#i love kratom

[m00li55a]

i took like 10g of kratom tonight and it’s starting to kick in - it’ll help a lot with my anxiety right now plus 10g gets me high af feeling so i can just lay back and eat snacks and enjoy it

[prolibytherium]

The contents of this fridge haunt and enchant me

[thedisablednaturalist]

Last time I went through withdrawal I ended up in the hospital. I can't do it again. I've basically been forced to semi withdrawal every two weeks bc of how the refills are spaced. My legs get so restless I can't sleep. My brain is fuzzy and I can't think. After a couple days the vomiting and headaches start. I'm terrified. I need to work, how can I do that while being forced to go through hell. Yeah maybe I shouldn't be on constant opioids at 26, but can we at least get me off them safely? Can we pursue alternate methods? You're taking away my scuba gear and refusing to help me get back up to the surface. She told me this in one sentence: "I am referring you to the clinical pharmacy for dose optimization and tapering". The pharmacist didn't know anything about that referral. She gave me basic advice that will only work if my doctor agrees to give me more than 10 days to taper. Everyone in the reddit post I made is telling me to save my meds cause I am not getting more. Fuck she didn't even mention referring me to pain management like she's supposed to.

[emodennis]

dennis takes a mental health day - freaking out

[meinalauss]

Whoever figures out how to make kratom not taste like ass without sacrificing potency will be both my personal hero and an overnight millionaire I swear to god

[kratomqueen]

I usually take low doses of kratom which is basically just caffeine if it had chiller vibes but occasionally I'll take high doses and I'm like damn this shit really do be a partial opioid

[gatorsnot]

sorry for all the inactivity bros but working two jobs atm got me like

i'll jingle my blog's bells as soon as i recharge and whoever can help me come up with an alligator or daybreak themed holiday url gets a chocolate chip muffin 😎

[wariomolly]

everyone in the kava bar is vaping elf bars and the collective tiny puffs are actually making it hazy in here

[mousemilf]

hate hate hate when my posts get momentum and people expect me to conduct myself like an influencer or politician or philosopher i am a cake decorator who loves hard seltzer and small stimulant doses of kratom and you should take me exactly that seriously.

[heavenpierceher]

Can you infodump about cëll? I'm intrigued.

his full name is Xhai (surname) Cëll (first name), he's 27 years old, and he lives in Detroit in the year 2094 with a robot roommate/weird gay thing named RISC. his gender is male(?) the question mark is consistent. he's a cyborg; roughly 70% of his body is cybernetic. he works freelance as a mercenary hacker, involving everything from breaking into a warehouse to steal data to staring at a console for nine hours a day. people break into his house to try to kill him roughly once every two weeks. 13% of his genetic data was taken from an enormous, powerful corporate AI's neural data and inserted before his birth, enabling him to install more chips in his brain to make his problems worse. he's aloof, polite, charismatic, and pragmatic, but privately obsessive, fairly pretentious, paranoid, and inclined to hedonism and thrillseeking. i'm (slowly) working on a ref for him, but in the meantime here's some fullbody images of him i don't think i've posted before:

i'm not great at talking without a prompt, so i'm giving myself the prompt of this tongue-in-cheek moodboard i made for him a while ago.

the first image was part of the original inspiration for him—the phrasing was funny but resonated with me. he wouldn't do something as public and blatant as driving a bulldozer through an apple store, but he 100% would commit crimes specifically to get pumped full of dmt

he likes weird sex stuff and doing deliberately dangerous things/making himself vulnerable as a challenge to himself; he enjoys testing his limits and also having sex with strangers

he's pretentious and prone to philosophical ramblings, and has weird and intense feelings on coding, AI, robots, etc

in the setting, there's a UBI and a food stipend; he lives largely off of the extremely basic nutrient/electrolyte packs issued to people monthly, seeing it as more efficient. if they made Booze Pods he would fucking love them

a lot of jenny holzer's truisms sort of skewer him as a person. he has pretty bad OCD/PTSD, but isn't aware of it, or if he is he thinks it's actually just his Superior Preparation Skills. he spends a lot of time making his own problems worse for the thrill of getting himself out of them. also he'll fuck basically anyone

as said before, he has strong feelings about technology, and surrounds himself with it 24/7

this is basically his day job; a nonzero amount of the setting is run by 'dumb' helper AIs which he's talented at verbally 'coding', speaking to them in a language that uses english words but doesn't resemble it, comprehensible only to a LLM

he's a heavy smoker; he smokes hand-rolled kratom, clove, and lavender cigarettes. he doesn't have lungs anymore (got impaled, had to replace them) so there's no real consequences for it

that last one is pretty self explanatory at this point i think

[verdantelephantechos]

In order to quit drinking for an extended period of time, I’ve decided to pick Kratom back up . It’s pretty sad, but I can function and get to work better on it than when I’m drinking. I think it feels better too. It does cloud my judgement somewhat, but not to the extreme degree that alcohol does. Instead of completely turning my brain off and letting the animal out, it’s just a myst that insulates everything, and separates me somewhat from my emotions.

It numbs me somewhat, and I want that. But I still feel sadness in me, as if it wants to burst out. I feel a pain in my heart and a feeling in my gut. The Kratom though, helps keep it all sealed up, so no one knows, nothing slips out, and I can laugh and joke as if it a day in paradise.

I wish I was different. I wish I could live like most people and live a content life being sober most the time. I just find it so difficult to. I feel alienated from others. While I can have a pleasant conversation with someone, connections are almost never made. I always go home feeling alone and worse off. With my insecurity, it makes me think that I am repulsive in some manner, that I’ve done something wrong to someone. I hate I think these things. I know they probably ain’t true but my sad heart wanders towards this negative territory.

I just want to love and be loved, and no matter what I do, I feel I keep moving farther away from that becoming true. I’m trying to be better, I really think that I am. This sadness in me that I’ve felt for years can’t be for nothing. I’m truly afraid that the few who believe in me, will eventually give up on me, and then I’ll have nothing at all, except things to distract me.

[latenightsuburbansprinklersystem]

love of my life nurse is going rogue giving me oxy when I super don't need it after I leveled with her and told her it completely nullifies the kratom withdrawals. earlier she said they're only allowed to give it out if a patient reports pain at a 7 or higher after my dumbass was like "oh a 1 or a 2 I guess. really more of a mild discomfort than a pain at this point" so now every time she walks in she's like how's the pain hun and why is it a 7😏

[girlwhodoeskratom]

good morning <3 doing my makeup & i just drank kratom. lovely

[cloud-based-and-rainpilled]

Tysm @hereforthelizardsex !🦎 I think I got tagged in one of these once & I lost it so tysm for thinkin’ of me lol

3 ships: For ones I’ve written/am writing fic for;

1st: Succession— tomgreg (they are so broken <3)

2nd: Good Omens— ineffable husbands (they are broken in a different special awful way!)

(Shameless Ao3 plug)

3rd: Tie between Grace & Frankie— Grace x Frankie (do they have a ship name?,) Homura x Madoka (they’re kids tho so I don’t really ‘ship’ it, I just love their angst)

First ever ship:

Aside from having IRL friends on here now (lmao outed help,) this was a teeeeeny tiny ship, but I shipped the nerds from Drake and Josh (Craig and Eric) because they were clearly gay coded in the show and I liked the angst.

Only one other person wrote fic at the time; I thought she was so wise ‘cause I was 13 and she was 16 lol. AyanamiEraclea, wherever you are, I remember you…

(Cringe review help lmao)

Also book! Johnlock pre-BBC show; didn’t think it made sense in the show but I liked it book-canon (one of my fav fics of all time <3

Last song: Ventura Highway— America <3

Last movie: EVE OF DESTRUCTION which is simultaneously one of the worst and most bizarrely entertaining movies of all time (on tape, of course)

Currently reading: Absolutely nothing because I’m awful! Maybe I’ll read Brideshead Revisited again idk (oh and I ship Charles/Sebastian/Julia because I'm a bisexual mess lol)

Currently watching: Our Flag Means Death <3 (cannot wait to start shipping them hard af lol)

Currently consuming: Kratom! (it may be bad for me)

Currently craving: Just for everything to stop being so….. aaaaaaaa *Crowley screaming pic here*

9 people! (jk 12 b/c i couldn’t choose)

If you’ve done this before/tagged me once sorry lol & not all y’all are mutuals but anywayz, @fantasticskystuff , @missoneminute , @cordeliaflyte , @aspiringasparagus , @ingravinoveritas , @dumbbitchawards , @blueayame , @gregmarriage , @charitycase33 , @bluebeewings , @faggyangel , @neiltheyrehomosexuals✨

[n1ghtm3ds]

I love you all if im not on today its because i took a bunch of Kratom to get through my unce's funeral

[mezmer]

Pound of damiana is a lot bigger than I thought it would be. For $28, this is a huge deal. It's funny how when you google damiana, every top result calls it a purported aphrodisiac with animal tests to back it up. Well, as actual herbalists have maintained that it is mildly psychoactive (you will feel very perceptive to touch and emotion) you can find that it is a powerful and useful herb for more than just encouraging intimacy. I think of it as a true love plant that shows your heart to you, a little complicated because intimacy becomes involved, or lack thereof and the void unfilled. AbywAy, it's also funny when I Google Kratom and the top results claim it is a "gas station heroin"...let me find out. Oh yeah they're selling counterfeit kratom brand labels on bags of tianeptine, isn't it? This somehow results in my family hating me! Just kidding, that's a strong way to say that. But my aunt does believe I am still getting high because of those google searches. My in laws believe I am fucked up too probably. In actuality, I feel subtle amounts of plant derived bliss and so rarely is my functioning affected by my new herbal lease on life. I can't call it recreational I can't say I'm high. With a life like the one I've had, I am of the opinion that it is up to everyone around me to seek this sensation for themselves. And to be cautious with what might interact with conditions and medications, of course.