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phoenixkaptain Ā· 2 years ago
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Have you ever noticed that while we have a bunch of evidence that William explicitly told Elizabeth not to go near the Circus Baby animatronic, and the implication of the lines is that he said this multiple times and was very insistent on it, and the Fredbear plush (no matter who you think is speaking through it) told the Crying Child not to go near the animatronics in general, the lines here also suggest that it has given this advice multiple times, we donā€™t actually have any evidence that Michael was ever told not to go near any of the animatronics?
In fact, in regard to Michael, the only evidence we do have is Michael being explicitly told to go mess around with animatronics. ā€œIt was right where you said it would be.ā€ ā€œI put her back together, just like you asked me to.ā€ These both tell us that 1. Unlike the other children, Michael was not only encouraged to go hang out with animatronics but was also encouraged to go mess around with animatronics and 2. Michaelā€™s tone of speaking could imply that this is the first time heā€™s been told to go mess around with animatronics.
Now, Iā€™m not saying that William, from the very start, took a baby Michael and just handed him over to Fredbear without worrying about it, but I do think William tried to get Michael invested in some aspect of the business. I believe this because Michaelā€™s the oldest son. And while Utah doesnā€™t have heir apparent to the family title, it did, back in the seventies and eighties, have a common idea that young men should follow in their fathersā€™ footsteps. Or, at the very least, the oldest son should bond with his father through a shared knowledge of the fatherā€™s job.
This was exceptionally common everywhere, but especially in Utah, where the people have always been (as we will diplomatically call it) traditional.
(But, of course, the Aftons probably are not originally from Utah. That doesnā€™t actually have much of a sway in form of argument in this particular case, because Mormons have a long history of outcasting people they considered ā€œother.ā€ If you smoked, if you drank to excessively, if you didnā€™t go to church, if you did go to church but not the ā€œcorrectā€ way (I have no fucking clue what the correct way is, I only know that I, personally, did not do it correctly as a four-year-old, I know, baffles the mind), you were other and therefore, nobody would speak to you. And, more importantly to my case, nobody would go to your business.
William, being the one who spoke to more people (if we trust the books) had to at least play at being charmingly British enough that his neighbours wouldnā€™t think heā€™s a bad person. In fact, they would probably accept that he doesnā€™t want to go to church if he just used being from another country to get out of it (but they would probably suggest it everytime he spoke to them anyway) but William would have to fit in in other ways so he didnā€™t come across as too other. Enter Michael.
His relationship with Michael, if it mimicked the common relationship of father-and-son at the time, would be enough to charm people into believing heā€™s a family man and going to his diner anyway. Having three children was already going to boost peopleā€™s opinions of him, but if, on top of that, his oldest son ā€œhelpedā€ with animatronics or paperwork or even if he just occasionally wiped tables, that would add more to the public image of the business being a family operation, just this one included two families.)
Admittedly, we donā€™t know much about how Michael acts. But, since itā€™s a similar case to Ethan Winters from the Resident Evil series (1. Both first person. 2. Both keeping the face out of view from the viewer, even going as far as obscuring mirrors or leaving mirrors out entirely. 3. Both of them get taken over by an outside entity (Ennard and Mold, respectively). 4. Both seem to do incredibly stupid things (ā€œI think Iā€™ll go see my wife in this ominous house I was given the address to multiple years after her disappearane and assumed death. I want my dearest darlingest baby girl back so I am going to fight hell monsters with whatever weapons arenā€™t nailed down and if I have to fight a god, then I guess I have to fight a god. I inexplicably know how to put together a functioning flamethrower.ā€ ā€œWell, Dad told me to go down in his weird undergroudn bunker that he keeps behind the house where my sister who has been missing for some amount of time is apparently hanging out, so I guess Iā€™ll head down there on the nightly.ā€ ā€œI will not make any noise of complaint or annoyance or fear or even pain as I am inconvenienced and hurt and even murdered.ā€ ā€œI inexplicably consider being used as a flesh suit by the possessed wires of multiple animatronics a win because Iā€™m pretty sure my sister was in there somewhere, so great news, Old Man, Iā€™ve succeeded in the task.ā€) 5. I like comparing media that technically is very different but is similar in key ways and thatā€™s what Iā€™m currently doing. Shh, go with it, my child, go with it) Iā€™m going to assume that Michaelā€™s face does the same thing Ethanā€™s does. As in, if you wait long enough, even in situations where Ethan should reasonably be terrified, he just looks sort of like heā€™s wondering if he left the oven on. I like to think thatā€™s how Michaelā€™s face looks. Like: ā€œOh no, Ballora could catch me at any moment and kill me! ā€¦I wonder if that bird I saw last week is having any luck finding worms? Itā€™s been a bit of a dry year.ā€
Michael certainly seems determined, but he only seems determined if we assume that heā€™s in more than one game. Like, if we think Michael isnā€™t the guy running the pizzeria in Pizzeria Simulator, then Michael said ā€œIā€™m going to come find youā€ to his father and didnā€™t do anything? If we assume he isnā€™t the nightguard of the first game, if we assume he isnā€™t the second nightguard in the second game, if we assume he is only the protagonist of Sister Location, then Michael is the funniest character of all time. Because he literally said ā€œFather, I am going to come find youā€ and then went back inside and enjoyed a quiet life? Maybe he did look around but didnā€™t go to any of the obvious places, the restaurants his father worked and killed at? Maybe he knew exactly where William was and just said ā€œAh, fock it, Iā€™m going back to my tele-novella, tell me when youā€™re dead, Father.ā€ It also makes William screaming for Michael a lot funnier because oh my God, William, do you think heā€™ll just teleport there?
(Sorry, that was a tangent. I saw someone complain about the night guards all being the same person or related to the events of the game in some way and it kind of annoyed me. ā€œWhy must they be the same person?ā€ you ask? Because thatā€™s just basic storytelling. The characters have to be related to the plot in some way, or the storytelling is nonexistent. And besides, from a narrative perspective, it makes a more satisfying story if Michael is the night guard of at least one location, because it means that Michael isnā€™t the stupidest man alive. Heā€™s looking for his father. If I was in Michael Aftonā€™s shoes, looking for my father who I knew was a tad obsessive about robots, I would go to the robot restaurant. It makes sense. (Iā€™m sorry, I went on a tangent within my apology for going on a tangent. I will get back to the actual point now.))
We know that William told Elizabeth not to go near animatronics (or at least not to go near one animatronic). We know that someone told the Crying Child not to go near any animatronics. But we donā€™t have any evidence that Michael was ever told any of the animatronics were dangerous. In fact, evidence suggests that he was not only told to hang around animatronics, but heā€™s basically used to them. He finds his brotherā€™s fear of animatronics amusing, which, to me, suggests that he finds the animatronics to be the opposite of scary. It suggests that heā€™s around them enough (because apparently Crying Child and Michael just hung out at the robot restaurant nearly every day of their lives, for some reason) that heā€™s either ignored any warnings that theyā€™re dangerous or he was never told they could be dangerous in the first place.
Why does any of this matter?
Because I am sick and tired of people complaining about Michael killing his brother. They say it makes him an asshole big brother, Iā€™ve seen some suggest it makes him just like his father, and I respectfully disagree. Michael is certainly not winning any Brother of the Year awards, donā€™t get me wrong, but I donā€™t find his relationship with his brother to be unrealistically cruel.
Michael doesnā€™t hurt his brother. He only scares him. Thatā€™s his entire goal. Heā€™s a dick, yes, but he doesnā€™t seem to actively pursue harmjng his little brother.
Michael was never told the animatronics were dangerous. Michael was never told to stay away from them, and even if he was, it wasnā€™t terribly convincing. (ā€œSon, the robot performers are super duper dangerous and you should never ever not once go near any of them. Now, hereā€™s a dollar, go play near the robot performers.ā€)
Michael, if anything, is trying to get his brother to see that heā€™s overreacting. Heā€™s trying to prove that they arenā€™t dangerous. Heā€™s trying to show his brother that the animatronics wonā€™t hurt him. Heā€™s making fun of his brother, yes, but the fact that he gets him so close to the stage and goes so far as to put his head in Fredbearā€™s mouth tells me that he was basically doing something similar to shoving a worm in someoneā€™s face. He was trying to scare him, yes, but then his brother would, we assume, see that nothing happened and would be shaken, but ultimately admit that Michael was right, the animatronics arenā€™t dangerous.
This, obviously, isnā€™t what happens. But Iā€™m pretty sure Michael didnā€™t purposefully kill his brother and Iā€™m even more sure that he wasnā€™t even trying to hurt him.
I have three older brothers. And, it was a similar situation in that the four of us were left to watch each other a lot while our parents were at work. And while I know my brothers are not the mold for all brothers, I also know that thereā€™s a reason people talk about the ā€œCain Instinct.ā€ Boys roughhouse. And, while not actively encouraged in Utah, itā€™s certainly not discouraged either.
Michael was being a dick, yes. But, the behaviour is similar to a child who doesnā€™t think that guns are dangerous, whether because theyā€™re not told or because theyā€™re left unsupervised with access to guns. This sort of incident is not without precedent. And while it was certainly stupid, Michael didnā€™t do anything that a dumb big brother wouldnā€™t do.
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brightwoods Ā· 2 years ago
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Does anyone else feel like almost all of the conflicts that had to do with the various character dynamics in Chain of Thorns didnā€™t actually get resolved, they just unexplainably ceased to exist after two books of building them up because CC didnā€™t feel like writing them anymore and she didnā€™t know how to resolve it naturally after how sheā€™d built the issues up so much?
Like how none of the characters but Cordelia and Thomas had any clue about the Alastair and Charles situation and then suddenly in CoT it was like who doesnā€™t know? Of course Matthew knew and didnā€™t say anything before and then randomly brought it up to Cordelia in Paris while assuming she knew too
Or how Alastair and Thomas went from how things were at the end of CoI with Alastair thinking it could never work because Thomasā€™s friends hate him to oh look everyone suddenly is friends with Alastair with no grudge with no development of that in this book at all, just an abrupt shift
Especially the Alastair and Matthew dynamic where Matthew hated Alastair and wanted him to have nothing to do with any of their friends and he spent CoI ranting about him to Cordelia. And then suddenly in CoT itā€™s like of course Matthew is supportive of Thomas and Alastair and oh look Matthew and Alastair are suddenly not just tolerating each other for Thomasā€™s sake but friends despite barely interacting and no development actually showing and never getting any mention of the other in their own ļæ¼POVs, just having Cordelia be like Alastair stop being dumb, youā€™re literally friends with him now
Or like everyone other than Christopher and Grace where it was like oh we donā€™t like her for how sheā€™s treated us and her friends straight to anyway sheā€™s one of us. Like yes Grace was useful and yes Tatiana manipulated her whole life, but none of that was why anyone changed their minds or opinions? It was just suddenly the flip of a switch when it was convenient for CC
Or Anna and Ariadne where it didnā€™t so much develop as Anna just acted mean to Ariadne on and off throughout the series and at the end of CoI she wanted nothing to do with a relationship and then in CoT she was just suddenly like sure I guess I do. Also, slightly different note, but I did not like that Anna barely interacted with anyone else for the entire book and she was just off in the corner being an irrelevant romantic subplot for almost all of the book except when she showed up to barely even be shown in the background being sad about her brother being dead
(Although Anna still got more of a reaction than everyone else and his death was poorly executed all around in the sense of how did you write this so predictably and poorly that no one even knows when he died and itā€™s so background and 99% of the characters donā€™t care at all and we donā€™t see his parents finding out or much of Thomasā€™s reaction or anything and itā€™s just as if he wasnā€™t a character anymore 2 seconds later which is a different genre of issue with CoT but similar problem in the sense that both issues made the book feel a lot more emotionless to read)
And how the issues of Thomas and Alastair being together as two men and Anna and Ariadne being together as two women in this time and the issues of what would happen if the fact that Charles and Alastair were gay got out to the entire Clave just disappeared and never got addressed at all. We know how the ClVe reacted to Alec Lightwood YEARS later. We know society was homophobic at the time TLH is set and that it seems like shadowhunter society was a lot less open-minded than mundanes a century later
I understand that Charles being blackmailed and making shitty decisions was annoying but it was like suddenly everyone finding out wouldnā€™t have consequences and all the other queer men characters were like how could you possibly be worried about this :/ as if they havenā€™t spent the whole series knowing they have to be careful about who they tell. And then suddenly it was just of course itā€™s totally fine and safe to have everyone find out and why wouldnā€™t you be fine with that. And it was really written in a way that had other queer characters like oh Charles is such a coward for not being ready to publicly tell a bunch of homophobic people his sexuality and it just wasnā€™t it??? And super weird after Thomas was terrified of telling even Anna and Matthew for years. And also, I did not care for the fact that when Charles did go risk getting outed to finally do the right thing, we didnā€™t even get to see it through any characterā€™s perspective or how that important meeting went, we just got one line of dialogue from somebody else saying that it happened with no details at all. And I canā€™t think of other examples right now but there were quite a few moments like that where we got one line saying that something had happened that was important to the plot and to charactersā€™ development that seemed like it would have been more interesting than some of what we did get to see where it was just totally breezed over and way too easy and totally background to less important stuff
And then there was the whole no one reacting to Ariadne and Anna dancing together publicly thing was like yeah thatā€™s nice I guess but not realistic and it doesnā€™t go with the way things have been presented up to that point, it also just feels like a situation where CC was like well this would be easier for me so there just wonā€™t be consequences and then they can easily end up happily together
And then there was the whole Thomas and Alastair thinking they couldnā€™t realistically be together thing and knowing they couldnā€™t get married or be known to be together by anyone theyā€™re not close to and then at the end itā€™s still not really addressed how theyā€™re going to be together? Like there was the laziest write off of the family tree being wrong and then we still are just left to assume that eventually they move in together and suddenly itā€™s not a problem and everyoneā€™s fine with it? And then I also feel like we donā€™t actually know if everyone found out about Alastair and Charlesā€™ sexualities after the blackmail or if people are going to assume about Thomas and Alastair or if thatā€™ll cause issues or if no one knows outside of who theyā€™ve told and they have to be careful or what. Which like wouldnā€™t necessarily need to be addressed if it wasnā€™t for the logistics of being together as two men in that time being part of the obstacle that they were struggling with being in their way and then it felt like it was totally forgotten to even be one at the end by CC
Idk like Iā€™d love to think they just lived in a world where homophobia didnā€™t exist but it felt like homophobia was a plot point when CC wanted it to be an inconvenience and then suddenly disappeared just to make her writing easier the moment she didnā€™t want it there anymore instead of actually addressing the plots she raised with it if that makes sense?
And sorry, I really did not mean to go on a rant this long. And maybe everyone else had a very different reading experience than I did and other people donā€™t agree with some or all of this. I personally am just very confused about how the book was almost 800 pages long and it felt like so much of the development in it was us abruptly being told that development had happened rather than actually getting to see it and how so many of the issues were abruptly solved in an I donā€™t want to write this issue anymore kind of way rather than anything actually needing to be worked at outside of the Belial situation
Edit: You know what, I mentioned it in my tags but I feel like itā€™s annoying enough to put in the body of the post and make it even longer. What the fuck was with everyone outing or potentially outing everyone else just so that characters could openly talk about the queer characters and tell them to do what they want them to? Why did Matthew out his brother multiple times? Like yes, the people he said it to coincidentally already knew, but he didnā€™t know that. And why was Thomas outing Alastair? The straights got to keep their secrets as long as they wanted and fix their problems more naturally. Why did I have to sit through queer characters constantly having their sexualities and romantic histories to everyone else when they clearly had not okayed it? Why were the queer characters doing so much of the outing? Why were people who cared about them and knew what it felt like to be afraid of the wrong person finding out just broadcasting their sexualities to make it easier for CC to breeze past development to have their things get resolved fast? Why did no character have an issue with it at all?
#As a queer person the whole using homophobia against her characters as plot just to pretend homophobia doesnā€™t exist and call her characters#cowards for worrying about it as soon as sheā€™s decided writing it doesnā€™t serve her plot agenda anymore really icks me right out#Like yeah Iā€™d love homophobia to not exist but girl what are you doing thatā€™s so gross to go about it that way#ALSO everyone outing or potentially outing everyone else to other characters to make it easier to get the queer characters to do what she#wanted them to was a HORRIBLE vibe. Why is Matthew outing his brother? Why is Thomas outing Alastair? Why is everyone telling everyone else#peopleā€™s sexualities as if itā€™s nothing and everyone has a right to know when that character clearly did not feel that way#And itā€™s so out of nowhere every time too#Hot take: Charles protecting Alastairā€™s privacy instead of outing him was more valid than anything any of the other queer characters said#about Charles or Alastairā€™s sexualities even if I hate Charles and his going along with the blackmail was bullshit#Also now that Iā€™ve written all of this down and 99% of what I wrote about in here has to do with the canon queer characters thatā€™s not#a great look either that she did breeze over some of the stuff with the other characters for sure but she was way more likely to skip depth#and development with the queer characters in CoT#CC said no slow burn gradual changes in this bookā€¦ thereā€™s only room for abrupt 180s and Cordelia running šŸƒā€ā™€ļø#Sorry if this has weird typos and other mistakes in it. I typed on my phone and didnā€™t check for autocorrect nonsense and Iā€™m too lazy to#reread this all rn at my current brainpower level#CoT#Chain of Thorns spoilers#Chain of Thorns#The Last Hours#The Shadowhunter Chronicles#Cassandra Clare#My Posts
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ocdhuacheng Ā· 11 months ago
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wtf @ the new csm chapter
#ooogh a few of my predictions came true. was not fucking expecting the amputation though what the fuck. also fumiko kill yourself#'nothing short of a war will compromise this facility' OOOOOOOOOOGGGHHHHHH BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK BARK THAT WAS SO HOT#asayoru please save my sson........ tho in doing so theyre gonna find out that csm is denji so... rip#wonder if they even know csm is there (maybe fami told them?) and/or theyre just going there to#release all the devils they have captive there#to cause chaos#and denji/csm is just an added bonus. if you wanna call it that. what if they go in expecting chainsaw man#and they just see a broken denji on the hospital bed. what then.#cc#denji#csm#.txt#also........ please reze be here please please please#i think shes held captive here and then gets released by asayoru along with denji and whatever other nonsense theyre gonna let free#cuz i doubt she'd agree to have been working with public safety. i doubt she'd go to the chainsaw man church either.#so i think post part 1 she probably went rogue but maybe she was captured before she could escape#i mean there are some people thinking thats not asayoru at the end but reze. i see you and i hear you. i am still betting on asayoru tho.#feel free to clown on me if im wrong tho. i just think reze is being held at public safety like denji is. if they could even get to her#also i love yoshida he is so different from when we first met him hes so resigned and just. dead.#like contrast this scene with the last time he had denji captured. he was all smug back then but now hes just so resigned and defeated
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hollowwish Ā· 11 months ago
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okay I killed my last jimmy post for a few reasons, one being I wasn't sure about posting it in the first place. And i also went on another rant that I ALSO deleted....
Basically this is all I think was worth keeping from that. Sorry for lack of context lmaoo
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meatriarchived2 Ā· 1 year ago
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im still on my fuckshit but when i think of cc maria ( by extension also nosy maria but specifically noting the isolation aspect of cc );
can you imagine one day skimming the paper. its been a few weeks since all the commotion knowing your friends' had attempted to come find you but then were chased off. never actually heard or saw any of them, but you know they were around.
but you've been moved from the cells to a mattress upstairs. you're given more freedom, more wiggle room, you're allowed to do things - little hobby-type activities - you're given better foods, you're looked after by the older woman at the other house. the man who took you, who terrifies you still to some degree, slowly doesn't feel like such a stranger anymore, you're right to still be cautious around him but as the days, the weeks, pass by, there's simply a different air about him, and in the shack. lighter, in a sense.
you find yourself growing used to the new daily - the new routine. of waking to the sound of him getting ready for the day, of being left alone in there for hours sometimes, others trailing after him like a duckling, around the older womans' property, helping with an array of tasks. and you worry about upsetting her at first, unsure if doing so will earn a knife to the throat. you listen, you do as you're told, you find some kind of way to co-exist - all the while still, in the back of your mind, there's still a ray of hope,
that maybe, maybe, since the rest of them got away - that they're merely licking their wounds, that they'll get word out and even with all the silence since they had been on the property, there's that shred of hope that maybe? someone will waltz in, guns blazing so to speak, and you'll get out of this hell finally.
that is, until that day - that you're skimming through the paper, and you recognize yourself in a little column - and you realize you're staring at your own fucking obituary.
and in that moment everything seems solidified.
you're never getting away.
there's no point in it.
there's no one out there who are still trying to find you, get you back, bring you home, back to your mothers' arms, back to being an older sister, back to the circle of friends you loved so dearly.
you're dead.
not just to the world, but to those you loved - those who claimed to have loved you, too.
what else do you have at that point? where else do you go, even if you still tried to leave? who wouldn't look at you sideways for the blood that's already stained your hands? for the flesh caught between teeth?
who else is there, except the one murmuring encouragement and praise in your ear?
the only constant you've had in all these weeks? whose words rang true - clearly - that no one cared? that they abandoned you? left you there, didn't even care to make sure you were alive or not? only thought of themselves and got the fuck outta there without confirming if you were even still alive.
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#[ ā™” ] ā”€ā”€ * maria f. / š˜­š˜°š˜³š˜¦.#[ š˜³š˜¦š˜Æš˜¦š˜¦. ] ā”€ā”€ * queue.#[ š˜·š˜¦š˜³š˜“š˜¦. ] ā”€ā”€ * cold case.#[ š˜·š˜¦š˜³š˜“š˜¦. ] ā”€ā”€ * no one saved you.#for cc maria its just. theres literally no one else. the only constant has been johnny. hes the one who was there with her when the#broadcasts sounded off her searches being called off. the only one who ensured she ate - was clothed - was looked after when she fell ill.#who she could talk to. who in spite of all her escape attempts & all her attempts at trying to kill him kept her around - taught her how to#do things properly - protected her from others that'd be brought down below shack. honestly. her isolation in cc - only having any sort of#connection being with johnny for *months* before he trusted her enough to let her join him for longer periods - like its. complicated.#SO fucking complicated. youre seen as dead to literally everyone else in existence - *except for him*. he who sees you. who hears you.#who talks to you. looks after you. its hard not to find yourself becoming attached/devoted. to the only person who knows you still exist#like i mentioned for nosy its. theres lee there too now so its. a little different. it doesnt hit right away - the almost blind devotion.#but it still happens - over time - with the both of them. the last two people who for a time at least know you were even still living.#and its by the time ch2 rolls in for either cc/nosy its just. its so confusing to her. why they all bother returning then?#for cc its just. you all buried me in an empty box twenty years ago...you all moved on then. you accepted that. so why are you here now.#why are you re-opening wounds that shouldve been long buried - with that empty casket. why suddenly care now?#in nosy she suppresses it w. her bitterness but cc i feel it comes out more like... grief & hurt. all over again. because if you came back#20 yrs after the fact? then why DIDNT you return back then? why *now* and not then? at any point in the last two decades?
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enter-the-blade Ā· 2 years ago
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my critical flaw is that if I come across one of your old posts that has a horrid take about c!techno I will still block you to this day
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meatriarchived Ā· 1 year ago
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i did not sleep yay for me im still on my fuckshit but when i think of cc maria ( by extension also nosy maria but specifically noting the isolation aspect of cc );
can you imagine one day skimming the paper. its been a few weeks since all the commotion knowing your friends' had attempted to come find you but then were chased off. never actually heard or saw any of them, but you know they were around.
but you've been moved from the cells to a mattress upstairs. you're given more freedom, more wiggle room, you're allowed to do things - little hobby-type activities - you're given better foods, you're looked after by the older woman at the other house. the man who took you, who terrifies you still to some degree, slowly doesn't feel like such a stranger anymore, you're right to still be cautious around him but as the days, the weeks, pass by, there's simply a different air about him, and in the shack. lighter, in a sense.
you find yourself growing used to the new daily - the new routine. of waking to the sound of him getting ready for the day, of being left alone in there for hours sometimes, others trailing after him like a duckling, around the older womans' property, helping with an array of tasks. and you worry about upsetting her at first, unsure if doing so will earn a knife to the throat. you listen, you do as you're told, you find some kind of way to co-exist - all the while still, in the back of your mind, there's still a ray of hope,
that maybe, maybe, since the rest of them got away - that they're merely licking their wounds, that they'll get word out and even with all the silence since they had been on the property, there's that shred of hope that maybe? someone will waltz in, guns blazing so to speak, and you'll get out of this hell finally.
that is, until that day - that you're skimming through the paper, and you recognize yourself in a little column - and you realize you're staring at your own fucking obituary.
and in that moment everything seems solidified.
you're never getting away.
there's no point in it.
there's no one out there who are still trying to find you, get you back, bring you home, back to your mothers' arms, back to being an older sister, back to the circle of friends you loved so dearly.
you're dead.
not just to the world, but to those you loved - those who claimed to have loved you, too.
what else do you have at that point? where else do you go, even if you still tried to leave? who wouldn't look at you sideways for the blood that's already stained your hands? for the flesh caught between teeth?
who else is there, except the one murmuring encouragement and praise in your ear?
the only constant you've had in all these weeks? whose words rang true - clearly - that no one cared? that they abandoned you? left you there, didn't even care to make sure you were alive or not? only thought of themselves and got the fuck outta there without confirming if you were even still alive.
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#for cc maria its just. theres literally no one else. the only constant has been johnny. hes the one who was there with her when the#broadcasts sounded off her searches being called off. the only one who ensured she ate - was clothed - was looked after when she fell ill.#who she could talk to. who in spite of all her escape attempts & all her attempts at trying to kill him kept her around - taught her how to#do things properly - protected her from others that'd be brought down below shack. honestly. her isolation in cc - only having any sort of#connection being with johnny for *months* before he trusted her enough to let her join him for longer periods - like its. complicated.#*so* fucking complicated. youre seen as dead to literally everyone else in existence - *except for him*. he who sees you. who hears you.#you speaks with you. looks after you. its hard not to find yourself becoming attached/devoted. to the only person who knows you still exist#like i mentioned for nosy its. theres lee there too now so its. a little different. it doesnt hit right away - the almost blind devotion.#but it still happens - over time - with the both of them. the last two people who for a time at least know you were even still living.#and its by the time ch2 rolls in for either cc/nosy its just. its so confusing to her. why they all bother returning then?#for cc its just. you all buried me in an empty box twenty years ago...you all moved on then. you accepted that. so why are you here now.#why are you re-opening wounds that shouldve been long buried - with that empty casket. why suddenly care now?#in nosy she suppresses it with her bitterness but cc i feel it comes out more like... grief & hurt. all over again. because if you came bac#20 yrs after the fact? then why DIDNT you return back then? why *now* and not then?#[ mf ] ā”€ā”€ * š‡š‚ / š‹šŽš‘š„. { maria. }#[ mf ] ā”€ā”€ * š•š„š‘š’š„. { cold case. }#[ mf ] ā”€ā”€ * š•š„š‘š’š„. { no one saved you. }#[ mf ] ā”€ā”€ * š•š„š‘š’š„. { we saved us. }
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penny-anna Ā· 29 days ago
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the Justice League's identities all get publically leaked but before the dust has settled someone on twitter is like 'OMG i can't believe you guys are actually buying this obviously fake leak. look at this 'Billy Batson' person's birthday, he would only have been 11 years old when Captain Marvel started operating? how are you people so dumb'
immediately throws the whole thing into doubt. everyone going over the other ID information looking for other potential discrepancies. 'they expect us to believe Superman is some journalist called Clark Kent? they don't even look alike' and 'look at this Hal Jordan guy next to Green Lantern their facial structures aren't the same at all' and 'this Diana Prince woman has NO web presence, I don't think she's a real person'
'Bruce Wayne? c'monn how stupid do these peple think we are' etc etc
someone brings up that Wally West is clearly too young to have been operating as the Flash the entire time but then people from Central City are like no no that one might be legit, it's common knowledge locally that there's been more than one Flash.
this sparks the idea that perhaps the original Captain Marvel died or retired and was replaced with a new guy at some point. another whole group of people now scrutinising images of him trying to identify when the '''''switch'''' happened.
someone doing a deep local newspaper archive sweep turns up a photo of CC Batson accompanying a story abt his archaeology work, everyone agrees that Captain Marvel has his exact face, takes 0.2 seconds to join the dots that he officially died not long before Captain Marvel first appeared and Billy is his son. 2 Captain Marvels theory, previously dismissed as nonsense by most reasonable people, now looking very plausible.
whatever group leaked the identities absolutely steaming bcos their data is good damn it, everything in there is 100% factually correct and no-one is buying it ):<
Justice League and associates (initially sweating) now just pouring fuel on the fire. Oracle has made dozens of sockpuppet accounts to spread chaos and discord. official Flash account insisting that actually everyone is mistaken and he's definitely 100% been one guy this whole time. Lois Lane on twitter like 'do you guys think I wouldn't know if my husband was Superman'.
absolute pandemonium.
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m00ntunaart Ā· 2 months ago
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2nd STARWARS/DAEMON AU POST!!!!! This time with the CC's and the Disaster Lineage!
Obi-Wan: Maned Wolf (Kee-Ayt)
Anakin: Lion (maned female lioness) (Asieko)
Ahsoka: Gryfalcon (Tuex)
Cody: German Shepherd (Beskar)
Rex: Siberian Husky (Queen)
Wolffe: Wolfdog (Whitefang)
Fox: Doberman Pinscher (Vulpe)
Bly: American Akita (Lyra)
LORE TIME: first off! Jedi! So I thought a lot about how daemons and Jedi should work. I did end up deciding that Jedi GENERALLY have bird daemons (like the witches in His Dark Material), BUT not always. The Jedi having bird daemons is not a ā€˜All Force Sensitives Have Daemons Who Settle As Birdsā€™ thing. It wouldnā€™t make sense in this AU since Force-sensitivity is a spectrum and at what level would someone have ā€˜enoughā€™ force-sensitivity to have a daemon for certain become a bird? I didnā€™t like that narrative as much, it felt restrictive. So instead Jedi tend to have bird daemons, but not Force-Sensitives. Like all Jedi are force sensitive ( and have bird daemons) but not all Force-Sensitives are Jedi, make sense? This is because of how the Jedi raise children and teach them to interact with the force. Because of how Jedi are taught to view and use the force, their daemons tend to settle as birds! Itā€™s ā€˜nurtureā€™ over ā€˜natureā€™ thing. Which is why (in this AU at least) the Jedi donā€™t take in older children to train. Because theyā€™ve already probably learned their own way to interact with the force (different from the Jedi teachings) and therefore will have a non-bird daemon! Hence Anakin having a lion daemon. ā€œBut what about Obi-Wan?ā€ (Well since Obi-Wan is one of my favorites I get to spice him up lol). He was originally very Jedi like (daemon wise) but after the whole Jedi Apprentice/Xanantos enslaving him/Melida-Daan war thing, he daemon ended up settling as a Maned Wolf! I imagine he was just about the age where his daemon would settle (usually 13-15, which is the same reason this is the age Jedi initiates are made padawans), so it was a surprise that his daemon so abruptly changed and settled. Most likely the effects of being so abruptly exposed to violence and war right out of being only use to the peace of the Jedi temple his whole life.Ā 
(Extra) The 3rd page of the post! Cody and Obi-Wanā€™s daemons! Beskar and Kee-Ayt! Even though in my doodles Beskar seems to be very grumpy and even hatful towards Kee-Ayt, DO NOT BE FOOLED. Beskar adores Kee-Ayt. Their relationship just mirrors how I headcanon Codyā€™s and Obi-Wanā€™s. Where they will harass and bitch at each other to hell and back. Sounding from the outsiderā€™s POV like two people who hate each other. When in reality these two are joined at the hip and love each other. They just will never admit it because ā€œwe have reputations to uphold!ā€™ (Anakin says ā€œwhat reputation? the reputation that one of you would murder the other if it wasnā€™t for the fact the GAR would court marshal the other?ā€) But yeah, Beskar makes fun of Kee-Aytā€™s long ass legs. The mini ā€˜comicā€™ is about how I imagine that since all the Clonesā€™ daemons are dogs/canines, when they win a battles they have a ā€˜Victory Callā€™ where they all howl. Beskar offers for Kee-Ayt to join in, but Maned Wolves canā€™t howl. They do this thing called a Roar-Bark (look up a video itā€™s so loud). This is the first time Beskar hears Kee-Ayt roar-bark and it scared the shit out of her.
(Extra Extra) The 4th page of the post! This is mostly doodles of Rex, Anakin and Ashokaā€™s daemons (Queen, Asieko and Tuex). All three reflect the close relationship that Rex, Anakin and Ahsoka have. Hence Tuex nesting on Queen and Asieko trying to groom Queen (who doesnā€™t appreciate the rough lion tongue bath sheā€™s getting). (In fact Asieko tries to groom Tuex and Kee-Ayt too, but Tuex is too small and Kee-Ayt just starts biting Asieko bcs she doesnā€™t appreciate the bath either lol). We also have Tuex dive bombing Asieko (a common occurrence whenever Anakin and Ahsoka bicker). Tuex also does this to literally anyone who slightly annoys him or Ahsoka. And lastly the little doodle of Rex and Queen screaming! Idk if youā€™ve ever seen videos of Huskies, but oh boy are they loud and dramatic. I think with all the stress and insanity Rex has to deal with leading the 501st, he and Queen often have therapy screaming sessions. They deserve to.Ā 
(ALSO, I will be making follow up reblogs with lore/plot stuff for each individual character)
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renranram Ā· 9 months ago
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Maid dress
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schlatt jerking off to reader while she's streaming, obvi inspired when j bought wenston some maid outfits and people were calling him his sugar daddy lols
a/n ; 886 words :)
reader flaunts herself at the camera, spinning whilst she tries on the maid outfit schlatt had bought her, " chat, do i look pretty? " she smiles as she assembles the outfit
meanwhile schlatt was on the call with her, eyes immensely focused on her live stream, " jesus fuck, you look worse " he mutters as reader glares at him through the camera
" well, you bought this for me, so maybe it's not me who's the problem " she rolls her eyes at him as schlatt chuckles, not taking his eyes off his screen once
the two had been close friends for over a year now, meeting through, shamefully, the dsmp, the duo are very different ccs on their own, reader being more into makeup and gaming whilst schlatt's varies
ever since they first met on the server the two just sparked a connection, coming off as frenemies for the public, a banter of theirs but exactly off camera, it was a whole different story
schlatt is reader's sugar daddy
at first reader would just joke about being broke, " oh my fucking godd it's so pretty but i dont wanna waste my money ", " that's so fucking expensive ", " okay im broke " until schlatt got tired and actually offered her to be her sugar daddy
at first reader thought it was a joke, a silly new banter for them but nope!, every week, new parcels would arrive on the streamer's doorstep with small notes, but chat doesn't know that, chat doesn't need to know that
" fine, ill get you a new one done " he mumbles, as he scrolls through amazon, " anime french maid apron lolita fancy dress cosplay costume furry cat ear gloves socks set " he reads out the title causing reader to chuckle as they wear the stockings for the uniform
" oh it comes in pink " he added as reader smiles, " i like pink " she replies as schlatt scoffs, " of course you do "
as the girl sits down on her bed to wear the stockings, schlatt's eyes linger down on her bare thighs, enjoying the view as he leans back on his chair
" do you need something else too? " he mutters as reader gasps, " oh my gosh! you should buy me that uhm... blaire doll thing " she smiles as schlatt shakes his head, " blaire doll thing? " he repeats her, " the fuck is that? "
reader tries to wear the collar to complete the look, " it's like a doll! " she states as she grabs her phone to show off the picture
" that's an ugly looking doll " he mutters, as he gulps, looking down at his now hard on, unironically finding reader in a whole cat maid dress... hot
" more uglier than you are " she retorts as he chuckles, " guess no more doll for you then " schlatt replies, shrugging as reader gasps, now pouting
" im kiddingggg pleaseee buy me one? " she pleads looking at the camera as her live chat speeds up, " .. fuck.. " he groans out, not loud enough for his mic to pick up, him slowly sliding in his hand inside his shorts
" please please please " she continues, as she reads off the chat, " please jschlatt senpai " she bursts out laughing, mentally cringing as schlatt chuckles, " ..fine "
" yay! chat! we fucking wonnn! " she celebrates as she jumps around the frame, clasping her hands together, " we're the best at this shit " she shrugs, smug, unaware that the man she's in a call with is already jerking off to her
" reader.., think im gonna mute for a sec, gotta do something " he mumbles as reader nods, understanding, " bet, im gonna talk with chat for a bit " she smiles, as schlatt immediately mutes himself
" fuck.. what a fucking whore.. i didn't actually think she'd do a stream " schlatt chuckles, amused as he palms himself, as reader did what she said, interacting with her audience
" what a pretty slut holy shit " he chuckles, clearly amused as he bites his lip, his rough hand playing with his dick
" chat i look so pretty right? " reader asks, fixing her hair as chat spams yes, " you damn sure are " he mumbles, as he grabs the base of his cock, using his saliva for lube
" ah fuck, fucking.. so fucking pretty " he breathes out, his body shuddering slightly as he jerks himself off, his eyes never leaving her
" fuck.. fuck.. " schlatt throws his head back as he leans back on his chair, fastening his pace, " stupid fucking whore.. "
he moans out, lifting his shirt up, as he continues to palm himself at the sight of her, he's never gonna buy her those stupid costumes again
or maybe he'll rain her with more gifts, then maybe a flight to texas so she can show everything off to him... maybe
his lashes flutter, fastening his already fast pace as he continues to moan, " stupid fucking slut, .. shit... pretty- pretty whore " he stammers
he can feel his precum leaking as reader talks with her chat, innocent yet suggestive, that stupid maid dress, if schlatt can immediately fly to london, he fucking would, he'd immediately bend her over, not caring if she was streaming or not and fuck her like some animal
" ah fuck! " he moans loudly, his semen, spurting on his keyboard making a fucking mess, " shit... " he groans out
maybe instead of ordering her a new costume, maybe he'll fly her out instead
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onlyangel4 Ā· 5 months ago
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healing a heart i didn't break. LH44. MV1. SMAU. part three.
cheater! lewis hamilton x reader. max verstappen x reader.
when your boyfriend of three years fumbles, his rival is there to put the pieces of your heart back together bit by bit.
warnings: 14 year age gap with lewis. cursing. cheating.
author's note: our girl finally getting the treatment she deserves
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faceclaim: camilla morrone
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y/nupdates: it is official mother is not missing the austin gp. she had us wondering whether she would be present after the news that dropped on friday and her not being present at qualifying but she is back in the paddock. as usual arriving with charles and alex. fits like this are one of the many things that make y/n the perfect wag.
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user12: i'm so glad she didn't miss austin she is on the record so many times saying that it is her favourite date in the calender because of the chaos.
user45: the fit! y/exbff could never
user62: she is a better woman than me, i would be in bed eating my weight in ice cream if what happened to her happened to me
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f1updates: lewis hamilton faces engine failure during the 23rd lap and DNFs in austin.
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user22: i call that karma
user54: oh no what a shame
f1fan7: y/n cursed that bitch
user52: the way the sky camera man knows exactly what he is doing. it cut from lewis getting out of his car to y/exbff looking all concerned and then to y/n sat in the rb garage just sipping her drink with a straw unbothered
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f1: and he does it again. max verstappen takes poll at austin with norris in second and russell in third.
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f1fan32: can't wait to see what mad max has to say about lewis' dnf
user61: he is going to have so much to say but red bull will silence him
y/nfan2: the way he hugged y/n when he got off podium. this friendship was so unexpected but it is so perfect
user51: they are so sunshine x grumpy coded and i love it
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y/ninsta: these past few months have been some of the worst of my entire life but the people in these picture + many more have made it one hundred times better. i love you all and i miss seeing you in the paddock however i am sure that with our many group chats i will still manage to annoy you all. so many exciting things on the horizon.
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maxverstappen: going to miss your light in the paddock
y/ninsta: and i'm gonna miss all the free redbull
danielricciardo: and where did you get that last photo from
landonorris: i was about to ask the same thing
y/ninsta: you are both so stupid you stole my phone to take it
alexandrasaintmleux: charles is laughing at me for having tears in my eyes
y/ninsta: we are practically neighbors babe, you will see me all the time
y/nfan: y/n living in france? is she back in her model era?
carmenmundt: gonna miss my garage buddy but this is the right choice my love
y/ninsta: thank you my love
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sweetbans29 Ā· 5 months ago
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Hesitation - CC
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Pairing: Caitlin Clark x Reader
Summary: Carrying a lot of baggage, Caitlin's patience shows you there is hope (based on THIS request)
Warnings: Caitlin with kids (yes in my mind this is a warning)
Word Count: 4.7k
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AN: Our girl is too cute when it comes to kids...tell me I'm wrong. This is also set in like 2027...
"Mommy! Come on, Mommy!" Carson yells as he is dragging you through a crowd of people trying to get to the front of the crowd. The grip you have on his hand is frightening, you could feel his little hand begin to slip out of yours.
"Baby, slow down," you say in a rush as your heart begins to race. His hand completely leaves yours as you begin to panic.
"Carson!" You yell pushing past people. You can feel your throat closing as more seconds pass without Carson by your side. You mutter 'excuse me' as you continue to make your way up to the railing. When you reach the railing, Carson is nowhere to be seen.
You eyes frantically scan the crowd, looking for you little boy. When your eyes land on his curly hair you feel your whole body ease. You watch as he turns around and looks at to ground as you approach him.
Running up to him and sweeping him into your arms, you finally are able to breath.
"Sweetie, you can't run away like that," you say as his arms come to wrap around his neck. "Are you okay? You scared me baby." You are too caught up in the moment to see who is standing in front of you.
"I'm sorry Mommy," you little boy says. "But look!" Carson yells as he swings and points at someone. You are still too caught up in making sure he is truly okay. The time you were away from him wasn't enough for something to happen but your mind went to the worst case scenario.
"I would have made sure he got back to you," a voice says and your eyes finally meet.
You stand there speechless as the Fever guard looks at you with a soft smile.
"It's Clarky!" Carson yells in excitement. Caitlin smiles at the nickname coming from the little boy.
"I'm Caitlin," she says as she extends a hand. It is extended for an awkward amount of time before your hand meets her. You laugh at the fact that she introduces herself when the whole arena knows exactly who she is. You introduce yourself and then Carson.
Caitlin's only thought is how soft your hands are. She hears her name being called by Lyss as they are about to be called out.
"Well, it was nice meeting you Caitlin. Good luck," you say.
"Go Clarky!" Carson yells, causing Caitlin to give off a goofy grin. As she walks back to the court she can't help but look back where you were standing. She sees you walking back to your seat, making note of where you were heading, and sees Carson waving at her. Caitlin offers the little boy a wave as his head drops to your shoulder.
Caitlin doesn't know why but her heart swells. She turns away smiling once again as she thinks about how Clarky might be her favorite nickname.
The game is the most exciting of the season yet. You watch as Caitlin and Aliyah lead the Fever to another win in Gainbridge. Carson, like every game, having the time of his life. After the team secures the dub, Carson is asking if he can go back down to the railing.
"You already got her autograph baby," you tell him.
"I wanna give Claky a high-five," Carson says. You lean over to him and adjust his glasses that are slightly crooked and smile at him. How could you say no to his cute little face.
"Okay, but you are staying right by my side," you say as you lead Carson down to the railing next to the team's tunnel.
You put Carson right in front of you as your legs box him in against the railing. He sticks his little arm out and you see his hand rotate back and forth as he waits for the team to walk past. You can't help but smile at your boy as the team begins to walk by.
Lexie is the first to give him a high-five, then followed by KLS. One by one the Fever team heads back, Caitlin being one of the last to make her way through the tunnel.
Caitlin is typically one of the first people back to the locker but she took her time on the court greeting people and secretly scanning the crowd. She takes time looking at the section she saw you make your way back to only to come up empty handed.
When she finally decides to give up, she makes her way back when she stops to sign a few more autographs. Rarely looking up as she makes her way down the line. That is until she is met with a little hand and a familiar nickname.
"Clarky!" Carson yells with a smile that could turn anyones bad day into a good one.
"Carson!" Caitlin yells in equal excitement.
"Mommy! Clarky knows me name," Carson says with pure excitement. You look down at him and rustle his hair.
"She does sweetie," you say.
Caitlin turns to her security and whispers something to them and they give her a nod.
"Hey Carson, how would you like to come and meet the Fever team?" Caitlin says and then looks up at you. "But only if Mommy is okay with that."
Hearing Caitlin refer to you as Mommy has more of an affect on you than you ever realized it would. You know it is completely innocent, but you feel your cheeks heat up.
"Mommy, can I? Can I?" Carson is jumping up and down and pulling at the bottom of your shirt.
"And you would be there too, of course," Caitlin says, her eyes meeting yours. You keep the contact for a second - everything else falling away and you know you are in trouble. You slowly nod and before you know it security is leading you through the tunnel.
Carson's hand is in yours as he swings your connected arms in excitement. Caitlin wants to get in on the action but doesn't want to overstep. That is until Carson's free hand comes and grabs Caitlin's, starting to swing the newly connected pair.
Caitlin can't help but smile as she lets Carson swing away. The trio walks into the locker room and Carson's eyes light up.
"Team, we have some visitors," Caitlin says. Lexie is the first to come up and introduce herself. The team come up one by one saying hi and having little conversations with Carson. You watch as Carson is on cloud nine.
While you are watching Carson, Caitlin is watching you. She watches how you smile any time Carson smiles. She watches how you are never more than an arms length from the little guy. She watches as your hands run through his curls and she wonders what it would be like to have such soft hands run through her own hair.
"Okay baby, I think we should let the team get to their meeting. Can you say thank you to everyone?" You tell Carson and he lets out a giant 'thank you'. In the few minutes you have been there, the whole team has fallen in love with Carson and his quirky personality. He balances the quirkiness and sweetness well.
"I'll walk you out," Caitlin says, not wanting your time to be up just yet.
The three of you walk out and she stops right before heading back out to the court.
"Thank you for this, it was not necessary but I know you have made Carson's whole year," you say to Cait. She smiles at the thought.
"Of course, I love getting to do things like this," Caitlin says as she watches Carson look at the basketball the team had signed and given him. "You have a special one there."
You smile at Caitlin's words, a fact you knew since the day he was born.
"I know, don't know what I did to deserve him," you say looking at Carson with so much love in your eyes.
Caitlin takes the moment to look at you, she feels like she could look at you forever. She looks down but doesn't see a ring on your left hand and decides to be bold.
"I'd like to see you again," Caitlin says, eyes now back to yours.
"Well we are season pass holders, so I am sure Carson will be looking to give you another high-five," you say with a little laugh, thinking back to how a high-five led to meeting the whole team.
"I don't mean at a game," Caitlin says, hoping you would take the hint.
You look at her, head tilting a little but then realizing what she was was saying.
You let out a nervous laugh.
"Just think about it," Caitlin says as she hands you a little piece of paper with her number on it. You hesitate but end up taking it.
Before you can say anything, Carson comes running to hug Caitlin's legs.
Caitlin leans down and gives your boy a real hug.
You say your final thank yous and goodbyes before parting ways.
That night, after putting Carson down, you lay in bed looking at the piece of paper. Your phone is next to you but you haven't moved to pick it up. You just stare at the 10 digits. It was a bad idea. Thinking back to your last relationship and the fact that you are no longer thinking just for yourself, decided it was a bad idea. You put the piece of paper on your side table along with your phone and get some much needed sleep.
You can't take Carson to the next few Fever games which you feel bad about but have plans to go to the next one in a few days.
You have the day off and decide to take Carson to the park. You are watching him on the playground when you feel someone come up and take a seat next to you. You give a quick glance then turn your gaze back to Carson. It isn't until a moment after that you realize it is a familiar face.
"Hi there," a smiling Caitlin Clark says.
"Hi," you say with a polite smile.
"You never called," she says, her eyes never leaving yours.
You turn to get eyes on Carson and also to ease the tension Caitlin is so clearly bringing into the conversation.
"You told me to think about it and I did," you say remembering your thoughts.
"And you didn't call," Caitlin says, trying to hide her disappointment.
"Well, even though I didn't call, you got your wish," you say with a little smile. A smile makes its way to Caitlin and she nods.
"I did," Caitlin says. "And I am glad considering you didn't call."
You roll your eyes as you see Carson run over.
"Clarky!" Carson yells as he practically throws himself at Caitlin.
"Hey little man!" Caitlin says matching his energy.
You sit there and watch as Carson tells Cait all about his imaginary world that he build while being at the park. Before you know it, he is running back to the slides and it is you and Caitlin alone again.
"Carson really likes you," you say to Caitlin as Carson waves back to the two of you, knowing he is really just waving at Cait.
"I like him, he is a sweetheart," she says. "How old is he?"
"He's 5," you say looking at your little boy.
"And how long have you and his dad been together?" Caitlin asks boldly. She doesn't know what it is about you but she has now made several bold moves with you.
"Wouldn't you like to know?" You say teasing the girl.
"I would, that's why I asked," she says with a little laugh. You like her laugh.
"Carson's dad and I are not together, haven't been since before Carson made his debut," you say.
"Oh, I'm sorry," she says and you shrug.
"What happened?" Caitlin's curiosity getting the better of her.
Before you can answer, Carson is running over telling you he is hungry. Caitlin sees your time coming to an end. She helps as you pack up your stuff.
"It was great seeing you," you tell Caitlin.
"Can Clarky come to lunch with us?" Carson asks. Caitlin gives you a look, waiting to follow your lead.
"Oh Sweetie, I don't think today is a good day," you say and Caitlin hides her disappointment well.
"Next time?" Carson asks.
"Maybe next time baby," you tell him as you ruffle his hair. He nods with a smile.
You look over at Caitlin.
"When do I get to see you again?" Caitlin asks.
"You are a persistent little thing," you say but give the girl props.
"It's all Carson," she says.
"And to think I thought you wanted to see me," you tease.
Caitlin liking the light flirting going on between the two of you, reaches up and brushes a strand of hair that the wind blew across your face. You freeze as she fixes it, then brushes her thumb across your cheek.
"We will be at the game this weekend," you say and Caitlin smiles.
"Another chance for me to ask you out," she says. You shake your head with a little laugh.
"Bye Caitlin," you say as you and Carson make your way home.
"Bye Clarky!" Carson yells with an adorable wave.
"Bye little man!" Caitlin waves back.
"Mommy! Clarky called me lit-tle man," Carson says to you with a giant smile.
Caitlin hears Carson's remark and can't help but watch you until you are out of sight. She makes her way back to her apartment and opens up IG. She heads to her recent search history and clicks on your profile. She scrolls through the photos and clicks on a photo of you and Carson laughing. She looks at how much joy each of you holds and only hopes to be apart of that in the future.
Saturday rolls around and the Fever are back in Gainbridge. You decide to take Carson to the game early to watch the team warm up. You are surprised as each member of the team comes up to give Carson a high-five and say hi to him.
Caitlin comes over and messes up Carson's hair.
"Little man! How would you like to come out onto the court?" Caitlin asks and Carson lights up brighter than a Christmas tree. He nods his head with speed. Caitlin looks at you for approval and you nod. She lifts Carson over the handrail and takes his hand as they jog over to the court.
You watch as Caitlin passes him a ball which he begins to dribble in a circle. She helps him with his form and tells him to pass it to her. Carson throws the ball at Caitlin and she puts it up, draining a three. Carson runs around cheering and you take you phone out to record the moment.
You watch as Caitlin is practically perfect with Carson and it makes you question why you are still hesitant to let Caitlin into your life.
Caitlin brings Carson back over, leaning on the rail after passing Carson back to you. He sit in his seat as you give him an apple sauce.
"That was very sweet," you say.
"You'll have to send me that video," Caitlin says, happy you will finally have a reason to use the number she gave you.
"Okay Clark," you say and she holds her hand up.
"It is Clarky to you," she says with a smile. You return the smile.
"Okay, Clarky," you say. "If you put up 30 points this game, I'll do you one better."
She quirks her eyebrow, intrigued by your proposal.
"Put up 30 and I'll use your number to set up dinner," you say and Caitlin lights up.
"A date?" Caitlin asks with a wide smile on her face.
"Dinner," you clarify, still hesitant but willing.
"Deal, I will take what I can get," she says. You extend your hand to shake on it and Caitlin meets you half way. Her thumb rubbing the soft skin of your hand before letting it go.
Caitlin returns to the court and the game begins. She has 11 in the first quarter and you can see the work she is putting in. You would like to think you played a little part in her dominant start but don't get your hopes up.
Caitlin has her 30 points in the third and you sit in the fact that you are going to be scheduling dinner with the all-star.
The game ends with the Fever win. You don't wait around at the end of the game due to both your hunger and Carson's. Caitlin looks everywhere for the two of you but never finds you - she would be lying if she said she wasn't disappointed.
It is later that evening when Caitlin hears her phone go off.
[Unknown number: Looks like I owe you dinner]
[Clarky: Looks like you do]
[Clarky: What did you have in mind?]
[Carson's Mom: Do you have plans tomorrow?]
[Clarky: I'm all yours]
You send a time and address. When that time rolls around Caitlin is knocking on your door.
She had actually arrived about 15 minutes ago but sat in her car when she realized she would be having dinner at your house. Part of her was glad that you had chosen a private place to have dinner, so private in fact that the typical wave of anxiousness that she felt about leaked media went flying out the window. But the other part of her was nervous, she hasn't dated anyone since her rookie year.
Once the door opens, Caitlin is met with what at first glance seems like no one.
"Clarky!" Carson yells as he immediately hugs her legs.
"Hi," she says with a little laugh and rubs his back.
"You got me flowers???" He says with pure joy. Caitlin looks at the flowers in her hands and nods. As much as she was hoping you would be answering the door, her heart couldn't help but swell at seeing the excitement on Carson's face.
"I did," she says and she hands him the flowers. Carson runs back to what she imagines to be the kitchen yelling 'mommy' several times. Caitlin closes the door and follows.
When Caitlin sees you in the kitchen, she feels like she could fall in love with you.
"Caitlin!" You say with just as much excitement as Carson did when he answered the door.
Yes, Caitlin is indeed falling in love with you.
"Mommy, Clarky got me flowers." Carson says, showing her the bouquet.
"Wow, those are beautiful. I wish someone got me flowers like that," you say. Caitlin holds back her comment of how she chose this specific bouquet because when she saw it, it reminded her of your smile and the joy it brings her.
"Don't worry Mommy, we can share," Carson says as he hands you the bouquet.
"Thank you baby," you say and them in a vase with water.
Caitlin looks around and by the looks of it, there hasn't been much cooking yet.
"So, Caitlin, have you ever made pasta before?" You ask, setting the the vase down on the table.
"I have not, but I have a feeling I am going to tonight," she says playfully.
"You would be correct," you say and hand her an apron.
The three of you spend the night making pasta and enjoying each others company. You show Caitlin how homemade pasta isn't too hard to make and Carson shows her how good he is a kneading the dough. You through a sauce together as Caitlin and Carson watch over the pasta and set the table. Dinner itself was delicious and the three of you sat around the table laughing and talking about all of Carson's favorite things. When it is time for you to put Carson down, he gives Caitlin a big hug and whispers something in her ear. It causes Cait to smile and whisper something back to him before you swoop him up and take him away.
As you are tucking him in, you ask him what he said to Caitlin.
"I told her I wish we could do this forever," Carson days with a tired smile. "I like having Clarky around, she is funny." Carson then rolls over and your rub his back as she drifts to sleep.
As you sit there rubbing Carson's back, you can't help but think about what it would be like if this was the normal. It has been so long since you have done life with someone other than Carson and you were terrified of changing that. Even in your fear, Caitlin has showed you no reason not to trust her but then again so did Carson's dad.
You head back to the kitchen to see Caitlin drying dishes.
"You didn't have to do that," you say taking a stack of plates and putting them away.
"It's a rule of thumb, one person cooks while the other cleans," she says lightly.
"But we all cooked," you say and she shrugs.
A comfortable silence falls between the two of you. Once the dishes are dried and put away, you grab two wine glasses and grab a bottle.
"Care to join me on the porch?" You ask her and she nods with a smile.
"I would love nothing more," she says following you.
The two of you are sitting on the porch siping wine, looking out at the quiet neighborhood you live in.
"I really enjoyed this not date," Caitlin says which earns her a laugh from you.
"I also really enjoyed this not date," you say. The two of you are sitting side by side on your porch swing. Caitlins arm is slightly touching yours but stays at a respectable distance. A comfortable silence sets in again as Caitlin begins to slowly swing the two of you. You lean into her a little which encourages her to bring her arm up, wrapping it around your shoulder as you lean into her more. It's comfortable.
"You scare me," you say breaking the silence.
Caitlin doesn't say anything, but she begins to brush her thumb along your arm.
"Not necessarily you but the idea of you scares me," you say. "Carson's dad left me when he graduated and I was going into my senior year of college. No warning, no explanation, just decided that one day he was done. It was right after I had found out I was pregnant with Carson."
Caitlin squeezes your arm but remains silent, listening to every word you say.
"I decided not to tell him about the pregnancy because I couldn't stand the thought of him only staying because there was a baby involved. He made it clear he was done with me. My parents told me I needed to tell him since he was the father but when I finally mustered up the courage to tell him, he was already dating somebody else. After having Carson, my life changed for the better. I tried dating a little when Carson was a toddler but being a single mom was a big turn off for a lot of people. It was then that I realized I didn't want or need anyone else because it would be me and Carson against the world."
"I have gotten so comfortable with it being just the two of us. I also know how much people cycling in and out of a child's life can affect them. Carson is such a sweet boy that I would do anything and everything I can to make sure he has what he needs. He pushes me to be a better mom and better person. He understands so much and just enjoys life. He is my reason."
"You scare me because Carson is getting comfortable with you. He's getting comfortable with you and it terrifies me because I don't want there to be a day when I have to tell him we won't ever see you again. It is early enough now that he would remember you but not be too attached, but if I do open up our lives and you enter, I am terrified of how that would affect the two of us. Carson has never experienced heartbreak and he shouldn't have to until he is old enough to date for himself."
You shift to look at Caitlin.
"You scare me because of how amazing you are with him. You don't treat him like he's a child but bring lift him up. You scare me because every time I see you with my son I think about what life would be like if that was the normal. You scare me because I have never felt the way I feel with you, you scare me Caitlin."
You are looking in her eyes and she can see the sorrow and love and conflict all swirling in your eyes. Her arm comes down to hold your hand. You look down at her intertwining her fingers with yours.
"Your fears are real and understandable. You aren't just thinking about you and I completely respect that. I am not here to storm into you life and then leave it once I am satisfied. You are not someone I want to be casual with. I don't want a fling. You are someone I want to pursue."
"I know we are just getting to know each other and we are in a fragile state because you are right, you are not just thinking about yourself, you are also thinking about the best little man this world has ever seen. But even in the little time that we have had with one another, I know you are worth pursuing. I don't plan on going anywhere and we will take this as slow as you want."
"Slow is good," you say looking at her in awe. The fear and anxiety you were feeling have has been suffocated by Caitlin's understanding.
"I can do slow," she says.
You look in her eyes and decide to be bold. You remove her hand from yours, taking both of your wine glasses and putting them on the ground. When your eyes meet hers again you bring your hand up to cup her cheek. Leaning in, you kiss her.
Caitlin's hand finds your neck, pulling you in closer to her as your hand falls to her chest. You pull away from her, just long enough to take in her beauty before kissing her again with a little more heat than before. She pulls you onto her, your legs straddling her on the swing.
Her hands massaging your waist as yours find their way to her hair. Cait's fingers slip under the bottom of your shirt touching your warm skin. You pull apart from her, leaving you both breathing heavy.
"I'm sorry," you say as your begin to move off of her but her grip on your hips tightens. She shakes her head no as she pulls you in for a hug. She wraps arms around you as you lean into her. The two of you stay pressed against each other.
When you finally part it is past midnight.
"I had a really great time tonight," Caitlin says.
"I did too," you say with a light smile.
Caitlin pulls you in for a hug and you let her. She kisses the top of your head.
"I know this was a not-date but I was hoping I could take you out on a real date, when you are ready of course," she says and you let out a little laugh.
"I would like that very much," you say and Caitlin smiles. She wants to kiss you again and you can see that in her eyes. You pat her chest and part from her, taking a few steps back. She feels empty without you in her arms.
"Slow Clarky," you say, now standing in the doorframe.
"Llke I said, I can do slow," she says. "But that doesn't mean it won't be hard."
You blow her a kiss and watch her leave. You close your front door and smile.
AN: I really enjoyed writing this. I hope you enjoy reading it! Let me know what you think. And as always, thank your for your love and support šŸ¤
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eternal-moss Ā· 11 months ago
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Christ, the whole Wilbur situation is so fucked. Already the things that are coming out of the woodworks so quickly are so sad.
tw for abuse and misogyny. If you arenā€™t aware of this yet, Wilbur Soot has been revealed as a prolific abuser
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My heart breaks for all the people heā€™s harmed. I think Shelby was really intelligent in the way that sheā€™s brought this to attention, without naming him. This meant that even though some people denied it or lashed back at her, the repercussions were minimised.
Wilbur responding proved it was him she was talking about, although the details she provided made it so patently clear it was him from the start, it made it so that he had to admit he was the one who had been committing essentially serial abuse on young women by the nature of him responding to the description of the unnamed abuser, although he didnā€™t mention that it was *multiple women* in his absolutely pathetic excuse of an ā€˜apologyā€™.
Iā€™ve been thinking about this deeply from pretty much directly the moment after Shubble revealed it really. Iā€™m not going to pretend that Iā€™ve ever watched any of Shubbleā€™s stuff, and Iā€™ve not watched streamers for a couple of years now, but the courage she had to do this is fucking immense. Wilbur is very well off financially with a massive and loyal fanbase, the influence he has is very large and not to be underestimated. His ā€˜apologyā€™ reeks of PR pressure, although it fails to meet the mark on all levels of even a basic apology (which is not even the bare minimum in this situation) and omits some very important details.
Itā€™s so sad that abuse and grooming is so common amongst streamers/YouTubers, but the response to this time (from the community) being genuine support instead of victim blaming does make me feel hopeful. Wilburā€™s condescension of women and younger ccs is absolutely disgusting. This recontextualises so many moments when heā€™s been dismissive of and made jokes at womenā€™s expense. What heā€™s done is abuse and itā€™s misogyny. Heā€™s picked on people he knows are less able to fight back from all parameters. Misogyny is massive in the gaming scene, and heā€™s relied on all these women (it really is a lot at this rate, even an ex-trumpeter from Lovejoy) staying silent out of fear.
Shubble saying keeping their silence protected him more than it protected her is very true, and this will absolutely wreck his reputation. Rather, heā€™s fucked it up himself, and there really is no one else to blame in this situation. The people who knew about it and were subject to this were typically smaller, younger or female streamers. Itā€™s disgusting that he had relied on their silence for so long.
This is a bit of a mess, but ngl so am I. Itā€™s been eating at me for as long as itā€™s been going on, I found out almost immediately. I was quite a big Wilbur fan for a damn long time, since his early days of streaming (when skyblock randomiser was made etc). I was emotionally invested in his original music and looked up to him a lot.
The worst thing I think is that I resonated with his online interactions with Tommy (which makes me feel vile), and his adoration of Wilbur, always calling him ā€˜like a big brotherā€™, and it fondly reminded me of me and my younger sibling. Except Wilbur would sometimes do some unexpectedly cruel things. Like stomping on Tommyā€™s hand and causing it to bleed. That alarmed me at the time, also when he revealed that he was relying on Tommy to talk him out of suicide, which really made me concerned about how healthy their relationship was. The worst thing is, this didnā€™t surprise me that much at all when it was revealed. Shelbyā€™s descriptions could fit no other person, and it made sense and lined up with his past behaviour, but that doesnā€™t make it any less wholly awful and horrific.
I wasnā€™t going to talk about it on this blog, but I just feel angry. Angry for all these people heā€™s hurt. Angry that heā€™ll still be living comfortably off of his fanbase for years to come, young people who trusted and idolised him, the vast majority young girls themselves. Angry for Shubble, angry for Niki, angry for the womenā€™s names we donā€™t know yet, angry for those who had been intimidated into silence. Angry for those who had been abused and brutalised by him. The main thing thatā€™s coming up again and again is the biting, the bruising, the physical abuse, the way they were scared into saying anything, left traumatised by the way theyā€™d been treated. As if that could be brushed off in any way by some disgustingly shallow and self-centred attempt at self preservation of his reputation. Fuck off.
Like Aimsey said, this isnā€™t some light cancellation from Twitter, these are reprehensible serial misogynistic crimes, and itā€™s only been days since the initial reveal and hours since his response and the influx of victims speaking up. My heart breaks to know how much more is going to be unearthed.
So yeah this is basically it, I treat this blog mainly as an archive for fan creations of things I like, but also as a collection of my thoughts. I have been unable to stop thinking about this, and I know that Iā€™ve barely talked about mcyt on here, but I was heavily into dsmp and streamers for a long time. Shubble is insanely bloody brave for doing this, I wish them all the best (and the other victims) in recovering from his behaviour, as well as applauding her for the sheer fucking bravery to make the decision to speak up.
***Iā€™ve seen some people saying Shubble uses they/them pronouns, but most people Iā€™ve seen refer to her with she/her. If I find out she doesnā€™t use she/her Iā€™ll change this post < Shelby uses she/they
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Kant, a truly misunderstood protagonist (THK EP 1-6)
Welcome to Firstā€™s 101 class in microexpressions to understand the journey of how Kant by Ep 6 has fallen deep into the clutches of our baby assassin (because it seems some people out there skipped the entirety of KBā€™s scenes and missed out K having a brother and was being blackmailed by Captain Christ ā€“ like how? This scene was pretty much in the first Ā½ hour of the show)
EP 1:
We can all at least agree Kant is super attracted to the cute dude in red, yeah? ā€“ Instant attraction:
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And immediately falling in bed with a beautiful man like Bison ā€“ the whole red room scene (which I am not putting up for reference in this post because it will just chew up my photo limits ā€“ but go rewatch the scene to learn what First and Khaotung are portraying): pure lust & desire (no emotional attachment involved).
However, by the next day, where Kant still has no idea who Bison was apart from his hottest (to date) ONS ā€“ he was reminiscing and smiling like a fool about said encounter (and here, let me outline it for you what First was trying to portray ā€“ Kant having a crush on his ONS), daydreaming of what he just experienced:
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When he finally met up with Bison again in the diner, which he engineered ā€“ thatā€™s when his mission started. We can assume Captain Christ (CC) painted the picture Bison as a hard-ass killer. But how to reconcile this with sweet, baby face Bison?
There is certainly an element of deception to Kant ā€“ it was easy for him to ā€œfakeā€ some of his attraction (if you want to call it that) because at baseline, there is already an instant connection. Bonus if he can score some kisses and make out session with this beautiful assassin. This is a guy who has tangled with drug lords before and some danger excites him, yes?
So, the rest of Ep 1 was Kant being flirty and suave (and yes, with some trickery to those flirtatious manner). And you can tell, because Kant was putting all these big, exaggerated moves (like wanting to date and become boyfriends with Bison straight away) when he normally would have started cautiously:
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However, he mixed this deceit with sincere tidbits about himself like the conversation by the lake when he shared the meaning of his name and his aquaphobia:
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But by end of ep 1, Kant was starting to get slightly desperate. Bison is happy to flirt but not commit. Fadel is also in his way. Bison, being a good younger brother wants Fadel approval, and I suspect, a way for Kant to prove he is serious about pursuing him. Bison is also diabolical in that way because he is a cheeky, not-so-naĆÆve baby boy (as proven by his sharp observant of Babe and James) ā€“ the only blinkers he appears to have been when Kant is involved (or Fadel) ā€“ the 2 persons he cares for the most.
And so, he enlists his trusty bestie (who else would he have called? Kant circle of friend starts and ends with Style. Otherwise, he only has Captain Devil breathing down his neck and his baby brother who he wants to protect from the big, bad world). Yes, it was misleading of Kant not to tell Style the truth immediately. However, Style is 100% chaos and unhinged at best (and to be honest, I donā€™t think he would have said no if Kant explained his situation).
** Style comes off as charming, but he is also annoying, has stalk-ish tendency, does not know personal boundaries and outside of Thai BL world, we would have called what he did to Fadel (in the locker room at the gym) sexual assault (because you donā€™t kiss someone without consent and get away with it as easily in real world).
EP 2:
The desperation is now in full force. Kant wants to get this mission underway quickly. He turns up the volume of his charm and repeatedly try to sneak in kisses or showing his big boba eyes to Bison in the hope of melting Bisonā€™s heart. Bison does clock on desperation ā€“ but he is happy to continue to with the charade. After all, having a gorgeous, hunky tattooist hitting on you will be good for the ego (and soul)?
Kant and Bisonā€™s scene at the tattooist place? ā€“ when Bison was showing his ā€œcat underneath the Northern Lightsā€ design, followed by Kant trying to feel up Bisonā€™s thigh - now that was Kant being sleazy and Bison incredulously laugh, and smile showed he is very much aware of it but still attracted to him.
Despite the sleaziness though, there is still hint of Kant being attracted towards Bison too (see exhibit below) - that lips biting and quick top to bottom survey by Kant šŸ‘Œ
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And while it was not shown, we can assume Kant is being hounded by CC about his mission. Thus, to get his mission further, we have Tawan and the whole ā€œmake Kant jealous and showing his possessive sideā€ towards Bison. However, Bison does not seem that impressed with it. Amused, yes ā€“ he knows he can kill these 2 buffoons with his pinky if he wants to.
By now, Kant is starting to get annoyed. Bison is still playing hard to get. The whole milkshake scene ā€“ when Bison challenged him to prove his worth and join him in the dance-off challenge. Here, again let me point out to you the micro-expressions First were making ā€“ fond smile by how cute Bison was acting, followed by the minute change to his eyebrows and clenched jaw to express how irritated he was but quickly smoothing it out to hide his annoyance (link)
Now, the whole dance sequence is a masterpiece. Yes, itā€™s campy and an ode to Pulp Fiction but it also showed the state of Bisonā€™s mind and if you look closely, you can see both boys relaxing and giving in to the silliness of the dance as it progresses until they become a unit and converge at the end ā€“ where Kant gives a genuine smile to Bison:
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It was also the first time Bison finally gave in and gives those sweet pecks to Kant when the latter asked for it (I truly think it was the first time Bison saw the person underneath the suaveness, and he liked what he saw ā€“ someone who is happy to indulge in a bit of silliness and fun):
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EP 3:
Just as Kant was relaxing somewhat, we have CC coming down like the devil he is. Kant expression at the pool ā€“ thatā€™s a man who is fed-up and frustrated.
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Because of his conversation with CC, he had to accelerate his timeline. This is when he started to make huge mistakes in the name of his mission.
Firstly, by hastily agreeing he is into BDSM. Oh, I have no doubt he could have learn to enjoy it in the right circumstances and if Bison had the opportunity to show it in a safe and controlled environment. At the very least, we could agree these 2 were horny of each other - as shown by the beautiful gifs: link here. And remember, this was after Bison put on the nipple clamps on Kant.
Alas, with Fadel cockblocking them, all that was left was lingering pain + bad experience for Kant. So, it was not surprising he looked wary and hesitant when Bison brought up the BDSM expect to their wager at Kantā€™s friend bar. Nevertheless, Kant pressed on because he needed to finish this mission (and preferably before his feelings get even more tangled up).
Either way, Kant is starting to feel fonder of Bison. Mission is still on the front, but cute scenes such as him helping at the diner is a reminder to the viewers that Kant does have some feelings for him (even as he used it to get ahead of his mission):
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The whole bar scene followed by the sequence in Bisonā€™s room was designed to provoke uneasiness. Here are 2 men who are not on the same wavelength in terms of their sexual desire. I hope people can at least read how uncomfortable and discompose Kant was even as he allowed Bison (in his drunken state) to tie him up.
EP 4:
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The cracks are starting to show. Kant taking pictures of the BDSM gears and Northern Lights photos are unnecessary for the mission ā€“ and after revisiting the episode, I think he took those pictures as part of him learning more about Bison (just as he jots down all of Bison likes/dislikes when they officially start dating in Ep 5). Similarly, him caressing the trophy he won with Bison? ā€“ that is Kant subconsciously showing his fondness (and perhaps wistfulness) to simpler time:
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Anyway, this episode was when Kant and Bison starts to communicate slightly better ā€“ progress! I mean, itā€™s more about Babe but you know ā€“ baby steps. All Bison wanted was for Kant to open to him (one of the main reasons why Bison has hesitated before because he could sense that Kant has never fully made himself feel vulnerable).
So, Babe and ā€œbeing bullied in schoolā€ is the catalyst for KantBison to truly form a connection ā€“ they both value family and brotherhood above all others, and in this, we can see Bison softening towards Kant (especially as Kant opens up about his past as a car thief, admitting he is not proud of it but he does want he must to feed Babe). Similarly, Kant is starting to see Bison as more than just a beautiful, merciless killer. This man helped him without hesitation, be his Robin to his terrible Batman. He sees someone with some moral compass ā€“ Bison powerful statement to the paedophile about ā€œgroomingā€ must hit a nerve in the boys (because I hope we can agree here that both Madam Lilly and CC ā€˜groomedā€™ our boys). Bison since he was a child and Kant, barely out of high school, not knowing about laws and scared out of his wits, agreeing to do the police dirty works to make sure Babe is not put in the foster system (which really hits me ā€“ HOW LONG HAS CAPTAIN DEVIL BEEN USING KANT AS HIS LACKEY???)
By the end of this episode, Kant is oscillating between relief, joy and guilt depending on what is the most pressing thing in his mind at that time ā€“ Ā CC or his blossoming affection towards Bison. Sadly, no matter how much he likes Bison, Babe will always come first ā€“ all good parents put their children first and Kant who has parent-fied his younger brother for god knows how many years, will do the same.
The scenes when Bison gave his heart (and HeartBurger pin) at the bar followed by Kantā€™s showering scene highlights this beautifully:
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(such a contrast when Bison is the one initiating the sweet pecks - Kant looking pleasingly surprised)
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Guilt in his face
EP 5:
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Kant is now slowly falling in love with Bison. All the little things he jots in his phone about Bisonā€™s quirks, likes and dislikes show this. He didnā€™t have to show this off to Bison for his mission. Same with the date at the Arcade as it doesnā€™t really add on anything else towards his mission. He did all of these because he wants to learn about his boyfriend.
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However, the introduction of James does highlight several things about Kant.
It underscores Kantā€™s worry about Bison (and how much he still does not know about Bisonā€™s core values even as he is slowly getting to know him). We know Bison wonā€™t kill the innocents (even if those people are jerks like James) but Kant doesnā€™t know this. Even then, he is still concerned for both James AND Bison. He doesnā€™t want Bison to hurt anyone not just because of altruistic reasons but he has started to care for Bison (and his soul).
Kant reaching out to Fadel and getting Style to persuade the latter to call Bison proves this. Even more when he subconsciously called Fadel ā€œbrother-in-law.ā€ Kant said it in a rush as he quickly ran out to catch up with Bison ā€“ which means he really didnā€™t have the time to ā€œplanā€ this encounter.
However, Bison and James confrontation made Kant determine to finish his mission off. Itā€™s a reminder that dating Bison comes with risk. The double-date may have doubled (heh, a pun!) as a cover for him to put his shoddily espionage plan in motion ā€“ yet we could see Kant really enjoying himself when he was singing with Bison. Even those sweet pecks and pinkie gestures were genuine (or as much as it could be given the circumstances):
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But by the end of the episode, when Bison worshipped Kantā€™s body (and I must say, what a wonderful scene to see Bison choosing to yield when he would have previously challenged Kant), thatā€™s when viewers could see it. Kantā€™s soft tone as he gently caressed Bisonā€™s jaw. And that tortured look as he closed his eyes even as Bison trustfully snuggled by him ā€“ yup, this is man who is regretting and tormented by his choice. I think we can safely say, he has truly fallen in love with Bison.
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EP 6:
Kant is now way too deep and stuck in a hard place. He tries to get out of his deal with Captain Devil without success. His silence speaks volume when Captain Devil stated Kant has fallen in love with Bison.
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His discussion with Style further emphasized this point ā€“ Style asked whether Kant could give up Bison. But he also pointed out Kant is toast if Bison finds out the truth. Ā 
And so, if he must give up the boy he has fallen in love to make sure Babe is not left to fend alone in this world ā€“ he planned the most elaborate, romantic date of what he wished he could have with the man who gave his heart to him in the initial place he saw said man when everything was clearer without any lies between them.
Kant broke countless of rules (as listed by Bison including trespassing, breaking & entering, destroying property and thieving) to have one special, magical night of what he envisioned to have with future Bison if things were simpler.
It is a testament to First (and Khaotung) as amazing actors that we can feel the wistfulness and bittersweet feelings from Kant while Bison shows a hopeful beginning to what he thinks is a joint future together. It was beautiful and heartbreaking at the same time:
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Link for above screenshot here
After the ill-fated mission where we sees Bison saving Babe, Kant has truly fallen for Bison. Even as he tries to convince Style to move on, he struggles to do it himself. Style intuitively perceives this when Kant joined him to find their respective lovers at the burger joint ā€“ hence, why he suggested that Kant adopts Bisonā€™s black cat.
So, by the end of the episode 6 ā€“ we see Kant pining away while drowning his sorrow and regrets by drinking at his friendā€™s bar. The hope and guilt in his eyes when Bison called out to him is palpable:
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If you reach the end of this long post - I salute you. Because this was just me rambling on to make sure I did not misjudged Kant's character (and I didn't!) - First has done a wonderful job portraying himself as a single parent who sacrifices his needs and desire to make sure his younger sibling has every comfort and leisure he can give - even if it means he plays dirty and make deal with the devil.
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felassan Ā· 7 months ago
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Dragon Age: The Veilguard info compilation Post 2
[Link to Part 1]
Post is under a cut due to length.
There is a lot of information coming out right now about DA:TV from many different sources. This post is just an effort to compile as much as I can in one place, in case that helps anyone. Sources for where the information came from have been included. Where I am linking to a social media userā€™s post, the person is either a dev, a Dragon Age community council member or other person who has had a sneak peek at and played the game. nb, this post is more of a ā€˜info that came out in snippets from articles and social media postsā€™ collection rather than a 'regurgitating the information on the official website or writing out what happened in the trailer/gameplay revealā€™ post. The post is broken down into headings on various topics. A few points are repeated under multiple headings where relevant. Where I am speculating without a source, I have clearly demarcated this.
Character Creation
It is the best CC BioWare has ever made in a game [source]
The faction we choose will determine who we as protagonist Rook were before they were recruited to put a stop to Solas [source]
Certain conversation options are only available to Rooks of certain factions. For example, Grey Wardens get conversation options that are focused on the Blight, as they know more about it from other people. It also impacts how people talk to Rook (reactivity from characters and then faction reactivity from plots relating to that faction) [source]
Faction choice affects a lot of things [source]
There aren't unique missions (I think this means like the playable Origins in DA:O), but faction choice does set the course for Rook for the rest of the game [source]
"body customization and morphing. From more muscular characters, to curvier builds, and just about any shape you want to give your character, there are all sorts of toggles to adjust so you can give them any figure you want". "There's even features that let you choose proportions, so you can alter their height, give them wider shoulders, and much more" [source]
There are makeup options [source]
There are tattoo options [source]
The hair uses a "Strand system" to "make them behave and move in a believable way for the different races" [source]. (Fel note/speculation: I think "race" here refers to irl, as opposed to like human vs qunari or something, as the language they are using for human/elf/dwarf/qunari is "Lineage")
There are 4 voices to choose from for Rook: two feminine and tow masculine (one American, one British for each) [source]
In CC, 'Lineage' is the game's parlance for race i.e. human, elf, dwarf, qunari [source]
We can pick Rook's name, but the dialogue calls them 'Rook' [source]
In CC we can "make a few key decisions that will impact how The Veilguard begins" [source]
"I really do think its our most feature-ful character creator ever." [source]
Story and lore
In the opening segment of the game (see more on the story's opening moments here), we're too late and Solas' ritual worsens, so Rook and the companions go to stop him. When travelling to the next location (Arlathan Forest) in the chase after Solas, the characters travel through an eluvian [source]. The Forest is where his ritual is taking place. Varric then asks the player if he should confront Solas, and players then work to take down the surrounding statues in order to stop the ritual. "I wonā€™t spoil what happens next, but Iā€™ll just say the player and Veilguard have a tall task ahead of them if they want to save Thedas." [source]
Four of the 6 faction options for Rook (Mourn Watch, Lords of Fortune, Veil Jumpers, Shadow Dragons) are "rooted in northern Thedas" [source]
Certain conversation options are only available to Rooks of certain factions. For example, Grey Wardens get conversation options that are focused on the Blight, as they know more about it from other people. It also impacts how people talk to Rook (reactivity from characters and then faction reactivity from plots relating to that faction) [source]
There aren't unique missions (I think this means like the playable Origins in DA:O), but faction choice does set the course for Rook for the rest of the game [source]
A line of dialogue Dorian had at the Winter Palace in DA:I about what Tevinter is like informed the devs' approach to bringing to life the setting of Tevinter: ""There's a line in Dragon Age Inquisition that we always like to call back to," Epler says. "Dorian goes to the Winter Palace, which, up to that point, is probably the most impressive thing you've seen [as the Inquisitor], and [he] says something like, 'Oh, this is cute.' And we had to ask, what does it look like? What is Tevinter if Dorian sees that [the Winter Palace] and thinks that?"" [source]
The fact that Minrathous used to be the land of the elves was factored into the location's design. John Epler: "You can see the architecture has changed. It's become a lot more elven focused. And something that we've kind of hinted at, but we've never really shown explicitly, is the idea that Tevinter is built on the bones of the ancient elven empire. Tevinter itself, Minrathous itself, all the magic you see, that's just a pale imitation of what the elves are capable of. So you'll start to see as you get deeper into the game, the elves, for example, worked Lyrium into their building materials. Tevinter can't quite figure out how to do that. So instead, you'll see more gold and gems, kind of imitating it, but not ever quite approaching what the elves are able to do, and really creating that continuity of the space. Obviously, Solas isn't too thrilled that this world is the way it is, because he lived in a time of miracles and magic, and even the most magical place in Thedas isn't magic like the elven people used to be able to do" [source]
At the end of the opening portion of the game there is a "jaw-dropping title card cliffhanger" [source]
On the opening sequence: ""One of the things we wanted to do with this game is make the prolog feel like the final mission of a different game," John Epler says. "We really needed to get the stakes, the spectacle, right off the bat. Obviously, players who had been waiting to confront Solas have been waiting for just this moment."" [source]
Each companion has their own storyline that runs parallel to the main story [source]
You cannot succeed without the companions. Each of them has a reason why they need to be part of your party, why they need to help you stop the end of the world [source]
All 7 companions are recruited in the game's first act [source]
The firey demon looking guys shown near the start of the Gameplay Reveal are Rage Demons. Demons in general got a revamp in this game "to more closely align their look", this can be seen with the shades and the Pride demons as well. "theyā€™re creatures of emotion so they have a spectral nervous system look" [source]
The Pride demon the group fight at the Solas face-off in the Gameplay Reveal video "was more a direct tie to Solas than anything else, but it didn't escape us how much it echoed the beginning of DA:I". they wanted to show the stakes and the scale of Solas' power [source]
Characters,Ā companions, romance
Harding was one of the earliest characters that the devs wanted to bring into DA4, because she was such a fan favorite. She is this game's 'traditional returning' character [source]
Each character's romance flavor or style is different. They don't want every character for the romance to feel the same. They want everyone to have their own flavor that's appropriate to them as a character [source] [two]
"We found as we were building a story, more than ever before, it's a story about the people around you; a story about building this team, and working with them." [source]
Each companion has their own storyline that runs parallel to the main story [source]
You cannot succeed without the companions. Each of them has a reason why they need to be part of your party, why they need to help you stop the end of the world [source]
All companions are pansexual (specifically pansexual, not playersexual) [source]
Their pansexuality may come through in what we learn about their backstories [source]
No companion romance is race-locked [source]
Companions reference their past experiences or partners, and they reference who they'll become romantic with. [source]
If you don't romance a character, they may find a different partner for themselves. This could be within the companion roster itself or outside of it in the broader world. [source] For example, if the player does not romance Harding, she may get together with Taash [source]
The game is rated M [source]
The game contains nudity [source]
We can start flirting with the companions pretty early [source]
All 7 companions are recruited in the game's first act [source]
It is not until later parts of the game that you really commit to romance and things get pretty spicy [source]
The nudity, spicy things etc is more towards the end of the game [source]
The devs want the companions to be relatable and fully realized. So things get spicy, but in a more relatable way for people than e.g. some of the more shocking and comical scenes of this nature in Baldur's Gate 3 [source]
How sexually explicit the scenes are varies between characters. Some are more spicy than others. They have diverse personalities like in real life. "Some of them are more physical, more aggressive, and some of them are more... we have a gentleman necromancer [Emmrich], for instance, that is more intimate and sensual." [source] "some characters may be a little more steamy while some characters maybe a little bit more innocent" [source]
The romance and relationship system is more fleshed out than in previous BioWare games. A character's romance will be better woven into their personal story arc and into their involvement in the core questline of the game [source]
"BioWare has also worked to ensure that getting to know your characters as friends feels just as satisfying - and that just because you're not banging your buddy, their (platonic) relationship with you will still continue." ""One of the things we tried to do with The Veilguard is it's not just romantic relationship building," Epler continued. "You need to get to know a person before you can really build that kind of relationship with them, and if you choose not to build a [romantic] relationship, we never want to feel like you're being cut off. There's no 'okay, well, their arc isn't progressing, I'm done'." We want to make sure the non-romantic relationships are deep as well, with friendships not just for companions and yourself, but also between companions across the party."" [source]
GDL reprises his role as Solas [source]
Gameplay, presentation, performance etc
The game has a photo mode [source]
Combat is fast-paced [source]
If you pause the game using the ability wheel you can scan enemies to learn more information about them [source]
Each of the 3 main classes is distinguished by how it generates and spends energy for abilities [source]
Each of the 3 subclasses for each 3 main class promise to offer some meaningful distinctions from each other [source]
for this, rogues have momentum. You build momentum by attacking, by dodging, by parrying, and you lose it by being hit, so there's really a focus with rogues on avoiding damage, avoiding attacks. They build momentum quickly, but they lose it quickly. Warriors have rage, which they build a little bit more slowly, but they don't lose [source]
Attacks can be cancelled [source]
Regarding enemy weaknesses, some of these are elemental. In other cases their defenses are more vulnerable to specific types of abilities [source]
Combat seems to be a matter of managing our abilities as best we can to whittle down enemy defenses and take advantage of their weaknesses [source]
Over the course of the game we get access to three abilities per companion as well as an additional two abilities we can slot, and an additional ability that coms off of items that the devs will not talk about for now [source]
Fully offline single player, no EA account linking, no micro-transactions [source]
The game uses advanced rendering tech in Frostbite, nice subsurface scattering, high quality meshes, while having a striking pseudo-painterly look [source]
There are blood spatters in the game [source]
Production values on the game have gone through the roof. It looks like a big improvement on what came before [source]
On the music: "lots of foreboding tunes mixed with epic flair" [source]
Good voice acting, great facial animations, good hair tech, busy-looking environments and worlds [source]
It's not open world. "There are open areas you can explore around in, but it's mostly structured/mission based, sort of like Mass Effect." [source]
There are difficulty options [source]
They will talk about PC spec stuff at a later time [source]
There is probably an option to see damage numbers [source]
There are many reasons why the game is M-rated [source]
There are lots of abilities, with 3 swapped in on the wheel at any one time [source]
There are a bunch of accessibility options and they will talk about these soon [source]
The ability wheel gives you flexibility to enhance your playstyle. If you don't want to use it at all, you don't have to and that's no issue as shortcuts are available [source]
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puppetwoman17 Ā· 22 days ago
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I need CC and Marilyn to be absolute pieces of shit before they had their kids. Maybe it stopped after high-school, college. Maybe even right before Marilyn got pregnant. Doesnā€™t matter. I need them to be the classic bullies in those early 2000s romcoms. You know, the cheerleading captain and the star quarterback? Like that.
And then after Mary and Billy are born their personalities do a complete 180, which throws everyone off. Cause now theyā€™re the nicest people on the block.
Some of their archeology buddies, who used to go to school with them, are so confused when Marilyn says that theyā€™re bringing the kids on their trips. Highschool chearleader Marilyn HATED kids. She hated babies even more. Called them slobs and cringed whenever they cried or tried to touch her. But with her babies, she just turns to mush, even baby talking! Marilyn HATES baby talking!
And C.C.ā€™s even worse! He was overconfident thanks to his huge build, and, like his wife, didnā€™t seem like the type to be interested in having a traditional family.
But the moment the couple started acting different, the moment they made their announcement, their friends knew something was off. Theyā€™d changed! Now, C.C.ā€™s doing a third round in the toy isle looking for stuffed animals and little toy trucks because heā€™s convinced that his kids are gonna love toy vehicles like him.
Which is why no oneā€™s surprised about them sending Christmas cards with the familyā€™s faces around to friends and acquaintances.
Which is why itā€™s confusing for them when, after nine years of cards, the tenth set doesnā€™t go out.
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