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claymotif · 2 years

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hi luna vitally important question. for all of your ocs if they were inexplicably youtubers what niche youtube subculture would they be a part of

the way u always ask about ALL my guys. i get to sit here and rant about them for 12 hours straight bc theres so many <3

(also im ASSUMING u mean like. a modern day au. like they live in our world. sorry if that's not the case)

aderyn: fashion vlogger. he'd be so annoying too bc the thing is his goal is to show ppl how to dress for their body type but also their level of comfort w/exposure, the weather, the occasion; like he wants ppl to rly think about what they're putting into a fit instead of just following trends. also he's constantly following keldan around like "let me give you a makeover next time ur in town" and keldan refuses. obviously. they have ongoing twitter beef about it so there's actually a surprising amount of fandom crossover

keldan: travel vlogger. like he lives out of a van/rv so he'd do periodic van tours, show off where he's staying, what he saw, etc. he always posted the videos like two weeks after he was actually there so no one could predict where he was going next. sometimes he does campsite reviews but they're all super vague like "the views were great! bathrooms were kinda gross if ur not a fan of bugs" and everyone's like "what does that mean. how many bugs were there". his viewership is all ppl who romanticize vanlife but would never actually do it.

melati: cafe reviews. luckily she lives in like... nyc or some other large city so there is no shortage of cafes to visit. she'll do repeat visits to cafes if she likes them or if they're the type to do seasonal specials or change their menu a lot. she's also active on tiktok where she does "what to order at starbucks" and it's those insane drink modifications that no reasonable human being would ever actually order. (except if you did for some ungodly reason actually order them, they'd be pretty fuckin good.)

seia: not actually on youtube. he shows up one day on keldan's channel and it's like... kind of extremely obvious that the two of them are traveling together but it's not like he shows up in every single place they visit (is keldan just not filming him? is he really not there? no one knows) and also the two of them never clarify their relationship (also true to canon) so comments are like "theyre dating for sure" "uh you can't just assume that" "theyre sleeping in the same bed tho?" "maybe seia has his own van" "it's homophobic to imply that they're just friends" "can't we just have rep for non-toxic male friendships?" etc etc. seia screenshots the best ones and sends them to the sky sea gang's discord server.

delwyn: daily vlogger, but it's clickbait-y shit like "i almost died doing parkour today" and then u watch it and he actually DID almost die and ur like. how did yt allow this to be uploaded. luckily he doesn't do any of the cringy prank stuff but he doesn't need to bc he's cringy enough on his own. the secondhand embarrassment is so real but he has a ton of followers anyway bc ppl are like "no way how is this guy still alive". it's like watching a train wreck or seeing a car crash. you just HAVE to find out more

chan: chan would have a cooking channel. he'd post recipes and tutorials and stuff and would have a long-running series where he invites other big-name youtubers and tries to teach them how to cook, except theyre always atrociously bad at it and it's funny. 90% of the ppl subbed to him don't cook, don't know how to cook, have never and will never try any of his recipes (even tho he'd make it SOOO easy for beginners) they literally just think he's funny and like to listen to his jokes. there's a small minority of ppl who do try his recipes and post rave reviews on their tumblr blogs about him. he never sees them bc he doesn't use tumblr

junhee: junhee would inexplicably have one of those asmr craft channels. i like to think he's really dedicated to those paper theaters (exhibit a, exhibit b) so most of his content is making those (he does a lot from scratch, zero pattern/template etc, but he also does requests for pokemon cards and stuff like that as well as theme requests. if someone requests like a ghibli movie or maybe a minecraft inspired one he'll take that into account. he's got a whole list he's working through). but he also sometimes does mini diorama stuff (exhibit a, exhibit b). those are extremely rare uploads bc theyre so time and resource intensive but ppl go crazy for them. he's got almost a million subs even tho ppl have never seen his face or heard his voice. he rarely even replies to comments. it's literally like he just logs in to upload a video and leaves again. no one's gonna say he's their fave youtuber or anything but no one hates him that's for sure

sasha: sasha would be a daily vlogger. just like here's my life etc. except they still work in a hospital/medical care so the vlogs are supremely censored bc of hipaa and other privacy policies and also bc some of the stuff they do on the daily is actually gross and would get taken off youtube. they have like max 6k subs but those 6k subs are dedicated. they love sasha's content and are like genuinely invested even tho sasha's extremely vague all the time

hana: hana would literally be one of those tech review vloggers. she gets free stuff and sponsorships etc from cutting edge companies and startups. microsoft sends her care packages. she has like a billion subs. it's like 63% male viewership so she says it's only bc they think she's mildly attractive but all the comments sections are ppl genuinely interested in her reviews and opinions. healthiest yt comment section on the planet no joke

kei: SUPER into astrology. she posts videos like "how to interpret your daily horoscope" and "what mercury in retrograde means for YOU". but she's actually more into tiktok where she does vids like "zodiac signs as vines" and "zodiac songs as hit 1999 singles" etc etc. has a cult following that takes everything she says super seriously even tho she herself is like "guys it's not that serious"

other fun trivia:

junhee has a tumblr that's totally untraceable to his yt account. the last time he reblogged a post was in 2016 and he only uses it to find the recipe reviews ppl post about chan's channel.

the tsh main trio have a weird poly thing going on. they're not out about it but junhee's guested on chan's channel ("this is my bf junhee", zero mention of said bf having a yt channel bc that's how junhee prefers it) and there are brief glimpses of delwyn's filming through the apartment where ppl see the kitchen and are like "isn't that....?" somehow delwyn always sees those comments and replies "idk who this chan guy is :/" and no one can tell if he's being serious

in this universe sasha and hana are madly in love because there's no "you literally killed my brother" "well he came back didn't he?" conflict to tear them apart. they're so gross and mushy about it. sasha catches hana in their vlogs, they do unboxing videos together, and every time they kiss or are generally in love on camera ppl post fan edits on twitter like "omg they're so in love" "get you someone who looks at you like hana looks at sasha" etc.

no one knows hana and kei are friends until they both show up in one of sasha's vlogs. the entire internet explodes bc the whole jokey rivalry their fandoms have built up ("theyre so different they wouldn't get along if they knew each other irl") just crumbles.

if seia DID have a youtube channel it would be asmr bullet journal/calligraphy stuff. also stationery-from-aliexpress unboxing videos. but his current lifestyle (driving across the country in a van with his not-boyfriend) doesn't really suit the stationery hoarding thing. so.

keldan finally agrees to let aderyn give him a makeover and then they DON'T FILM IT. keldan films exactly one video with the Look that aderyn puts together for him and then never does it again. everyone is freaking out about it

#.txt #rabbit-rays #BEN. BENJI. IM OBSESSED #like. genuinely invested in this au now hold on.... hold on.#this is soooooo much fun to think about and genuinely. truly. i love this #i love YOU thank you #i don't think i forgot anything but like.... if i did.... whoops #btw there would totally be crossovers #like chan would invite melati to taste test his creations kind of crossovers

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woozi · 3 years

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can you name a few of your mutuals and one word (or two!) to describe them? i'm looking for more mutuals! :)

ofc bestie!!

in the order of my follow list (most recent to oldest ig dfkjjfkd, these are only caratblrs/multis i met through caratblr!!)

@dokyom - super neat!!!!!!!!

@majestickth - my sunshine <3

@sanshiine - sweet!!

@jeonwonwoo - jawdropping (fr fr)

@haniehae - my beloved <3

@iiasha - text post queen (also v sexie scans)

@ohoshi - it girl <3

@choibeomgyus - STUNNING!!!!!!!

@syuperseventeen - resourceful queen (you'll know when u see her blog <3)

@jihooned - capable virgo mom

@scoupsy - CREATIVE!! v bold too <3 i respect her sm

@kyeomblr - a sweetheart <3

@mintyseoks - we don't really talk but i enjoy seeing them around!! <3

@vernons - MY BESTIE!!! <3 LOML

@carat - pretty aes <3

@stepmom - v cool kinda intimidating <3

@julyprince - COLORING QUEEN!! (also i admire her sm)

@scoups - BESTEST FRIEND IN THE WHOLE WIDE WORLD!! (no srsly hani will ALWAYS be there for u)

@cutiejoshi - siri and i don't talk but i love seeing her around!!

@xuseokgyu - my wife <3 need i say more

@jeonghannie - one of my fave jjongjjongies <3

@squishy-woozi - I LOVE UR ART SM!!! i also watch ur streams sometimes <3

@wonwooo - v cool lowkey intimidating <3

@jaemtens - og caratblr resident <3 i respect and admire him V V much <3

@tearsofsyrup - v chill!! good vibes <3

@soonhoonsol - my FRIEND. with a capital F. i'd lay my life down for her <3 one of my absolute besties

@coupsnim - TASTE!!! she's phenomenal <3

@kveom - im a fan <3 also one of the people who made me stay here on caratblr <3

@dkymm - i love seeing her around but we don't really talk </3

@mingyiu - a moot i dont talk to but love seeing around as well <3

@juunshua - V FRESH!! idk why shine is such a breath of fresh air to me but she is <3

@heartgyus - please do not visit this blog this is for ur safety. also i am gatekeeping her now

@hanwooz - RESPECT!! one of my faves <3

@dearkyeom - i luv everything abt kristy she makes me feel v <3

@7ww - ON BRAND!! i love yasmin's consistency sm her aes is so recognizable and its sos osO NICE!!

@joshuahong - amazing <3 idk why we're even moots im ashamed of my blog

@seokmingyu - v calming <3

@fruitscoups - 10/10 would recommend <3 sexie

@bbaksu - AMAZING creations!! i don't see them around often anymore though </3

@mngys - V COOL V NICE <3 icb im friends w u sofi

@cheolshu - an og <3 i love seeing them around sm!!

@hwiyoungies - autofolLOW. one of my favorites <3 you're missing out sm if u dont' already follow belle istg

@sangyus - CC QUEEN <3 v nice v mature </3

more friends!!!! (i think i missed them scrolling down the list but i dont wanna go back to the pages so this is from the top of my head now dfjkjdfkfjdkjf)

@gyukwans - chaos <3 INITIATIVE!!

@myungho - a hero. resident funny woman <3

@joshuas - SO SO SO INCREDIBLY KIND WTF!! TALENTED!!

@soonshuas - v kind </3 10/10 personality

@starlightjoong - my favorite dinonara <3

@mango-mina - resident hypewoman <3 i love her sm she's a v v great friend </3

@enigmaticsal - upbeat!! v fun <3

@pinkfluffyblossoms - v direct to the point i love that sm abt her <3 one of the constants!!

@tuanzie - one of the absolute best ccs <3 v smart v kind <3

@xuboowoo - v reliable <3 V FUN TO TALK TO!! <3

@junhaoshua - IM SO ANGRY AT MYSELF FJKKFJDDF IDK WHY I DIDNT PUT E IN EARLIER SHE’S LITERALLY 1/2 OF THE ONLY PEOPLE I TALK TO DAILY 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 hard vouch for this she’s a REAL one she knows me inside out and still loves me JKFKJFDJKDFJK no bc e’s the best friend you could ever have she literally gave me faith in online friendships <3 SUPER kind what the heal also v smart v impressive v fun to be with <3 i love her if i would have a name in a tattooed heart it’d be e’s

#these are my caratblr moots!! (most i'd say bc i'm sure i forgot to mention some 😭)#pls forgive me i am in my hag era #might add onto this when i see people i've missed!!#anon #y.ask

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sneezefiction · 4 years

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jealous boyfriends

Bokuto, Ushijima, and Atsumu x Reader - Jealous Boyfriend Headcanons

anon request: “Hi there I recently discovered ur blog and I’m in love with your writing🥺with that being said could I possibly get jealousy headcanons for bokuto, ushijima and Atsumu (and if it’s not too much maybe kageyama👀) hope you have a lovely day!💖”

a/n: okay so i got to the first 3, but i’ve got some more requests and a few personal oneshots i’m working on so i didn’t get to kags this time- BUT i hope you enjoy these jealous boys (and i’ll get to work on some kageyama scenarios soon💖)

warnings: slight language

total wc: 980

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Bokuto:

it doesn’t surprise Bokuto that you get hit on a lot

i mean you are unreasonably attractive, charming, and a literal star in his eyes

he doesn’t mind people admiring you, but wow does he hate when people get too close for comfort

so when you’re at a summer fair with him, he has his eyes focused on you and an arm around your waist the entire time

Bo only releases his hold on you when you tell him to go buy you something to eat while you run off to grab some drinks

as he’s waiting in line, he glances back at you, spotting a man approaching you he get’s so fidgety that people start to wonder if this strange owl-lookin boy is okay

you seem oblivious to the guy standing right next to you… that is until he sets a hand on your shoulder and you whip around to face him

you seem a little shocked, but you make conversation with him and let him join you, the discussion becoming quite animated

Bokuto is not okay and is literally bouncing up and down, searching for a path to weave through, the crowds blocking his way

but he loses sight of you and goes into full “don’t touch my baby” mode, pushing past everyone and yelling out generalized apologies

once he reaches you, he realizes you’re giggling at this strange man

and he isn’t sure why, but his heart is twisting and burning. such an odd reaction to your beautiful laughter

usually Bokuto loves the bubbly sound, but right now it’s got him feeling all kinds of weird

so owl boy rushes up to you, exclaims “we have to go RIGHT NOW,” and before you can finish your conversation, Bokuto is ducking and dodging the crowds again, his hand gripping yours tightly

“Bo slow down!” and he stops instantly

“Who was that guy? What was so funny? Do you know him?” Bokuto batters you with questions, planting his feet firmly in the ground

“We were in high school together, babe! ” you explain

“Okay, then why were you laughing so much? Did… did y’all date??” he questions

it takes you a second, but your eyes widen in realization, a smirk forming on your lips

“Bo, are… are you jealous?”

his face goes completely blank and he just tilts his head, processing that word

it would explain the terrible, gnawing feeling from earlier

he just hangs his head, walks forward, and bumps his forehead on yours, which is answer enough for you

Ushijima:

it started when you first attended a Shiratorizawa volleyball practice session

you dazzled the usually focused team and, during breaks, entertained their questions and conversations

everyone seemed to be enjoying your attention

well... everyone except your boyfriend, Ushi

you’d originally visited to learn more about the sport, quickly meet the team, and specifically to show your support for your boyfriend

but, intentionally or not, Ushijima believes you’ve lost your focus on him, instead, it seems to be directed to his teammates.

It doesn’t feel right at all

he knows he shouldn’t, but he feels betrayed… wronged

you barely knew them and you were already so close to them

i mean it somehow doesn’t affect his practice aT ALL, but it’s definitely in the back of his mind the entire time

when practice wraps up for the day, he’s asking you to follow him outside to talk, his face even more serious than normal if that’s possible

“What’s up, Ushi?” you question gently, confused by his request

“You seemed more interested in the team than you did in me, today.” he informs you bluntly, gazing deeply into your eyes

“...what do you mean?” you raise an eyebrow, tilting your head

you had interacted how you normally would when meeting new people: friendly, kind, and interested

“I would rather you look at me instead.” Ushijima states, voice low

a chuckle escapes your lips, you reach out your hand to grab his, grasping his fingers affectionately

“Babe, I think you’re just a bit jealous. Trust me, I was watching you the whole time.”

Atsumu:

i want to go ahead and express how incredibly special you are to Atsumu because he’s really not one for exclusive relationships

you’re his first long-term s/o and he wants to make sure it lasts

so, no, he doesn’t “take it well” when you’re asked out on a daily basis

he knows he’s a jealous boyfriend and he owns it

Atsumu will happily fight off any creeps who try to make a move on you

of course, today happens to be one of those days

you’re sitting innocently at a diner, Atsumu filling up your drinks at the soda machine, and there’s a guy leaning over you at your table

he’s clearly bothering you, not accepting your no for an answer and decides to take a seat. In Atsumu’s chair

bad move, dumbass, Sumu chuckles to himself, setting the drinks down on an empty table nearby

you’ve already made eye-contact with your boyfriend, eyes begging for help

Sumu makes his way up to you two

He crouches down to get on eye level with the man

“Yo, can’t you see we’re talking? the man in the chair expresses in annoyance

Atsumu’s eyes are basically daggers at this point (even you’re kinda scared now)

“That lovely human right there,” He points to you, “is my date.” Sumu smirks

your boyfriend stands back up, towering over the smaller man, fear making its way into his eyes

“I think ya better get yer ass outta my chair.” any hint of humor leaving his ice cold gaze

you’ve never seen someone stand up faster and you both watch him flee the restaurant

“Y’know Sumu… you’re scary when you’re jealous.” you grin

he flicks your forehead and shoots back a quick, “Ye, babe. You bet yer ass I am.”

#haikyuu #hq #bokuto x reader #ushijima x reader #atsumu x reader #haikyuu headcanons #haikyuu imagines #haikyuu scenarios #hq headcanons #hq imagines #hq scenarios #bokuto headcanons #ushijima headcanons #atsumu headcanons #hq fanfiction #haikyuu x reader #sneezefiction

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loxxxlay · 3 years

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@maidenofmidguard tagged me to do the Tap Game :D

Tap game by @bad-behavior

1. List your top three whump tropes and tag people.

2. Whoever gets tagged gets to say how they feel about your top three tropes.

3. After finishing that, they can list their top three tropes, and the tagging cycle goes on!

So here are @maidenofmidguard's top 3 tropes and my thoughts on each:

1) big strong guy getting put in a cage abd getting touched .. taken around on aleash .. the whumper exhibiting him, where everyone can touch and inspect the goods of our gut fights but he cant because he has secrets to keep and people to protect. So he is tsken advantage of. He is the party favor being passed around.

um..... -looks self-incriminatingly at the hints of this trope in my fic on our terms- im not turned on right now, UR turned on right now alsd;khg;lashdglaskhg

2) sick fic sick fic. Big strong dude who never gefs sick is now sick. People realizing belatedly that he is seriously sick and are surprised to see that he needs help. People fanning pver him .. kissing him on his head while he burns up in fever.

i likeeeee this, for sure. i def prefer the "weaker" dude getting sick with this exact trope moreeeeee, but i'm not one to complain about my strong bae getting sick either. * _ * (also you can always make them both sick mwahahaha)

3) the strong-willed whumpee made submissive in front of his old friends and family. Better yet the family has given up whumpee to the whumper as a last ditch resort to keep thier kingdom safe.

"being made submissive in front of his old friends and family" is literally The Shit and i will die for it. like the absolute humiliation and embarrassment. While this is very much not a Walking Dead blog (yet.... >.>), I will say that when Daryl literally was "the help" when Negan first visited Alexandria, and Rick had to silently watch Daryl be treated like a total fucking slave in order to keep Alexandria safe, like.... Daryl/Rick is not usually sexy to me, but I definitely had a Thing happen in that moment lmfao. so this trope? yeah. Please. Yes.

Alright now it's time for my top 3 favorites:

And good fucking lord I'm already struggling, so we are going to just... name 3 favorites, and not necessarily top favorites, because let's be honest, my whims change daily if not hourly.

Mutual noncon/dubcon.

Shocking, right? It's hilarious because back in my wee fandom days in 2014ish, I would never read mutual noncon "fuck-or-die" scenarios because they didn't do it for me. And now look at me.

I think that it works best for me when there is still a semblance of a choice. Like where full-tilt death is not magically imminent, but the consequences are still implicit and severe. Even if they are rushed, panicking, etc, they still need to make a deliberate conscious clear-headed choice at some point to have sex with each other, even though the situation is nonconsensual. (As opposed to like... being in heat/mindless or whatever.)

I espeeeeecially like it if One of them makes the choice moreso than the other. Like, for example, the Character A can't stand to see Character B face the consequences, so Character A chooses for them both, even though Character B might have preferred the consequences. It's still mutual noncon/dubcon -- neither of the characters wanted it -- but one character is still consenting more than the other, and that fucking kills me guys, it really really does.

Caretaker is an accidentally (or perhaps overprotectively) bad caretaker and makes things (temporarily) worse.

This is a Big Thing I do in my original fiction, but I've only touched on it very briefly in fanfiction I think. I could definitely do that more... For example in "Forget Me Not, Remember Still" (or whatever i called that shit lol), the first chapter where Thor and Loki receive a note from the Grandmaster, Thor is so angry and upset (and scared) that he starts yelling--and since Loki is nearby, he feels himself to be the target for the anger. Not in an abusive way, of course, because Thor is trying his absolute best, but in a way that isolates Loki when he really, truly needs affection. Which, unfortunately, makes this trope the inciting incident of this fic lmfao. Sorry, Thor~~

In an original fiction of mine, one of the characters is trying to help a rape survivor recover, but one of his strategies is to forbid her from leaving the house (because she might get raped again, who knows). Which is like ... re-traumatizing ... because even while the overprotection is well-intentioned, it strips her of her choices and agency again.

I also would like to recommend @veliseraptor 's Will to Live because I always do when I get a chance, and it has so much of this trope in it. I feel like "caretaker learns through trial and error how to be a good caretaker" is literally the thematic element of this fic which is what makes it so appealing to me. :')

Brain fucked-uppery resulting from some kind of abuse.

Um, so first of all, Moment of Peace is this. All because Thor, in Infinity War, had his head literally start to be melted by Thanos, like.... the aftermath of that whump was ROBBED from me, and I am angry.

I especially like this when it is a character who has never experienced whump in their life lmfao, because they're so Tough... Because it terrifies them, they don't know what to expect, they don't know if it will get better, and they're just in a primal state of panic and paranoia and it's great. (aka Thor).

But then again, I also especially like this trope when it is a repeated pattern of behavior that is always constantly on their mind and causing them a long-term dimmer state of panic and paranoia which is also great (aka Loki).

I also like this trope when it causes kinda... a distortion of reliability/an unreliable narrator kinda deal. Like again, in The Walking Dead, a recent episode explored this trope with the character Princess, and I'm just like * _ * More more more.

Alright, it's been a long time, but hopefully you all remember how this goes. I hate tagging people. It makes me feel bad. So instead of handpicking usernames, I'm just going to tag all of you.

And when I say I am tagging all of you, I literally mean ALL OF YOU. If you have eyeballs reading this shit, you are fucking tagged. If you have eardrums vibrating with this shit, you are fucking tagged. I am unsure of how else you could be perceiving this shit, but if you are, you are fucking tagged. There's no "technically" about it. This is a fully legitimate tag, and it includes you. Go, be free, and do the meme if you'd like to.

#tag thing #grandthorki for ts #long post #lox talks personal #lox replies #maidenofmidguard

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cafejoon · 4 years

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Hey I’ve seen some of ur posts where u talk abt ur adhd n im kinda suspecting I might have it but im no too sure :/ I’m very forgetful, procrastinate a hella ton and i have a lot of anxiety. I’ve also had depression before and im very very perfectionist. I’ve always been in the top of all my classes since middle school but it takes me ages to get things done (this has gotten worse over the years). I overthink a lot and I literally can not understand instructions like . im a lost cause lmao it’s like the info processes so much slower when someone is giving me instructions abt smth rather than when they’re just talking. Even then I tend to like zone out at times out of nowhere.. I daydream all the time, like way too often. Idk if any of this correlates w each other maybe some might be bc of smth else than adhd but idk i cant afford therapy n i just thought maybe if u recognize these patterns to be indicating adhd, id like to know what u think from ur persoective :/ im sorry if this is an inconvenience too pls just ignore if it’s too much :( have a lovely day/night 💜💜

no need to apologize for reaching out!! it’s really useful to talk to people who seem to have similar issues as you (that’s how i found out since my friend has adhd). quick disclaimer: i’m in no way qualified to say if someone has adhd and i’m still pretty new to the whole thing so take anything i say with a grain of salt,, but the description you gave basically sums up my experiences/symptoms so i’d encourage getting testing done, i’m not sure how it is for different countries (i live in canada so i don’t pay for doctor visits) but if it is an option to even get the testing and not therapy i would go for it. i can’t say much for therapy as of now since today was my intake interview with the psychiatrist i’ll be seeing but there’s lots of resources out there if you look (instagram pages, adhd blogs, websites, books, etc) i know it’s not the same as actually receiving treatment but if you can find a good source it could be helpful!!! even if it turns out you don’t have adhd (tho u probably know better than anyone else if these symptoms have been persistent over a long period of time) they can be useful techniques to help with daily functioning. i wish i had more to offer but i haven’t started any treatment programs yet but if you wanna check back in january hopefully i’ll have something useful to share??? anyway i hope this was somewhat helpful and that you can get the resources you need !!!

#like i said i’m still pretty new to the whole thing so what i’ve mostly been doing is looking at various adhd pages on different platforms #some of them share/suggest tips for managing adhd but it can be hard to find stuff???#it’s a bit hit or miss #i know it’s everyone’s least favourite thing to hear but what my psychiatrist told me today specifically with getting my meds to work #is that you need to regulate sleep exercise and nutrition bc they impact uptake of hormones in the brain for functioning #and in general people with adhd need schedules to help with self-regulation cause they provide structure #even tho that’s related to making meds effective it’s just good advice in general #anon #ask #adhd

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getwebbed-a · 6 years

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i’ve .... i’ve literally been here for like a month ; and there’s 9 0 0 + of you now ??? ngl, it’s really fuckin’ overwhelming. there’s this pressure to portray peter well & all that, & i get anxious every once in a while, but other than that, this is wild !!! everybody came here for one reason or another — i can’t speak for all of you — but this is just absolutely insane. oddly incredible, but insane. i never thought i’d reach monumental milestones like this on an RP blog, but man, here i am. lmao. everybody here loves their characters so much, and everybody i follow are just lovely, supportive folks ? like THANK YOU for being kind, decent human beings. i never feel like i don’t want to be on tumblr bc of the people i follow or the things i see on my dash, so that’s gotta mean something l o l

anyway, i sort of hate doing these bc people may feel left out, but y’know in light of recent events, i’m just gonna do it to spread some love to the people i’ve met since starting this blog that have literally become like ??? a family. a home away from home. it’s gonna be cheesy & i hate cheesy, & i’m never this nice, so like ... fucking CHERISH IT U LIL SHITS. but overall to all my mutuals & followers, a massive thanks for giving me a chance, for welcoming me, for watching my growth from a distance or even if we already talk / do IC things. ok let’s get this show on the road my frens. admire my diminishing desire to write properly.

@fllowershop / @spngld : um ??? holly thank u sm for just being a staple in my daily life. i remember when we followed each other at the start, n i was just this anxious ball bc u were like wAY more established than i was, but u would leave lil comments here n there on my shitposts. n then i finally worked up the courage to talk to u n ur literally like. one of my closest friends on this hell site ?? like bless u. thank u for being there to listen to me rant / talk shit ; i’ll always be there for u if u need a shoulder to lean on. or u can just insult me idc i’ll take whatever i can get

@reddeathed : ok other mom. can u believe ?? we live near each other ??? somewhat. icb we literally have each other’s phone numbers now. talking on the daily. rping on discord. we’re some real trash when it comes to the relationships between connat & then peter & nat. tbh idk why u endure me; maybe it’s just bc u want to rile me up. ( fuck u btw. ) not literally. n sometimes i know u need a big fat cry n thats ok n if u ever need to talk shit just come to me. i will say out of context things to help. i will be there !! also when holly visits u we’re all gonna go downtown toronto ok that’s official

@pleasureofmyself / @empantis : i was gonna tag scott too but im lazy. anyway like ?? wow yohan !!! i love u !! ur such a good bean, n u play ov.erwatch w me even if u suck bc u play ps4 more often than pc — it’s ok tho bc we both suck in the end n we lose. WE DIE LIKE MEN !! but boi i love talking to u and rping w u !! we got these ongoing inside jokes ( are they rly inside jokes tho idk i mean eggs amirite ) that r the greatest things ever n just !!! ur a loser but a good loser. my type of loser u kno what i mean

@notacircusmonkey : MELA !!!! i know sometimes ( by sometimes i mean that one time ) i say we get divorced bc u end up saying some A++++ angsty shit n then i get emotional, but !! u r the love of my life ok. like thank u for indulging me w all the s.tony. ur so nice n every time ur gone to take care of uni n rl stuff i miss u, but when u come back, here’s a nice mssg for u to read, right ?? i hope life is treating u well, and that ur birthday was perfect, bc u r just . u deserve it !! if life isn’t doing a good for u then im gonna kICK all that bad aura away from u n make sure u deserve some Good.

@bornsoldier : lmao bronson we’ve literally known each other for like 5 days but bitch ily. i hope those storms pass soon n the sun can come out bc u r like the actual sun. except like, u don’t blind me when i look at u. ur like a dimmed down sun ? ok my analogies n metaphors make no fuckin sense, but like. homie. bro. ur gr8 but never call ur alfredo fettuccine breakfast when it’s past 12pm ok at least call it BRUNCH u uneducated slut ( sry did i mention i love u ? i do i promise )

ok this is getting long n im literally running on no energy after being Fucked by work so i’m just gonna end that there for now.

honourable mentions ( more people i admire or have known for a while prior to this blog in no particular order )

@elataan , @atimebomb , @hookedcop / @silverstays , @countrylcved , @i-stark , @suitofarmxr , @auntlarb , @rumdaydreams , @iingloriious , @ebvenom , @piraticalwit , @marveliing , @boybcnd , @emeritvspidey , @mercnry , @dieamonster , @chooseboth , @stormwielding , @webwiings , @beastblooded , @smaugiiisms

so im sry if i missed anybody but i’m low on energy juice in my body, but if we’re mutuals i p much love u so ya. also thank u to all my followers who aren’t mutuals, bc wow idk what ur sticking around for when there r so many good spideys out there, but !! yeah thank u for all ur love n support n this sounds like some fucking oSCARS SPEECH IM GONNA SHUT UP NOW BYE

#|| unlike peter i’m not good at science ( ooc. )#tw: follower count #long post //#im gonna hit 1k in like another week or something at this rate #n im gonna DIE

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bubblyernie · 7 years

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VDJSKS OK SO IVE LITERALLY BEEN FOLLOWIMG AND VISITING UR BLOG DAILY AND I NOW JUST REALIZED THAT THE KIDS WHITR HOODIE ISNT A TOWEL AND THE PANT LEG ISNT A BIG BYFF ARM DKSLFJ

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stellxuk · 4 years

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Broad lesson(s) from my solo trip

Some time has lapsed since I’d written the last post but as always words keep escaping me and at present time so o o o much has changed to how we’re essentially going about our daily lives. Being an introvert through and through, I don’t feel the effects of staying home as much as others but it has also created a new flux emotionally. I’ve been getting really vivid dreams (a side note), and have become more reminiscent of my trip to the UK, seeing it in different lights than the atomic now-I-know-I’m-not-a-solo-traveller vein.

It has brought me immense gratefulness (more than I can express without sounding like a brat who decided to spend money on a leisure trip in the midst of then an impending pandemic) that I got to experience what I experienced in the UK before everything started going downhill. A lot, and I mean a lot, of unfounded worries surrounded me during the trip, which made me think that it was just a wrong time to have travelled and experienced the cities I went to. But now it has, in my own windings and projections, taught me a lot of empathy for the kind of fears people are going through now, and how important it is more than ever to surround yourself with the assurance that this is a time that will pass. It has also opened up a lot about who I am as a person inherently as well.

Picking up The Idiot Brain by Dean Burnett (a read I’d recommend) after reading 2 chapters and abandoning it for an awful long time (the pages have started to yellow kind of long), I understood how the irrational fears I felt during my trip were my cortisol levels trying to get me to hit optimum self-preservation mode and survive alone - something I have never done. Never! Of course my brain had trouble computing the experience then. I’ve never been physically alone more than an afternoon/ evening completing work at a cafe, or watching a movie solo, or a drive, or at most taking a solo flight (note that these aren’t survival activities but also just leisure activities). I’ve been wrapping my head around why I was so fearful and it seemed I couldn’t be at ease with myself more so than others who seemingly adapted pretty well to studying/living abroad alone.

But it wasn’t a measure of courage and sensibility, it was apples and oranges in how I was raised and the circumstances which surrounded me as I embarked on the trip.

In the last post I wrote about enhanced responsibility traveling against my parents’ full consent (to clarify, they supported me in my decision but if they had a say they would’ve completely shut the trip down until the entire virus situation tided over). It had been weighing over my head the entire trip and through my mom’s frequent check-ins that as much as I wanted this trip for myself, I’m not my own person. We all aren’t. I read an essay “No Patient is an Island” by Anita Ho on Aeon and it presented studies on moral philosophy such as Rene Descartes’s “rugged individualism” where the self is individualistic, independent and in autonomous control of their lives. This goes against the inherent significance of family relationships - that which is characterised by collectivity, non-consensuality, sensibility and favouritism.

While it may seem that the end goal is independence, coming into your own person, much of our identities and idea of self is constituted by our relations with others. Besides navigating the new cities I was visiting, I was also grappling with a sense of guilt almost for having my mother worry over me, but also a sense of subtle want for defiance - to maybe miss a text or two, get back to the airbnb real late one night - and prove that I can be on my own. It is weird to say this even now but when I hadn’t done that, eventually caved to the messages my amygdala was sending and made sure I kept to my itinerary, don’t do anything stupid, and to assure my mother that the train ride home takes only 15 minutes and the station’s still crowded so I wasn’t alone, I felt like I still wasn’t really being fully independent. Even though I literally was - alone.

To me the premise for the trip was mild, non-social activities. Visit a park, a museum, catch a theatre play, take train rides to explore architecture, nature, boutiques, local cafes. That sort of thing. I remember catching up with a friend a week or two ago and he frowned when I said I started my days early around 8am but I was back in the airbnb most nights by 8pm. He proceeded to ask me why hadn’t I gone to a bar. Lol. Why would I be in a bar? Nothing wrong with bars - I’m not insinuating that if I had gone to a bar any of the nights that would’ve been the last you heard of me. I was just perturbed as to why there seemed to be a “generic itinerary” everyone had to follow and me missing out on these overtly “I’m solo tripping I am my own person now” type activities meant I had an odd trip.

I guess where I’m getting at is it all boils down to who I am, maybe neurologically my anterior hippocampus might be average sized or even smaller, or biologically I have inherited the DNA that encoded the same over-protectiveness and social paranoias my mother has (chemically, her oxytocin levels has surged through 3 childbirths and hence socially, my sense of danger and worry has also been compromised). There are so many reasons as to why I choose the straight path most times and I don’t take much risks. Don’t get me started on my psychological flaws on fears of failure and subconscious need for social (including parental) acceptance 🙃. But it doesn’t mean it was a horrible trip!!!! (I finally got to the point).

When friends asked me how was my trip, I felt socially obligated to preface that it wasn’t that great - because globally we hadn’t known we were about to fight a pandemic together, and because when I got back my parents were more relieved than excited to hear my stories, and I was slightly ashamed of how cautious I was and at some points, downright fearful. But now I understand, that I hold my life to great regards in accordance to others, and I attain a sense of selfhood through my connection with others. I have my fair share of social anxieties, but by my own measures I can deem the trip a great one regardless. An old friend who reconnected on my birthday (and we got to talking about her experience on her own solo trip) said this:

yea it’s not easy but it’s memorable hahaha there’ll be something about this trip that will stay with u for life and it’s sth that will be difficult to put into words or explain to anyone... try and relax and enjoy yourself! afterall this opportunity definitely didn’t come easy. you’re brave enough to even take ur first step :)

At that moment when I read her message a wave of calm just came upon me and that birthday I gallery-hopped - V&A Museum, The National Gallery, Hayward Gallery and Tate Modern - and I spent what others might think was the most mundane birthday but to me, one of the best yet.

Will I go back to the UK alone again? Absolutely! Knowing all of the above doesn’t mean I’m okay with it and am set to just live like a hermit for the rest of my life. It means I have so much to work on and look forward to in growing myself more and more. This will (continue to be) on my own terms, that will also be considerate of the people I value and how I’ve been raised. It means communicating my fears and assurances for others better, and it means going against my amygdala sometimes and trying new things (that I would enjoy) to overcome irrational fears. I hope if you’ve read this far that you’ll also be patient with yourself to give yourself time to figure out why you feel/think in certain ways about certain things, and to understand that everyone is on their own path. I hope you’ll give yourself time for yourself, and not by social standards of what it should look like at this stage of your life, going through whatever it is you’re trying to figure out.

Regular blogging content that actually talks about what I’d done on the trip in the next few posts :>

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en-hypen · 7 years

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Who do you ship your mutuals with and why?

All of my mutuals got this at the same time *-* I’m sorry if these r really random but ily & I hope u enjoy these ships frens!!

@laji-101 starting off with the tiniest bb, I think Kris would go really well w astro’s sanha :)))))) Have u ever seen this ddoca bc LMAO SHE WOULD FIT SO WELL WITH THEM kris is v smol but v loud (types in caps 24/7) and I think their energetic and fun personalities would go well together!!! Also the height difference is so real it would be so adorable asdfghjkl

@jihoonslattee my actual twin i love chiii so much ❤️ and u kno who else i love a lot???? seventeen’s joshua (he is actually my first bias ever! THIS IS HOW MUCH ILY CHIII ❤️) Both of them are really sweet and adorable AH it would be the softest pair omf. Also I bet the two of them would watch anime together and that’s literally goals :)))

@princess-megz I’m always regretful that I don’t check the chat as often as I want to :( but everytime I do, Meg is always there and she always makes me smile :))) Her personality is so kind (& ridiculously spontaneous i love it) so I ship meg with day6′s jae LMAO. Jae is the oldest but you would never know bc he is literally so ridiculous but entertaining? The two would have lots of fun 2gether and I 100% bet he would sing for her a lot omf. also i’ve never seen meg in glasses but jae would let her try his on and!!!! wow cute matching couple!!!!!

@cuddlyjihoonie my school started to majorly pick up so I haven’t been able to talk to Sophia in a heck long time :( (i miss u do u even remember me D:) Sophia is a boy group QUEEN there are so many people to ship u with omg. After some thinking I ship her with seventeen’s s.coups! She’s always on top of everything (ur blog is a1 its so updated) just like our local leader. They are both good at taking charge & doing their responsibilities but still making time for their friends!! ❤️

@seungkwanslowqualityenglish justine!!!! I ship her with pentagon’s hui! Justine is the oldest and has to deal with all of youngins, similar to hui and pentagon. She is also v smart and updated w everything just like our local leader. Justine is also very supportive of all of us and def would be the same w hui! Jammin to Energetic and NEVER is a daily activity ah god bless what a power pair

@simplicitwannaone Laura i miss u where did u go :( if u are reading this I ship u with exo’s Lay (bc i miSS BOTH OF YOU WHERE DID U GUYS GO) Yix is literally the softest person on the planet and his confused, victim personality would go well with ur kabedon ❤️ I feel like he would be ur s/o n also your best friend? The best hugs & would give u so much love!!!

@jonghyunandsamueldeservedbetter JENNY I LOVE YOU and I’ve been reading the chat!! fun fact you were my first mutual ever so of course I had to ship u with someone with equal importance. You are sososo kind n open-minded n outgoing so I have to ship you with wanna one’s Daniel. He is the definition of boyfriend material and yo your personalities together would be explosive can u even imagine

@thegentlemanukulele Natty is the rock of the group chat I really want u to know how much I appreciate u ❤️ This is REAL random but I ship Natty with shinee’s onew! First, they are hella similiar. Intelligent, gr8 leadership qualities, vocal legends, & v i s u a l s. I’m looking forward to their couple collabs bc holy fuck Natty is so good at singing (I shed a few tears at her NEVER english ver) Natty has an awesome personality and I just think the ship would be so powerful we would all die amen

@ladynightmareii when i think about it, i’ve never actually spoken to Naz before? Which is crazy bc we’ve had the group chat for so long?? But I know enough about Naz where I can say she would go well with yuehua’s euiwoong! Although Naz is the youngest, she is always ready to call us out n take charge ❤️. Similarly to euiwoong (who is the leader although he is a smol bby) Naz has to deal with us crazy older people. The two would work well together and always have each other when the other needs to rant about something ❤️

@dae-vil ❤️ I don’t get to talk to Dae often but she is real cool and always happenin. I ship her w got7′s yugyeom! Both of them are cute on the outside but on the inside everything gets WILD. Yugyeom is a little reckless and loves to poke at his members and I can see Dae joining in on some fun. Also although Dae is v v v tol, Yugyeom is a sky scraper so the hugs and the height difference are still cute

@daehwi-protection-squad I! love! dawn! so! much! She is the ult super daehwi stan, but if i had to choose another person I would say she would go well with brave’s samuel!! ❤️ Dawn is sososoosososoososos nice and hardworking (ur blog is so nice n updated) so I believe she would go well with Samuel. She also seems like a fun person to be around ❤️ and the atmosphere of their relationship would be so lit god bless.

@imagineproduce101 EVERYONE CARINA IS SO BEAUTIFUL HOLY SHIT A REAL V I S U A L. and you know who else is straight handsome that would kill it with rina? nu’est’s ren ❤️ Both of them would be beautiful 2gether!! and i feel like carina’s enjoyable personality will compliment ren’s super extra personality lmao. I bet carina and ren would go on fun dates a lot and overall always have a really good time together!

@kakaotaeks I MISS YOU ELENA ❤️ I ship you with the boyz’s haknyeon!!! He is such a sweet boi and would try his best to treat you right. Whenever haknyeon is tired of being w a ton of boys I can imagine he’d come to you for love n advice!! Also he is still in school too! yall will be the cutest couple in school everyone will be jelly amen

@heochannies meike 😍 why is everyone a v i s u a l omfg. I ship meike with nct’s johnny! Meike is older than most of us so she has some experience *-* I think meike n johnny would go out a lot (partying n bangers u feel) and go on lots of adventures together. Also johnny really likes traveling/ foreigners so I bet he would love 2 travel to visit meike ❤️

@peachiejihoonie i love u i love u i love u ❤️ i ship peachi with monsta x’s kihyun! Peachi is so adorable n kihyun is really cute and the two of them would just be the softest!!! Peachi also sends snaps from her work sometimes and I bet if kih worked with her, he would sing songs and try his best so work is fun for both of them :) if he didn’t work with her, i bet kih would come to visit a lot just so he can hang out ❤️

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mayorgalvan · 6 years

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the-little-prophet · 7 years

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CHARACTER QUESTIONNAIRE: CHARLIE LITTLE

ORIGINS & FAMILY: Name: Charles Boon-Mee Kai Little Nickname: Charlie, Kai (Kai is Charlie’s chu len-- or Thai nickname.) Reason for name: Charles’ father wanted Charlie to have an English name first and foremost and named Charlie after himself. Boon-Mee is Charlie’s Thai name which means “good fortune.” Kai was the nickname that his mother chose because he was born early and was very small. Kai means chicken. ;) Age: 19 Gender: Male Place of birth: Swynlake, England Places lived since: Nowhere! Number of siblings: Charlie has one stepbrother from his mother’s second marriage. He usually only sees them when he visits his mother-- usually twice a year, hardly ever more.

Relationship with family (close? estranged?): Dad–Charles “Buck” Little used to be a pro baseball player from Los Angeles California, but an injury early on in his career benched him and ended that career. Instead, Charles “Buck” Little became an insurance agent and got a job working at InterPride until Taka Lyons took over and fired half his department. That was four years ago. Now Buck gets disability insurance and works at Pride U in their IT department.

Mum- Dr. Phailin Dilsworth, formerly Little, formerly Chaisurivirat. First-generation American, became a college professor and found a job teaching at Pride University where she had her first child, Charlie. She was NOT into the magick-friendly thing as much as Charles was and wanted to move for a long time. She blamed Swynlake as a big part as to why Charlie had his chronic sleeping disorder. Eventually she got a job teaching in a school down in Bournemouth and left Charlie and Buck when he was 9 years old. She remarried when he was 10 and moved with her husband, who was also a professor, to Toronto. Charlie talks to his mom on the phone every month or so and sees her for a few weeks in the summer/every other Christmas.

Sylvester Dilsworth- Charlie’s stepbrother-- same age-- who thinks Charlie is a #freak for growing up in Swynlake, aka England’s great failed experiment. Wants to go into Psychology like his dad (thinks Charlie is #crazy). Charlie does not like Syl.

PHYSICAL Height: 5’6 (teeny) Weight: 125 ish idk height Build: Charlie has always been very short since he was a child and grew very slowly. He’s kinda still hoping he’ll put on another inch or two before he’s done growing but… looking pretty hopeless Nationality: English Disabilities (physical or mental, including mental illnesses): Charlie has severe astigmatism in his eyes. He’s severely sleep-deprived and suffers from dissociative episodes. Complexion (freckles, acne, skin tone, birth marks): Olive-toned skin, and a few moles on his face and neck. Often times cuts himself shaving (does it like every few days) and so he’ll have tiny nicks here and there. Also misses lil hairs all the time, look he’s trying Distinguishing facial features: His very big thick glasses lmao and he’s got quite pretty eyes in my opinion, even if they are hidden behind his messy fringe and big, thick glasses. Round cherub cheeks.

Hair color: Black. Usual hair style: Messy and long-- Charlie never has time to brush his hair in the morning Eye color: Dark brown Glasses? Contacts?: yes to both though contacts bother his eyes.

Style of dress/typical outfit(s): Charlie comes from a middle-class family and dresses like a typical Brit-- sweaters over collared shirts, that kind of thing. He leans toward hipster-esque if only because he likes comfy sweaters because it’s easiest to fall asleep in haha, and he’s often seen around in pajama pants and zip up jumpers if he slept past his alarm and had no time to change. I would call his style “frumpy nerd chic.” Typical style of shoes: He wears a lot of Toms because they are comfy and easy to slip on, so you know, better than sandals. Health (is this person usually sick? or very resilient?): Chronically sleep-deprived, Charlie also suffers from migraines. He’s noticed that if he has bad migraines one day, he’ll probably have a night terror. Which stresses him out. And makes the migraine worse. Otherwise, Charlie is a relatively healthy young boy, with pollen allergies in the spring but no other sensitivities.

Grooming (does she/he wear makeup? shower daily? wear only clean clothes? pluck her eyebrows?): NGL this could be better but it’s not his fault he’s just very tired. He does take a shower nearly every day (cold showers to wake him up) and does his own laundry so he had clean clothes. But he often does not brush his hair and wears hats to make up for it. Jewelry? Tattoos? Piercings?: None thus far! He does wear a watch. Accent?: Typical brit Unique mannerisms/physical habits: He rubs his eyes a lot and toys with his hair. He cleans his glasses both as a compulsion and because a lot of the time when he tries to rub his eyes he will hit his glasses and need to clean them from all the finger smears. Athletic?: He’s pretty fast and limber due to yoga and many years spent running from disasters, whether real or imagined. But Charlie won’t be beating anybody up lol INTELLECT Level of education: Completed a nurse’s assistantship and has a pheblotomist’s license. Taking uni courses on the side, hopes to one day be a proper doctor/surgeon. Level of self esteem: Medium-low. Charlie feels like a burden to his father and a freak to other people even though he knows he can’t help his condition. Years of therapy mean he’s pretty in touch with his sense of self though so while he beats himself up, he does have coping mechanisms. He also knows he is trying his best !! Gifts/talents: An excellent drawer, a pretty great cook, and a hard worker. He also has a lot of practical life skills. He’s a practical guy. Shortcomings: He can struggle to concentrate because of his health issues, he’s pretty cowardly and paranoid, he overreacts, he’s a bit socially awkward (not in a shy kind of way-- Charlie is actually outgoing ish but because he doesn’t have many friends he doesn’t understand a lot of the social cues. His desperation for friendship is also Not Attractive). Style of speech (loud, mumbler, articulate, etc.): Nervous talker for sure. Doesn’t stammer, just goes on and on and on. Definitely overshares when nervous. “Left brain” or “right brain” thinker?: Left-brained.Charlie is deductive, rational, and wants to be a doctor someday. His secondary -claw is super strong and he craves an explanation for things and hates that he doesn’t have one for his night terrors. The fact that it could be magic also doesn’t comfort him but scares him, despite growing up in Swynlake (hey he thought he was a Mundus all the time ok!) beccause he doesn’t uNDeRstanD and can’t conTrol it. Artistic?: Yes, uses charcoal and pastels. Mathematical?: Yes, he’s p good at math. Languages? Just English. He once spoke in Tongues during one of his Doomer episodes but that was probably a glitch haha. His mother never taught him any Thai.

Makes decisions based mostly on emotions, or on logic?: Logic, always logic.

Neuroses: Thinks World Is Ending At All Times

Life philosophy: uh don’t die? Do the good you can with the tools you have. Be Prepared-- Two is one, and one is none (aka hvae two of everything; its a prepper mantra).

Religious stance: Is starting to explore aspects of buddhism which is tied to his Thai culture (something he’s very distanced from especially because his mother no longer lives with him and she was pretty removed from it too) and hopes will help him with his night terrors.

Cautious or daring?: Cautious Optimist or pessimist?: Pessimist- the world is literally always ending.

Extrovert or introvert?: Ambivert, leaning to introversion. If Charlie had friends, he’d probably prefer smaller get togethers and that kind of thing but he would totally socialize and likes talking to people and working together in group projects charlie it is so sad that school is your main form of interaction. Level of comfort with technology: Very comfortable. True millennial. Instagram, Twitter, FB, blog. He depends on his phone and computer a lot for his social life/coping mechanisms. He definitely has internet friends who are doomers like him.

RELATIONSHIPS Current marital/relationship status: Single Sexual orientation: Bi. Charlie doesn’t really think about romance that much because he’s mostly preoccupied with Death but he had a crush his bff as a smol boy (who was also a smol boy) and also has crushed on girls from afar (and tbh probably kinda crushes on Minnie a bit because she’s so pretty and kind to him). He never really questioned it and so its a nonissue for him. He would like to have a romantic life one day but kinda thinks its impossible like who would like him he’s CRAZY. He can’t even sleep a whole night thru let alone with another person in the bed.

Past relationships: As a boy, he had a crush on his bff at the time--Nate. Nate’s family moved away following one of Swynlake’s disasters bc they weren’t gonna fuck with that shit.

A social person? (popular, loner, some close friends, makes friends and then quickly drops them): Charlie is not afraid to strike up conversation and sort of accepts his reputation as a Crazy Person so that helps deal with any social anxiety (he’s too busy with his generalized anxiety thanks hahahah.) He has a few people in his classes who are willing to work with him on projects and stuff, a few internet friends-- but otherwise he considers a lot of the patients at the hospital his friends… problematic charlie ur friends r gonna die

Most comfortable around (person): His...cat? SECRETS Life goals: Charlie has always wanted to be a doctor. He wants to be able to respond to medical emergencies like the ones that he’s seen, so he’s thinking of trauma surgery but is open to other paths (he’s also pretty interested in neuro because of his own disorder; he also loves kids, so pediatrics). Just as long as he can help people. Dreams: it would be nice to have a normal one whats that like Greatest fears: Death, dying, disaster. And that he’ll be helpless in the face of all that and can’t save the ones that he loves. Also that he’s gonna be a lowkey embarrassment to his father for the rest of his life. Most ashamed of: His night terrors and the fact that he drove his mom away (he didn’t). Compulsions: Snacking. He snacks a lot during the night and when he watches tv. Obsessions: Watching the Golden Girls a lot, also the impending apocalypse which he had been prepping for since he was small. Secret hobbies: ...being a prepper…. Is that a hobby…astronomy also thats more normal !! Secret skills:... prepping… Crimes committed (and was he/she caught? charged?): none thank god What he/she most wants to change about his/her current life: Find a cure for his illness/curse What he/she most wants to change about his/her physical appearance: Charlie would really like to be TALL. His dad is very tall and he got none of those genes and he feels like a pipsqueak and kind of helpless and he sort of is. So number one: TALL. Then he’d like to not have glasses and one day wants to get laser eye surgery to correct his vision, especially if he wants to be a surgeon.

DETAILS/QUIRKS Night owl or early bird?: Night Owl bc he’s terrified of sleeping. Light or heavy sleeper?: heavy sleeper. When he is sleeping, nothing can wake up but like, his dreams or his father shaking and yelling at him. He sleeps like he’s dead lmao Favorite food: Spicy food is his fave. Loves sushi, also loves chips and potato crisps and snack foods in general. When he’s too tired to cook, he’ll just eat an entire bag of crisps. Least favorite food: Charlie isn’t a fan of a lot of red meats, like burgers and stuff. Favorite book: uhhhh mmmmm charlie isnt a big reader, he’s usually watching television. If he’s reading, he’s reading medical cases and articles. Least favorite book: horror story books Favorite movie: old musicals, honestly-- Hello Dolly, Pajama Game, that kind of thing. Very soothing. Probably LOVES It’s A Wonderful Life. Least favorite movie: horror movies leave him alone Favorite song: gosh idk Least favorite song: idk eIETHER probably does not metal Crunchy or smooth peanut butter?: crunchy Lefty or righty?: leftY Favorite color: green or brown Cusser?: er, a bit, normal youngin. He doesn’t curse in front of adults though he’s pretty good about that. Smoker? Drinker? Drug user?: Charlie has had a few drinks here and there a social drinker if anything. Though he does wonder if drinking a lot could squash the dreams though this is a bad path for him to wander down. He has also thought the same about #drugs but is kind of a wimp and so he hasn’t tried any...yet Biggest regret: Charlie feels like he was a big part of the wedge that drove his mother to divorce his father because they had diff ways of dealing with charlie’s condition aka-- his mother wanted to deal with it and his father didn’t. This isnt really true, just another thing the two disagreed on. Pets?: A cat that his mom left behind! She’s old and fat and grey and her name is Emily

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