#i love doing gouache life drawings

[nonbinarygerard]

gouache paintings from my life drawing class

[flowers-for-em]

✧ Emma ✧ she/her ✧ minor ✧ books and food

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Hii! Welcome to my blog:

Basic Info:

✧ Emma/Ems ✧ she/her ✧ Minor - birthday Jan 12 ✧ Capricorn ✧ INTJ ✧ Australian ✧ Ferrari girl <3 ✧ I will defend my babies warnette and Evajacks until i die. ✧ i am a firm believer in sarcasm. ✧ if you see me posting about writing its cause I have no motivation. I post about it, but don't necessarily do it ✧ I'm an introvert but will absolutely come out of my shell and become and extrovert when you get to know me

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Things I love

✧ Books -> [series] The inheritance games, acotar, shatter me, the folk of the air, the prison healer, caraval, ouabh, dance of theives, divine rivals (waiting for the next one to come out), the lunar chronicles, the red queen, when in rome series, the naturals, six of crows.

✧ Books -> [standalone] Better than the movies, if he had been with me, the do over (basically anything by lynn painter), the cheat sheet, powerless, the summer of broken rules and a lot more I cannot remember cause I panicked :)

✧ Music -> Taylor swift, Gracie abrams, Tate McRea, a little of Lana Del Rey, Chase Atlantic, Artic Monkeys, Guns and Roses, Little mix, Conan Gray. My music is allllll over the place lmao.

✧ Christmas <3333

✧ Rain <3

✧ Movies -> Now you see me 1 & 2, knives out 1 & 2, oceans 8, 11, 12, & 13, Mamma Mia, the adam project, enola holmes, red notice and basically and chick flick

✧ Tv shows -> B99, Friends, babysitter's club, alexa and katie, fuller house,

✧ art -> I paint, sketch, and draw, whenever I feel like it. I mostly draw. I want to learn how to use gouache and oils paints.

✧ other -> baking and cooking :)

✧ making moodboards -> here is my master list

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More Info

✧ my dream life is to runaway to paris or new york and open up a bookstore/cafe/flower shop. (and to be the rich hot aunt the everyone loves)

✧ I will most likely put 'lmao', 'lol', <3, :) at the end or in every sentence I can - just cause I want to talk to you but I don't want to come on too strong lmao (see right there - perfect example)

✧ I want to travel when I'm older! [places] -> London, Paris, Italy, Greece, Turkey, Sweden, Germany, New York, Bahamas, Japan, Korea, and a bunch more!

✧ I spend an unhealthy amount of time on Pinterest and Tumblr.

✧ I'm basically friendless if you exclude online friends. So if we're moots you're my best friend, no take backs

✧ Also I love getting new book, show, movie, music recs!

✧ My Wattpad -> My Pinterest

✧ If you want to know anymore just ask! Seriously, I have like zero friends in real life, so you can spam me anytime. I love talking to new people.

✧ special moots: [if you want to be added or removed just ask!] -> @blythexparker, @kitsohana, @myster3y, @stvrlighhttt, @skeelly, @my-mind-is-frozen, @atwtmvftvtvsgavralpsss, @bookscorpion73, @blocked-zombieartist, @urgirlnextdoorr, @nqds, @reminiscentreader, @crenna, @someones-name-inserted-here, @banilikesfictionalpeople, @yourinterruptingmyreading, @mqstermindswift, @seaveysoceaneyes <3

✧my 100 followers event

✧ this is a safe space for everyone!! ↳ Dni - if you're a racist, homophobe, sexist, pedos, ect..

lots of love

Emma <3

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Ps: this was also inspired by @stvrlighhttt, hehe ik you said u didn't want credit but i think u deserve it mwah <3

[mxmorel]

Hello, I'm from Gaza

My name is Farah

Can you please help me to study at the university

Me and my family have lost our home, our car, and our dream to study

I hope just to help me to start my education

I was in my first year at university in Gaza but after the war, I lost everything my dream and my education 💔

Hope you really can help with anything

Thank you in advance

https://gofund.me/7417ca2b

https://gofund.me/0974b65e

Hi y'all! Check out Farah's GoFundMe here - she is from Gaza and has dreams to go to university to become a pharmacist! She has lost everything, including the university she planned to study at, which has been bombed by the IOF. She and her family have made it to Egypt, but she is trying to start over and is raising money to be able to begin her education. Her €8,000 goal is to pay for her first year's tuition!

As of the time I post this, she is €7,840 away from her goal - I am an artist and if you DM me proof of a donation of any amount to Farah's campaign, I will do a sfw pencil sketch of one character/subject of your choice (but happy to discuss more for larger donations, read on and send me your receipt, we'll chat!)! I've never done commissions before whether for profit or donations so bear with me, I'm figuring it out as I go!

Let's help Farah get a new start on her dreams and on her way to university!

If you can't donate, you can still help by please please please reblogging! I don't have very many followers, so I don't have a lot of reach.

I linked my art tag previously, but here it is again, and here are a few examples of my pencil work:

if you are interested in donating more for colors/more characters/etc, you can see more of my non sketch work in my tag (i work in various mediums like colored pencils, markers, watercolors, gouache, oil pastels, digital, etc).

vague pricing structure + more information below the cut!

'prices':

Going to set a vague 'pricing' structure (in euros since that's the currency the GoFundMe is in) - these are based on roughly how time consuming each medium is for me, but like I said previously, if you can't donate quite enough for a specific thing, reach out to me. I know a lot of us on tumblr (my recently unemployed self included) don't have a ton of money and the top priority is reaching Farah's goal!

For all of the below, you will receive a digital scan of the original work (if traditional medium) or a high res file from procreate (if digital).

Pencil sketch of one subject, bust up: Any donation amount

Pencil sketch of two or more subjects and/or full body sketch: ~€15, +€5/each additional character past two)

One subject + colored pencils or markers: ~€20

Two subjects + colored pencils or markers: ~€25

Watercolor and/or gouache painting: ~€35 for one character, +€10/additional character

Digital: ~€40+ for one character, +€10/additional character (re: '+', level of detail can vary on these, reach out and we'll chat!)

Oil pastel painting: ~€50 for one character, +€15/additional character

If you are requesting a traditional medium and would like to receive the original work in the mail, let me know ahead of time and we can discuss 'price' for this.

To reiterate: all 'prices' are for donations to Farah's GoFundMe Campaign! I will not be collecting any profit from this.

wills/won'ts + fandoms / etc:

what do I like to draw?

I love drawing people, portraits especially, but I also enjoy drawing animals. characters from fandoms, portraits of family/friends/pets/etc are all a-okay! I'm a multishipper so very few ships are a problem for me - what I will draw is pretty flexible aside from what is listed in the following 'what will I not draw?' section. For the purpose of this fundraiser, all art will be safe for work.

what will I not draw?

While I'm happy to draw real people, be they yourself/friends/family/a celebrity you like/etc, I won't do ship art of real people (art of a couple in your real life is fine, but ship art of celebrities, for example, is something I am not comfortable with). I also will not draw age gap relationships wherein the younger character is a minor. No gore/graphic violence - though canon typical bloodiness (MASH characters in the OR for example), is fine. I will not be drawing nsfw art of any ship for this fundraiser.

The above is what I can think of right now, though I reserve the right to turn down a concept should something come up that I didn't think of right now. Should that be the case, I will work with you to determine a different subject/concept.

fandoms?

Lastly, if you're curious about my fandoms, I've included a non-comprehensive list here, but as long as reference images are available for characters/people/pets I am not familiar with and they do not cross the limits listed above, I am okay with drawing for fandoms I am not familiar with/people in your life.

MASH (TV - current hyperfixation)

Dirk Gently's Holistic Detective Agency (BBCA)

Star Trek (TOS, TNG, DS9, & Lower Decks)

The X-Files

Good Omens

Our Flag Means Death

Buffy the Vampire Slayer / Angel: The Series

The Lord of the Rings/The Hobbit

Twin Peaks

Dimension 20/Dropout in general

Les Miserables

Merlin (BBC)

Firefly

The Adventure Zone: Balance & Amnesty, not caught up otherwise

Princess Tutu

The Prisoner (1967)

There's definitely more that I'm forgetting, I've been rattling around fandom spaces for 20 years now, but like I said, it's a non-comprehensive list!

If you've read this far, thank you again! Please reblog to help Farah's fundraiser reach more people, and send me your receipt if you donate!

[thetwilightroadtonightfall]

Notes on “do you think we’re together in every universe?” (skulmerayer multiverse post):

Putting pain aside for a moment, this was a really neat mini project to make! I put some thought into what kinds of universes I wanted to have a peek into. There are just so many to choose from! This ain’t even the tip of the iceberg, I’m sure. But I hope the ones I did choose were interesting enough to think about and/or familiar to some of y’all :)

On an artistic note: I love using grayscale every now and then! I have some experience with charcoal and ink wash drawings so the style here is lightly inspired by that (even though I used pencil and gouache brushes 😅)

Composition-wise: Allow me to introduce you to the multiverse rubix cube lol!! The placements of each universe are meant to parallel each other. Universe A and C are branches off of union cross canon, so they’re across from each other. D and F are branches off of missing link. G and I are branches off of the era between. And B and H are about childhood innocence.

Here are each of their descriptions, in order:

Main Universe [in the context of the art]

The ataraxia universe, where Skuld, Ephemer and Player get together and stay together (my khux/skulmerayer copium universe)

Universe A

In which Darkness says “We could take over one of you here and now.” and actually commits to it, choosing Ephemer as its vessel.

Universe B

A universe in which Skuld is not Subject χ. After she and Ephemer awaken in Daybreak Town’s rubble, they found Scala and raise a family together.

Universe C

AU where the lifeboat roles were switched. Ven, Ephemer, Skuld, and Player escape the data world first, while Brain, Lauriam and Elrena stay behind. But it was never supposed to be this way.

Universe D

@corishadowfang’s Fallen Stars universe, in which Skuld arrives in Scala during Missing Link’s era.

Universe E

The current presumed canon universe, unless Skuld being Subject χ is proven otherwise.

Universe F

A universe where Brain and Player2 become close friends (perhaps more?) in Scala. Also known as the plain universe, because what’s a multiverse post without mentioning a bagel or two? 😄🥯

Universe G

I had my fic A Light That Never Goes Out in mind, but this is pretty much any universe in which the whole gang gets to stay together, and Ephemer and Player have the chance to properly build on their relationship. lots of copium in this one

Universe H

High school/modern/real life AU. (Special shoutout to @rosie-kairi’s idea of giving Ephemer braces!)

Universe I

Ephemer lives his life. Open to interpretation!

and finally, a Bonus (Everything Everywhere All At Once reference):

[area420]

I love your art so much! If you do any traditional art, what medium do you usually use? The line work and colors feel so unique and I would love to know how you capture it in a traditional medium!

thank you so much you r so kind!!!!! 80% of the stuff i do is traditional actually :p i just post mostly digital art. the meeting on the turret stairs piece i made (of me and my girlfriend) was traditionally drawn n colored digitally! i use any mechanical pencil and any paper .. and acrylic or gouache or acrylic gouache are my ride or dies 4 painting. i only got the opportunity to do digital drawing about a year ago, but ive been drawing normal my whole life >:) and i do a lot of ceramics as well. ill show u!

[quiddling]

hi . i really like your art it's amazing .... it's beautiful to go thru ur art tag and see so many doodles and drawings, esp bc your style is so cool...

T_T any advice for someone whos kinda been struggling to draw for a while because of fear/anxiety... like feeling 'burned' by art so its hard to indulge in it even when you try to make it low stakes..

thanks... and thanks for sharing your cool art with us, i love seeing the asoiaf characters come to life visually...

aaaaaaaaa!!!!! hi!! FIRST OF ALL... thank u so much you're really kind wtf;; whenever y'all get nice in my inbox it makes my day BHAHAHA I'm glad you enjoy my art (: NOW art is so fun but it is also my enemy,, i think collectively we have all been there, and totally get it i feel sometimes you just gotta burn out a bit and get humbled, you know? i am really no help and would kill whoever said this to me but truthfully and honestly...just don't stop!!! create purely for the enjoyment of yourself!! (and without worrying about the end result) doodle, sketch, experiment with different mediums,, it doesn't need to look good just as long as you continue to draw you learn! i have been in a weird limbo since feb and just recently got a new sketchbook and am trying gouache for the first time and i've learnt a few things since then that has made me really excited to create again! my life changed when I stopped giving a fuck about trying to make something that would do well on social media and when i started just making art for myself! i post stuff bc i think its cool and that's all that matters ! i don't really expect any attention past just me and my gf but when they do WOW! it feels epic tldr; create art for yourself, not others. experiment freely. enjoy the process not always the outcome (:

[vicomaco]

Ahoy reader, I'm here to vent. My second favorite season is coming, outside the window the sky is showering washing away the sweltering warmth and it inspires me to do the same with my suffocating self, now in pre-mid life (33) and confuse on the direction, tired of all those coats I've put on my shoulders without consent of a self now lost inside the textile. I just spent 2 or more hours of a working day cleaning my tumblr page, I made all of my past drawings private. Doing so I retraced the 10 or more years spent in this platform through different life phases and artistic epiphanies. I realized how much I forgot of myself, especially the joy I had drawing my pictures in my sparetime. Since I remember I have always had a sketchbook and a trousse of pens and pencils on me, everywhere. During elementary, college, high schools, I remember long train trips filling pages with doodles and thoughts. I stopped filling sketchbooks around eight years ago, close to my diploma, I had countless short deadlines, many white nights and a lot of stress. But I still had school assignements and side projects with friends both done in traditional techniques. No more traditional drawing for me, but still drawing for side fun projects. The school trained me to be an illustrator, more than a comic artist. To experiment and test different tools, my favorite still are inks and gouaches. Life after school became all about comics. And comics, at the - fucking long- beginning of your carreer are 90% ridiculously poor payed. The reasonable choice I took to balance that with the time spent on each page was to learn to actually make them on photoshop, safer if you have to erase, remove pages, redo faces. I didn't have much spare time, but when I had I used it experimenting brushes and learning a bit better the programs while making doodles for myself. No, actually a big changement happened: social networks. Facebook, Tumblr, Instagram and all. Part of me was doing them for myself and in order to evolve the technique, part of me was doing them to display them online. The quest for the "likes" serotonin-dispenser just started.

Now, in bigger comic projects, with bigger life events, and less daily energy I have no spare time, I'm full into professional work. Written by someone else, I'm full time into someone else's world. Comics are already life-sucking, but a life-sucking project when it's not even yours it sucks even the ground under your feet. Now I watch, I don't see, I execute, I'm unable to observe anymore. So I don't post on socials anymore, I'm being consumed by them while consuming time, brainless, zombiengly lurking memes and other distractions from the void this job created in me. I don't remember what I like, what I want to draw, what I would write on a sketchbook and god how I miss traditional techniques, I miss having my own ideas, my personal vertical projects and my personal horizontal purpose, I miss the joy behind my work, I don't remember myself. I've never been consistent, nor obsessed too much on something. I've always be in love with the act of drawing, the state of mind you have while doing it, the beautiful line, the beautiful palette. Every subject could be nicely done. I deeply respect artists with the same style, experimenting inside their comfort zone, obsessed with a subject and pursuing it year after year after year. They are coherent, awhile ago they chose one only coat and they decide to wear only that, and year after year it fits them always better. I myself I'm much better than before in terms of style, composition, lines, narration. The appearence of my style is much more solid, the inside is void. My old drawings in this blog were impressive, they could tell the joy I had experimenting. The oldest ones, the traditional ones, were the happiest. My technical traditional skills were better than my actual digital ones and the soul behind each sketch was so alive! I removed the old drawings from my blog not because I'm ashamed by them. But because I had a pity looking at this decline over and over, I wanted a -maybe?- fresh start. Fall always offers me new resolutions and will for changes, now I'm imploding, I'm sick of memes, I'm sick of stupidities, I'm sick of my poor time management. I want to come back in tumblr because it was, to my remindings, the healthier of the social networks, the less silly (at least my dashboard), the more balanced in aesthetic and content. I want to try to let it help me venting or finding myself again, I guess. Are you experiencing my same sickness of the pointless time-sucking web?

[acetechne]

You know, every year I constantly think "oh I'm not doing enough x, but I should be doing more y, but but but-" and it turns out I still do a lot of stuff I like, I challenge myself, and I experiment more than I realize, so I'd say it's a success.

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What was my aim last year...? Figure drawing (sort of), more fan art / redraws (check). I still haven't found something I like as much as I liked croquis cafe (yknow, before they went off the deep end) though I would very much recommend Love Life Drawing for anyone looking to improve their gesture/anatomy/figure drawing.

So what did I do this year, let's see. My art trailed off quite sharply after early January, I got very sick with covid and that sent me into a pretty serious depression, but I recovered alright and was anxious to get back to drawing again. I worked a little on Condensed Milk which I still have yet to wrap up in a satisfactory way. I answered a lot of asks for @battle-of-alberta and took on a lot of ambitious projects, not all of which are represented here, but I tried to push my storytelling and infographics a little there.

I was able to draw a lot in the spring because I was starting a new job and had a lot of podcasts and videos to get through while I drew, but it was harder to keep up the momentum afterwards since I work from home doing research and I got very sick of sitting at my desk after I was done for the day. I tried to spend more time outside with traditional art as a result, though there were certainly challenges.

Despite the horrible amount of smoke and evacuations this year, I did get some travel sketching done over the summer. Quite a few people looked at my travel sketchbook either as I was creating or after the fact, and it's one of the few sketchbooks I have that I let people flip through, so that's a major confidence booster. The June drawing here is the page that a Vulcan local watched me adding to and came over to sit next to me to encourage me to print postcards, which was very sweet ;~;

I wasn't as ambitious in completing challenges such as World Watercolour Month this year, but I still produced a lot of things I was happy with.

Some things I'd like to do in 2024

more life drawing / urban sketching as the weather allows

use some of the zillions of CSP assets I downloaded! (or at least make them a little more organized)

use pencil crayons and gouache more in my work (and break out some of my new prismacolours...)

the usual stress of "i should create some merch" that i always grapple with needs to be addressed in a more concrete way.

Wrap up Condensed Milk, flesh out AaSA Chapter 9, and of course clear out that BoAB ask box :]

[silvykinesis]

Heyo, what brand of sketchbook do you use? c:

I use quite a few sketchbooks all at the same time actually!! I currently have around 6 on the go all for different things... ^~^;;

I'll cut this but below is just a little breakdown of all the sketchbooks I'm currently using!

My current main sketchbooks are the Talens Art Creation sketchbooks!

I use these for general sketching and doodling, especially the 13 x 21 one! They handle mixed media okay so I can basically throw almost anything at these sketchbooks so I'm really happy with them! (the only thing they didn't like were posca pens but I'm cool with that since I also don't really like posca pens!!)

But I recently picked up a Seawhite of Brighton travel journal from a local art store which I specifically use for learning to draw the kh cast!

The paper doesn't handle mixed media as well as the Talens sketchbook but I did get this sketchbook mainly for pencil work... It is thick enough to handle light watercolour washes but I don't dare use my gouche in here. ^^;

Then there's my Canson mixed media XL(which I've had since 2018.... jfc)

tbf I added more pages to this one after a friend gifted me their unfinished canson xl so they’ve had an extended life!! Out of all my sketchbooks that I doodle in this one is probably my most durable, the paper quality is great and it handles pretty much every medium I own!

I mainly use this one for thumbnailing some of my final pieces though... And little gouche studies/palette tests.

Then we have the Travelogue watercolour book!

This is another one I've had for a long time now(since 2017 wow!!!) but that's mainly because I only ever do finished watercolour pieces in here! This isn't my favourite cold press watercolour paper but it's a close second! It can handle a lot of water before the paper starts to warp so I am free to fix my many mixtakes!!

And finally there's the Canson waterford artbook! I've only had this one for about a year now but I love the paper!!

Still not my favourite watercolour paper but I especially love this paper for gouache so I do a lot of finished gouache pieces in here!

I hope this helps you find the sketchbook you're looking for buddy!! And don't feel pressured to have multiple sketchbooks on the go like me! I used to only work on one sketchbook at a time but I found myself being extremely critical and precious about my sketchbook to the point that I wouldn't draw in it unless I was making a finished piece >.<!

Having multiple sketchbooks helps me separate my work and get me out of that headspace! Afterall sketchbooks are just what you make them!! <3

[urthwing]

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🌊 ˚₊· welcome to my blog!

disclaimer: i may post art or reblog art with harmful subject matter that contains

blood, gore, violence, blades, scars/sh, toxic relationships, nsfw subjects

extra note: i don't appreciate unasked for advice, tips, or criticism. do not tell artists to change their style to fit your ideal of "right". i will ask directly if im asking for community input, thank you 🤍

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here are some basics about me and my account;

✦ name is jay! i can also be called jayd or jade.

✧ minor (17!)

✦ she/her

✧ frequent dsaf, fiona and cake/adventure time and gravity falls poster

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my key tags! •˚. 🌿

#my art - my original art posts

#my photos - my original photography posts

#my writing - poetry and other words

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i enjoy painting landscapes and still-lifes, taking pictures, drawing fandom art and collecting records, cds and natural objects.

(i use ibispaint x and procreate, and paint with gouache and acrylic)

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🌀⊹ * •˚. music artists i enjoy :

✦ heart ✧ in love with a ghost ✦ phoebe bridgers ✧ the feminine complex ✦ fleetwood mac ✧ the cranberries ✦ kate bush ✧ stevie nicks ✦ bôa ✧ the daughters of eve ✦ sixpence none the richer ✧ jeff buckley ✦ tears for fears ✧ strawberry switchblade ✦ the beatles ✧ mazzy star ✦ big thief ✧ men i trust ✦ tv girl ✧ jimi hendrix ✦ the velvet underground ✧ the smiths ✦ radiohead ✧ beach house ✦ cocteau twins ✧ norah jones ✦ beabadoobee ✧ clairo ✦ adrienne lenker

... and many more

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˚₊· 🌱 fandoms i enjoy :

✧ dsaf ✦ dialtown ✧ fnaf ✦ mlp ✧ tadc ✦ stranger things ✧ gravity falls ✦ gilmore girls ✧ ianowt ✦ madoka magica ✧ adventure time ✦ fiona and cake ✧ toh ✦ animal crossing (nh and ww) ✧ coraline ✦ lps ✧ class of 09 ✦ i love amy ✧ inside job ✦ tgswiiwagaa ✧ ohshc ✦ nge

✧ ghibli films like ; howls moving castle, the wind rises, the cat returns, nausicaä of the valley of the wind, whisper of the heart, ponyo, when marnie was there, the secret world of arietty, spirited away, princess mononoke, my neighbor totoro, kiki's delivery service, porco rosso, castle in the sky, ocean waves, only yesterday.

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[goron-king-darunia]

Eggtober 12 Avocado Toast (Featuring Tomato and, of course, Fried Egg.) Clip Studio Paint, Gouache Brush, Dry Gouache Brush, Airbrush (for the barely visible bread texture) and Freckle Pen (for the pepper.) 20 colors, 1 hour 30 minutes. Took a little longer on this one because I spent an inordinate amount of time lovingly rendering the tomato that I knew no one was going to get to see in the final product. (Don’t worry, I saved it to another layer since @quezify said last time that he appreciated the peek behind the curtain.) This was another request by a friend. I must say, I wake up every day excited to choose an egg from the many options I have available and just... have fun putting it down on (digital) paper. I’ve got some yammering about that, but since I’m already going to post a “behind the scenes” under the cut, I’ll shove the musings down there too. As always, big thanks to the Egg Master Supreme, @quezify​ for organizing this. It’s wonderful to see so many people getting into art again or branching out and drawing eggs for the first time, all because one zany dude said to Tumblr “You know what? Let’s paint eggs for a month.” And enough of us said “Hell yeah” that I get to see so many different styles and mediums. Loving every moment of it!

(Art first, because LOOK AT THOSE TOMATOES! I love how they came out, I want to shove them in my mouth! AAAH!) Now for the rambling musings. I’m starting to get really comfortable with the gouache brush, a tool which I previously never used, and I’m also getting more comfortable with art in general. My usual process from childhood, when I did much more art, was to slap down pencil work on real life sheets of paper, line it in pen or photograph/scan it and upload it to my computer to line with the pen tool, and then just do everything with pen for bright, solid colors. Most of my other techniques were one off flukes, like the fire I did in my icon’s background. And my newer process, as an adult who just started learning Clip Studio Paint, was fairly similar. (I just started with CSP recently because it came free with my newest tablet and my old standard, Photoshop Elements [I dunno the version, 7 maybe?], was too old and would resize on my new rig so all the buttons were SO GODDAMN SMALL it was a pain to use.) The only difference is that, as an adult who’s home more often than not, I skipped the paper. Sketch, linework with the pen tool, then color under the line art with pen. Or, for a certain other project, I color under the line art with the watercolor brush. I’ve always wanted to try gouache because I’ve seen it worked with IRL and it’s got such pretty results! Opaque like acrylics and oils but flows like watercolor. I suppose it never occurred to me to look for it in the toolset. The last time I even used brushes meant to represent real media before CSP was when Corel Painter was a thing and I had it with my very first drawing tablet. And even then I didn’t use it often. I mostly used the watercolors because that was my favored medium IRL. But I quickly started to prefer Photoshop Elements which also came with my first tablet. And slowly I stopped using anything resembling traditional mediums. But I figured, hey, Eggtober is already a time for me to learn some new tricks and get some practice in, watercolor will look too translucent and it has a paper texture to it that I’m not sure I want. Let’s see if this thing has Gouache. And it did. And now it’s my favorite brush. The way it blends naturally, the ease of pressure controls so the opacity is easy to alter stroke by stroke. It feels like laying down real paints. Once I got used to how it behaved it just... clicked. So yeah, now that I know how to work with it and now that I had the brain explosion necessary to figure out my new process of laying down the darkest colors first and working my way up, it was all too easy to go “Oh. I like laying down these colors. And instead of trying to predict where I’m going to put the avocado, I’m just going to draw the full tomatoes for fun and practice and then figure out the avocado slice placement.” And then I spent roughly 45 minutes just... adding detail to tomatoes. Because it was a genuine joy and I was smiling the whole time and I could just look at those juicy tomatoes forever. So yeah, I know I say it every time, but I for real owe quezify everything for giving me a reason to pick up a new tool and learn and just have fun with it. Kicking my depression’s ass, my ADHD’s ass, my artblock’s ass, and my (lack of) motivation’s ass, all with the power of “Egg fun, draw egg.”

[brandnewhuman]

Hii! Hello! Can you match me up? American horror story please! (Except for Kai I hate him in ways I can't explain)

I'm 5'4, light brown hair with some blue strands, I work as a hairstylist, but I have a billion hobbies.

List of hobbies: sewing, drawing, painting (watercolor and gouache), singing, gardening, writing, swimming, kayaking, free-diving (summer hobbies), and I loooove to cook for my friends. I love musical theatre.

I aspire to live in a smaller town, closer to nature, where I can have a flower garden, keep some bees, maybe chickens, the cottagecore lifestyle. I like stormy days and sunny summer days, I thrive during summer. I hate winter and cold. Winter can fuck off.

I'm a false extrovert, I'm good at socializing but it wears me down a bit and I need my quiet, alone days. Being a big cuddle bug and a touch starved hoe, my main love languages are (to give and receive) physical touch, gift giving and acts of service.

My favourite movies at the moment: Shin Godzilla, The Lost Boys, Willy's Wonderland.

Favourite songs at the moment: Life Eternal (ghost), I'm just Ken (Ken) and Judas (Gaga)

I paired you up with...

♡Jimmy Darling ♡

I'M SO EXCITED FOR THIS ONE CAUSE I HAVEN'T GOT MANY AHS RELATED REQUESTS AND THIS FANDOM IS SO DEAR TO ME. Also, Jimmy is too underrated WHEN HE'S LITERALLY SUCH A BABYBOY

Why is he the perfect match?:

The thing that made me think about Jimmy for this one is your passion for the cottagecore kind of life. Jimmy would love nothing more than a quiet and simple life with his lover and a nice house. HE WOULD BE THE FIRST TO START GETTING CHICKENS AND OTHER STUFF TO MAKE A GARDEN TO PLANT VEGETABLES, FLOWERS AND OTHER STUFF.

He's gonna go all in with the cottagecore stuff and it will make him so happy to know that is something you both do together. He craves that coziness and domesticity of doing simple everyday life things with someone you love, to have something normal and nice to live from.

Bro is gonna annoy you so much with the sewing thing CAUSE HE'S ALWAYS MANAGING TO RIP HIS DAMN CLOTHES. BRO IS THE KING OF CLUMSINESS. ALSO, he would absolutely love to sing with you and you can bet whatever you want that he loves a good karaoke night. The point is, that many of your hobbies are actually very much aligned with Jimmy's interests and even if he's not the best at some of them he would still love for you to teach him or for him to help you cultivate them.

SOMEONE SAID PHYSICAL AFFECTION? CAUSE THIS BOY IS A SUCKER FOR THAT. From the smallest thing like holding hands to full on cuddling sessions, he's in for anything and everything that means he can get to hold the person he loves the most close to him. He especially loves when you trace his face or when he gets to spoon you while you both sleep. He definitely can relate about showing love through acts of service, this man would do anything for you.

He understands the low social battery. His work at the circus used to drain him so much and he still had to be social and act all happy and enthusiastic all the time. He knows and respects the need of alone time and would leave you to yourself if you need, he would just check from time to time if you're okay or hungry or need anything else but until you tell him you're all alright again, he's not gonna pester you.

THAT'S ALL FOLKS, I HOPE YOU LIKED IT CAUSE I ENJOYED IT VERY MUCH.

Song that matches the vibes:

[thetoymakers]

Hey, your art is really really cool! If you dont mind sharing, how long have you been painting and how did you learn? I started learning gouache a few months ago, and am super curious 😅 again, loved descovering your blog

Hello Kind Tumblr Friend, I've been painting all my life, so decades I guess. I used to do children's book illustration but now I just paint whatever I want to. I LOVE gouache. It's so forgiving. :-) One thing that I've been doing that has really helped my sketchbook paintings has been taking online classes through Domestika. The two instructors that I recommend are Laura McKendry and Adolfo Serra. They are more watercolor than gouache but are really helpful with lots of great tips and techniques. And the classes are less than ten bucks = win! Let me know if there is anything else I can help you with. Draw on!

[frenreyfire]

Intro Post Yippee!!

Who am I?- How I tag things- Boundaries- Before you Follow

Who am I?

♡ I go by Asphalt and Travis.

♡ Previous Usernames (pink is for tumblr names): spacekids, gummieshark, minthardcore, angelthlng

♡ I use they/them, it/its, ny/nym pronouns (ny/nym is basically just he/him pronouns but replace the h with n and the i with y). I use he/she in a silly way (primarily when joking about myself in the 3rd person. you can do that if u want as long as u 1) understand i am nb and my gender has no relation to the gender binary and 2) you are also silly).

♡ I am 18.

♡ I’m non-binary, aromantic, t4t, lesbian, and sapphic. I've been on T for about a year and I've been out as trans for about 4. I'm not fully human. I’m a white American who lives in the South. I'm fluent in English and know a bit of French.

♡ I am not going to disclose all my mental issues, but I am diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, depressive disorder, and ADHD. I have speech & auditory processing issues and dissociation+depersonalization symptoms. I probably have other stuff up with myself but it's not diagnosed and it's a secret so shhhhh.

♡ I primarily post digital art (I use Procreate (or IbisPaintX, not super often tho) w/ an I Pad + Apple Pencil or I use jspaint with a trackpad), but I do a lot of traditional art (graphite, colored pencil, gouache, pastels, collage- basically any medium I can get my hands on. Primarily graphite though). I also knit and dabble in other physical arts like that. One of my favorite projects I've done is making a lithograph print. I’ve also made a long furby and my current pipe dream is to make a BJD. I'm also working on making a suit of armor out of soda cans :)

♡ Games/Books/Comics/Shows Interests- Half Life but the AI is Self Aware, Half Life, a lot of other Half Life extant media, TF2, Dungeon Meshi, Comic Girls, DND, Fin fin (on teo the magic planet), I have no mouth and I must scream, the Bible/Christianity (I am not Christian I just think it's neat), MLP, Portal, Blasphemous

♡ General Interests- Angels, Armor (specifically medieval european armor), Wizards, biology, conservation, activism, aliens, plushies & dolls, furbies and extant media. I like Nu Metal, 80's-90's pop, K&J-Pop, Country, Rap, and a lot of other genres! I love music and listening to things.

How I tag things

♡ Not Mine- Self explanatory. Posts that are not mine that I’ve reblogged.

♡ Mine- Writing, drawing, or other things I post.

♡ My Art- My Art

♡ travid barking- Random thoughts I have

♡ Sorta mine/kinda mine/stepchild post- Usually a reblog response/ collaboration that I feel I haven’t contributed to enough for it to be mine.

♡ Important/Fundraiser- Important resources or fundraiser I encourage y’all to check out.

♡ Good shit- Stuff I really like!

♡ I have other things I tag a lot but they’re pretty inconsistent. I go through cycles of tagging random stuff.

♡ I only put fandom tags on my own original posts, not on reblogs.

Boundaries

♡ Likes w/ no reblogs- Absolutely!

♡ Rambling in reblogs- Please! I love to hear people’s thoughts on my stuff :)

♡ Tagging me/Messaging me about stuff- Sure! If you think I’d like something, lmk!

♡ Using my art as a PFP or banner (or as anything else)- Please ask and credit me.

♡ Reposting (not reblogging, re-uploading my stuff here or on another site)- Ask me and I might make an acceptation, but usually no. If you're going to do it at least credit me and link my post though.

♡ Venting on my posts- Unless it’s a vent post itself, No.

♡ Requests- Sure! If I like your idea I might draw it. If your idea doesn’t interest me I won’t draw it. You are not entitled to my time. I am not going to draw your dog. Unless it’s cute.

♡DMs- Sure! Again, you are not entitled to my time but if you want to DM me, feel free.

♡ Critiques- Sure! I’m always looking to improve and if something looks weird, lmk! Art is a hobby for me. I do not have a lot of time to spend on it. Do not be rude/condescending and do not be mad if I don’t follow your advice.

♡ I am not responsible for anyone else’s mental health. I am not an art machine. I am not a therapist. I do not owe anyone anything. You do not need to know everything about me. I'm fine sharing about my personal experiences, but if I say "no" I mean it and I will block if pressed.

♡ I struggle a lot with social cues. If I do something that makes you uncomfortable, let me know!

Before You Follow

♡ I can't really control who interacts w/ me, so this is purely a b4 u follow/ DNF (i'm using this acronym. i'm sorry to all who know).

♡ Don't follow if ur under 16- I post weird shit. Get outta here.

♡ DNF Pro-Israel people, Eco fascists, people who actually like Joe Biden, libertarians, radqueers and radfems- just don’t follow if you’re a dick. Also goes for bigots & rightwingers obvi.

♡ I feel like i shouldn't have to say this but pedophiles, zoophiles, necrophiles, and folks into real incest hard DNF.

♡ In a similar vein, DNF ppl who are into fictional depictions of pedophilia, zoophilia or incest.

♡ If you self-identify as a proshipper/profic person DNF. y'all have rancid vibes I don't want to deal with.

♡ Also softer DNF if you think that like. Extreme kinks are problematic? Like as long as everyone can consent and the real world equivalents aren't hella abusive I literally do not care.

♡ I'm uninterested in discourse, interpersonal drama, or debating ppl about my boundaries. I don't have to talk to you. Why do you even want to talk to someone who doesn't want to talk to you? Goober.

♡ I don’t care what media you like. I am highly critical of certain medias, and I am not responsible for warning you about that. If you will have a meltdown over criticism of your favorite show, assume I hate it and don’t follow.

♡ If you're going to get up on my ass about media I like, do not. I will not engage in that. I was a DSMP fan when I was 13. I have been to too many rodeos to care. I'm usually pretty good at acknowledging faults in medias I consume. If u want to point out something I miss, go ahead! But I'm probably aware of, like, the weird undertones of Elfen Lied.

♡I engage with NSFW creators. I might reblog explicit or NSFW posts. I might not tag them because my bar for explicit/NSFW content is pretty high (I went to art museums as a kid so nudity isn't inherently erotic to me and I'm bad at reading intent). I tag explicit stuff with "NSFT" and related tags. If you have a problem with that, do not follow.

♡ I'm not going to post explicit NSFW, but I draw nudity (not full frontal nudity, just topless stuff :P). I will tag it as such but be warned.

♡ I also do a wee bit of horny posting (horny tagging? idk), so beware.

♡ I block somewhat conservatively, but I do block people if I dislike them enough.

♡Ik DNI lists are sooo last season but I'm mainly putting this here to cut my losses. I don't really check the pages of ppl who follow/interact with me, but if I catch a whiff of this stuff I'll block. So yk. We can prevent this from happening if you dont follow me or if you block me first <3.

Updated- Sept 7, 2024

[trashlie]

Hi Ashlie it's lil anon again 💗 I hope you have adjusted to your meds and had fun experimenting with gouache... That sounds cool, I wish I could do that but too bad I don't have a single creative bone in my body 😭 it's okay I'll stick to playing viddy games...

There is something I want to bring up for your consideration that's been bouncing around in my head. When Hansuke mentioned that it was hard for him to get into medical school despite his excellent grades, people concluded that Yui must have stood in his way and Hansuke's mother probably made a deal with her, correct? That felt like such a relevant tidbit that will come up again, because otherwise why the effort to draw those panels. So... I think there might be a parallel to Nol here. We know he is going to spend the 4 year time skip abroad, right? But how will he get there, when Yui is so opposed to it and needs to keep him under her thumb? So 🤔 I've been thinking maybe Rand makes a similar deal with Yui so she lets Nol go. Not sure what the details of the deal will be, but it could even be something like "I'll get the kid into any school he wants if you step down from the CEO position within the next 5 years and let Kousuke take over, and don't plot anything against me ever again". It's a big sacrifice, but it feels like Rand had some extremely harsh realizations about how miserable Nol is after finding his scarf in the pool, and then finding him bleeding in the snow and the Ivan the Terrible reference. It feels so much like he has reached his end, "it's not my message to pass along anymore" felt so pointed. I also keep thinking about how guilty Rand must be feeling. He didn't only fail his own son, he failed to protect NESSA'S CHILD ;A; someone so precious and important to her, someone she loved so dearly. Even if it was unspoken it's clear that she counted on Rand to take care of their son when she couldn't anymore, and he failed her miserably. Gawd just thinking about that makes me wanna cry 😔😭💔 So maybe this will be what pushes him to step up and actually do something useful for his child, maybe that deal will be his self-sacrifice. What are your thoughts on this? I know I might be reaching, it might be Yu Jing's article that will help Nol go abroad, and I'm very aware of the death flags surrounding Rand, and maybe he'll just die or Yui kills him and that's that. With Kousuke having all these realizations it's not unlikely that Yui gets rid of Rand so they don't become allies. But I don't want his death to be so... pointless, I guess? BE A FATHER EVEN IF JUST ONCE IN YOUR LIFE DAMMIT ;A;

On a lighter but similarly emotional note, when do you think Shinae and Nol are going to be on a first/real name basis? It might be just me but I feel like it's coming 👀 It's been said a thousand times (and good, let's manifest it 🤞🏾) that they must be on the same page by the end of season 1 for the story to flow smoothly. And that must include the names as well, right? Because the names are a big part of the distance between them and to Shinae, "Yeonggi" isn't enough anymore, she wants "Nol". And, in theory, he must first accept his name before he is comfortable with her saying it, but maybe the other way around would work better. If he lets her into the circle of people who can call him Nol even if he isn't completely ready for it, maybe that will actually be the important first step to accept himself. Because if Shinae accepts that side of him and doesn't think he's horrible, then he can't be that horrible, right. Basically a you don't have to love yourself for other people to love you and with time you can see yourself through their eyes and find that everything you dislike about yourself doesn't make you unlovable because they love you regardless type of thing. Does that make sense? I hope you understand what I'm trying to get at 😅 He also doesn't want to be vulnerable and open up as Yeonggi, it's not part of that persona. But maybe once she is on the Nol side for good, he can be more honest, because she is already there so why not. Not that he'll immediately tell her everything, obviously, but just be more honest dude just tell her that you're scared and not ready for certain conversations yet instead of putting up a front! But either way regardless of when, the moment they say each others first/real names is going to be SOOOOOO meaningful so vulnerable so intimate I will simply die on the spot I will just explode 💥 -lil anon 😼 (who still can't keep their messages short)

Lil Anon!!!!! 💗 Okay, ngl I am a big proponent of "creativity is very much a skill anyone and everyone can learn" just that some of us (and myself included lmao) need a little more effort to learn. But also gouache is so fun because I'm realizing so much of painting is about the insinuation of things, rather than painting out every detail? And it's so amazing to me to watch those things come together!!!! But also.... I am not great at video games so I guess at the end of the day we really do have our strengths and weaknesses huh? alfjakjfjfa LMAO :3

Also heads up, the last part of this response will have FP 238 spoilers!

Oooohhhh this is such an interesting thought that I HAVEN'T thought about, but I HAVE been thinking a lot about Rand (I have this messy post in the works about him because as much as he makes me angry I find him really interesting in that, like every other character, he is very much someone trying to survive and his struggles to do so have had a lot of ramifications - especially in failing to protect his son with Nessa. I understand why people hate him but I just have SO MANY FEELINGS and like how... maybe a selfish part of him kept him near, even if he couldn't be a good father to him because of Yui, because he reminded him of her, and how maybe as Nol grows up he continues to see so much of himself in him, and how in Rand's eyes that probably is bad because he very much ended up trapped, he very much lost what he loved, he has very much lived in isolation. But that's a whole other thing but the point is: Rand is on my mind so this is a very welcome question!!!!)

I'd never considered the possibility of a parallel because I guess I'd just sort of assumed that information was given to us to show us how far Yui is willing to go, that she was interfering with her own nephew's career in order to - probably - lord something over her sister, to force her to do whatever it was she wanted, that we are meant to further understand that Yui is so unstoppable even her own sisters can't do anything, and that this isn't the first time Hansuke's career has been on the line. BUT WITH THAT SAID it would make an incredibly interesting parallel! I think in a lot of ways Rand did think he was doing what was right, what he could do. I think a lot about what he said when Nol pleaded guilty, about how he should have sent him away to a boarding school and that as much as a lot of that was said out of actual anger and agitation, at the end of the day Rand cares so much because he loves Nol, even if he was never allowed to act on it, even if he had to repress it and keep it bottled away where it began to fester. Something I think a lot about parenthood in general but esp in ILY is that no one has the foresight to know how things will work out, so parents are doing what they think is best. Often they are wrong, they make mistakes, but again, we are only capable of trying to learn from our mistakes, we can't see how things would play out. Would Nol have been safer at boarding school? Would he have actually been out of Yui's reach? But that's a whole other post (that is coming)

THAT SAID I think yes Rand carries a lot of guilt and knows that he has not been able to protect either of his sons the way he wishes he could have and now he is at this sort of.... fork in the road. Until now, Nol was so very alone, has been surrounded by people who can't be trusted, people of this society who would sell him out immediately. But Rand has seen in Shinae and Nol this connection that maybe he even recognizes much like the one he and Nessa had, that Shinae is very much like she was in her willingness to reach out to and protect Nol, her willingness to stand up for him against even the scariest opponents. In the same night he nearly lost his son, he saw how many people rallied around him, were willing to stand by his side and wait for him to wake up and I think that, yes, it gave him this sense of understanding. Nol is no longer alone, and while it's not him at his side, he knows that the people who are will fight for him, are people who truly love him the way he deserved all this time. And I think that's yes why he is willing to transition out of Nol's life - because he knows that he hasn't been able to provide him the protection he needs. That he CAN'T.

And the idea of him sacrificing himself for Nol's sake (and frankly, Kousuke's, too) would be interesting, because I very much think Shinae will "sacrifice" herself to Yui in order to protect her father, will take up Yui's offer if it means keeping away from her family. What an interesting parallel it would be, too, for both of these people who have put themselves in harms way to protect those they love (I know Rand doesn't seem it, but I think he is a person who has very much been a victim of him circumstances and that he has reached a point in this story that he is willing to get hurt to protect them, that he is finally openly fighting back the way he can in an effort to protect them).

I honestly.... HATE the theory about Rand dying even though the death flags are everywhere lmao ;_____; I feel like I'm constantly closing my eyes to them because I cannot bear to think of what it would mean for both Nol and Kousuke, for neither of them to get that closure. I hate the thought of Nol being left a literal orphan, of Kousuke never knowing that he was loved, like it KILLS ME but it really feels like we're hurtling there and aflkjkafjkafjkaf [SCREAMS] I'd so much prefer that like... Rand have a heart attack that incapacities him or something ;A; - especially because Nana has her own death flags and again, the thought of Nol just being left with NONE of his family?! GOD THAT KILLS ME.

But also I am very much in favor of Rand making such a sacrifice. Something I've been thinking about is that a lot of why Rand's hands were tied was because he was trying to get this far - and now that he has, now that Nol is in safe hands, maybe it IS time to make a sacrifice, to step out of Nol's life and "set him free", if he could give Yui something she wants enough to let Nol go. The thing is.... Yui is very much aware of the effect Nol has on Kousuke, and why it's necessary to keep him around, but perhaps with what Kousuke is learning, that won't remain a matter? I think there is a LOT that is up in the air right now, but I do think we are at a point where Rand COULD make that kind of offer, where he can finally face Yui and fight back in his own way and do something to set his son free of all of this. I think I lean more sympathetic to Rand than most do but I would love to see him take an action that can actually demonstrate to Nol that Rand has always cared, that until now he didn't have other options, that until now he'd thought that this was the safest route.

(But honestly? What was ;__________;)

I JUST WANT TRAGIC FAMILY CLOSURE SOOOOOOOO BADLY AND IT HURTS ME THAT WE MAY NEVER GET IT LMAO ;A;

BUT ON A LIGHTER NOTE YES YES YES ALL OF THIS YEEEEESSSSSSSSSSS ;A; once again and as always YOU GET IT YOU TOTALLY GET IT!!!!!!!!

I think Nol and Shinae's story is VERY MUCH a matter of like.... yeah, you don't have to love yourself to be loved, that's bullshit, we all know it's not true. That maybe you can learn to love yourself by being loved. That maybe through the process of being loved you can start to see yourself through their eyes, the version of yourself that they see and love and that it can make that version of you come to life. That even though Nol sees himself as this unworthy monster, that he has been made to feel like he's nothing, a nobody - she can show him that he's something, somebody, she can say his name with an affection that no one else has ever said it with, that she can breathe new life to something that was taken from him and ruined.

I think we VERY much are approaching that point and Nol learning that Yui has been drugging even Kousuke honestly may be the beginning (or again I might just be being very hopeful). I keep reiterating that Nol needs to know this goes beyond him. I want Shinae to get to sit down and talk to him - not just about their feelings but about Yui, that even before Yui knew about their attachments, that she was already put through hell. Tell him about Kousuke's birthday, something that shows Nol even if he leaves Yui already has her claws in her, was already interested even before it involved him. Tell him about the offer because she will end up taking it one way or another and it's better than he knows how, so he's reminded how much she hates this woman, too.

And maybe if Nol can see that it's more than just him, maybe he can see that there is no point in pushing her away. And if that isn't enough, maybe she can convince him how very much they can't ignore any of this, to prove to him how badly she wants to know him, Nol, to see him and meet those secret parts of him he doesn't want anyone to say. To say the name that has felt like a lashing so many times used by everyone else in a way that takes it from nothing to something and makes him want to hear it move. To say her name again and be so familiar (so SO familiar god PLEASE) ;A;

Like IDK I know we've had this conversation a LOT lmao but it just feels like it's two steps forward five steps back if we don't get that closure if they don't have that talk. No one is asking for or expecting him to share everything - to just open up enough to show that he wants to. To admit his fear. If Shinae saw what Dieter did, that kind of fear, how intense it is, and couldn't connect it to what has happened to her, maybe she could get through to him better but at this point she just doesn't know, doesn't understand why he's pushing her. Maybe now that she's realized her own feelings - and can maybe wonder about his - it might make her think of what he said in the alley about fear and people getting hurt but it's a conversation they need to have directly.

And yes, I feel like even from a metaphorical point, he cannot begin to open up as Yeonggi, as this nameless person. They cannot begin anew with her uncertain what to call him, not allowed to use his real name, while he still calls her Yoo. What's he gonna do, maul her and swallow her heart and still call her Yoo? PLEASE. NO.

I feel like it MUST be coming, that some kind of understanding will be coming, even if they know they are separating for a while, even if they know that whatever is between them isn't something that can happen right now, I feel like they HAVE to separate on a true first name basis, right? ;A;!!!!!!!!!

AND I AM DYING FOR IT. /DYING/ I WANT HIM TO SAY HER NAME SO QUIETLY (AND MAYBE BRUSH HER HAIR BACK FROM HER FACE WHEN HE DOES) I WANT HIM TO TWITCH A LITTLE WHEN SHE SAYS THE NAME THAT HAS CAUSED HIM SO MUCH PAIN AND THEN INSTEAD MELT INTO HER. I WANT IT TO BE SO TENDER, SO INTIMATE, THAT HIS NAME NEVER SOUNDED THAT GOOD ON ANYONE'S ELSE'S TONGUE, THAT IT NEVER SOUNDED SO MEANGINGFUL AS WHEN SHE SAYS IT. The intimacy of being the first person to be allowed to say his name, to speak it with so much affection and care that it can undo what others have done to it, that it can breath back the life that was beaten out of it. ;A; What it would mean for her to say it!!!! That thrill of being allowed to share this very secret part, this very special part, something she is so hungry for!!!!!!

Shinae wanting to know everything about him is honestly SO FUCKING TENDER. Like, yes, that's what happens when we find ourselves liking someone, wanting to know everything, wanting to know about the things we were never present for and what shaped them into the person they are, but for Shinae there's that added layer because he has locked out everyone, pushed everyone away, and she wants to know the secrets he won't share, the parts of him that he hides, she wants to privy to every part of him. She wants him in his entirety, she wants to know him and be just as known and GOD to get to breathe his secret name, the forbidden name, the one he would not allow her?

GOD

I cannot even put it into words i just

[explodes on the spot]

WHAT ARE WE GONNA DO WHEN IT HAPPENS FOR REAL? WHEN HE CALLS HER SHINAE AGAIN? LAKJFKAJKAFKJAFKAKFJJA i can't do this lil anon i aM SO, SO WEAK AND FULL OF EMOTIONS AND TENDERNESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS they make me feel sO TENDERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

[ravioligobbler9000]

Gotta love my arts teacher outright saying that not only digital art but also illustration, be it digital or analogic, are not forms of art because, according to her, they are more rational and show less expression from the artist, they do not show something you get with say watercolor or acrylics or gouache..... I'm just waiting for someone to tell her that NO SHIT YOU DON'T GET THE SAME CHARACTERISTICS AS ANALOGIC MEDIUMS... THEY ARE DIFFERENT FUCKING MEDIUMS. Oh wait, I did tell her, but then she started gaslighting me with 'that's not what i said, you are making stuff up'...

You can't expect to pic up a tablet and make something that feels like a watercolor drawing, just like you can't pick up watercolors and make something that looks digital, but that doesn't mean any of them aren't art.

And about that bit that it's too rational to be artistic, i don't think she wants to see the "rational" doodles i have on my tablet or my computer, but they are miles more messy than my sketchbook. Miles. Not even a single bit rational, sometimes i just pick the digital table up and start making random ass lines and then i see what shapes they create and draw lil faces on em. That's also not very rational, and i do that exact same thing analogically.

Just to wrap this up, i still do not understand for the life of me what that woman was going on about illustration not being art, she just despises anything figurative. Oh no she doesn't cause when i try to make something more abstract in class she tells me i have to be more realistic and figurative....

My arts teacher is a fucking hypocrite.