#i love it but i am not paying 60 dollars for it

[spookyfloof]

This game truly is a gem.

[brakebabe]

I should NOT be allowed adult money

[squuote]

I rlly love playing arceus but I wish characters would react to your pokemon more. like it would be so cool if you walked around with your pokemon or let them out in the town in front of people they would react like get shocked or curious. specifically I want laventon to react to my pokemon I think he would have great reactions especially if you bring one that’s considered super fucking dangerous

[sephirajo]

Xmas Begging Bowl of 23

Yep, here we are again. This month I am behind on rent (430), need my pain meds, have to pay my bills (power, 60 and cable 120) and buy food. I'm on SSDI, so I only get 1200/mo for two people and I've been sick enough the last month that most of my eating was eating out, being too sick to cook on top of some other expenses that came out of left field. If you can't help, please pass the bowl. If you can toss even five dollars, I promise I use every penny on things I need (and can prove it if you ask, but policing the poor like that is kinda gauche)

As always I have the p_y of p_ls at: paypal.me/Sephirajo

The app of C_sh M_ney at: $Sephirajo

And Kofi at:

0/900

[deebeeus]

Was I mad to buy this 2009, made in Nashville, Epiphone 1962 Wilshire USA Reissue? Short answer: probably.

Long answer: I have always loved the early 60s (symmetrical body) Epi solid guitars like the Coronet, Wilshire, and Crestwood, but the vintage examples were rare (around here anyway) and expensive. When I found out back in 2011 that Gibson had done a limited run of 100 made-in-USA Wilshires, I set off to find one. Considering only 50 were made in cherry (and 50 in white) it took me three long years, but I finally tracked this one down at the old Rumble Seat Music in Ithaca NY for ~2k-ish USD. After 4% NY state sales tax, and 13% sales tax when I brought it over the border with me into Canada, the final total came to about $2300 USD or $2700 CAD (at the time the USD/CAD exchange rate was a LOT better, around 90%, meaning each USD would cost me $1.10 in my dollars. Nowadays it is about 65% so each USD costs me $1.35 CAD 😭). This was expensive for an Epi for sure, considering at the time you could buy a new Chinese Casino for about $550 USD, but it was about half the cost of a vintage Coronet (couldn't find any vintage Wilshires available at the time so I used the vintage Coronets I saw as a proxy), which were going for about 4k USD, so it seemed like a decent deal to me. But just my luck, a few years ago Epiphone decided to put the Wilshire back in to regular production offshore, so now you can go to any store and buy something that looks almost exactly like this one, except made in China, new for 500 USD. The new ones probably aren't made as nicely and certainly wouldn't come with the fancy case or case candy, but is anyone going to be interested in paying 2-3k for a 1 of 50 USA made Wilshire when they can have something pretty close for 500 bucks? I mean, it's all academic anyway because I have no plans to sell this lovely guitar. I am just lamenting all the poor choices I have made over the years in my so-called guitar "investments". Let's put it this way: I won't be retiring any time soon on my guitar portfolio LOL. 😂

[gaykarstaagforever]

I make fun of the DC Silver Age a lot, and good on me, because this shit is goofy and bad and hilarious.

That said, the art in general is great. At least, as simplified realism, which

And all the covers are all SPECTACULAR.

They really knew how to sell a bad story back then, even if they had to lie to do it. Plus the colors...omg.

These are the ones I own and shot myself. You can tell because of the ugly couch background and because I am an idiot who has no idea how to get rid of the glossy glare.

I didn't blast the saturation here; a rarity for me, as a man who loves neon everything. They just look like this. The Superman / Flash one came out in 1969. The pages are all brown and crispy, and that's with this comic riding a Mylar bag for probably 30 years at least.

But these colors on the glossy covers...nuts. I have no idea what probably-toxic ink mix they used, but to still be this vibrant and beautiful 55 years later...

That first comic - which I inherited in a long box 20 years ago - cost the equivalent in 1969 of a dollar and 30 cents today. Imagine anything at that price point in 2024 that lasts for 10 years, let alone 55.

And this Superman, with the dark sky-blue, the tomato red, the neon gold - this IS Superman. These are his colors. Stop trying to "contemporize" it or "improve" it. It's like Batman in black and grey. You can try new stuff, but at the end of the day, this is what he goddamn looks like.

And if you doubt that, look at almost 60 year old comics, and change your mind. Because they're here, now, in your hand, and he STILL looks like that. By some certainly-accidental fluke of 60s publishing. He STILL looks like that.

I see these reproduced digitally, and they're usually slightly color-corrected on either the blacks or whites. And they don't look as good as the actual comics. Look at the blacks and whites here. I didn't fiddle with it! It just looks like this!

And you can own one of these today for like...$30? If you avoid the Ebay weirdos who think they're worth $1500 because they paid a scammer to give it a "9.5" based on star signs and entrap it in a plastic box you're never allowed to open.

There are some going for $7. Ebay is an open-air market from a terrible D&D campaign: real value is based entirely on what you can get a rich idiot to pay for something. YES, condition matters. But determining that puts you right back in rich idiot territory. If a dog didn't chew / pee on it and it isn't falling apart or crumpled into a ball, it's good enough. And you can't read a "pristine" comic in a box, so what the hell is the point?

My point is, you too can easily afford a beautiful comic or two from your grandparents' day, that contains a very stupid story (a very stupid homoerotic story, in this particular case).

I did a thing on it. It is funny.

Treat yourself to one of these "funny books", if you don't own any of these. They're beautiful.

Just don't lick them, because that eternally-vibrant ink may have arsenic in it. It was the 60s. These people put carrots and fish in lime JELL-O. And all that amazing racism. They were bold and talented, but clearly can't be trusted.

[calamityyy-child]

it's like this - I don't love these local experimental heavy noise hardcore emo punk post-punk thrash metal bands because the vocalist is my best friend and the guitarist always calls me short stack and the other band's bass player watched me smoke my first (and last) cigarette and that other other band's drummer is my partner's surrogate dad and lets me into shows when I'm five dollars short. I love them for their music and I don't love their music because it's good. It is, sometimes. Other times it isn't. I love the music because these are songs about us. By and for and from us, from our shitty beautiful tourist-destination route-66-afterthought town. Songs about how the fuck am i gonna pay rent and fuck-you-dad and fuck-you-mom except you've eaten at those kitchen tables, songs about where do i go from here and where did i go wrong and how am i still stuck here, songs about the smell of tobacco and sweat and someone else's brand of lipstick mixing with yours in the bathroom of the same 20-by-20 box of a venue we've been worshipping at with split lips and skinned knees since we were fifteen. it's that my heroes know my middle name and drive cars that need duct tape and a prayer to get across town and shout out inside jokes to all 60 of us crammed into the shoebox room and we all live in each others entrails just a little, gutted and gluttonous and gathering, gathering, gathering, together, together, together.

[game-boy-pocket]

Well, this is one of the first times where i'm going to fully admit that I am looking at a game with a very thick pair of nostalgia goggles but the Super Mario RPG remake is incredible so far... I mean, there isn't very much about it that's different besides the graphics, animations, and sound so far. but the original game was already fantastic to begin with in my eyes, so it didn't need that much to make me happy. The only way I probably would have been upset about this game is if they changed too much.

Not to say here aren't changes. But so far i'm not seeing any that i'm mad about. No, not even name changes or the removal of pop culture references. I'm more impressed with what hasn't been changed.

By the way, I just collected my third star piece... I think I can see the biggest complaint about this game being that it's still the length of an entry level SNES RPG and costs 60 dollary doos. But I really don't care. I just don't. I love this game too much to look at the dollar amount, or to let me be bothered that it will probably take me three days tops to finish this game. I have to raise one little eyebrow at the character Boshi.. he has a saddle?? Not a shell, a saddle. Just like Yoshi in Super Mario World... but... the Yoshis have those dumb rounded shell things from more recent Mario games ( thumbs up on keeping their dinosaur proportions like in Mario Wonder btw, but their oversized snouts still make them look stupid. ) So I do wonder if this is meant to imply that Boshi isn't actually a Yoshi, but just some random Dinosaur that happens to look like a Yoshi... or.. I wonder if there's gonna be some easter eggs in the end game about their scrapped plans to reveal he was a Dragon? That'd be tasty. And adult Toads still have hair!

Speaking of, a lot of enemies are so much easier to parse now... I love Super Mario RPG, but it wasn't the best looking game at times, and sometimes I couldn't even tell what an enemy was. But now I know those floating pig bat things were actually made up of several creatures, which explains why they split apart when they attack, and those crystal monsters have little blobby things inside them.

Man i'm having such a blast. I want to go back to playing it right now, but I should be winding down for stupid bed because I have stupid work tomorrow to earn a stupid check to pay my stupid rent ( and hopefully have enough to buy a stupid video game once in a while.

[terrainofheartfelt]

Hi okay. So opera is like. One of my biggest cultural blind spots. And I wanna start trying to get into it but at you know…reasonable prices lol. Any tips on where to start? Maybe in terms of where to watch operas online? And which operas are more easily digestible for a newbie lol

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! waking up and seeing this in my notifs made me sooooooo happy! S! there's a beautiful, wondrous, extremely problematic world of art awaiting you!

Alright, so I'm gonna try to take your question bit by bit but this is my specialized field and I love to talk about it but I'll try my best ok ok

pricing is definitely a valid concern - I totally get it. good news is there are still lots of options to see opera live that are not in A-level, top dollar houses. try googling and poking around instagram for what's called "storefront" companies, ie, smaller companies. there's less star power and production value, but you can see great performances for $20-$60 a ticket, depending on the house and your neck of the woods. another great option is the MetHD series. The Met Opera in NYC is an institution that I have....lots of thoughts about -- and we can talk about those too if you like -- but a decent thing they've done is that for about half of their season, they broadcast performances to movie theaters all over the world. I haven't gone since the Before Times (pre-covid), but I think the most I paid was 40 bucks. and it is a great way to see opera that's low stakes. wear comfy clothes, bring a big sweater, stuff your purse full of snacks. my friend and I went to Tristan and Isolde with numerous smuggled snacks and big old fountain drinks and it rocked!

online stuff: possibilities are endless. MetHD does have a catalog of past performances - you have to pay, so take that for what you will, but you can find whole ass operas on YouTube! and once you figure out what kinds you like, and which singers you like, you can get pickier and choosier. And of course, check out your local library! big city library systems likely have lots of digital subscriptions to peforming arts things. some names to look out for: Alexander Street Press; medici tv; naxos. a cursory google brought up this NYT article that has some resource possibilities too!

and, my recommendations for a new viewer!

disclaimer: I am a sucker for big, bombastic, romantic grand opera, but I understand that that can be A Bit Much for a first timer, so while I love all of these, not all are my top faves, but I think they are a great primer, and hopefully if you like them I can go on and on about the heavier-hitters later.

I personally think the best starting point for someone looking to get into opera is Puccini. He was a bit of a bastard (weren't they all) but his music and stories all unfold in a cinematic kind of way. Opera was written to fit a specific kind of theatrical/musical structure for a long time, and Puccini and his era was where that structure kind of broke down, and he just wrote to move a story and characters and music forward, away from this speak-sing, solo, repeat, speak-sing, ensemble, rinse repeat kind of thing. for a specific title, I highly recommend Tosca. The political battle for Italy's unification is the backdrop for one hell of a story. The title character is a boss ass bitch. She sings well, fights well, dies well. I think it rocks. and it's a very popular one, so finding an online version or a live performance should be easy going!

and S, since you are a theatre kid, I'd steer you to checking out La Boheme as well -- its the og source material Larson based Rent off of, though it's considerably more tragic. music is gorgeous though. Zefferelli (yeah, that one) directed a production at the Met that they mount every other year. it's beautiful! another I think you should try is La Traviata. aka the basis of the classic film Moulin Rouge. this one is by Verdi, based off the Dumas Lady of the Camellias. a courtesan in Paris who falls in love with this young man, and the forces of fate that pull them apart. it's got that aria that you hear in Princess Diaries 2 Royal Engagement, and there are moments of music that are just so fucking SUBLIME. Puccini also wrote his own spin on Dame aux Camellias called La Rondine, and it is a delightful, gorgeous, romantic piece, definitely worth checking out.

Okay one more rec and then I'll stop myself. and this one will be contemporary! mentioning the Met reminded me that this season they've swung big and put Dead Man Walking on their list. this is an opera that's been very important to me for like, 10 years. I learned one of the arias in undergrad, and I even met Sister Helen Prejean, and a few years after that, I got to see it live in kansas city, and even though we agreed that the lead was kinda meh, my friend and I were still so moved that we were sobbing. it's so so so powerful. idk if it is part of MetHD, but if so, I highly encourage you to see it. so, it is based off of Sister Helen's memoir Dead Man Walking, about how she came to be a spiritual advisor to inmates on death row, and it follows her starting this new -- phase? i guess? -- of her nun career, through to the inmates execution. it is not for the faint of heart, and I would say read the wikipedia and mind the content warnings, but god what a great opera. and one more note about the composer, honestly I don't think anyone else is doing it like Jake Heggie. he understands this concept that I think many modern composers don't, is that he's creating a dramatic work. and whether is comedic or tragic, it's got to move people. I've dealt with a lot of shitty modern opera, and I think those are mostly composed as if they are university assignments. llike, prove how well you understand this music theory concept by writing it. I say it's more like they are writing math problems instead of music. but Jake Heggie writes music. and that's what makes DMW such a standout to me. That and a low-voiced woman plays the heroic lead (rarer than one may think rip)

I am so so happy you asked and I am always open to talking more if you're curious! (and that goes for S and anyone else reading this <333)

[shinkei-shinto]

hi little vent

I'm tired of being ghosted. I'm tired of being lied to. I am so, so so tired of the endling showing and god, but does it hurt.

I do art for a living. I have never lied to a client to cover my ass bc I forgot or ADHD'd something or memory problems or overwhelmed. Apologize and make it right.

tried to commission someone else. caught them in a lie. asked for the truth in the future or a refund.

got the refund.

they would rather refund me than tell me the truth in future interactions.

woke up today. okay. too early. did some social media scroll.

and again and again and again seeing some fucking post talking about how the thing that is me is wrong. or bad. or not actually that oppressed. or whatever. I try to flick faster when I realize what I'm reading so I don't remember examples.

I do remember that it happened four times. just in clearing Tumblr today.

again and again.

one of my clients chose to "request" more work. when they were told that they should pay me by others. when they were made extremely aware that I intended to charge for further work (as if, live on stream, designing an entire new look for a character and drawing an entire fully colored piece with background elements, for a paltry fucking ~60 dollars, wasn't fucking enough)

and when I made a nice public post about how this service they were demanding would cost money bc I'm not a machine I'm a fucking person and I deserve that?

"oh nope can't afford it maybe next time"

can't even fucking respect me. can't even fucking treat me like I'm worth anything.

again and again and again. just. completely worthless to the entire social circles I reside in, right now.

and on the other side of the country

and in my partner/owner/love's house

I hear them call me 'pet' to someone who I thought had been preventing that from being used freely in their house

I see them later tell me that's okay now

later, more

I get to be the thing that I am and people like me for it. not just tolerate. not slide their eyes over it uncomfortably and refuse to engage.

not treating me like a machine that makes things for them, not treating me like a thing that doesn't even deserve the barest minimum of respect - not fucking being lied to -

hard to want to get up and go to work when I know how I'll be treated. hard to get up and pull the hoodie of humanity over my head, cast my face in shadow, so none of them have to see it.

12 days until maybe, a break.

[rathersketchy]

UH OH, FINANCIAL CRISIS!!!

So I got fired a couple months back, and I am still looking for a full-time job that pays enough to keep me alive so until then LITERALLY ANYTHING HELPS RIGHT NOW. The goal right now is to get $1000 to pay off this month's mortgage, and the next like $500 goes to the electric, water, and internet bill.

Sketches start at only five dollars, no linework with no linework and no color, and the more you pay the more time, effort, and love will go into it, so you will still get your money's worth!!!

Here are some examples of what the artwork might look like at the minimum price of only $5!

The biggest difference is that the sketch will be drawn in black for easier visibility.

Now depending on the price that's agreed on, I can also do lineart and/or color, which overall looks much more fleshed out. Here are some examples of what that might look like:

These actually take a lot longer than one might think, I would price something like these around $30-60, personally, but I am willing to negotiate.

Though I doubt I will get any takers for it, as I would absolutely price this over $100 for commission due to the sheer time backgrounds take, here are a couple examples of completed artwork that I have:

I am willing to negotiate, and the simpler the background the cheaper I can make it.

Please feel free to DM me through my tumblr and we can talk about what you would like! Please keep requests PG-13 and I am going to reserve the right to refuse to draw anything that I find inappropriate.

PLEASE! IF YOU CAN'T AFFORD ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, PLEASE AT LEAST REBLOG AND SPREAD THIS AROUND!!! I REALLY NEED THE HELP! THANK YOU AND HAVE A GOOD ONE!

[ryndicate]

Quick Commissions!! Fund my anime addiction!

TLDR; taxes are fucked and so am I </3

Ok it's not actually funding my addiction. So long story short, apparently(?) the tax forms changed last year and I didn't notice the change until September,,, which meant I went 9 months of the year without paying anything into taxes. I didn't think it would be this bad but now that I've filed, it turns out I owe a laughably high amount and i have until July to pay it back :')

There's no way I'd be able to pay it off on commissions alone so I'm doing little comms to help offset my spending and make it easier to put money towards the debt.

The categories are more for cuteness than they are what I'm actually going to spend them on. Won't lie, it'll probably be going into my food budget or paying for my gas.

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Buy me a blind bag clip — $10

1k-1.5k drabble, all content types are acceptable but this category will be best quality for sfw/suggestive due to limited length

But if you're not looking for a lot of background info and just want something horny, I got you.

Buy me a manga — $15

2k drabble/ficlet, preferably nsfw/dc

Buy me a little figure — $25*

3k-4k fic, nsfw/dc

* Price will mark up to a discussed price if the length passes 4k

Buy me a BIG figure — $60*

7.5k is the max, will not be less than 6k.

* This category is DC only because for me to commit to something of this length, it needs to be something that aligns closely with my interests or I'd worry about getting it done and actually being quality work.

Alternative Commission Options!!

Buy me an actual coffee — $5

I will write you a quick little coffee date/meet cute with a character of your choice! around 500 words

Sponsor a WIP* — $20

Let's say you want to help out but don't really have an idea in mind,, I'll send you a list of my drabble/ficlet wips for you to browse and whichever one you pick will be placed on a higher priority list for me to write and will be dedicated to you!

* Any of my series updates and longfic wips will not be available for this option, sorry!

To request your commission!

Fill out this form! I'll contact you from whatever blog name you provide either from here or my main (@darlingsanzu) and we'll talk a little more your desired price and prompt to make sure I understand what you want and we'll go from there! (Payment will process either through Kofi, or directly from PayPal.)

I will try to be as timely as possible :) starting with 3 commissions, but every time I finish one I'll update the availability

I will be putting as much love as I can into them, like I do with all my writing, but dark content is the winner of my heart so that's where you'll really get the most of your dollar :3

Donations are also okay if you are just that super sweet kind of awesome, here's the link to what I am affectionately dubbing my little cookie jar. Rewarded with nose boops and kisses!

Thank you so much if you read this far! I'm really thankful for your time 💞

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[jazzcoffeeartcafeofficial]

NEW UPDATES REGARDING LIFE

Okay, so I know I havent been publishing any art and i've been dead quiet, well once like I mentioned before, I have been focused on my life, I have been dealing with so much stress, finding a job, dealing with the puppies, my family struggling with money, so unfortunatly, I have not found a job of what I went to school for, so unfortunately I am going to have to step back. Yesterday, my mom and dad was discussing more financial issues,my dad is already wanting to pawn his rings which my mom says it's a bad idea, everyone in the household is struggling, my brothers needing money, my dad needing to pay his bill but needing to give my older brother money or my younger brother money, needing to buy groceries(Literally been eating just sandwiches). Buying the puppy food and dog food in general.

I saw the frustration in everyone's faces, my mom's face when I asked her if she was okay, her response was, "I want..to scream..." I've been very unlucky to find a job it's been a year and some months without a job..., yesterday I broke down and cried because of everything that's going on, that's coming from someone who loves to motivate people and always stay positive no matter what and a fighter who loves to take on challenges, I don't believe in giving up, that's why I told my mom,

"I know you don't want me working at the Dollar Store/Stores/FastFood but I have no other choice, this is not by choice, I have to...if I had a choice, it wouldn't be fast food obviously... i've applied and even called my old boss from Dairy Queen but he already hired 3 new people during the time I was back and forth with the workforce setting up unnecessary meetings and Manpower not calling me back with anything... and I am not gonna wait until my old boss has another position open....you all need help, you think this isn't impacting me?? I am 27 years old going on 28 this year, time is flying, I have plans for my life.. and I am willing to take on whatever challenges that come to me, just so I can help you.. and help me move on....to live my life...to live where I want to live and still supporting you all in every and any way I can, in the state I want to live. So Mom, please...I know what I am doing...at this rate, I just need something to provide me income..

I am not even gonna be able to pay my bills this month.... literally my 2 credit cards have $2 and $4... and 60 some cents in my bank.... so I am expecting to be hit with an overdraft fee..) And this isn't to guilt trip or make you all donate to me, I just want you all to be aware of my life situation right now.

When I get a job, I am not gonna make the same mistake as I did before, I am gonna focus on what I need, and my savings. Of course I will buy merch every now and then but not as frequent as I was before.

I am adding to my list, something that I've never thought about doing until my heart and brain told me, just now, I want to go for a history degree, i'd like to work at a museum since it's art related...I am telling myself, why didn't i thought of this before???It's something I'd like to work at since it's Art related, it fits me.

So please guys, understand what i am going through. I've still been doing things here and there. And a side note for @xxk3vonicaxx

I know I still owe you $45 for the character, I have not forgotten, and I am happy you don't mind holding the character for me, as soon as I start working (getting a job somewhere) I will begin to pay the rest of the amount for you.

Thank you all for understanding, I am still doing my music, and singing them and doing my art and stories, but I am slow at it.

[cluescorner]

There is no emotion quite like the realization that I will likely never own a physical copy of some of my favorite comics because jfc some of them have become fucking collectors items and now are selling for hundreds of dollars. Like, I love it. But I am not paying hundreds of dollars for it when I can read it online for free. I'd pay like $60, but $200 is too fucking much for me when my money isn't even going towards the creators anymore.

[sageofmagic-squeaks]

Eh, Imma throw a vent here because I need to put it somewhere.

Speaking with my parents is like a gamble of 'will this conversation make me miss them' or 'will this conversation make me thankful I was paid by internet friends to move across the country' and OH BOY did a conversation the other day hit the latter. To the point where after the call was done, said internet friends who paid me to move across the country came out to CHECK ON ME. And I was caught off guard because 'oh actually this is how normal conversations go with my dad. Did it really sound that bad??'

The conversation itself was stupid. See, over the past MONTH I've been trying to move out of my flooded, uninhabitable apartment that was growing black mold. A pipe burst in January from our neighbor's unit and our first floor flooded and second floor started leaking. Since then I have had to balance driving between hotels and our apartment, fighting with said apartment over a new place to live because they needed us out permanently and they literally sold one place they offered us within the hour to someone else and then tried to offer us a place with a severe rat infestation, packing up the entire place, filing insurance claims, dealing with their unannounced maitanence visits, still working...it's a lot.

And on top of it all my dad kept. Texting. And emailing. Wanting me to do my taxes.

No acknlowledgement over my situation, just wanting me to stop everything and do taxes. I explained I no longer had computer access anymore and still got bothered over taxes. So now that I moved into a dry place in another city I called him to end this whole thing about taxes and instead got unrelated lectures on how I spend my money. According to him, I'm perfectly healthy and won't have health issues until I'm 60 so I should stop putting money in a health savings account and instead be applying every cent to paying off a bank loan he set up for me over 10 years ago for school. Thing is, I am paying that stupid loan. The interest is so high that it basically stagnanted at 10k for the past 4 years no matter how much of it I pay off. It's been an auto bill as far back as I can remember having my own bank account. And he was picking a fight over me dropping a few dollars of my paycheck into a health savings account for emergencies. There's barely enough in it to cover an ambulence if I needed one. And then he needled further implying that I am rich (HAH) and should pay off the 10k right then and there on the phone with him.

And again, I just had to pay to live in a hotel while still paying rent for a black mold apartment AND also rent for a new place we managed to sign the lease for in addition to paying movers and buying boxes and having to eat out instead of cook. My bank account is weeping and my roommates and I had to ask for help. But he mocked me saying I'm not poor and could pay it. I don't understand how serious it is. I gotta pay it.

Again like I don't already send a chunk of my paycheck towards the stupid loan already. Last time I paid off the OTHER bank loan he badgered me for I was barely scraping by because it took everything and he seems to think paying off bank and student loans is all that my work money should ever be used for.

Oh and also I found out I'm not getting mail regarding said loan because he set it up with all his information and won't let me change it to mine! Actually he's still upset that I changed the passwords for my bank account so he can't track my spending :) because who doesn't love buying a smoothie when hanging with friends and getting a call that night about wasting $8 that could've gone to stupid loans.

And people thought I was choosing to be depressed and negative on purpose back when I was in rp groups while living with my parents. Nope, I was just having my entire being micromanaged to every degree.

Anyways vent got away from me but like...I haven't lived with my parents in 6 years. I've had to work so hard to undo damage to have opinions of my own and interact with people normally and I can damn well manage my own money so calling my dad and having him blow off a major, stressful life event and demand I do what he says to pay off a loan that I'm already paying has been pissing me off.

Also no health issues my ass. I have adhd, cant stay awake and my spine is bent OVER 60 degrees. Not to mention the time I walked on a fractured leg for months because oh weh, medical bills expensive and how I'm still feeling that pain years later e_e

[gerrypleasedefaultme]

I love being a tennis fan, but you know what I hate? The subtle and absolute misogyny in tennis spaces.

When I look up who has the most slam titles, my immediate answer is Rafael Nadal. Now, that much is true. Rafael Nadal does have the most men's singles grand slams. MEN'S singles grand slams.

The actual answer is Margaret Court, who has 24 grand slams. When I ask who has the most, I'm asking who has the most overall. Not men's or women's singles, but the default was immediately men as an answer. Serena Williams has 23 grand slam titles in women's singles.

The most iconic men's players such as Rafael Nadal and Novak Djokovic are respectively 2 slams away and 3 slams away from the most iconic women's players.

That's not the only thing. Obviously it's not just tennis that has an issue with paying attention the women's half of its sport. But a lot of the first posts that pop up when you search up on tennis on tumblr are all about men's tennis. When you scroll down and there are posts about women's tennis, very few of them are about women tennis players actually on the court.

The type of criticism between men's players and women's players isn't too different and I can't say it happens more to women's players, because I have no definitive proof. But when I looked up Naomi Osaka a few weeks ago, the very first thing that came up was how time may be running out for her. Milos Raonic practically disappeared from tennis completely and the only recent articles about him are what he said about the Davis Cup.

Now, the difference in the amount of prize money between the highest paid women's tennis players of all time (Serena Williams) and the highest career prize earnings of men's tennis players as of July 2022 (Novak Djokovic) is roughly 60 million dollars.

As we've seen earlier, this isn't due to a lack of talent. Serena Williams has MORE grand slam titles than Novak Djokovic. Two more, specifically.

Women's tennis doesn't get enough credit and I am sick of the default being men.