest.”

He sCRAMBLED TO HIS FEET AND THIS ONE OF MY TOP 5 JB LINES BECAUSE IT BETRAYS THE FACT THAT HE CARES ABOUT BRIENNE WAY MORE THAN CERSEI AND HE LIKE LOVED CERSEI BUT HE LOVES BRIENNE NOW SOIFHLDULUOSHDLUSHFUSHF

So, no. Don’t worry.

[kirascottage]

dating jj maybank

jj maybank x gender neutral. reader

word count: 1.8k

cw: headcanons, overall domestic fluff, angst if you squint till ur visions blurry, mentions of poor emotional expression, mentions of sex / sexual innuendos, mentions of fighting / injury, strong pda, kissing, consensual groping, swearing, soft!jj

okay so this is the first time i’ve ever written dating headcanons so i’m gonna try my best

• jj and expressing emotions are a very complicated duo and almost everyone knows it, including you. he knows how he feels for you, and feels it strongly, but the way it comes out of his mouth is like gibberish and completely not understandable. 

“so you know — like — i don’t know, man. i feel heavy for you, like do you feel heavy for me, too?”

“jj, i don’t even know what heavy means in this context and what you’re referring to.”

• but he comes from a good place, and you come to know, learn and love that, because well he loves you, and with jj you just have to infer by his mess of words.

• this boy tries to be as romantic as possible but he’s literally never had a s/o before. the only thing he knows are one nighters so there is a lot that pope and john b advise him on because miscommunication is quite literally the worst. (stated by john b himself)

• for this instance and the sake of the headcanons: you are a member of the pogues, through and through.

• so most of the time you’re together, the pogues are there too. even dates. they love to occupy and jj could shout at the top of his lungs how they are the biggest cock-blockers to ever exist and they would not care. 

• so at that point he doesn’t even try to keep his hands to himself, he will touch you or quite literally make out with you in front of anyone and everyone he can.

• i mean he can get a little protective. (also considering he would never let you around his dad because he wants to protect you and would never let you near anyone that could hurt you) 

• i mean this guy would fight for you till the very end; punches thrown countless of times and harsh words absolutely shouted more times than you could count on your fingers, but no matter how many times you chastise jj, he would never stop to defend your honour because at the end of the night you’re the one playing with his hair and kissing his cuts and bruises.

• especially after everything as well with rafe, topper and the kooks he just wants everyone (including the tourons you see once a millennium) to know that you and him are romantically involved and you are very much taken.

• he even lets the most irrelevant people know the both of you are dating because he loves you that much:

“okay, babe, here me out—”

“jj a whole group of kids just asked me about our relationship! i love you, but the whole population does not need to know that we’re together.”

“obviously we can't tell the whole population! or I would, duh.”

•  even though he could blabber on about everything about you, including what shampoo you use and which perfume of yours is his favourite, affection is more his style: 

• this includes walking around with his hand in your back pocket because wearing anything but jean shorts is really not an option in that heat, (and this does include ass grabbing at every opportunity he can)—

• — his hand gently placed on your thigh while driving / while he’s next to you, interlocking pinkies 98% of the time as you walk together —

• — and peppering kisses is always happening. whether they’re ticking at your checks, suffocating your neck or affectionately placed on your forehead he’s always kissing you.

• other key, and essential, things that come to mind are that his arm is always around you; after everything that’s happened to him he just needs to physically know you’re there and that’s enough to subdue him.

• it’s almost routine for him arm to go around your waist or your shoulder, whether you’re tall or short, tbh he doesn’t really care, his arms and lips are always on you.

• dating jj is dating a teenage boy with absolutely no impulse control and zero control over what he says—

“I mean, dude, if you think about it, why isn’t a banana called a yellow if an orange is called an orange? and why are phones called ‘telephones’ like who the fuck came up with that crap?”

or

“i mean, hey, we could bang out here and it’s not like anyone would know. like jb could be out in the living room and be like clueless.”

“jj, there’s two windows pointing directly at us. i think he would know.”

• —if you don’t understand then he definitely does not either.

• you also flip each other off a lot and people are like ??? but you both are like — fuck you —(affectionate & full of love with my middle fingers)

• one thing he does know is how to flatter you, whether he’s obnoxiously winking at you or bringing you flowers with his tips from work, or he picked them himself, it’s all in the effort.

• any effort from you is like kids getting their favourite toy they’ve been wanting on christmas, for instance: anytime you bring him food, or offer to stay with him at john b’s is like swelling up his heart to the maximum.

• so when he’s not with you, or the pogues, which is rare he is outside. and jj is like diego the explorer he always finds little places just for himself, or for this instance with you.

• so a lot of dates include going to these secluded spots: sometimes it’s a picnic, or a walk, and stargazing is his absolute favourite as he listens to you drone on about the constellations and even just watching the sky with your presence next to him is so comforting and makes him feel safe. 

• of course when the pogues find out they’re brutal with their teasing.

“awww, look at the cute and happy couple!”

“my wittle babies, growing up so fast.”

“god, kie, you make it sound like we’re five?!”

• speaking of alone time, jj loves to cuddle when you guys are alone and that’s one thing he’s not fond of being teased about.

• his head is firm on your chest, his arms wrapped around your waist and his leg flung over your hips. to him it’s just a perfect way to start and end the day.

• he also loves to watch movies while cuddling and he has a set of movies and their genres completely memorized for the occasion.

• he has such a good memory to the weirdest things. like he can state in the exact order your makeup routine, or talk about all the caves and sinkholes in yukatan but ask him how many states there are in america and he’s completely bummed.

• back to what i was saying, cuddling and movie times together.

• he’s the little spoon i will not argue with anyone about this, especially if something happened that day.

• like if rafe pissed him off, some kooks stepped on his toes, his dad had been particularly agitated that day or he was just frustrated. your embrace is what keeps his together. he just loves the feeling of your arms around him, essentially protecting him.

• and the pogues always get a kick out of it when they see you too snuggled in the morning. they even take pictures, a lot of pictures of everything and anything they can. 

• their fav times to take pictures is when you both are off guard: like when he’s putting his hat on you, he’s sharing his juul with you, you guys are laying together on the boat or maybe your surfing together in the water.

• he’s surprisingly intimate about everything even though they’re such mundane things for him.

• he expresses his love for you by actions rather than words. for example, he has a guitar (an absolutely beat up one with missing strings and chipped wood, but he says it has more character that way as well as your signature on the back of it)—

• —and just strums it for you absolutely whenever and however your mood is because no matter what its always calming. sometimes he even hums a little tune or starts singing a bit.  

• another few ways he depicts his love for you is by shoving his baseball hat on your head (the one that absolutely nobody is allowed to wear) because he doesn’t want you frying in the sun or dying of heatstroke.

• a lot of his tank tops are now yours because they’re so comfortable and you can wear them literally anywhere.

• he shares, only with you but, he shares. his rings are on your fingers, his bandana is around your neck, his boxers are your sleep shorts, and he absolutely eats that shit up.

• he also gets extremely comfortable with you, like even more than john b in a way. example: you could just be chilling, his arm wrapped around your neck and — boom — he’s shoving your face in his armpit and trying to tickle you.

• it gets to the point where the pogues are so used to it and sometimes even they join in because they even like being included in on your affections but would absolutely rather drown than admit it. they love watching their two best friends love grow for each other, and they're happy jj has found sanctuary to love and be with someone freely. 

�� speaking of love, jj is also like a puppy: praise, reassurance and kisses are the way to his heart and staying there.

• i’m gonna say it, jj has self confidence and love issues. they are not detectable at all but with his mother gone and the way his father treated him, there’s shit buried in his heart that it takes awhile for him to open up about.

• once he does: he cries, and he cried a lot. but after that it was like never letting go again. he trusts you with his whole heart and soul and he knows you won’t take advantage of that.

• the way you both accept each other into each others lives is so important to him no matter where you live, who you are and what your family is like everything counts for him and that just makes you the person who you are. 

• dating jj can be complicated and messy and wonderful and passionate and relationships aren’t easy but he would def be worth it <3

[herweirdass]

win or lose | jb

with less than 30 seconds on the clock, joe had to choose something to get them out of this slump and fast. they were down by 6 and were pushed back to the 20 yard line.

“BLUE 52! BLUE 52!” joe yelled. his teammate snapped the ball to him and he quickly scanned the field. with no one open, his only option was to run the ball. he quickly ran, dodging every opponent, cradling the ball tightly to his chest.

he had gotten halfway to the goal before being sacked by the opposition. he tried to stand but instantly fell back to the ground. he had torn something. and it hurt. badly.

the trainers rushed onto the field to take him away. in that moment joe had felt so defeated. he couldn’t help but think that he had let his whole team down.

y/n had been at home with their baby watching the whole thing. it upset her to see him so hurt. she continued to watch the game even after he had cleared the field. he would be even more hurt knowing that they had lost the game.

soon after the game was over, joe came limping through the door with the help of a teammate. y/n took over for his teammate and gave him a soft thanks. she gently placed joe on the couch and took a seat next to him.

he buried his head in her chest as she rubbed his nape. this released a wave of emotions in joe. he began to softly cry into his girlfriends chest.

“we lost-“ he cried. this had been the weakest he had ever felt and could easily be dubbed as one of his lowest points during the season.

“i know baby. it’s okay.” y/n said comforting him as he continued to cry.

after a while, the crying stopped and the two had moved to their bedroom. they were under their sheets, holding each other tightly when y/n decided to speak. “win or lose, i’ll always love you.” she said and kissed his forehead then his lips.

it was nights like this that they both had cherished so much. not his losses, not the crying. just them two. locked away from the world, without the publicity or the cameras.

these wholesome moments were what made joey realize that these moments of bliss, of nothingness, were what he wanted for the rest of his life. with no other.

just a small fluffy jb request!

[sweetesthaaze]

when anthony found out kate had woken up, that whole sequence was excellent, he bit when he put the papers down got me bad, l’ll admit I cried. He was obviously not going to hold it together but him putting the papers aside was just 👌🏽. He just couldn’t pretend to keep looking at accounts or whatever, he just gave in to being overcome with emotion. We saw him obviously tense and being snappy trying to continue as normal while struggling, seeing him break down and cry was a much needed release

That whole scene is TRULY a masterpiece! After walking out of the room when he brought her back (that is actually one of my favorite scenes that we don't talk about enough), it's so clear how he tries to busy himself in order to control his feelings and emotions about everything that happened recently with Kate. Like you said, the way he interacts with his family before Kate wakes up shows how much it affected him, he just doesn't want to admit it.

And when she finally wakes up and Violet seems so happy to tell Anthony and the way her face just falls as Anthony breaks down. She knows exactly what is going on in his mind and how he's processing everything. It's such a beautiful scene between them, with Violet comforting him and apologizing to him and acknowledging the hurt he's still clinging so desperately to.

And the fact that Anthony's only words in that whole scene are, "She's awake?" and "I do not think that I can see her." because the scene is meant to show Anthony's emotions, it's not necessarily about his words in that moment, and about how he is finally letting all his emotions out, the good, the bad, and the hurt. It's about showing just how much his love for Kate has affected him and his control over his emotions. I don't think there will ever be a time that I DON'T cry watching that scene.

God, I just, I just absolutely love everything about it. Ruth and JB are spectacular.