#i love them it's ruining my life😭

[fancyzombiepuppy]

i could never get over them

GEGE WHEN I CATCH YOU GEGE WHEN I FUCKING CATCH YOU-

[silvers-not-home]

do you guys ever think about how in third life grian and scars love actually felt like love in regards to other seasons? how they would dance with eachother in the desert and make eachother flower crowns, embroidering lilacs and poppies on each others clothes, holding hands, killing for eachother- actually killing eachother.

how by last life grian wanted nothing but a break from scar. wanted nothing to do with scar. flat out forgot about him and only interacted with him when he needed something while scar was still infatuated with grian. still holding onto the same cactus flower he gave him in his pocket, months after it had already wilted away

how in double life was the perfect opportunity for them to interact with eachother again, finally after a whole season of being separated they could make up again only for scar to realize it wasn't the business that made them drift apart. it was grian, not wanting anything to do with him anymore. it was grian getting tired of him, letting go of the love he had for him and throwing it away while scar held onto it until his hands became red and sore. scar never wanted to stop loving him but grian never wanted to love him to being with.

how grian cheated on him, lied to him, ignored him, had little to no trust in him. only showed any actual care about him because they shared health, he wouldn't have even batted an eye if they didn't. and scar only stayed because he didn't know how to live without loving him. only stayed with a man that ignored and cheated on him because he didn't wanna be alone- he didn't know how to be alone without destroying himself in the process

but how limited life was different. limited life was the season scar finally learned how to let go of grian and focus on people that actually give a damn about him. and when he finally started doing that he finally learned what it was like to actually be loved. not just appreciated, not just wanted but actually loved- he died with the comfortable yet cryptic feeling of not loving him anymore

then secret life comes around and he's finally content without being codependent on grian. without having to know his input or opinion on what he's doing he's fallen out of love and he's okay with that. he's okay with throwing away the wilted lilacs and poppies hes kept in his pockets after all this time. he's finally okay with not having him and once he is grian isn't. he's asking him to team up, something that's never ever happened before. he notices the dead flowers in his hair and stray sand on his clothes. he's gone back, he never left the desert and scar doesn't wanna admit it but he has. but once he won, he was alone again. right when he was okay with it he got it. being alone for an entire year (it's canon you guys. you guys it's canon and it HURTS :((() but being alone for an entire year makes him reflect obviously. it makes him think about how everyone just walks all over him and how he just lets it happen without doing anything about it. it makes him think about how much actually misses the desert. he can't help but despise what grian did but god does he miss him

AND THEN WILD LIFE????? HUH???? what the hell do you mean grian is trying to get a monopoly on sand. you mean scar? the one that started monopolies in the first place? no he's busy having a monopoly on a green plant with his blond, british, bird friend while living on a mountain. his ass not only went back to the desert he fucking ran back to the desert once he heard word of grian being there. he's okay with being alone but if he had the chance, he'd go back to season one.

you guys ever think about that or is it just me?

[cxndycl0wn]

[indigopoptart]

gonna get back into the swing of things with!! some faces I did a bit ago!!!

+ closeups and oc creds under the cut!

the welcome home guys ofc <3

some of my guys!

(Niebla belongs to both me and @akemima ! <3)

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And now, some friends’ ocs!

Lady belongs to @gremliinsart, Keira belongs to @funonion001 !!! :3

Sundown belongs to @carnivalcarrion !! <3

Damon belongs to @sammysun , Wizard belongs to @akemima !! :33 <3<3

[fuzziiwuzzii]

JIM’S HAIR *FALLS TO MY KNEES AND EXPLODES*

[yuwuta]

i politely demand you talk about your nge/pacrim au!

thank you for enabling my behavior and for all your art omg <33333 i will attempt to coherently and briefly outline my thoughts

the short version is: yuuta/rika saves you post-battle and both are irrationally upset when it turns out that you already have a boyfriend. 

yuuta would like to take some of the credit for digging you out the rubble, but the truth is, it was like his mech was on auto-pilot, overriding all of his controls to dig you out of a lifeless environment and stash your cold, limp body in the center chamber until yuuta and rika were transported back to the base. 

yuuta doesn’t understand why he lost control of rika like that, nor does he understand why he feels so upset when he goes to visit you in the infirmary and there’s already some other man by your bedside holding your hand. he vaguely recognizes kokichi as a junior engineer who’s done a few surface level repairs on rika, and he’s surprised and green with envy to find out that kokichi is also your boyfriend. 

yuuta doesn’t understand the anger he feels, or the headache he gets, or the panic attack that’s threatening to rise in him, or why his feet automatically drag him back to his mech, or why he feels like he could hear rika’s faint sobs and screams in his head and he lay in his pilot chamber. none of it makes sense and he can barely sleep because of it, but it happens every time he thinks about you and kokichi for too long; and strangely enough, if the thinks about how rika seemed to come to life to save you for too long. there’s some kind of missing link he can’t piece together. 

when you’re conscious, you can’t seem to recall any part your childhood, and only have your memories from college onwards, save for bits and pieces of the attack you were a victim of. yuuta learns that you were studying to be an engineer, that you were moving to work at the hangar and be closer to your boyfriend, that kokichi was slated to pick you up from the airport that ended up being the site of attack. a small part of yuuta wishes kokichi had been there, thinks that rika wouldn’t have found him in the rubble. 

you’re the miracle save, and somewhat become the baby of the hangar. world-renowned pilots you’d only ever studied in class stopped by to give you their condolences, offer their help. you try to remain calm when satoru gojo and kento nanami make an appearance as a duo in your tiny recovery room, calling you brave and bowing to you with a home cooked meal in hand. senior engineers do their best to recover your work from college, assuring you that your injuries and recovery period would be a non-factor in the hiring process—that you were free to start as soon as you felt comfortable. you get the most attention from yuuta, who makes himself a friend, and a critical part of your recovery, essentially firing your physical therapist in favor of fixing you himself. 

everyone makes you feel welcome, but yuuta makes you feel safe. he holds your waist while you re-learn to walk, he sneaks you into the pilot’s lounge while the jaegers have their repairs done—and nods in faux-sympathy as you mourn the presence of your boyfriend, who seems busier than ever these days with nuisance repairs, jokes about how yuuji and megumi seem to be particularly reckless with their jaeger lately—he squeezes your hand when you have headaches and fractured flashbacks of your past that you can’t piece together, he holds you when you cry out of pure frustration of not being able to remember who you are

yuuta’s a real smooth talker, too. always knows exactly how to comfort you while your boyfriend is busy, always talks to the press about you so preciously, always makes you feel like you have a purpose even if you can’t remember your past self—maybe you weren’t meant to remember anything before him and rika, maybe it was meant to be this way. it’s a twisted comfort, but it’s something to cling to, it’s better than crying over memories you no longer have.

everyone notices yuuta’s weird reverse stockholm syndrome lol… the way he hovers over you like he’s your sole protector and savior, the way he demands to be privy to all decisions about your health care, the way he remains close to you with no fear of your boyfriend. nobody says anything, though—yuuta’s a pilot, a good one, and one the few solo pilots in the entire world. he’s precious and vital to humanity, worth a thousand men, worth ten thousand engineers. besides, his friends see something special between you two, especially the co-pilot pairs; satoru and kento, megumi and yuuji, choso and yuki—they know compatibility when they see it, and boyfriend or not, you have something special with yuuta. they all share a common thought: kokichi is fighting a losing battle. and even if he could beat yuuta, he’d never win against rika.

[desi-yearning]

Yearning extra this November for some reason

[dairyfreenugget]

I could count the amount of original stories of mine that don't have horror elements on one hand and idk what that says about me

[deargravity]

paralive has been kind of pissing me off recently but let me not linger on that lmfao i will muscle through this for visty lore

[mariemariemaria]

i feel kinda crazy bc whenever i was a teenager i created this sorta imaginary older big sister who had moved out of the house so in my head i could live w her whenever i wanted bc she had survived it all and was independent and she would also just comfort me in a big sisterly way whenever something bad or upsetting happened and recently ive been going back to that at my big age 😭 and its kinda sad and also just wish fulfillment and also kinda scary bc i really used to think that by my age i'd have everything sorted but i really don't and i know that's normal and nobodies twenties are perfect but some people also have good relationships w their fathers which is crazy just to think about sooo

[girlthativealwaysbeen]

you ever hangout with someone and their company is actually much worse than being alone?

[skitskatdacat63]

During the 2020 shut-in era, I basically only listened to Coldplay and god the amnt of emotional nostalgia I get from listening to their music is so

[chrisbangs]

if you told me all those years ago that the people who made the song that got me through the worst time of my life would go on to do some of the craziest things in their career and you said they're gonna go perform at all these places and do all these things 😭 idk what baby me would've done but current me is literally so overwhelmed with emotions ... 😞🫶‼️💗 like that's just too crazy to me to really put into words but watching the skz journey feels so heart warming and exciting and im so incredibly fucking proud of them... 🥺🤍 my skz you are so amazing 😭🫶💗🌙🫂

[limitlesspossibilities]

//I beat Persona 3 and I am distraught but I'm adding these three as muses-

[beastking-golion]

I’ve got poll ideas rolling around in my head so

[dbphantom]

Thought process: wow I have so many tabs open on my Firefox what the hell was I do-

Carry on.