#i love kratom

[m00li55a]

i took like 10g of kratom tonight and it’s starting to kick in - it’ll help a lot with my anxiety right now plus 10g gets me high af feeling so i can just lay back and eat snacks and enjoy it

[prolibytherium]

The contents of this fridge haunt and enchant me

[emodennis]

dennis takes a mental health day - freaking out

[mezmer]

Also people showing you kindness can change your entire perspective.. once you experience somebody’s graciousness you will feel this nagging desire to do the same for others, which might inspire another person, and so on (put my story in the tags)

young me especially would have hated hearing this but networking is literally the most important thing you can do to improve your situation like forget economic barriers to education etc just keep making friends with different people and eventually someone will offer you a hand up just because they dig your vibe and that is exactly all that's happening when undeserving people surpass you anyway

[xdarkabyssx]

FINALLY ABLE TO TAKE A BREAK

(My shift ends in 45 minutes)

[kratomqueen]

I usually take low doses of kratom which is basically just caffeine if it had chiller vibes but occasionally I'll take high doses and I'm like damn this shit really do be a partial opioid

[gatorsnot]

sorry for all the inactivity bros but working two jobs atm got me like

i'll jingle my blog's bells as soon as i recharge and whoever can help me come up with an alligator or daybreak themed holiday url gets a chocolate chip muffin 😎

[wariomolly]

everyone in the kava bar is vaping elf bars and the collective tiny puffs are actually making it hazy in here

[deeppenguinstudent]

Jeremy clenched his teeth around the cork and twisted the bottle to unscrew it from the wine bottle. Kevin wrapped a langurous arm across Jean's waist and was drifting into a soundless slumber. They were enclosed in a makeshift pillow fort adorned with cloths of mismatched colors and awry stich work.

"Sleep," Jeremy heard Jean whisper to Kevin in French. Jean shifted from in between Jeremy and Kevin to retrieve a pillow, but Kevin ceased his puerile efforts and pushed his face into the crevice of Jean's neck.

"Let me use your neck, Jean," Kevin murmured, and Jeremy could almost feel the tingling sensation of his breath against his own neck, "Like how we used sleep as kids."

Jean huffed, but he wordlessly bared his neck - almost like an offering - to Kevin. Jeremy gazed at them in fascination. Just 30 minutes ago, they were at each other's throats, throwing whatever miniscule item they could find at each other. Now, they were inseparable, clinging onto one another as if their lungs would collapse from asphyxiation if they weren't within proximity.

"What, you want to use my neck too?" Jean snapped Jeremy's trance with a sharp jibe. He was glaring at Jeremy with a vitriolic expression that would have shrunk Jeremy into a puddle of defeat mere days ago. However, Jeremy couldn't miss the way Jean's gaze wavered to his exposed torso for a few seconds before flicking up to meet Jeremy's simpering smirk once again.

Jeremy stooped slightly to kiss Jean. A hand shot down his desperate venture.

"You reek of alcohol."

Jeremy blinked, dazed. He was transfixed in the way that Jean's lips pouted slightly as he chided him gently. The way his eyebrows furrowed as Jeremy continued to look at him absentmindedly. He thinks about the heated debate they shared last night; the way Jean but his lips to stampede his anger when Jeremy had professed he loved Kratom more than Chaplin.

Jeremy licked a stripe up Jean's hands that made the latter retract his hand, gobsmacked while Jeremy practically fell against Jean's neck in pure fatigue. Drinking with Kevin really wore him down to the bone.

"I want to kiss you," Jeremy blurted out.

"You're drunk, go to sleep."

Jeremy felt a protest die on his tongue as the familiar embraces of drowsiness drown his sense of being. Before he slept, however, he reached out to interlock his fingers with Kevin's and rested it on top of Jean's torso.

He knows with a sinking feel in his stomach that Jean would be lost with the nightly wind, and things would return as normal once the punishing glare of the morning Sun arrives.

[boywrencher]

Craving for "medical" purposes, sex, respiration imagination, penetration, potions, herbs, oil. Black seed and carrot. Acid micro/macro dose, meditate see shapes. intraveineuse. Signal variable, maille vénéneuse. Kratom pour l'énergie ou pour la défonce ? There are layers, justified and ancient, that can be peeled off of just about everything you see, but at the center there is always uncertainty and in it lies freedom. Anti-depressant style. Out, live at night since when I sleep I am a tomb. Psilocybin style. Pacas style. Huarache, champurrado. Exercise (system preference). "Good" ideas, inspiration, "bad" vibes, good vs. good. keep falling in love with them in dreams but it would be nice if just one could make it here

[luckyjunehenry]

going through my first breakup !!! rough relationship...

Do you have any tips and tricks for breakups?

ugh im sorry to hear that, pal :-(

I made some really bad choices after my first breakups. here are some examples of what not to do, paired with songs I wrote about their consequences

public vagueposting - just. the entirety of The Light I Choke Down

spotify stalking - Tell (you made him a playlist / songs I played when we kissed)

using any substance alone, even just weed or alcohol - 23rd (window lights advertising kratom / think of u and keep my eye on the next block)

closure-seeking - Monkey's Paw (I'd kill for just one more kiss / the monkey's paw would twist / and something SO fucked up / would obviously have to happen")

jumping into a new emotionally intense relationship - rituals (I STILL LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!)

I want to encourage you to see this time as at least a little bit exciting. you're basically required to start a new chapter of your life, and that chapter could be full of so many wonderful things. being without a partner is hard!! especially if you're not used to it!! but you will adjust, and I hope you're already feeling lighter now that you're not in that situation anymore.

I always give myself a sanctioned Rot Week during which im allowed to watch teen wolf and doordash Taco Bell to my home. usually, I get sick of this before the week is up. indulge in the sadness but not for too long.

pure subtraction doesn't work very well for modifying behavior. You need to introduce replacement activities, otherwise your life will feel smaller than it was when you were in that bad relationship. find new and exciting ways to spend your time !! volunteer !! have craft nights with friends!!

breakups suck, but what sucks even worse is being in an unfulfilling/unhealthy relationship. try not to mourn what could've been– recognize what it was, and know that you're one step closer to finding a relationship that is everything you actually want !!

[satellitecock]

At The Firm (Tradcath)

Heretics instructing me to monitor spending, but I have a responsibility as a christian man, and that is to become the first daytrading billionaire.

As I was crushing up my piracetam tablets to put in my kratom potion this morning, I remembered just how warm and beautiful god's love truly is. My employer has no idea I'm daytrading right now, and I thank our father so much for protection from my boss.

All I want to say folks is, fuck 'em. Daytrade and sip on that disgusting green drank.

[mousemilf]

hate hate hate when my posts get momentum and people expect me to conduct myself like an influencer or politician or philosopher i am a cake decorator who loves hard seltzer and small stimulant doses of kratom and you should take me exactly that seriously.

[lobotomy-lady]

Asking this with literally zero judgement, i love you and you’re brilliant: are you addicted to opioids? how do you take them recreationally and not get hooked? (also where can i get some)

thank u anon I love u too ♡ yes I am addicted to my reddit opiates but they arent real opiates since theyre derived from kratom lol, they just operate on the same receptor in ur brain. its not like "has to be high every waking moment" level addicted but I take at least one dose every night, sometimes 2, & I get bad withdrawal symptoms if I go more than a day without them. I also fiend very hard when I'm waiting for them to arrive in the mail & end up checking the USPS tracker like every hour for days. I can fully control my WD with regular kratom powder tho

I buy the 7-OH tablets from kratomheads dot com . I take the 30s but you should start w/the 18s or you'll throw up like I did my first time lol. also if you dont live in the US & in one of the states that hasn't banned it yet then I'm afraid u are fucked but it's probably for the best bc this shit is so addictive. the good thing is since it only partially binds to the mu-opioid receptors in ur brain, it can't cause respiratory arrest & kill u the way anything derived from poppies can.

but yeah if u have addictive tendencies beware bc it feels extremely good. i can legit nod on it which is wonderful it feels so relaxing & warm & falling asleep on it is so easy & I actually sleep rly well through the night . this is just my DOC, I can go without alcohol or weed easily but 7OH gives me exactly what I want I ♡ it so much

[jasper-tarot-reader]

Hi jasper!!

They/them DB again :3

I am back for another reading if that is ok :D

This time i am looking for,, advice? On where to go or maybe where to restart with my craft

Background info: i've been very on and off with all this stuff and kept jumping around without a purpose, so im wondering if there is anything to know before i "lock in" i suppose lol

Im sorry if this doesnt make much sense but i trust u :3

Welcome back to the ask box, DB! For this reading, I have blended the As Above half of the Book of Shadows Tarot by Barbara Moore with the Spirit Allies oracle deck by Jill Pyle and Cidney Bachert! Both of these decks are very Wiccan, but they're also some of the more actually-craft-focused decks I own, so we'll just have to grit our teeth. You have received the 6 of Fire reversed, the 5 of Fire upright, and 31. Kratom for this reading!

Oh this is a delightful spread, sliding down from 6 to 5. And if you do the thing that tarot recommends and add the individual numbers of 31 (3 and 1) together, you get 4, continuing the slow slide. Quite nice.

So here's what's going on with the As Above deck. The suits are all renamed to their elements and assigned a category. In this case, Fire is planets and salamanders. Broadly speaking, this suit emphasizes things like candle magic - up to anointing, carving, and everything to do with that. The 5 and 6 of Fire, then, are Jupiter and Saturn respectively. Instead of reversals, this deck technically has shadow sides, which is what Saturn is portraying.

With me so far?

The reversed Saturn indicates the building of walls and retreat. The fear of failure overwhelms the desire to succeed. This may be a case where you're scared of things not working in your practice. As annoying as it is for things to not work when you put time into them, it's very important to understand that failure is not total. In the wise words of Miss Frizzle, "If at first you don't succeed, find out why."

So, I've been getting into planetary magic recently. Been dipping my toe in and making a document of keywords and correspondences and whatnot. Somewhere among all of that research, I came across the idea that Jupiter opposes Saturn. Jupiter is benefic and auspicious, while Saturn is harsh and malefic. Saturn is when you want to bind and punish, while Jupiter is when you want to grow and gain.

Jupiter, the Great Benefactor, is "like everyone's favorite uncle - generous, fun and charming", according to Barbara Moore. And I would agree. Jupiter is associated with things like prosperity, expansion, and religion/spirituality. This could mean that getting back into the actual spiritual part of your practice, if such a thing existed previously, could help. Otherwise, magic to help you and the folks around you is also a potential point to consider as you get back into your practice or rework it.

And now, for something completely different. Mitragyna Speciosa is a tropical evergreen from southeast Asia. Its leaves, the Kratom part, has been used in herbal medicine for chronic pain, opioid withdrawal symptoms, recreational purposes, and more...although the United States Food and Drug Administration disagrees.

As a card, however, Kratom asks you this: What are you trying to avoid or ignore that you know is a problem? What are you holding onto that's just holding you back? As you handle problems, you'll generally feel better, even if the solution may sting a bit. It's gonna be uncomfortable, but discomfort is a necessary part of life, even though we all hate it. This card actually ties back in with the 6 of Fire/Saturn card, in a way.

Whew! I see why @khajiit-reads pulls multiple cards for questions, I love the amount of detail I can put into this reading, even though it takes a bit longer. It's very nice to see how all the cards interact.

Anyhow, I hope this reading has been helpful! If you feel so inclined, please feel free to send feedback in my ask box, leave feedback in a reblog of this reading, and/or reblog my reading guidelines!

~Jasper

[kaonarvna]

Going through so much right now. Barely have the capacity to do much of anything aside from work and take care of myself and my spouse.

Autistic burnout is truly a cruel mistress. As is having undiagnosed ADHD, knowing what your unmet needs are, and not having the means to access the support you require.

Big vent below. Workplace ableism. ADHD/AuDHD vent.

My spouse is quitting his job again. It happens every year. We've only just now realised "oh my god, it's the autism. It was always the autism" for why he keeps hopping.

He's leaving the current job because they're failing to give him what seems like the most basic accommodations (written instructions, scheduled meetings/literally any notice instead of impromptu "informal chats" in hallways with no record, basic empathy).

He's being told off for "speaking too loudly" and "speaking too enthusiastically" even though all he's talking about with his colleagues is work. They took away his office to turn it into a meeting room, forced him into the communal office space, and have now told him to stop talking to himself or his colleagues.

It's heartbreaking. It's been slowly creeping in for months and it's taken too long for us to realise "oh my god, you need a diagnosis, this is just fucking discrimination, you need formal accommodations and support".

So he's off on the sick now because his stress has become so severe that he just can't function. Before he got the sick note he'd come home and crash every day, and dreaded going to work. He role-played being a warhammer 40k servitor (lobotomised and obedient worker drone, basically) to help him get through the day of staying quiet and doing nothing but work. He'd come home and need so much sensory input and support. And he slept so much, and so poorly. He started to "fail the speech checks" (massively miss social cues and say the wrong thing) with colleagues at work, and came home embarrassed in ways he never was before. He's a very very social animal, and didn't think he had social difficulties, but now he's so worn down that he's realised he does.

He can't mask anymore. He's so tired.

And now that he got that sick note, and plans to leave, he's not dreading waking up each day nearly as much. He's still in the sensory sock every day, and he's still sad and overwhelmed, but he's feeling better.

We've started the process of getting him a diagnosis, but it's going to take months and months and months. We don't really have months. We're going to start applying for new jobs for him, and hopefully get him out of labs. You'd think a chemical laboratory would be the perfect place for an autistic man who loves STEM, but management has always made it unworkable for him. He's always slowly forced out.

And I can barely take care of him, between working full time and having EDS. And I've finally realised I desperately need that ADHD diagnosis, and I need meds. I haven't felt like a person in so long. I haven't felt like myself in years. I feel like this abstract creature inside this horrible prison, and the controls don't work anymore.

Every mental health professional I've seen has asked me, "Have you ever been assessed for ADHD? You've already adopted all the coping mechanisms and lifestyle changes I could recommend. I can't diagnose you, but yknow, think about it."

I've always suspected it. I know I'm autistic. All signs point to ADHD too.

I looked back on every stimulant I've put in my body, and realised that all of them made my brain emptier. They all gave me more control. I was always more able to make choices and act upon them. But I used to associate that with the pain relief (think kratom, nefopam, etc) not the stimulant.

So when I got my pain mostly under control, and I manage it now, I couldn't figure out why I still had so little control over myself.

It's the fucking ADHD.

How much time have I lost to being undiagnosed and unmedicated? How much of my life has slipped down the drain while I paced back and forth, or laid in place "stuck", or ping ponged from incomplete task to incomplete task until I crashed? How much more pleasure could I have experienced if my brain wasn't full of constant noise and thirty different versions of the same thought?

How much have I hurt myself by going "you're fine, you don't need meds" for so many years?

I don't know how long it's going to take to get diagnosed. I've started the process and now we just...wait. But all the evidence points to "yes", and that "meds will probably work and make a massive difference for your quality of life". I might get to be a person someday, or at least a more fulfilled creature.